#i actually remade this OC into something much better but

[catboii]

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[irrigos]

💎and 🗓

💎 - favorite ambition?

NEMESIS, BABEY!!!! I love Nemesis. YES i think it has a lot of writing problems (all the ambitions are messed up and badly written in their own special ways lol) but I am fond of Nemesis because I think its like. the most motivating for a PC? Ambitions are supposed to be the reason your character is in Fallen London at all, and i feel like the stated motivations of the other ambitions are basically like "I wanted money" or something similar (Light Fingers says you're stealing a diamond, Bag a Legend offers a 4 million echo reward, Hearts Desire is literally about getting into gambling) so I think Nemesis is the most interesting as a base for a character, at least if youre not really familiar with the game. Like, I think its easier to make a Hearts Desire pc if you already have an idea of what the ending reward options are, and its easier to make a Light Fingers pc if you already know about Clara (so you can better make a character that wouldnt just be like. "oh so theres no diamond? aight imma head out"), but Nemesis doesnt really require much context and it's really easy to understand why this character is so motivated to achieve this ambition.

But that might just be my bias because Nemesis is the entire foundation for Book of Red Murder, so I've spent a lot of time with it

🗓 - when did you start playing?

The account page says Morgan was born on June 12, 2012, but I think I actually had another account before Morgan that I deleted. I wanted to have my username be my actual oc's name instead of my usual username, so I deleted and remade. So I think I've been around since late 2011 or early 2012, but I cant remember exactly. That was a long time ago!!!!

[arcaneyouth]

sending you some random OC questions(feel free to only answer one/specific ones and not all):

1. Do you have any OCs that you specifically created to be forgettable, but they decided not to be? If so, which ones?

2. If you had to pick one of your OCs to swap places with for an unspecified period of time, who would it be?

3. Which of your OCs do you think would want to be your friend if they were real and aware that you created them?

4. Do you have any OCs that were created entirely based on the vibes a specific song gave you? If so, which OCs and which songs?

1. would you believe me if i said theron. and now theyre the main antagonist/protagonist.

theron was originally meant to be like. a small detail. like they were part of the origin of how the demon came to be, but they no longer existed and no longer had influence on the demon. but instead they kind of. festered in my mind and fought for control and now the story is about them. its kind of really in theme when the main conflict of the story is about theron reclaiming control of their story that dara took from them. the story is definitely way better for it ADGSGFSHF

2. reverie. rip to them but i could handle the horrors of my reality not being real and i wouldnt take being a cool wizard for granted like THEY did

3. ,,,,,,,im going to answer this one under a cut actually. check the readmore

4. hrmm... this is hard cause i actually like,,,, have not Designed a character for myself in a WHILE. the last 2 characters i made with the intention of being for me and weren't adopts i just kept, were shadow (from the raid shadow legend gang) and ghost. and i made ghost a year ago. and my ocs typically arent based on songs, sure I'll make 200 song playlists for my ocs but i wont Make Them based on songs

im gonna have to count characters i remade for this, I'll go with george! George was originally a dnd npc that i was super hyperfixated on for like a year. that fixation eventually faded and i dont totally remember why i liked him so much, but i was considering remaking him for another story for a while and finally everything i wanted him to be clicked when i heard this

(would like to clarify i do not care that much about dsmp the songs just banging. have no clue what its about but its a bop)

didnt realize i even took some visual inspirations from the animation til now LMAO. but yeah now hes a fucked up crime guy whos also a himbo full of love. and violence.

3. this answers a bit. personal <3

most of my characters that Do canonically know i exist dont have super strong opinions on me. reverie was expecting something else when they met me and had to abandon the plan of using me as a way to get out of the game. dara thinks im annoying at best. a nuisance at worst. for pretty much every character ive made thats aware of me, im kind of like. just some guy. im just writing down what they're doing and its kind of annoying but not a big deal. and i know that cause i talk to them sometimes. i never thought it was a big deal i would just think really loudly in their direction and they'd respond. so, because of that, i do know of at least one character who is canonically my friend! phoenix, one of the deathspeaker gods, was genuinely one of my closest friends for a while. we talked All The Time and helped each other take care of ourselves if we needed it. i havent talked to elysium because she doesnt seem to fully be aware im there but if she does ever realize i think we'd be besties. she's so nice and pleasant

(will not be taking any follow up questions on this thanks <3 i have 0 interest in finding out Why they can respond to me they're just my buddies and i like them. dont think about it harder than that)

[chromorbid]

If you get this, answer with 3 random facts about yourself and send it to the last 7 blogs in your notifications, anonymously or not!

i just got so emotional over old ask chains bc of this, god you remember those days????? in 2012-2016 when this was a thing all the time and people had so much fun learning about one another and making friends??? i just happened to be looking at tags on my ollllllld second blog right before seeing this too. that feels a bit serendipitous, dont you think? :')

instead of just "3 random facts" i think i'll use this ask as a springboard prompt for a brief history of my time here on this website, since a lot of folks are returning and it might be nice to come out and see what some of my old lost chums might be up to now.

In mid-2011 i joined tumblr because i realized all my favorite dA artists were posting on dA less and on here more. I didn't do much here until i encountered a piece of fanart of a character from a certain webcomic, got curious about that comic, enjoyed it, and discovered that there was a big community on tumblr who liked it! my first ever URL was.... man i don't really remember! Maybe something reflecting my dA name at the time? But i don't remember what that was then either, having deleted that account ages ago. but i think my second one was "gamzeecryingalonewithpie" or something to that effect because the "laughing alone with salad" stock photo meme was big. It was so silly.

Eventually i trended into making all my urls/handles some sort of pun having to do with death, and some years ago i settled on my current url for a twitter handle because it really hit me in a place. My best friend and currently roommate @mossspores came up with it!

Anyhow, i basically spent all my time on tumblr being comparatively insufferable from 2011 to about 2017 before i migrated the majority of it to twitter. At the moment, I actually keep looking at all my archived posts from my old blog trying to find some old OC stuff and being ridiculously embarrassed at how silly (ignorant? abrasive? entitled?) my young self was. I'm not certain about sharing my olllllld URLs besides the one from before, but probably my most famous one was "ammodramus"--I was bestowed the nickname "Ammo" for the longest time and probably gained the most followers during the run of that one. I think the most followers i ever got up to was somewhere around 700 on my first blog and close to 1,800 on my second one. (funny now, i've had this particular blog probably the longest out of the three and barely have over 100. i like this better, though.)

Now for the BIGGEST thing i was part of....i was really into the whole once-ler fandom craze. yeah. i was there on the ground floor, and basically became one of the biggest enablers of the ask-blog phenomenon. i even tried really hard to make my own of the "personification" blogs eventually, but it fell down flat because i was in a dark place mentally on the side while also dealing with the gradual degradation of my physical ability to draw (aka painful arthritis). But i had the most fun i had ever had online before in the thick of it. i made toooons of friends and i even still keep in touch with a few of them. There were a lot of mistakes and upsetting blunders made by myself and a lot of people i knew, but these days i think i'm generally okay outing myself as having been a part of it. i mean, it's been ten goddamn years since that kicked off after all. lmfao. i was also an ignorant teenager.

Now you'll just see me skulking about on here vaguely while reblogging posts in short bursts because i still never took to figuring out how queuing posts works best. For a long-ass time i had a tagging system i took VERY seriously and trigger-tagged religiously. when i remade to my third and current blog, i gave that up and BOY did my mental health suddenly improve or WHAT. i realized i'd been absolutely running myself ragged with caring about appearances and making sure as often as possible to upset NO ONE with my posts. Basically, the way that simply analyzing every single post i shared and making sure to cover ALL my bases to make sure no one felt irked by my sharing of a post, was, uh. To put it mildly, fucking exhausting. And i posted A LOT. I can guarantee i had to have cumulatively reblogged nearly half a million posts between those two accounts. Last i checked on just my second blog, the pages went back into the 10,000s.

so yeah! hi to anyone who read through this whole thing who i knew way back when! I'm doing much better than i used to be, thanks to a lot of therapy and medication. i made it out of the house i grew up in, even the State i grew up in, and feel a lot less like i'm gonna die before 30! :') i've been chilling, playing final fantasy xiv, and eating lots of rice and vegetables. o/

thanks for the ask! <3

[cryptidofthekeys]

