#i cant promise i'll stay forever but i wanna try again. a little.

[stargloom]

i lived, bitch

[sky-high-standards]

Yandere!!Fairytale characters Dark reverse Harem x reader Part 2

Ik I've been neglecting a part to for so long but here it is.

part one here

You fell into the ocean and all you could hear was a voice it was so beautiful and so sweet and..obsessive?

you woke up on a very familiar shore and sat up only to be tackled down by a big gray sheep dog who seemed very happy to see you and due to almost drowning you were extra confused.

???: Maxine? where are you girl

Then a man with dark hair and Caribbean blue eyes spotted you and the dog. Maxine? why does that sound so familiar?

??: Oh sry about Maine ma'-Y/n?

You had no idea how this man knew you but then you remembered.

Y/n: Eric?

He then beamed and hugged you it was eric another one of your childhood friends you two always played by the beach with Maxine and Eric would always say how when he became king you had to be his queen.

flashback

A much younger eric and you playing by the shore making sand castles while Maxine lied in the sun.

Eric: Y/n, Y/n look at my sandcastle!!

Y/n: Oh its so cool.

Eric: cool? It doesn't look cold y/n.

You shook your head.

Y/n: nevermind

Eric then smiled at you and laughed

Eric: Y/n you're very strange y/n when I'm big I'm going to be a king and you're gonna be my queen okay.

Y/n: No I wanna be in charge and you're the strange one.

You huffed and eric then pouted.

Eric: No Y/n you have to be my queen if you're my queen I'll tell the servants to make the moats full of chocolate.

he smirked when he saw your eyes light up.

Y/n: Oh okay I'll be your queen!

Eric: pinky swear?

he said sticking out his pinky finger.

Yn: Pinky swear.

and the moment you interlocked pinkies a promise that eric would never forget was made.

present

As Eric helped you up he brought you back to the palace but you couldn't help but wonder who saved you but little did you know you're savior carefully watched the two of you from under the water

Under the sea

???: Floundra she came back...she finally came back.

A voice excitedly said.

???: I knew she'd come back to me she must love me why else would she fall into the ocean she was practically telling me to save her an act of love!! that's so cute of her.

the voice said in a lovesick and happy way his sea blue eyes practically had hearts in them just thinking of you with a blush as red as his hair dusting his cheeks. but he then snarled.

???: But that repulsive man just had to come too trying to steal her from me I cant have that now.

Floundra his best friend looked at him concerned and worried not just for him but for you too ever since he was a sea wee he'd watch you and Eric play together longing to be a part of your world but this longing soon became a lovesick obsession she'd seen the way he'd look at you blinded by love and delusion she knew he'd go through any length to be with you but after you suddenly disappeared he was devastated and the obsession died down which Floundra was relieved about because she knew if you stayed there longer he would've done something horrendous to have you.

But the moment he saw you again helpless and almost drowning he was euphoric he'd never been so close to you, you finally came back to him he wanted to drag you down to the bottom of the ocean and keep you but unfortunately human lungs aren't for the water so he pulled you to the shore and saved you while happily singing to you and caressing your body the sunset made your skin glow and his emerald green tail shimmer in the light he wanted to stay there forever but he had to come and that mangey mut too so he went back into the ocean and watched from afar with jealous eyes watching Eric help you up.

Floundra: Arien are you okay

He just stayed silent watching Eric take you away the look on his face was blank which was strange for someone as go lucky and puppylike as Arien but it was the kind of cold stare that would run a chill down your spine.

Arien: If I don't act soon she'll be gone forever. I need to get rid of that human Floundra.

In the palace

You got washed up and brought into the old room you used to stay in pacing around wondering how to pass this story and just on time a purple light flashed and your fairy godmother came.

Godmother: I'm glad you made it my dear.

You sighed a sigh of relief happy to see her.

Y/n: Whats my task for this story Godmother?

Godmother: Well my dear you have to keep Eric alive.

At that your heart drops.

Y/n: w-whats going to kill him.

Godmother: That can't be revealed yet my dear...

She smiles gently then continues

Godmother: Keep him away from the sea at all times my dear.

And in a poof of purple light she was gone you groaned the fell onto the bed pondering what danger awaits Eric and when you'd be sent to the next story.

Eric's pov

She came back Maxine she finally came back I knew she'd never break her promise he said looking at his pinky dreamily and she came just in time for me to be crowned king I always knew she was destined to be my queen

He said as Maxine sat Infront of him wagging her tail.

Under the sea

Floundra: Eric don't do this this is a bad idea.

She desperately said swimming by Arien who then gave her a cold and furious look.

Arien: Quiet Floundra

He then swam to the entrance of the sea warlocks cave Ursule Arien swam in determined and motivated and then he saw Ursule sitting there staring right at him with his signature persuasive yet sinister smirk.

Ursule: I year you've been having trouble with you're love life my dear.

Arien: I want you to turn me into a human.

Ursule: oh~ that eager are we?

Ursule laughed and made his way to his spells before he turned to Arien and smirked.

Ursule: you do know you have to pay a price for my help.

Arien: I'll do anything to have her.

He said in a determent voice to which ursule looked intrigued by and checked his spells where your face appeared looking into the ocean.

Ursule: Oh she is quite a catch very beautiful you have a taste for gorgeous things I see.

Arien glared at his comment.

Arien: what price do I have to pay.

Ursule: Well Angelfish you will need a human heart if you want to win hers I'll make you human for Three days but by the third sunset you'll need a human heart and her love.

Arien: She already loves me.

Ursule: Sure she does Angelfish~Ooh and one more little thing, I need your voice.

Arien looked at him irritated and furious.

Arien: How will I tell her I love her without my voice.

Ursule: If she loves you as you say it'll be child's play to show her your love so sign the contract my boy.

A magic contract appeared in front of Arien with a pen to which Arien eagerly signed then suddenly he was human and Floundra quickly helped him to the surface.

Back in your room

You sat on the bed looking out the window staring at the ocean when a figure in an old ships sail stumbled across the beach.

You were intrigued and climbed through your balcony to see who it was as you drew closer you were seen and the figure attempted to run towards you only to fall as if unable to use his legs.

You quickly went to help him.

Y/n: I'm sir ate you alright.

The strange man suddenly leaped onto you nuzzling his face into the crook of your neck as you pushed his face away you got a better look at him he had the most beautiful sea green eyes and soft looking scarlett red hair he was undoubtedly handsome even dressed in an old sail.

As you pushed the clingy man off Eric came along with Maxine

Eric: Y/n!! Y/n where have you gone...oh there you ar-

Eric stopped mid sentence when he saw the man on top of you glaring at him to which Eric immediately tried to separate you two while Maxine growled at the man.

Eric: What do you think you're doing with her?

Eric coldly spat out and the man who was visibly irritated opened his mouth to speak but the closed it scoffing.

Y/n: Eric it's okay he didn't do anything wrong.

You say then turn to the strange man.

Y/n: what's you're name?

You said it do sweetly hid heart melted you were finally here looking at him with those beautiful e/c eyes that were only supposed to look at him.

He opened his mouth to speak but the clutched his thought gesturing that he couldn't speak.

Y/n: oh you can't speak you poor thing Eric we have to help him.

Eric was visibly against this but wouldn't dare upset you so he simply nodded grumbling under his breath and he could've sworn he saw the man smirk.

You three then go to the palace with new company and he soon got dressed cleaned and was seated at dinner.

Y/n: Sir did you have an accident? Is that why you can't speak?

He slowly nodded.

Y/n: Are you okay with me calling you Red until we find your name?

He eagerly nodded and stared into your eyes giving you the most adorable smile but you could sense something was wrong about it...

Okay I accidentally posted this y'all tell me what your suggestions are and tell me if I should continue love you my lovely single pringles.

[hirsheyskisses]

500-600 Follower Event!!!

