#i am so thrilled you enjoy my work omg

[citrinesparkles]

silent reader here, i love, love, love your stories (maybe a bit exaggerated ;-;) especially "stoplight, stop bright" (really like how you end the fic "you were a better view than the road ever was" & for that it holds a special place in my heart) 🤗

hope you continue writing stories!! 🤩🤩

hey, lovely!!! thank you so much for such a sweet note- this made my day :) stoplight, stop bright is one of my favorite pieces, actually!!

i hope so too!! i've been on a bit of a comics hiatus due to irl stuff + other interests, but i'm hoping to get back into reading them (and writing about them!) in the new year :)

[official-darkforest]

i am SOOO unbelievably thrilled by your anthro au omg. do you have fashion ideas for the characters? like their favorite outfits, fabrics, etc? imo one of the best parts of anthro characters is deciding how they'd express themselves through their clothing :]

I HAVE A FEW ALREADY!!!! i dont have many specifics because theres so many characters ahd i havent drawn them all yet LOL but i'll share the ones i do have at least SOMETHING for

im also trying to keep these reasonable for the time period and location, as in my au the clan cats are mostly rural and in small towns set (mostly) before the 2000s so most may dress more modest and conservative (especially if theyre older and very religious)

squirrelflight - the best i can describe her sense of fashion is that it ranged from tomboy as a younger girl and is currently closer to a working class butch. im not sure if masc would be a more appropriate term since i dont hc her as a lesbian (shes bi) but she dresses "like a man" and owns a lot of jeans, slacks, and button-up shirts of all kinds of fabrics and patterns. she also enjoys bright colors as well, but as she got older her fashuon sense got a little more sensible and less "loud" like it was in the 60s and 70s. she also has glasses like her daddy once shes like 35 or so. she and firestar dressed very similarly, and a lot of her shirts and neckties are things she stole from his closet

feathertail - very feminine. hippie adjacent, lots of loose and flowing garments and jingly pieces. breatheable clothes and open toed shoes. her favorite swimsuit had some little frilly bits on it i think. often combines neutral earthy tones with blues and whites

crowfeather - lots of handmedowns from his father. clothes you can do farmwork in like jeans, overalls, hardy flannel/denim shirts and boots. never grew out of this and still dresses this way and he likes it

jayfeather - he looks like a modernized (as far as the 80s goes) version of his father - same hairstyle snd way of dress. he isnt too formal but does have some more preppiness to his clothing style (polo shirts and sweaters). he avoids full button downs since buttoning them himself jjust gets frustrating since he cant match them up every time. new wave band shirts. he also wears orange tinted glasses to protect his eyes (in this au i wrote that hes able to perceive shadows and light pretty okay, but not much else beyond that) And Kinda As A Fashion Statement cuz it goes well with his facial structure and hairstyle i think

lionblaze - hes like if the stereotypical jock and stereotypical 80s rock+metal enthusiast had a baby. muscle tees and bandanas, ripped jeans, those absurdly short shorts, crop tops, etc. he's a drummer i think if that matters LOL

ivypool - punk, also sorta like joan jett to an extent. very homemade, tho sometimes she gets lazy and doesnt really commit to the outfits all the way (but definitely has the mindset, dint get me wrong). one of those girls with a chest small enough to go braless 99% of the time; wears a lot of tank tops and sleeveless shirts LOL

bone/brick/scourge - just google "the outsiders movie" or "greaser" and you'll get the idea. tho i imagine these three in particular also have some kind of bare minimum formalwear scraped together from their escapades. theyre kinda like the jetts/sharks from west side story if that helps at all

daisy - she combines flowing, pretty dresses with a sunhat and work boots. she also teaches horseback riding and owns a few (its a business she runs w smokey and floss. i think its be funny if they were polyam ITS MY AU I CAN CHANGE WHAT I WANT) and she has horseback-appropriate clothing as well

poppyfrost - THEE preppy girl of the 80s. big hair, perm and all. dresses with pastel colors. her sisters cinderheart and honeyfern are pretty similar, tho i imagine honeyfern is a little more sporty and cinderheart takes inspiration from madonna once shes trying to court lionblaze

hazeltail - long haired country girl butch. enough said

spottedleaf snd cinderpelt are nuns lol

[girlfromthecrypt]

I finally got to read the update!! Don't mind me rambling a bit about everything I loved about it...

I really enjoyed the beginning of this chapter.  Being playful with Basil in the van is super cute. It was interesting to see Reem and Basil not getting along a little bit, it makes me intrigued about if there will be any cracks in our little friend group's foundation that might start to show. And if so what that might mean when things start going bad.

Also, Anita is adorable!! It had me giggling when she called everyone attractive--I loved getting to tease her about it afterwards. I chose to room with her and the siblings--though the thought of Basil sleeping alone makes me nervous for the future...

Definitely Looking at Anita's comment about how your sanity starts slipping when you go without sleep. I'm SO eager to reach the horror. Though the slightly slower, cheerful beginning is so great. I love getting to know everyone and seeing them happy and bonding, knowing that there's horror on the horizon...

Javier talking about his mom marrying his dad straight up made me snort laugh. I work with kids and they truly do say the most out of pocket things. It's very true to life. And ooooh, Basil and Gabriel just...staring at the woods got me so hyped. Reading that scene gave me a proper thrill, that little 'heart-pounding-faster' feeling that makes me love horror so so much.

Hell yes at getting to tell the kids a scary story!! I remember being a kid and hearing classics like Don't Turn on the Light and being scared out of my socks. It's sooo fun to be able to play at passing that on to a whole new generation!! I'm 100% in to romance Basil, but this update makes me want to do a run where I romance Anita. She's so so cute. And the siblings both are great in their own ways... I'm sensing that I'll end up doing runs for each of the ROs, you've made such fun and sweet characters!

Aaah that ending!!!! Genuinely terrifying, and made me so anxious about the kids!! I KNOW my MC is going to be hard-pressed to keep them all safe. I can't wait to see what comes next!! I love how you write characters, they're all so likable and distinct!! This was such a good update, it makes me really eager for more.

HI (omg it's that cool person) HIIII <3

Thank you so much for this. I'll have you know I reread this ask like three times and I'm probably gonna read it all over again tomorrow bc it gives me life. I can't express how happy I am that you cared to write such a long ask bc of my IF if all things. Thank you, it made my day.

Basil and Anita's on-the-road scenes in the van were my favorite to write!! And yes, there's certainly a bit of tension in the group. MCs with high sociability or perception will be able to pick up on this, also on George's fondness for a certain colleague--- but don't worry, no one's at each other's throats. Yet.

And yay, some Anita appreciation!! Cut her some slack, she's not used to being around hot people and between a possibly cute MC and the FUCKING MALAKS of all people... yeah. It's not easy for her.

Ok so you know that you can also sleep in the van with Basil if your relationship stat/his approval of you is strong enough? I hope that was clear from the dialogue options and you just chose the cabin despite of it, bc if not, I might have to rewrite the choice. Furthermore, while I can see why you'd be worried for him, I'd be more concerned for an MC who chooses to sleep alone ;) [yes, this is me hinting at a future horror scenario possibly unique to that route].

Ah yes, Javier, my son <3 lol. Nahhh I don't favor any of the campers. Though, if I had to pick which one I liked to write the most, it'd probably be him.

Now I feel bad haha. Ok but srsly, kids can be VERY outspoken, and Javier especially has noooo social filter. You might notice that some of the campers' traits specifically correspond to some of the ROs' characteristics... Looking at Gabriel and Basil here.

Both campfire stories are also really close to my own heart, so I jumped at the chance to include them. As for the ROs, I do hope you'll do a run for each of them! I'm trying quite hard to make it difficult to choose between them ;)

I love that the ending hit the way it was supposed to. If you want to know what's up next, I have one word for you: confusion. Lots of confusion.

