#cw: CSA

[lynsstrange]

one thing that's interesting with the show is that this episode, they made David's intentions so much more direct. Like in the scene in the game, it's sort of left more up to interpretation if he really only meant to strangle ellie, based on some hints, and ellie's "he tried to..." while Joel's holding her. But in the show, it leaves none of that interpretation stuff. and it just makes the pure terror and violence in Bella's acting turned up to 100. And it displays what happens when she's pushed over the edge so well. How she's an incredibly strong kid, but just a kid nonetheless, that was absolutely traumatized and lost complete control when she got ahold of the knife, without Joel to come and drag her off. Like she's used to the idea of people trying to kill her, but couldn't ever imagine a situation like that where it wasn't hordes of infected or FEDRA soldiers trying to kill her, but just one man who wanted to do even worse. Because in tlou, at the end of the day, it's just ordinary people who are the worst, and I think that that realization took so much more of her innocence. It just. agh. It makes this turning point for her character even more significant.

[thetheatrebrassiere]

cool play/article. can we see your hard drives please

[turtle-paced]

OP commented on yesterday's post:

Still pretty entitled of him. Sansa was forced to marry Tyrion with a knife at her back. Tyrion is actively a part of the House/regime that has made Sansa's life hell. Plus he at one point outright threatened Sansa ''How well they are treated depends of them''. So even within Westeros society Tyrion has a lot of gall to consider Sansa to be false and be angry at her for escaping.

Perhaps it is entitled. But I personally think that a simple word is not enough to capture the intersection of patriarchy, ableism, the particularly toxic class privilege, and abuse Tyrion grew up with. What created that entitlement?

Tyrion has spent his life learning that women are passed into the ownership of men on marriage and thenceforth owe their new legal family their allegiances. He saw his own uncle benefit from exactly this sort of arrangement. Tyrion has spent his life hearing that Lannisters deserve all sorts of good things because they are Lannisters.

Tyrion's got neither of these things due to his disability. So he incorrectly attributes Sansa's unwillingness to be a full participant in their forced marriage as due to his disability.

Nor do I think analysis of this situation that ignores the fact that Tyrion's a victim of both emotional and sexual abuse can ever be sufficient.

It's also telling that these are Tyrion's feelings only. They're not coming from great places. But they stay inside his head. When Tyrion is asked to act, to denounce Sansa:

Yet wherever Sansa was and whatever her part in this might have been, she remained his wife. He had wrapped the cloak of protection around her shoulders, though he'd had to stand on a fool's back to do it. "The gods killed Joffrey. He choked on his pigeon pie." Tyrion IX, ASoS

Sansa herself will think later that Tyrion tried to be kind to her, in a situation that heavily incentivised him not to be kind. More than Sansa ever knew, because she didn't have that abuse context and she's not thinking systemically about patriarchy and ableism.

GRRM wants us to approach both characters here with compassion. What are the barriers to Tyrion fully understanding Sansa's position? What are the ultimate sources of his darker thoughts? Without knowing these, they can't be treated. "Entitled" just doesn't pass muster as analysis.

[thepromiscuousfinger]

[checkthebox]

He's my favorite so far & I can't wait 4 the next song hjbfhjdb !!!

@weevildoing

sketch+flatcolors

[batmanisagatewaydrug]

TW : CSA

Sorry about the topic I don't really need coping advice, I just need to know something about the terms as English is not my first language. My babysitter when I was younger than 10 used to show me explicit photos, groped me whenever we were alone and gave me "check ups", made me give him a handjob too. I am seeing a counselor now after the memories resurfaced, she told me that this was not CSA, he abused me and groomed but did not assault me, legally it's too mild. If you could please tell me if she's right and if there is any resource on the correct terms I will be grateful. Thank you.

wh. what the fuck does your counselor mean "that's not CSA, he just abused you" CSA literally stands for "child sexual abuse." hello. what. I obviously have no idea where you live or what the exact wording of the law is but I mean. what you've describe very much would be considered sexual abuse in many places.

