#generally-nauseated

[bixels]

in case you wanna know how bad things are on twitter rn.

[womansfilm]

Forbidden (1932) / The Bitter Tea of General Yen (1933)

[abyssaldyke]

Sometimes I'll get a bit handwringey about self-censorship in my own writing and be like ohh putting that in might be too far but I don't want to stifle my creative expression for the sake of becoming publishable and then I'll still produce a piece of work leagues outside the boundaries of general acceptability and against all odds find some freak willing to pay me for it. The moral of the story is trust your instincts I suppose, and also never kill yourself.

[itspileofgoodthings]

thinking about how sometimes I cannot extroverted-bear to Not Be Noticed immediately and positively in a group setting and other times I love to blend into the furniture like you’ve never seen before.

[silusvesuius]

n*loth not being able to bag anyone over the (human term) age of 25-30 at most is the only logical and real conclusion to me because it can be just explained away as him wanting to prove and control everything and anyone (Cus he's a man!) but being stuck in that demographic because his unbearable and vile personality is a force that nobody can look past once they've outgrown the possible fear and idolization period of anyone but also n*loth in particular.

[kjzx]

I'm lowkey terrified to date for many reasons but one of them is that I'm afraid that lesbian/bi women irl are just like what I see online and if I was exposed to this stuff irl I'd just kms methinks

[arundolyn]

man. whenever i see someone discussing it/talking about liking it i feel myself Wanting to like. respect? extreme horror as a genre. more than i do. and i think my problem boils down to like. some of the places these things go.. you need to be a damn good writer, and you kinda need to make it have a Point or a Reason at least somewhat. you gotta be able to suspend your disbelief. that doesn't go any different for any flavor of horror than any other type of nonfiction writing tbh and in my opinion is generally harder to pull off. what happens does, in context, need to at least kinda sorta make a little bit of sense in some way and not be happening Just Because. and because of the rarity and stigma of extreme horror its less likely to qualify well for either of the above and just ends up attracting people who want to write some Really out there shit and get upset when they get justified critique from readers (usually people who bought their book and Enjoy extreme horror!) and always want to couch it like they're being oppressed for Writing which is a super disingenuous way to put it

[bcbryar]

Enough useless thinking, time for some REAL, USEFUL thinking. Such as. Sam should be wildly inappropriate with Grian that first time he visits the UK. He's tired and overheated and wearing Grian's clothes and he wants nothing more than a little relief and fun and validation. Mean fingers and biting words and lasting marks. And I want for Grian to suppress it. To deny it, to ignore it, to attempt to heal. Only for all of that to rush back the moment he picks Sam up for Insomnia 57. Squirmy and flighty on that sofa on stage. Will he be safe in the hotel this time?

[mars-ipan]

was so fucking thirsty last night i felt it in my dreams

[ceramicbeetle]

know there’s a lot of fandom appeal in hawkeye returning home after the war and getting “proper” psychiatric treatment for [pre-existing] mental illness but frankly rewatching Dr Pierce and Mr Hyde and Give 'Em Hell Hawkeye back to back makes me feel like hawkeye returns and becomes embroiled in the antipsychiatry movement instead

because the disparity between Trapper’s fond “He’s just unstable” that ties Directly to the war’s impact on Hawkeye’s sense of empathy and morality and BJ’s derisive “I'd say there was no point in letting this drive you crazy, but I can see I'm too late” that more explicitly dismisses his behavior as being baselessly irrational and pathetic is enormous, and I think with hindsight it wouldn’t escape Hawkeye’s notice. He is a character who remained relatively unchanged over the seasons — it was the way that people began to respond to, dismiss, and pathologize* his behavior that shifted dramatically enough to make him go from being “the sanest person [Sidney] knows” to being considered “Crazy”.

*"Pathologize" doing a lot of heavy lifting here. this isn't to say that Hawkeye isn't experiencing a break in reality in GFA, he absolutely is, the Point is that there's a horror story in the insistence that his psychosis in GFA is part of a history of unstable behavior, something Internal, something Individual, something caused by His Brain, rather than being a 'reasonable' response to an utterly unreasonably horrific situation, leading to him being forced into a treatment like heavy medications or ECT because it's more Convenient to label him as an already unstable Outlier than acknowledging the political, military, and traumatic situations that he was forced into that Directly Caused his behavior, you know?

[oldyears]

i work for a tech company (as a writer lol) and like the product/app in itself isn't even bad i actually think it's such a valuable digital tool but every time i clock in i need to prepare myself to see coworkers and bosses putting AI in a good light and actually incorporating it in the back end processes of the business ughhhh

[ennaih]

Every Film I Watch In 2023:

249. The Christmas Setup (2020)

[jewishmcr]

I’ve been having a lot of difficulties in my personal religious life lately due to currently being in the process of converting to Judaism (a process I began almost two years ago and was supposed to finish this coming spring) and I just want to say that it has been so unbelievably disheartening to see the way that self proclaimed liberal Jewish institutions have been handling the fact that Israel is carrying out genocide against Palestinians. I attend one of the most famous and oldest LGBT synagogues in the country and today during our conversion group study meeting we talked about popular tourist and religious attractions in Israel. My teacher joked that he “felt like a tour guide” showing us all these cool places of cultural and religious importance in Israel while giving but a tiny acknowledgement to the fact that Israel was built on colonial violence and occupied land. Today, as I read about thousands of displaced Palestinians in the south being bombed in areas that were thought to be safe I also had to sit through an Israeli “history lesson” focusing on its importance as a safe haven for Jews. I’m so devastated by the way I’ve been seeing pillars of LGBT Jewish life respond to what’s happening. I don’t have anything smart to say it’s just so dire to see that white liberalism extends so deeply into spaces that I and so many others turned to for religious fulfillment

[doedipus]

I managed to take a few sets off of one of the people who beat me in bracket next time and I definitely have a lot of notes on the counter-adaptation for next time, so I thiiiink I might have a shot this month if she's there again

[saving-people-haunting-things]

Ever imagine a post that's stupid and horrible and no one could possibly actually think that, but then you go on tumblr and see someone has written that exact post?

[cannibalisticskittles]

woke up feeling... okay. not great. but not COMPLETELY exhausted. we'll see how long that lasts tho