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Stay With Me - part one

AU friends with benefits but things get complicated, like they always do

word count: around 8.3K // angst, alcohol consumption, language

A/N: Hiiiiii! So, back in September I posted a preview kinda thing to a fic I was just casually writing and now I have finally finished it! Took a while but I’ve been going through some shit but now it’s done! It’s gonna be a two part thing (I think) because it turned out way longer than I first expected, and this part is still so long, woops. It’s the first thing I’ve written in YEARS so please be nice haha. (Also, English is not my first language so I’m sorry if some grammar is wrong. I’ve proofread it many times but it could still be bit off in some places.)

AND please let me know if you liked it and if I should post part 2 as well. Feedback is so so so appreciated because it’s been sooooooooo long since I posted anything and I’m scared hahah anyways..!

Hope you like it!

His lips were hot against her skin when he leaned in and whispered in her ear.

“Your place or mine tonight?”

She smiled to herself and her heart skipped a beat when she felt his warm body press against her back. The music was loud around the two of them and she could hardly hear herself think, yet his voice was clear as day. She turned to look at him and was met by his familiar warm grin as he looked right back.

“What makes you think I’ll be going home with you tonight?” she teased.

He snorted and raised his eyebrows, and she had to bite down on the inside of her cheeks to stop herself from smiling too much.

“Well, love” he started and spun her around so he could place his hands on her hips. She felt her cheeks flush under his stare as he pulled her even closer to him. He smelled like beer and tequila mixed with that cologne she loved so much. Her knees weakened and he smirked. “I think we both know you are.”

He was right.

But she wasn’t going to let him have that.

“It’s awfully bold of you to assume such a thing, Mr. Styles.”

“Is it though?” He was still smirking and she felt her knees weaken even more as his tongue poked out to wet his pink lips. Her heart was beating so hard she was sure he would’ve heard it if it wasn’t for the loud music. Sweaty bodies kept bumping into the two of them on the overcrowded dance floor, which normally she couldn’t stand, but she was drunk. Very drunk and she was hungry and tired... and also in a huge need of a wee.

However, now Harry was standing in front of her.

So needless to say nothing else really mattered anymore.

His mere presence made her forget about all the people around them and suddenly her bladder didn’t seem so full after all. That’s the effect he had on her and he knew it. With his soft brown hair that curled so pretty at the tips, his smooth skin and green eyes; there was no way she wasn’t going home with him again tonight. He was the best thing she had ever laid her eyes on and he also wanted to take her home.

So who was she to say no?

“Yours then,” she replied and tried to not sound too eager. Harry squeezed her hips again as she finally confirmed they would indeed go home with one other again and pulled her even closer into him. His chest pressed against hers and she swore she could feel his heartbeat against hers.

“See that wasn’t so hard to say, was it?” She rolled her eyes as she noticed his smug grin and as much as it pained her to do; she pushed him off, pointing a finger into his chest.

“We’re stopping to buy fries on the way though... and you’re paying!”

Harry laughed and agreed, but not before adding; “I can give you something a lot better than fries once we get back.”

And well… she didn’t disagree.

She wasn’t entirely sure when this thing between the two of them started, or how it started even. It was just one of those things that happened one night. Harry first came into her life when her flatmate Louisa started dating his mate Tom during their first year of uni.

The first time she met him they didn’t really speak to each other. It had really just been a case of her admiring him from afar as he was approached by a handful of women at the student bar. She thought he was probably the prettiest guy she had ever laid her eyes on and thought to herself that he was just way too cool to ever notice her.

It was obvious from the start, by just watching him, that he had an aura around him that drew everyone in. People, both boys and girls, flooded around him wherever he went. He was always the center of attention and she understood why. Because not only was he the prettiest guy she had ever seen, he was also one of the nicest guys she had ever met. At first she had just assumed he’d be an arsehole because to be fair she had never really met a guy that got as much attention as him that wasn’t one.

However, as Louias’s and Tom’s relationship grew more serious; the more all of them hung out and she started talking to him rather than just staring from afar. She got to know him and even though the two of them were quite different from each other, they still became good friends.

While she was more of a typical girly girl who enjoyed spending a little too much money on overpriced makeup palettes and listened to whatever songs were in the top list that week Harry was a little more into old school music, bringing up bands and songs she had never heard of before. He did all his shopping at different thrift shops. He wore weird shirts and painted his nails without caring what anyone else thought while she couldn’t even leave her house without checking with all her roommates at least three times if her outfit was okay. She loved scrolling through Instagram. Harry didn’t even have an account.

He was interesting, alluring and cool.

She just wasn’t any of that.

She wasn’t his type and he was simply just out of her league.

Until one night.

It was at the start of their third year at uni and they were out to celebrate their friend Jax’s birthday. To make a complicated story short, there had just been a ridiculous amount of alcohol consumed and when she told everyone she was leaving Harry stood up too and announced he’d come with her, and because everyone was so drunk, the two of them included, no one thought more about it.

They left the club together. Harry got them an Uber and when it stopped outside her house he got out as well.

Kisses were shared and clothes came off and the next day she thought she was still dreaming when Harry was right there next to her when she woke up. There was no awkwardness though as they shared a cup of tea and he made them a full English breakfast to cure their hangovers.

And then they did the same thing again next weekend and it kinda just became a thing. That was three months ago now and it was still nothing they really talked about. Which was fine; she didn’t really want to talk about it. Because what was she supposed to say? Whatever was going on between them was working and she didn’t want to complicate things.

She was fine with just waking up next to him every now and again. Especially now when the nights were getting colder it was just nice to have a warm body to snuggle up to.

It was an agreement that worked well for both of them, even if she did fancy him a little it wasn’t a full-blown crush and Harry kept calling her his friend so that’s what she also settled on calling herself. She knew she wasn’t the type of girl he usually went for and that somehow made it easier to keep her feelings for him platonic. He was too cool for her anyway.

This way she just didn’t have to swipe through tinder or chat some random guy up at the bar to get laid.

Louisa kept warning her that she was going to get her heart broken but it was just sex. Amazing sex. He made her feel like no other man ever had. Harry knew just how to work her and it made her lose her breath every single time. Her whole body was on fire anytime he touched her. She didn’t want to think about getting her heart broken.

“What time is it?”

Harry’s raspy voice startled her out of her thoughts and his body vibrated against hers under the duvet as he chuckled at her reaction. His arm was slung over her waist loosely and she could feel his warm breath on the back of her neck, leaving goosebumps all over her skin.

“I dunno,” she whispered back and leaned into his touch a little more. The hair on his legs tickled her smoother ones and she could feel her skin sticking against his, but neither of them made any effort to move away from each other. It was still early though, that much she knew. The sun was barely shining in through the blinds in Harry’s bedroom.

“Hm,” he hummed and tightened his grip a little. “Can’t sleep?”

“Just thinking. “

“About…?”

“Nothing really.”

Harry hummed again but didn’t say anything else. They laid in silence while Harry circled his thumb over her stomach lightly. It felt like the most natural thing in the world. Just the two of them, tangled in each other’s naked bodies and the sheets. She could feel a hangover coming over her slowly. Her head felt heavy and throbbed painfully against the soft pillows. There was a glass of water on the bedside table tempting her but reaching out for it meant moving away from Harry and she was just way too comfortable to do so.

It wasn’t long until Harry’s soft snores filled the room again and his thumb stilled. She sighed deeply, sleep creeping over her too. They were friends. Friends that slept together and cuddled. Nothing else. Just friends.

… but she really could stay like this forever.

The next time she woke up Harry wasn’t next to her anymore and the room was a lot brighter. A weak whimper left her lips and she buried her face into the pillow; the sunlight too much for her sensitive eyes and raging headache, which only seemed to have gotten worse.

Blindly she reached out for the glass she’d spotted earlier, but instead of actually getting a hold of it it was knocked over. It landed on the floor with a soft thud and her eyes shot open at the sound. Glancing down she noticed that, thankfully, the glass hadn’t broken into a million pieces, but unfortunately there was water everywhere.

“Damn it,” she muttered and fell back, hiding her face in the pillow again. Stupid water. Stupid hangover. Stupid everything.

Her head was spinning and her body ached. This hangover was going to be rough and she cursed herself for letting Jax and Beth persuade her into taking all those shots the night before. She knew it was going to come back and bite her in the ass today. Stupid Jax. Stupid Beth. Stupid shots.

Outside the bedroom she could hear Harry roaming around in the kitchen, talking to his flatmate Isaac and every now and then he’d sing along to the music playing softly in the background. She relaxed as she listened to his voice. At least there was something good about this morning.

