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Spring

Type: One shot about Ethan Dolan Rating: Rated PG (Contains Drinking) Word Count: 3900+ Paring: Ethan + Riley Enjoy! 

She grabbed her bag and left her apartment. Heading to the airport, it was her week off and she wanted a different scenery. She boarded the plane and off she was to Miami. She got off the plane once it landed and headed to her hotel. Once she checked in she went up to her room. She placed her luggage down and headed straight for the bathroom. She took a quick shower, just to wash off the plane feeling. She got dressed in a body-tight black dress before heading out of the hotel. She found a club, she quickly got in and went straight to the bar.

"Can I get a black Russian?" she asked. "Of course sweetheart," the bartender said as he winked at her. "Thank you," she said as she waited for her drink. "A woman who knows what she likes," someone said. "Of course I do," she turned to them. "A black Russian though?" he chuckled. "I like my drinks like I like my men, strong," she said as she grabbed her drink. "I see that," he smiled. "Put it on my tab" he nodded towards the bartender. "I'm a woman who can pay for her drinks," she said. "Trust me I know that" he smirked. "Good," she said. "What's your name?" He asked. "I'm Ethan," he said. "I'm Riley," she said as she took a sip from her drink. "Nice to meet you" he nodded as he took a sip from his drink. "You as well," she said as she looked at him.

She leaned against the bar, just taking in the scene. She kept taking sips from her drink, once she finished her drink she put the glass down. She walked over to Ethan and grabbed his hand, leading him to the dance floor. He placed his hands on her hips as they moved to the music. She turned so her back was facing him, grinding her hips towards his. Brushing against him as she moved to the beat. He kept his hands on her hips as he moved with her. He grabbed her hand and swung her around, dipping her slightly. She smiled as she stood up placing her arms around his neck. He tucked a piece of hair behind her ear, allowing his thumb to brush against her cheek. She leaned in towards him, placing her lips against his. He kissed her softly but slowly turned it into a passion. His tongue entered her mouth as she pulled against his bottom lip. His hand placed on her neck, keeping her close as she grabbed his shirt. She tugged at his bottom lip as she pulled away, turning away from him. He grabbed her hips pulling her back against him. His breath against her neck as he kissed her neck. She turned to face him grabbing his shirt once again. Pulling him to her as she allowed her lips to linger against his.

"Another drink?" she whispered. "After you," he said as he never looked away.

She grabbed his hand and led him back to the bar. She ordered another drink but this time he also ordered the same as her. She clink her glass with his as she looked at him. She never looked away as they both took a sip of the drink. He choked slightly as he didn't realize how strong the drink was. She laughed slightly as she watched him.

"Question," she said. "Shoot," he replied. "How many tattoos do you have?" she asked as she traced over the one on his arm. "Too many" he chuckled slightly. "I would love to see them all" she smiled as she grabbed his shirt, pulling him towards her. "Even the one on your ass," she laughed. "How did you know?" He looked at her. "Lucky guess" she looked at him. "Really?" she asked. "Maybe," he said as he took another sip of the drink. "Oh ok," she said. "I'm staying at a hotel if you want to have a nightcap," he said. "I'm staying at a hotel as well," she said. "So guessing you're not from here?" she asked. "No, I bounce between LA and NJ" he nodded. "Oh cool," she said. "I'm from NY" she looked at him. "Spring break?" he asked. "Something like that" she grabbed his hand and led him back to the dance floor.

They danced to a few more songs before heading out of the club. He grabbed her hand and led her down the street to his hotel. It wasn't only his hotel because it was the one she was staying at as well. He hit the button for the elevator, as they waited she pulled him towards her. Placing her lips against his, kissing him hard and passionate. Their tongues playing to see who dominates, she pulled his bottom lip as the elevator beeped. They got on the elevator and once the doors were shut they were on each other again. His hands caressed her sides, running his hand up and down. Playing with her shirt as he moves his lips down to her neck. Sucking gently as she grips the back of his neck keeping him close. The elevator stopped on his floor and he led her down to his room. She wrapped her arms around him as he fumbled with the keycard. She chuckled slightly and took the key card from him and opened the door.  He pushed her against the door as he placed his lips against hers. She pulled up his shirt and over his head, placing her hand on his bare chest. He moved his lips down to her neck as he gripped her shirt in his hand. Lifting it over her head, placing his lips back against her skin. She pushed him towards the bed as she undid his pants. Allowing them to fall to the ground, he walked out of them. He placed her on the bed, slipped his hands up her thighs. Pulling off her skirt and panties at the same time. He got over the top of her, leaving a trail of kisses down her body. They surely enjoyed their first night in Miami together. She was snuggled up to him when she woke up in the morning. She winced as the sun was peeking through the window. She slowly got out of bed making sure not to wake him and gathered her clothes. She quickly got dressed and slipped out of the room, heading to her hotel room. She took a hot relaxing shower and got ready for the day. She put her bikini on under her outfit.

"Last night was fun but today will be relaxing," she said to herself as she checked her phone.

She had a text from her best friend Kodi. She smiled as she replied and started a conversation with Kodi. Kodi was already in Miami and they decided to meet up at Crandon Park. Riley put her things in a bag and headed out the door. She caught a taxi and was on her way. She stopped to get food before making her way there. Once she exited the taxi she saw Kodi, she smiled as she rushed over to where Kodi was standing.

"Hey, you," Kodi said as she placed her arm around Riley. "Hey, why didn't you tell me you were coming down here?" Riley asked. "Last minute trip, got in last night," Kodi said. "Last night" Riley smiled to herself, thinking about Ethan. "Something happened?" Kodi asked. "You mean who happened?" Riley smirked as they walked over to a park bench. "Who?" Kodi asked. "Some guy" Riley rolled her eyes. "Meeting him at the bar and boy last night was amazing," she said. "Nice" Kodi nodded as they started to eat. "I could get used to this view," she said. "It's so nice here, '' Riley said. "Better than the cold at home," she said as she looked out towards the water. "Yea that's why I decided to come down here," Kodi said. "Wait is that Ethan," Riley said as she looked down the beach. "Is it?" Kodi asked. "I think so but he's too far away to know for sure" Riley turned her focus back on her food. "Riley?" Ethan asked as he noticed her. "There is my runaway girl," he said as he walked over to where they were. "Runaway Girl" Kodi looked at Riley. "Yea a runaway girl," Riley said as she looked at Ethan. "I didn't think we would see each other again," she said. "Well, maybe it's fate" Ethan smiled as he sat down next to her. "Maybe," she said. "You two would be cute together," Kodi said. "Hush" Riley rolled her eyes. "I don't think I'm strong enough for her" Ethan playfully pushed Riley. "He can't take a black Russian," she said as she pushed him back.

After Kodi and Riley finished eating they joined Ethan on the beach. Ethan helped Riley get ready for the water, which included getting her undressed. He pulled her close to him, she rested her hand against his chest. He tilted her chin up and kissed her softly. She smiled against his lips and kissed him back. He put sunscreen on her back and she helped him reapply his sunscreen. As soon as he knew she was protected he picked her up over his shoulder. Running towards the water, she screamed and laughed as they got closer to the water. She spanked his ass right before they plunged into the water. The waves crashed over them pulling them apart. He broke to the surface before she did, he looked around for her. He saw her and helped her to the surface. She wiped the water from her face and gasped for air. He pulled her to him, keeping her close to him.

"You ok?" he asked. "Yea I'm fine" she nodded. "Don't tell me my runaway girl can't swim" he brushed the hair from her face. "I know how to swim but the waves caught me by surprise," she said. "It's ok I can be your strong man," he smiled. "Oh hush," she said as she splashed him. "Oh it's on," he said as he splashed her back.

They splashed each other until another wave crashed over them. Separating them once again, he stayed under the water and looked for her. She broke the surface first and reached under, grabbing his arm. He came up to the surface and pulled her to him. After hours of fun under the sun, they came back out of the water. She took her towel and dried herself off before getting dressed. Sitting on the sand leaning back on her arms as she looked out at the water.

"Beautiful isn't it," he said as he sat next to her. "Yea it is" she nodded. "Miami is an amazing, beautiful city," he said. "and warm," she smiled. "True that better than NJ this time of year," he said. "Yea NY is the same" she looked at him. "But you also live in LA, you are used to this," she said. "Yea but it's still nice to get away" he looks at her. "True," she said. "Want to go to dinner?" he asked. "I could always eat" she looked at him. "There is a restaurant not too far from here," he said. "Alright I'm game," she smiled. "Hey you two," Kodi said. "I'm going back to the hotel, it was a long night than being in the sun I'm tired," Kodi said. "Alright, it was nice seeing you," Riley said. "We have to hang out sometime this week," she said. "Of course," Kodi smiled. "Have fun" she said as she nodded towards Ethan. "She will," Ethan smiled.

