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June 2024 fic roundup

Here are my favorite June reads:

👶📝 Of Our Own Making by @television-overload

I totally forgot to put this on last month’s list! I absolutely loved reading each new chapter every morning at work. I can’t not read a marriage of convenience fic, especially when there’s a baby involved.

💌🦃 Small Lives Awake by Jesemie’s Evil Twin

You know when you read something so sweet, so pure, that you feel like it breaks your heart in the best way? That’s this fic. It’s incredibly fluffy without being cheesy, and the writing style is so elegant.

🏝️👨‍👩‍👦 The Eden Series by Jacque LaVa

Was this the best fic I’ve ever read? No. Was everyone OOC? Definitely. Did I still enjoy it? You bet. I cannot resist the siren call of a survival fic, an amnesia fic, or a kidfic, and this had all three.

👰‍♀️🤵‍♂️ The Marriage Spectacular by @cecilysass

I’ve never met a cecilysass fic I didn’t like, and this was no exception. Fake relationship my beloved! Only one bed my beloved! Mulder and Scully being idiots in love my beloved! Absolutely delightful. 10/10, no notes.

🌀☔️ Hurricane Season by beduini & rah

This fic perfectly captures M&S’s “we’re completely and utterly devoted to each other and literal soulmates yet we still doubt our place in each other’s lives and we never actually talk about it” dynamic that we know and love. It takes place when William is a few months old and they’re still trying to define their relationship. I loved it SO MUCH!

(hmu for an epub — the chapters are long, which makes it easy to lose your place if you don’t finish the chapter in one sitting)

❄️✈️ WHITEOUT by EvanBlack

A classic “Mulder and Scully get in a plane crash and have to survive until help arrives” story. (You all know by now how much I love a survival fic!)

I absolutely adored the dynamic between them in this one. They’re down SO bad for each other, and it shows. I especially loved the beginning when they’re both wishing they were sitting next to each other so they could hold hands. That’s the good stuff right there!

🛁🧪 Antidote by Rachel Howard and Karen Rasch

Mulder and Scully investigate an unknown contagion in a remote town. You can probably guess what happens from there.

This was the perfect road trip read! Engaging and exciting without being too plot-heavy.

🤰👶 40 Weeks by @malibusunset-xf-blog

What if the IVF worked?

The most delectable pregnancy fluff with a dash of smut and a healthy serving of Mulder and Scully figuring out their relationship.

🪶🐎 Omens by @lepusarticus

I cannot say enough good things about this fic. It’s definitely a new addition to the Holy Grail list.

It’s a casefic, but it doesn’t feel like a casefic…more like an exploration of magic and family and love. With its spooky small-town gothic vibe and emphasis on powerful women and strange houses and ancient magic, it reminds me a lot of my favorite book series, The Raven Cycle. (If you liked this fic, you should go read TRC!)

This fic has layers and nuance and themes and motifs and gorgeous metaphors and one incredibly hot scene that ticked all my boxes. Even the OCs are rich and compelling. I would read a whole series set in this universe!

💥🚗 Goshen by Bonetree

Emily angst plus survival plus tending to each other’s injuries plus hurt/comfort? Yes please! I love it when I find a fic that seems to be created in a lab just for me.

(After reading the summaries of the following installments, I’m not quite sure if they’re really my thing. Has anyone read the rest of the series? Did you like it?)

👦🏻🦊 A Boy and His Fox by 6hoursgirl

Mulder and Scully “platonically” coparent their son. Mulder learns what it means to be a dad. Pure, unadulterated fluff! If you like kidfics, this one is a must-read.

📚👩‍⚕️ Heuvelmans’ On the Track by The_Mythopeodic

This fic is a fandom classic, and I can definitely see why. The author uses language in unexpected and interesting ways, which is not something you see very often in fic.

I tend to go for “popcorn” fics that are addictive and easy to binge. This one is more like a hearty slab of meat. Both types are good in their own way, but this fic made me work for it.

Anyway, I got a bit frustrated with myself around the halfway mark and kept having to reread passages a few times to truly understand what’s going on. I lamented that I needed a reading guide like they used to give you in English class.

After putting it aside for a few days, I came back and DEVOURED the second half. I don’t want to spoil anything, but if you’ve read it, you know what I’m talking about. I loooooved seeing Scully be resourceful and scrappy and capable, and the epilogue is incredible. I’m glad I pushed through!

🪡🌨️ Skamania County by Sarie_Fairy

This is actually the second time I’ve read this one, which I didn’t realize until near the end when I tried to leave kudos, haha. Anyway, I loved it both times! It has everything that makes survival fics so enticing: a nice trip to the woods that quickly goes wrong, one person hiding their life-threatening injury from the other, the intimacy of tending to their wounds, cuddling (naked) for warmth, and finally resolving that UST. Chef’s kiss!

🧙‍♀️🔭 The Mars Differential by @asteraceae-blue

This one is a WIP, and I cannot wait for the rest! It’s an intriguing casefile with plenty of msr.

I also read a bunch of @o6666666’s fics thanks to this masterlist that made its way around recently!

They are the master of writing fic that hurts so good. This IVF arc one might be my favorite, along with this season 9 one that squeezed my heart like a stress ball.

[choco-bite]

First of all this is nsfw blog so i do not want any minors lurking around here. Shooo! You don’t belong here. This blog is not for you.

And people over 18 please put your age in your bio or I’ll block you. I need your age visible when i stalk your blog from reblogs

Hello, myself J (picky for telling my name) 26yo switch leaning dom. Lately I’ve been enjoying posting about being a sub so there’s that. My pronouns are he/him and I’m straight. Do not ask for personal details if we get comfortable I’ll tell you. I’m very much flirtatious so i like to flirt with everyone when i get the chance and the right opportunity. Also I’m a writer. A true hopeless romantic by heart. I’m here to have fun and explore my kinks and meet similar minded people.

Looking for online play partners to play with, flirt with everyday. Hmu if you think our kinks & limits and vibe matches for it <3 idk i want mommy now

Spamming is a love language for me. If i like your blog, I’ll spam you, like your posts a lot and may drop a cute ask.

I may or may not follow you. I would like to follow those who posts their own thoughts here. I’m tired of seeing the same posts over and over through reblogs. So if you’re blog with just reblogs I won’t follow you.

– My kink includes:

Breeding, praise kink, degradation kink, humiliation kink, somno kink, ddlg, mdlb, pregnancy, piss kink, dirty talk, spanking, anal, rimming, orgasm control, orgasm denial, total power exchange, roleplay, adult nursing relationship & more

– my limit includes:

Scat, gore, vomit, sharing, threesomes, foursomes, hardcore stuff, balls kicking, licking shoes, licking floor, toilet stuff will include more later

Title/honorifics I prefer: daddy/dad (when domming)

Title/honorifics i want to call you by: mommy, princess, queen (when subbing)

Petnames i adore: baby, my babyboy, cute boy, little boy, sweetheart, darling, my love, my little prince

Dm is open for anyone right now. I maybe closing or opening as i see fit. I work and sometimes it gets hectic for me to reply. It’s not you just my stupid work. I’m always down to make friends tho. Hit me up anytime <3

Aftercare is everything

Consent is everything

do not kink shame or I’ll block you on site

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reblog if my posts made you cum, twitchy, leaky, creamy

stay safe, stay healthy and be kinky

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[procrastinatingsoicanreadfanfics]

Vikings + gen z slang

Summary: How Vikings Characters would react to Gen Z slang

Notes: back on working on requests, so i hope i can get some more oneshots out soon. happy lunar new year to everyone who celebrates!!

Tagged: @majesticwren @obsessiveformiyatwins @leithdragon @demon-of-the-ancient-world @alicedopey @ivarlover @levithestripper @batmandallyboy @akayxo09 @vrtualfairy (hmu to be added to any taglist!)

Masterlist | based on this request | requests are OPEN!

Ragnar

With the program

He knows that he’s a slay-queen-girlboss-cunt-serving-camp

He understands gen z slang like no other

Rizz? He’s got it. Mister Worldwide? Been there, done that.

Turns into a ninth century (?) twitter queen

Lagertha

She doesn’t really care all that much about gen z slang

“You’re slaying? Me too, but on the battlefield. Catch up.”

Pretends not to understand

Fully understands and sometimes busts down on her gen z meme culture knowledge

Aslaug

Aslaug is above gen z slang

But she also knows that she’s camp

She just knows

She’s a volva, magic is in her blood. You know what else is? An immaculate sense in fashion

That’s the only thing that might make her willing to try to understand our culture

Perfected the lightskin stare the moment she was born (it’s permanently on her face istg)

Athelstan

PLEASE NO

You know that ancient man video? Athelstan is the ancient man. Would he understand the video? No.

This would be his response: God, that girl looks terribly drunk.

As a linguist, he tries

Approaches it as a foreign language. It works to some degree.

I never want to hear the words “You’re serving girlboss today, Ragnar.” Out of his mouth

(this happened to me in a dream. Literally traumatizing)

Bjorn

Thinks it’s girlish (it is not)

Would say “You’re one of them queers?”

I mean yeah, but so is your mom.

Gen z talk isn’t cool enough for him (he’s suffering from Rollo’s internalized generational homophobia/gayness, give him some space)

Ubbe

Like a supportive mom

‘That’s wonderful sweetie. Now back to my casserole.’

Absolutely understands gen z slang after you teach him

Prides himself on having the most rizz

Boy you rizzed up a slave girl and your aunt calm down

Protects gen z slang against ivar like it’s cultural heritage

Hvitserk

Worst mistake you could make is teach him slang

He uses it

Just incorrectly

At all times

And does not care to be corrected.

Slang is a product of pop culture? Hvitserk is now making it HIS product

Deal with it (don’t. make him stfu pls.)

Sigurd

He’s one of those abcdefu people

The ones that are like ‘let me sing my new song for you, and if you don’t like it, I’ll pay for your gas’

So annoying

But also in an indie artist generational trauma daddy issues kind of way, so I can forgive him

Not really

Ivar

HATES gen z slang more than anything

He thinks it’s stupid

Dumb

Dull

Incredibly unintellectual

Secretly uses it to express his feelings in a diary he burns every week

Ecbert

ECBERT MY SILLY LITTLE GASLIGHT GATEKEEP GIRLBOSS

Manwhore and proud!

