#cuz i just realized i wanted to be the First to play with vampires w/ racial dynamics hbhsdfj and obv i still could

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hardest lesson to learn as a creative is if/when you have a cool new idea that seems really original, hurry tf up and start and finish that shit and get it out in the WORLD cuz if you don't, without fail, something new is gonna come along that's gonna seem way too similar to your wip and now you're gonna be stuck fighting the allegations that you ripped that thing off forever even tho you came up with it FIIIIIIIRST

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IWTV S2 Ep7 Musings - Martyrdom & Lestat's Character Development (TVC Spoilers)

Even though IWTV is Louis' story & his arc as the MC, The Vampire Chronicles are ultimately about how all of these vampires affected & impacted Lestat. (Especially since by the end of the series he's not only the MC, protagonist, and (anti-)hero; but he's also the former host for the Sacred Core that created the vampiric race (after Akasha & Mekare); and the elected king of the Vampire Court, affectionately/officially called "(Brat) Prince Lestat" in the final trilogy.) So, even though we're seeing Louis' struggles play out, we're also seeing Lestat's; and one of the big moments is this Trial in 2x7.

Even though the most important thing that happens is ofc Claudia's death, an underrated moment is Madeleine's death.

Lestat callously mocks Madeleine's choice to die with HER "coven"--her companion, Claudia--rather than keep living (ostensibly: keeps fighting, but I'll get to that in a bit), and join Santiago's coven. "The martyr skips her way to Hell."

I was initially booing & hissing at Lestat for being a heartless a-hole, still spiteful against Claudia and failing to fathom how anyone could risk their lives for her; when even HE sat there and let his own daughter/fledgling burn to ash right in front of him.

But on the other hand, I actually love this moment for Les as he mocks Madeleine's choice; not only cuz it's ironic AF, considering Les LITERALLY skipped his way to Hell in Memnoch the Devil; but most importantly cuz this is all (hopefully) contributing to Lestat's character development later on. 🙏

Claudia's death affected Les deeply--nowhere near as deeply as it did Louis, ofc, but she was still his daughter/fledgling. AR never focused on Madeleine past IWTV, but hopefully the show makes Les realize later that THIS moment b/t Madz & Claudia is what TRUE love is--not ultimatums & conditions & ownership; trying to "crush what you cannot own"--but martyrdom & sacrifice & loyalty. Laying your life down for someone else. Eff would you love me if I was a worm--would you CATCH A BULLET FOR ME? Would you BURN for me? That's Claudeleine's love; but in the IWTV timeframe Lestat's just not at the point where he gets it--yet.

Loustat vs Claudeleine: What it Means to Love Someone

TVC also tracks the development/progression/evolution of Loustat's love; struggling to grow & thrive in the weeds of dark eternal damnation. They totally failed e/o in IWTV. Loustat's rekindled relationship was first demonstrated/tested in QotD, when Akasha spared Lou simply cuz Les loved him; rather than burning Lou up w/ the other weak AF vamps she'd slaughtered.

But Akasha also used Louis as collateral if Les refused to serve her.

Les had to risk his life to try making a move on Akasha & save Louis & the other vampires from Akasha's plans for world domination. But that was largely out of self-preservation; not selflessness; as Les was basically her captive, Stockholmed into being her lover.

Les committed horrible atrocities as Akasha's consort, butchering innocents & unleashing hell on earth, slaughtering whole cities--just cuz he was too scared to die. Despite how much he hated himself for what he was doing, no matter what, Les wanted to "fight for life, even when there is no real justification. I wanted to live; I always had."

So OF COURSE Lestat wouldn't understand/appreciate Madeleine's decision to lay down her life and die; not just for Claudia's sake, but also to die for her principles.

Lestat thinks his "capacity for enduring" makes him brave, but compared to Madeleine, he's a hypocritical coward. Madeleine refused to join Santiago's coven, or participate in their shams & farces. She stood on her principles, AND she stood by her companion; even at the cost of them dying--at least they're together.

Ofc, an argument can be made that by becoming Akasha's consort, Les WAS martyring/sacrificing himself for Louis' sake; because Les DID know what true love was, and loved Lou more than he loved himself. And I might agree with that--had AR not written TotBT.

TotBT & MtD: Lestat Skips His Way to Hell

In MtD, Lestat is recruited by the Devil/Satan/Lucifer (who calls himself Memnoch the Devil); and is taken Dante's Inferno style on a tour of Heaven and Hell, in the hopes that Les will hate God enough to join the eternal war against Heaven as the Devil's right-hand. SPOILER: Lestat rejects Memnoch (cuz Les wanted to be a priest--he still LOVES God, despite the "ocean" b/t him & Christ); and as punishment he is trapped in a coma for years, as he's psychologically/spiritually tortured in Hell until he finally breaks the spell & wakes up in Merrick, when Louis tries to kill himself (which AMC pushed up to 2x5).

Lestat had followed Memnoch after a depressive spell of deep self-loathing; feeling guilty for how he'd Turned David in TotBT (raping him into vampirism to be his new companion when Louis rejected him); and still haunted by the memory of Claudia in IWTV. Memnoch showed Les the Divine Plan, when God told his favorite (fallen) angel Memnoch/Lucifer that He would let Himself be crucified as Jesus in the flesh, for His love of humanity.

But Memnoch is horrified, and thinks God's plan is not only a futile failure, but also cheating (cuz being an immortal, He can never really "die" or be sacrificed/martyred). Memnoch appeals to Lestat's own experiences having temporarily come down into flesh in TotBT, body-switching with Raglan James for the desperate love of being human--and then hypocritically wanting to be an immortal vampire again when Les realized being human actually sucks. 😅

At the start of MtD, Les was VERY salty towards all the other vampires (especially Louis) for having refused to help him when he was stuck in Raglan's body in TotBT.

Loustat's love, as genuine as it is, was marred & tainted with ultimatums & conditions & ownership. As much as Les hated being human again, Louis refused to turn Les into a vampire and put him back on the Devil's Road as one of the damned undead.

Les DEEPLY resented Lou for not making him a vampire again. Les assumed that because of their relationship, Lou would HAVE TO do this favor for him; that as his companion/Maker, Lou OWED Les, and by refusing/rejecting him Lou'd BETRAYED/ABANDONED him.

Lestat didn't understand that in Lou's eyes, refusing to Turn Les was Lou's greatest act OF LOVE, the best favor; keeping Les human so his soul wouldn't be damned anymore as an evil blood-drinking serial killer. Lou said "You have triumphed in this as only you could;" but Les (like Memnoch) only saw this as a massive failure. This was Lou's SACRIFICE for Les, putting their love/relationship on the line; as Louis ordered Les to never look for him or talk to him again--to go live as a redeemed human and leave the damned alone--or else. 💀

For all the strides Loustat had made to repair their relationship, Lestat was still UNWORTHY of Louis' love in TotBT; and hadn't appreciated the sacrifices Louis made for him out of love--the kind of martyrdom it took to WILLINGLY sacrifice something precious for someone else's sake. Lestat thought the Maker/Fledgling bond was a stamp of ownership, cuz he'd been Turned by Magnus UNWILLINGLY; out of rape and violence & captivity/enslavement.

Les became a vampire as an act of SURVIVAL; shaking his fists at God the whole time; a chip on his shoulder cuz he never asked to me born into darkness (like Claudia). Louis, however, was made out of LOVE, and WILLINGLY gave up his life to be with Les (yes, we know he was drunk AF & suicidal, but still--he nodded his head cuz he HAPPILY & LOVINGLY CHOSE Les).

Loustat both see Lou's turning as their wedding, but for Les it's still a marriage CONTRACT--a transaction with terms & conditions. He is Louis husband, yes, but God Complex de Lioncourt declared "I AM YOUR MAKER!" Louis was still just a "Fledgling/Slave" under Coven Master ("Massa") Lestat's shingled roof, just like Claudia said.

As much as he loves being a vampire, and as cavalier & devil-may-care as he approaches existence forsaken by God in the Savage Garden; Lestat is fully aware of what it means to be culpable & deserve punishment. Memnoch asked Lestat what he thought Hell should be like for sinners & Evil Doers both human & vampire alike, and at first Les hesitated, "I'm afraid to answer. Because I belong there."

It's not until well after Louis' final rebirth in Merrick that Lestat finally earns back Louis' forgiveness in PLatRoA, and agrees to (re)marry Les & be his consort at Chateau de Lioncourt, Lestat's birthplace. And it's not until Blood Communion, AR's final TVC book, that Lestat risks his life for his loved ones (Gabrielle, Louis, & Marius) for THEIR sake, not his own; going up against Rhoshamandes in the ultimate showdown to save them.

AR is VERY/overly explicit about the Christ-like martyrdom her messianic Prince Lestat undergoes in order to save Gab, Lou & Marius; his killing Rhosh ultimately saving all the vampires & ending the civil war. Les fought Rhosh "with speed and surprise;" going in blindly with the only thing that could get the jump on this SUPER Ancient vampire (Lestat's great-grandfather in the Blood) who would've otherwise overpowered Les as easily as he overpowered Marius. Les fully intended to die fighting Rhosh, but he fought him regardless, hoping to somehow get his loved ones back or join them in death.

Lestat and Louis were reunited, dancing happily at the celebratory ball AMC was clearly inspired by Blood Communion in the Mardi Gras scene from 1x7. And they're obviously lifting from BC in 2x7, too, with the red velvet chair/throne Lestat sits on at the Trial, directly paralleling the numerous Trials & executions Prince Lestat presides over in BC, as he destroys Rhosh's fledglings & minions--and the love THEY showed their Coven Master Rhosh, being willing to die for THEIR principles and refusing to join LESTAT'S Vampire Court.

So hopefully, if AMC gets as far as the Prince Lestat trilogy, Les will remember this moment at the Trial; and hopefully they'll continue using parallels so Les realizes what it means for Madeleine to have martyred herself for love.

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SFW Headcanon Alphabet (Louis Vincent Chauveau)

I made this a while ago without the intention of posting it, so I forgot who I stole the template from... whoops.

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A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

He’s very affectionate! Will praise you until your ego is bigger than the sun.

If you’re shorter than him he’d give you lots of gentle head pats.

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

You would most likely meet at either a party or browsing the wine selection at a store.

He’s a very loyal friend and will always be there for you whenever you need him.

If you’re ever sad and need some cheering up, he’s definitely the one to turn to.

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

He loves cuddling

Curling up on the couch with a blanket and a warm drink, staring at the fire or a cheesy romance movie? Absolutely.

Loves cuddling with the cats, too. Any cats, really. It doesn’t matter.

If he sees you snuggled up on the bed with one of the cats, he melts and joins in as quick as he can without disturbing you.

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

He doesn’t mind not being in a committed relationship, he travels a lot and meets tons of new people all the time anyway.

He’s a really clean person. If he’s left alone for too long with nothing to do, the house will be absolutely spotless.

He’s banned from the kitchen. Period. Full stop. End of story.

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

He’d ask to meet with you somewhere, preferably where you could have some privacy.

Louis would be super gentle about it and wouldn’t yell or scream, even if you were yelling at him.

He’d probably still want to be friends, but would obviously understand if you didn’t want that.

He’d give you space and be patient with you, and if you ever wanted to talk about it more he’d be open for that.

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

Due to his past, Louis has a hard time with committed relationships. On one hand, he’s too afraid that he’d hurt you or worse, but on the other he gets attached to people quickly and doesn’t want to leave you.

In the end, he’s fine either way. He just wouldn’t want to be with someone he isn’t 100% sure he’s in love with.

He wouldn’t want to get married/ propose quickly. He’s heard far too many stories about couples getting engaged/ married too quick and then realizing too late that their partner wasn’t exactly what they thought. Give it a few years.

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

Physically, he’s pretty darn gentle. After years and years of softly petting animals and playing piano in his free time, he’s trained himself to be as gentle as possible.H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

Surprisingly, even though he tends to be a bit handsy, he’s not really one for hugs unless he knows the person.

When he does hug someone it's usually quick, unless he’s close with them.

If he’s close with you then get ready cuz he might not let you go for a while.

Hugs from Louis are warm and make you feel safe, and the scent of his expensive cologne, fine wine, and dark chocolate make it that much better.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

It takes him a while to say it, due to his past.

