#i can't remember ever thinking anything was too girly or too boyish

[silent-raven13]

Barbie and the color Pink

I love how many of us are excited for the Barbie movie. Like all these collabs, all types of Barbie fans enjoying about their favorite doll coming to life. Like this makes me so happy that everyone is living for it. Idk about ya'll ever experience this, but my older half sister use to bully me for liking Barbies.

Not to mention, when you are supposed to "grow out" of it was the most annoying shit ever. As a little girl, I always love my Barbies and play with them until my pre-teens (as I can remember). I was bullied to stop playing because they are "meant" for little girls or they are too "girly". You didn't want to be a girly girl growing up. It was a big No-No when it came to my classmates and sister. It was view so bad like I needed to give up that enjoyment, my safe space, my only friend.

Barbie has always been my safe heavan growing up, and she was the one that made me love the color Pink so much. She was always there from my joyful times and sad times. To quickly grow out of it broke my heart, but I had too. I couldn't deal with being bullied for liking her.

I was scared of my half sister's comments, she always knew how to bring me down. Going back to loving the color pink, she made fun of me for that too. If you love Pink, you were considered too girly, not boyish or not able to enjoy stuff "boys" like. She would say Blue is my fav color. To be approve by her, I hated the color pink. I grow to distant myself from Barbie, and anything pink.

Thus, my Scene and Emo era slowly begun. Yet, I still keep my Barbie dolls with me and I admire the color Pink from afar. I could only think about why I hated Pink, why I push myself away from Barbies as I got older. I love Barbie. I love Pink. I love colors. I love to dress nice, be pretty, wear makeup. As I got older I accepted this part of myself. I learn to love dolls, pink, anything "girly" because that's who I am! I began collecting certain Barbie dolls, and started to have things Pink (Come to find out my fav color is Lavender)

The way little girls are taught to hate anything feminine or to hate being girly because of adults or classmates bully them to not be "THOSE KIND OF GIRLS" Is ridiculous and stupid. Be proud of being Girly because Barbie is that girl too. Barbie is stunning and a feminist. My half sister did it out of spite, and my classmates trying to be assholes and grow up too (from what I can understand).

All I'ma say is, never let anyone hate what you love. Especially a family member, it's not worth it. Protect kids who love Barbies or anything and they are never too old to love them. So yeah, I bought a ticket for the Barbie movie and can't wait to watch her in all her glory ☺️ I love Barbie 🥰

[yellowwollyhop]

Vent post about gender dysphoria and systematic oppression under the cut. Might delete this later, but I felt the need to share my experiences as a nonbinary person of colour as we're about to enter pride month.

Part of my complex relationship with gender, and my identity as being a nonbinary person of colour, is that sometimes I find myself longing for the gender I was assigned at birth, but never fully socially passed as. It's almost like a reverse dysphoria. And I just don't know if that makes any sense to anybody else.

I didn't get a girlhood, despite once being a little girl. My peers would bully me if I tried to be feminine, tell me I wasn't a real girl and that i was gross and boyish. This turned into rejection of anything feminine and no amount of make-up or clothes ever changed anything. I felt like I was forced to perform a role I had no qualifications for- thrown into a costume for others entertainment. Labelled a woman the same way foxes are dogs: yeah, it's technically true, but despite both being found on farmland one is seen as vermin and the other is viewed valuable to the environment regardless of its behaviour towards the rest of the animals. Or a woman the same way tomato is a fruit: everyone will agree if you ask, but will scrunch up their faces if they see it in a fruit salad or a smoothie. Because it's just not the same.

Any feminine hobbies i did have i would consume in secret until i was a mid to late teen. I would play with what dolls i had behind closed doors, too embarrassed to play or show that side of me in front of anybody- not even my parents. Because any time I tried to in public I'd get weird looks. I remember being told by a parent at school when I was 7 or 8 that I shouldn't be dressed up as a princess (specifically snow white) on book fair day because it didn't suit me. I was brown and I wasn't girly enough. And I truely think something died in me that day.

And as I got older into my teens, men treated me differently because despite not being feminine enough to be valuable, i had something they wanted. Something they could use. And no matter how much I tried, I never felt like I fit in with other women either. I felt like a freak, somewhere in the middle, with womanhood out of reach no matter how hard I tried to obtain it. My voice too deep, my face and personality too masculine, my presence too loud.

And my feelings of just being incomplete as a person only got worse when I learned my reproductive organs are messed up and I likely can't have kids. That I have more testosterone than a woman "should have" and my perceived distance between me and other women I valued so much just kept getting wider and wider.

This entire topic is why i hate the logic terfs have that trans women are stealing womanhood. As if what womanhood even is can be defined by having kids and wearing dresses. As if little girls like me aren't stripped of womanhood despite being assigned female at birth because we don't meet Eurocentric beauty and behavioural standards. As if any aspect of biology matters in the eyes of those who are going to judge you no matter how hard you try. Trans women are women. And I'm tired of people thinking otherwise.

None of us can choose our gender. Sometimes we're born in bodies that don't match how we feel. I am nonbinary. But I sometimes it feels like i don't choose to be. It's the label that best matches my experiences and my feelings. I have always had a longing for the gender that should have been mine when I was born. And the only reason it wasn't and never can be is because of systematic beauty and behavioural standards that have me assigned "not good enough" and irreparably altered my perception of myself. I don't regret my identity. I'm proud of who I am. But I mourne what I wish I had.

