#figured i'd join the trend <3

[indomitableblackdragon]

I can't figure out this spacing thing and I'm not about to find out. So hey! I'm Allul (They/Them, trying to figure that thing out)! I'm that fucking creature that's flooding your dash with posts about a boat girl and whatever other shenanigans my mind decides to get up to. I'd say I should apologize but really the longer you know me the more you realize this is just how I live my life

I'm 26 (Not for long) and a terrible chronic gacha addict that probably should've stopped a long time ago. But since i haven't I now have adopted boats (as this blog shows) along with....

androids

horse girls

very bisexual prisoners

food personifications

goblins

cinnamon rolls

and plenty of other random things that go in and out of my mind on the daily. This may come at a surprise to plenty of people but I literally haven't even been here a year yet (shocking I know). Most of my writing career has been either super bad fanfics, skype rp (yes this sadly was part of my life), and forums of recently. Only after being dragged here by a few friends did I realize what I was missing out on and I'm glad I joined! I promise you I'm not intimidating as I may seem (If I even come off as intimidating) and really I'm a DM away from blowing your eardrums off about whatever you want. Like lets be real my first blog here was a goddamn pokemon. I think that says everything you need to know.

Anyway next is checks notes about myself and that's problematic. Because I have no idea how to do that :3. According to my friends this meme explains it best

But as expected writing is my hobby (go figure) and beyond that is probably video games. A lot and a ALOT of RPGS, Fighting Games, and whatever is out there to get my serotonin running. Currently I'm down in the mines playing Granblue Fantasy Relink, Granblue Fantasy Versus Rising (are you noticing the trend), and dabbling in some other ventures (Gundam Versus if you want to know how niche my tastes get. I also collect plushes!

in line with my crippling Granblue addiction music CD's!

But yeah if it wasn't obvious I love talking about literally anything. My interests are kinda all over the place but most people can vouch that I'm a damn good listener. And that includes plotting even if my mentality usually is just a "fuck it we ball one" rather than really planning it out (I do love planning too! But sometimes you really just gotta go off and never stop). If you don't find me here on NJ's Blog well don't worry I have like 11 more as well. Featuring...

Morgan le Fay (Fate) (@talesofrainandstars_

Melusine (Also from Fate) (@robustdragonheart)

Nian (Arknights) (@unfetteredfreedom)

Mika ("Archive that may be Blue") (@witchoftrinity)

Architect (Girls' Frontline) (@explosivedesire)

Fenie (Granblue Fantasy) (@sourceoftheflame)

Miyoi Okunoda (Touhou) (@geidonteispostergirl)

"Sparkle" (Honkai Stars Rails) @sparklingsplendor

Hiroi Kikuri (Bocchi the Rock) (@sickhackbassist)

My OC Protag from Armored Core 6 "Raven" (@echoesofcoral)

Beyond that I'm always in Discord if you just want to chat or anything else. You can also find me on twitter where I rant about the most craziest things and cry when my favorites in gachas actually get content (it doesn't happen often). Other then that I have no idea how to end this so here's a picture of my dog

anyway I think I've ranted long enough. Looking forward to talking with everyone more and anyone else who is willing to put up with my muses!"

[ashenmind]

Spider Touhou Results

Here I have the results from the little test we did. Figured I'd post them since folks were kind enough to help out with that (special thanks to 140, who answered the survey over 1000 times). Full results may take a few posts, but without further ado...

The Top 8 Most Spidery Touhous (as decided by a fairly limited sample size)

#1 and 2 belong to Yamame and Joon, who managed to win 88.5% and 81.3% percent of their matches, respectively. No great surprise that a literal spider would top the chart, but a bit unexpected that Joon would be joining her in the 80+% category. Guess those big goggles do her no favors in this category.

#3, 4, and 5 belong to Parsee, Nue, Chiyari, all in the mid-70% range. Nue continues the appearance trend, but the other two seemed to rely more on abilities and lifestyle (both quite toxic). After all, there can only be so many characters that actually look like spiders.

Continuing the trend of Former hell dominance, Koishi and Satori poetically take slots #6 and 7. Is it their eyes, the weird tendril-things, or do people just think spiders live underground and have psychic powers?

Lastly, coming in with a 70% win rate for #8 is Shinki. I got nothing for this one I'm afraid. I'll assume the voters know what their talking about here.

After this, the results start to plateau (at least until the lower values, which I'll get to next), but two honorable mentions include Yukari, who arrived at #10 and Reimu, who managed to win exactly 50% of her matches.

Stay tuned for the "losers" and the full results!

[lunastars21]

My god would ya believe me if I said clutch is way more underrated than fang! Cuz I can't find shit about this Opossum and he's in recent comics!

Welp time to change that

Clutch headcanon time

He's obviously a boomer, He WAS legit in retirement when he first appeared in IDW, but now he's building his empire again, still also focusing on Chao racing as a lil bonus.

I'd like to think after the whole Amy and friends fiasco he does treat chaos a bit better, would the ones he trapped never Wana get near him again? Yeah sure he doesn't care, Chao races are the least of his importance now, plus less trouble for him, but at least some new ones would get better treatment.

Did he adopt rough and tumble? Yes, he doesn't admit it but shows it through action, they do speak louder than words after all

Whenever he recalls his past, it's a visualization of a 60's like anime where he's much younger.

Rough and Tumble try to catch him up with memes, but since the duo is always late with the trends, so is clutch. He's beraly hearing about the Dr. Livesey meme and it's already been months now guys come on.

Clutch and Fang have a mutual friendship, they'll help each other, and once the mission is done they go their separate ways, Clutch states Fang still has much to learn.

Besides his FUCKING cane gun, clutch knows to hand to hand combat, using his tail as another way of attacking, he also uses it to choke his enemies and practically strangle them to death.

Clutch takes care of his giant bear robot, he knows some machinery but isn't really an expert, still the robot gets all the recent upgrades.

Clutch sometimes accidentally rhymes his name with words, Rough and Tumble tease him about it and he just pushes them away.

He enjoys going to fancy diners, concerts, and museum's in his spare time (yes I watch bumblekast QNA how ya know)

Everytime a holiday comes up, wether it's their birthday or Christmas or something, rough and tumble always argue and waste the day away. This has led to clutch having to separate them and calm them down before they break something, but the duo make him participate in whatever the holiday is so they won't fight for the rest of the day (example: getting clutch into random blind dates on Valentine's day, making him join the bros in the bouncy house on their birthday, snowball fight with them in the snow during Christmas!)

