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reidsconverse · 3 years

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HELLO single spencer!dad and his 14-15 year old daughter and like while he’s gone to prison she’s so sad and doesn’t know how to act and it makes her change and mature so much and when he comes out and they reunite and she’s so grown up and he’s like wtf where did my baby go AH idk ive just had this concept for ages idek if it good but #sadhours rn

anyway goodbye bestie ! idk u but u seem cool

cont. bestie i just sent the ask about dad spence and his daughter while he’s in prison i thought i should add that i am listening to “it’s not the same anymore” by rex and YEP SO SAD PLS HELP

I DID NOT NEED THIS RN, god can you imagine how emotional it would be?? they’ve both changed so much in the last few months and neither of them know how to broach the subject of whats happened.

shes so hurt and angry at him for not teling her whats happening, he maybe her dad but hes also her best friend and they tell each other everything so the fact he didnt trust her to tell her this makes her so upset, and also the fact he didnt allow her on his visitors list (i can imagine him doing this) so she couldnt see him for months literally broke her heart, her dads the one stable thing shes had in her life and suddenly hes gone and she doesnt know if shes ever gonna see him again and no one has any answers and all she wants is the one person she cant have and shes so mad...

and spencer, oh spencer he doesnt even know how to explain himself to her, he can see how its affected her hes not stupid he knows shes been through something traumatic and all the pain and worries in his life hes tried to shelter her from has hit her harder than he couldve imagined and he just feels so guilty. he thinks he was doing the right thing protecting her from visiting him in prison, no one needs to see their dad all beat up and suffering, especially not his innocent daughter, the one who cried for a week when she accidentally squashed a lady bug... and he can see how betrayed she feels at the fact he didnt tell her anything.

after the initial reunion full of hugs and tears its just awkward, from the ride home to dinner to the days after before he has to leave again to deal with cat adams... they’re both hurting and theyre so alike that neither of them want to be the first to say something, all he wants is to hold his little girl in his arms and tell her how sorry he is for everything he put her through and all she wants is to hug her dad and tell him how much she loves him but instead they say nothing avoid each other like the plague... everyone tells spencer to give her time but spencers had too much time away from her and he just wants the avoidance to stop.

and it does, after scratch is pronounced dead and the team have come to terms with everything that has happened in the last few months spencer goes home and just breaks down, its late and he knows his daughter is home from the faint light thats coming from her room but he doesnt want to disturb her so he crawls into his room and lets go, his body is shaking from the tears and his choked sobs are muffled against his hands.. he can hear shuffling from the room next to his and the sound of a door creaking and he knows what’s coming next... he hears the faint whisper of “dad?” come from behind the door and the sight of the door knob turning and his breath hitches in his throat because its the first time he’s heard such tenderness in his voice, in anyones voice as a matter of fact for so long.

the teenage girl creeps into her dads room and her heart breaks all over again at the sight, she’d only seen her dad this broken once before, when his mentor gideon had died but she was too young to understand the situation then... but now, now she was old enough to understand why he looked so fragile and vulnerable, before she can think about what shes doing she rushes to her dads side and wraps her arms around him and he returns the gesture without hesitation. they just hold each other as they sob, they have both been each others support system for so long that they know this is the best way for them to heal, to just cry it out. his lips find her forehead and he places a soft kiss to the skin, just as he did when she was a child and she was upset, the simple action always made her feel so safe and almost always made her stop crying but now it just propelled her into more tears because she’d been craving her fathers affections throughout the whole ordeal and she’d convinced herself she’d never feel it again so the fact that its real and he’s actually here is surreal and overwhelming.

“im so sorry.” is all he says, its all he can say and she just nods, she understands and shes sure she’ll know the whole story one day but today all she knows is that her dad needs to know shes there for him and she loves him, she cant begin to imagine how alone and scared he felt without her and she starts to feel bad for acting so cold, she knows her dad would never intentionally hurt her or do anything that would make her feel pain and she knows he never intended for this to happen so slowly, as she feels the mix of their tears fall against her hair, she starts to feel her anger melt.... “its okay...it’ll be okay.” she says and despite all her doubts and fears she knows shes right, it will all be okay as long as she has her dad and he has her.

#SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG AND KINDA SUCKS BESTIE #spencer reid #spencer reid x daughter!reader #spencer reid x reader #spencer reid fluff #dad!spence #spencer reid angst

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tartagliaxx · 3 years

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first off, hello 🤷‍♀️ anon! sorry i missed you out

and secondly, dw, marius is my favourite too lol, he reminds me a lot of my younger cousin who i lived with when i was younger. i was always the one who took care of him and marius calling me older sister just set off so much memories of my childhood. the both of them are also vv similar in personality, attention seeking, playful and artistic so i always see him whenever i look at marius.

artem is probably my second favourite ngl, ever since i read his ssr where he was jealous and got drunk (what a good combination lmao) i just grew so soft for him. at the end of the day, he's just a vv soft sweetheart who's insecure that we'll leave him :(( i have like 3 ssrs at lvl36, two of them are artem cards and the other is luke. i vibe with luke too bc i love the childhood friends trope, it's top tier. and as for vyn... i have vv mixed feelings abt him. i feel like he could so easily see through me if he was real and i'm just like, how about no. he's rlly pretty though, like rlly pretty.

