#casper's anons

[softhairedhotch]

blurb request: being in a middle of a case n a secret relationship w aaron, both of you decide to sneak away during a break to just hug n hold hands for comfort <333

awww i love this <3 mentions of missing children. gn!reader. wc: 415ish

Aaron leaves the room and you stay seated with the rest of the team, picking at your food. It's not the best you've had but it'll do. Finally, after enough time has passed, you wipe your hands from the grease and stand up, letting the team know you'll be back in a minute.

You find Aaron outside near the side of the precinct, hands in his pockets. He doesn't notice you immediately, lost in thought, and you take that moment to admire him, the low light of the streetlamp casting a shadow across his face and sharpening his already gorgeous features.

"Hey," you whisper, taking a step toward him and taking his hand in yours. "What are you thinking about?"

"The missing kids," he replies, matter-of-factly. "I just... wish there was a way to help them now. I can't stand waiting around for something to happen."

You hum in agreement, pulling him in for a hug. He wraps his arms around you immediately, sighing as he rests his head against yours. "We'll find them."

"How can you be so sure?"

Pulling back, you cup his face in your hands and look into his beautiful vulnerable eyes. "Because you're on this case, Aaron. And I know you're doing your best; we all are."

"It's not enough. I'm not enough."

You press your lips against his and his body relaxes. "You are, sweetheart. Don't beat yourself up over things you can't control."

"Yeah," he sighs, pressing his forehead against yours and running his hands up and down your back comfortingly. "How are you holding up?"

"About the same as you."

A small smile flickers across his lips. "And you're telling me not to beat myself up over this case?"

You shrug, holding him tighter. "Should take my own advice, hm?"

The two of you stay like that for almost a full minute before he pulls away, clearly not wanting to. "We should get back before the team gets suspicious."

"We should."

Aaron looks into your eyes and sighs. "I wish we could always be like this."

"Me too," you smile, pressing a kiss to his cheek. "How 'bout I stay at yours for a few days when we get back home? To make up for lost time."

"I'd like that."

"Yeah?"

"Yeah," he grins and kisses you with so much love it takes your breath away, before walking off toward the entrance of the precinct. "See you later, Agent."

You huff out a laugh, shaking your head. "See ya."

[2af-afterdark]

Hello dear, you know why i'm here already.

We know for a fact that Casper never got to be intimate with anyone before meeting MC and for that precise reason, I'd like to know if you would you kindly give me some thoughts about Casper and MC's first time ?

Will our sweet Reaper be treated gently or will he be manhandled (gender neutral) roughly as payback for his sassy attitude and multiple murder attempts ?

- 🪰

I knew you would be here, 🪰. It was only a matter of time. You got me into this mess and you will dig the whole deeper and deeper. Lucky for you, I love this man and want to get him pregnant. His first time is really dependent on MC. My personal bias, however, is that MC should treat him gently... but keep up the teasing.

Imagine pinning him to the bed, hands on either side of his head as you lean down to kiss him over and over until he's breathless. He never knew that kisses could make it so hard to breath. Everything about this is new to him.

Slipping your knee between his legs without touching him, letting him explore and do what comes naturally as he teaches himself how to hump against you. The soft teasing as he discovers something new; how he can't stop once he starts.

How you can, eventually, figure out how to open up his shirt enough to slip your hand inside and lay your fingers across his chest. You could tease him about how hot his skin is, how much it burns and how heavy his heartbeat is. Press and pinch at his nipples to show him they feel pleasure like any other part of him.

Bully him until he can't take it anymore and makes an absolute mess of his clothing. Tease him about how cute it is that he couldn't wait but that he has to take it all off now. To finally get a look at him without and confirm if every part of him really is as large as he likes to brag.

When he asks you to take yours off to, deny him with a smile. Tell him that tonight is all about teaching him, so to lie back and learn. Everything with the same sass he's come to expect from his sunshine/nightmare. All the while calling his real name and telling him how good he's being.

He'll be putty in your hands by the time you finally get below the belt. He never imagined all the ways that mortals have conceived of to have sex, but he'll get to experience them all soon enough. Maybe your hand and mouth to start. Just enough to teach him the basics so he can get used to asking to be bullied. After all, he is very much the type to need to be picked on. Perhaps you'll even teach him about using his butt by slipping a few fingers in there.

I think the first sexual encounter doesn't involve penetrative sex because he needs to learn to beg for that first. >w> Eventually, he'll learn how to beg for a lot of things.

