#cramps from hell

[audreyh002]

I have been single most of my life. My longest relationship was 20 months, so I really don’t know what it’s like to be taken care of. But on days like today, when I’m balled up in the fetal position from menstrual cramps ripping through my body, its all I can do to fantasize about having a partner go pick up the gyro plate from the restaurant that’s ten minutes away, so I don’t have to spend $10-15 on delivery fees. Or having someone rub my back because, unfortunately the heating pad doesn’t wrap around my entire body, and the uterine cramps are definitely my priority right now. Most days I don’t mind taking care of myself and I’m pretty dang good at it too, but every month my body gives me this reminder that I don’t *have* to do it alone, and instead of seeing it as a badge of weakness like I would have in my 20s, I’m laying here looking forward to the days when I can depend on someone to take care of me when I’m like this. 💔❤️‍🩹

[calesleftboob]

I can feel my guts

[audreyh002]

What the fuck how did I manage to get my period both over Triduum and Passover

in pain, tired, WHYYYYYYYYYYYY

^ nothing serious, just the monthly bloodlettings 😭

[cookinguptales]

on one hand, my mental state might have been the rockiest this week that it has been in like. quite a while.

on the other hand, I just remembered that insomnia cookies fucked the hell out of my order a few weeks ago and they offered to resend the whole thing for free any time in the next month so I get ~free cookies~ tonight.

[franken-loser]

I just found these 2 random ass drawings of victor in my sketchbook and thought i should share them

[calesleftboob]

I find it so funny coz every single month I can tell when tumblr people start their period cuz my 'period drawing' post gets so many likes and re blogs. Hope y'all are doin okay

[inkedhorror]

I NEED TO EXPLODE

[tryingtimi]

I've become a kinda diligent tracker (in every sense) in the last years, because I realised it helps me feel less anxious about "not doing anything" in a year. And I had a lot of stuff planned for this one, so as a pick me up, I'll go through what has happened so far in 2025. (writing and general life-wise)

I’ll already say this: the one sketch a month is not a thing lmao. I got to do it two times in five months. It’s not happening. It was a nice thought, tho.

The anim may be viable, but I’m not sure. Free time’s not yet on my side. Although the RudoCo course hopefully will help with making it at least possible someday. Check out RudoCo guys, their studio makes magic.

The writing related stuff, however, I’m almost positive will happen! Which is huge because I didn’t have much faith in it when I put them up in jan. And it’s thanks to the lovely beta, writing and now I’d say friend group that the legend @tc-doherty formed with loads of truly inspirational people who are not only amazing but fun as hell too. @thegoddesswater, @the-letterbox-archives, @did-i-do-this-write, @cee-grice, @bloodlessheirbyjacques and on another front but not an inch short from unreplacable in my heart @the-void-writes — y’all keep me going, so thank you and a big fat I love you with a smooch on your cute lil cheeks!

Other than Sasin and Metalsea, I'm slowly working on short stories to submit, but at least have some around. They're mostly taking place close to Metalsea or my high fantasy d&d related anthology series that I never talked about here before and won't do it just yet either. Atho, I might just start going over some of the anthology stuff too, given that they will be kinda Witcher first book-like, therefore short stories that loosely connect too. Either way, shorts and shorts! Mostly probably nautical, hehe.

The above mentioned people and a shiney new outline (by the courtesy of my organic wiki and forever House-like brainstorm ball partner) really got the Sasin train rollin. It doesn’t seem much because moving and family stuff are not the greatest rn, but it is a lot to me given everything. Especially because I can see the end, and that really makes it feel possible, so hooray. Also, I don’t think it’s gonna fit into only 30 chapters but a girl can hope lmao.

Okay, so swimming became a thing, apprently. I started in february but didn’t log those cuz that was kinda just a trial period. I fucked up my hip and a leg last year amids many uh less than ideal circumstance, which are not totally heald just yet, but swimming was part of my physical therapy and it helps like a goddamn spell. I’m still in awe from that fact. Funny, because never was a big swimmer, although I was taking classes in school and am a water (although in the past mostly open/live, not pool) fanatic, besides being a big free diving ethusiast since childhood (not extreme depths or anything crazy). But water was more of a sanctuary before, where I could float away from everyone when needed, not a particular exercise. It is a great new face of it now though and I enjoy it very much. Even the casual nudity and general vibe of the changing rooms lmao. Anyway, I may sprinkle around some updates on that too in the future, we'll see.

If you read this through, you're a gem, love you and hope y'all are having a much, much better year so far than the end of the last one! Onward to the rest!

[dekkaddo]

cramps of agony and despair

[dolcegbaby]

yayy my meds are working and i no longer have period pains!! i have to take 2 pills 3 times a day and i feel nauseous whenever i take them

[doodle17]

I want to bash my head against a wall

[cchickki]

finally got my period after it being 5-6 days late

crisis averted

[treesbian]

hey general public. if someone is fostering your cats for you while you're between homes + you were unexpectedly homeless for like 3 weeks + you haven't been able to get to housing that will allow your pets to come with you yet, and you're in regular contact with that someone discussing those cats and paying for their care needs, and then that someone messages you saying they decided they're just going to keep your pets because they decided that's what's best for them, that's stealing, right? that's stealing? the general public of reasonable people in the world agree that that is theft? yes?

that's what these bitches did to my godsister fuck them!!! but they got threatened with criminal theft charges and handed them over ^_^ and my aunt already pressed trespassing charges on them lol. but when I texted them to yell at them about it they lied saying they never stole any cats but like. what they did was stealing. my mom had to take it all the way up to the police but I kind of don't feel bad because it was their own damn fault. I hope their lives aren't ruined forever but I do hope they learn what a consequence is

[umilily]

my body just isn't it

[125storejuice]

I need to go the fuck to sleep but archies throwing up again, this election is making ME throw up, and my sleeping pill/marijuana is not working !!!!!!