Addison OC

I uh remade the sona I once had into a full OC and I like the redo SO much better than the old version like holy shit gkjfld;jkgfds is this a new comfort OC that Imma love and cherish for awhile? It is, it 100% is

anyways meet Purp, Purps, Addy, or Dison- whatever you wanna call him (...I was thinking of an ACTUAL name aside from just nicknames but I literally got NOTHING whatsoever)

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| Name: Purple Addison

| Nicknames: Purp/Purps, Addy, or Dison

| Gender: Trans FTM (He/Him)

| Age: I’d say… Mid 30s to 40s

| Height: 6’3” but technically speaking he has sizeshifting powers, they are just completely out of his control, the limit for shrinking is 5 inches tall, the limit for growing is 100ft

| Species/Race: Addison which- is p obvious I suppose

| Eye Color: Royal Purple

| Hair Color: Light pastel lavender purple (he usually keeps his hair up in a man bun)

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| Fur Color/Body Type: The same as his hair p much lmao (he’s got very plush fur, so soft that if you push your hand on him you’ll sink into him lmao) and he’s fat- Fat, wide, and tall! (he can be a bit insecure about how wide he is though, not being fat- I need to be VERY clear on that, he’s not insecure about his weight it’s just the width- he’s worried he’ll accidentally bump something or someone over)

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| Appearance: His main outfit (I don’t mind the Addisons’ main attire but I wanna do something different for Dison) but it's a sleeveless black turtleneck with a boob window (he has a rather large tuft of fur sticking out and honestly? It’s shaped into a heart thanks to the boob window) he wears a long dark purple trench coat (not leather) but he usually keeps the sleeves on it rolled up to his elbows (he rarely ever buttons the coat either), he wears green pants (not the green ones the actual Addisons wear, it's like a darker green tbh) and then finally he wears some simple black slip on shoes.

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He doesn’t have claws (it’d be really hard to make miniatures if he did) but he does have fangs, both on top and bottom- (god I hate describing his head shape bc the Addisons are all so… weirdly shaped jkgljfgdls) Imma just leave it as Octagon shaped so yeah, its wide n big enough to fit tbh- he doesn’t have a beard as he’s just got plush fur all over, he has a pointed nose like all the other Addisons, and the only other detail I can think to add is literally just his top surgery scars (the only scars he’s got actually)

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| Personality: Dison is literally super sweet, kind, polite, caring, and loving as can be- He isn’t like the other Addisons in a lot of ways tbh, seeing as he won’t just try to push his products and sell them all the time like he’ll ACTUALLY have a decent conversation with you, now don’t get him wrong he DOES still advertise his miniatures, he IS still an Addison …Or well he thinks he is? …H…He’s not sure what else he could be? He’s shaped like them n shit like that-

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He does get disappointed if you show no interest in his crafts but he’ll accept it and move on, he won’t try to push or force you into anything like that, after all you must have no need or no place to put something like these, he knows it’s… Very different from the other Addisons- but it’s something he’s actually passionate about and he figures if he’s going to advertise something he wants to actually like doing it and have fun.

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He’s kinda like a dad friend tbh, he’s very caring and can be concerned about others, whether it be Darkners or Lightners, he’ll make sure you’re doing okay and if you need to talk about something then come to him, he’ll help out in anyway he can- (if someone’s bothering you? Go ahead, tell him, he’ll sort it out) …Not with violence I should say, he HATES violence, honestly terrified because he can’t fight to save his life so he wouldn’t be very good in a situation like that (he’s a true pacifist, prefers to talk his way out of situations) …BUT… If he’s pushed to his breaking point he’s not just gonna let himself or the others he cares about die ya know?

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Is the type if he joins your adventures, like I said- VERY much a dad friend, brings plenty of healing items, definitely carries snacks in a lil fanny pack and mm various other items tbh (probs a good amount of comfort items like plushies, blankets, stress toys, etc) he literally just wants to make sure you’re alright in the end.

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Despite not knowing how to truly fight and sucking ass at it, he is actually fairly strong! …Which is why 1: He has to be extra careful when making his miniatures (has broken a l o t in the past with carelessness) and then 2: He gives BIG bear hugs, like he’ll wrap his arms fully around you and then just kinda twist side to side (you will be enveloped with the plush fur …just don’t sink too far) …He’d be devastated if he actually crushed someone with a hug and never forgive himself.

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Due to his size already in more ways than one, other Darkners are often intimidated by him and he absolutely hates it, the only time he actually loves being intimidating is when it comes to protecting those he cares about (he can be very overprotective)

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Despite asking and making sure everyone else is okay n shit like that, he’s… Not very good at that himself, making sure HE’S okay, he’s got dark circles under his eyes (he stays up too late sometimes working on miniatures and mm for... OTHER reasons...) he’s definitely got his anxieties and fears and VERY MUCH unlike the other Addisons he won’t deny, he does have a bit of social anxiety and he can be kinda awkward …But he tries to be as nice and polite as he can!

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| Side Facts: Alright I’ve mentioned the others SOOO very much, I have to state something- …Purps actually has no fucking clue what the other Addisons are like LMAO, he’s never personally met them, just saw them selling things and going about their business in the city but he’s never met them personally, honestly? Despite them probs thinking he’s intimidating bc of his size, he’s actually more intimidated of them than they are of him.

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Addy has no clue what the other Addisons are like but he has seen the products they sell…

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They sell much more… Normal things than he has so he wonders if he’s being too particular about this, he does want to fit in so badly, even though he’s never actually properly interacted with the other Addisons, he wants to be like them, he wants to fit in because if he’s NOT like them …Then is he just… a defective Addison? …He sometimes worries about that, that he’s not doing what he should be doing, that he’s going too far outside of the box by making minis and selling them.

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Sometimes he wonders if he should just give that up and sell something a bit more, in the norm… And even start being more advertise-y …and pushing his products more, etc- It seems like they all do that from what he’s seen anyways, he worries about that a lot because he really would like to properly meet them one day, but he’s worried they’ll see him as just merely some kinda glitch or flaw of an Addison because of what he sells AND the fact he’s not as pushy or anything with his products.

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And not even to MENTION the whole size shifting problem, that’s caused him to lose business before multiple times and still continues to do so as well, that’s also why he’s afraid to meet the Addisons bc if they see that well then it just proves that he really is a glitch, a flaw so to speak- …And plus another thing, being suddenly overwhelmingly tiny? Around now a giant place and giant people? …Not fun and even when he’s the one that’s giant? ABSOLUTELY NOT FUN- It’s just completely distressing and he literally freezes in place until the size shifting ability decides to fuck off.

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…I uh haven’t got the situation fully planned out as to why he does that but I’ll have something later on gfjkldkfgdf;s that’s not the main focus anyways- just,, trust the process- Likewise, all my ocs/sonas have the very tiny fine print that you need to zoom in to read! All things are subject to change in the long run (mostly that goes for personality wise and anything in the side facts, not really description wise)

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The one Addison he thought was strange was that one little guy, he was a White Addison and well, Purp hadn’t really seen him before- it’s like he just kinda appeared one day …Or maybe he just didn’t come out that much, either way, likewise- he didn’t know him personally but he knew that very same Addison went onto become the biggest name in all of Cyber City, his name was… Spamton, yeah- that’s it- It’s hard to NOT know about that guy, even now with him… Well, gone pretty much-

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He used to see commercials, ads obviously, etc all the t i m e about this dude, he just suddenly blew up one day it seemed- …While Dison never interacted with him (not in pre-big shot era or actua big shot era) he was happy for the lil fella nonetheless …He did notice the other Addisons seemed tense during that time period and even now, even though he still doesn’t know them personally and hasn’t interacted with him, there’s a certain energy, a certain… Tense aura in the air still surrounding those remaining four.

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…Bc I can say so, imma be honest- literally the most intimidating Addison of all the ones for Dison would be Pink, hands down- I can say that with confidence bc well, I mean he IS my OC- ...Also bc for reasons I won’t be explaining, I think it’s funny as hell that Pink would be the most intimidating for him.

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Lmao the Pink one would scare him the most. But ahem- aside from all that, back to the size shifting ability- if Dison could control it? He would actually fucking LOVE it! He did always wonder what it’d be like to actually be, well, miniature (way more so than a giant, he does not like being a giant period, his width and height already makes him nervous, he always feels like he’s one step closer to hurting someone)

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…He supposes even though he CAN’T control it, when he does become tiny or giant, the ONE singular pro of the both of them together is that it gives him s o much more perspective than what he once had, which definitely caused an increase in quality in his miniature sets.