And it was enough to eventually get her out of bed.

She found her black underwear at the bottom of the bed and pulled them on, stepping around the water she had just spilled as she got out and made a mental note to herself to fix that mess later.

The black strap dress and oversized blazer from the night before were stern across the floor and she stared at them for a long time before deciding she wasn’t in the mood to put them back on at this time. Looking around the room she spotted something very familiar. The yellow jumper she always wore when she slept over was hung neatly over Harry’s chair by the desk, waiting for her, and she smiled to herself knowing he’d put it there for her to wear.

Always so considerate.

“Jesus, you look like absolute shit,” Isaac teased when she eventually emerged from the bedroom and into the kitchen “Wild night?”

“Fuck off,” she groaned and walked straight past him and over to the sink to pour herself a glass of water, downing it in pretty much one gulp. It spilled down her chin and onto the jumper, leaving a big wet stain, but she really couldn’t care less. Water had never tasted better.

“Ah, I’m just saying,” Isaac laughed. “You look like you got run over by a truck.”

“Feels like I was,” she admitted and slumped down on one of the chairs next to the kitchen counter. “Ugh, I’m never drinking again.”

“Ha! Yeah, I’ve heard that one before.”

The kitchen was surprisingly cold and she regretted not stealing a pair of Harry’s sweatpants before leaving his warm comfy bedroom. She let her eyes wander over to him and felt her pulse pick up. Harry was standing shirtless in the kitchen, only dressed in his regular Nike sports shorts, and she just couldn’t stop herself from staring at his tattoos and toned chest. The same chest she’d left kisses all over just hours ago and it gave her goosebumps just thinking about. He had a spatula in one of his hands and a cup of coffee in the other. As always, he was perfect and she looked like a mess. Great.

Harry smirked as he caught her staring, but didn’t say anything about it.

“Do you want some breakfast?” he asked instead.

“Please.”

A minute later he placed a plate of eggs and some toast in front of her. The smell of it made her nauseous but she also knew that if she didn’t eat anything she was going to feel a lot worse soon. She’d much rather crawl back into Harry’s bed and maybe sleep for another hour or two, preferably with him beside her.

But now she had a plate of food in front of her that Harry had made and it would be rude to at least not try to eat some. So she ate in silence while listening to Harry tell Isaac about the previous night and slowly she realized that she had a few blackouts from the night.

Shit, how much did I drink?

She really shouldn’t have taken those shots. Her mother would have lectured her for hours if she knew about the heavy party nights that sometimes occurred, having a strong belief alcohol was indeed a gift from the devil himself. Alcohol and sugar. She had lost count of the number of books her mother had given her about healthy living and mindful thinking, and she was pretty sure she was getting another one for Christmas. Harry once found her hidden stash of books she’d put in the back of her closet and begged her for one. She happily gave it to him.

Harry would probably love her mother’s rants about the dangers of alcohol and unhealthy meals she thought to herself and almost rolled her eyes. She could picture it now; Harry and her mother sharing recipes with each other that claimed your life would be twenty years longer and ganging up on her about the lack of exercise she did. What a nightmare.

Yet, she had to ignore the warm feeling in her belly at the thought of Harry getting along with her mother.

“Alright well,” Isaac announced after a while and stood up. “I gotta get to work. Fuckin’ Jake called in sick so now I gotta cover his shift at the shop.”

“Sucks mate,” Harry replied while he shoved the last piece of his toast into his mouth. “At least you’re getting some extra cash.”

“Yeah yeah, something like that,” Isaac muttered as he dropped his dirty plate into the sink. “I’ll see you guys later. Hope you feel better party girl!”

She shot him a weak smile and a nod as a thank you. Her plate of food was still half full and the cup of tea Harry had also made for her was now cold. She just couldn’t force herself to eat more. Stupid shots.

“You really do look like you got run over by a truck,” Harry chuckled when Isaac was gone and she sent him a glare. “How much did you drink? Didn’t realize you were that drunk when we left.”

“I actually have no idea. I think Jax and Beth might have poisoned me.”

“Ah,” he nodded. “That explains it.”

“Mm.“

“Can I get you anything else?”

“No, that’s okay” she told him. “Kinda just wanna go back to bed if I’m honest.”

“‘S your lucky day then,” Harry said and rose to his feet, offering his hand out to her. “Let’s go.”

She could have cried out of happiness when she finally crawled back into Harry’s comfortable bed. The sheets had never been more comforting as she pulled them up to her chin and made herself into a little cocoon. She never wanted to leave his bed ever again. “You are ridiculous.”

She peeked out at him from under the duvet and noticed him smiling down at her fondly, but his smile soon turned into a small frown. “Is that water all over the floor?”

“Oh yeah... that was me. Sorry,” she pouted.

“I repeat, you are ridiculous,” he rolled his eyes but she also knew he wasn’t upset when she noticed his little dimple.

He quickly cleaned up the mess she had created earlier and then jumped up to join her. The bed shook as he landed and she groaned as another wave of nausea washed over her. But having him next to her again made her forget all about it. He smelled so good. How did he always smell so good?

She rested her head on his shoulder as he pulled up his laptop and signed onto his Netflix account, picking the first random movie that caught his interest.

And that’s how the two of them spent the next few hours. Just laying in bed together watching random movies on Netflix with her dozing in and out of sleep for most of the time. Harry kept running his fingers through her hair, gently scratching the top of her head and it was probably the most soothing thing she had ever experienced.

Eventually, she started feeling better but made no effort to move or get up.

Not until he did.

“I’m gonna take a shower quickly,” he announced as the third movie finished. She followed him with her gaze as he got up and pulled out a pair of fresh boxers out of his drawer. Her heart beat a little extra. “You can watch something else if you want.”

“Thanks. Are you doing something later or?” she asked casually and pulled his computer onto her lap.

“Yeah, uh, I forgot I have a date actually.”

She’s pretty sure she forgot how to breathe then.

A date.

Harry had a date.

“Oh... “ is all she managed to say. Her mouth felt as dry as it did when she woke up earlier that morning and she racked her brain for something else to say. Unfortunately there was nothing. Harry stopped and looked at her.

“Is - I mean... um, is that okay?”

“What?”

She felt stupid. So utterly stupid but she just couldn’t find the words to speak. She felt weird, even though she knew he was technically only her friend and she knew they were not even close to being exclusive. But Harry was going on a date. Like a proper date. Not just hooking up after a night out. A date. With someone else.

“Are you okay with me going on a date... ?” he asked slowly, inspecting her closely and that’s when she realized she needed to say something fast.

“Yeah, no, of course!” she tried to laugh but it was more of a strange cackle coming out of her mouth rather than a laugh. Harry eyed her for another minute and she sat up. Her palms were sweaty and her cheeks hot. She felt like a bigger mess now than she had all morning. “Harry, we’re friends. Why would I care if you go on a date?”

Harry looked at her a bit startled.

“Well, because we-”

“I’m fine,” she interrupted before he could finish and cursed herself yet again for being so fucking weird. They were friends. She had no reason to not be okay with it. She knew she wasn’t his type. Of course he was going on a date with someone else. She knew this and she needed to get herself together before he wanted to talk about something related to the two of them and make things complicated. The thing between them wasn’t something they ever talked about and she refused to start doing it now. “I’m excited for you even,” she shot him the biggest fake smile she could muster. “Who is she?”

What a stupid question.

“Uh, a friend of Matt’s or something like that,” he shrugged, but he looked at her with uncertainty written all across his face; almost like he didn’t believe a single word she was saying. “I don’t know really. He set us up.”

“Cool.”

“Cool... ?”

Suddenly she doesn’t want to be in his bed anymore. For the very first time, she felt awkward sitting in front of him.

“Yeah, cool.”

“Oookay.”

Silence.

It’s uncomfortable and she knew she messed this up. Both of them were frozen in place and she had to look away from him before it was all too much. She was so aware of how her cheeks had turned into a deep color of red and she felt nauseous, only this time she knew it was not from the alcohol.

“I’m just,” Harry coughed in an attempt to break the heavy tension and she wanted nothing more than to disappear. “I’m gonna go take that shower.” He pointed awkwardly towards the door.

“Yeah, uh,” she said and tried her absolute hardest to get herself back together. To act normal. “I’m going to head home anyways I think.”

“No, you don’t-”

“It’s okay,” she interrupted him again. “Beth wanted to have pizza night and I should stop being such a lazy ass anyways. I have some studying to do before my lecture tomorrow too, soo... yeah, gonna head home.”

Harry looked at her for a moment, scanning her face after any other sign that something was wrong, but she managed to keep it together and he nodded.