Get this man a gag asap or you’ll live to regret the day you met him

With him and Ragnar, you’re gonna be stuck in a little hellcircle (probably to be joined by Athelstan)

Gets acrylics despite not knowing what they are and clicks with them

STOP HIM! STOP THIS SILLY LITTLE MAN!

Aethelwulf

Literally the opposite of Ecbert

If he has to spend one more second around his father speaking slang

He’ll cut off his ear to match Judith

And then the other to outdo her (he’s such a loser smh)

So done with Ecbert

He’ll literally hate everything Ecbert likes

[askunington-andcompany]

WELCOME TO UNINGTON!

❝ You don't have to believe every single thought that tumbles through your head, just 'cause it sounds like you talking! Sometimes all you can do is say goodnight and tuck your demons into bed, 'cause they're not worth fighting! ❞ - TURN OUT THE LIGHTS, THE CRANE WIVES, 2016

Hi there! Or, as we say in Unington, howdy-doodle! Welcome to the corner of the net where you can find anything and everything to do with the town of Unington! This blog is run by 6 5 people, and we have 2 admins! So, without further ado, let's introduce our lovely little blog's showrunners, along with our admins!

KEL CLOVER ! - 17 | SHE/HER

Hi there! Name's Kel, but my friends call me Kelsey! If you want, you can too! But not Kelly. Never Kelly. I like cats, producing music, and my favorite food is a nice cup of coffee paired with a nice hot bun from The Suave Cafe (or Peggy's, as us locals call it :> )!

my text will look like this!

YASHIRO NENE ! - 17 | SHE/HER

AAA HI EVERYONE !!! I'm Yashiro Nene, but you can call me Yash!! :D Some things abt me!! I like my friends (love you nerds >:] <3), strawberry rice cake, fishies, boys (ignore that, that was cringy :P ), romance novels, disney movies, the occult (somewhat, i'n not toooo into it, but it's fun!) annnnd thats it! I'm suuuper happy to be here! :]

my text will look like this!

MITSUBA SOSUKE ! - 16 | HE/HIM

Hey, losers everyone. I'm Mitsuba, and no, you cannot call me Mitsu like my friends. It's Mitsuba. You hear me? Mit-su-ba. I'm the designated pink guy of the blog (NOT YOU YASH STOP TRYING TO STEAL MY COLOR ISTG IM ABOUT TO WWE GRAND SLAM YOU), and the 'group asshole'. I take that title with pride. Things I like...uh, my friends, begrudgingly, the buns + anything sweet from Peggy's, photography, oversized shit, and...yeah, thats it.

my text will look like this.

KOU MINAMOTO ! - 16 | HE/HIM

Hi! I'm Kou!! My name's too short so I don't get a nickname rip 😞🙏‼️ (Technically they all call me ed sheeran because I'm GINGER but thats MEAN so don't call me that) I'm an exorcist (please do not ask me to prove this I suck ASS at it), and some things about me: I like baking, exorcising ghosts (WHEN I CAN DO IT IM SO BAD AT IT GUYS ITS HONESTLY UNFUNNY), taking care of the house and my friends and family (even if they call me a housewife, i still love you stinkers), and my friends! :]

my text will look like this!

AMANE "HANAKO" YUGI ! - 17 | HE/HIM

Wsp! Hanako here, do NOT call me Amane, I will shove my foot. up your ass. You can call me Hana tho! That is allowed!! Nywho, things about me. I like donuts (ESP FROM THE SUAVE CAFE PEGGY IF UR READING THIS PLEASE STOP REJECTING MY APPLICATION I SWEAR I WONT STEAL ALL THE DONUTS AGAIN I SWEAR I SWEAR), the ladieeeees ;] (and men i swing both ways hmu ;]) [MOD EDIT: Nobody hit Hana up. Please. You'll give him an ego. ~ MOD M], ghosts n spooky shit like that, helping ppl out (yeah ik im "☝️🤓"), animals, my friends, and having fun! I'm a cool dude. I think. [MOD EDIT: Due to the other 4's request, I would like to state that no, Hana. You are not as cool as you think you are. ~ MOD M]

my text will look like this!

MOD TEAM!

here, we would like to highlight our two amazing mods who're helping with the blog!

BENDY ! - "NOT TELLING!" | HE/HIM

Howdy! Name's Bendy! You probably know my face from your childhood, haha! Anyways, I'm a father of one, unhappily married, I like the arts, the burgers from Peggy's, and moneyyyyyy >:] That's all, folks!

my text will look like this! my mod edits will be signed off with '~ MOD B'!

MONIKA SALVATO ! - 37 | SHE/HER

Hi! I'm Monika, but you can call me 'Mon', if it's easier! I run a club with me and my four best friends (Sayori, Yuri, Natsuki, and MC! Love y'all :] ) called the literature club! It's fun. Anywho, I like coding, baking, piano, valentines day, and the color emerald green! (P.S. Thanks, Kel, for letting me use it :] ) I'm a mother, and a wife, sadly. I'm so happy to meet you all!

my text will look like this! my mod edits will be signed off with '~ MOD M'!

Whoo-wee! That was a lot of people! Welp, at least you got to meet us all! Well, we're all so excited to be here, and thank you for stopping by! See you all soon!

~ The Unington Crew

KAI DREW - IN LOVING MEMORY

Kai Drew was Unington's shining star, a singer, a daughter, a sister, and a friend to all. She was 17 years old, and a firecracker to boot. Nothing could keep her down.

Also, she's not dead.

She just left to go on tour in this town called Hatchetfield and we really miss her.

Girl

Come back girl we miss you :[

TAGGING SYSTEM:

#kelsey speaks - Kel's tag for posts! #yash's yaps - Yash's tag for posts! #mitsu contributes - Mitsu's tag for posts! #hana says shit - Hana's tag for posts! #kouposting - Kou's tag for posts! #mod b: back from the dead - Bendy's tag for posts! #mod m's quotes - Monika's tag for posts! #ask and ye shall receive - Tag for posts where asks get answered! the proper tags for which character is speaking will be added!

[kazoosandfannypacks]

"Window Seat" by kazoosandfannypacks

Pairing: Captain Swan Rating: General Word Count: 3K Summary: Emma's son, Henry, befriends the man sitting next to them on an airplane- and Emma is impressed by how well the stranger bonds with him. Tags: au, fluff, captain swan, one shot, captain cobra swan Author’s notes: I've always loved interacting with children. They speak genuinely, they love life, and they ask questions that aren't (usually) too hard to answer. When I was flying back from my last vacation, I sat next to a four year old girl who was an absolute delight to talk with. (She once had a dream about zombie turtles! She invited me to play with her dollhouse sometime! She said the Obi-Wan keychain on my backpack looked like a monkey!) By the end of the flight, even though I'm six times her age, we considered each other friends. This fic is inspired by kids like her. Taglist:@zahara@kmomof4@jonesfandomfanatic@booksteaandtoomuchtv@jrob64@tiganasummertree@anmylica@teamhook@undercaffinatednightmare@gingerchangeling@lonelyspectator@caught-in-the-filter  @ultraluckycatnd  @cs-rylie @silver-the-phoenix @pawshapedheart  [if you’d like to be added to or removed from this list, hmu in my dms or askbox!]

Also on Ao3!

 Emma held her son's hand firmly as she walked to the back of the plane, trying to find their seat numbers. Navigating an airport was hard enough as is, but bringing a four year old boy with you makes it even more difficult, especially when you're managing him on your own.

 Fortunately, though it hardly felt that way, Emma was used to taking care of her son by herself.

 "Are we almost there?" Henry asked.

 "Our seat numbers are 83D and 83E," Emma said, "And here's number 80, 81," she counted and pointed them out to her son, "82, 83."

 "That's us!" Henry said.

 "Yup," Emma said, "your seat's the middle one in this row."

 She helped Henry take off his backpack and put it under the seat in front of him, then they both took their seats as Henry, in spite of being warned many times about strangers, introduced himself to the passenger next to him.

 "Hello!" Henry said.

 "Hello there," the man said, "looks like we're traveling buddies today."

 Emma had been distracted by switching her phone into airplane mode, but when she heard the stranger's accent, she looked up to see if his appearance was just as attractive- and was delighted to find that it was.

 "Have you ever been on an airplane before?" Henry asked him.

 "Quite a few times," he said.

 "Are you going to grampa's birthday party too?" Henry asked.

 "I'm afraid not," he shook his head.

 "Why not?"

 "Well for one thing, I wasn't invited," the stranger gave a good natured smile, "and another, I've never met your grampa."

 "My mom and I can introduce you!" Henry said, pointing at Emma, "and you can come with us."

 "Henry," Emma interrupted, "let's buckle your seatbelt, okay? And don't pester this nice man with so many questions; he probably wants to just take a nice, quiet flight to Maine."

 The reason Emma wanted Henry to keep quiet wasn't solely out of decency towards the other traveler, and it wasn't of a motherly caution about strangers either. She'd be lying to herself if she said it wasn't borne of not wanting to annoy one of the cutest strangers she'd ever met.

 "It's no trouble, really," he said, "I've never minded children; I was a camp counselor for quite a few years in my younger days."

 "Henry'll talk your ear off if you let him," Emma ruffled her son's hair before adjusting his seatbelt.

 "I don't take people's ears off!" Henry protested.

 "It's one of those expressions," Emma explained, "it means you talk a lot."

 "Oh yeah," Henry said, then turned back to the stranger, "are you friends with my mom?" The man looked up at Emma and smiled, his eyes a deep and overwhelming blue.

 "I don't know. I haven't met her yet," he said, not taking his eyes off her, "but maybe by the end of the flight we will be."

 "I'm Henry," Henry piped up.

 The stranger looked back down at Henry and held a hand out to him. "Pleasure to meet you Henry," he said, "my name's Killian."

 "I'm Emma," Emma said.

 "What a lovely name," Killian smiled.

 "Okay, so he's a bit of a flirt," Emma thought, though she didn't stop herself from smiling at his compliment.

 "Have you ever been on an airplane before, Henry?" Killian asked.

 "Nope!" Henry said.

 "Are you excited for your first flight?"

 "Yeah!" Henry said.

 Just then, the stewardess' voice came over the plane's speakers.

