#his name is rowan

[koitosoup]

oc redesign

[crazycat-dnd]

[asexualdynamics]

*takes a long slurp of tea before continuing*

-so anyways- it turns out I've been relying so much on other people's approval that it literally distorts my perception of reality if I don't get constant reassurance that I am doing life (?) correctly.

This sucks to live life like this. 🙃

Why yes, perhaps I am oversharing! Am I yet again still performing for nonexistant audience awaiting to judge my every move? Or perhaps a performance for is it the specific people I've cut out of my life, or rather, have cut me out of their life because I am just that unbearable? Why would they still be looking at my silly little dead blog? Who knows! That's their problem 🤷 or rather mine because I am trying to sustain mental stability.

*fumbles with the wooden soapbox that has a few planks missing before placing it down to sit on top**

Anyways I'm just gonna...find things that make me happy, but stay informed/connected to the world. I can't believe that I watched an actual genocide live on my phone, like how tf do you recover from that?

Intrusive thoughts have gotten really bad lately. I had to leave work early to just take a drive so I could work it out (a.k.a. crying and screaming in my car while blasting sad/feel good music on the freeway). So I gotta make sure I'm not doing this because they make me feel good, not because someone told me that's how I'm supposed to engage/enjoy the website/app.

I like. Have to figure out how to use tumblr again. I only remember the sensation of trepidation and literal stress entering my body when constructing a post (spoiler alert: I'm feeling that rn 😀)

I have no idea what the customs or etiquette even are anymore.

*boils more water for tea before curling up in bed to dissociate for half an hour*

....anyways I got a cat-

[m0dernv4mpire]

Rowan was 18 when he went to Hartley High...he should have been at the psychiatrist's

[highladyofterrasen7]

Pretty much everyone is a parasite.

Elide asked and chaol lets her use his. Same with Sartaq and Evangeline.

[star2stop]

cant believe chonny jash invented the devil from the bible

| the before. | 20XX | handsome devil ph | fine, i'm fine | you sound like louis burdett | chonny jash ph | count eleven |

[anarchswild]

FangFest '24 - Day 1

Alex, the Malkavian fledgling, is one of those unfortunate kindred who has no idea they're a vampire and will not come to terms with it. Of course, he's also completely out of touch with reality as a Malkavian with a very tough derangement. His sire has been diablerized, he was taken in by the murderer (his fellow childer of the man), and well. His new adoptive sire is going to have many problems to work with.

[bigbumder96]

i was watching heartbreak high and i physically couldnt stand anytime rowan came on screen cuz he seriously needs to sort his hair parting out…

[artbyfinnbrown]

The funniest group of people to come out of arc 8.

[lazybug16]

So fucking cool/creepy when you're watching something and halfway or right in the end it turns out that one of the characters was dead the entire time

[simstoyourdismay]

i think he's saur pretty..

[acourtofquestions]

How is rowaelin already every romantic trope in one before they even have their first kiss?🫶😂👏

[haveihitanerve]

so im rereading TOG and i just read a line that made me pause. Its from Elide's perspective, and its a simple, passing remark she makes about how only Gavriel and Rowan really talk to Lorcan, how Aelin and him still fight like cats and dogs and how Fenrys for the most part ignores him. And it just stood out to me because, it gives us some insight to how their dynamic is. Lorcan remarks multiple times throughout the books that he valued Rowan, not as a friend per se but as a good general, someone he trusted to guard his back, and knowing lorcan, thats no small thing. Gavriel, we learn, has strong comradery with Rowan, and he seems to play the peacekeeper a lot of the time, making his cadre laugh with little snips and well timed comments, at odds with Fenrys loud, usually crude jokes, but things that make them laugh all the same. Now the fenrys and lorcan thing is interesting, because before all that happened with maeve, they seemed to get on decently well for males bound together unwillingly. Lorcan and Fenrys both have unknown power, and both seem to have the same lethal, dangerous sort of personality, like aelin, they seem to have fire that well compliments each other. Now, fenrys hates him, but when lorcan swears the blood oath, fenrys makes a few cutting remarks that, maybe im just reading into it, but theyre comments i would make about my brother, or a close friend, were i in their situation. naturally, lorcan acts annoyed and snarls at him, but its something, a bit of banter. and of course, lorcan and aelin our fav little power couple that would probably take over the world together and laugh while slaughtering millions, i would love to see it, but yeah. idk. just something interesting i had thoughts about.

[rowanisawriter]

who up getting brain rot from their own AU

[highladyofterrasen7]

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