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(btw I should say I do actually know how he’d feel/what he’d think of all the Addisons, plus Spamton, both pre-big shot and big shot era …And even n o w, I got that in my head) but the final bits I can think to add is just, when he’s not working on miniatures, he likes to relax with some calming music (most of it is instrumental music imma be honest) and or just go for a nice walk …Even though the City can kinda be a pain in the- …ahem- anyways, he has a deep voice + a southern accent (despite being in a city, sh-shut up, just let him have this) but is usually soft spoken (never raises nor wants to raise his voice) and finally…

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Dison is Pansexual and Polyamorous.

[magpiejay1234]

I will do over Days in a much, much later date now. We'll likely be moving to Tag Force 5.

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Anyway, back to Days, due to BBS Volume 2 concept trailer, many people assumed Ventus moving away from his Chamber was him becoming Roxas. This is a particular pet horse of Frustrated Jacob, who very unambigiously dislikes the character, and everything he stands for. This is a common trope for KH1-primary fans, or as I like to call them, Genwunners of KH.

However, the game proper has the whole Shadow the Hedgehog style red herring of him being a replica, with the implication of Kairi's memories of Sora being the thing that allows him to leave the Org., so Nomura's original idea was something different, something we don't know, and probably never know, as many plot points in BBS V2 were repurposed in other games, primarily KH3.

So this is seemingly another case of Jacob forcing his interpretation, rather than Nomura's actual intention. Which is fair I guess, we end Xion's death with the whole Asuka hand to cheek pose in EoE, so a decent chunk of Days is meant to be up to interpretation.

Either way, it seems with the The Truth About Naminé thing, the whole ambiguity around Roxas seems to be intended by primarily by Kanemaki who wanted bring back her favourite character Naminé back, and since Xion is basically her OC, she needs to bring back the person she self-shipped herself with. And obviously as an easy out it is, the Replicas of characters without bodies is a consistent way to achieve this.

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Since game crashed, I cannot say a full verdict about Days's storyline as I cannot get to the post-game stuff, but what I experienced so far up to Day 358 has been quite good, and gave me a similar experience to KH2 FM, despite Days having a more uneven script at parts. I consider the game version to be superior to movie version, due to added context for the rest of Org.

Do I consider this game deserves a remake? Sure.

Would I expect it to be as good? Not with current SE, and Nomura's current priorities (we would need add stuff to tease next game in MoM arc).

Would I expect this game to be remade over Re:Coded? Certainly not. As others noted, Re:Coded has a much better balanced gameplay, though I probably won't prefer it since it doesn't have the sheer power experience of the late-game Days has.

Considering the fandom's current disdain for the platforming, adventuring, and RPG aspects of KH over the character-action-combo gameplay against human bosses, I don't expect a game like Days to be ever made. Western Fandom really, really wants Final Fantasy franchise overall to become Devil May Cry with better writing, and that is nothing but a pure nightmare concept for me, and one that will further degenerate KH's plot structure for centuries.

Would I recommed this game? It will take a really long while you to get full hang of this game, since this game is the anti-Speedrun game due its visual novel structure, but if you are into visual novels over speedrunning action slashers, this game is the Kingdom Hearts game for you. Due to Kanemaki's influence, the story does better justice to the visual novel formula over BBS, and Coded's variants, not to mention there is tons of added context to KH2.

So yes, get a good setup, and play this game, and document every oddity here, since the stuff introduced here are the ones Nomura digs the least through, which means more people will be bamboozled when they come back.

Now we wait for the inevitable Strelitzia game, where you play as the Specter Nobody, playing the events of CoM from Marluxia's perspective. Just like CoM was partially based off SotN mixed with Castle of Illusions the Strelitzia game will be GBA Castlevania games with Soma Cruz mixed with the old DuckTales game.

[minhyunglee]

countdown to haechan’s birthday [d-day]  ➥born to dominate the world

(insp.) (cr. 1, 2, 3)

it’s finally d-day!!!!!!!!! happy birthday to nct’s treasure, lee donghyuck, haechan, fullsun, etc. you were born to perform, have high viewership rating, have the brightest smile, eat so very well, be overflowing with love, and be the most extra amongst the endless other things you were born to do. i am so happy that we are all able to be a part of your journey and hope that the journey never stops!! i truly truly hope that you can keep shining as bright as you are both on and off camera. it can definitely be tiring constantly being in the spotlight, but i hope that you stay well and stay happy :’) i also hope you can continue to discover what you love and what you’re good at so that your confidence remains solely in you !! anyway you are so so so talented and there is no doubt you were born to dominate the world

[rp-repliforce]

Civilian OC: Blackbeetle

Alright, so... Here's my new (WIP) OC.

I was originally going to call him Bulldozer BlackBeetle, but I realized that he doesn't exactly look like he has the equipment to be a bulldozer, so for now he's just plain ‘BlackBeetle.’

I'm thinking that he does some sort of manual labor, so he's pretty strong. He might also be roughly 6ft tall, but I haven’t settled on it yet. He has no wings, but he does have storage space under his elytra where he keeps his tools.

He does actually have legs, but I wasn’t able to draw them because of the camera angle. He only has four limbs, which are located where a beetle’s front and back pairs of legs would go. (He has no middle-pair.) As his name would suggest, his color palette would pretty much be varying shades of black, but I may end up adding some sparse yellow highlights.

As for his character, I'd say he's a bit more complex than he looks.

Unlike the majority of Reploids, he actually idolizes humans. His deepest desire is to loved and accepted by them, and to live in their world.

While he'd spend hours toiling, he'd sometimes see humans enjoying themselves nearby. Some Reploids in his position would feel jealous, but instead, he came to the conclusion that humans must be better than Reploids. Their lives seem so carefree with machines tending to their every need. He would even sometimes see them in small, tight-knit groups called "families"... Something he never had.

He sometimes wishes he could be human, but he knows it's impossible. The closest he could get is being remade into a humanoid, but... he could never afford it with his wages, and even if he did go through with it somehow, it’s just not the same.

In most of his interactions with humans, he would often be left feeling ignored, or just tolerated. He would blame his own looks for getting this treatment (whether or not it actually is the reason), but It might also be because he’d be trying to socialize at a time and place that isn’t really ideal (or with the wrong people), but he doesn’t realize it.

I'm thinking that he's surrounded by people, but deep down he's really lonely.

I figured that if he keeps getting treated this way over and over, he might get so frustrated that he would go maverick. He would kidnap his human crush (who isn’t even really interested in him as a person), and force her to spend time with him. He wouldn’t do anything more than that. When the Maverick Hunters would come, he’d act possessive of her and try to hide her behind his shell. However, it would be possible to talk him down. When he’d eventually come to his senses and realize the terrible thing he’s done, he would let her go, and would surrender to the hunters (even showing them his wrists so they can cuff him). While in custody, he would quietly accept whatever punishment they would give him.

But... I like him too much to let him go down this route, so he can expect to find a friend sometime in the future. 😊

I know that there’s also more to his character than admiring humans, but I haven’t explored that part yet. I do have an idea of his overall demeanor though. I think he’d be a humble and hard-working sort, but he’s also kind of a lower-energy character overall (despite his troubled heart).

Also, I think that if someone gave him a hug for longer than four seconds, he’d probably start crying.

Since you can tell a lot about a character from their living space, I also tried to imagine what his home would look like:

I imagine the walls to made of some sort of cheap, bright-yellow metal paneling, which would have a some oil stains on it. It would be a pretty small room, which was set up for him by his employer (who legally owns him). There would be various tools hung on the wall (which are coincidentally closer to the stains), and an energy-pellet dispenser in the corner. His sleep pod isn’t really much of a ‘pod.’ It’s more like a circular base with a rim that he neatly fits into. He sleeps by tucking his limbs beneath his shell and lying on his stomach, because if he tried to lay on his back, he wouldn’t be able to get back up again and would just be stuck helplessly flailing his arms in the air until someone comes to get him. I also imagined that he has magazine clippings of humans taped to his wall. It’s all just photos of people that he found himself admiring.

Other than that, he doesn’t have much to his name.

But... yeah. I’d say that’s about all I have on him so far. 😅 I feel like my description is kind of messy, but hopefully this wasn’t too hard to read.

[nukenai]

sorry this is just gonna be me talking a bit about my experience playing live a live vs how i feel about something that’s been dear to my soul since i was 5 years old (pokemon). Slight LAL spoilers I guess lmao.