 "Okay Henry," Emma whispered, "we have to be quiet now, okay?"

 "Okay," Henry said.

 He tried his best to sit quietly, but four minutes is an eternity when you're only four years old. Every now and then he'd start to ask a question, and Emma would remind him to be quiet- and once or twice he tried to ask Killian something, which led to a similar gentle reminder to be quiet.

 Soon, they were allowed to talk again, and the plane began down the runway. Emma pulled a pack of gum out of her jacket pocket.

 "Here, buddy," Emma handed Henry a stick of gum, "remember what I told you?" "That my ears will pop off if I don't eat it?" Henry asked, already putting the candy in his mouth.

 "No, they'll pop," Emma corrected, "but the gum will help keep that from happening."

 She took a stick of gum for herself, then held the package out to Killian. "Would you like one?" she offered.

 "Thank you," he smiled, taking a stick of gum from the pack, "I certainly would hate for my ears to pop off."

 Emma giggled a little- only half a giggle, almost more like an annoyed sigh, but a giggle nonetheless, and a smile along with it.

 Henry was looking past Killian out the window, watching the runway as they drove across it.

 "Why are we still on the ground?" Henry asked.

 "It's like flying a kite," Killian answered, "you have to have a lot of room to run, so the kite is already moving fast before you let go of it, and then it gets into the air. The plane has to run really fast too."

 "Cool!" Henry said.

 They neared the end of the runway.

 "Here we go," Killian said.

 Henry let out a little squeal as the plane turned its nose up, and up they went. He looked up at his mom, and then at Killian, and then laughed a little.

 "We're really high now!" Henry said.

 "Indeed," Killian said, "look at the clouds!"

 Emma looked out the window as well at the clouds, which were now next to, then below them.

 Soon, the plane stabilized, and the stewardess announced they were free to roam about the cabin, if needed.

 Henry continued asking Killian question after question, probably more questions than the stranger was in a mood to answer.

 Emma pulled out her phone and opened Disney+, where she'd downloaded a few movies for Henry to watch on the plane.

 "Here, kid," she handed Henry her phone, then grabbed his backpack to get his headphones out, "do you wanna pick a movie to watch?"

 He looked at the downloaded titles- Treasure Planet, Peter Pan, Aladdin, and a few Lego Star Wars specials, before selecting Peter Pan.

 "That's an excellent choice," Killian said.

 "It's my favorite movie!" Henry said, as Emma put his headphones on his head.

 "It's one of my favorites too," Killian said.

 "Henry's been going through a bit of a pirate phase recently," Emma said.

 "Ah," Killian nodded, "I take it you've watched Peter Pan a few too many times recently, then?"

 "The things we do for our kids," Emma said, as Henry tried to lay down in his seat, resting his head in his mom's lap, incidentally kicking Killian.

 "Here, move your feet, Henry," Emma said, trying to move her son's sneakers off Killian's pants.

 "That's alright," Killian said, "I really don't mind."

 Emma gave up the losing battle of keeping Henry's feet to himself.

 "Do you have any kids of your own?" Emma asked.

 "Oh, no," Killian half laughed, "but I remember what it was like to be a kid. I was a rather talkative lad myself, much like your boy."

 Emma wrapped her arm around her son. "He's a pretty special kid," she said.

 "His parents are very lucky to have him," Killian said.

 Emma shook her head, "One of us certainly is."

 Killian raised her an inquisitive eyebrow. "His father's not in the picture?"

 "In the picture?" Emma rolled her eyes, "I wouldn't even say he's in the same gallery. He walked out before Henry even got to know him."

 "Well, he's missing out on a charming family," Killian said, "from what I've seen, you've raised a great son."

 "Thanks," Emma smiled, "I try my best."

 "Well, if you ask me, you're doing great," Killian said, "it can be hard to raise a kid on your own."

 Emma wrinkled her brow. "What do you know about raising kids?" 

 "I was on the other end of the equation," Killian said, "my mom raised three boys herself. My dad has been out of the picture since just before my little brother was born."

 "From what I've seen, your mom raised a pretty good kid," Emma said.

 "I try to be- my older brother was always the best of us though." Killian said, seeming a touch saddened, "he practically helped raise us. In my father's absence, he was the one who showed me how to be the man I am today."

 "I'd say he did a pretty great job at it," Emma said.

 "Indeed," Killian said, "I wish I'd told him that more."

 Emma wasn't sure why that question was so solemn, or why it was past tense, and was unsure how to ask what he meant, so she waited for him to follow it up.

 "He passed away this past week," Killian said, "that's why I'm on my way to Portland."

 "I'm so sorry," Emma shook her head, unsure how one could even begin to cope with that loss- if anything happened to one of her siblings, she'd be devastated.

 "Thank you," he said.

 "How're you holding up?" Emma asked.

 "As well as I can be," Killian shook his head with a sigh, "it's a weird feeling, really. He's just always been there, and now… now he's not. I used to say I didn't know what I'd do without him, and now- now I get to figure it out."

 "I'm so sorry," Emma said, "I can't imagine what this must be like for you."

 "I'm getting by," he said, "that's how you have to make it in this world, isn't it?"

 "You got that right," Emma said.

 "And being distracted from it helps," Killian said, "which is why I was delighted to have a seat next to your charming little chatterbox."

 Emma looked down at Henry, who had fallen asleep before the characters in his movie even made it to Neverland.

 "Seems the lad's a bit tuckered out," Killian said.

 "After the TSA line we went through and waiting two hours in a terminal at seven a.m.?" Emma asked, "I'm surprised I'm not 'tuckered out' myself."

 "Me too," Killian said.

 "He sure is excited to get to meet his grandparents," Emma said, stroking her son's hair a few times.

 "He hasn't met them before?" Killian asked.

 "We've called them once or twice, had a few video chats," Emma said, "but the trip from Tallahassee to Maine isn't one I can shell out very often. My dad insisted on seeing his grandson this weekend though- it's the only thing he wanted for his birthday, to have the whole family together."

 "How precious," Killian said, "your folks must be so excited."

 "It's all my parents have been able to talk about for the last year," Emma said, "my brother and sister both still live in the area, and they said Dad's more excited than they've seen him in years."

 "Does all your family live in Maine?" Killian asked.

 "Pretty much," Emma said.

 "Then what brought you to Tallahassee?"

 "Doesn't matter anymore," Emma said, "because I didn't find it."

 "Then why are you still there?"

 "I've never been one to stick around the same place too long," Emma said, "but that's no life for Henry. He needs roots."

 "I see," Killian said.

 "I take it your story's not much different," Emma suggested.

 "What do you mean by that?" he asked.

 "You're flying all the way from Tallahassee to Portland for a funeral," Emma said, "what's keeping you down there? Job? Friends? Girlfriend?"

 She hoped it wasn't the last one.

 He smiled, "Don't have a girlfriend, and friends are few and far between. I do quite enjoy the weather down south though, as well as my job."

 "What do you do?" Emma asked.

 "Captain of an authentic tallship," Killian said, "The Rolly Joger, a magnificent vessel- one of those little three-hour tour tourist traps."

 "Oh, that's so fun," Emma said, "Kind of like a real pirate." She patted her son's head, watching on the phone screen in front of him as Captain Hook's crew sang a little shanty.

 "Aye," he smiled, "once or twice she's even been booked for 'pirate parties,' where the kids all come dressed as pirates."

 "Oh, that sounds so fun," Emma said, "I wonder if Henry might like something like that for his birthday in a couple months. He's never been on a boat before either."

 "Well, you're always welcome onboard The Rolly Joger," Killian said.

 "We might just take you up on that," Emma smiled.

 "And what did you say do you do for a living?" Killian asked.

 "I work for Yellow Bug Bail Bonds," Emma said, "apprehending people who skip bail."

 "Like a modern day bounty hunter?" Killian asked.

 Emma laughed, "something like that."

 "That sounds exciting," Killian said.

 "It pays the bills," Emma said.

 She wasn't sure what to say, and apparently he wasn't either, as they were both quiet for a bit.

 Eventually, Emma pulled a book out of her carry on, not about to take her phone from Henry and risk waking him, but also not about to sit there doing nothing for the next few hours.

 "What are you reading?" Killian asked.

 "Oh, it's a book one of my friends is writing," Emma said, "he asked me to read through and give some feedback."

 "What an honor," Killian said, "what's it about?"

 "Some kind of historical fiction," Emma said, "fairy tale characters in the American Revolution, or something like that. I'm only a couple chapters in."

 "Sounds interesting," Killian said, "I'll, uh, leave you to it." 

 "Alright," Emma said.

 And even as she got lost in the world in her book, she found herself glancing more than a handful of times at Killian.

 A couple hours later, Henry woke up, and after a "good morning, sleepyhead" from both Killian and Emma, she restarted his movie for him- and this time he watched without falling asleep. Emma continued reading her book, engrossed in the character developments her friend August had intricately woven into his story.

 "Oh, Henry," Killian said, tapping him on the shoulder to get his attention, "look at that view. You can see the plane's shadow on the clouds beneath us."

 Henry took off his headphones and looked out the window.

 "Woah!" Henry said, loud enough that Emma looked over as well- and she did so to see Henry throwing her phone and his headphones on the floor.

 "Henry!" Emma said, reaching over to pick them up off the floor- which was difficult, with her seatbelt still buckled.

 Apparently, Emma wasn't the only one who had a problem with seatbelts, because she looked back up to see Henry had unfastened his, and was now climbing onto Kilian's lap to get a better view out the window.

 She was about to stop him, but she was taken aback by how Killian responded- after an initial second of confusion, he put a hand on Henry's shoulder in case of unexpected turbulence, then pointed out the shadow of the plane, and a few other notable clouds next to them, talking with the boy like he wasn't an outgoing child who'd just overstepped his bounds, but almost like an equal, one who'd done nothing wrong as well.

 Something about the scene, and how the boys interacted, looked to Emma like something out of a storybook, or like the picture you'd find in the dictionary if you looked up the word "father."

 Then, Killian helped Henry off his knee and back into his own seat, and rebuckled him, reminding him that while the plane was in the air, it was probably a good idea to keep your seatbelt on and stay in your own seat.

 "I am so sorry about that," Emma said, then put a hand on Henry's shoulder, "Henry, you need to respect other people's space."