The first time with penetration? Well, we all know he's going to be the most bottom babygirl ever. With lots of hand holding and telling your little reaper how well he's doing. How pregnant you're going to get him and how many soul babies there will be

It shall be a wonderful night all around. ehehe

[taffybuns]

do you think betty likes being golb.. i just want her to be happy and to live and it seems she made peace with the past and who she is now but i want more of herrrrr please god. season 2 more women screentime

HI HELLO I FEEL CRAZY ABT THIS

it feels really hard to say but i think we're now addressing what happened in temple of mars- i don't think she likes being golb exactly, but now she doesn't know where to go and is going to figure it out like simon is

she spent so much of her life devoted to him and now that they have time to reflect on what went wrong there's not much of her left anymore.. the ending felt purposely vague towards this, where she backs up and begins glowing into what looks like a portal in a pose like she's about to sprint- the memory ends with her going to an unknown destination in GOLB's language so i can only guess she doesn't know either, and is not exactly happy yet either

i really desperately needed a season 2 man LMAO i know they're holding golbetty back because she's a good potential plot for future spinoffs if theyre ever granted any (and if not then rip, they did leave it to try), i liked the ending but it's disheartening how much betty gets shelved again and again

i'm mostly just glad they addressed how her behavior was unhealthy bc i've been waiting for her to move on from her obsesson since temple of mars/come along with me kinda shattered the perfect petrigrof illusion so this is the first step (i hope)

final thoughts

[daisychainsandbowties]

thinking about how groups in isolation grow close with rapidity, develop bonds and rely on each other for physical comfort at the same speed with which lesbians U-Haul, and so you shove a bunch of queer girls into a socially isolated situation like Cat's Cradle and they develop a shorthand, they seek each other out for the quiet touches they can't get from family or friends anymore, they collapse into cuddle puddles in the grass after training and braid each other's hair and hold each other close and watch each other die

Help I’m thinking about this post and shanmary signing to each other and the implications of that across the whole OCS.

Shannon sitting cross-legged with Beatrice in the afternoons when they’re both exhausted from training, walking her through the movements and the syntax and the variations on each sign.

Bea and Shannon use it when Shannon finally persuades Beatrice to be her lookout while she pranks Lilith.

The tall, intimidating figure who catches Bea the first time because she’s too distracted by conspiratorial grins and Shannon touching her arm as she sprints down the hall.

“Come on!” but Bea’s still fresh to the OCS, and this request is absent the snap of command that usually shadows Shannon’s voice.

In a flurry of dark hair and angry eyes she finds herself pinned to the wall by Lilith, her nails bloody from climbing the drainpipe after Shannon emptied a bucket of water down onto her from the window above.

Stunned by that touch, unmoving. Lilith, who quirks an eyebrow, “Not even going to put up a fight?”

Shannon signing to get Bea’s attention when she’s on the verge of a panic attack. Naming sensations and they’re variations on “i can feel you. i can hear you.”

“you’re here.”

Beatrice with all her languages learning this new one from Shannon and also a separate language of touch. She’s so remote at first, flinching from everything but fists, until Mary pulls her aside and makes her play stupid hand-dexterity games that leave her palms stinging and her face flushed.

Sometimes, Lilith catches her under the chin with her fingers as she walks by, a silent “chin up” reminding her she’s a warrior now, not a disgraced daughter.

Mary bracing Bea with her arm when they stumble out of a tear-gassed room, palm over Bea’s mouth because fuck knows what they put in those cannisters, fuck knows if it might be lethal in high doses.

Beatrice learns to do these things in return, turning her head into Lilith's chest when the field medic takes her gloved hands out of someone’s chest and asks for the time. Lilith's mouth, warm on her temple, she who never looks away.

Helping Mary clean the guns and butting shoulders as they work, sharing Mary's earbuds. Beatrice only nodding cryptically when Mary asks if she likes a particular song - in her head thinking ‘I like you. the song’s just noise we’re both hearing.’

Shannon and Bea mirroring their movements with the bō, wordless competitions for who can spin it the longest without dropping it. Bea watching Mary and Shannon sit out on the grass, Shannon with her arms around Mary as Mary sits bracketed by her legs, pulling up blades of grass with a complicated expression.

Bea signs on the days she doesn’t want to speak. Lilith teases that she’s one of those silent nuns who only speak to god (but gently, gently) thumb tucked under Bea’s chin as she checks a graze on her cheekbone. Bea, transfixed by Lilith’s tight, concerned frown.

A dry, “Oh yes, how astonishing that someone might give a shit about you” from Lilith before she notes Beatrice’s stricken expression, squeezes her shoulder and makes an odd, abortive motion like she wants to brush her lips over Bea’s forehead, but thought the better of it.

Mary who won’t learn Spanish but picks this up, if not with ease then with determination, with renewed fervor when Shannon gets the halo. Looking to her ears for the telltale trickle of ruptured eardrums before dropping back to this, their shared voice.

