#eliza stupid rambles

[ewizaah]

alright. call me insane real quick. but guys listen. i have been hit with a realization. i know how we love suction cup man being a villain and all that, "ohh he trespassed on some old man's property" ok but like HE ISN'T THE VILLAIN, HE HAS EVERY RIGHT TO DO THAT BC LISTEN TO ME

notice how people respond to him FIRST about his passions, and then he responds angrily bc you attacked his entire way of living. like business dummy going "hey what the fuck are you doing climbing my towers get off" and, because scm was just minding his own business and is getting harassed out of nowhere, WOULD RESPOND APPROPRIATELY!! SAME THING GOES FOR PAUL!! HE ASKS HIM TO GET DOWN RUDELY, THEN SCM RESPONDS BACK IN THE SAME WAY!! THINK BOUT IT WITH ME. YOU BE LIVING LIFE. THEN SOMEONE TELLS YOU TO STOP YOUR PASSIONS. OF COURSE YOU WOULD BE ANGRY!! AND IT'S THE FACT THAT HIS NAME IS LITERALLY SCM! HIS ENTIRE BEING IS CLIMBING SO JUST TELLING HIM TO STOP IS JUST TELLING HIM TO KILL HIMSELF. IT'S GOOFY BUT IT MAKES SENSE

and this isn't just dialogue nono it applies to actions as well. he got kidnapped by these 2 guards which KINDA LIMITS HIS CLIMBING ABILITIES, SO HE WOULD BE PRETTY ANGRY ABOUT IT. JUSTIFIED. then TRUMP COMES IN. and y'know trump is a authority figure, a person who ordered the 2 guards to kidnap him, SO THAT APPLIES AS WELL!! so then they talk for a bit, SCM'S STILL SALTY Y'KNOW. "i'm listening but still fuck you"

SO WE CUT TO KIM JONG UN. HE SEES A PERSON CLIMBING HIS ROCKET. HE YELLS AT HIM, AND VICE VERSA. THAT'S HOW EVERYTHING GOES IN THIS SERIES. AND KEEP IN MIND, FIRST IMPRESSIONS ARE IMPORTANT SO IF SCM HATES YOU, HE'S HATING YOU. THAT'S HOW THIS WHOLE BUSINESS DUMMY AND SCM ARGUMENT IN THE SERIES IS DRAGGED OUT.

scm 3. he meets satan. at first, HE'S TERRIFIED AT FIRST! because he's TALL. in one of bluesy's (the va for scm) vrchat livestreams, it may be not canon, it may canon, it may be implied, WHO KNOWS. but the fact that scm's terrified of tall people. cartoon cat, endermans, ANY SORT OF ELDRICH CREATURES, HE WILL LIKELY BE FREAKING OUT. put on heels and he will be cowering!! anyways satan eventually mentions scm's speech, saying "we don't do that here" because he's saying these things about "oh god!!" "oh jesus!!" which. DIRECTLY ATTACKS HIS SPEECH. SO LIL BABY MAN WITH A TEMPER, IS OBVIOUSLY GONNA TAKE OFFENSE TO THAT. then once he gets out of hell and meets with paul, paul disagrees with what he says calmly saying about "we know who you are and we're not doing that" AND SCM UNDERSTANDS THAT. IT DOESN'T GO AGAINST ANYTHING HE STANDS FOR, HE JUST AGREES. "fair enough!!"

then scm 4 comes along and he's playin around on the ceiling! having a blast with his suction cups! then judge carter tells him to get down. sure, he's a bit annoyed at that, just going "NO!" but compared to all of his other interactions in the series? that was KINDA MELLOW!! because the judge responded in a different way than everyone else in this entire series!! so y'know things happen, he lost the case, he gets his suction cups taken away. and to the people who's carrying away his suction cups away in boxes, he's just yelling at them!! because like. i'm sure you know already!! it's a common theme!! and y'know he tried everything to find some way to climb, but no use. so he grows a bit sad!! sitting on the bench at sunset!! then this guy comes in, and at first he seems a bit nice, like he's about to provide some life-changing advice! and he does! but in a different way! you can see a glimpse of hope in that man and then it gets SHATTERED UPON IMPACT. so y'know he's vulnerable and he can't really do anything at this point because what is he defending now?? he got no passion!! so he falls into a depression because he has nothing, then he meets this person named Gina. THIS RIGHT HERE IS LIKE. A HUGE THING BECAUSE GINA PROVIDED SOLUTIONS LIKE "hey you can still climb with these dildos, and they're not climbing grade suction cups! go wild", supporting his passions even though SURE, HIS PASSION MAY BE ILLEGAL. BUT THAT MEANS A LOT TO HIM!! IT LETS HIM LIVE ANOTHER DAY!! IT SAVED HIM FROM SUICIDE!! AND SHE WASN'T ALL HISSY AT HIM!! THAT'S HOW HE RESPONDS NICELY!! SO IN CONCLUSION. SCM? ISN'T REALLY ALL THAT OF A BAD GUY. sure i mean on the other hand, i won't defend him. it's nice having a villain protagonist, it's hilarious!! but i'm providing my theories on the topic

