#he probably already had like 3 emo playlists on hand for this type of shit this is the best thing that’s happened to him in years

[humming-fly]

Meta Knight’s number one motto is “Be prepared”, and his number two motto is “If I get possessed again I better get something cool out of it”

Originally I was gonna put this poster in the background but it got cluttered so here it is on its own cause I still think it’s funny:

[interesting-blog-name]

LOOSE REVIEWS (It Looks Sad., Pablo’s Paintings, Vancouver Sleep Clinic, Steve Lacy)

Just a bunch of very quick, very throwaway reviews that I put together while I’m writing the Björk discography post (I’m currently at Vespertine, so this shit is gonna take a while). Mostly slightly underground bands, all very short projects and one of them don’t even have a project, but you should check them out. Anyway.

It Looks Sad. – Songs For Quarantine

Not much to say about this. It is a 9-minute EP, obviously not meant to be taken as a serious, ambitious release, but it’s from a band I wanted to check out: It Looks Sad.. They’re categorized as emo, but their style reminds the listener a lot more of shoegaze and dream pop, at least from what I’ve heard by them (right now, this and Drool, which fits cozily in my Summer playlist).

If you want some moody music for the quarantine (if it’s still going on by the time I post this) and you don’t care if the songs sound like they were recorded in an underwater cave, then go ahead and listen to this I guess. It’s average as fuck but whatever, that’s the point.

 WORST TO BEST: Eyes, Love, Waves, Bug

 bedroom music/10

“*insert shoegaze mumbling here*”

 It Looks Sad. - Kaiju

2015 EP. Two tracks, one sucks and the other is tolerable. Like I really don’t know what the fuck the singer was trying to do with Creature, he’s hollering all over the place, and the delivery would be more at home in maybe some poorly-recorded punk song, but the instrumental is nothing like that, as it’s pretty much indie-rock 101; not to mention the lyrics, which are the blandest broken-hearted songwriting I’ve heard yet, probably. I now understand how truly emo they were.

For Nagoya, I can at least say the hook is pretty cool, but that’s it really. I guess I’m grateful they changed their style.

 2.45/10

“Best friend this is terrible. You know it’s inevitable. I hope you come back, I hope he comes back.”

 Pablo’s Paintings

Just wanted to give a shoutout to the underground Leeds, Yorkshire band Pablo’s Paintings. I had listened to Lizard a long while ago, and loved it, so I decided to check out the rest of their stuff today (May 25th), and it’s very solid. The track You’ve Got A Long Way To Go draws heavily from a psychedelic influence, while Paint’s Gone Dry and So Long (All Your Friends) sound like something The Beatles would maybe write.

I guess you could call them formulaic, but their mixing and distinct sound are all pretty good for a band that hasn’t gotten a song with over 2000 streams on Spotify. Their songs can be a little to bubblegum-ish, such as So Long (All Your Friends) which doesn’t really stand out as many others, but for the most part, they deliver. Can I Draw You Something? has a slight edge to it, in comparison, but still sporting cute lyrics about just drawing for someone, and Ghost In The Machine has a great progression to it, and a very cool cover art to accompany it. It’s clear the band has a taste for visual arts, from the lyrics to the band’s name.

In short, they do have a long way to go, and I hope they release an album soon, considering all but two of their Spotify singles were from last year; I’d be the first to listen to it.

 WORST TO BEST: So Long (All Your Friends), Paint’s Gone Dry, You’ve Got A Long Way To Go, Can I Draw You Something?, Lizard, Ghost In The Machine

 good band check them out/10

“I draw these lines and take them for a walk. I find that I say things better when I don’t need to talk”

 Vancouver Sleep Clinic – Winter

Contrary to the name, the band Vancouver Sleep Clinic is from Australia. Led by ambient singer (a term I didn’t know existed until today) Tim Bettinson, from my understanding, the band have partly built their audience by reeling people into the music by putting having the songs feature in TV shows and movies and whatnot, since there’s a hefty list of times their songs have appeared in this type of media on their Wikipedia page. I decided to listen to Winter because I discovered Stakes from the fact that the $uicideboy$ sampled it on the song Sold My Soul To Satan Waiting In Line At The Mall, and liked it a lot. The EP as a whole, however, not nearly as much.

To start off with the main problem I have with Winter, the tracks are all the same. Seriously, I cannot distinguish one from the other; all the songs are soaked in reverb and mainly center around simple acoustic guitar chords and generic pianos, mixed with Tim’s head voice and sometimes the dumb decision to include a synthesized drumming track, like in Vapour, where the fast-paced hi-hats sound so out of place and clip so badly in your ears, it sounds like your earphones are having a mini seizure, but not in a cool way. Meanwhile in Flaws, there’s this unnecessary, wack finger-snapping that makes it sound like I’m listening to some techno song with around 3000 views on YouTube (I do like his backing vocals in the track though).

