#fear of thread

[danskjavlarna]

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Needles, threads, and vintage sewing.

[victusinveritas]

[incesthemes]

there is interesting johndean subtext and insinuations across kripke era, usually through an antagonist insinuating parent-child sexual violence in order to exert dominance over dean. this type of mockery exploits that ambiguous relationship between john and dean and reminds dean that he never had a normal relationship with his father, and that makes him gross and wrong. it doesn't actually matter in the end whether john was sexually abusive to dean. the core of their relationship was damning enough: dean was made to take the place of john's wife—to comfort john and raise sam—while simultaneously being his son. the codependent nature of their relationship implies the incest that underscores their dynamic. again, this is regardless of what literally occurred between dean and john because there is enough doubt toward the nature of their relationship that multiple antagonists can use it against them.

sonwife, brotherhusband—dean is stuck in a liminal space between family and lover and is unable to put his feet firmly on just one side and instead has to accept both together or abandon both together. he doesn't get to have a relationship with his family without it being simultaneously incestuous. he plays the role of wife to john and mother to sam as mary's replacement; he therefore becomes more than a son and transcends the boundaries of the familial into the incestuous. it's baked into the dynamic and he can't hope to escape the liminality in which he's stuck without abandoning his entire family altogether.

this ambiguous relationship is further acted out with sam, where people perceive them as lovers rather than brothers; where their mutual devotion trumps, neglects, and disallows any other close relationship outside each other; where their physical closeness is viewed through an unusually sexual lens despite no literal sex acts between them taking place on screen. once again dean is stuck in a liminal space, paralleling the ambiguous and uncertain relationship he had with john.

in the end, sex (and sexual violence) is just a symbol of this codependency and uncertainly incestuous dynamic. sex acts in kripke era end up being symbolic: misinterpretations of sam and dean's relationship; accusations of sexual violence; literal, on-screen sexual moments between the brothers and someone else. it's a literary device that highlights the incestuous themes of the show. dean hand-picks women for sam to fuck because it allows dean to be symbolically part of sam's sex life. henricksen accuses john of raping dean because it is a symbol of the unhealthy, codependent relationship dean had with his father. the samulet stays on during sex because sam is symbolically integral to dean's sexual gratification (seen too in the way both dean and cassie in 1.13 appear to kiss the amulet at least once in the dark room). sex is used to signify more than what's literally on the screen, and the connections between the literal sex acts and the blurred lines of dean's familial relationships allow for a reading of incest between both john and dean and sam and dean.

it never mattered whether johndean or samdean had a sexual relationship in the canon because that was never the point. the point is the liminality that permeates the narrative. sam, dean, and john all stand upon a threshold between acceptable and taboo. the point of it all is the doubt and anxiety, the are-they-aren't-they that is never answered. the absence of incest within the text invites the understanding that the incest was, in fact, always there.

[the-janitor-esc]

(( tw: Fear Gas: Extreme fatigue, Emotional instability, Paranoia, Lack of motor control, Lack of reasoning skills, and Hallucinations. Fire.

I never let TJ escape a good angst opportunity, but their response to aerosols are always delayed, and I didn't want to disrupt the community moving on from the Fear Gas <3))

[ The Janitor lays in a barren room, trying to wait out the clumsiness curse. It'll only be a couple hours; it is annoying to lay still and idle, but it is better than breaking things (or someone).

It starts with the smell of smoke. Unfortunately, the smell of smoke is not uncommon in the Evil Science Center; someone's always burning something or setting something on fire.

The cyberspiders will handle whatever it is; they will continue to lay on the floor.

There is sparks in the corner of their vision, just under the door jam. The Janitor sits up as fingers of flame reach under the door, and they are promptly on their feet by the time the walls catch.

Their first attempt at leaping up into a vent fails; they pick themself up from the ground and make it on the second, banging through the vents far noisier than they normally would. They fall out of the vents into a hallway, thankfully not on fire.

Where are they? It looks familiar, but it is like a word on the tip of their non-existent tongue. The colors are wrong, but the smells and atmosphere are right. They start to walk, but it is a slog.

Then, voices, familiar and beloved voices humming, laughing, and screaming in the distance. The Janitor rushes in the direction of the scream. They can't let anyone know their beloved humans are here, wherever here is. ]

( If you're watching cameras or just loitering around the halls, you see The Janitor sprinting; they fall, but get back up and immediately start sprinting again, bumping against the walls. If you watch them, they smack at their uniform and bandages from time to time. You hear them calling "Wait!", "Where are you?", "Come back!", and "Fire! Get out!". )

[justallihere]

“onyx storm ruined me i need the fic writers to get to work”

yall know fics don’t just pop out of our heads fully formed right? it takes time and effort. at least tell me you’re going to comment on these fics you’re saying you so desperately want

[murasaki-cha]

I think that, after Unravel Me, Tahereh Mafi just went "How far can I take these books until they're not considered YA anymore?" And she has not stopped since...

