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[chanstopher]

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[theloveinc]

just thought abt catching an attitude and being petty w/ shinso.....................................

[dullahanblorboposting]

Re: Jax and the NPC theory

I've seen everyone speculating about which of the current TADC cast is most likely to be an NPC, but I don't think any of them are? I think it's much more likely that either

A different NPC is confused for a human in a future episode, and terrifying shenanigans result as expected

We get a flashback of that happening with old former humans who have since abstracted, tying to some of the portraits on the doors maybe?

Or my favorite possibility: I think there is more potential in that line foreshadowing the exact opposite.

What if Caine in a future episode mistakes one of the human members for an NPC? Apparently Gooseworx teased that Jax will be crossing moral event horizon at some point in the series, and to be honest there is no way it involves him slaughtering NPCs. He's a jerk for messing with the other humans' enjoyment in that regard, sure, but the NPCs aren't real and don't matter. He cannot be 'evil' by harming them because there is no true harm done. He's treating the NPCs as the video game characters that they are.

So whatever he does that earns him the crossing-the-line badge has to be something that directly affects one of his fellow humans, the people who ARE real and DO matter. I've seen the idea that he causes someone to abstract somehow and I think that's the only way for him to cross that line.

Wouldn't it be interesting if for some reason something happens that causes Caine to lose track of who is human and who is an NPC momentarily at some point, and for shits and giggles since Jax treats everything so carelessly, he does a bit where he tries to convince Caine that one of the humans is an NPC. Maybe not even thinking anything seriously bad will happen, just in the usual asshole menace type of way, just to freak the victim out. Only for Caine to actually buy it and try to poof them away. But since they're human, the impact of the attempted poof is that they abstract instead? I doubt that will be how it plays out, like if Jax does cause someone to abstract it will probably be because he went too far with his words and mentally breaks them, but like wouldn't that be fucked up? It would be so fucked up.

[fernsnailz]

Please please please, I already know the Archie Charmy lore but I just want to see what you think the CW labels would be for Charmy. Because ... Yeah...

oof yeah, charmy lore would have to come with some warnings. i think the content/trigger warnings i would be most concerned with are:

drug use and overdose (specifically psychedelics)

child death

ableism (implied, albeit unintentionally)

i didn’t catch the ableism part until recently unfortunately, and upon revisiting how charmy was written and treated after the whole egg grape incident… yeah it’s not great. while it's unintentional, up to interpretation, and something the writers openly regret, it's still worth an ableism content warning in my opinion as it can easily be read that way.

[killmebythebeach]

Just finished today's jrwi and WHATS THIS?! ******* ******** WITH A STEEL CHAIR?!?!

[kittlyns]

Having to confront just how much credit card debt I have bc my debit card is missing.... 😭

[mrs-kelly]

WAIT. WAIT. I JUST REALIZED SOMETHING THAT MAKES ME FEEL RLY DUMB

I was over here watching this episode and the one before it thinking that Charlie is still trying to have a baby with the waitress even though they broke up, but what I never paid close enough attention to, was the little card before the episode that said "one year ago" 🤦‍♀️

THEY'RE NOT STILL TRYING TO HAVE A BABY REN. THIS TAKES PLACE WHEN THEY WERE DATING

[muuurder]

i agree with the anger issues, lack of boundaries, not knowing his own strength, and the entitlement!! i think that he doesnt know how to go about like.. loving someone? there were books and stuff so i think we can assume that some of what he knows is based off of the books hes read/listened to. another common thing ive seen is people assuming hes uneducated but in my head, hes not. his view of reality just might be slightly warped due to the media that he consumed. which could maybe play into his lack of boundaries.

but i think he genuinely is not a bad person. his trauma just plays into everything. then of course you have his parents practically giving greta to him

but im interested in what you have to say about him being autistic. ive never really looked at him from another perspective mentally.