Ight y'all. what the FUCK? I'VE BEEN DEAD FOR THE PAST COUPLE OF WEEKS HOW IN THE Hh-

Okay enough of me having a crisis~ thank you guys, so so much. The event that i've promised has finally arrived! Firstly, I wanna say thanks to all of you, especially the anons / those who reply to my post, I love talking and interacting w u guys💙

I also want to apologize for my inactivity. A lot of personal things have come up that have affected me mentally, but i'll keep pushing forward and doing what I enjoy! <3

EVENT RULES AND INFORMATION

I will take no more than 20 requests. Each request must involve a prompt listed below! (Include up to two characters, and the prompt/prompt number.)

Do not include more than three prompts per request.

The requests I take may take time. The writing will very from long, to short, to simply headcanons: but I will take all thrown at me!

Fluff, Smut, and Angst Prompts can be combined.

I WILL WRITE FOR: Shoto, Luxiem, Noctyx, & Ren of Iluna.

FLUFF PROMPTS

"Stay in bed with me.. please."

"Breakfast in bed!"

"We aren't dating!"

"I.. i thought you might like this."

"Is that my shirt?!"

"I could just stare at you forever."

"...Sorry, i talked too much."

"I know you had a bad day, so.."

"I never thought I could miss someone this much."

secretive ways of confessing

"My parents really like you."

"You're breathtaking."

"You're my new pillow."

"Get on my shoulders, you'll see better."

"Sing to me again."

"Don't doubt yourself."

"it's too early for Christmas-"

"Babe.. why are you dressed like a reindeer."

"It's 3 in the morning-"

Dancing in the rain.

"I can't dance-" "I'll teach you."

"Your hands.. are warm."

"Let's go home." "I'm already home."

"I wish you could see you the way I see you."

"What are you doing-" "Trying to make pancakes. Didn't work out-"

"Hold me."

"Shut up and kiss me.."

"I wanna see you in my dreams."

"Stay.. a little longer."

"WHERE'S THE CAT, HONEY-"

SMUT PROMPTS

"Take your clothes off. Right now."

"You look.. like a damn good meal."

"We're going to do this here? Now?"

"Just a little more.."

"You're so wet."

"Can you really resist me?"

"Be quiet, someone might hear us.."

“Enough, please, I can’t take anymore!”

“That’s so fucking hot.”

“What makes you think I’m going to fuck you?”

"I'll be a good boy/girl.."

"Touch yourself."

"I need it! please!"

"Show me more of that ass."

"Swallow it."

"Follow me.. I need you."

"Fuck, someone's right outside.."

"I think I'll eat you right up."

“I won’t apologize for marking you up, everyone should know you’re taken.”

"Shut up and fuck me already."

“How do you want it?”

“I don’t care if it takes all night, you will submit.”

“Show me how much you missed me.”

"Harder."

“Do you need to use your safeword, darling?”

“Do you know what happens when you misbehave?”

“Are you holding back? Don’t.”

"I need you."

"It's hot when you talk back."

"Submit. Now."

ANGST PROMPTS

“I miss you” || “It’s only been two days since I left” || “Feels like ages to me”

“When will you come back?”

“Can’t I come with you?” || “You know you can’t”

“You’ll be back soon, right?”

“I won’t be gone long, I promise”

“What do you mean dead!?”

“I- I don’t believe you! There- there’s no way they’re gone…” || “Denial isn’t going to bring them back, (Name)”

“Wake up dammit!”

“You- you can’t leave me like this!”

“I can’t lose you too…”

“You promised…”

“You were never there for me when I needed you the most”

“Stop. Don’t do this, (Name). You’re better than that”

“Stay away from me!”

“Stop pretending that you care”

“It was you!?”

“I trusted you!”

“I had no choice…”

“And here I thought I could trust you with my life…”

“You were a fool to trust someone like me”

“Please, leave me alone”

“They’re going to kill me!”

“I need your help, please”

“I-I can’t do this”

“You can’t run away this time”

"I won't let you go."

"Explain to me.. why.. tell me."

"Please. Unlock the door."

"They cant have left.."

"...No."

[acefaun]

I just found you were into scm after reading that dream you had about Dia Luci and Barb. I was wondering if you could make some kind of fic about the gods being yandere's to a fem MC? I cant find any but I need some possessive Gods in my life. Preeeettyyyy pleeeeeeease? 💌💫

Yandere Zodiacs Pt1

✨Part 1✨ ✨Part 2✨ ✨Part 3✨ ✨Part 4✨

Synopsis: The 12 gods of the Zodiac are absolutely obsessed with the fem-reader who is absolutely opposed to staying with these scarily possessive gods. Regardless of what she thinks, the gods are intent on keeping her in any way necessary.

✨Masterlist✨

🩸Yandere Masterlist🩸

Fem goldfish, as you've requested, love! Be warned that there's a lot of gore to read, all directed at you, of course. I was too tempted to resist breaking your bones and bloodying you up.

A/N: I'm glad you liked my dream as much as I did! And I like the way you think, anon. We all need possessive gods in our lives. Maaaaaaaan, I love poly relationships! MC plus a bunch of god-boyfriends. You and the entire zodiac pantheon. They might be some scary as hell yandere's but this makes me happy. You made me happy. I'm a happy goldfish.🥰 ~~~~This is the longest one-shot I've ever written in my entire life~ I think~ and that's why it took forever for me to write this for you! But I still surprisingly didn't get to write everything I wanted about the gods, so I'm going to try and write individual yandere drabbles for them. There's just so much yandere that they can each individually bring. I'll tag each fic to this post as I write them so all the yandere gods will be in one place!

--Word Count: 10,645--

(3rd Person POV)

The gods of the Zodiac had been watching the reborn goddess of fate since she was found at a young age. Initially, it didn't start off as much since she was only a toddler, but eventually, certain affections grew to the point where they all wanted the cute goldfish for themselves.

Interest first grew when Karno first began to grant her wishes. He gave her everything a child could ever want. She never made wishes for herself and Karno fell in love with her pure heart. She really did have the soul of a reborn goddess. Though it was against some rules for a God to use his powers for selfish reasons, he selfishly gave the child everything- even things she never asked for. If she so much as looked vaguely interested in something, it was hers.

He wanted nothing more than to see her happy, smiling face. But of course, the Minister of Wishes caught onto his excessive and focused wish granting. Karno eventually had to admit to Leon what he was doing, introducing the small ex-goddess to Leon.

Of course, Teorus also caught wind of the cute little human that stole Karno's heart and word spread fast between the problem children and they were making plans of their own.

All it took was for one little trip to Earth with Ichthys, Teorus, and Dui to meet the reborn goddess and that changed everything. If only they hadn't gotten called away by their Ministers who finally caught them in the act of winning over the child. The three gods were demanded back to the Heavens. They were going to be in so much trouble... but it's not like it wasn't worth it.

"Hahaha! You guys are fun to play with!" The child laughed, not feeling too sad that her new friends were leaving. In fact, she had a feeling she would see them again, and her feelings were never wrong. So she decided to ask with an excited smile, "Will I ever see you again? Can we play more? I wanna be a star princess again!"

Teorus gave a princely smile, loving how easily excited their little goldfish was. "Of course we can! We'll come back to see you eventually, (Name)!" The three men had promised their return... but little did the child know it would be years before they saw each other again. The gods in the Heavens were very particular about human contact.

*****

(Your POV)

"AH!" It all started at a star festival. I originally had no intention of going, but there I was, making the biggest mistake of my life. I had just saved a little boy from taking a horrible tumble off of the roof of the tall building, only to fall over the edge myself. I cursed the gut-feeling that told me to go out tonight. But there was a flash of blond above me and I felt time slow down for just a moment. An unfamiliar name slipped past my lips, "Teo..."

"Nope!" A voice chirped below me before I felt arms wrap around me and I was being hoisted into the air. "It's your other Prince charming! You remember my name, don't you?"

My eyes were wide in fright. I just went from falling to my death to flying up in the sky. "W- What..."

A soft voice rang out in laughter and commented, "She didn't know how to say your name. She kept calling you Itchy."

These voices... they sounded like something from my past. Being set down on my feet, I was immediately surrounded by two other men. I was still shaking slightly from my fall as I looked up at them, scanning their faces. My heart thudded at their familiar hair and gleaming eyes. "Dui... Teo... and..." I paused. Dui was right about me not knowing the other one's name. I looked down with an embarrassed blush. "Um... I still don't know how to say your name. But... wait! Hol- Hold on!" My mind finally caught up with me as soon as I got past their familiar faces. "W- What the heck was that?! I was just- I just fell to my death! I should be dead!"