“Alright, well I’ll see you around yeah?”

“Of course.”

When he left the room she let out a breath she’d been holding ever since Harry first mentioned the word ‘date’. She also realized she did not like the way she just reacted and that maybe, very possibly, Lou might have been right.

She was fucked.

For the next few days she couldn’t stop thinking about Harry and his date. She wished she could go back in time and take back everything she said; wished she would have reacted differently. It was hard to think about anything else and all she wanted to do was to go and see him and ask him all about it. How did it go? Was she nice? What did they do? Was he going to see her again? Did they kiss?

And if she hadn’t been so embarrassed about her behaviour she probably would've done so, but she had no explanation as to why she’d been so weird and she was too scared to go deeper into her own feelings and find one. So as much as she wanted to see him she was also extremely terrified to do so.

But it was really eating her up.

She couldn’t focus on anything else.

And it was strange.

Before all this, she was sure of her feelings towards Harry. Sure he was attractive, he was nice and he made her laugh, but she thought she’d managed to keep it platonic. Now she just felt weird. Everything about their arrangement felt weird, and she didn’t know what to do. Deep down she knew there wasn’t much she could actually do about it. He went on a date and she was his friend. Friends with benefits. They weren’t anything exclusive. He hadn’t done anything wrong. She told him so herself.

Still, something felt wrong.

On Thursday night their whole gang made plans to meet up for their regular quiz night down at the pub and she stood in front of her mirror for an hour, preparing herself to see him again. She changed her outfit five times and rehearsed what to say when she saw him over and over again.

Only for him to not show up.

So instead of being squished into his side all night, she was stuck between Jax and Louisa and she found herself missing him. She didn’t even have to ask to know he was on another date, yet when Isaac confirmed it later she felt her heart drop down to her stomach.

Louisa glanced over at her when Isaac told them and she forced a smile, not ready to let anyone know about the weird feeling in her chest. Louisa also tried to bring it up on their way home, but she brushed it off with the same thing she always did.

“We’re just friends.”

But once she was home in bed it was harder to act like nothing was troubling her. Harry was out on another date and it shouldn’t be bothering her but it did. It bothered her a lot. He should’ve been right there with her, laughing along at their friends' jokes all night and then suggest coming back home with her.

Now he just wasn't and it felt wrong. It was only three months ago that he came home with her for the first time but somehow it wasn’t until now she realized that she may have gotten a little too used to it.

It was so stupid the whole thing. Like ridiculously so.

She knew from the first night that she would never be more than a few drunken nights to him. That his touch wasn’t hers to keep. It belonged to someone else. So why did it feel so weird now?

On Friday night, Beth invited a few people over from uni to their place for a game night and some wine. She joined them but decided to stay away from the wine. They played monopoly for most of the evening while gossiping about everyone they knew. It was nice. It was fun. She won at monopoly. But most importantly it helped her to not worry about what Harry was doing or who he was seeing. It felt like her brain got a long awaited break from everything and she slept better that night than she had all week.

It was on Saturday it all came crashing down.

They were all going out. The whole gang. As always everyone had shown up for pre-drinks at the house she shared with Louisa, Beth and Aliyah as it was the biggest one. Jax had as usual brought along a bottle of Fireball that he forced everyone take a shot out of. Beth refused to let anyone else control the music. Tom and Louisa were loved up on the sofa together. Isaac was in the kitchen mixing drinks for everyone while Aliyah complained about Beth’s choice of music. All in all it was a pretty typical Saturday night and it was all going well.

Until Harry showed up. With a girl.

She almost dropped her drink when she saw them and everyone in the room turned to look at her when they entered. Once again she had to force a smile to assure them she didn't care and more than ever before she tried to ignore the way her heart sank inside her chest.

And for some very odd reason; she was the first to stand up and greet Harry’s new lady friend. Maybe because everyone was looking at her and it felt like they were just waiting for her to start crying in front of everyone. She didn’t want their pity so she stood and shook this new girl’s hand, acting like everything was completely fine.

“Cleo,” the girl introduced herself with a cheery smile.

And that was about it.

After that she didn’t really talk to her anymore. That’s something she left for the rest of the group to do.

It was hard to concentrate on anything else for the rest of the evening and despite promising herself to not take a shot from Jax’s bottle of Fireball; she had three. The alcohol was warm as it made its way down her throat and she noticed Louisa watching her with worried eyes.

And Harry? She couldn’t even look at him. He tried to talk to her and start a conversation at one point but it felt like her brain was about to explode from anxiety so she quickly excused herself and hid in the bathroom for a good twenty minutes.

She tried her very best to be engaged in the conversations around her and she tried so hard to have a good time. Just like she had the night before. But with Harry right there with Cleo it was fucking impossible and she felt like a green little goblin watching the new pair.

Cleo was pretty much everything she expected her to be and more. She just couldn’t stop staring at them. Harry had a hand on her thigh and she was so polite to everyone. Just like him. She had tasteful tattoos all over and it was almost like the two of them had coordinated their outfits before coming over. Both dressed in checkered prints and matching colors of pink and red. She felt so stupid in her boring and basic black jumpsuit and her dull eye make-up.

Cleo was so effortlessly pretty and she just wasn’t.

It was a slap in the face just how right they looked together.

And it just got worse when they arrived at the club because under the flashing lights on the dance floor she saw how Harry leaned in and kissed Cleo. One of his hands was low on her back while the other caressed her face. Everything was spinning as she watched them kiss she knew it was not only because of the alcohol in her veins.

It hit her hard. Because a small, a very small, and naive part of her thought that maybe he’d still want to go home with her and not Cleo. But as she watched him kiss Cleo the way he used to kiss her ruined all hope she had ridiculously built up.

And maybe it wasn’t the kiss itself that hurt so much but more the fact that Harry was now with someone else and it was real. It was so bloody real. Just last week it was her and now he was kissing Cleo and had barely looked in her direction all night. And even though he technically hadn’t done anything wrong it still hurt and she was angry. Angry with him for kissing someone else, but mostly at herself for still wanting him. For wanting to walk right up and pull him away and take him home. She still wanted him despite everything, but she couldn’t have him.

So instead she had some tequila.

Except, tequila probably wasn’t the best company because in the wee hours of the night she regretted every single shot she had taken. The alcohol in her body made her stomach turn heavily and it was a miracle she even made it into a bathroom stall before it all came back up. Someone on the other side of the stall asked if she was okay but she could barely hear them over the loud buzzing in her ears and her own gagging.

It took her several minutes before she found the strength to get back up on her feet, brushing away the dirt from her jumpsuit, trying desperately not to think about all the germs she had most likely caught from resting so long against a public toilet seat.

As she exited the stall another girl looked over and she didn’t even try to pretend like she hadn’t just been throwing her guts up minutes ago. Instead, she splashed some cold water on her face and took a steady grip of the sink to keep herself standing up.

Fuck.

When she stumbled out of the bathroom a while later she had to lean against the walls to not fall over. The dim lighting in the club made it even harder for her to see where she was going and she kept bumping into bodies as she eventually made her way through the crowd.

Then all of a sudden someone grabbed her by the shoulders.

“Heeeey, party-girl, are you okay?”

The buzzing was still loud in her ears and her vision was blurry, but she still somehow managed to recognize the voice and the striking blonde hair. Isaac. As soon as she knew it wasn’t a complete stranger that had grabbed her she fell into him without a warning and he stumbled a little as he tried to catch her body. “Woah, steady on.”

She tried to talk to him. Tried to explain how she got to this point but no coherent words were coming out of her mouth and she had to use his whole body for support. He wrapped an arm around her and hoisted her up a little before taking a hold of her chin so he could get a good look of her face. She could tell that he was talking to her, his mouth was moving, but she had no idea what he was actually saying. It was too loud and she was too drunk. The club atmosphere made her stomach turn once more and all she wanted to do was to get out of there before she was sick all over again.

And somehow she managed to communicate that to Isaac.

The air was cool and refreshing when they finally made it out of the club and she was clinging onto Isaac as if her life depended on him. He had a strong arm wrapped around her as he pulled out his phone with his other hand to get an Uber. As they waited for it to show up Isaac slowly guided her over and sat her down on the curb next to the road. He crouched down in front of her and took a hold of her chin again. That’s when the first tears fell. She didn’t even try to hide it, once again too drunk and too sad to care if Isaac saw that she was crying. His eyes widened as he noticed.

“Heey, noooo, no, don’t cry. What’s wrong?”