 "No worries, Emma," Killian said, "it's the price of having a window seat, I suppose."

 He didn't seem at all as embarrassed or annoyed with the entire ordeal as Emma was- and he then turned to Henry and added, "but not all strangers like it when other people get too close to them, Henry. It's a good idea to keep your distance from strangers."

 "But you're not a stranger anymore!" Henry insisted, "I think you're my friend."

 "Aye," Killian smiled, "I suppose I am."

 "If you come to my house sometime," Henry said, "you can play in my fort with me. I can show you my Legos too!"

 "If I ever do come to your house," Killian said, slowly, his words carefully selected, "I'd love to see your Lego sets."

 "I just got a really cool Star Wars set," Henry said, "it has Luke Skywalker, and his X-Wing, and Artoo Detoo!"

 "That sounds awesome, Henry," he said, "I hope I get to see it someday."

 "Oh yeah," Henry said, "It's really cool."

 "You know, I had some pretty cool Lego Star Wars sets back in the day too," Killian said.

 "Really?"

 "Oh yeah." Killian said, "I had this one set…"

 As Emma watched Killian and her son talk about Lego Star Wars sets, she put away Henry's headphones and swiped out of the movie on her phone, sensing Henry might be entertained for the rest of the flight with his new friend.

 Henry wasn't the only one entertained by Killian, though Emma's interest in him was for an entirely different reason.

 Henry's father had left shortly after Emma's pregnancy, not ready for the commitment of raising a family. After that, Emma had decided that all she needed was herself and her son. Between finding her job and raising her son, she hadn't had time for a boyfriend anyways, at least that's the excuse she used when her friends asked why she'd never gotten back out there.

 But deep down, Emma knew part of the reason she'd stayed single was Henry- any boyfriend for her was a potential father for Henry, and as rare as it was for her to find a date, it was harder to find a date who was comfortable with kids- and soon she gave up on dates altogether.

 She and Henry had always been content just to have each other- but as she watched her son talk with this man about Star Wars, Legos, and pirates together, she realized how much both she and her son would benefit from a guy like him in their life.

 As they walked off the plane, Emma and Henry stayed close to Killian, Henry still chatting away with him the whole time.

 "Alright, Henry," Emma said, once they got back into the terminal, "I think it's time to say goodbye to Killian."

 "Already?" Henry asked.

 "I'm afraid so," Emma said.

 Killian got down on his knees at Henry's eye level.

 "It was a pleasure flying with you, Henry," Killian said, "I hope I see you again sometime."

 "Me too!" Henry said.

 Killian held out his hand to shake hands with Henry, but instead Henry ran to his arms and gave him a hug. Killian looked up at Emma for her approval, and she nodded, so he returned Henry's hug.

 Once Killian stood back up, he held a hand out shake with Emma, and she half desired to respond the same way her son had. Instead, she took his hand and shook it.

 "It was a pleasure meeting you, Killian," Emma said.

 "The pleasure was mine, milady," he said, and he then brought her hand to his lips and kissed it.

 "I didn't know you were so old fashioned," Emma said, in a voice that said that wasn't a problem at all.

 "I hope to see you again sometime?" he asked, letting go of your hand.

 "Yeah," Emma smiled.

 "Will you wanna come to my grampa's birthday party?" Henry interrupted.

 Killian and Emma's eyes met, like the meeting between old friends.

 "I don't believe I've been formally invited," Killian said, more like a question than an answer.

 "I could send you the details," Emma nodded, "if I had your number."

 "Yeah," Killian said, "I might be able to find time, uh, here."

 He handed her his phone, open to the contacts app. Emma quickly typed in her phone number and handed it back to him, and she handed him her phone too.

 "I'll text you later," she said, their fingers brushing against each other as she took her phone back from him.

 "Aye," he said, "Can't wait."

 "I'm really glad to have met you." Emma said.

 "Me too," Killian said.

 "Me too!" Henry said, "See you soon!"

 Emma took Henry's hand again, glancing back at Killian quite a few times as they headed their separate ways.

 "Mommy?" Henry asked.

 "Yeah?"

 "Are you and Killian friends now?"

 "Yeah, kid," Emma said, a smile spreading across her face, "I think we are."

[badblondebisexualboy]

Brother

Platonic!Winchester!Brothers x Teen!Male!Reader (Supernatural)

Abbreviations:

Y/N: Your Name

'Thoughts'

Actions

Warnings: mean Dean?, OOC characters?, fear of abandonment, misunderstandings, probable misinformation, messed up timeline? Hmu if I missed anything.

Dialogue Prompt: “You’re fine. (We’re) I’m taking you home”

Requested by: no one

A/N: this feels rushed. The ending is bad, the apology is shitty, and overall I feel I could do better. Give me some ideas and constructive criticism.

Song Suggestion

3rd Person POV

Y/N: Come on guys... you can't keep me here forever just because I’m your little brother. Please let me out. I wanna go on adventures with my big bros too...

Dean: No it's dangerous.

Sam: You could get hurt, and we don't want dad up our ass about it.

Dean: stern Sam... Anyways, Y/N, I feel like you'll just be a burden on us during the hunts. you don't know how to handle yourself, you don't know how to fight, you've never taken a hit, nor did you ever care to listen to dad's instructions when he was telling you why this is dangerous. so no. you won't be coming with us. And Sam, we have to go.

Sam: That was harsh dean.

Dean: he wouldn't listen otherwise

they walk out, leaving Y/N alone in the trailer Y/N: speechless

Y/N: g-guys but I-

The door was shut

Y/N: sigh so this is what he thinks of me… a burden…

half hearted chuckle Y/N just goes to the kitchen, prepares food for the boys, and goes to sleep. After the hunt, sounds of things falling to the floor Y/N jolts awake

Y/N: w-who's there??

Sam: it's us. Don’t worry.

Y/N runs downstairs to check up on them

Y/N: holy sh- guys, sit down I'll get the first aid

Y/N first patches up Sam and then goes to Dean

Y/N: Sam, your food is in the fridge, eat it.

Y/N sits in front of dean, and starts cleaning his cuts

Dean: Ow careful!

Y/N: flinch sorry… finishes with aiding your food is also in the fridge.

Dean: ……

Y/N: do you hear me Dean? make sure you eat ok?

Dean just nods

Y/N: 'so now he won't even answer me... great' sighs and goes back to his room.

Author POV

For the first time in a long time, Y/N cried himself to sleep. He thought he found a family, but maybe his mother was right… maybe she was just a fling to John Winchester, and maybe Y/N was just an unwanted kid… and maybe that’s the reason Dean hated him, because his father cheated on his mother with Y/N’s… maybe Sam was just sympathizing with him… maybe Sam hated him too… he slipped into sleep with these thoughts in mind. But it didn’t take long for him to wake up because he heard thump. A grave mistake he did was to peek out the door. He saw some kind of a creature dragging Sam down the stairs. And with the new found courage, he ran and jumped on its back. The creature picked him up, and knocked him out. Before blacking out though, he had the energy to yell out his eldest brother’s name, “DEAANNN!!”

Y/N POV

The next thing I remember was waking up in a dimly lit room

Chuckle.

Startled by the chuckle, he yelled out into the darkness, “W-who’s there??” an equally startled Sam replied, “Y/N!!? what are you doing here??” “S-Sam! Are you okay??” Sam hesitantly replied, “yes… how did you end up here?” “I saw that thing taking you and jumped it… maybe it took me too” a new voice jumped into the conversation, “well well… if it isn’t for the younger Winchester and that rat of a brother” I knew who they were referring to, but chose to keep quiet. The stranger continued, “heard your mom died before sending you to her cheater husband, Y/N?” that made my blood boil, but it was the truth nonetheless. “Fine, if I don’t get any reply, I shall get started, separate them.” Someone came and took Sam somewhere. I was scared, I didn’t know what they were gonna do to both of us. My train of thought was cut short when they blindfolded me… oh shit. Here we go. “Don’t worry kid, we won’t touch you. You were an unexpected catch. We plan on talking.” That gave me a false sense of security. Upon not hearing anything from me, the stranger continued, “the hunter community heard a lot about you, kid. The outcome of a fling of John Winchester and Amanda Collins, was it?” my mom’s name piqued my interest. “M-my mom… how do you know her?.” Feeling accomplished with himself on making me talk, he just chuckled, “most of the hunter community knows, the word spreads quick around here kid. And how is it going with your brothers? Heard your old man passed recently, my condolences by the way” he knew way too much about everything going on… it put me on edge. “how do you know about all of this, are you a hunter too? If so why did you take Sam? What did they do to you??” “Okay okay kid, you’re talking too much. Let me…” he gags me!! I mumble incoherent words. “now kiddo, just listen to me. You are just a side quest in this for us. You weren’t even supposed to be here, but now that you are, we have to figure out what we’ll do with you. So shut the fuck up and stay where you are.” and he left. For what felt like hours, I stayed there. in the dimly lit, quiet, creepy room.

Timeskip, few hours

It felt agonizing. I had all sorts of thoughts running through my mind. It physically exhausted me. I felt hopeless… was Dean ever gonna come for me..? did he take Sam and leave already?? Does he know I’m here? Does he care? I mean he did call me a burden.. maybe it is better if he leaves me here. I wouldn’t have to be-

SLAM

The door slammed open, I could hear hurried footsteps, and soon my gag and blindfold was off. “You’re fine. We’re taking you home” and before I could process anything, I blacked out…

Time skip back home

My eyes fluttered open, and I was back in my bedroom. Was it all a dream? After a while of just laying in my bed, I walked out to the kitchen. I could hear… arguing?

Sam: “he only went to save me Dean! You can’t scold him for that. Come on man… he’s still a kid…”

Dean: “there are other ways to save someone Sam. Not recklessly going after an unknown entity. We already have enough stuff to deal with. We don’t need him becoming one. And you have to stop being on his side. This will only make him more irresponsible. Now go back to your room and let me go talk to that brat.”

Sam: “But-”

Dean: “no more of that Sam! Get back to your room.”

My breath quickened as I realized Dean was going to check for me in my room. I didn’t wanna get onto his bad side than I already was, so I ran back to my bed and faked sleeping.

Dean: “Y/N, get up. We need to talk.” I was scared, but got up nonetheless.