Ichthys shook his head with a wide grin. "Nope! I saved you! You're probably old enough to be able to say it now. My name is Ichthys."

Teorus forced my attention back to him and added, "We haven't seen you in forever! I missed you, goldie!"

They all began to practically argue for my attention and I didn't know what to do with myself. Ichthys saved me, sure, but how? It didn't make any sense in my head. Not to mention we weren't even on the same roof I fell off of! My mind was spinning so fast my body couldn't keep up with how much distress I was in and I found myself collapsing as my vision twisted and faded.

*****

"Tch. Problem child. You're lucky we decided not to do punishments in front of her. I wouldn't hesitate to beat you to a pulp..."

"Huh? Don't get mad at me! We just decide that it was better for me, Dui, and Teo to go because she knew us. Um... we didn't mean for her to pass out though. Maybe our powers were too much for her."

"Of course they were. You should have been more aware. She might have the soul of the goddess of fate but she's still a human. She's unaware of our powers as gods."

"Ponytail, if you and your department keep yapping, she's going to wake up."

"I agree for now. We should let her rest. This is all going to be a shock to her. She's just a human and she doesn't know she belongs to gods."

What the hell was I listening to? Better yet, where was I? I didn't want to move and alert them of my consciousness, but my body was so stiff in whatever position I was in, I shifted. "Are you awake, little goddess?" My eyes shot open at feeling someone's warm breath brush across my cheek. Despite my previous plans, I shot up at finding my head on an unknown man's lap. His hair and eyes were pink and very unique. Despite his beauty, I still didn't think we needed to be touching or be so close to each other for that matter.

"(Name)'s up!" Ichthys exclaimed gleefully. "I would have let you use my lap to sleep, but Partheno was being a big pervert and wouldn't let because me, Teo, and Dui already got to spend more time with you than the others."

"Others?" I muttered as my eyes scanned around the room. There were twelve men that I could count, either sitting on a chair or sofa or standing in various places. Out of the twelve of them, I only recognized the three men from my childhood. Two others looked vaguely familiar but I couldn't place names on them. They didn't look too different from how they looked when I was younger. I expected them to look much older since around fifteen years passed. But all the men in the room looked super young and handsome. Despite how handsome they were their words were on my mind. What was all that talk about gods and belonging to them? Were they some kind of religious cult and trying to force me to join? But what kind of cult targets young kids? At least three of them have known me since I was young.

I vaguely listened as they were trying to introduce the men in the room. My mind was too preoccupied with everything else going on around me. I hardly noticed who was around me until a hand waved in front of my face and the man with ocean blue eyes and midnight blue hair was leaning forward, his face in front of mine. His proximity made me drawback and he took the hint to not draw closer. "You seem overwhelmed with everything going on around you. Do you need anything?"

I stared at him for a moment. Wasn't it obvious that I didn't know what was going on? "U- Um..." Why were my hands suddenly shaking? Well... it made sense. I was surrounded by strange men. I was too overwhelmed. "I think I'm okay now... Can I go home?"

The silent glances they shared through the room went unnoticed by me. "Goldfish," A man with orange hair suddenly said. I didn't look at him, wondering what the heck he was suddenly saying that for. But evidently, my lack of a response irritated him. "Are you ignoring me?"

I brought my gaze to the man. He was languidly sitting in a chair, his eyes narrowed and focused on me. Who was he? He was the one Teo introduced as... Leo? Leon? Yeah. That seemed right. But I was still alarmed. "You're calling me goldfish?"

He tilted his head. "You're the only goldfish in the room." My furrowed eyebrows seemed to bring him amusement as he continued speaking, "You're lucky we showed up when we did. Without the intervention of the gods, you would be dead now and you have the audacity to demand we take you home. You're awfully bold. You didn't even thank us properly."

I was growing pretty weary at the eyes that had been studying me since I woke up- though they were probably watching me since they took me back to this... mansion? Regardless of what was going on, they didn't deserve for me to be so rude to them after they saved me. Still, being polite and letting my guard down were two different things, and I wasn't about to let my guard down. "I'm sorry. I guess I'm just a little disoriented still. I almost died... Thank you for saving me. But... um... I'm still a little confused. Can I ask some questions?"

The one with midnight hair sat beside me, comforting me with the cool air that seemed to surround him. "You can ask anything on your mind. We'll try to answer the best we can."

I stared at him with wide eyes. I was a little intimidated by everything going on, but this man's eyes looked familiar- not in the same sense as the men I met when I was a kid, but from something else... But I quickly snapped out of my thoughts and asked quietly, "You guys have been talking about gods... among other things. I was just wondering who you people were." I took in a deep breath. The things that were swirling through my mind would definitely offend them if it wasn't true, but how could they excuse what was going on? It didn't make any sense. I had to be right. "Is this a cult that targets children?"

There was a tense pause before one of the more scary men stood up and shouted, "What kind of thing is that to-"

"Scorpio, hold on! Calm down! You're scaring (Name)! I'm sure she didn't mean it like that!" Dui immediately jumped to my defense, he and a white-haired god were holding the aggressive Scorpio back.

I flinched back, nearly accidentally jumping on the man beside me. Did he say his name was Hue... something? But he did nothing but give me a friendly look, placing a calming hand on my shoulder as he answered, "They'll calm him down. You evidently weren't paying attention when we first introduced ourselves, otherwise, you wouldn't be asking a question like that. You have a habit of not listening when you're distracted so do me a favor and pay attention this time." His voice was kind, matching his smile, but his words were strict with an underlying threat that matched the intimidating, cold glimmer in his blue eyes. At first, I thought this was one of the safer guys, but Hue was very terrifying to be so close to. "We're high ranking gods from the Department of Wishes, which are those of us in white, and the Department of Punishments, which are those of us in black. You'll have time to get to know us so there's no need for me to repeat who each god is." He hummed at the concerned face I must have been making. I mean, he said I would have time to get to know them so that evidently meant I wasn't going to leave any time soon, and he knew that I already drew that connection. "Yes, you'll be staying with us, but please don't look so panicked. We'll provide you with everything you need. Of course, you're probably wondering why the twelve most powerful gods in the heavens would choose you... but perhaps one of the minsters would like to explain your unique situation."

My eyes shot around the room. Who was he referring to now? Not that it mattered. They weren't going to let me go and I didn't know what to do with that information. They must be insane kidnapping me and claiming to be gods. No gods I pray to would want to keep me as a prisoner after saving my life.

"(Name) (Last Name)," My attention was stolen by another severe-looking man. He had another very foreign name that I couldn't quite remember. According to Hue, I would learn who they were, but I wasn't really interested in spending more time with them than necessary. "Please, pay attention. My name is Zyglavis. I'm the Minister of the Department of Punishments." He was polite, but I didn't want to know what he might do if I chose not to listen. "You are the reborn goddess of fate. Meaning that in a previous life you were a goddess that lived amongst us in the Heavens. Now, reborn as a human, you have stars in your eyes, proving your soul is the same. Your soul... is something to be desired. Naturally, we have to keep you with us to ensure your safety."

"So you see," Leon started, his eyes boring into my eyes to make sure I understood what I was being told, "You have no choice. You'll stay with us. We can't take you to Heavens with us until we know your little human body can handle it. Until then... we're going to keep you here, in this mansion. We'll protect you and give you everything you can desire. You'll never want for anything while you're with us. We'll grant all of your wishes. Do you understand what we're telling you?"

I blinked and was left in silence. They stared at me and waited for some kind of response. Obviously, however, I wasn't prepared to give one as I stared blankly at the floor. These people might have saved me. I couldn't wrap my mind around how they could have pulled such a stunt without using obvious props. There were twelve of them so it wouldn't be impossible for them to have done something like that. But they would have had to plan on me being at the star festival. They would have had to plan on me being the one to sacrifice myself for that boy who was going to fall off of the roof. There was no way they could have known all of that would happen. They had to have been stalking me. Their numbers were big enough. I had no doubt they could have set up everything that happened to me in the past day.

