#couple thats been married for 10+ years?? who knows

[strangersynth]

bc you have things to say doesn't always mean you needa say them let alone it also doesn't always mean it's your place to say them kwim

[cyberdragoninfinity]

*stokes the fire* Aporia

thinking about that tweet that's like "i like your funny reply friend! you'll be buried in my pyramid with me when i die"--that's how i feel with you delightful anons who give me excuses to Go Bananas About Aporia. said with so much love in my heart. thank you <3

favorite thing about them: GOD. THERE REALLY IS SO MUCH. Of course I love his design, it's absolutely bonkers in the best way--if you told me two years ago there was a nine foot tall monster robot yugioh character with angel symbolism out the ass i would have been like EXCUSE ME. HELLO. *RUNNING OVER* but also!! his arc is just fucking GOOD. he's just this sad and complex and angry and miserable old old old man in a robot werelion body who's actually three people who are actually just one person. peak yugioh villain nonsense i absolutely adore it. and i LOVE when villains have the face turn and fight back against the Big Bad as much as they can. it goes hard!!! (but also, specific small thing thats one of my favorite things about him--it's like, very implied despite being Gigantic he's fairly dexterous and gentle with how he handles things?? Always grabbing his tiny cards very delicately and doings little tricks with them and in tag force 6 (Citizen Kane for Insane Aporia Girlies) he actively tells you the protagonist that he doesnt make mistakes with how much force to use with things (being a machine and all.) idk it's just very cute to me. it's a sweet detail.)

least favorite thing about them: pained smile. big man proper's literally only in.....about 9-10 episodes total??? <:) crying. wailing. my kingdom for a SLIVER of more screentime. it's also a shame like. 2/3s of his episodes never got dubbed, I would have absolutely adored to see what the dubbed version would have looked like!! (especially since those eps include like. my Favorite 5ds duels. it'd be like having two whole cakes babey!!!!)

favorite line: ok im restraining myself from picking something from Tag Force because all of his dialogue in TF6 makes me sick in the head and i love it but I WILL PICK. SOMETHING FROM THE ANIME. LIKE A NORMAL PERSON. god. it's gotta be these.

also "I was imprisoned by my feelings, so you can have my feelings" which he says immediately before this, also to Z-ONE. A.) theyre just raw as hell, B.) ooohhhh my god ohhhh my fucking godddddd he loved him so fucking muuuuuch buy my fucking SILENCE

brOTP: when people draw him being friends with leo and/or luna i get soooooo soft ;_____; my kingdom for an AU where aporia got to live and could interact with them for once not under the pretenses of needing to Kill Team 5Ds. WAUUGH. also i guess brotp adjacent but him interacting with his embodiments is so fucking funny and it's apparently just me and the tag force devs who see and know the truth on that.

OTP: ooouugh...oughhhhh you Know im talking bout those old old men!!!!! i am #1 absolute adorer of the Iliaster Four Stars Peepaw Polycule (Aporia/Z-one/Paradox/Antinomy) we know this we know this. but special mention to my most favorite combo of that of all, my beloved Z-ONE/Aporia. see above. it doesnt even have a damn ship name 🤪they just!!!! make me absolutely fucking insane. theyre married theyre divorced theyre god and his most devoted archangel theyre old friends theyre a Fleetwood Mac album and theyre EVERYTHING TO ME!!!!!!! the second i get over worrying about being annoying i will Not shut up about them even more!!!!!

nOTP: i think if you ship with rua/leo you should go to jail and then directly to hell immediately after <3

random headcanon: Aporia Aporiaaaa my beloved bisexual italian/cuban autistic nonbinary dadgirl. i think in another life where he wasnt Extremely Fucked Up and Died Like Five Times he could have been good with kids. also. i think in the implied fixed future where the Four Stars get to live normally he would be a furry. him and eurea both. furcon couple

unpopular opinion: he's a GOOD CHARACTER!!!! HE AND THE EPISODES HE'S IN HAVE MERIT!!!!!! NOBODY BUT LIKE MAYBE 12 PEOPLE GIVE A DAMN ABOUT THIS GUY BUT HE ROCKS AND I THINK MORE PEOPLE SHOULD KNOW ABOUT HIM!!!!!!! drawing my big sword (draw tablet) I Will Make Them Know About Him. >:)c

song i associate with them: i, dana "the mountain goats lover" ninetales of course. keep finding tmg songs to associate with characters. And Genesis 30:3 is one of my favorite songs for Aporia, especially re: his dynamic with Z-ONE. "I will do what you ask me to do/Because of how I feel about you." IS SO!!! MUFFLED WAILING.

