#fear gone series

[ginaluvr]

thoughts after rereading fear

again. again i just think diana's pregnancy being twice as quick as it should is so unnecessary and such a silly plotline

but i love diana starting to integrate with others and wanting redemption and being cared for by others. sam & diana is a friendship i would've liked more of. i love brianna & diana too. and diana taking care of little kids <3

sanjit is just in love with lana and lana taking in his whole family is so adorable

i love astrid's development. but i solidly dislike sam and astrid's relationship by this book. i said i liked them in book 1 this time - and i did - but it just doesn't work anymore

i think drake's misogyny was so silly in this book. him being like 'ugh females!!!!' was so funny because yes we could tell he hates women by the fact that he constantly fantasizes about torturing diana and astrid. why are we spelling it out and making it comical

i enjoy orc's redemption and discovering his faith. i really like that little moment dekka and orc have. + him almost tripping and falling when he discovers that lesbians are in fact a real thing

so brianna is confirmed to be 13 here LMAO her age was definitely retconned?

i always forget howard got killed off because literally no one cared except orc, no one mentioned it, we didn't even really get to see the moment. it's a disappointing and anticlimactic ending for a character that we were shown had a lot more depth than he pretended

the cigar plotline used to scare me so bad when i was young. still horrifying obviously

that being said, penny is just. not a well written character. this is a 12 year old girl with bad self esteem and she was punished for her wrongdoings (less bad wrongdoings than most of caine's btw) with a brutal and horrible death. she caught the worst of the writing's deep rooted misogyny

quinn the character that you are

sam is the kind of aggressive ally who's like 'why didn't you tell me you were gay >:( i would’ve supported you. grrr why' to edilio and wanting to be housemates with his lesbian best friend. one of his funnier traits i would say

astrid and edilio one of my favorite friendships i think

dekka is my beloved i just want to protect her. she deserved better every moment. i love her proudly calling herself a lesbian, to the point where she corrects people who mislabel her. i love her being referred to as the 'antipanic presence' whose energy calms and supports everyone. she is my number one favorite after this reread i think

sam lowkey being protective over caine, like just a tiny little bit, is so funny

diana has been through hell like none of this is okay for a freshly 15 year old girl

[inke-ri]

So I couldn't help but browse the THG tag bc those books own my whole heart. I actually check it now and again, and it's been interesting see how opinions have changed over the years, especially in regards to Gale and Peeta. Going through the evolution of them as just potential love interests to being far more complex than I could have expected has been a wild ride. Crazy how this reads different than from when I was a preteen.

That said, I wanted to give my unsolicited two cents on my boys, because though I have been enjoying the discussion on Peeta and Gale and what they mean to the story, I also feel like reducing them to Peeta = peace and Gale = war is far too simplistic... and oftentimes unfair to one or both of them.

See, I don't think Peeta and Gale are peace and war/destruction. They're compassion and indignation.

Peeta worries about the other tributes, or their families, or how to repay people like Rue and Thresh for what they did.

Gale is indignation at how the Capitol treats its citizens, it's anger at the injustice of inequality and brutality.

Both are needed in a story like THG. You can't have people like even Peeta not say something like "maybe we're wrong about keeping things quiet in the districts", you can't have him not drop the baby bomb, you can't start a revolution without Gale's indignation at the status quo. At deserving a better life but being denied it, at having your kids be mercilessly killed for literal sport.

However, if you start a rebellion and loose sight of your compassion, you end up no better than the people you're fighting against. Gale wasn't a bad person, imo. His heart was in the right place. He was flawed, yes, but so is everyone in this series. Gale, most importantly, lost sight of the line between fighting for the people he cared about and fighting against the people who hurt him.

Reducing Gale's indignation to just revenge and hatred ignores so much of what he stands for. Who hasn't seen laws passed that dehumanize people, who hasn't been angry and furious when someone is elected who fundamentally hates everything you are, who doesn't think some people need to pay for the atrocities they committed? There's a little bit of Gale in every single one of us - and it's important that it's there, because that's what gives us strength to challenge the status quo and make life better for the future generations.

But. You can't let it take over. You can't loose sight of your compassion or your empathy.