The only question I had left was what they were planning on doing with me. They only said they wanted to keep me, but I wasn't believing them one bit. They were probably planning on selling me or something. Or... was it worse than that? Were they going to kill me and sell my organs on the black market or something?

I flinched out of my thoughts, nearly yelping in fright as the man named Karno placed a hand on my shoulder and comforted me, "You have a lot to think about. Would you like for us to give you some space for a bit? We have to talk privately so we can give you some time to collect yourself." This man looked so nice when he smiled and gestured for the others to leave. Was he being serious? Evidently, he was as the men filtered out of the room, leaving me entirely by myself once Karno followed them and shut the door behind him.

I was by myself... weren't they worried that I would try and leave? Wait, try? Did I lack faith that I could succeed? I was stuck in a mansion with a bunch of self-proclaimed gods, but I knew that if I was able to escape and get to the police department that they would be shit out of luck with whatever perverse thing they were planning for me. Shakily, I stood to my feet and walked to the windows to see where I was. The windows were large and gave me a good view of the forest that obviously surrounded the place. So... I was stuck in a mansion in the woods. That wasn't at all a good theme for a horror movie.

I was at least on a second story. Escaping before they noticed me missing would be a problem... but I had to try. These people were psychotic. Did they really think I would stick around and be their captive because they told me they would grant all of my wishes? They were rubbish at convincing me it was a good idea to stay with them.

Glancing back at the door they left out of, I knew I had to find an alternate exit. On the opposite end of the room, there was a door. In all likelihood, they were blocking the way to the exit of the house. I was at a loss as to what I would find going in the opposite direction, but I wasn't about to stand there deliberating on whether or not it was a good choice. As quietly as I could, I made my escape.

There were many doors as I followed my gut instincts down the halls. None of these doors would get me out of the house and I knew panicking wouldn't be my best bet. There were twelve of them and one of me. If I panicked then I was as good as theirs. Finally, I approached a large door. Taking in a deep breath, I opened it and my eyes glimmered at the sight of the night sky in all its starry glory. Part of me hated it because the star festival was the entire reason I was in this mess. But the stars also symbolized my freedom and I gladly walked towards it.

Damn it. I was caught on a balcony with no easy way down. I ran to the railing, looking across the sides and the walls, scanning for anything that would let me climb down. The outside of the nice-looking mansion looked like it was falling apart but there was nothing to help me. Except... It was dangerous but they had some cracks in the wall that looked big enough for me to slip my fingers and toes into. It was a chance- I had to take it while it was presented to me.

Climbing down was taking too long and my limbs were beginning to shake with the effort it took to keep me from falling. My shoes waited for me in the grass at the bottom. To keep my mind occupied from the danger I was in, I speculated on where I was. It didn't seem to be too late in the night. It might have been a few hours since I was kidnapped from the star festival where the moon was positioned so we couldn't have gone far from the city I lived in. As soon as I escaped the mansion I should be able to find the city based on the lights that blocked out the stars.

Things were going smoothly in my distracted head until the wall shivered and the wall under my fingers crumbled causing me to lose the slight grip I had on it. I cried out in fear, making a horrible noise when I landed on the ground. I had no doubt I seriously bruised my legs considering I could still move everything just fine with minimal pain. It was my arms that looked like shit considering I used them to brace my fall. A few of my fingers were bent awkwardly on one hand while my opposite forearm was bloodied up so bad I could swear I saw a bone. Luckily, my body was rushing with so much adrenaline that the pain I was sure I was in barely registered in my head. I struggled to get my shoes on my feet before I ran for the forest, my desperation to escape aiding in my speed.

"(NAME)!" I froze in fear, certain I was hiding well beneath the shadow of a tree. Did they find me already? Was I doomed to have my organs sold by strangers? But what was said next sent a wave of relief washing over me, "Zyglavis, how do we know she came way out here?"

"None of us can sense their presence in the mansion. She's out here and we'll find her easily."

My heart began to pick up its pace again and I ran through the trees once I was certain they couldn't actually see me. It wasn't like they knew where I was. Besides, if they were gods then they would just magic me back to that living room I was in, right?

Why was I even considering that as an option? They weren't gods! They were just lying to scare me. I held my breath as I tripped over a tree stump and fell into a bush, the branches scraping through my skin and giving me various cuts that I didn't need.

"Ahh! What was that?! Scorpio was saying that Earth had scary creatures that lived in the forests... What if one finds us? Or what if one finds them?! Then we won't have our goldfish!"

"I hope one of them finds you," Scorpio grumbled, his voice was too close for comfort. One wrong move and he would easily find me.

"Ichthys," I recognized that severe voice from Zyglavis. "You're supposed to be with Dui and Partheno. Why are you here?"

"Because... I want to find (Name) before Partheno does."

"Go."

The forest fell silent again as I heard Ichthys scurry off to where Zyglavis directed him. I tried to control my breathing as I backed myself behind the big bush, pressing my back into a tree, as I huddled under the leaves and brush. If they passed me up and went looking somewhere else then I could just continue my silent escape through the trees. But my injuries were slowly starting to affect me. It was getting to the point where I couldn't move without feeling a stabbing pain run up my arm, not to mention how swollen and numb my ankle was beginning to feel.

A sudden flinch made me whimper in pain as a loud voice shouted nearby, "We just saved your life, you ungrateful brat! Don't make me end it now!" That was the voice of the man who had threatened me before when I claimed that they were targeting kids: Scorpio. He was very scary and he was definitely the last person I wanted to find me- though, obviously, I didn't want any of them to find me.

At this point, with how horrible I felt and with how close they were, I wasn't sure if escaping alive was an option. I wish I'd have never gone to that stupid star festival. I wish I was back home, curled up on my sofa with something to read, and my warm blanket wrapped around me. I wish I was listening to the rain dropping on the window while the city lights glimmered through the droplets in the background. I wish I was back home... a little kid eating their mom's freshly baked cookies.

"Here. They're not far. We can hear their wishes."

I hardly even realized when I was crying, holding back my sobs from the quiet trees around me. The shadows that seemed to grow around me weren't even noticed behind my eyes that were shut due to how teary and blurry they were getting. I was sure I was fine, if only for a moment. Only... I hadn't been aware of the shadows around me- well, to be specific, I was aware of them. I just wasn't aware that they were physical things that could actually grab me, putting me in even more pain, causing me to scream out unexpectedly.

As much as the men were shocked, I was sure I scared myself. I just gave away my position.

The tears continued to fall.

They were coming for me. I could hear their swift footsteps.

My shoulders shook painfully with each sob.

I couldn't move or hide from them. I had no choice but to sit there and wait for them to inevitably take me away- or kill me, as Scorpio promised he was going to do not a few minutes ago.

There was a snap and the bushes in front of me were gone, replaced with Zyglavis who was kneeling in front of me, obviously checking me over after that horrifying scream. "You foolish-" He stopped himself from whatever insult he was about to dish out. "Where's Ichthys? We're taking her back to the mansion."

It was painful to be moved into his arms, but they probably figured I deserved that much for trying to run from them. I could barely comprehend being in his arms. One minute there was a snap and the next we were out of the forest and back in the living room of the mansion where he was sitting me down on the sofa with my injured legs being laid across the soft cushions. Why was he making sure I was comfortable after what I just did? I was filthy and I was getting dirt and leaves all over. Didn't he care at all? I whined as Zyglavis tried to move my arm from beside me. Blinded by pain, I yelled, "Don't touch me!"

"(Name)!" My eyes widened at the concern I heard in Ichthys' voice. "What happened? Why did you go out there all alone? Did an Earth forest creature hurt you like that? Let me see!"

He was reaching for me just like Zyglavis and I pulled back with more whines of pain. "N- No... Don't- Don't come near me."

"You stupid woman," Scorpio hissed, ready to pounce on me himself to keep me still. "Let that problem child heal you or I'll go over there and break a few of your bones myself!"