He’s scared that if he says it too soon, you’ll leave him or he’ll jinx it and the relationship will turn out bad…

You would end up saying it first, and after a while he’d feel ready to confidently say it back.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

Louis doesn’t get jealous very often. He understands that you have your own life and separate relationships.

If you were in a committed relationship, though, and someone was getting a bit too close to you for his liking, he’d stand right next to you and wrap his arms around you, give you gentle kisses, and mutter sweet nothings to you, all while staring the other person dead in the eye.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

He’s a great kisser. He’s had lots of practice, after all~

His favorite places to kiss you (other than your lips, of course) would be your eyes and your forehead.

His favorite place to be kissed is his neck (kinky little f*ck)

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

He wouldn’t really want any kids of his own, they’re too messy…

But he does love kids, and kids seem to love him, too!

He’d be great at telling dramatic stories to entertain them, and could always find a way to cheer up a sad little kiddo.

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

That really depends on the events of the previous night…

If he’s hungover, you’d probably have to comfort him as he transformed into a blanket burrito and tried to sleep off his pounding headache.

Normally, though, Louis would hold you close and give you gentle kisses, rubbing your back and speaking softly.

He tends to wake up early, so he’d probably watch you sleep for a while.

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

Nights with Louis are always amazing.

He’d love to lay out in the garden with a bottle of wine (or perhaps two) and stargaze.

If you wanted something more fast pace, he probably knows of a party or club the two of you could go to.

If you wanted something more calm and loving, cuddles on the couch or a “sleepover” on the livingroom floor while watching all sorts of movies.

If you were looking for something… spicy… Louis would be happy to provide there, too ;)

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

Some things he’d be open about, but others it would take a long time with lots of trust for him to reveal.

He would definitely open up slowly, too scared that certain events from his life would put you off.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

That depends on the person and the subject, but usually he’s pretty chill.

The only thing that would definitely piss him off 100% of the time is cockatoos.

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

He tries his best to remember every little detail about you, and usually succeeds.

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

It’s hard for him to choose!

The moment you met, your first kiss, when you both said “I love you” for the first time, spending quiet nights in the dark with you, dinner by candlelight…

And if you decide to get married and/ or have (a) kid(s)?

He loves everything about you, so it’s impossible for him to pick just one moment to be his favorite.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

If Louis thinks you can take care of yourself, he likely won’t bother you by being overly protective.

If there’s ever a situation, however, where he feels you need saving, he won’t hesitate to step in and get you out of the situation.

Since he tends to deprive himself of blood like an idiot, he’ll make sure to stay away from everyone and completely isolate himself until he gets himself back under control.

He’d trust that you’d keep any secrets he tells you, and that you not tell a soul that he’s a vampire.

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

Oh boy

This man has more money than he knows what to do with, so obviously he’d spend it all on you! (And wine and fancy clothes and cleaning supplies and chocolate and cat stuff, but we don’t talk about that)

He’d go all out on dates. A fancy restaurant, roses, fine wine, stargazing, anything you could want!

He probably wouldn’t buy you too many gifts on his own, but if you asked for something there’s a pretty darn good chance you’ll get it.

If you thought a date with Louis was great, wait for your anniversary…

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

Louis worries a lot… like… a lot.

He’s scared that if he does even the littlest thing wrong, you’ll leave him

He’s also worried that he’ll hurt you, physically and/ or emotionally, without intending to

Because of this, he can sometimes forget to care for himself, only focussing on you

He doesn’t sleep as much as he should, which leaves him tired and drained. It doesn’t help that he’s good at covering it up, either.

Possibly the worst of all his bad habits is the fact that he doesn’t drink enough blood.

He absolutely hates that he has to potentially harm others just to survive, and even though the blood he gets is collected in a completely safe and harmless way, he still has a hard time getting it down.

Not getting enough blood makes him irritable, cranky, and tired, not to mention the physical toll it has on him.

He bottles up his feelings a lot, not wanting to be a burden on others

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

You will never, EVER, see Louis NOT looking fabulous.

He takes every chance he gets to glance at his reflection in the mirror, just to make sure he still looks flawless.

Yes, he does take over an hour to get ready every morning, thank you for asking.

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

If he was truly in love with you, then yes, absolutely.

However, Louis has felt enough rejection and loss in his long life to be able to get over things much quicker than you’d expect.

If it was just a matter of not seeing you for a few days or even a few hours, then yes. No questioning it.

If you have to be separated for an extended period of time, you better be ready for at least a phone call a day, just so he can hear your voice, and a few texts every hour, just to check in on you.

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

Louis hates cockatoos. He was once cursed out by one of the little devils unprovoked, and everyone around laughed at him. He was humiliated by a bird, and here he was thinking his love for our feathery friends was mutual…

His two favorite animals are birds and cats.

Louis doesn’t really like playing piano, but he was forced to learn growing up, and it’s a way to pass the time and possibly impress his partner, sooo…

He hates that since he was born a full blooded vampire, he can’t be cured and has to drink the blood of others just to stay alive.

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

He doesn’t like super sweet tasting things.

Cockatoos, but we’ve already been over this.

He doesn’t like people who act they’re better than everyone else. Even though he cares a lot about his appearance and social class, he’s aware that not many are fortunate enough to have a good life, and wouldn’t ever judge someone based on their appearance/ social status. Most of the time he ends up finding the less fortunate in life a lot more interesting than those who’ve had everything handed to them on a silver platter.

He also hates other vampires that intentionally harm humans or just others in general to get blood, especially if they can be cured of their vampirism.

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)

Sleep? Who’s she?

He really doesn’t get enough sleep… usually it’s only 4-5 hours, not consecutive.

When is asleep though, he’s sprawled out over the whole bed, softly snoring, laying on his stomach with his face in the pillows.

He looks incredibly calm and at rest when he’s asleep.

He’s unfortunately a very light sleeper, but loves to pretend to be sleeping if he wakes up to you petting his hair or snuggling against him~

[ayzrules]

✶ 𝐇𝐗𝐇 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐒: 𝐋𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓 & 𝐇𝐎𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐒, 𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐇 & 𝐃𝐀𝐌𝐍𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍   Long story short, I have been thinking about this for wayyyyy too long now and wanted to get some ~thoughts~ & analysis written down! This post is going to be...fairly long, lol. Apologies in advance :D

  Also, if you can’t see the last gif (the one for ‘holy’), click here. Tumblr keeps fucking up the image when i try to upload it :////

  This post is probably going to be about 2/3 yorknew & phantom troupe/kurapika focused, 1/3 chimera ants, maybe with some references to other arcs (including manga-only arcs) mixed in. so, ofc, tons of spoilers ahead! also, i realize that my blog theme is hard to read (and i’m p sure clicking ‘keep reading’ sends you to the og post itself), so i’m linking the post w/ full text copy/pasted in on my art backup side blog (which has a more legible font) here. 

✶ 𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐇   I’m sure absolutely nobody is surprised with me starting here - there is just. SO. MUCH. DEATH. in hxh. & right from the start, one thing I noticed that togashi really emphasized was the #4 and its connection to death. in japanese, chinese, and im p sure some other asian cultures the number 4 is pronounced like the word for death so it’s associated with death in general, and boy oh boy does the ‘deadly number 4′ thing show up E V E R Y W H E R E. we get to the hunter exam, and hisoka is applicant #44. kurapika is #404. i didn’t notice it at first, but this was so intentional holy shit. togashi is NOT SUBTLE.

  So pika & hisoka are, right off the bat, associated with death. okay. and then there are even more clues to drive the point home: hisoka is member #4 in the phantom troupe, kurapika’s birthday is april 4th (aka 4/4). 100% not a coincidence (!!). with hisoka, it’s pretty obvious why togashi’s throwing all this death 444444 stuff around - dude is a psycho murder pedo clown, literally gets off on killing people (and there’s also the fact that judas sits 4th from the left in the last supper painting, and he’s sort of the judas equivalent for the phantom troupe). with kurapika, though, it’s a bit more subtle and woven deeper into his characterization, which i LOVE. togashi puts the mans in blue & gold & white (traditionally ‘pure’ or ‘heavenly’ colors), makes him so fucking kind & so good-hearted.....when he’s not relentlessly pursuing his revenge, ofc. more on this in the next section, but pika = death. togashi has made that v v v clear.

  Backtracking a bit to hisoka, though, I also just wanted to point out the 4 is death symbolism in the fortunes too (GOD i love the fortunes): in one translation, he’s the false fourth moon, and in the og japanese (i think), he’s the false hare (4th in the lunar zodiac or w/e it’s called. i don’t know the japanese cultural influences here, but in the chinese legend that established the zodiac animals, they race across the heavenly river & the top 12 animals got zodiac slots. the hare finished 4th, so it’s #4 in the cycle). 

  And just as a final note, Tserriednich is the fourth prince of the kakin empire, and also another dude who has a hard-on for murder & other gory shit. again: togashi is not subtle with this, lmfao

✶ 𝐇𝐎𝐋𝐘, 𝐔𝐍𝐇𝐎𝐋𝐘   As probably everyone who’s gotten to yorknew knows, togashi is so 0 fucks given when he wants to be. I mean there’s the whole thing where he just. took New York and decided, Yorknew. LMFAO, but also, he made the main antag of that arc be named chrollo lucilfer, sit around in a ruined church, have a reversed cross coat, pale & dark-haired/dark-eyed, generally dressed in dark colors, very terrible murder guy. liiiike......chrollo x devil symbolism game is 1000/10 at this point lmaooo

  And i know absolutely nothing about christianity in general, but pt/kurapika & yorknew arc is just so full of christian imagery/symbolism! one thing that i L O O O O O O V E though is how togashi really blurs the traditional christian-coded good/evil, holy/damned boundaries.

  Back to kurapika: he wears gold and blue, his coloring is very stereotypically ‘angelic’, he’s precious and good and kind. his chains are all about ~judgment~ and ~healing~ - some of the chains are also in literal cross shapes, aren’t they? And the chain dagger in his own heart...the imagery is very startlingly similar to the immaculate heart of mary, where the swords stabbing thru the heart apparently represent seven sorrows. IDK much about this stuff other than the visual similarities; literally had to google ‘daggers through heart christianity?’ to even get the name of that thing LOL. anyway, at first, it seems like togashi establishes him as the ‘angel’, the ‘good’, the ‘holy’ in the angel/devil, good/evil, holy/damned dichotomy between him and chrollo.

  But that’s not the end of the story. his entire storyline is driven by a huuuuuuuge giant desire for vengeance, first of all, and then there’s the scarlet eyes, which canonically are seen as demonic/cursed/what have you (according to one of the movies or smth? where they show pika as a 10 y/o?), and then we also have red eyes in modern culture being associated w pretty much the same thing (vampires, anyone?). the fight scene with uvo has everything in b&w besides the blood on his face & his red eyes & the moon (<<< more fortune foreshadowing & symbolism, i love to see it), and there are tonssss of scenes where he has to suppress his rage. so all of that is obviously not very angelic of him i would say LOL. in fact, what i find super interesting is that the scarlet/red eyes (which are ‘demonic’) is actually the driving factor behind his super powerful nen abilities; this ties in so well with the fortunes & death associations imo! the fortunes call him the ‘death-bringer’ in one translation, or ‘half-angel, half-death’, so that’s one side of pika = red eyes = death, but there’s also the fact that emperor time is literally draining his life force. so pika = death for both himself and others namely the pt, question mark?

  Now for chrollo: togashi’s devil symbolism is EXTREMELY overt with him, but i love the subtler jesus references too. the church thing, obviously, and the st. peters cross which is cuz st peter respected jesus too much & didn’t think he was worthy to die in the same way as him (or something like that, i am the most atheist person in the world & hxh is literally my entire christian education pls) but is also used as an anti-christianity symbol these days. bandit’s secret looks like a bible, lbr, and mans has a cross tattoo.