That's where Peeta comes in. Peeta is the voice in your head that worries about how many good lives will be lost when they give themselves up for this cause. Peeta is the worry about the people caught in the crossfire. Peeta is rebuilding when it's over and believing that the next generation will have a better life than your own. Peeta is being kind, even to people who may not deserve it.

And Gale... Gale looses sight of his compassion, and he doesn't realize it until it smacks him in the face when the bombs go off and Prim is gone and he's too far gone. Meanwhile, Peeta advocates for the end of the war even though it means the status quo remains - and regardless of what he believes himself, I don't think Suzanne chose him to say those lines by chance. It means both mindsets have their flaws: too kind and things that shouldn't remain will never be challenged and changed, too angry and you may loose sight of what you're fighting for.

And that's just how Suzanne uses her characters, both of them, all of them. Just look at who is with Katniss depending on the situation:

- Katniss chooses to "rebel" after Gale is brutally whipped. She kisses him.

- Katniss realizes that in order for D12 to rebel, everyone would need to be in on it, and she realizes most of them are not like her, that they're scared and she understands, emphasises with them. Peeta walks by her side.

- Katniss finally does it though, shoots the arrow at the force field, and Peeta is taken from her, it's now Gale by her side.

(You can't start a rebellion without indignation, and sometimes you HAVE to do it or things will never change, regardless of the inevitable pain that will come along.)

- Katniss is righteously angry at the Capitol bombing a hospital full of innocents to make a point. Gale remains there.

- Coin twists people's compassion into an army to fight for her own personal gain. Peeta is hijacked and looses his sense of self.

- Katniss and Gale go to District 2 and even though she tries to be like Peeta, she's still shot- reinforcing Gale's views, the person who was with her during that sequence.

- Katniss is angry at Snow, Katniss goes to the Capitol to kill him. Gale is there.

- Katniss gets in way over her head and realizes she is responsible for the death of most of her squad. She shares the lamb stew with Peeta, and later cleans his wounds.

- Finnick dies and she's at her lowest up until that point and all she wants to do is give up and give in to the anger. She kisses Peeta and begs him to stay with her.

... Claiming that Gale is destruction ignores the fact that he's with Katniss through her own moments of strength. Her desire to change things, to fight back, is as important as her compassion. Mockingjay just brutally shows you what war does to your indignation, to your compassion. How easy it is to cross a line between righteous anger and revenge, or how your sense of empathy and compassion can be manipulated into something monstrous by others, or by all the terrible, brutal, painful things you see.

How easy it is to loose yourself- and that goes for both of them.

Peeta and Gale aren't static characters, they go from representations of sentiments regarding an injust government to what happens to those feelings when an extreme situation such as war breaks out. All of that, by the way, while dealing with this duality themselves, because they are still characters who think and feel and struggle and have flaws of their own- and while I love what they stand for, I've seen too many comments that pin everything into what they mean, that they forget that Peeta and Gale are still people, they aren't perfect metaphors. They're human.

Ultimately, Katniss doesn't really choose peace. She wants peace, yes. But what she chooses is compassion. empathy. hope. There's a time and place for anger at injustice. There's a time when fighting back is the right thing to do. There are even times when you wanna give in to your despair and lash out. But if you want peace, then you have to choose Peeta, because Peeta represents what you need to focus on to achieve that peace. You have to let go of the anger or you won't ever rest. So Gale leaves, and does not come back... And yet, Katniss still has her moments of indignation, of making a stand, even as he goes - she still casts her vote at that meeting, she still shoots Coin. Katniss does not abandon that part of who she is. It's just not her main drive anymore.

So then she goes on to make the choice, every single day, to be compassionate to others. To have hope. To rebuild. Of course she chooses Peeta.

... Idk, man. These boys are so much more than what I see them so often reduced to. They're in all of us. There will be times to stand and fight, and times to show mercy and be kind. We just need to find that balance, as Katniss eventually did.

[completeoveranalysis]

[19]

This is also the funniest way this could have gone. Naturally Watanuki feels bad for the way it all went but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ You can only help someone so far, and only if they want it. 