I froze in fear, his threat deeply resonating with the pain that was flourishing from all over my body. When Ichthys approached again, I was left almost paralyzed on the sofa, both in pain and fear. I was trapped there. I didn't quite understand what they meant by healing me, but I assumed Ichthys knew what he was doing. Ichthys said softly to me, "Don't worry. I'll make all of your pain go away. You really got hurt out there. See? This is why you should stay with us. We'll make sure you don't get hurt like that." His fingers were gentle as he took my injured arm in his hands. Unlike when Zyglavis grabbed me, it didn't hurt quite as much. In fact, the more Ichthys' hands trailed up and down my arms, the better it felt. Is this what they meant by healing me? This was... well... This was magic.

I watched with wide, watery eyes as Ichthys healed each and every injury on my body- including the bruises and each and every little cut that littered my skin. My voice was small and cracked when I tried to ask, "How did you do that?"

Ichthys smiled proudly at how amazed I seemed. I was in pain, not a minute ago, and thanks to this man... or this god... in front of me, I was perfectly fine. Could they really be gods? He explained to me happily, "It's my power as a god. I can heal people! Zyglavis found you because he has powers that let him control shadows. All of the gods have special powers that let them do unique things. Only... my power takes energy out of you so... you might start to feel sleepy." He was right. I was having trouble keeping my eyes open with each blink I took. Damn it. I couldn't afford to sleep around these people. "Sorry... I should have told you before. Don't worry! We'll clean you up before putting you in a nice bed!"

I couldn't even form a response with how tired I was. But my mind kept going back to the fact that these were gods. I just couldn't wrap my mind around it. They showed their powers to me. I was victim to their magic, so it wasn't like they hadn't proved it. Apparently, I was also some kind of reborn goddess... I cursed whatever soul I was born with to be stuck in this position.

My tired scowling must have caught the attention of the irritable Scorpio as he stood in my field of vision and glared down at me. "We're gods. You'll never be able to run away from us. It's unthinkable. Whether you live or die depends on us. Never forget that." It was as if he knew that I was on the brink of unconsciousness because I was asleep no sooner than when he finished speaking.

*****

I groaned at feeling the sun shining in my eyes. I turned away, burrowing myself further in my blankets. I tried to sleep for just a few minutes but a sense of panic welled up in me, forcing me to become alert before I was ready. It took a moment for my brain to catch up with my body and I shot up, remembering everything that happened the night before. But my shoulders slumped at the sight around me. I was in my own apartment, dressed in my familiar, soft, pajamas. Nothing was out of place and I certainly wasn't feeling sore after my attempted escape. Or... was that really all just a dream?

I scoffed at myself. Of course, it was just a dream. It might have felt real but there was no such thing as gods, and like hell was I some reborn goddess. It almost amused me, the level of my brain's imagination to come up with something like that. Sighing comfortably, I climbed out of bed and started my usual morning routine. Breakfast, bathroom, change of clothes, TV- erm... Okay. The TV wasn't working. Skip TV. I went to grab my phone on the side of my bed but my eyebrows furrowed. I always put my phone there before bed. Where did I lose it this time?

I huffed, checking every nook and cranny around my bed. My search and rescue was interrupted with a knock on the door and I huffed again, going to answer it. Which of my nosy neighbors would come by at this time of the morning? Well... I was sure I slept all morning with that dream I had, so it was probably almost time for lunch.

I opened the door and froze at who I saw standing there. It was two of the men from yesterday. Leon and Karno. The gods I couldn't escape from... I was their captive. Finally, I recognized that my little apartment was in their big mansion. It was an exact replica and they had all of my things in there. Still, this wasn't my home and I was sure I wasn't safe. Seeing as to how I wasn't greeting them and I was just going to stare at them with a stupid look on my face, Leon finally commented with that smirk on his face, "You clean up nicely, goldfish. Now that you're all ready, come with us. We need to have a talk after what happened last night."

A talk? That sounded threatening. Surely they were planning on doing much worse after my spectacular failure in the woods. Still, as far as I was concerned, this was my apartment and this was my safe space. I wasn't about to willingly leave it, even if it was just some kind of a trick replica. Timidly, I declined his offer, "No... I- I'll stay here. I don't want to talk to anyone." I was honest with them as I shifted nervously away.

It was clear he was about to step into my space to perhaps grab me, but he was stopped by Karno the minute I took frightened steps back, the kitchen being the only place I could run if he tried anything further. But Karno quietly told him something, making Leon stare at me before turning and leaving the two of us alone in my apartment. Karno then broke the silence between us and asked, "How are you feeling?"

I wasn't sure what to say. I wasn't feeling too good at realizing that I was trapped there and in a fake room that was made to mock my own. They wouldn't go through the effort of making me comfortable if they were just going to kill me. So... were they telling the truth? Did they just want to keep me here with them? Still, I had to know one thing, "Will I ever get to go home?"

Karno had an understanding look on his face. It wasn't necessarily happy, but he knew what I was asking. He nodded his head and answered, "Perhaps, one day. You have to understand that we can't do that right now- especially after what happened last night. For now, you should try and get used to being around us. We just want you to be happy with us." He was kind... but he was no different from the others. They all wanted to keep me there, and despite what they said about my happiness, they weren't about to let me go. I made a mistake in underestimating them and I wouldn't try that again any time soon. "Would you be willing to come and talk with everyone else?"

His question was soft- so soft that I was sure he wouldn't get angry with me even if I declined him. But I couldn't stay in that apartment forever and I knew it was best for me to understand my surroundings and the people in the mansion just in case I ever decided escaping was necessary. Silently, I nodded my head. I would ask my questions, but I wouldn't say more than necessary around them. He seemed pleased with my answer but he wasn't coming to snatch me out of my apartment like one of those mean gods would try to do. He waited at the door for me to walk by before he closed the door and lead me down the hall to where the living room was. My room wasn't really that far, and I was glad in case I decided I had enough of them and escaped back to my apartment. Right now, it was the only space where they didn't disturb me and I prayed it stayed like that.

In the living room, I was faced with all twelve of them again. Leon was sitting in a chair, glaring at me and I did my best to avoid his gaze as Karno allowed me to sit next to him. Aside from Dui, Teo, and Ichthys, Karno was my next best bet as far as safety and comfort went. Of course, there were some of them that I hadn't spoken with yet and it was hard to judge them from the expressions they were giving me.

"You made a mistake in your attempt to escape," I tensed up at the sudden darkness that came from Zygalvis. My gaze was down, focused on my hands as he continued to speak down to me, "We won't tolerate such behavior from you and we wanted to warn you against repeating your actions. We'll do more than heal your wounds and give you a warning next time you cross us."

"With that threat out of the way," Another god said, trying to take my attention to his kind smile. I was wary, but... he looked nice. Could I trust this god like I could trust Karno? He was wearing white, but so far the only gods in white that seemed nice enough to me were Karno and Teo. Still, he continued speaking once my gaze was on him, "I'm Tauxolouve, the god of Saggitarius. But, you can call me Lou, little goddess. I'm sure it will be much easier for you. We're going to explain what you're going to be doing here with us. But you went through so much yesterday. We have to ask, do you remember what we explained to you?"

Of course, a lot happened. I was kidnapped, brutally injured in my attempt to escape, and taken back to the place where I was being held captive by gods. I remembered very clearly what they told me about being a reborn goddess, I just wasn't sure why that meant I needed to stay with them. "I remember... but that doesn't explain why I can't go home. It's not my fault I'm some goddess. It's not fair."

"You're our goddess," The white-haired god from yesterday spoke up. I was sure his name was Krioff but I couldn't be certain. He looked pretty aggravated, but I couldn't tell if it was because of me or not. "Ever since we found you and recognized the stars in your eyes, you've belonged to us. Don't you think it would be unfair for us to have to live without you every day?"

Belonged to them? What kind of superiority complex did these people have? "I don't even know you people! How is that fair to me?!" I shouted in my own defense. It seemed that no one was on my side for this, even the gods I'd deemed friendly were silent now. "I have friends, a family, a job! Please, let me go home already!"

The god of Leo turned his attention to me, his attitude was a stark contrast to mine as he drawled slowly, "'Home'... you say?"