Clutch does smoke and drink, he on occasions gets high but that's rare

Clutch has many different kinds of coats that he wears, his favorite mostly being the grey one you first see him in, plus they make him look taller

Rough says Gif, Tumble says Jif, Clutch says it like an acronym: G.I.F

Clutch is a good balance with physical actions and smarts, but since he's older his fighting is a bit weaker than It used to be, but his marksmanship is still sharp!

He's still trying to understand how modern phones work, so he mostly has a flip phone

In his past he wasn't a wealthy kid, beraly scrapping by and taking as much from the street, but then one day he ran into a casino, he only had a few cents and couldn't really gamble much, so he decided to play one game of poker and then head home. It turned out he was very good at most of the games and manage to collect so much money, his life changed after that. Making deals, killing whoever double crosses him, and always getting away Scott free, His family was never poor again.

Most of Clutch's family members have either passed away or went on their own adventures and hasn't seen them since, now he focuses on passing his knowledge to the skunk brothers...well...try too.

That's all I got for this guy! Made him a complete dad figure but still very dangerous, man has taken out tons of heroes for crying out loud! I hope to see him more in the comics and that he gets more people into his fanbase :3

[ipsogender]

My journey to using "perisex" to referring to non-intersex people

My project for myself this evening was to sit down and think through the different terms for not-intersex so that I could just pick one, be consistent, and also be satisfied that my choice had an actual rationale that I could explain to others. (TLDR: I landed on perisex.)

So likely this is because I'm not American but it wasn't until I joined tumblr and started lurking in the intersex tags that I encountered the term perisex. I'd only ever encountered endosex used in meatspace, and dyadic I'd seen in glossaries but not actually used in any text I'd read.

And I like endosex, honestly. My formal science training has me feeling like endo is a better contrast to inter than peri is.

(Google trends confirms my sense that perisex is an Americanism. Endosex appears to be the more common search term in the rest of the world.)

But what has tipped the scales for me in sitting down and trying to reason out a choice so I can be consistent, is that endonormative as a term is already taken. Linguists have been using it for something completely different for ages and it's just going to clash.

Similarly "endo" on its own also has a lot of ambiguity in the queer community - usually I see it as shorthand for endocrinologist. There's also ambiguity with endogenic systems.

In contrast, perinormative only ever gets used to talk about how society expects a non-intersex body. Perisex might be a newer word than endosex but from the google trends it's catching on, becoming the more searched of the two since 2022.

As for dyadic - I've never liked it. Again this is probably my science training here but to me dyadic means a pair, a group of two. It to me implies that humans come in pairs - male and female - and this pairing is needed to form a complete dyad.

To me "dyadic" as a term implies that: 1. People are incomplete without a het pairing (single people are valid!). Hearing intersex people refer to perisex people as "dyads" to me really drives this home, like the perisex people exist only to get paired off with some other person to be complete. 2. Only perisex people can be in a pairing (intersex people can be in relationships!) 3. Only perisex people can reproduce (many intersex people can!) 4. Species with sexual reproduction can only ever have two sexes (nope! There are species that have only one sex that can reproduce sexually, there are also many nifty fungi out there with more than two sexes)

None of that sits well with me. I also just don't like it for symmetry reasons - we contrast heterosexual with homosexual, transgender with cisgender, it just seems weird to me to buck the trend and contrast intersex with dyadic?

And because it doesn't follow those trends we can't leverage similar language for other queer identities. Perisex and endosex let us start talking about perinormativity/endonormativity easily and leverage what people already know about cisnormativity and heteronormativity. Dyadic doesn't have that.

So, finally, I think I've figured out for myself that the term I'll be using from here on to refer to non-intersex people is perisex. 🙌 It's got some nice morphological qualities while also being distinct enough that it won't be confused for other terms (e.g. endocrinology, endogenic systems).

[chromorbid]

If you get this, answer with 3 random facts about yourself and send it to the last 7 blogs in your notifications, anonymously or not!

i just got so emotional over old ask chains bc of this, god you remember those days????? in 2012-2016 when this was a thing all the time and people had so much fun learning about one another and making friends??? i just happened to be looking at tags on my ollllllld second blog right before seeing this too. that feels a bit serendipitous, dont you think? :')

instead of just "3 random facts" i think i'll use this ask as a springboard prompt for a brief history of my time here on this website, since a lot of folks are returning and it might be nice to come out and see what some of my old lost chums might be up to now.

In mid-2011 i joined tumblr because i realized all my favorite dA artists were posting on dA less and on here more. I didn't do much here until i encountered a piece of fanart of a character from a certain webcomic, got curious about that comic, enjoyed it, and discovered that there was a big community on tumblr who liked it! my first ever URL was.... man i don't really remember! Maybe something reflecting my dA name at the time? But i don't remember what that was then either, having deleted that account ages ago. but i think my second one was "gamzeecryingalonewithpie" or something to that effect because the "laughing alone with salad" stock photo meme was big. It was so silly.

Eventually i trended into making all my urls/handles some sort of pun having to do with death, and some years ago i settled on my current url for a twitter handle because it really hit me in a place. My best friend and currently roommate @mossspores came up with it!

Anyhow, i basically spent all my time on tumblr being comparatively insufferable from 2011 to about 2017 before i migrated the majority of it to twitter. At the moment, I actually keep looking at all my archived posts from my old blog trying to find some old OC stuff and being ridiculously embarrassed at how silly (ignorant? abrasive? entitled?) my young self was. I'm not certain about sharing my olllllld URLs besides the one from before, but probably my most famous one was "ammodramus"--I was bestowed the nickname "Ammo" for the longest time and probably gained the most followers during the run of that one. I think the most followers i ever got up to was somewhere around 700 on my first blog and close to 1,800 on my second one. (funny now, i've had this particular blog probably the longest out of the three and barely have over 100. i like this better, though.)

Now for the BIGGEST thing i was part of....i was really into the whole once-ler fandom craze. yeah. i was there on the ground floor, and basically became one of the biggest enablers of the ask-blog phenomenon. i even tried really hard to make my own of the "personification" blogs eventually, but it fell down flat because i was in a dark place mentally on the side while also dealing with the gradual degradation of my physical ability to draw (aka painful arthritis). But i had the most fun i had ever had online before in the thick of it. i made toooons of friends and i even still keep in touch with a few of them. There were a lot of mistakes and upsetting blunders made by myself and a lot of people i knew, but these days i think i'm generally okay outing myself as having been a part of it. i mean, it's been ten goddamn years since that kicked off after all. lmfao. i was also an ignorant teenager.