She didn’t know what to tell him. Everything was spinning too much to be able to think of what to say. The alcohol and emotions had taken over all of her senses and it was all just too much. There was only one explanation for her behavior tonight after all and how would she even begin to explain it to him? She had no idea. So all she said was

“Cleo.”

Isaac didn’t say anything in response but she was pretty sure he knew exactly what it meant when he reached out and squeezed her shoulder. Nothing more was said as they waited for the Uber to show up and the last thing she remembered was crying about not having the key for her house.

The next morning was arguably the worst morning of her life, which seemed quite fitting as she’d had the worst evening of her life the previous night. Most of the morning was spent on the cold tiles of the bathroom floor, head first down the toilet, regretting every single decision from last night.

This time though it was all her own fault. There was no one else to blame for all the shots she downed but herself.

It was embarrassing. So so embarrassing how drunk she got and how much Isaac had to take care of her. He had brought her back to his and Harry’s shared flat after they couldn’t find her key and realized she was locked out from her own home. She cried her eyes out in the Uber while Isaac tried to comfort her and when they got out she almost got vomit all over his new sneakers.

However, Isaac was nice about it all. He didn’t say anything and just helped her inside, put her down on the sofa, made sure she drank some water and covered her with a blanket. She couldn’t remember exactly what she told him but she knew she had talked about Harry and it was killing her.

But Isaac continued to be nice and he didn’t bring it up when he wandered in and said good morning.

“Y’alright?”

“I feel like death,” she confessed and her throat hurt a little from being sick all last night and earlier that morning. Isaac chuckled lightly.

“Yeah, I can imagine.”

She bit the bottom of her lip and struggled to look at him where he sat on the armchair opposite the sofa she was spread out over. She had known him for as long as she had known Harry, but she had never actually been alone with him in a room and now when she was sober she felt so stupid, and also so incredibly self-conscious because she knew her make-up from last night was smudged all over her face and she had vomit on her jumpsuit and all over her hair. It was the lowest she’d ever been.

“So um,” she grumbled. “Thanks for last night, eh... yeah, I don’t know. I’m sorry for being a mess.��

“Don’t worry about it,” Isaac waved it off and smiled at her. “We’ve all been there.”

“Yeah, well, thank you anyway.” She still couldn’t look at him as she spoke. Because he knew. He knew her feelings for Harry had changed and she didn’t know how to act now.

“So much for never drinking again huh?” he joked lightly to ease the mood and she forced a laugh.

“Yeah, didn’t stick to that one, did I?”

Silence fell between them after that, but in some ways, it was a comfortable one. Isaac sat in his chair and scrolled through his phone as he drank his morning coffee while she just laid on the sofa and tried to collect her mind and emotions. He offered to make breakfast but there was just no way she was going to be able to stomach it. Water was pretty much all that her stomach allowed and she was barely holding onto that. It was early still and she could tell it was raining heavily outside as the raindrops drummed heavily against the windows. It was comfortable though. Pleasant even.

And then, out of nowhere, Cleo emerged from Harry’s bedroom and all the emotions from last night washed over her like a tsunami.

Plus, it felt like someone was playing a practical joke on her when she saw that Cleo was wearing Harry’s shirt from the night before.

“Good morning!” Cleo was as cheery as she was last night and looked even better. Issac nodded and greeted Cleo politely. To make things worse Cleo sat down in the other armchair and started a conversation. Time stopped as she watched Cleo and Isaac talk and it felt like someone suffocated her with one of the pillows. “Did you guys have a good night then?”

She couldn’t take her eyes off Cleo, who looked perfect even after a night out. Her hair was still flawless and her skin looked like it was glowing. It wasn’t ideal for anyone to see or be next to Cleo when they woke up after a chaotic night out and they themselves were covered in vomit. It honestly made her more nauseous than her hangover had all morning and she’d probably never felt as ugly as she did in that moment laying next to Cleo.

“It was decent, yeah,” Isaac said and then looked at her. His eyes filled with pity and she hated it. She hated it so much. “You?”

“It was super fun,” Cleo answered with a big smile. “Harry and I got in sooooo late though. We stopped to get some food down at that kebab place around the corner before we got in and I swear to God it was the best food I’ve had in my life! Thanks for letting me come out with you guys.”

And just like that, it was all too much. There was just no way she could sit there and talk to the girl who was dating the boy she had come to realize she liked more than just a friend. There was a lot she could do and put up with, but that wasn’t one of those things.

“Um, excuse me,” she mumbled as she got up from the sofa. Isaac called out her name but she ignored it. Her whole body ached and her head felt heavy. She had no idea how she was actually going to make it home in this state but she’d try her damn hardest, even if she was sick along the way it would be better than staying here.

Then she heard her name being called again.

This time however it was from someone else.

Someone whose voice she’d recognize anywhere.

Harry.

“What are you doing here?” He looked at her with furrowed brows, clearly not expecting to see her.

“Oh, eh, hey,” she managed to croak out and fought back the urge to be sick all over again. “I came back with Isaac last night.”

“You uh, you came back with Isaac?” Harry asked slowly, his eyes never leaving her as a small line formed between his brows. He opened his mouth to say something else, but closed it just as fast. The silence that fell between them then was defeating.

“I mean, I wasn’t feeling very well so he helped me out a little.”

“Oh, okay,” he nodded and the corner of his mouth twisted into a small smile, but then it faltered just as fast. “Did something happen? Are you okay?”

“I’m okay.” She knew she was being short with him and the look he gave her burned into her skin, but with tears threatening to fall at any moment it was a conversation she really didn’t want to have. Not with him. Not right now. “Look, Harry, I gotta go.”

“What?” he said and pushed himself off the door frame he leaned against, and as he came closer she took a step back. “You’re more than welcome to stay. It’s so early still and by the sounds of it it’s bucketing down outside. Stay for some breakfast. I was gonna make some pancakes.”

“I have to go.”

“Wait,” he called after her when she turned her back to him and got ready to leave. “Hey, wait a minute!”

She didn’t really care at that point though. Whatever thing she and Harry had was already gone and there was nothing that could make things worse than what they were now. She just wanted to get out and get as far away from him as fast as possible.

So she left without saying another word to Harry despite him calling her name.

- “Harry’s a fucking prick anyways,” Aliyah began and threw her hands up dramatically. “Like, is he just going to sleep with you one week and then replace you next week? No, fuck that. You deserve better.”

“He did tell me about it though,” she noted with a small sniffle and curled up further under her blanket. “I mean, he did tell me he was going on a date so it’s not like he lied or I don’t know... went behind my back.”

“Yeah, well, he’s still a prick,” Aliyah grumbled and slumped back against the sofa, arms crossed over her chest.

“Besides, we’re just friends, you know... ”

“You’re clearly more than just friends though,” Louisa added carefully with knowing eyes. “Like, I hate to break it to you but it’s pretty obvious you like him.”

“I... “ she trailed off not knowing how to respond to that. Because she knew she couldn’t keep denying it anymore. Not after showing up at her own house, drenched from the rain with red puffy eyes in last night’s clothes and without a key. No matter how scary it was to admit what she had buried inside her heart for so long it was impossible to deny it any longer. “Yeah. I do. I do like him.”

She let out a huge breath as she finally admitted it. It was strange, but also so right. The feelings she had for Harry was something she had buried inside for so long and it was freeing almost to now admit it out loud in front of her best friends.

“Maybe you should tell him that?” Beth suggested.

She almost laughed.

“That’s definitely not happening,” she shut down the suggestion straight away. There was no way she was telling him how she felt. Especially not now. “He obviously doesn't like me back, and besides he has Cleo now, and you know.. he’s like actually dating her and stuff so…”

“So what?” Beth cut in. “He might like you too. I’ve seen the way he looks at you.”

“Me?” she scoffed. “Yeah, I highly doubt that.”

Beth shrugged.

“I don’t know. I think he might do.”

“Yeah, well, it doesn’t matter anymore does it? He has Cleo now.”

“You won’t know unless you ask,” Louisa pointed out with a small twinkle in her eyes. Before she had the chance to object to the faulty statement the sound of the doorbell ringing echoed through the house.

“That’s probably the food,” Beth announced and stood up swiftly. “I’ll go get it.”

She gave Beth a small smile and wiped her wet cheeks with the ends of her blanket. As soon as she had left Harry’s flat earlier that morning she broke down in tears and called Louisa who offered to come to pick her up straight away but she declined, needing some time for herself before facing anyone.

But after showing up a mess, drenched from the rain in last night’s clothes after walking all the way home it was clear that she needed all her friends today. So Aliyah ran her a bath while Beth ordered food and Louisa went out for snacks and her favorite drink.

