#fuck dr. kennedy seriously

[pigley4]

whenever i’m feeling down i simply remember that crackers quoted the dead kennedys and my punk heart is warmed

[harringtonstilinski]

What Love Can Feel Like Pt.2 - Mitch Rapp

Author: @stilinskiparker Characters: Mitch Rapp x Reader Word Count: 4,583 Warnings: angst, pov switches, mitch getting his ass kicked twice Requested: Nope. A/N: Hi, friends! Here’s Pt.2!! Since I am doing based on the movie, there could possibly be more than 3 parts, like I originally planned. So, if you like this please don’t hesitate to reblog, comment, send something into my askbox. As always, read at your own risk and enjoy 😊

If you were to ask me 18 months ago what I would be doing with my life, I’d be lying if I said I was still working at the news station with my dad. After I stormed out of Mitch’s apartment, the article I was waiting on for approval on what happened on the beach was able to be posted.

I didn’t expect for it to get the traction it did, not going under the CIA’s radar. I was called about a month later to come meet with the CIA’s director, Director Thomas Stansfield, for a potential job interview. After I met with him, I was introduced to Deputy Director Irene Kennedy and Stan Hurley.

My mission once I accepted the job was to keep an eye on a potential recruit. Irene, who was one of my bosses, was helping me keep an eye on him. I didn’t know anything about him until I looked up at the big ass monitors we had from the file on the recruit in my hands. 

“Hey, Irene,” I said, brows drawn in. “This recruit sounds familiar to me. I think I know–” I stopped my words dead in their tracks when I saw Mitch on the screen in front of me. “What the fuck?”

From the corner of my eye, I noticed her looking at me. “You know him?” she asked.

I nodded. “We grew up together.”

“I’m taking you off this mission.”

I looked at her with pleading eyes. “Please don’t.” I looked back at the screen. “I need to see where this goes.”

He changed in the last 18 months. When I last saw him, his hair was short and face free of any facial hair. Now, his hair was longer, and he sported a beard. It was a new look that I wasn’t a big fan of, but I couldn’t let that jeopardize my job.

A message was opened on his computer, the other person asking if he’d go overseas, to which he basically said yes. This boy kept his computer open all the time with the same screen up, so we basically saw his every move. We also had cameras installed in his apartment one day while he was out.

I wasn’t allowed to go overseas with everyone else. When I asked Stansfield why I wasn’t allowed, he told me flat out it’s because of the fact that I knew Mitch. He did, however, tell me that I was going to go back to Stan, and stay at The Barn until they assign me a new recruit to watch.

Yes, I was trained by Stan. Yes, I knew about Orion. And, yes, I knew what the job withheld.

When I made it back to The Barn, Stan greeted me with a hug. He always said I was like the daughter he never had, and he took that title with me very seriously. He always protected me as if I was his daughter.

It would be a month before I saw Mitch again… in person.

~~~

THIRD PERSON POV

After the CIA killed Mansur and brought him back home to the States, Mitch found himself sitting at the same table in the same chair he’d been escorted to for the last thirty days, meeting with the same psychiatrist.

Sitting across from Mitch was Dr. Frain, who was trying to get through to him. “You wanted to kill them all, and then go on killing. Pretty extreme, don’t you think?”

Ever the smartass he is, Mitch replied with “No, I don’t think that’s extreme at all. I think people like that deserve to die in the worst ways you can imagine.”

Dr. Frain decided it was time to hit below the belt just a little bit. “You mentioned at one point about a girl you grew up with. Y/F/N Y/L/N. What do you think she’d think of you right now?”

Mitch shrugged, not wanting to talk about his best friend. The very person who he hadn’t talked to in over a year. “Not different than what I was 18 months ago. I mean, the last time we spoke I was an ass to her.”

He thought back to the very last conversation they’d had before she walked out of his life.

“I said I don’t need your help. Leave.”

Scoffing, Y/N replaced her purse on her shoulder, looking at him disappointedly. “Look, I get what happened on the beach was a fucking horrific thing to experience, but that doesn’t give you the right to be such an ass.”

“That piece of shit took everything from me,” he sneered. “So go back to your perfect little life and stay out of mine.”

Y/N was shocked at what just came out of his mouth. She couldn’t believe the words he just spoke to me, tears falling down her cheeks like a waterfall. “When you find my best friend, have him give me a call with an apology.”

“You won’t get one.”

“What do you remember about your parents’ death?” Dr. Frain asked, bringing Mitch out his thoughts.

“Car crash,” he answered. “I was in Massachusetts, they were in Tunisia at the time. I was 14. That’s what I remember.”

“You don’t remember living with Y/N and her parents?”

“Look, can we stop talking about her, please?”

“But you started having discipline problems,” Dr. Frain pushed. “Got yourself kicked out of three boarding schools.”

“Yeah, yeah, I know,” Mitch said. “I wonder what that was about.”

Pausing for a moment before hitting further below the belt, Dr. Frain said, “Let’s talk after that day on the beach.”

“Oh, my– again? Are you kidding me?”

“You gave up everything after that, didn’t you? Your grad studies at Brown University. The one thing you didn’t tell your best friend about.”

“I must’ve lost interest,” Mitch said. 

“In everything?”

“No. Not everything.” Mitch looked up at the camera, while putting his arms down that he had behind his head. He knew that someone was watching him.

Irene walked in the room a little while later, relieving Dr. Frain of his “interrogation” of Mitch.

“See you later, Dr. Frain,” Mitch said, pointing at the man. “Tomorrow? Same time?”

Irene replaced Dr. Frain in the chair across from Mitch, smirking a little. “I like the new look. I bet Y/N would like it, too?”

He sighed. “What is it with you two and bringing her up?”

“Irene Kennedy, CIA Deputy Director in charge of Counterterrorism,” she said.

“Yeah, I know who you are.”

“Any idea how long you’ve been here?” she asked, Mitch shaking his head. “30 days. Enough time for you to figure out a couple things.”

Having an idea what and/or who she was talking about, Mitch said, “Yeah, yeah. I’ve, uh, I’ve figured out a lot about myself. It’s been a very reflective time, thank you.”

Right out of the gate, Irene said, “You wouldn’t have made it through the next 20 seconds there alive.”

“I guess we’ll never know now, will we?”

“You told Dr. Frain you thought you were gonna kill Mansur and wipe out his whole cell,” she said. 

“For starters.”

“Mmm-hmm. You had an even bigger agenda, didn’t you, Mitch? What’d you think? You were gonna jump cell to cell taking out terrorists? Righting the world's wrongs?”

“Got to Mansur, didn’t I?” Mitch countered. “I mean, it’s more than you accomplished.”

“I’m gonna let you in on something,” Irene said. “Our people here, they don’t know what to do with you. A lot of them think we should just throw in a Supermax. Me? I like your agenda, Mitch. I can help you with it, if you throw in with us. Teach you how to play with the big boys.”

“Yeah, I’m gonna stop you right there. You don’t think I thought about that eighteen months ago? Joining the CIA? Two weeks after I lost my fiancee, plus my best friend forever? I made the decision to pursue Mansur on my own because I knew I could get it done.”

“What you need to understand, Mitch, is that I’m the only way,” she said. “To get what you want.”

“Why the hell would I trust you?” he asked.

“Because I believe in you.” Irene wanted so badly to use Y/N as an ultimatum, but decided against it. “And I’m all you’ve got.”

While Mitch sat on this decision to trust Irene or not, the Deputy Director went and spoke with her boss, Director Stansfield, about Mitch joining Orion. Stansfield gave her the good luck she needed with Hurley before instructing her to stay by her phone about the Russian plutonium situation.

Within a few days, Mitch and Irene were being driven to a secret location before she told him to take off his blindfold. Seeing nothing but trees around him, Mitch asked, “So, what do I need to know about this guy?”

“Stan Hurley,” she explained. “He’s a warrior. Ex-Navy SEAL. My daddy served with him in the Persian Gulf. Treats one of the recruits here like his own.”

“Did you go through this program?” Mitch wondered.

“I went through a program, just not this one,” Irene sighed. “It’s not like becoming a spy or Special Ops, none of those things.”

A muttered “good” coming from Mitch as his response. What Mitch didn’t know was that Stan Hurley was watching a surveillance video of him talking to Dr. Frain, his voice on the video saying, “My goals? My goal is to have them lie awake at night knowing I’m coming for them.”

~~~

FIRST PERSON POV

I heard barking outside, my head picking up at the sound. I closed my laptop and walked outside, seeing Stan and his dog standing by the stairs, him lighting up a cigarette. Once I heard a car door shut, I walked closer to the rails, resting my arms on it. 

“Well, well, well, look what the cat dragged in,” I smiled. “Hi, Irene.”

“Hello, Y/N,” she replied. “A bit cold?”

I looked down at my outfit; a pair of distressed high waisted shorts, a white crop top and a pair of black Converse, a leopard print cardigan on my shoulders to keep my arms warm. “Eh, not really.”

She chuckled, looking at Stan as he walked down the first set of stairs. “I thought you were supposed to be on the patch.”

Stan walked about halfway down the second set before Irene said, “You saw those tests.”

“Yeah,” he said. “I saw them.”