  Other things beyond visuals - 12 spiders, 12 apostles; hisoka’s betrayal, where member #4 can be thought to correspond to judas sitting 4th from left at last supper. and this miiiiight be a bit of a stretch, but i think the meteor city being the place of origin may also play into the blurred line between angel/devil and holy/damned here; meteors are defined as space rocks that are in earth’s atmosphere, becoming incandescent in the process. meteorites are for the kinds that actually reach the ground. and idk, lucifer was cast out of heaven / sky too right? so i think there might be some subtle fallen angel imagery/symbolism playing into the pt as well

✶ 𝐋𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓 (𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐃𝐀𝐑𝐊𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐒)   Last section yay! i don’t have as much to say about this, besides when i was making chimera ant arc edits & realized that there might have been some subtle gon/meruem parallels???

  So obviously, everyone knows that line killua says to gon - “you are light” - and then i was just remembering that meruem’s name means.... “light that illuminates all” (!!!!). maybe it’s a coincidence, but knowing togashi, i’m leaning towards nahhhh. there HAS TO be some kinda meaning there (!!).

  Going back to the events of the chimera ant arc....ooh boy. let’s see: gon is optimistic & hopeful even in the face of kite potentially being dead, killua says he’s light, they find kite & dude is fucked up, gon is pissed. gets all angry & ~dark~, especially during the palace invasion when he’s staring pitou down as she fixes up komugi. then the actual fight against pitou: more darkness, more anger, but through it all there’s still light, namely his jajanken being very orange & fiery lookin.....and that final sequence, where he puts all his possible nen he’d ever have into his ~final form~ or wahtever & turns into a male version of true form!bisky but dressed in a crop top & short-shorts (i am SCARRED, btw. s c a r r e d !). there’s just huuuge flashes of light as that’s going on, and it reminded me of supernovas or dying stars when i was thinking about it, where the star is like, collapsing under its own weight? & burning thru its own fuel, until there’s nothing left except a dwarf or black hole or what have you. one final, extremely deadly burst of light & energy before death.

  On the meruem side of things: born into a dark cave, exhibits a traditionally evil/cruel/wicked/whatever personality/traits so that has ppl associating him with darkness. then he gets to know komugi, starts to appreciate other aspects of humanity, seems like he could have actually turned into a decent person who doesn’t want to eat everyone - so that’s a ‘path to light’, maybe? - and then the extermination team yeets themselves into the palace, netero takes him out to bumfuck nowhere, they fight. netero’s fighting is just ALL light, from his giant ass golden 100-type guanyin bodhisattva to the poor man’s rose. again, there’s the sense of finality to it all, in a similar vein to dying stars: netero comes in determined to kill meruem no matter what, and we all know netero doesn’t flake. then we see netero get destroyed after the zero hand, and he triggers the rose, and everything is burning & on fire before the flames are put out and all turns dark again.

  But wait!!! pouf & youpi revive meruem and all he does is play gungi with komugi, even with the poison of the rose. he eventually dies, and the gungi pieces in that final shot of them together (i am BAWLING just thinking about it holy shit) has one that’s all white, one that’s a black ring and white inside. i assume all white is for komugi, who has never done ANYTHING wrong in her LIFE, so i like to think that the 2nd one is for meruem - born “into darkness”, literally & figuratively, but he turns something like ‘good’ by the end. it’s interesting how togashi has sort of gone for a bit of a subversion here: the hero going from light to darkness, and the main antag from darkness to light.

✶ 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐂𝐋𝐔𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍   AahhhhHHHHHhhh so if you read all the way down here through my LONG rambles, tysm! i would LOVE LOVE LOVE to hear what other people think about all this, and i’ve FOR SURE missed tons and tons of stuff - chimera ants is just. SO MUCH. and i don’t know it as well as yorknew eeek.

  I’m not sure if i’m really ~knowledgeable~ in any other areas relating to hxh, so this might be the only one of these that i do, but i definitely think about some of this - esp all the religious symbolism & #4 stuff - a ton! so in the meantime, if it’s of any interest, i’m just going to shamelessly plug my hxh x religious beliefs/superstitions edit series :D lots of love to all!!!

[sailorportia]

Looking Sharp

Fandom: Little Witch Academia

Pairing: Hannah England x Akko Kagari

Femslash February 2019 [Index Post] Day Five: Sharp

approx. 1,800 words, rated T

also available on Ao3

In which Hannah and Akko bond over something they have in common... sharp teeth...

"Babs," Hannah said, "if I ever look like I'm going to say something stupid, I want you to sew my mouth shut for me."

"Sorry, Han. I'm afraid I don't know how to sew."

"That would be a pretty bad idea," Amanda said. "After all, those big fangs of yours need all the room they can get."

Hannah groaned. "Can we not have one lunch, just one meal where you gremlins don't make some half-assed joke about my teeth!?"

Hannah had been trying to rein in her sharp tongue. She really was. But sometimes she still had trouble keeping herself in check. One day she lost her temper at Sucy and made a snappy remark about her gloomy demeanour. Sucy retort was that she didn't want to hear that from a girl with "creepy fangs." Sucy let it go at that, but everyone else thought it was a riot. Cue three weeks of comments about her so-called fangs, every time she opened her mouth.

"Seriously," Hannah said. "You girls need to grow up already. That joke got old ages ago."

"Not as old as a thousand year-old vampire like you," Amanda said.

Hannah rolled her eyes and made the mistake of biting into an apple.

"She's sucking the life out of that apple!" Stanbot said. Constanze's shoulders shook, indicating laughter. The rest of the group joined in. Except for one.

Oddly enough, the only person who wasn't being a pain in the neck about the whole affair was Akko, of all people. She was even being nice. Unusually nice.

"Knock it off, guys," Akko said. "If you keep yapping you'll never finish your lunch."

"Defending Hannah again?" Diana raised an eyebrow.

"Maybe Akko wants to get bitten next," Jasminka said.

"I've always thought I was a snack." Akko laughed. Everyone else went back to eating their lunches and the subject of conversation changed. Akko flashed Hannah a smile and a wink.

Hannah suddenly became very interested in the contents of her plate. Naturally she appreciated Akko coming to her defence, but she was utterly confused as to why. After all, what did she and Akko have in common?

She got her answer later, that night.

It was almost curfew; Hannah was in one of the bathrooms, checking out her so-called fangs in the mirror. "They aren't that big, really they?" she said aloud.

"Eh, I've seen bigger."

Hannah screamed and turned around, face flushing from the embarrassment of being caught. "By the nine!" she exclaimed. "Don't sneak up on me like that, Akko!"

The interloper was leaning up against the wall. Akko looked unusually calm, cool. The glint in her eyes implied a shared secret between the two of them, her smile alluding to some joke that Hannah hadn't been let in on yet.

"Y'know, you really should do a better job of hiding your fangs," Akko said. "Our classmates are going to figure it out soon if you're not careful."

"Figure out what?" Hannah asked.

"Oh, don't play coy," Akko said. "That's the right word, right? I learned that one from Diana. Wait, what was I saying? Oh right. You know what I'm talking about."

"Actually I'm more confused than ever."

Akko pouted. "C'mon! You don't need to hide it! I've never met another one out in the wild before!"

"Another what?"

Akko squinted at her. "Wait, do you really not know? Are you... oh. You're not one of us, are you?"

"One of what? Who's us? You're impossible!" Hannah groaned and turned back around unable to face Akko out of frustration.

And that's when she saw it. Or rather, didn't see it.

Akko's reflection.

Hannah looked back a third time. Akko smiled nervously, revealing the fangs Hannah hadn't never noticed before.

"You're a vampire."

"Sharp of you to notice," Akko said, wincing. "I thought you were one too. But you're not. This is awkward, huh?" And there was the explanation for Akko's kind behaviour toward Hannah; she thought they were two of a kind.

"Wait, you thought I was a vampire too? Because of my," Hannah hesitated, "perfectly normal-sized canine teeth?"

Akko laughed. "They're actually a little big. I mean, I'm a real vampire, and even I thought they were the real thing."

"Ha ha, very funny. Alright, miss real vampire, if you thought I was vampire, then why would I be looking at my teeth in a mirror I can't see myself in?"

"I dunno," Akko replied. "Maybe you were just trying to blend in with the humans?"

"You can literally see my reflection in the mirror."

"Yeah, well I'm not very perceptive. Am I?"

"I'll say."

Akko looked at her feet, then at Hannah, then back at her feet. "You're taking this kinda well," she said.

"Well, yeah," Hannah said. "It's not like I'd feel threatened by a vampire, even when the vampire is you."

"Hey, just because I'm super nice—"

"Not where I was going, but I like your optimism."

"—doesn't mean I don't still need blood," Akko said sternly. "I still get really thirsty sometimes. And when I get really thirsty, I just want to bite someone."

Hannah could see the signs of her classmate's suppressed urges even from the other side of the bathroom. Her hands twitching, shifting her weight from one foot to the other, the way she leaned away from Hannah as if she needed the extra distance between them. Hannah looked into Akko's eyes and saw an urgent, pressing need that would have to be satisfied.

"Are you... thirsty right now?"

Akko rubbed the back of her neck. "I ran out of my blood supply. I was hoping to bum some off of you, but since you're not a vampire..." She shrugged.

The solution to that problem was obvious to Hannah. It should've been obvious to Akko. Maybe she was avoiding it out of... embarrassment...

"If you need blood that bad, you could always..." Hannah trailed off. She moved her head to the side, exposing her neck, hoping Akko would get the message so she wouldn't have to say it out loud.

"I could always what?" Akko cocked her head as well. "C'mon, tell me! What are you—" Her eyes widened, either in realization or in bloodlust. "You want me to bite you!?"

"I don't w-w-want you to bite me!" Hannah yelped. "But I can't let you run around the school biting people like some kind of mosquito! Just take some blood from me until you replenish your supply or whatever."

Akko considered it. "That would work, but are you sure? It'll hurt."

"You've always been a pain in the neck," Hannah said. "What's a little bit more?"

"It's more than just a pinch!"

"I'll just bite you back then," Hannah said. "Then we'll be even."

Akko blushed. "H-Hannah! You perv! At least buy me a drink first!"

Hannah blushed as well at the thought of breaking some kind of vampire social protocol. Biting humans was okay but getting bitten was lewd somehow? "Just bite me already before someone walks in or something." She offered her flushed neck.

Akko was too thirsty to argue. She crossed the bathroom and came in close to Hannah. With calmness intended to reassure, she placed one hand on Hannah's shoulder and used the other to pull her collar out of the way. Mumbling a warning for her not to flinch, Akko brought her mouth to Hannah's neck and sank her fangs into the soft flesh.

A moan broke through Hannah's lips. Akko hadn't exaggerated; it did hurt. But it also felt good. Really good. Hannah told herself that the surge of heat tingling its way through her body was some mechanism that vampires had evolved to keep their prey complacent. It certainly had nothing to do with how nice Akko's lips felt against her neck. As Akko drank from her, she pressed up against Hannah, pushing her back up against the sink. The strength in Hannah's legs faded and she clung to Akko for support, her fingers gripping the back of Akko's uniform.

When she had her fill, Akko pulled her fangs out and—as she always did when she fed—kissed the twin wounds, to make them better. Hannah squeaked at the kiss, but didn't object. She released the tension in her arms and Akko stepped back. She wiped away the blood on her lips with her hand, which she then licked clean. "You're all good? The wound should close up soon. Something about vampire saliva."

Hannah nodded. She felt a little light-headed. Nothing she couldn't handle. The bite stung. She could handle that too. What she couldn't handle was the overwhelming desire to make good on that suggestion she'd made before. She chalked that up to vampire nonsense as well.

"You've had your snack," Hannah said breathily. "Now it's my turn."

She pulled at Akko's collar and ran a finger down the side of her neck. Akko shivered in response and didn't resist when Hannah lowered her head and nibbled at Akko's neck, taking skin between her teeth and tugging gently. Then she imitated Akko and pressed her teeth into Akko's skin, making a low sound in her throat as she did. Hannah's so-called fangs weren't nearly as sharp as Akko's and obviously didn't pierce the skin, but they still hurt quite a bit. The vampire yelped, but rather than try to get away, she clung held Hannah closer. Akko wasn't used to being on this side of the biting, but she didn't mind it.

Once she had her fun, Hannah pushed Akko away, perhaps to make sure things didn't go any further.

Akko covered her face with her hands. "I can't believe you actually did it. Biting a vampire? Who does that?"

"You're a supernatural creature that lives off blood and that's weird to you?"

