#enough ka na teh

[grvntld]

mga accla may gusto akong bag from playnomore kaso micro bag siya pero kasi supah adorbs niya and elegant and arti kaso kasi nga micro bag siya so like di kasya phones ko huhu two pa naman phones ko kasi werq phone and play phone sila tapos gaga itong mind ko sabi ba naman buy ka kaya nung samsung flip chuchu para kasya na luh teh tama na yan kalokohan ko talaga ibang level na kagagahan na yan wahahaha inadjust na yung other things para sa bag anue yOrn

ay perO ano may nakita ako pink mk hamilton na mini and sobrang omg ang ganda kaso sold na huhu so iniisip ko kung imemessage ko ba yung seller para mahanapan niya me pero ewan ko pa kasi ang dami ko na pink bags pero ang pretty niya kasi talaga

okie tama na itutulog kwoah na twoah kasi kung anu-ano na nakikita kwoah

[sadiahakim]

When I am here gaslighting myself, there are people intimidated by my values, my goals, my courage, the way I carry myself, the way I rise from ashes. I always thought I am not a beautiful girl like others, I don't know how to go to the market and bargain, I don't like shopping and stuff due to my own reasons, I repeat my favorite colors, clothes and designs. I don't know how to wear makeup and I do have a cosmetic allergy, so I can't put even a simple cold cream on my face. I don't compromise on certain things, and all other things that I think were a major flaw in my personality being a female gender, but then someone made me realize flaws aren't defined based on these categories or personality or health choices. I have all basic life skills, I carry my values despite what others label me as, I see through people's toxicity, I am a woman of boundaries and I respect myself and want the same from someone who claims to love me or spend a life with me.

I rejected so many connections in my life because I had low self-esteem and doubted my existence. I thought myself as a burden on others regarding connections, my soul and my heart. I thought I am not suitable for it. I convinced myself that I was not lovable enough or worth any person in my life. I used to hate marriages, I still do, I mean to get married to someone my soul isn't comfortable being with and my heart is not sure about, and my thoughts aren't aligned for. But I guess I am open to anything that life has to offer.

Because, in our old house, we had a lot of paranormal, unbelievable stuff going on, and once I told my mom that there's someone that finger combs and plays with my hair and I can feel it, but there's no one when I turn around, that was something else, long story short, I talked negative about myself, joking that I am not beautiful, why would someone do that to me, and one part of that discussion led me to understand love and life. Now I get it when my mom said to me,

"You can be the most beautiful girl and perfect human out there and people will still find you uninteresting and ugly. You can be the most horrible and toxic person outside, and there will be people cherishing you for your soul and the energy you bring into the room. For love, for genuine love to happen, if you think you aren't beautiful according to the false standards of this society, then let me tell you a secret. Being physically beautiful and attractive is not what matters and attracts genuine people, but appearing beautiful to the person in love is what matters the most. It's about them and what they are looking for in you, and not about you as a person. People choose people for their own reasons that have nothing to do with your truths and lies".

And then she uttererd,

Mohabbat hone k liye apka khuubsurat "hona" zaruri nahi hai, mohabbat k liye apka ksi ko khuubsurat "lagna" zaruri hai or khuubsurti sirf chehron sy nahi hoti, or husn sirf jismo ki malkiyat nahi hai, ap ka kirdar, apka rawwiyya, apka Zindagi ko le kr nazriya teh karta hai k ap kitne bd-suurat ya kitne khuubsurat hain. Khuubsurti ya badsuurti akhlaq me hai beta, agar apka dil murda hai to ap chahy miss universe hi kyu na ban jaen, apka chehra apki badsuurti nahi chupaa payega. >>>>>>>

(For love to happen, your 'being' beautiful is not necessary, for love, your 'appearing' beautiful to someone is necessary and beauty is not only in the face, and beauty is not just the possession of the body, your character, your attitude, your perspective on life determines how beautiful or ugly you are. Beauty or ugliness is in the character, my child, if your heart is dead, then even if you become Miss Universe, your face will not be able to hide your ugliness).

Sadia Hakim ©️

[enchantedtomeetyouts]

Ew who is Taylor Swift anyway?

This dream has been 18 years in the making. Yes! Those who knew me back then alam nila kung gano ko ka fan girl ni Taylor Swift. Fangirling before is far different from now. Ibang-iba teh! Back then, there was no Wifi pa para mag YouTube or Spotify to easily access tunes. Instead, we relied on the daily top 10 charts and lyric books. Di naman din ako pinanganak with a golden spoon just to have a walkman or mobile phone na pwedeng lagyan ng music. Mostly nang hihiram lang ako sa mga classmate ko, para i-memorize yung song nyang ‘Our Song’. I vividly recall spending hours in the computer shop, memorizing entire albums in just two hours – that was all I could afford since it cost ₱15/hour! Makaipon lang ako ng 15pesos nun takbo na 'ko agad sa computer shop! hahaha

Since alam ng ekonomiya ang kahinaan ng mga katulad kong mahirap na Swiftie. Itong si Selecta! I had to save every day just to buy a Cornetto sa 7-11 bayan, hoping to win concert tickets or even merchandise para sa RED TOUR nya. Halos mamaga na nga lalamunan ko nun. Di ko pinaparinig kay mama pag ubo ko. Araw-araw ice cream. There was even one time when I didn’t have enough fare to get home after buying an ice cream! So, we waited, hoping that someone we knew would pass by, and we’d ask them for a piso 😝 “Pst pauwi kana? Pahinge naman piso.” And guest what? Di ako nanalo kahit isa HAHAHAHA. I don’t remember them na, pero sa mga nahingan namin ng piso, THANK YOU! 🤣

With those experiences, sinabi ko talaga na mag-aaral ako ng mabuti so that I could immediately find a job after graduation. Di ba main character atake ko. Tapos di pa man ako graduate, nung yung buong mundo tinawag syang snake!

You don't know how scared, stressed, and sad I was during that time. I was worried that she might stop making music and di na mag tour pa. I was sad that kung kailan unting push ko na lang ggraduate na 'ko at mag kakawork and I still wouldn't get to see her. At that time, it was considered shameful to idolize her. People will judge you if you’re a Swiftie. Kaya ending ‘every day is like a battle’ peg ko nun. Ang dami kong kalaban na fandom. Charing. Kahit sa schoolii nakikipag 1vs2, minsan 3 pa sila, just to defend Taylor. You forgive you forget but you never let it go. Charing ulit. Hahahaha

People might say, 'Why are you defending her like that? She doesn't even know you'. Yes! She doesn't know me. She doesn't even know that I exist but I’m a Swiftie. She is aware of the existence of Swifties.

Taylor Swift has been my constant companion through all my struggles, from my first crush to my first heartbreak. So why would I not defend the person who helped and accompanied me (through her songs) through my silent battles when I was young? People haven't always been there for me, but her music always has.

Taylor Swift was judged for having exes who hurt her and for creating heartbreak songs. And ganon nga ata talaga ang mundo, they’ll judge and laugh at you by voicing out your pain without truly understanding the pain that caused you.

Being a Swiftie was the best decision I made back then. And if given the chance to go back and do it all over again, I-click ko ulit yung "Tim McGraw" to listen to it AGAIN.

Things happened because I needed to go through them. Para gawing exciting at masaya yung journey ko. Kaya pala namiss ko yung Speak Now tour, Fearless World tour, Red Tour, 1989 Tour and Reputation tour kasi God prepared something big for me. Going to Eras tour with my Mom is isa sa na accomplished ko sa buhay and it feels like my Mama finally met my bestfriend too! 🥹

Maraming tao di makakaintindi sa mga tulad nating ‘Fangirl’. But who cares? As long as wala tayong tinatapakan na tao at mabuti tayong mamamayan, keber na sa mga little judgements.

And sa mga fans na di pa nakikita Idol nila. Kapit lang, your time will come too. Trust the process and believe that God is preparing something big din sayo. Trust me, HE NEVER FAILS.

Love,

Helly Swift 🫶🏻✨

[yourshiningastr]

CHAPTER 29

Paano ba malalaman kung kailan ka mamamatay?

Nararamdaman ba yun? Napapaginipan? May makapagsasabi ba?

They say killing yourself is a sin. The soul and our body are not ours, to begin with.

Hiram lang...

We don't have any right to damage it and ruin it. We owe the almighty this life, he gave us a huge responsibility of taking care of it yet a lot of people failed to do so.

I too agreed with the statement that it is a sin to kill oneself.

He is the only one who has all the rights to do so; however, there is a lingering question that no one is yet to answer.

Did we really fail in taking care of this life? Is killing and ending our miseries wrong?

Hindi ba pwedeng mapagod? Hindi ba pwedeng sumuko?

Sleeping isn't enough, resting can't seem to replenish the energy that life stole from me.

Pakiramdam ko mababaliw ako. Bakit hanggang sa pagtapos ng sakit ay may humahadlang pa din sakin? Bakit hanggang sa pagsuko ko ay hindi pa din pwede? Bakit hindi ko pa din kaya? Bakit hanggang dito ayaw akong pakawalan? Bakit hanggang dito hindi pa din ako pwedeng mag desisyon para sa sarili ko? Bakit hanggang ngayon pakiramdam ko nakatali pa din ako?

"Hey, malapit na ang graduation natin! Sa June 28 na, next Friday! Nakakaexcite, pwede na ako magwalwal minu minuto." I shook my head to Yna.

She has been very excited after our finals. Gustong gusto na nitong makawala sa responsibilidad bilang estudyante.

Nakapasa naman ako sa final exam namin, hindi ko nga lang nareach ang expectations ng mga Professor sakin. Just what I expected I am not going to graduate with any latin honor.

I admit it saddens me every time I imagine myself giving a speech in front of every student. I even wrote my speech last January.

But as long as I'm graduating, all is well...

"Ang dami mong oras noh? Baka hiwalayan ka na niyang boyfriend mo kasi lagi kang nandito." Yna scoff.

"Duh! I doubt, sa ganda kong ito, ako pa hihiwalayan niya?"

I really can't believe that Yna ended up with him... I am happy because she found someone who is real, she found someone who loves her as much as she loves herself.

"I'm sorry.." Yna stopped looking at her new nails and faced me with furrowed brows.

"Ano na namang drama yan?" I lightly smile and hug her. She flinched and tried to push me jokingly.

"Oy, may jowa na ako Rae ano ba! Saka straight ako no!" I laughed and lightly pushed her shoulder after I let her go from my embrace.

"I just want a hug from my Bestfriend. Bawal ba yun? " Nakita ko ang pag nguso nito at luhang unti unting sumisilip sa mga mata nito.

"Psh! Pauso ka masyado! Oh ano, mas maganda ako maging bestfriend diba? Maganda na masarap pa! Kaya nga ang swerte ng jowa ko sakin eh." Tumawa ako dito at pinagmasdan ang namumula nitong ilong at mata sa pagpipigil ng luha.

"Punasan mo nga yang luha mo, hindi pa naman ako patay!" I jokingly said. She lightly hit my arm and pouted at me.

"Kasi naman eh! Wag mo na uli gagawin yun, susundan talaga kita sinasabi ko sayo!" Napailing ako sa sinabi nito.

After I drowned myself in the tub and praying for help last time mas lalo na nila ako hindi nilubayan.

Lagi na akong may kasama pati sa pagtulog. They make sure na hindi nakalock ang kwarto ko at lahat sila ay may spare key na din sa kwarto na yun.

"Paano na yung boyfriend mo kapag sumunod ka sakin?" I said while chuckling.

"Aba, eh subukan niya lang din hindi sumunod mumultuhin ko talaga siya." Mas lalong lumakas ang tawa ko sa litanya niya, but deep inside I am hoping that she's just joking about following me..

"Malapit na din pala yung Birthday mo, next month na! Taray 22 ka na, teh! I'm feeling 22 ohh." Pagkanta nito.

I almost forgot my birthday. Sa dami ng nangyari ay nawala na sa isip ko ang mga ganun.

"Anong plano mo?" I shrugged my shoulders at her.

"I don't know, hindi naman na kailangan pa mag celebrate for that." Yna gasped and held both of my shoulder saka ako pinaharap dito.

"Anong hindi eh Birthday mo yun! Hindi pwedeng walang celebration, mag papainom ako! Mag hihire din ako ng mga macho dancer for you." She winks at me, napangiwi naman ako doon at umiling sa kanya.

They don't have to planned a party for my birthday, dahil hindi din naman ako aabot.