Now you'll just see me skulking about on here vaguely while reblogging posts in short bursts because i still never took to figuring out how queuing posts works best. For a long-ass time i had a tagging system i took VERY seriously and trigger-tagged religiously. when i remade to my third and current blog, i gave that up and BOY did my mental health suddenly improve or WHAT. i realized i'd been absolutely running myself ragged with caring about appearances and making sure as often as possible to upset NO ONE with my posts. Basically, the way that simply analyzing every single post i shared and making sure to cover ALL my bases to make sure no one felt irked by my sharing of a post, was, uh. To put it mildly, fucking exhausting. And i posted A LOT. I can guarantee i had to have cumulatively reblogged nearly half a million posts between those two accounts. Last i checked on just my second blog, the pages went back into the 10,000s.

so yeah! hi to anyone who read through this whole thing who i knew way back when! I'm doing much better than i used to be, thanks to a lot of therapy and medication. i made it out of the house i grew up in, even the State i grew up in, and feel a lot less like i'm gonna die before 30! :') i've been chilling, playing final fantasy xiv, and eating lots of rice and vegetables. o/

thanks for the ask! <3

[felikatze]

Feli's Binding Blade Blind Faux Ironman is COMPLETE

and by "faux" i mean there were cases i didn't deliberatley reset but instead ragequit and i also just restarted chapters when roy beefed it because i'm a pussy

anyway.

SURVIVAL RANK E BABEYYYYYYYYYY

out of all of the dead. i have one burning question

how the fuck did lalum survive chapter 21

she got surrounded by wyverns but they just didnt attack her. was it bcuz their hit rate was 0? but enemies love attacking lugh when they have a hitrate of 0. good for her ig, you go girl, live!!

LET US THANK THE MAN, THE MYTH, THE LEGEND:

ALLEN!!! With maxed out attack, incredible defense, high speed and skill, as well acess to the full weapon triangle and amazing HP, Allen is the unit with the most battles, the most kills, and the singlehanded savior of this shitshow of a challenge run.

Without him, I'd be dead many times over. He had higher stats than Perceval when I recruited him in ch15, and this trend kept up because Perceval's level ups were garbage.

HONORABLE MENTIONS:

LUGH!! The best mage of this run. He maxed his speed INCREDIBLY fast, and became basically unhittable to everything. Place him on a forest tile, and the hit rate is zero. His high speed, 1-2 weapon range, and high magic also meant he blasted everything into oblivion on counterattack. In chapter 21, he held off half the wyvern reinforcements all by himself cuz none of them could touch him. Get Aircalibur'd, idiot.

ZEISS!! My only decent flyer because Shanna is the only pegasus i recruited! Instead of promo'ing instantly as I did Melady (much to my regret cuz she was not useful except for ferrying), I threw Allen at Narcian's runesword till it broke, and got him to lv16 before promoting. Though not as busted as the former two, he still held his own. With a Shield of Delphi stolen off Narcian, he had really damn good defense. Though there were many occasions he only survived because a 60% attack missed. You are one lucky bastard.

PERCEVAL!!! After the death of Noah and Jerrot, Perceval's recruitment was a light on the horizon. Finally I had another good paladin, even if it took Noah's sacrifice to figure out you recruit him with Lalum. Though he wasn't as good as Allen, he still held his own in every situation, and even landed the killing blow on Zephiel with Mallet. Thank you king.

SUE!!!! Rounding out the unbeatable death squad, Sue was the sole living archer for a GOOD chunk of the game. When Wolt died and later Shin, she was the one to snipe foes, to slay wyverns in a heartbeat, and land some sick crits with a Killer Bow. Not a solo destroyer like her companions, she was nonetheless an invaluable asset.

it was this squad of five that carried my ass through every map, with support from various healers (mainly Saul and Celica, later joined by Raigh, Niime and Lugh himself). Whittling down bosses, holding off hordes of enemies, somehow preventing Lalum from dying five times over, and finally taking the throne; I thank ye, my scrimblos.

now it is time. to honor the fallen.

unlike lalum, these two did not survive same turn wyvern reinforcements <3

just like him. but he was dead weight anyway so

i dont even remember how these two beefed it. i DO remember recruiting perceval in ch15 and then noah died and going eh. i have perceval now its fine. OH YEAH CH18 WAS THE SACAE MAP RIGHT? lot got skewered by archers

classic case of "i put too much faith in her def stat" with echidna. fir got crit to death in retribution for killing rutger back in ch9

honestly if you give me a lv1 shaman in a fog of war map with wyverns how was she supposed to live

Shin tragically died escorting Astore to some treasure as i camped the boss because of sudden reinforcements <3 Astore survived because i seized in time <3 jerrot died of old age ig

fog of war casualties <3 again rutger got crit by fir and lilina was killed by Suddenly Pirates

alas tumblr mobile's image cap.

Deke: died tragically to a crit in ch8. first loss i was truly upset by. deke my man.

Wolt: died to archers in ch7. i think. i had Sue so whatever

Elen: beefed it in ch12 but she was obsolete when Lugh promoted anyway

Wade: killed in ch3. First death of the run. I was very whatever about it.

FINAL DEATH COUNT: 16

This is without units who died of non-recruitment, such as Gonzales, Klein, and many others.

SURVIVAL RANK: E

conclusion: god i had a ton of fun with this game, even when it threw some garbage at me. The many same turn reinforcements, the fog of war maps, the sheer size of every single chapter, and Horse Emblem. The atrocious hitrates on everything and everyone, enemy and ally alike.

I definetly played too conservatively in the beginning. Yeah, i treated units like they were more expendable, but i did NOT use all my good items, which is a huge mistake in retrospect. What really taught me this was that one Sacae map with two Bolting mages camping in the walls, who sniped Roy. I came back, equipped with my own Bolting and a Silence staff, readily prepared. Revenge was glorious.

I obviously didn't get the true ending, with how many plot important characters died. My only legendary weapon, besides the ones Yoder yeets at you (thank you for the Mallet, Zephiel would've taken five years otherwise), was Durandal. I got none of the other ones, either cuz I missed turn counts or had dead required units. I'll for sure go back and try again, this time while looking shit up.

I very notably played this entirely blind. I didn't know shit. That's how me recruiting Perceval is a fucking miracle, cuz his goons surrounded Lalum, and I thought, goddamn, let's try it. Twas sheer coincidence.

This was my first brush truly experiencing the permadeath mechanic. Yeah, i played SoV on classic, but with Mila's Timewheel? Nobody ever died. It was really fun to just revel in my mistakes. I reset more often toward the endgame (ch22 took me a couple attempts), but it was still a great experience to just. Take the loss and move on. To think, what now? But, well, Lugh and Allen were unkillable anyway.