[laugtherhyena]

Thinking about Mariana and Dagger and their opposing natures in regards to desires and love,,

Mari has an absolutely insane desire to live, she's been struggling and fighting against adversity basically from the second she came into the world. Her drive is unwavering, she alwas wishes for more, more achievements, higher statuses, money, etc.

She was, however, never taugh what love is. I wouldn't really call Mariana a narcissist, but she does think of herself and her goals before anyone else's because she was taught by life that you only keep people around if there's an use for them. If someone is approaching and wanting to be you they must have something they want from you in mind, but so do you, and one should be discarted once said goal is achived.

Unlike her, Dagger was shown what love is from a young age, she had her brother who loved her unconditionally and was always with her and her mother who although not as present and a little aloof did care for her kids and showed that in her own more subtle ways. Even after years of their deaths and the hell she had to endure in the Silent stalkers she still tries to be nice to pretty much everyone she meets.

But this same hell is what crushed her desires to continue living, she hangs on, but for what? She doesn't have her family, she doesn't have whatever future held for her before her brother and mother died, and even tho she didn't like being there, Dagger doesn't even have the Silents stalkers anymore. Those who set her up on a path she can't come back from, but alas, not one she's ashamed off. After all that's the only life she knows.

After becoming bound to one another they unintentionally and unknowingly fix each other's problems. When Mariana starts convincing Dagger to get back into action to purse the skullheart, while she had awful ulterior motives for doing so, it was because of her that Dagger was able to stop sulking around and get herself back on track. She started eating better, quit smoking, started to go out more and regained her love for fighting.

In return she showered Mari with love and affection for everything she did for her, which showed Mariana that people who are nice to you don't always want to get something out of it, they can love and want to be around you solely because they enjoy your company. And that's what ultimately gets Mari to give up on her initial plan of betraying Dagger so that she could wish on the skullheart.

[anghraine]

Random thought before back to defense prep:

Something I find interesting and enjoyable about P&P is the way that Austen both foreshadows various revelations about Darcy and complicates them before they ever happen. This is typically done through subtle asides or quick interchanges that don't necessarily register as that significant at the time, but still gives the readers a chance to pick up on what's really going to happen.

Just a few examples:

1- Elizabeth and Charlotte briefly discuss how difficult it would be for an outsider, and perhaps Bingley himself, to detect Jane's true feelings:

It was generally evident, whenever they [Jane and Bingley] met, that he did admire her; and to her [Elizabeth] it was equally evident that Jane was yielding to the preference which she had begun to entertain for him from the first, and was in a way to be very much in love; but she [Elizabeth] considered with pleasure that it was not likely to be discovered by the world in general, since Jane united with great strength of feeling, a composure of temper and an uniform cheerfulness of manner, which would guard her from the suspicions of the impertinent. She mentioned this to her friend, Miss Lucas. “It may, perhaps, be pleasant,” replied Charlotte, “to be able to impose on the public in such a case; but it is sometimes a disadvantage to be so very guarded.”

2- Darcy tries to warn Elizabeth at the Netherfield Ball:

“I can readily believe,” answered he, gravely, “that reports may vary greatly with respect to me; and I could wish, Miss Bennet, that you were not to sketch my character at the present moment, as there is reason to fear that the performance would reflect no credit on either.”

3- Charlotte tries to "read" Darcy at Rosings:

He [Darcy] seldom appeared really animated. Mrs Collins knew not what to make of him. Colonel Fitzwilliam’s occasionally laughing at his stupidity proved that he was generally different, which her own knowledge of him could not have told her; and as she would have liked to believe this change the effect of love, and the object of that love her friend Eliza, she set herself seriously to work to find it out: she watched him whenever they were at Rosings, and whenever he came to Hunsford; but without much success.