"Nga pala, tutuloy ka bang umuwi sa Nueva Ecija?" Sumandal ako sa upuan at dinama ang sariwang hangin.

Nasa garden kami ngayon sa mansyon ng mga Vasco. Nasa trabaho sila ngayon, ang asawa at mga anak naman ni Kuya Haides ay nasa taas, siguro ay natutulog, habang kami lang ni Yna ang naiwan dito.

"Yes, gusto kong umuwi. Sa 23 siguro." Maraming iniwan si Daddy doon at walang ibang mag aayos ng mga yun kundi ako dahil ako ang nakalagay sa will ni Daddy.

Nakuha ni Tito Marco ang mga investors at ang Trinidad'es Corporation which is I'm kind of grateful dahil hindi ko na kailangan pang ayusin ang parte na yun.

Plantations at ilang lupain sa karatig lugar sa Nueva Ecija nalang ang kailangan kong bigyan ng pansin.

Ibinalita sakin ni Kuya Haides na namamalagi ang mga kapatid ni Daddy sa mansyon matapos malaman na nasa kulungan si Daddy. Alam kong hinihintay ako ng mga yun, at inaasahan ko na din ang mga sasabihin nila at gusto nilang makuha sakin.

"Okay! Mga anong oras tayo aalis?" Mabilis ang paglingon ko kay Yna nang sabihin niya iyun.

"Huh? Anong tayo?" Kunot noo kong tanong.

"Duh! Malamang sasama ako, tingin mo hahayaan kita mag isa doon?" I shook my head and heaved a sigh.

"I can do it alone, you don't have to be with me all the time." I gently said as I looked into her worried face.

"Pero paano kung–?" Hindi nito matuloy ang sasabihin pero alam ko naman na kung anong pinapahiwatig ng itsura nito at ng pag aalala nito.

"Don't worry about me, Yna. Go live your life just like how you lived before. Namimiss ko na yung party goer na Yna." Yna rolled her eyes at me.

"Magpaparty lang ako kapag kasama na kita! Sa susunod talaga sasanayin kita sa mga bar, akong bahala sayo." She then winks at me again at nakangising sinandal ang ulo sa balikat ko.

"You can't stop me from worrying, Rae. I witness everything, at kung pwede lang habang buhay akong didikit sayo ay gagawin ko para lang mabantayan kita lagi." I bit my lower lip to stop myself from crying.

This is one of the reasons why I wanted to just end everything.

Ang daming naiistorbo, ang daming nag aalala, ang dami kong taong dinadala sa gulo ko.

I don't want to be a burden. I know they are helping me to be better and to heal, but I know that it'll be harder to cure the pain.

I am too damaged. Masyado na akong wasak, masyado na akong pagod.

"Ako na ang kakausap sakanila, just stay here." I heaved a sigh at umiling kay Kuya Haides.

"It's better if I'm the one who will talk to them, after all, they are my uncles. I need to face them."

I was planning on talking to them pag uwi ko sa probinsya ngunit hindi na ata sila nakapag hintay pa kaya sila na mismo ang dumayo dito sa Maynila.

"But–" Kuya Snoah held Kuya Haides's shoulder to stop him from stopping me to face my uncles.

"Let her." Mukhang nawalan naman ng choice si Kuya Haides kaya tumango nalang ito at hinayaan ako.

Nagsi uwian agad sila sa Mansyon pagkatapos malaman na nandito ang mga angkan ko. I heaved a sigh.

These are the people I'm going to leave out once I die.

In them, I found security. They never fail to keep me safe, they always protect me and never leave my side.

I am thinking of repaying them but they already have everything the world could ask for, so I thought maybe I could repay them with guidance and a blessing from above once I am away.

Kung doon nga ako mapupunta..

"Rae." I heaved another sigh as I saw my uncles sitting seriously in the living room.

"Tito." Pagbati ko. Tahimik akong naglakad at naupo sa harap nila at tahimik lang din silang nag abang na makaupo ako.

"Hindi na ako magpapatumpik tumpik pa, gusto naming malaman kung anong plano mo sa mga lupain at sa plantation ng ama mo?" Wala pang dalawang segundo ako nakaupo ay nagsalita na ito.

Naupo din si Kuya Haides at Kuya Tim sa tabi ko na wari mo'y sarili kong Lawyer at Prosecutor.

Napatawa ako nang bahagya sa naisip. Ang ilang mga kapatid naman ng dalawa sa tabi ko ay nakamasid sa amin.

"May plano ka bang kuhanin yun at pamunuan?" Tumingin ako kay Tito Alfed ang pangalawa sa magkakapatid na Trinidad.

"Alam naming ikaw ang magmamana ng lahat ng ari arian ni Francisko ngunit kaya mo ba? Naisip namin, pwede ka namin matulungan. Tutal ay puro lalaki ang mga pinsan mo at maalam sila sa mga negosyo na ganito ay pwede mo sila patulungin sa paghawak ng negosyo ninyo."

I already know their agendas kaya hindi na ako nagulat sa suhestiyon nila.

"Atsaka sigurado at shock ka pa din sa nangyari kay Kuya Francisko, dapat lang na magpahinga ka muna. Hayaan mong tulungan ka namin." I lightly scoff.

Ni kahit kailan ay hindi ko sila nakita, dalawang beses lang ata sa tanang buhay ko tapos ngayon ay aarte sila na parang concern at gusto tumulong.

I felt Kuya Haides gaze on me. He's waiting for my decision. Alam kong kanina pa nila ni Kuya Tim gusto sumabat pero hindi nila magawa dahil hinihintay nila ang reaksyon ko.

"Atsaka babae ka, mas maganda na ang mga lalaking pinsan mo nga talaga ang humawak ng negosyo." I heard Kuya Tim exaggeratedly exhale.

I look at him to let him know that it is okay, everything is all. I have a plan.

"Well, you are right." Nakita ko ang patagong kasiyahan sa mga mukha nila matapos kong sabihin iyun.

Sumadal ako sa upuan at pinagsiklop ang mga kamay ko saka ko pinatong sa tuhod ko na nakadewatro.

"I am indeed not capable of handling Dad's business. And I don't have the strength and knowledge to do so. " Nakangiting tumatango ang mga Tito ko.

"Tama, kaya naman hayaan mong tulungan ka namin.." I smiled.

"But... It doesn't mean that I need help from you." I heard numerous gasps from them. Confusion is written in their eyes as they look at me.

"Anong ibig mong sabihin? Sinong gusto mong tumulong sayo, ang mga Vasco?" Tinuro nito ang magkakapatid na Vasco na nasa likod at nasa tabi ko.

"Hindi mo sila kaaano ano, Rae. Mabait lang yang mga yan sayo ngayo dahil alam nilang may makukuha sila sayo." Kuya Haides scoffed and wanted to speak but I stopped him.

"Exactly, hindi ko sila kaano ano pero sila ang walang sawang tumutulong sakin ngayon. Sila ang nasa tabi ko nung kailangan ko ng tulong, sila ang nandito para sakin. Kayo po? Nasaan kayo nung mga panahon na yun?" Hindi makapaniwala silang tumingin sakin.

"Masyado ka nang nagmamalaki, Rae. Ganyan ka ba pinalaki ng ama mo? Sabagay kriminal pala yun, siguro ay yun din ang itinuro sayo." Mabilis ang pagtayo na ginawa ni Lucas at handa na silang sugurin pero pinigilan ni Kuya Haides ito.

"Nasa pamamahay namin kayo. Pinapasok namin kayo dito nang may respeto, wag niyong hintayin na palabasin namin kayo dito na parang hindi tao." Seryosong sabi ni Kuya Haides.

"Hindi ko gusto kung saan papunta ang pag uusap ninyo, kaya kakausapin ko kayo bilang abogado. Kung ano man ang magiging desisyon ni Rae para sa negosyo ng pamilya niya ay wala kayong karapatan para kwestsunin yun. Siya ang tagapagmana at siya ang may karapatan magdesisyon para doon." Nakatayong saad ni Kuya Haides.

"Sakanila mo nga ibibigay ang plantasyon?!" Nakatayo na din na tanong ni Tito Franco ang bunsong kapatid ni Daddy.

"No." I firmly said as I stood out from my seat and walked to face them. I stare down at them with a cold stare.

I have been thinking about this ever since. I thought this plan would fail but I guess God answered my plans and prayer in a most unexpected way.

I took the folder from my seat earlier and opened it. I showed them the photocopy of my will which I had already arranged one year ago. 

"I already transfer the ownership of the plantation to Mr. Tristan Harvin Sioson. " I heard a variety of gasps and reactions even from the Vasco brothers.

Perhaps because they didn't know that I bluntly transferred it to someone they didn't know.

I already planned this all along. Wala sa plano ko ang hawakan ang negosyo ni Daddy, kaya naman nang makakuha ako ng trusted lawyer same as Kuya Haides ay pinaayos ko agad sa kanya ang will at gusto kong ipagkatiwala kay Tristan na loyal worker ni Daddy sa plantation.

Mas lalo namuo ang pagkagusto ko na siya ang humawak noon nung nalaman ko ang passion nito sa ganyang klase ng negosyo.

Ofcourse, it's not easy to plan something like this. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko maitatransfer ng tuluyan kay Tristan ang plantation dahil nakapangalan kay Daddy iyun, but as I said, God moves in unexpected way.

"I have also in the process of donating the properties in Talavera for a charity, while our land in Palayan is now in the care of my trusted person."

I am planning to build a mental health care in that certain land at ipinagkatiwala ko na ito sa nobyo ni Yna at Ate Alisson.

"W-what? But those properties, especially the plantation, are for Trinidad! Mga nuno pa natin ang may ari niyon. Hindi mo pwedeng basta basta ipagbigay sa iba! That land and businesses runs in the family, nasisiraan ka na ba?" I smirk and turn my back to them as I walk to my seat.

Mas magandang mapunta sa mabuting kamay ang mga yun, sa mga taong pinagkakatiwalaan ko.

I  gracefully sat and gave them my most reassuring smile.

"Yes, and this is where it runs out." 

[coding-recap]

13/100 days of productivity (coding)

MAY 11, 2023 (Thurs)

Hallu hallu hallu (ref) so ayon nagral ulit me ng python 2hrs study siya anteh, or more so. so gumamit me ng datacamp ansd magadan sezzss, easy to gets naman for beginner talaga.

1. natutunan ko yung sa index slicing var[kasama si START: di kasama si END: STEPS], si index yung pang ilan sa sa string or list

2. I also learned yung sa mga ibat ibang functions, gaya ng .count, .replace etc... JUST REM: var.method

3. I ALSO LEARNED NUMPY BITCH IT IS A NUMBERICAL PYTHON

note: dapat di same ang file name mo sa module, para di mabobo si python. BOBO KA NA NGA, IPAPABOBO MO PA SI PYTHON DIBA, EDI LAHAT BOBO NA!

4. sa Numpy pwede mong icalculate yung mga nasa list ng mabilisan, na hindi kaya ng python list. need mo lang iconvert ang python list sa numpy array using np.array(var). np kasi pinaikli mo yung numpy as np.

5. more on calculation in array yung sa numpy so keri keri boom. Then pwede mo din malamaan yung boolean as nlong may conditional 

ex : np_light =(np_weight < 20) 

OUTPUT: TRUE OR FALSE

6. Then para makuha mo yung data ng boolean, like para malaman mo kung sino nagTRUE don sa conditions mo print this

ex print(np_weight[np_light]) remember dapat nasa loob yung pinagboolean mo teh [index] kasi to, na kung saan nakaplace ang isang VALUE

7. also pwede mo din maget ang index ng isang weight, by using this

ex: print(np_weight[50]) para makuha mo yung value na nasa index 50

pwede din to: print(np_weight[50:100]) para makuha mo yung value ng index from 50 to 100

OVERALL okay okay pa naman, pero nalilito me sa ibang part. Neverthless big step na ito. sabi nga ni TIna Huang “ Just learning enough, moving on and iterating(repeating)”

[manananggal]

Written for the 13_Cases Prompt on the Trese Discord server by seductivevenus. Theme: Déjà vu + College. It's written in taglish and i’m too lazy to tanslate rn so... hehe. kinda follows the headcanon (?) from the fic Mumoo, Mumoo, Paano Ka Ginawa? that Alex went back to college to finish her degree. (naol! char graduating na din naman aqu)

..

Back when Lily was in second grade, she was seated to a girl named Alex.