Well, no, actually, they very much were. Even though they were my juggernauts, it's not to the degree of later FE games. Lugh sweeping is definetly not comparable to say, Dimitri in FE3H, or Morgan in Awakening. No matter how good they were, I still had to pay attention to keep them alive. It was a fun tightrope to walk.

All in all, great game! I'm really glad I gave it a try! I didn't talk story much, cuz, yknow, it's pretty basic, but I did like it. Zephiel's backstory and the mystery surrounding the dragons were done well enough.

TL;DR: Roy is our boy.

[gnirewolf]

Bought the far cry bundle during the summer steam sale. Started with far cry 3. The only game I'd played prior was far cry 3 blood dragon, so I figured that would be the engine where I'd find the most comfort. Here's my retrospective review:

Story: when I first started playing, I did fall in love with my version of the story. The character writing and performance on Vaas, the main enemy for most of the game, is top tier, iconic, and compelling. There's a reason people remember his definition-of-insanity speech, and that reason is because it's fucking moving. I think every other character starts ok and ends either nothing or Bad. I did not like the ending, and I did not like Hoyt as a character. Hoyt is like an actual real corporate Boss type character. Also I chose the Save ending rather than the Join ending because the romance arc made no sense.

Gameplay: the biggest thing to mention here is the massive rift between open world activities and story missions. Nothing in the open world really matters to the story, and a lot of the story missions are in their own levels anyways that are not accessible in the open world. The mark of a bad open world system is not even being able to revisit the place where u did the thing. Also the gunplay was meh, vehicle driving was funny and was fun bad, and the crafting was fun the first 6 hours when I had things to craft but ignorable for the last half of the game. The game was more of an action game than an RPG, which is bad when there's a skill tree and levelling system. They lock out skills in the tree behind story missions which feels Horrible. I did enjoy the animals though. Also I enjoy the mindless number-go-up of outposts and towers.

Takeaways: I enjoyed the game, I'd probably play it again, but I now understand why this game faded with time along with the sequels not having much impact: in a sea of open world games, a few gimmicks, a few style choices, and a few good character performances can tip the scales, but at the end of the day, if ur gameplay is chasing a trend, the best it can be is the best in a genre that has gotten stale.

Reduction: 6 out of 10 where 2 points are directly from Vaas

I'll update u all when I complete another game. Up next is likely 4.

[jaythelay]

Finally pushed through and beat RE4 Remake.

It's uh, a 7/10 overall. Sneaking micros however drops it to 6/10 for me and unpurchasable.

Shooting range sucks.

Ashley AI miserably poor.

If ya enjoyed something, it was on the chopping block at some point, guarantee some devs had guns to their head as they stood in defiance of corporate just to keep half the mechanics, I mean, shit, inventory management barely survived, and that alone knocked 2 points off for me initially.

Crows are pointless and horribly Everything. They respawn drop nothing and overall serve no purpose other than to waste ammo.

I'm so fuckin' tired of companies forcing these garbage pop songs in their titles, especially the ending sequence. Why, oh god why, date your ending in the year it was released? Embarrssing. Terrible song on it's own too, nothing fits any of the themes of the game or RE or any game or anything it's just shit. Even typing while listening all I can think is, fuck me did they even play the game??? What's compelling this god awful trend? It's not like games of old did this shit with their modern music, and when they did it was usually done in variable amounts of quality and fitness, but this just makes you ask, did anyone have any respect for the thing they spent so long on? Long answer, after Ashley joins in, it's all downhill from there, wouldn't surprise me if the ending was rushed considering that helicopter turn was PS2 era quality.

The first 3-5 hours are solid 9/10, but it dramatically drops and raises in quality. Having Ashley be designed to be downed all the time is a tell-tale sign of poor work, especially in comparison to RE4 where she hardly was ever a hindrance.

Ada's voice actress is bafflingly bad. I can't tell if it's that the VA has never seen a microphone before, or if the director told her to intentionally sound as bad as possible. Either way, it's bottom tier. RE1 had intentionally bad acting, even if not, all of it works with each other and no one is specifically bad due to it. It's all apart of the damn goofy atmosphere. I've heard MLP comic dubs in 2011 better than her honest to GOD. Survivor is better. All of it, than her acting.

There's also alot to like, I'd be lying if I said I didn't have a smile alot throughout, but sifting through alot of mediocre and bad makes it difficult to really say "Aw man, I wanna play this again!" like RE4 did and still does. I like that there's different kinds of knives with a durability system, oddly. But the second my main knife broke? In the box it goes, because I was always given another knife soon after anyways. So instead of it being cool, it's just...kinda there. Kitchen knives were genuinely cool because I figured I'd be using all sorts of random knives and they'd expand upon the inventory management with different shaped and sized knives but nah, they did nothing with inventory management and I'd argue they removed it entirely. I don't even think that'd be an argument it's just a fact.

In being able to put up weapons and parts, you no longer need to even think about your inventory anymore. Inventory full? Put up the sniper rifle, because that's the Only Weapon you'll never need to put up, because otherwise you'll Never fill up but the one or two times. This, also, sucks because even if they didn't make filling your inventory up impossible, and putting shit up in the box LITERALLY ANYWHERE a thing, you'd still have the problem of Auto-Sort. Which just Kills inventory management entirely. In fact it kills the inventory screen entirely.

Really think of how often you were in your inventory in RE4? Was it too often? It could be argued that being able to bind weapons and such to certain keys would've been an improvement, but the fact is, the inventory was like your personal safehouse. You bought weapons based on usability and if it could even fit, and if it was worth devoting that much space to it. This, was fun, because it meant your choices actually mattered in some regard to Purchasing, Saving, Damage Output/situational usage, and Inventory Management.

All of those are dead. Because none of it matters anymore. You can purchase every weapon and upgrade and not even feel the difference between any decisions you make anywhere.

Worst of all is the ammo management, which I actually think they handled well in terms of being low on ammo, but never out of ammo. However you're almost always going to be using your pistol because everything else almost NEVER gets ammo. Especially the Rifle like my god why even put an assault rifle in the game??? I never had a full clip on that gun...

I absolutely adore the treasure system and that they have little side-job activities. Expanding on the Blue Medallions by having other sorts of things, I like that Spinels can be used to purchase side stuff though they don't really prepare you for it. Not enough Spinels for everything and you need them to get exclusive upgrades to your weapons, and since you start at 30 for one, go up to 40, I imagine you're going to need Several Playthroughs to finish every weapon. Which is just...miserable sounding.