4- literally the next chapter, one of the funnier miscommunications between Elizabeth and Darcy in Kent:

More than once did Elizabeth, in her ramble within the park, unexpectedly meet Mr Darcy. She felt all the perverseness of the mischance that should bring him where no one else was brought; and, to prevent its ever happening again, took care to inform him, at first, that it was a favourite haunt of hers. How it could occur a second time, therefore, was very odd! Yet it did, and even the third. It seemed like wilful ill-nature, or a voluntary penance; for on these occasions it was not merely a few formal inquiries and an awkward pause and then away, but he actually thought it necessary to turn back and walk with her. He never said a great deal, nor did she give herself the trouble of talking or of listening much; but it struck her in the course of their third rencontre that he was asking some odd unconnected questions—about her pleasure in being at Hunsford, her love of solitary walks, and her opinion of Mr and Mrs Collins’s happiness; and that in speaking of Rosings, and her not perfectly understanding the house, he seemed to expect that whenever she came into Kent again she would be staying there too. His words seemed to imply it.

Very mysterious!!!! Definitely none of their communications here could justifiably be misread!!

[ctitan98official]

Anonymous: do you think you could write something like y/n walking through the village on there own and then finds a toddler or a little kid with no parents and then proceeds to tell the kid that y/n and alcina will take care of it (<3 ur writing)

Aww, this is cute! Sorry, this has jumped to the top of my request list. Let’s get into it!

Y/N: *Walking around in the village, goofing off* What a great day! Nothing to do but chill. I-

Y/N: *Sees a toddler sitting by herself against a fencepost, decides to investigate* What’s up, little bit? *Kneels down next to her*

The toddler: *Teary-eyed, sniffling up at Y/N* No Mama, no Dada. Where go? *Starts crying*

Y/N: *Feels their heart shatter at seeing the tiny bean so upset* D-don’t cry, short stuff! We’ll find them! Did you lose them?

The toddler: *Shakes her head* They lef’ me… *Crosses her arms, furrows her brows*

Y/N: *Alarmed* They left you on purpose?!

The toddler: *Nods her head*

Y/N: *Pissed as hell, gently holds their hands out to pick the toddler up* Can I hold you? I’ll take you somewhere nice and warm with yummy food!

The toddler: *Eyes brighten, smiles, makes grabby hands at Y/N* Yeah!

Y/N: *Cheers and picks up the toddler, making her giggle* What’s your name? *Starts walking with her back to the castle*

The toddler: *Snuggles into Y/N, laughing* Eliza!

Y/N: *Starts laughing too* I like that name! I’m Y/N!

Y/N and Eliza: *Happily chatting back and forth, make their way to the castle*

Y/N and Eliza: *Get to the castle door*

Eliza: *Eyes wide* A queen live in here, Y/N?!

Y/N: *Busts out laughing, playfully mutters under their breath* She thinks she’s a queen… (She is, Y/N. Fight me.)

Y/N and Eliza: *Go inside*

Y/N: Babe! I got something for you!

Alcina: *Walks in* Draga! I thought you were going to spend the day in the-

Alcina: *Sees Eliza, has cuteness overload* A baby! How precious! *Leans down and holds out her hands to Eliza*

Eliza: *No fool, recognizes Alcina’s cuddle potential, runs into her arms*

Y/N: I found her in the village! *Whispers to Alcina* Her parents abandoned her.

Alcina: *Outraged, reins it in because she doesn’t want to scare Eliza* What’s your name, little one?

Eliza: *Smooshed into Alcina’s front, giggling* Eliza!

Alcina: The perfect addition to my collection!

Y/N: … Collection?

Alcina: *Kissing Eliza’s head* Yes! Daughters named alphabetically!

Y/N: Weird way to describe your daughters, but okay. *Thinks* Wait! We can keep her?!

Alcina: Absolutely! *Smiles down at Eliza* We’ll have lots of fun, won’t we, darling?

Eliza: Yeah!

Y/N: Great! I’ll lay down some newspaper for her in the kitchen! She’ll need a food and water bowl too! Oh, and a collar!

Alcina: Wait, Y/N. She’s not a pet-

Y/N: Alci, you can clean up after her and take her for walks! I’ll do the fun stuff, like giving her treats and teaching her tricks!

Alcina and Eliza: *Look at each other, confused by Y/N*

Y/N: *Walks off, rambling stupid ideas* Should she eat dry food or wet food? Maybe she needs a cat tree to climb on?

Alcina: …

Eliza: …

Alcina: Y/N means well, little one. *Rolls her eyes*

Alcina: Welcome home, my love.

Alcina and Eliza: *Snuggle*

Note: So fun to write! I love this idea!

