#i cannot enjoy them tho

[fragilediary-of-evren]

January 24th, 2024 - New theme, same problems

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I see that flower when I go to the city centre. I've been there today. I had to get a few photocopies that my mother ordered. I was going to get ice cream... but I didn't. I didn't know if I had enough money and I started getting uncomfortable.

So, I came back. I was... so sad. I thought I was feeling better, but I'm definitely not. And the worst part is that everything is my fault. I'm no longer used to being around people and it's all my fault.

While I was walking home, I remembered Radiohead. Yes, I only listened to two songs, but I felt every single lyric. Today I listened to 'Creep' because I don't remember listening to it. I wanted to fucking cry.

I swear the Dream Boy is a curse.

I might listen to more Radiohead... soon. Because now I'm listening to Lorde. She seems to be cool, but I'm not sure. I bet she has great music.

But anyway, today I basically felt miserable and tired. At least I created a new theme for these posts. I even finally edited this blog on my computer. It turns out I was putting the photo in the wrong place. But now it's fine. I was kind of inspired by Mazzy Star and their album "So Tonight That I Might See", even though the colors are a bit different.

IIf you get it, you get it.

I think that was the only good thing of my day. Everything was going so well... and it got ruined.

By me.

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[winkle-pickers]

Inspired by this post, a really good discussion about it, and reassurance that life doesn't end after your twenties - quite the opposite in fact. Happy 43rd birthday Kaiba <3

[vlasdygoth]

going ham with these crayolas recently

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

since I saw your post of frank going butterfly hunting with their skirt, it got me wondering..what if eddie too had a skirt!

I imagine frank got him into the whole flowy dress ordeal. probably wears one when going through his mail shift or while working on the garden with frank.

oh my gosh...matching skirts!

considering that apparently Eddie has done drag, i imagine that its probably the other way around!!

i gotta a little lost in the sauce w/ these and forgot what the rest of the ask said besides "FranklyDear in skirts" oopsies <3

[violentdelvghts]

With all my knowledge and intrusion... I could never entirely predict you. I can feed the caterpillar and I can whisper through the chrysalis, but... what hatches, follows its own nature and is beyond me.

[that-trans-autistic-guy]

in my dbd writing doc, i have a pretty big list of ideas. the ones ive used are highlighted in red. smack in the middle of the list is "maybe let charles enjoy life, as a treat". as you might have guessed, it is very clearly absent of red. and i know a couple of my readers will murder me if i dont at some point.

[simandy]

Summer trip mode is: on

Still images under the cut:

[pbnmj]

Ur tags about how Miles and Pavitr are the ones who say "I can do both" because it IS quintessential spiderman thinking AND because they're too young to have seen that devastatingly not work yet. BUT the thing is they are RIGHT but only if it's "we"! Spiderman's mythos is inherently a lonely one reinforced by Miles and Gwen's isolation and by every. single. intro. reminding us that every spider person is the "one and only spider person"! And yet!! These films are just about relationships (1/2)

YES YEAH YOU GET IT !!!! and (quite recently rewatched it and mentioning it here cause i can't believe i forgot to mention it in the post you're talking about) it really gets me that gwen also says 'i was doing both' in regards to protecting miles and protecting the canon event, and i love that the phrase was reflected like that, even tho (at this point of the movie) miles and gwen pretty much oppose each other in views/priority !!

it also absolutely kills me the way that gwen begins (like you say) atsv quitting the band and isolates herself, and then throughout the whole thing she finds something/someone that she wants to take that leap for, all over again :') she (and the entire spider-team!!) is willing to bet everything on miles and is ready to fight for him, and i really just love the idea that miles just is a force that inspires good !!!! IT REALLY IS ALL ABOUT LOVE!!!

[smalltimidbean]

okay so...... would chickpea possibly let someone he likes/trusts lay on his belly and use him as a mattress?

(if yes then tell me how to gain his trust he'd be so nice to sleep on /hj)

In theory yes, but in practice, no

With the in-story reason, that he is kept in a secure room that only ~three people have access too, aside: Chickpea does not like his belly to be touched - most clones don't bc that's where all their vital organs are or if they have a pouch, that's where the babies are, so they try to protect it - and he is very sensitive there, so he'd probably get irritated/overstimulated after a while of someone laying there

You could lay on his back, hat or in his hand as an alternative, but you'd have to gain his trust first - And I'm not telling!!!