*major spoilers*

and you've finished the archon quests!!! personally, i feel like the ending felt a bit rushed(?). it's weird bc i thought the resistance war against the raiden shogun was supposed to be the center of the story, but it just devolved to us helping yae with the entire war being swept to the side. and i already knew somebody was gonna die, and as soon as i saw that teppei had become the captain, i just knew.

it's interesting bc i would love to explore what happened to la signora and scaramouche to make them so disregarding of human life. like, i don't like them, but i want to understand their minds. it's sad to read signora's artifact's background honestly. and the fact that her crown said she used to be called rosalyne, that she had perhaps once led a more innocent and naive existence. i dunno, to me it seems like a good ending for her honestly, she had already lost herself after her lover's death and brings pain to many others, i don't think she can rlly return to being her again.

and honestly, a lot of people are talking abt scaramouche not telling signora he already had the gnosis and saying that he orchestrated her death, i don't rlly think so. i feel like he's just that apathetic to human life, even if it's someone that stands on his side, he just doesn't care enough. it also says how he never got along with anyone, not even his fellow harbingers, so i don't know why ppl expect him to seek out someone he doesn't like just to warn her of danger.

i vibe with scaramouche and la signora as the antagonists bc they're good antagonists, but as characters, well. other than the fact that they're pretty, they have like one likeable trait and that is their loyalty. they would do anything for the tsaritsa even if it cost them their life. i'm rlly excited to see what the tsaritsa has in store for us in the future.

considering our sibling is nicknamed 'the prince/princess', i wonder if there's gonna be a day where we're gonna have to go toe to toe with them. if we had them backed them into a corner with no way out, i wonder if they would kill us. it would be an interesting twist if we could actually die, but i feel like the protagonist halo will prevent it lol and i'm sorry bc god, this is so long.

— r. anon

marius. that’s the tweet. man,, you dont realize how in love i am w him?? like,, this man was literally my only hope when i fell horribly sick. i cant w myself now that i’m hearing it w my own voice. it must be nice to remember the good ol’ days… i despise my cousins and i dont have siblings so i dont really have that sort of connection w him. to me, his onee-san is just a joke? a petname? idk but it simultaneously makes me so mad and giddy just like childe’s existence does

i like vyn bc his vibes are sus but at the same time, he’s cares abt our mental health 🥺👉👈 no one’s ever said shit like that to me… jokes aside, luke is seriously threatening his spot bc of his blushing bs like pls 🤲 i’m so weak for that shit give me more. artem makes me soft too like,, he keeps mentioning that he trusts us and he’s just…. HE’S A BIG TEDDY BEAR THAT BLUSHES AT LIKE ACCIDENTAL HAND BRUSHES GRRRR. in conclusion, i love them all.

but man,, give me ssr luck… literally, im in pain…

now that the excitement’s worn off, i can now judge things properly. i think that… the pacing is horrible. like the plot is good, genuinely, but there’s just,, so much to explore abt this. if you think abt it, this is the climax and yet we didnt get much. scratch that. we got a lot but it’s all underdeveloped that it felt like nothing. we go to sangonimiya, got promoted, became captain for like, one sec before we are sent onto an investigation that didnt really produce any results bc app teppei alr knows everything? and then the delusion thing is a good plot point but it’s not really explored? just… a lot of things are left unexplored and i think that story wise, a lot of the possible lore explanations went down the drain. it would’ve been nice if we saw more abt the rebellion and if we had gotten to know whats the real deal w the commissions but eh… idk… i would’ve rather done more quests abt this whole storyline than like… do that whole dance w the three people who lost their vision in 2.0.

if im going to be honest, la signora is such a wasted character. like maybe her death was just for the shock factor or maybe it’s to prepare us for more harbinger encounters in the future.. idk but she’s such a good character from what we’ve seen but we know jack shit abt her and her motives. we know a little from the artifact set but beyond that, what do we have?

precisely! that’s how i feel abt this whole thing when we’re talking seriously. like w ei, i dont really agree w whatever they’re doing but i want to understand why they do the things that they do. everything has a reason and their psychology is just interesting to me.

i think scaramouche’s nature makes it easy for him to disregard human life. call it arrogance or whatever but ultimately, he’s seeing himself as smth above all these people bc he’s more or less capable of standing toe to toe w a god. why should he bother telling signora? it’s not like he gains anything if he does. i think that when he got the gnosis, he’s just ‘well she dies if she dies. who cares abt that? i dont have any need for incompetent colleagues anw’ i agree and i dont think he orchestrated her death but at the same time, he just allowed it to happen too.

as for signora, i’m actually surprised? for the most part, i think that the harbingers took their posts for selfish reasons. for scara, it’s to entertain himself and pass time. for childe, it’s to fight and grow stronger. for dottore, it’s to conduct dubious research w/o anyone stopping him. i expected signora to have some similar motive like power or money but it seems like she does actually believe in the tsaritsa? it would be very intriguing if signora’s main motive in becoming a harbinger is simply bc she is loyal to the tsaritsa and her will. bc in contrast, i think scara and dottore are more loyal to the fact that the tsaritsa can give them what they want, not bc they actually like her. actually, idek if they’re willing to die for her lol. like i wouldnt be surprised if they suddenly abandon post in a life or death situation but who knows…

in any case, they are very good antagonists. i like yo think that the tsaritsa isnt as bad as the game portrays her to be… of all the gods, she’s the one im looking forward to the most but… haha… what version would that be….