See, I need to give this story a slow, slice-of-life start, bc purely from a narrative standpoint, it wouldn't make sense for the horror to come out guns blazing. That's why the MC will at first be the only one to experience the horrors and for the horrors to (seemingly) originate from one of the kids, bc if it was more dramatic and the threat was to come from an exterior source, everyone would just pack up and flee and then the story would be over. That's what I figure.

Anyhow, I'm so glad I still got you hooked with this project. Thanks so much for this super long message.

[fortune-fool02]

Talented Soul

Jack Krauser x military, female reader

Requested by: anonymous

OMG hiiiiii!!! I am literally freaking out right now!! I can't even contain my excitement because you're, like, the only person who understands my obsession with Krauser! And OMG, you're taking requests? That's just totally awesome, I can't even! 😈

So, I had this crazy idea for a fic, and I'm, like, dying to share it with you. It's set before RE4 And Javier and the reader gets to train with Krauser and even Leon. But here's the twist: the reader is, like, super talented and totally kicks butt. At first, Krauser is, like, all business and has no feelings for the reader. But, you know, after they train together and work on missions, he starts falling head over heels for them.

Like, seriously, I'm cool with it being a short or long story. I'm flexible and just thrilled if you even considering it! But if you don't want to do it, no worries, really! I totally understand. Anyway, THANK YOU SO MUCH! You're, like, the best! Bye!! 😘

Warning: Fluff, canon-violence.

Word count: 1,117 words

I adore this so much! Thank you for requesting it!

Please enjoy!

Out of every rookie lined up before him, she stood out the most. Not just for the fact she was a woman, Krauser has trained women before, but there was this look in her eyes. A sharpness that could put even his knives to shame. A burning determination to strive forward and thrive.

[Name] [Surname] had been brought along with that former cop from Racoon City, apparently the only two survivors of that catastrophe. The information gathered on her was basic, a civilian with some training to a degree, given that her father was also a former military man himself. But that did, by no means, mean Krauser would take it easy on her. If anything, it made her a target for him to see just how much potential she truly had, or if all of her father's coddling bore spoiled rotten fruit.

"[Surname], O'Neil! Step forward!" Krauser barked, and both of them stepped forward. [Name] standing with her back straight, perfect posture and her eyes fixed ahead of her, like a machine almost while O'Neil's posture was a little slumped at the shoulders, looking bored. He had them gathered outside in training yard, the obstacle course laying out in wait for them, a gruelling trial. The task was simple. Two would attempt it in unison, using this to weed out the lackies, those who couldn't hold their ground.

At the moment, Krauser had them in a clear opening. He wanted to see their capability in close-combat.

"I want you both to look at one another. Do not see a comrade. Do not see a friend. See each other as the enemy. Fight like they're your enemy." He ordered, watching the two with a stern glare. "No killing."

With that, both [Name] and O'Neil drew out their combat knives. O'Neil watching her, a light smirk on his lips. "I'll take it easy on you, little lady."

[Name] made no hesitation in making the first move, her knife held securely but allowed for a fluid movement as she closed the gap between them, the blade slicing through the air. O'Neil stumbled back, taken aback by her sudden, sharp movement and had just enough time to block the blade. Metal clashed against metal, the sound cutting through the air as she twisted her arm slightly and brought the blade downwards, cutting along O'Neil's arm and pulling a pained gasp from him. Her boot raised up, landing a sharp kick to his stomach, knocking the man down.

"Pathetic, O'Neil!" Krauser shouted, spitting down at the man. "If this woman was your enemy, you deserved to be killed!" His sharp gaze moved up to [Name], who stood there, ready for his judgement. "[Surname], impressive form. But your skills need sharpening."

[Name] simply nodded her head and stood back when she was dismissed. It was that moment that had planted something in Krauser, unnoticeable at first, but it was there.

Every task he threw at the new rookies, every obstacle he shoved in their path, [Surname] and Kennedy seemed to outmatch their fellow comrades. His eyes would observe her, the focus and determination in her eyes showing that she wanted this. She wanted to succeed. She wanted something she didn't have back in Racoon City.

Power. She wanted to be strong. And he would help with that.

He would arrange for one-to-one training sessions, correcting her posture or technique as he sparred with her. Every piece of information he gave her, [Name] took in and adapted. Flickering wisps of pride would nip at him whenever he saw her improving. A warmth developing more with how she would look at him. Her eyes showing nothing but respect and admiration for her Major.

Others looked at him with similar expressions but it was different from her. Something about the light in her eyes or how her pupils would very slightly expand upon seeing him. Whatever it was, it pulled at Krauser, festering deep inside him, allowing something faint to slip through paper-thin cracks in himself. Cracks that [Name] had caused with her little moments. Those lingering touches. The way their eyes would lock for longer than necessary.

Each little thing that would make his heart beat that one beat faster. An eagerness that would grow at the idea of their one-to-one sessions. They soon became the high-lights of his day. Seeing how her skills were honing, how she was adapting better.

But it didn't stop there. Ideas began to whisper into his thoughts. When he would raise his arm to block her incoming strike, grabbing her wrist, then either pull her into his chest or push her against the wall, pressing his lips upon hers. Pressing the blade of his knife against her neck and seeing that look in her eyes, that light mix of discomfort with a hint of something else. Something that stirred inside him.

His eyes would always fall to her lips. Imagining how they would feel against his. How she would feel in his arms, his hands on her body. These thoughts would haunt him late into the night, and even seeping into his dreams at times.

A part of him wanted to act out on these desires, to give into that temptation that she held over him, but there were too many risks. She was a rookie, he was her Major. Perhaps it was that which made it all the more tempting?

He stood there again, watching [Name]'s focused expression as she sat, taking a gun apart and putting it back together, of course, in a more basic fashion than some professionals that Krauser had seen before. But the way her fingers moved with such care and dedication was what entranced him the most.

"Major Krauser, sir." [Name] set the parts aside and stood to attention, saluting the man.

"At ease, [Surname]." He smiled at her and her posture relaxed after a moment or two. His mind rattled a little, trying to seek out a good reason for being there rather than just to observe her, like he has done countless times. But nothing came to mind. Nothing that he couldn't openly state. "You're a great soldier, [Surname]."

[Name] nodded her head at that, a sense of pride welling up inside her at the praise, she dared to crack a light smile. Krauser's eyes lit up at the sight of her smile and felt a warmth rush through his body. "Thank you, Major."

Krauser smiled at this. "Jack. Between us, just call me that." A part of him wanted to hear her call him by his name. He longed for it.

She nodded her head and glanced around, ensuring that no one is around, "Yes, Jack."

He smiled again.

[youryanderedaddy]

as another victim of a yandere, (mf stalked me and my relatives, then bullied me after i broke up with him), i just want to say, your work never really came off to me as romanticizing yanderes. actually, i see it as a pretty damn realistic portrayal of them, as well as how you write the s/o's or y/ns. you never really wrote the stories with a "it's so cute and sweet omg" way for me. Like you showed pretty realistic responses to abuse and extremely toxic relationships, and i commend you for that. I personally read yandere stories as a way of feeling things about my experiences, like i read yan stories to process it and for thrill as well. i never really read them because i find it cute, so your stories are def my cup of tea. PS: I'm fucking obsessed with "The First Shot Is A Warning", it's legit the only yan story series i've been able to read over and over and not get bored. I love stories where the darling hates the yandere 'till the very end.

I'm really sorry that you had to go through this, I hope you're safe now. In my personal life I've had very close people stuck in abusive relationships that unfortunately led to stalking and assault. It's incredibly painful, frustrating and just exhausting - and when it's your friend or family, you feel helpless. You want to help them, but you just don't know how. In my personal experience, the police often disregards stalking cases until something fatal happens, which is insane, and I really wish it was taken more seriously. It's one of the cruelest things someone can do to you, it's selfish and just egotistical. No one deserves this treatment and I genuinely hope the fucker got his due.