I am now off of work *rubs hands together* so let’s get into this. I’ll leave an undercut so I’m not killing everyone on dashboards with a long post lol. I’m so sorry. Cause this is going to be a hellishly long post. just a quick mention there will be brief mentions of Su*cide as well as specific disorders and the like. Obviously nothing graphic but wanted to give a warning in case.

I agree in the idea that a lot of his knowledge as far as how things work revolves around classic books (pride and prejudice, the great gatsby, etc etc. i personally Headcanon his favorite story is beauty and the beast because he’s a hopeless romantic.) This can cause a bit of an issue as usually the “male” role in old novels tend to be rather problematic as far as how women are viewed and treated. Not to mention his parents for sure are conservative uppity aristocrats but with money so far up their ass they can’t think straight.

I have also seen people acting as if he’s uneducated and incapable of doing basic things. Which is incredibly far off in my opinion. We know for a fact he was home-schooled, I mean we got a glimpse of his routine. I think his knowledge of the outside world is incredibly limited. I do agree with that. He doesn’t know about social media, or computers if we’re honest, or most functions you need to know as an adult to live and survive in the real world. So I imagine if you introduced him to it, it would be an incredible culture shock for him. He’s been locked away for years. He loved his parents but the moment he is given the chance to grow and change he will be absolutely angry. Honestly, that’s a tantrum he needs to have. He needs to break shit in their room in my opinion and he has a right to be angry with them for a plethora of reasons. I’m derailing a bit here- but he’s incredibly smart. There’s a screenshot of Brahms’s room. It’s somewhere I’d have to go scrounging which I don’t want to do right now, but it shows every tiny detail In that room. He has a washbin, a microwave, a fridge, as well as books and tons of sheet music plastered on the wall. I could talk for hours about the common thought he’s nasty and hates baths (which is I think far from the truth.) but that aside; I think he’s a prodigy. He builds mechanisms in his free time (he made the rat traps for the house,) and he’s well versed in the arts (particularly where I think he excels the most.) we can see that much with drawing he seems to have and the sheet music heavily hinting he plays violin. I also have a personal Headcanon he can absolutely read beowulf and both comprehends and can pRONUNCIATE EVERY DAY WORD CORRECTLY. I could never my god. But he’s well read, and incredibly smart. Not to mention, the only thing he has as far as childlike behavior outside of regression is I truly believe he enjoys learning and like a kid he absorbs information and learns quickly.

As far as my take that he’s autistic, it’s got a lot of layers. Particularly I think he has bpd and/or has autism. I personally have BPD so you can take that as it is, it could be me rubbing my grubby little hands all over brahms, but I’ll give the gists of what it is and why i think BPD should also be tagged onto him along with autism and if you’d like me to go further in depth about them let me know.

So BPD is a personality disorder that is characterized by unstable moods, behaviors, and relationships. I always joke and say it’s basically speed running the DSM-5. I know it has a bad rep (you’re either demonized or infantilized by it because it’s a hellish and intense disorder.) Some of the symptoms are irritability, explosive anger, rapid mood swings (we’re talking you feel the world  crumbling, wanting to kermit sewerslide and then it shuts off like a switch. You feel nothing and it’s over. and that’s in like a span of 10 minutes? and you’re left numb and disassociating. real riveting shit), risk taking behaviors, impulsivity, a general lack of restraint: I mean I could go on. To get to the point, there is a phenomenon with those who have the disorder where they will form an FP. They don’t pick em, it just kinda happens. But FP stands for favorite person and to put it short, they are the most important person in that person life. You can’t imagine living without em and it’s usually a supportive person (family, friends, therapist, romantic partner, etc etc. so you can see how a nanny would suit this role.) I know for me personally, I get rather territorial with my own FP (we have boundaries trust me, I know it’s incredibly important so you don’t hurt the other person cause it can be hellish.) and it can cause intense outbursts especially when other people begin to socialize or get involved.