At its best, tracks like the opener, Collapse, offer an actually powerful passage, in that song’s case, the hook breakdown, where the 808 drum patterns are actually very welcome, and the synths under it are very beautiful and harmonize really well. The final track, Rebirth, also attempts a grand breakdown of sorts, but falls flat because the song is so unnecessarily stretched out and weirdly segmented, and it’s so unexpected: the song is a slow piano/guitar ballad as usual, and then, around 3 minutes in, after the song fades out almost entirely and tricks you into thinking it ended, the drum kicks start rising and all of a sudden there’s... something? I don’t even know what instruments are playing apart from the  superimposed drums and what I think is an electric guitar, because it sounds like god knows what, an overheating computer mixed with some shrieking sound, which I assume is the guitar, way off in the background. And then Tim sings a last verse and the song suddenly ceases to exist. Same thing happens with the shortest track here, (Aftermath), consisting of 4 lines, your average piano and strings, and of course, the reverb. It builds up an epic instrumental, and after the brief singing section, just ends. No further instrumental work, just woosh. It’s gone.

I will give credit to Tim’s verses. Even though they’re always delivered with the same intonation, his lyrics are alright, and at least in Stakes, he employs some backing vocals that really make the track, and the hook is magnificent. They tend to blend into one another, with constant themes being metaphors for words he should have or regrets saying, the cold (obviously, given the EP title), sometimes drowning/large bodies of water, and of course, all tracks are about melancholy and heartbreak. But in some parts of the EP, his verses really do feel like some alright poetry, such as the awkward last verse in Rebirth (“I’m starting again, tearing my flesh, stripped to the bone, the all that I’ve grown. Leaving behind, breathe like a child. It’s taken the winter to find who I am”) or the already mentioned beautiful hook in Stakes. In most of the songs, however, I find his themes to be too repetitive and, I wouldn’t say uninspired, but run-of-the-mill.

So overall, the EP doesn’t amount to much. All the tracks attempt to go this emotional route, but they’re very repetitive, and that numbs them and robs them of their emotion a lot. Listen to it if you want to relax, or maybe even sleep to it if you want to take their name literally.

 WORST TO BEST: Vapour, Flaws, (Aftermath), Rebirth, Collapse, Stakes

 4/10

“I sunk in oceans blue, now they’re all frozen over. I should have took your hand, we should have crossed the border.”

 Steve Lacy – Steve Lacy’s Demo

Member of The Internet, singer-songwriter, guitarist, bassist, drummer and producer Steve Lacy is an artist I’ve wanted to check out for a while. I have at some point in my life heard his song Looks, off this demo, but thankfully I forgot how it went so I can check it out again. It’s gonna be a quick listen and review, but I’m curious (and while looking him up I found out he won a Grammy with Kendrick’s DAMN., for producing, backing vocals and songwriting, so that’s cool, congrats Steve).

Right away, I’ll just mention this project is very lo-fi. As in, the drums and his voice are poorly mixed. I’ll give it a little bit of a pass because this man played all the instruments in here and I appreciate the fuck out of that, but anyway. You can tell right at the first track that singing isn’t Steve’s forte, at least in this album, at this time. The hook in that song is just bad, the good part are the instruments, the guitar riffs and the very dynamic bassline, plus the fun little bongos. However, just like all songs here except Dark Red, this is waaaaaaaay too short. It has two short hooks, the verse, and that’s it. The songwriting, I feel, is one of Steve’s more substantial talents; this song I just mentioned is mainly about how a relationship can’t progress because the two involved don’t like much about each other apart from their looks, and Ryd is all about taking a girl to your backseat, but even though these themes are very simplistic, Steve fleshes them out into something more interesting and melodically rich. In Ryd, his smooth vocals surf over the sunny riffs, but what takes away from it are the weirdly mixed drums, as they sound like they’re playing way louder than they should be. The track is groovy though.

The most focused song here, Dark Red, tells the story of a man who’s worried his girl might leave him soon. The instrumentals are nothing special, very basic, and same with the vocals, even though they’re more rooted and solid in this song. The next song, Thangs, emphasizes its bass way more than other songs, but once again, Steve’s voice is not pleasing to listen to, specifically his high-pitched backing vocals, they’re awful. The lyrics are the most basic here, and this song just goes by without leaving any impact after ending pretty abruptly.

Haterlovin is weird. The vocals are way too low, but I like how they differentiate themselves by not going the melodic route, instead Steve chooses to rap them, and his flow in the verse is impressive, but at the same time the hook is way too repetitive for the song to work, and even though it’s nice he switched up and focused the track on the drums, it still leaves it pretty bare.

To close it up, Some brings some promise, with a pretty funky bassline and hook, but then ends out of nowhere and starts a hidden track, Snaily, which I admit has nice falsetto vocals from Steve, but I don’t know why I couldn’t be a separate track. Overall, the album isn’t great, but I appreciate how organic and talented Steve is. Throughout the songs, his creativity is pretty noticeable, so I can’t hate his efforts, but unfortunately his ideas don’t find the right light to shine here.

 WORST TO BEST: Thangs, Haterlovin, Looks, Some, Dark Red, Ryd

 4.5/10

“Next thing I know she was feeling on me, and I was in the M double-O D when she said park my car down the backstreet”

[jungtookthejams-blog]

Hoseok Imagine [3]

[i’m a yoongi stan i promise

also some information here does not belong to me, but most of it does. the stuff that isn’t mine regards a certain YT channel that i changed up to fit my characters. the name of the channel and what it does is as said but it has been modified to fit the story line, feel free to check out the actual channel, it’s hilarious and i’m a huge fan of them]

type : normal !

genre : fluff !