I think I choose to write about "yanderes" because I like horror. I absolutely don't think that any of the situations I write about would be appealing in real life (like, I'm literally ace 😭). To me this is one of the most horrifying situations to be stuck in. Very similar to survival horror, it gives me a reason to explore paranoia, helplessness, resistance, the adaptivity of the human brain to stress and limitation, etc. In that sense, I am glad you enjoy my stories - but please take care of your mental health and make sure you're not reliving bad memories through them!

Aaand thank you <33 I had a lot of fun writing The Last Shot Is A Warning because it's one of my few stories with a bit of worldbuilding and just a slight touch of politics. Anyways, I'm glad you enjoyed it!

Sending good vibes 💕

[jmdbjk]

JM Welive & JK Welive #3-4

Jimin’s Welive:

My god, he looks SOOOO good. All these years, when Jimin makes comments about how he looks, I always think, “omg, Jimin, you always look great!” He looked especially fantastic during this live though he admitted he’d had a sore throat and his voice was a little rough. He reassured us he took some meds and he’s fine.

Within the first 22 seconds, someone texts him because his phone vibrates once... he looks down... who is it? Is it his manager saying we leave in 20 minutes? Or someone else who wants to order chicken and look for something to watch on Netflix? ... ... ... he wanted to say something... but he didn’t... 

Anyway, Jimin continues and says “here I am alive and well!” and came to tell us. He’s seen our comments. His album is coming soon, it’s almost ready and he’s got lots of stuff in store for us. [squeeeeeeeeeee!!!!1!!] He even filmed something earlier in the day but he couldn’t talk about it. 

When he was talking about working with Taeyang, and specifically the MV, he said something to the effect that he realized he has been living comfortably like a child in a warm home... did he mean he realized how pampered he’s been as a member of BTS? I wrote about my impressions of the Vibe MV and I was not very complimentary of the production... is Jimin confirming that the conditions were not up to what he’s been used to? 

He was choosing his words carefully and I’m sure the reason he said it was to self-reflect on how fortunate he is. Perhaps he realizes his solo work process so far has also been very easy compared to other artists trying to make music and be successful. Jimin has a whole company behind him that can cater to every whim and he’s able to work with almost any producer he chooses and he’s able to have a lot of guidance in things he’s less experienced in.

He says he’s happy, doing the things he wants to be doing. He’s experiencing new things including being a fashion ambassador. He says happy things are happening one right after the other and I’m thrilled for him. It’s so good to see him in such a positive headspace because 2020 through 2021 were suckass.

He says he’s living the busy life and then (randomly?) mentions he has been watching Suchwita... 

After someone asked him if he saw Taeyang watching that old video of young Jimin singing/dancing to a Taeyang song, Jimin says he was so embarrassed and wonders how did he ever become Bangtan... hahahahahahahaaa... 

He talked more about Paris Fashion week and wanting to talk more about his work but he can’t say anything right now. Jimin is excited, y’all. I’m excited for him, it’s going to be so fun when his album is released!

JK Welive #3: Jungkookie has reached a certain status where he doesn’t answer to anyone. Though the members told him not to drink while live broadcasting... Jungkook is a man on a mission. 

And then boyfie shows up in the comments...

[That man’s mega-watt smile when he realized his Jiminie was in the comments... be still my heart... ]

He kept looking for Jimin in between laughing at Bam who was chasing the green dots swirling around on the walls.

He really wanted Jimin to be there... lol. 

And a screen shot of Jimin’s comments with Weverse translations:

When Jimin said “It’s night” he meant Bam, he saw Bam... “Bam” means night. And with the emojis... sobx5 It’s Bam sobx5

Jimin: (laughing) kekekekekeke don’t do it when you’re drunk kekekekekekeke (that amount of keke-ing is falling over laughing keke-ing don’t you think?)

Also Jimin: I am at another location for work, kekekekeke sobbing emoji... kissy face emoji (!!!)

Also Jimin: have fun with Army, I’ll be back after work (!!!) silly face emoji

I want to ask Jungkookie and Jiminie exactly who is acting more shameless these days?

JK Welive #4: 

Welp... the man on a mission didn’t count on Netflix’s big nope. From what I saw, Kookie was enjoying his chicken, beer and his Netflix show. 

Kookie did happen to tear his eyes away from his chicken and tv   program and saw Jimin back in the comments.

And Armys were quick enough to save this for us before the live got deleted... Jimin’s comments on the deleted Welive #4...

Jimin: commenting that Kookie is just sitting there watching TV with the live on... 

Jimin: (laughing) kekekekekeke you’re cute with the gloves on kekekekeke (he is falling over laughing again).

Jimin: (laughing) kekekekekekekekeke I want to tie your hair neatly kekeke

And lastly: (Korean OP clarified the wonky Weverse translation because apparently, Jimin dropped his formal language and spoke very informally/cutely) I gotta go, eat plenty, baby. (!!!!!)

Confirmed: Jimin and Jungkook are... still flirting in front of our morning salad. Like, I-want-to-tie-your-hair-back-eat-well-spend-time-with Bam-and-Army-babe-I’ll-be-back-later-after-work NUCLEAR level flirting.

Anon who is trying to make a big deal out of this formal greeting Jimin and Jungkook do all the time... I’ve seen them do this repeatedly... this formal polite-bowing-hello-nice-to-meet-you thing they’ve been doing that I’ve seen at least 4 different times now and is some inside joke of theirs. Just another one of those things that’s between the two of them. I can hear it now... at some point in the past, someone could have, maybe, who knows... said to them... “hey guys, chill a little, y’all being really loud, as in totally obvious with the hickey/touchy-feely/bedroom eyes”... and one of them said “what are we supposed to do? act like we just met?” And they ran with it (laughing all the way.)

BAHAHAHAHA!

Anyway. Nothing has changed. They are fine.

I hope they put #4 live back up after clearing any copyright claims on it and putting stickers all over that chicken box to hide the logos... [hears Hobi repeating “he never listens” while both of us shaking our heads].

[ashes-writing]

outer banks ● one girl two guys pt 9 ● j.maybank + t.thornton

warning

asshole!jj, mentions of sexual encounters, swearing, angst -omg so much angst. lowkey hurt my own damn feelings here lads, love triangles but like.. not exactly? writer doesn't know how to write a full on triangle but she is tryinggg, complicated home lives (reader and topper have mommy issues, we all know jj has daddy issues ), jealousy, affection / filth / kissing ( body fluids dude ), use of petnames (cupcake + love or baby maaybe an occasional princess), violent confrontations (past and present), very small hints of the treasures that the show is centered around so au warning? yeah? yeah.

<- reader / you is a female with female working parts + clothing and appearance. you/reader also have a bit of personality and a past, nicknames or petnames. this is self indulgent and i have no shame.

word count

2445 exactly. for any missing context (unless you're a minor, ofc) part 8 <- click the bolded to be taken to it.

summary

after your night with Topper Thornton, things are starting to become a lot more clear. but how much more messy can/will it get before decisions are made and realizations reached?

taglist + shoutouts

taglist is here... if you'd like to be added to it, please let me know or click the bolded and add yourself. If you're not here for a whole complicated mess and i've tagged you, lmk.

@tbmunson bestie iloveyousofuckingmuch omg. this.. this would not have come together without us just discussing it a little while ago. I owe you my life, because you're my inspiration and you're amazing. hope you're prepared for the angst, oops rip.

@writingreadinglurkingandsmirking baaaabes. omg so like.. you may have been right in your comment on the previous part. i may or may not have chosen violence today? your comments have me living over here, they mean so much more to me than I can express properly and I've really really, really enjoyed reading every single one. you're the sweetest and honestly, i'm just thrilled you like this so much.