Kodi hailed a taxi and left. Riley and Ethan left the beach and started walking towards the restaurant. He held the door open for her as she entered. The waitress seated them right away, Ethan slipped into the same side as Riley. She looked over the menu as he did. The waiter walked up and Riley ordered drinks for them both.

"Surly likes to be in control," Ethan smirked. "Not in the bedroom though" she winked. "Oh I know" he bit his lip as he looked at her. "First guy to dominate me" she leaned in and kissed him, pulling his bottom lip. "Really?" he asked as he grabbed her chin, keeping her close. "Yes," she kissed him again. "Trying new things?" He looked at her. "Yea it's spring break so why not try something new," she said.

The waiter brought them their drinks and they ordered their food. While they waited they played 21 questions to get to know each other better. It surely spiced up the conversation and it was never awkward between them. Their food arrived and things got quiet as they ate. Once they finished he paid and reached for her hand. She grabbed his hand and left the restaurant, they just walked around taking in the sights of Miami.

"We should get a tattoo," she said as they walked past a tattoo shop. "Are you sure?" He looked at her. "Why not?" she looked at him. "Are you sure?" he asked again. "Yes I'm sure," she said as she pulled him into the tattoo shop. "Hello we are doing a special today, 2 tattoos for the price of one but here's the catch you have to play Russian roulette" the guy smiled. "Meaning we put money into the machine and get whatever tattoo design that comes out" Ethan explained. "I'm game," she said. "Me too," Ethan said.

She put the quarters in the machine and got a design. Ethan followed and got his design. They both got butterflies, just slightly different. He went first and got the butterfly on the back of his neck with his other tattoo. She decided to get the butterfly tattooed behind her ear.

"That's a painful place," the guy said. "I'll be fine" she nodded and sat down. "You can hold my hand if it gets too much," Ethan said.

She moved her hair to the side as the guy started the tattoo. It was only painful in a few places and she squeezed Ethan's hand a few times. Once he finished she looked in the mirror and saw it the best way she could. Riley loved it and decided to get a heart tattoo on her ring finger. Once she was finished they paid for the tattoos and left.

"I can't believe you did that," Ethan admitted. "Hey you only live once" she smiled as she looked at her hand. "Those two tattoos are perfect for you," he said. "We kinda got matching ones" she laughed slightly. "But different in their way," she said. "Yea" he wrapped his arm around her shoulders as they walked.

They finished the night off by getting ice cream before heading back to the hotel. She decided to call it a night and say her goodbyes to Ethan before heading to her room. Once she got to her hotel room she went straight to bed. Playing in the sun all day wore her out. She was knocked out until she heard the siren go off in the hotel. She got up and grabbed her jacket and phone, slipping her shoes on before exiting her room. Everyone was leaving the hotel because the kitchen was on fire. Ethan ran over to where she was standing.

"Good Morning, '' Ethan said as he stretched. "Yea, it sure is morning," she said as she yawned. "I need coffee," she said. "There is a cafe down the street, I could go get you some" he offered. "That would be greatly appreciated," she said.

He went down to the local cafe and got them coffee and something to eat. He returned and they sat on the curve and ate their breakfast. She enjoyed her coffee as she started to truly wake up.

"Thank you," she said. "No problem," he said. "We should stop meeting like this," he chuckled. "We do stay in the same hotel room so it's bound to happen" she smiled. "I'm not complaining, I like spending my week with you," he said. "Me too" she looked at him. "So what do you have planned for today?" he asked. "I'm not sure, kind of let the day tell me," she said. "I want to go to the zoo, it looks like a free-roaming zoo," he said. "Interesting," she said as she took another sip from her coffee. "Would you like to join me?" he asked. "Sure why not" she looked at him.

Once they were allowed back into the hotel they both went and got ready for the day. They met back at the lobby and were off to the zoo. They walked around for a while just looking at the animals. They feed the giraffes and the parrots. She grabbed his hand and led him to the Safari Tram tours. They got onto the bus and went for a ride.

"Wait, I'm not too sure about this," she said as they went into the safari. "Don't worry I got you" he chuckled as he wrapped his arm around her. "It's cool but I'm kinda worried," she said as she watched the animals. "What if they eat us?" she asked. "The animals in the safari won't hurt you" he kept her close. "Aw look at the deer," she said. "See, they won't hurt you," he said. "Ok this isn't too bad," she said as she relaxed in his arms. "As long as I'm holding you" he smiled and kissed her temple. "Yea" she nodded as she leaned against him.

They got off the safari and looked around some more. He pulled her into the snake exhibit, where they saw a green anaconda. They also saw frogs, lizards, and also an eyelash viper.

"You like snakes?" she asked. "I always thought they were cool," he said. "Yea they are but I wouldn't want to be near one," she said as she looked at the anaconda. "Snakes are harmless, well not these but most snakes are," he said. "Yea I know" she nodded. "That's a pretty snake," she said as she looked at the viper. "Yea it is" he nodded. "Look at these cool frogs" he grabbed her hand. "Poison frogs," she said."But cute frogs" she looked at them. "So vibrant in color" he admired the frogs. "Can we go check out the crocodiles?" she asked. "Of course, right this way," he said as he offered his arm. "You're cheesy" she smiled as she linked arms with him. "Oh you will learn to love it" he smiled as they walked to the crocodile exhibit.

Once they finished checking out the crocodile they rode another ride. They finished up by looking at the elephants before leaving the zoo. There were food trucks in the parking lot so they grabbed some food and sat on a picnic bench. As they ate they watched the sunset. Once they finished eating they got a taxi and went back to their hotel. She went with him to his room and spent the night with him.

"So what movie?" he asked. "Just pick one," she said as she slipped her shoes off and got into bed. "Alright well this is it," he said as he picked a movie and laid back.

She laid in his arms, resting her head against his chest. They barely made it through half of the movie before falling asleep. In the morning she was awakened with him getting out of bed.

"Now who's running away?" she asked. "I'm going to the bathroom," he said. "uh-huh," she rolled on her back, stretching her arms. Once he finished in the bathroom he returned to the bed. "I have bad news," he said. "What?" she snuggled back to him. "I leave tonight," he said. "I thought you were staying until Sunday?" she asked. "I was supposed to but my brother needs me," he said. "oh ok," she traced his tattoo, not knowing what to say. "I want nothing more to stay longer but my flight leaves tonight," he said. "Well we have one last day together," she said. "And I want nothing more to spend it with you" he kissed her forehead.

They ordered room service and decided to not waste a minute of their last day together. They went to the beach, the jungle and ate at Versailles. They also went on a tour of the European-Style Mansion at Vizcaya. The day was full of fun and just enjoying their time together.

"So our time is winding time, so what's the next thing you want to do?" she asked. "Just walk down the street with you in my arms," he said. "We can do that" she smiled as she wrapped her arm around his waist. "How is this going to work?" he asked as he wrapped his arm around her shoulder. "What do you mean?" she asked. "When I go back home and you go back home?" he asked. "Will we still want to be together?" he questioned. "I don't know," she said. "I enjoy my time with you and would like to see where things go between us," she said. "But our words are so different," he said. "But if we want it to work we will," he said. "Yea we will," she said.

They walked around for a while before heading back to the hotel. She watched him pack his bags and once he finished they were off to the airport. She walked him into the airport, not sure what the future held.

"I'll call you when I land," he said. "You better, I need to know you are safe" she wrapped her arms around him. "I will" he leaned down and kissed her softly. "Good and when you are NJ give me a heads up" she looked at him. "Of course," he smiled. "Now this isn't goodbye, just see you later," she said. "Yea" he nodded and kissed her again. "I didn't expect to meet anyone," she said. "And to be sad to see them go" she looked down. "Don't be sad" he tilted her chin up. "We will make this work," he said. "Yea we will," she nodded. "See you later" he kissed her forehead and squeezed her to him

He pulled away from her and grabbed his bag. Walking away from her as he made his way to his gate, he turned around and waved to her. She left the airport and went back to the hotel. She stayed until Sunday and then caught a flight back to New York. Back to reality once her feet hit the ground in New York. She wasn't sure if it would work with Ethan but she wanted to try everything that she could to make it work. When he was in New Jersey she would drive up there on the weekends to spend time with him. He would also drive down to New York when she had to work, just to spend time with her. When she had a long weekend she would fly out to LA to be with him. It was hard at first but once they realized what they meant to each other it got easier. He finally moved back to NJ to be around his family as well as be close to her. A fun week that wasn't supposed to mean anything changed their whole world. It was fate that brought them together but love is what keeps them together.

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Meant To Be {g.d}

Always (Part 2) // Masterlist

“Gray?” You mumbled after waking up to realize that Grayson’s side of the bed hadn’t been slept on.

Rubbing your tired eyes, you noticed a faint light coming from the living room and got out of bed, wrapped yourself in a blanket and headed to the living room to see a very tired Grayson on his laptop while Ethan slept beside him.

“Hey why are you still up?” You whispered before yawning.