Y/N: “y-yes dean?”

Dean: “We need to talk about why the hell you did what you did.”

Y/N: “I… I also want to talk to you Dean.” Dean: “sure you go ahead first then”

Y/N: “What is your problem with me?”

Dean: “Sorry?"

Y/N: “why do you hate me? what did I do to you??”

Dean: “I do not hate you. And you did nothing to me. where’s this coming from?”

Y/N: “all those times you pushed me aside, talked to me like I was a rag, all those times you did not consider my feelings… even today in the morning and just a few minutes ago…”

Dean: “…I”

Y/N: “do you hate me because I’m not your own brother? Or do you hate me because dad… cheated on your mom with mine”

Dean: “that’s enough! I do not.. hate you. Yes, I had a strong dislike towards you… but now I don’t even have that. I’m worried. I never took care of a 16 year old… Sam left for college when he was 16… and I never knew how to do it. You just got left with us… and then dad… sigh I’m sorry if I gave you the impression that I hate you. I do not. I… I see a younger Sam in you… that’s why I’m scared. Whatever happens to you is my responsibility.”

Y/N: “…You do not have to do it alone. I and Sam are always with you. You don’t always have to know what to do.”

Dean: “I’m sorry… can you forgive me?”

Y/N: “it will take time, but I’m sure I will. For now, let’s go eat something… together…”

Sam: “I already ordered take out, let’s watch something?.”

Y/N: “race me to the TV?”

We sprinted out of the room, laughing and trying to trip each other. This felt like home… it felt nice.

~ X THE-END X ~

[sparrow-in-the-field]

Writer's Tag Game

Tagged by @strangethings-everywhere !! Thanks Anna!

Rules: Answer some or all of the questions below. Tag your fellow writers. Enjoy!

Link to your masterlist: I don't have a masterlist but here is my ao3! Not gonna bother linking my other ao3 account but if you ever want some BTS content just hmu and I got you lol.

Favorite and least favorite genres to write (angst/smut/fluff, etc): Favorite is for sure some hurt/comfort! Least favorite is any angst that doesn't have a happy ending, I just can't do it lol.

Favorite characters to write for? That's a hard question! I enjoy writing both Bobby and Don, it's hard to choose which I prefer lol; I've really been loving writing Bobby in The Cormorant though so maybe I'll say him. And Chuck Day! I looove writing Chuck, he was such a pleasant surprise when I wrote So Far So Good.

Which one of your works is your favorite? How am I supposed to pick one of my babies?? Lol. I mean, The Cormorant is so incredibly special and dear to me, I think that one will be my favorite for a long time even once it's finished. Out of my completed works, though, a kind of dark horse favorite is The Inherent Value of Warmth and Breath. I wrote that one soooo spontaneously but it turned out so well! I think it has a great balance of action and romance for just a little one shot.

Which one of your works is more popular than you thought it would be? It honestly still blows my mind that The Quiet Act of Loving Someone is the top kudos'ed fic in tbitb tag on ao3 (it just passed 200 kudos btw!! thanks for all the love! <3). Like I never thought something like that would happen with my fics.

Which one of your works is less popular than you thought it would be? So Far So Good my beloved!! I maybe went into it with too high expectations, because people had really loved Shy Boy, so I thought more people would be excited for a sequel. But alas, I guess Chuck/Roger isn't quite as popular. It still got some very nice love though, so I really can't complain!

Which one of your fics was hardest to write? Why? The Cormorant is definitely the hardest to write, but in a super rewarding way. There are just a lot of moving pieces (literally, with Bobby traveling lolol), and figuring out the timing of the month counting down, along with the balance of present day scenes, flashbacks, and dreams with Jack, it takes a lot of consideration for like, structure and organization. And then just thematically, it's very heavy and emotional to write. Which I love, it's so cathartic, but tbh sometimes I have to take breaks and think happy thoughts lol (such as post-fic fluff ideas for Bobby and Don hehe).

What is your favorite fanfic by someone else? Omg okay I'm limiting myself to three (and I'll try not to gush too much lol) but as Anna said there are so many amazing fics in our little fandom!! A huge favorite of mine is Someone Like You (I'm Ready) by teaforone ( @teaforarteza ) on ao3. This fic had me in an absolute chokehold and I still think about it to this day; the messy start, the stakes, the love confessions, the smut?? People died (me). It was also the first fic I read that emphasized Chuck and Bobby's friendship, which was eye opening. Next, I can't talk about fav fics without mentioning salix's (@seasidesandstarscapes )hockey au, Right in the Numbers!! Talk about messy lol, I was screaming at Don throughout this whole fic, and I fell in love with cam boy Bobby! Lastly, and most recently, I was so incredibly taken by effervescentyellow's (@effervescentyellow ) fic As Beautiful As You. It almost made me cry! There's just this overwhelming sense of warmth and acceptance and love, it feels like being wrapped in a cozy blanket and being told everything is going to be okay. It's so amazing.

Tags: umm I guess since I mentioned them above, I'll tag @effervescentyellow !

[bisluthq]

I 100% agree with everything you said about the harm that comes from denying these procedures!! I was one of those teenagers who didn’t understand why my face and body didn’t look like the 30 year old playing a teenager on a tv show, and it only got worse as I got older UNTIL I knew all the work they’d had.

As a teen the best thing for me was this beauty campaign that was done by some trashy magazine where they got a bunch of famous women and did a big photo shoot together. Then they showed the difference in the women with how they came in (no makeup, no hair extensions, no blow out, etc), how they looked after x many hours in the HMU chair + the cost of the clothes and that they were altered to fit their bodies… then they showed the final version that goes to print and said how much photo shopping had been done. It was seriously enlightening and helpful. At the time I used to get a lot of compliments on my hair - I was just lucky and used cheap shampoo but had thick and glossy long hair, never had it coloured and my mum cut it for me lol, so like budget maintenance right. But it fucked with my head as a teenager that I was always being told how great my hair was but when I styled it, it NEVER looked as good as the starlets I was copying (many reasons including not knowing what I was doing and lack of products) but then I found out THEY ALL HAD EXTENSIONS for thickness! Mindy kaling mentioned in one of her books that trying to look like someone on tv is impossible because everyone has false lashes, extensions and so much more “natural looking” stuff even before they get into styling.

I do have a lot of body image issues still, but it’s so much better when I’m wondering why I don’t look as toned? Oh because they also spray tan and body contour their muscles!

Why can’t I pull off this hair style? Oh right I don’t have twice the thickness in extensions!

Etc etc etc

And then some people are like ‘what? YOU THOUGHT IT WAS NATURAL?!?’ But in a really derogatory way when people say they have body image issues. But until you know every part of their body has been touched up, WHAT ELSE WOULD YOU THINK?!!

Now I just assume most famous people have something and have gotten better at not comparing myself to them and generally recognising when people have had work done. But even my sister I’m pretty sure got some wonky fillers and says she hasn’t had anything (where I live it’s not unheard of or shocking, but definitely not common to get fillers or Botox)

I mean most women I’m friends with AND my sister get fillers and Botox. I haven’t ever and I don’t want to right now but I might when I’m older for maintenance more than anything else? I’m not crazy pretty at all but I’m happy with my face and the things I’d like to change (my nose for example I don’t like and my lips aren’t even - the bottom one is thicker than the top and obviously that’d be nice to fix) would change my face too dramatically imo and I wouldn’t be willing to do that just personally because I don’t think I’d like to wake up and see a different face lol? I’m okay with my face. I do want it to stay this way for as long as possible but besides that eh it is what it is. My friends and I discuss work a lot idk because as I say basically everyone has had some done. A lot of the guys in my social circle also do work tbf. Quite a few guys have had hair transplants for example. A few have started Botox. My bf is VERY classically handsome and actually hasn’t done any of that but more because he’s worried like once he starts he’s gonna get very obsessive about it and try look 22 again and obviously he isn’t lol. He does gym a lot and plays sportz but face wise he’s not as into doing things as a lot of our other friends.

I think talking about this stuff is really healthy?? Because yes as you say, so many teenage girls (and teenage boys) don’t know that what they’re looking at is totally unrealistic. No matter what they do, unless they start spending money, they’re not going to look like that.

I’m also huge on celebs being honest about diet and gym lmao because unless you work VERY hard, you won’t look like that. Which is fine and normal and if you want to look a certain way, that’s what most people will have to do to join u, but don’t be like “oh I eat anything I want” when you clearly fucking don’t.

And I don’t think it’s stupid teenage you believed this was just normal nice makeup and pretty hairstyles and a healthy lifestyle because no one really talked about all this stuff.

[4ragon]

hiya, i saw the prompt list and I don't know if you wanted only romantic pairs (feel free to disregard this ask if it's only romantic), but I thought the last one, about making excuses to bail each other out would be interesting for young klavier and kristoph. the prompt felt really sibling-y to me :Dd think its fun to think about what it mustve been like for them growing up haha

Hmm, I mean, I had been thinking specifically romantic stuff when I reblogged it, but I’m certainly not against writing a platonic pairing! So, uh, sure!

For a few moments, all Kristoph could do was blink down at the phone in his hands. It was a simple text, all things considered.

Klavier

👋 🤏 🎉 🤚 🍺 😭 👏 🖖 👌 ✌️ 👍

“...What is this…?” he muttered to himself, all too aware of exactly what he was looking at. He pushed up his glasses for a moment, rubbing at his face with a disconcerted groan. Didn’t Klavier know he was busy? He had more important things to be doing. It certainly wasn’t his job to babysit the boy twenty-four hours a day.

It was a quiet evening. Late. Too late to be studying for the bar, perhaps, but Kristoph was nothing if not a perfectionist. Best to get started early to absorb the information. Not everyone could regurgitate every fact they’d ever learned on their first try like some snotty little brats Kristoph knew.

Speaking of…

The phone buzzed in his hands. Another string of hieroglyphics for him to interpret. Kristoph’s eyes drifted over the lot of them, debating simply turning the phone off or shattering it against the wall. Finally, he sighed, and placed the call, fingers tapping on the table irritably.

It took a few rings for anything to happen. And then—

“H-Hey bro! How’s it going?”

Klavier’s high-pitched pubescent voice crackled through the phone over the distant, muffled sounds of base-y music. He sounded nervous. Or relieved, Or both?