The big word I can use to describe Live A Live is REFRESHING. Me, personally, I am such a fan of sprite work. I love sprites. Black and White I think are the most visually appealing Pokemon games. I really can’t even say I minded the XY style... I think ORAS really, really benefited from how beautiful it was, and I’m glad I was able to see Hoenn remade in 3D. The experience is unmatched.

But.

I think that the switch to 3D models loses a lot of style. I think it loses a lot of, let’s say class. I played a bit of the FF4 remake and ooh, boy. I get it. I get why they want to switch to 3D models. But I can’t even express how overjoyed I am that they did NOT do that with Live A Live. They didn’t go with chunky, clunky, ugly polygonal chibis or even worse, realistically proportioned 3D models. I can’t IMAGINE what a nightmare that would’ve been.

Instead they took a game that was sprites, and made it nicer sprites. They made the backgrounds deep and detailed. Extremely fucking cool. I remember being excited when I saw Octopath - but I don’t like JRPGs, and I have to be honest, I do NOT like the art style of Octopath. Every trailer I saw for that game... my big thought was WHERE ARE THE FUCKING COLORS? That’s even a complaint I have about the official art for LAL’s cast... I kind of hate it all. I hate the desaturation.

But LAL itself, the actual game, HOLY hell! I played Prehistory first which was a fine chapter, I’m pretty neutral on it but it was so COLORFUL! VIBRANT! Then I played Edo Japan which was darker, because it is night time. But I found myself constantly stopping, and saying, out loud, “Wow, this game is beautiful”. I tweeted some screenshots with that as a caption, which was the first LAL tweet I made that Tokita-san faved and retweeted.

This was the view that first made me really go, “Wow”.

I used to edit sprites when I was a kid. I couldn’t draw, but I loved editing Pokemon trainers into my OCs. With the switch to 3D models, I was dead in the water. I couldn’t do shit! It kinda sucked. I cried when I got to play with my Pokemon in Pokemon Amie. But for all we gained with the 3D models, I feel like we lost a lot, too. Legends Arceus is exempt from this discussion as it is a shining beauty of a game and I adore it. JUST WISH I COULD HEAR THE FUCKING MUSIC.

This is a disorganized rant but basically, I’m just saying I’m so happy that there is a market for games like Live A Live to be remade, to look like how they were always dreamed up to be. And that doesn’t mean 3D models, it doesn’t mean HD. Sometimes it just means a coat of love, and that so much feels like what this game got.

Recent Pokemon games don’t feel like that to me. I didn’t hate Sword and Shield, but boy, are they ugly and bland. Not once did I ever say “wow” or even FEEL any sort of awe or joy at the environments. The Eternatus fight was not impressive and I hated the entire plot of that game. The Crown Tundra DLC was ok because I got horses. But the whole place was just so fucking ugly. I don’t just blame the UK for that either. Shit was unfinished and looked like garbage.

Scarlet and Violet are giving me the same feeling. I’m not excited. The environments look maybe better, but I feel no style. I don’t feel love. It looks like everything else, but maybe slightly worse. It’s all the same. I also felt like that seeing every fucking Square game in the Direct today. Shit all looks the same, I can’t tell any of it apart.

But I see Live A Live, and it even looks so different from Octopath. My only memories of it, and from the sequel’s trailer today, are washed out browns and bronzes and dust and blah. But just look at the screenshot up there. It’s supposed to be night time and there’s purples. Reds. Oboromaru’s motif color is purple and it’s washed throughout the entire chapter. The insides of the castle are lit with candles and you can feel that.

And that’s just one chapter. Damn. I fucking hated the Middle Ages chapter but I can still say it’s beautiful. I enjoyed dipshitting around in the Dominion of Hate for a while, GRINDING UP MASARU’S FUCKIN LEVEL 2 ASS, cause the place was still so pretty despite it all. I felt welcome in that game and like it was happy to have me. Even if I’m some fake fan who didn’t play the original and had only heard of it, and only had a couple songs on my ipod because Yoko composed them.

Idk man. I’ve just got a ton of thoughts. It’s been a really, really long time since a game deeply affected me like Live A Live has. Legends Arceus having a couple bangers and also having Ingo in it is not the same. I loved that game but it didn’t hit me in my soul like Live A Live has. I’m hoping this game will stick with me and be at the front of my heart for the rest of my life.

And I want more people to enjoy it, too.

Anyways look at these fucking sick-ass sprites of Edgelord of Dark Oersted they fucking rock

[kaesaaurelia]

here’s your shining sword and spear

For @whumptober2020 day 19: "Broken Hearts” (and incorporating all three suggested themes, “grief,” “mourning loved one,” and “survivor’s guilt”)

Allusion to Satan/Crowley, brief mention of an ill-fated OC / OC pairing, and an OC having a one-sided crush on Michael.

This fic has a companion piece about Crowley here that focuses more on Satan/Crowley and what Hell was like just after the war, but you don’t need to have read that to read this.

Content warning for discussion of a failed suicide attempt, and for Heaven being a toxic work environment.

"It's not too late to stay here," Vehuel said, hopefully. "I'll go for you and that way you can just do whatever you want until we get back."

"No, no, I have to go, Lucifer wants me there," said Gadreel, glowing with pride. "I'm his favorite."

Vehuel bit back a remark about this; they'd had this discussion too many times already, about how Lucifer treated his favorites, and about how Gadreel deserved better than that.  He could be as proud as he wanted of what Lucifer said to him, but Lucifer was careless and cruel, and used flattery very deliberately, and Vehuel hoped very much that he would be remade into a better version of himself after all this.  Perhaps a version with less authority over Gadreel.  A version that would grovel in apology for the deeds of his predecessor, and would never make anyone tremble with fear because they'd made a very small mistake with gravity that hadn't even been permanent, and that would also maybe stand still while Vehuel punched him.  That seemed fair; it wasn't like Vehuel could hurt him, after all.  But it would be cathartic.  "I'm sure he wouldn't want you to get hurt for his sake, then," Vehuel lied.  "Since he likes you so much."  Gadreel's wings flicked in irritation, because he knew that wasn't true, but he didn't dare call her on it.

"I'll be fine," Gadreel insisted.  "And besides, I'd love to see the look on that wanker Gabriel's face when we storm in and take Heaven. Aren't you looking forward to that?

"Yeah, I guess," she said. She did kind of want to see Gabriel's face when it turned out she'd been the one to save all of Heaven from Lucifer's poorly-thought-out plan. (Gabriel would not be there; he and all his underlings would miss the entire war for a lengthy meeting of the Human Design Team.  He would never see Vehuel as anything but a troublesome and suspicious remnant of Lucifer's forces.) "I'm just worried something bad will happen to you," she said.

"You're always worried something bad will happen to me and it never does, Vehuel, I don't know why you think I can't take care of myself," said Gadreel. Vehuel stopped herself from reminding him of the time he'd almost licked a raw singularity. She would regret that restraint later. "Besides, God told you not to worry, didn't She?"

Vehuel snorted; she knew he was being difficult for difficulty's sake.  "I thought we were disobeying Her now?" she asked, with an ironic twist of her spirals.

"I'm just saying," he said.  "Anyway, why don't you lend me some of your eyes?  Then I could see trouble coming."

If he saw trouble coming, Vehuel knew, he'd leap right into it.  "I really don't want to, sorry," she said, drawing her wings over herself nervously, to hide some of the glow of her halo.  At least Gadreel wouldn't doubt her sincerity.  He didn't know she had the mysterious thing Michael had given her, the Weapon.  It ought to have made her more confident, but it frightened her that Michael thought she'd need it.  "I'm kind of worried I won't be able to take care of myself?" she admitted.

"What?" he asked, sounding almost outraged. "No!  Why?  You're bigger and meaner than me, I need the eyes more."

"No, you're definitely meaner than me," she said.  "Remember what you did to poor Len?"  She'd been very sad about Len breaking up with her, sure, but it wasn't really his fault she was clingy and annoying and didn't love him enough.

"He deserved it," said Gadreel.  "It was justice.  It's not really meanness if it's deserved, is it?"

"I don't think anyone really deserves to be tied to a comet and left for a few million years until he's missed at the next all hands meeting," Vehuel said.

"Sure they do!  Anyway, you're still bigger than me."

