#deadstar

[bassomega]

Happy Valentines Day!! First time I actually managed to make smth for it

[quiverpaw]

my ideal windclan

[aryshacore]

[mesanthropi]

i want to deconstruct myself like those ball joint dolls. i'd take my lower legs off (pop them off like pop sockets), put them upside down, and i'd just roll around my mattress doing nothing while my spotify just. keeps going. like i would love to disconnect the pain from my body for a little. but alas, i am made of flesh and bone. if i did that, i would bleed out and die. i'm too young and i'm too spiteful to die. i wanna tell god that i lived past my emo era. i wanna live long enough to audition for kq ent. i want to tell jongho to his face that he's a great guy. i want to be delusional for years.

[longstarau]

Longstar AU — Chapter Twenty

   “You have bees in your brain, Firestar!” Leopardstar growled, “And so do your warriors. I knew that ThunderClan warriors were always bee brained,” She gazed at Stormfur, nestled in between Graystripe and Brambleclaw. “And now my own warriors seem to be catching it.”

   “Don’t say mouse-dung about my son!” Graystripe growled.

   “Graystripe.” Firestar hissed, narrowing his eyes. “I understand your anger. Trust me, I feel the same,” He cast a glare at Leopardstar. “You're saying you don’t believe this message from StarClan because it goes against what'd you'd like to hear? Sounds as if you're the one with bees in your brain.”

   “There is no reason for RiverClan to leave the forest.” Leopardstar narrowed her eyes. “I have no qualms with the rest of you leaving. RiverClan has the river—we have our fish, we have our protection. We'll be fine here.”

   “If that’s what you wish, Leopardstar.” Deadstar dipped his head, flicking his tail. “It’s not safe for the rest of us. ThunderClan's camp has been destroyed. They're having to stay in our camp.. and who knows how long that will be safe for. ShadowClan has already spotted them in their territory, mowing down trees. And if you think that RiverClan will fare fine.. than okay. Stay. But we'll be leaving for our families and friends safeties.”

   “Than go.” She growled, “Now, is that all? Can we leave and go home to rest, you three?”

   “Yes.” Blackstar grumbled, “You can go, Leopardstar.” 

   And with those last few words, the spotted leader jumped from the rock, leading her clan out of the hollow.

   “So,” Firestar flicked his tail. “When will we be leaving?”

   “Two nights from now.” Deadstar meowed, “If that’s okay with ThunderClan and ShadowClan.”

   “Perfectly fine, I suppose.” Blackstar replied.

   “Yes, great.” Firestar smiled, “ThunderClan.” The tom rose his voice to the rest of his clan, leaping off the rock. Deadstar followed quickly behind, Longtail padding after the pair beside Mudclaw.

   “So you have kits, hm?” Mudclaw glanced at him, “I’ve seen them running around camp.”

   “Yeah. Why?” Longtail flattened his ears, “Don’t go anywhere near them—“

   “Do you think I would hurt kits, Longtail? You think that highly of me, huh?” Mudclaw rolled his eyes, “I wouldn’t hurt them. Or your mate, for that matter. I was only asking me.”

   “I don’t think very highly of you, you're correct.” Longtail hissed, “You have a disdain for kittypets, or anyone who is simply different. I did once, but I’ve gotten over that and grown up. You can’t seem to, can you?”

   “Mm.” Mudclaw flattened his ears, narrowing his eyes, “I'd keep your ears pricked, Longtail.” He growled, striding away. Longtail sighed, skipping over to his mate.

   “Oh, hi.” Blizzardspots smiled, pressing against his side, “Everything okay?” She mewed softly, a gentle purr rumbling from her chest.

   “Yes.” He cast a glare at Mudclaw across the way, “Mudclaw is just ticking me off. How Deadstar could pick him as deputy confuses me.”

   “Oh,” Blizzardspots shrugged. “He’s been nothing but sweet to me and the kits. And he’s a great warrior ready to protect his clan at any turn,” She took a deep breath. “I don’t see the problem.”