“He’s off the charts.”

“Who is?” I asked. 

Ignoring my question, Hurley said, “I’ve seen off the charts before.”

“And he’s got none of the bad habits he’d have to unlearn if he had military training.”

Almost straining my neck, I tried to see who was in the car, but with the windows being tinted, I was unsuccessful.

“Unlearn?” Stan asked, going down a few steps. I followed him down a few steps as Irene said, “Come on, Stan. You drop one of your Navy SEALs in an urban setting, you could spot the boot camp on them a mile away. We’re not fighting the–”

“Cold War?” Stan interrupted. “Yeah, I know. You keep telling me that, Miss Deputy Director.”

I snickered as Irene said, “Wow. Miss Deputy Director?”

“Your daddy would agree with me.”

“I’ll be checking in with you every 48 hours. I’m on a plane to London in the morning. And go back on the patch, for goodness sake. Y/N?”

I hummed, eyebrows raising.

“I’m giving you permission to let all your anger out.”

I was confused as she got back in the car. I walked down a few steps, being a couple higher than Stan. As another car door opened, I kept my eyes on it as I said, “She’s right, you know.”

When the car drove away, I couldn’t believe my eyes. All the hurt and anger I buried deep inside came flooding back like a waterfall. I took one step down before Stan put his arm out in front of me.

He turned his head a little and said, “You’ll get your chance.” He put his hands in his pockets and said, “She ain’t coming back.”

Mitch looked at Stan before locking eyes with me, an almost smirk crossing his face. On my face, there was a look of hurt and anger mixed. 

Stan descended the last couple of steps to stand in front of Mitch, saying, “Hey, eyes front and center.”

With his eyes still on me, Mitch said, “Sorry.”

“Sorry?” I scoffed, crossing my arms.

“Do I look like one of your college professors?” Stan said. “You talk to me, you call me sir, son.”

“Yes, sir,” Mitch said, almost aggrantly. 

I watched Stan’s head move down then back up as he said, “The fuck you doing here? Did you have some bad things happen to you? Some shitty things happen to you? Now you wanna kill those mean, old terrorists. Go get some bad guys. What makes you think you can make it through my selection process?”

“Permission to speak, sir.”

“Sure, go ahead if you got something to say,” Stan said. “Like this is all a big mistake and you wanna go home. You wanna go home? Good.”

“Get the fuck out of here, I’ll fucking drive you myself,” I said.

Speaking to Stan, Mitch said, “Not at all, sir. I was gonna suggest we maybe speed this whole thing up. My guess is, if you and I go hand-to-hand, you could probably figure out inside of 20 seconds whether or not I have what it takes to make it through your selection process. So, what do you think?”

After one of our instructors walked over, Stan explained, “We have an empty foot locker and cot. They’re both yours as long as you can last.”

“Sounds good,” Mitch said. He walked off with Jorge, Mitch turned around and added, “Heard a lot about you, by the way. Excited to see what you got.”

“Such an arrogant son of a bitch,” I muttered.

Without turning his head, Stan said, “Go change. I know those shorts are brand new.”

~~~

Once the sun peeked through the clouds, all of the recruits, myself included, were all huddled around The Circle. I’m sure it has a more technical name for Stan, but I’ve always dubbed it as The Circle. Anyway.

Stan walked up to Mitch after train fighting a recruit, handing him the same knife. “Kill me.”

I rolled my eyes and watched as Mitch went to stab Stan, the ex-Navy SEAL predicting his move by grabbing his wrist and turning into his shoulder, flipping Mitch onto his back, the blade part of the knife against his neck.

“People think you can slice a man’s throat like this. That’s only in the movies,” Stan explained. He moved the knife so that the tip of the knife was at the curved part of his collarbone in his neck, Mitch’s hands on Stan’s the entire time. “Right there.” Stan pretended to push on the butt of the knife. “Do it. No noise. No mess.” He lightly hit the butt with the palm of his hand before letting Mitch up.

Dropping the knife in front of me, Stan gave me that look that said it’s go time. “Y/N, you’re up.”

Stan and Mitch looked at each other before Mitch backed up a couple steps, shaking his head lightly. I picked up the knife, holding it by the handle, looking dead at him. “What? Are you too scared to fight a girl? One you used to wrestle with?”

We walked to the middle of the circle before I swiped at him twice, both times Mitch backing up. I went to swipe at his leg when he grabbed the knife by the blade, spinning around and launching me over his shoulder.

Once I hit the ground, I grunted and took a deep breath while Mitch threw the knife off to the side. “That the best you can do? Grab a fucking blade then flipping me over your shoulder? You’re so predictable.”

I got up and immediately punched him square in the face, sending him down to the ground. His next move happened so fast, even I didn’t see it coming; he picked me up and basically threw me on the ground.

Gasping for air, I had on my hands wrapped around his wrists to keep him from hitting me. When he used to get in fights, I would see the damage he’d done to other people. At one point, I had the upper hand, wrapping my legs around his waist and flipping us over. He dodged every contact I tried to make with my fists.

I grabbed his fists at one point, holding them apart to spat in his face, “So, everything excludes your best friend?”

He flipped us back over, his fist meeting the corner of my mouth. I looked up, Stan and I locked eyes for a moment before I went back to concentrating on not having my bones broken.

Stan walked up to Mitch, punching him in the jaw. “You gotta have eyes in the back of your head.”

I somehow managed to flip us back over, saying loud enough where only Mitch could hear me, “You wouldn’t even say sorry for being ass, you fuckin’ pussy.” A gunshot ringing in my ears alerted me that Stan had pulled the trigger on his gun.

“You flinch, you die,” he said. 

I guess Mitch and I decided that rolling in the mud while trying to kill each other was the way to because he punched me again and sent both of us rolling, Stan going on his little spiel. “Orion is about the mission. It ain’t about you.”

Mitch had one of his legs on my chest with one of my arms up, squeezing tightly. I punched his leg to have him let go of me. Once he did, I rolled over and grabbed at my chest, coughing. He crawled over to me, and I could see the concern written on his face. He went to apologize for hurting me, but I didn’t want to hear it. So, I punched him in the face one last time, sending him down to the ground.

I stood up just as Stan was saying, “You go down out there, you’re a ghost. You don’t exist. There’s nobody, nobody coming back for you. You’re about to be captured. Bye bye.”

I watched as Mitch wiped his mouth then spit blood out of his mouth. We locked eyes for a second as I scowled at him and shook my head. I walked back to the house while everyone else went back to their cots.

After taking my shower and going back to my room, I noticed a plate on my bed, a note from Stan on the sandwich provided.

Good job out there today. Irene is coming back in a couple days. She needs you back at Headquarters while we do some more training.

-Stan

I picked up the sandwich and took a bite, sitting on my bed. Going over the events that happened in my head, I couldn’t help but think about Mitch, not believing that he took Irene up on her offer. I mean, there had to be another reason than getting retribution for Katrina… 

Right?

~~~

Yawning, I put my headset on before picking up my cup of coffee. I took a sip, feeling a hand on my back. Turning to see who it was, I smiled a little. “Irene.”

“Y/N,” she smiled back. She looked at the screen and sighed. “How’s he doing?”

“Gotta build his rep back up since I kicked his ass,” I said, taking another sip of my coffee. Irene smirked and held her fist out for me to bump with my own.

We watched the recruits on the screen as Stan said, “These are your targets. Memorize them.”

“Oh, god,” I groaned. “They’re gonna hate this.”

“It’s your responsibility to be able to identify them. You shoot a combatant, you get a point. You miss, you get a shock. You shoot a noncombatant, you get a bigger shock. Combatant shoots you… let’s just say you’re gonna feel it. Ready? Go.”

Everyone started moving all around, shooting combatants, getting shocked. Mitch leaned over at one point, and I sat up a little straighter, knowing he got shocked. I felt a hand on my shoulder. I knew it was Irene… because she was the only other person watching besides the other agent.

He got shocked again, so I stood up and walked to the other agent, asking, “What the fuck is Hurley doing?”

“Ya’know,” the agent said. “He’s fucking with his head.”

Recruits started dropping like flies, Mitch getting shocked over and over. 

“Fuck!” Victor said. “Fucking AR bullshit!”

Mitch kept shooting at Mansur’s photo, getting shocked over and over and over.

The next morning, I was sitting in the living room at what I called my second home; Stan’s house. Ever since joining the CIA, I found myself watching the News. I mean, that shouldn’t be a surprise considering I worked at one before joining.

Stan and his dog came back inside, coffee cup in the man’s hand.

“Stan, listen,” I said. He waved his hand over his shoulder, telling me that he was listening. “It now appears that all seven victims were shot with a single weapon, believed to be a Glock 29. Traces of weaponized plutonium were detected inside the van where the bodies of three Russians and two Warsaw police officers were found. The Russian government has confirmed that the chemical footprint of the plutonium in question is a match to the plutonium that was stolen from the decommissioned processing facility in Tobolsk. Security footage is being analyzed by Polish police, now working in conjunction with Interpol, to identify the shooter and his connection to the missing plutonium. The identity of the shooter remains unknown–”

While the reporter was saying all that, Stan came over at one and put his hand out, asking for the remote. I handed it to him and he sat down on the table in front of me, pausing the screen once a man in a beanie and a gun going off was in the frame. I watched as his entire demeanor changed.