[winepresswrath]

i can’t stop laughing at the brilliance and also feeling miserable about catherine howard

[nullb1rdbones]

look i try to stay out of ship discourse as much as I can, but I can't even believe people would look at the musicals (specifically tango and circus, which have ciel as a tiny 11-13 year old child actor, a tiny tiny tiny little thing who my scrawny ass could probably pick up with one arm) and use them as awful ship fodder

like. straight up. that's a crime. i don't know where it says on paper, but on the basic premise of what divides us as human beings with kindness and self-awareness, and fucking bundles of harm, sexualizing someone that small is a crime. it's different when it comes to drawings and writing (this post isn't about that, its about the musical actors) (this is about the actor, not the character) (there are posts about that, that isn't one, nor do I feel comfortable going on such an angry rant about that), but imposing sexuality onto someone who barely learned fractions is completely ridiculous. you don't sound 'kinky' and 'dark' and 'invested in the true nature of BB' you sound like you need to be on a watchlist.

i don't care if it's black butler. it doesn't matter what fandom that's from, that's not okay. that's never okay. that's never going to be okay. that's a real child. If I found out a friend was viewing the musicals like that, I'm out. it's just revolting, I wouldn't trust anyone who thinks that around real actual kids. does it matter that he's on a screen? no! because he's a kid! that's reality! the. reality. is. that's. a. real. kid. a real kid. a kid that is real. a real kid that walked onto a real stage and sang a real song to a real audience about a fictional universe. thats a kid that had to do schoolwork on set and fell asleep in the greenroom and missed his parents and rehearsed an awkward little speech at the end of the performance. that is not 'ciel' the amorphous blob of eyes and bows, that was a real fucking child.

if anyones asks, if there was a season 2 musical, I would be JUST AS insistent that people leave whatever poor soul they force to play alois ALONE. thats why its important to cast adults, even as child characters, to protect them from people like that!! at least the later musicals did that. but it's ridiculous that that's even a protective measure, when these are at the end of the day children's stories

I can't make anyone stop anything, but I can say that's really weird and not cool at all. stop desensitizing yourselves to the point where that's a reasonable conclusion

[elizabethan-memes]

Elizabeth: *writes “Let him not touch me”*

Thomas Seymour stans:

[turtle-paced]

Sorry if the answer to this is obvious, but how do you think Littlefinger views Sansa - as an inferior version of Catelyn, or the new and improved model? Or something else entirely? Which one of them would he rather have?

It’s not who Littlefinger would rather have of the two, but what, I think. He doesn’t want either Catelyn or Sansa. Not as the people we recognise from their PoV chapters. He wants a beautiful, malleable young woman who depends on him for just about everything, especially love. He wants a junior partner (perpetually the lesser partner in every endeavour) to provide him with both sex and unqualified ego-stroking.

At some point, Littlefinger realised that grown-up Catelyn, married, mother of five, the Lady of Winterfell, would never be the Catelyn doll he imagined. At another point, he realised that he might be able to make Sansa be that Catelyn doll. 

[althaeaofficinalis]

the pycelle hate train continues because I'm about 90% sure he molested sansa in the aftermath of ned's execution and I'm ready to FIGHT

like... you don't need to do a physical examination that way. you simply don't. you don't need to undress and restrain a 12 yr old girl so you can "[touch] her all over" at all. and I don't know what the herbs he gave her were for, but I don't trust them, considering sansa's dream immediately afterwards.

anyway truck-kun please isekai me into westeros with a gun and ammo thank you

[mattgorman-blog]

Okay, it's not fair to hold something someone did as a child against them into adulthood, and a lot of us have done fucked up things as kids. But that's not what this Lena Dunham thing is about. It's about her refusal to acknowledge how fucked up her actions were and her using the "pebble" story (which, wtf?) and her subsequent sexually abusive behavior towards her younger sister as ~quirky~ stories about her sexual liberation (or whatever) in order to sell books. That is not courageous. That is fucking self-absorbed and disgusting.

[goatgoesmbe]

MASSIVE CONTENT WARNING: mentions of CSA, reader makes a joke about her past trauma to the 141 and they had no idea

The 141 being military men, making dark jokes about their near death experiences and suffering, they try to tease reader about her being a softie, since shes always been really sweet and soft and she always comforted people, so she seemed like the type to have had a happy childhood and she hits them with a joke about like idk "yeah, life has been fucking you guys, but I was fucked when I was nine" and they all look at the reader like D: and the reader giggles and is confused as to why nobody is laughing, they're all like "Oh no, my girl, my sweet girl, nothing bad should ever happen to my beloved girl... what the fuck, why didn't I know this"

Like yeah they're familiar with trauma and pain but when it's you... :( nooo :( why :(

Ngl i can relate about coping the same way

I feel like Ghost would laugh along tho, bro cope with his own trauma with joke

Gaz would be concerned

Soap is torn between laughing along because if that's how you cope he should also be supportive, but also concerned

Price said nothing and look at you like 👁️_👁️

[bugs1nmybrain]

Symbol of Safety - abused Shigaraki x fem reader

Notes: HI. It's been some time since I've written a fic. This could be messy and uncoordinated.