i’m almost certain that they’ll make us fight our twin maybe before we face the unknown god? if one of them dies, i would be very sad. like legit. but knowing mhy, well, our twin is almost 100% a walking death flag.

anw i’m shutting up rn— i also spoke too much kahdjabdhakbsjansb—

#˗ˋˏ°• letters from cat island •°ˎˊ˗#˗ˋˏ°• from my darling : r •°ˎˊ˗#inazuma spoilers

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thisdreamplace · 3 years

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Hi bestie! I want to know if you can give me a little advice. Before manifesting my SP I was in such a good space mentally, like, I was for real standing in my power. When he came back, I kinda got a little bit obsessed with the idea that I had to "keep him" and in the process I think I lost myself. I went back to the old ways. Started giving him free will, forgot self concept, basically went back to victim, and now things have gotten rough with him as you can imagine and I can't stop feeling ashamed for myself, and I don't know how to stop feeling like that. I feel like a clown for trusting him again and being betrayed again (which I know makes no sense bc he didn't do anything)... especially because now my parents know about him and they keep asking me if we're still talking, and when are we going to go out again (they got excited because it was the first time they saw me dating someone) and I don't even know how to react because it hurts my heart to think I got ghosted and idek how my parents will take this, and I don't know what I want anymore. I am genuinely scared to manifest him again, not because he can hurt me, but because I don't want to deal with the pressure again. I have fallen in a space where I don't even want to feel good? I don't even feel the strength to take responsibility this time, and I've been focusing more on self concept these days to not continue to entertain negative beliefs about myself, but I'm still offended. I can't stop asking myself why the hell did I have to manifest such an a*hole into my life????NOT ONCE, TWICEEE???? WHY??? My brain is a mess rn, you can't even imagine. It's like my victim thoughts mixed up with the law of assumption thoughts, mixed up with morals, ego, a messss...

I even laughed a bit about this because I can recall my negative thoughts regarding my SP situation and now it's materialized, and I'm like: "wow, such a powerful clown, a master manifestor indeed 🤌👏"

Hey! Be more gentle with yourself. It's seriously okay. This isn't called a journey nor a lifestyle for nothing. We fall down, we get back up. It's okay that all of this is happening and you feel like a mess. It's still working out in your favor. Whether or not you feel it is working out, it still is.

So I just want to say that bit where you said, "It's like my victim thoughts mixed up with the law of assumption thoughts, mixed up with morals, ego, a messss..." I have been there and felt that plenty of times and it's the worst feeling. It's so confusing and you feel so lost and trapped. It's okay. Truly. This is because your new story and your old story are basically fighting to win against the other. It's uncomfortable, it's basically growing pains. More stability will come.

So firstly, begin with giving yourself a break. You're going through a lot within and you should allow yourself the space to begin to feel better, before worrying about anything else. You need to be your top priority. So, focus on feeling better within. Whatever that looks like for you, go ahead and spend more time doing it. Even though you said you don't want to feel better right now, it's still important to take care of yourself. Period. You don't have to worry about manifesting him or anyone right now. You just need to worry about yourself and make you're good first. It's okay that you're not in a space to take responsibility and step back into your power. You will get back there eventually.

Once you're feeling better within, you'll feel more equipped to get back on the horse. Here's the thing about it. You're really blaming him so much and through that, you're blaming yourself. I'll tell you a secret: the way to really have this world in your hands is to stop denying everyone is you pushed out. When we run from this concept, we are making it much harder on ourselves. There's nothing wrong with him and there's nothing wrong with you. Unfortunately, you had some undesirable beliefs and feelings, and he played them out for you. That's all that happened. He's innocent and you're innocent. You're doing the best you can in any given moment. So that being said, you have to allow yourself to be free from guilt. You're not a clown and you're not silly for wanting him. It doesn't matter what he's done or said. Because it's all an illusion anyway. It's all a mirror reflecting yourself back to you. In that way, you're not a clown for any of this and he's not a bad person.

This is why it's important to stay consistent. This is why I am so serious about promoting manifesting as a lifestyle. Because the people who tend to just come and manifest something then leave again, tend to have a big storm coming. Because it was never about manifesting your desire, it was about changing within. You are not the first to have a sp story that happened in this way. Plenty of people get stuck in the trap of manifesting their sp back and away, back and away again. Because they refuse to really focus on themselves and keep their focus there. You are the most important factor in all of this. In fact, you're the only one that matters. Because the outer world can only mirror you. Therefore your inner world must take upmost priority. You must be your priority.

Hopefully you find this helpful! 💖

#sp

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kyulkyungs · 7 years

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soulmate!jeno

Request: can i request a lil soulmate!au in a non-idolverse for jeno, please? i've been feeling super soft for him lately hehe ☺️💐💝💝(Hihihihihi!!! I can rlly feel u, partner, so this is a definite yes!!)