favorite picture of them: oh man. *slams my giant briefcase of aporia screenshots down on the table* ok. ok let's see. just ONE favorite? alright. ok. i got this. hm. this one i think

A.) aaauuughh i love his 'broken' form i need to draw it sometimes....the Moment energy lines...... B.) TINY TINY FUCKING CARDS!!!!, C.) this is from the exact moment where something in my brain clicked and was like "oh. oh this guy is in my head now for real. maybe i do fuck with his design" and. well. things snowballed <3

[mylesimeblr]

why did you say; “and i shouldn’t say that”? like honestly that makes it seem like as if you know you’re doing something wrong. but maybe you just meant it because of this fandom.

anyways i really don’t see how calling someone cute is all that bad. or bad at all. most of the time it’s said in an innocent way. people should go after real sexualizers though. i remember concerts finn has done and the main part of the audience was 20+ year old woman calling him hot THATS weird. and like not just recent ones but from when he was 13/14 too… people really just don’t see the wrong in it either. my mom keeps calling him attractive every-time she sees him which also makes me very uncomfortable. and i think this is why so many fans are so defensive because the cast gets sexualized so much. especially finn and millie.

Honestly, if I said "and I shouldn't say that" it's JUST because I knew people here would go crazy over me saying the word cute for a person they apparently still consider a "child". I knew people would misread my post and jump to conclusion. They always do. And hadn't been this fandom so toxic, I wouldn't have been defensive like this tbh. Because saying that Finn is "cute" NEVER meant an attraction in my book. He's just that, yeah. He's cute. In an endearing kind of way.

Now, I'm gonna walk on eggshells again because I know that my point of view doesn't correspond to the political correctness of this time.

I understand that 20 yo women calling 13 yo as "hot" can come off as weird because the word is inappropriate. I personally don't understand why or how you can call a kid "hot" when you're past 15 so yeah but to each their own, I guess. I mean, when I was 13 I had this HUGE crush on a 40 yo married guy and if stuff had happened, I would have been totally on board. (Nothing never happened). I've dated guys and girls sometimes 10 years older than me or 2 years younger... When I was about 19 I had crazy wet dreams on Cate Blanchett and Richard Grant... So, I don't care about this sort of thing. Age to me is a very vague concept that I don't understand and I think we're making too much of a fuss about it in this time period. But that's just MY opinion. And again in case I haven't been clear: I am NOT attracted to guys (or girls) younger than me, so 20 yos are way out of the scope. The only guy in the cast I find remotely attractive is Joe because he's my age.

As for your mom, I can understand you're freaked out. I used to be crept out too when my mom or her friends made comments on some of my male friends in High School. But then I realized that I was just making a transfer because I was scared of being sexualized myself and now that I'm older, I can see how harmless she meant it. I'm never gonna use the word attractive myself but I really think we demonize age too much, esp when the person is legally an adult. There is a huge difference between a woman having one emotion for one twenty year old in particular and a creep like Polanski who openly expresses his attraction for 13 yo girls. Even DiCaprio who only dates women before 25. I completely tolerate an isolated situation, so seeing a couple with an age difference will never shock me (and yes even if one of the person is what the US consider "underage" around 16 - 17 - only speaking of healthy relationships here), but when it becomes a trend, that's when it gets suspicious.

The problem today is that we put everything is the same basket and treat isolated situations as global deviances. A reminder that this obsession with "protecting" children is very modern. Kings and Queens used to marry at 13. The view we have today is unique on the scale of human history.

