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munch-mumbles · 1 month

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ive been a little upset about it all night so i need to write out all the things that happened at work today and are bugging me so i can TRY to get it out of my head and actually RELAX bc i just keep pacing in circles around it instead of just accepting it and moving on

#for context i was working frying chicken today. ok so i arrive and literally all the chicken out expires within ten minutes of each other #meanwhile to remake everything takes about an hour 20 #tried my best to get everything out and replaced and make sure i have enough of everything and then take my break bc with chicken there are #few narrow windows to take your break in you have very little control over when it is #get back and while im getting ready for my next fry one of the assistant leaders comes back and passive aggressively asks 'everything ok?'#and when i say yeah shes starts saying how shes 'just checking' because apparently i didnt have enough chicken out for her liking and went #on about how we're in a chicken drive (I KNOW. I WORK CHICKEN SHE NEVER HAS.)#etc etc. i just say ok and she leaves #like 20 minutes later she comes fucking back to rag on me again about how i need to choose my break times better and i need to have more #chicken out there as back up (extremely difficult bc there is literally only so much room in the fryers. the batches i usually make already #nearly completely fill them up) blah blah and then when i try to explain how i WAS making pretty big batches people are just snatching them #up fast she keeps trying to walk out the door right away and keeps stopping and looking over her shoulder to just stare at me while i try t #finish my sentence #and she just. doesnt say anything in response when i do finish she just leaves #so clearly she didnt want a conversation she just wanted to rag on me #then later for cleanup the timing of everything just kept lining up inconveniently so i kept having to get in and out of raw cleaning gear #and slowing myself down and i end up having to stay almost 15 minutes late to finish cleaning #during cleaning i have to go grab a key to the back door to take out my trash and this one coworker i have was standing in the way of the #door. i say excuse me and she just stares at me and goes huh?#and i say i need a key and she barely moves out of the way without responding and she has a look like im bothering her #why are you acting like im being douchey. i just need a key. thats something she does a lot she acts like im inconveniencing her by asking #basic favors . ive stopped asking her to help me open the back door (sometimes needed if i also have raw garbage to take out and therefore #cant touch the key myself) for some reason she takes it upon herself to almost completely close the door after i walk out so when i come #back i have to awkwardly use my foot to reach around and pull the door open #ive asked her before not to do it and she just ignored me #GRAH GRAH. and then like i said in my last rb i realized while i was drivign home i forgot to wash a damn pan #im mostly worried about it because ive forgotten a couple times in the past too . in my defense its a pan i personally dont use but it just #gets left behind from first shift sometimes and then second shifters end up having to make sure its clean #im just irritateddd and im mad im worried about it all. its all little things piling up on each other #LOL I WROTE A LOT MORE BUT THE REST GOT CUT OUT IG I HIT A TAG LIMIT. tumblr voice ok dude quit your bitching !!

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perhaps-mr-collins-has-a-cousin · 14 days

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Hello praying people, I'm not doing well and would really appreciate your prayers right now <3

#long very boring and unnecessarily detailed tag monologue incoming‚ feel free to skip:#this is going to sound like a silly thing to be hitting rock bottom over #but i’m fairly certain i have a semi-rare skin condition known as sensitive skin syndrome #which is basically where skin gets progressively more sensitive #until it won’t tolerate the topical application of anything at all without getting irritated #usually it happens to people on the skin of their face and i have it there but i also specifically have it on my lips #(which apparently is extremely not normal; i found a dermatologist’s case study from like 2019 of one woman who had it on her lips #and according to this case study there were no other cases of people having it on their lips #in all the dermatological literature he had read)#i can’t follow the protocol which all the journal articles i’ve been able to find say is helpful for the rest of the face which is basicall #leave the area the heck alone for at least a year #because if i don’t apply anything to my lips for more than two or three days they will get so dry they crack and bleed #so it’s looking like one way or another i may be having to deal with dry burning irritated lips for the rest of my life #and i’m not dealing with the thought of that very well #i’ve already suffered so much anguish from extreme sensitivity on the rest of my face #and not being able to take proper care of the skin there #and this is just too much for me #i know God is allowing this for a reason but it’s filling me with so much frustration and panic and despair that i don’t know how to go on #but i must and i will #this isn’t a serious or a life-threatening condition but it’s looking like a pretty hopeless one and it’s hurting me badly #and i would appreciate prayers that it would just be healed or that i would know what to do #i think i will try going to my dermatologist but somehow i doubt she's even heard of sensitive skin syndrome #on a COMPLETELY unrelated note i'm just about to get my period and also for two days i've ''eaten'' nothing but vegetable smoothies #and those in pretty small amounts because they're disgusting #(do a detox my hormonal health doctor said)#(it'll be fun she said)#ok if you read this far you're so brave braver than any u.s. marine etc.#thanks for reading ily <3