Akko uncovered her face, which was blushing furiously. "I bite people cuz I need to! You did it cuz you were into it!"

"I was not 'into it!'"

"You totally were! You moaned!"

"Y-you're imagining things!"

The two of them glared at each other, nose to nose. They were both slightly out of breath, and the sound of their panting did nothing to quell the desires bubbling under the surface.

"We should be going," Akko said. "We don't want anyone wondering where we are." And more to the point, wondering why they were both missing together.

She was about to leave when Hannah spoke up. "If you ever run out of blood again," she said hesitantly, "you can come to me for a quick fix."

Akko laughed. "Are you going to bite me again if I do?"

Hannah bit her lip as she considered the possibilities. "Maybe. If I can't think of anything better to do..."

[simplylove101]

Influential TV Shows

Okay this is kinda random and why I prob won’t tag the shows I list cuz this is more just something I wanted to get out of my head after watching J&J’s latest podcast where they were talking about this topic. They kept it to 7 shows each and while that would certainly be interesting to try, that’s kinda hard. lol I went about grouping some of them - shows that shaped me growing up, shows that impacted me/stuck with me, comfort shows/watch with the family, taught me about fandoms, etc. And saying something about each of them. Anyway, this is stupid but here we go lol:

The Shows Growing Up:

Sailor Moon: Okay, nobody make fun of me. lol This is the first show I remember really watching as a kid that wasn't Barney or whatever, something I decided to watch by myself and it actually had an ongoing story. And ofc it took time for me to realize that this was just an English dubbed version that they would play on Cartoon Network. Looking back on it, it’s a little cringey (the voice readings, Serena being a bit of a crybaby) but seeing girls, even if it was animated, kicking ass over evil as a group made an impression on me so it’s no wonder I would watch it religiously after school and was sad when they stopped airing it. And ofc I watched all the movies too. I was a shameless fan. lmao I also eventually read the manga and appreciated it.

Hey Arnold: As a kid, I would watch Cartoon Network & Nickelodeon (& eventually Disney when I got a little bit older), and I think one of the Nickelodeon shows that really stuck with me as a kid, like Rugrats, was this one. It had a wide range of really distinct characters. It was genuinely funny. And I did love the dynamic between Arnold & Helga (who was interesting & sometimes they would let her be the protagonist of an ep instead of him, like the therapist one which is a def fave) even if her crush was kinda as stalkerish as you can get why maintaining innocence. lol And you know what? I did totally watch the recent movie they did where it tied up loose ends like getting these two together and allowing her to grow as a character. Gotta say it was rewarding after all this time. lol  

All That: I feel like I gotta put this here because I watched this show all the time as a kid. And I think it’s something that really taught me about comedy. I had seen things from Saturday Night Live growing up cuz of my parents but this was my Nickelodeon version with people that weren’t much older than me at the time so I could really get what was going on/enjoy it. It’s also the first place where we saw people like Amanda Bynes & Kenan Thompson & Kel Mitchell (which is partly why I later watched things like The Amanda Show and Kenan & Kel) What can I say? As a young person, it was just really cool seeing kids being funny. Yeah, there was some cheese but I didn’t care. It stayed with me.

Boy Meets World/Sister, Sister/Lizzie McGuire/Even Stevens: I kinda cheated here and bundled these shows because these are four of the shows I watched on Disney growing up (Disney showed reruns of Boy Meets World & Sister, Sister for the record) There were others like That’s So Raven, Suite Life, Wizards of Waverly sort of, Proud Family to name a few but these shows I picked have such iconic episodes that I still remember well and love. Like Even Stevens - musical episode hands down Idc. Boy Meets World - Scream-inspired Halloween ep for sure. Yes, there was cheesiness with all these shows. Sometimes very after-school special, but they shaped me I think. Also gotta mention, I remember thinking of Hilary Duff as my idol. lol

The Ones I Watched With the Fam:

That 70′s Show: Now the thing with my family is that we were one where for a time we would watch tv while eating dinner and my dad would have control of what channel we watched. It was always this way, which meant it would either be Law & Order or Seinfeld (the second one I was cool with and I almost included it on here cuz it’s such a staple comedy but eh,,, I appreciated it more later on. It felt more forced on me at the time) This is probably one of the only shows I can say my whole family truly agreed on watching all together tho, including my sister who generally watches trashy reality shows. This show will always remain one of my faves, because it was hilarious. It got a little weaker towards the end (We do NOT speak about Season 8) but I loved how it was a true ensemble sitcom where everyone brought something to the table and enjoyed the different dynamics between the group. The funny running gags, Jackie & Hyde still remain one of my all-time otps, and Kelso is probably the funniest & lovable dumb character I can think of (If nothing else, Ashton Kutcher was meant to play this part ok) It was nice to have something my whole family could enjoy together. It was a rarity so this show has a special place in my heart for that alone.

Joan of Arcadia: Another show that has a place in my heart, despite it only lasting 2 seasons and it ending on a bad note (major cliffhanger, still never fully making things right w/ Adam after destroying his character, ultimately S2 was problematic but still) because this is a show that I watched religiously (pun not actually intended here lol) with my mom every Friday it was on. What I loved about it was that the concept is centered around Joan talking to God yet it generally wasn’t being preachy. Joan wasn’t always willing to do what God wanted her to do, and things didn’t always turn out how she wanted. It was a kinda perfect blend for me and my mom to watch together. After this we were more willing to watch stuff as a pair cuz we were close but this started all that. I remember always being curious how God would appear to Joan cuz it was always changing, but there were some fave recurring ones like Cute Guy God, Goth God & Old Lady God to name a few. heh Joan was played wonderfully by the awesome Amber Tamblyn who could always make me cry (naturally she played my fave Tibby in the Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants movies too lol) and she had awesome friends in Adam & Grace (who were my faves) and family. I rewatched this show and you know, I’d say S1 holds up and even the first half of S2. Heck, the episode where Joan & Adam break up towards the end of it, while totally heartbreaking and PISSES me off cuz bad writing for Adam, was solid simply for the acting so there’s that. lol

Buffy the Vampire Slayer: Putting this show under this category because this was a show that I mostly got into because my sister loved it growing up. I was really young when it came out so I mostly remembered bits & pieces when I later watched it when I got a little older. It stuck with me tho cuz ofc the awesome Sarah Michelle Gellar playing badass Buffy (she was my sister’s idol) and it was a genuinely funny and smart show. It also got dark too. It wasn’t always solid towards the end, but I think it mostly nailed the actual ending (why Anya had to die tho... Spike I got but ugh) Anyway, this was kinda a big deal cuz it was the only thing my sister and I really watched together that wasn’t bad reality television or me barely paying attention to Dawson’s Creek at the time lol This showed that my sister could have taste when she wanted to (lmao sorry)

The Carol Burnett Show: I had to mention this show because this is one that got me, really my family, through dealing with my mom’s dementia. We chose to care for her at home instead of putting her in a nursing home. We did this for 2 years until her death. And the one thing we (excluding my sister cuz her & old stuff don’t mix) could always count on cheering us up was this show. My dad told me that my mom loved this show growing up and that’s why we turned on for her. So luckily memory or no memory, she still had a sense of humor and she knew when to laugh. And with good reason. This show is hilarious. So iconic. Carol Burnett was/is rightfully loved dearly for this show. I wish I had more I could say, but this was truly a comfort show when I desperately needed it so I am forever grateful that it existed.

Honorable Mention: Young & Hungry - another show that got us through that dark period, my dad actually really enjoyed this, despite seeming skeptical, and eventually started calling it the “Josh & Gaby Show” lmao Only thing is we never finished it together so oops. Not so much influential maybe but worth mentioning it felt like since it was underrated, got me thru a tough time, was hilarious and I loved that cast a lot. Emily Osment deserved to be the lead of her own show. Comedy queen.

The Ones That Brought Out the Fangirl In Me AKA The Teen Years:

The O.C/One Tree Hill/Gossip Girl/The Vampire Diaries: Another category where I’m just grouping them up together cuz ultimately it wasn’t about high art with these shows. They were the staple teen shows that everyone was watching and well, I was one of those people. lol It all started with The O.C. It was one of those ‘at the right time’ kinda things cuz I just went into the 6th grade when S1 started and it was such a big hit that everyone was always talking about it and there were even shirts involved (I never went that far lol) but this is where my need to explore YouTube came and then I was making fanvids. Gossip Girl is the one where I actually inserted myself into a fandom for the first time. My goodness the cringe that came with it but it gave me two of the longest online friendships I’ve ever had so I don’t regret it. (Shoutout to @backtothestart02 here as one of them) And well, three of these shows taught me the toxicity that can come from fandom. So I’ve been less vocal/more aware with other shows because of it. There’s problematic stuff in all of these but they were entertaining most of the time despite frustration (lol) 

Honorable Mention: Teen Wolf - Had to mention this one cuz this was a show where I had a group of friends who all watched this together and we talked about it til the end (even when we weren’t happy with it lol) I was never really vocal in the fandom cuz by this point I was wary of them (fandoms I mean), but it was nice to share a show with people who felt similarly about it. As a show, I truly loved it up to 3B. Some of my favorite episodes were the ones that almost felt standalone-ish (3x06 AKA Motel California still remains my fave to this day) Lastly, it’s because of this show I was introduced to Dylan O’Brien who I always refer to as my ‘always & forever’ guy so yeah lol

Maybe Superhero Shows Are Worth Watching lol:

The Flash/Daredevil/Cloak & Dagger/Runaways: So I’m someone who growing up, beyond Spider-Man and Batman, never really jumped at superhero movies. I still don’t to an extent but I’m more willing to watch stuff now. I think because when it comes to TV, I’m willing to check out at least an ep. I got into The Flash because my friend Lauren was really into it (and still very much is now) and wanted me to check it out so I did. I sorta watched Arrow before it until a point so I’d seen Barry’s appearances on it and remembered thinking he was precious so I wasn’t surprised that I liked him as a main character. I do think these later seasons have lost some quality but I think the earlier ones were very solid and Grant is perfect in the role. Daredevil... R.I.P. That show was so high quality so the fact that Netflix cancelled it is just rude. Now... Cloak & Dagger has been one of those surprises for me cuz it was such a slow burn that when it really got going it left me wanting more. That S1 finale was so solid. Cannot wait for S2. Love the dynamic between Ty & Tandy. Now Runaways isn’t perfect but it’s my biggest fandom right now and I’m proud of that fact. It’s a show that highlights diversity with 4 PoC leads & 4 kickass ladies (Nico & Gert are my bb girls), healthy ships including an LGBTQ couple currently as the main one (tho it is Gertchase that owns my heart), and overall a pretty great cast that meshes well like the thrown together family they portray. It even got me back into writing fanfic again. A miracle tbh. lol

Overall Just Amazing:

This Is Us: I just think that this show pulled me in the second they revealed that first plot twist in the pilot. It surprised me and then they kept doing that a bit after. Now it’s more about how it has the ability to make me cry every ep and feel things. It doesn’t always touch me the same it did in that first season (it was an emotional year for me tbh) but it does have a class act cast who can always pull at my heart strings.

Boardwalk Empire: This technically could have went under something I sort of watched with my dad, but it is kinda a weird show to share I guess. We didn’t usually watch it together (saved some awkward convos sometimes lol) but always talked about each episode weekly and it was kinda fun cuz it was usually in-depth. My dad still quotes things from it to this day. He also once said that he considers S1 the best TV season he’s ever watched. I agree that it was great. For me, the first 3 seasons are solid while the last 2 felt different but still pretty good. There was such quality to it. Great acting headed by Steve Buscemi. What can I say? I have a thing for gangster stories. I could say more but I’ll stop. lol

Stranger Things: The show that really turned me into a binge-watcher. I had just gotten Netflix and what show did I decide to watch on my birthday? This show. I had seen things in the media about the kids from it and I was like, they’re adorable!! And ofc I got hooked when I actually watched the show. It just has everything in it that I like: mystery, thrills, humor, hint of romance, awesome acting, music moments, nostalgia. This was my obsession for a while until I got into some other things but if you don’t think I’m totally pumped for S3, then you best believe I’m watching it all in a day if I can. lol

Community: This is a show that reminded me how a show can think totally outside of the box and still have a lot of heart with its comedy. I love situations where a group of misfits come together and become a family. I love that this show celebrates being different. Troy Barnes remains one of my favorite TV characters ever (& omg his friendship with Abed is pure goals!!) and Donald Glover played him perfectly. And Alison Brie is just adorable as Annie. Love this group of weirdos. The quality was different after S3 but I still adore it.