Anyway, I hope I will not be misread again.

EDIT because it's important: there is just ONE thing that I will NEVER tolerate. It's when we ship ACTORS. That's my one absolute limit. Esp when they're kids. That's disgusting. As for Millie, the stylists have sexualized her for years. She's 18 but on red carpets she looks older than me and THAT is not normal.

[sajaffery]

unblock...2...

thank you gobstikelsa1970..although i blame you for having to break one of my earlier rules. this was supposed to be all part of the same post. which started yesterday and was supposed to continue and continue until tumblr officially decided to kick me off their website altogether for being a nuisance and a show off at which point i would be forced to roam the face of this earth with words pouring out of my fingers into the thankless earth. sorry. i kind of got ahead of myself there. but ive decided to continue this on a seperate post, titled the same with a few sad dots and a 2 at the end. perhaps my two followers wont hate me so much anymore, and they might even ask other people to follow me. although they seem to only be interested in large naked men with bulging muscles. i hope thats not why they added me for i can only ever be a large naked man with a bulging stomach. they might be into that, after a few beers, maybe a couple of tequila shots and five hundred years of solitude. another cliched literary refernce. see earlier post for reference and explanation for terrible grammer and spelling. fuck dead white old men! were they old? i cant remember. and I cant go back and check either. you certainly can. but you wont. because youve got better things to do, like continue reading this post. emoticon alert. okay this is starting to get repetitive. I’m making the same jokes as yesterday. its probably a good thing i cant go back and reread my posts because then i definietely would be cracking the same jokes again and again. or i might be able to build on them and improve them. isnt that what all writers do? Bukowski certainly does. I’ve read three books by him and countless short stories and it seems to be the same books over and over again with very similar characters, especially women. doing the same things over and over again and him just finding us better ways to tell us about it. so I guess I can do that. but I cant rered what I wrote yesterday so I cant. and I’m not great. by any stretch if the imagination. but then neither was Bukowski. another reason why my wife cant read this, she’d pick up the laptop and smash it over my head for saying that.                          (FORCED DELETION)

I FUCKING HATE DONALD TRUMP. compared to him, i’m jesus christ. i.e. impossible to hate. everyone loves jesus, even the people who hate bible bashers because the man just talked about love. and he had cool hair. the poor guy was even ready to marry a prossi. how fucking awesome can you get. my mum called me jesus the other day because she was yelling at me and i just kept smiling at her. thats how amazing the man was. although it does kind of help the argument that he might have been deluded. even mad. huh. i didnt think of it like that. not a very nice thing for my mum to have said. hmmm. i’m blanking for a bit. oh new rule! i have to tell you, i say you even though i know nobody is reading this, and if someone is…cringe!!! but yes i have to tell you why i stopped writing yesterday because i wrote down i have to go to work but thats not good enough as an excuse because i’m actually at work as i write this. my work involves sitting behind a counter with a laptop infront of me and ignoring every customer who walks in as much as i can. yes i’m a till jocky and not the cool kind like randall from clerks, but more the sad kind like Dante because he hates being there but has nowhere fucking else to go. my parents own this place. hence my dad being a rich capitalist and my being a fake socialist. and ive been stuck here for the last six years now and i reconize 90% of the people who walk into this place and i want to punch atleast 90% of those 90%. I cant punch the rest of the 10% because theyre too fucking old. not because I like them. wow I hate a lot of people. no. no. this is just a symptom me hating myself again. it has to be I’m starting to come out like a monster in this post, my two hypersexualised followers are going to be defollowing me any second. can you find out if someone has defollowed you? do you get a little notification for that? like you do when someone is following you. such and such person is no longer following you. LOSER! me. not them. i’m the dumpee remember, not the dumper. maybe this is me. maybe this is why i’m writing this, because i cant possibly hope to tell anyone any of these things. not face to face anyway. who would want to listen? God knows I wouldn’t. except maybe if i was getting paid for it. even then. clearly ive gone through medical school or at least graduate school to be sitting there and getting paid to listen to this crap and eventually i’d reach a point where i’d want to get this person out of my room, out of my face out of my life, just as far away from me as possible, wow. i want to stop writing this now. i suddenly dont feel great. and i feel tired 

[enchantechante]

Hey,Tae.This is the anon who wished my ex well.Thank you so much for your reply and transparency.