And this, too, is how they learn to die.

Beatrice fixing the straps on Lilith’s vest, tugging them tight so the armor won’t collapse into a puncturing shape at the point of impact. Lilith letting her do it - the routine is like with a hazmat suit or a space suit. Check your own, check someone else, and let them check you.

“You look ridiculous in that hood, like a worm.”

“Thank you Lilith.” As Bea tightens the last strap, smooths it flat. Her hand lingers so Lilith takes it. Why not?

“Don’t die tonight, okay?” Lilith pauses. “I refuse to attend a vigil mass for a worm.”

Beatrice bites back on something. Lilith knows what it is, knows what she looks like, has wrestled Shannon over it and scowled at Mary - “Wow Lil, now you match your personality. A dickhead.”

All the stupid little nerd says is, “I’ll see you in the van.”

And she does, but it’s with Shannon’s blood on her hands, the divinium in her body casting little lights on the ceiling of the van, like glow-in-the-dark stars. Lilith’s eyes roaming in the rearview mirror, both hands busy on the wheel, as Shannon coughs on a mouthful of blood and switches to her hands.

They shake, fluttering out their meanings as street lights switchback in over the tense shape of Lilith’s shoulder.

“Hey,”

Beatrice wants to clutch her hands but she wants the words, too.

Her voice breaks around the response, so she mirrors, like they’re doing forms on the grass, like they’re home.

“Hey.”

[casper4lesbians]

what kind of music do you think cas likes? i was like "what if he was into stuff like lana del rey?" but i think that he'd be into those cheesy love songs... like if he discovered filipino music he'd LOVE the romantic songs

OMG IVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT HIS MUSIC TASTE

i’ve talked with other fans and we’ve agreed he’d experiment with different varieties of music since he never completely got the chance to do so before; he was too busy being the grim reaper.

now that he’s no longer bound to 1 role for the entirety of his life… he’d explore. and the different genres of music represents the newfound freedom he experiences, how he’s no longer bound to one responsibility for the rest of his life

but i think eventually, he’d become infatuated with romantic songs, like you said. it not only represents how he’s finally finding himself as himself (and not being controlled by others) but also. His love for MC. anytime he listens to any cheesy pop song (no matter how old or sometimes unrelated) he finds a way to connect it back to MC. i even have a playlist for songs casper would like/remind me of him. it’s here: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/72dvGzi6A8Z7xoibjRQdPT?si=zWH6BdXFTi-uMl94GNVW6g&pi=u-0P1kPEsDRzaM

hope this answers ur question anon! feel free to ask more!!!

[birgittesilverbae]

evil shower kick casper like the football 🥺

The shower has been running for the better part of an hour, Ava realizes distantly. Bea had accidentally woken her whilst slipping out of bed, and Ava in her mid-deep sleep haze had caught a glimpse of the alarm clock before falling back into a restless drowse with the low thrum of the shower stirring to life.

It's now only five minutes before their alarm, rather than fifty-five, but the shower's still going. It's unlike Bea to take more than a five minute shower unless she's sluicing blood from her body. Ava's chest tightens and she slips off the mattress, digs the divinium dagger out from beneath Bea's pillow (and if it's presence there isn't even more worrying, well).

She knocks the door open wide with the side of her foot, only to find... Nothing. No blood, no gore, no nothing other than Beatrice's pyjamas draped over a towel rail, the tiny anchor print picked out bright in the slow light of dawn. The bathroom tile is cool and damp beneath her feet as she moves to the edge of the tub shower.

A whimper, low and throaty. Ava tugs the shower curtain back, finds Bea hunched on the floor, arms wrapped around herself, water pounding down over her head and back. She doesn't need to be under the water with Bea to feel the chill of the spray, to take in the blue tinge of Bea's hands.

"Bea," she whispers, stricken, before exploding into action. She discards the knife, strips off her own pyjamas, and climbs into the tub. Bea doesn't respond to her approach, her movement, not until Ava's seated herself behind her, pressed close to her back. Then Bea shivers, turns her face unconsciously towards Ava's collarbone, presses her nose to the warmth of the spot.

"I've got you," Ava mumbles, stretching awkwardly to find the tap, to crank it towards warmth, but it's already there. "The water heater doesn't, though, hey?"

Bea's huff of a laugh skates across Ava's neck when she shakes her head.

"Good thing I have the ways and means with which to fix that." She turns her focus inward, begs quietly for the halo to stir to life. A pang, a snap, a lightning-fast bolt of pain down her legs, and then-

Warmth floods the room, works into water droplets and ceramic and the air. Ava's shoulders relax just a hair and she puts her arms back around Bea's waist, willing the heat into her bones. "I've got you," she repeats, calm and steady with years of training. "I'm here. I've got you. I won't let go."