“Hmm?” Grayson slowly blinked before saying, “Oh um we’re editing a video... What are you doing up?”

“I woke up and realized you weren’t in bed yet.” You sighed sitting next to him, “I thought you were going to go to bed early tonight.”

“Y-Yeah. I was but then things weren’t working out the way we wanted them to and I guess I just lost track of time?” Grayson said never taking his eyes off the screen.

You could see how tired he was. He was trying so hard to stay awake, eyelids drooping every few minutes and rubbing his face with his hands. You hated seeing him like this, sacrificing his own health for work... once again.

You reached over and softly scratched the nape of his neck which he instinctively leaned into. “You promised you would stop pulling all nighters for videos remember?”

“I know I know. It’s just we promised our fans the video would be up tomorrow and I don’t want to let them down.” Grayson said softly, finally looking into your eyes. You could see that he truly wanted to keep his promise. He absolutely hated it when he broke any promise and that’s just the way he was. Someone who was always true to his word. Always wanting others to be happy.

“Grayson. Your fans will understand if the video isn’t out tomorrow. They know how hard you guys work on them and how far you’ve come to put videos out for yourself, not their views.” You explained softly, hoping you would be able to change his mind.

“I just... I know. I know what we said about not having a deadline or rushing to put out a video, but sometimes I still feel guilty for being selfish.” Grayson admitted with sorrow in his voice.

In that moment you could feel your heart breaking into a million pieces. The man who always wears his heart on his sleeve, despite being fucked over so many times, feels selfish for putting his happiness above others.

You placed your hand on his cheek and brushed his soft skin with your thumb while saying, “Grayson Bailey Dolan. You are the least selfish person I know. Don’t say that putting your own health and happiness above others is being selfish because you’re not. You’re finally taking care of yourself after all these years. And your fans will love and support you endlessly as will I, but how can they do that when you’re not taking care of yourself? You have to put yourself first, no matter what or who, including me. It breaks my heart to see you're pushing yourself to the point of burning out. So please don’t ever say that you’re selfish.”

Grayson knew you were right. You were always right. Somehow you always knew what to say at the right time. And that’s what he loved most about you.

Grayson rested his head on yours and closed his eyes. “I love you.” He softly mumbled, not knowing what the right words were to say in that moment.

“I love you too.” You smiled before pulling him into a soft kiss.

You pulled away and put the laptop to sleep, “Now go get ready for bed while I try to get Ethan to go his bed so he doesn’t complain about his back hurting tomorrow.” He chuckled and placed a kiss on you forehead before walking towards his room.

Somehow you managed to get Ethan into bed, but before you were able to close his door, you heard, “Y/N?”

“Yeah E?”

“Thank you for taking care of Grayson.” Ethan said with a smile on his face before falling back asleep. He didn’t know it at the time, but his words made you smile.

“Goodnight E.”

“Goodnight Y/N.” He said before you closed his door to head back to Grayson’s room.

When you got to the room, Grayson was already asleep. As you laid next to him, you couldn’t help but to stare. How can someone look so perfect and be so perfect?

“Like what you see?” Grayson mumbled into his pillow, opening one eye to look at you, “Take a picture, it’ll last longer.”

You chuckled, “I would, but I think I just want to enjoy this moment with you.”

He reached over and pulled you into his chest, wrapping your legs with his. “Your feet are so cold.” Grayson said, making the both of you laugh.

“I know. They’re always cold but that’s why I have you to warm them up for me.” You said, leaning your forehead against his chest.

For the remainder of the night, the two of you laid in each other’s arms, mindlessly drawing shapes on each other until Grayson whispered, “Y/N?”

“Yeah?”

“Do you ever think about our future together?” He asked, feeling his heart race when you didn’t answer him right away.

Truth was, you have. For a while now actually. You’ve pictured the way he would propose, the day of your wedding, even starting a family with him. Grayson has been the only person everything has felt right with. You never knew what love felt like until you met him.

“Yeah all of the time.” You spoke softly before placing a kiss on his chest. “Have you?”

“Yeah. For our wedding, we’ll be surrounded by all of the people we love and I know from the moment you walk down that aisle, I’m going to start crying because of how happy I am to finally spend forever with you. And for our honeymoon, we’ll go wherever you like. Just the two of us. It’ll be unforgettable, a time to start the beginning of our lives together. Then when we’re ready, we’ll start a family. Have a house right next to Ethan just like him and I have always dreamed. Maybe we’ll have kids at the same time as Ethan so then they can all grow up together. And maybe we’ll have twins just like how Ethan and I are. We’ll travel the world and be so happy. Then we’ll grow old and smelly together  because we’re meant to be.”

You knew this wasn’t going to be anytime soon, probably years from now, but the fact that he’s thought about all of this or the thought of him mentioning spending the rest of his life with you to his mom, Ethan, and Cameron, made your heart melt.

“I love that. It’s everything I’ve always dreamed of.” You softly said

He pulled you closer, if that was even possible, and placed a kiss on your forehead. “I love you, my angel. I can’t wait to spend forever with you.”

“I love you too.” You said as the two of you fell asleep in each others arms.

This is where you were meant to be. Right here with the love of your life. The two of you were meant to be.

But wasn’t always like this. 

You were happy... a long time ago.

You were the couple everyone wished they could be. Everyone was sure would get married and live the perfect lives destined for each other. But it broke your heart knowing the future you once envisioned with the boy you loved was slipping away day by day. 

One day you were so in love with each other, planning your wedding, how many kids you would have... And the next... it was like you were strangers again.

But tonight was different. It seemed like every little fight was leading to the biggest fight you’ve ever had and it scared you knowing what might come next.

“Would you stop walking away from me when I’m trying to talk to you?!” Grayson shouted as he followed you into the house.

“Fine. You want to talk? Let’s talk. Let’s talk about how you were kissing another girl tonight.“ You said slamming the keys on the counter before turning around to face an angry Grayson.

“I pushed her away! You saw me do it!”

“Yeah that was after I caught you shoving your tongue down her throat!” You said shaking your head, “God knows if I wasn’t there, you’d be doing a lot more than just making out.”

“You’re one to talk...” Grayson scoffed while crossing his arms.

“What’s that supposed to mean?!” You shouted angrily at him, not ready to believe the words that were about to come out of his mouth.

“It means I shouldn’t be the one who should be accused of cheating when you’re the one who’s been flirting with every guy you see!”

Is he actually being serious? Did he really think that you would cheat on him? I am so fucking in love with him that it hurts. But it hurts even more to think that he thinks I would...

“Are you fucking kidding me right now?! Do you really think that I would cheat on you?!” You shouted, tears threatening to spill from your eyes. 

He didn’t say a word, but that’s all what you needed for an answer. He really believed you would...

“You know what? I’m done. Do whatever you want, but I’m not going to stand here and be accused of something I would never do.” You managed to say as your voice broke before leaving Grayson standing in the living room.

You were angry, hurt, and betrayed. Never have you felt so much pain in your life, especially with Grayson. Your whole entire relationship was filled with nothing but love and happiness. It was hard to believe that in this moment you would feel so empty.

Your vision became blurry as tears spilled from your eyes. You couldn’t stay there anymore. You just couldn’t... so you began to pack your bags until you were interrupted by the one your heart still yearned for.

“Wh-what are you doing?” Grayson said with a quiet voice as he stood in the doorway, praying his mind was just playing tricks with him.

“I don’t know anymore. I don’t know.” You said continuing to throw your things into your bags, not daring to look at Grayson because you knew if you stopped, you would break down right then and there.

“St-stop we can fix this. Just stop... please.” Grayson said walking towards you as he continued to watch you.

“Grayson. Just leave me alone!” 

“Y/N we can talk about this! Just please stop!” He begged, but you wouldn’t listen. 

“No Grayson! I’m so tired of fighting for something that doesn’t exist!”

“What are you talking about?” He asked, not moving from his spot.

“You! Me! Us! Don’t you get it? We barely talk to each and when we are we’re at each other’s throats!” You said as more tears fell.

“If you would just talk to me, we can work this out.” Grayson said, feeling himself begin to choke up.

“But we can’t Grayson! Every time we try to, it always leads back to us fighting over and over ag-” By now the tears were streaming endlessly and Grayson knew that if he didn’t do something now, he would lose you forever. 

Grayson quickly grabbed your wrists and pulled you into his chest. You didn’t even try to fight him. It was no use. Even after all the screaming and crying, you still couldn’t help but to feel safe in his arms like you belonged there.

“P-Please. We can f-fix this. Please don’t... Please don’t go... I can’t lose you.” He sobbed into your neck as he held tightly in his arms.

You couldn’t bring yourself to say the words that needed to be said so you stayed silent as the both of you stood there with tears falling from your eyes. Neither of you wanted to ruin what could be the last moment of your relationship.