Getting to the place where I am in life now and being able to wish my ex well with no remorse did not happen overnight.We had been in each others lives for 10+ years and experienced a lot (personal health problems,loss of jobs,deaths of family members etc).We went through a lot of things and had more good days than bad.After he came back in my life I couldn't believe it because I use to pray for that moment.I never thought it would even happen.I prayed and asked God if he's meant to be in my life then please let us cross paths again one day and if not then I'm thankful for the time we were able to share together.Over two years later he contacted me.Things went well from day one and we talked every day. I felt like he was trying to rush me into a relationship though because he would mention it and marrying me a lot.I let him know I still loved him but a relationship was not apart of my plans at the time.Plus I was working two jobs, taking care of family, volunteering and in school.I was also still learning the new version of him and he was doing the same when it came to me.We made changes in our lives as we got older... I am more conservative now and he's a former church boy turned hippy.He also couldn't let go of the hurt his ex caused and her taking the kids away.He swore he was over it but we would get into it about them weekly and it was draining.She popped up a couple times too because she still wanted him back.Even though he swore he didn't want her and spent a lot of time with me,I got tired of her doing that.Each time she popped up I was reminded how he left me for her in the first place.I would get angry and start talking shit to him each time.I remember my blood pressure would be high every time I checked it which was every day.I was stressing myself out over his ex.Eventually I just decided to let it go and moved on.

I prayed and asked God to let us cross paths again one day since we both still had more healing to do.I figured if he still loved me and wanted to give things another shot after thirteen years then it could possibly happen again.Even though he fucked up years ago,I understand no one is perfect.He was also dealing with depression badly so I prayed for him to overcome that everyday even when we weren't in touch.He was single for a few years after we stopped talking and now in a relationship.I really do wish him well and hope he's genuinely happy.At first I was a little ticked but that feeling went away.

I love him and always will but even if we never reconnect again,I'll be okay because I did right by him from day one.I know he wants to be married and have kids as well.Who knows?Maybe his new girlfriend can give him all of those things.Either way,I will always wish him and his family well.Like I said getting to this point in my life didn't happen overnight.I did a lot of praying and shed many tears.To be honest,I still do.I've been through a lot of things and experienced so much death lately.Life really is short.I just want everyone to be happy and experience real love.If I don't get another chance at experiencing love in this lifetime,I'm happy that I had that opportunity to do so...and even if I do,I hope I will be open to it because I do have a lot of love to give and I still work on myself every day.No matter what my future holds or who will be apart of it,I'm just thankful for where I am in my life and all of the lessons I learned.I know things will work out for me and be better than I ever could imagine.

THIRTEEN YEARS?! 🥺

i wlda been feelin like:

I'd sooner conjure Beetlejuice + Bloody Mary than ever ask to cross paths w my ex. 🙅🏾‍♀️So thats mad brave.

Thank you so much for this encouragement. This process or prayers and tears and time apart and honesty w self and others, starting fresh, being unafraid to let go - ugh! Heart-wrenching soul work.

I gotta applaud you Anon 💐

Letting go is the hardest part imo.

I hate unfair things and people. So grace, and people deserving forgiveness and love is hard for me to understand.

But I see how your life has flourished and it makes me curious for how mine can as well 🙌🏾✨

[thoughtsofnowandagain]

21 feb 2023

Hello

It's been a while since I last put my thoughts down in words. I'd say probably 10 years, you know. Thats a whole ass decade.

Back then, I think I was more of a manifester. Maybe more like a romanticizer. This time, I want to embrace how in feeling in the now rather than doing it at the end of the day and not really sticking to the transcript.