   “We’ve always had issues, ever since we were apprentices.” Longtail meowed, “I didn’t like the way he treated a lot of my friends at the time, and me, honestly. All his bullying pushed me toward Tigerstar. One of the worst decisions of my life.”

   “Don’t let that get to you, Longtail,” Blizzardspots mewed, pressing her head against his shoulder. “No matter what happened with Tigerstar.. your a good cat now. Your the cat I love.” She purred, “Now, c'mon, the kits are going to want to see you.”

   “Papa!” Sandkit rushed up to him, brushing against his legs. Her tail was beating against his paws, “Can you believe we’re gonna be apprentices tomorrow?!”

   “I really can’t.” Longtail purred, rasping his tongue over her head. “You're going to be one of the best apprentices I’ve ever seen.”

   Her tail thrashed back and forth, “Really?” 

   “Really. And your brothers, too.” Longtail dragged his paw over his ear.

   “Sandkit!” Silverkit rushed up to his sister, “C'mon, Dustkit and I are gonna play mossball!” His tail thrashed back and forth.

   “Go on.” Longtail gently nudged the she-cat toward her brother.

   “You'll visit us before bed, right?” Sandkit questioned.

   “Like always,” Longtail flicked his tail. Sandkit smiled, brushing up against his legs before pelting off after her brother. His ears flattened, watching as the three kits tenderly played mossball. He really didn’t know if he was ready for them to grow up.

   “They're sweet, y'know,” Deadstar's tail flicked across his back. “Just like their wonderful mother. And they'll make great warriors, just like their father.”

   “I know, I just..” Longtail murmured.

   “You're worried about Dustkit, I get it.” Deadstar sighed, “He’s blind. He has a disability. But that doesn’t matter. I have one, as well, so do you—so does Cinderpath, so does Brightheart, so does Swiftflame. We are all still strong. We are all still warriors at heart.” He meowed, resting his tail comfortingly on Longtail's shoulder, “You have no need to worry about him. Or any of them.”

   “In my head I know that. And I’m really, really not—I just—don’t want any of them to get hurt. They're my kits, they're my kin.” Longtail sighed heavily.

   “Every father wants their kits to be safe. Every cat wants their kin to be safe. But they must fall down to learn. They must fall down to become warriors—because they must learn to get back up. They're get hurt, they'll—they'll leave—but they'll always come back to where they call home. They'll always get back up.” Deadstar took in a sharp breath, “I'll leave you be. Make sure you rest, Longtail. You need to calm your mind. See our medicine cat if you need.” He flicked his tail again, slipping off to his den.

   Longtail let out a heavy sigh, padding off toward the nursery, his slow tired paws carrying him there. He peeked inside, Blizzardspots lying with Sandkit and Silverkit nestled in the crook of her stomach. Though, there was Dustkit, sitting up straight, his blind blue eyes wide.

   “Papa?” Dustkit slowly trotted toward him, “Is that you?”

   “It’s me, Dustkit.” Longtail murmured softly. “Why aren’t you asleep?”

   “I’m worried, papa,” Dustkit coiled his tail around his paws. “I’m not going to be a normal apprentice like my siblings, a-are I?”

   “Of course you are.” Longtail flattened his ears, gazing at the kit with sadness in his green eyes. “Why wouldn’t you be?”

   “Because I’m blind.” Dustkit mumbled, “They're all going to coddle me like I’m a kit still, even when I’m a warrior. Or a medicine cat, that might be better—“

   “No.” Longtail hissed, “If you want to be a medicine cat, Dustkit, than you'll be a medicine cat. But if you want to be a warrior, you're going to be a warrior. No-one is going to stop you. I'll make sure if it.”

   “A-are you sure?“ Dustkit stammered, “How can you know I’ll even be any good at it?”

   “It’s in your blood, Dustkit,” Longtail leaned down to nuzzle his son. “Now, come on, let’s get you to bed. It’s late and you have an apprentice ceremony to get to tomorrow.”