Which, in her seven-year-old mind, sounded pretty cool. In a classroom full of Maries, and Annas, and Jennys, a girl having a boy’s name is unheard of. Her own name is pretty common too. She didn’t dislike it per se, but Alex (especially for a girl!) sounds waay cooler than Lily, so…

Alex was new to their school. She is fair-skinned, with shoulder-length hair with the darkest shade Lily has ever seen. She finds herself stealing glances at her new seatmate, her hair being a source of wonder for Lily.

The girl with a boy’s name is quiet. She doesn’t speak unless she’s called for recitation – she never raises her hand, but she knows the answer each time Teacher Evelyn calls her. Alex doesn’t speak until she’s spoken to and sometimes, she wouldn’t even answer then. Her being quiet is okay with Lily, though. Their house in Damka is noisy enough for her. Even their classroom is noisy enough for her.

The other kids, however, didn’t like Alex’s silence very much.

“Yabang naman neto,” Jen-Jen says, arms crossed as she walks back to her seat in the first row. Alex declined Jen-Jen Cruz’s invitation to play in their house afterschool . “Kala mo naman maganda,” She added, her upper lip curling in distaste.

Alex's demeanor didn’t change at all as she continued to eat her corned beef pandesal in silence.

Lily was confused, and maybe even slightly jealous. Jen-Jen was nice enough to her, but she was never invited to join them – not even for recess. Or even when they’re let out in the playground for PE. When she’d approach their group, Nicole, one of Jen-Jen’s friends, would say, “Puno na kami eh,”

“Alex, ‘bat ayaw mo sumama?” Lily asked, turning slightly to face her seatmate.

“Para saan? Marami naman sila dun,” It was the most Alex had said to her.

“Diba mas masaya kung madami? Classmate kami nung grade one. Mabait yun si Jen-Jen. Saka… maganda yung mga Barbie niya,”

“Kung mabait siya, bakit hindi ka nila sinasali pag nag-lalaro kayo?”

Others might assume Alex’s question as some sort of comeback, but even Lily’s young mind could understand the logic...? Sincerity...? of her words. Lily fell quiet as she chewed on her Square Lemon cheesecake.

Whispers started to spread that Alex is mean, and that she’s maarte for someone studying in a public school. After all, there must be something wrong with the quiet girl who turned down the chance to be friends with Jenny Cruz.

But when Lily’s too frustrated from having to squint at their teacher’s too-small handwriting on the black board (Kung sino man ang naka-isip ng alphabetical arrangement sa upuan, ang panget niya!), Alex would slide her own notebook closer to Lily, letting the other girl look from her notes. Alex’s writing is nice, especially for a second grader. A lot nicer than Lily’s Ate Camille, who’s already in grade six. The letters stay between the lines, and the pages of Alex’s notebook are clear of smudged eraser marks.

That day when Lily lost her Hi Catty pencil case, Alex lent her a spare pencil (newly sharpened, eraser on the other end intact, and without chew marks!). Lily looks up and gives her seatmate a grateful, teary smile. Alex gives her a smaller smile in return before resuming writing in her notebook. (Lily hoped that using the same pencil will make her own handwriting neater. It didn’t, but that doesn’t matter.)

When she opens her lunch box and sees that she’s having hotdog for recess for the third time that week, Alex offers to give her some of her baon. Lily took a single pandesal, and she swears she could hear the angels in heaven sing after she took a bite.

They’d sit together under the huge mango tree in the middle of the playground. Alex taught her to say “Tabi-tabi po,” before sitting. When it’s time to go back inside the classrooms, Alex would place a single, unopened chocnut in the base of the tree. Lily looked back once, and she could swear she saw a tiny person with skin as brown as tree-bark waving at them. She blinked, and the person was gone. She asked Alex if she saw it too, but all Lily got was a small smile.

Lily liked to think they were friends. Maybe even best friends. Which is why it hurt when one day, Teacher Vivian announced that Alex won’t be attending school anymore. She wondered if it’s anything she did. Maybe she annoyed Alex by being too chatty, or by eating her favorite corned beef pandesal one time too many. She didn’t think to ask for Alex’s telephone number – they didn’t even have a telephone at home. Besides, Aling Remy who owns the store in front of their house charges five pesos for five minutes. Her mom prepares her meals, and her dad picks her up from school, so there’s no need to ask for money.

Their class seating arrangement was changed, students were moved around, and Lily finds herself sitting next to a boy named Patrick who watches the same anime she’s seen and tells the same jokes she heard from yesterday’s Ang TV episode. As weeks turn into months, and months turn into years, Lily moved from using pencils to ballpens and intermediate papers and formal theme books, the girl with a boy’s name slowly faded from her memory.

Years later, when she enrolled back in college after taking LOA for a few years, Lily finds herself sitting in the back. It was the first day of classes, and she’s starting to regret taking the 9:00 am – 10:30 slot for Managerial Accounting, but the professor is highly sought after, and students are said to be lucky to be in his class. A girl wearing a long, black coat takes the seat next to hers.

Lily steals a glance at the person sitting next to her. The girl is staring straight ahead, her mouth set straight as she focused on what their Prof is saying. Her bangs (or is it a bang - singular?) looks cool, and while the long trench coat is way too hot for the Manila weather, the girl seems to rock it. She seems to disappear after class, and so Lily spent the next few weeks sitting next to someone who’s name she doesn’t know.

But that’s just college.

There’s something familiar about the girl, however, but Lily can’t place where she saw this girl before. Surely, someone with that distinct style would stand out. That’s the least of her worries, however, since Sir Lara had announced that there’s a quiz and she seemed to lose her only working pen.

“Shuta naman ‘bat ngayon pa…” Lily groans, as quiet as she can as she rummages through her bag for anything. She doesn’t really know anyone in this class. Within her circle of friends, she’s the only one who took this early slot to accommodate her work schedule. Being an irregular student, and an older student at that, she’s hesitant to approach these younger kids. 

She'll take this quiz with a crayon if she has to.

A flash of movement caught her eye, and she looked up to see her seatmate handing her a pen. “You can use this,” The girl offers. 

Her voice is a little deeper, but it suited her perfectly, completing the Queen of the Underworld vibe she has going on for her.

There’s something very familiar with the moment Lily finds herself in. It made her feel as if she’s forgetting a piece of a puzzle. But she could solve that for another day. Right now, the quiz is her priority.

“Mars, thank you!” She says, taking a relieved sigh.

Sir Lara started going around the room, reminding them to take one seat apart from their classmates before he hands down the answer sheets one by one. Lily was just thankful that she was able to study for this quiz last night.

When the bell rang signaling the end of that day’s class, she all but shoved her things inside her bag to be able to catch up with the other girl.

“Ate girl, yung ball pen mo!” Lily calls out.

The girl was already out in the hallway. Lily wondered just how many pockets her coat has, since she didn’t think she ever saw this girl carry a bag. “Uy, thank you ha.” She says, fishing the pen from her pocket.

“Wala ‘yon.” She regards Lily with a small smile. There is something that’s really, really familiar with the way her mouth quirks upwards.

“Teh, kung ‘di mo ‘ko pinahiram ligwak si watsung sa quiz. Ano palang name mo ulit? Ako si Lily,” She smiles, holding her hand out.

“My name is Trese,”

Wait… Lily heard that name before…

“Alexandra Trese.” The girl who introduced herself as Alexandra took Lily’s  hand and shook it.

“Wait, teh, parang kilala kita…”

“It’s been years, hasn’t it, Lily?”

[the-last-of-her-bloodline]

Translation notes below. Hope you find it as funny as I did. 😂

Yuuji: Teh*, bili ako chikolet* (Miss, I want to buy some chocolate.)

*Teh is short for Ate which means Older Sister in Tagalog/Filipino; like Onee-san. We use Ate to address women whose age is a little bit older than us and when we don't know their actual name. Or we can also use Miss.

*Chikolet is just chocolate mispronounced by kids

~the store caretaker hands 2 pieces of chocolate to Yuuji~

Nanami, the Angel: Oh, Yuuji. Sakto lang ang bayad mo para sa isang piraso. Ibalik mo yung isa. (Hey, Yuuji. Your payment is just enough for one. Return the other one.)

Gojo, the Devil: *segue* Potek na yan etong costume na naman. (Dang, this costume again) Yuuji, 'wag na, kunin mo na yan. Touch move. Kunin mo na. (Yuuji, don't. Just take it. Touch move [same with the term in Chess]. Just take it.)

Nanami: Alam ni Yuuji ang tama sa mali. (Yuuji knows what's right, from wrong.)

Gojo: Isipin mo na lang, buy 1 take 1, tara na, kunin mo na yan! (Just think of it as buy 1 take 1, let's go, just take it!)

~Yuuji tries to get the attention of the store caretaker by using Teh again~

Nanami: *proud of Yuuji* Very good, Yuuji. Do the right thing.

Yuuji: Teh, hindi nyo pa ako binigyan ng chikolet. (Miss, you haven't given me any chocolate yet.)

Gakuganji, the store caretaker: Pasensya ka na ha, matanda na kasi ako, makakalimutin na. (I'm sorry, you see I'm old and very forgetful.)

Yuuji: Teh, yung sukli ko ha, 100 yung binigay ko. (Miss, my change please. I gave you a 100 pesos.)

Gakuganji: Ay hala, sorry talaga, pasensya na. (Oh no, I'm really sorry, forgive me.)

Gojo: *dumbfounded* Yawa. (Fuck in Bisaya, a dialect spoken in the Visayan region of the Philippines)

Nanami: *just as dumbfounded as Gojo* Mukhang may papalit na sa kaharian mo. (It seems your kingdom has a new king / you're about to be dethroned)

Gojo: *begging Nanami* Sama mo na ako sa langit. (Take me with you in heaven.)

Nanami: Bahala ka dyan. (Get lost)

Gojo: Sama mo na ako sa langit! (Take me with you in heaven!)

Nanami: Bahala ka dyan. (Eat shit)

Gojo: *crying* Mas demonyo pa sa demonyo. (*referring to Yuuji* He's more evil than evil / he's more evil than I am; he's referring to himself this time 'cause Gojo is the OG devil) Sama mo na ako dyan! (Take me with you!)

Nanami: Bahala ka dyan. (Go fuck yourself)

I find this video so funny lol 😂 Nanami as the Angel and Gojo as the Devil is so apt as fuck

Credits:

Original post / edit was by @jenesisd_ from TikTok (https://vt.tiktok.com/ZSJMU11PG/)

Original sound by Tyrone Tiaga from TikTok (https://vt.tiktok.com/ZSJMDohYt/)

[inkmadeoftears]

Di nasagot last question ko and I think enough na yon para sa sagot na "no?" na di na dapat ako mag ask pa sayo? Anw, ayun lang feeling ko may nasabi lang ako na di maganda kaya di ka na nag message uli. Hayaan mo na salamat sa pagsagot. Kelangan pala mag anon pa hehe. Ingat ka palagi! Pasensya na sa storbo.

Wala kang nasabing di maganda.

Confused na ko teh. Anong last question na sasagutin ng yes or no kung mag ask o hiindi nani?

[luvvmamaia]

^ bye 😭💀 kung hindi kayang magnurse, mag-asawa nalang ng nurse 😎

anD NAHIHIRAPAN KA RIN BA SA GEN CHEM DI Q NA KASI ALAM KUNG MAHIRAP BA TALAGA O BOBO LANG AQ 😔

and u can call me kei !! not sure if u can still make a nickname out of that cuz it's already short enough 💀 but yea 🤩

Doctor ung aasawahin ko teh- para bongga 😈

WAIT— may gen chem kayoo? Wala pa kami yata ng subj na yan baka sa second sem yan dadting samen-

[tellywoodtrash]

immj2 12.11.20 lb

well………….. let’s get this the fuck over with. isske baad pls god let this show go back to their random tuchchi saazishein. mere se itna action jhela nahi jaata.

ok back to dead inside vansh who is analyzing every single interaction with riddhima and musing about DHOKAAAAAAA DHOKAAAAAAAA DHOKAAAAAAAA

lmaoooooooooooooooooooooooo kabir is like “itne saalon se tum mere liye itneeee bade sardard the, but finally ab khel khatam.” dude i love this caviler fucker.

but tell me these caps don’t look like kabir expressing a whole other sentiment:

damnnnnn, dat chemistry. seriously, 10x what riddhima has with vansh. i am so mad that we’re not getting these two as endgame.

aaaaaand the handcuffs are out. mmmhmmmm. kinky!

mummy be like ARRE AISE KAISE TUM DONO HI SAARE OSCARS LOOTOGE KYA, MERE KO BHI CHAHIYE I AM ALSO PERFORMERR and throwing herself in front of vansh and giving passionate defense.

this one also like chalo my turn nowwwwww.

human angry bird is like NOT ON MY WATCH YOU FUCK.