And she couldn’t be more grateful.

“Uhm,” Beth popped her head back in the living room and it was obvious by the look on Beth’s face that something was off. “It’s Harry.”

“W-what?”

For a moment she thought that maybe Beth was just taking the piss but judging by the confusion spreading across the room she quickly realized that wasn’t the case. “I don’t want to talk to him.”

“You sure?” Louisa asked. “This might be the perfect opportunity to talk things through.”

“No,” she shook her head quickly. “I can’t. Not now.”

“I’ll go talk to him!” Aliyah announced with fire in her eyes and leaped off the sofa in one go, only to have Beth stop her in the doorway.

“I think maybe I should talk to him,” she offered and looked at Aliyah with both her eyebrows raised knowingly. Aliyah only mumbled something under her breath but accepted Beth’s proposal and returned to her spot on the sofa without a fuss.

“You okay?” Louisa asked when Beth disappeared again to go talk to the boy who had her heart aching so badly. Louisa reached out to squeeze her knee gently when she didn’t respond. She just didn't know what to say; because she wasn’t okay. She was very much far from okay today.

Tears welled up in her eyes for the hundredth time and she shook her head and attempted to blink her tears away. She didn’t want to cry anymore. Louisa sighed and pulled her closer and wrapped her arms around her in a long hug. It was embarrassing really how much she had cried all day but she just couldn't stop. Never in a million years did she think she’d ever get so upset over a guy.

But it was Harry.

Harry who left jumpers out for her to wear after she stayed at his flat. Harry who made her breakfast in the morning and knew exactly how she liked her tea. Harry who made her laugh until she couldn’t breathe anymore. Harry who rubbed her back after a night out. Harry who let her steal all of the duvet in her sleep even though he was cold too. Harry who texted her stupid jokes just because he knew she liked them. Harry who also texted her cute pictures of puppies because she loved dogs. Harry who made her feel like no man ever had.

Harry who was now with Cleo.

Cleo who was absolutely perfect for him. Cleo who probably went thrift shopping with him and helped him find silly shirts with crazy prints and knew about all the bands he always talked about.

Cleo who was just so much better than her.

Harry Styles 8:27 AM Heeeyyy are you mad at me?

Harry Styles 10:12 AM Hello?

Harry Styles 10:46 AM Ok so mad then? will you pls talk to me? don’t like the way you stormed off earlier :/

Harry Styles 12:01 PM Hellloooooooo? pls talk to me

Harry Styles 12:30 PM Isaac told me you were quite upset last night... did something happen?

Harry Styles 12:56 PM You’re making me a bit worried, did you make it home okay?

Harry Styles 1:15 PM I tried calling a few times but it’s not really coming through.. Are you okay?

Harry Styles 2:49 PM I'm coming over

Harry Styles 4:37 PM Beth said you weren’t feeling so well, I hope you feel better soon, make sure you drink loads of water! .xx

Harry Styles 11:26 PM Ok sooo, i dunno whats going on. i dunno if Beth lied to me today or not... i just hope you're okay. you know you can talk to me if something is bothering you right?

Goodnight .xxx

PART 2 ♡

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poeticsandaliens · 6 years

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Making Wonderland

Rating: G, minus Will’s penchant for crass language

Summary: Set thirteen years after MS IV, Will makes a strange request of his sister. Mulder and Scully are in love, Alice Mulder-Scully is a teenager, and grown-adult William is about as straight as I am (not very, if you needed a hint.)

I’m writing more than I have in weeks right now. It’s my final vacation day, and I don’t expect to write much in the next month so I guess I’m joining the fic-storm while I can.

Tagging @today-in-fic.

By the time Alice was twelve, it became very obvious that her parents were not normal in any sense of the word. She saw it in the little things—Her friends came back from summer vacation with an onslaught of beach selfies and family photos in brightly colored straw hats, while she returned with pictures of her parents making faces in the glare of heavy duty flashlights, blurry cryptids captured in a split second on camera. She had half a dozen videos of her brother making fireflies spell her name in the woods.

That was another thing—her thirty year old brother who spoiled her the way other kids’ grandparents did. In fact, when she was younger he’d shown up to her school on grandparents’ day in the body of a white-bearded seventy-nine year old in a fedora and pink button-up shirt. He’d confessed to her later that he chose the look because it reminded him of Ian McKellen.

But perhaps the biggest indicator of her family’s undisguised strangeness was the way no one seemed to get older. She knew her parents were older than most of her classmates’, but they looked fifteen years younger than they were. They looked exactly the same as they had in her baby pictures. Will, too, didn’t look a day over twenty-one. She had read Tuck Everlasting in fifth grade, and it had sent shivers down her spine.

The unfortunate side of her brazen magic brother? Her friends thought he was just “sooooooooo handsome.” When her phone buzzed after school, Emma grinned and batted her lashes and asked her, “Is that Will?”

Alice wrinkled her nose, glancing at the screen. “Yeah. And don’t talk about my brother like that; it’s gross.”

“He’s cute.”

“He’s thirty, Emma, and he has a boyfriend,” she muttered like she didn’t have a Harry Styles poster plastered over her bed. She answered the phone.

“Hey Will. Are you coming to get me today, or is the fruit stand busy?” Five years ago, bouncing between jobs with a different face at each one, Will had bought a nearby tract of land on a whim. He’d turned it into a cabin and a little field of cherry trees. She camped there some summer nights with him, flashlights peeking into the woods, waiting for something. Deer, a family of owls, maybe a Mothman or two.

It’s pretty busy, but Jace is coming to get you. Dana’s working late, and Mulder left for the book tour, so you’re coming back to the farm for awhile this evening.

“Sweet,” she said. “So why the call?”

I have a favor to ask you. His voice dropped half and octave, and her heart jumped into her throat.

“Did you do something crazy Will? Like, with your…” she waved her hands in the air and whispered, “powers,” into the phone with a sidelong glance at Emma.

No, no, it’s not about that. But before I ask I need to warn you—this isn’t something you can tell Mulder and Dana, okay? Not yet, anyway, and it’s a little risky. Which is why you should think long and hard about it before you answer. Got it?

This gave her pause. Will was an adult; there weren’t many secrets he had to keep from their parents. A few things—where he’d gone while on the run before she was born, the places he’d seen—he reserved for his sister’s ears only. His relationship with their parents was different from hers, and not just due to his age. He called them Dana and Mulder, for God’s sake. She’d gotten used to it a long time ago.

“Okaaaaay,” she said, drawing it out on her tongue suspiciously. “My lips are sealed.”

Will cleared his throat. It’s about Jace.

“Ohmygod you’re going to propose aren’t you. Do you need help planning something? I promise I won’t tell Mom and Dad about it until he says yes. Cross my heart. Please tell me you’ll ask him to marry you. It’s been five freaking years,” she gushed.

Beside her, Emma raised her eyebrows. “What?” she whispered.

She covered the speaker and turned to Emma. “I think Will might finally propose.”

Emma squeaked. “About time!" and elbowed Alice playfully. "Guess I don’t have a chance then.”

Alice swatted her, then returned her attention to her brother. “So?”

I told you, I’m not proposing until Jace graduates medical school, he said, but she could hear the lopsided smile in his voice.

She tried to hide her disappointment. “So what is it?”

You know how I still get carded at liquor stores?

"Because they think you're a rebellious high schooler."

Yeah. The phone went silent for a moment. Then— I’m not really getting older anymore. I mean, I am, just like half as fast as everyone else.

“Gee, I hadn’t noticed. Kinda figured out we had messed up genetics when Mom and Dad broke the headboard in their sixties.”

Jesus. That must’ve been awkward.

“You have no idea. Now go on.”

You know I used my blood to keep Mulder from aging faster than the rest of us. You know, so he won't have a heart attack at your graduation.

She snorted. It'd taken her a long time to reach the point where she could joke about the unexplainable science that ran rampant through her life. It helped to see Will use his powers to make the TV remote float to her across a room, or re-heat her hot chocolate on the counter—the mundane things.

Will continued, Dana can’t give him blood, but I can. And I’ve been thinking a lot lately about where I want to be with Jace in twenty years, and Alice I don’t want him get old without me. I sound like a fucking sap— sorry, don’t tell Dana I cursed in front of you—

Alice rolled her eyes and adjusted the phone against her ear. “No worries.”

And I realized, I can’t give Jace blood, but you can. Would you be willing to do that, so he can be part of our family? A pregnant pause. Please remember, it’s entirely up to you. It’s super under the radar and I don’t want to get you into trouble. Just… it’s your choice. It’s your body and your blood, and I know it’s a lot to think about.

