#caritodorito rambles

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I can't personally admit I'm in Adventure Time's fandom bc there has been times I didn't watch it (as a child it was my main hyperfixation) but you know-

Seeing Simon after the ending (literally I was sobbing more for him than for any other character) it made me BAWL

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I hate the fact that there is a lot of classist arguments defending Keiko

I hate the fact that I don't know what Castillo can bring us to our already damaged country considering he thinks he can do everything

I hate the fact I have to be in quarantine 24/7 because of covid and couldn't find a job

I hate seeing my dad at the ICU working all day every day

I hate the fact that online classes demand me little hours of sleep and can't even shower every day because I can lose time

I hate the fact I can't see my friends

I hate the fact that I'm wasting my life and idk if I'll be able to become an artist

I hate that I can't fucking draw a thing for myself rather than doing dull homework for an art school that I now dislike

I hate how I can't have a fucking vaccine yet

I hate many privileged people who would use everything to hurt minorities

I hate being called slurs and being mocked 24/7

I hate many things, I can't help it

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Clone high is now one of my main sources of serotonin in my daily day life

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My common sense tells me to watch Ghostbusters Afterlife until June

But my mental health says the opposite and wants to watch it now

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y'all my district has the highest rates of corona infection, dad got the virus (ICU doctor) diphteria appears and you know what's even better?

my congress kicked out my fucking president and replaced him with a man that's even more fucking dum than Trump fuck yeah

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You know, I never liked school, not because I think I should del nothing and waste my life in party and drugs. But considering how it fucked me up mentally and drained my brain, body plus some trauma into the mix

Whoever has the chance to be self taught because they want to and they're not pushed or forced to be somewhere that makes you feel anxious then consider yourself lucky

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mERINO CAN QUIT TOMORROW PLS DO

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*me living with close relatives being trump-suporters, anti choice, conservative, hurtful, etc, and hoping trump wins* :(

*me seeing Arcade Fire playing new song from the new album, Win, Regine, Eddie singing and supporting Biden/going to vote* :)

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To be honest y'all

I'm somehow kinda glad GBA was again posposed? Of course, my bff and I are wishing to see this film already but the situation is pretty much awful right now in the world. (Also I'd maybe see it with my dad either because he bet corona, and we hadn't been on a theather in a long while) and we'd dealt with shit and we can't wait until this nightmare called 2020 is over.

Physical and mentally I've been doing bad as so many did in my circle, and I want every fan to have a better, more joyful mindset and energy to watch and enjoy something we love.

Please stay safe <3

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Me, in a better state of mind and more determinated to be alive in 2020: yay

Me, two days after being in online school, having a small cold, being scared to death to fall asleep bc you feel guilty and unproductive: still yay

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Me: *messages my bff bc of pride* HaPPY PRIDE AJDJSJDJSHDSKHDJAK

BFF: OMFG WE'RE IN JUNE!!???

Me: OMFG WE'RE STILL ALIVE!!??

BFF and me:

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July 1.

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"Nothing wrong can happen with some weeks isolated with your family, so relax!"

-Your toxic, boomer relative you're forced to stay with because your country is getting into curfew:

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Honestly if my parents are gonna keep saying that they'll die soon and I must do whag they want just bc to make me feel worse in my depressive episodes then why I'm not fuckinf dead yet

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HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL MY MUTUALS LOVE Y'ALL

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I can't personally understand how tf my art teachers can be so greedy and pissy about our homework saying: "U has to send da humwok on time bc that wut client & others wanttttttt"

But they can't accept they're overloading us with work and work and work more than usual and when there's someone who is struggling with it you don't give second fucking chance bc of your shitty politic

Of course I am more than aware that it's "art priviliged market BS" and we should work hard however we're in middle of 2020, in a class with students that have JOBS, neurodivergent and other mental disorders making them unable to focus on the turd of homework you send. And there's not so much help from your part AT ALL. We can't even change deadlines bc of ALL THE BS

When I changed my career from animation to artschool was because my family used to see it as a fucking joke, failed the course twice because of my depression and other facrs (that gets worse every day) and then moved here afraid to be kicked out.

Miss my best friend and others, miss having real comfort, miss being accepted.

If someone needs to rant about artschool or any shit, be free to do it.