[aniseandspearmint]

Alas my darling, many an hour we tarried, speaking of things strange and wondrous. Those days I shall treasure, and your letters I will keep near at hand for remembrances sake.

But our paths must now diverge, for you have chosen a new path to walk down, and I, I cannot follow you. My own feet are still set up on the path we once shared.

Perhaps one day our journeys will converge again. Until then, my friend, I bid you adieu.

*unfollows AO3 author*

[noxtivagus]

i screamed.

[horangslay]

y'all ever want to like a group SO BAD but just cannot get into the music ┐⁠(⁠´⁠ー⁠｀⁠)⁠┌

[lemonypixels]

made a family to try out hsy and i love them

[lesbianlenas]

went to see the aces yesterday which first of all they were amazing it was my first time going to a concert w lesbian music and it was very special to me (also the lead singer was so sexy btw js 😩) but ANYWAY. i asked my friend if she wanted to go w me & she had never listened to them before but she said she would and i sent her some of their music to listen to etc etc. so like we went to the concert it was great and afterwards she told me she thought it was boring and she didn’t like the music. which was kind of crazy to me bc it’s like indie pop/rock music and like as someone who does not enjoy the majority of indie music bc i find it boring their music is not boring 😭 so first of all i find that offensive. second of all she was like well if you find a concert from x artists then i would enjoy that and she listed like three artists to me one of which was taylor swift and i was like. yeah where am i gonna get taylor swift tickets lmfao. but the other artist she listed (i don’t remember the third one she said lol) i just looked up his music and i’m legit like 😭😭😭 first of all this man looks like he just finished hibernating for the winter and crawled out of the cave into the sun for the first time in months. second of all. that’s also what his music sounded like. my point being that going to this man’s concert while he strums a single guitar in a flannel shirt and jeans would be a million times more boring than watching women having fun on stage and singing abt lesbianism idk call me crazy………it’s like i would find it more understandable if it was at LEAST interesting music………

[juniperhillpatient]

did I just finish outlining Scream Au’s main plot points in writing only to learn that it’s gonna be roughly TEN chapters? maybe. good news for people who don’t like my more controversial plans. bad news for my brain which can’t comprehend a project that short even if the chapters I’ve rough drafted so far are 9-10k so it’ll definitely still be large novel length lmao

[fisheito]

WOOOUUGHGHHHHH HI ITS ME. THE ANON WHO SENT YOU SO MANY WORDS ABOUT BABY YAK AND THE AAAARRRRTTTTT!!!!!!! THE ART!!!!!!! oh my god the big baby cheeks the silly gulp GRANDPAS FACE!!!!!!! WAAAIIILLLSSS!!!!!! god i am bouncing off the walls, i have been poking at a longfic of the Baby Yakumo Acquisition that essentially would be the album full of from mostly snake to less snake more human but i am very easily distracted LOL. i almost sent you some in the initial enthusiasm burst but it was 1) pretty decently body horror heavy and I am not about to just send someone i don't know potentially squicky and/or triggering asks and 2) absolutely got tired and distracted and then forgot completely to do anything lmao. BUT BUT BUT!!!!! WAUGHH!!!!!! absolutely absolutely floored you did art, zooming with inspiration that i will try and unleash upon The Word Document ;w; also i know it's a little bit of many hoops to jump through w me being anon all the time, i'm mega shy and really appreciate the interaction and the sillies and THE WHOLE BEAUTIFUL ART......... going to get it printed as wallpaper and spend the rest of my life staring at the egg wall

truly, a very Considerate Etiquette nod to you for being mindful of what an internet stranger may be squicked by but 1) LUCKILY, I'M INTO THAT SHIT i meannN. i do not know what counts as body HORROR? like, waht would it take to horrify me? the body is already quite freaky in its mundane operations. what's a lil contortion and species mixing and differing structural anatomy between yokai :^).............

2) we tired out here. absolutely understandable. i will always support creators creatin' at their own wild whims

gotta say !!the way you wrote all those yaku snippets felt like . what my brain wants to see. BUT, written more concisely?? as in... if i tried to write out what u did, i feel like my words end up full of fillers and ermahuummmmms so idk i liked the way u formed ur words even tho they were in Casualish Ask mode. can't imagine how powerful they'd be in Edited Fic form 🤔