“I regret to inform you that our family cat has died in a terrible boating accident,” Kristoph deadpanned. “You are needed at home immediately.”

They did not own a cat. They never would own a cat. Kristoph would die before they ever owned a cat.

“Whaaaaat? Nooooooooo. Not Herr Katze!” Klavier cried, far too exaggerated to pass as any sort of genuine distress. He could almost picture the back of Klavier's hand pressed to his forehead in a pseudo-faint. “Oh no, I should…leave this study session of mine right now.”

Kristoph couldn’t help but roll his eyes. “Ah, yes, your 'study session,'” he repeated, being sure to pour all his vitriol into his air quotes.

“Ja, that’s right. My…study session,” he said.

Kristoph tsked under his breath. “You understand that you are a big fish in a small pond, right, Klavier?” he asked, foot tapping on the floor. “Just because you skipped several grades doesn’t mean you have to try to impress the riff raff around you—”

“Ach, you’re breaking up!” Klavier interrupted quickly, making a few static noises with his mouth. “Well I better rush home to check on poor Mutti, she must be so heartbroken over poor Herr Katze.”

“Hmm,” Kristoph agreed. “Yes, I’m sure she will be very grateful, and owe her wonderful son quite the favor in the future, wouldn’t you say—?”

“Ja, ja, whatever you say, Kris.” He could almost picture the cheeky smile, braces and all, grinning back at him. “I’ll talk to you later. Danke!”

“Bitte,” Kristoph muttered back, hanging up before Klavier could say another word.

He scowled at the phone, pinching the bridge of his nose. Well, there went all of Kristoph’s concentration for the evening. Nothing left but to try to get a decent night’s sleep before class tomorrow.

As he pushed away from his desk to stand up, his phone vibrated once more. He paused, glancing down at the phone still on his desk.

Klavier

👏 ❤️

Kristoph raised an eyebrow, before sighing, shaking his head with a bemused smirk, and finally shutting off his phone.

(Anyway I'm still willing to do a few more prompts if anyone is interested, hmu)

[virtue-and-beneviolence]

back in the day when akane was the manager of first gen black dragons shinichiro had a teasing and cute crush on her. very like middle school crush time beat

and during the time brahman were making their debut they had this little celebratory party for it. and since seishu was one of their roadies and shin was their manager the young kid took it as a perfect opportunity to interrogate shinichiro about his sister.

so seishu goes up to him and hez like "i hear you use to have a crush on my sister so listen to me rn, if i ever see you hitting on her or flirting with her shinichiro-kun you're DEAD". and shin's just looking down on the kid when hez like "i have a bf?" and when the pair look up to see takeomi staring at them wondering wth is going on seishu is hit with the biggest wave of embarrassment ever.

(this is very random so please raid my inbox and ask me abt our band au, whether it's your thoughts or what u wanna know, hmu buddy boo)

please seishu doesn't make eye contact with shin for a solid two months. everyone is concerned. shin is not offended. takeomi was not offended. the poor boy clearly malfunctions when one of them is in the room. it's tragic.

Eventually seishu and Shinichiro have a nice talk about it over a meal (very considerate of shin to give the poor squirming boy something to focus on) but takeomi is such a cunt and at every after show party they ever have, throws an arm around seishu and regales whoever is around with the story of the time the big bad little brother of (damn the way i wanted to say terminally lesbian idk what i even hc her to be into ngl lmao) akane told shin off in front of his boyfriend of x years.

[twothirdsgenius]

Tell me about love! Are you in love? Do you want to be? Could you live a life without romantic love? Is unrequited love real love?

oh FUCK yeah we’re starting right out the gate babeyyy. warning, I am going to trauma dump here but in my defense this is all shit I’ve worked through in therapy and so it will be a healthy, polished dump of trauma.

I used to be really nervous about the idea of romantic love? Not opposed but literally terrified of it? I grew up in a house with parents who didn’t love each other, and the frequent arguing and fighting I had to listen to at night when they’d thought I was asleep was just the norm, and I didn’t want that at all.

I’m on the ace spectrum somewhere, but I’m still down 100% with being in love with someone who I consider a partner in the romantic sense. I’m accepting applications now, mutuals hmu 🤙🏻

I think there are many types of love we experience through life and that none of them are inherently superior to the other. The only important thing to me is that love exists in some capacity and for that reason, I do think I would be able to live a life without romantic love but I would prefer not to? I think friendship, loyalty, and companionship are what I desire the most out of a romantic relationship, and that can be experienced with or without romance. Deadass, that’s one of the reasons why I latched onto dnp like one of those filter feeding fish who go for rides with sharks and haven’t let go since. My fourteen year old self was like oh shit it’s possible to actually like your significant other and enjoy spending time with them?

Oh boy. Unrequited love. I don’t have any experience with that as a real adult (yet) but I carried a torch for someone for like four years and it was the most cliche fucking thing in the entire world because he was (and still is) one of my best friends. It was the messiest fucking love triangle you’ve ever seen in your entire life but it was also a raging inferno of teenage hormones and our collective untreated mental illnesses and my chaotic messy home life that ended in? Apologies and forgiveness and acceptance and a very kind, easy let-down that hurt a lot less than I expected it to. Was it real love or just infatuation? I honestly still can’t say lmao but whether or not unrequited love is real love or not, it taught me a lot of important lessons about basing my own self-worth on the opinions of other people and we still do very much love and care about each other to this day. It could have been “real” love, but it was super fucking unhealthy and codependent and it almost killed me in a very real, non-metaphorical sense. That isn’t what constitutes real love to me. Real love to me is a choice you make every day and that feels like the right choice every time. It takes effort and things won’t always be 50/50 because we are flawed human beings with our own individual needs and not machines but it shouldn’t feel scary. I don’t want to have to be scared that my partner will punch a hole through the drywall if I say the wrong thing, because that wasn’t an irregular occurrence in my house. As soon as I got my driver’s license, I was as relieved because it meant I could take my brother and sister out of the house and go to Taco Bell or something while we waited for the worst of the fight to be over. I was always scared that I would come home to see either of my parents packing a bag or something even worse. I think with real love, whether it’s romantic or not, it should always feel safe and not used as a weapon.

Shit this got LONG thank you for indulging me and my adhd meds induced talkativeness anon ❤️❤️❤️ lub you

[bunjax]

Get to know the bloggers

Hi there and welcome to our blog, this blog is mainly for us to dump our art and reblog stuff we enjoy. Also this blog is run by two people (Ajax and Bun)

We also have a side blog which is going to have a main focus of our Genshin Impact idol au (we are working hard pls go enjoy our content) click here to go to the blog!!

And now here's our own separate introductions for you to get to know us better

Hello! Ajax here. I'm 17 and my pronouns are they/he. I'm a big genshin fan and very much enjoy Itto and Al-Haitham (they're my favs)

In case anyone is curious, I main Tighnari and I'm AR58, NA servers. Not gonna give out my uid cuz i'd rather not have random people friend me lol

More stuff about me is that I am a cosplayer, and I draw sometimes if I ever remember too lol. And another thing is that I enjoy collecting manga and I watch anime from time to time (my favourite anime is Banana Fish and my favourite manga is Bleach)

I am collecting a few of the genshin impact plushies (have you seen them they're so tiny, sobbing over them) so like if I ever remember maybe I'll post photos of them here.

And finally, my socials are @/waterkelonn (insta) @/takiklee.cos (tiktok) and my personal tumblr page is @taki-klee

okok hi!! i'm bunny, it/they <3 nice to meet you!! im your local cringe anemo boy enjoyer <3

i'm a venti main, ar 56 on europe servers ^w^ patiently awaiting scaramouches release so i can waste every primo on him >:3

uhh i'm also a cosplayer!! just, not as good ehe. i dont rlly post my cosplays anywhere public BUT i do post my art a lot!! i should be able to dump a bunch of sketches on here often mwehehe. also im a giant persona 5 fan!! pls hmu akechi enjoyers i need to cry ab royal days with someone

thats really all there is to me.. uhh my main tumblr is @bellkamii if you wanted to talk!! have a nice day <3#

[illumiiiz]

opinions I have about various music-related things. if you wanna discuss/dispute any of these please hmu (I need music friends)

skillet is not bad. their discography as a collective might not be that good, but they’re definitely not bad. go listen to psycho in my head, monster, rise, sick of it, cycle down, victorious, and save me and I dare you to come back and tell me with complete sincerity and a straight face that they suck

whoever says skillet is bad even after doing this is just a fundamentally unhappy person. and I will pray for you

nickelback is also not that bad. in fact I would venture to say nickelback kind of fucks

same for maroon 5

as a follow up to the last point, you could get white girl wasted to moves like jagger, maps, one more night, or wake up call but some people are just cowards

if you’re wearing a band shirt you SHOULD be able to name at least three songs or one album by that band

if you see someone wearing a shirt for a band you also like you should not ever ask them to name any number of songs to prove their allegiance to the band or whatever. if you’re gonna talk to them at all, you should ask what their favorite song by that band is, and then share your own. you have now made an acquaintance and opened the floor for friendly conversation. otherwise leave them alone

my chemical romance should do a cover of two songs: sister golden hair by america and unbelievable by emf. after that they should drop mcr5

when mcr covers unbelievable, they should make a music video parody of the after credit scene from barbie & the three musketeers. this is exponentially more important than the sister golden hair cover

if you say you dislike a genre (country, rap, edm, etc) you should be required to name every song and artist you’ve listened to from that genre that you disliked, and should magically be given an equal number of recommendations of songs or artists from that same genre with a different vibe that you might like better by your personal genie.

if you always skip the intro and outro songs of the shows/animes you watch no matter what, I diagnose you with unfun show watcher disease. and I will pray for you

you should at LEAST watch through the intro and outro songs of a show once per season or whenever there is a new intro/outro song. this is like “seasoning” your meal exclusively with salt and pepper and is the absolute bare minimum

people who make good character playlists are the backbone of our society

if you don’t like an artist as a person you can still like what they create. you can also like something without knowing anything about the creator as a human being, even if you avoid this knowledge on purpose. go on, be free

if you exclusively listen to soundtrack/music without any lyrics at all, I am a little bit afraid of you. do you even have voices in your head? or do you just have so many you can’t stand to listen to any more even in music?

there is no such thing as having “basic” taste in music

everyone has heard a fall out boy song

I once told a coworker from my old job I was going to their concert and she was like “oh I’ve never heard of them, have fun tho!!” and this other (older) coworker and I were both like whaaat everyone’s heard a fall out boy song before, you probably just don’t know them by name. and she was like “mmm no I’m pretty sure I haven’t tho, sorry.” miss ma’am. you’re 27, you’ve heard of fall out boy. not an opinion just something I thought was funny

songs about love and sex and murder are cool but people need to start making songs about weird little dudes they made up in their heads named things like grimpus nimbbee that live in acorn houses and do things like take all your doors off their hinges and take random seams out of your clothes while you’re asleep

— to be continued indefinitely as I think of more

[doughma]

some time ago i got tagged in the twst ask meme w/e and me n my friend wanted to redo them since its been a year and our tastes have changed and, i have no where else to post this big ass blog post so dont look at me

Would you be a mer, a beastman, a fae, or a human? (or other!)

most of the time i like the human option cause its the default and what i would be if i got transported in and also human/non human is always top tier BUT i also played with the idea of my yuusona being a fae or more specifically the twst version of tinkerbell so id like either human or fae

Would you be at rsa or nrc?