AU : youtuber reader !

word count : 1314 !

summary : Imagine being a YouTuber with your best friend, and you're shipped famously with Jung Hoseok. On a talk show, specifically The Ellen Show, you're forced to kiss him. Worse it is, you just so happen to be a J-Hope biased ARMY.

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(L/N) (Y/N) and Daiha Binji; two of the biggest names on YouTube, more formally known as CinemaSins and/or MusicVideoSins. Two people, two channels, and sarcastic, offensive humour that never fails in making people fall out of their chairs. What they do is simple.

They sin things in the entertainment industry.

It started with movies, and when they got requests to do music videos as well, they made a second channel just for that. They watch these things and point out every little mistake or things that just don’t make sense, many of the “sins” counted are there simply for the sake of making some witty, smartass commentary. Although they focus their videos in English (living in America and all), they often have subtitles of Korean, Japanese, French, considering both of them are fluent in said languages. Their fans also translate their videos in many languages, ranging from Spanish to Bahasa.

(Y/N) is a free spirit, she’s very kind and the sweetest thing ever. She loves pastel colours but is also really emo, she basically has the personality of a pastel goth. Don’t be fooled, though, she’s still a smartass. Her sins mostly focus on the more feminine view of whatever she’s watching, like “This guy is offending me with his seductive stare,” and ping! There’s a sin. She’s also very keen and observing, she finds every little mistake possible and often helps Binji find his for his videos.

Binji is snarky and clever, he makes fun of the actors in whatever he’s watching and that often leads to sins. “Look, I know this guy’s trying to be sexy and all, but he just ate wax. That’s a formula for constipation.” Ping!

Binji, despite having naturally blonde hair (he’s half Korean and half Russian), likes to dye his hair a bright red. Like, Akabane Karma red. Or Park Jimin during Dope red. (Y/N) often says that the colour suits him, his short temper and “I don’t care” attitude well, which is one of the reasons he keeps it that way. He clearly has a soft spot for (Y/N), but in no way is it romantic.

Their channels have two large playlists each; Binji’s videos and (Y/N)’s videos. They run the channels together, yes, but often have seperate videos. The fans often suggest who should sin what, which is how (Y/N) got into sinning almost all of BTS’ music videos.

When she was sinning Dope, the fourth one she’s had to sin, she started the video off with an immediate sin by saying, “I don’t know why you guys always make me do these. I’ve already been sucked into this ARMY thing, and you know I looked into that fandom since you guys have been begging me to for so long, and what I found was the weirdest shit. What the fuck is ‘infires,’ ‘dirty water,’ ‘no jams,’ and what’s with the ‘sexy porn star’ thing? This fandom is drugs. Just drugs. And I love it. Teach me your ways, ARMY. In any case, why don’t you make Binji do these? Don’t you want to see him suddenly poof into a gay against his will? Because I do.”

Her becoming an ARMY is what lead to the shipping. The shipping of her and the infamous J-Hope.

She’s really energetic and always happy, she’s like Hoseok and Yoongi together into one.

Which is what brings her here, on Ellen, in front of J-Hope, with red cheeks and their lips centimetres apart, Binji and Yoongi shoving their heads together.

Woah, woah.

Back the fuck up.

What is happening, here?

Well, allow me to explain.

When the boys went onto Ellen, the mischievous comedian had a surprise in store. A shipping game. She spun a wheel and whichever member it landed on, would have to play a little game.

She had seven female celebrities backstage, each of whom were the most shipped with one of the members. (Y/N) was there if J-Hope were to be selected, and Binji was there because (Y/N) was there.

They’re kind of the dynamic duo.

In any case, the wheel landed on Hoseok, and (Y/N) and Binji casually walked out, with fans cheering like they just saw Johnny Depp. They took a seat across from Bangtan as the band shoved and teased Hoseok, who was smiling ear to ear with pink cheeks. Ellen greeted them and continued to take out a deck of cards. She shuffled them and picked out ten. The older woman then called up a random girl from the audience and had her pick a card. The teenage girl was shy yet giddy as she picked one, and almost choked on her spit as she read it. Ellen took it back and laughed out loud as the girl went back to her seat, leaving the idols on the stage confused. The host turned the card over and (Y/N)’s eyes were as big as plates.

The potential couple must share a kiss on stage for their fans!

She could feel anxiety bubbling in her stomach.

Yes, Hoseok was attractive. Yes, he was a cutie. Yes, she was a fan of him. Yes, she low-key wanted to kiss him. Yes, she would sacrifice her first born child for him. Yes, he was overly cute and sexy at the same time. Yes, the little cinnabun comedian was shy as hell as she looked at the rapper.

But God, no, she did not want to fuck this up!

What if he was uncomfortable? What if she disgusted him? What if she was a horrible kisser?

She gulped as Bangtan beat and laughed at Hoseok, who shyly stood and looked at (Y/N), who did the same. She could feel Binji smirking at her, and gave him a quick glance-glare.