But all the good gets bogged down by the bad. The amount of times this game just put me in a foul mood and then didn't give me a place to save is astounding. Like man, you can't tell me you didn't know the game was shit here, co-operate with the player if you're not going to fucking fix it.

All the boss fights are...weaker. How do I put this, there's A LOT more to it now, new fights entirely. But when you're just...doing the exact same thing you've been doing, which is...very weird to say in relation to anything RE especially RE4, it doesn't feel like anything. Midget dude is forgettable in design because he's so damn generic looking. He needs that hat man. Otherwise he looks forgettable even in boss form. Cool that he's moving around and doing stuff but I do not remember what he looked like, but I can DRAW RE4's midget man.

Regardless, that bossfight was initially cool, but all you're doing is waiting for a chance to hit an opening while running around aimlessly and pressing the dodge button here and there.

If I had to say, it's 2 things: Too Short, One Phase that's Too Long. Midget man took way too long to find openings, he only has the one phase, so it's just an extended period of doing the exact same thing from the start. However since it's just the one phase, this makes it feel incredibly short, at some point every boss fight I just said 'That..was it? That was it..." Krauser especially. It's just not...fulfilling. All the extra stuff is grand, I love it, genuinely, but the game feel ain't there.

Like I'm not fighting Krauser or Midget man, I'm just fighting another enemy that looks cooler than the others. That's how it feels to me even when ALL the extra shit is genuinely? Superb, great! Just not...fulfilling. Too short, one phase, and that phase lasts too long. That's a bizarre problem to have that RE4 did not have.

Aiming is oddly better than RE2RE, but not better than RE4 in many ways. I almost never miss a shot in RE4 when I take my time on something, but RE4RE is ridiculous, Many times bullets go THROUGH enemies or objects, I can tell you that for a fact because it happened multiple, multiple times where it was a body shot, perfectly still, and NOTHING hit, no bullet decals, no blood, nothing. Same with the shitty shooting range targets. Doesn't happen in RE4.

What really made RE4 great was all the I-Frames, and vulnerable frames of enemies YOU make. RE4RE kind've retains some of the vulnerable aspect, but the I-Frames have been severely nerfed. In it's place is...I guess parrying? Eh. I almost never get it to activate and even when I do I easily could've avoided the damage WITHOUT wasting Knife Resources.

This easily could've been 10/10, but Crapcom has to find ways to shit on the creatives, like waiting til everyone's reviews were out to sneak microtransactions in. Imagine being the developer that found that out after you poured your soul into this. Like, yeah, thanks Crapcom for making yourselves even more money and us literally none. Thank you for taking the piss out of OUR work.

I'd definitely say it's soulless in comparison to RE4, but it's not soulless on it's own merit, but potential isn't enough anymore. They've had since RE4 with it's continually repeated format, from RE5-RE6, the remakes, and endless ports, this should've been a homerun, instead it feels like a homerun that hit a bird and fell into the pitcher's mitt. Miraculous, but disappointing.

Disappointing because this is it. There will never be another RE4, nor RE2/RE3. They dropped the ball hard as shit because throughout it all, Crapcom's executives STILL had to finger the dish before it could be served. Great games are beneath the corporate filth, but even the greatest sculpture will have imperceptible fractures that allow filth to seep in and ruin the whole of it.

So close. So damn close. Don't recommend it other than "legally" from dodi brodi. Trust me the only thing you're missing out on is a shitty trainer mod and being smacked in the mental health with company created addictions being foisted upon you.

[cidthesquid]

The origin of this account! Answering Questions+ Quick Update 03/26/24

Quick Update 03/26/24 + The origin of this account!

Hello all, It's been a while since my last post, so I figured I'd post a short update regarding new content.

In short I'll continue to update this blog when something of note happens in Style Savvy Trend setters, but it's still been pretty quiet/slow, and with FF7:Rebirth out soon, my progress will be slow. ---

Also, I'd like to take some time to respond to a few questions that were sent in. For some reason, I can't see my question inbox, so I'll just be making a short reply based on what showed up in the email preview.

Since, I'm not sure if this person is comfortable with me sharing their name, So we'll just call them 'sender', and I'll 'find and replace' it later if they're okay with me sharing it.

Anyways, 'sender' mentioned that they have a two-week wait before they can post comments. I did not know tumbler had a wait system like that. I'm still fairly new here.

From what I've seen 'like' and 'reblogs' are the most common forms of interactions, so comments are pretty rare, (Fairly different from other social media.)

I've actually been a bit hesitant to comment on others posts because of this. (don't want to rock the boat) But anyone is free to comment here, and I'm open to constructive criticism as well. So if you have an idea of how an outfit could look better (in the style I'm going for) feel free to let me know!

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'Sender' Also mentioned various setups I could use to make playing ' MODEL Debut 3' easier. Holding up my phone to my pc screen was very uncomfortable, so their suggestion of using a phone tripod setup would have helped a lot, if I go back to the game, I'll give it a shot!

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'Senders' Third message mentioned how they'd been enjoying reading through the content I'd been posting, including both the game commentary, and the sections that tied it into some of my related personal stories.

And that really meant a lot to me, I honestly considered just switching to 'Outfit of the day' style posts, as in a comment-lite platform like this, it was hard to see what from the content people enjoyed most.

This is why I started front-loading a lot of the outfit pics, After posting them, I'd add a line or two about what happened that day (in-game) as a quick summary, then I'd say "hmm, maybe I should explain a little more about thought process behind the outfit", followed by "ok, but wow, X was done way better (or worse) here compared to Fashion Forward", and next thing I knew hour and hour had passed, XD

As for the little personal stories and connections to my experiences with fashion, and why these games mean so much to me, that has its own story behind it, (buckle up!)

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The short version is, a few years back I was looking for a way to try to practice being more social, and open about stuff. Normally people would just post online to do that, but I'd been using the same online name since high school, so most the people I knew IRL new it, and it was used on all my social media/online games.

And as it was prime covid time, everyone I knew irl was at home on social media, so any post on my normal social media would likely actively promoted to the people, who I did not really want to see it.

So I figured a 'fresh slate' would be the best way to practice being more social, without having to worry about what people thought about me!

It sounds kinda crazy now, but I ended up making a new discord twitter, reddit and steam account, tumbler was honestly just an afterthought, as I hardly ever used my main tumblr.

So I played some online game, joined some discord groups, and followed and messaged people on twitter…

…and after the first year, I was borderline right back where I was before. Still second guessing everything I post, leaving tons of replies in the drafts, and while I had 'mutuals', there were just other people I followed so I could get more of the content I already enjoyed, there was no real connection outside of a quick reply here or there.