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[changingplumbob]

Random Ramblings

If this is somehow even more long winded than I normally am (yeah it's long), it's because I'm going through an IBS flare up that is kicking my butt.

BUT I wanted to get my thoughts out about some of my content warnings, because I'm very tired and have been shoving the same one in front of my Reece/Samir parts even if they might not reflect that particular part because I'm too tired to judge how spicy warrants a spice warning.

Where to start... If you haven't figured it out, all my grown sims are currently woohoo positive, as in they do not think that how much woohoo a sim does or does not have dictates how "good" a person is. Why? Because whoever made sex synonymous with shame is stupid and has ruined many a life (it was probably a dude, no offense dudes out there).

While I don't currently have any sims that are asexual, not all my sims feel the same about woohoo.

For example Charlie and Kaori would choose a good chat over woohoo most times. Not because they don't love each other, or are averse to woohoo, but because that's who they are together. Most days they tire themselves out as athletes and prefer to relax together

Cassandra and Rahul on the other hand love to have woohoo, particularly unprotected, three kids and still not done

Keira, who rolled the soulmate aspiration, chose to wait before she had woohoo. Her high school girlfriend (Morgan Fryes) cheated on her because she wouldn't woohoo. Even after meeting Marta (her now fiance) she wanted to wait until she felt comfortable being vulnerable around her.

Then of course we have my superstar Joey who is aromantic but allosexual (a mod did that, I didn't choose it). As soon as he became a YA he got a fwb. His philosophy is basically, oh she identifies as she? Can I hit it? I love you Joey that's why I call you a slut

Normally I just chuck up a sim spice warning if there are some screenshots taken during woohoo. Me being me, I don't feel like including pixel private parts in my published posts. Kudos to all you who do, it's just not my style. It's also rare that I'll write about anything that happens during a woohoo session, mostly I'll just write some foreplay then say it happened. That said, I do like to chuck in innuendo here and there if it feels like something my sims would say (any other writers feel like they know exactly what their sims would say at times?). I'm also not in a hurry to be classified as a mature blog, purely because that doesn't fit like 95% of my gameplay. Yes, I use wicked whims for my gameplay, but that doesn't mean I'm going to show you Luna being a lowkey pillow princess... shut up brain you can't just say that

Finally, on to my babies Reece and Samir. If there are spectrum's they are at the extreme end (also in my country the age of consent is 16 so any hijinks they get up before Reece turns 18 isn't percieved as illegal here). They both enjoy woohoo, like a lot a lot. Probably didn't help that there rotation had love day in it but they both also have high woohoo drives. They were flirty most of the time, so what would they do in that state? Sweet talk each other of course.

Now, if you weren't aware and you probably weren't cause it's been ages since their last rotation Reece and Samir also have a dynamic my other sims don't. Although on reflection Bob and Eliza have it as well, just to a lesser extent. Reece, chatterbox ego that he is, is a submissive. Samir, who barely says more than a sentence to anyone but Reece, is a dominant. When together they'll often lean into these roles, using both innuendo and statements of things their partner does that they're in to. Some people would probably label things that even use those words as mature, but it's a dynamic that exists people.

Now their chapter isn't me suddenly switching to speaking in 100% innuendo, but it has more than my average writing, at least for the first half you'll understand later if you read hence the sim spice warning. Looking back on it the chapter does not contain any screenshots mid woohoo, but the dialogue makes me want to put a disclosure above the cut, since I'm still not sure of all the rules around here, and my IBS is making it hard to focus right now.

Woohoo talk done? It's done! That's what she said... shut up brain, we're not twelve!

The other warning is about sim death. No one dies in the chapter but it deals with figuring out what happened to Samir's birth parents. Previously it's been established they were killed when he was 5 but the chapter and my Samir flashback pov short bit that I am low key proud of does involve mention of blood, death, dying etc. Me being me, I do not include any screenshots of dead, dying or seriously bleeding sims, it's not my aesthetic (don't act as though you don't love playing Until Dawn, the Quarry and The Dark Pictures Anthology which is full of gore... okay yes but gore does make me queasy for the most part, could never ever watch a saw film) and things aren't described in explicit detail. But death is death and grief is complex. It can hit you at unexpected times in unexpected ways.

So why am I bothering to put content warnings at all? Still sounds pretty tame. Yeah, probably, but as mentioned, I still don't know all the rules around here. Plus I would choose for someone to not read my story and avoid seeing something that upset them, than have someone grieving a loss see my dead sims bodies on their dash because I tagged it Sims4 every time. So if you see a content warning on my post, it most often just means viewer discretion advised. Not that you'll click and get flashed by my sims.