[bedknees]

EPISODE 9 PREDICTIONS GO GO GO

AHHHH oh shit hi!!

Predictions for Casper & Nova are under the cut! ✂️

-I think that we will see the same flashback of Simon and Betty from episode 8, except that it will be recontextualized from a non-biased point of view. Like the true context without Simon's rose-tinted view of it.

-I feel like on Simon's side of things, it will in general be flashback-heavy. Mostly stuff from his and Betty's relationship, but it'd be cool to see even younger Simon just for fun!

-I think it's very possible that we will see AU versions of Simon and Betty. Perhaps as a way to show what-ifs and add more layers to their overall relationship.

-The synopsis states Simon's mind will be transported through time and space while Fionna and Cake have to fight for their world. I don't think F+C will be fighting due to Simon putting on the Ice Crown or anything like that. I think their world will be in danger because Simon's brain is going to blue screen from all the pain he's going to inevitably be subjected to. He's just going to reach such a dark state of mind that his inner world literally starts crumbling.

-Betty is going to reach out through Golb and break up with him, officially. I feel like this is where the narrative is heading and will be the main reason Simon enters such a state of distress.

-Something will inevitably snap Simon out of it. I'm not clear on what it could be, but something to remind him or give him a lightbulb moment that there is life after Betty and he has a place in Ooo, despite what he thinks. The episode might even end at Simon's darkest point, while the final episode 'Cheers' is where he snaps out of it.

[overthinkingtaleblr]

Jimmy going bat shit insane over chocolate.

Give him a brownie and he's scoffing it down his throat before you can blink and then he stab-

It’s funny you say that, that was one of the first traits I gave to my OC based on Casket when I decided to make him an OC. I dunno what it is about Casket, but apparently liking chocolate is like. A really appealing trait for him. It’s still a trait in my oc— he starts working at a chocolate shop after he.. mellows out a lot (stops killing people)… but I also gave him some new abilities that Jimmy doesn’t have. Meaning he’s probably able to avoid getting stabbed.. but Jimmy isn’t getting that brownie either, sorry Jimmy.

[ahappydnp]

I vividly remember how scared I used to be of the “inevitable” day that dnp would stop living together cause that’s what all the roommate youtubers did and now that not even a thought that crosses my mind anymore because no matter what they will live with each other until their deaths and I feel a little insane about it

no bc people were so convinced they were moving in different places every time they made a vague reference it was exhausting. vividly remember the discussions about them saying 'my flat/my house' or talking about getting pets 'in either of our futures'

[destined-if]

Heya!! I hope you're well. Is destined still being worked on or did you end up deciding to focus on the other IF you had mentioned thinking about writing ? If you have been working on anything else, is there anything you can tell us about it? (if you're comfortable and it's not too spoilery)

Random question Do any of the Destined characters have a favorite hobby or past-time?

hii! i'm doing well, thank u for asking!!

currently, i'm splitting the work i'm doing... kinda like A days and B days?? i work on destined for a day then @mortala-if the next! so destined is still being worked on, just a slower pace! i wanted to even out my time on each project so it's fair to each one.

(the reason i haven't been posting is simply because i haven't been getting asks LMAO. i understand that i should push out content even if there's no asks, but I've been focusing on the actual demo for destined rather than the tumblr)

if you want to learn about it, you can go to my tumblr for it! @mortala-if has been floating in my head for a bit, longer than destined and much longer than when i posted the drabble! i just started putting it out there since i fully grasped the plotline and the character arcs i wanted to include!

and onto the question!!

Ian/Ivy: Surprisingly, they used to be really into journaling, but it faded away shortly after MC joined. They find it embarrassing now, but they still want to-- they just don't have that kind of time for a hobby anymore. They birdwatch sometimes, though. Isla: She likes baking and sewing, mostly sewing. She finds something calming about it, and the fact her grandma taught her adds to that. She likes when she's sewing and someone has a conversation with her. She tries to find time for it, but it's kinda futile.

Elias: He likes reading as well. I can see his favorite genre being murder mystery or horror books that he reads with a deadpan. Another hobby I see him having is cooking. Melody: It obviously used to be dancing, but that kinda faded into a career. They collect lots of things, mainly shells- seashells, snail shells, things of that nature.

Casper: He likes playing the harp, but like the other characters, he doesn't have a lot of time to practice. When he does, he plays in front of his siblings.

thank you for the ask!