Somehow you both ended up laying in bed in each other’s arms, but still no words were exchanged as the both of you were terrified of what the other might say until you asked quietly, “Are you happy?”

He paused for a moment, debating if he should say the words that would keep this relationship alive or the words his heart felt was right. Earlier in the beginning of your relationship if you had asked him that, in a heartbeat he would say yes because that was true. But now... he wasn’t so sure, “I don’t know... Are you?”

I really wish I was. I wish I could lie and tell you that I am but I’m not.

Just like Grayson, you contemplated on what should be said next. But you knew what your heart wanted. “I want to be...”

As the night grew on, the both of you fell asleep from how tired you were. But you woke up earlier than expected, leaving you to find yourself wrapped up in Grayson’s arms for one last time. You carefully untangled yourself from him and finished packing your things, careful not to wake Grayson up.

By the time you were finished, he still was sound asleep, except this time soft snores came from his slightly a-gaped mouth. You couldn’t help but to feel your heart melt at how peaceful he looked. Something inside you still wished there was something you could do to save your relationship, if there was anything left that is. But you had promised yourself you needed to do what’s best for you so you placed a soft kiss to his temple and whispered, “I love you.”

No matter how much it hurt you to leave him. It hurt more knowing you weren’t right for each other.

Grayson woke up to the sound of the door closing after you had left. He fluttered his eyes open as they adjusted to the sunlight shining into the room. “Good morning angel.” He said expecting you to be by his side, but was shocked to see your side of the bed empty.

He quickly got out of bed and ran out to the rest of the house as memories of last night flooded his mind, “Y/N? No... No!” He was praying you didn’t do what you had thought of before, but when he couldn’t find you, he had lost all hope.

As Grayson reentered his room, he found a note with his name on it. With shaky hands, he picked the letter, terrified of what you wrote. But he knew that if he didn’t do it now, he would never be able to.

With defeat Grayson sat on his bed, heart racing a mile a minute, he began to read:

Grayson Bailey Dolan.

My love. My heart. My everything.

I love you. I will always love you.

Never in a million years I thought I’d be writing this letter to you nor would we ever be in this position... But I guess time has changed over the last few years, hasn’t it?

I will never forget the day I met you. Sometimes I wonder what happened if I took a different route or went at a different time, then I would have never met you. But I’m so glad I didn’t because I met you and from that moment on, I have felt nothing but love and happiness I’ve only dreamt about.

You’ve given me the love I never thought I was capable of because you learned how to love my flaws, especially my never-ending questions when I worry too much. Most importantly, you learned how to love me when I pushed you away and built walls to keep everyone out. I never thought someone was going to be able to breakdown those walls, but you did. You made me into a better version of myself, pushing me to chase my dreams and being there every step of the way. You never left my side.

Gosh and that night when you brought up our future, I swore I fell more in love than ever because you saw a future with me. You planned out everything to the point where we grow old and smelly together. That future was so perfect and I was so ready to love you forever and ever. And if you asked me to marry you that night, I would have. Just like any other day. I would in a heartbeat.

But somehow along the way I guess we fell out of love. Day by day that future we planned together was slipping away. Nights together weren’t the same. Grayson... I tried. I tried to stay a little longer, but my heart couldn’t take it anymore. We weren’t happy. I wasn’t happy.

Please know that this is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. It physically hurts me to write this as you’re sound asleep two doors down. I never wanted to hurt you. 

They say that if you love someone, let them go. And if they come back to you, they’re yours to keep. God I am hoping this is the case, Grayson. I hope that one day we’ll run into each other, years from now and be able to finally have our future together. I can’t wait for that day because I will still be in love with you and hopefully you’ll still feel the same. But for now, I guess this is... see you soon. 

I love you.

-Y/N

When Grayson finally managed to finish the letter, his heart broke into a million pieces. He never wanted to hurt you. He loves you more than anything in the world. He would do anything to turn back time and give you the love you deserve.

He put down the letter and picked up the engagement ring he gave you a few months ago, made to fit you perfectly and read the words engraved into the ring:

Meant To Be. -G

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I couldn't figure out who Grayson reminded of with his longer hair until i watched friends today😆

[dolayn]

ThOugHt i lOoKed cUTe ,, mIghT dEleTE lATeR

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ethan + yellow for anon

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AU Meme: You’re dating Ethan Part 2 Part 1

Yayy! You guys wanted more Imagines with Ethan and I finally got to do something. Hope you enjoy! :) Leave me comments and feedback if you did, I love reading you guys responses so much <3

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Ethan Dating A Black Girl 💛

💗 loving how your skin turned golden in the sun

💗 constantly taking pictures of you whenever you guys go out

💗 always standing up for you whenever a fan becomes disrespectful

💗 always asking questions about your hair

💗 watching you do your twist outs

💗 trying to help you do your twist outs and failing terribly 😂

💗 him constantly seeing you in different hairstyles (and Grayson sometimes not recognizing you lmao)

💗 “what do you mean it’s gonna take all day to get your hair done?”

💗 “The 60’s and the 70’s looked so fun right?” “Ethan I’m black.”

💗 sometimes being in the twins videos

💗 Grayson also standing up for you when people are being disrespectful

💗 him getting used to you playing trap music

💗 “wow this is crazy... Alexa play Faneto by Chief Keef”

💗 bomb ass sex because why wouldn’t it be

💗 “damn girl you thicker than a bowl of oatmeal” “Ethan I will literally break up with you”

💗 him constantly calling you his queen

💗 him comforting you when the hate becomes too much sometimes

💗 “so what’s the difference between a perm rod set and flexi rods?”

💗 “I love you so much and don’t ever let anyone make you feel otherwise”

💗 him picking up on your slang

💗 “you should wear neon colors more often they look amazing on you”

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The Dolan Twins and their S/O get matching TATTOOS

The Dolan Twins

Warning: did not proof read 😜, also a small little part of ethans depression talked about in this

Authors Note: this was not requested just wanted to do a lil something for meh baby boisssss. this BRILLIANT idea (u can thank me later ( ͡~ ͜ʖ ͡°) ) came to me after i watched their what our tattoos mean 2. im sorry i didnt proofread (cuz u all know im lazy ✌️) but enjoy my lovelies and feedback makes me and my self esteem happy so yeah...great! 

Ethan Dolan

You always admired Ethan’s tattoos. Either they were silly or heart felt. You really liked the ones that had to do with his past, whenever he was depressed or just unstable, because they showed that he got through it. He was strong enough. The idea popped in your head one afternoon. You have been Ethan’s girlfriend for about a couple of years. So why not get something to show both of your guys loves. You told Ethan you wanted to get matching tattoos this boy literally flipped. “Oh my god are you serious?!? Yes, YES, YESSSS, LETS DO IT!” You both walked hand in hand to the tattoo shop, also wearing matching outfits. You were so excited to have something that signified the love you both shared. As you both looked around your nerves started to get the best of you. Ethan would laugh away at your anxiousness and then kiss you saying, “you’re gonna be fine babe. I’m right here.” As you were seeing a phew in a book you and Ethan both pointed in unison to the perfect one. 

“I love it,” you would softly say to Ethan while kissing his shoulder. “Me too,” he would agree. “It would be like, no matter where we are we will always have each other. And one way or another we will meet again.” You smiled at how sweet Ethan’s explanation was. “Lets do it,” you said. The tattoo people placed you and Ethan in the same room. You sitting on the right and Ethan sitting on the left. You both held hands through it all. You wincing only here and there. Finally, you were done. You and Ethan both stood up by the mirror and gasped at the creation. It was tiny, simple yet so important. “Oh my god! I love it Ethan! What do you think?” Ethan would be jumping, giving you bear hugs and kissing your head. “I love it y/n! We are finally like those legit couples. This was an awesome idea!” You kiss Ethan, while holding his hand. “I love this, cause I love you,” you whispered to him. Ethan smiled and kissed your nose, “I love you...and I can’t wait to tell Grandma.”

Grayson Dolan

Once in a while you’ve thought of getting matching tattoos with Grayson, but you were too afraid he might have thought it was stupid, not time, scared of the commitment, or just that is was too cheesy. So you never brought up the idea. One day after you and Grayson finished going to a nice restaurant for date night, Grayson thought of something. “Hey, baby, what about me and you getting matching tattoos?” It was all of a sudden and your lack of response made Grayson feel bashful even more. “You know what never mind it was-” You yelled an excited yes, “Yes, I want to do it. I was actually thinking about it but I was too afraid to ask.” Grayson chuckled and kissed your knuckles. You were shaking in your seat the whole car drive. You were anxious but also excited. You wondered what tattoo your guys were gonna get. When you arrived to the tattoo parlor you both looked around to see. At first Grayson wanted a skull because of the spooks but you wanted something more meaningful and something more...delicate. More loving. You both looked and looked and as all hope seemed to whither away, Grayson found a sweet one. It was like love at first sight. “Its perfect,” you smiled. 