[mothwithapencil]

These stupid pics to get your attention

Rambling about Vega, his various mental issues and gay problems, featuring vegaryuken. Copied from a discord dm, edited in my notes app, pasted here to tumblr dot com for all the vegaheads and like, 2 other enjoyers of the ship to see. And hopefully tumblr won't ruin the formatting and scramble the entire post again. Enjoy

I think Vega has trouble correctly identifying his emotions. Like they get jumbled together and it's hard for him to recognize just what it is when he's feeling a bunch of things at once. And because he's Vega it all just gets translated into I Need To Fucking Kill You

Because of their 87 gay tension encounters Vega very obviously desires Ken biblically. But he also wants attention from him and when he doesn't get it he's Upset. And he gets jealous and angry at everyone Ken does give attention to (Eliza, Chun-Li, probably Ryu but we'll get to that later). So he tries to fight Ken to "win their affections" even though it's really just Ken that he wants. Intricate rituals just so another man will touch him etc etc. So there's too many emotions at play and it all gets blended into one mess. He wants Ken to give him attention and he's jealous of people close to him and hates them because he's not them and he hates Ken for not reciprocating and he's angry at himself for having feelings and caring about someone as stupid and ugly and beautiful as Ken Masters. Well. What can a Vega do with these overwhelming feelings but claw everyone to death about it. After all he does love killing and maiming and licking blood from his claw as a way to bring peace to his mind (← canon info)

Tldr he's angry and touch starved and wants to be loved and is a little bit of a whore. And he never was allowed to properly feel and regulate his emotions so he can't tell the difference.

He probably goes after Ryu too once he realizes ken is in love with him. But Ryu, big sweetheart that he is, is at one with his heart and emotions and is able to be like "Hey. Lets talk about this. What's troubling you so much. Lets sit down and breathe :)" and eventually gets him to be very very pathetic and spill everything. Its okay Vega it's not your fault

[mrs-theirin]

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#5

“i don’t have anyone anymore.” / “you have me.”

Varric visits Hawke after the Arishok fight.

There’s not many things Varric can admit to doing at five in the morning. Usually, by then, Hawke has gone home for the day, and Varric can finally sink into his bed and relax, away from the mages and the Templars and whatever bullshit Hawke managed to find herself wrapped up in. It isn’t often he finds himself standing at her door, holding a bottle of wine like an idiot, just staring in hopes that something, anything, will call him back to the Hanged Man and he can leave this stupid, idiotic idea behind.

What was he even thinking? She’s probably long asleep. The most he can do is place the wine on her desk with a bullshit heartfelt note and leave it for her to laugh at in the morning. He almost got mugged three times on the way here. Was it even worth it?

He should go home. He should definitely head back home and—

“Maker’s breath, Varric,” says Hawke, opening the door, clad only in her deep red robe which hangs off her shoulder haphazardly, revealing quite a bit of skin. “Will you just come in already?”

63 notes - Posted April 27, 2022

#4

okay SHUT UP the idea that everyone was feeling ecstatic at the games and their victories will always be shadowed by the inversion........stop. huxley won GOLD and he's never going to be able to think of that without thinking about everything else.......don't touch me

69 notes - Posted January 28, 2022

#3

pov: you have two seconds left to live before the 233 year old milf fucks your shit up

i commissioned the wonderful, the brilliant, the TALENTED @kirnet to draw my sole survivor, eliza hawkings! i literally don’t have words for how well this turned out, she looks absolutely beautiful and mina is literally such a talented artist it’s insane. i’m eternally grateful!!!

93 notes - Posted May 6, 2022

#2

if i hear one more redacted character say "don't get mad, get even" i'm going to personally track erik down and erase the phrase from his brain

131 notes - Posted June 28, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

     I know someone who kisses the way     a flower opens — Mary Oliver, “I Know Someone”

commissioned @chernychnyi to draw my azalea & @montliyets‘s beautiful lillian and i could NOT be happier with the result!! they look SO absolutely gorgeous, i teared up when it arrived :’) please commission him if you have the chance!!!

146 notes - Posted April 24, 2022

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[sparingiscaring]

Having some thoughts about Leigh- warning, because this is really really long and rambling and only interesting to me.

Been thinking a lot lately about the Deacon Leigh Corbyn... about his lies. He's like Eliza in that way- they both built up such a way of presenting themselves that even I am fooled, sometimes.