But anyway:

[nixthehomunculus]

technically i was raised gender neutral cause of the neglect

[lalka-laski]

Have you ever overflown a bathtub? Yep, as a kid when I tried to give my baby doll a bath

Why did you ignore the last person you ignored? I don't remember the last time I *intentionally* ignored someone. But I do have a habit of glancing at a text, telling myself I'll reply later, and then never doing so

What’s your favorite pizza place? I love any and all pizza but my all-time favorite would be Little Caesar's. Yes, I'm serious. No, I don't care to hear your opinion!

What was the last stupid thing someone talked you into believing? I don't associate myself with dishonest or manipulative people anymore

What’s at the top of your to do list in life? Just to find peace

What’s a song that would describe your life at the moment? Fix You

Do you ever scream at inanimate objects? Ha yep. I punch them too!

What was the last thing that you shared? A carafe of sake with Glenn at one of our favorite restaurants :)

What smell/s can you absolutely not stand? A lot of citrus cleaning products, specifically dish soaps, make me gag. Also wet peanut butter and tomato sauce when doing dishes. TORTURE!

Do you ever eat leftover pizza cold? Yeah, though I prefer it room-temperature versus straight out of the fridge. If the slice was refrigerated I'll pop it in the microwave for a FEW seconds, just enough to soften up the crust a bit but not too long that the cheese melts.

Where are you the most ticklish? My lower back! I'm ticklish all over but that's the worst spot.

Would you put your life in danger to rescue someone? It depends who said someone was

When you’re wanting a midnight snack, what do you normally get? Popcorn or a bowl of cereal

Which cartoon character would you want to keep as a pet? Thumper!

What color best represents you? Pink is pretty much my whole personality

Do you like marshmallows? In a S'more

What is your favorite flavor of candy cane? I don't care for any but the classic peppermint kind

Do you have any shoeboxes full of old photos/letters/other memorable stuff? Oh plenty. I'm a sentimental person and I save everything.

Are you in any way double jointed? In my index fingers

Have you ever considered a career in music/acting? As a kid I wanted to be an actress, despite having zero acting experience. I just thought I'd be good at it for some reason.

When was the last time you felt seriously embarrassed? I exhibited some uh.... unsavory behavior the other week. But I'm keeping that in the past.

Have you ever liked a song, looked up the lyrics to it, then hated it? I can't recall that ever happening

Which is worse for you: being hot, or being cold? HOT. Heat makes me MISERABLE!

If you had the opportunity to live forever, would you take it? As afraid as I am of death, eternal life freaks me out too

Have you made someone happy today? I hope so

Do you generally watch a lot of television? Nah. If anything I just pop the TV on as background noise but I don't pay it much attention.

If your bedroom walls could talk, what would they most likely say? "This bitch DEPRESSED"

What’s your favorite Christmas song? Christmas in Hollis by RUN DMC or Bob Segar's rendition of Little Drummer Boy

Did you ever really believe in Santa Claus? Sure did. And even after I discovered the truth I pretended I still believed for fear I'd miss out on presents if I didn't!

Do you like the band Relient K? I remember one song by them

Do you like quesadillas? Um, LOVE them

Did you like the show Invader Zim? Nah. I was a girly-girl and wasn't interested in anything that could be considered "boyish"

Do you think tomorrow will be a good day? Let's set that intention

Do you ever talk to yourself? Probably too much

Whose butt did you last slap? Glenn's

What’s the greatest/most influential song you’ve ever heard? I hate this question

What is true love to you? Peace and comfort and excitement and joy all at once

Do you like chocolate milk? Who the fuck doesn't

Have you ever bought yourself a present on Christmas? Oh yeah. I treat myself a little toooo much

Have you ever been on a mechanical bull? That sounds like a terrible idea

Do you prefer to pull off band-aids slowly or quickly? I can't remember the last time I even wore a band aid

Have you made a mistake in the past week? Life is just a series of mistakes, my friend

What was the last weird thing you said to someone? Well I just took a cup of semen from a patient so I guess any part of that conversation could be considered "weird" to someone who doesn't work in fertility...

Have you ever met any bands/band members before? Mhm

Have you ever sat on a copy machine and made copies of your butt? No sir

Are you a camera whore? The opposite, actually

Have you ever purposely dropped someone’s toothbrush in a toilet? GROSS

What kind of mood are you in right now? I'm having a good day and I'm just trying to savor it. If I think too much about it, I'll spoil it.

What’s something that always makes you smile, regardless of what’s going on? Looking at pictures and videos of my babies

What was that last thing that you bought online? A costume for my friend's themed party

Do you enjoy riding around town looking at Christmas lights? I love it! Glenn and I have made it a tradition on Christmas Eve night

Is there someone that you’re mean to for no good reason? Nah, I don't have a mean bone in my body

What was the last thing you got out of the freezer? Ice cream last night

Are you currently reading anything? I started a book ages ago but haven't been good about reading it

What’s a good book you’d recommend? This is How you Lose Her