#easier said than done though :

[vihola]

I'll try to return to casual fandom-centered blogging to distract myself. It turns out that thinking about an ongoing genocide 24/7 is very bad for my sanity. Don't know if I can possibly think about anything else, but I have to try

[chasing-rabbits]

Had a really good day. We went into town to get some stuff we needed for the house and to take some jogging bottoms to a local clothing alteration/repair place cos they are one of Kade’s favourites and plus it was surprisingly a lot cheaper than I thought it would be.

We then went to get some food at a lounge/bar by the river, we came home and watched the first episode of black sails which btw is really good I know I’ve only seen the first episode but I think I’m gonna really enjoy it. I chilled for a bit and then took a nap and I woke up feeling good because for once I actually did just nap and not wake up like 6 hours later thinking wtf. But like idk it’s almost 1am and it’s not that I’m feeling down down its more just frustrated with where I’m at in life right now like our financial situation and where I am like I’m gonna be 30 next year and I just wanna be off benefits and earning a living really bad. I want to set up and run my own business and be able to make a living from it a comfortable one where I don’t worry about paying the bills and I want to prove it to myself I guess as well that I can do that. I can function and hold down a job even if it’s not a conventional 9-5 which I don’t think I could ever work with everything wrong with me. But I want to show everyone and most importantly myself that I’m capable of it. That I’m not forever going to be reliant on someone else or the government. And I know like okay people who do work switch up careers go back to school in their 30s or 40s my mum’s cousin she did that and retrained to be a midwife and I think that was in her 30s maybe 40s. But I don’t know I guess sometimes I’m maybe a bit too critical of myself and where I’m at and the expectations and goals I’ve put on myself are maybe a bit unfair to me given my mental health and all the things I’ve gone through up to this point you know but it doesn’t mean my brain doesn’t beat me up and tell me I should be further along and not because of societies expectations even but my own.

[amazonworrier]

For that ask thingie - 12:

I've reread that Parc and Rec Glee au cause I'm honestly so delighted by the characters' interactions and tone of that one. And I'll probably even read it again with the next update.

I also wanna reread God Only Knows but I gotta mentally prepare for that one first 😭

Very biased of me to say but I absolutely adore that parks AU 😂 I’ve been meaning to update for ages. There are like twelve more chapters already fully outlined in my doc I just have to sit down and flesh them out properly

[species-dysphoria-culture-is]

SDC is having your species dysphoria reflect your experience with gender. youre kind of an animal but only in secret. its not strong enough to warrant being open about to anyone other than close friends. you feel like you cant get too attached in case youre found out and have to give it up.

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[natsmagi]

One of my least favourite Tsumugi misconceptions is that he's useless at being an idol. He's very good actually! It's pointed out multiple times in various stories by characters who are considered the top tier idols that Tsumugi is very good at his job, he's just also awkward and a bit clumsy off stage.

yea ! alot of misconceptions tend to stem from people getting a taste of the character in a certain context and then assume theyd be the same in different contexts when thats rarely the case. like just look at tsumugis romancing cruise performance That shit changed me forever

i do understand why this happens though, or why small misconceptions are rather frequent and inadvertently lead to mischaracterizations at times. often times we just take a surface level view at things and, naturally, observe what it is we see and compare it to things we already know. like i said in my last post tsumugi is bashful, not shy, but if people only see his more awkward demeanor around certain people theyre obviously going to assume thats the characteristic he has because thats what most of us are familiar with

i dont want people to feel insecure in their portrayals though !! q__q and youre free to be as self-indulgent as you want when u create ur little crafts as im sure many of us are using these characters as a means of our own self-expression. god knows i do it! but is it also not just as fun to truly dig into the character and to try figuring them out from an unbiased perspective ? again its why i dont want to put them into boxes!!! theres so much to them and by only focusing on one or two of their characteristics you are doing them a disservice!! youre free to exclusively PORTRAY your favorite aspects ofc, create for you and not for others! but i just want their complexities to be acknowledged and recognized 💔💔 though thats just one of my selfish little desires

[usodeshou]

My School Prince President - Ten Minutes Ago Music from Rodgers & Hammerstein's Cinderella (1997)

My brain attacked me this morning yesterday (uploading this was an odyssey 🙈) with the revelation that the music in the dancing scene gives me similar vibes as this song and I kept wondering what would happen if the two were put together.

Shockingly, this is how I ended up spending the rest of the day listening to the movie soundtrack and editing this into a thing lol The deed is done now, I may finally rest 😌

[13eyond13]

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[himecloud]

[partialveil]

i need to worry less and live more, but that's very difficult for me. however, i think it's on its way to getting easier now that i'm realizing all the overanalyzing, overthinking and excessive worrying hasn't helped me, not even once. it's just getting exhausting. my brain loves to think deeply and analyze every single detail which i don't necessarily mind, but i need to remember to just allow myself to live also.

[arashi-no-saxlphone]

I have to tell you, I've been hit with Heavy Mob maybe 3 times in 3 years of play (one of those times was today) and I truly, honestly believe you can hit it more and you guys are just using it wrong - and that EXACT thought is how I figured out why they made that super so bad: it's a psyop by Daisuke to get people to get on Sol. He made it bad on purpose so we'd look at people whiff it and go "Psh, I could land that" and then you get on Sol and go "Hey this guy's easy and he's good..." and then you stay on Sol. I'm onto you Daisuke I see the vision I'm smelling the game I'm considering playing Sol Badguy after 600 hours of mostly Axl. You sly (junkyard) dog you...

[hundredblooms]

“oh yeah i’m gonna write when i get home!” (cut to an hour and a half later, where i’m playing l.imbus instead of writing-)

[ayakashibackstreet]

Ye boiiiii, got my Japanese grade for last semester and it's a 5, woooooo

[fnafawoundleftbleedingau]

Gonna be a while before I think I'll be drawing much beyond some planned doodles I said I'd do to a couple close friends, but... I'm curious, what FNaF AU drawings types from me sound more interesting..?

A random poll yes, but I'm curious, and ngl, I think I'm approaching one of those not so great "Spells" where I'm losing confidence in the things I'm well, supposed to be doing for fun. ^^;

[violexides]

the American education system needing to be improved and more accessible because as it stands a lot of people lack access to adequate schooling and it has the potential to address really important subjects and provide social support for people

coexists with the idea that societally we should not be trying to pull every piece of information from the American education system because it is not equipped even remotely to address the knowledge that can come from a person's individual lived experience nor provide the information (en masse) that goes against the state that created it.

this is something i thinka bout a lot and try to re-articulate a lot because i am resistant to answering the question "why are you only studying abolition now, through a university?" but i think a lot of things can come out of that line of questioning. because it's not just about academia it's about the people forming those communities to have those dialogues and that is key that is critical. but that doesn't negate the fact that we should have school as a starting place, and a meeting place, for all of that.

[tawnyisacolor]

you think that with the way you treated me i could just have some self respect and move on jfc

[todayisafridaynight]

i want to share my silly little masato and aoki drawing i made on paper but im terrified of sharing my art to strangers bcz its not that good and im afraid ill get ultimately slandered LMAO

when youre scared of being criticized for a drawing but still want to share it its best to do what i do and throw it on the internet and then dodge the website for the rest of the day :)