Eliza isn't a harmless artist in court, a loving wife, or a young woman who didn't understand the implications of what she asked for, at the end of that card game. It's none of those things: it's a toddler throwing a tantrum and screaming when it doesn't get its way, and it doesn't care about anyone. It delights in hurting people- it thinks that the act itself is fun, and that the way people struggle is funny. It laughs at the fear others have of it, and it delights in taking a moment to drop it's mask, and show someone what it truly is, knowing no one will ever believe them.

I was fooled by Eliza for almost a year, before it made sense to me.

I'm still fooled by Leigh. I think Leigh is fooled by Leigh.

I play up the comedy of Leigh, a lot- he's a 5'3 conman who fell into his ambition with a misclick a series of blunders, and only came to grow as a result of the horrors he witnessed. But what did he become?

He still acts like an idiot. Like a fool with a heart of gold and a silver tongue, who cons the gullible rich out of their ill-gotten gains. He straddles an alliance between the Church and Hell, and yet he stoked the fires of an oncoming war. His Bringer of Death quality is staggering- when you do the math, and factor in that it wasn't a clean level-up, you get that he is, or will be, responsible for the permanent deaths of 600 people.

600.

This is the same man, who has 400 weasels, possessed by Fingerkings. Who declared that he wanted to marry Furnace, with full sincerity, despite there being no hint that she would ever want that.

And yet, this is the same man who married the villain of his ambition, the man who kidnapped his child.

This is the man who falls in love with everyone, who proposes at the drop of a hat, who sobs like a child with a scraped knee for hours on end, but switches back to happily chatting the moment someone pays attention to him again.

This is the man who stabbed a woman's eyes out, to save a devil who, by all rights, had deserved to die, then.

I don't think Leigh can be boiled down, to anything. I don't think he knows who he is. I don't think anyone can.

He's emotional and calculating and cold and stupid and foolish and in love and unable to love and human and not and a generous man and the most selfish man in the world and a father and a monster and his name was not Leigh and his name is now and he isn't a Deacon and he is a Bishop.

Just before the pandemic hit, I got back into Fallen London. It was my senior year of high school, and I'd singlehandedly gotten the site blocked on school computers- and I still had an online class to do. Well, I finished that online class too quickly- before long, my last hour of the day would be spent in the school computer lab, going insane with boredom. Most days, I would get lucky- I worked in the front office in the mornings, and usually she would let me go straight there to clean up at the end of the day, rather than just sit there. Sometimes she wouldn't.

This is to say - I was bored, and I wasn't able to do anything. And I was supposed to be in a Literature class I had already finished.

I wrote poetry about Leigh.

Most of them have been lost to time, and to purging of the backpack the loose leafs were kept in. But I remember the end of one poem, the part I was most proud of.

It's not right- It's not Leigh. But it's an approximation. It's one angle to view him from, and it's one I think has merit.

" Our Fair Deacon is a Sham

Shambling Hedonistic Man

Mister Leigh pull down the Veil

Tell me from which Hell you Hail "

I don't think Leigh ever knew there was a veil, between himself and the world

I don't think he knows from which Hell he hails.

[boredfaneliza]

people: ooooo dream, george, sapnap and karl team! lol it's a double date.

me: haha maybe i should make this a fic then

*few minutes later*

me, internally: dont make this into an ot4, dont make this into an ot4, dont make this into an ot4-

[narcoleptic-drag-queen]

More prompts coming tomorrow!

[ewizaah]

it's highly unlikely since rigs+model makers are expensive as hell (deserved btw) but the fact that bluesy talks about wanting a scm vtuber model. he has been on about it for a year (or two) now. THE IDEA GETS ME EXCITED AS WELL I'M SO UPSET IT WOULD'VE BEEN SO COOL. the fact that mike has a vtuber model of pretzel that he drew himself so MAYBE??

[zaricats]

So my friend and I were watching Pink Panther (2006) and let’s just say that Clouseau (chaotic stupid) and his long suffering partner (lawful tired) are Constantine and Chas’ exact dynamic

[mitsay]

being a high school senior is just *drinks coffee* *opens commonapp then immediately closes it* *showing up an hour late to find you’re the first person there* *drinks more coffee* *cries in English teacher’s classroom* *gives collegeboard money* *tries opening commonapp again* *drinks more coffee*

[imruination]

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[eladrin-disaster]

" I am both smart enough and stupid enough that I'd do something like publish the Reynolds Pamphlet "

~ Me justifying to my little sister why I am definitely Alexander God Damn Hamilton.

[dreamersdreamloud]

Coming Home To You (Part 2)

AN: Kara is not Supergirl. She’s human and a reporter :) 

Many of you have requested a part two so here you go! This is part of a book that I’m working on so enjoy this sneak peek 

“This was a mistake.” Lena paces around inside her penthouse. 