Into the Badlands: Have to mention this show because what it has been doing action-wise is just incredible. The fighting sequences are out of this world. I’m always excited to see how they top it. Also, an Asian male lead? Go dude! The whole cast is wonderful and everything is just high quality, ok? Also, that cinematography!! Can’t believe it’s ending when it comes back. Sadness.

One Day at a Time: This is more of a recent discovery for me (had friends who watched it and knew it was good but only decided to check it out not too long ago) but it’s already made its impact on me. This show has so much heart to it. The writers put so much care into their work when they bring up these controversial issues in the episodes. All while being totally hilarious (but also trust me, I manage to cry at least 1 or twice an ep lol) A show centered on a Cuban family, plenty of good rep for LGBTQ/non-binary people while also handling things like depression/anxiety, addiction, immigration, etc. It’s definitely making its mark on TV. Also, Rita Moreno is a living legend who I adore. I love this cast so much.

12 Monkeys: I. loved. this. show! I still think it had the best series finale that I have seen in a while. It wrapped up things so well that I was smiling for a while after watching it. I couldn’t believe that of all shows this one gave me a happy ending. lol Casserole remains one of my all-time ships because they were truly epic and pulled at my heart strings so many times. Jennifer Goines was my queen. But seriously, a show about time travel that managed to make sense? So impressed. And the visuals? gahhh

Friday Night Lights: Last, but most definitely not least, this show is just up there as one of the all-time bests IDC. The fact that at first glance the show seems centered only about football and it got me to keep watching definitely says something. lol This show had so much heart, the cast was excellent, an ending that was pretty much perfect. Coach & Tami Taylor were relationship goals. Honestly one of the best portrayals of a married couple I’ve ever seen because they were very much a team (while yes there was the occasional bickering that you gotta love) and it just felt real, you know? Also, it’s a show that proved that you can come back from a sophomore slump (yeah S2 was the worst season) and continue to be great.I can’t decide if it’s my favorite show of all-time but it’s certainly one of the first ones to come to mind. So glad I decided to give it a chance.

There’s probably a couple other shows I could list here but some I haven’t finished yet and don’t feel ready to put them on here yet. This is just what I could come up with.

[teamkaiforever]

Seven Minutes in Heaven

(requested by anon)

Kai Parker x Reader word count: 6 036 / reading time: 22 minutes warnings: smut, smut, smut … summary: Kai and Reader have some history together, study at the same college, and end up going to the same party where during playing ‘seven minutes in heaven’  something happens. [to the anon who requested it: i really hope you like it, i know its a bit more smuff than smut and definitely came out longer than i anticipated but… let me know] *gif by me ________________________________________

Her eyes drifted towards the bottle, watching it spin maybe for the 10th time that night. Parties weren’t her scene but lately she had been doing a lot of things that weren’t her ‘scene’. Going to a party in her dorm which her upbeat roommate was throwing was one of them. The other? It wasn’t a thing so much as a who and well, he was there too. His eyes kept doing the same dance her eyes did – drifting from the bottle towards her and back again while he sat at the opposite end of the same couch, completely ignoring the girl trying to find a way to wrap herself around him. All night every single girl had tried to get his attention in every possible way – offering him drinks, flirting with him, asking him to dance but he only seemed interested in getting her attention and the only time he danced that night was when she was on the dancefloor.

Y/N had been dancing by herself, looking at him from a distance and trying not to feel jealous at the fact his hands were on some girl’s waist. Then she had lost him in the crowd and a guy had started dancing with her. It was like they had pulled each other like magnets and at first she hadn’t even realized those were his hands on her body, then she had panicked a little but in the end the moment he had spun her around and their eyes had met she had caved. Her knees had gone weak and being by his side, in his arms had been the only thing she had need. Just like that one night almost two weeks ago they had slept together.

Sleeping with him had been a reckless, rush decision. At least that’s what she told herself to explain her out of character behavior but the truth was different. Kai had caught her eye the moment he had walked in the room that very first day, just like it had happened with every other girl in campus. He was the forbidden fruit, in a way. Something unreachable for her because… why would he pick her out of all the girls throwing themselves at him? He was a ‘dream bae’ as her roommate would put it, beyond charming, funny, drawing her in even more with each day and it had taken him sharing his secret with her to fully understand why that was. And instead of being frightened he was a vampire/witch hybrid, she felt relieved because there was someone who knew what it was to be a supernatural being.

     “Kai –” her friend clapped excitedly. “Wonderful. And now for the girl –”

Her friend spun the bottle mouthing ‘Let it be me’. Kai rolled his eyes almost unnoticeably at the words and he pushed away the girl’s hands off him yet again. Y/N sighed and her gaze drifted towards the bottle watching it spin around and around again, not stopping or slowing down for a moment. A part of her knew what it felt to be pushed away by someone you like and she felt bad about the girl, the other half was doing a little happy dance in her head thinking how out of every girl at the party for him it was only her. Even though she still couldn’t understand why or how she had caught his attention. Besides her having magic, there was nothing special about her. There were rare times she dressed up or put make up on or dressed even remotely like girls her age did. It was mostly pony tail, leggings or jeans with a t-shirt and her favorite sneakers; headphones on, focusing on her studies. Their first night together had been one of those rare times she had dressed up for a blind date which had stood her up and Kai had swooped her off her feet. The second Kai had walked in the bar on campus – everyone and everything else had vanished around her and all she could see was him. Later on they had been laughing, talking, drinking and he had offered to walk her home just to be safe. But in the end he had taken her to his place a little off campus, spending the entire cab ride making out with her in the back. What he had done to her that night to get her to open up and let go completely was still a mystery to her. It had been one of those instant connection she always saw in movies and never thought really happen off screen.

Her fingers pulled down on her skirt and she shifted on the couch, moving her feet off the table so one of the guys could walk past her, not even glancing at her. Not that she would’ve noticed anyways because her eyes drifted towards the other end of the couch where Kai hadn’t torn his eyes away from her. His lips curled up a little catching her gaze and he ran his fingers through his hair. What wouldn’t she give for that to be her hands –

    “Oh…” her friend muttered, trying to hide the disappointment in her voice as the bottle stopped pointing at – “Y/N. You lucky girl indeed.”

Y/N glanced at her friend then at the bottle and shook her head, mouthing ‘No.’ “You go, I don’t want –”

Kai jumped up, quickly wiping his sweaty palms in his jeans before outstretching his hand for hers. “I want you.” his eyes remained focused on hers. “Those are the rules right? And I know you are not a rule breaker. Don’t tell me you haven’t been dreaming about this all night too –”

Y/N studied his face for a moment, outstretched her hand towards his and he pulled her up from the couch. A shockwave of electricity flowed through her body the second he took her hand in his and led her towards the small closet. Her roommate called out to them she was setting the timer and a moment later they were all alone in the small dark space. Barely 0.2 seconds after the door got locked from the outside Kai had her pinned against the wall and his lips collided with hers in a passionate kiss, not wasting a second. Took her a split second to respond to the kiss, pull his body towards hers and less than half a minute to push him off.

    “Damn, I missed your lips against mine–”

Her fingers ran through her hair, attempting to catch her breath while trying hard not to smile at how good the kiss and having him close to her again had felt. “I didn’t –“

    “Liar.” he smirked leaning towards her again but she held him an arms lenght away. “You’ve been avoiding me. Why?”

    “I am not avoiding you.”

    “Really?” he pushed her hand way and rested his forehead on hers, gently brushing her cheek with the back of his hand. “Every time I try to talk to you after class, you run off. All night tonight you’ve been avoiding me except for that one time we danced together for like two minutes before you ran off again and now you didn’t even want to come here with me. Have I done something to upset you?” Y/N shook her head, avoiding his gaze. His fingers gently brushed against her cheek and he tilted her chin up, forcing her to look at him. “Then why?”

    “Because this isn’t me!” she said in a hushed voice. “I don’t dance ‘hands all over’ with guys, even if they are the hottest guy I’ve seen in my life –“

   “You think I’m hot?”

   “– not even if I’ve slept with them.” she continued as if the way his eyes had lit up at her statement hadn’t just made her heart flutter like never before. “Let alone with a guy I barely know –”

    “You do know me. Better than anyone actually.” he cupped her cheek with one hand. “You know every part of me and I still cannot believe you didn’t run when you found out what I am. Where I come from and what I’ve done. That’s how I know you feel something too –” Y/N shook her head while he placed his hand over her heart. “That and the fact your heart never beats like that around other guys, only around me –“

     “Doesn’t matter.” she whispered, clearing her throat. “I saw you earlier with that girl. You both looked pretty into each other–”

Kai grinned. “Awwhh you got jealous someone else put their hands on what belongs to you–”

    “What?! Me?! Jealous?! Don’t flatter yourself, Parker.” she scoffed. “What we had w-was a one night stand prompted by –”

      “– how beyond hot you looked that night.” he finished, trailing his fingertips up her skirt. “I mean you look hot 24/7, but that night was something and that short skirt you are wearing right now just – ” he licked his lip. “Honestly, its been driving me nuts how every time you danced tonight it kept finding ways to lift itself up. And the way your body grinded against mine, my hands on your waist and your hands reaching back for me –”

    “You just can’t keep your hands to yourself.” she took a shallow breath. “Just like right now.”

Kai smirked, leaning in a little closer. So close she could feel his breath on her face intoxicating her completely. “I don’t see you pushing my hand away.” he licked his lip, lifting her skirt up a little.

Y/N pushed him off her and scoffed, ending up pinned against the wall again. “Fuck it, Malachai –”

    “Well, if you want me to.” he grinned. “How can I say ‘no’ to the girl of my dreams?”

Her mouth fell open for a moment. “T-that’s not what I meant. I–”

      “Wasn’t it? Cuz your eyes, they look different. Kind of like they did that night when I pushed you against the wall, tore off that dress and we spend the entire night  –“

     “—getting lost in each other?” she involuntarily bit her lip at the memory, quickly shaking her head in an attempt to clear it out which turned out to be the hardest thing to do. Her mind instantly drifted to the memory, replaying every second of their night together in slow motion –“I don’t know what you are talking about.”

Kai brushed his lips against hers, his eyes darting between her eyes and her lips. “So if I am to slip my fingers between your legs right now… you won’t be wet for me? You won’t melt under my touch, your knees won’t go weak just like they did that night –“

Y/N shook her head replying with a ‘No’, her voice barely audible with the music playing outside. Though that wasn’t the reason why she couldn’t hear herself say the words. With him standing this close it was way too difficult to think and breathe let alone speak. Her heart raced in her chest, beating so loudly she was worried everyone in the whole building could hear it. All because of him –

      “You are such a bad liar.”

His lips crashed against hers in a kiss that left her feeling dizzy. He had taken her breath away again and with every passing second she could feel her control slip away. He held her wrists on either side of her head, his lips not wanting to part with hers for more than a second while his body pressed firmly against hers as if he wanted them to actually merge into one soul. His crotch grinded against hers a little harder every time making her mind drift away into a fantasy of the two of them, what they could do during the remaining maybe 5 minutes they had in the closet and the fact she could feel how hard he was in that moment only added more to it. Last time this had happened things had been different, kind of like in a haze. This time she was more sober and aware of her actions than ever.

      “You have no idea what you do to me, do you?” he whispered in between kisses, pushing his crotch against hers. “You drive me nuts just with being you. How you look at me and tear your gaze away with your cheeks flushed whenever I catch your eye.” He rested his forehead on hers, his eyes drifting between her eyes and her lips while his fingertips touched them gently. “You are not just a one night stand. Not to me. And if that’s all I am to you – I will spend however long it takes to change it. I want you, I will want you in my arms forever –”

   “Forever is a really long time, you know –” she took in a shallow breath, wriggling her wrists free. To her surprise he let her and she used her chance pull him closer, digging her fingers down his spine to her jeans pockets where they slipped in giving his ass a little squeeze. “Even as a vampire you can’t make this promise.”