@valentineshiftz lol, the pregnancy scare won't happen... yet. but like.. your comments give me life, babes, i can't thank you enough holy shit, you don't know how much it means to me that you're caught up in this -messy as hell as it is, and you're reading it and i just am moved and thrilled that you like this so thank you, thank you sm.

@stilesstilinskisgf oh my god you are the sweetest i swear. your comments are so sweet and you're too good to me, i'm just so happy you seem to enjoy this and you've taken the time to read, ahhhh. thank you sm!

other links

masterlist ● jj's masterlist ● topper's masterlist ● about + rules

← what’d you do? Move him in, cupcake?

← his jeep has been there since Monday.

← you know he’s probably just using you. Why are you even going along with it?

← I’m sorry, okay? I’m really, really sorry.

← I miss you cupcake.

← Never thought I’d see the day you turned Kook.

You’re reading the texts that JJ sent and you roll your eyes, tossing the phone to your nightstand. Every part of you is tempted to just pick up the phone and have that one big fight. But if you even think about it, you chicken out. Because you can’t lose him, you’re not ready to give up completely. 

,, but you’re starting to fall in love with Topper. You really are your mother’s daughter, huh? Right down to being torn between a Kook and a Pogue..” the thought comes and it’s enough to make you scowl. You finish the cigarette you ducked out to smoke and you shove your phone  down into your pocket. Just as you go to reach for the handle on the door leading into the bar, you hear your name being called from the top of the alley.

“Why can’t you just leave it alone?” you wonder to yourself as you tense all over. Your stomach is churning. You don’t want to talk to JJ right now, you know if you do and he says the right combination of things, one thing or the other will happen. One, he’ll finally drive you right into exploding and saying things you can’t take back, which will wind up costing you your best friend and two.. If he’s here for another reason and he says just the right things in just the right way, there’s a chance you won’t be able to resist him and the last thing you want right now is to mess up whatever’s just happened between you and Topper Thornton.

“Go away, JJ.” you call out and it’s tired.

JJ walks down the alley and stops to lean against the wall beside you. “You don’t know how t’ text somebody back, cupcake?”

“That goes two ways, JJ.” you rub the bridge of your nose. Obviously, it’s the first scenario that’s about to happen and you’re not ready for it, you’re dying for a hole to open up in the pavement and pull you down, straight to hell.

“Are you fucking him, cupcake?”

“JJ, don’t.” you try to place a hand against his chest and shove him back as he steps up into you but he ignores it, stepping closer instead. “ Answer the question.”

You roll your eyes. Of course he’s not going to just let this drop and walk away. He’s JJ Maybank, he’s confrontational as the day is long. And you  really do not have the patience for it tonight, not when you’ve been getting groped by old money drunks all goddamn night because Topper had to be somewhere for his grandpa and he isn’t here to buffer like usual. And the second you catch yourself feeling bothered by it as if you rely solely on him for your own safety, you're beyond frustrated with yourself because it's a very slippery slope, depending on other people is. And it's something you're fighting like hell not to do.

You swallow hard. “You don’t want me to do that, JJ.”

“Oh, I want you to, cupcake. I asked, didn’t I?”

“Why the hell do you care? Are you not fucking her right now? Why aren’t you with her anyway, JJ? She’s your girlfriend..” you go quieter, “Not me. I.. I tried to show you how I felt. You didn’t want that. You don’t get to do this now.”

“You’re my girl. You’ve always been my girl. Answer the question.”

“Okay, fine. We’ve been fucking nonstop. We’ve fucked on my bed, in his Jeep, on my mom’s kitchen counter, behind this bar.. Is that enough, JJ or do you want details? Do I need to paint you a clearer picture?” and maybe it’s a lie, you’ve only hooked up twice so far, but.. You’re too angry now to be bothered with trivial shit like the truth. You’re not thinking about what you say or how you say it, otherwise, you would’ve told a white lie to placate him in the first place. 

JJ’s jaw flutters and he’s stunned silent. He looks really hurt and your heart is breaking because you’re the one who’s just hurt him. But then that hurt look is gone and it’s replaced by cold indifference. He rubs his chin. “I think I got it. So what? You’re just gonna let him use you and laugh about it with all his fuckin’ country club friends, cupcake? Is that what you want for yourself?” he’s pacing, tugging at his hair, he’s so frustrated he’s turning red all over. “I wanted it to be me and you, cupcake.”

“And yet, when I tell you how I really feel, your response is to ditch me. Leave me out of fucking everything. Make me think you fucking died? Make it make sense, JJ. Because it doesn’t. You can’t have us both, y’know..” you go quiet. “I’m goin’ inside. Some of us have to worry about an actual roof over our head and not when the next big adventure is coming. Just leave.. Please?”

“I’m not goin’ anywhere.” JJ’s standing full height, his back against the  door and his arms crossed over his chest. He’s staring down at you intently as everything falls to pieces and goes to shit all around him. You try to step around him, he blocks you from that way. You finally get so fed up that you throw your hands up in disgust. “What do you want, JJ? I told you what you asked for. If you don’t want the answer, maybe don’t ask the question.”

“I want you. I want everything t’ go back to the way it was.” and he’s quiet. You can look at him and tell this is killing him, you have tears stinging at your own eyes right now. But you start to think about the way he’s always played hot and cold, because now that you haven’t been spending every single second with him you’ve had your eyes open to a lot of things you had the blinders on about before and that in itself… was painful to realize.

“I don’t, though? Do you even care what I want JJ? Have you ever? Because I couldn’t keep being your little cupcake, alright? Watching you with everybody else but me. I got sick of it. I don’t want to go back to that and I’m not going to.”

“You don’t.. You can’t mean that. Cupcake, it wasn’t like that.” JJ is desperate for you to understand. To connect with you again.

He just wants you to feel what he’s feeling whenever he thinks about you, he wants you to understand exactly why he can’t just say it or act on it like you can..

But as he’s trying to put it to words, nothing else will come. “I was scared!” he throws up his hands. “I was scared that I’d let it happen, I’d let us happen and then it’d fuck up somehow.” his voice drops and he takes a few shaky breaths. Steps closer to you, effectively keeping you from going back inside the bar as he stares down at you. “He’s filling your head full of shit. And he’s using you. You’re smarter than this, cupcake. Think about it.. When do any of them really give a shit about any of us?” he can look at you and tell you’re not understanding it.

He laughs bitterly, “You’re always saying you don’t want to be your mom. This shit.. This is how it started with her, cupcake.” he swallows hard. Watches the way your eyes flash in anger when his words sink in. You step away and you’re glaring at him, seething. Almost shaking because you’re that angry. That hurt by the things he’s just said to you.

“He’s done nothing to me but treat me like a person. With thoughts and feelings? Not a possession.” you go quiet. Shoving at JJ when he steps up to you. “I’m not like her. I’m not. Didn’t you think I was scared? Did you not stop to think about that at all? But I took a risk.” you rub your forehead as you make yourself look up at him and shake your head. “I shouldn’t have. None of this would’ve ever happened. And so what if he’s gonna use me, JJ? So fucking what?”

“You don’t remember how he treated Sarah? She left cos he got too possessive.” JJ’s gazing down at you in concern.

“She left because she wanted somebody else at the time and we both know it, JJ. Don’t you dare start the bullshit. She left Topper because John B caught her attention. When she finds somebody else that catches her attention, she’ll probably leave John too.”

“Why are you defendin him? Don’t you remember the way he beat up Pope?”

“Oh, I do. But I’m not actually a Pogue, right? I mean.. You’ve always been so against me doing anything you guys do, no matter how much I wanted to help because you’re all my friends. You didn’t want me getting involved you don’t even like it when I hang out with all three of you together, I can just tell... So maybe I’m just standing back and looking at how damn stupid the whole  feud is to begin with.”

“Stupid, huh?” JJ rubs his chin and shakes his head. His stomach is churning even more now and there’s this bitterness creeping in. Because you would never have done all this before. You would’ve taken up for your side of the island. He’s so jealous of Topper right now because it’s starting to sink in. He’s going to lose you and he’s going to lose you to Topper Thornton, of all people, for good.