[softhairedhotch]

i randomly saw this (https://vt.tiktok.com/ZSNC5kYfm/) n it made me immediately think of aaron and oblivious!reader/male oc 😭😭😭 babbling away wondering why aaron is single while u sit in a car and he's just quietly giving the Look but he's thinking "fuck they're so stupidly cute... god please give me the strength right now before i kiss them dumb"

link to the tiktok <3

omgggg i LOVE THIS SO MUCH bless he'd just be looking at you like 🤨😐 as you're babbling away about how he's handsome as hell and should be with someone rn and he can aannnnyyyyyyone he wants but all he wants to say is "i want you, dumbass" hehe 🤭

HIS SILLY LIL FACE HE'D BE LOOKING AT YOU LIKE THIS <333

AHHHH I LOVE HIMMMMM

it'd be really cute if that's how you get together tbh. like you're just rambling about it as you're waiting outside a house to see if anything happens, eating fries or something with him, when he just laughs and goes "i can't have anyone i want"

"how come?"

"because the person i want doesn't want me back."

"if you're talking about me, i do."

and he looks at you in such a specific way and you're like 🫣🫣 but he says that there's better times and places to talk about that so you don't until the next day when you're at the office and he asks you out on a date :3

[steffigraf]

ok now create the worst possible atp player

emotionally for me that’s just zv*rev

[ohtobeleah]

Who is Lewis Pullman’s dad

Did you mean to type that into google?

[webbyghost]

I miss you drawing casper, the ghostly trio, spooky, and poil, can you draw them again? Along with snivel and kibosh?

I have had this ask in my box for about a year. If you're still around, anon, these pencil doodles are for you!

I had so much trouble with Stinkie and I straight up gave up with Snivel lmao

[daisychainsandbowties]

thoughts on autistic beatrice 

i got a couple asks about this, so here we go.

speaking. despite her talent for linguistics, and her fascination with language, Beatrice does sometimes have periods where she is non-verbal. alternates with days where she needs to talk a lot. Lilith usually gets subjected to her talkativeness on these occasions - or rather, she subjects herself to it, willingly. knows how to respond and manage and help when things are a lot. she is quite content to sit and listen and poke fun while Beatrice lets all of the thoughts out of her head. 

Bea has areas of specific focus, and likes to tell convoluted stories to reach her point bc it’s how her brain likes to do things, and Lilith is one of the rare people who will simply listen, who is not impatient. Bea has been trained to think in straight lines, but there is a natural obliqueness to her thought processes. & especially when she is tired and/or hurt it unravels out of her. 

it takes a long time for her to trust anyone enough to actually relax and do that kind of stimming, but once things are easier it’s at least once a week, and Lilith pretty much drops everything to go sit with her in the library or down by the cliff or in the sun by one of the outer walls. this is astonishing to Bea, because nobody in her life has been willing to listen to her talk before, for hours. 

for Lilith it’s like watching the sun rise, & Bea transforms when she’s able to let all of the many myriad & often beautiful thoughts she has find their way out. to have them held and appreciated.

special interests. i think for sure Bea is really interested in math & physics & linguistics & probably a bit of architecture (my girl knew how to convert dirra to feet = math nerd AND architecture nerd, for sure). 

re: physics - Bea is just really interested in the mechanics of the universe, & it’s kind of an adjacent interest when you throw knives, because there is math involved & a bit of physics knowledge, especially for her throws which are from unpredictable distances (usually knife-throwing is done at standard distances with more or less consistent trajectories. whereas Bea throws in consistently unpredictable circumstances, often at moving targets).

she likes spiders and pretty much all fields of biology - anatomy, entomology, biophysics (she was a bit obsessed with gravitational tropism & how they grew plants in space), biochem, physiology of all kinds. definitely used to do architectural sketches for fun. knows all about how buildings have been constructed over the centuries. likes spiders because misunderstood, solitary, & just rlly rlly interesting as creatures. linguistics for obvious reasons. aka ‘if i learn ten languages i will be able to talk to people’ = cue not knowing what to say to people in ten languages. i’m gonna say she likes prime numbers. the mystery of them, the way they are so strange and self-contained.

routine! Bea is big into routine. it helps her to deal with the parts of her life that will always be chaotic - OCS activities are pretty much chaotic by default, because possession and demons don’t keep people-hours. 

she NEEDS to go running every day & Lilith is usually the only one who can keep pace with her, so they get up in the predawn dark most mornings and run until the sun rises. they don’t talk while they run, but they have a sort of silent conversation going on. gentle competition and mutual egging-on. performing stupid little parkour tricks where no one can see them. once or twice they go down by the beach and end up trying to toss each other into the ocean. 

when they get back Beatrice has muesli (she always has muesli, when she can) & she has this specific blue bowl and this specific spoon. everyone knows not to touch it (and Lilith knows too but still does dickhead things like hide it, but she gives it back almost immediately. just likes to see Bea’s face scrunch up like an emoji. she calls it ‘your haughty little stare’. 