   “I just did –”

    “You are just telling me what I you think I want to hear so you can get what you want—“

Kai pulled away a little, his eyes searching in hers. Her words had struck a nerve with him more than anything ever had. Maybe the old him would’ve done something like that, but the thing was with her everything was different. His feelings had gone haywire and each of them was connected to her. It had taken him a while to figure out it wasn’t just the physical attraction, that there was something else which he couldn’t control or push away. “You really think that?” A few seconds passed through to him they felt like centuries. “You want to know what I felt ever since I saw you and specially that night? Let me show you –“

Y/N barely managed to take a breath before his lips smashed against hers again, hungry, anxious. A moment later she was back at the bar where she had met with Kai two weeks ago, only seeing things from his point of view. Feeling everything he had felt – his heart racing, his palms getting sweaty, all the nerves he had to fight off while walking towards her. How the second their eyes had met the world had dissolved around him and all he could see was her; his heart nearly bursting hearing her laugh and call out his name, even more so when he had kissed her for the first time after daydreaming about it for weeks. Followed by the wave of panic as to what she’d do, stretching into eternity when in reality it had been barely a few seconds before she had gripped his shirt and pulled his lips towards hers –

A moan tumbled off his lips and she felt him rip her soaked panties straight off her. A moment later he pulled away, his gaze never leaving hers while he pinned her wrists together over her head, tied them together and then hooked the knot to a bolt-like clothes hanger on the wall.    “When I woke up in the morning and didn’t find you in my arms… a part of me died.” he trailed her lips with his fingertips. “Falling asleep with your head on my chest, my arms wrapped around you – that was the happiest I had felt in forever and… I kind of thought we were gonna stay in bed all day the next day. You know, I’d make you breakfast in bed… then have you for breakfast until lunch…”

     “You did?”

Kai hummed. “It’s been two weeks and I can’t sleep. I lay awake all night thinking about you. About us.” he unbuttoned her shirt button by button, his fingertips brushing against her skin lightly as he did. Every time it happened her heart skipped a beat and she could feel her skin turn on fire even more than it already was. “My mind goes wild and I can’t focus on anything but how much I want you. To kiss every square inch of your body like I did that night…” he kissed down her jaw line and onto her neck, going lower without taking his eyes off hers for a second. His fingertips trailed soft patterns on her skin sending shivers all through her body and turning her skin on fire even more. “Explore every inch with my fingertips; listening to your heart race when I touch you, just like it does right now. Two weeks I could almost feel your lips on mine, your naked body against mine every night. You know, you tore the sheets gripping on them that night and my pillow still smells like you –”

Y/N took a shallow breath, lightly biting her lip when he pushed her bra up and cupped her breasts with his large hands. All this teasing was driving her nuts; no one had ever been able to get her this crazy, it was a Kai thing. Her palms balled into fists and she found the urge to use magic to get herself free and bury her fingers in his hair while his tongue swirled around her nipple, rolling the other between his middle and index finger for a moment before he playfully slapped each of them. Every touch sent a thousand butterflies in her stomach, spreading the feeling all through her body and she couldn’t help but feel herself starting to drip down her thighs. “I’d say I’m sorry about the sheets–” she moaned quietly. “– but I’m really hot – not, I meant not.”

   “You’ll be burning by the time I’m done with you.” Kai smirked devilishly at her, lightly biting her stomach. Even in the dim light she could see his eyes had darkened and were no longer their usual shade of blue. Though there was something else too – they glowed like she had never seen them before. “So beautiful –” he whispered, drawing figurines with his fingertips all over her body not taking his eyes off hers for more a split second. “I can’t get you out of my mind. Your voice, your eyes, your smile …all the sounds coming out of your lips when we were together, tangled tight in the sheets –” he cooed, pulling her skirt down her legs until it was laying on the floor around her ankles.    “And then I see you in the hall looking at me, walking away from me –” he cooed, his fingertips brushing up her inner thighs all the way to her warmth, spreading her legs wider. “I sit next to you for 3hrs in class and all I want is to let my hand drop lower, slip where it’s not supposed to. I want to pull you in my arms. Kiss you until you need me to give you mouth to mouth then and there. No one would even know –“

    “Why didn’t you?” she wondered, her eyes darting between his eyes and his lips. Kai gave her a small smile, raising his eyebrows. “Oh –“

    “You are not getting away from me now.” he smiled innocently at her, drawing soft circles on her clit with his fingers enough to fuel the fire he had started even more. “Awwh, so wet you are dripping and I haven’t even touched you yet.”

Y/N bit her lip feeling his fingertips brush against her clit, spreading her arousal around for a moment and then his tongue against her swollen clit. A quiet moan tumbled off her lips and she couldn’t help but tremble at his touch. How long had they been in there? Five? Seven minutes? Less than that? Looking into Kai’s eyes she could feel herself getting lost in more ways than one. It was like they were stuck in a moment in time, frozen… just the two of them, the only two people in the world.

    “We have all the time in the world for me to drive you just as crazy as you drive me.” he cooed, lightly pinching her clit for a moment before sliding just his middle and index fingers inside her; slowly curling them around to feel every inch, pulling out to the fingertips and going in to the last knuckle again, thrusting them inside her a little faster every time. “Hmm, so tight, wet and fucking warm… I can barely wait to feel those tight walls wrap around me again –”

     “Kai –“ she bit her lip at the thought of what his words meant. “We are in a closet. With like everyone probably listening –”

    “I don’t care.” he leaned in closer, leaving wet sloppy kisses all over her neck and down her body. “I want you. Here. Now. I want to hear you beg for me to hold you up against the wall and make you cum around me again… and again.”

Y/N started saying something but all that came out of lips were moans. Her eyelids fluttered closed as she threw her head back, feeling his tongue against her clit; lapping slowly around it and straight through the middle while his fingers continued to drive her wild. Every curl was like a match, every pump adding more gasoline and the way his lips enveloped her clit, sucking and tugging on it was enough for her to give into him completely. All those girls who have been throwing themselves at him all night and even before that…  and he wanted her. The shy girl who kept to herself, never did anything even remotely close to breaking the rules or getting out of line in any way. A complete opposite of who he was and perhaps that was the reason why the attraction between them was so big.

    “Someone will walk in any moment –” he whispered. “Our seven minutes are almost up. You don’t want us to get caught in this position do you?”

Kai bit on her clit, making her squeal for a moment. “No. They are not.” Y/N furrowed her brows. “I cast a little spell –”

    “Fuck, Malachai –” she moaned, her lips curling up in a lazy smile. He had cast more than one spell otherwise her legs and arms would’ve caved by now, especially with his fingers thrusting inside her almost at vampire speed. “Cheater – You had me right where you wanted me the second our eyes met on the dancefloor. Hell, I was yours the moment I first laid eyes on you –”

   “I admit. I did cheat… to make sure no one else got the chance to come here with you.” he thrusted his fingers inside her a little rougher, slowly curling it around, pulling out to the fingertips and going in all the way again while her walls clenched around them. “I want you all to myself. Just like you want me – don’t think I haven’t noticed you doing the same.”

Y/N threw her head back, her back arching a little off the wall and bit the inside of her cheek to keep herself from moaning louder.   “Guilty.” she moaned softly, feeling him suck and tug on her clit while his fingers continued to thrust inside her a little rougher. Her breathing was becoming more ragged every second those freakishly perfect long fingers continued to play with her. Everything they could do to her, all the ways they could drive her wild… that was something she hadn’t been able to stop thinking about since the first time she had felt them curled around feeling every inch, thrusting inside her rougher and deeper until his fingertips hit her spot making it harder for her to keep quiet. Her moans were turning into whimpers and all she could think about was him and how much she needed all of him in that moment.  “Please?”

     “Please what? Tell me –”

     “I need you –” she tried to drown off a moan. “All of you. Every inch –“ Kai smirked at her, cheating for a couple of seconds with his vampirism to pump his fingers inside her faster, getting her almost at the edge. Her back arched off the wall and she balled her hands into fists, trying to get herself free with no luck. All she wanted in that moment was to pull him up, kiss him as if her life depended on it and get her hands on him. Right before he shoves her against the wall –  “Please, fuck me –”

     “I love it when you beg.” he thrusted his fingers inside her a little rougher, hitting her spot. Her body convulsed for a second and again when he did the same. “But, sweetheart, I don’t just want to fuck you. I want to spend the rest of the night making love to you. Worshiping every inch if your body, feel you pull my hair while I slip my tongue inside you; watch you grip on the sheets again while you beg me to stop teasing you and let you cum –”

     “You won’t really hear me beg until I’m on my knees in front of you with your fingers around my neck; my wrists tied together and my mouth pressing against your cock while you look at me with those gorgeous blue eyes darkened with lust trying to decide if you should let me get what I want still wrapped up nice and tight in those jeans or push me on the bed and have your way with me.” she blurted out without thinking.

Kai grinned, kissing up her stomach while his fingers slowed down a little/ just enough to delay her release. “I love a girl who knows what she wants. So fucking hot –“ he licked his lip. “I can easily spend the rest of the night teasing you until you can’t take it anymore –“

Y/N leaned towards him, struggling not to let herself go over the edge while her hips pushed down grinding on his fingers. “Try me.” she moaned, watching a devilish spark flash in his eyes. Damn that look, she thought. It was enough to turn her skin on fire all over again –

    “Damn it –” voices came from outside and someone pulled on the door. The lock opened and closed again just as fast. “I think its stuck.”

Neither of them seemed to care they were about to get caught at any moment. Their eyes remained fixed on each other and nothing else mattered but the other. Kai smirked devilishly at her and wound her leg around his waist to get better access and continued to tease her; getting her to the edge again and delaying. Quiet moans mixed with whimpers and his name tumbled off her lips, getting a little louder when his fingers thrusted and curled inside her almost in vampire speed, slowing down to give her a small chance to cool off for a few seconds before picking up where they had left off. “FUck Malachai – I’m so close – “

Kai’s lips pressed against hers in an attempt to drown her moans and he could feel her slipping down the wall and her legs starting to shake while her orgasm approached fast.  (‘Get the door open!’ voices shouted from the outside.) His lips pulled away from hers and he shushing her, leaning in to whisper in her ear. “I will stop teasing you and let cum you if you tell me what happened to my t-shirt from that night. You know, the one you’ve been wearing for the past two weeks in your dorm… pacing near by the window with the curtains open.”

Y/N bit her lip, trying to drown out a moan. Of course he knew about it, he had been watching her watching him hide in the shadows outside her dorm. “I don’t want you to stop. Your fingers down there feel so good, though I’d love it even more it if it was something a little bigger, thicker…” Kai grinned at her, getting her right to the edge again. Something flashed in her eyes for a second, a hint of fear mixed with excitement. Was she scared he’d be mad at her? Or aroused at the thought what he will do next? Or both?  “You tore my dress in half –“ she said as if it’s the most obvious thing in the world. “A-are you mad?”

    “Are you guys okay in there?” called out her friend, lightly banging on the door. “It’s been so quiet since you walked in –”

   “No. I’m not mad, princess.” he smiled innocently at her and placed his hand over her lips, feeling her body starting to shake as her orgasm began tearing through her body. His eyes remained fixed on hers, watching her eyes roll in the back of her head and her mouth hang semi open while he continued to thrust his fingers inside her. “I am raging I don’t get to see you wearing it up close going to bed and waking up with it pushed up your ass afterwards.” Kai smirked at her and called out to her friends outside.   “No rush guys. We are perfectly fine. Though I think Y/N might need some fresh air or she might faint into my arms.” He pulled out his fingers and brushed the back of his hand against her cheek for a moment before trailing her lips with his fingertips, slipping his fingers between her lips for her to clean. Her eyes remained focused on him the entire time her tongue swirled around his fingers, moaning quietly as she did. “You are such a naughty girl, I should punish you for leaving me that morning. Maybe I will make your wish come true and fuck this pretty mouth of yours too. I haven’t been able to get the way your tongue and lips felt around me, how looked at me with those innocent eyes just like you are right now.” he bit his lip for a split second. “Drives me nuts –“

A snap of his fingers later her wrists were untied, her shirt buttoned up and her skirt got back on her body as if it hasn’t just been laying on the ground. Y/N couldn’t tear her eyes away from Kai for a second, and he couldn’t look away from her either. “You and I –” she tried to calm down her breathing. “We um –”

    “‘We’. I love the sound of that word.” his lips curled up a little at the same time the lock unlocked and got locked by itself again. “There is something I need to know. I want to know how you felt the same the first time we –“

Y/N bit her lip, flicked her wrist to lock the door again and nervously reached for his hand before longingly gazing into his eyes, her other hand teasingly brushed against the bulge in his crotch. “What do you think?”