“It like a...pinky promise to always help each other out no matter what. And a promise to show that we will give our relationship our all, and our love will never die,” you said while looking in Grayson’s eyes. Grayson hugged you and kissed your forehead. “I’m ready,” Grayson said. Grayson wanted to be with you 100% while you were having your tattoo so he got his tattoo first. You were right by his side giving him pecks, and making small talk. You also were massaging his scalp and looking at the progress. When he finished it was your turn, you sat down, nervously. “I got you babe, trust me.” He was there the whole way through, holding your other hand and kissing you. When you were finished you both made your way to the mirror and awed at the art. Then for being funny you and Grayson modeled with the new tattoos. “This is so cool,” Grayson grinned from ear to ear. “I am so glad we did this babe, I love you,” you say while kissing Grayson’s lips. Grayson kissed back and whispers “I love you”. Then he says, “I wonder what Ethan’s gonna think!”

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Christmas Time

Type: One shot | Imagine about Ethan Dolan Rating: PG Word Count: 2767 Enjoy!

This would be their first Christmas together as a couple. Emily and Ethan knew each other since they were old enough to talk. They were always best friends but never more, until one night of truth or dare with their friends. Let's just say the night got more serious than they realized. They finally admitted they both had feelings for each other and ever since then they were together. That was nearly 8 months ago but they were super excited to spend Christmas together.

"Babe can you believe it's December," Emily said as she wrapped her arms around him. He was sitting at the computer desk trying to get some work done. He smiled and placed his hands over hers and looked at her. "No I can't, honestly where has the time gone this year?" he questioned. "Spending it with me of course" she smiled, leaning down kissing his forehead. "True but truly this year has flown by," he said. "Yea I  know it has," she said, "Come here," he said as he pulled her onto his lap. "What babe?" she looked at him. "I'm excited to spend our first Christmas together," he said. "I am too" she kissed him softly. "We get to do all the fun things together," she said. "Like?" He raised an eyebrow. "We'll pick out a tree, decorate the tree. Then making a gingerbread house. Baking cookies for Santa" she said. "Oh interesting," he smiled. "Oh there is so much more" she chuckled slightly. "And I can't wait to do them all with you" he kissed her cheek softly. "So come on we have got to go to the tree farm," she said as she got up from his lap, "Today?" he questioned. "If you want to get the best Christmas tree then yes," she said. "Alright," he said as he stood up.

They both went upstairs and got ready to go to the Christmas tree farm. They left their apartment and headed downtown. Stopping at Starbucks to get some hot chocolate.

"Got to have hot chocolate to help pick out the right tree," He said. "Yes you do" she smiled as she took a sip from the cup.

They finally made it down to the Christmas tree farm. He got out of his side of the car and walked around to her side. Opening the door for her, reaching for her hand. She grabbed his hand as she got out of the car. They walked around the Christmas tree farm for a little while. Trying to find the perfect Christmas tree, he didn't care that much but he wanted the perfect one for her. "What about this one?" he asked as he pointed out a tree.

"Ethan" she looked at him. "It's perfect," she said. "Only the best for you" he smiled before walking away to get the guy.

They cut down the tree and loaded it up on the car. Ethan and Emily left the Christmas tree farm and took the tree home. Sitting it up in the apartment, right in front of the living room window.

"Where are the decorations?" Ethan asked. "Oh silly you" she chuckled slightly. "We can't decorate the tree until tomorrow, it has to rest and warm-up," she said. "Oh, I normally have fake trees so this is the first live one I've had," he said. "It's ok, you will learn," she said as she walked over to him. He wrapped his arms around her waist and looked at the tree. "It's beautiful," he whispered. "Yea it is" she smiled and rested her head against his shoulder. "Just like you" he whispered into her ear. Kissing her cheek softly as he held her close to him. "Do you have a theme in mind?" he asked. "Not really," she said. "I was just wondering, I know some people who have a theme," he said as he rubbed his hand up and down her back. "Yea I know that but I don't, just whatever feels right," she said as she looked up at him. "Ok babe" he leaned down slightly, kissing her softly.

They ordered take-out and cuddled up in bed for the rest of the night. The next morning he woke up and Emily was already downstairs decorating.

"Babe?" he groaned as he rubbed his eyes, making his way downstairs. "I'm here," She replied. "What are you doing?" he questioned. "Getting started on the Christmas tree," she said. "Oh," he said as he leaned against the wall. "Well don't just stand there, help me," she said. "Ok babe," he said as he started to help decorate the Christmas tree.

She went into the kitchen and started to make breakfast for them while he continued to decorate the tree.

"It's smelling good there babe," he said. "Making waffles with sausage and strawberries," she replied. "Sounds amazing," he said. "And hot chocolate of course," she said. "Even better," he said as he started making his way to the kitchen. Leaning against the wall as he watched her cooking. "What are you doing?" She questioned as she could see him from the corner of her eye. "Just watching you," he smirked. "Why?" she looked at him. "Because I can" he walked over to her, wrapping his arms around her.

Resting his head on her shoulders, she leaned back against him. Placing her hand on his. The waffle maker dinged and she pulled away from him. She finished cooking and made him and her a plate before sitting down. Once they finished eating he cleaned up while she went back to decorating the tree.

"Babe comes here," she said. "What babe?" he asked as he walked into the living room. "Do you think it needs anything else?" she questioned as she stood back from the tree. "I think it looks amazing," he said. "Just the star" she looked at him. "Just the star," he said. "Here you go," she said as she handed him the star. "The star my family always used," she said. "And they passed it down to you" He kissed her forehead. "My mom wanted me to have it for our first Christmas," she said. "Our first Christmas" he smiled. He placed the star onto the tree and stood back with her, just looking at the tree. He placed his arm around her shoulders, she grabbed his hand and leaned against him. "It's perfect," she said. "Yea it is" he replied.  

A few weeks went by and they continued to do Christmas theme stuff. Making sure to get all the presents and wrap them, Emily did mainly all the wrapping. Ethan couldn't figure it out so he left that up to her.

"Babe I have a surprise for you," he said. "What is it?" she questioned. "Well you have to open it to find out," he said as he handed her a box. "Who wrapped this box?" she raised an eyebrow. "The person at the store did" he chuckled slightly as he sat next to her. "Oh I thought you were playing me, so you would get out of wrapping presents," she said. "No never" he kissed her cheek softly. She opened the present and there was snow gear. "What is this?" she looked at him. "We live in L.A, It never snows here," she said. "Because we are going to New Jersey," he said. "I rented out a cabin in the woods" he looked at her. "Are we going to have a white Christmas?" she looked at him. "If you say yes," he said. "What about the tree here and all?" She questioned. "We will have it sorted out, but will you come with me?" he asked. "I'll always go home with you" she kissed him softly. "I love you" he whispered against her lips before kissing her. "I love you" she gently pulled away and rested her forehead against his. "Our flight is in the morning," he said as he pulled the tickets out of the box. "Tomorrow?" she asked. "Yes in the morning so go pack now," he said. "On it," she said as she got up and rushed upstairs. He went upstairs as well so he could also start packing. "So you do know we are going to be staying up until our flight right?" she looked at him. "And why would we do that?" he questioned. "So we can sleep on the flight and not be tired when we arrive," she said. "That's a smart plan but you know me," he said. "Which is why you are staying up because you NEVER want to wake up on time" she gave him a look. "Ok true" he rolled his eyes playfully. "Exactly" she smiled slightly as she walked over to where he was standing. "I love you but you are a serious pain to wake up," she said as she wrapped her arms around his neck. "I know but you still love me" he looked down at her. "I do" she leaned up and kissed him softly. He smiled against her lips before kissing her back.   "Fine, I'll try my best to stay awake," he said. "I'm going to hold you to that," she said.

The rest of the night she tried to do things with him to make sure he wouldn't fall asleep. Finally, it was time to leave for the flight, they called an uber and went to the airport. Once they were on the airplane he fell asleep, before the plane took off. She kissed his cheek softly before cuddling up to him, falling asleep herself. They slept for the majority of the flight and woke upright when it was landing.

"Babe wakes up" she rubbed his chest. "Uh?" he groaned as he rubbed his eyes. "It's landing, time to get up" she whispered. "oh ok," he said.

They got off the plane, got their bags, and left the airport. Grayson was there waiting for them so they could have a ride.

"Hey Gray," Emily said. "Hey Em" Grayson smiled slightly as he hugged her. "So you are our ride?" Ethan said. "Yea I am, hello to you too" Gray chuckled slightly. "Yeah whatever," Ethan said.

They all got into the car and Grayson drove them up to the cabin. Dropping them off so official they were trapped in the cabin for the next two weeks. Ethan grabbed their bags from the trunk and led Emily to the cabin. Opening the door for her, it was already decorated with a Christmas tree and all different kinds of decorations.