The two of them hesitantly approached one another until they were less than a metre away. They slowly leaned in until (Y/N) flinched away and hid her face, making the crowd “Awee!”

She gathered her emotions and leaned in again, awkwardly flinching away like every two seconds, Hoseok doing the same, both their cheeks red.

[have you guys seen that vid of hobi and tae being forced to kiss? yeah, imagine that, but they’re not touching and they’re more flustered than disgusted]

Binji stood and shoved (Y/N) forward, making Hoseok catch her and hold her in his arms as they gazed at each other, yet still reluctant. Yoongi then stood and pushed Hoseok’s head further, Binji doing the same to (Y/N).

And here they were.

Eventually, their lips touched, light as a feather. As soon as she felt the contact, (Y/N) was about to pull away, but something about the way Hoseok held her and slightly moved his lips against hers made her stay in his arms. Hoseok slowly moved his lips to mesh with hers in a way that made (Y/N) weak in the knees, and they kissed for what felt like eternity, her hands sliding into his hair and his resting at her hips. As their lungs felt heavy, they gently separated themselves from each other, and the first thing (Y/N) did was run into Binji’s arms, covering her red face. Binji laughed, “This isn’t rejection to you or anything, J-Hope, she’s just really shy. This probably means she enjoyed it,” He sent the Korean rapper a wink. BTS were in tears laughing, and so was Ellen, leaving (Y/N) to internally cry in Binji’s embrace.

The show went on as any other, (Y/N) and Hoseok unable to take their eyes off each other. As the stars walked off the stage, though, a grinning Hoseok made his way over to (Y/N), who looked at him with a shy smile.

“Can I get your number? I, uh, would like to keep in touch.”

[cheonjaem-blog]

boyfriend! kang daniel

how you meet kang daniel and what kind of boyfriend he is

school!au

so kang daniel is your classmate, and he’s that super popular but also funny person that all the students and teachers love

daniel is always surrounded by a group of fangirls, which naturally results in malicious rumors about how he’s a fuckboy

but daniel is in your math class and he sits right in front of you

at first you kind of had your preconceived opinions about him like “oh shit he’s a fuckboy i ain’t talking to no fuckboy”

but you’ll eventually start talking to him after he forgets his pencil one day and turns around to ask you for one with a pleading smile

and then you guys begin your miraculous friendship which consists of lots of debates about dogs vs cats, and you realize how much of a loser he actually is??

like where’s mr. popular i-play-3-sports guy??

all he talks about is cats, and he always shows you pictures of his cat

you guys start texting and 90% of your texts consists of arguments 

like you’re a dog person but daniel is an aggressive cat advocate

“cats are way cuter than dogs”

“haha bET. who’s gonna be crying on your deathbed? not your goddamn cat bc that unloyal hoe is running off to find the next person to feed him”

daniel’s actually really spacey sometimes 

like once after class when everyone was packing up, his hands fly to his pockets and he digs through his backpack in panic

and you’re just like “what’s wrong??”

and then he wildly looks around and says “i lost my phone”

but he actually gave you his phone to look through his cat pic album like 5 minutes ago and totally forgot

so you just wave his phone in front of his face and give him the “are you an idiot or are you an idiot” look

and he just sheepishly laughs and scratches the back of his head in embarrassment

that’s when you realize how fucking cute his smile is

and your heart is racing a little but you give yourself a pep talk like “no i am not falling for no goddamn fuckboy”

but of course love never goes the way you want it to and suddenly you start noticing that you stopped paying attention in math and started daydreaming about daniel

and one day daniel asks you to tutor him in math since he’s failing and desperately needs to pass the next test in order to not flunk the class

but in this world it’s give and take so you’re like “what’s in it for me”

by this time daniel knows you pretty well and he’s just like “free food + starbucks every day you tutor me”

and you’re thinking like “shit he’s loaded. pls be my sugar daddy”

so you start tutoring him after school at the starbucks across the street

you realize that daniel naturally picks things up right away but that he was just too lazy to study 

50% of the time studying, other 50% arguing 

daniel feels super comfortable with you now and he really appreciates that you see him as just kang daniel not mr. popular

since you go there everyday after school, the barista knows your names and orders already 

and one day the barista goes “you guys are such a cute couple!”

and you’re too shocked to say anything but daniel immediately replies “thank you! we get that a lot” 

after you get your drink, you turn to him and say “wtf was that?? stop joking, you piece of shit” while punching him lightly

but he just laughs and you notice how his eyes crinkle and you can’t help but laugh too 

and then he whispers “but we could be a real thing if you want” and winks

you just laugh at him now bc you assume that he’s just messing around again “i hate you stfu”

but you miss the flash of disappointment in his eyes bc he was kind of testing the waters to see your hypothetical reaction

so now he’s convinced that you don’t like him and is really really disappointed ;;;

the next time you show up to class, he’s seems a little more distant

like he won’t laugh at your stupid jokes as much and you’ll be like “is something wrong,,,” and he’ll just shake his head and brush you off

and this continues for like the next few days so you know something is wrong

but you decide to leave it alone since you respect other people’s privacy (cough cough)

he’ll probably tell you when he’s ready right?

anyways at lunch you’re just chilling with your friends, minding your own business and trying to forget about daniel, but ong seongwoo comes out of nowhere and drags you to the nearest hallway 

and you’re like “woah what’s up”

and he gives you this disapproving mom look 

“did you really just reject daniel?”