She squared her jaw. “I’ll do it.” It wasn’t a lot to think about—Will was her brother. Jace felt like her brother. They deserved the kind of happiness her parents had; they deserved a life together that her family’s genetic peculiarity couldn’t mess up. She was thirteen, and she had two models of love in her life she hoped she’d one day live up to.

Oh. He sounded shocked, and she tried not to be insulted by it. Well, um, it wouldn’t be for another couple of years, but we’d have to run a couple of tests before then.

“Just… promise me you’ll ask him to marry you. It took Mom and Dad seven years to even get together and another twenty to get married. It took me for them to get married, in a freaking courthouse. I want to see a wedding ceremony.”

She was only kind of kidding.

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harrysrealgf · 9 months

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NAIVE

You and harry broke up and a part of you can help but want him to show up at your door and apologize.

Fratrry¡reader

This is the good ending to this short thing, im gonna make a bad one bc I like this concept

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“Well if you don’t like it, then maybe we should just break up!” Harry yelled. This was an argument, the biggest argument you guys have ever had. All over how you didn’t want him to flirt with so many girls.

You paused for a second. You couldn’t believe what he said to you. “Maybe we should.” You finally said. You didn’t want to obviously. You love him, but maybe it’s for the best.

He was shocked you agreed.

“Great. Then we’re broken up.” He loved you, of course he did! He was just a flirty guy, and if you weren’t okay with that then maybe it just wasn’t meant to be.

Harry is a naive boy. He refuses to change or apologize about anything.

“I guess so.” You walked to the door, putting your shoes on.

“Where are you going?” He watched you.

“What? You broke up with me Harry. Do you just expect me to sit here in your house?” You asked. You were being sarcastic, but also serious.

“Well no, but..”

“No. I need to my house. I cannot do this right now.” You held tears in.

You didn’t even let him talk and you walked out. It was dark and rainy. You hated driving in the rain, but it was comforting.

When you got home you just ran to your room and cried. 3 years with Harry obviously meant nothing to him. He broke up with you so quick. He’s always been ignorant, but the one time you speak up about something that bothers you in the relationship, this happens.

He will never change, nor apologize to you. And you just need to accept that now.

You threw your headphones on and listened to music, that’s how you cope.

The past week has been a mess. You were late to work 3 times this week. You stayed up all night reading old texts where he was such a sweetheart.

But now it’s no contact.

You hoped he was come to your front door with flowers, and a real apology. Not just a lousy ‘I’m sorry.’

None of this was your fault and you knew it.

————

It’s been 2 weeks since the breakup.

It was another rainy day, 7PM. And your doorbell rang. You threw your hair up and went to answer the door, and you were surprised to see who it was.

Harry.

“Hi..” he gave you that look. That stupid look. The look he gave you when he was wrong and he knew it.

“Hi.”

“I’m sorry.” He looked down and picked at the skin at the side of his nails.

“That’s it?” You ask as he was silent for a little after that.

“No. I’m sorry y/n. I’m bad at apologies. I know I am, I don’t do it a lot but fuck, I can’t live without you. You’re the love of my life and I.. fuck I don’t know how to say it.” He paused. “These last two weeks have been absolute hell. Everything I see reminds me of you and well.. us. I know I fucked up, I know I’m too flirty sometimes and I try and stop but I just get carried away..”

“Your not obligated to say anything to any other girl Harry. And you were right. If I don’t like it then we should break up. And we did. You completely left me behind the one time I speak up about something. I don’t know what else you want from me.” You bit your lip.

“I want you! It’s not what I wanted to leave you behind. Fuck I… I didn’t even want to break up with you in the first place.” He admitted.

“…then why did you?” You spoke quietly.

“I was just scared! Your the only girl I’ve ever really loved and… every move I make it’s just another mistake. I should’ve never said anything to that girl and I know how you feel and I don’t know what is wrong with me. Your my girl and I want to keep it that way. I love you y/n.” He spit it all out like he couldn’t stop talking. “I love you and I wont let anything in this world keep us apart anymore. But I’m losing myself and I don’t want to lose you too. If there was something I could do to take back what I said.. I would do it in a heartbeat.” He took a deep breath.

“I can’t control myself without you. I can feel your touch even when your far away from me.”

Your mind was hazy. You couldn’t think correctly.

“Please say something.” He was teary eyed at this point. “I’m so dumb I should’ve told you all of this before you even left my house.”

“Come inside, your getting soaked.” You finally spoke.

He smiled warmly and walked inside.

“I brought something too…” he pulled a rello and a baggie of weed.

“You know me too well.” You sniffled, smiled softly and whispered a quiet ‘come here’ and walked to your porch

You sat on your rolling area and he sat beside you. He handed you the bag and rello and you started rolling.

————

You guys were laughing up a storm after smoking. High out of your minds, your thoughts started to come out.

“I didn’t want to break up either by the way.” You say taking a bit of the second blunt in your fingers.

“I figured.” You gave him a look.

“What does that mean?” You giggled.

“Cmon y/n. I know you. If you wanted to break up you woulda done it a while ago.” You shrugged while passing him the blunt.

“Your not wrong.” You took a drink of your water, “even when we were strictly only friends, everyone but you saw how in love I was with you.” This was all knew to him.

“How long have you liked me?”

“Maybe since like.. senior year of high school.” His mouth dropped open.

“Are you serious?” You nodded.

“Well I’ve liked you since like… freshman year.”

“Of college?” He shook his head.

“High school.” You mouth flew open and your eyes were wide open.

“Why didn’t you tell me?” He shrugged.

“We had such a good friendship. I didn’t want to ruin it.. butttt… now I know your my soulmate I don’t need to worry about that anymore.” You blushed.

“Sooo… you wanna be my girlfriend again?” He asked.

“Hm I dunno… are you gonna be my boyfriend?” You tease.

“Of course.” He kissed you.

You pulled away from the kiss. “Wait a minute. You’ve liked me for 8 years?” He laughed.

“Love is love what can I say?��

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harrysrealgf · 3 months

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HEATHER

Warnings:heavy angst, cursing, cheating, brief smut scene (not including y/n) and I think that’s all

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“Love do you want to come with me on my next show?” He asked putting down his book for a second.

“Simon would allow that?” You ask out of pure curiosity, also setting down your book.

“I hope.. I just really want you to come this time.” He smiled softly.

“Well whys that?”

“I don’t wanna miss you too much.” He giggled quietly.

“Well I would love to.” You smiled softly.

“Love you.” He gave u a kiss on the cheek. You were blushing and didn’t say anything. Just continued to read your book with a stupid grin.

He nudged your shoulder when he realized you were blushing

“Cmon say it back.” He smiled.

“I love you too H.” You blushed. You guys have been dating for 2 years but you still felt nervous and got so many butterflies around him. Just like when you guys first met.

He smiled and went back to reading his book and e got a text and picked his phone up to look at it.

“Who texted?” He’s never turned his phone so quick.

“Oh.. just Simon.” He smiled while putting his phone down. You believed him , sure. But you couldn’t help but overthink.

“Oh… okay.” You started. You didn’t want to ask but it just came out. “What did he say?”

“Oh.. um I asked him if you could come and he wants heather to come too.” You and heather had a bad past. You were always Harry’s friend, and even while they dated.

“Why’s that?” You tilt your head.

“I dunno.. he’s just always liked her..” he stopped for a second. “Even when we were…” he cleared his throat, “dating.”

“Oh…” you looked down. “Well do you want her to come?”

“I mean.. I don’t mind I guess.” He looked over at you and saw the look on your face. “Oh god. Do you not want her to come? I can tell him no, he might not listen but I can still tell him-“

“No no! It’s fine.” You tried to convince yourself.

“Are you sure? I’ll completely understand if you don’t want her to come.”

“No it’s fine. It’s your last show… it’s a big celebration.”

“Right. Well… I love you.” He smiles.

“Love you too.” You bit your lip anxiously.

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The night of the show was a wreck. Not for the band, but potentially for your relationship.

Harry and heather don’t stop talking the whole night. You trusted Harry. You really did, but seeing him cozied up next to the prettiest girl you’ve ever seen, made you think.

“H,” that’s his nickname for you. “You look really good tonight.” If you knew anything about flirting, well… that was it.

“Oh thanks Heather!” He smiled brightly. He doesn’t look at you like that.

He looked over at you, as him and heather were cozied up next to one another, you were sitting on a separate couch.

“Y/n! You look…” he paused and looked you up and down. “Ho-“

“Horrible.” Heather laughed at you.

You just looked away.