"You did this?" she questioned. "I had someone else do it but yea I set it up," Ethan said as he placed the bags inside. "You are amazing," She said as she entered the cabin. "I know," he smirked slightly. "Yea cocky too" she rolled her eyes playfully. "Only for you" he grabbed her hips, pulling her to him. "Only for me?" she wrapped her arms around his neck. "Yea only for you" he kissed her softly. She smiled against his lips before kissing him back. "I have the fridge and cabinets stocked for us, enough for our stay," he said. "Glad you prepared for two weeks because it's snowing," she said as she looked out the window. "We got here at the perfect time," he smiled. "Yea" she stayed close to him as they watched the snowfall.

He pulled away from her gently and went to start a fire. He grabbed a blanket and wrapped it around her shoulders until the fire was ready. "Don't want you to get cold" he whispered in her ear. "You would keep me warm" she looked at him. "Oh you know it" he kissed her cheek softly. "So I have a question," she said. "What babe?" he asked. "Do you have the stuff to make a gingerbread house?" she looked at him. "Yes I do," he smiled. "Perfect," she said.

She placed the blanket on the couch and made her way into the kitchen. Pulling out the kits that he bought to make a gingerbread house. Gathering the icing and candy, placing it all on the table. He came and sat next to her, opening up the boxes. They both started making the house but Ethan was struggling.

"How do you get it to do that?" he said. "Easy, icing" she chuckled slightly. "I've tried, mine won't stick," he said. "Aw it's ok babe" she got up and stood beside him, helping him. "Thank you," he said as he placed some icing on her nose. "Opps" he smiled. "Oh, funny right?" she laughed and placed icing all over his face. "Whoa," he laughed. "At least it tastes good," he said. "Yea it does" she smiled. "Plus you look cute" he kissed her cheek. "You would be the perfect gingerbread man," she said. "Why thank you?" he chuckled.

She went back to where she was sitting and started to work on her gingerbread house. He finally figured out how to get the icing to stick. They both finished making the gingerbread house and set them off to the side to set. She got up and started making the cookie dough for the actual gingerbread men. She made the dough and rolled it out, he took the cookie cutters and made the gingerbread men. She placed them into the oven. They sat by the fireplace while the gingerbread was cooking.

"So do you know how to decorate gingerbread men?" she asked as she leaned back against him. "Yes I do," he said as he placed his arm around her shoulder. She grabbed his hand and played with his fingers. "Good," she smiled. "Do you?" he asked. "Not really but I guess I'll learn," she said. "I'll show you," he said. "Looking forward to it," she said.

She took the cookies out of the oven when they were finished. They let them cool before decorating the cookies. He stood behind her, placing his arm around her waist. Resting his head against her shoulder. Guiding her hand with the icing, decorating the gingerbread cookies.

"There you go," he said. "This is all you," she said. "Nah you got this" he kissed her cheek. He moved away from her and started decorating the other cookies.

The cookies turned out pretty good, his cookies looked better than hers. The only thing that mattered to her was how they tasted, not how they looked. They stayed in the cabin for the full two weeks. Of course, they went outside making snowmen and snow angels, having the snowball fight as well. On Christmas morning he was sitting by the tree, watching the fire in the fireplace. Just the crackle of the firewood filled the air. She woke up and shuffled into the living room, making her way over to where he was at. Sitting on his lap, resting her head against his shoulder.

"Merry Christmas" she whispered. "Merry Christmas" he looked at her. "Our first" she kissed him softly. "Our first" he smiled gently. "I forgot to do something when we got here," he said. "What?" she questioned. "Well this is our first Christmas and your mom wanted us to have this star," he said. "Oh the star, we forgot back at home," she said. "I bought it with us, just forgot to place it on the tree," he said. "Go get it," she said as she stood up.

He got up and went into the room and got the star, bringing it back to the living room. He placed the star on the top of the tree, standing back so he could see it.

"Perfect," she said. "Yea now it is," he said as he wrapped his arm around her shoulder.   "Well it was already perfect" she looked at him. "What?" he asked. "Because we are together, Christmas was already perfect," she said. "The star is just an extra piece," she said. "Babe" he smiled and pulled her to him. "I know it was already perfect, I'm just happy I get to spend it with you," he said. "I'm happy to spend it with you" she leaned up and kissed him softly.

They spent Christmas morning in the cabin. Grayson came back and picked them up so they could spend the rest of Christmas with the rest of the family. They went to Ethan's family's house first and later on, they went to her parent's house. It was good to spend time alone that morning but they loved spending time with their loved ones as well. It wasn't always about the presents but who you got to spend the holiday with.

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Lovely {e.d}

Author’s Note: I’m back!! Sorry if this sucks guys... I promise there will be more coming soon. I love you all :) Masterlist

Request: @classyhumanoidbananascissors: Heyy, can you maybe write a ethan x reader, a lot of fluff and cuddles on a rainy day? I love your page😘😘

Ethan Dolan.

The one who made people laugh. The one who made people happy. The one who always put others’ happiness before his own.

The boy who lived so freely, making his dreams become a reality. Whose smile is truly one of the most beautiful things in this world, but hates to show it. Who shined a light on people’s lives and didn’t even know it.

That is Ethan Dolan. But to him, he was so far from what everyone thought. Even though he was older, he felt like he constantly lived in the shadows of his younger brother. Always wondering why he was the second pick. Wondering if anyone would even noticed him.

But a lot of people didn’t know that. They always thought it was a joke between them, never knowing it was actually the truth, at least to Ethan. He hated feeling this way, but knew there wasn’t much he could do. His younger brother will always be the favorite.

But to you, Ethan had always been your favorite. He was everything you could ask for. Someone who always supported you, cared for you, and always loved you. And he never let you forget that.

Everything about him was perfect. But if you could choose one thing about him you could love forever, that would be his heart. His intimidating figure made him seem as one who didn’t have a care in the world, but on the inside was someone so amazing. Sometimes you wonder what you did to deserve someone who was truly a blessing on this Earth.

Except you just wished Ethan could see that. But he couldn’t no matter how hard he tried. Ethan saw himself as nothing.

For the past few days you’ve noticed that Ethan’s been distant. He never wants to go anywhere besides his room or to the kitchen to get some food, but even that was rare. He’s snapped at Grayson more than usual and sometimes even you. It was a hard pill to swallow knowing deep down inside he didn’t mean any of the words he’s said to you, but some words hurt more than others.

From the beginning, Ethan had built the walls around him, extremely hard to get through, only to allow Grayson and the rest of his family in. But somehow he managed to allow you in, but sometimes he still shut you out and that’s what hurt the most, feeling like you couldn’t help him anymore.

You walked into Ethan’s room, expecting him to be ready for the day, but found him laying in bed staring at the blank wall. Gently, you walked over and sat at the edge of his bed, placing your hand softly on his leg, only to have him pull quickly. “E... We have to leave soon.”

Tonight, you and the boys, along with some other friends, are going out to dinner to celebrate the twins reaching ten million subscribers. It was a milestone they never thought they’d reach when first starting their channel back in 2014. No words could describe how proud you were of them. How proud you were of Ethan.

“I’m not going.” Ethan muffled into his pillow.

“But we’re celebrating one of the biggest accomplishments of your career.” 

“I don’t care. I’m not going.” He said coldly.

“Everyone’s going to be there and we’re all so proud o-”

“I said I’m not going!” Ethan shouted at you, making you flinch at the tone of his voice.

You blinked away the tears threatening to fall and slowly got up, clearing your throat before heading towards the door. “Well I um I’m going to go get ready, okay?” 

“Don’t let the door hit you on the way out.” Ethan said before turning over and glaring at you.

You softly closed the door and let out a shaky breath you didn’t realize you were holding in. Ethan please just let me help you get through this.

Once you finished getting ready, you quietly knocked on Ethan’s door and was shocked to find that Ethan was no longer in bed. “Hey Ethan? Have you seen my he- Oh there they are.” You said walking into his room in your dress and grabbed your heels.

Ethan was buttoning up his shirt as you walked into the bathroom. You wrapped your arms around his torso and placed soft kisses on his back before resting your chin on top of his shoulder. “You look good babe.”

He chuckled and turned his head towards you, “Thank you.” It was amazing to see him smile for the first time in a few days.

Ethan pulled away from you and cupped your cheeks with his soft hands as a leaned down to place a kiss on your forehead, “And you look beautiful as always.”

This is what you loved about him. The way he was so soft and gentle with you, making you feel so loved even if he wasn’t his at his best.

You two were soon interrupted by Grayson screaming from the living room, “Are you guys ready to go yet?”

“We’re coming!” You said pulling away from Ethan’s grasp before looking into the mirror to make sure your makeup looked good as Ethan fixed his hair.

Grayson was already at the door as you two walked out of Ethan’s room. “Finally. You guys take forever I swear. Everyone’s already there.” Grayson said before opening the door and walking towards Ethan’s Jeep.