“I said what I said, JJ.” you sigh. Rub your forehead and take a few shaky breaths. “We’re done here. Go find your girlfriend, JJ. Go find the girl you chose. Be happy. Let me go.”

And you feel like you’ll throw up but you step past him and place your hand on the door in front of you.

“I love you. I always have.”

“No, JJ. No you don’t. You never did. I know that now.” 

Once you’re inside the bar again and out of sight, JJ breaks down completely. Picks up a garbage can and throws it and then he takes a swing at the wall. After he’s sat there about five minutes replaying everything back in his mind, he gets up and he leaves.

–

Last call is over and you are exhausted. Totally drained. Emotionally and physically. You make your way out of the bar and you start what you think will be your walk home only to have your shoulder tapped just as you make it past The Wreck.

You whirl around, glaring because you half expect it to be JJ. Or Kiara. Or even Sarah Cameron, surprisingly, she’s the only one who hasn’t bothered saying a damn thing about any of this to you yet. When you see Topper standing there, your glare softens and you go into his arms, melting against him. “I wanna go home.”

“Everything okay, love?” he’s got his hands on your hips and he’s gazing at you in concern. You bite your lip and shrug. “No worse than usual.”

“Was it JJ again?”

You swallow hard. He knows just by looking at you that yes, it was JJ again. And he clenches his fist. “I’m gonna kick his fucking head in.”

“Just leave him alone. I.. I think maybe he gets it this time. He kept pushing me so I told him.. About us?” and you’re scared to death saying it because you know that Topper could easily laugh. He could easily tell you that this is just sex, that he doesn’t care. He could easily prove every single thing JJ has been saying for weeks now correct.

So you’re so sure he’s going to do that, when he doesn’t, it catches you by total surprise. “How’d he take it?” Topper asks. Cringing a little because he kind of knows how the guy feels right now, the shoe was on the other foot not so long ago, with Sarah and John B.

“Pretty sure I heard him hit the door out behind the bar after I went inside.” you shrug. You’re just numb. Still processing the fight, total honesty. “We’re not coming back from this.” and you’re starting to tear up at the thought because now it’s finally hitting you. This isn’t just a fight. This is most likely the end. “He was my best friend.”

Topper pulls you against him, wrapping his arms around. “Shh. It’s okay.”

You’re sobbing harder and somewhere in the midst of it all, you start to ramble about exactly what JJ has been saying about him for weeks now and he pulls away to look down at you.

“Do you think that’s all this is?” Topper questions.

“Topper.. I don’t know.” you drop your shoulders, stare down at your ratty Converse. “Why would you wanna be with me?” it’s a simple question.

Topper takes a deep breath.

“I’m not using you. I’m not. And I don’t care how many times I have t’ say it, I’ll say it until you believe it.” he drags a thumb through inky mascara tear trails on your cheek and leans into you all over again. You breathe him in and start to relax a little. He feels you relax in his arms and chuckles quietly. “C’mon. Let’s get you back to your place, okay?”

You nod. Let him slip an arm around you and start to lead you over to his Jeep. Everything’s still raw, fresh in your mind and you’re reeling. One part of you knows you can trust Topper. But there’s that lingering fear that JJ’s right and he’s bored, using you because he wants to get over or get back at Sarah.

You shove the intrusive thought out. 

Because you’ve already got enough in your mind tonight. And you’d rather not be alone. When you’re with Topper, you’re not hurting, you’re not distracted by overthinking. And maybe, for now, that’s the way you need to leave it.

No labels. No bullshit. Just let go and lean into whatever comes next.

,,  he picked you. JJ didn’t. Just focus on that.” the thought comes and you let it linger.

[pikapeppa]

Genuinly just inhaled the chamomile and gwent series and I don’t know how long it’s been since you even thought about it but thank you so much honestly for writing it. I only know the Witcher games from my gamer friends (I just suck so bad at video games and have given up) and i am so glad I did or else I never would never have found this amazing piece of writing. Honestly I don’t know much about the relationship between Gerald or Yennefer and now I don’t even want to from how amazing this relationship was. Again, thank you for being your talented self and I’m so excited to read more of your work!!

Ahhh omg this is the nicest ask, thank you so much!!! 🥰 I'm so thrilled that you got to experience the game through your friends -- it's honestly one of my top-three favourite games of all time! And okay, I'm obviously biased, but I'm extremely flattered that you enjoyed my fic enough to not be curious about Geralt and Yennefer's past LMAO. 🤣

Thank YOU for taking the time to leave me this wonderful comment and for brightening my day!!! I will leave you with this happy Geralt in thanks!

For anyone who is curious and wants to check out the series: Chamomile and Gwent is here on AO3! Geralt x f!Reader, 3 fics, 600k+ words, rated E for smut! 🥰

-- love and thanks from your friendly neighbourhood Pikapeppa! xoxo

[tworegimesof]

Oh... Wow... IDK why it took me so long to find your Tumblr. ANYWAY I now have the power to bother you about how your writing made me go insane with giddiness and unholy thoughts. I even pulled a friend of mine into the abyss by showing her the NanaSho works you wrote. It has consumed her and I'm not sorry about it. Well that's it, just wanted to say reading your stuff makes me froth at the mouth and want to rip pillows in half. That's all. Have a good day. Goodbye.

OMG, hey, hello, I love your SatoShoko art! You’re one of my fave artists. The GetoHime one made my day, nay, my year! It was a pleasure to reblog it and I’ll be sure to shout it out whenever I update that GetoHime story I’m working on. Thank you for the dopamine hit and inspiration. 

Not giddy and unholy thoughts! Frothing at the mouth! I am honored! 

I actually love getting to shout out other writers here. I did not write the NanaSho on my profile. For the curious, a reader named van_del wrote “tell me your heart’s on fire” as a gift, and my lovely and talented writer friend bby_rabbit wrote “why am I awake at 2:00 a.m.,” which is a rewrite of her previous story, “no panties kind of weather.” I am thrilled to hear that you and your friend have enjoyed those stories. I’ve been lucky to receive gifts on ao3, and there are lots of other stories in my bookmarks worthy of love, so it’s great to hear that people actually look at them. 

Thanks for the sweet comment and take care! 

[kiatheinsomniac]

Oh my gosh I found a blog that writes for Connor!!! YAY!!! Could I please request Connor x fem reader ? Reader is a new member to the homestead and maybe has a hard time fitting in / finding out what they are useful for and Connor being the saint he is finds a way to help her prove her worth? If this doesn’t inspire you — I’ll take anything with Connor there’s just so little out there for him! Please and thank you

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𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄𝐒: OMG am I really in a time where people don't write for Connor anymore?? I can remember when he was like one of the big 3 for AC fics. Damn, that really makes me realise how long I've been in this fandom for lol

𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆: Connor Kenway | Ratonhnhaké:ton x Reader

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You dropped the bow to the ground with a loud huff as the deer scampered away, spooked off by your poorly-aimed arrow. It would seem you weren’t any good at hunting, either. 

Connor, the sweetheart that he is, had been spending the whole day trying to help you find your place on the homestead. You had moved here recently and were struggling to find something you were good at. You had cooked some dishes for all the residents but you were tired of sitting around and feeling useless, you wanted to find some way in which you could really contribute. So far you had tried foraging (you almost poisoned yourself), looking after the animals (a goat had rammed into your leg and you were fortunate it was only a small one) and hunting (as mentioned, you had missed and spooked the deer away). 

And yet, Connor had been so patient with you and you couldn’t thank him enough for it. He bent down to collect your bow for you and a comforting hand patted your back. “We’ll try something new.” He spoke in that soothing voice of his. With your bottom lip jutted out, you hesitated before nodding your head, forcing back the tears of frustration in your eyes. “Come one.” His hand slid further down your back, not inappropriately so, and he guided you back towards Davenport Manor. The two of you sat on the porch, sharing herbal tea and looking out across the garden. 