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oatbugs · 2 months

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she's so arrogant and annoying and hot it pisses me off !!!

#like have some shame omg . have some respect #shes soooo certain i will date her she keeps saying shes not worried she doesnt care etc etc bc she knows i want to date her #not even that. she Declared we were dating. like when i was like do u even want this. not just going on dates but acc dating. and she was #like wdym? im already dating you . like ok??? i wasnt informed ig #anyway i said she was arrogant and she said she knows so.#also she did several things when she was drunk that i found cringe/i personally would b embarrassed if i was her but she just found it funn #like genuinely does she have no sense of shame #also her reasoning is that shes too hot to be rejected and since im talking to her instead of... not that makes her certain that #no matter what i say i wont reject her #WHICH MAKES ME WANT TO REJECT HER. DONT TELL ME WHAT I WANT OR WHAT TO DO. UGH.#I WANT TO FIGHT HER FR MEIN GOTT #also i want her to be more romantic i literally told her im not asking her out on the next date lmao #also if we do end up dating properly i have to swear and oath never to argue w her and just communicate slowly and clearly bc imagine #lawyer and philosophy student get into an argument and theyre both scorpios. insane combination imo #INSUFFERABLE. she was also 40 mins late and tbf she did warn me and keep me updated but i was still rly mad at her bc #i was waiting for so long . and i was like . listen im gonna leave. and she walked thru the door. but anyway she apologised but also she #said no ones ever threatened to leave her b4. what do you mean before?? anyway i told her to respect my time more and she was like i cant #believe im being told off by a 21 yr old like bitch ur literally 24 stop acting ancient fuck off #UGH SHES SO IRRITATING. WHY DOESNT SHE CALL ME MORE.#crushposting

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intertexts · 2 months

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hm.

#how do i tell my sister that while i appreciate the thought it is in fact not nicer if she takes the couch occasionally and lets me have my #room sometimes. first of all i HATE disruptions like this it's kind of even more distressing 2 be able 2 sleep in #my own room for one night and then i can't again!!! that sucks net zero!!! second of all She Has My Quilt.... trying very hard 2 be normal #and chill about this and not like it's one of the few things i really really really hate other people using & causes me distress etc.#also like i explicitly said 'hey haha don't do this please' & then she did anyway. which she does!!! i forgot about that!!!#also like man i dont fucking want to sleep on someone's used sheets & blankets that's gross. so im arguably less cosy than i would be. gggh #this all seems like.... very minor and stupid im sure however man im like constantly in a state of middling to severe distress over this #shit. because i in fact also hate people going through my shit or being in my room and also having no privacy however #im very good with suppressing and or masking how much i hate it usually!!!!! but dude she fucking hung her laundry & underclothes #to dry or air on top of my fucking books on my shelves. like. ghghhh hate it hate it cant SAY i hate it because of the everything!!!#ok. sorry. minor pressure cooker escape valve complaining over now im gonna go sleep awkwardly on top of the blankets on my own bed with #some throw blankets. leaving my door open for the beafts if she closes it in the morning bc she thinks she knows what i want ill scream.#txt #neg #this is like private kvetching btw ok i love her dearly it's just unbelievably frustrating.

