#ever since the thoughts of yesterday

[tothepointofinsanity]

Sewercide mention.

[It’s about time I felt so depressed and angry again…obviously my parents continue to be a continuous benefactor of my low mood, but now I’m just more sad than anything. Sadness lingers like a cloud on me at all times. I can’t seem to scrub it away. I can’t even die yet because my siblings would be sad lol. I need to review the document I made a month(?) ago to keep myself going on.]

[is-this-yuri]

homelessness can happen for a lot of different reasons. the lack of affordable housing is said to be the main one. no matter how hard people work, many are always at risk of being unable to afford rent.

for me, that's a huge part of it, but there's also the mental health aspect of it. i've had just about every entry level job available. i've had jobs that allowed me to pay rent, though just barely. ive worked really, really hard. and unfortunately, for me, no amount of transitional housing is going to help if i'm always miserable working. no amount of job coaching is going to make it bearable for me. and historically, the mental health treatments ive tried (which are so, so many) just haven't worked.

it seems like the goal has always been to 'get on your feet' i.e. get a job and an apartment. the fact that a shocking amount of homeless people are working (including myself at some points) and even working multiple jobs and still haven't 'gotten on their feet' should say a lot. the fact that even people who have never been homeless are closer to homelessness than to owning a house should say a lot. the fact that a percentage of homeless people actually choose to be homeless should say a LOT. it tells me that the goal has shifted. what i was raised to want is now an impossible task.

it sucks because i know half the jobs ive had would have been easy for me if it was actually worth it. if the hours were less, the pay actually let me afford things beyond the bare minimum, and the working conditions were better. therapy and medication would probably work wonders if my disatisfaction with life wasnt completely rational. but it's all fucked, and we all know it.

it's taboo to say it, especially as a homeless person, but i don't want to work. i don't want an apartment. i don't want to own a house. maybe my views will change if things ever get better, but at this point, i don't want to engage with this flawed system at all anymore. i hate that my value is contigent on how well i can slot into the capitalist machine. i know i have value much more important than that, and i'd prefer to earn my place on this earth through my actual strengths. i want life, my connections with other people, and the work i do to have meaning and significance. until the world makes space for that, i'm more than happy taking a government check and living in a van with a cat so i can make art and stream and watch the sunset every night. that's my goal now

[sage-is-in-fact-very-tired]

*slides paper across the table* I offer, Midas with chronic pain after all the decay and stuff - it may be gone and mostly off of them, but it was *killing them,* and the effects of that *would not* be small.

[sleep-nurse]

let's heal this world together

[ohmybitna]

- I haven’t been able to adjust really well. Sometimes when I’m with him, I don’t know what to say or do. It’s like I’m always worried. I don’t know how to act. - Li Ming, you can just talk to him. Touch him. When he can’t hear, physical touch will make him feel like there’s someone next to him. Other than that, treat him as a non-deaf person.

Moonlight Chicken (2023)

[thelonelynindroid]

Trobed I drew through genuine tears while i had a 24 hr migraine and my good old pal dys for ya 👍

[todayisafridaynight]

hear me out on this one

[loquatenjoyer69]

Yorishima is an exorcist, possessed by an ayakashi, from a family who was once powerful enough to rival the Matobas but now he's quit, but seemingly still holds some kind of disdain for Matoba. ("That Matoba brat," "Sorry for insulting your friend.")

Natori is an exorcist, possessed by an ayakashi, from a family who was once powerful enough to rival the Matobas (presumably. "There's a reason the two families don't get along,") and now he's trying to carry on their traditions but seemingly can't bring himself have any disdain for Matoba. ("Now? No. I show up to meetings, I take jobs from them..." "Does it look like this abandoned house could be rivals with the industry leader?")

Is Yorishima for Natori what Natori is for Natsume...? I'm not sure...I want to go find what Midorikawa has said about Yorishima now.

[dallonwrites]

my autistic ass when i would try to explain to my non-autistic writer friends how my ocs don’t just feel like characters/plot devices/narrative tools, they feel like fully fledged people that just live inside my brain who i just have access to for some reason and the stories i write are merely a snapshot into their fully fledged personhood/lives. and that that these feelings don’t mean i’m unaware of my role/agency/responsibility as the writer who has the final say in these characters and how they are written it just means that my writing process feels very intuitive and i can only describe it as “listening” and “getting to know” these people that just live inside my brain in a way that i don’t feel like i can completely elaborate on. and because of this i would actually consider these characters “real” in their own way because the impact and influence they have had on me as a person beyond just my writing is so real and not having them would feel like i’m missing a part of myself 

[twistedappletree]

broooooooooo

[marblerose-rue]

click for better quality!

carnation pink / honeyfern

[ghostbeam]

Sometimes I just wanna write a full slasher all suspense all stress no happy ending for the character I’ll pick as the slasher all brutal final girl prevails etc etc

[killjoy-prince]

Merch and Manga haul from yesterday

[the-ragbros-are-okay]

i actually feel as though i am going insane bc i need to do TOMORROWS commissions to get the last story key for kaeya’s story quest because i was an IDIOT and and DIDNT

and now i feel like i’m full of BEES

PLUS. IM GOING ON A TRIP.TOMORROW

so i’m waking up early and doing my commissions and then a story quest bc i’ll be damned if i have to wait three more fucking days to see my favorite traumatized blue haired man

[just-spacetrash]

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[todayisafridaynight]

Hey so Snap this is going to be so fucking weird, but honestly don’t care. So I was watching a clip of Drag Race Philippines and it was the make over episode and I think they were making over family members and this father was all about getting into drag. So, I just wanted to tell you never forget how much of a lovely loving kind and caring father you have, who loves you and protects you and makes you feel heard. That’s all.

i'd have to die before i forget how great my dad is thank you for the opportunity to brag about him again anon