others: jaemin | haechan | jisung

you’ve met him in your dreams

you know that he’s there and he talks with you sometimes

but his face is always kind of blurry and you can’t remember much of it when you wake up

one thing for sure is that you know he’s a really handsome boy and your heart thumps just thinking about him even if you forget his face

you can remember meeting him way back when you were kids

and he was such a sweet puff all the way back then to you too

even now he’s so amazingly sweet and soft and kind of shy to you now that you’re older and the chances of you actually meeting in person has skyrocketed

you’re not really sure where your dreams take place most of the time

more often than not they’re in a place you or he recognizes

you used to play tag when running around your house or he’d show you all the neat stuff in his room and tell you a different story about every single thing each time

even once the two of you got older that small childish love and innocence never went away once the teenage awkwardness was supposed to set in

the both of you just refused to become that way and instead stay loving and supportive of each other

even if you could never remember each other’s faces or each other’s names and it was just a fuzzy picture of each other when trying to remember

even his voice which you loved since he liked to talk to you softly as opposed to how loud he would screech when running away from you on this hill in a certain dream

both of you actually weren’t sure where it was because it wasn’t like a park or a place nearby your houses or schools

and the two of you were constantly on the lookout for it and it kind of felt like a childish adventure sometimes and was really fun but he always complained it’d be better to do it with you

as you got older the adventures to seek out the mysterious fun hill stopped and instead you both went on with other things

especially since you moved to a different neighborhood with your family and had to get settled there

you remember being in the dreamscape first because you were so tired, when normally it was your soulmate who was there first

you usually greeted him with a surprise hug and jumping onto his back or grabbing his hand and feeling his warmness or even just tapping his shoulder and getting picked up and spun around because he was so happy to see you

this time you were the one greeted when you felt two arms wrap around you and start swaying you back and forth with the person holding you

honestly the moment was so soft that there were no words needed to be spoken because you knew who this was obviously and you found his embrace so comforting

“it’s early, you usually don’t go to bed this early... good thing i took a nap, huh?” and his voice was still that soft soothing sound to your ears

and you can smell something faint that smells like something sweet and you ask him if he ate some sweets and then went into a food coma

and he just laughs and hugs you tighter saying ‘no, i just wanted to see you that badly’

it’s times like these where you really wish that you could find your soulmate in the real world instead of when you’re far apart and the universe makes it harder to know anything farther than their personalities

you can tell that he feels somewhat the same because he just rests his head on your shoulder and sighs

‘oh did you wash your sheets? they smell really good’

and you laugh when he breathes in again but in a dorkier and funnier way to make you laugh and plus his nose tickles !

but you nod anyways while he’s tickling you with his nose ‘yeah, we just moved so everything is fresh right now’

and he hums and is about to ask you where but then he pauses because he knows that he’ll either wake up or it’ll come out like a blurbled mess anyways

and you know he’s kind of sad so you’ve turned around in his hug and are now hugging him tightly while he enjoys your embrace

he loves being able to hug you, this is a fact and you know it and so does the universe

‘i hope you get settled and enjoy your new home’ this is the perfect opportunity for a cheesy line so you use it

‘i already am, because you’re my home’

and he just laughs and buries his head back into your shoulder and you can barely hear it

but he softly says that he really loves you

and it warms up your heart so much

eventually the two of you continue talking and just spending time with each other

and you’re both on the hill again and it brings you back to adventures around your neighborhood as a kid and being determined to find this boy who you wanted to play with all the time

and the sneaking out as a teenager sometimes to scout out a new area and explore further

usually it was these times where your soulmate worried the most about you because you would come in really late in the dreams and he was scared you’d never show up

he would always rush over whenever you appeared and check you for any marks to see if anything happened even if it was kind of blurry

he just wanted to make sure you were okay :( this poor baby

eventually you stopped sneaking out and just hanging out with him in your dreams because yeah it’s not worth it if you did get hurt trying to find this mystery hill and get him a heart attack

little did you know that two or three times he skipped school to look for the hill too and pretended he was sick and everyone had to cover for him and nobody could get the story straight

eventually you got more comfortable and used to your home and your neighbors

one of your neighbors was a nice old lady who had like four little dogs and they were all very good dogs

sometimes they’d somehow get out of the house and over to yours and you’re not even sure how they get in but sometimes they do but it’s okay they’re really cute

one day, however, you find one of the dogs running around in the front yard

you went outside to go catch it and return it to the lady next door but when it saw you it started dashing off in a completely opposite direction

and you panicked because uH?? NO? home that way!!!!

so you had to chase the doggo and it just keeps going like wow it’s a small dog but woosh what is she feeding these dogs if they’re like little ninjas y’know

you expect this dog to turn around and start wagging it’s tail because it knows you’re running after it and it thinks you’re playing with it

but it’s not..... doing that?

it’s just running and running without looking back at you

somehow you make it to a busier street area and that’s when you get more nervous because there’s more people to block you and cars and you really want to save this dog now

but miraculously all the people see you in time and move to the side or the dog runs across crosswalks a couple seconds after the light turns red and someone had hit the button to cross

it’s all sunshine and flowers now but this dog ain’t stopping to appreciate them

as you keep running, you lose more and more energy but you don’t want to lose this dog but wow the distance gap is getting bigger and bigger

it’s not too concerning until you see that the dog is headed for a crosswalk and the sign just turned red and you’re not supposed to cross

but it just keeps going

so you’re shouting at it to stop and for it to wait and it gets closer to the edge and the cars look like they’re about to start moving and don’t see the dog

you’re so frightened that the dog will really run across when you see a pair of legs run in front of the dog’s path and it skids to a stop

when you look up you see a boy and you’re like.............. omg............ that’s my boy

and he picks up the rascal dog and starts walking towards you and as he comes closer and closer he realizes that..........