“Heather what the hell?” Harry defended.

“What? It’s true!” She rolled her eyes.

“No it’s not. She looks hot.”

“Is it hot in here?” You avoided the conversation. “It’s hot to me.. I’m gonna go get some air.” You got up and left.

“She’s so dramatic.” Heather complained

Harry ignored her. “I should check on her..”

“Harry cmon! She’s just dramatic. I was just joking anyways, she’ll be fine.”

“Are you sure? I mean I don’t want to make her-“

“I’m sure she’s fine H. You want I can check on her for you?”

“Well…”

“Just let me try to apologize.” Heather insisted and harry nodded.

Heather got up and followed you to where you went.

When she got to the patio of the hotel you guys were staying at she stood next to you.

“Listen, I’m not sorry for what I said. But if you don’t go along with what I say to Harry, we’re gonna have bigger problems, k?”

“Gotcha.” You said quietly.

She walked away and went back to the party.

“She didn’t want to come out here.. bummer.” Heather said trying to sound truthful.

“Maybe i should just talk to her-“ Harry attempted to speak but Heather cut him off.

“No she said she wanted to be alone.. so it’s best if you just don’t go.” Harry was a little naive so he believed her.

Some time after, you went to go find Harry and tell him she was going home.. but you couldn’t find him anywhere.

“Hey have you seen Harry?” She asked Louis.

Louis bit his bottom lip anxiously. “Promise me you wont get mad.” You and Louis were like best friends. And you always trusted him with nothing else but the truth.

“…Promise.” You faked a smile.

“I saw him going into a room with Heather and i don’t think they’ve come out for like… 20 minutes? I was trying to come and find you to tell you but i couldn’t find you anywhere.” You stopped breathing for what felt like forever but was literally only .5 seconds.

“W-what room?” He pointed and she muttered out a ‘thank you’ before walking over to the door and listening to what’s behind it.

And you felt sick.

You felt absolutely disgusted.

“Fuck, Harry! Harry oh god.” That was Heathers goddamn voice. Heathers squeaky ass annoying voice. She was pretty that’s for sure, but was she a horrible person? Yes. And did she have an annoying voice? Absolutely.

“Fuck.. Such a good girl Heather..” As soon as you heard harry’s voice you opened the door and they didn’t hear you come in because they were going at it like wild animals on missionary position.

“What. The. Fuck.” You muttered out before Heather looks at her and smirks.

Harry immediately pulled out and looks behind him to see you.

Fear is all you could see in his eyes. He quickly pulled up his boxers and his jeans but before he could finish buttoning his pants, you ran out of the room.

He ran after you shouting your name.

“Love…” He finally caught up to you and touched your shoulder.

“Don’t! Don’t fucking touch me Harry. Don’t fucking call me that. I am not your love. Don’t even look at me.” He grabbed your wrist as you tried to walk off.

“Please just listen to me.” He whimpered

“No! I don’t want to listen to you. I don’t want to talk to you. You disgust me and i’m absolutely sick to my stomach right now so unless you want me to throw up all over you, let go of my wrist.” You knew he had a fear of vomit, so you thought saying that would make him let go. But he didn’t.

“Y/N please it’s not what it looks like…” You rolled your eyes.

“Bullshit. What was it then?” You were absolutely livid. You were so incredibly mad.

“What?”

“If you weren’t just fucking Heather, then what was just happening?!” You waited for a response but Harrys face looks like he was trying to convince you big foot was real.

“Exactly. Now let go of my wrist.” He slowly let go and muttered out ‘I’m so sorry’

You rolled your eyes once more and remembered Harry drove you here.

“Take me home.” You said staring at the ground.

“What?” He mumbled.

“I said take me home Harry. You drove me here and you take me home.” You waited for a response but he hesitated.

“Or did I cockblock you that bad? You want to go fuck Heather some more? Be my fucking guest i’ll have Louis take me home.” He was still silent as you walked away.

There were tears streaming down your face and you needed Louis.

“Lou..” you whimpered out.

“Darling what happened?” He set his drink down and held your shoulders.

“You know what happened! Fucking Heather… Why does she ruin everything for me?” You sobbed more as Louis pulled you in for a hug.

Louis looked over at Harry and he was sat down across the room looking like a lost puppy. Louis was disappointed Harry could hurt such a sweet girl like you. He was honestly mad at Harry too.

“I can’t do this anymore Lou. I don’t want to be here anymore please take me home.” You had gotten tears all over Louis’ gray shirt.

“Of course.. Let’s go.”

The next day you didn’t want to get up. You just wanted to lay in your bed and rot there.

You got on your phone to see texts from Harry.

H: I didn’t mean it I swear.

H: It was a mistake and I never meant to hurt you.

H: I was drunk.

You: Being drunk doesn’t change your morals Harry. So quit with the excuses and just admit you wanted Heather.

H: I didn’t want her though! All i’ve ever wanted was you!

You: Then why did you fuck her?!

H: I don’t know.

You: Wow okay.

H: Well your not so innocent either.

You: What the hell are you talking about?!

H: Louis! You’ve been cozied up against him since me and you got together!

You: 😂😂

You: That was a joke right?

H: No.

You: He’s my best friend Harry. I can’t believe you would even say that to me.

H: Well he won’t text me back anymore. He’s probably with you right now.

You: He’s not. Stop trying to make yourself look like the victim when i walked in on you and heather going at it like fucking rabid animals!

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harrysrealgf · 1 year

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CALL ME IF YOU GET LOST

this is just a silly little concept i probably will never finish but lmk if i should

“excuse me do you know where the frozen isle is? this place is too big i tend to get lost sometimes.” you laugh off. you had a small basket in your hand that they offer at the front. harry was a good observer and he could tell you were all good intentions.

“oh! of course. its righttt… um… mind if i walk you?” you shook your head as he looked confused.

“not at all.” you gave a warming smile.

you and him walk for a while til you get to the frozen isle.

“geez man.. i dunno you seem to hot to be in this isle.” he jokes around.

“funny guy.” she chuckles and looks down blushing.

“here.” he grabs a pen out of his back pocket. he’s always got a pen with him… just incase.

he grabs a paper out of his pocket too (because why have a pen and no paper?) and starts writing something on it.

he hands it to you and you take it. you looked to it and it had a number on it

“call me if you get lost.” he winks

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harrysrealgf · 1 year

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Too good

harry x reader

Warnings:, fwb, mentions of smut, fluff, angst

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Harry was bipolar, but he wasn’t stupid.

You love harry. He’s your bestfriend of course your gonna love him.. but you think his ego is way too big and he’s too narcissistic. Everything started strictly platonic (as all friendships are) but one day he found a way to get into your pants. You always wanted to stop because you started developing feelings but damn his dick is good. He feels the same about youBut you guys can’t stay away from each other, and every time you hook up with him… it’s guaranteed it’s going to happen again.

It’s been too long since you guys have gotten down and dirty and he wants to change that. So he throws a party knowing you can’t resist them.

“Please Carrie. I know parties aren’t your thing but I never miss a party-“

“Fine. But I’m only going for Zayn.” You smiled

God you couldn’t stand Zayn. Harrys best friend. You didn’t understand why your best friend, Carrie, liked Zayn so much when all he did was play with her feelings. You were just glad harry never played with your feelings.

You guys did your makeup simple and got dressed and left.

“Thank you for coming to this party with me…” you smile

“You’re welcome.”

You guys walk in and see a lot of familiar faces from class. Did they invite the whole college?

“Help me find Zayn.” You dreaded that. Because no matter how much you love parties, everywhere Zayn was, Harry was. Except for this time. She dragged you and you had no choice but to follow.

“He’s over there.” You face palm mentally, pointing im the front of her.

Harry saw you pointing and when he saw you his eyes lit up. He gave someone his drink but he had another in his hand, and started to walk toward you.

“Well hello. Didn’t expect to see you here pretty girl.” He smirked and handed you a drink.

“Is it okay I’m here?” You look to him. He nods.

“Course it is. Love having my girl at my party.” He caressed your cheek.

“Wow… while you guys flirt im gonna go find Zayn.” Carrie giggles walking off. Lucky for her, Zayn was right behind him.

“Harry i dunno what kinda sick joke you think I am, but I am not your girl.” You scoffed and slapped his hand away.

“Y’could be.” He smirked. You have him a look. “Im kidding! God where is your sense of humor.” He hits your chest playfully.

“You just want a fuck, and I'm the closest you can get for some reason.“ you took a drink of whatever was in the cup, which you assumed was vodka.

“Nuh-uh.” He gave a duh look.

“Whatever Harry, we're not doing anything tonight.” You stated.