Teorus was obviously on Leon's side as he chirped happily thinking it would brighten my mood, "We'll make it so you don't have to go back to those places! You're going to live with us and this is going to be your home." He checked the other god's expressions and asked, "Why don't we just erase the memory everyone in the world has of this girl?"

Huedhaut nodded his head slowly in agreement. "If we're going to grant her wishes and let her leave sometimes, it wouldn't be a bad idea. It would be a problem if word got out about us anyway."

My hands were beginning to shake again, despite how I tried to keep them still. The thought of compromising with them occurred to me, but I wasn't sure what would convince them to let me go. I settled with pleading with them, "Please... there's- you don't have to do that. I..." I froze. What could I offer them if they let me leave? I had to come up with something fast or they would steal my chance away from me. "What if I promised to cooperate with you? Couldn't you let me go home if... if I did that and listened? I wouldn't tell anyone, I promise." My words were weak and I didn't sound very convincing. I was surprised at the contemplative silence I was left in afterward. Were they really considering my offer? I was left holding my breath while I waited for one of them to answer.

I was given attention after a few minutes when Scorpio looked at me and said with a stoic expression, "If you swear to keep your promise, I'll let you go home for today."

Scorpio was certainly the meanest god here, but I found my heart soaring at my chance to go home and leave the company of these scary gods. But still, he was mean... so I couldn't take the chance that he was lying to me. That, and he didn't discuss it with any of the other gods. So would they all really agree to let me leave so easily? "R- Really?"

Leon was smirking at my fragile exchange. It looked as if I would break down in tears the minute someone said otherwise. Though I couldn't tell he was teasing, he added, "In exchange for us letting you go, you must swear to offer your body to us whenever we desire."

"W- What?!" I didn't know if I wanted to scream or cry at that addition. I was certainly just as angry as I was upset, "You can't just say I can go home and then add conditions!"

"Oh-ho?" Leon tilted his head and tested, "That must mean you want to stay here and become the plaything of gods instead of going home."

"Leon, that's enough," Huedhaut finally stood from where he was sitting and held his hand out to me. All of his cold rudeness from yesterday was gone and replaced with that smile and those soft eyes. "If we're decided, we'll send you home until we decide it's necessary for you to come back. So, come with me. I'll take you home." Before I could open my mouth to question him with my obvious reservations, he comforted, "You won't need to promise us your body in exchange. He was teasing you."

I glanced around, being certain that no one was going to stop me as I took Huedhuat's hand in my trembling one and let him lead me to the exit. They were letting me leave so simply... I never believed they actually would but this was my chance. Still, I couldn't let my thoughts stray while I was still with them. With all of their magic tricks, I didn't know if they could read minds. "So... uh..." I started awkwardly, drawing Huedhaut's gaze towards me. I hesitated before I drew up a random topic. "So... you guys keep calling me a goldfish and you said it's because you're gods..." I tapped my fingers together, trying to understand why that could be the case. Of all the creatures, why a goldfish? "Um... Does that mean you think of humans as pets?" They had some pretty bad superiority complexes, so I wouldn't put it past them.

"In a sense," He answered, not hesitating in his response. He was being pretty straightforward with me and I was pretty thankful for that. But my face fell in uncertainty when he continued, "But we often think of humans as less than pets. Often... but, you're our goddess, you see? We might be putting you back in your fishbowl temporarily, but eventually, you'll return with us to the heavens."

For gods, their sense of power and control was cruel. How could gods like these look over humans? I thought gods were more benevolent. Maybe I could get that idea out to them... Thoughtfully, I asked, "Shouldn't gods be warmer, more merciful, and tolerant... You know," I tried to describe to the best of my ability, only coming up with the simplest word for him to understand, "Nicer?"

"That describes me to a tee," I flinched at the voice that suddenly appeared to the opposite side of me. Was Leon strutting beside me that whole time we were walking? He scoffed at the expression I evidently put on as soon as he said that. "Don't make that face, goldfish. You should be praising the ground we gods walk on. Isn't that what you humans do?"

This arrogant god was anything but nice and I decided to answer truthfully, "If people knew the type of gods they were praising were like you then I'm sure they wouldn't be getting on their knees and praying."

His eyes widened and I jumped to the other side of Huedhaut before Leon could try and grab at me. "You don't sound like you want to go home very much, goldfish."

I openly glared at him from behind the safety of Huedhaut. "I don't care if I end up in another country, as long as I'm not near you!"

"I can arrange that!"

Huedhaut further separated me and Leo, treating us like misbehaving kids rather than adults. "Calm down." Looking back at me he gestured to the door that we stopped in front of. This door can send you wherever you'd like to go. Just concentrate on where you want to go."

I glanced at him warily before I thought about home. I didn't want to be anywhere but there right now and I never wanted to leave again. Hesitantly I grabbed the door handle and pulled it open, revealing my apartment. Through the windows, I saw the buildings that surrounded mine and knew this room wasn't a fake. Still, I had to ask, "So... When I close the door will... this disappear?"

Huedhaut nodded his head. "It will no longer be connected. If you do want to connect your door to the mansion then just send a wish and we'll connect the door again for you."

I nodded my head, glancing at him and Leon before slowly shutting the door. I completely missed the look they gave each other as I shut the door. They were plotting something and I was oblivious to that something.

I stood there for a minute with my hand on the knob and testingly opened it, peering at the hallway behind it. It was my normal hallway. I sighed in relief. He didn't have to worry about me wishing for them to connect my door. I would never go back if I could help it. I was finally home and could put my own plans into action. Gods my ass... I would go to the police and they would be arrested. I paused in what I was doing, slowing down to think back on everything I'd just been through.

I just walked into my apartment from a magical door- they were gods. They had shown me more than once the powers they possessed. I couldn't keep brushing it off and I doubted going to the police would help if that were really the case. Still, I wanted to convince myself that I was really home. Grabbing a jacket and my purse, I left my apartment building. I wasn't exactly sure where I was walking off to, as I gazed around at the buildings I passed like a lost tourist. I was just taking in the sights, sounds, and smells, convincing myself of the reality of it all. I even bought a taiyaki to eat while I sat on a bench, staring at the fountain in front of me, listening to the water splash.

It was strange to imagine that just last night my body was broken and battered in a forest and now I'm fine and back in my own world. The question I had left was how long would I remain in my own world. I stayed on that bench for the better part of the day, dazed and confused. I continuously pat the cement bench I was sitting on, just to be sure I was actually sitting on a cement bench next to a fountain. Those gods really messed with my head when they had me in that replica apartment.

"Hey, woman," I flinched at the deep voice behind me but I didn't have time to turn around before an arm was around my neck and something sharp was pressed into my back. My eyes widened. Was that a knife? Why was he targeting me? Why me? Why is everyone after me? "Don't make a sound and I won't run this through you. Got it?" I only gave a small nod of acknowledgment and he was lifting me to my feet. Momentarily, in my panic, those gods were the last things on my mind. Part of me was glad for the distraction.

The pressure of the knife made me flinch, but he didn't loosen his arm around my neck as he led me away from the crowds of people and to a place where there was nothing but a van parked. It was a pretty shady location, but perfect for someone planning to abduct another person quietly. The door of the van opened and I was met with someone in strange clothing. Hooligans these days dressed awfully funny.

But the grin on his face was unsettling as he laid his eyes on me and pulled me to him with a tight grip on my arm. "Good job, human. The goddess of fate is mine. Now, for your reward..." He snapped his fingers and the man behind me fainted. I flinched, pulling away from the guy in the van. This wasn't a normal human... I could tell. My gut feelings were never wrong and with everything I'd been through in the past twenty-four hours, I shouldn't be surprised that someone else was after me. "You're a slippery one. We weren't sure where to go after we searched your little hovel. But it wasn't so hard to find a goddess amongst humans."

So... those gods weren't lying when they said my soul was desired. It seemed I was in danger wherever I went, which was strange considering the fact that before I met them, I lived a completely normal life. I was going to take my chances in escaping but I backed into a firm chest, having my arm grabbed again. "She's just a human. She can't escape us. Let's take her back and see what we can do."