“It’s a state…” You commented with a frown. A storm had torn through the area recently and the garden seemed to have suffered the effects of it. 

“We could fix it up.” Connor suggested and you hummed in thought as you surveyed the damage. 

“Sure.” You replied with a smile. He was glad to still see that determination in your eyes, it was so very endearing and it made him glad to see you not give up. 

Once the tea was finished, the two of you got to work clearing fallen branches, sweeping away leaves and beginning to weed the flower pots and beds that were scattered around the place. You built up some support for the taller plants to help prevent them from snapping in the wind and got to planting certain flowers as well. You had moved on to the small vegetable patch to find that many potatoes and carrots were ready which gave you the idea to check the larder. Surely enough, there were all the ingredients necessary to make a stew so, while Connor tended to the horses, you were busy in the kitchen making enough for everyone in Davenport Manor and then some more to bring to the others living on the homestead after you had eaten. 

It felt nice to be sitting around a table with Connor and Achillies complimenting you on your cooking. You enjoyed cooking for other people and a part of you came to realise that you didn’t need to find other things to go beyond and prove yourself, that there were plenty around who were more than thrilled to simply have a home-made meal brought to them. The day finished with satisfaction and a wild berry tart shared with Connor on the upper balcony as the sun went down, the two of you chatting and laughing together as it grew dark. Soon enough, you were leaning your head on his shoulder as the two of you laid down to look at the stars. 

“Thank you-” You began “-for today, I mean. You’ve been so patient and helpful and it really means a lot to me.” He tilted his head just enough to look down at you and his smile softened even more at seeing you looking up at him in turn. 

“There’s no need to thank me.” His voice was quiet. 

“And yet I’m still grateful that you’re here…” And you rested your head against his shoulder once more, feeling his arm curl around you as the two of you gazed up at the stars, lost in thoughts of each other. 

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[woodswallow]

Rammstein in Berlin, 16.07.2023

My second Berlin-concert this year - and my very last one of the tour!! I have to say, I was a bit sad on one hand that I won't see them again this year, but on the other hand it was also a relief. Attending Rammstein concerts is always quite stressfull, thrilling and exhausting for me. Of course I could come into the stadium totally relaxed about an hour before the show starts - but that's not how my brain works, not with this band and especially not if I have tickets for Feuerzone, which could also mean "first row" - you just have to work hard for it ^^

I thought, I would be at the stadium a bit later than the day before, because saturday was very exhausting...but again, my brain... Woke up early, couldn't go back to sleep, so why lying around longer... I was at the stadium at about 9 am, just 30 min later than saturday XD The waiting wasn't as pleasant as yesterday. The security decided to narrow down the amount of gates where they let people in, so it got very crowded already at 10:30 am -.- Getting into the stadium was easier and worked better though, I was with the first 50 people entering - which is absolutely crazy! A split second before the running began I thought "OMG, it is possible! 1st row is possible!!"

I ran like crazy the last 50-80m and DAMN, I MADE IT! Fucking first row, in their hometown Berlin, on my last concert - and right in front of Paul!!! This was such a gift for me, a huge reward and I couldn't believe it - I was so happy!! I also let the security take a picture of me with my phone, but I'm not comfortable with showing my face online, so - enjoy the view I had :D

Time in the stadium went by incredibly fast, I had a lovely lady named Kim next to me, time flew by with her. I enjoyed the fantastic atmosphere in this beautiful stadium one last time, heart balloons and laolas, it was soooo cool!

The show was so good, all technical aspects worked well this time. I decided to not take many pictures (just of my favourite situation during Mein Herz brennt :D) and just enjoy the show to the fullest. I rocked so much, headbanged, jumped, screamed and totally destroyed my voice - worth it :D It was so cute to see Schneider, Paul and Richard running around Flakes Keyboards during Mein Teil - how Schneider hurried to join them! :D It's just so heartwarming to see them having fun on stage <3 The fire during Sonne was even hotter in the first row and the last blast of fire was definitely too hot, ouch :D I got sprayed with water from Till's bottle (refreshing on one hand, eeww on the other :D) and another time he threw the bottle in my direction and it landed 1 m in front of Kim and me on the floor. Kim and me were just staring at it (both obviously no Till fans - my reaction would have been completely different if that was a drumstick XD). A security picked it up and threw it in the crowd behind us - good :D

Sadly I didn't see that Paulchard-Kiss on the Engel stage with my own eyes, just later on tumblr - but that was incredibly sweet <3 Again I could touch and help carry the boats, even got a glimpse of Schneider and Till during leaving the boat! Paul caught a heart balloon and pressed it to his chest until it popped :) In the end, he also made sure a fan got a pair of Schneiders drumsticks - he's such a lovely human being!

The show ended with a big bang, as always - and I felt pure happyness! Again, no stickers for the first row - I was SOOO lucky to get one during my 1st time 1st row in Bern!! :)

So yeah, that was the tour for me - startet out quite mellow and emotional in Munich (1x), was absolutely wonderful in Bern (2x) and got an absolutely perfect finish in Berlin (2x)! I always managed to get 1st or 2nd row, which is mindblowing for me - but it was earned the hard way :)

I also caught THE bug during my time in Berlin (or maybe on the train home, that's also the reason this review is so late), luckily it broke out when I was back home. BUT: Absolutely no regrets, would do it again!

Thank you Rammstein and also a BIG thanks to al the amazing fans I met - the solidarity and helpfulness among the hardcore fans was incredible! Sharing sunscreen/blankets/umbrellas, giving out ice cream and food, sharing information...that was truly overwhelming. Best fans ever <3 Thank you!!

[boxwinebaddie]

I LOOVEE THE NEW PINTEREST BOARDS FOR FBW STYLE

AAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!! this ask made me so so excited!

because tbh, i wasn't sure...anyone really Cared? about the pinterest boards ( which i was Wrong about, btw! i do actually get a lot of asks about them -- those thrill me so much! ) but specifically about my weird ncu tfbw!style that, ok, so we don't get confused, bc all my ships are technically my stylized styles: og style = pep!style, rm!style is ravesey and tfbw!austyle gets to be...kiteshed? i guess? idk guys!

-- but i digress, i only kept those boards on the ncu pinterest...

( which is linked right here! btw, to the other anon in my box, i know the smile pendejo pins are down horrendous, i'm so sorry omg )

...as bonus for all of you ( that, again, i wasn't sure anyone really cared or was interested but just in case ) and because i had a lot of muse for it, so i was using those boards to develop my tfbw lore and its specific style which...is coming along really well, i think! <333

for ease of access, here is a link to toolstan's board and here is the link to kitekyle's board. i am also going to link you two important posts that i made while troubleshooting the ncu tfbw, this one right here is mostly about toolshed/tfbw ncu stan, is very kyshed heavy and features a lot about the superhero group/regular dynamics.

whereas this post is mostly about human kite kyle, is very stankite heavy and goes into a lot about the insidious underworkings of the plot, the reactions to mutations, the consequences of ignorance.

tbh friend, i actually only didn't make an main ncuniverse rpg/ff board for them because i haven't named it yet? it's working title is project mephesto, i was also thinking about the mephesto manifesto, operation mephesto...i'll try n explain: if this is lame, pls don't boo me.

so the mephesto portion being so crucial to the fanfic name is bc the whole fucked up hub of the tfbw universe i crafted is centered around a totalitarian dictator-type dr. mephesto who runs mephesto labs, a mutant 'rehabilitation' center which operates very surreptitiously and suspiciously ( especially in turns of O.K :) or...Operation Kevin. )

tldr: the fbw ncuniverse is basically a big scifi, supernatural, super-powered, nonhuman species xenophobic, dystopian fauxciety run by a totalitarian regime thats spearheaded/heavily propagandized by...

the intelligent, the incontestable, and deeply diabolically detestable,

dr. alphonse mephesto. ;)

*evil scifi music* dun dun DUUUUUUUN~

i got sidetracked, sorry! but i am so glad you are enjoying the boards! i am going possibly start up a ff/main board for project mephesto or idk operation kevin or Everything Is Going To Be O.K :) -- thats the evil slogan mayhaps? & maybe make kiteshed an otp board?