you look like a mess

but also that.............. wow................ you’re............... you’re his soulmate

you’re still catching your breath and holding your side because it’s so cramped but when he gets closer you just reach your arms out

and he thinks you’re going for a hug so he walks even closer but you just scoop the dog out of his arms and are like

‘thank......... you........... this dog........ idek’

and he just looks at you and just starts smiling because wow it’s really you and he doesn’t care if this is the first time seeing you in person and you’re not showing that much excitement at least he’s getting to see you

eventually you catch your breath and there’s a silence between you and your soulmate is still watching you, arms ready to case you fall over and you just might because your legs are so tired

‘we can go inside here,’ he says and points to this building

and it’s actually a cafe of some sort and you could really use a drink rn and a place to sit down

so you just nod because the reality of meeting your soulmate just hit you and gAH IT’S REALLY HIM!!!!!

when you step inside the ac is on and the people greet you and you just go take a random booth with him

after sitting for a minute or so the both of you make eye contact and that’s really it right there

where everything fits into place and it all seems super right

all of a sudden you’re laughing really hard because it doesn’t seem that real right now

first you were calm in your own home and thinking you’d return the neighbor’s dog like normal

next you were running for your life and also for a dog’s and it was a full blown panic and you probably ran a long distance while sprinting

and now....... now you’ve just met the literal man of your dreams

and he doesn’t even seem fazed by your lack of reaction to meeting him, he just looks like he’s having the time of his life

and that’s when he finally understands

he makes an ‘ahh’ sound and you’re confused and he just smiles at you and points behind you

and painted along the wall of the cafe is a mural of a hill........ your hill

there’s a little phrase that says ‘where dreams come true’ and it’s so cheesy and funny and you’re like...... so that’s what it meant

eventually you turn back around and find that he’s looking at you, just watching you and taking in all your features

you don’t shy away from his gaze at all and instead welcome it because it’s so endearing, so loving, so fond

at the same time you’re mapping out his own features and realizing that he truly is really handsome it’s no joke

he moves his hand across the table and opens it palm up so that he can hold yours for the first time in real life

you’re shuffling the dog so that you can properly hold it and slowly glide your fingertips across his palm before moving your hand to fit into his

and it’s like two puzzle pieces, the rights ones...

a perfect fit

‘jeno,’ he says and you’re testing his name out on your tongue and the whole time he’s just smiling and then he tests your name out on his and it’s so smooth coming out of his mouth

this is the guy you’ve been seeing in your dreams

this is the guy you dreamt of seeing in real life

this is your soulmate........ jeno

never before have you seen a small dog look so smug

#elli writes #soulmate au #jeno #nct #nct imagines #nct scenarios #nct fluff #nct dream #nct dream imagines #nct dream scenarios #nct dream fluff #fluff #neutral pronouns #nct jeno

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flctlines · 6 years

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* romance headcanons ! *

NAME: Paige Alaina Ricci NICKNAME: P GENDER: Female SPECIES: Human ROMANTIC ORIENTATION: Pansexual/Panromantic / Sapiosexual PREFERRED PET NAMES: Sweets, or anything remotely “lovingly mean” (but never princess) RELATIONSHIP STATUS: Single FAVORITE CANON SHIP: PAISE.... her longest ever honestly and she ofc love(d/s) him more than life FAVORITE NON-CANON SHIP: PADAM.... there was sm drama/angst but she loved that boy OPINION ON TRUE LOVE: Not something she searches for, exactly. She doesn’t necessarily search for people or true love but i think she believes it exists. But with the way affection was shunned in her home, it’s hard for her to actually believe it’s something she’ll ever have?? OPINION ON LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: She believes in lust at first sight. She’s not easily impressed and she’s very high-maintenance, even though she tends to take care of most of her own wants/needs bc she really can’t stand someone ...helping her in any way?? Anyway, point is... she’s never met anyone who’s made her fall in love on sight so she doesn’t believe it and she;s not impressed by it. HOW ‘ROMANTIC’ ARE THEY?: If you have Paige’s heart, you’re literally everything and she’ll actually fight anyone for you even if it’s the stupidest thing she could do and she will always make sure you know your worth?? She’ll treat you like fckn royalty all the while still maintaining that she is the best and the greatest thing to ever walk the earth besides nicki minaj. She’ll be so fckn loyal and if literally anyone tries to come at you verbally or physically, she’ll fight them (literally, verbally or physically.) but she’ll also keep you at a distance. Even when her heart is all yours, she’ll feel weak at being vulnerable and she’s good at trying to push people away. She never wants to let herself get hurt and if she can’t be enough for you, she’ll remove herself if you don’t go. This is both partially pride and partially her concern for you. IDEAL PHYSICAL TRAITS: justin bieber. (jokes, jokes but those were both her ships i cry.) honestly... if you shower, smell good, are warm????? nice hair and pretty eyes help. she tends to go for darker hair/eyes but blondes are good looking as well. IDEAL PERSONALITY TRAITS: a certain level of arrogance, honestly someone who can handle her shit?? she’s a lot to handle and she knows. she tends to go more for jerks/a*holes, anyone with an attitude problem. someone who she can argue or banter w. are those actual personality traits?? no??? am i going to fix this??? no ;-;-;-;-;-; UNATTRACTIVE PHYSICAL TRAITS: someone w no sense of hygiene and someone who can’t clean themselves up. UNATTRACTIVE PERSONALITY TRAITS: paige can’t handle when people are too soft, she’s not the type to hold back her thoughts on smth and softer people don’t attract her. if you’re more arrogant than her... she’s also out. bc that pisses her off. her mindset is “im the best thing in the world wtf dym” and so yeh. she’s not into innocence. also, if they’re rich.... usually tips the scales out of their favor bc she... is a spoiled brat who doesn’t wanna marry rich bc thats what her mother wants. i hate her. IDEAL DATE: movie night in and some junk food. she doesn’t really have an ideal date, she’s... surprisingly cool with whatever if the vibe is right. could be a party, preferably not a rich event bc she’s... a damn brat and those events annoy/bore tf outta her?? DO THEY HAVE A TYPE?: rough, troubled souls who don’t take her shit. assholes/jerks. you name it. as long as they’re broke. skjdhfkjas AVERAGE RELATIONSHIP LENGTH: apparently padam went on for a while even tho they were off for like 2 years??? and paise...........has been engaged since like forever so .... mostly long term i’ll say 1-3 years?? PREFERRED NON-SEXUAL INTIMACY: sitting in the others lap just hugging them, cheek kisses, hand holding, hugging. idek???? she prefers anything not too intimate rlly. OPINION OF PUBLIC AFFECTION: hoe don’t do it. she’s not a fan of ANY displays of affection unless she initiates it which is something she has to work on w people so she’s really not here for public affection. she may do some light hand holding or a hug here and there, unless she’s really in love w someone and that’s where she doesn’t think abt it?? she’s just so filled w love for them it just happens?? it’s not that she care about anyone’s opinions, she’s just not 100% comfortable with this. PAST RELATIONSHIPS?; Daniel Montgomery (Ex, Deceased), Adam (Ex-Fiance), Chase (Ex-Fiance)