The man climbed out of the van with a frown. "Shut up. You know we can't do anything. We take her back, lock her in that room, and that's the end of it from us."

"You're really annoying," A third man stated flatly, "Hurry up and get it over with so we don't have to deal with this stupid goddess trying to escape. Lucky we can't just kill the little thing. That would be so much easier."

They snapped their fingers and before I could get my vision back, a sharp pain split through my side. With a cry, I was thrown to a hard floor and a door slammed behind me. I pushed myself to my hands and knees, looking around the dark room that was lit by a single candle. Aside from the door, there was no other exit. Damn it. I begged and pleaded to be sent home, only to leave and get captured by more gods like an idiot. What made it worse was that these gods weren't so merciful. As far as first impressions go, they made Scorpio seem like a saint in comparison.

I whimpered in pain, sitting ungracefully on the floor as I lifted my shirt to inspect the damage. I winced at the blood I found gushing out of a knife wound. Leaning against the wall, it was painful to bunch my shirt up and press it down onto the cut. I was lucky it didn't seem to go that deep, but if I kept losing blood then I might just die. At least I wouldn't have to see that jerk, Leon's face.

"Well? Are you even going to ask for help?"

My eyes shot up and immediately turned into a glare. Speak of the devil... "How'd you find me?"

"Sitting in a pool of your own blood and you're still going to have an attitude with me. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't the least bit attracted with your strength."

"You have an attitude with me, I have an attitude with you. Seems like a fair trade to me," I commented offhandedly, not appreciating his presence at all despite my predicament. But he was right. I wasn't stopping the blood at all with my feeble attempts and he didn't look like he was about to help. "Why the hell are you here?"

"I volunteered to be the one to save you. Of course, you like to play a stubborn brat. I like that. So I'm going to wait for you to ask me to save you. In fact, I wouldn't resist if you chose to beg for me." He knelt beside me with a tilted head, completely serious in what he was saying but all I could do was glare at him despite how helpless I was.

I hissed between clenched teeth, "I can save myself. I don't need a mean god like you to save me." The pain from the knife wound was steadily growing and I had a feeling it wasn't an ordinary knife. But I wasn't about to hand myself over to this guy.

Leon tilted his head in amusement. "If that were the case then I wouldn't need to be here." I would have tried to prove him wrong, to make him eat his words, but I couldn't move. Why wasn't my body cooperating with me all of a sudden? Fear slowly seeped through me. What was wrong with me? Would I have to rely on these gods? If I didn't speak now I wasn't sure I'd be able to ask for help later. He seemed to take note of my panic as he knelt next to me. "Goldfish?" He searched me over before his gaze stopped on the place where the blood was pooling from.

My limbs were too weak to move as he lifted my shirt enough to pass his fingers over the puncture. I whimpered. I couldn't do much but the pain was excruciating when he touched me. If Ichthys were here... he could help. "Help..." I could barely speak, my voice was struggling to work. "Help..."

Leon drew back with a quiet gasp. "Foolish goldfish. You're lucky you're still alive." Without any hesitation, he lifted me into his arms and kicked down the door. The enemy gods on the other side were unconscious. "Fish!"

He stormed down the halls with me getting the attention of Huedhaut and another Wishes God. They rushed over but paused at my condition. The disheveled looking God asked, "What happened?" I stared aimlessly at him. I'd never met this one before. Wasn't his name... Aigo? Something. His name was long and difficult, but I remember Teo calling him Aigo.

"They stabbed her. She's running a high fever. If that fish doesn't get here-"

A fever? No wonder it felt so hot and my mind was floating in and out of focus. They were panicking and it sounded bad. They were gods... couldn't they just snap their fingers and make it better?

I gasped in relief. Warm hands were caressing my stomach. Peeking my eyes open, Ichthys was back by my side, healing me once again. Of course, it was also the last thing I saw as I fell into a fitful sleep. I would be safe with these gods, I was sure about that.

*****

There was something cold on my forehead when I finally woke up and there was a strange noise repeating in my apartment every now and then. Groggily, I woke up to glance around my small apartment.

My eyes widened and I let out a squeal at the goat I found staring at me on my bedside. I tried to frantically get away, only to end up shrieking in pain and falling back to the bed. The goat did nothing but stare at me the whole time and it took me to break eye contact with it. I glanced over the room finding more goats standing around... But this wasn't even my room! Where the heck was I?!

I flinched at my door slamming open. "Goldfish!" Leon and Aigonorus glanced around before Leon asked accusingly, "Why are you screaming?"

"W- Why?" I stuttered out, glaring at them, "Why am I in a room full of goats?"

"They're my Heralds," The scruffy-looking god commented, not looking amused at what I called them. He pat one's head as it noticed him and butted his leg. "I let them in here to keep you safe- and to keep you from running off again..."

The one goat- er- herald remained by the bedside, keeping its eyes trained on me. "So... they're not going to hurt me?"

Aigonorus shook his head. "Not unless I tell them to."

I bit my tongue at how serious he sounded. He could very well let them hurt me, in that case. That wasn't very reassuring no matter how cute the goats were. Leon looked away from me. "Good. Now, come with us."

I was confused, but they didn't give me time to sit and think. Aigonorus helped me to my feet and kept his arm wrapped around me as he led me behind Leon. I couldn't tell if his comment was meant for me or Leon to hear, but his voice was very quiet as he held me closer, "She's so soft... I can't wait to sleep with her."

"You what?!" I struggled to pull away from him, leaving him with a surprised look. It was as if no one had bothered fighting him off before. But he also looked disturbed.

Leon scoffed, opening the living room door. "You can talk about sleeping together later. There's something more important to be discussed."

Once again I was going to be stuck in a room full of zodiac gods, but it wasn't like I had a choice. Awkwardly, I walked in and took a silent seat between Scorpio and Krioff. I didn't understand why the only seat open had to be between the scary gods. But, despite how terrifying they could be, they never really hurt me like those other horrible gods.

"(Name)," I lifted my gaze up slightly to find Zyglavis addressing me. "We may have given you a choice before... One that almost costed your life. But we hope you understand the gravity of the situation and realize why it is we're going to keep you with us. We've all come to the agreement that you are not safe on your own."

My hand rubbed over the place where that knife went inside of me. "I... don't understand. What's wrong with me? What am I that people keep wanting to kill me and keep me locked away?" If I left the safety of these gods I would probably end up in a similarly life-threatening situation.

"Because you're so precious, of course," Partheno replied as he reached over Krioff just to squish my cheeks together. "Who wouldn't want to have the very reincarnated goddess that was created especially for the zodiac pantheon?"

Krioff nodded his head in agreement. "If we do what you want then they'll keep going after you. You're in danger just because you're ours."

"So whether you understand your position or not," Leon added without much effort, "You're coming with us to the Heavens. Before you even ask about going home, those gods that tried to kill you also destroyed your home looking for you."

"W- What..." This was a lot to take in. But I found myself growing angry at these gods. They kept saying I belonged to them, but that wasn't how life worked. If they had just left me alone I wouldn't be in danger! They probably had hundreds of humans that would give their body and soul for a god, but I wasn't one of them! "I'm my own person! It's all your fault I can't go back home in the first place, so I don't owe you anything- least of all my loyalty and praise." I couldn't go back home... But there was one thing that was the closest to home I could get: the mimicked apartment they had in their mansion.

I didn't listen to their demands for me to stop as I stormed toward the door. But there was a snap and all of the doors leading out of the room were shut and locked.

There was a scuffle behind me and I quickly turned in fear that they would come after me. I was... partially right. Krioff was being held back by Dui, but his face was absolutely frightening and... Was that fire burning through his glove?

"Krioff, you should calm-"

"No. Let go." His flaming eyes were glued on me. "Come here you stupid goldfish. You might not praise us but hell if you'll disrespect and disobey us."

He was approaching swiftly now, getting past Dui, his flames growing with his threatening words. I stumbled back, unable to escape through the locked door. Would they just stand by and let him burn me? It wasn't like they couldn't fix any harm they chose to inflict on me.