“Stan?” I said, sitting on the edge of the couch.

“Get your belly on,” he said. “You’re participating today.”

About an hour later, I was walking around the makeshift department store some of the instructors built in the warehouse they were all in a couple days before. I had already had a talk with Stan about when I needed to get my ass in gear before the recruits showed up.

I looked up at one point, seeing Victor walk by, so I followed him, grabbing my BB gun with airsoft pellets out. Before I was able to shoot the pellets at Victor, Mitch started shooting at me, and wouldn’t stop.

“Mitch! Fucking stop!” I exclaimed. “Ouch! Ouch!”

Hurley’s string of “Hey!” brought Mitch out from whatever trance he was in. “Rapp! Hot dammit, you have to stay under control.”

“Fucking dickhead!” I said, grabbing my left boob.

“Asshole doesn’t know when to quit,” Victor said.

“Shut up, Victor!” I said, hitting him in the arm.

“You’re kidding me, right?” Mitch said. “I just saved your ass.”

“You’ve gotta know when the mission’s been accomplished, Mitch,” I said, walking up to him and shoving his arm. Him and I stayed with our eyes locked on each other.

“He’s a fucking–” Victor said.

“Which he did. Never assume your target is the only target,” Hurley said, looking at Victor.

“Your enemy dresses like a deer, but kills like a lion,” I said. “That’s what we gotta do only better.” I turned my sights back to Hurley. “Fucking do it or else I will.” With one more look at Mitch, I punched him in his arm and walked away.

~~~

I was standing in Hurley’s office, hands resting on his desk, looking dead in the face. “It’ll work, Stan.”

“For the last time, Y/N, I’m not showing that to him.”

“But it’ll get his ass in gear! Irene says he’s ready, you told her he would be, and quite frankly I’m agreeing with her!”

“Then you’re coming, too.”

A knock on the door about 20 seconds later caused me to forget my response. “You wanted to see me, sir?”

“Yeah,” Stan said, never taking his eyes off mine. “Shut the door.”

I heard the door shut before Stan said that I had a question to ask him and for him to put some files on the tables after mentioning that we were shipping out. I hung my head after hearing Mitch’s response of “Okay.”

Sighing, I picked my head up and turned around, leaning against the desk for a moment. “You still like movies, Mitch? I recall the last one we saw together was 21 Jumpstreet before finals. Remember that?”

He nodded. “Yeah.”

I walked up to the table, placing my hands on the laptop in front of me, seeing the video that I knew would get his ass in gear. “You wanna finish it? We can start from my favorite part.”

“Sure.”

I turned the laptop around, Mitch’s demeanor changing instantly. He got up, asking, “The fuck is this?”

I scoffed. “Knew it.”

“Oh, you knew it?” Mitch asked.

“Yup,” I said, popping the p. “I knew you loved her. I knew you loved her more than your best friend, even though you said that wouldn’t happen. Why the hell are you even alive, Mitch? You ever lie awake at night, asking yourself that? Why you and not Katrina? I guess you're just special. I mean, I’ll turn it up, if you want.” Without missing a beat, I hit the up arrow, turning the volume up.

“You’re a fucking bitch, you know that?” Mitch said. “Turn that shit off.”

I never moved my stance, standing with my arms crossed as he said, “You gonna turn it off?” Again, I didn’t move as I said, “You want me to feel sorry for you? After the shit you put me through? Because I don’t.”

He looked at the screen then back at me. Moving towards me, I was able to predict his move. So, I used the table and chairs to my advantage. Putting one foot on the chair, I put the other on the table, using the leverage to sit on his shoulders. I had grabbed a cord on my way, so I wrapped it around his neck, hearing him grunt and gasp for air.

“You made a big mistake,” Stan said. “Both of you. You both let emotion cloud your judgment. Never, ever let it get personal. Understand?”

I watched Mitch struggle to nod, but part of me didn’t want to let go. I wanted him to feel the air in his lung leave at the betrayal he put me through. Next thing I felt was my back hit the floor, a loud groan coming from me and Stan standing over me.

Stan helped me up, coughing fits coming from both me and Mitch. As soon as we both were done coughing, he said, “Be ready to go by 5:00. Both of you.”

“See you at 4:30,” Mitch said.

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A/N 2: hi friends! i hope y’all liked this! i apologize if this like any other mitch rapp series you’ve read. if you saw this post, i know it says it’s coming in three parts, but i’m changing it to maybe more. i’m not sure, though. guess i’m gonna let the story take itself where it wants to go, lol. anyways, i hope y’all enjoyed this. pls don’t hesitate to let me know what you thought in the comments, reblogs, or even my askbox.

Additional A/N: part three will be out when i have it fully written.

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Posted on March 28, 2022

[mcu-headcannons]

Peter started watching Buzzfeed: Unsolved when he was a little kid, cause I mean who didn’t? (No seriously is it weird that I watched Buzzfeed: Unsolved at like 10?) and he’s kept watching it all throughout his life, however now they keep doing stories involving super heroes and vigilantes which he finds hilarious because he actually knows the full story. The first he found out when he was rewatching the episode on President Kennedy’s death, and they mentioned that it might’ve been a mysterious assassin known only as the Winter Soldier, so Peter went and asked Bucky if he killed JFK, and Bucky asked who that was, (I know he might’ve known who Kennedy is idrk the timeline behind it so just humor me) so Peter looked up a picture to show to Bucky and he just looks at Peter and nonchalantly says, yeah that was me. Then it just kept happening, an episode about who Daredevil is, they brought up Mike Murdock and seriously how did anyone believe Matt had a twin brother who just happened to get beat up right before the times he doesn’t show up to work. The mysterious disappearance of Peter Quill that one was especially funny because they got it right with the whole aliens thing. The identity of Dr. Strange, that one had him cracking up because it wasn’t even a superhero name that was just his real name and he wasn’t even suggested as an option. Why Frank Castle’s family was killed, that one was just sad and he called Frank and Karen to warn them about it so they didn’t accidentally watch it. The one he found the most hilarious though was the one about Spider-man’s secret identity, because he knew two of the people that they put up as options, Tony Stark’s super secret intern (This was literally just Peter but they had Friday set it up so that anyone who managed to get pictures of him had them blurred before they entered to camera roll.) and fucking Flash Thompson because of his massive support of all things Spider-man and the fact that Spider-man was seen driving his dad’s car.

[bluerose5]

The Little Things that Matter...

As reckless and impatient as I think Dr. Zoe Kennedy to be in regards to having children (after all, given the timeline, she wasn't able to wait more than what? about 6 months after arriving to start making babies when not even everyone was out of cryo yet? Guys, seriously. What. The. Fuck???) I have to say that taking Jaal on the final section of that mission is well worth it. That joyful laugh he does after David is born? 10/10. My crops are watered, my skin is cleared, and my depression is gone. The sweetest man in the galaxy. No competition.

On the other hand, I love how such a brief interaction seems to give us a glimpse into angaran culture, whether we initially realize it or not. While Dr. ZK is in labor, their shuttle is facing the brunt of an attack by both kett and Roekaar forces. Dr. ZK, through labor pains, demands that she be given a gun. Jaal, in response, calls out that you should always give the mother a gun. To this point, we've already been told that everyone among the angara from children to adults have their roles when fighting the kett, but this really strikes home in my opinion that the angara never really know peace, even in times that are meant to be memorable like childbirth.

Even if you perceive this in a joking light, the fact that Jaal's first instinct is to give a birthing mother a gun shows that not even that is sacred anymore. There is no privacy. Giving birth in the middle of a firefight is almost expected, I guess unless you're on Aya or Havarl (but even then wildlife are still a threat on the latter planet). To have kett barging in while an angaran mother is in the middle of delivering her child is probably an everyday occurrence, and even then the mother's expected response is to fight in the middle of all that. While they're bringing life into the world. Maybe I'm reading too much into things and overanalyzing, but I had to get this thought out because, intentional or not, I feel like it's a significant detail that draws even more attention to the angara's daily struggles in Heleus.

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Book Review: Peter Cabot Gets Lost by Cat Sebastian

The Premise:

It’s the summer of 1960. Newly graduated from Harvard, rich kid and terminal softie Peter Cabot offers to drive his one-time classmate, the extremely prickly Caleb Murphy, to his new job at the LA Times when Caleb’s bus fare money is eaten by a family emergency. Bonus: driving Caleb to California means Peter gets to avoid his dad’s obnoxious presidential campaign (and his obnoxious family in general). A road trip romance ensues, complete with cheap motels stays, tons of greasy diner food, and boners. So many boners.

Comes out September 13, 2021. You can find purchase links here.

Dramatis Personae:

Peter Cabot: Youngest scion of the Cabots, a wealthy, politically powerful Boston family (and thinly-veiled fictional analog of the Kennedys*), he is easygoing, eager to please, and just beginning to realize how shitty his family is because they treat him like disappointing garbage when seriously he is super great. Big golden retriever energy. I love him. I will die for him. No, I will KILL for him.