“um what the fuck? where did you get this fake news from”

so ong has to explain to your oblivious ass that daniel likes you

but you’re like “um sorry no your jokes are not funny”

better being pessimistic than getting played amirite

and so he literally drags you to daniel who is sitting alone and listening to his emo playlist with his bangs over his eyes looking like a fucking member of my chemical romance or some shit bc the only girl he liked thinks he’s a joke

“tell her already jesus christ stop listening to that goddamn emo shit”

and ong leaves you two alone

you just end up staring at daniel wondering what kind of drugs he took today to end up like this

and then daniel ends up spurting some incomprehensible confession, “sorryireallylikeyouandididntknowwhattodobecauseithoughtyouhated me???”

he kind of turns red and gets embarrassed and really pouty 

but you’re just thinking of how cute he is and how much you really want to poke his cheeks

“wtf did kang daniel just say he likes me” never goes through your head bc you’re a boss ass bitch and everyone fucking loves you okay no need to act surprised

and when you don’t say anything he’s just like “i just ruined our friendship didn’t i”

“um sorry but what’s in it for me” is your response, and you give him a wink 

he immediately looks relieved and starts laughing “free hugs and cuddles and kisses from me”

and daniel is such a sweet boyfriend

like he always notices the littlest things about you and puts you before anything else

loves cuddling and back hugs!!!!

likes resting his head on the crook of your neck

nap time with dan is a thing with lots of cuddling

you wake up all the time wrapped in his arms

v protective,,, makes you walk on the inside of the sidewalk, always holds the umbrella for you, 

gets jealous sometimes and just gets all pouty before you reassure him that there’s nothing to be jealous about

kind of touchy

not afraid of pda

smells like a mix of cinnamon and vanilla

aesthetic coffee shop dates!!!

“reminds me of the place where i fell in love with you”

dogs vs cats argument is still a thing

“okay fine dogs are cute too, but you’re still the cutest” 

y’all are cute you have matching stüssy outfits (daniel’s idea)

blasts exo music 24/7

“daniel pls stop doing the kokobop challenge. we’re in public”

“choGIWA”

“chogiw—e’re breaking up”

“wait no i’m overdosed on your love!!”

biggest exo-l ever

that’s right my type is his favorite pick up line

cute mochi!!!!

like that pink peach thingy with the buck teeth is actually him

when he smiles, his buck teeth show, and it’s honestly so adorable

he wanted to get them fixed but you were like “um no?? how dare you even suggest that”

kind of insecure about his physical appearance sometimes bc of what happened in his past :(

but you assure him that he’s the sexiest mochi ball you’ve ever laid eyes on

okay but you were low key ready to get on the nearest train to busan and jump daniel’s former bullies

no but for real you were ready to clock some bitches 

“what’s their kkt babe imma bout to track them down and make them catch these fucking fists”

“aww you’re so cute :’)”

notices small things about you

buys ice cream for you when you’re sad,

knows all your favorite foods so he can bribe you make you happy :)

overall 10/10 best boyfriend ever 

[deliciouskook-blog]

We don’t talk anymore (Jikook Cover) Scenario  Jungkook x Reader

Hello guys

This is my first Tumblr post and first fanfiction inspired by the beautiful cover released by JUNGKOOOK&JIMINNN 'We don't talk anymore'. I know Jungkook has done the cover alone before but I think this version is more powerful and made me feel things as many of you would probably relate and Jimin's sweet voice is everything I love him so much..... I'm in tears rn :'(

Anyways so when i heard this song i just grabbed my lapotp and typed this, its raw and not proofread and was literally just me blabbering cos of the feels i got from the cover and so i imagined a really sad relationship. I hope you enjoy it!!

I don't know if anyone's going to even read this but my friend told me to post it anyway so if you like it please give me some love!!! I accept requests <3 and would probably write better if i wasnt so emo ahhahahahahahahhaha (i shouldnt lie to myself ill never stop feeling emo while stanning bts)

Word count: 1.9k

Y/N POV

It’s been a long time since you felt the spark that initially ignited your relationship, you always had to put your 100% and felt like it was dying anyway, there was nothing that can be done to save it and that’s when you thought it was time to start seeing someone else and move on.

You called him a day before you decided to forget the hell that you have been through because of him but like all the previous calls that turned to voicemail this time was no different.

It was the familiar female voice again ‘the mobile number you have called is not available...’

You felt ashamed that he has put you through this and hurt your pride, because no matter how much you called he just wont answer.

Y/N: ‘jungkook I need to speak to you’ – delivered at 10:31 pm

‘please just answer the phone..’ – delivered at 10:32 pm

‘jungkook’ – delivered at 10:32 pm

but nothing

5 minutes later… the messages were checked as ‘opened’

So she decided to call again but there was no answer.

