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#fucking agonizing to watch
seffius · 8 months
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Thinking about how nopixel cops actually have a really interesting advantage over the general population of los santos where they can just extract any amount of information they want and most people won't object to it. Like IRL obviously you're not supposed to talk to cops before you speak with an attorney but not only could refusing to talk to a cop technically be failrp but it would also result in content loss. Now, cop characters are ALWAYS going to take advantage of people's ignorance of their rights but the players behind these characters also have the opportunity to take advantage of people's willingness to "yes, and" any scenario to interrogate anyone they want to get whatever it is they're looking for. (Unless we're looking at a severe enough crime or a knowledgeable enough character, ofc)
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ABOUT TO WATCH THE FNAF MOVIE
I NEED TO SEE THAT OLD MAN DIE ON SCREEN.
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demonir · 3 months
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So about that "interest" I've been vague posting about
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pkmoth · 7 days
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having swap au thoughts. *slaps roof of claus* there's so much mental illness in this guy. im gonna blow up everyone in the room and then myself
#what if you felt unbearable guilt because your brother went missing in the two seconds you were separated#and you feel like there mustve been Something you couldve done to prevent it#if only you had stuck together. if only you hadnt let him tag along on your basically-a-suicide-mission in the first place#but none of those things happened so you go through three years blaming yourself#continuing to search for him because maybe hes still out there. and maybe exhausting yourself on an aimless search is a way you can atone#and then you're pulled into this big destiny adventure so your searching is put on the back burner#you're so busy doing important things and meeting new friends and there are points in your adventure where your heart feels lighter#and maybe you open up just a little about the crushing guilt you feel. and your new friends say it wasnt your fault#maybe you start accepting that your brother is really gone but you have to keep living your life#saving your brother was a far out dream but saving the world is something you have the power to do#so you try your best. so you dont fuck up this time#your guilt becomes the fuel keeping you going#and then at the end of your journey#you find out one of the biggest obstacles on your journey#the human chimera that you felt kinda horrified at and a little bad for even as you fought them#is your brother you've been mourning and agonizing over not being able to save#so um. The Guilt is even worse now#now he doesnt just feel responsible for his death. he Now feels responsible for him becoming this Creature Thing under porkys control#and in a lucas dies scenario. hoogh i cant imagine how claus would feel after that.......#however the thing that spurred this post was thinking about the lucas lives postgame scenario (it just got a bit out of hand lol) so.#your brother is alive and back home again and youre so unbelievably glad#but the guilt still creeps up every time you see how much hes Changed. physically and mentally#you had just started to accept the fact youd have to live without your brother but somehow having him back is almost just as painful#things cant just go back to how they were before. youll never be the exact same happy family as you used to be#its strange adjusting to having lucas back and its strange trying not to step on each others toes with their trauma#you cant help but be clingy because you couldnt bear it if he disappeared again under your watch#but nobody wants to be watched all the time especially when youre recovering from your brainwashed identity as an army commander#FUCK I REACHED THE TAG LIMIT I WANTED TO RAMBLE MORE AUGH. THEY MAKE ME SO ILL. i swear its not all angst theres some lightheartedness in it#mother 3 swap au#mothfics
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sorry for only saying this type of shit lately but i kinda wanna drive a car straight into a brick wall at the highest speed possible
#trying to keep it together so bad because i already know the problems and solutions and whatnot but i cannot do anything#i desperately just need to do something. accomplish any task. actually several would be nice. but i cannot stand just letting life go by#while i watch other people have the things i want. or even metaphorically living my dream like. that should be me why am i settling for thi#i hate even talking about this because i feel so stupid when i know it's not even a real tangible problem and that i actually DO have real#problems to tackle and the ability to do so but i'm choosing to be upset over the stupidest things i could possibly be sad about#and i can't even be sad about it in a normal way i'm cycling through like several different reactions to smth that isn't even real#or if it is real i literally do not have tanglible evidence for it one way or another like i'm driving myself insane for no reason#i can't even get catharsis because all i'm doing is digging a deeper hole for something i never should've gone back into in the first place#because i KNOW how i am i KNOW how i react to things and i still chose to do it lmao.#and i continue to choose to go through this shit instead of actively trying to change my life because... i'm lazy? and stupid? idk#negative self-talk isn't gonna get me to do anything either so let's just say i'm feeling particularly unmotivated like usual#i hated being a teenager but i really do miss when all my problems just amounted to 'someone was mean to me on tumblr today :(' or i failed#a test in chemistry or something. like i yearn for that simplicity becasue at this point all i'm doing is ruining my own life LMAO#i'm too scared to live i'm too scared to die so i just sit here and fantasize that life could be amazing if i wait#and i'll magically get everything i've ever wanted if i just wait long enough. and i know it isn't true and i still wait for it to happen.