As usual you sat in the front with Ethan while Grayson sat in the back. On the way to the restaurant you looked over at Ethan who seemed to have his eyebrows furrowed focusing on something you didn’t know. You reached down and intertwined his hand with yours, “Tell me what’s inside of your head.”

It took him a second to pull away from his trance and look over at you. There was something in his eyes you couldn’t quite grasp just yet but you knew something was bothering him.

“Hmm? What? I’m fine.” He said quickly before turning his attention back to the road.

“E come on. I know you’re thinking about something.” You softly said with pleading eyes.

“It’s nothing I promise.” Ethan said before giving you a sincere smile and placing a kiss on the back of your hand.

Even though he said it was nothing, you could tell it was all a lie.

A couple of moments later you arrived at the restaurant where you were all greeted by the twins’ friends, “Congrats on hitting 10 million!”

As the dinner went on, Ethan wasn’t eating his food and kept his head low, something he’s been doing for the past few days. “Are you sure you’re okay? We can leave if you want.” You whispered softly to him, hoping this time he would give you a real answer.

But of course Ethan only gave you a small smile and told you that it was nothing as he continued to push his food around. You stared at him a bit longer hoping he would look back at you and tell you the truth, but he didn’t. You didn’t want to say that the connection you two was slipping away, but sadly it felt like your relationship was slipping away. 

As the night went on, Ethan barely spoke a word to anyone, even you, unless he was spoken to. You were talking to a few friends when you felt his hand on your lower back and say, “Hey I’m going to head home, okay? I already ordered an Uber for you and Grayson.”

You turned around to face him, giving him a worried look while meeting his dark eyes. “Do you want me to come with?”

“No it’s okay. Don’t worry about it. Stay and have fun, okay?” He said starting to walk away, hoping you would just drop it. But of course you didn’t, so you followed him to his car.

“Hey... Stop. What’s going on? Talk to me.” You said grabbing his arm to make him turn around.

He harshly pulled his arm out of your grip, making you flinch a little. “I said I was fine. Just go back inside. I’ll see you later.”

Ethan began to walk away, leaving you shocked. But if he thought you were going to give up so easily, he was wrong. So the second he opened his car door, you hopped into the passenger seat.

He didn’t look at you. He just kept his gaze at the parked car in front of him before running his hand through his hair. “Y/N. I’m not doing this right now. Just leave. Please.” As stubborn as Ethan was, so were you. You didn’t care that he was trying to push you away because you were never going to leave.

When he parked his car in the driveway, he immediately stepped out of the car, slamming the door behind him. Never has Ethan left you in the car to open your own door, even when you were fighting or even you two were just friends. He always held the door open for you and now you were desperately trying to catch up to him.

“Ethan! Slow down! We need to talk!” You said finally catching up to him before he could slam another door.

“There’s nothing to talk about Y/N! Can’t you see that I want to be alone!?” Ethan yelled at the top of his lungs before stomping towards his room. 

“But you need help! Something’s wrong and you’re no-”

“I don’t need help! I need you to leave!” Ethan said still walking away from you, but you quickly followed.

“Why are you pushing me away? You’ve been doing this for days now! Why can’t you see that I’m just trying to help you?” You shouted back at him.

“Help me?! All I feel like you’ve been doing is smother me! Following me around like some lost puppy. Why don’t you do yourself a favor and just leave because I don’t need you here!” He said finally turning around and meeting your glossy eyes.

You could feel yourself feeling smaller and smaller the more words came out his mouth, “You don’t mean that...”

“You’re right. It’s not that I don’t need you here, it’s that I don’t want you here! Get out!” Ethan yelled in your face before turning around and slamming his bedroom door, leaving you to stand there all alone in the dark hallway.

Who knew words could be so hurtful, especially when it came from the one you loved most. But deep down inside you knew Ethan was hurting so much more than you were. 

You quietly walked to his door and knocked on it softly, “E... Please let me in.”

No response.

“Ethan... I know you don’t want to talk to me but if you just let me in, we c-”

Suddenly the door swing open to reveal and angry Ethan, but in his eyes you could see the pain and sadness he’s been holding in for so long. “I told you to leave.” He said through his gritted teeth.

He chuckled again while shaking his head as you refused to move, “What is it that you want from me? What is it going to take for you to leave me alone?”

“Ethan what are you talking about?” You said stepping closer to him, only for Ethan to step back.

As he stayed silent, you stood there confused as ever. What is he talking about? Soon your thoughts were interrupted when he said, “Why are you with me?”

“Ethan. I’m with you because I love you.”

“Right and I’m supposed to believe that.” Ethan scoffed at your response. He didn’t believe anything you, even though he wanted to.

“What is it that you don’t believe? Because I’m standing here in front of you, desperately hoping there is some way you will let me help you, but I feel like I’m not enough right now.” You said as your voice cracked and tears threatened to fall.

“I told you I don’t need your help!” Ethan grew angry once again.

“Why are you shutting me out!?” You reached his volume as your throat began to burn.

“I’m not shutting you out!”

“Ethan! Yes you are! You’re going it right now!” This was getting really tiring and you hated that he still wasn’t letting you in.

“I’m just trying to protect you!”

“Protecting me from what?! Because right now the on-”

“Me!” Ethan yelled as he sat down and leaned against his bed, covering his face with his hands. You could see tears ran down his face, no matter how hard he tried to cover them. How broken he looked.

You sat down in front of him and placed your hands on his wrists in attempt to move them, but Ethan stayed put. “E... Baby. You have to look at me. What are you talking about?” You said just above a whisper, even though you two were the only ones in the room.

Sobs began to come from the tall, brunette boy in front of you as tears of your own began to fall. “Ethan please. I hate seeing you like this.”

Finally Ethan looked at you and despair was the only thing you could see in his dark eyes. “Why did you choose me?”

You placed your hand on his cheek and lightly rubbed your thumb on his wet cheekbone, “Ethan I already told you I chose you because I love you.”

He looked down at the ground and softly said, “But what’s there to love?”

Words could not describe how shocked you were to hear those words. Ethan knew how to act confident and the happiest guy in the world, but the sobbing man sitting in front of you said that he was too tired putting on a mask everyday. A mask he was left to uncover to reveal his true self when he was home alone as his dark thoughts consumed him and it pained you knowing that every night he was suffering alone.

“You could choose anyone in the world and you chose to be with me. Someone who’s weak, unloveable, and broken. H-How could you love someone like me? A failure and disappointment. Y-you could have easily chosen Grayson. H-He’s the perfect guy w-while I stand in his shadow where no one can see me.” He managed to say through his sobs that erupted his chest.

Everyone raved about Grayson, but Ethan? He was always the second best. Fans never greeted him first or even at all as he had to pretend it was okay, but on the inside it broke his heart knowing he was never anyone’s favorite until he met you.

“Ethan Grant Dolan... I love you. And I am so thankful that I have you in my life because I met you during a time of my life where I felt so lost and broken. You’ve made me realize how amazing life is and what it feels like to be loved.” You said giving him a sweet smile but he still kept his head low.

“But you didn’t have to choose me.”

“Ethan. Why would I want to choose someone else when I have the most perfect guy in the world right next to me? Your smile you hate so much brings me so much joy and happiness because whenever I see that goofy grin of yours, I know you’re happy. You never fail to make me laugh or help me in any way. Sometimes I wonder if I deserve you because you’re so fucking perfect for me that it scares me. And I know you can’t see it right now but I am so fucking proud of you. I’m so proud of the man you’ve become because I know one day you’re going to be an amazing father and inspire them the same way you’ve inspire the world.”

“I want to believe you but something inside me keeps telling me I can’t... I just feel like I’m drowning and no one can save me. I feel like everything I do is all for nothing. I don’t know what’s wrong with me.” Ethan said as his teary eyes finally met yours.

You pulled him into your chest as you softly played with his hair at the nape of his neck. “Nothing’s wrong with you E. You’re just going through a rough patch right now, but you have me right beside you. You have to tell me when things get bad okay? I hate seeing you like this. Whatever’s going on we’re going to get through this. Together.”

He pulled away and placed a soft kiss on your lips and leaned his forehead on yours, “Together.”

As you held Ethan in your arms, you couldn’t help but to think about how amazing he is. He was always the one saving you, but this time you were the one saving him. 

“Thank you,” Ethan mumbled into your chest, “Thank you for always being there for me when I pushed you away. Thank you for loving me the way I love you.”

“I love you Ethan and nothing’s ever going to change that.” 

[tomnookwhore]

I could literally listen to a 30-minute video of the twins just talking and id feel completely happy with it LMAO

[bloggergirl29-blog]

I know i should be focusing on Grayson's beautiful face but i can't help but notice Ethan's butt in the reflection 😂😂

[dolayn]

what you would do if they couldn’t sleep ♡ preference

requested by anon

Eth ↣ The only reason E’s ass would be up in the middle of the night would be for one thing. I’d imagine you’d be spooning and you’d accidentally push up against him. From there it’d be his mission to get in your pants, WITH CONSENT OF COURSE. Which is why he’d have to wake you up. He’d probably be all pouty and complain about how he can’t sleep until he gets some. So he’d huff and sigh extra loudly in hopes that you’d get up. After you had enough of his shit, you’d eventually cave in and fulfil ya mans wishes.