"By a smidge, Gadreel, it won't matter if either of us has to fight -- I don't know, Michael or someone like that."  She prayed Gadreel would have the good sense never to fight Michael, and knew in her heart that Gadreel would never have any good sense.  "Listen, how about you stay in front and I go behind you and watch out for anyone trying to sneak up. We'll work together."  They always worked well together, even when they weren't getting along.

"Oh, fine," he said, rolling his (apparently insufficiently numerous) eyes.  "But you'd better pay attention."

"I'm not gonna let anything happen to you!" she said.

"You'd better not," he warned her.  "I won't let you forget it if you do."

"I know, that's why," she said, shoving him.  "You'll be fucking insufferable for eternity otherwise."

"I'm going to be fucking insufferable for eternity anyway," he said proudly.

Gadreel might be an idiot, but he was her idiot, and even if she was planning to betray the rest of them, she would never let anyone hurt him.  So when he'd lunged at an archangel like a nitwit as soon as they got to Heaven, she pulled out the strange, sharp Weapon that Michael had given her to deter Lucifer from hurting her.  If it could deter Lucifer from doing something cruel, of course it would be able to deter Gadreel from doing something stupid.

Michael had neglected to mention, however, that it would carve through his spirals like he was nothing but a dust cloud, cutting him nearly in half.  He looked back at her, terrified and betrayed, and then some stupid seraph knocked Vehuel out of the way to get at somebody more important, and though she looked for Gadreel the whole time, she didn't see him again.

--

Vehuel was just being released from the hospital when the Archangel Michael came to see her. This would be her third set of wings; the first had been sheared off by a comet Lucifer hadn't warned them about, and the second had burned up in a supernova she'd thrown into the middle of the battlefield. She wondered how long her third set would last.

"We've decided to give you a metal," said Michael. "For your bravery."

It hadn't been bravery. It had been pretty much the opposite of that. "Thank you," she said, curling tightly in on herself. "What... um, what does that mean exactly?"

"It's a new concept," said Michael brightly, and Vehuel couldn't understand how Michael could be so cheerful -- how everyone, really, could be so unceasingly positive. She hadn't felt a single negative emotion off of anyone while she was here, but she was miserable. No one seemed to notice, though. They kept calling her a trooper.

She didn't want to be a trooper. She wasn't sure she wanted to be anything.

But now Michael was explaining about metals, and electricity, and reflectivity. "I know what metals are. The substance. I know those," said Vehuel, who had worked with them before. She'd had to jury-rig her own out of helium, even, when she and Len been tapped to build those two gas giants. "What I mean is --"

"Oh! Oh, of course, the part about giving you one," said Michael. "It's -- well, it's sort of decorative. It's to show everyone that you're a hero. It was very brave, what you did out there with the supernova. Saved us a lot of time, and maybe lives. How did you know you'd get out?"

It had not been brave in the least, but Vehuel had lied to Lucifer, and she knew she could lie to Michael. "It was a calculated risk," she said, trying to make it sound carefree, like it had been nothing to throw an unstable white dwarf into the battlefield. She tried to make it sound like she'd known she would probably get out all right. That maybe she hadn't expected her wings to catch fire, but that the sacrifice was minor in the grand scheme of things.

She tried to make it sound like she'd been planning to get out all right in the first place, and not that she’d panicked and regretted her choice as soon as she’d made it.

"I heard I didn't get Lucifer, though," she added. "Is that true?" He was the only one she'd wanted to actually... end.  Or make different, anyway.  She didn't know if she had wanted to end anyone, really.  It hadn't occurred to her that people could stop existing.

"No, I dealt with him later," said Michael. "Don't worry, though, he's far away."

But he still exists, she thought, and as for being told not to worry, Vehuel had never obeyed that command.

"Do you want your metal now?" Michael asked.

"Um. Okay?" said Vehuel, who didn't know how this was going to go. Michael extended one of her hands, and suddenly Vehuel's whole being felt warm and strange, and she saw that in among the whorls of blue and purple that made her, there were specks of gold, like stars.

"Isn't it nice?" Michael asked brightly. "I thought the gold would go nicely with your eyes."

"Ah. It. Um. I. Guess?' said Vehuel, her halo flaring. She resisted the urge to cover herself with her wings, because it would hurt like anything, but for some reason the idea of the Archangel Michael having noticed her in an aesthetic capacity was terrifying and thrilling all at once and she didn't know what to say. What did you say to that?

But Michael was already moving on. "Rest up! We're going to need you for the rest of the stars," she said, and Vehuel was both relieved and disappointed. She wanted to talk to Gadreel about it, only he would have made fun of her. Or asked her how exactly this was any different from the way Lucifer behaved. But Lucifer had been doing it on purpose, and Michael surely wasn't, and also, she would never be able to talk to Gadreel again, because he was gone forever.

--

Vehuel went right back to work after as soon as they'd let her, because she felt like, for the very first time, her mind was empty and echoing. There was nothing for her to worry about anymore. The worst had already happened. She had made it happen.

So she drifted into the outer reaches of Earth's solar system -- also very empty, but not, thankfully, echoing -- and she filled it up with little things. On her best day, she made a weird oblong object that looked like a potato -- or, rather, several millennia later, when she first held a potato in her hand, she would think My god, this looks just like Haumea!  But at the time, she'd only thought, This looks so stupid, I love it, before giving it two tiny moons and sending it hurtling end over end on its eccentric way.

On her worst day, she tried to build a fitting memorial for Gadreel. She remembered that first conversation she'd had with him, playing with gravity and sparks; she remembered how beautiful she'd found that tiny binary star system they'd ended up making by accident, and how much care and creativity they'd put into making it out of real starstuff in real space, and she tried to make something like that out of rock and ice, but she kept adding onto them, trying to make them the same size, and eventually the bigger one was nearly as big as a real planet, and the little one kept going unstable and breaking little crumbs of itself off when she added to it, so she gave up. They would have to be close enough.

She wondered why she was here.  She couldn't imagine that humans would ever come here or see these things she was making -- they were such fragile, helpless little things that apparently a little bit of hard UV could knock them right out of commission forever.

But eventually, once she'd done all she could in the Kuiper Belt and was back in Heaven filing shitty paperwork for shitty archangels, a posting on Earth happened to open up -- well above her rank, but then again, she had the metal Michael had awarded her, and she hoped that would count for something.  So after calling in some favors with the physics office and making very sure that her halo wasn't the wrong kind of UV, she put in her application.  Maybe she could find a new thing she was for.  Maybe she could be good at protecting someone.  Even if it wasn't Gadreel.

[ashintheairlikesnow]

For Dex: 8, 9, 14, 25, 34, 59, 70... sorry for asking so many but I love him

*whispers* It makes me so happy that people like Dex

8. What are their good and bad traits?

Good traits: Dex is intelligent, witty, and actually has a pretty dry, dark sense of humor. This isn’t really obvious to anyone until Wright starts to bring him out of his shell. He is also good at being a quiet, listening ear when you want someone to talk to but you don’t necessarily need anyone to FIX things for you.

He’s very well-read, and can speak intelligently on any one of a number of topics, although he likes history and art history the best and so he has read the most in those subjects. He tries to read all the classics, too. 

Bad traits: Even before he was remade, he was a submissive sort of person, and prone to anxiety. He feels better when someone else is in control of the decisions - even Isaac Thompson did. So Dex tends to feel there is something very, very wrong with him in his core being because he is so reassured by not being in charge.

This can lead him to struggle with making choices on his own. The anxiety study he thought he was signing up for was supposed to help him with this - however, it simply allowed WRU to peg him as having the perfect personality type for their attempt at a new style of conditioning. They just had to break all the anger out of him first.

He is also very secretive, although this is sort of understandable given his situation. And he bottles up his anger until it explodes, which never hurts anyone but can lead to Dex misbehaving and being disciplined or just looking terribly dramatic.

9. Do they have any artistic talent?

Not really. Dex appreciates art, but he doesn’t really have the skills or any latent talent to create it. 

14. What is a pet peeve of theirs?

He dislikes loud chewing - it bothers him IMMENSELY. He also dislikes people who clomp up and down stairs instead of walk, and people who talk to him like he is a stupid animal - he may be a human pet but ‘human’ is still part of the term, so come on, talk to him like he is one.

He dislikes people who couch their sadism in flowery justifications - in that sense, he prefers Karen, who admits at least to him that she honestly just really enjoys hurting him. At least that’s honest.