Jungkook: ‘I wish you could stop calling me at night you know im at practice’ ‘I wont answer I’m working so good night’ – opened at 10:40 pm

Y/N: ‘why are you like this?’ ‘whats wrong?’ – opened at 10:41 pm

Jungkook: ‘nothing is wrong’ – opened at 10:42 pm

Y/N: ‘don’t lie to me can you please call me back after practice?’ – opened at 10:42 pm

Jungkook: ‘yeah.. later’ – opened at 10:45 pm

You stayed up all night waiting for his call it was an agonisingly slow night but you waited for him to call you like a fool anyway. 3AM came around and still no call. He never practices this late.

So you decided to call one more time. And unexpectedly there was an answer.

‘hello? Jungkook?’

silence

‘yeah… wussup’

he sounded drunk and you were speechless…

‘werent you at practice? Why are you drunk’

‘im not drunk’

‘well okay then what are you’

‘im jungkook’

no shit

‘ok jungkook we need to talk but I cant talk to you if your drunk’

‘youre already talking so carry on… what is this 39 missed calls all about’

‘where are you, can I see you? and if you answered the first call there wouldn’t be 39’

‘no im going home now so just say what you want’

‘okay… I just don’t think this is going to work out between us’

silence

‘jungkook’

then he laughed sarcastically

‘are you breaking up with me?’

‘yeah I jus-‘

‘okay then’

‘jungkook I need to tell you why’

‘I don’t.. think I care…’

= call ended=

Jungkook woke up with a severe headache. The time was already 2 past noon and he had no idea what hes done the night before but all he could remember was drinking so much.

The truth is he didn’t know why he drank so much in fact he didn’t know why he gave up doing anything besides work the past few month, he knew his relationship with you was dying slowly and he knew It was his fault but the Wings tour and his musical career was eating him and was far more important, at least in the company and BTS’ eyes.

He thought that you could wait for him but his career cant, he knew it was selfish and hard but he had no other choice and he didn’t know better, because he was only 19 and he could only handle so much.

You woke up around the same time, you didn’t get time to sleep at all from crying over the ended phone call, you knew it would be hard but you had to move on. You knew you didn’t deserve him and that made your relationship rocky at first, but as jungkook told you he loved you repeatedly, you slowly gained confidence and learnt to love yourself too but that all came crashing down because he clearly doesn’t love you anymore.

You knew the only way you would get over him is erasing him completely from your life which included blocking his phone number, for his own good you knew he was a good guy and probably would try to befriend you after these 3 years but you couldn’t handle seeing him as not yours, but just a friend. You took out your phone and as you unlocked it, you saw the selfie you had at their last date together and couldn’t help but cry even more because all that has to go too.

= 3 months passes by=

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As you slowly learnt how to live life from scratch, Y/N served another caramel late to who seemed to be a distressed customer. She had quit her old job which was close to big hit’s main building and decided on a new beginning.

Within these 3 months she had met a guy who’s a regular at the café named Zico, he would throw way too many compliments about the coffee than one would give but she found it cute as at least for what seemed like years, she’s started to receive the attention she craved… but she cant help but think of jungkook whenever she sees him wishing that he would be the one who would give her these compliments and taste coffee that she only recently learnt to master but obviously that life doesn’t exist anymore.

But as she is in south korea, bts are increasingly becoming a hot topic and their songs were played everywhere as if her memories of him weren’t enough reminder.

Slowly Y/N got to know Zico even more, and naturally they dated. She couldn’t deny how good he treats her, maybe its because it’s a new relationship but he was there when she texted and even called her when she didn’t turn up for work because she was sick. He showed that he cares. Jungkook didn’t.

On a fated evening, when the new couple chose to walk next to the Han river a familiar figure stood on the way walking with what seemed another familiar figure but she chose to ignore it and continue walking holding hands with her new lover.

What Y/N dont know is jungkook has been growing crazy the last 3 months, he had tried to reach you so many times, he doesn’t remember the phone call that night and he thought that you ended the relationship alone and hasn’t decided to even talk it with him. He missed you so much and every day he realised how much of it was his fault, it was his fault that you had left your old job, your neighbourhood, changed your number and disappeared. He wished you were happy but deep down he hoped like himself that you weren’t able to forget him.

Then he saw you walking, he looked at jimin who was trying to distract him from the sight that he has also seen. Jungkook felt angry and tried to contain himself, but soon after he was washed with feelings of sadness and regret, deciding to walk up to you anyway.

‘Y/N ?’

you looked at him with surprised eyes, which Zico has returned to you in confusion.

‘can you give me a minute?’ you said to Zico who nodded and walked away

‘you look well’ you said to him

‘is that all you have to say to me’ he said to you with tears in his eyes

‘I don’t remember you wanting me to say anything at all… but say what?’ you replied returning a hurt face.

‘why you left me like this’ he said looking down knowing exactly what you left but he had to hear you say it

‘you didn’t want to hear it.. remember?’ you said to him as you laughed away your tears

‘what are you talking about?’ he asked you

‘you said to me you didn’t want to hear it, remember you were kind of drunk actually but I knew if I didn’t tell you right there and then, you would never pick up’ you admitted

‘you couldve texted me at least’ he said defeated

‘you don’t even reply anyway… I need to go’ you walked away

then he watched you combining your hands with your new lover as you continue walking. Jungkook went back to the company’s building with Jimin who tried to comfort him, he saw the pain that Jungkook went through the past few months, but he couldn’t deny that he was the one who screwed it up for himself.