I spent so much time thinking "oh I'm just not comfortable with these IRL people", that simply having a new 'pool' of people to interact with would fix all my social issues, and while I did feel a little more comfortable talking about a wider range of topics with these new people, I'd still feel held back in many of the same was as before.

Every action had to be fueled by multiple layers of second guessing.

"I like this art, I should tell them…well they probably already hear that all the time, it won't matter" "I Also like the thing they're talking about, but they're WAY more interested, so I can't really add much to the conversation" "I really like that outfit/artwork, but it is a tiny bit suggestive, so would that sound creepy coming from a guy?"

…and much more. Addintally, when I often have trouble wording things in a natural sounding way, I'd have to worry about not just 'what' I said but "how I said it" And with multiple questions behind each action, just like with my main account, I just stopped interacting.

And it really took a lot of positive exposure to situations for me to be able to see, sometimes the intent matters almost as much (or sometimes more) than wording.

I've already gone into details on the process here, and in my reddit post prior to posting on tumblr.

But in short, playing in the fantastic Final Fantasy XIV community, gave me a lot of great places to experience this.

You could get carried through a dungeon by a tank that only speaks in the 3rd person, or get great healing from a cat girl, who's every single message contains at least one cat-related pun.

How they presented that help, did not matter, it's the fact that they were willing to help. And you could also look however you wanted, Even if that meant you were protected by a 2.5' very angry munchkin of a tank, people would just roll with it.

Style Savvy was just as helpful, I may never understand modern fashion or trends, But if someone comes into my shop asking to look a specific way, I get to help them achieve their ideal image!

I got to explore a small section of the fashion world, without having to worry about "well, technically that's out of season" or "ooh, that was IN last year, but now it's OUT", or "Why am I dressing this person that way, what would they really want?"

I just got to have fun living in my own little fashion cubbyhole, a comfortable little cutout with only the parts I enjoy.

And Fashion Forward had such a big impact on me, I just really had to share it, so I made the above reddit post, I kept playing and kept enjoying the game, and started sharing my thoughts here as well, as it's much better for images than Reddit.

And just like with playing the games, over time I started sharing more of my thoughts, and eventually explaining "why" I felt specific ways about some parts, it felt fairly uncomfortable at first, but I remember just telling myself, "It's still topical, and if they've gotten this far, they kinda know what there getting into",

My main concern was not making anyone uncomfortable, or upset

but still trying to be open, and I think I've managed to strike a fair balance. As in general, I want this blog to be more about my adventure with fashion, rather than simply sharing screenshots, or just me venting. And even if a majority of people are here for the screenshots, it still means a lot that others are interested in my content!

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Anyways you all for reading, hopefully this little look inside the creation of the channel was insightful! (I have to head start work, but I'll do a quick edit pass later) I still have a long ways to go when it comes to 'social improvements' , but I feel I've made a ton of progress in the last year or so. These games have helped far more than my 'dramatic social media change', and now I'm getting some external support to manage as well!

And while I won't yet be providing exact details of my situation, Questions and comments are always open!

[romanoffsbish]

…Or Not

WandaNat x Fem!Reader

Y/N's POV

Did I say mission accomplished?

Well—record scratch—I spoke too soon.

The mission had started off so smoothly, if you ignore the clear obsession the gay girl-bosses have with me, and all their flirting.

Nat and I have worked really well together, and have cut the expected six months down to the two months. We have got the blueprints for the weapons, and have hacked the system to remove all traces from Hydra. We found and already extracted the weapon itself, replacing it with a decoy. Now we're just tying up some lose ends.

Nat and Wanda left me alone for the night, something about Steve getting a lead on something he "needed" them to see.

Which is how we get to where we are now...

        ~~~~ 5 hours ago~~~~

"Baby, we have to go back to the compound for a few days. So you stay here, occasionally show your face, but don't interact with those sleeze-balls." Nat state's matter of factly, giving me a quick peck to my lips.

"If anything happens push the arrow on your necklace, and we'll be back in no time..." Wanda asserts while making sure to stare me down, causing me to shudder under her gaze.

"Do we make ourselves clear?" Nat joins in with an even more intimidating gaze.

"Stooop! I'm not a baby, I'm a fully capable adult, and an Avenger in case you've forgotten." I whine.

"Baby we know, we just don't trust the weasels across the hall. We have no real clue why Steve's having us come back and leaving you, but I'm sure it's so this place isn't left unguarded." Nat replies, clearly a ball of nerves.

I stood up and gripped her shoulders, locking eyes with her and gave her a light shake.

"Calm down my love, breath, I'll be okay."

They both exited, but not without sweet kisses goodbye.

        ~~~~ Present Time~~~~

Currently I find myself tied up to a chair, which would normally be fine—welcomed actually. That would require my consent, and my girls though, which makes this current situation nauseating.

I'm in a dimly lit room, I assume the basement of the apartment judging by the chilly temperature, and because I'm under the impression Lilly and Monica are rather stupid.

Lilly is currently straddling me...

"You're so pretty." Lilly coos while tracing her finger across my jaw, I recoil my head back as far as I can, trying to pull back.

"You're annoying." I growl, receiving a slap

"Ah, ah... Be a good girl." Lilly whispers, then grabs my jaw and forces her lips against mine, then she goes to get off, leaving a bitter taste in my mouth.

If this was Wanda and Nat, I promise you I'd be thriving, but currently this is just pure torture.

"You see, Monica and I knew pretty quickly that we wanted you... So, we had to find a way to get you alone. We noticed this trend where your 'wife' never left you alone, so we created a diversion. Tonight we're meeting with Hydra to give them your little decoy, then before they put it all together, you, Mon and I will be gone." She giggles mischievously while clapping her hands.

"So, what's the plan then? Leave me tied up for the rest of my life? The two of you could never take me without your little gas—rope combo, not to mention my beautiful redheads will have you within the hour." I seethe.

"They'll never find us."

I couldn't help the laugh that flew out of my mouth.

"You're just as dumb as you look. You figured out who we are, and don't expect them to find me? I really had hope that you guys would've been harder to beat, but gosh it was too easy."

"Sweetheart, we let you win... The bigger game had you as the trophy, so we forfeited the other."

"Lily, stop talking! Let's go get ready." Monica shouts into the room.

"See you later baby." Lily winks at me, then as she goes to leave she punches me in my gut, then she grabs a metal bar, and hits me with it under the knees, then again in my head to knock me out.