tagged by: @underpressurc tagging: @murdcrcus, @bloodstrcm, @fckinglonelys + anyone who wants to do this. y’all ain’t even got to but i wanted to do this for paige bc im rlly not here for writing much rn and i missed her.

#( paige ricci | musings ! )#( paige ricci | aesthetics ! )#apparently paige doesnt wanna be married #never a bride #always a fiance #i kjshdfkjaa

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paintingraves · 7 years

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I hope school is going well for you! I'm gonna use the fic ask to quell how nervous I am rn- and I'm just curious. Here are the letters: F, I , L, O, T, Z Answer whichever you're comfortable with :)

I: Do you have a guilty pleasure in fic (reading or writing)?

angst, fluff, dub-con, idek.

and i love writing porn and heartwrenching angst >:3

L: How many times do you usually revise your fic/chapter before posting?

BRUH. SO MANY TIMES. YOU HAVE NO IDEA. it takes me so long skjdks

First I write a thing on computer

then I edit on computer

then later I look at the thing on mobile, because it allows me to put myself in a reader’s place

so I edit on mobile

and I usually do this like each time I make progress not to have to edit everything at once, so like, at least fifteen revisions both on computer and mobile before I send it over to be Betaed.

And when it is Betaed, I’ll read it again to make sure everything is the way I want it to be.

so writing and posting a fic takes........................ a long time.

O: How do you begin a story–with the plot, or the characters?

plot, usually !! I have an idea that will pop into my head and if it’s good, and if I feel it has potential, I’ll think about it and explore it more and if you guys are lucky i’ll actually jot down notes for it and perhaps make an outline and think of where i want the characters to go and i’ll perhaps, if you’re extremely lucky, start writing it.

so. plot. yuuus.

T: Any fandom tropes you can’t stand?

The. Motherfucking. “Newt Scamander Is An Oblivious And Insecure Cinamon Roll Who Is All Innocent And Has No Idea What The Fuck Is Happening Around Him Ever.”

God, that one really really pissed me off. I read a fic written by a Gramander writer I really admire on AO3, but Newt was ridiculous in his obliviousness. ridiculous in his actions. It annoyed me to no end - as I said, realism is important to me, and while I get why some people like this trope, it just really pissed me off to the point where I had to stop reading it lest I throw my phone out the window. XD

#ask #the questions i didn't answer have been answered before ! <3 #nihilistlover

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fraggle-batches · 7 years

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Because these are fun

1:Full name: Not comfortable sharing that

2:Zodiac sign: Libra

3:3 fears: ladders, loneliness

4:3 things I love: my cats and boyfriend and laptop and dogs

5:4 turn on’s: tattoos, good hair, smoking, choking, hickeys

6:4 turn off’s: trump supporters

7:My best friend: my boyfriend

8:Sexual orientation: pansexual

9:My best first date: went to a concert (styg, stray from the path, knocked loose), was soo much fun, and also my first concert with a s/o

10:How tall am I: 5′7

11:What do I miss: my nana, being confident in myself and those around me

12:What time was I born? like 5:30 am

13:Favorite color? grey

14:Do I have a crush? on my boyfriend, and cole sprouse

15:Favorite quote? “

16:Favorite place? Algonquin park

17:Favorite food? Pizza

18:Do I use sarcasm? Never

19:What am I listening to right now? Flaked Season 2 on Netflix

20:First thing I notice in new person? Shoes, hair, actions

21:Shoe size? Women’s 9.5, Mens 8.5

22:Eye color? Shit brown :))

23:Hair color? Naturally: Brown, Currently: Blonde, Previously: Pink

24: Favorite style of clothing? Uhm idk like casual/skate/dude clothes

25:Ever done a prank call? When I was like 11, but i grew tf up

26:What color of underwear I’m wearing now? I’m not..