Very fun to me that Watanuki just devolves into “Well if I ring the doorbell enough times maybe she’ll change her mind”.

On the one hand Watanuki gets a pass for being a fictional character that we know has good intentions, because this would be harassment otherwise. 

On the other hand he is so desperate to help someone. He is clinging to the idea that he might be able to grant her wish - even though it’s not even technically a wish he is granting, but fixing a fundamental fear that is haunting her. 

He won’t let this go because he’s just lost so much, he needs it all to matter, so he can do a good job on behalf of all the people he just lost. 

He is putting too much on himself, but yes I absolutely want to see where this goes. 

… but not now! Apparently that was the end of the chapter. 

Excuse me time to retire to the wailing room. 

[pepsinutellaandlaptops]

FEAR: The GONE Series, Pages 224-229

[todayisafridaynight]

pocket-square sized

[neo-zone]

After knowing that the head writer and executive producer of X-Men 97 got some internalized anti-blackness, black characters like Storm and Bishop getting fewer screen times perfectly wrapped in a believable excuse (one hit with power lost plot and had her main focus episode split into two and shared with others, the other got hit with lost in time plot while the baby he brought to future made more lines and appearance than him) and Sunspot's core black identity literally being stripped from his character on the series all makes sense now

Like yeah say company intervention or bla bla, but bro literally said on his own twitter acc he planned entire series by himself, that include how he chose to handle the black characters

[sadiecoocoo]

I just realized that the first time I ever wrote gore was during a social studies project in 8th grade where we had to write a horror story about a historical figure in the subject we were learning about… I maybe made it so said historical figure was murdered by an lady with an axe :D

Like he was asking for paranormal shit not a literal murder case but y’know when you have an idea you gotta stick to that idea

(it was also a group project and I lowkey hated working on project either this group… even though they were my friends… they just didn’t too well with projects and me being a perfectionist when it comes to school work definitely didn’t help)

I had to voice the narration for it too, so my teacher heard me, the quiet kid that only ever read books or did her work in class, read about a guy getting brutally murdered by axe and all his bits being chopped up…

He was supposed to play the recordings in class but he avoided some for obvious reasons

[seventeendeer]

adventure time, baby, I'm going to keep it real with you: you had the perfect meta setup (a spinoff of a children's cartoon made for adults who grew up with said cartoon) for a story about two characters desperate to return to simpler times (fionna longing for the subconscious memory of a fantasy land where nothing is complex and she won't have to face the trials of young adulthood in her now-mundane world, simon longing to lose his mind again so he won't have to remember his grief) coming to realize that the "simpler times" they remember were never as straightforward as their idealized memories (fionna realizing that her black-and-white worldview was actually just deeply biased and ultimately harmful, simon realizing that ice king was just as miserable as simon himself and simply lacked the tools to parse his own emotions), the idealized past they want to return to was never real, and in order to move forward, they have to face the painful realities they've been trying to avoid, mature as people, and learn to see beauty and value in their own respective lives, even if they're not the lives they'd hoped for

and then that didn't happen. there was a perfect metaphor for the false allure of nostalgia using THE "whimsical at first glance/shockingly grim under the surface" children's cartoon RIGHT THERE. How Did You Fuck That Up

[sigmaaegoniii]

I burst out laughing at how nonchalant Orc sounded because Jack is spewing blood everywhere and quickly dying from blood loss on the ground and Orc’s reaction is “huh”.

There is a 90% percent chance I would have reacted the same way haha

Maybe I laughed because of the tension and stress I felt after the previous scenes 😭

[plegdoctor]

strawberry Vee

Strawberry Vee

STRAWBERRY VEE

[gone-series-orchid]

honestly i think fear and light would have been more interesting and dynamic if kids started losing their powers then instead of after the fayz

[hdawg1995]

you know what, i'm not as excited as i want to be about the fnaf movie, but it makes me so happy everyone else is. I hope its scary as hell and isn't just baiting us. Hope it takes the lore and makes the most nightmare inducing movie ever. Hope its treated seriously as a horror movie and not just a video game movie.