Kai moaned quietly at her touch and leaned towards her – “Show me.” he barely whispered before his lips crashed against hers.

Her hand moved up his chest until she cupped his face with one hand and let him inside her thoughts. There was no holding back from her – everything poured straight out. From how her heartbroken she had felt sitting alone at the bar to how the world had vanished around her the second her eyes had met with Kai’s. Her heart beating faster than humanly possible, almost ready to burst when he had smiled at her, saying her name for the first time that night and their hands had accidentally touched on the bar counter when he had gotten her a drink.

Their lips moved hard against each other, both moaning into the kiss, and her back hit the wall again. Kai braced one hand against the wall and pulled her towards him, continuing his trip in her mind. He felt the butterflies in her stomach when he had leaned in to kiss her the first time; how out of breath he had left her only after a single gentle kiss, making her crave more of his lips… Making her crave him like she had made him crave her. And to his surprise, his girl showed him the morning after, how happy she had been to wake up next to him; her fingers running through his hair, her fingertips gently trailing his lips before she kissed him briefly… How hard it had been for her to go, thinking he wouldn’t want her there in the morning. That everything had been a one night thing –

   “Take me back –“ he whispered when she pulled away to take a breath. “I want to see more. I need to see more –“

Y/N stared at him as if seeing him for the first time and in a way that was exactly what had happened because this time the connection had worked both ways and she had found out his little secret. “It was you. You didn’t stood me up. You –”

    “There you are –” the door swung open at once. Y/N balled her panties into a ball and shoved them in Kai’s pocket before anyone could see and both of them jumped away from each other in a split second. “Are you okay?” her friend asked.

Y/N ran her fingers through her hair, glancing for a split second at Kai before returning her attention to her overly peppy roommate. “Drunk. I feel… drunk.”

   “Drunk?” her friend raised her eyebrows. “You never drink. W-why are your cheeks red? Wait – did you two –”

    “No!” Y/N said.   “Maybe –“ Kai smirked.     Y/N gestured around them, trying hard not to stare at Kai who had a visible bulge in his jeans in that moment. Her mind drifted a little at the thought of getting him alone somewhere. He had explaining to do and even though she should’ve been upset with him for hiding the truth, she just couldn’t. Not with the way he was looking at her in that moment – like she is his entire world. “Closet. No windows… and it got kind of hot in here.” she glanced at Kai, placing her hand over her forehead for a moment. Sweat drops. “Like really really hot –“

  “I’ll say –“ smirked Kai.

  “With the lack of windows, I mean –“ Y/N laughed nervously.

   “Oh –“ her friend glanced between them.

Kai scratched his chin. “You know, you can blame it on the lack of windows but we both know it’s because of me.”

     “So freaking full of himself…” she gestured towards him, avoiding her friend’s questioning looks.  “Thinks he can get what he wants –“ she took a shallow breath. “—because he looks like a freaking greek God w-with those blue eyes, that smile.. t-those toned muscles and those freakishly perfect long fingers, I –“

      “Hey, don’t blame me.” Kai raised his hands. “Not my fault I am just your type.”

Y/N bit her lip lightly, shaking her head. “I hate you.”

Kai winked at her. “We both know you love me – “ Y/N’s eyes widened a little and she stumbled, still having a bit of a hard time to stand up on her feet. Kai caught her just in time, swinging his hand under her legs until he was holding her bridal style but still being careful for people not to see what he had done to her. Her hands instinctively hooked around his neck while he held her tightly towards him, bridal style. “I got ya, sweetheart. Don’t worry, I’ll take a really good care of you. You look like you need to lay down –“

     “More like hover on top of your lips and ride your face until I collapse.” she said so quietly if he wasn’t a vampire, he would’ve missed it. “I’m driving.”

Kai grinned. “Whatever you say, princess.” he leaned in whispering in her ear. “I wouldn’t be able to get enough of you either way.”

________________________________________  MASTERLIST- SMUT ‘17  MASTERLIST- FLUFF ‘17 / MASTERLIST - FLUFF/ANGST ‘18 

[shrubforhire]

Asks 1-100

I did this to myself

100 Questions

1: Do you sleep with your closet door opened or closed? usually open

2: Can you whistle? no and im fucking PISSED

3: What is your favorite quote? my old science teacher once said “grandma’s a slut!”

4: Are you afraid of the dark? only if ive seen something spooky

5: Who taught you how to tie your shoes? bunny ears bitch

6: What is your favorite color? rn like a nice lavendar

7: What is your birthday? april 21st 2000!

8: Can you swim? poorly

9: What’re you wearing right now? a striped sweater (the best time to wear it is all the time)

10: Who’s your character crush, and what book/movie are they from? Marceline the vampire queen yea say what you want

11: What was the last thing you thought about? Being in gay denial for so many years and not realizing why i liked marceline the vampire queen so much

12: What was the last thing you said out loud? goodnight!

13: Are you superstitious? yea a little,, i chill w the ghosties on our haunted campus. and i think theres a ghost in my room tbh

14: How many bones have you broken?

0 babeyy

15: What’s your favorite candy? Ferraro Roche

16: Sour, Sweet, Spicy, or Savory? sweet :)

17: What’s your favorite junk food? im a slut for cotton candy

18: What’s your favorite letter of the alphabet? q

19: What’s your favorite number? 7, ima basic thot

20: Dogs or Cats? Dots, Cags

21: Do you play any sports? If yes, what are they? I played baseball for a year!! and soccer for 2!

22: If you could change your name, what would you change it to? Aria

23: Do you believe in ghosts? yea

24: Who’s your favorite Disney Princess? Moana

25: What inspires/motivates you the most? hearing other peoples stories and knowing they’ve felt the exact same way i do

26: Do you believe in aliens?

honestly,,,,,, not rly. like i believe in life on other planets,, but they will just be like beings ya know,,, not rly like hollywood aliens

27: Do you have any irrational fears? If yes, what are they? i always think cars are gonna flip over when they turn rly fast

28: Do you have any pets? If yes, what are their names?

a lil sausage named bernie!

29: What’s your favorite song right now? prolly fake happy by paramore

30: Can you rap? poorly. but okay for a white person ig??

31: What would you do if you had 24 hours to live? be a giant ho

32: Do you have any allergies? If you do, what are they? nope!!

33: Do bugs freak you out?

if they’re right up in my face im kinda like dbasfkjbdfke but normally not too much.

34: Who’s your favorite Disney Prince? uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh 

35: What’s your favorite Grimm brothers fairy-tale? rapunzel 

36: Can you sing? god i hope so

37: Who’s your favorite singer? barrett wilbert weed

38: What is your favorite restaurant? hobnob!

39: If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go, and why? Hawaii so i could remember it better

40: Who’s your favorite band/duo? Paramore!!!!!

41: Do you write fan-fiction? ive written fan fiction exclusively about my friends and about hand sanitizer

42: What continent are you from? murica

43: Do you still live in the city you grew up in? i lived in reston virginia til i was 5, then i grew up in portland, but i go to school in illinois!

44: What’s your favorite animal? giraffe!!!!!!

45: What was the last lie you told? it was more a half truth when i told my girlfriend what i think about at work

46: Do you have any long-term goals? What are they?

47: Would you save your worst enemy’s life? yea cuz i dont rly have a worst enemy, and if i did its been so long that they’re probably cooler now

48: What’s your usual flavor of ice cream? cookie dough

49: How often do you try new things? preeeeetty often, i love tryin shit

50: Do you have a catchphrase? What is it? we cant all be winners

51: What is your favorite word? pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis

52: What’s your favorite fruit? mango

53: Are you in any fandoms? If yes, what are they? oh this is a lil cursed,,,, imma just say fuckin gravity falls

54: What’s your favorite board game? i play the most sorry these days so i guess that

55: Have you ever made a sandcastle? only really shitty ones

56: Have you ever made a snow man? yes!

57: What’s your biggest pet peeve? when people say something is fermenting when oxygen is present

58: Have you ever role-played? yea,,,,

59: Who’s your favorite super-hero? i rly dont follow stuff,,, imma say spiderman cause ive liked his movies the most lately

60: Who’s your favorite Disney villain? Yzma

70: Do you have any pets? What animal are they? What are their names? see question 28

71: Do you play any instruments? What are they? ukulele, piano, some guitar, shitty drums, and u kno wat imma say tambourine

72: Can you snap? hell yea

73: Who’s your favorite Greek god? it changes like every day,,,, i rly like athena tho

74: How many blogs do you have? 2

75: Was your url your first choice? If not, what was? oh gosh,,, i think my first url was cipherstuck lmao

76: What’s your favorite swear word? frick

77: How many posts have you made? too many

78: How many followers do you have? some amount

79: What’s the last thing you ate? chicken parm

80: What percentage is your phone battery right now? 54%

81: What time zone are you in? pacific babeyyyyy

82: What’s your OTP? Elanor and Tahani

83: What’s your favorite kind of weather? warm but still windy enough but theres sun

84: What’s your favorite season? early and late summer when its warm but theres shit goin on

85: Who’s your celebrity crush? hayley williams

86: Do you keep a diary? i did for a hot minute,, i do little checkup apps, but i havent journaled in a while

87: What’s your shoe size? 6 1/2

88: What’s your Hogwarts house? heck if i know, crucify me

89: What’s your favorite punctuation mark? ; because i never know when to fucking use it but it sure looks funny

90: Are you reading any books right now? What are the titles? nope!! im a little whore

91: What mythical animal do you wish existed? pokemon

92: Who’s your favorite Greek goddess? another for free???? artemis

93: Where do you wish you live? new york but for free

94: What color(s) is your favorite shirt? gray and pink

95: How many languages do you speak? What are they? english and lesbian

96: What’s your favorite gum flavor? gum

97: Do you have braces? nope

98: What’s your MBTI?

it was enfj now i think its enfp i forget

99: Are you an introvert or an extrovert? extroverrrrtttt

100: What’s your zodiac sign? taurus

[moonshroooms]

Hey, let’s talk about the awesome kids I have as neighbors :D

So there are a few kids in my building who like to come over and play video games. Them, along with my friend/their older brother Tay, all roast each other and play video games on the weekends (though it has been sans Tay, since he’s off in the army for a while ; w ;). The kids still come over on occasion regardless. I tend to refer to them as “my kids,” to my friends. Most of these kids are siblings, except for two, who aren’t related to the other like, 5 or so, but are cousins to each other.

First up is

Nyla: She’s a cute little, six or so?, year old. For her age, she’s pretty good a smash bros, though obviously she’s not great, cuz she’s only six. She doesn’t come around as often anymore (mostly because I grew very tired of essentially babysitting. Smash isn’t quite as fun when one of your opponents has a hard time getting back on stage, and interrupts the FITE you’re trying to have with someone else, as well as getting pouty and crying when she loses a lot. Not fun at all). When she is here and plays though, we have realized she is not good enough to be an opponent (obviously), but dangerous enough to not be ignored (Little Mac is her favorite and that sucker hits hard). We call her the Stage Hazard.

 Next we have Young, about 10 or 11 or something like that. Young’s kind of a spazzy kid. And I feel like I might be making bad assumptions or something, but I wouldn’t be surprised if he was autistic or something of that nature (keeping in mind that I don’t know, and it certainly doesn’t make a difference to me if he is, just something I’ve thought might be possible). I also have no idea what signs of autism are, nor do I know any common behaviors beyond the extremely stereotyped “bad social skills, likes trains” stereotype (which I’m sure is an incredibly over-generalization).