Lilith peels an orange while Beatrice makes up her breakfast (picking the banana chips out. ‘why don’t you just get the brand without banana chips.’ ‘you wouldn’t understand.’) Lilith scatters orange peel everywhere on purpose and Beatrice goes around after sweeping them into her palm, which makes her hands smell like citrus (and, incidentally, exactly like Lilith’s, all day long).

time-blindness/interoception. Beatrice loses time. has a habit of going into a trance or just hyper-focussing on things. in those instances Mary or Lilith or Cam will find her just Staring and they always go to fetch Shannon, because she has a knack; she’s a gentle stirring presence, and she goes and puts her palms on Bea’s face and gets her eyes to focus on her. narrows the world down to simple touch. leads with a couple of innocent questions about math or sometimes jellyfish, or any of the topics Bea likes. 

this is what she needs. Mary is the steady voice that pulls everyone together in a fight, but Shannon has the measure of Beatrice. she knows to ask questions, to lure her out of her stupor with positive things. gentle, stirring. usually there’s nothing bad about losing the time, except that she can end up with throbbing headaches from dehydration.

but it’s time her brain needs, to be away from other people, because Beatrice has observed and catalogued and she is pretty good at the social side of things. yet it is exhausting. & sometimes she needs a hour or two to just exist in her own orbit.

eye-contact. when she’s comfy she tends to stray away from eye-contact, just because other body language is better and not so overwhelming as eyes, but martial arts taught her how important the eyes are for betraying intent, so she looks. but if she trust ppl there’s less eye contact. what there is, then, means more. 

she and Lilith are almost entirely absent of eye-contact when alone with each other. they are parallel play pros, and they save eye-contact for fighting, though Lilith is extraordinarily good at NOT giving away anything with her eyes. she can be beating the crap out of two people at once and look like she’s grocery shopping, but when she’s in the swing of things there’s often a manic glee to her eyes. & Bea likes that because it’s uncomplicated and wild and honest. but yeah, Mary occasionally goes to Shannon - ‘hey, do you think Beatrice would know the answer if i asked her what colour Lilith’s eyes are?’

speaking (contd.) Bea does have a tendency to forget about inflection in speech. has a monotone a lot of the time, which other people mistake for condescension. she can be very persuasive, but when she’s comfortable her voice keeps this unerringly constant pitch.

doesn’t tend to have the wild wavers you expect when ppl are with their friends; actually gets flatter & more even the more enthused she is. so she’ll be telling Lilith about how spiders can walk upside down on glass & the pitch, if you measured it, would be a straight line, but this speaks to Lilith’s brain too, because it isn’t jumping on distinctions in sound & getting anxious over it. 

if you pay attention to the rest of Bea’s body language it’s easy to see how excited she is, but that doesn’t manifest in her voice so much. oh she can emote vocally with the best of them (cut to the museum heist scene where Vincent kidnaps Ava) but calm relaxed Bea is going to be rocking that monotone.

food. for the first while in cat’s cradle Beatrice has trouble with mealtimes. it was never her forte - always the first down to breakfast in boarding school, so eventually the ppl setting up just left a bowl out for her & the tureen of muesli, and a milk bottle still slick with dew from sitting on the stoop with all the others. 

it’s the social aspect, mostly, and the change of routine, that get to her. plus Beatrice just isn’t motivated by food at all - for her it’s like, due to interoception, and some sensory preferences, though Bea’s a good soldier and can just ignore texture and taste if she has to. 

she doesn’t like the tables in the vaulted hall or the weird dim lighting, and all the other nuns talking in hushed voices so they become this susurration of sound. so she just skips lunch, or dinner. 

Lilith insists that she could care less, & she only tells Mary because otherwise she’ll get a lecture about responsibility and the new recruits, and also Bea is the best fighter besides her, and she doesn’t want to win just because the little twit forgets to eat. 

initially Mary just insists that Bea goes to meals with her. that doesn’t really help too much; Bea goes where she’s told, but yk you can lead a horse to water, can’t make them drink.

one day Mary goes and sits down next to Bea while she’s reading one day out in the courtyard, & hands her a cup of pudding from a bunch of surplus (and almost expired) MREs that the OCS bulk-bought ages ago. & Bea, skeptical but obedient, open it up & tries it & Mary, privately, thinks it’s chalky and overly sweet, but Bea adores it. she reads the nutritional info and is weirdly psyched by how ‘full of food groups’ it is. (Mary shrugs, but Lilith gets it; she also grew up craving salt and protein and portions larger than a palm). 

