#dressed in black

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Neringa Kriziute

[kylieforeverandever]

[ve4ernee-nebo]

[phoenix-onfire]

Late night N thoughts again...and ugh I'm so deep in my feels now!

In light of everything that happened in book 3, I was thinking back to some of Sera's old asks and my heart is broken all over again.

In particular, Sera describing N with this gif:

Adding to this, she said that Sia's Dressed in Black would go on N's playlist.

The lyrics, my gosh! It literally made me cry the first time I listened to it thanks to that ask.

Anyway, longer thoughts behind the cut.

This also reminded me of book 2, how the description of the warehouse is different for each RO route. This is N's:

"gentle green-and-red vines sweeping over the broken walls as though trying to soothe the scars of time" -> this, coupled with the broken mask gif, hello? 🥺💔

Oh N, the epitome of are you even real because you're so perfect and incredible that I cannot believe you really exist, for the Detective. Or basically, for anyone who knows them even a tiny bit. Or just meets them. They radiate kindness, gentleness, intelligence, caring... They make people around them want to be better. Needing to be better, just to be a smidgen as good of a person as they are. Their light just shines so incredibly bright.

And yet...

N, this wonderful, beautiful, gentle, precious, caring person...Just utterly broken on the inside. But keeping up appearances for the sake of others. Trying not to burden anyone, helping and protecting everyone, at any cost. They put everyone before them but especially MC. As seen in book 3, N is ready to give everything for them. They would give them them their life.

Despite everything, they are not letting their imperfections and the secrets of their past show because of being afraid of how the Detective would perceive them. Their deepest, most broken parts are still kept hidden behind that mask of perfection. Terrified to let it slip. And that is truly heartbreaking.

While Sia's song speaks of a very, very, very dark and lonely past, it also shows the hope that came with the appearance of the right person. So the light is here for N too already. It's time for them to not only shine their light at others but to be able to let it in, too. To let the Detective cleanse their darkest thoughts. To truly heal and believe they are enough. More than enough. They are worthy and need to let go of their guilt. Soon. I hope.

"Yeah I had locked my heart

I was imprisoned by dark

Life had broken my heart, my spirit

And then you crossed my path

You quelled my fears, you made me laugh

Then you covered my heart in kisses

I was hopeless and broken

You opened the door for me

Yeah I was hiding and you let the light in"

[britanniabay]

This lovely photo is from my personal collection of photos that I purchased from news agency archives. Below is the caption from the back of the photo:

Princess Flies North (May 31, 1972)

Princess Anne dressed all in black for her first engagement since the Duke of Windsor's death, at London's Heathrow Airport today before flying north to visit RAF Catterick.

Central Press Photos

[nightbib]

So, did y'all see Martin perform Dressed In Black for the first time after 13 years? Because OMG. Not only is it one of my favorite live songs from him but the way he acted is so adorable? The little pause because he almost forgot to continue singing and his cheeks smile afterwards? And the way he guided the audience at the end by stomping his foot (just like Dave done it so many times)? This man is such a goddamn sweetheart, it's unbelievable

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[the-final-third]

Depeche Mode - Dressed In Black

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Keanu reeves as Neo/Thomas Anderson from the first Matrix movie.

[artthatgivesmefeelings]

Paulus Moreelse (Dutch, 1571-1638) Portrait of a lady, standing three-quarter length, wearing a black dress with a lace collar, pearl jewelry and holding a black ostrich fan, 1633

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