27:Meaning behind my URL? Lord of the Rings (on a comedy video)

28:Favorite movie? ^

29:Favorite song?

30:Favorite band? Don’t know, either The Wonder Years, Pink Floyd, The Tragically Hip

31:How I feel right now? Kinda shitty

32:Someone I love. Aaron

33:My current relationship status. In a relationship, one year at the end of the month.

34:My relationship with my parents. Was pretty fucked up for a while, I got kicked out and shit but now we’re civil and they buy me stuff to suck up for the shit they put me through/

35:Favorite holiday.

36:Tattoos and piercing I have. I have my nose pierced, three 18g holes p/ear and one 10mm hole p ear.

37:Tattoos and piercing I want. I want to get a second nose piercing, maybe a septum, and my 10mm holes are going up to 22mm as we speak, I also intend to get an assload of tattoos when I’m no longer broke.

38:The reason I joined Tumblr. Joined it when I was like 12.. so I don’t know, just because it was ANOTHER form of social media for me to have.

39:Do I and my last ex hate each other? I hate him because he’s a rapist piece of shit and I’m sure he doesn’t even think of me so.

40:Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night” texts? No.

41:Have I ever kissed the last person I texted? Idek who the last person I texted was.

42:When did I last hold hands? Last night

43:How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? Depends what my hairs like, if it’s good, then 15 mins, if it’s shit then 35mins.

44:Have I shaved my legs in the past three days? Yeah

45: Where am I right now? On the couch at my boyfriends grandparents.

46:If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? Maybe my boyfriend, maybe a nurse

47:Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? LOUD

48:Do I live with my Mom and Dad? No

49:Am I excited for anything? I’m going to see Roger Waters in October and I’m moving in 1-3 months.

50:Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? My boyfriend.

51:How often do I wear a fake smile? Often.

52:When was the last time I hugged someone? Earlier today I think

53:What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? I’d fucking leave him and move alone and go back to fucking instead of dating (other people obv)

54:Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? Maybe

55:What is something I disliked about today? Got into a couple pissing matches with the boy.

56:If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? Gord Downie

57:What do I think about most? The amount of debt I’m in

58:What’s my strangest talent? Licking my nose maybe?

59:Do I have any strange phobias? I don’t know..

60:Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? Behind all the way

61:What was the last lie I told? “I don’t want anything to eat rn”

62:Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? NEITHER

63:Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? Ghosts: no. Spirits: Yes. Aliens: no, Extra-terrestrial life on another planet potentially in a different solar system: Yes.

64:Do I believe in magic? No

65:Do I believe in luck? I don’t know

66:What’s the weather like right now? Shitty, cloudy, cold, and dark

67:What was the last book I’ve read? The Handbook of Human Sexuality

68:Do I like the smell of gasoline? Uhh yeah

69:Do I have any nicknames? -----

70:What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? Probably when I fractured my skull as a kid. Or the two times I broke my clavicle in the SAME spot like 3 years apart lmao.

71:Do I spend money or save it? I’m a compulsive spender

72:Can I touch my nose with a tongue? Yep

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me? I don’t think so

74:Favorite animal? Elephant maybe

75:What was I doing last night at 12 AM? Same thing as I’m doing now basically... fuck all

76:What do I think Satan’s last name is? He doesn’t have one/exist

77:What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? I believe by Stevie Wonder

78:How can you win my heart? Be a decent person and show the fucking world that I’m yours and you’re mine.

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? “fuck all you cunts from my hometown”

80:What is my favorite word? cunt

81:My top 5 blogs on tumblr? nah

82:If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? “stop polluting, kill trump, learn how to give a girl good head, end world hunger, adopt dont shop, support everyone regardless, cherish each other”

83:Do I have any relatives in jail? I don’t think so, but maybe

84:I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? To be able to like pause life and be the only one who isn’t paused but I don’t age on pause so it’s chill. Or to turn off my bad emotions whenever I want

85:What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? I don’t know, I;m pretty open

86:What is my current desktop picture? My dog

87:Had sex? Daily

88:Bought condoms? Hate them, but yeah

89:Gotten pregnant? No

90:Failed a class? Yeah

91:Kissed a boy? Yeah

92:Kissed a girl? Yeah

93:Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? Yeah

94:Had job? Yeah

95:Left the house without my wallet? The worst!!

96:Bullied someone on the Internet? No... well maybe this one stupid piece of shit that raped my friend, posted her nude pics on a porn website and harasses her to this day. But I think that’s with warrant to bully so idc

97:Had sex in public? In a few places...

98:Played on a sports team? Other than school, no

99:Smoked weed? Daily

100:Did drugs? some

101:Smoked cigarettes? Yep

102:Drank alcohol? Yep

103:Am I a vegetarian/vegan? Used to be

104:Been overweight? Currently am

105:Been underweight? Yep

106:Been to a wedding? Yep

107:Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? Most of the time

108:Watched TV for 5 hours straight? Yep

109:Been outside my home country? Yep

110:Gotten my heart broken? Sort of

111:Been to a professional sports game? No

112:Broken a bone? Skull, elbow, clavicle x 2, wrist x3, most of my toes, both my thumbs, my left ring finger, my ankle, and foot.