DUDE WHAT ARE THESE LOOKS THEY’RE GIVING EACH OTHER THERE’S SO MUCH SEXUAL TENSION HERE I CAN’T TAKE IT

asljdaslkjdlaskjdlaskjdlaskjldkj kabirrrrrrrrrrrr’s internal monologue: “haath mein hathkadi lag gayi, phir bhi tashan nahi gaya tumhara” hahahahahahahahahahahahaha

RIDDHIMA IS STILL FUCKING RUNNING. FROM FUCKING BANDRA, WHERE THE FACTORY OR WHATEVER WAS, TO BLOODY ANDHERI, WHERE THE VR MANSION IS. DUDE, MUMBAI MARATHON CHAL RAHA HAI KYA IDHAR????????

unf the way kabir pushed vansh towards the van. big Top energy.

THIS SCENE HAS JUST SOOOOOOO MUCH FUCKING SEXUAL TENSION I’M LITERALLY HERE LIKE

LIKE I’M REALLY FEELING SOME KINDA FUNNY WAY, THAT I’VE NEVER FELT IN THE VANSH/RIDDHIMA SCENES.

oh yeah in between that mummy was doing some more mother india acting, ki iski sazaa mujhe de dijiye and all, but HONESTLY WHO CAN PAY ATTN TO THAT MESS WHEN THERE’S BHAAARI SEX EYES GOING ON HERE???????

ok now that they’ve driven away, i’ll focus on her. yes, very cool acting. iss saal ka manikchand gutka jio fiama di wills colors golden petal stardust whatever the fuck award aapke hi liye.

riddhima also managed to medal in the marathon, and reach justttttttt as they pull outta the gates.

back to the Sexy Van™

ohhhhhhhhhhh boyyyyyyy, kabir instructing mishra to go off the path.

“vansh raisinghania, apne life ke sabse bade adventure ke liye taiyaar ho jao.”

DUDE THESE TWO ARE KINKY AS FUCK.

lmao vansh is like don’t write checks you can’t cash, don’t be promising orgasms you won’t be giving, “dhamki toh dhang ki dete.”

“vansh tumhe andaaza nahi ki kitni shiddat ke saath maine aaj ke din ka intezaar kiya hai. aaj meri zindagi ka sabse bada din hai!”

well damn, me too. i didn’t know that this was the pairing i was gonna end up shipping SO HARD but here we are!

ok mummy has seen riddhima and she tries to shoot her but riddhima drove the fuck away. good for her.

they have reached that random maidaan where every outdoor sequence on tellywood happens.

mishra can you gtfooooooooo from in between the hot boy sandwich??????

this dude is hottest when his eyes squinty.

OUFFFFFFFFFFFF THE SMILESSSSSSSSSS

TBH I’M NOT EVEN PAYING ATTN TO THE TRASH TALK THEY’RE DOING I’M JUST HERE LIKE KISS KISS KISS KISS KISS KISS KISS KISS

kabir freeing him, which nooooooooooooo, i wanted to see some hot handcuff actionnnnnn. vansh is as disappointed as i am.

anyway some searing indictments of our country’s legal system by kabir, about no matter how much proof he collects, rich ppl anyway get away with whatever. and so will vansh. sooooooo, he’s like i just needed to arrest you and break your ego, blah blah. which, yeah right. like anyone with one working brain cell doesn’t know you’re gonna shoot him down in an encounter for trying to flee police custody.

some more flirty banter. and then……..

yup.

damn, those some cat-like reflexes.

vansh like, i knew your bitch ass would pull some shit like this.

fuck fuck fuck fuck so much sexy him walking up to the gun like that.

ofc there have to be some BE A MAN type dumbass dhamkis. you know what real men do??? KISS THEIR RIVALS WHOM THEY HAVE THIS MUCH HOMOEROTIC TENSION WITHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

DANG KABIR HESITATEDDDDDDDD. HE COULDN’T DO IT. IT’S RIGHT OUTTA THE FIGHT SCENE BEFORE THE SEX SCENE IN MR. AND MRS. SMITHHHHHH.

aaaaaand that pause was enough for vansh to start beating the fuck outta him. yeah i don’t care. the only thing i wanna see you two wrestle is TONGUES.

mmmmmmhmmmmm just a lil closer, come onnnnn you stupid fucks.

ok they’re back to pounding on each other IN THE NON FUN WAY so fwding.

aaaaaaaaand riddhima is following her special Vansh Tracker App. I REALLY DON’T CARE.

told y’all K had Big Top Energy. oh yeahhhhhhhhhh, choke him, daddy!

ok they back to hitting each other.

ooooh nice callback to that firstttt fight they had where kabir threw sand in vansh’s eyes and then vansh fought blindfolded.

back to sexy banter.

“dil, dimaag, aur taaqat. teeno hi tumse kayiiii zyaada hai mujh mein.” LIFE MEIN CONFIDENCE CHAHIYE, TOH OF AN RICH, UPPER CASTE, MALE PSYCHOPATH ON TELLYWOOD.

he’s walking backwards to the edge of the cliff as he keeps talking. sigh.

“dushman mein woh dum kahan ke mera kuch bigaad sake. woh toh apne the jo dagaa de gaye, sazza de gaye.” waaaaaah waaaaaah!!!! THE PSYCHOPATH WAS A POET AND WE DIDN’T KNOW IT!

walking back some more.

“main aaj bhi vansh raisinghania hi hoon. meri maut bhi mujhse pooch ke mere paas aati hai.” this fucker nicolas flamel or what, with the philosopher’s stone????

“kissi tuchche insaan ki gun se chali goli ko ijaazat nahi ke meri jaan le sake. maine apni zindagi khud banaayi hai, kabir; aur iske aage kya hoga naa tum decide karoge, na tumhare haath mein yeh pistol. the choice is mine.”

pehli baar this dude’s tashan has been effective for me. IT’S COZ THE DIALOGUE DELIVERY IS MEASURED AND HE’S SAYING IT FULL OF MIRTH, INSTEAD OF GRINDING HIS TEETH AND YELLING. SEEE WHAT A FUCKING DIFFERENCE IT MAKES????????

anyway kabir is like, cool, your funeral. as vansh continues to walk backwards. it’s hilarious kabir thinks he has anyyyy control in this scene anymore.

le. aa gayi. dhaaansu scene kharaab karne.

vansh having ALL TEH FLASHBACKS. poor sad eyed puppy.

“tum log kya kar rahe ho?!!?!?” BITCH THEY WERE ABOUT TO GET IT ON, BUT NOW NO THANKS TO YOU……………….

blah blah usual ishq nahi aasaan aag ka dariya hai doob ke jaana hai blah blah from piya psychopath

“aaj apne dhoke ke aag ki dariya mein dubo hi diya na tumne mujhe, riddhima?”

i’m sure this is some kasautiii kinda metaphor, ki they’re working together, or like….. he actually does trust her… or some such shit, but i can’t be arsed to analyse anything with this dumbass show. it doesn’t deserve it.

kabir watching this whole angst ridden scene with such horny eyes, i can’t even…………………

obligatory placement of show naam. tashan mein usko lete lete, JAI MATA DIIIIIIIIIIIII, LET’S ROCK.

if this isn’t the Biggest Mood for 2020, idk what is. vansh finally being relatable to the rest of us normals.

yeah whatever. i really don’t care about you. i’m more devastated ki when will i get such a KaValicious sexual tension filled episode next??!?!?!?!!? probably next fucking year now. ugh. bloody waste show, forcing us to watch this het bullshit.

let’s end this with a nice pic of this face. i think we’ve all earned it.

[askmyfandoms]

My Lilo and Stitch AU Main Languages

Tantalog is the native language of Jumba and Turo in Lilo and Stitch and Stitch! Anime:

A

A Niga Chan Doonga (But There's Water)

Aba Chooka (Help, #You Right#)

Aba Loocha (Door)

Aba Loosha (There It Is, Gone)

Aba Nootcha (Phone)

Aba Tooka (What About, How About Something Else?, Not This)

Aba Tooky (What's up?)

Abata Iki (Forget It)

Accata (Alright/Clear)

Acha Booka Moopa (That The Best You Can Throw At Me?)

Acha Kaba (Me Too)#

Achaba (Good Idea)

Achiba (Liar)

Achi-Baba (Friend)

Achi-Kaba (Weird, Here They Come, #Iv Got You#)

Achi-Kata (You)

Acoota Chi-Meeto Igatta No Mootah, Nagga To Nala Itume Tidooka. (Angel's Song) (Heed Me, You Are In My Power. Henceforth, Nothing Shall Be Too Cruel Or Too Abominable For You. You Can't Escape.)

Acoota Chi Tay (Your Turn)#

Achooga Moopa (Everyone Attack, #End In Sight, Everyone Go#)

Aga Ba (What Does It Say? Why? Stop)

Aga Bata (Something Much Better)#

Aga Bato (Bring This?, Like This?)

Aga Chaba (Good Luck, Go Get 'Em)

Aga Chiga (Missed Me)

Aga Chu Chiba (What Do You Want Done With (Subject)?)

Aga Do Baba (And That Works?)

Aga Gata (Enough)

Aga Paba Taka (What Just Happened)#

Aga Pobo Takka (Your All Done For)

Aga Tabba (It Can't Be, Can't Do That, Your Done For)

Aga Pobo Takka (Your All Done For)

Aga Tabba (It Can't Be, Can't Do That, Your Done For)

Aga Tagga (Here It Comes)

Aga Takka (There It Goes, There It Is)

Aga Tooga (There It Goes)

Aga Tookie (This Is Awesome, Here We Go)

Agaboo (Oh Well)

Agata (Look At Me)

Agatoo (Then It Happened)

Aggaba (Stop, Let's Do This, Goodbye)

Aggaba Pituga (I Have An Idea)

Ah-Qae Jihad (Blast Him)=

Ahua Shalom Bye (Good Morning)=

Aka Boocha (Let Me Out!)

Aka Chata (Shut Up)

Aka-Choota (Gotta Go, Piece of (Derogatory))

Aka-Choota Tu (You Better Leave)#

Aka Chunga (Don't Worry)#

Akare Asaid (It Looks Scary)=

Aka Taba (Was A Mistake, No You Don't)

Aka Tibi Baba (Something There, There It is)

Aka Toga E Moopa (What Are You Doing Here?)#

Aka Tooka (I Have An Idea)

Akata (Bring It, Show It)

Akatu Bata (These For You)

Akatu Baba (I Can?)#

Akootah (Lets Dig, Lets Go, Right Away, Heed Me)

Akootah Naga Pitu (Heed Me No More Bad)

Aku Bata (That Looks Like It)

Ah-Chooga Moopa (Get Back, Take That)

Allaf (Five)=

Allanet (Fifty)=

Ama-Gata (I'm Fine)

Ama-Taka (Here I Come, #I Want#)

Ama-Take (I'm Taking These)

Annibo (Why Not)

Aroomba Micha Nigicha Aba Tooka (Something Has Happened That Is Very Bad)

Asal (Ball)=

Asafi (Table)=

Ashi Salaam (How Are You?)=

Asyrifah (Excuse Me)=

Ata Bookie (That Hurt)

B

Ba'aq-quasr (That Is Too Loud)=

Baacraphi (Volleyball)=

Baaheth Jihadi (Fight)=

Baari (Fan)=

Baba Taka (Not Fair)

Bachooga (Bye)

Baka Chika (Back At You)

Baka Zika (Back Off)

Barambah (Monster, Scary)

Bachoota (Safe, Good)

Bacha Iki (Whatever)

Bagata Tay (Make All Better)#

Bajo (Thanks/Agreed)

Baquaa (Toilet)=

Bata Naba Gata (Your (Derogatory))

Bo (Very, Much)

Bo Chifa (I Like It)

Bo Niba (Boyfriend, Girlfriend)

Bo Ninga (Good Food)

Bo Tia (Take That)

Boocha (Bad)

Boochi boo (Target Of Affection)

Boojiga (Searching)

Bookoo (Bye)#

Bootifa (Cool)

Booza (Got Him/Her)

Bon Chiba (Eat This)

Brasmathi (Basket)=

Brinut (Tiny)

Brokuba (Broken)

Bucha Chi Bagga Chan Chiti (Let's Cause Some Havoc)

Bum (Two)