“Keep denying hon… but we know who’s dick you come back to every time…” you hit his chest as he points at himself and mouths “me” silently.

“Harry stop. We’re not talking about this here.”

“Why? Is your future boyfriend in the room?” He asks not really as a question tho.

“Maybe.” Hinting it could be Harry.

“Your no fun. Wish you’d just let me take you out and be my good girl. And I’d even be your boy.” He teases.

“Not my good boy?” You tease back.

“We’ll see tonight.” He winks.

“If I stay long enough.” You scoff at his remark.

“Is that a promise?” You shrug and take a swig of the drink again.

“Wish you’d let me kiss you.” He continues.

“Who said i wouldn’t?” You look up at him.

“Your whole speech and that whole ‘argument’” you gave him a look and he retorts “but y’know… May I?”

You nod slowly. “You may.”

He looks shocked. What happened in the air that suddenly changed your mind? He wasn’t complaining tho

“Okay..” he mumbled where you could barely hear him, he leaned down and kissed you. You kissed him back and y'all melted into each other.

He pulls away and looks into your eyes. You were a pretty tipsy since you're a lightweight.

“You're so pretty.” he gazes.

“Stop Harry,” she says playfully, blushing.

“No m’serious.” he smiles. “Think m’in love with you.” he doesn't look away from you.

“W-what?” you stammer.

“You're so pretty, inside and out. You're not afraid to put me in my place... I care about you a lot y/n. And I really like you.” he smiles widely.

“Yeah say that to me when you're sober.” you take another sip and he takes the drink away from you.

“I am sober, you are not,” he observes. “Let me take you up to my room, yeah?”

“Yeah, okay.” you agree.

You guys reach his room hoping there's no one in here fucking, and thankfully there wasn't.

“Y/n honey, I was being serious by the way,” he says as he lays you on his bed. “You're the most amazing girl I've ever met, and it might've taken me a little bit of alcohol to admit that...” he pauses and looks at you. “I think I want to start something with you, and I get if you just want to stay fucking but..” he ran his fingers through his hair. “Fuck, it's like you put a spell on me.” He sighs. And gets into bed with you

“I like you too H.” She blushes.

He smiles. His face suddenly changes though. “So why did you always deny when I hinted at dating you?”

“Oh.” you stop. “Um, I dunno. I guess I just thought you were just flirty. Didn't realize you were being serious.” you shrug.

“I don't think you realize how pretty you look,” he mumbled as he reached for your lips.

He kissed you again, this time much more passionately. You pull away

“I'm really tired Harry,” you admit cuddling into his chest.

“Go to sleep then. I'm right here.” he blushes caressing your hair.

“I can't. I need to get back to my dorm.”$Luckily y'all were in the same building.

“Okay, but lemme walk you.” You nod in agreement.

You guys walked out of his room and walked to yours, you were one floor down.

You made it to your dorm, “thank you Harry. For everything.” You smiled

“It’s really no problem. I would do anything for you.” He admits. You lean into him and you kiss him back deeply.

“Goodnight.” He said pulling away.

You smiled as he turned around and walked away.

Next day you texted him

Goodmorninggg. Hope you slept well, bc I did!

No response.

4 hours later, no response.

You thought he was sleeping so you left it at that.

But another 4 more hours passed.

“What the fuck.”, you whisper to yourself seeing that he read it.

He left you on read.

Harry. The guy who admitted he liked you last night, couldn’t even text you back.

Next day during class he walks in late.

The only empty seat was the one next to you, so he was sat there.

You rolled your eyes.

“What’s your problem?” He asks rudely

“Excuse me?” You look offended.

“What do I need to dumb it down for you?” He snapped.

“What the hell?” You whisper.

“What the hell,” he mocks. “Jesus fucking Christ.” He rolls his eyes and looks away.

“What the fuck is your problem?” You stand up. Everyone was being loud so they didn’t really notice you.

“Just shut the hell up Y/n. Nobody wants you here right now.” He rolls his eyes going on his phone.

“Didn’t you tell me you liked me like two nights ago?! Now you wanna talk shit? What the fuck H.” You sat back down with a disappointed sad look on your face.

His skin goes pale as he looks at you and he sits up and goes to sit by another girl, Gabby. There was no empty seats so he sat on the counter by the window.

After class you walk out last thanking your professor for letting you get extra credit on todays free day. When you walk out of class you see a familiar face waiting by your locker. Harry.

“God cant you just leave me alone?!” You pushed him to the side and started doing your locker combination. Harry had memorized your combination, never to get into your locker or anything, but just to make sure you never forgot it.

“I didn’t mean what I said.” He mumbles.

“Yeah well it’s kinda too late for that.” You whisper something else under your breath.

“What was that?”

“I said you can’t even text me back Harry. I thought we had something but clearly I read signs wrong- somehow.” You pause. “You said you liked me Harry.” You murmur and then continue, “And you know how my past relationships have been and I’m not putting up with this stuff anymore.”

“I’m sorry y/n. I know I shouldn’t have said all that.” He says

“Which part? The part where you told me you liked me or…” you exaggerate the ‘R’

“No! Fuck y/n. I do like you!” You rolled your eyes and closed your locker grabbing the throngs you needed.

“Whatever Harry. All this is not worth my time right now, so.. bye.” You walk away. He still chases after you tho.

“Y/n, can we please talk? Let me explain myself.” You pull him into the empty library.

“You have five minutes.” He looks at you shocked. “Cmon Harry times ticking.” You retort.

“Look.. I’m sorry for everything I said to you… I regretted it as soon as I moved seats,” you interrupted him to add, “to sit next to gabby.”

“Yeah whatever I just wanted to make you jealous,” he scoffed. “I was scared what you said was all bullshit because you were drunk and just wanted attention or something-“

“You really think I’d go that low to lie about my feeling towards you?!” You scoff. “That proves the person you are Harry.”

“You were drunk! How would i know?” He defends.

“Fair.”you murmur.

“I shouldn’t have been so rude I know, but you looked really pretty today and I just assumed you didn’t want anything to do with me and that night was a mistake- I don’t know! I just know that I’m crazy about you.” He says. He means it too, fuck he has a bad way of showing it. But he means it.

“Eight hours Harry.” You whisper.

“Huh?”

“I waited eight hours for a text back. So don’t give me that shit about how you thought all this and that, I texted you Harry. If anything I should be mad at you but I’m not, I can’t ever really be mad at you. ” You take a deep breath.

“Im sorry. I was gonna answer you..” he really meant it. It was just his stupid head that made all this up but he can’t even form the words to say it. “Didnt know what to say.” He looks down.

You started to tear up and you have never cried in-front of harry and you weren’t gonna start now.

“I need to go.” You turn away as tears fall from your eyes. You walked all the way to your car (you still had classes but you didn’t care.)

You called your friend Ariana to see if you could stay with her for the night.

She said yes and you drove to her house.

You talked to her about what happened and she listened so well.

The day had past and you hadn’t heard from Harry. You didn’t know if you wanted to or not. (You definitely did)

You hear Ariana’s ring doorbell go off.

“Someones hear.” You inform her.

“Will you get it for me? M’not expecting anyone.” She was doing her hair. You nod even though she couldn’t see you and go to the door.

You open the door so the glass door was all you saw behind. And it was Harry.

Your Harry.

You opened the glass door and went outside with him closing the door behind you.

“Hi.” He murmurs.

“Hi.” You question.

“I love you.” He blurts out. He didn’t mean to say it. But it was how he felt. “Fuck I love you so much.” He admits.

“Wha.. Harry please don’t tell me this if you don’t mean it- how did you know where I was?” The word love means a lot to you. You hated when people said they loved people and then turned their backs on them.

“Find my iPhone, I still have your location.” You’d completely forgotten about that. You had it on for safety. “But no I do. I’m in love with you Y/N. You’re all that’s been on my head for the past week. I can’t stop thinking about you.”

“Harry…” he cuts you off.

“No y/n let me finish. You were the sweetest girl to me. My sweetest girl. And I was so rude and I do apologize. It’s just my head convinced me that things you said weren’t true, and I shouldn’t believe my stupid big head- but I did, obviously. I’m sorry. You’re too good to me and you didn’t deserve what I did to you.” He put his hand on your cheek and smiled.

“I-I love you too.” You said truthfully. You did love him and now you can say if. He leaned down and kissed you. You kissed him back passionately.

“Get a room!” Ariana says over the camera.

“Stalker.” You giggle and kissed him one more time.

“I’ll see you tomorrow.” You blushed.

“Can’t wait.” He smiles.

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