Now that I’ve laid the ground level knowledge to understand where I’m coming from, I think that Greta was an FP which explains the obsessive behavior, as well as the way brahms acts regarding malcolm. He’s clearly irritated by him especially since malcolm is out here making moves on her lol. (def doesn’t help that his parents really did pull the “shes yours” card as if that wasn’t a whole ass human being) I also think this is why he steals her shit too (I know theres the whole fucking doll thing which is weird but also this is a grown man whos been isolated for years. Though with as tidy as his room is i don’t think the tissues you see on the bed are from uh.... the purposes everyone thinks. The letter from his parents was there and a photo. Idk bout you all but i sure as hell wouldnt be getting horn knee in front of that shit ESPECIALLY after their deep dive but thats me.) He has impulsive issues and general fucking lack of restraint which is also apart of bpd. Coupled with the bordering obsessive behavior that comes with having an FP it’s hoog. It’s also why I think he reacted the way he did with cole (is that his name? idk the abuser.) Not only was he trying to deal with it in a relatively harmless demeanor by being spooky, but the moment it was clear as hell that 1) his doll that has been a fill in for him was destroyed and 2) greta was in danger; he was PISSED. I’m talking throw caution to the wind. The walls rattled, he busted the mirror (which is fucking painful and dangerous mind you. He’s fucking barefoot. He did not think about that shit. It’s why he killed him too I think. Tunnel rage is pretty common. You don’t think, some people black out. And if you rewatch the scene, the moment he looks at greta (who he was mindful to keep her out of harms way, pushed her but made sure she wasn’t hurt) He realizes she’s scared and you can hear him go ....i know, i know. and when he grabs her, it wasn’t to kidnap her. I think he was hugging her and trying to move her out of the room to cool off at best. In his eyes he’s known her, he’s been there, she cares deeply for him. He thinks that kind of contact and boundary breaching is alright. This is his FP after all and he loves her. Finally theres the whole scene of him bartering with her trying to make her stay after he knocks out malcolm (poor malcolm jesus.) So when I first was going into the movie, I legit thought he had killed every nanny who had come around and I think people also believe that because of how he barters but I don’t think he’s actually killed anyone besides cole (emily cripps I’m convinced was an accident. I know the movie explains he was possessed and started the fire to avoid punishment and smashed her head in but fuck the second movie I don’t believe that shit for a second. I have a whole theory on that but I’m not discussing that right now.) He clearly manipulates or tries to when greta is leaving. He starts with the child voice, clearly ready to regress back into what he deems as the most acceptable version of himself. The child. I mean for christ sake his parents couldn’t view him anymore than an 8 year old and actively ignored it like yikes. So of course he’s going to use that, when it’s clear it’s not working he demands with aggression, and then goes straight into bartering. Using threats particularly. “I’ll kill him! I’ll kill him just like the others!!” I know for me personally, I’ve behaved this way. When you fear abandonment, you’ll do anything to keep people around. People who have untreated bpd can sometimes behave in extremely inappropriate ways and in ways that are harmful. It’s pretty ugly I’m not gonna lie. I know when I was younger and before I knew I have threatened to kermit dye to keep someone around (I’ve grown and I know better now. I was also a fucking child so please don’t come for me.) So I can see brahms desperate attempt to keep her is in line. I also think when he mentions the others he’s referring to a) emily who again I’ll be happy to explain if you or anyone else would like b) his parents because p sure he’s convinced he drove them to kermit dye c) cole or whatever his name is.