Caleb Murphy: Top-notch feral cat energy from this one; one of those snippy, prickly characters Cat Sebastian excels at. Raised in poverty in rural Tennessee; has a massive chip on his shoulder about rich people for many good reasons, which makes it even more fun when he realizes how much he likes Peter and gets real mad over it.

Co-starring: buncha greasy spoon staff; two extremely large holes in the ground (the US truly excels at these); Peter’s shitty dad; Peter’s extremely not-shitty Uncle Tommy (only on the phone, though); Peter’s Aunt Patty (also excellent); Harry (also also excellent).

Commentary:

Like all of my favorite Cat Sebastian novels, this one is fairly low on plot but big on banter, emotional journeys, sexual awakenings, and two people learning to love each other for who they are. Sebastian is a goddamn wizard; she somehow moves Peter and Caleb from unresolved sexual tension to resolved sexual tension before the book is halfway done and still manages to keep me riveted on their developing relationship—the way they explore their sexuality in particular is a) extremely hot and b) so goddamn sweet. They’re so fuckin’ adorable! They like each other SO MUCH and they have each others’ backs in ways that feel extremely real, and that show their love in beautiful, meaningful ways.

If your favorite Cat Sebastian works so far have been Two Rogues Make a Right or Tommy Cabot Was Here, well, I have swell news for you: Peter Cabot Gets Lost is in that mold and it is utterly delightful. I’m a re-reader, but I don’t generally derive pleasure from rapid re-reads—I usually need about a year to get enough distance so that the book feels fresh again. Tommy Cabot was an exception; I finished it, became obsessed, and promptly re-read it. It took me a couple of months to get around to re-reading Peter Cabot, but it’s still in that extremely rare class of book that I re-read in less than a year; I found that I liked it even more the second time around.

TL;DR:

A warm, funny, sexy roadtrip romance with a classic opposites attract dynamic, set during a time period I don’t see in historical romances very often (midcentury America). I fucking love it and unreservedly recommend it.

* There were of course real-life Cabots who were Boston Brahmins, but the emphasis on how these Cabots produced endless numbers of beautiful assholes who’d go on to be politicians definitely made me think of the Kennedys vs. IRL Cabots.

[arsonistslut]

Suddenly...Liu woke up. His face didn't feel like it was burning anymore, and the sunshine that flowed into his room was starkly different from the darkness of the room he was just attacked in. It wasn't just that, though, everything around him seemed to be in a sort of dreamy haze. He was about to stand when his brother burst in the room. Liu nearly jumped out of his skin, quickly realizing that the scars that riddled Jeff's body before were totally gone. Was everything from before just a dream?

"Wake up, bro! You're gonna be late for school!"

All he could do was just stare at Jeff, confusion riddling his face.

"You alright, man?"

"..Y-Yeah, I'm fine!"

Liu rushed out of his bed and began preparing for school as his brother waited downstairs, rushing down as well once he was ready and walking into the kitchen, expecting the same wordless room where his parents usually were in the morning. Carla looked over at her son and smiled as she ruffled his hair.

"Good morning, you two!"

"Mornin' mama!"

Liu thought something was deeply wrong. His brother was never this jovial, and their parents barely ever talked to them in the slightest, and that was for 15 years! Was..was that all a bad dream? Was all that Sully shit a bad dream, was Jeff getting set on fire a bad dream? When him and his brother got to the school bus, Jeff sat next to one of the other kids, and Natalie sat next to Liu.

"Hi, handsome!~"

"Hey, Nat! How are you?"

Liu was thankful that at least she didn't change.

"I'm doing really well, my dad's recently gotten arrested, so now I'm living with my grandma, she's a sweetheart!"

"O-Oh, that's great!"

"Hey, did you hear about Jeff's new girlfriend?"

"No, he never told me! What's her name?"

"Cassie! I'm gonna be honest, those two are the cutest. They're such sweethearts, they're practically made for each other!"

"That's wonderful!"

Liu then looked outside the window..he couldn't help but wonder how he'd just realized this, but it was such a beautiful day outside! The birds were singing, the flowers were blooming, days like this came practically once every century in New Orleans. Maybe everything from before really was just a bad dream.

A delighted giggle came from Sully as he watched Liu go about his day in the world he'd so carefully crafted for him in his head.

"Finally safe..safe from the horrors that would taint your pure soul."

Nina boredly flipped through the late night channels, sighing as she wasn't able to find anything that interested her. It was far past her bedtime, and her eyelids were getting heavy, so when a particularly eye-catching news report showed up, it grabbed her attention right away.

"And now, we turn to New Orleans, which has been the site of a brutal massacre tonight, as 7 people have been recently found brutally murdered over the course of an hour. Police are not releasing any names of the victims, but they have apprehended a suspect who they believe is the killer, 17 year old Jeffrey Woods was recently arrested after having set the house of Bruce and Aurora Arkansas on fire. The lone survivors of this horrible night are reportedly one individual, along with the daughter of Bruce and Aurora. Liu Woods, Jeffrey's brother, has gone missing, if you have any information regarding where he may be, please contact the police. We do have footage of Jeffrey's arrest, but be warned, it may disturb some viewers."

The TV then showed footage of a group of police officers surround a pale teenager, his whole body caked in blood. Jeffrey shrugged and laid his knife down on the ground, placing his hands behind his head and allowing the police to arrest him. As he was led to the back of a cruiser, Jeff looked into the camera.

"You win some, you lose some, I guess."

The TV then cut back to the clearly shaken reporter.

"We'll provide more information as it comes to us. IN other news.."

Nina shut her TV off, a wide smile growing on her face. She couldn't quite place her finger on it, but she related to Jeff. What was keeping someone like her from going on a rampage like that...? Snatching her laptop off her desk, Nina quickly logged onto 4-Chan and started a thread. She pondered over what to call it, then typed in an adequate name.

"Jeff's Killers."

Chapter 19: "Nothing but pure evil"

"Jeffrey..do you feel even the slightest bit of guilt for your actions?"

Woods had shown no shame throughout his trial. No guilt or remorse for his actions. He sure as shit wanted to, but when the judge asked him that question, he couldn't restrain the smile that came to his face as he remembered how good it felt to plunge his knife into his father's head, how good it felt to snap Troy's neck, how good it felt to drop that match. Besides, wasn't Zalgo right? This was going to keep happening until he died.

"I don't. They all deserved what they got. Besides, I didn't have any other choice."

Silence followed his words. Some gasped, some began to sob, some just laughed in amazement, but most of the courthouse was silent.

"Jeffrey Woods..you are nothing but pure evil. This court finds you guilty of all charges, and sentences you to death."

The judge forced back tears and pointed toward the door.

"Get him out of here.."

Woods was led away by a pair of policemen, and the courtroom cheered as he was led away.

"And then, my sentence got reduced to life in prison, and now..here we are, doctor."

"I see.."

Dr. Oborn wrote down more notes in his clipboard, before looking back up at his patient.

"Doc..can I ask you a question?"

"Of course, Jeffrey."

"...Was that judge right? A-Am I just..evil?"

"While murder is a horrific crime, and many people do seem to see you as nothing more than a psycho who killed for fun, I've spoken with you for over a year now, and I don't believe you to be evil. After what you've told me, I now know that your condition was likely caused by the trauma you referred to earlier."

"..Doc, I.."

Jeff let out a burst of relieved laughter, almost tearing up from joy at the doctor's words.

"You h-have no fuckin' clue how much that means to me! I..I thought I was a lost cause for the longest time..I-I mean, people don't feel happy when they kill someone, y'know?"

"You're not a lost cause, by any means. We've made incredible progress today, and I believe that you will be able to comfortably integrate back into society soon enough. Although, I am confused by one thing."

"What?"

"..How did you know about the things that happened after your hospitalization?"

"Zalgo showed me."

"Zalgo? Who is that?"

"Zalgo is the reason I believe in the afterlife. Apparently, it's a medical miracle I even survived the incident at the party, let alone heal so quickly that my body's now one big lump of scar tissue. Zalgo helped me to survive."

"This is the first time you've mentioned this.."

"Demon."

"Demon to me. You have previously stated your beliefs in Leveyan Satanism, so is this a sort of..representation of the devil?"

"No, the devil isn't real. Zalgo is. Look, can we t-talk about something else?"

Dr. Oborn placed one of his hands on Jeffrey's shoulder, growing concerned due to his growing..worry, almost.

"Is everything alright, son?"

"I...didn't get a lot of sleep last night."

"Nightmares, again?"

"No, I saw things, doctor..I've seen how this world will end."

"You've seen the apocalypse, you say?"

Jeffrey then just shook his head, something he feared he would do suddenly worming it's way into his brain unannounced.

"Jeff..are you having intrusive thoughts?"

"I..I don't want to hurt you, you don't deserve it.."

"Nothing will happen to me, son. I'll be just fine!"

"You..you sure?"

"I'm positive."

"Thank you, doctor.."

"Of course-"

Dr. Oborn was pleasantly surprised when Jeff reached across the table and hugged him, but didn't hesitate in hugging his patient back.

Chapter 20: A new terror

"Listen, man, I know what I saw! Some lanky motherfucker was running around my backyard, and wearing a white hoodie! They didn't catch Jeff The Killer, he's still fucking running-"