Bupi Runun (Change This)

Butifa (Cool, Good, Beautiful)=

C

Cama'ahar Teh Tebracres (What Is Your Name?)=

Chaba Ika Pituga (Stupid Head Anyways)#

Chabata (Come And Catch Me)=

Chaggida (Accomplished)

Chagata Questa (Your Done For)

Chappati (Bread)=

Chatti Naba (Where Is My Equipment)

Chi-Chabada (I Promise, On My Honor)

Chi Chitu (Watch Out)

Chi Gata Questa (Your Going To Be Destroyed)

Chi Mitu (Your Going To Get It, #Give It To Me#)

Chi Mitu Nala Questa (Your Going To Be Destroyed)

Chi Mito (Your Going To Get It)

Chiba Chu (Come On You)

Chiga (Then That)

Chiga Baba (Get Back Here)

Chigida (That Way)

Chigi Bay (Darn It) [Caught Peeking Upon Creation In LiloAndStitch2]

Chika (Got You)

Chabba (Enemy)

Chabila (Derogatory)

Chigi Bay (Darn It)

Chigida (Prepared)

Chiti (Immediately)

Chiti No Nuba (Now You Can't Get It)#

Chito (Sleeping)

Chooga (Run)

Choota (Derogatory Phrase)

Cho Waba (I Have This)

Chuchotoo (Worries, Good)#

Chu Bata (Show Off, Stuck Up)

Chu Chomba (Thank You (Very Much))

Chu Gata Meega (Now Your Mine)

Chu Gata (Subject) Meega Questa (Come To Me Or I Will Destroy)

Chu Gata Questa (Now Your Destroyed, Now Its Over)

Chu Juju (Your Not Going Anywhere)

Chu Nitcha (You Missed)

Chu Taba (Take That, And That)

Chubi Iga (Get The Bad Guy)

Chumpy Chibba (Finally, Lets Go, Prove Better)

Chunga (You)

Chungabee (You Go)

Clogga (More)

Comja Ooga (No Cousins)

Cooma Tay (Fascinating)

Coota Ni Guy Igatta (Came To See Big Show)#

Crabba Snabba (Uh Oh)

Crabba No Pugy (Uh No Kidding)#

Creega Migi (Throw Me)

Crichaa (Tenis Court)=

Chaba Naga (It Wasn't Me)

D

Da Chatti Nay (But I Was, No I Don't)

Dabida (Curious)#

Dagida (All There)

Dagita (All Better)

Deketa (Die, Be Gone)=

Digja De-Baba (Release Him/Her/It)

Dinko Tey Fabba (You Are Fat)=

Do Gaba (Thank You)

Do Chooee Sabicha? (Jealous Are You?)

Doonga (Darn It, On It)

Doonga Haba Blabla (Darn It I Don't Like That)#

Doni Gatchi (Gift)

E

E Gaja No Fibi (Let's Make Them Pay)

Ecata (Let's See)

Ecata Tikka Tikka (Let's See The Prize)

Echi (Correct)

Eega Chooty (He's Evil)

Eegalagoo (Wow)

Eegata (Darn, Incoming, Let's Do It)

Eela (Fortunately)

Eesta Kuani Wanga Moomba (There Is A Huge Asteroid Coming)

Eeta (That Way)

Egataby (Understood)

El Kayo Tay (Sounds Like Fun)

Emba-Chua (You Said It)

Enjaji (This Will Work)

Enjiba (There)

Enjibay (That)

Enjibida (What Now?)

Esa (Warning, Its)

Esa Faba Abida Loochiday Chigida Daka An Taga (We Have A Big Problem Can You All Help  Out?)

Esa Ma Meqa (Who Am I?)

Esa Me Guts (Your Responsible)#

Eqa Ma Coota (Your A Coward)

F

Fabras (Ache)=

Feeboo (Tired, Sleepy)=

Feeboogoo (Bring It On)

Frovo No Pugy (You Got In The Way, #Messed With#)

G

Gaba (What?)

Gaba Bo Taka (What Are You Doing?)

Gaba Chitchu (What Did You Say?)

Gaba Chooka (Where Were You?)

Gaba Do Cootay Chaba (Why Are You Dressed So Strange?)

Gaba Gee (Who?)

Gaba Ik (What's That?)

Gaba Ika (What's That?)

Gaba Ika Tasoopa (Whats The Big Deal)

Gaba Itsa Sasuba (What Time Is It)

Gabagi (Pick It Up)

Gablia (I Can?)

Gagitalk (All Clear)

Gamboo Bo Gabi (Release Me, Don't Move, Help Me)

Ganti Batiba (Get Away From Me)

Gashta (Understand?)

Gata Noby (We'll Crush Them(It, Her, Him))

Gatachoo (Cannonball)

Gatchi Nosty (Are you Sure?)

Geetcha (Klutz)

Genga Chi (That's Not You, Cheer Up) [Cheering Up Lilo In LiloAndStitch2]

Gengiba (Wonderful)

Gengibay (Good)

Gengibay Karta (Don't Worry I Took Care Of)

Gengenjiba (Wonderful)

Goobaja (Lets Go)

Gooba Ki (Whats The Point?)

Gootcha (Hello, Hey)

Go Pimca Chinti (I'm Here)

Goo Bata To Patchi (We're Coming Up On Him)

Got Radock (Way Is Clear)

Graazi (Right)=

H

Haba Gaba (You There?, You In There?)

Habaja (Wait)

Habata Iki (That's It)

Habida (Understand)#

Haga Bata (What Is Here?)#

Haga Blabla (Feeling Sick)#

Haga Taga (I Will)

Haga Tay (Your Help Is Appreciated)#

Hagata (Here)

Hagata Chooga (Come Get Me)

Hagatu Chooga (Come Get Me)

Hagrea Sofia (Mall)=

Hajiba (Ready)

Hajmha Sihkism (Enthusiasm)=

Hakkiah (One)=

Hakri Deika (Debris)=

Hak Tienet (One Hundred)=

Halal (Toast)=

Halebye (Taxi)=

Hama Taka (Come Get, We'll Use)#

Hamacha (Tasty)#

Hamicha (Tasty)#

Hapdelup (Up)=

Harash (Trash)=

Hassiniyadh (Sea)=

Haza (Here)

Heegata No Feebee (Don't Give Up, You Can Do It)=

Hoogala Lana Queena Boom (We're Evacuating Before The Boom)

Hoogita (Set)

Hoo-gata (I See It)

Hoo-gatu Gogo (Still More To Do)

Huaa Allah (Master)=

Huaa Awazi (Spirit)= Hum (One)

Huznet (Twenty)=

Huzziuh (Two)=

I

Iba (This)

Ichiba (Sighted, #There It Is#)

Ichi Ta Nuba (Ta Da)

Igaba (Really?, #Get Him#)

Igeeba (Hopefully, Approaching, Get Away)

Igatta (No Way, I Agree There Is No Way, Victory, Success, #Where#)

Igatta No Feebee (He Won't Win Again, This Time You'll Get Him)

Iga (He)

Iga Bachoota (Your Good)

Iga Batooga (Your Going Down)

Iga Do Achi Kopa (You Should Look Over There)#

Iga Me (Give Me)

Iga Me Na Guala (Now You Pay Me?)

Iga Naku (That's Outstanding)

Iga Pituga (Bad Person)#

Iga Pitugi (He's Bad)

Igi Ba (Do It)

Igi Taka (Up Here)

Igi Tooka (You Help)

Igaba (Check It Out)

Igame (I'll Fix, Give To Me)

Igato (Stop It)

Igato Gogo (Stop Before We Go)

Igeeba (Let's Go Now, Wonderful)

Ih (Yes)

Ih Too Jay (You Too)

Ikatta (Gone, Look There, This Way)

Ika Na Nista Chi (What's Going On?)

Ika Spubata Gata (I've Got It Now)

Ika Patooba (Baldy)=

Ika Patooga (Let's Do It, #Be That Way, Stupid Head#)

Ika Patootie (Stupid Head)=

Ika Taba Loocha (It's This Way)

Ikeeba (Sure Did)

Iki Bata Bata (You Know What We Should Do)#

Iki Bobo (You Don't Do Anything Bad, Nothing Bad)

Iki Patiga (That Good?)

Iki Pataba (Your Right)

Iki Pa (Sounds Good)

Iki Patchooga (You Fool)

Iki (Your)

Iky (Yuck)

Iky Bahwah (Come Back)

Imhaater (Computer)=

Inga Toosh Mishta (Your Crazy)

Iniga Wipo (Get Rid Of Him)

Injibay (That)=

Iname Me Guaba Te (I'm Taking You Shopping)#

Ingiba (Welcome)

Ipu (Take Away)

Isa (Is, Am, Are (To Be)=

Ishita (Fool)

Itaga Pitugi (Kiss My Pitugi)

Ita Mitay (Look There)

Itchaba Kunika (Team Up?)

Itchu Nawa (Why Not Me?)

Itishiba (Foul)

Itume (Abomination)

J

Jan (Four)

Jaalba (Something)=

Jaba Ramid Nye Hassin (Long Time No See)=

Jalipaa (Radio)=

Jal Wadis (Rubble)=

Japdelup (Down)=

Jerudai (Eight)=

Jerunet (Eighty)=

Jhua Tehrqua (Good Night)=

Jigiba (Villain)

Jo Pigi Cons Patuba (Now It's Around Here Somewhere)

Jua'aquad (City)=

Jugaar Juice (Juice)=

K

Ka-Meega Ka Chooga Ta Weesta (Leave This To Me I'll Get Him(Her, It))

Kaba (Bad)

Kabchithi (Eggs)=

Kadoonboon (Thank Goodness)

Kadoona Meega (Where/What Am I?)

Kafu Ha (Not Fair, Cheater, (Derogatory))

Kaki Mienna (You Can Do It)

Kali Ashol (Accomplished)=

Kamitcha (Awesome Food)#

Kanasha (Tried To Stop)

Kanet (Seventy)=

Kaphong (Monster)=

Kantijibe Zi-Zi (I'll Fix It)

Kapu (Imprisoned, In Trouble, Captured) (Hawaiian For Forbidden) Kata (Watch This)

Kata Boo Tay (Look What It Did)

Kata-goo (Did It)

Kata Baka-Dooka (Can I Destroy)

Katcha (Trash)

Katcha Booga (Trashing It)

Katchaka (Broken, Trash)

Kachi Noosty (You Sure?)

Katchooba (Oops)

Katchoobida (Here They Are)

Katchooga Naga (Your Wrong) Kavi (Seven)=

Keeba (And This)

Keesha (Because)#

Keesha Mi Guts (Positive, #Your Sure#) Keeta (Wrecked)

Keetcha (Six, Next)

Kenjuju (Ate, Eaten)

Kha Araimi Shol (Absent)=

Khalido (Notebook)=

Khalifaud (Six)=

Khalinet (Sixty)=

Khodro Esafhan (Car)=

Ki Tooga Naga (I'm Outta Here)

Kodain (Bookcase)=

Koobaja (My Mistake)

Koogoobita (Show)

Koraadami (Books)=

Koota Tay (Intruder's Spotted)

Kurdaic (Cake)=

L

Leecha Nowa (Much Farther?)#

Le Je Impordement (It Is Captured)=

M

Maathinya (Luggage)=

Magaba (And That)

Magata (There He Is, Right)

Maladhi (Television)=

Maqa Jojo (Look Here)

Maqa Maqa (Look, Quickly)

Maqa Tay (Time For A Beating)

Maqa Zika (I Take)

Matyr (Cousin)=

Me Gata (Warning You)

Meega - Me/I/I'm

Meega Achi Kaba (I'll Do It)

Meega Boota (I'm Bored)

Meega Chaba (I'm Better)

Meega Choota (I'm (Derogatory Phrase))

Meega Chuba (I See, I'm Better)

Meega Chula (I Watch)

Meega Donga Igatta (I'll Check It Out)#

Meega Hoogata (I'll Go)

Meega Ita Googoobita (I Am Going To Be Entertainer)

Meega Itume (That Is Abominable To Me)

Meega Naga Chita Coota (Not Good Enough For Me)

Meega Nala Questa (I Will Destroy)

Meega-O-Itume (Get Away From Me)

Meega Pojo Naga (Won't Stop Me)#

Meega Taka In Putoba (Can I Still Help?)#

Meega Trandoca (Change Me Back)

Meeo Dakka Ingatta Poju Nagga Nagga (I Can Catch An Experiment Without You)

Meepa (Fast)