25. What type a high schooler are/were they? 

Isaac Thompson was a nervous, mostly-closeted high schooler who participated in marching band and did ‘tech crew’ - set up and take down of the sets/stage - for his school’s plays and musicals. He really enjoyed that, and it made him feel like a part of the play even though he wasn’t good at acting or singing. 

He excelled in math class and in history class, and struggled primarily with physical skills - he’s not particularly athletic, although he keeps himself in somewhat good shape as a Box Boy, as regular exercise is part of the conditioning. However, Wright can still fairly easily pick him up - he’s always been lithe. It’s one of the giveaways that his original training at WRU was NOT of a domestic nature.

A lot of girls had crushes on him in high school. He was utterly oblivious.

34. Have they ever broken the law?

No. But he will break several, soon enough, and he’ll do so with joy in his heart.

59. What is their favourite song?

If Karen is nearby, he’ll tell you Tchaikovsky’s Sixth Symphony.

If Karen is not nearby, he’ll tell you it’s this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g3irVysJ5as and yes, he occasionally asks Henry to play it, although he refuses to explain why he likes the song so much.

70. What do you, the creator of this OC, like most about them? 

One trope that appears, again and again, in what I write can be summed up like this: Sometimes we give trust before it’s earned, and we hope we made the right decision to give it.

I like that Dex is funny and dry and I like that his anger boils over and I like Dex, but one thing that I genuinely adore writing about him is... that he gives someone trust, in the end, they haven’t yet earned. He has to hope his secret - that he isn’t brainless, that he reads, that he hates his life, that he dreams of something better - won’t be given up to Karen and used to break him apart all over again. 

I love that Dex, ultimately, hands over his trust and prays that he made the right choice. 

[sharpxstpetals]

Anonymous sent: What first inspired you when creating Lily as an OC?

First off, I wanna say to whoever sent this a while ago that I fucking love this question bc I went down the rabbit hole exploring really early versions of her that I made/wrote a long time ago. So thank you, it’s been fun seeing how much she’s evolved.

Second, as for what first inspired me when creating Lily.. well, more than ten years ago, little ol’ Abs wanted to try out rping and was inspired to make a monster of sorts, something out of the ordinary ( as we all do when we start rping, I think ). Back then I took examples from R.esident E.vil monsters and things such as that and tried to make a humanoid tyrant of sorts??? Lily is what spawned from that. That’s right, she is literally the first muse I’ve ever had. I eventually lost her as a muse after four years of rping her when I moved on to canon characters, but she’d stayed in my heart for the longest time and I occasionally rped her in private stuff ( forums, IMVU, etc ).

I only just started actually rping her again about a year or so ago when I decided to hop into this fandom with a friend of mine, had to overhaul her a bit to get her to fit into this fandom, but most of the original concepts have stayed. The inspiration this time around was just to see if I could revive my OG baby and make her into someone better, someone with more emotions and feelings, with more negatives/positives and faults, with a bit of a heartwrenching and lengthy backstory. Also got inspired by flower symbols for some reason when I decided to keep the blade arm and her name, so, there’s that too.

anyway I’m so happy I remade her because??? she’s so important to me and people seem to like her and just??? kdjbhdfv ye

[ifsomeoneasksiwasnothere]

I want to know, have you ever thought about doing headcanons for the original Jane the killer? :0 Jane Richardson

(Warning: big text ahead)

I've been debating with myself quite recently about that.

I know that the original Jane's creator remade her story into something very different and she's originally called Jane Richardson.

I even read everything there is about her and all. My thoughts were to change the Jane I was making headcanons for (Arkensaw) to the original one (Richardson). But sadly, I'm not very sure if I'll do that.

I came to a conclusion after comparing the Janes: Arkensaw's story concept it's much more appealing to me than Richardson's.

It makes kinda sad to say this cuz I have huge respects for Jane's real creator and I'm aware that sounds rude to say that the fake version of her OC it's better (for me) than her actual OC.

You see, in my perspective, Jane Richardson is unnecessarily overpowered by the LiquidHate, plus her story, traumas, and conflicts are not well portrayed as it should be. Her abilities consist of Shape-Shifting, Limb Regeneration, Accelerated Healing, Vocal Mimicry, Strength, Stamina, Speed, and Agility. All because of LiquidHate. Did she acquire all these powerful abilities by effort? No. Did she get them by going on a dangerous adventure? No. It’s given to her because of an experiment, and THAT’S it. Personally, I find this explanation for her powers quite boring :/ and that’s the main reason her character could use a lot of improvement and doesn’t appeal to me.

However, I do know that Jane Arkensaw's story also has its flaws and major grammar mistakes, BUT Arkensaw's story has, at least for me, much more emotion and personality that justifies Jane's hate for Jeff. I mean, she was burned???? Alive????? She got so fucking mad at him that she dedicates her entire life to kill him. All her strengths are much more realistic and were acquired by her power of hate and determination (aka by her effort) to kill him. So that makes her character much more interesting and easier to empathize with rather than Richardson who is a very distant character made by science.

Said all that, I’m heavily considering to continue making headcanons for Jane Arkensaw instead of Jane Richardson, even though she’s not the original one. I’m not really happy to make this decision because I hate to ignore major canon facts when making headcanons, however, I don’t intend to write for Richardson for now.

[scarletlotus182]

OC x Fate Grand Order

I went and remade a servant profile for one of my OCs last night and I’m kind of proud of how it turned out so I’m posting it here!

Rachel [ Assassin ] ***** {B A A Q Q (A)}

Strength- C+ Agility- A+ Endurance- C- Mana- A+ Luck- B- NP- EX

Star Absorbtion: 98% Star Generation: 25% NP Charge ATK: 0.97% NP Charge DEF: 4%

Q: 5 A: 4 B: 2 E: 6

[0]: Rachel is a prodigy mage who was the product of an affair and is eventually taken in by her father. Raised to be her family's heir, Rachel was given strict training day in and day out to perfect her magic. In an effort to escape her father she accepted a job that would take her into the pacific northwest that changed her life forever.

[1]: Height/Weight: 157cm/47kg Source: Fool of Osiris Region: Pacific Northwest, USA Alignment: Chaotic Neutral Gender: Female Noticeably small in stature, noticeably angry when that fact is brought up

[2]: Despite being a creative and artistic person, much of her magic is used oppressively, focusing her mana into dense singularities that destroy wraiths. Naturally this is the result of spending years in the household of her father, where nothing else matters but success.

[3]: { Noble Phantasm: Dark side of the Moon } Rank: EX Type: Anti-Personnel With extreme focus, Rachel tunes her mana to channel the power of the moon. Focusing it into her blade, she cuts the connection between life and death and returns the souls of her opponents to the void. This ultimate technique was mastered after Rachel was able to open her heart to others and shake herself free from the oppressive teachings of her father. With her creative spirit set free, this is only a first in a long list of techniques.

[4]: Call of the Raven: A+ Rachel's familiars are the ravens that watched over and guided her as a child. A raven is cunning, and scouts for the pack. With this, Rachel is given insight on her enemies that's on par with Rank A Clairvoyance while also giving her the path to defeat them.

[5]: Rachel's journey through the Pacific Northwest was defined by three women that she met there. First was a woman in red, who reflected Rachel's past, and wandered aimlessly with no direction. Second was a woman in black, who showed Rachel her future, had she continued to close her heart. Third, however, was a woman in white who showed Rachel the present - and how to live in the moment.

[I]: In the household of her father, Rachel never had a chance to spread her wings or express her inner self. Despite that, her older half-sister Amanda always encouraged her to try. And so, in the nine years she lived in that house her only act of defiance was dying her bangs a bright, and vibrant purple, a color that proudly displays the color of her soul, the color of her magic.

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Passive Skills: -Presence Concealment B: Increases own critical star generation rate by 8%.

-Territory Creation A: Increases own Arts performance by 10%.

Active Skills:

-Magecraft A: Increase own Arts performance for 1 turn by 50%

-Cry of the Raven A+: Grants self-evasion for 1 turn. Charges NP by 40%. Increases crit star generation by 75% for 3 turns. Grants 10 Crit Stars.