Carlos Kennedy changed the channel of his radio, confused as to how someone could genuinely believe that it was a good idea to log onto a radio show, ramble about how you believed a convicted killer was still able to run around your backyard, and think you'll be taken seriously. His attention to that was quickly interrupted by seeing a person lying near the road, face down. The good Samaritan quickly stopped his car and got out, rushing over to the seemingly unconscious person that was lying in a ditch.

"Hello?! A-Are you-"

A knife to Carlos's throat quickly cut him off, blood spraying out of his wound. The girl who stabbed him lifted his corpse off the decoy, a teenager in a white hoodie and a somewhat poorly made, but nonetheless effectively scary Jeff The Killer mask.

"Good work, Jethro."

"All I did was sit here, but thanks, Nina."

This was the first recorded murder committed by Jeff's Killers, after a year of just being a bunch of teenagers hanging out in an abandoned house where a bunch of patricide took place.

[number5theboy]

The notes I took while reading the comics are under the cut. These are not my ordered thoughts, just thoughts I had while reading. I’ll write something more coherent a bit later, once my thoughts are sorted better than these

APOCALYPSE SUITE

Diego repeatedly stabbed a Caravaggio, which just personally offends me. Also @ Reginald the fact that you left a Caravaggio in reach of your KIDS, who have KNIVES, is just as insulting. Someone save that Caravaggio since anything and anyone else is beyond saving

“Inexplicable resemblance to an Ingmar Bergmann extra” askjdsgbkdsbhsd Gerard sir that is so oddly specific. Is Reginald an Ingmar Bergman fan. Is that what you’re trying to tell us. Or is Klaus just a silent movie type

Right off the bat, the comics universe is so much more interesting than the show universe. They have boxers who beat up squids like??? Give us an adaptation with the comic world, preferably animated

The kiddos were all born to “mostly single women” dsbksdgbksdgbdsg??? Did the magical alien thingamajig check their relationship status first?

“Inventor of The Televator, The Levitator, The Mobile Umbrella Communicator, and Clever Crisp Cereal” dgdsghsgdhjsdkjhg Reginald names his inventions like Dr. Doofenschmirtz from Phineas and Ferb

Also the page that reveals/introduces Reginald is SO good, just the panelling and the action tells you so much. There’s dead bodies and excavations and masks in addition to text. It’s great.

“The Day The Eiffel Tower Went Berserk” is an EXCELLENT hook to a story

“It’s your Eiffel Tower, it’s gone insane and must be stopped at all costs.” Dksgdhjbkgsdhjbdsghjb the show could never

This comic keeps disrespecting cool art. Why is it doing that to me. Don’t let the musée d’orsay get robbed

Okay, luther came through for me on that

Dsdhlsdghlgsdhldsh the siblings arguing while the Eiffel Tower is falling apart around them had me cackling

“WE’RE ALL GONNA DIE” dsbdgsbgsdbdgsbklsd okay diego

“And just as I suspected – ZOMBIE-ROBOT GUSTAVE EIFFEL!” hello I need at least three comics of back lore on this. Why does luther have that hunch. Why is Gustave Eiffel a zombie-robot. How did we get here. Please I want answers

The missing line on the ‘e’ of ‘touché’ makes that dramatic moment way less dramatic and more funny ngl

Oh but you can be bothered to put the accent aigu on ‘séquence’

“And while you lost the Eiffel Tower, you saved Paris.” I am laughing too hard by this point. How dare this be a barely brushed upon adventure. Please I need to know more about zombie-robot Gustave Eiffel

Te Ben-robot makes me emotional and “Only my father calls me Number One”? ouch.

Also for the record, I love Luther’s design SO much

“Hello your father is dead. Please audition for my orchestra for revenge. Many thank. Bye.” Okay Conductor, whatever floats your boat, I guess

“and something worse is coming” dbhsdghbjgshbjsgbjhkgf okay Five, whatever floats your boat I guess

Allison immediately coming in with the ‘I know everyone blames you for Ben’s death, Luther, but honestly, who the fuck knows?’ dsbgbhdgshbsgdhkbj

Klaus has such an entrance and I honestly didn’t know that Claire was a comic character

The introduction to the apocalypse comes SO the fuck out of nowhere, but grumpy little Five with the ‘I knew I shouldn’t have run away from home’ speech bubble? Awesome

Also just genuinely interesting that Five truly hated Reginald and was aware of these feelings

The apocalypse introductions in the show and the comic are going for different feelings but they are both equally devastating, which is a nice touch

Also someone give show! Five a sword

Comic Diego is a fuckboy, and that’s obvious from a hundred paces

Apparently Grace makes me sad in any incarnation

Okay but the backdoor of the Icarus in the show is lifted straight out of the comics

I love the Conductor’s design so much, and his introduction is so good

Oh my god someone get a language checker, The Orchestra Verdammten doesn’t even make grammatical sense

I love the Conductor, he is so extra and just the concept of a piece of music that destroys the world…….it fucks so hard

This comic just throws wild shit at you and expects you to keep up

Just read the instructions Dr. Terminal gave his bots. Is he okay.

Why does Dr. Terminal want to eat Finland. Please I need to know what’s going on in that head of his

Gabriel Ba has excellent comedic timing

Five is a bitch and I love him

Diego hiding in a haunted house…….what a drama queen

Klaus is so fucking funny oh my god

Diego is so hilariously bitter towards Vanya. No need to destroy her like that, asshole

Love how Diego single-handedly brought about the apocalypse. What an idiot.

Dr. Pogo deserves the world

The Vanya reveal of powers is a bit. Uh. Underwhelming. Love the Frankenstein set-up tho

The art, man……..it’s so good

Comic Luther is SO savage holy shit

I love you Mister Conductor, but please stop butchering languages I know, thanks

I knew he was gonna die, but I am still hurt. Please bring him back, he’s the best character in this

“I don’t know where to begin…But I suppose I should start with the Kennedy assassination.” Okay five you drama queen

Allison is a bitch, and I mean that as a compliment

Honestly these Five and Vanya are made to be enemies, it’s great

HELL YEAH YOU GO KLAUS

This wraps up a little too nicely. Where did the moon boulder go

DALLAS

Sagfdghjasfkjghdsfjhksfhkj it opens with a ‘by the way, I’m still dead’ from Pogo

I can’t believe TUA directly inspired Night at the Museum 2: Battle of the Smithsonian

No seriously, I knew about sentient monument Abraham Lincoln but this entire scene FUCKS

Dsbksgdbhsgbhksgdhbkj Celebrity Surgery, the big popular reality TV show, I’m laughing

Luther and Klaus are both such messes jeesus, even if Klaus is coping better

Allison immediately kidnaps Vanya and exposes her to all the horrible shit she caused?? Dbgbhjdgkjhbgdhkj I love these versions of the characters

While Show!Diego is Walmart Batman, Comic!Diego is Walmart Rorschach

I thought I got the gazelle speech but now I’m just confused

It literally is an epiphany AND WHAT GOT HAZEL AND CHA-CHA SENT ON HIS ASS I’M

CACKLING

Also that one wordless Hazel and Cha-Cha panel……..so good

Five is a communist lmao Diego

Luther and Diego arguments are tedious in both versions

I hate the Marilyn Monroe ape scene. With a passion. It is so cursed

Also show Hazel and Cha-Cha were partners that grew apart. I think comics Hazel and Cha-Cha are in love

I am every killer ever. That is one cute puppy.

Also Klaus and God is great in every universe

Dsjfghjdhjdgjhbdgbjhkdbkjhgb Five’s face when he is outfoxed

Why do dream!Luther and Allison have am ape cyclops daughter

I love the Luther&Klaus dynamic

This is just a remix of Watchmen

I have no idea why they suddenly know what Five is up to, from the corpse of a Commission agent. What.

Wait now they can use corpses as time travel devices. What.

Okay, Klaus accidentally blew up the world. Cool?

I am so confused

Now Diego Klaus and Luther are fighting vampires in Vietnam and hurling mummies through the bush. Okay.

So Pogo always knew what kind of disasters they’d turn into? Dskbgdsbkhsdgbkgsdkh

THE WHOLE JFK ASSASSINATION ARC IS AMAZING

HOTEL OBLIVION

Hotel Oblivion really just presents a cockroach on a plate to you, huh

Reginald’s aesthetic is seriously so much cooler than he deserves

EVIL IS THE NAME OF THE FIRST PART OF HOTEL OBLIVION?!? I SEE WHAT YOU DID THERE MR. AIDAN GALLAGHER

Five is a hired gun now?!? Man, that dude cannot catch a break ever

“TV is a healthy alternative to dying” esjkdsgbkgskbhdsgkbes

Who is Luther’s Japanese bro?!?

Also I just kind of really like the Luther&Diego dynamic in the comics

The show robbed us of Allison helping Vanya recover. It robbed us of Vanya getting injured in the first place, so what recovery, but still. This is incredibly sweet

God, all the villains in this universe are so intriguing. Except for Knock-Off-Adrian-Veidt, I keep forgetting that Perseus exists

“I’m a haunted house.” Is so metal as a self-descriptor

What the FLYING FUCK is Klaus doing there

Giant chicken?

The Enterprise???

“What are you doing?” “A report. I’m really interested in capitalism.” Djhsgjgskjvsevksevjesvjsefjv maybe Diego is right and Five is indeed a communist

“I know what it feels like to be unloved. I was born an object, and never treated as anything but.” It really was that bad, wasn’t it?” “For the both of us, yes.” B R U H

Evil Grace is fun

I love Allison and Five and their relationship so much

Five is interested in the stock market??

I am way too emotionally invested in whether Murder Magician and his baby make it out of there

Oh I CANNOT believe their romantic loves for their SISTERS is what unites them. I hate this.

What on earth is going on with Perseus and the flying head of Medusa

Alive Ben 😊☹

I am an idiot for not making the Perseus-Medusa connection sooner.

The Eiffel Tower now looks like the love child of the actual Eiffel Tower and the Atomium.

And now the Dr. Manhattan knock-off is here

God I love Allison so much

What the fuck is Pereus on about

Terminal eats a zoo

Scientific Man borders on plagiarism I’m sdhbgshsvjhksfvjksdjhkdsj

No no no no no not the Murder Magician

This whole baby arc makes me so soft

HELL YEAH LUTHER

Well this ended on a cliffhanger

[alysemeadfad]

𝕽𝖊𝖇𝖊𝖑𝖑𝖎𝖔𝖓