Meqa Naba Gatay (I'll Figure It Out)

Miki Miki (Gimmie)=

Mocheeka (Mine)

Mockeecha (Mine, Your Mine)

Moogata (Found You)

Mootah (Evil)

Morcheeba (Very Nice)

Muchoo Hoogata (Very Little Place, Very Little)

Muhaari (Pool)=

Muquad (Everything)=

N

Naba Da (Don't Do It)

Naga (No)

Naga Baba Boocha (Not Good Is Bad)

Naga Bi Begeta (I'm Not Hungry)

Naga Bo Chifa (Don't Like It)

Naga Boodoo (Don't Want To Do It)

Naga Bootifa (Not Cool)

Naga Busa# (Think Nothing Of It)

Naga Cheeka (You Missed)

Naga Chi Bo Chifa (None For Me Thank You)*

Naga Chu Ta Chu (No More Evil)#

Naga Hoo-gata (Don't See Anything)

Naga Igaba Chua (No More Running)

Naga Kata (Don't Do It)

Naga Kata-goo (Diddn't Do It)

Naga Meega Kaba (I'm Not Bad)

Naga Meega Deeka (Don't Make Me Do It)

Naga Meega Pokuba (Never Make Anything Better Than Me)

Naga Moba (Don't Want To See Go)#

Naga Nota (Don't Know)

Naga Pataba (Not Listening)

Naga Pita (I Don't Like Doing This)

Naga Su Nika (Can't Hear Anything)

Naga Takabah (No Way)

Naga Tay (Could Not)

Nagga Tikka Tay (Your Not Smarter)

Naga Todo (Do Not)

Naga To Kaba (Not Coming Down)

Naga Tu (Not You, Not For You)

Naguala (Money)

Najaaladi Diwali (Bomb)=

Nani Gati (Stay Here)

Natta Taba (Take That)

Nigoba Naba Chooba (Play The Part)

Ninga (Food)

No Jaba (Unexpected)

No Waqa (This Hair)

Noogy Bay (Frustration)

Nooga Shaa (Your Fault)

Nu Pujee (Clean)#

O

O Utymain (Useful)

Ochaka (Oh No)

Ochika (Agreed)#

Oga Gata (Bring It On)

Oga Taba Bring It On)

Ogi Gigi (So Small)

Ohufi (Greetings)=

Oka Kata (Didn't know)

Okie Taka (Okie Dokey)

Okie Taba (Okay Lets Go)

Okiga (Think About It)#

Oobaga (What The)

Oochiba (Attention)

Ookaba (For You, Here)

Ookata (Not, Something Went Wrong)

Ookata Yoshi (Something Does Not Want Us Here)

Ooga (Smash)

Ooga Feeboo (So Tired)

Oogata (Darn, Warning, Take This, Important)

Ooga Taba (Something Is Happening, #Unfortunate#)

Ooga Taba Gaba Ik Naga Chiba Iky (This Will Not Do It Is Hideous)#

Ooga Taba Choota (Something Is Happening With The Choota)

Ooga Taka (Whats Happening, Stop That)

Ooja Ba (Pretty)

Ooja Mageebay (Hope It Will)

Otigy No Iba (Heard That)

P

Paathi Bras (Soap)=

Pamsha (Probably)

Pano (Subject) Ishka (But (Subject) Said)

Parvaaci (Roller Skate)=

Pasawa (See Ya)=

Pee (Five)

Peligiba (Please)

Pencha (Done)

Phaa Thouy (Cereal)=

Phaa Thoy Gho (Run)=

Pichu (Your Right)

Pita So Naja Ingiba (Then I Flew Around) [Description of Stitch's dream LiloAndStitch2] Pitcha (Done)

Pitu (Bad)

Porchuba (Probably)

Por Man Chiki (Your Mom Could Do Better)*

Poovoos (Something Else)-

Praajat (Tub)=

Prepshi (Soda)=

Preshi Moothi (Skateboard)=

Pujara (Boy)=

Pu Man Chiki (Your Mom Could Do Better)

Pusha (School)

Q

Quan (Destruction)

Quala Chifa (Not Satisfactory)#

Quala Chifa Pi Nolo (That Is Really A Shame)#

Quana Chi Doonga Fava No Pugy (We're All Wet Lets Dry Off)#

Questa (Derogatory Phrase, Destroy)

Quimmish (Sure)

R

Raban Jiba (How About That)

Rah'quadon (Achieve)=

Ranga Neega Questa Tingu (I Am Fed Up With You)

Ranga Pitugi (My Backside)

Robaapaskit (Learn)=

Ro Bata Chito (I Was Sleeping)

Rumba (Hey)

S

Saari (Girl)=

Sabaza (Surprise)

Safiya (Bed)=

Salsa (Follow Me, This Way)=

Saza (Incoming, Threat, Danger, Bring It, There)

Shaalthabye (Experience)=

Shiralli (Watch)=

Shirq (Left)=

Shol Asahiah (Abandoned)=

Sibata (Finished)

Smick (Wrong)#

Smidik (Unfortunately)#

Smish (Sure)

Soka (Sorry)

Snagga (Lost)

Snagga Booza (Lost Him/Her)

Speeni Gatu (Show Off)

Spiggi Bay (Darn It, Broke It)

Spubata (I'll Teach You, Smells Like, Come Back Here)

Spubata Iky (Stop Making A Mess)#

Sqeeba (Squirt)

T

Taaksi (Capsule)=

Taalsa (Sink)=

Tagga Gati (Where Am I?)

Tai Chi Sheng (Exercise)=

Takiba (Better)#

Takka (Thanks, #Trouble#)

Tebrica (Pencil)=

Tel Ashal (Nine)=

Tele Sharov (Four)=

Tienet (Ten)=

Ti Maqa Nai (I'll Take Care Of You)#

Tiznet (Three)=

Tiba (Alright)

Tikka (Smarts)

Tikku (Smarts)

Tiki Baba (Sure Is)

Tinjibee (Don't Worry)

Ting (Three)

Tingu (You, It, He, She, Ect.)

Tingu Jo Faba (Your Fat, Your Also Fat)

To Kaba (What Is Happening?)

Todaga (Away)#

Todo (Do)

Toga Meega Pitugi (Look At My Butt)

Togga Chata (Where Am I?)

Toobaga (Moron, Idiot)=

Toochotoo (Land)

Toogie (We)

Toogie Naga Chifo (Your Not Doing This To Us)

Tooka Sabusa (We Have Trouble)

Tookaba (We Both Thank You)#

Tookie (We)

Tookie Bawabah (Lets Get Started)

Tookie Bawabah Achi-Baba Maqa Maqa Mimichi Bonaba Iki Bobo (Lets Go Friends Follow My  Lead To Battle)

Trang Nang (House)=

Tsi'Cong (Bang)=

Tubija (Your Fault)

Tu Bligida (She Is)

Tu Micha (Time To Go)

U

Una Skally Boosh (Where Is It?)

V

W

Waba (Look Here)

Wasa (Whats Up?)

Watugi (What Happened)

X

Y

Yadelep (Accuse)=

Yaga Nooba (Taking You Down)

Yagiba (Yeah)

Yana Polo Iki Bobo (Either She Drives Or I Drive)

Yu Porma Dissy (Your Mother)=

Yuuga (You)=

Z

Zaghdad (Android)=

Ziba (Or This)

Zitnet (Thirty)=

Ziz-Ziz (Electricity, Sparks)=

This is the result of my in depth study of the language known as Tantalog through our good friend Stitch.  Culminated over several years by obsession alone this has been gathered with hundreds of words and translated to best the best of my ability for you all now.  Some words are repeated with multiple spellings where appropriate, and some phrases are divided up for ease.  This is the key for this so that you better understand:

Word (Translation)

Ending with a #: Translated from 'Stitch! the Anime".  

Ending with a =: Gathered from online resources, honestly I don't think many of these are very correct.

English

Kweltikwan

Japanese

Hawaiian

Plorgonarian

Other Alien languages

Other Earth languages

[ellipsesarefun]

And those were the days where I felt that peace. It would be six in the evening and the cool breeze of Dasmariñas would tickle my cheeks. I would look around, my hands clutching my small purse filled with only my dorm keys and wallet, and my eyes wrinkled in sated elation.

At the gates of the subdivision, I'd walk past the guards and they'd greet me the same. I don't live in any of the dorms there but they knew of me enough to let me pass, a familiar face in a throng of med students. Some of them aren't clerks like me, who are either tired, hungry, or studying with friends. I am merelt one of them. I'd walk along the concrete road with surety, unfazed by the laughter and the chatter of my fellow colleagues. Sometimes, I'd greet them and sometimes I'd force my eyes on the phone.

I'd arrive at the end of the street, where a small dorm stands before me.

Home Away From Home was its name. I used to imagine moving here instead, where I'm surrounded by blissful company and typical neighborhood gossip that we'd giggle about in the auditorium before class.

I would slip past the gates, past the tindahan, and turn right into the hall of the first five dorm rooms. I'd knock and my friend would have said, "Teh, una ka na. Bihis muna ako."

I'd grin with an okay before skipping the next three rooms and knocking on the last door at the end of the hall. My other friend would open the door and just let me in with that, "Hello" where she draws out the "O" and I could see her dimples. And I'd reply with the same fervor. We'd probably gossip about stuff, list out the things we'd need for lab, or laugh on a meme that she found on her facebook feed.

It would be around 30 minutes past six that he'd finally knock on our door. He'd come in and we'd sit or lie on the bed and wait as she slips on a cardigan and pants. Before leaving, we'd giggle over how good we look. Mukhang pambahay talaga, one of us would say. It felt like those days in my childhood where I'm comfortable enough to be seen in my pajamas for an early walk to the tindahan.

After that, the two of us would wait by her doorstep while she locks her door I'd remember how it jingles as I'd listen to the night creatures crawl or cry by the river some way down from here... It'd take me back to all the misadventures and research I had with my HS classmates in the river. And it'd take me all the way back.

And when she finishes, we'd leave the dorm for this carinderia a block away. It's not 7 yet, so the place would be empty. That's the best time because we could take any seat and feel like the whole place is ours. Two of us would line up while other would save the seats at our table. There's a dog lounging by the leg of one of the tables. Sometimes, she'd stare at us with those beady little eyes. Sometimes, she'd tend to her puppies that crawl about the carinderia. The person behind the counter would recognize us, our orders memorized by heart. One liempo with sunny side up egg that's well done with a side dish of veggies. One chicken fillet with a side dish of veggies. One sisig with extra rice and extra chilli sauce.

After that, we'd sit and wait for our orders. Sometimes, we'd gush over how cute the puppies were at the corner of the room. Sometimes, we'd listen to the song blasted on the radio. Sometimes, we'd talk about our lives and our pets and whatever comes to mind. Sometimes, we'd order pancit canton or mais con yelo and stay up later if there's no 8 am class the next day. And I'd feel the tightness of my belly from the laughter, or the soreness of my cheeks from my smile, or the light weight on my chest as our dinner comes to a close.

And then it ends. I'd hug them both goodbye and goodnight and she'd remind us to wake up early so we could save our seats. And I'd nod my head with a grin before I turn around and make my way up to the gates, past the guards, that famous little milk tea shop, more stores, until I'm at the front of the convenient store.

I turn left and cross the empty street, and through the gates of the dormitory compound and into that forest-like pathway, where everything else comes alive while the students sleep. The road along each dormitory apartment would be empty, save for the cats that loiter about. I'd take my time here, because along this path, I am alone but I am content with the grass along the sidewalk where the cars are parked, with the trees standing by the sides like a red carpet for a magic kingdom, with the dogs howling at the night as they see my sillhoutte passing my their cage, with the whole world at peace no one watching or judging me.

And I'd return to my own dorm room in one piece. And from there I'd study till my eyes bleed and my body shuts down on the bed, recharging for that 8 am class three or four hours from now.

I'd be tired from the lectures, cramped seats in the auditorium, the loud chatter of my batchmates, and the anxiety of those people watching and whispering behind my back. I'd be tired but elated. Like I am coming home. A home away from home.

And for awhile, it felt like that. Back when I was someone else. But now, it is but a distant memory of someone I no longer recognize. I am, however, grateful for the memories and will cherish them however long ago they were.

[helloitstinshappythoughts-blog]

Masakit ba besh? Let go na yan.

Have you ever found yourself crying in the middle of the night because your jowa cheated on you? Have you ever found yourself asking if you deserve to be treated like this? Have you ever wished that someday, he’ll see your worth and treat you the way you deserve to be treated?