NRC hands down, im too chaotic neutral for rsa i would go insane there i may look cute and very femme but the way i talk is anything but lady like and i dont wanna hear the gasps from rsa students when i tell them to fuck off

What dorm would you belong to?

tests gave me pomefiore which i absolutely accept, but i woudnt mind diasomnia either for the uniform lol but pomef with the poison potion makin love would be the most fun imo even if vil and i would butt heads all the time

What character(s) would you be best friends with?

imm just go down the list of every dorm Heartslabyul: tbh tbh, probs fucking none of them MAYBE DEUCE but honestly all their first impressions i would just avoid the whole ass dorm all together

Savanaclaw: all of them, idc i see fluffy ears and tails and im already making my way over to try and get them to agree and let me pet them I WILL DO ANYTHING TO SHOVE LEONAS EAR INTO MY FUCKING MOUTH also im a women so its already in my favour with them, ruggie would be easy to befriend because its in his dna to be submissive to women and we both love doughnuts, leonas gonna take some work but MY BOY I PROMISE THIGH AND TITTY PILLOW IF YOU LET ME PLAY WITH YOUR EARS AND HAIR PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE IM BEGGING JUST ONE CHANCE- and oourgh jacks so cute and big and would have the best reactions because hes tsun i cant help but wanna pet and tease him i OUGGRHU

Octavinelle: azulu, MAYBE maybe floyd maybe maybe! maybe tweels! maybe! it really fucking depends because ill give they a pass for chapter 3 because theyre fish people and my burning curiosity would make me forgive them just to be able to ask them questions about being mer folk and maybe try to ask if i could touch them while theyre fish people LIKE LISTEN I JUST LIKE TOUCHING FISH OKAY???? I LIKE THE SLIMEY FEEL IM SO DAMN CURIOUS AND IM DYING TO TOUCH AN OCTOPUS my personal need and love for fish would win over their wrong doings, that one voice clip of THEY WERE THE BEST TRIO AROUND what about the people they murdered WHAT MURDERS???? is how i feel about them

Scarabia: none. chapter 4 would have ended differently if i was there and it would have been violent. kalims also too sunshine boy for my tastes even if i would humor him if he talked to me but i would just find it too exhausting to deal with on a personal level

Pomefiore: rook! i love my fucking hunter mans! i love how weird and passionate he is and i wanna hear all the gossip i KNOW HE KNOWS AND HEARS and i wouldnt judge him for being a fanboy because honestly same lol i got that obsessive trait in me too bbgirl i understand show me more pictures of neiges knee caps i would love to see it vils a maybe but honestly, even if i wish to pull him into a deep kiss and then choke him out i dont really see the two of us getting along

Ignihyde: oh both of them easily, orthos the cutest baby brother and i would love to hug and care for him and tell him all kinds of praise and HES SO CUTE HES THE BABIEST AND NEEDS TO BE PROTECTED idia because were both reclusive gamers and i wouldnt care to hang out with him irl he can hmu on the twst discord and we can vc game together hed be the best gaming buddy

Diasomnia: i dont care for silver im sorry, hes so pretty but he has the personality of someone i would just look over and forget he was even there sebek LOL sebby my sebz,,, mr sebster,,,,, emotionally i love that stupid fucking croc, realistically? the moment hes too loud, im already leaving the room and judging from a distance lilia is my gamer bbfy #2 i love grandpa bat sm UGH hes so cute and small god i wanna hold and HE WOULD FUCKING LET ME i think my talk of calling myself mommy would amuse him malleus is a funny case tbh! his horns and whole demeanor would interest me and im walking over to ask if i can touch his horns also begging crying PLEASE LET ME TOUCH THEM his little gaogao kun would be a fun topic because i love tamagotchi and i would want one lol and wed probs let them met up and play with each other :]

What character(s) would you hate?

Ace. hes a cunt idc tho like respect ig because he doesnt care hes an asshole and doesnt change so like you do you ig? but i would hate him! like from the moment he made fun of you for not knowing the seven it was already over, i would have started a fight right then and there with him and thrown hands I COULD FUCKING TAKE ACE HONESTLY EVEN AS A GIRL hes all bark and if you start to get physically it would throw him off at first and thats more than enough time to get at least one punch to his face, hes deff the type that likes to bully out of affection but im someone who fucking hates that so it would never work out even if we had a decent first impression

epel, sorry hime it just aint happening i LOVE my cute shit and anything i find cute and he would react poorly to our first meeting and me calling him a cutie pie and im not here for people who have over reactions to the most nothing of anything like if you have personal problems with those kinds of things, thats a YOU problem and you need to work on that yourself and not snap at people you just fucking met, id forgive him if he apologized but i still wouldnt wanna get close to him and would still side eye him scarabia, chapter 4 just ruined it honestly like jamil, i dont care how fucking hot you are the canon ruined you for me. gods tho hes so fucking hot and it sucks I WOULD HAVE FORGIVEN HIM IF HE APOLOGIZED IN CANON BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOO- i also dont hate kalim but IM TOO FUCKING TIRED FOR HIS CHARA TYPE OKAY

What character(s) would you date?

i still kinda like the idea of dating rook because i do like the idea of someone being obsessed with me, but on the other hand my jealous hand....... rooks a man of love for everyone and i respect that but i wouldnt be able to truly handle it if im being honest IM SORRY ROOK I LOVE YOU AND I LOVE YOUR HUNTER PERSONALITY AND THE THRILL OF THE HUNT BUT I WANT A MAN THATS ONLY GONNA LOOK AT ME AND I KNOW I CANT FUCKING COMPETE WITH VIL OF ALL PEOPLE WAHHHHHHHHHHHH leona is honestly a chara i didnt expect to love as much as i do now because it hit hard how compatible we are- also hes a leo and aquarius can get along well with leos an- but um in my obsessive au writing for leona he really is my fucking type god do i wanna just take a nap with him and gently brush his hair and take care of him and LEONA IF YOURE LOOKING FOR A NEW MOMMY IM RIGHT FUCKING HERE MY THIGHS ARE FAT AS FUCK ugh i just love a man thats pathetic and depressed it makes me wanna give them the motherly tender love they need and fix them OR make them worse depends on how im feelin atm i also kinda feel id be a good or okay match for azul idunno? hes also kinda pathetic but in the cute way i wanna squish his face and coo at him and then violently shove my tongue down his throat, hes also someone who needs tender love and im here to provide it I ALSO WOULD BE DOWN TO FUCK AN OCTOPUS its on the bucket list idia but only because we fit the image couple thats tall skinny dark punk dude with his thick high femme pink gf, im the EXCUSE YOU HE ASK FOR NO PICKLES gf and in my monster fuckers dreams, malleus lilia and sebek are also on the list because PLEASE ITS ON THE BUCKET LIST I NEED TO FUCK SOMEONE NON HUMAN BECAUSE I GO BACK TO MY WORLD PLEASE-

What would floyd’s nickname be for you?

maybe frilled shark lol, i dress cute but im also elusive when i wanna be and dont like to personally share info about myself and not much is know about frilled sharks, im also bite first ask questions later WILL STAB AS A WARNING

and rook’s?

mademoiselle gaieté, or mademoiselle merriment is still absolutely it, im forever gonna have laughing as my talking filler/quirk its just apart of who i am as a person and how i talk i cant help it

What twst character(s) are you most like? (personality-wise)

floyd still, we are both moody bitches and can change at a drop of a hat tho im better at controlling it and getting over it without having a reaction at the other person, as long as they leave me alone for at least five mins i tend to get over it nicely if you leave me alone for a bit and let me calm myself down instead of bugging me more about it or continue to poke at me cause then im gonna get mad and violent also a little like leona with being stubborn as a person and not wanting to change and being a lazy fucking cat like bitch lol i took a test once and got trey so, do with that info as you will

Which subject(s) do you think you would excel at?

normal stuff probs math or art, but which one i would be doing my best at because i want to? potionology because it SOUNDS FUCKING COOL MAN IT SOUNDS LIEK SM FUN TO BE A LITTLE WITCHY GIRLY WITH MY WITTLE CAULDREN MAKING SOME POTIONS and because i also want to bark for crewel papa

What club would you join?

im still forever on the board games club man it just sounds like fun and i only wanna do clubs that is fun also azululu and idia are there so its a fun club with some people id be friends with so even more fun!!!! another fun one imo would be science club since theres all the new magical flowers this world has and potion making??? it would be fun to experiment and learn new things tho clubs i personally was in during my school days were art club and the recycle club

How do you think you would survive in twisted wonderland/what would your life be like in general?