         ~~~~ 3 hours ago~~~~

Nat's POV

Wanda and I just arrived to the compound to find Steve has apparently received a tip about another pending mission we had been working on.

"Steve, what's the reason this couldn't wait?" I question impatiently, having this gut feeling like something is wrong.

"Well, the mission you're working on is basically over. Three days from now and you guys will be all tied up. This is more pressing."

He commands.

"No, it actually isn't, you had us abandon Y/N all by herself. She's across from those women." I cringe, trying my best not to shout.

"Agent Y/L/N can handle herself just fine. If she can't then maybe she isn't as good a fit as Fury said she was." He states

"Oh God... That's what this is about? She bruised your fragile ego three months back and now you want her to fail?" Wanda gasps, clearly having read Steve's mind.

"No! That's absolutely not the case." Cap lazily tries to argue

"If something goes wrong for her, I'll have your head. I swear to God Steve, —."

As they continue to shout I feel my phone buzz.

Lovergirl

*Shit!*

*Gas!*

*I love you*

Then my arrow bracelet starts to sound off, causing Wands to look at me in pure terror.

"It was a setup!" I shout while grabbing my jacket and preparing to leave.

"Shit, a false lead?" Wanda questions, following me.

"Wait! Come back, we weren't." Steve tries, but stops as I turn and accidentally hit him with my widow bites.

Wanda's POV

Nat's currently flying the quinjet while I sit in the copilot seat, and try to focus on Y/N.

Trying my hardest to connect to her.

*Baby girl*

*Can you hear me?*

*Please...*

"Baby... I - I can't feel her." I begin to lose my composure, and start to cry.

"Shh... They wouldn't kill her. That Lilly b*tch is too obsessed with her. She's probably knocked out, or we're just not close enough. She's okay!"

"I hope you're right." I say as I grasp her hand in mine.

Nat's POV

As I look at my tracking device it shows that

Y/N is still at the apartments. So either these girls are grade A idiots, or her necklace fell off. So I check my secondary device, the chip I might've put in her arm, and it turns out they are indeed idiots.

"I knew we shouldn't have left her! Steve's an arrogant asshole. Regardless of what happens, I'm throwing him into a wall." Wands growls.

"Wall, mat, front of my corvette, regardless of how, his ass is done for. I promise you that !" I growl

We have cut the 2.5 hour travel time into an hour... As we land on top of the apartments we put it into incognito mode then transcend into the building.

Wanda's POV

*Y/N! Baby do you hear me?*

"Nat, she's not responding, but I definitely feel her." I cry out

"I told you love, she promised us she'd be okay." Nat chokes out.

Nat grabs my hand and pulls me into her embrace and says

"Let's take a quick breath, we're no good to her if we're panicked."

I nod against her chest, breathing her in and then I pull back to just get a good look at her.

"I love you Nat." I whisper.

"I love you too Wands." She whispers back then pulls me into a sweet kiss.

"Now let's go save our girl, yeah?" She breaths out, while dragging me towards the door.

"I love a good damsel in distress." I laugh out.

Y/N's POV

I wake up feeling like I'm falling apart, she definitely shattered something in my legs.

I can feel my head throbbing, I can feel blood slowly drying to my face, and I can taste it in my mouth.

*Y/N*

Ow... That hurts

*Baby, can you hear me?*

*shh... It hurts.*

*Love, we need you to help us find you. Please...*

*It's cold, and dim down wherever I am. I think I'm underground.*

*Like a basement?*

*Yes*

*Ok.. Now what hurts?*

*Everything*

*We're coming baby.*

I'm not sure how long I was out, but judging on the state of the blood it's been at least an hour.

I was starting to feel woozy, and my consciousness was going in and out, then I heard a crash, hoping it was my girls.

"You miss us baby girl?" Lily questions in a faux sweet tone.

Hearing her voice only causes me to groan in response.

"Mon and I have to pack your bag, but I wanted to check on you. Make sure you didn't make an escape ... I'm so happy you know who you belong to."

I try to speak, but before I can give a snarky response she slaps me in my face directly over my open wound causing me to hiss in response.

"Oh love, that looks painful... Let me kiss you, and make it all better."

She goes to kiss me, then I see a blur of red, and then I see her body launch across the room.

"Wanda." I breath out before allowing myself to fall into a state of unconsciousness.

Nat's POV

Y/N passed out before we could even say anything to her and that has me ready to kill!

Lilly's been handled, but that slimy partner of hers hasn't been spotted yet... I'm hiding around the corner of the doorway, ready to take this snake out.

"Lilly, grab your bitch and let's go." I hear Monica shout into the basement.

Hearing her say that leads me to growl lowly.

"Lilly?" She shouts in question while descending down the stairs.

As she reaches the bottom I make my move, catching her in my web, and throwing her to the ground.

"Hello there, it was so lovely meeting you, but it's time for our goodbyes." I say before knocking her out.

Fury sent us a pair of agents to take these fools back to HQ, so that we can get Y/N back to Dr. Cho without a hitch.

"How is she ?" I frantically question, making my way towards my girls.

"She's stable, but God Nat... I want to kill these women!" Wanda coldly replies, with a flash of red floating through her eyes.

"I know baby, I do too! No one touches our angel and gets away with it."

"I looked in her mind, to see what her plans were, and to see what happened. Nat, she was straddling her and then she kissed her. Then as you can clearly see she beat her." Wanda whimpers.

At Wanda's revelation I felt this white hot anger surge through me. If not for Y/N's state, I would end her right here and now.

"We can do it later!" I conclude, lifting Y/N bridal style, and gently carrying her to the jet.

Y/N's POV

I wake up with a pounding in my head, and to my disservice I can hear people arguing.

"She's going to be okay, but we'll be keeping her here in medbay so someone is able to take care of her." I hear Bruce say

"No need, she'll be staying with us." I hear my favorite assassin assert.

"Why would she do that? My people are good at what they do, I'm not sure why Y/N needs to be with you guys." Bruce questions them.

"Well, for one because we left her all alone and she was attacked and left broken... So this is on us! Then there's also the fact that she's ours!" I hear my witch shout

"Yours? Since when do you guys own her?" Bruce angrily questions

"Since the moment I walked through the compound doors." I scratchily choke out.

They all immediately turn to me, my girls look absolutely defeated, but I also see the relief wash over them at the sound of my voice.

They all make their way over to me, Bruce checking my vitals, and my girls seeking my touch for reassurance.

"Baby, oh my gosh, you're okay.." Wanda cries, while burying her face into my neck, and I wrap my arm around her waist to hold her steady.