Warning: MINORS DON'T INTERACT | CSA mentions! Don't read if you're sensitive to those topics. Reader and Tomura both have csa trauma. Substance use (cigarettes and weed). Other than that, no direct nsfw. Angsty fluff, kinda.

Also, alternate ending to MHA where Tomura lives and breathes!!

Tomura felt as though he was locked into a new world, he often felt unreal anymore. He was supposed to die that day. Somehow, he woke up in a prison hospital, gasping for life, instinctively wanting to break out. Then he remembered you.

Midoriya had his uses. With the notion that AFO had been manipulating Tomura, despite much of it being out of his own hand, Tomura was able to get out in 4 months with good behavior, plea of insanity, and Midoriya vouching for him. That came with conditions, Tomura and the rest of the League now lived in a supervised group home that specialized in trauma treatment. Tomura can't say that he loves this option, but at this point, he knew what heroes would do. He felt like a poser.

But now, he had one thing that kept him going, one thing that he wanted to live for. You. Call it cheesy or codependent, he didn't give a fuck. He still harbored a lot of hate and even through counseling and the psychiatrists throwing him on a mood stabilizer, you were his ultimate medicine. He felt so docile with you, no need for hate. He loved you, so fucking much.

He walked into his designated room after a long day, kicked off his shoes, and looked at the beautiful person lying in his bed. It's like he transcended whenever he was with you. Though...he questioned how and why you got in his apartment. Even you weren't above breaking the rules, though, he loved that about you.

Stepping slowly toward your form, he gently petted your hair, loving it's texture. You felt so real, yet so imaginary. He was guilty about the idea of risking you losing the man you knew him as, he wanted to be that for you. To protect you with everything he had in him. You woke instantly at the touch of his specially made gloves, purring at the sight of him.

"Hi", Tomura greeted your sleepy face with a little smile.

"Hey, Tomu~."

"Whatcha doing here?"

"Dabi let me in...I smoked a bowl and fell asleep. Your bed is comfy."

"Yea? I think you just missed me."

"Duh."

Tomura snickered at your feisty response. He loved that too. A perfect combination of sweet, sassy, and beautifully broken. Though, he wasn't sure if admiring that "beautifully broken" bit was very nice of him. It wasn't that he wanted to take advantage, he hated the very thought, or the people at the hero rallies that accused him of manipulating you and being some creep when they discovered the big, bad Shigaraki had a girlfriend. Sometimes he'd gaslight himself into believing them, but he couldn't reject you no matter how much he "should."

He sat down next to you, scooting close and enjoying the warmth you gave his cold heart.

"I had a nightmare," you said abruptly.

"Huh?" Tomura seemed confused, considering your adoring face when he woke you. "What about?"

You froze, feeling disgusted just mentioning anything. You'd buried this past so much, refusing to even believe it at times. Tomura knew, you told him long ago, but it didn't change the hate it gave you.

"About them. My past. The past."

Tomura knew exactly what you were talking about. He was angry about that so much, he wanted to fucking kill everyone who'd ever hurt you. Though, he took an oath to refrain from that murderous urge and he took his own oath to never let you be alone again.

Instead, he moved closer and wrapped his arms around you. Protecting your soul from monsters that took advantage of you. Sure, he may be a monster to the general public, but to you...he was a hero. Someone who allowed you to exist.

Tomura had his own trauma of that nature. He remembered the first time, in an alley, his master encouraged him to hurt them back. Giving him the hands that lied in his shoulders and torso. But his master was far from innocent in this. Tomura was conflicted and confused beyond belief. He mistook his master's attention for love many times. During those moments AFO would call him the sweetest names and affirm him, "my dear boy, you don't need to hold back what you know feels right." Made him feel important, treasured. Only to rip away his being, his mind and his body, used like trash.

AFO took advantage of Tomura's fear more than anything. It's evident now that he never loved him, he was a puppet.

It wasn't until he met you that he figured out what could be love. A satisfying, loving feeling. You two were both broken, yet you fit so well. He wanted to show you that you could be loved and cared about in the ways others have turned you into a mere object. You two got rather...hot and bothered for sure...but there was no denying how much you loved each other in those moments. You were both healing.

"I'm sorry."

"It's fine."

"No, it isn't. You shouldn't have ever been through that. No one protected you. I will. I'll never let anyone hurt you, ever the fuck again."

