#guess who there is a fucking fictive of in that subsystem. fucking guess. Dirk Strider. of fucking course

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i need advice from anyone else with a really fragmented identity. i, specifically Cecil, have an identity that's so much more fragmented than the rest of my already-polyfragmented system. i'm split into several median subsystems, non-median subsystems, and i have so many factives of me

i don't know how to handle it. i want to fuse the subsystems but i need to know why i fragment so much first. i know i have the brunt of our BPD so that's probably part of it, but i still don't get it. am i just unable to face my own identity and actions? i don't know

but i keep fragmenting further and further and i'm trying to do system mapping for the latest subsystem to split off of me and it's too much. i need help. i don't know what to do