Mary bulk buys even more of them, & soon the Trio™ start carrying them around. Shannon has a bunch in her backpack, and Mary keeps them in the glove box of the van. Lilith sometimes just has one in the pocket of her hoodie, so that when it’s a Hard Day they can all reliably take Bea out into the sun with a bit of breeze coming up over the cliffside, & pass her a horrible calorie-dense protein pudding monstrosity.

it works, though. once Bea has Lilith to cling to she doesn’t mind going to the official means, & also Mother Superion takes her in her office & tells her she can go to the kitchen or eat in MS’s office if she’s not feeling it any evening. it works, and Beatrice manages to win against Lilith two out of five times in training, and she looks better and more than she has in her whole life, because the ppl around her FINALLY care about what she needs.

touch. Bea actually really likes it. flinches, at first, when Mary throws an arm around her, or when Shannon goes to her after a hard fight and presses their foreheads together, and leaves her sooty thumb-prints on Bea’s cheeks from holding her face. 

Lilith is another touch-starved bitch so they are like two polarised magnets initially, but after a while it changes. Beatrice falling asleep against Lilith in the back of the OCS fan. Bea having a panic attack and Mary climbing clear over the handbrake from the front seat (shotgun) to go and hold her very tightly, and rock her, and just say meaningless nice things.

Lilith like a deer in the headlights watching it, but eventually letting Beatrice braid her hair when her hands won’t stop shaking from the adrenaline. at once point they are hiding from possessed ppl & Lilith wraps her whole body around Bea, pressing them together into the shadows, and Beatrice is just… stunned by the closeness of it all. the lemon and sweat smell of Lilith (Bea starts stealing her shampoo after that). 

eventually she knows how to seek touch, how to ask for it & Bea and Lilith become kind of ridiculous about it (just watch the infirmary scene). they sit propping each other up, side-by-side or back-to-back. Bea with her legs flung over Lilith’s lap, reading out of a book in the library. in church playing ‘one-two-three-four, i declare a thumb war’ while Mary loses her shit in the row behind them. 

Beatrice likes braiding hair, and when she’s upset she just clings to ppl (Lilith starts calling her barnacle and also limpet) but both of them need that from each other, & most of the other sisters are just not Bea’s people; she has her three people (four, almost, when Cam arrives). 

with Mary it’s a lot of rough shoving and headlocks and kicking each other’s calves and ‘hey, think fast!’ followed by Mary chucking something at Bea. 

with Shannon it’s the face-touching, and her arms folding Bea into a hug to end all hugs. & obviously with Ava we have Beatrice the little spoon, & her quiet amazement at how much Ava likes touching her arms or pecking her on the cheek - i don’t think she was raised to believe that people might long to touch her, and where Lilith hid her longing pretty deftly, Ava is much more open about it; it’s part of what shocks her when Ava hugs her very suddenly that first time in Cat’s Cradle after the wall incident - not the touch, but the recognition of Ava’s hunger for it. i think it occurred to Beatrice that maybe Ava could not even remember the last time someone hugged her like that. i think she understands& once they’re together it’s stupid how often they are in contact with each other, but it’s Bea’s love language, i think.

sensory issues. texture is obviously a thing for Beatrice. specifically with food, but also with clothes. you’ll see (in the show) that she tends to favour clothes that are loose around the arms (part of her reasoning being that it’s easier and better to fight in loose-fitting clothes) but yeah she’s not a fan of tight clothing. likes pressure on her own terms. she likes sweaters and tank tops, men’s-section t-shirts because the weird v-shape of women’s sleeves is foul and heinous. she does like to button shirts all the way up to the top because for unknown reasons it feels safe and precise.

sound is not too bad for Bea. she’s used to a lot of shouting in martial arts training (the use of a kiai in kendo is well-established & often super loud. she kind of likes that, shrieking at the top of her lungs with permission) and also gunshots with the OCS. none of it bothers her more than gunshots are just super unpleasant to hear for anyone. 

she does enjoy asmr though. ocean sounds especially (thunder is bad unless there’s a really predictable interval between bouts of thunder) hates those deep-space ones because the bass makes her feel dizzy.

she just also really likes the sound of the people she loves talking. sometimes she can get Lilith to say more than four sentences together & it’s heaven. Ava obviously has her doe-eyed with her ability to talk about anything, to fill silences with good sound. 