"Sshh...please, don't." Shigaraki held you tight, never wanting to let you go. "You did everything you knew, I know that. Spinner said the same thing. But he, he would've hurt you. I can't even imagine how, but he's gone. Dead. I don't even...understand. Like...a part of me mourns him. But he was fucking, dangerous!! Who knows what he would've done to you, Y/N, he used you against me so much that I don't doubt you would've been a Nomu by now, or worse. I couldn't live with that. DON'T feel bad. Please. Just stay here.., please don't leave."

"I feel like I deserved it. I couldn't..."you began choking up. Tomura almost looked furious at your self destructive language. "I couldn't protect you. You almost died. I wanted to do something, I didn't-"

You looked at Tomura, he was shaking, tearful. He didn't cry often anymore, but he felt safe with you. He did feel protected because you didn't shame him, you didn't run away or reject him even after all of that.

He felt genuinely loved for the first time in his broken life. You mended him, without conditions.

"I love you, Tomura," you collapsed in his arms, sobbing while holding him like you'd never see him again. He held you back, savoring every bit of your form. He tilted your face up, using his fingers to wipe away your tears.

"Don't cry.." he said, choking himself. "You don't deserve to cry, you never deserved any of it. I'll keep you safe for the rest of your life, I promise."

"I want to keep you safe, too."

Tomura smiled at that, he knew you were genuine. He was so lucky.

"I love you, too, Y/n. I'm sorry I didn't say that quicker. Can we like...forget about this stuff for a bit? We can stay up all night, play games or something, you know. I can carry you in League," he smiled cockily, burying his face into your neck, savoring your scent and softness.

"I'd love that."

"You can even sit in my lap, if you want." He smirked playfully with a hint of pink on his cheeks.

You nodded, blushing up a storm at the thought. You appreciated Shigaraki's urgency to devote time to you. Ironic, how a worldwide threat was actually the sweetest boy you've known. He was your symbol, you were his.

"C'mon then, I got you. I'll get your cigs, we'll have fun."

"Ok, Tomu~"

"Can...you call me Tenko? Just for tonight."

"Of course I can, Ten. I love you."

"I love you, too. More than you'll ever know."

[missallblues]

nothing annoys me more then people who try and make Boa’s relationship with Luffy palatable you know when they change up Boa’s dynamic to want to ‘adopt him’ instead of wanting to marry, when the inherent tragedy of this woman who has been sexually tortured since she was a child and continues to be treated in an objectifying way falls in love with a boy who is the only one to treat like her the opposite of what she’s been and continues to be haunted by her entire life; yet the only thing you people can focus on is the fact that her ‘love’ is problematic (which if you took of the googles for a second you’d see Boa’s idea of what love is, it’s more akin to how a teen girl fantasies as she fantasises about marrying Luffy more instead of ‘normal husband and wife things’) rather then acknowledging the circumstances that forced her like this, keep in mind Boa didn’t even fall in love with Luffy UNTIL Luffy wasn’t affected by her devil fruit. I do not know how you can read all this which is fully spelled out for you and decided that ‘hmm actually this is super mega problematic Boa should want Luffy to be her son instead!’

[pynkhues]

“A new dad just dropped” feels to me to be such an online thing to say. I feel like it was you who wrote meta about Roman being always online? I feel like that quote alone supports it, lol!

Such an online thing to say, haha. It really tracks with Roman, who, as he tells Lawrence in 1.06, is the sort of guy who laughs in a bookstore, haha.

And yeah, I have written a little bit about it before, namely in relation to Roman's issues with sex. I know it's a popular interpretation that Roman's issues in that area are due to a trauma, and I certainly see the argument for it, but my personal read is that it's more a messy, complicated mix of social anxiety around masculinity (which I talked about a bit in this post in the context of him not being able to pee in front of other men), repressed, not-straight sexuality, and having consumed / been exposed to a lot of porn as a result of being Extremely Online (which I talked about in this post).

My personal read (and again, not diminishing people who do read it as a sexual trauma, I can see that interpretation, it's just not my read) is that it doesn't have a point of origin as it would if it was an assault / molestation and that the fact that it doesn't is a part of why it eats Roman up so much and why he fixates particularly hard on the sex lives of his siblings. He feels like this part of him is broken and he doesn't know why, and it compounds his feelings of inferiority and that he's performing a sort of masculinity instead of living it, which just in turn furthers his issues with sex. It makes it a bit of a snake eat tail situation for him, and the inescapability of that is why he latches on so hard to escapes when he feels them, i.e. why he couldn't listen to Gerri telling him to pump the brakes for a minute.