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actual-changeling · 11 months

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#alex yells at the void #bpd is such a fun disorder and by fun i mean one of the most painful mental disorders to live with #sometimes i feel bad for projecting so much one ellie cause she will be going through it tm #but then again my therapist said projection is good and helpful so there's that #love being caught in the dilemma of tell ppl you're struggling and risk annoying them #and dont tell them and risk the same #like bestie my options arent really great here isnt there a secret third way #you wont get too much they say and then leave because i got too much like ok how do you expect me to actually believe anyone telling me tha #my therapist said it's fine and understandable that im scared etc. etc.#as long as i try to take good experiences as they come #but bestie i am very tired of getting like one good experience every two years and nothing but horrible shit for the rest #also very tired of passive aggressive bullshit and indirectness like if there's something bothering you just fucking tell me #dont be like my ex or my parents or anyone else ever #the world isnt all like that they say as if it hasnt been that way my entire life because the universe hates me and i dont deserve happines #i dont do diaries or journaling i just do vague vents in tumblr tags but it is what it is

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bronanlynch · 5 months

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obsessed w the choice to have reinhard & hilda hook up for the first time in the context of. reinhard is having a breakdown over his guilt at the death of his boy best friend like. very heterosexual of him, I'm sure

#also like. it is so funny to me that people ship this as like. them being In Love and fluffy etc etc like. the vibes are extremely Not That #they fuck bc he's having a breakdown. she leaves before he wakes up and looks terrified when he comes to see her #he gave her a military position and wanted to make her prime minister and every time she correctly disagrees with him he hates her for it #she's the closest thing he has to a friend but he can't forgive her for not being kircheis so he marries her instead #he brings flowers bc it's what mittermeyer did bc he's following a script bc he doesn't know how to do any of this #(this being. heterosexuality. having any kind of normal relationships with people. functioning in society)#she canonically doesn't feel like she understands how to be a woman #oh my god are they the 'he's gay she's a lesbian their marriage will change your perception of love' couple #wait no also. his reason for proposing. jesus christ his entire concept of gender & relationships is So shaped by what happened to annerose #he feels obligated to marry her now but also. as if marrying her isn't just another way of trapping her into that kind of role #like she's can't be ur official military advisor or ur prime minister. she has to be Your Wife. and i cannot see her being happy w that #like it would get her what she wants (advancement for her family) but oh my god at what cost #sorry these tags are just. my running commentary of the ep now anyway losing it at reinhard saying “can kircheis forgive me for marrying”#ok i was gonna make fun of him being like “he never got to marry before he died :/” like. i really don't think that was a priority for him #but i do also think given the opportunity he would've married annerose. mediated desire and all that #dreaming.txt #e watches logh

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pepprs · 1 year

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also (this is it i promise) this is why i am so INSANELY excited to have my own room soon. like omg. it is definitely not perfect bc it’s at home and there’s a breaker box in it and you can hear footsteps really loud through the ceiling and also again *it’s at home* when i really need to not be living at home. but the quality of life improvement i am about to have is actually INSANE. i will be able to have a space far away from everyone else where i can sing without bothering anyone and play piano and decorate it (mostly) to my liking and have a desk and draw and paint and do whatever. finally!!!!!!!! that is going to fix me!!!!!