i still personally think i would be okay, like im alive, tho emotionally? depends really. i think i probs would be a little more aloof and standoffish being taken away from my family and brother and would be a little worried about my brothers mental state with me being suddenly gone that it might make me crack a little when im alone at night like a bitch might cry herself to sleep and be more snappy with random students talking or bothering me but im also very used to being alone in life, at work, at school, so being the only girl might cause me to be alone further so i dont think it would bother me that much and id be able to handle it fairly well tho i might end up clinging to a teacher or crowley lol like after school im just gonna go hang out with crewel to see if he needs help with anything like IM A LONELY LITTLE PUPPY PAPA PLEASE LET ME DO SOMETHING WAHHHHHHHHHHH and tbh i probs would end up in the science club because of him kdfngfdjkgnjkfd i used to be an assistant teacher for a pharmacy class during covid and helped teach the students that were ready for iv making while he dealt with the new students so i wouldnt mind helping out the teachers with paper work and grading since its sometime ive done and enjoyed but overall maybe a little lonely life until i find friends but not anything i wouldnt be able to handle, and im not above whining to crowley for stuff since i am now in his care lol

[optional!] What would your unique magic be?

still probs anything that would freeze or petrify the people i use it on lmao a UM that would make people leave me alone is perfect imo my brother likes to joke that i am a ice queen so its fitting

[jude-thedude98]

7 masculine fair skinned twinks. 2 brit boys 1 irishman 1 Scotsman 1 Latino 1 American 1 Canadian. Hmu if you're interested in serious relationship. Twinks only. 18 to 25 only. Serious inquiries only. Sex is on the table but im demisexual so conversation is the first thing on the table. Gotta get to know ya. Pokycule relationship goals with me as the focal point. Big family big dreams big goals big Aspirations bog inspirerersbig motivators

Must be taller than 5 7 and shorter than 6 2. I know what I want. I know who and what I'm looking for. Don't play me. Pm always open if you think that you fit the bill and can step to me with respect and no nonsense. Yes I am a nudist and it'd be nahhh you gotta be one too. Raising a nudist family. My name is Jude. I only go by Jude. My gender is Jude. I'm gay. You be concrete in knowing who you are. I don't need or want any curious guys. I want someone who will not only compliment me on life but who will add positivity to my life. Be career driven and goal oriented. If you are an artist musician of an my sort. To the front please. If you are any of the following to the front please. Skateboarder swimmer baseball player basketball player all to the front. Must be clean shaven. I don't like hair on my men unless and only on their shaggy straight wavy curly long beautiful hair. Masculine only. Versatile only. If we are talking about sex then yes I don't mind getting you off but urrrah I gots to get mine too. And so do the rest of our husbands. When we get to that point of talking babies and kids we will discuss that because I know how I want to have kids too. I am not nor am I looking for a sugar daddy or a playmate. This is real life shit. I want and am going to get my husbands. Plural. I prefer you to have natural hair color and eye color is not a hang up. Ivak a writer author and a poet. So I work from home. Support me because I will support you back. Treat me wrong and welp there's the door..

Pm/dm open anytime.

[cameronaragon]

Here’s my story,

It’s been a month since my ex, Ashley and I stopped communications after being in our toxic relationship off and on for almost 9 years, this month has been nothing but getting to know myself, fast days with slow nights and I’ve never felt more like myself then ever.

On the night of December 12, 2013 I told Ashley I liked her more then a friend under the Christmas lights of the stage in the village green on Orcas Island. It was one of the happiest moments of my life, I thought she was way out of my league at the time, she attracted every boy and I got to call her mine. Being 15 with your first love is a high I cannot explain, I remember almost every moment from everything.

Things were great the first 6 months, butterfly’s everyday, becoming more and more in love, becoming each others first for everything. But then came a bump in the road when I had started to miss my best friend, Patricia, of 3 years before I had met Ashley. Patricia and I use to go to each other for anything, we had dated for only a couple weeks to try it out, I was fully invested into it but we lived on separate islands and it made it inconvenient for her to see me. So we broke things off mutually in her eyes, she hadn’t known I was super into her like that and my jealousy got the best of me when she started dating another guy I didn’t like and I had threatened to break his already broken arm but worst I had threatened by best friend, it was a whole case and I learned my lesson real quick, but am thankful for that moment because that opened my eyes to see how alike my father and I are, I DO NOT LIKE MY FATHER

Ashley did not like how I reached out to Patricia after time had passed from my horrible actions, she thought I wanted to get back together with Patricia but I only wanted friendship. I would secretly message Patricia because Ashley would not let me and that was the first bond of trust broken a little after 6 months into our relationship. TRUST has been the biggest issue since the beginning. I wanted to talk to Patricia about any of my relationship problems because I didn’t have any other friend to talk to, she was the only one that would really step back and see both sides of situations, no judging and give honest opinions and answers.

Fast forward to almost 2 years into it, we have our first breakup. Patricia had been an issue between us and Ashley was not feeling any love from me, I thought I was giving as much as I could but it wasn’t enough. She just graduated and I thought she was going to go to college, I had just entered my junior year and I was feeling my best. I tried so hard to get back together with her and come to find out her and one of my old homies who was the first friend I made when my family moved to the island in 2005, were neighbors for 7 years, were hanging out with each other and I was devastated, crushed. I had lost 2 very important people who i thought was there for me till my last breath but I was wrong

A couple months into them dating, they both reached out to me at separate times to talk and make amends, I didn’t know what to think at the time, no guidance from any friends I was trying to make and I was dumb to let them back in, my friend (nick) came off of good terms and then when I went to talk to Ashley old feelings came up and we started kissing while she was with nick. We would meet in very secrets spots, hookup while she was cheating on nick and I tried to drag her away from him but I couldn’t for some dumb ass reason so I said fuck it and left them. I was doing my own thing for a little while, it was summer 16’ and Blonde came out, that was not a good time for me for that project to drop. All it did was start up feelings for Ashley again, music unfortunately has been an influence in a lot of emotional decisions for me.

Fast forward to winter 2016, Ashley stopped seeing nick, she hmu and things were somewhat back to what they use to be, but I was very unsure, should have been cautious getting back with her. My trust was so uneasy and this was the first time my anxiety kicked in. I couldn’t trust her, I couldn’t tell myself anything to try to force myself to trust her and a young Cameron didn’t know anything about letting things fall into place. Me having trust issues in the back of my mind was the first taste of temptations with another girl

So I ended up leaving Ashley myself for the first time for another girl, the other girl wasn’t what I was expecting and I broke things off with her which only made me feel shitty for leaving Ashley in the dust like that. Should I have ever felt bad? Probably not and this is when I found out Ashley was my kryptonite. This was during spring time of 2017 and I unfortunately went back to Ashley, not knowing she was talking to nick again. More shade started being thrown around and one day I found out she’s off island with “family”’to go to the Seattle zoo and nick ended up meeting her down there. A lot was on my mind during this time as I was about to graduate and I should have been focusing on my future but I was too stuck trying to win Ashley back, and then my father had his stroke…..

My father having his stroke opened my eyes to so much, I found out who my real friends and family were, this impacted my family so hard and all I wanted was Ashley at the time and she was with nick. At that time I could tell she did not care about what was happening to my family. So I decided to start doing what I wanted, applied for community college to try out for the basketball team. Injured myself trying to make the team and all I knew at the time was basketball, if I wasn’t playing for someone then idk what I would be doing, so I fell into a deep depression when I wasn’t playing, went to the bank to take cash out from a Wells Fargo account my dad had authorization for and long story short my father robbed me of $11k. This made my first year of college very hard, all the jobs were already taken up from other college students and I almost hit rock bottom in January of 2018. Unfortunately Ashley had stopped talking to nick and that made her reach out to me. Me not having a job, no money, need to pay rent etc, Ashley was kind enough to pay my rent for the next several months, I eventually paid her back but it only added fuel to our toxic relationship.

I ended up leaving school, leaving my mainland social life where I was about to start blossoming to go back to the island and work as a garbage man. Ashley and I were ready to start taking things serious again and make things feel somewhat normal. We still had toxic traits and kept taking breaks and splitting here and there, fast forward to February 2019, long story short I ended up walking in on my brother and Ashley kissing. That was the lowest I had ever been, nothing can compare to the pain I felt that night. I almost took my life that night, I hope I never feel that pain again. That shit had me sooooonfucked up guess what, I went back to Ashley a couple weeks later. Yeah fuck me right wtf was I thinking. I was so fucking numb, so hurt, I could’ve cuddled up to the devil I would’ve felt so happy, I think she knew what she was doing trying to convince me to forgive her and it worked, by this time all I knew was Ashley and she was the only person I knew at the time that for some reason would go above and beyond for me, it was a toxic comfort that made it easy for me to go back to her. She didn’t know but I was sleeping in my car for the next 3 months after that shit happened because i couldn’t stand to see my brother at home, yes I was still living with my parents at 20/21.

So as this story continues I won’t go into too much detail, summer 2020 rolled around I was an emotional mess, Ashley broke up with me because she kept catching me talking to other girls, some I had sexual intentions with so it could be an excuse for Ashley to breakup with me because I was too fucked up to break things off of my own. Summer 2020 is when I met Kilee Rogers, her sister was into me at first and we had a stupid love triangle, I did tell Shelbi I was interested in her sister and she was understanding, Shelbi is a very nice person that I hope sticks around in my life. I was too nervous to make a move on Kilee and she ended up with another guy, this unfortunately lead me back to Ashley and at this point I thought for sure my life was going to end with Ashley.

Of course things just kept getting more toxic and eventually I blew up, my mental couldn’t handle it anymore. There was no trust between us, close friends were suggesting me to propose to Ashley on a trip to Miami I was suppose to go with her. Fast forward to august 2022 I have officially emotionally detached myself from Ashley, I haven’t felt alive like this in awhile. I do owe Ashley an apology still for wasting both of our times, I can’t give her those years back and time is the only irreplaceable thing in this universe, that weighs heavy on me, time.

Kilee makes me forget all my trauma, any stress, time slows down when she’s around. I haven’t met someone that could make me laugh like this since my old best friend Patricia. But Kilee is also dealing with trauma herself from past relationships and I feel like rn the timing is perfect. I’m ready for whatever trauma she has, I just need to be patient, play my cards right and let things flow out of my soul. It sucks to see her beautiful soul be wasted by these d bags when I know I can treat her right, I just need one chance to blow her away.

So for whoever ends up actually reading this there’s a lesson somewhere in there. No but actually to whoever reads this, trust that gut feeling, take the risk, be selfish every now and then. If you don’t stop and look around once in awhile you might miss it. I love everybody who I’ve crossed paths with in my life because at some point a lesson was learned. I must learn from my past and move on, happier days are coming Cameron, I love you

-Cam💜