Kara stands awkwardly in the middle of Lena’s living room. She watches her lover in distress, her mind running into a million thoughts. What would Alex say when she finds out? What would Eliza think of her when she finds out? 

She betrayed her oldest sister. It looks bad but most importantly she feels terrible. Kara let her temptations get the best of her. She shouldn’t have gotten so close to Lena when (Y/N) was away. She shouldn’t have comforted her most of the time when they heard the news that (Y/N) went missing during a mission. 

They shouldn’t have assumed that the person they care and love for was dead without any hard evidence. 

“Did you know?! Did you know that she was alive this whole time?!” Lena yells at the blonde Danvers. 

Kara was taken by surprise that Lena is yelling at her. She never yells at her. She never experienced her anger toward her. 

“What? No! Of course not!” Kara quickly replies. 

“How could you not know?! You literally write about international news, war stories, political topics, Kara!” 

“I’m just a reporter, Lena! I’m not a damn government spy! When I heard about my sister going missing. . . I tried to find leads, Lena! I TRIED! Nothing came out. No trace. No witnesses. No clues of what happened to my sister and her team!” 

Lena shakes her head in silence. Her tears were starting to form again. The young CEO thinks about the decisions she has made that have come to this very moment. She shouldn’t have accepted the youngest Danvers’ help and comfort when (Y/N) wasn’t around. She was a fool for falling for Kara’s touch and caring words. 

She tragically replaced (Y/N)’s kisses with Kara’s. 

“I need to find her. . . I need to find (Y/N).” Lena frantically says. “I just need to explain to her that this was a mistake. None of this was serious.” 

Kara looks into the floor and shakes her head in disapproval. 

“Lena . . .” 

“I’m sure she’ll understand. She has always been reasonable, right? God where could she be. A local bar! I just need to look up the local bars. She can’t be far. I-” 

“LENA!” Kara interrupted. 

The raven haired stops rambling and looks at Kara with frustration. 

“WHAT KARA?! I need to find your sister! I need to fix my relationship with her!” 

“What about us?” Kara questions her actions, her reasoning. 

Lena huffs out a laugh, “Us? There’s no us, Kara! This was a mistake. I MADE A MISTAKE. I love your sister, Kara. You know that!” 

It pains Kara to hear those words coming out of Lena’s mouth. Kara fell in love with Lena. In all truth, she fell in love with her while you were dating Lena. She kept it to herself. The youngest Danvers didn’t want to ruin the relationship you have with Lena. She thought that you being “dead” was an opportunity for her to have a chance being with the young CEO. 

Lena sobs, her knees falling to the ground. The stress and frustrations are getting to her. Kara didn’t hesitate to be by her side, comforting her the best she could without making the situation worse. Lena cries against Kara’s shoulder. 

“It’s not ideal to go out and find my sister, Lena. We should probably wait until tomorrow. Let her cool off. I’ll find her first thing in the morning and make this right.” 

“Okay.” Lena mumbles. 

**** 

It’s been three whole days that you haven’t stepped out of your hotel room. You have cried endlessly. Scream multiple times. You even broke a couple of items in the room. You drank until you blackout and woke up repeating the same thing you did yesterday. 

You have decided that you need to put your hurt feelings aside. You need to reunite with your family and friends. You mentally think about how you’re going to pretend that you didn’t see Kara and Lena a few days ago. You will keep your distance. You will maintain your cover. 

Your captain has already arranged your new deployment. You will be leaving at the end of the month and have a new assignment to take over. Your plan is to just get away from here. 

You've been in the bathroom for a while. Looking at yourself in the mirror. It’s obvious that it looks like you have gotten no sleep. You can just pass it off and just say that your military position doesn't give you enough sleep

You fix the imperfections of your new set of uniform before heading out. You take a deep breath and hope that no one catches you acting differently. 

*** 

Location: Lena’s Office 

“I can’t find her, Lena.” Kara desperately says. 

Lena looks out to the window, standing straight as possible. She was keeping her distance from the youngest Danvers. She can’t trust herself being near the reporter. 

“HOPE can’t find her too. The face recognition hasn’t picked up her face anywhere. . .” 

Kara’s phone rings out loud. The reporter sighs because it’s her sister, Alex. She hasn’t talked to her since you confronted your youngest sister. Kara hopes that Alex hasn’t found out, she can’t bear to handle Alex’s lecture and disappointment. 

Kara answers the call and puts it on speaker for Lena to hear as well. 