Most would say its easy for a teenager to rebel at any point in time, but I find it hard to rebel in any way, most teens get tattoos, piercings, cut and dye their hair to rebel against their parents, but growing up with a mom who is tattooed, hair in fun dyed styles and piercings, I’m really just following in her footsteps she practically encourages. 

The only thing I rebel against is tidying my room and making cups of tea, cant really say I could start a world changing rebellion on that.

Rebellions i find important

1903–18 — Women’s Suffrage Movement The foundation of the Women’s Social and Political Union by Emmeline Pankhurst in 1903 began a more militant phase of the call for votes for women, which had been growing through the end of the 19th century. The Suffragettes used militant tactics like vandalism, arson, bombing and hunger strikes, with one member committing public suicide by throwing herself under the King’s horse at a race in 1913. The movement was wound up when some women were enfranchised in the 1918 Representation of the People Act, before all women over 21 were given the vote in 1928.

Suffragette Vera Wentworth in 1909, and the dress by Vaquera that it inspired

Stonewall riots 28 Jun 1969 – 3 Jul 1969 The Stonewall riots were a series of spontaneous demonstrations by members of the gay community in response to a police raid that began in the early morning hours of June 28, 1969, at the Stonewall Inn in the Greenwich Village neighborhood of Manhattan, New York City.

It is said that Marsha P. Johnson was the one who started the rebellion. Supposedly, throughout the bustle of the raid, Marsha threw a shot glass into a mirror and shouted, ” I got my civil rights!”.  With this inspiration and resistance against the police, other patrons began to follow.

Present day- Me Too movement.The Me Too movement, with variations of related local or international names, is a social movement against sexual abuse and sexual harassment towards women, where people publicize allegations of sex crimes.

The Punk Rebellion

the punk involved no protests or riots, it impacted people, fashion, music, society and everything to be honest.

The punk subculture advocates a do-it-yourself (DIY) ethic. During the subculture's infancy members were almost all from a lower economic class, and had become tired of the affluence that was associated with popular rock music at the time. Punks would publish their own music or sign with small independent labels, in hopes to combat what they saw as a money hungry music industry. The DIY ethic is still popular with punks.ideology's of punks

Ideology

Punk political ideologies are mostly concerned with individual freedom and anti-establishment views. Common punk viewpoints include individual liberty, anti-authoritarianism, a DIY ethic, non-conformity, anti-collectivism, anti-corporatism, anti-government, direct action and not "selling out".

Some groups and individuals that self-identify as being a part of punk subculture hold right-wing views. The belief that such views are opposed to the original ethos of the punk subculture, and its history, has led to internal conflicts and an active push against such views being considered part of punk subculture at all. Two examples of this are an incident during the 2016 American Music Awards, where the band Green Day chanted anti-conservative, anti-racist, and anti-fascist messages, and an incident at a show by the Dropkick Murphys, when bassist and singer Ken Casey, tackled an individual for giving a nazi-style salute and later stated that nazis are not welcome at a Dropkick Murphys show. Band member Tim Brennan later reaffirmed this sentiment. The song "Nazi Punks Fuck Off" by hardcore punk band Dead Kennedys has come to be considered an anti-nazi anthem.

VIV WESTWOOD

Rejecting the hippie ethos that was fashionable towards the end of the 1960s, Westwood and McLaren created clothes that referenced youth culture's recent past, selling rock'n'roll fashion in a shop unit at 430 King's Road in Chelsea. In 1974, the shop took on its most notorious identity: SEX, with Westwood and McLaren designing fetish wear that they sold to prostitutes, those with 'underground' sexual tastes, and young proto-punks brave enough to take a seriously edgy look out onto the street. The pair enjoyed shocking people, designing garments and shoes that referenced 'deviant' sexual practices, including rubber dresses and stilettos bristling with spikes.

How punk influenced me, because it influenced the world

My take on rebellion

Westwood inspired tights.

after watching a documentary on vivien westwood and the birth of the punk revolution i created some westwood inspired tights as a little spontaneous brainstorm, did not develop any further on the tights.

i used a pair of brand new white tights and put holes all in them, this is non conformist as if a regular pair of tights had a hole you would bin them as they were no good any more, but purposely putting holes in is quite rebellious in that aspect, i used sharpies to draw triggering symbols and words such as a swastikka and ‘punk fag’ .

crayon drawings

i used crayons to create these images as i thought it was a more rebellious medium and its created for kids so that is non conforming and it gives a rough diy finish look making it look slightly unfinished

i created a lesbian nun, this was a spur of the mind thought whats socially good and respected? a nun? whats the opposite of what a nun preaches, homo behavior. 

here i did a little barbie series drawing from observational on one and on another from mind and another from an image which i created by burning a barbie ehich is quite a rebellious act in a way. 

Collages

i decided to do some collages as its a way of just slapping ideas out in a visual format, my first one was using a fashion magazine and i realized this was the way to go so i printed some punk imagery and even used my own crayon drawings to create more collages.

photo shop

i wanted to mess with these collages more on a digital format so i put them in to photo shop to play with them and generate more ideas this was giving me a poster vibe which reminded me of punk posters.

 Final ideas

i used images from the new york trip to create a vision on photo shop, using a light of the american flag,sign posts, bins with posters on them.a clip art image of a chain and lock,street art and stickers i saw on poles in the street which is another form or street art which is quite rebellious as its not socially acceptable to vandalize and graffiti on public areas.

i took a few elements from the last board and included them in this vision board, i really wanted the main focus to be on the pipe that says “the rich killed nyc” i feel like it has a deep meaning behind it and it is quite rebellious as it reminded me of the punk rebellion in the uk as it was mostly lower class working people who used art, music and fashion to rebel against society and social constructs and actively non conform to the “rules” in a way. i also used a sticker that says jesus loves you and i crossed it out and wrote hate you over the loves you part as that is fitting to my rebellious visions.

in this board i again used “ the rich killed nyc” pipe as that’s my main surrounding element, i uses another pole with stickers on though you cant really tell what the stickers are, it just fits the aesthetic. i used a statue of liberty as she is known as a symbol of freedom, and along side it i used a photo of a photograph i saw in the modern art museum where this person had dyke tattooed on their neck which is a derogatory word to gay women, and that’s quite rebellious to take a bad word and own it by tattooing it on your body .

in this board i moved away from “the rich killed nyc” pipe as i felt i needed to come away from that one element for one board and to broaden my ideas. in this one i used a sky line image i took when on the ferry to liberty island, i changed the colour to black and white as the original colours of the image are quite blue and orangy, i used a sign post that says one way as it for some reason reminded me of like “one way to hell” or something and that there feels like there is no choice or individuality in the phrase “one way” . i used text over the sky line that says “the rotten apple” as new york city is known as the big apple and i thought, when i was there it did not remind me of a big fresh beautiful apple as the homeless people on the streets and the graffiti that has no artistic intent, so it was more of a rotten apple in a way. i used an image of the american flag i took on liberty island as i used an image of an american flag light, so i thought i could link back to that idea and use an actual flag, as its to represent freedom. i also used a art piece from the modern art gallery which was just a male mannequin wearing a bra which does not fit the social constrict of what men should wear there for its quite rebellious and opposite to the one way system. 

in my final board i included the american flag, a chain over it completely doing the opposite of what the flag means which is freedom, i used the bun that says don’t be afraid of anyone with an edited red paint drip on it which kind of looks like blood, i used text that says “ the rich killed nyc” as i loved that phrase bit i over used the pole in the other boards and i liked that my main message is that the rich killed nyc, i used an image of my dr martens that i took while my feet were up against a pole as i sat on a tube, showing anti social behavior basically which is stereo typically rebellious,and also dr martens were quite fashionable in the uk punk rebellion so i’m hinting to my idea that was inspired by the uk punk rebellion, and finally i have a set of traffic lights which are about order and control, the light is also on red which signifies danger, and the word stop which fits to my idea.

[cherrymagik]

How tua tv show ruined hotel oblivion

Before I say anything: THIS IS IN NO WAY AN ATTACK TOWARDS ANYONE YOU ARE 100% FREE TO ENJOY WHATEVER CONTENT YOU WANT THIS IS JUST MY OPINION AND YOU ARE FREE TO DISAGREE (just don’t be an asshole abt and we’re good) also SPOILERS!!! for both tv show and comics

(a while back I saw a post by @fivehargreeves and i have since then been putting off this post bc i want to elaborate on it but i am too lazy and i know i never really post stuff here but this is something i feel really strongly abt especially after that s2 finale)