"Of course I am sweetheart. I promised I would be, and I don't break promises." I whisper into her ear, turning my head to place a kiss to the side of her temple.

I then extend my other arm out, and Nat knew immediately that is was for her, so she intertwined her hand with mine.

"Hey." I whisper while locking eyes with a teary eyed Nat, then I gently bring her hand up to my lips and softly kiss her knuckles.

She smiles down at me, and uses her other hand to wipe away any tears threatening to fall. Then she leans down placing her forehead against mine, and then she releases a sigh of relief.

We stay connected like this for a brief moment before we're interrupted by someone clearing their throat.

Wanda and Nat lift themselves up to look at who rudely interrupted us, never fully removing themselves from my space.

"What's this?" Cap asks, motioning to us.

"Love Capsicle, it's been obvious from the start." Tony states, making his way towards me. Well, until he heard Nat growl which caused him to step back, keeping his distance.

I couldn't help but giggle, and squeeze her hand after realizing Nat's most definitely not forgiven the flirting.

"No, I won't allow it." Cap states

Wanda and Nat both scoff, and I can see the anger within them rising.

"Funny, we were thinking the same, but about letting you live." Wanda seethes.

"Don't recall asking for your opinion Rogers." Nat laughs out.

"Last time I checked you don't dictate my personal life Rogers. You hardly have the capability to dictate the missions." I interject my two cents in.

"Not that it matters, but why do you not allow it?" Nat questions curiously

"It's wrong, you and Wanda are already together, and she clearly weaseled her way into your relationship." He replies angrily.

"Ha! We were the ones who pulled her into our relationship you blind idiot. She was nothing but respectful, we had to reassure her it's what we wanted. Mind your own relationships Rogers, or I guess the lack of relationships." Nat humorously replies.

"I actually think it's cause he asked me out a month before our mission and I turned him down."

"Wait, he wasn't on the list you gave." Nat states in a confused tone

"I kinda forgot about him." I awkwardly whisper

Both Nat, Wanda and Tony can't seem to contain their laughter and I can see that Cap is fuming.

"Funny how there's only three women in this compound and none of them want you." Tony laughs

"None of us want you either Stark." I laugh out.

"Oh, I know, but at least you didn't forget about me." He cockily replies.

"Can I kill them now?" Wanda whines impatiently.

"No baby, I need you guys not in prison."

"I can make it look like an accident." Nat whispers, but not all that well because they all look at us.

"Well that would've worked if you didn't just say everything out loud." I reply.

"Fury loves me, I can get us pardoned." Nat cheekily replies.

"How about you guys just take me to your room and we forget about them. I just want cuddles." I reply, giving me best pout.

"Our." Wanda corrects me and stares at me with the most loving gaze, and I make sure to return it.

"Whatever you want, you get detka." Nat replies while scooping me up and glaring at the boys as we walk out.

I couldn't help but smile up at her lovingly, as I cuddle into her.

"Well in that case..." I began before receiving a slight slap to my arm from Wanda.

        ~~~ 6 months later~~~

No One's POV

Everyone at the compound seemed to eventually come around to the relationship between the women. Most of them offering congratulations, the others were too afraid of the damage Nat and Wanda would cause to them if they were to even question it. They saw what happened to Cap and all reservations they had were replaced by fear.

Regardless of the acceptance, the women moved into their own home, on Tony's dime of course. He seemingly 'owed' them for even looking in Y/N's direction. Not that he would've said no to the purchase to begin with, as he loved them all as if they were his family.

Nat remained an essential avenger, while Y/N and Wanda decided to become part timers, showing up for crucial, end of the world style missions. The women so desperately wanted to start a family together, so they couldn't all stay in the fight. They decided to start off with a kitten, as Y/N felt she needed to give Nat a crash course on caring for a tiny creature first.

Y/N's currently carrying their first child, and with Bruce's help this baby will also be biologically Natasha's. When Nat realized she was going to be able to have back the dream that the Red Room had stolen she was in absolute hysterics.

All in all, the women were ecstatic, and most importantly, they were all right where they belonged—together.

Oh, and as for Lilly and Monica, they met their makers in the form of a delicious 'interrogation' held by the broody redheads. They will be residing on the raft until they depart to the other side.

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2,975 words... I hope you like this second part.

        ❤️Kaitlyn 🥺

[retrogradedreaming]

one and thirty-eight !!!

COREY MY BELOVED <3

1. First things first, did you have a good year?

Honestly? No. It was one of the worst years so far. It started off with a sinus infection and vertigo, and I spent most of the year with vertigo that I only learned a few months ago is from vestibular migraine. I'm still trying to figure out how to manage it and live with it without feeling frustrated and afraid all the time. It's essentially dominated my year, prevented me from doing things I love, made it difficult to maintain and grow my career, and made it hard to create and put effort into relationships. I haven't been able to do a lot of basic, simple shit I never had to think about before. I've only been able to seriously try and manage it for a few months now, after finding out what it is, and it's been fucking hard because improvement and change is so slow and uncertain with this, and I'm still frustrated and anxious most of the time. But it HAS improved over the past few months, and I'd like to think I'm on a positive trend (while still understanding that any sort of improvement is nonlinear).

And even though this year has been overall shit, there have been good things. I joined tumblr and made a few friends here. I started really learning how to create boundaries and enforce them. I've been doing a lot of creative things I didn't give myself time to do before, like drawing and writing for enjoyment. I've learned a lot about tarot and astrology and read a lot of people's charts and cards, which has been fun for both myself and them. So it's not all bad, but it's hard to remember much about this year because it's all sort of under a blanket of vertigo and fear.

38. What was the best moment of the year for you?

Awkward that I just went on about how terrible a year it was, haha. But since there weren't a whole lot of amazing moments, I'd say....idk, sort of little things but this year, little moments of happiness were big for me. Things like talking to you and Theo, sending you and Grace the tiny Reki and Cherry and hearing how much you liked them, the letter and friendship bracelet you sent me, starting to draw again without worrying about the quality of it, collecting ghosts from the York Ghost Merchants, Christmas with my family (because it was the first holiday in over a year that I went to and didn't have to leave early from)...honestly, I think Christmas was the best day this year. It made me so happy, and the whole week I actually went out and did things I hadn't done in a while (i.e. shopping). It was just a really nice week overall, and I love seeing people happy when I give them gifts, and everyone seemed super happy with theirs this year. I'm literally that meme of the kid with the coffee mug sitting on the couch when I give gifts. So yeah, just stuff like that. Oh, and I started growing vegetables even if they're really sad and haven't been growing much at all!

End of year ask game