WHICH EVERY SECTION IS GONNA BE COMPLICATED BC OF THE LOVE RECTANGLE bc of kyle/stan, kite/shed, ky(le)/shed, stan/kite smh. i love the love rectangle so much it is giving very much miraculous lady bug if it was gayer and really fucked up & upsetting uGH....i love it but its such a doomed disaster, smhhh. </33 rip :'((

i will say that i'm not sure if i'm ready to make it a full rpg ( just bc it would involve so many side characters bc of the fp/r&c and you guys see how i'm coping w/ having to incorporate/thoughtfully create backstories/lore all of them into rm...very badly ) but i am thinking of writing some one shots for them to get that muse out there. <333

i thot abt specifically doing one where kyle rings toolshed on the beeper he gave them in case kyle is in trouble -- and kyle ringing it for stupid stuff just to see shed and oggle him ( i get it kyle but smh )

or like alien!kite taking who they think is their human stan ( does not know stan is shed/is mutated ) down to the mutant undercity where none of the heavily mutated/banished people trust him...but then stan rizzes all the undercitizens by absolutely clearing and devouring their weird scary alien slime food and winning the crazy and intense mutant glorg drinking contest and being able to drink so much of it as a human?? that every1 was impressed by him n want 2 keep him smh all the mutant people are like i like that lil human boy, kyte :) <3

[ sidebar shoutout to that one tweet i made where i was talking abt stan kissing alien!form!kite w/ tongue ;) and kyte gasping and pulling away all like What Human Mouth Sorcery Did You Just To Do Me??? and yes stan thought it was cute omg liv laff luv ur secret alien bf xx ]

speaking of love, i <3 sleep deprieved (p)ath(l)etic but ripped asf tall blonde hair wasian superhero, secretly mutated, late nite fast-food takeout delivery boy moped/moShed 'gearshift' full time vet-tech student, part time mechanic, part time football college scholarship quaterback stan and secret alien kyle with the gigantic red-ginger fro and the cool blue skin, white freckle white hair alien form who is confused abt human customs and being brainwashed into their villian arc bc if you cannot be loved, you can be feared right? AAAA

also pls note: art history philosophy major kyle trying to draw things they remember abt shed bc the disguise technology makes it hard to know what he really looks like & stan being confused abt developing a crush on h.k. bc Thats My Nemesis but also waah theyre cute???

WERE IN HELL AGAIN MY FRIENDS! WHATS NEW! ask me any questions you want about my ncu style or the universe, i seriously have so much to say about it and i am obsessed with it help!!!!!

-UNCLE NINA FERAL ABOUT THE TFBW UNIVERSE I CREATED

[justagalwhowrites]

HIIIIII I hope you’re doing well and I have a question about Lavender so I’ve been rereading from ch 1 and I got to Ellie introduction and that got me thinking about Doc and Joels own little bean so I wanted to ask what your thoughts were on the story if Doc hadn’t miscarried in the qz what do you think would or wouldn’t have been different not really an ask just looking for an opinion 😊

OMG Hi Bestie!

So, funny story, you're not the first person to ask this lol! There's another ask like this in my inbox right now and I keep thinking through it because IT'S SO HARD TO ANSWER. I am planning to write a one shot of this soon (probably before the end of Lavender?) and explore this possibility?

I think it would have been different. A few things that I've kind of solidified so far:

Doc and Andrew just cohabitate in this version. They don't try to function separately really at all. They're both traumatized and she's fucking terrified about having a kid on her own and when Andrew was like "well I had a little sister, I can help..." she JUMPS ON THAT (which he's thrilled about because he does NOT want to be on his own either.) It makes for some very awkward introductions when Joel comes to the QZ.

Joel still would have had a VERY hard time but it would have been masked for longer as he lived for his daughter. He probably would have settled into one of the gigs Doc helped line up for him, for example. There would have been a weird housing situation for a while where Joel was living with Tommy to try to help get Evie acclimated to him being around without just moving him in right away and Joel would have felt some type of way about another man living with his girls when he couldn't. His melt down about tying the pregnancy to losing Sarah would have been different because he'd be so absorbed by his kid's existence that everything else would go by the wayside.

I'm unsure about if he and Doc would have split up or not. I think he'd - at best - have been really distant from her for a while and she would just be hanging on for dear life trying to make it work. Andrew would want to deck him a lot. Jess would be doing a lot of check ins and Doc would insist everything was fine. If they split, they'd have seen a LOT more of each other because of Evie and would have ended up fucking a ton because it would have just happened.

Doc and Tommy would never have been a thing. Joel would have been more present in Doc's life which would have her blinders on toward Tommy at the very least if not all other men in general, plus the fact that she's the mother of his niece would have taken that right off the table. They are still very close friends. Tommy still thinks Joel is a fucking dumbass.

Ultimately, they'd end up together and happy sooner than they did in Lavender. Something would snap Joel out of his own head when it comes relating to Doc and being vulnerable in his love for her - potentially the explosion at the FEDRA facility that almost killed her. He can't cut ties with her the way he does in Lavender because of their shared child (who, we all know, he would NEVER cut off) so he'd be stuck with some proximity to her and that would break him. Like literally break him for a bit, he'd be a WRECK for a hot minute. (Related, Joel would beat the SHIT out of Tommy for the bombing in this reality - Evie could have been with her mother and just damn.)

More minor but McCarthy would have gotten his shit rocked right there on the street with Doc in this reality lmfao. Doc probably would have told Joel about it eventually, Joel would have known who he was and he'd have taken him apart then and there.

Sooooo yeah! More to come on this relatively soon. I've already started kind of drabbling on Joel meeting Evie in this version and I'm really enjoying that!!

Thank you so much for reading and reaching out! Love you!!

[moonlightndaydreams]

Based on that super hot video where Minho had this tighs measured in a show and Jisung looked ready to murder people watching the scene (for real he couldn't stand other people touching Minho he's so hot)

Imagine the same but with Vivi (you can think of her as Mel too). As a dancer, her legs have endured years of hard work and training, and the results can be seen on how thick and strong they look, and also very sexy according to some people.

She was taking a break from rehearsal before the actual show recording. She had been invited with her crew and they were just fooling around from a distance. At some point, someone compliments her legs and out of sudden, they're all having her legs measured. This person grabs unto her thigh meat to keep themselves still as they crouch, measuring them, and Vivi is having the time of her life teasing them for their obvious interest, enjoying the attention. (She has an ego the size of a cannon, my girl)

However, some members have been watching the scene closely (their eyes never wander far from her if she's in the same room) and something dark and ugly twists in their chest at what they see

(this is a mess but I'm sleep deprived, srry)

First up… I love dancer’s legs. The thighs OMG they could crush me any day of the week.

As you said our dancer MC Vivi/Mel has a huge ego and she love loves loves attention, so when the great idea about measuring thighs was thrown about she was like “everyone come look at my strong, toned leg.” She may or may not have literally said that, but that’s what her brain thought.

Most people thought it was a great idea too, all gathering around the dancer, getting excited and all that.

But not everyone was happy with what was unfolding. Minsung, as usual, were stood to the side, observing (they found themselves in this position a lot these days). Part of them was enthralled and captivated by Vivi/Mel, like they were under her spell. But watching other men touching her leg, using it for balance as they crouched down before her, squeezing the flesh, well it really ignited something in Minsung. Was it possessiveness? Jealousy? Envy? Protectiveness? They couldn’t quite tell.