When I first read the umbrella academy comics one of the things I loved the most about was the world building. It was so crazy and weird (in a good way) and while I still loved the story and characters, for me the most fascinating part of them was the world. It was a world so much like ours, yet completely different and the little details in the background or those offhand mentions of aliens or other "weird" stuff made the tua world feel more alive and interesting. So obviously when n*tflix announced they were adapting the comics into a show i was thrilled. But when I watched it I was... disappointed to say the least :/

Ex. 1 The Umbrella Academy's debut- In the comics, the first time the world met the umbrella academy was when "the day Eiffel Tower went berserk" (literally)

It turns out the Eiffel Tower had been a spaceship all along establishing the first villain in the comics: Zombie Robot Gustave Eiffel. But the innthe tv show we get.... a bank robbery 😐 (not as impressive as the Eiffel Tower imo) THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO BE SUPERHEROES FOR GODS SAKE! Why are they fighting petty crime? Let them fight the Eiffel Tower you cowards!!!

Ex. 2 The Orchestra Verdammten- (@/fivehargreeves post talks specifically abt this issue and summarizes most of my thoughts so i will say very little on this point) In the comics the main antagonist for vol.1 was an orchestra made up of musicians who had gone crazy (for one reason or another) and gone missing after joining the Orchestra Verdammten. But once again the villain is replaced with something very common and might I say mediocre. This as we will see is a running thing in the show: make most of the elements that made the comics stand out and replace them with more common/normal elements.

Ex. 3 Watering down/changing most characters' powers- Would you believe me if I told you it was Klaus that stopped the moon from colliding with earth? No you wouldn’t because in the tv show his powers are so... useless. And he was not the only one who’s powers got watered down (even though he is one of the most notable examples)

Luther/Spaceboy: his powers remain the same (as far as we have seen) however I am detaching points bc i don’t like how his character arc was handled in the show

Diego/The Kraken: first of all WHY THE FUCK DO YOU THINK HES CALLED THE KRAKEN -A MARINE MONSTER- YOU IDIOTS???!!! but seriously, why did they ever think it was a good idea to ever change his powers? It takes away so much from his character! Diego’s power is breathing underwater not whatever object manipulation bullshit they gave him in the show. His powers have NOTHING to do with knife throwing yet he is still as good at it in the comics as in the show; he got that good just from practice. He obsessive with his goals and we don’t get to see that in the show bc they completely changed his powers!!! They just took part of The Séance's and gave them to him! (@/fivehargreeves also has another post on this so go check it out bc it’s better worded than mine)

Allison/The Rumor: Oh my god I could talk about her all day and how dirty they did her in the tv show!!! In the comics Allison has the power to alter REALITY ITSELF

see: (click images to view)

she manifested a whole ass statue to life! And in vol.2 (the Kennedy assassination one) she was the one that killed Kennedy! She made his head explode just by rumoring him. But noooooo they had to sideline her in s2 so they could pursue a side plot for 'wokeness points' (i am happy that they dealt with the racism she would most likely have faced in the 1960's BUT they took away ALL her protagonism in the comics and had her be a minor character) if it hadn’t been for Allison the world would have ended -> murdering Kennedy was the only way to save the world

Klaus/The Séance: ugh where do i start? Klaus is extremely powerful in the comics, like I said he was able to stop the moon from colliding with earth. Not only did they have his powers watered down, they also took away all his telekinetic abilities in the show. Also, the only way his powers can be blocked is when he’s wearing shoes not drugs (i also want to point out that the way his addiction is treated in the show is weird and sometimes even uncomfortable to me but that is another topic for another time). His ability to summon the dead are almost nothing like in the show as compared to the comics he is called The Séance you know but whatever where he not only does he speak TO the dead he can also MANIFEST them through him which was probably the most important factor in stopping Vanya/The White Violin in Apocalypse Suite + not giving him his EXTREMELY WELL DESERVED FAME!!! 😤 THE AUDACITY!!! (I have talked abt Klaus before on another post)

Number Five: I don’t have much to say about him except that he is a lot darker in the comics and not as loving about his family as they make him in the show *cough* shooting vanya in the head *cough* but for the most part.... he’s fine ig (my main problem is they make him idk? too playful(?) in s1 when he actually he is all dry humor and dark jokes)

Ben/The Horror: doesn’t really appear in the comics so nothing to say here

Vanya/The White Violin: not including her transformation in the show was cowardly and having her be manipulated by a man was uh kinda problematic if I may say so. We only ever see her use her powers in vol.1 since she was crippled by getting shot in the head at the end of it and hasn’t been able to do much since then. Her story has been completely changed in the show and i am still not completely sure i like it. Her dealing with trauma and coming to terms with her childhood are quickly brushed away and not really delved into as opposed to the comics where she is still trying to process it

Ex. 4 Technology- The World in the comics is a lot more sci-fi than in the show where it almost an exact copy of ours. For one: the chimpanzees. In the comics Pogo isn’t the only one, we can see a lot of others in the background

Also stuff like the televator or the hotel oblivion are never mentioned or alluded to in the show

Now to get to the main point of this post: IT IS IMPOSSIBLE AT THIS POINT THAT THE TV SHOW WILL BE ABLE TO FOLLOW HOTEL OBLIVION'S PLOT BECAUSE IT DEPENDS ON THERE BEING VILLAINS!!!

This are superhero comics! Maybe we don’t see them fighting all the villains that appear in hotel oblivion, but the fact is that they are there! They are part of the world and part of what makes it breathe and come alive on the pages. To paraphrase (albeit a VERY simplified paraphrase) Watchmen (don’t tell me it didn’t influence tua bc IT DID and i can prove it) 'if there are superheroes then there are villains' especially in a world where superpowers exist and technology is a lot more advanced than in watchmen where they were all normal people (with the exception of dr. manhattan). But by dumbing down the world in the show we are left with a flavorless setting that has no effect whatsoever on the plot (compared to the comics). Maybe some aspects like the Sparrow Academy will be included (I am kinda scared to think where they will go with it) but it won’t be Hotel Oblivion. In s1 I could point out where the comics had influenced the show, hell even in s2 you could see the comic's influence but... Hotel Oblivion? I don’t see any possibility of it getting to tv and that’s the truth

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Hey so I found u thru the Halved Live Funnies and I gotta ask... whose Leon? What series these dudes from?

i got this ask and then forgot about it for like 2 days. anyways.

IVE ANSWERED THIS BEFORE BUT. GOD. LEON. ok so like....... long story short last year was when i first played resident evil........ bc we got a copy of re2remake in and.... jesus christ. i hyperfixated so fucking hard for the better part of a year going on into this year. and then i watched hl/vr and well. we know where that went. but now i am once again hyperfixated and now im back to where i was in like.... june of last year LMAO. but anyways i am once again going to ramble under the cut about them <3 (seriously. its very long and doesnt go much of anywhere. also spoilers)

tl/dr:

OK. SO. resident evil. the last time i answered this ask i either hadnt played some of them or just completely forgot the plot of others LOL but now upon beating/playing a large majority of them (besides 6 which i have not touched yet, and 7 is first person and im not rly interested in it rn)...... well others have said this as well but if you like cheesy b action movies you would love resident evil!!! 

the orig 1-2 are more survival horror which is what i like the most. 3 is where it starts branching into more actiony stuff but is still survival horror. but 4 and after is just like..... cheesy action stuff which is fine but not really like.... my thing. altho i do think that they are fun in a “this plot is hilariously bad” type way because i do enjoy horrible things. but people who like resident evil dont like it for the plot they like it for the characters. and for me i latched the fuck onto leon kennedy and tyrant t-00 aka mr fucking x

listen.......... you guys know me relatively well enough to know that i have a type......... and i would define leon as not really fitting under it usually because he is 1. under 6 foot 2. human and 3. very much not a villain. but something about (mostly remake) leon hits fucking different!!!!!! hes kind and means well, thinks about others constantly, looks like an actual fucking person in the in game graphics instead of being some manufactured perfect model, nice voice, etc....... i fucking care him so much. also gameplay wise i find his weapons to be more enjoyable than claires so i always end up playing his route/2nd route the most compared to hers. but i do also like claire :) shes nice and epic

i dont really like the newer leons (4 and afterwards) as much.... i mean a lot of it has to do with trauma and general “growing up” after what happened in re2 but hes just so constantly... snarky? jaded? constantly spouting lines to make him seem cool? when in my head hes very much like... a loser LMAO. i mean dont get me wrong hes a badass. he survives a fucking zombie outbreak and nearly gets murdered dozens of time. thats the definition of badass. but also you cannot change my mind that hes also a anxious loser twunk. there is literally nothing you can do to convince me he is “cool” like the games and movies want to think. this is probably heresy to re fans but this is my truth