[pepsinutellaandlaptops]

Heavy is the head that wears the crown

Finally drew the best and arguably most creepy scene in Gone :)

[lunarharp]

a random draft where i was ramblingg about witch hat & art to myself for myself :)

rare time i feel like actually going off about the thing i’m having fun with right now in more detail ... but not on twt where strangers might try to discuss back at me lol sorry but that is scary. (not that you even have the room to soliloquy on there)

i love how there's characters for varying types of artists to relate to. people like agott who have been adept at drawing from a young age but feel overwhelmed by feelings of not meeting their expectations. and are driven mostly by feelings of wanting to prove their worth..

people like oru who have always been around the art but now are burnt out from commissions and wondering just what they're drawing for... and ones i relate to the most personally like coco and qifrey, who started drawing at an older age to the skilled people around them. like coco i'm so happy that i'm in the world of drawing(/magic) now and excited every day but also weighed down by fears that i'll never get to what i where i need to be after starting at this late stage and also whether i'm really cut out for this....

and like qifrey i only started drawing after a narrow escape from trauma... i started drawing to make sense of what my life is now, just as he was invited by beldaruit to become a witch because it was the only safe path he could take. (although i've not been through anything quite like what he's been through... ouagh)

and there’s tetia who just wants to draw to make other people feel happy about what she’s made, to have fun, and spread hope and happiness and gratitude. who feels so happy whenever someone thanks her for what she’s created - i understand now how it feels to want to thank them for thanking her and how making art, when you get a meaningful response, can be a truly warm communal type experience. but you do need that response - her overwhelming happiness when the dragon thing was happy and she said it was the first time she’d ever felt fully appreciated for her magic and it made her soooo happy. she had been drawing until then, but it was the last puzzle in place to make her realise the breadth of what magic can be for her.

and riche who is determined to not lose the “her”-ness from her art, doesn’t want to learn new techniques and become more regular and orthodox in style if it means she feels she’s losing something... i get that!!! precious autistic-coded child... the ways we feel about our art differ depending on our own mental landscapes. hahhhh... shirahama said she began this series because she was having a conversation with artist friends about how it feels like drawing just really is magic. i mean..... it is.

i think writing feels like magic too, and i’m glad i can do both now. any creation is total magic. i’ve drawn scenes that were in my head and that’s let other people see them and if i can trust their comments about it, has moved them in some way or at least let them imagine a scene or a situation that they wouldn’t have imagined otherwise. but it’s different from just telling someone about it. when you draw something, or write something it really exists now - outside of you. THAT’S SO WEIRD.

i liked drawing a lot of takarazuka things (before i realised i got kind of burnt out drawing all this transcore stuff that people were not exactly responding to because it’s so niche and weird lmao) but drawing fanart for something that also ONLY exists in art is so special. it’s not acted by real people. like.. they’re just little people that someone drew and now i draw them too. total magic. and she gets up and draws them every day the same as me...

i love that a manga isn’t just art, it’s storytelling too. doing both writing and drawing at the same time - it feels like such a perfect and fascinating combination of skills and facets of creation. i’m better at writing than drawing, so i don’t feel like i can express my original stories well enough in comic form just yet. but i might just get there.

the world is so confusing and overwhelming and terrible every day. only creation is something i can understand. sometimes i can’t understand it - when i feel REALLY bad, it’s definitely like, what’s the point. and i wish i had more things to experience at present than just creation - i want to be outside and just feel and be as well as create. and at some point i’ll definitely stop posting my creations online. but creating has become something that i don’t need to understand the reason for it - so at those times when i wonder what the real point to any of this is.... lately, i usually still create anyway. just as you’d still breathe and sleep even though you’re hurt and confused by the horrors of the world. it’s becoming how i express myself. i find myself drawing pretty much every day because it’s part of how i make sense of shit now and i naturally want to do it. not doing it is painful.

i hope this magic continues. i hope it becomes far more wonderful than i can even imagine from here.

and i won't lose.

[lazarguy]

So some friends joked about a word meaning being small and urchin for one of the meanings: Elfin, and.. I might be growing mad with power

I hope this jump scares you and your friends just as it did mine

[lotsobagels]

Holy SHIT TITS Witch From Mercury is GOING THERE 😳