#purrs #i just wish it was permanent or that i had more years to spend in it. like i actually just want to find the place where i will live forever #and just stay there bc oh my GOD am i tired of living in places temporarily. i have so many issues w that bc so many spaces that were #formative for me have been destroyed (e.g. the van 😍😍😍😍 and my grandparents house 😍😍😍😍 and my favorite hs teachers classroom 😍😍😍😍) or are #going to be destroyed (e.g. the office where i work rn 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍) or ive had to leave them and move out bc they’re inherently temporary (e.g.#my on campus room 😍😍😍😍 and my room in brighton 😍😍😍😍😍😍). and ive had attachment issues w space / location : whatever my whole life like i wou #would have huge meltdowns whenever we were transitioning from like elementary school to middle school middle school to high school etc etc..#so i really just um. would like permanence and stability please. im 24. im done w school for now and maybe forever. i want to find a place w #where i can just like.. stay. so if im paying rent like something that would allow me to renew it indefinitely and not fear bei ng kicked #out randomly or at the end of a determined period. i just want a home lol i want a homeeeee and i want to decorate it with all my things and #never be afraid that i will lose it and get to stay there forever and ever or at least as long as i want. bc my parents already have plans f #for my new room after i move out and i won’t get to decorate it as much as i want bc my mom doesn’t want me to damage the paint. but like if #i have a place of my own then i get to decide a little ding in the paint is worth it to put up my lanterns. you know? idk. the mortifying #ordeal of experiencing freedom like thisfor the first time in my mid-late twenties probably 😍😍😍😍😍😍 but still its gonna be good and i hope it #happens soon and i have to MAKE that happen. so yeah.#wishlist #delete later #ok now im done for real THJS time lol. my mom is gonna be so pissed at me ive barely lifted a finger here. but im enjoying the quiet what ca #can i say!!!!!!!! like OMG ok last thi ng…. like she’s always saying i have to love myself first before i get into a relationship and it’s l #like.. maybe my living conditions do not predispose me to be able to spend time w myself in ways that allow me to love myself!!!!!!#maybe always being on the defense and needing to find quiet spaces all the time and being shamed for that is not a very good way to experien #experience myself in the place im supposed to feel most grounded and comfortable!!! so yeah.#like maybe i stopped doing all the things i loved bc you got alexa and loud speakers and started blasting music all the time and dominating #space and becoming more and more high maintenance… 😳 (and obviously i changed as a person / played a role in it too but again my point / re #realization is… maybe it was in RESPONSE to stimuli that were not good for me and not just bc i suck as a person / am losing myself / etc.)#like theeeee sonic warfare of it all. also my brother is a key player in it too bc he raps and sings at the top of his lungs and it’s like 🤨

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biolums · 1 year

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a moodboard.

#im so tired. borh emotionally and physically and i feel just like. so overstimulated #talked to my grandma. i havent talked to her in a few years because my dad made me feel like i had to isolate myself from his family. so #yeah. i had to walk away before she ended the call because i started crying abit. i just am so emotionally fragile i cant handle anything #i was fine after that. had an amazing day even #but right before i wrnt to recuperate in my room. like bc im so exhausted etc. my mom asked about my grandma #and i was like she sounded fine but my sister was saying she sounds different and that she needs to be in a wheelchair because the pain of #her spine cancer is too much and i just like. ywah i knew that i just literally dont have the emotional capacity or ability right now to #talk about it or be honest like that im just so. i dont know i had to leave again because i almost started crying #im coming to terms with the fact that i need to visit her and i want to its just. its going to be so hard #im just. how am i supposed to handle all this when im already so emotionally wrought.#ok i just made myself cry i need to sleep and calm down #i just need to. stop fucking thinking. for once in my life #jace.txt

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cherry-shipping · 1 year

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this is like the most niche thing ive ever imagined with an f/o but i like thinking that papyrus could call my bluffs really easily when no one else can. specifically UMM self care and health bluffs? i dont really lie about it. i just intentionally leave stuff out so people dont worry? like, if someone asks "have you eaten today?" ill be like "oh yea i ate before i came here! ^_^" but then i tactfully leave out the part where the only thing i ate was, like, a piece of candy i found on my floor or something and prior to that i hadnt eaten for a week, and things of that nature. and people never ever realize when im bluffing which is convenient for me but obviously Bad in general, but. i like imagining that paps of all people can just sort of innately Tell when im hiding something or skewing the truth just a little bit