https://youtu.be/aVZWuSfGStk?t=129

here is a vid of his cutscenes. obvious spoilers in there but you can skip around and see how cute he is. also yes in his first cutscene he is listening to butt rock. i switch between thinking hes just listening to it because nothing else is on the radio or his taste really is that terrible

also you literally CANNOT convince me that he is straight. the games try SOOOOO hard to get you to ship leon/ada or leon/claire but like...... i cannot see it. he has one of the gayest run animations i have ever seen in re2 remake and i mean... he just radiates gay trans man energy to me. also please look at this small scene from one of the animated movies where a licker jumps on top of him and he wraps his legs around its hips and lifts it off of him to not die. gay king

https://youtu.be/d-VNikxYBPw?t=9

but yes ive basically decided to ignore all characterization from re4 and onwards regarding leon at least. every leon after that is not my leon (except in special cases when im thinking about something like leon/jd from re damnation..... they did jd so dirty and they should have fucking kissed. or how cute he looked in vendetta sometimes)

ANYWAYS. MR X

so basically there are these enemies in resident evil called “tyrants” that are manufactured by the evil capitalist company umbrella that are near indestructible save for like.... rocket launchers or super heavy artillery that youre not buying at your local gun store. and in re2 one of them get sent to the police station where leon and claire are and is told to wipe out all witnesses. (i also do think that 2 or more were sent there... or at least in the area when this happened due to some very obvious plot hole stuff on each route no matter how you play, even tho the devs have come out and said that only 1 existed in the game and that each route is like “a parallel dimension” to each other. i wont go into it more than that but i choose to ignore that)

and well. when i first played it i knew of mr x but didnt like... know much about him other than that he was a monster and Tall (like 7 or 8 feet tall) and that he chased you around. that already sold me on him but then. well. you first encounter him because he lifts up an entire goddamn helicopter and then proceeds to chase you. and it was then that i knew i was in deep shit because he fucking stomped his way into my heart and never left.

mr x basically has serious Side Character Disorder where (even tho the remake made him very cool and epic and did him really well compared to nemesis in re3 remake which is an entire different can of worms) he has LITERALLY no personality or like. thoughts. or anything. hes only there to chase you around and be on screen for like 10 seconds for a couple of cutscenes and then not show up again until the very end of the game for you to fight on leons route. but god. he means so fucking much to me. 

you know how people latch onto random side characters that have no personality and essentially flesh them out more than the creators ever will? thats me with mr x. its gotten to the point where certain songs come on on my spotify and i actually get EMOTIONS or even TEARS because they remind me of him, but its not even really HIM, its the fucking ideas that ive come up with regarding him because all he ever does in game is chase you around and punch you and then die and is never brought up again

but anyways. mr x is a tall monster who chases leon and claire around in their routes but mr x is leons main monster in the game (claire has a different one). he chases leon around, literally never stops looking at him as he chases him, gets hit by an entire fucking car which then explodes BUT THEN chases him down into the sewers and into a secret underground lab just to get to him like a fucking bloodhound who, once he has the scent, will never stop chasing him

(you can see why this made me kind of insane)

just. AGHHH. the tyrants in this series get treated so dirty. i desperately want capcom to give us some sort of tyrant that can actually fucking like.... go against orders and brainwashing or whatever and actually have emotions and thoughts!!!!!!!!!! but capcom would never do anything with it cause its a rough and tough action series and people arent here to see tyrants have some sort of thought process beyond punching and killing and people only want to shoot guns at them instead of thinking about the possibilities of a tyrant that goes against its programming.

i so desperately want an au where mr x got the transmitter shot off of the side of his head (and while capcom never mentioned this ever many re2 fans have since decided that it is what feeds info/orders to him. i flip flop between thinking that it either is near controlling him and prevents free will and thought or that its just giving him orders and that hes just burying/hiding/not showing free will and thought in fear of being killed. either that or someone at umbrella is “piloting” him but also the whole point of tyrants is that theyre supposed to be smart enough to think for themselves somewhat so... eh). GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!

ive explained a bunch of this stuff in my other ask about it but just...... xleon means so much to me when it should not and will never be actually canon

anyways please play re2 remake at least, you dont have to know everything about re1 to like it, just go into it knowing that a few months ago in the mountains outside raccoon city claires brother chris and a few members on his team went to a mansion where they discovered umbrella doing shady zombie shit there. re2 remake was hyped up for years for a reason and it is really good, even if its short (altho i do appreciate short games in this day and age cause not every game needs to be like 60 plus hours long). 

maybe one day when its not late and i can actually think i will explain all this better but todays not that day <3

(EDIT: ALSO RE DAMNATION TYRANTS ARE 14 FEET TALL. AND CHASE AROUND LEON AND ACTUALLY FUCKING RUN. FUN FACT! anyways while i do think jd in that movie and leon should kiss i also want leon and a tyrant from that movie to kiss. bye)

[geneeste]

Genie’s SG1 Rewatch: The Enemy Within

This one is slightly less gross than the last one, but not by much. (Also, there are quite a few time breaks in this one, just ignore them.)

Season 1, Episode 2:

9:03 PM “With all due respect” everyone take a drink I don’t think I’ve watched much of any of the first season since I originally watched it 9:04 PM I hardly remember any of The Enemy Within Poor Kawalsky 4:14 PM I will say it's fun to watch them figure out all the Stargate terminology we take for granted and to watch their relationships develop 4:15 PM Uh, yep, the doctor was here before and the gross goa'uld killed him 😬 I already don't like COL Kennedy Yay Jack, so glad you're here 4:19 PM I really do just love Chris Judge He gives such nuance to often really stilted dialogue 4:20 PM See, here though, discovering that Earth was the seed planet for all those humans that are now enslaved/mistreated that is plenty compelling. it's a great motivation for the SGC and really anyone to, you know, join the cause Which makes the fact that they abused and then fridged Sha'ré even more frustrating to me Because it was just. So unnecessary. (and Skaa'ra too!) Poor Daniel 😢 I love Sam and Daniel's budding friendship (Side note: I get frustrated by all the shortcomings of the show and then they give us great little moments and I remember why I loved it to begin with.)

4:24 PM Oh jeez, that hand falling, I don't think Daniel's gonna sleep any time soon

5:26 PM Yeah sure doc, you go ahead and hit that alarm that'll help I mean it will but maybe also run I dunno Eep Sam I will forever love how you can see Sam calculate the risks of what she's about to do Like, "this is a terrible decision but I'm gonna do it anyway"

5:28 PM So that part where Kawalsky throws Sam into the wall in the elevator? That's another AT story: "And so they had a shot of my face, so I couldn't use a stunt double and I smacked my head against back of the elevator and dropped down, so when you actually see Carter drop down to the corner of the elevator slumped into a pathetic little heap, that was really Amanda slumped into a pathetic little heap."

5:32 PM Daniel sounds constantly bewildered in these early episodes "Someone in the elevator hit the emergency stop..." WHY WOULD SOMEBODY DO THAT? 😆 Oh Kawalsky I hate that they did this to yoooouuuuu

5:33 PM What an uncomfortable gurney do I even want to know where they found that gurney I mean jeez I can't take the close up on Kawalsky's face I'm such a baby

5:36 PM (it occurs to me that Kawalsky's begging Jack to help him, then they do the exact same thing to Jack later during In The Line of Duty -- ugh, poor Jack)

5:38 PM No seriously Kawalsky is heartbreaking ugh Fucking Kennedy He’s so rude

7:23 PM This is very unpleasant Somehow I don’t think it’s going to be interested in talking 

7:25 PM This is just not super fun to watch Dr Warner needs Frasier desperately lol 7:27 PM Kennedy is a jerk and I don’t like him I do love me a sassy hardass Hammond however 7:30 PM Teal’c is a really amazing person for letting them experiment on Junior like that 😳 Also: yuck

7:31 PM Yeah Jack, let the man settle his affairs jeez Sigh. Poor Kawalsky. I would not be watching this surgery  7:34 PM I think warner is just speaking jibberish now I’m so glad they got most of the gross stuff out of the way early 🤢

7:37 PM I totally don’t remember how Kawalsky dies Oh fuck off Kennedy This whole “already took over the host” dead symbiote thing is hard to believe 

7:40 PM Oh yikes Walter, ow Also goa’uld are really not strategic at all Just lay low  and pretend you kumquat 7:42 PM Oh no Now I remember how Kawalsky dies 😬😬😬

7:43 PM Oof What even Was the thing falling out the back of his head really necessary

7:45 PM Oh man ahahahaha I LOVE Hammond flexing on his phone call with the President and making Kennedy stand right there and watch We stan a sassy hardass Hammond 7:46 PM Yay Teal’c A bright spot in an otherwise miserable ep

7:47 PM Is P3-575 the one with where Sam gets drunk on alien booze and gets naked? (According to show lore?) [It was P3X-595 for those of you following along at home]

7:48 PM Aaaand that’s over, phew