113:Cut myself? Used to

114:Been to prom? Fuck prom

115:Been in airplane? Yep

116: Fly by helicopter? No

117:What concerts have I been to? To name a few (not even close to 1/4 of them: The wonder Years x4, Moose Blood x2, Neck Deep, Real Friends x3, Modern Baseball x3, Knocked Loose, Stick to Your Guns, etc...

118:Had a crush on someone of the same sex? Yep

119:Learned another language? Started to learn german, dropped it. Spoke some french but I’m rusty.

120:Wore make up? Most days

121:Lost my virginity before I was 18? Way before I was 18

122:Had oral sex? Yeah

123:Dyed my hair? Every few months for the last like 4-5 years

124:Voted in a presidential election? Not yet.. 2019 here I come

125:Rode in an ambulance? No

126:Had a surgery? Small one

127:Met someone famous? A few people.. Dan Campbell from the Wonder Years being one of them

128:Stalked someone on a social network? In an innocent-ish “what the fuck is my boyfriend doing liking your slutty pics” stalking

129:Peed outside? Yep

130:Been fishing? Yep

131:Helped with charity? Yep

132:Been rejected by a crush? No

133:Broken a mirror? Yep

134:What do I want for birthday? A camera

135:How many kids do I want and what will be their names? 2-3. Nora, Avalyn, and idk maybe Declan, Jax, Quinn?

136:Was I named after anyone? No

137:Do I like my handwriting? Sometimes

138:What was my favorite toy as a child? Pogs, Pokemon Cards, Idk I mostly read books

139:Favorite TV Show? Shameless is lit

140:Where do I want to live when older? I don;t know yet, used to be Alaska but the US is fucked rn

141:Play any musical instrument? A little piano, tried guitar

142:One of my scars, how did I get it? one on my hand is shaped like a dick.. i stuck my hand in a fire to get a cigarette that dropped when i was drunk and burned the fuck outta my hand, when it scarred the center got prominent, and dick shaped

143:Favorite pizza topping? Bacon

144:Am I afraid of the dark? No

145:Am I afraid of heights? A little

146:Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? Yeah, I’ve been caught sneaking out and smoking pot and getting drunk when I was supposedly studying or having a quiet movie night in

147:Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? All the time

148:What I’m really bad at. Life, keeping my temper in check

149:What my greatest achievements are. I graduated high school, and got into college and university

150:The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me. “fat homewrecking bitch”.. but it wasn’t the truth

151:What I’d do if I won in a lottery. Pay off my debt and adopt a load of animals in need

152:What do I like about myself? I got some nice eyelashes, and a nice rack

153:My closest Tumblr friend. ------

154:Something I fantasies about. Cole Sprouse

155:Any question you’d like -------

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luobingmeis · 7 years

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im just letting you all know there’s gonna be a semi-unpopular opinion under the cut

okay, im not trying to start any fights or anything, but i just wanna talk abt o******

recently i’ve seen a post going around that i have not read, but the summary of it that’s shown is basically talking abt the homophobia and preservation of innocent surrounding o******. and im not going to sit here and be like “that’s not true” bc it is. in fandom, when there is a gay ship, especially one that involves teens/young people, there are a large handful of people who jump in like “but the child like innocence!!! gay is only for adults!!!” like trust me i get where that post is (probably) coming from (i have not read that post). there is a certain ideology in fandom that is basically like “gay=dirty and therefore harms kids”. i completely get that, let’s just get that straight (ha)

but, can we also take into account that some people, especially minors, might not have been comfortable at first with the ship because they’re minors? like i can say that i was originally uncomfortable by the ship, and im 17 im not technically a legal adult but im old enough to have legal sex in my state so idek if im a minor or not. and it wasn’t bc of the show itself. i thought whatever relationship they had was portrayed beautifully. what made me uncomfortable, and many others that i have spoken to, was that there was a sudden influx of po/rn drawings of o******, and more than once i’ve seen them done by someone in their mid-20s. and listen im not gonna sit here and be like “you’re over 18??? sorry you can’t enjoy this!!!” but it was just that stuff like that threw a lot of people off.

for me, it threw me off and made me kinda like “woah what” bc i’ve been catcalled since i was like 10 or 11, and i think that kinda made me nervous around older guys, no matter if it’s a group or one of them. and also, when i was 14/15 i would have done anything to get the seniors in my school to like me? so i was like willing to change my personality and stuff and try to be cool around them. and tho i never did anything drastic it is still like that “i wanted them to like me so much and got so nervous when i thought they didn’t” and i was ready to adjust how i acted around them to fit in

and i am getting more into the ship just bc i see that it is being handled well and how can you not like “welc/ome to the madn/ess”? and i understand where people are coming from saying that people are equating gay to bad and dirty and therefore trying to protect some innocence. like that is definitely a valid point. but can we also realize that some people might have initially, and maybe still are, uncomfortable by the ship bc they’re minors?

im really not trying to start any fights, i reworded this post a lot in my head so that it wouldn’t sound aggressive. i don’t wanna start any ship wars. i dont want people reblogging this to start discourse. im really hoping that i, or anyone else for that matter, don’t receive any hateful messages bc of ship wars. like trust me i understand where one side is coming from and that their points are valid, too, but i think we also need to see that some other points, perhaps not for said ship, are valid, too

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