I'm almost 25. I'm currently watching New Girl on a Tuesday lunch time. I got out of bed and hour ago and made myself a giant salad for lunch/ breakfast. Yesterday I had a left over samosa from a takeaway the night before for breakfast and a Lamb Balti Curry that I ordered but didn't eat for lunch. I made my own rice and for the first time, I ate it like an indian with my hands and it's 100% tastier. It's really true that the flavors really marry together when you eat with your hand.

I am self employed, which is why I have the freedom of watching New Girl on a Tuesday. I am a bridal make up artist and a beauty therapist. I have my own cabin studio in my back garden where I work from and I go to venue to venue for my make up artistry.

I live with my boyfriend Sam, who is a Car Salesman (though I'm sure he'd call himself something more elaborate, because he does more than just sales, he does all the admon, test drives, everything! He works so hard!) We've been together 4 years and it's been the best! The lockdown years were hard but we got through it and since the new year, he's adopted a 'Calm and Collected' persona and I've felt a difference in our relationship. He's always been loving and kind but he over reacts a lot. That sounds bad. I mean like if he stubs his toe, he'll scream about it and he'll ruin the rest of the day for himself. Or if he's cooking (very rare) in the kitchen, he'll get overwhelmed and storm away, which then I have to take over and it leaves a sour taste in our mouths for the rest of the evening. He's also quit vaping since the new year and he's done really well! He's a little overweight (I love his body and his fat belly, it's the most attractive thing to me) but I've always told him to eat better, for the sake of his heart. He's been going to the gym consecutively for the past 2 nearly 3 weeks! He's done so well!

If you can't tell, I'm very much in love with that boy.

I have a small circle of friends. Megan and Hannah. I've been friends with Megan since primary school, and we met Hannah in secondary school. Grew apart after school and only recently we've gotten much closer. I think we've been going to dinners together almost every month for the past year and I have to say it's been one of my favourite nights of the month!

Megan's about to elope and get married to Joe. I've never formally met him, just the odd hello whenever he drops Meg off and picks her up again. He asked me a couple weeks ago to host a Hen Do for Meg and offered to pay for Meg's side. Probably due to the lack of time he's given us. We're going into the City and going to this crazy golf place which I've been dying to go since it opened. It's got lots of sex paraphernalia and no Hen Do is complete without its fair share of Dicks.

In college, I was friends with Amera and I had a boyfriend called George. Me and Amera became friends with a lot of George's friends but as time we on, I think I realised how tired I was. I was absolutely exhausted from pretending to be who I wasn't which sounds so cliche. It turns out I'm not that party hard type of girl, at least not for very long. I'm a be home by 11pm and sleep in the nude with my boyfriend type of a girl. And I love that life. And that's okay.

I don't talk to that group of people anymore. I wish them all the best. I've had to block Amera and her friends because I felt so sad every time I see them on socials because that's not who I am anymore. They're thriving and though I'm happy with my life, my social battery isn't what it is anymore. And that's okay.

[deeeelightfuldee]

Lasts:

1. Last Beverage?

I think water but it could have been diet coke. I drank both at the same time.

2. Last Phone Call?

I think my gram.

3. Last Text Message?

K asked me my plans for tonight. Which is peculiar for him!

4. Last Song You Listened To?

So good by halsey

5. Last Time You Cried?

A couple days ago. A lot going on emotionally, to say the least. But thats ok! Its going to get better.

Have You Ever:

6. Dated Someone Twice?

hehhe.

7. Been Cheated on?

yepppppppppp.

8. Kissed Someone And Regretted It?

No. im pretty dang picky about who i kiss.

9. Lost someone special?

Yes. 

10. Been Depressed?

Yes.

11. Been Drunk?

Lol yes

List Three Favorite Colors:

12. Bright pink

13. blueeeeeeeee

14. Hunter green

 This Year Have You:

15. Made New Friends?

Hmmmm. Yes i suppose so

16. Fallen Out Of Love?

Yes. err, mostly

17. Laughed until You Cried?

Of course.

18. Met Someone WHo Changed You?

This year? No. 

19. Found Out Who Your True Friends Were?

Yeah, i suppose you could say that.