 If YES lahat ng sagot mo sa questions na ‘to, then… I wrote this blog for you! (High five!!)

If NO naman, dahil iniisip mong “Ah, okay naman kami ng jowa ko. Ganyan sya minsan, pero bati na kami.” Ayy tehhh!!! This is for you, too.

 If NO naman, just because it’s a no… Keri lang. Gusto mo ituloy basahin, go! If not, okay lang din naman.

 So, ayan! HELLO SA MGA SIZZZSSST KONG YES ANG SAGOT SA MGA QUESTIONS KANINA!!!!

 GUSTO NIYO BA MAGKWENTO AKO? CHAR!!!

 Joke lang.

 Pero ito na nga kasi. Nag yes ka sa tanong ko kanina diba? Ako din e. DATI! All caps teh para intense.

 Have you ever found yourself crying in the middle of the night because your jowa cheated on you? Have you ever found yourself asking if you deserve to be treated like this? Have you ever wished that someday, he’ll see your worth and treat you the way you deserve to be treated?

 Those are the things I told myself before. Those are the things I felt when I was not in a Christ-Centered relationship before. You know, I used to have my moments where I would cry myself to sleep just because we fought about something, and he was just there. He won’t say sorry or anything. It hurts. It got me to a point when I asked myself, “Deserve ko ba ‘to?”

 Until such time, I realized that I don’t deserve this. But it feels like, I couldn’t find my way out. Or I don’t want to find my way out. Kasi nga, ang thinking ko noon, “Magiging okay din kami. Magkakakaayos din kami. Lilipas din ito.”

 Reality check: NO! IT’S NOT! Yes, lilipas din. But no, you are just making yourself believe na magiging okay din lahat. Yes, magiging okay din kayo for a couple of days, weeks, months.. But have you noticed? It’s just the same pattern each time. Diba? Mag aaway kayo, iiyak ka. Tapos tatanungin mo na naman yung sarili mo “Deserve ko ba to? Hindi ko deserve to.” Tapos may karugtong pang “Hindi ko deserve to pero magsstay ako kasi mahal kita.”

 Ayyy tehh!!! Pwede nang linyahan sa mga movies diba? But would you want to settle for something like that for the rest of your life? Your answer should be a clear NO!!!

  This is the time that you have to let go. Let go and let God.

 Palaging kang sinasaktan ng boyfriend mo, or girlfriend mo emotionally, physically, mentally? Let go of them. Let him go, set yourself free.

 Pwedeng sa’yo may mali kaya ka nasasaktan, pwede din namang sa jowa mo. The bottomline is, may mali. That’s it.

 Palagi kang sinasaktan? Regardless of which form.. Do you think it’s what the Lord wants for you? Come to think of it. Jesus died for you, and He saved you. Do you think, Jesus died for you for nothing? Of course not. He died for all of us because He sees us worthy. You are worth it. You are precious to Him.  

 My dear, it’s not what the Lord wants for you. Anak ka ni Lord.

 If this person doesn’t see your worth, palagi kang sinasaktan, pinapaiyak, and pinagsisinungalingan, let them go.

 Seek the Lord with all your heart muna bago iseek your boyfriend with all your heart. Experience the love of the Lord for you, and you will realize that the Lord’s love is more than enough.

 Wag ka matakot mag isa. Hindi ka naman mag iisa in the first place. The Lord is with you, sizzsst!!! ♥

 If hindi mo pa kayang mag let go, but you know that deep down your heart, ayaw mo na, just Pray. I hope, sa magbabasa nito. I hope you realize how precious and valuable ka in the eyes of the Lord. I hope you experience how loving is our Father God. Cheer up, sizzsst and bro! :)

[womanlalaboy]

Panhik #4: Batulao Revenge Hike

My first official climb happened during a typhoon at Mt. Batulao in Nasugbu Batangas. The 2-4 hour climb became an excruciating hike of 9-long hours. Can you imagine the struggle? I can still feel the leg cramps whenever I think about it. Wanting to quit at first peak would sound unrealistic, but believe me when I say that for a beginner like me (a heavy one), the conditions that time were just too much. Nevertheless, we made it and we vowed to avenge that painful trek by doing another hike. We wanted to see the Batangas landscape on a sunny day so we plotted to do it on a February- thinking that it would be a cold, comfortable and a pleasant hike. It was a sunny hike, but never a cold nor a comfortable one.

There were many things we failed to take into consideration:

What's up on that very day? We failed to consider the actual day of our hike. I didn't realize that it fell on a long weekend- a Sunday followed by the People Power Anniversary the next day. Over a thousand people of all ages and sizes swarmed the place to do a hike. Some of those have been there since Saturday. Some were planning to camp and stay til Monday.

Since our day of hike fell on a very busy weekend, we also failed to anticipate the availability of public transportation. We had to ride a jeep to Silang and wait for a bus bound for Nasugbu. We found one that is full and settled to stand all the way to our destination. From Imus, Cavite to Batangas, including the waiting time, I spent a total of 5 hours just to get to the jump off.

I failed to consider my health. I’m lactose intolerant, but mindlessly sampled the mais con yelo in one of the stops at Mt. Batulao, and bought an ice cream at the summit. On top of that, I didn’t get to bring my medicine.

The climb nonetheless was still fun. We got a cool guide, Kuya Paeng who wore a pair of running shoes and a camouflage coat. He looked more like a politician than a guide, to be completely honest. He said that they have over 200 official guides, but at that time, they ran out of people so he volunteered. He used to guide people up there, so he knows the way around Batulao. Since there were so many people, we decided to team up with another group. We got to meet a couple originally from Palawan. They’re a bit quiet, but we got the feeling that they’re also fun to be with. It just took us a few peaks to get a glimpse of their fun side. 

Both of them are fair-skinned so when they told us they came from Palawan and moved up here to work, we didn’t believe them at first. Then they started talking about their travels, and how they find the time to go out despite having busy schedules as teachers. We also initially thought that they’re not used to climbing as they only brought a few stuff and those string bags triggered me a lot. We’ve realized that they’re actually just more prepared and practical than we are. They brought lightweight clothes, jackets to cover them up, enough trail food and liquid. They really didn’t need much.

We’re lucky to have met such nice people. Kuya Paeng and the couple we hiked with laughed with us and listened to when we tell stories of our first hike at Batulao. We really got along. We became their third wheel and Kuya Paeng became our father, especially when my stomach started to ache and needed to release so badly. I felt it at first after I took my share of that mais con yelo we got from one of the stops. There’s actually a group who camped and were cooking sopas when we got there. They even insisted that we wait for the sopas to be ready so we can all share a breakfast together. Instead, we got ourselves some mais con yelo and an egg. We told them we’ll get our share once we get back from the summit. We weren’t able to catch them, but it was alright. That sopas would’ve made my stomach ache worse.

The struggle started when we were approaching the look-out tower. We‘re seeing more people and felt that the path we’re taking was crumbling faster and easily more than expected. We actually took the old trail, then the new one towards the look-out tower and then the old trail again. But regardless of the trail we decide to take, we always see a line of people. They are most visible whenever we trek through the ridges. There were several points where we had to stop as well and let those from the top pass through. This usually happen at steeper paths like the photo below:

From higher points, people lined up looked like ants trying to find their way to get food. We stayed the longest at the summit along with many other climbers. It looked like a feast of the Nazarene. I even joked about it and told my friend, “nasa’n ang poon, teh? Ready na ‘yung bimpo ko.” (where’s the patron saint? My face towel’s ready). We just laughed things off then bought ourselves an ice cream which was a very bad decision on my end. I felt a sudden adrenaline. At the time, I was really considering releasing my shit in the bushes, but the summit is an open area and regardless of grass length, people will still be able to see me. I asked Kuya Paeng to help us get down the fastest. He went down to help guide the others descend so they could lessen the people up in the summit. It took him quite a while so we just distracted ourselves with jokes. “Akala ko teh Feb. pa lang? Bakit parang napaaga yata ang bisita Iglesia ngayon?” (I thought we’re still in Feb. Why do I feel like Visita Iglesia came a little bit early this time?) I jokingly said. 

Kuya Paeng came back and told us we could go down the slopes where those tall and sharp grass are rooted from. He made us a new path so we could go down fast. However, we were only able to do that from the summit down to the first hill. We lined up along with the others ready to descend. It wasn’t nice to wait there under the scorching heat of the noon sun and my will to hold my literal shit together. There was a guy that was really scared of going down saying in his breath he’s only good at going up, but never down. I told him, “at least, hindi ka natatae.” (at least, you don’t feel like taking a dump), and we laughed at our worries. 

I was pretty good at convincing my body that I don’t need to take a shit yet. I’ve successfully distracted myself. Then a guide shouted from down below, “oh, tiis tiis muna sa mga natate d’yan, papaakyatin lang muna natin ‘tong isang batch.” (Let's try to be patient with this for now, especially to those who would need to take a shit. We’ll guide this next batch up first.” to which I shouted, “Kuya, ‘wag mo nang ipaalala, nakalimutan ko na nga, e!” (you don’t need to remind us. I’ve almost forgotten about it!).

Even with what happened, I’m glad that we’ve seen the summit and the range clearly. Actually, over a thousand hikers did that day. It was a rare event, said the locals. They get a lot of visitors during weekends, but this only happens during long weekends and long holidays. Though Batulao is a favorite among beginners and experienced hikers alike, this massive visit would be detrimental to the protection and conservation of the mountain. 200 of them guides weren’t even enough to accommodate the number of hikers. We descended by afternoon and there were still more coming.

The path for sure doesn’t look healthy anymore. There were more loose rocks than usual which can be dangerous if you’re not too careful. The boulders are really what bothered me. They were shaking. Imagine a thousand people going back and forth using the boulders to help them climb up and down. There are also  more stops compared to when we hiked in 2017. This means more commercial goods being brought up in the mountains which will result in trail trash if there’s no proper waste management. And yes, I believe there is none as we’ve seen a lot of trash along the way. 

Pico De Loro, another favored mountain in Batangas had to be closed several times to allow it to recuperate. This is a possible sight that can happen to Batulao if we continue to mindlessly do what we’re doing that contributes to its likely destruction. Here are a few insights from a traveler’s point of view that are worth considering.

Mindful consuming isn’t only healthy for our bodies, but also for our environment. If you’re reading this because you fancy mountain climbing, then for sure you enjoy what mountain climbing can offer- great scenery, memorable adventure, stillness, simplicity, a moment to contemplate and breathe. There are other activities that make you feel alive, but there’s nothing else like mountain climbing. If we enjoy doing things like this, we should at least pay attention to how we affect our mountains. Taking care of the very thing that gives us pleasure wouldn’t hurt. It’s as simple as taking the protection and conservation of the mountain in mind whenever you have to visit one. When you are mindful of what you consume, you are also mindful of what waste you produce. Do you really need to buy that bottled water? Did you really have to get a bag tag from every mountain you climb or pick up that interesting flower along the way? If we continue to mindlessly consume things we don’t ultimately need, then we are just demanding their production which would have to involve non-renewable energy in manufacturing and probably non-biodegradable materials that aren’t really designed to be up or downcycled. Also, let’s bring our own trash back home and make something out of those than just leaving them in the mountains. Let’s have a little decency. It’s free.

Conscious traveling should be a traveler’s mindset. We get more than what we give when we travel and it’s only as important to be conscious with what, when and how we are visiting a place as to being conscious if we would need to bring an extra pair of underwear. Always think about the date of our travel and how it will affect everything. I failed to take that into consideration and I’ve learned my lesson the hard way. It’s best to visit a place off-peak than swarm the place along with the thousands of people trying to maximize their holidays.

Consider the locals and how they actually live their lives there. Water in Batulao is scarce, and the locals would have to share theirs with the visitors. Even with fees, a thousand visitor is still too much to accommodate. Batangueños are just naturally hospitable and friendly to allow people like me to use their toilets or bedrooms when the souvenir shops and eateries are just filled with people. My friends and I settled with damped towels instead of taking a bath. We also maximized the water we brought with us instead of buying bottled water in the area.

Help the locals to capitalize on goods that would speak their identity. I always find it nice to try things that are specific to what a place can offer. Batangas Lomi sounds about right.

MORE...