As far as him having autism, Honestly It’s literally because when I watched it he had the vibe tm. I can’t explain it but my friends who have autism called it too. I think it attributes to the photos of him as a child, he isn’t smiling and that’s a pretty common thing among kids with autism. Not to mention, he may have had no interest in socializing or doing much of anything that is often required of aristocratic families. I mean his father said he was odd. Always had been. Which I don’t know why that personally for me leaned towards he was autistic but the idea that his parents were ableist and didn’t want to get his ass help and rather be rid of him. It’s not a stretch. Rich families are fucking terrifying and if you don’t fit the look well. Yikes. He just strikes me as someone who likely was autistic and now has it layered with extensive trauma which makes a funky mess. I’m pretty neurodivergent (honestly beginning to think I could be but shhhhhhhhhhhh we don’t talk about it lol) and he reminds me of friends a lot. It’s a little hard to explain. But I can see him just having little to no interest in socializing and is far more interest in music (a potential special interest) or reading and often was paired or forced to be with emily due to family ties (money, arranged marriage, its hard telling.) Not to mention I don’t think he knows his own strength? which isn’t a trait of autism (it’s not a gene that does that and even sometimes it can cause issues with motor functions.) but it reminds me of someone I know who has autism. Again not knowing your strength and being strong doesn’t tie to autism I can’t stress that enough, but like it’s just an odd tie to people I know who also happen to be autistic.

My brain does this fucking meme:

[08theverysmallhuman]

MOTHERFUCKIMG RAICHI TIME

[extasiswings]

Sarah MacLean said “shaving is sexy, right?” And did not wait for a response and she is the MOST valid for that.

[guccifloralsuits]

Wait holy shit. I just realized the new season of umbrella academy is in 5 days

[honeyvenommusic]

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[heylinfanclub]

Thing I said on ride to equestrian that very true: got some kind of trigger towards advertisements that pretend to not be advertisements. When it’s like ‘oh two people just talking about a thing, but fake’. I never watched it but maybe it is like the Truman Show thing?? I GET SO. MAD AND ANXIOUS. WHEN I HEAR. FAKE TALKING. IT AHHHHH. Hfhfhfhf the Devil.

[astrxealis]

AHHHHH I GOT THE MOUNT FOR THIS SAVAGE TIER TvT now i just need the chest and then i'm set hehehe <3

[bearbirth]

If I just ignore it, it will go away

I hadn’t seemed pregnant. It must have been one of those cryptic pregnancy things… I hadn’t had any bump, or not a large one. I thought I had just gained some weight. Who knew a one night stand would lead to something like this. But I didn’t know. I went to my job as a school teacher like normal that day. I had been having some abdominal pain but I had attributed it to my period or something other than a looming due date. The pains had been getting worse and worse as the day progressed.

By the 3rd period, I was groaning softly. I had gone to the bathroom half an hour before thinking I had peed myself. Darn bladder issues. I’d been having more and more of these accidents lately. Little did I know it had been my water breaking. Soon enough the pressure intensified. I’m leaning on my desk, panting softly as I try to ignore it to teach my class. I’m shifting back and forth, just trying to get though the period.

“Hooo…. Hooo… and so- hooooooo…”

My class seemed to notice something was up. The head was coming through my cervix. I had started to push. It was so painful. I just wanted to scream. But instead I told everyone to start their readings prematurely. I sit down, spreading my legs under the desk. I push hard, despite the urge in the back of my brain not to. What if I was about to push out an organ! It hurt enough to be that and I felt like I needed to poop something out.

“nnhh… oh god please… I can’t afford to go to the hospital.”

I mumble under my breath between pushes. Another half hour goes by and now it’s too much. The head starts to spread me open and I stand up shakily.

“Oh…! OH GOD!!! Oh god IT HURRRRTS!!” I scream.

my students look up fearfully as I lean over my desk and push. The head is bulging under my my skin. I scream in pain as it begins to form a tear drop shape. “NO NO PLEEEEASEE AAAAHHH!! NNNGHHHHH NNNNHHHH!!”

I grip the desk hard. I’m shrieking as the head crowns. My hips and legs shake as the burning pain intensifies to an ungodly level. Suddenly with a gush and a push, the head comes out between my legs. Finally the pain stops and I sit down.

“S-Sorry class. Continue your reading… Mmghh…”

I reach down and cup the head. Now I would just have to keep the body until the school day ended.