#because honestly like. i think deep down i am just convinced i will fail at anything i do when that shouldn't be what scares me.#what scares me should be never even allowing myself to fail because i never tried to do anything at all with myself or my life#like. wake the fuck up. get off your ass and put in the effort. learn some skills. gain independence and stability and discipline and do it#just live please i'm begging you just live so i can be happy don't i deserve to be happy... why am i not letting myself be happy#i'm literally keeping myself trapped in this negative feedback loop ON PURPOSE because teehee shiny toy#and it doesn't matter if the love is real it doesn't matter how i feel like i'm just using it as a distraction i can't say it's motivation#because it's barely motivated me at all. i have to start being realistic. 25 & just realizing you actually have to participate in your life#anyways. i've cried i've agonized i've pictured killing myself in 30 different ways. i think the only way i'm gonna feel better is#to just actually try this time without giving up. wish me luck
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is-this-tf · 25 days
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Okay I need to speak my truth: being into character TF for fandoms that rarely get attention from TF artists feels like this
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darkestwings · 6 months
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911 i love u so much but jsyk bobby and athenas therapist is sus, unless hes their actual marriage counselor he shouldnt be seeing both of them its ✨ unethical ✨
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moonscape · 1 month
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really do think it says a lot that my mutuals who haven't watched every episode of the pokemon anime are like yeah team rocket were great i loved them as a kid ^_^ meanwhile people like me emery and zactoshi who have seen every single episode have our fucking faces melting off because of team rocket overexposure
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tamagotchikgs · 3 months
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talking 2 my mom n crying realizing just how little she realizes or chooses to acknowledge how badly my upbringing fucked me up how being isolated and deprived of basic care has built Me.................like. i . im not allowed to be cared for. im not allowed even as an adult when suddenly she expects me to be able to do everything including go to the doctor n the dentist and do everything flawlessly when i have never had a chance to learn or be anything but terrified. i cant go to the dentist no matter how bad the pain gets or how disgusted i am of myself like i have been since i was a literal child because I'm Not Allowed. i cant just take that and switch it the other way suddenly because im an adult i dont know hwo to train myself out of it. all ive ever known is just Wait. wait it out it doesnt matter how much pain im in it doesnt matter what im going through just Shut Up and Wait.
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usercelestial · 4 months
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gay people like watching gay people kiss each other? what are you gonna do about it? should we call the president? should we call the cops?
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youredreamingofroo · 4 months
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I need to go back to sleep, it's 1am, I can't doom scroll and spam reblog on tumblr, I need to go back to sleep, I *cant* doom scroll, PLEASE I need to go back to sleep I cant-
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diseaseriddencube · 8 months
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remade my final girl edit the way god intended
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piplupod · 2 months
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i feel really bad that people have seen me love the TAZ podcast and assumed "oh that person must love dnd podcasts" and try to recommend me one. my brother has been trying to get me into a couple different dnd podcasts for nearly two years now and i have tried listening to some on multiple occasions and i'm sorry but i just cannot do it 😭
i only recently realized that I probably do not actually like dnd podcasts very much, i simply like the mcelroys vibes and interactions and Griffin's storytelling style (and Justin's as well - s.teeplechase was really enjoyable once they got going with it. maybe travis could be good but he'll need a lot more experience and practice before he's able to weave a good story together fdjskl)
but every time i try to say "ahh i just don't think I really enjoy dnd podcasts,,,," then they get all huffy with me because i like the mcelroys and the mcelroys don't play REAL dnd, oh how cringe, and I'm just like,,, yeah,,, thats the point,,,, it's interesting to listen to because they play fast and loose with the rules and focus mainly on the storytelling aspect and the character interactions,,,,,, which are the things that i actually enjoy,,,,
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killjoy-prince · 2 months
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SECOND BAD RELATIONSHIP END GET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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angieschiffahoi · 1 year
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if shauna really is the chosen executioner for all the sacrificies coming forward does it really surprise anyone that she’s so numb and desensitised from death? 
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angryborzois · 10 months
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hmm maybe its time to reconsider my future career options hahaha
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