-Iaido A: Increases Crit Damage by 50% for 3 turns. Increases DEF by 35% for 3 turns

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== Noble Phantasm: Dark Side of the Moon == [ Arts ] Rank: EX | Classification: Anti-Personnel | Hit Count: 1

[ Visual: Purple energy swirls around Rachel as she focuses on her blade in it's sheath. After a second a full moon reveals itself and illuminates the screen. Then Rachel draws her sword in a slicing motion and the moon turns black while the background turns white and the motion of the blade sweeps across the enemies. ]

-Effect : Inflict heavy damage to all enemies Remove Enemy buffs Chance to Instant-Kill all enemies Damage: [ 450% | 600% | 675% | 712.5% | 750% ] Death Chance: [ 60% | 70% | 80% | 90% | 100% ] ==================================================

[Summoning] "Assassin Class servant at your service! You can just call me Rachel."

[Level] "I'm a long way from perfect. There's no way I could stop here!"

[1st Ascension] "You've gotten me this far? Maybe you aren't such a hopeless master after all."

[2nd Ascension] "Ah, it's so good to be going on adventures like this again! I'm getting really excited now!"

[3rd Ascension] "With my mastery of the dark arts, I won't let you down, Master."

[4th Ascension] "To believe that dark is evil is naive. Darkness is simply another aspect life."

...

[Battle Start 1] "Don't lose your cool now, Master."

[Battle Start 2] "As I am now, there's no way I could lose."

[Skill Use 1] "Lunar Gate, open!"

[Skill Use 2] "Darkness, embrace me."

[Command Card 1] "Target sighted."

[Command Card 2] "I'm ready!"

[Command Card 3] "Let's go!"

[Attack 1] "Chaos Bloom!"

[Attack 2] "Dread Wings!"

[Attack 3] "Binding Order!"

[Ex Attack] "Final Indignation!"

[Noble Phantasm Selected] "Lunar Gate; Full Moon formation."

[Noble Phantasm] "Focus, you think you've seen darkness? Let me show you, Dark Side of the Moon! Now return to nothing."

[Damage] "Urgh."

[Damage from Noble Phantasm] "It doesn't... hurt..."

[Defeated 1] "I'm sorry... I really messed up."

[Defeated 2] "Mia..."

[Victory 1] "That was nothing, were they even trying?"

[Victory 2] "Didn't even break a sweat!"

...

[Bond 1] "You're not a bad master, y'know? Inexperienced and a little naive, but there are worse things to be."

[Bond 2] "I'm surprised how easy it is to talk to you. You remind me a lot of an old friend of mine. We met when we both transferred to a new school and it actually made me feel better knowing I wasn't the only out of my element."

[Bond 3] "This sword? It was a gift from my sister, from when she went on a trip to Japan. There's an engraving of a raven on the blade that's styled after my familiars. It's my most prized possession!"

[Bond 4] "I wasn't always this talkative. I used to be more... reserved. It wasn't like I was shy, I just didn't like talking to people. Or rather, I just didn't like people. But sometimes people are just like that because they haven't met the right ones yet."

[Bond 5] "Hey Master, I want you to know something. I really appreciate people like you. Someone friendly and easy going who has no trouble reaching out to others, they're the best kind of people. It was someone like that that saved me, y'know?"

[Dialogue 1] "Maybe I should sharpen my sword... Wait, do servants even need to do that?"

[Dialogue 2] "I hate stories where dark is evil, it's such lazy writing!"

[Dialogue 3] "I wonder how Amanda's doing. Ah, she's my sister, she kept me company through a lot of rough years."

[Dialogue 4 (Musashi Present)] "That swordswoman is gorgeous! Ah, b- but I'm a married woman so it doesn't matter!"

[Dialogue 5 (Osakabehime Present)] "That weird, albeit pretty shut in - I feel a strange sense of kinship with her. Gross."

[Dialogue 6 (Orion Present)] "That's Artemis? Well, I guess they say 'don't meet your heroes' for a reason."

[Likes] "Shounen anime and action games! Oh, and pretty girls!"

[Dislikes] "Ugh, everything... That's not true, I think I just hate stuffy, uptight people."

[About the Holy Grail] "A device that grants any wish? Hmmm, as a mage, I wouldn't trust anything like that. But assuming it's true, I'd use it on my mother. She's been through a lot."

[During an Event] "It sounds noisy out there, I- I'm not that good with crowds."

[Birthday] "Though I don't think birthdays are anything special, it's nice having something to celebrate."

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     [ So this is a long time coming: basically my thoughts on this blog, and...honestly what to do with it. Before anyone (if anyone) panics, I’m not leaving. I’m just...well, conflicted. About a lot of things. So this is gonna be me rambling about my options, feelings, and just...idek. If you wanna know what’s up with me and my sucky activity lately, um...give this a read? No idea how long it’ll be - I’ve got a lot of ground to cover. In short...I’m considering a hiatus, or maybe remaking, or...maybe both? Maybe neither? Hence being, as said...conflicted. ]

     I’ve had my misgivings about the blog overall for a while now. I think, in part, I’ve tried spreading myself too thin. I’ve had this blog for over two years now, and granted while a lot has changed...I still have pages that aren’t finished. I have muses that have never had a single ask or thread. At times I wonder if I have too many, if I have too few, or maybe I should go back to my roots and have the blog JUST be Ryū’s again.

     But I don’t want that. I don’t think I don’t want that? Some days I’m so frustrated with various things I want to drop everything. Other days I want to do even MORE. 

     ...I’m getting ahead of myself. And yes, this is mostly me talking to myself. I think better when I write things down, and...honestly, I need some major self-reflection. If you don’t want to get into my “personal” life, then uh...skip ahead a bit. I dunno. I just feel like it’s vital to understand where this is coming from.

     Basically for at least the last...we’ll say four months...my mental health (while it’s always been very poor) has gotten...exponentially worse. Especially worrying given that I have NO mental health care, and never have. Basically a lot of “real life” issues have been popping up, escalating, and bogging me down until I’m at the lowest I’ve been in...a very long time. I’d wager the last...more than ten years? It’s just that all these bad things have happened or gotten worse this year, and all at about the same time.

     Which makes doing ANYTHING, let alone something like running an RP blog...very difficult. I know I put on a very happy, positive face...and while that’s a lie, per se...it also covers up a LOT. I realize no one likes to bring the negative of their life onto their blogs. And a lot of us have a LOT we’re dealing with. I just...am not sure how much longer I can keep this up.

     ...especially given that, again, I can’t afford any kind of help. Therapy, medication, ANYTHING. I’ve been fighting a very off-kilter brain all my life without anything to aid it. I’ll be blunt: it’s a miracle I’ve lived this long. And part of the reason I HAVE, is because of the friendships I’ve built here. Some have been lost, some are newly started, but...a lot about this blog has kept me afloat.

     Which, getting back on track, is why it’s so...distressing to me that I’m slipping here. Things aren’t how they were, and I’m not sure how to fix them. I dunno if it’s purely my slipping mental state (very believable), or if something actually DOES need to change here.

     Granted, there are things here that frustrate me. I have a good number of mutuals, and despite having open posts rather often, especially over the past month or so, I have interactions with a very small percentage of that...and even less of that is something steady. Don’t get me wrong: I ADORE everyone who writes with me. And to those who don’t, I’m not angry. I just feel like...I need to clean things out. Narrow my focus. To be frank, it’s...disheartening to see how many people I follow/follow me, and how many reach out. Granted, I don’t go to others’ inboxes willy nilly, but...I’ve put out a LOT of inbox calls. A LOT. And despite some people I’ve not interacted with being online when they’re posted...it’s always the same (lovely) people. Like...what else can I do? Hence feeling like maybe I need to remake, get the cobwebs dusted out. Start over with a fresh slate and maybe not feel so...bogged down. Maybe be a lot more selective about who I follow, and just stick with the people who have put in the effort, y’know?

     As I said earlier, I have muses that never get touched, either. Granted, it may be due to their origins (as all of the muses I have in mind are OCs). And though a few people have at least hinted they’d like to interact...there’s little to show for it. Which is, at the very least, partly my fault. But I guess I also feel like I should cut those muses if they’re not going to be written with. Which...sucks, cuz ALL of my OCs have YEARS of planning put into them. I’ve been writing/planning/RPing ALAS since 2012. And yet those like the twins, and Hinode, Ayame and Higure feel very...unwanted. Which I can understand: not everyone is gonna like every muse. Hinode’s technically the only one who hasn’t had any playtime. But the rest are still significantly beneath the canons, and those like Ryū and Reika. So I wonder if another way to clean house is to just...either cut muses entirely, or...move them to some kind of side page? idek at this point.

     My blog just feels very...disorganized, which drives me UP the wall. And yet I also lack the energy and the drive to finish it up: especially given that I’m not sure what to do with some of it. Keep it, cut it, change it...I dunno. And that’s both frustrating and anxiety-inducing.