Bea HATES to be shouted at, berated etc. but mostly for trauma reasons, b/c of the whole endless night her parents yelled at her before they sent her away. this is part of the reason that silence makes her a bit uneasy, unless she knows what it means. 

silence with Lilith has a few flavours; she has a happy silence, which is like a cat coming to sit in a room with you. she also has a broody silence, which Bea likes too, actually, because Lilith isn’t angry, she’s just filling the room with the noisiness of her thoughts. her angry silence makes Beatrice want to say around too, but only in the hope of mending things. Mary’s silences are usually good, or else they’re about Shannon. & Shannon has her gentle silences and her hidden silences. the fact is that silence for Bea is rarely actual silence, because she is too attentive to the meanings of silence. 

she likes Ava’s version of silence, which is talking. 

is also very very perceptive of sound - Lilith insists you can’t hear electricity OR spiders moving around, but Bea is adamant that you can, actually. she always knows when there’s a big house spider in her room bc they are NOT stealthy. it’s why she likes asmr - esp. in cat’s cradle - because it drowns out the small noises of the convent which don’t get tuned out by her brain.

light can be annoying for Bea. headcanon is that the museum heist sunglasses were not a brand new acquisition - Ava got them for Bea in Switzerland (‘you shouldn’t read in the sun if you’re gonna squint, bea’) because Beatrice got headaches from too much light, & they looked dorky so two birds with one stone. she does appreciate light, though, and loves sitting in the sun. anything that is not like England. she gets weird and sad when it rains too much. also HATES being rained on. fully sulks about it.

finally, stimming! i think when she’s upset Bea would, ideally, self-soothe by rocking. it’s why Mary does it, because Bea’s parents berated her for it so many times that her body freezes up at the thought. 

she likes to braid hair, as i said. likes tapping things, fiddling with things in her hands - reason why she’s so ‘puts hands behind back’ ‘puts hands in pockets’ ‘makes hands hold each other so they can’t do their own thing’. but yeah, in Switzerland it happens a lot more. playing with pens, tapping thumb & forefinger, tapping surfaces (very lightly), AHEM skipping stones. just keeping those guys busy. 

asmr is also stimming, btw. & so is eating the right food for the purpose of enjoying the textures. all of the touching. 

she also has mental stims! that r like… doing equations, or running through facts. counting primes. reciting as much of pi as she can in one minute, imagining a clock face and watching it move. i think so much of her stimming is probably mental, actually. rlly fun stims are finding linguistic patterns in things, or translating things back and forth - so like, from english to french to german to latin & then going back without cheating to see if any changes get imposed by counter-translating directly - also spatial reasoning in general is good stimming. thinking, how exactly would that fall? or imagining things swinging or shattering or anything like that, where you have to extrapolate a bit based on instinct and also knowledge. having to be so internal her whole life would have furnished her with a bunch of them, but i think her OCS family bring so many good visible stims to the surface too!

anyway, those are some of my thoughts on autistic bea. i love her very.

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okay okay uhhhh

I'm going to guess based of off this blog TT

but..maybe Chuuya? (my mind is so simple help. that came to my mind because of ur pfp) but like TT

I'm guessing your the type to

listen to rock music

have fun with your friends

you're also very chill i think and you have your own references in your tags <33 (which is kind of a kunikida thing to do hehe but you dont strike me as overly responsible)

but also maybe a bit of verlaine (idk just a guess)

you have a lot of thoughts on things and enjoy answering (even encouraging) people to ask you things 🤭<33

(hmmm which character does that trait fall under? idk TT TT uhh maybe kinda like poe/ranpo in the sense that you get excited about things and write a lot)

'aesthetic/persona-speaking' -- i imagine you (based on your personality) as something like maybe Q or yosano or chuuya TT --- whatever. basically anyone who gives off cool-chill-baddie vibes.

like someone in a band, maybe. (the fact that you prob play guitar [i think] is not helping lol 🤭😅)

im so sorry for this. my thoughts are kinda a mess rn TT im being rushed to go down sshhs

uhh short one answer if ur looking for one TT uhhhh

1, 2, 3

Chuuya

(im risking it) TT

Hello Wakanai!! This analysis of my personality is so delightful.

I sure do listen to rock music and have fun with friends! I have plenty of stories of stupid things I've done with friends, and hope to add more as time goes on, ranging from impulse trips to other states to skateboarding on chairs in basements.

I'm glad you think I'm chill, I certainly try.

I do play guitar! Its my favorite instruments I play, and I am actually in a band with my cool boyfriend @pmreaper, though we haven't really released anything yet, eheh. (I play like three instruments respectably well, but if we count all the ones I'm teaching myself when I have time, I can kind-of play, or used to play ~10!)

Your vibe reading on me is exactly the kind of person a 13 year old me wanted to be, which is pretty cool.

To summarize all your guesses, we have:

Chuuya Kunikida (Sort Of) Verlaine Poe Ranpo Q Yosano Chuuya Again

With Chuuya being your main/final guess.

I will say one of these is correct! I kinda want to see if anyone else takes a swing before I confirm or deny anything. Thank you for your guesses & reasoning, this ask made my day!