Ignite Me? Holy crap

Restore Me? Sweet baby Jesus

Defy Me? That one scene with Kenji and Nazeera certainly made me forget all the trauma that book was giving me

Believe Me? My lord who authorised that??

All This Twisted Glory? How they allowed Cyrus' dream to remain in the book will forever be a mystery to me

Like at this point I think Tahereh Mafi is just too powerful and book editors just cannot say no to her. She is too good it will ruin them if they refuse. It's the only possible explanation.

[pyrotation]

made some kill icons real >8) (stock and fav)

also here's some pngs because i couldnt find high quality kill icons quick enough. these aren't pristine bc i have bad eyesight hope that helps ✌

[ironmaidenhead]

thinking about this quote in connection w/ frank and how he wore the mask of a u.s. marine with a wife and two kids and their picnics in the park to obscure the internal struggle of reconciling the family man (married maria after three months because he got her pregnant like any good man™️ would) and the soldier that enjoyed the violence

[voidmarkd]

#voidmarkd; an indie, selective and fandomless portrayal of Atlas Fitzgerald, featuring themes as life in a coven, rebirth through death, marked by the void, necromancy, betrayal and abandonment, the blood and the burden, keeper of forgotten graves, [ . . . ] mutuals only. 21+. low activity. eng/ger. ♱ carrd ♱ memes ♱ open starters

[muffinlance]

Next Dark Night in Ba Sing Se part! Is! Fully outlined!

...And so is the majority of series in lesser detail because oops my hand slipped.

[purplebass]

Perhaps I said it already but one of my favorite Lila quotes is "whatever I am, let it be enough". She said this before using antari magic for the first time by herself because her whole world changed when she discovered magic. She was electrified by the fact that she could do magic but she could feel it in her bones that she could do so much more. Lila's world rocked, she tried to manage this newness in her life the way she always did, with curiosity and determination, to the point of overexerting herself and almost challenging magic itself. So when Lila attempts to cross worlds, she isn't sure she is an antari but she tries anyway, hoping it's enough to let her cross worlds to save Kell. To me that line also means believing in yourself even though you aren't sure you're going to accomplish what you want. See, Lila often appears so confident but she is insecure. Magic made her bolder because it's an additional tool for her survival but it completely shook her existence. What is Lila? A thief, a pirate, a magician. But until she successfully crosses the world from Red to White, that's when she is more aware of what she is, of that something was taken away from her when she lost her eye. Had she never met Kell, she would've never known that part of herself

[raymoo--hackery]

hey guys remember when I said I'd probably draw the back alley EULR design next? Yeah I lied. MORE STORCH!! Fenrir this time. Mf not even a year old yet and already causing problems man 😭😭😭

Also here's a WIP I started alongside this and just didn't have time to finish. I'll get to it... eventually... I work weekends tho 😔

[killishin]

the pitt is the only thing holding my sanity together right now.

[heireign]

gonna be a bit spotty until sunday communication wise but in the meantime ❤️ for a one liner

[altarfates]

just so all of my mutuals know I’m starting uni full time in a few weeks so my time to write will inevitably change. I’ll probably prioritise plotting a bit more and stick to smaller threads bc as much as I love my ten paragraph threads they take two to three hours to write sometimes and realistically that won’t be happening as often now, atleast until I work out how to divvy my time up effectively.

[onaperduamedee]

I'm on my TDR reading in preparation for the new season and feeling so much for Eggy's PTSD unraveling for everyone to see while no one thinks that perhaps she needs help. We need a therapy Ajah yesterday.

The girl is 17 and in constant flight or fight mode, with a strong preference for fight, and Nyn and Elayne think she's just going through a rebellious phase. I don't know but maybe being captured, enslaved and used as a weapon isn't a walk in the park and will leave anyone a little bit paranoid.

Her POV is honestly incredible because of that. She's a deer in the headlights, overthinking and anxious, and that isn't even taking into account the fact that Siuan sent the girls on a genuinely deadly mission.

I love Eggy and want to give her a cup of hot chocolate and let her talk about her passion for learning new stuff except she can't have that and the learning she gets to do is for survival only.