Kara: “Hello?” 

Alex: “Kara! Where are you?!” She said cheerfully. 

Kara: “I’m following a lead for my article. Why what’s up?” 

Alex: “(Y/N) is back! She’s alive, Kara! She’s alive!” 

Kara fumbles her words, not knowing how to react or say. She didn’t want to ruin her sister’s excitement. 

Alex: “Get over here at the DEO. J’onn have already picked up Eliza. They’re on their way back here. Bring Lena!” 

The call ended without Kara saying another word. Alex was too happy and excited to see you again. She’s happy that she gets to see you “first.” 

*** 

*A few hours earlier*

You didn’t head straight to the DEO to surprise your sister, Alex. You made a quick stop despite the situation you were in. The Uber car pulls up to the two story house that you were looking for. There’s physical changes to the house last time you came here. The grass was looking more green and the roses were more full. By looking at the driveway, the two people you wanted to see are still home. 

You rang the doorbell once and you can tell that someone is on their way to answer the door. You mentally ready yourself before they open the door. 

A woman gasped as they answered the door and saw you standing firmly in the middle. 

“(Y/N)?” Eve can’t believe her eyes. 

“Eve, who’s at the door?” Lex calls out in the background. 

Eve was speechless that she couldn’t answer her husband. Lex was a tad worried that Eve wasn’t answering him right away. The man makes her way to the door and gives the same shocking reaction as his wife. 

“(Y/N)! You bastard! You’re alive!” He shouts with joy. 

You smiled at both of them. You step in to give Eve a hug and then give Lex the same affection. Immediately, Lex can tell that there’s something wrong. He just knows. The man has always been like a brother to you and he feels the same way too. 

The married couple lead you to the living room to have a more comfortable environment to catch up. They didn’t have to worry about being late to their work since they’re technically the bosses of their own department at L-Corp. Eve comes in with some tea and mini sandwiches for everyone. The three made small talk, giving them the truth about what really happened in the months you were missing. 

Lex and Eve felt sorry for you how much pain and recovery you have to go through alone after that accident happened. You assure them that it wasn’t a big deal and that you’re very happy to live another day. 

After the good catch up, Lex thought it was time to find out what was bothering you. 

“(Y/N). . Why exactly are you here? Aren’t you supposed to see your sisters first? Or perhaps Lena?” 

You looked to the side, took a deep breath and sighed loudly. Your mind goes back to Lena. 

“Did you know?” You vaguely ask your ex-girlfriend’s brother. 

“Know what?” Lex replies, Eve looks equally confused. This confirms that no one knows, especially your mother and Alex. 

“About Kara and Lena. . .” Lex thinks for a moment before he replies. 

“All I know is that they’re close. When you were away, Kara had been keeping Lena company.” 

You nodded. He’s telling the truth. Small anger was inside you but you’re mad at Lex. You start to get mad at yourself for not being around much. 

“I caught them. . . I found your sister with my sister. It was clear that the love bites and the flushed redden cheeks on Lena were from Kara. . .” 

Lex suddenly feels stupid for not seeing this. He thinks about how he didn’t see the little hints that his sister was having a lover, becoming a cheater. Eve looks at you with sad eyes, she gets up and wraps you in a hug. 

“(Y/N) I don’t know what to say . . . I just - I really didn’t know. If only I have seen it sooner I would have prevented Lena from making those-” 

“Lex no.” You interrupted him. “Your sister is her own person. She can decide what she wants to do. You couldn’t have prevented her feelings for someone else. I’m not mad at you Lex. You’re always like a brother to me. You have helped me so much and I will continue to do the same. Despite the situation. This is between Lena and I.” 

Lex sucks in his lips and nods, “Did the two of you officially break up or talk about it?” 

“No. I left right when I found out. My heart is really fragile at the moment but I promise you like I promised to Lillian years ago that I will not harm Lena in any way. I have never physically abused her and I will not let this dictate my actions.” 

“You’re a good person, (Y/N). I’m sorry that it had to come out like this. I was desperately waiting for the two of you to get married someday. Getting the chance to call you my sister-in-law.”

You sadly laugh. You almost forgot about the ring that was attached to your military dog tags. You reveal your necklace to Lex and Eve. Eve was the first to react fast. 

“(Y/N)! That ring looks so beautiful!” Eve focused on the diamond on the ring. It wasn’t too small nor too big. It was the perfect size. 

“Damnit Lena.” Lex says under his breath while his wife talks to (Y/N) about the ring. “You better realize that you threw out the best Danvers sister. This one was going to marry you.”