20. Found Out Someone Was Talking About You?

Looooooool yep.

21. Kissed anyone on your friends list?

Idk what friends list this is referring to. 

22. How Many people on your friends list do you know in real life?

Like from tumblr? Just K

23. Do you have any pets?

Benny and Lottie

24. What did you do for your last birthday?

Mom, em, nathan, and hanna made it very special. C too. But it was a let down from K & Z.

25. What time did you wake up today?

I slept until 130am. Then was up til 3. Then slept til 445. Was up until 640. Then up at 8.

26. What were you doing at midnight last night?

Laying in bed.

27. Name something you CANNOT wait for?

Cold weather. Im dreeeeeeeeaming of it.

28. Last time you saw your father?

Ummmmmm.. In person? A year or so

29. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life?

I would have real good income lol.

30. What are you listening to right now?

A christmas movie.  

31. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom?

Yep. my old boss.

32. What’s getting on your nerves right now?

Lol some of the men in my life are just… a lot of work

You

33. What is your real name?

Diana

34. Zodiac Sign?

cancer

35. Male or Female?

Female.

36. Elementary School?

home

37. Middle School?

^^^

38. High School?

^^^^

39. Hair Color?

Dirty blonde naturally, dark brown now.

40. Long or short hair?

Lol mom was just telling me my hair is nearing my low back. Which is shocking. Guess i should cut it.

41. Height?

5′9

42. Do you have a crush on someone?

Somewhat yes

43. What do you like about yourself?

Im fun, kind, supportive, will go out of my way to leave someone/something better than i found it, almost always remain positive

44. Piercings?

Just ears

45. Tattoos?

none

46. Righty or Lefty?

Righty.

Firsts:

47. Surgery?

none

48. Piercing?

Ears when i was a baby

49. Tattoo?

none

50. Best Friend?

nea

51. Sport you joined?

soccer

52. Pet?

millie

53. Vacation you remembered?

Louisiana

54. Concert?

Country thunder

55. Crush?

chris

 56. Alcoholic Drink?

Champagne 

Right Now:

57. Eating?

Nothing, but should make something as i havent eaten yet and its 230 lol

58. Drinking?

Nothing right now

59. I’m about to..

nothin

60. Listening to..

Christmas movie

61. Waiting for…

430

Your Future:

62. Want kids?

Id love that

63. Want to get married?

Yes, but only if the person is incredible.

64. Careers in mind?

Mental health counseling

Which Is Better with the opposite/same sex?

65. Lips or Eyes? Eyes

66. Hugs or Kisses? Hugssssss

67. Shorter or Taller? Taller

68. Older or Younger? olderrrrr

69. Romantic or Spontaneous? Romantic

70. Nice stomach or Nice arms? Arms

71. Tattoos or Piercings? Tatted

72. Sensitive or Loud? Sensitive

74. Trouble Maker or Hesitant? Hesitant

Have You Ever (2):

75. Kissed a stranger?

No

76. Drank hard liquor?

yes

77. Lost glasses/contacts?

n/a

79. Broken someone’s heart?

yes

80. Had your heart broken?

yessssss.

81. Been arrested?

Nope.

82. Turned someone down?

yes

83. Cried when someone died?

Oof. yes. 

84. Liked a friend that is the same sex?

Romantically? no.

Do You Believe In:

85. Yourself?

I do

86. Miracles?

yes

87. Love at first sight?

No. 

88. Heaven?

yes

 89. Santa Claus?

Nope. but man it would be cool.

90. Kissing on the first date?

Honestly, no. 

91. Angels?

yes

92. Sex before marriage?

no

93. Life on other planets?

Its possible

94. Life after death?

Yes, but not on earth

95. Only being with one person forever?

Man that is ideal.

Answer Truthfully:

96. Is there one person you want to be with right now?

No, not really.

97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfrend at one time?

no

98. Do you believe it’s possible to remain faithful forever?

absolutely.

99. What’s the one thing you cannot live without?

Air conditioning

100. What’s one secret you have that not many people know?

I have some but i wouldnt post them lol