Also see: Batulao photo sets Also read: Panhik #1: Mother Mountain Also read: Panhik #2: Braving Batulao Also read: TUCLAS Climbs Gulugod Baboy Also read: Womanlalaboy's Travel Guide to Gulugod Baboy Also read: Womanlalaboy's Travel Guide to Batulao

[unbiasedph]

‘Araling Panlipunan’, trending sa Twitter matapos mag-viral ang pahayag ni Ella Cruz

Trending topic sa Twitter ang “Araling Panlipunan” matapos mag-viral ang pahayag ni Ella Cruz tungkol sa mga natutunan niya sa pagganap bilang ‘young Irene Marcos’ sa pelikulang “Maid in Malacañang” ni Darryl Yap. “History is like tsismis. It is filtered and dagdag na rin, so hindi natin alam what is the real history. Naro’n na yung idea, pero may mga bias talaga. As long as we are here at may kaniya-kaniyang opinion, I respect everyone’s opinion,” saad umano ni Ella. “Kasi struggling na eh, last three days! Kahit naman sila struggling right now, ‘di ba? Paano kaya iyon na there so much pressure on their side during those times? Narito ang mga tweet ng mga netizen kaugnay sa “Araling Panlipunan.” “Tell me you didn’t listen to your araling panlipunan teacher without telling me you didn’t listen to your araling panlipunan teacher” “Ella Cruz sinong teacher mo nung Araling Panlipunan at naging ganyan ang pananaw mo sa History? Nagsayang ka lang ng pera. Ang history sayo, chismis? Bugok.” “bwahahahaha ella cruz wala ka bang sibika??? hekasi??? or araling panlipunan??? wait nakatapos ba to ng college anyare sa minor subjects mo girl naipasa mo ba” “Aba! Ella, saang paaralan ka ba nag-aral mula Elementary? Sino-sino ang guro mo sa Araling Panlipunan? Wala ka bang natutunan?” “Bagsak siguro sa Araling Panlipunan, ang hirap talaga kapag ganda lang ambag sa lipunan e.” “Mukhang wala siyang natutunan sa Araling Panlipunan.” “Sana pala hindi na ako nagsayang ng oras sa pakikinig sa mga guro ko sa HEKASI at Araling Panlipunan kung tsismis lang pala ang kasaysayan.” “this is why bringing back araling panlipunan subject in high school is a must. as a social studies major, i feel so offended with ella’s statement. teh sa lahat ng pwedeng gawing comparison sa history bat chismis ang naisip mo” “I didn’t pursue this course just to teach gossip to my future students. My Araling Panlipunan/ history teacher didn’t teach me tsismis when I was in high school, I believed it’s all facts and it’s real. And no one can’t undo our history, it’s already written.” “Ella Cruz and children nowadays must focus on their studies especially Araling Panlipunan para ang history is not like tsimis.” “Hahahaha shuta? HUH? HUHHHH???? HAHAHAHAHAHA BWISIT. I HAVE NO WORDS. OPENING SCHOOLS IS NOT ENOUGH, REINFORCING THE RIGHT HISTORY AND ARALING PANLIPUNAN CURRICULUM IS NEEDED!” “Alam mo, kahit mababa grades ko sa Sibika at Kultura or Araling Panlipunan or History, diko naisip na tsismis lang ang history ng Pinas. Alam ko rin pinag-aralan sa English ang pinagkaiba ng Fact sa Opinion.” “Bobita ka naman pala Ella Cruz na yun, pabalikin ka na sa school. Absent ka ata pag Araling Panlipunan. Tiktok pa more! Nahawaan ka na ata ni Darryl Yap na bobong pedophile. Kwento mo sa 700 lang na bumoto sa tatay mong tumakbong mayor sa Bulacan.” Read Full News @ Manila Bulletin Read the full article

[cjaaaayy-blog]

To All Who Are Too AuSome to be Forgotten

To Josh,

You have all the moves and wits. But, remember that school life isn’t a binary spectrum of “guys, MAPEH na!” or “guys, Electronis na!” There’s also, “Guys, boycott na tayo!”

To Andrew,

Boy, you grind studies and contests too hard. Loosen up, lean back and relax. Nevertheless, thank you for those stuff you’ve shared with me especially those you’ve shared during kopyahan times. To the world’s next Stephen Hawking, Godbless!

To Kenneth,

Thank you for being a fun guy to be with. I’m wondering how are you with ********? Kidding hehe. Anyways, continue being a young director, you can do it!

To Ronnie,

Your white hair’s a laughingstock, to be honest. I’d always remember you as the guy who doesn’t give a damn about time despite having the responsibility of taking the class’ attendance early in the morning. To the many next times, always learn to be on time.

To Laurence,

Studies isn’t just about being on top. It’s also learning to have fun amidst pressure. Also, thank you for being a straightforward person to all of us.

To Freidrich,

Remember that life isn’t just about being a tall dude, it’s also being a small guy with a big heart (lul pre HAHA). Continue your study habits and remember not to be afraid to admit that you’ve actually reviewed for the test.

To Karlos,

I remember you being the guy who managed to step out of his comfort zone in Grade 6 and interacted more with his classmates. Idk what happened to you pero I hope you’d legitimately step out of your comfort zone and interact with others more.

To Aaron,

You’re the guys who’s into games so much. I remember we’re on the same ground when talking about MH, FF and VG. Here’s to more promotions in VG with Shany, bro!

To Daryll,

The most laid back person I know. Idk how you could survive high school with the too relaxed attitude of yours. You sometimes, go to school late, cram requirements, and even don’t study. But, I’d still see you in the list of awardees. Teach me, master.

To Harvey,

Let me tell you that having a lovelife is a tertiary priority. Don’t get too excited getting one and instead enjoy your time you spend with your friends and yourself. Also, continue being a creative guy and our school’s Jin hehe.

To Ryan,

Bro, don’t be too immature when handling her. Always don’t be afraid to approach when something’s not right with the of you. Continue being a fun friend and stay strong to the two of you!

To Emil,

Pre, don’t be too clingy anyone. Always have a circle of friends you’re only going to be clingy to. Anyways, thank you for being supportive dude and a fun one. Continue being a “cat” and a “sweet” one HAHA.

To Jonard,

Idk how a skinny person like you has all that energy when it comes to playing games. Idk too how a guy like won’t be broken after getting hit by a fast ball. But, pre, always remember that the way you throw balls (lmao) at us hurts way too much, learn to throw ball (again, lmao) just right.

To John Roe,

We never had a legit conversation, even when we’re still practicing for that crappy hip-hop requirement. Still, I know that you’re a great guy. Keep your faith!

To Whesley,

I’d usually see you shouting crap in our room. Despite that, I’d also see you being a gentleman to your friend. ALSO, I CAN LITERALLY SEE THAT YOU’RE BEING A PERSONAL BODYGUARD TO YOU-KNOW-WHO. Keep doing the latter, and loosen up most of the time.

To Felmar,

Hi fellow EIC! To you, who’s really great at Filipino. I’d always remember that pose you had last Up Sinni. I’d also remember you as the guy who’s being bullied most of the time, but, still doesn’t break his fuse.

To Timi,

Lately, you stepped out of your comfort zone and had a crush. Fortunately, you two have labels now. HAHA pre, laughtrip ka. Anyways, continue being a great leader, passionate guitarist.

To Yran,

Boi, you’re that guy who’s worth was always being stepped on. Remember you have all the rights to be happy. Also, poteq, hanap ka na ng iba. Kapag failed yung isa, move on, tas iba na, ganoin yon hehe. Anyways, learn to have a filter whenever you’re talking with someone and Godspeed!

To Kryssha,

Thank you for all the answers, notes, memories we shared as seatmates, mates. Continue being a funny girl.

To Darylle,

Thank you for lending me your correction tape and giving me sheets of papers whenever I needed one. Learn to speak up sometimes, girl.

To Judee,

Girl, I’d always see you reviewing on your own table or saying “bain” whenever something weird happens. Idk what happened to you and “Otter guy”, but I’m here to say that there are still better guys out there that you’ll meet soon enough.

To Janae,

Teh, thank you for being a great/crappy friend to me. Always remember I’m always here to scold you whenever you did something crappy to your relationship with him hehe. Anyways, continue bringing you car so that we won’t have any trouble begging kutseros bringing us to DOST + continue living out your motto, teh

To Buena,

Ex-Chillver! Lezzgo back to the days when we’re so freaking chill in silver, teh. I’d love to go back huhu. Anyways, continue reaching for the stars and enhancing that voice of yours.

To Maria,

These past weeks was hard on us. But, we talked it out and I told you nothing beats a decent talk (multiple 😛 for u) Anyways, continue being a great girl you already are, and always remember that people can actually understand you. You’re not alone in this world, I’m here ready to listen to you.

To Karen,

You’re a quiet person. I know you have a lot of ideas to share and stories to say. Don’t be afraid to interact with other persons also.

To Julia,

The resident skinny na nga, maliit pa girl hehe. I’ve seen you dance and stuff. I could say that continue being a dancer, and have a time for yourself. Go eat buffets out there, and get some weight! HAHA

To Ange,

You have the most annoying/contagious laugh of all. One burst of laughter from you and you would cause some of us to laugh or just smirk. Stay being a joyful and plump one.

To Salve,

Rumors had it that you’re drowning in your own sadness, eventually, falling into “that” abyss everyone’s having a hard escaping from. Teh, don’t be afraid to open up to your parents and friends. Transparency’s the only thing we need when we’re experiencing that. Godbless

To Christelle,

Hoy, words are not enough to describe how great of a writer you are. I’m always awed by how poetic you are. Continue being a great writer!

To Kristel,

Grade 7’s taong gubat to Grade 10’s pinatay sa film. All I can say is, stop pretending you know everything and stop joining fights you’re not part of. That’s all, Godbless!

To Samantha,

Always grateful being a part of the “Arduino-based Soil crap thingy and Arduino-based Color Sorter Machine” team. I’d always remember how chill you were when we were defending in RSTF HAHA. Stay being a chill one, girl.

To Naiza,

Always continue being a laid back person. You’ll be needing it soon enough

To Jeanelle,

I’d always be grateful for our awkward conves during Grade 7 and 8. I didn’t expect that we’d be close friends. Thank you for being a supportive friend especially, being an “advicer” whenever I need advices. Anyways, don’t fire your waiter ha? HAHA Godbless, Jeanelle!

To Editha,

I’ve had several scars because of your nails. I’ve said countless jokes about your height. All those are something to laugh at. Remember that you’re not a lost star.

To Grace,

Nothing would beat that Icool crap last Grade 7 HAHA. Anyways, continue being a math wizard. Always use your high heels despite the fact the you’re a tall person. Godbless!

To Micah,

To the most quiet girl I’ve seen. Continue being like that but also learn to speak up in times of need. And be a shoulder that Salve can lean on, she’ll need it.

o Karissa,

Our Sisa. Idk if you being a she-male’s true. But, anyway, continue being a shameless and funny lass.

To Niña,

Paayuk girl! I’ll surely miss your pabibo moves, jokes and everything that’s memorable. Here’s to more memorable contests like RICE, sleepovers, and Fun runs. Godbless!

To ABCD,

You who’s the most poetic of us all. Continue being an inspiration and a great friend.

To Kath,

Beshiecakes. Ming Ming. Names I could throw at you just to either annoy you or lighten up your mood. MOVE ON NA TEH. HANAP KA NA NG IBA KASI DI KO SIYA BET FOR YOU HAHA. Anyways, thank you for literally being a shoulder I can lean on. Always thankful for being with me when I’m on my lowest part. Remember I’ll be here for you always.

To Shany,

To you, who’s literally obsessed with your crush/es HAHA. Always remember life is unfair and you won’t who you want. Always have a back up HAHA whenever the first one fails HAHA.

To Precious,

I know that you’re a great person. Keep holding on to your friends especially, to those two. You’ll be needing them everyday.

To Kezia,

I’ve heard what happened. I’m here to say that there are other guys better than him. One that would actually be with you, will know your worth, appreciate your beauty and all. Just wait.

To Ayra,

A. R. C. J. Remember them? HAHA the latter’s who you’re with right now. Continue being a fun person and sharpen them mind of yours when it comes to songs. Damn HAHA

To Jemarie,

I’d always remember how we clapped whenever you’ll talk or whenever you’re name will be called. The name Jemarie will always be etched in the Hall of Gold HAHA

To Kat,

Congrats for passing that stage in life, teh! Remember that your life has a meaning and you couldn’t just put it to waste. Godbleeeeesss!

To Joanna,

Don’t worry about height. I’ll gladly give you some seh. Kidding aside, you’ve been a good friend to me (lmao) HAHA. Continue being a kind hearted midget.

GUYS, ALWAYS REMEMBER #NoFear