Jungkook entered the studio where he was meant to record aimlessly, he always overworked himself when he was feeling lonely or sad and today he was broken. He scrolled down his Spotify playlist and encountered a song named ‘We don’t talk anymore – By Charlie Puth’, it was always there but he never really bothered to listen to it, but tonight he tapped ‘PLAY’.

By the end of the song he was sobbing, he remembered how much he wanted to come back to you when he had a day full of schedule, he expected you to be there texting him sweet words when he couldn’t make it to dates because he couldn’t perfect his practice, celebrate happy occasions with you but there must be a good reason that she left him he thought laughing to himself as he related to the lyrics of the song. He was so drawn to the song that he decided to cover it hoping that the fans would like it too, but more importantly as a message to his gone girl.

=3 weeks forward=

‘Did you hear the songs Jungkook released this month’ said a co-worker to the other ‘No no what is it called? Put it on’ the other one replied

They played the cover that the entire of nation of Korea has been obsessing over, and for the first time the you heard it. And you felt as if you were shot in the heart. You could hear the sincerity in his voice and realised how the hell did things come this far, because you couldn’t imagine your life without him no matter what.

‘I need to go somewhere can you cover for me please? you said to one of the coworkers and ran outside the café to big hit, cursing yourself for deleting his phone number.

And as you ran to the building you asked the familiar security who still remembers you if jungkook can be called down.

You felt like life at that moment was like a ticking bomb and you needed to tell him whatever you were feeling at that moment, you’ll probably regret it but at this moment you didn’t care.

But it was too late as you saw him walking down the stairs with another girl’s hand around his. You felt like you were shot a second time, this time earning a much severe injury. You laughed at the thoughts you had, the he sang this for you – it might’ve had no meaning at all. With tears running down your cheeks you ran before he could notice you catching a TAXI, but he did see you and realised that you came back. Jungkook let go of the girl’s hand to run after you but it was too late… he watched the TAXI drive off.

Many tears were shed that day.