#because hes SMART!!!!!!!!! and GOOD AT READING PEOPLE!!!!!!!#so far the only other person whos learned that i DO bluff (even if she doesnt call them naturally) is my school counselor #thats only because i told her about how i bluff a lot. so now she kinda questions whatever i say about my own health LOL #we were talking about my arfid at one point and i said how mama wants me to go see a professional about it #and i told her id declined because while my situation wasnt ideal it wasnt THAT bad and wasnt dangerous to my health #and she was like ok so how often do you eat #and i had to be like. umm. Sometimes.#and after like 5 minutes of pushing she got me to admit i ate maybe once a week (ITS BETTER NOW THOUGH!!!!)#and she was like. ok so i think maybe your definition of whats 'dangerous' to your health isnt normal at all.#anyway i imagine paps would be like that except i DONT have to tell him. he just kind of knows when im leaving stuff out #this is also so unique to papyrus nobody else can tell not even sans despite his skill of reading faces #blegh. i think the day im like fully open and honest with my life and how i feel is the same day jesus comes back or something #cherry chats #hes also good at prying in a way where i dont feel like shit. idk how to explain it but like umm #when ive been in situations where people have pushed me until im forced to guiltily admit i was leaving stuff out i feel bad #not only because they called my bluff and learned i was (almost) lying to them but also it makes me feel bad about myself #but i think hed never make me outright say it #since he just Knows hes also able to come up with ways to bring it up without atcually saying it out loud #he knows that i know that he knows etc etc etc #AND ALSO HES UNRIVALLED WHEN IT COMES TO MANIPULATING PEOPLE INTO DOING WHAT HE WANTS (IN A NICE WAY)!!!!!!!!!!!#SO IF ANYONE CAN GET ME TO EAT ITS HIM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#hes so smart. he just tricks people into doing stuff for their own benefit and they hardly ever realize it #hes my BEST FRIEND FOREVAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3333333

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rumpunch · 2 years

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sobbing hysterically over mary poppins opens the door first and last chapters during this fine first hour of july 21 2022. yeah

#i need to reread the books but im realizing how similar mp is to redacted redacted redacted which is killing me but also mp alone is enough #to kill me. like good god. it’s about LOVE and she never says it but she loves jane and michael so fucking much. im losing my shit over it #tess talks #tagging later bc this is an embarrsssing post and my nose is running from crying so im not thinking clearly 🤪#‘They watched her in adoring silence drinking her in.’ ‘She looked from one to the other calmly; seeing right down inside their hearts and #understanding everything.’ LIKE WHO EVEN FUCKING DOES THAT. idk. they love each other so much. her leaving is love even though it’s also so #painful. LOLLLLLLLL. cringe fail etc but im really losing it. both of them having a feeling and just wanting to be close to her lol. and her #bluffing and being whatever by being snippy with them. idk. it’s just love. they all love each other so much. so how could she leave them an #and quite frankly how dare she <- projecting. but i get it also. idk. she knows they’ll be ok. ughhhhh #delete later

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chrisbangs · 2 years

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there's smth so funny abt my mom leaving the country after my sisters bday and before mine 🫶

#ayo... it's ... it's just kinda funny #i cried abt it last night it's ok #do i care? not really #but also yes it makes me feel worthless as a human 👍 but ayo that's the vibe the truth my life etc idc #ngl it's kinda funny ... 🫡#she was like 'i can't go before ur sisters bday!' and then she was like 'is it ok if i go before ur bday 🥺' i was like yes plz just go idc 🫶#i hate my bday so idk ..#but her leaving .. kinda funny #just say u hate me it's easier ...#whhhh good lord #this will be the second time she's done this #well ive had 22 bdays so .. who cares abt a 23 🤩#i don't even care abt bdays so 🫶#so then why did i cry hm...#maybe cause it sucks to see that she doesn't really think abt me . or #she thinks i'm the one who won't mind being pushed aside #ayo she's not wrong cause idc but i'm also here making a lil complaining post abt it so 🤍#whhhwhwhwhwhehw 🫡🫡🫡🫡#ahhhhhhh 🤩 life is nawt it #li.txt #dl #neg

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corpsegold · 1 year

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#you ever resent your family for how they can recognize neurodivergence in you and cousins while theyre growing up #like even now theyre like oh so and so is DEFINITELY autistic #she was 9 when they started saying that #and Ive told them a million times get her tested then #but they wont :)#oh well who cares #my mum makes me rage inside when she says my little brother doesnt need to be tested because if he turns out autistic #I'll be there etc. like ok lets leave it till hes an adult :) lets leave it til it blows up. thats a great idea. That definitely works!!!!!!#hes 8 or 9 idk #by the time hes 18 I will VERY likely be dead #so no #dont bet on me fixing that for you #as if I have any advice to give on that anyway lmfao #theyre not idiots theyre just willfully blind #which is even worse #it goes to show that the reason I've turned out like this is because of character flaws. Which like fair enough lol #if im still alive when they realize what theyve done to him I dont think I'll feel sympathy for them at all #tbh were kinda already washing our hands of each other #have a cup of tea and apply for some jobs ig

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united-under-skyfall · 1 year

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btw if someone is listening to music it’s kind of shitty if you just go “this is a terrible song”. if you don’t like it, ask them to turn it off, or skip it, or leave the room. tell them you strongly dislike it. don’t just tell them it’s awful and expect them to fix your problem.