The only outward indication from Minho that anything was wrong was his clenched jaw and steady stare. It was like he was using all his self control to stay calm. Whereas Jisung, oh my fucking God, he could not keep his cool. He was visibly showing signs of distress and other emotions he couldn’t quite pin point. He was seen to glare at some of the people surrounding her, but also fidgeting, and then his eyes darted around wide eyed. His heart raced and all he wanted to do was scoop her up and take her someplace where he could keep her for himself.

Minho tried to calm the younger down with a deadly look, but Jisung’s emotions were escalating.

“Look, Jisung. Just endure this… we have to. We can’t draw attention to ourselves.” Minho whispered through clenched teeth.

“But, Hyung! Look at the way they’re looking at her? Look at how she’s loving it.” Jisung shrieked-whispered (not sure if that’s a thing, but Jisung did it).

“I am not fucking blind.” Minho replied. Minho was battling his own inner war. Who was he to stop her from doing what she wanted? She looked happy. She ate up the attention. She was a performer for fucks sake. But he wanted to be the one who gave her all the attention. Him and Jisung could give her everything she needed and more.

He was going to show after the show was done.

After the show was finished, Minho and Jisung didn’t even knock on the dressing room door. They barged in with all intentions of showering her with devotion- they wanted to worship her. But the confusing feelings inside of them caused them to come off as aggressive.

Vivi/Mel pretended she was surprised and in shock, but in reality she saw the the pair standing to the side earlier, pouting, clenching teeth, almost having a breakdown.

She also knew how they felt about her. It was thrilling to her.

So now they were in her dressing room, approaching her, cornering her even.

No words were spoken as she stepped back to sitting on her dressing table, knocking over makeup and brushes in the process. Han was on her first, he went for the thigh (because he is a thighs and ass guy), and although he practically lunged at her, he found some composure and caressed her leg tenderly. Fingertips stroking the top of her leg then ending with a squeeze. A shaky breath escaped him and his Adam’s apple bobbed up and down, a sign of his nervousness.

MInho, on the other hand confidently went for her neck. He inhaled her perfume and nibbled her neck before his mouth reached her ear.

“Now beautiful, what do you think you were doing out there, hmm?” He whispered. His hand came up to hold her jaw steady as he nibbled her collarbone.

Vivi/Mel was loving this attention from the men, letting her head loll back and biting her lip. If they wanted to worship her, dote on her, pleasure her, or even perhaps be rough with her, she was ready to let them.

“You know Jisung and I can give you all the attention you’re ever going to need? None of those other men could ever satisfy you.” He turned her face so she was looking into Minho’s eyes. “You’re going to be as addicted to us as we are to you. If you let us.” He whispered.

Both men pulled away, staring at her, waiting for her response.

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So @lyramundana do you want to share what happens next? Do you want me to continue into full smut mode? Or should we leave it right there?

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@channieandhisgoonsquad @2chopsticks2eyes

[jamietarttownsmyheart]

please i need colinjamie headcanons or prompts i’ve been deprived of them for too long

i am. so so sorry for how late this is. and how uncoordinated the rest of this will probably end up being, but, just, ima unleash random colinjamie thoughts on u and hope it makes sense lol and that you enjoy them, but since idk how long it'll end up ima put everything under the cut

random hcs

colinjamie have definitely watched the owl house at some point. maybe this is fresh in my head since the final episode just came out a few days ago, but i definitely see colinjamie watching the owl house together. two options:

maybe colin was chilling with his niece (i want colin to have a niece or a nephew so bad, he gives uncle vibes and also i want jamie to interact with the kid at some point too) and she was watching it and he got invested. and then jamie got invested via colin. OR. henry was visiting the stadium on spring break and mentioned the owl house to jamie, who was curious, watched and episode, and then got invested. flash forward to colinjamie fwb era and colin dropping by one day and finding jamie losing his shit over the episode hollow mind. jamie needs to lose his shit with someone and colin is the poor soul who came over for a hook up but ended up having to watch two seasons of a disney cartoon.

that being said, i also think that jamie, if he ever watched avatar the last airbender as a kid, only ever watched until mid season 2. life got more complicated and he was more concerned with playing well than "lazy" things like cartoons. he never got to zuko standing up to his dad. he'll get there someday, it's gonna be great

colinjamie have a unique sense of style that they somehow make work, it drives so many people mad

colin had a crush on lightning mcqueen when he was a kid. (11 years old? idk how old colin is, so im putting him at 28 in s3, making him 11 when cars came out) he thinks about this childhood crush and figures its pretty telling that he's got a speedy car and a cocky but talented boyfriend

jamie is dyslexic, and when he realized audiobooks existed, he was thrilled. still, his favorite way to experience books is to have colin read them out to him.

that being said, his favorite way to enjoy drake is to have colin rapping along

colin takes jamie along to theater performances, musicals, and the ballet.

jamie found the "whose the worm now" moment so hot. he can't let colin find out

random prompt

prompt #1

so this might be because i just re read the seven husbands of evelyn hugo, daisy jones and the six, and carrie soto is back, as well as binging all of the daisy jones and the six show, and have been listening to taylor swift all month, but i am craving something specific?

like, i am so here for an au with actor or pop star jamie (have y'all heard phil dunster's voice?) and richmond player colin hughes. its giving posh spice and david beckham.

just the different flavors of it all. if we have it in modern times, as in, the time ted lasso is set in the show, we can do so much. (we can also have a colin who is not actually a fan of his bf's music. it's not that he hates it, it's just not his style. jamie knows this, and writes songs about colin anyways. colin loves listening to these songs regardless of them not being his style.)

then of course there is the other option--i am so bad at timelines and math, so dont come for me when this is all wrong, but i, on my 7 husband of eh kick, was like omg?? give me hollywood star jamie tartt and football player colin hughes who are "roommates."

prompt #2

im a sucker for vampires and vampire hunters. i think it can go either way for them in terms of whose the vampire and whose the vampire hunters.

prompt #3

a canon divergence au where colinjamie were dating s1. jamie and keeley were dating prior to his loan to richmond and stayed friends after their breakup. he really did love her, but still hadn't learned to be accountable yet. keeley still comes around to the club bc she's jamie's best friend and wants to test the playing field with roy.

[crackedpumpkin]

Hey! Quick question, are you going to do a part 2 of miles x reader of the unrequited love fic?

I really liked it a lot and I was hoping to find a part 2 to it but there was nothing, so I just wanted to check in and see if I there was any chance! Loved the fics you made!

Take care of yourself!!

-🧸🪐

Hello hello love! So sorry for getting back to you so late, been incredibly busy lately with work lmao. I'm thrilled that you liked my work, and absolutely euphoric over the amount of love it's been getting.

But, I have not planned, or am planning to write a part two :(

Mainly because I think it's great as a standalone oneshot :> I understand that loads of you want a part two, but unfortunately there's not a high chance of that happening for now.

However! I am delighted to share with you all that there are three upcoming projects in regards to my Miles Morales content:

Part four of Blank Canvas (I promised this by the middle of the week but I'm so sorry I haven't finished it omg I promise I'm legit writing when I can)

'Difficult' - an angst oneshot with more unrequited love...just in a slightly different take! I can't wait to finish writing this and share it with you all~ Lmk if you'd like a sneak peek and I'm more than happy to provide LMAO

'Iced Chamomile Tea' - a fluffy, soulmate au! oneshot which will have over 10k words (It's a big one, y'all. It's also going to take roughly a month to finish, so pray for me lmfao)

As an apology for not planning a part two, here's a sneak peek for the upcoming projects lmao: i won't say which is which :))))

(WARNING: All these are unedited and not proofread.)

Thank you so much for asking so nicely, and I hope you'll enjoy my upcoming works for Miles Morales as well! I'll be sure to take care of myself, so make sure you do it too >:)