     ...I dunno. I have some drafts and owed things I’ve been staring at for ages, and I just...can’t seem to think up a response. I dunno how to get my mojo back. I dunno if a hiatus would help? I’m not even sure it would last: I spend a lot of my free time here, and don’t have many other hobbies to fill that slot. But at the same time I’ve spent that time staring at owed things and wondering what the heck to write. Which means I’m not really doing it anyway.

     And then there’s my sideblogs. Several of which are very important to me (my art blog, drabble blog, nightwalkcrs, etc). If I remade, I’d have to move them all over, and all their content...which I can do with a queue but gods that’d still take ages to go through everything. Especially since some is from date-specific challenges. And the drabble blog’s got SO many posts @~@ Granted, some of the sideblogs I need to cull anyway.

     ...I’m just...feel like a chicken running amok with my head chopped off. I dunno where to start, what to do...I owe drabbles from the giveaway from over a month ago, and I still can’t think of what to write. (If any of you want something else...let me know, because I feel awful). I’ve been here almost three years, two of which are on this blog (and like eight months on the first, which...let’s not go there). I don’t want to lose what I have here. I don’t want to LEAVE. But I feel like if I don’ t change something, I’m gonna reach a point where I have no other choice but than to just dump everything.

     I dunno if a hiatus would work. I dunno if it’s worth remaking. But something’s gotta give, and I dunno what’ll be first: me, or the blog.

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OH FUCK U GUYS SHOULD I BUY ALL THE KINDGOM HEARTS IN A ONCENESS???

Holy jesus i knew they did hd ps4 ports of the playstation games but they ALSO added all the final mix content that engkishspeaking fans never got during my childhood? And they ALSO remade chain of memories entireky in 3d with Very Animated Ice Dad?? And they ALSO remade BBS despite it not needing it nearly as much as the old games and thet ALSO remade friggin dream drop distance which came out on a goddamn current gen console?? Like they seriously just made a non portable version?? Now all the spinoffs are on the same console at last?? Why did you not just do this in the first place?? I mean the psp and 3ds games were basically ps2 equivelant graphics and disc space anyway...

Oh and fuckin ALLLLSOOOOO

Also the final mixes of all of those! Also a movie version of the plot of khux! And also Coded and Days, which is a really big shame cos Coded is indeed sparse enough on content to deserve it but Days was my FAVOURITE GAME and it sucks its the only one that didnt get remade! I mean its in the same spinoff category as bbs and com, its not a cheapo mess like coded. Nothing else in the series deserves to be shoved in the Coded bin, even khux at least has better plot even if the backtracking and lootbox shit makes it harder to get to it...

Anyway ALSO a random new sidestory with Aqua going thru like one dungeon or somethin?? I dunno?? Its like a glorified tech demo for kh3, its just 'hey fuckin look what we can do visually on a proper ps4 game' and wow how have i never fuckin heard of this it looks so pretty!! I mean i dont know if its even more than 5 hours or somethin but.. Pretty!! And apparantly you get unlockable costumes for her or somethin? I hope they keep that feature in kh3! Itd rock if it wasnt just the main character too, and we could dress up riku and kairi and goofy and donald and roxas and axel and every the friends :3 new secret to how they defeat xehanort: slap a bow on his damn head

ALSO ALSO

All of this is available in one big bundle pack for £90 which ALSO contains literally kh3. THIS IS HOW THEYRE HANDLING PREORDERS?? THATS SUCH A GOOD WAY TO HANDLE PREORDERS!! Get a discounted price on this new game but while youre waiting for it you get to enjoy an (also discounted) giant fuckin 300 hours memory lane compilation of every damn thing from the last 15 years in one beautiful updated package. Holy fuck its like they made this for ME SPECIFICALLY!this is the perfect way to get people back into the franchise who dropped off in The Great KH3 Wait cos they couldnt afford all the damn million portables needed to gather that Dank Lore. God fuckin hell it cost more than the price of this bundle just to play any one of those games individually on some stupid retro machine i bought exclusively for that one damn game. THAT PSP STILL ROTS IN MY KITCHEN CUPBOARD YO

So

So so so so so

Guys

Please give me permission to buy this

Or like please convince me not to waste my money if you think i'd waste my money??

I really just DONT KNOW! ive been out of the fandom for so long and my last experience was really hatting BBS and feeling horribly out of place as everyone else raved about it being the best thing ever. And i know NOTHING about what kh3 is gonna be or whether its even possible for me to get back into the fandom and like.. Care about it at all again. I just got fuckin fatigued with it and my teenage years were like me clinging on to the edge of a cliff by my fingernails begging everyone to believe me that Its Still Good, Honestly, Its Worth It while square enix is up there all LONG LIVE THE KING and they push me off. Into a stampede of PSPs. Somehow.

And then aaargh i know i literally only came back to the fandom because organization xiii fuckin eternally holds my heart in their lil grabby hands. It was indeed a good nostalgic moment remembering how i loved them! And getting a new appreciation for Vexen and being blown away by how much he should have been my favourite but i just never got to play COM as a kid and then when i played it as an adult all the way after bbs i ended up quitting before even getting to meet half the org cos this one stupid 'defeat 99 shadows jn 99 seconds' mission kicked my ass. I'M JUST NOT GOOD AT ACTION RPGS OKAY!

Aaaagh thats another Big Worry, yknow? Like asa kid i was Bad, as an adult i'm Barely Better , and as a both i never enjoyed beat em up thingies of any kind at all. And on top of that i was never big into disney, i never saw them as any sort of 'childhood magic' but just some naff cliche shit retelling public domain fairy tales in the safest way possible with a bunch of obnoxious celebrity cameos. Also lion king and snow white terrified me as a kid. Also i associated robin hood with my dead grandma. Also as a kid i couldnt appreciate good artistic ability or voiceacting, i was all about the story, yknow? And most of kh's adaptations are really rushed and barebones versions of an already shoddy story, without any of the visual splendor. ALSO i never saw any of the darker or more emotionally focused stuff like Hunchback and Beauty and the Beast until way after i quit playing kingdom hearts, oddly enough. Wtf beauty and thebeast is actually real good and looks so far beyond its time!! Wtf hunchback has my goddamn evil dad in it!! Why did i miss the only good didneys!! Why did snow white traumatize me and those didnt!!

ANYWAY the point im getting at is that im not inherantly predisposed to like.. Any of kingdom hearts's appeal at all. I didnt know half the disneys and i didnt have any hype for the others. None of my fave final fantasy games made it into it until the sequel and then never again after that. CMON I CANT JUST DEAL WITH ONE VIVI CAMEO Y'ALL! And i haaaate the genre and its an uphill struggle to play a game like that with my stupid inelegant sausage hands. So i just came for the story and then everything after the first game has been conspiring to ruin it for me, sheesh! I felt so much for that short concise self contained first episode and then i fall more and more out of love as they establish this status quo of everything being retconnable so dont bother get attatched to it. Blablabla the entire worldbuilding is different now and everyone was secretly someone else and please memorize a bunch of shit from fifty fuckin spinoffs and also time travel and cloning suddenly exist and ALSO Grandpa Onlyblackmanintheworld is generic motiveless evil and everything was him even of it looked like it was actually a sympathetic villain. *insert dio meme face*

So yeah now im just.. In it for the characters?? And the cute art style and monsters and lovely animations and big fanfic oc potentials stuff. But man even tho i had Big Feel for those things i was able to completely drop it all and forget about the series for years, that was just HOW BAD the kh3 drought was. Steven universe hiatus eat your heart out...

So ffff i dont even KNOW if i'll be able to get feels'd for these characters again or if they actually hold up to modern bunni standards of huggable. And i know all the ones i want to hug the most got like zero sympathy and all died horribly and were also retroactively revealed to be clone oldmanvirus somethingy and aaaaaagh. But also something something people say they all came back and got cured?? And this is why?? I am here?? Again?? And buying?? The thing??

Like man fuck i am already building it up so much in my head aaaa what if i dont actually love axel as much as i used to love axel and i dont love Grumply Science as much as i always love That Character Archetype seriously MAN how was he like THE ONLY ONE I DIDNT GET TO SEE AS A KID

Aaauuuuaggh gahhh like maybe this will reignite my passion for the series or maybe i'll just be all critical and dumb and waste all my moneys

Guys... What do??