#this is so small and unimportant but literally every time i listen to music my mom decides this is appropriate commentary to add #like. if i'm driving i think i am going to listen to what i like thanks. if you walk into a room that i was already listening to music in #out loud then that's your fault. i hate your music and your shows too but do you see me saying that sort of stuff whenever they're playing?#no. bc i understand that that's rude. i communicate that i don't enjoy it in clear words that aren't insulting. i ask if we can listen to or #watch something else. i leave the room. i put in my own earbuds. i ignore it. i don't tell you it fucking sucks #and it would be appreciated if that could be seen as a common courtesy #also. for the record. between the two of us i am not the person who starts playing things w other people in the room without asking them if #they're alright w it bc unlike some people i also recognize that that's rude and i don't want to be annoying #and. //for the record//. when other people ask me that sort of thing i usually either say sure or ask if they'd be ok w putting in earbuds #instead or going to get my own or just politely saying i'd appreciate it if they didn't. not going ''actually i do mind bc the things you #listen to suck''. god i am so fucking bitter over this. it has been literal years of this #and sometimes she'll be like ''so WHY are we listening to this?'' or ''this is terrible'' etc etc and so later i offhandedly mention that #she doesn't like it and she's like ''what? i never said that.'' and when i say yes you did actually and recount the interaction she's like #''i don't remember that'' like yeah maybe bc you don't overthink inserting your opinions into things that bring other people joy bc you're #surrounded by people who are conscientious enough not to make you feel ashamed to like the things you do and constantly insult them #so when you accidentally do that to other people it doesn't stick with you bc you aren't *constantly thinking about all the times it's #happened to you*#so full of rage actually #ramble #vent

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pepprs · 2 years

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LOLLLLL not to liveblog this shit but i asked my s*per visor who is abandoning us (lol) to take a walk with me and she said yes. ok 😃

#purrs #1 week from today. SHE JUST ACCEPTED IT SGDJSFSJGSKDDHKVDKVD 😵😵😵😵😵😵😵😵 holy fuck. lollllllll. im goingto cry so hard i **** and she’s gonna b #be like wtf 😐 LOL. um. but like. you are my mentor and my friend and someone i look up to and you are leaving forever and i am literally not #letting you do that without getting to talk bc i litcherally do not have a personal relationship w her anymore and it’s like uh.m. since we #wont have a work or school relationship anymore can we be friends now ok thanks. aughhhh. i asked for a whole HOUR and she said yes LOLLLLLL #us *5 miles away from campus sweating and shaking with exhaustion* me: HOW COULD YPU LEAVE ME crying so hard im foaming at the mouth… her: 🤨#*walks abck to the office at the speed of light without me lol*. im kidding. but omg this is the first walk im going on with just her since #fucking NOVEMVER 1 2018. that is INSANE. how have we not been on a walk since then. this is my first ONE ON ONE WITH HER since like June idk #9 or something 2019. INSANE! sick and twisted. our first actual personal conversation. lollllllll im going to pass out. how can i tell her #how painful this has been and how idk if i would even be alive without her no joke. maybe i don’t say that part. but lol.also the way we #have literally 2 more times guaranteed to ever see each other again. throwing up. dying also #delete later #liteealy the way this woman is the entire fucking reason i was able to exist as i am and she is leaving voluntarily and we haven’t talked #about this at all other than me bursting into tears in front of her 2 weeks ago. lol. yeah no i am getting in on the action like everyone #else. we are going to have a gonversation and it had better be a good one bc otherwise i will be unable to cope #<- will be unable to cope regardless of what happens. but thank god i asked her bc lkke. god. i need to talk to her so bad *bashing head #into wall* *walking into traffic* etc etc. like do you realize this destroys the very fabric of… idk. i sound insane but i promise this #reaction is warranted at least slightly. this is titanic and the timing could not be worse and i am in so much pain. lol

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