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1. How long have you had a Tumblr?2011 i think? 2. Describe your first kiss, who was it with, what was it like, where was it etc?his name is justin. he had a gf at the time and kissed me (shitty af) in a library. it was nothing special. i really liked him though. 3. What’s your biggest regret? I know we all say we don’t regret things but obviously it’s how we learn, from our mistakes. So what’s something from your past you wished you could have changed?dating emilio for as long as i did. 4 Favorite Songs at the moment?i cant pick its too hard 5. What is the craziest thing that you have ever done?i am not wild6. What’s the most embarrassing thing that’s ever happened to you?i erase this shit from my mind7. Do you have any scars and if so, how did you get them?they come from myself hahahh 8. Where would you like to be in 10 years?just successful and happy. 9. What are your views on drugs and alcohol?theyre fine just dont make them your top priority 10. What are your views on religion?believe what you want. dont bash me for not believing in anything though. 11. Have you ever thought about ending your own life? If so, why?of course. i get sad, hoe. 12. Write 5 facts people might not know about you.i am very open. there is very little people dont know about me. 13. last really important text you got?ky cam saying shes down to shop w me and maddie :)14. Can you let go?not easily 15. Discuss your first love.have i even had one?16. Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up. Explain why each song is on there.i dont have an ipod but fuck i wish i DID17. Name somewhere you’d like to move or visit.visit? probably canada. id move there too. or wisconsin. 19. What are your views on mainstream music?no beef, i dont often find stuff i vibe with on the radio but i have18. Are you currently missing someone?more than anything 19. At what age do you think people should have sex?prolly high school, but really whenever you are comfortable. 20. What are your highs and lows of this past year?highs: leaving my abuser! getting a job i love! leaving people who are shitty and toxic! meeting rachel! meeting jessie! seeing amity!lows: spending the first half with my abuser! self harming again! crashed my car! 21. What are your strongest beliefs?i believe in aliens and ghosts (who doesn't?) i believe in an after life. 22. Who are you closest to in your family?my brother hes my best friend damn near 23. How important do you think education is?pretty important. i dont think college is necessary. 24. What’s one of your favorite shows?how i met your mother25. How have you changed in the past 2 years?i am stronger and happier. i have better friends and just a happier life. 26. Name 5 people who are famous who you find attractive.ryan ross, detective nick amaro, the rock, young matthew lillard, and ellen page27. Name your favorite movie and what it’s about.nick and norahs infinite playlist. its about a girl falling for a dude thru the mix cds he made his ex (her friend) and meets him at the club and soends the whole night with him looking for her drunk friend and a secret show. 28. Who is someone who fascinates you and why?aalyssa. shes so interesting to me and i could listen to her talk for hours. 29. What kind of person attracts you?lanky emo boys. douchebags. pretty girls. 30. What’s a problem that you have recently had or are currently having?i want to find another job 31. Name something that you miss.dhanes laugh. 32. Share 5 goals you want completed in the next 30 days.get in the shape i want to. thats it. 33. What’s been the highlight of your month and the lowest point? anytime i see michael and rachel its a highlight. low point: my FUCKING CAR GETTING HIT. 34. What’s something that you’ve done in the past that you would never do again?molly damn near. 35. What is you’re biggest insecurity & why?tummy. its too big. 36. What were the last 3 songs you listened to and what did they mean to you?eeeek i cant remember.37. Do you have a toy that’s really special to you and if so what is it, how did you get it etc?no i dont but i wish i did. 38. Have you lost anyone close to you to death? yep. i love you dhane! i love you christian! 39. What is your purpose in life?do i really have one? 40. When was the last time you cried and what was it over?today at a sad facebook video 41. If you got to spend an entire day with your favourite celebrity what would you guys do? we would have sex i love you ryan ross 42. If you could only listen to one artist for the rest of your life, who would you choose and why?nevershoutnever. you fuckin know why. 43. What are 3 traits that you like about yourself and what are three that you dislike about yourself? Personality wise.goods: im very empathetic. i look out for people. im fucking funnybads: im too nice. i get angry very fast. im petty. 44. Can you cook? If so what are your favorite dishes to make? yes!! i love to just make pasta with chicken and homemade pizza. 45. What was the last decision you regretted making?probably fucking sy hahahaha 46. Do you believe in the saying “once a cheater, always a cheater”?nope47. Do you ever wish you were famous?not really 48. What’s the nastiest thing anyone has ever said to YOU? Or something that’s hurt you above anything else and why?emilio said some of the most disgusting shit to me for months. dude told me he was gonna kill me hella times and how i should just end my life already! fucks wrong with that dude? 50. What mark would you want to leave on this world after you are gone?just want people to remember the good about me and my laugh 51. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?not really52. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?hell no whats the point 53. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?yes54. What’s the most romantic thing anyone has ever done for you?drive around with me and not make fun of me while i sob my eyes out. thanks becca! thanks jessie!55. What is one of your favorite memories?amity performing youngbloods. thanks for making me cry! 58. What’s the nicest present you’ve ever received?becca bought me an amity ticket, i love that bitch. emilio got me a stuffed animal that is sully so that was pretty nice of him to do (rare) my fav is when people give me flowers. 59. Have you ever had your heart broken?yeah im a sensitive bitch. not his fault tho!60. Have you ever wanted to change anything about your life? If so, what?yeah like mostly where i live. i would just like to leave here. 61. What is something you feel like you are really good at? problem solving62. What are your top 5 favourite all time songs by your favourite artist?open letter. deaths hand. i hate hartley. youngbloods. chasing ghosts. 65. What’s one thing someone has done for you that was really small but made a huge impact?becca had my back throughout my past relationship. she really did everything for me. s/o to her for being legit the best person i have ever met. 66. What do you do when you can’t sleep?watch more tv68. If you could change 3 things within your government, what would they be and why?get trump out of office. thats all i got. i dont know much about the government. 69. What’s your favourite holiday and why?id say halloween. i like the spooks. 70. What’s the kindest thing a stranger has ever done for you? Even if it’s TINY like holding a door open for you, something that you remember even though they were a complete stranger.the nice anons i get. thanks guys. 71. Who’s your favorite cartoon character?honestly? probably scooby. 72. What’s the first song that comes to your mind while reading this and why?scooby doo theme song. i love that shit. 74. What would you like to be the first dance song at your wedding?idk i never think about my wedding plans tbh. something alternative ideally. maybe something by flatsound or across the universe. 75. Have you ever been told you look like a famous person, if so, who?nope 76. What’s one thing you can not live without?becca! 77. What is the most selfless thing you have ever done for someone?idk i will really do anything for anyone. mostly just helping out with driving. 78. Are you a girly girl?i dont think so 79. What color is your bed?black80. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?dark. ideally brunette. 81. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?hell yes but not his fault 82. Do you have a best friend?yes. s/o to becca. s/o to maddie. s/o to tony. 82. What song makes you cry the most?i cant even pick. probably something by flatsound 83. What’s the funniest film you’ve ever seen?eeeeeekkkk...... i have no idea...... honestly for some reason all that comes to mind is 21 jump street and thats weird 84. What’s something crazy that you’ve always wanted to do?im just tryna kiss a gurl85. Has anything ever happened to you that you just can’t forgive?yes for sure. i will never forgive my abusers. 86. Ever been really drunk?sadly87. Is there any type of rumor going around about you?not really. these people were saying i do bars and thats pretty fucked up considering ive never taken prescription pills for "fun"89. Have you ever felt ashamed about something? If so what was it & why? yeah i'm not gonna talk about it 90. Do you keep a journal? If so what mostly goes in it? Random thoughts, feelings, stories?i did, i should start again. 
91. Do you like somebody?yep :-)92. Craziest shit ever done?im not crazy 93. What’s the saddest story/one that’s touched you the most that you’ve ever heard on the news?the kid that hung himself because people spread rumors that his girlfriend killed herself. 94. If you were told you were going to have 3 daughters, what would you want to name them?i have no idea because im never having kids. 95. Do you have a middle name and if so, what is it?marie96. Are you in a relationship?no 97. Do you enjoy drama?not really98. Are you a virgin?nope99. Are you short or tall?short100. Do you have siblings? If so, what are their names and how old are they? amber is 31, erin is 29, and tony is 16