   Longtail settled down in the empty nest across from Blizzardspots, patting the ground with his paw, signaling for Dustkit to follow. With a gentle purr, the brown tom trotted over, curling himself up in between Longtail's paws.

[star-fi]

In the dark

[5k5k5k5000]

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[dark-myst28]

More redraws

[vedajuno]

| DEADSTAR_ |

A veritable gallery of some of the freaks and ghouls inhabiting a personal gothic-horror science-fiction setting I’ve taken to calling “Deadstar”, including the return of nigh omnipotent supercomputer G.I.N.A! She’s very fun to make art of, but I definitely want to hone in more on some of these other weirdos too… especially the middle guy. Middle guy has his fair share of shit going on worth illustrating.

[australiangothic]

DEADSTAR Deeper Waters (1999)

[h0spitaldrugs]

rip max is one of the greatest songs to come from the clout era ##deadstar

[statonelisabet]

poetry as unfinished as our business

[machinegrl]

[aryshacore]

[mesanthropi]

BAD KARMA! drabble: codax and the airheads (and a close call) cws: cursing, (empty) threats of violence

"well, you can't see the director right now, because they're at school."

equinox needed to process that for a moment, codax's words echoing inside his unfortunately empty brain. he'd blink if he could, but lacking eyes and eyelids, he couldn't. and so, his disbelief had to be expressed in a different way; taking ahold of the archivist's shoulders and shaking them back and forth. violently.

"i ought to dye your jacket crimson, you gelid class virus!" the torrid class redhead shrieked with frustration, albeit his confusion. "there ain't nothin' called school! you tossed 'em in a freezer, didn't you? you'll be chatterin' yer teeth once i'm through with you, ya little-" he was interrupted by a yellow hand tapping his shoulder, prompting him to also stop shaking poor codax. "what?"

bebe cleared her throat, before taking her hand back. "i read this in a little book i found in the library, but school is an older term for an LHA! kids hated school during the zero era," she explained. "i think codax said school 'cuz the director's from earth zero!"

the taller male stopped to think about what she'd just told him, jaw slowly unclenching as his hold loosened too. "... wait, but that don't make a lotta sense. if the director's doddlin' in an LHA..." he turned back to the cyan-clad archivist. "how're they a director who's tellin' us to come 'nd go for some planet investigation?"

codax had his fingers rubbing circles into his temples, a bit miffed by this inconvenience. "they wanted to continue normal education, according to ebony and sylvester, but not the kind of 'normal' that we're used to. they specifically requested to follow the schooling and education system of earth zero, but have it adjusted so that it would fit their needs." his explanation was followed by a minute of silence, before a snort broke through it.

"ehehe, those are a lotta million dollar words there, cody!" bebe giggled, hiding behind equinox in case the other would grab at her. the aforementioned torrid class groaned though, unsatisfied. "but that'd mean that they're not at an age to be director! maybe yer lyin' t'me and they're actually isolated in pearl!"

but when equinox heard footsteps after the last word, it was actually the shorter man walking away with a deadpan and hands in his pockets.

"too much social interaction today. bye."

equinox will remember that.

"HEY. YOU FUCKIN' ICE CUBE, THAT MEANS THEY'RE PROBABLY ARE IN PEARL, I'LL KILL YA AND YER JACKET'LL BE MINE-"

BAD KARMA! glossary gelid class : residents colored and sorted into greens, blues, and purples. torrid class : residents colored and sorted into reds, oranges, and yellows. zero era / earth zero : 1 BC - 202X (unknown fourth digit) LHA : Learning Hub (for) All, the earth five equivalent of school. pearl : not to be confused with the valorant map or the gemstone, pearl is a location on earth five which houses the director and their court. like the white house ig, but it… looks more like a house.

[bassomega]

I finally kicked myself to finish this :'D Full vers under the cut bcs I had to bait you in with a much better looking thumbnail LMAO @tfrarepairing Day 26 - For All Eternity