Gray↣ Grayson would wanna be babied and given attention. In order to wake you up he’d probably tap your shoulder or call out to you softly. You’d immediately turn over and pull him into your chest, already knowing the reason he had woke you from your slumber. I think it’d be pretty easy for him to sleep after that. You’d probably scratch his back or play with his hair but it’d still be a simple process. Just being comforted by you and being held would be enough for him.

[highqualitydolans]

Incorrect Dolan Quote #032

Grayson: I’d walk through fire for Ethan.

Grayson: Well, not a fire, because that’s dangerous.

Grayson: Maybe a really humid room.

Grayson: Well, not too humid because, you know… My hair.

[lostincalum]

LA noon- Ethan

AN: this is part 2 to winter mornings, i was wondering if i should do like two more parts?? like the four main parts of a day?? idk let me know

TW: don’t think there are any, kinda sad??

Word count: about 1300

Other parts: 

Winter mornings (part 1) 

Ridiculous afternoon (part 3) 

The last night (part 4)

When the plane landed Ethan carefully shook you awake. You looked up and met his puffy, slightly red eyes. The sun was shining outside and a gust of warm air rushed into the plane as the doors opened.

"Ladies and gentlemen, please stay seated until further notice."

Getting anxious, you sat there and bounced your leg as you tugged your earbuds free and wrapped them round your phone, slipping it into your back pocket. You looked up at Ethan. He was looking more tired that when you got up this morning.

"Didn't you get to sleep on the trip here?"

The worry was obvious in your voice, and it did not fly over his head. Ethan very much disliked when you worried about him. Not because he did not want you to care, he very much appreciated it. It was just that he sometimes felt like he was overreacting to a lot of unnecessary things.

"No, I just couldn't shake the feeling that something is wrong."

You frowned and took his cold hand, and he welcomed the warmth of yours.

"I'm sure that everything is fine Eth."

Just as he nodded and dragged a hand over his face, the loudspeaker sounded over the plane.

"Ladies and gentlemen, you can now step off of the plane, thank you for flying with us and have a lovely stay here in sunny LA."

Ethan stood up first and awkwardly made his way out of his seat. He stretched and you couldn't help but stare a second too long at the little peek of skin you got from where his shirt slipped up.

"Eyes up here sunshine."

You hear jumped at the all-knowing smirk that had slithered on to his mouth. Behind him you could see Grayson fake gagging at you with a small smile. You stiffly got out of your seat and turned around to get your backpack out from the overhead compartment. Before you had reached up, Ethan's front was to your back and his arms on the grey backpack. You turned around to glare him down, but he simply smiled at you and put your arms though the straps.

"I could have gotten it myself you know."

He gave you a pat at the cheeks before he spoke up.

"Shh, we’ve got to get going before we make a queue."

Grayson held out Ethan's backpack and soon you were on your way out of the plane. You stepped onto the bridge and headed to the baggage claim. Having travelled with the boys before, you did what you had done a couple of times now. You stepped out into the waiting area and began waiting for your luggage.

A couple of minutes later you spotted the twins across the band from you. They were joking around as usual. Out of nowhere you felt a little push to your right shoulder. A blonde girl was walking briskly past you trying to get first to her luggage. That’s what you thought anyway. Pulling out your phone you put in your earbuds and got your bag.

You pushed the button that released the handle and went on your way to get a taxi to the apartment. This was the deal when traveling with them. You did not want to be recognized so you did things separately in public places where you were bound to find people waiting for the twins.

You stepped out of the arrival hall and were met with a crowd of people. You could see some signs with Ethan and Grayson's name written on them. Suddenly they all went quiet, and started whispering to each other. You shrugged it off and continued on your way.

You knew the boys would be out soon, and then the staring would stop. You were tapping a hand to the beat on your thigh as you walked, when your phone rang. A picture of Ethan flashed on your phone.

"Yo, wassup?"

"Promise me something Y/N, please"

Immediately you felt a knot form in your stomach.

"What?"

"Don't turn on internet on your phone."

He sounded dead serious and you were a little scared.

"What is going on Eth?"

Your brain was working full speed on trying to find out what was happening, but what could have changed from the minute you stepped away from them and to now?

"I promise I will explain when I get to the apartment, just please?"

"Okay, I promise"

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When you stepped out of the taxi and made your way up the stairs to the twins' apartment, your phone immediately connected to the Wi-Fi. And your phone started blowing up. You pulled out your phone from its place in your back pocket. It wasn’t the usual messages from a group chat, it was Instagram and Facebook, even some on Snapchat and Twitter. You never really were active on twitter. Then, you remembered Ethan's warning to not turn on the internet. The pieces fell into place at once. The girls getting quiet when you exited the arrival hall, the whispering and your boyfriends frantic call. The girls that pushed you when you were waiting for the luggage.

Running a hand through your hair, you scrambled to find your keys. Feeling the metal dig into your palm as you tried to stop your hands from shaking, you clumsily put them into the lock and twisted. The apartment was dark, but nothing really had changed from the last time you had seen it. You could tell by the silhouettes around the living room. And the smell. It was boyish with a hint of cologne.

The phone you had put on the counter was still vibrating with overload of notifications, and you knew what you were about to do was a bad idea. But curiosity took over and you opened your phone with your fingerprint. For the first time in a while you went to twitter and your mentions. Someone had found your username there and it was overflowing with pictures from the airport and the plane from when you landed. Ethan behind you and getting your backpack down. Further down were pictures of you sleeping on his shoulder at the airport in New Jersey. And thousands of tweets commenting on you, your weight, looks clothes. Anywhere they could find a flaw.

You did not notice the tears streaming down your face before the door slammed open and the boys found you standing in the middle of the living room in the dark. The sound of bags dropping to the floor and floor and someone else's breath filled the room. Then a sniffle.

"Ethan?"

Your voice came out much more unsure than it was supposed to.

"Yeah?"

You turned around and looked at him. His distress was obvious. Hair all over the place, red eyes and darker stains on the sleeves of his hoodie. Your heart broke even more if possible, because if there was one thing you hated more than hurting, it was seeing Ethan hurt. Nodding to Grayson, you stuck out a hand to Ethan. He grabbed it and led you both to his bedroom.

"I'm sorry, this wasn't supposed to happen and I can tell you have been crying and I hate seeing you cry, and I hate everything about this situation and I just-"

He was rambling and you needed to stop him.

"Ethan, listen to me."

Balling your hands into fists, you felt the anxiety rise in your body. Your heart beat faster and you felt a little dizzy. Ethan kept on rambling.

"But I don't want you to break up with me."

He sounded genuinely worried so you let him continue.

"I just, I don't know, but you are the first one to actually stick with me when I'm down and when I'm not fun to be around. You are the first one to actually care enough to stay, and I don't want to lose you to something like this."

"I won't break up with you"

You took a shaky breath.

"- I love you too much to do that."

[surfsupsnuggie]

Canada with Grayson Would Include

Not Requested.

For all my Canadian babes out there<3

Message me where you live in Canada and we can complain about the weather! (Haha) and even if you’re not from Canada, message me and tell me where you live in this wonderful world. I promise I don’t bite! :)

Requests opened ;)

• obviously taking Grayson to Tim Hortons for his first time

• “awh babe, can’t we just go to Starbucks today? They have my pumpkin spice Frappuccinos”

• “Gray, its a Canadian staple! You have to try it!”

• Grayson getting so frustrated because there was Tim Hortons on every block.

• “woah! This is like a Dunkin’ Donuts! They have Munchkins here too!”

• “those are Timbits. Not Munchkins”

• “no, Munchkins”

• “Timbits!”

• “Munchkins!”

• “Timbits!”

• Ordering Gray his first Double double coffee which he falls in love with

• driving and listening to Christmas music as Grayson rests his cold hand on your leg

• cuddling up by the fire watching the snow fall peacefully

• your legs tangled togther up as Grayson leaves small kisses on your head

• bickering over which Christmas movie to watch

• OBVIOUSLY WEARING HIS SWEATERS EVERY DAY 24/7

• Christmas baking together <3

• Gray obviously being impatient and just start eating the cookie dough

• taking Gray to get his maple taffy

• G GETTING MINDBLOWN BECAUSE MAPLE SYRUP ON SNOW IS BOMB

• G acting like a little boy because he always wanted to pay with our colourful

• matching jerseys with Gray at a hockey game

• Gray taking you on a romantic date and taking you to an ice rink

• laughing at Gray because he was a true goofball trying to imitate a figure skater

• He pulled you by the waist and you glide all the over to him and he planted his lips on yours.