His social skills aren’t fantastic and he just kinda says random things sometimes? He’s a good kid though, but he’s certainly not good at playing nice with the other kids, y’know? But then, the other kids are also not very nice to him either (it’s kind of a back and forth thing. They’d be nicer if he was nicer, but he’s not, so then they’re meaner to him, and then he’s meaner back and just endless circle of boo). If he’s over by himself he’s perfectly content just playing Super Mario Bros. for wii (his favorite one. He always restarts it for some reason every time he picks it up again), and talking to himself. He gets real salty real fast is smash though, and him and his brother usually slap each other at least once when they’re playing smash. If he’s getting pouty it’s pretty easy to cheer him up by making him laugh (usually by way of threatening to tickle him). His other favorite game to play is Life is Strange, which obviously isn’t really the most appropriate game for a kid, but I didn’t feel like it was bad enough to say no. He really likes it, and it was interesting to sit and watch him think about what decisions to choose and why. He was pretty introspective with it tbh. He choose to have Chloe and Max kiss, and then acted like it was so scandalous, but he didn’t rewind and change it at all XD

At first I was 100% sure he only ever came over to play video games, but I have learned that he does indeed like me and think I’m nice. (At some point he made a grand exit to go play with some of his friends and he stopped at the door, turned to us and pointed at each one going “you suck, you suck, you suck,” *points at me* “you’re cool,” *points at last kid* “and you really suck, PEACE.” And just left XD Then again, one time he did promise me he’d beat me in smash over and over again so much that I’d get really mad and cry about it (to which I told him “kiddo, if you get good enough at smash that I lose multiple times in a row I will be the happiest person and super proud of you”). He seemed a bit confused and sad that I wasn’t gonna be salty about it XD One time his family went to Chuck-E-Cheese and he brought me back vampire teeth, like what a sweetheart?? I mean, they were too small for my adult teeth but I appreciate that he spent some tickets on me. Young’s favorite Smash characters are Cloud, Captain Falcon, and Ike (sometimes he picks up Little Mac).

 Next up is Leeniel (or LeeLee, as we call him. Also I have no idea how to spell his actual name): I think he’s maybe 12 or so? Lee’s actually not around very much. When he is here he’s usually quiet (though he does talk during the match and all that. We all gotta trash talk in this group). He likes to draw (in fact, for my birthday last month he drew me a very adorable picture of Toon Link, one of my smash mains. Like how sweet and awesome are my kids? I love them). I can’t really say much about Lee, other than he’s pretty cocky about his Smash Bros. skills (he’s better than Young, but still not better than Trell, who I’ll talk about in a bit). Lee’s favorite fighters are Link, Cloud, and Little Mac.

 Neeeext up is Solomon (or Solo, as we call him): Solo is a 16-year-old giraffe. Like I mean it, he’s fricking huge. He has to bend down to get through my doorway. I think he’s somewhere past 6”5, I believe? I don’t even know man. I do know that the best thing is when he comes by to visit after being gone a long while, he always picks me up. Being 5”2 and suddenly being hoisted way past your own height is great. Solomon is energetic, loud, funny, and a little immature. I know for a fact that he’s autistic, as his mother has randomly mentioned it to me (she was lamenting that it was hard for him to have friends his age, since he tends to be less mature than them). Solo doesn’t come around much, as he’s often living with his dad, and it seems he’s lost a lot of interest in smash. He’s tried to get me to buy Pokken Tournament, but like, I played it and it’s pretty meh? It’s okay, I just like Smash better (probably cuz I already put in the work for that one and I’m pretty good at it. I ain’t wanna start at ground zero again). I worry that if I buy it the other kids won’t play it with me as much (though they are children, if we’re being honest: if you build it, they will come, if I buy it, they will play lol). Solo I know for a fact hates Undertale, though he hasn’t played it for himself. It’s just the Undertale explosion he hates I figure, so sad, cuz it really is a great game that should be at least tried out once. He did surprise me by spotting my Journey game was like “muthafucker that game is beautiful.” XD So he’s got a short attention span and is pretty immature, but loves Journey. It’s fantastic honestly. Solo was actually the person who inspired me and Trell to get really good at the game, cuz we were on top until Solo came along and we realized “wait we actually have no idea how the FAKC to play this game.” I can proudly say I am now smash queen and Trell and Solo are about par with each other. Solo’s favorite characters are Little Mac and Samus (but mostly Little Mac).

 Next is Charni (Shar-nay), who I love and call her my Protégé. I think she’s around Young’s age, maybe a couple months older. I first met her when I was at Solomon’s house (another kid I’ll bring up in a sec). She’s his little cousin, I believe, and she was kinda shy and bored. I plopped down next to her and started showing her how to play Smash so she could play with us. She had quite the steep learning curve since none of the other kids would go easy on her for being new, but I made sure to praise her when she got a good hit, and show her what to do so she wouldn’t get discouraged. I’m proud to say she quickly adored smash and is a regular part of our game weekends when she’s in town :D She’s at about an equal level with Young (not surprising, since they’re the same age), though she tends to play a bit smarter than he does and is less predictable.

I made it my mission to try and make sure she ended up liking nerd things, and I’m happy to say it ended up that she did XD She’s reading some Legend of Zelda manga last time I saw her, and she knows a little about Undertale from some fan things, though she’s never actually played the game? I tried to get her to play it, but she got bored, so meh. She likes Steven Universe and Gravity Falls too! I let her wear my Dipper hat whenever she sees it. Sometimes I’ll come home from work or school and she’ll just be there, chillin’ with my mom and watching an old black and white movie. I’ll usually have to put my foot down like “hell naw it’s a weekday I ain’t dealing with you snots come back Friday.” It’s pretty obvious she looks up to me a lot, and gets really happy when I praise her. Sometimes the boys pick on her (like saying she’s fat in a derogatory manor or saying she sucks at the game. She’s not fantastic at Smash obviously, she’s still just a kid, but she’s certainly not as bad as they make her seem. And she’s not fat at all really? She’s not basically bones like I am, but she doesn’t look like she has serious weight on her? She’s like, 120lb or something and quite a few inches taller than me. Not ThaT theRE’S a pROoBlem if shE WaSS, just she’s really not fat, and I don’t like the other kids to be using the word fat in a derogatory manner. Body shaming is not okay in my house).

I love her hair to, it’s fantastic. I believe she’s black and Hawaiian, and my god that Polynesian wavy hair is so fantastic I wish it was mine. I’ve gotten her to play Breath of the Wild, Mario Odyssey, and Phantom Hourglass (not that it took much convincing, lol), and she’s pretty good at them honestly! :D Sometimes she doesn’t want to play games though and she’ll just plop next to me while I’m on my computer and read funny Tumblr posts or webcomics with me, she’s adorbs. She’s a tough cookie, and she can get salty about Smash sometimes, but she’s usually a pretty good sport. Sometimes when it’s just us practicing, she’ll tell me to go at her 100%, and then quickly start yelling for me to stop when I do XD. For my birthday she made like, typography of Link’s name and colored it. So sweet. Her favorite fighters are Corrin, Dark Pit, and recently her brawler Mii that she made.

 Next up is my favorite child (but don’t tell the others) Latrell (or just Trell): Trell’s a fantastic kid honestly. I think he’s like, 13/14 or so? I always say he’s 12 though, just cuz it ticks him off. Trell is easily my biggest rival in smash, as we’re just about at the same level (though I’m still reigning champ). He tells me that I’m a sore winner (I mean, I celebrate when I win, but it’s not like I jump up and dance and sing about what a loser everyone is. So that’s the salt talking ;3), but then he’s actually a sore winner/loser. If he loses enough time he’ll start trying to slap me or get pouty enough to need a break, and if he wins (or god forbid starts winning a few times in a row), he’ll start rubbing it in my face. And when I lose I tend to laugh and be like ‘dangnabit that suck, next time I got this’, but obviously losing starts to suck when some little twerp starts acting like he’s hot shit cuz he won the last 4 rounds and cuts you off with proclamations about what a loser you are – like, not even in a joking way either XD At some point I had to stop playing against him one day cuz he was getting really mean about me winning. Like, tone it down child we’re all friends here.

Most of the time he’s a great kid, though like most children he’ll have his moments. He likes to help me cook and bake and likes to sing. One of my favorite things is that I think he sort of came out to me last month or so, but in like the lamest way possible. Keeping in mind I knew he wasn’t straight (I figured he was either gay or bisexual, but I wasn’t sure), waaaaaaay long time ago. Like, I think before he knew kind of a thing? There were obvious stereotypical signs, but I don’t really like to assume, so I figured until I had confirmation that he did like boys or girls or both, I’d just use gender-neutral terms and stuff. He likes a lot of musicals, celebrity gossip, RuPal’s Drag Race, y’know the totally-not-stereotypical interests of gay culture – it’s really a miracle I picked up on it at all it was so subtle. He’d also made mention to several boys being cute, or that a few of his male classmates had a crush on him (or vice versa), so I knew he was interested in boys at least. Girls were yet to be seen (though I knew he’d had a girlfriend or something in the past, but I didn’t know if it was because he was interested in both, or if it was a ‘I didn’t know I was interested in boys, so I had a girlfriend’, kind of thing).

There was this one conversation that I still look back on and laugh. He was talking about his crush, and that he was worried about them cuz they were getting wisdom teeth pulled out and (since I work part time at an oral surgeon’s place), I just said “wisdom teeth? Oh he’ll be fine calm down.”

And he looks at me all mock-offended and goes “Did you just assume my crush’s gender??”

“That depends – was I right?”

“Listen that’s not the point here”

Anyways I official learned he was bisexual when he made me watch a movie called GBF (Gay Best Friend, which, I don’t know if this movie is revolutionary in the gay community or anything, but I’m sorry it’s an awful fucking movie. This kid gets forcefully outed by some app, and then the popular girls were all clamoring to get him to be their best friend, because a gay best friend was the hot new commodity they just had to have like he’s a new fricking purse for them to customize so they could win their petty popular girl war. And then there was like, a prom war/prom sabotage thing? Either way it’s a dumb-ass movie. Also waaaaaay too inappropriate for this 13/14 year old to have watched? Like, in one scene a Mormon dude in it was being all bi-curious and 100% starts trying to rub off our Main Character in a truck, and another scene of one of the popular girls is like dry humping one of the dude characters in a bed and like omg I wasn’t expecting it to get that inappropriate + my mom walked in right at the truck scene and I died inside. Like you are too young for this go watch some Duck Tales fool what are you doing).

Anyways, at the end of the movie he just goes “guess I already got you you’re GBF, haha lloloeeleolol :D ;D XDDD.”

And I just gave him this fed-up look like “did you just come out to me with the worst movie I’ve ever seen??? Even though I clearly already knew?????”

“Yes. Also it’s actually BBF.”

And I was just like “Trell you’re hilarious and everything, but if you ever show me a movie as bad as GBF ever again I will punch you in the throat.” And then I shoved him off the couch.

Since the GBF movie I swear he’s been making 10x more LBGT jokes. We have a tube of muscle relaxer or whatever called Bengay, and anytime he happens to see it he’ll pick it up and loudly announce “heh, yeah, I’ve been-gay before lelel” which usually ends up with my snatching the Bengay and launching it across the room.

And he’s like, 14, so I wouldn’t be surprised if his sexuality changed at all in the future, but for now at least he’s stated he’s bisexual. Either way, he’s the sweetest and funniest kid, and I do my best to know he’s more than accepted in my home.

Anyways, Trell is absolute incapable of playing single player games. I tried to get him to play Mario Odyssey and he got as far as pressing the jump button before he melted off the couch and complained that it was torture. He loves to challenge me to Pikmin, but won’t play the single player campaign (I got him to play like, halfway through the first level and that’s it). His favorite characters in smash are aaaaaall of them. He’s more of an all-arounder for the characters, and sometimes he’ll switch and have a new main for a while. Sometimes he’ll get butthurt about being beaten by Pikachu and Toon Link, cuz he says they were his mains first and he only stopped cuz I used them (which for some reason all the kids feel like they need to ask me to use Pikachu or Toon Link, and I have NO IDEA why. Like the fuck use whoever you want it’s a fricken game I don’t own them). The characters he goes back to most though are: Peach, Zero Suit Samus, and Villager (usually the girl skins).

And while he’s not child, why don’t I bring up the older bro Tay: Tay is really bad at smash but he keeps on trying and I’m proud of him XD His favorite characters are Samus and Ganondorf.

Aaaaand that’s all I wanted to say bye