"Krioff." The calm way Zygalvis called his name made everything stop.

Attention was directed to Zygalvis, but Krioff wasn't pleased at all as he glared at Zyglavis. "We're just going to let her do what she wants? She's not going to get punished?"

Zygalvis nodded his head, saying nothing further and I was sure Krioff was going to hurt me. I was confused but relieved when he turned, leaving me abandoned by the door. "(Name) (Last Name)," Zyglavis called my name, but I didn't dare move after the threat I was just under. None of the gods were moving. In fact, they seemed bored and annoyed. "I wouldn't advise ignoring me. Come here." He was composed, but his eyes were something dangerous, daring me to disobey them further. With my heart thumping in anxiety, I walked past the other observing gods to stand before Zyglavis who looked displeased that he had to wait. I refused to meet his eyes, partially shaking where I stood. There was no such thing as getting away from them of my own free will. It seemed as if anything I did that wasn't per their wishes annoyed them.

*SMACK*

My eyes watered as a shock ran through my body from the point where Zyglavis' hand made contact with my cheek. He... hit me. I'd never been hit before, but I swear to you, nothing compared to being struck by a god. I mean, I fell to my knees from the pure force of it, but the stinging pain left behind was something notable. I was sure it was red beyond belief and was going to soon be the place of a bruise.

"Know this, (Name) (Last Name)," Zyglavis spoke down to me, his voice never losing its cold edge, "Your actions will have consequences from this point out. Consider this your final friendly warning. You are the property of the twelve zodiac gods, the most revered and powerful gods in the Heavens. If you're not ready to accept your position then we will take it upon ourselves to teach you in any way we see fit."

My situation went from one to one-hundred really quick. Acting out would receive punishment and I was certain their methods of 'teaching' me wouldn't be any better than getting punished. I had to accept that... I was the property of gods.

[nightswithkookmin]

JIKOOK: ARE CONGRATULATIONS IN ORDER?

Disclaimer:

Everything expressed in here is my opinion. It is not intended to be malicious or disrespectful to any of the parties mentioned in here. Please do not hate on or send hate anyone mentioned in her expressly or by inference.

In my previous posts, I pointed out how this past year, from August 2019 to June 2020 has been a rollercoaster ride for Jikook. Their relationship has been all over the place with some even concluding they have broken up for good- you wish!

My inbox has been flooded with questions such as: Are they still broken up, are they good, are they married...

Y'all think I'd be here blogging at 1 AM for Tumblr if Jikook were married married?- Ok, I would. Lol

But No, Sis. Jikook aren't married. Not that I know of. But don't be sad though because THEY ARE BACK! Fully back to function. By that I mean Jimin mostly. Jk never left. Lol- I'll explain in a bit. But yes, I'm happy to report that they are Jikooking again!

I refrained from posting about their new moments especially this July moments because even though they've been back together after a long period of on and off again relationship during ON comeback through to festa season, and then May when JM finally asked for space in their relationship(see previous posts for details)

I've being unsure about Jimin. I've been anxious to know what the outcome of his asking for space to think things through would be.

Jikook have a push and pull relationship dynamic. We been known. Mostly when one steps back from their relationship for whatever reason, the other leans in to pull them back in.

Same thing has been happening from January where Jimin would be pulling one minute, the next he would be like meh and JK would be push to pull him back in.

That was the case in this (June-July) Japan comeback interviews. Jk was front center with expressing interest in JM pulling him whereas JM was like meh, I'm down for this baby but let's keep it professional for the group's sakes.

Just look at them here... (Photo of them at 2020 Japan interview where Jk said he was looking at JM)

See what I mean? Now you may not notice at first but look at JM's demeanor and compare it to moments in past interviews whenever JK is talking about him or their relationship.

Jk was on his flirting game which he usually is when he wants to break the ice with Jimin if there's been tension between them or when someone around is making a pass at JM and he wants them to know what's up- he ain't slick. Lol

At times too he takes the initiative to flirt when he is feeling super confident and cocky and hella bold and just wants to. Trust me, when he flirts with Jimin, IT IS NOT FOR FANSERVICE. He means that shit.

Now compare JM's body language in that Japan interview moment this one right here: (photo of JM and Jk at the interview where JK said from now on together)

Jimin usually acts very coy, giddy and whipped even around JK when JK flirts with him but most importantly he seems to egg JK on in such moments. He enjoys being claimed openly by JK just as much as JK loves being claimed by JM publicly- which is why as nervous as that makes him he keeps going back for more.

Now this is gonna sound controversial but I have seen JM tell Suga off at times when Suga has tried to initiate skinship with him. I won't show you the picture but you can watch it for yourself during the On Come back where they wore Purple and black. It happened right at the moment Suga touched JMs back. JM mouthed 'Hajima' to Suga to stop touching him. That's all I'm gonna say y'all. Lmho. Don't want trouble.

My point is, these boys have a filter. If they don't want something done to them they won't hesitate to say it or show it. Much like when JK pushed Tae's hand away during a VLive- and he's pushed JM off sometimes too. He is assertive more so than all the members. If he doesn't want something he won't do it or allowed it.

Suga asked him not to get the tattoos when he first expressed interest in them way back in American Hustle life. But he told them if army loves him they would love everything he does and not try to limit him. Jk does as JK pleases.

So yea, if JK didn't like what Jimin has been doing with him he wouldn't be around him much less reciprocate those feelings and actions and initiating them on his own at times. Their interactions are MUTUAL.

And yes, that was shade.

Jimin understands the guts it takes JK to take such initiatives with him and so he kinds of encourages Jk to go on with it or acts in a way that boosts JK's ego. Like when JK shouted 'arrest me' in the middle of an interview. Jk... SMH.

So it was a bit unsettling to watch JM not even try to flirt back with JK in moments like this like he usually would. Dude wasn't even initiating their shtick during this period first of all nor was he responding to them in a way he usually would.

Not sure the aesthetics he was going for here but it screamed let's keep this professional on camera and get naughty when we get home. Or much like, dude I asked for space and I'm realizing I like you just as much but stop coming on too strong.

Which frankly, is what the members have been asking them to do since October last year when the hashtag to cancel Jikook in S.K trended. So JM wouldn't be wrong to take such a stand....

Given that the crux of their issue has been that Jikook is developing into a brand almost independent of BTS' brand and this in a way is affecting the dynamics of the group, a little discretion wouldn't hurt.

The cheers for Jikook moments are getting louder and louder each year even at events such as awards and not just on stage. Jikook is taking a lifeform of it's own. Its becoming a brand almost as powerful as BTS' brand. They are a power couple or becoming one. Like or not. Their fans are becoming loud and large too. So often, lately, it seems they tend to steal the show and direct attention away from the band. It's crazy.

Tae literally had the floor, delivering his speech at the MMA 2019 but people weren't even paying attention to that at all. They were more interested in Jikook and whatever they were doing and they went nuts the moment JK held Jimin and even wilder when he placed his head on Jimin which is what lead to infamous standoff with RM.

JM had literally bumped his butt against Hobi's crotch region moments before the Jikook moment but the crowd didn't lose it as much. Please go back and listen to the deafening sounds of the crowd for yourself.

As much as we love Jikook, there are some that don't and they can be very loud. I'll leave it there. Please support Jikook. Thank you.

BTS had a whole concert end of October 2019 and the hashtag that trended was 'cancel Jikook.' That took away from the hardwork of the band and reduced it to a few seconds of two boys fanboying over eachother. That's.... sigh.

When you see it this way, the RM separating them at Jingle bell red carpet, on stage or even BigHit trying to regulate their Vlives make sense.

Moving on. So yea I wasn't sure about JM all this past few months especially as I believe he had asked for space in their relationship. You might not think much of it but given as JM had said in the past how if he had a lover he would want to be with them all the time and Jikook do spend a lot of time around each other but suddenly hear them talk about spending time apart and enjoying it and what not....

But I think I can stop worrying now because HE IS BACK! There is a new Jimin in town and he is taking names! Good for him!

And I don't mean his new hairdo this August. I mean the new attitude. This attitude:

In this interview he says he would take JK to an island which smart decision. I would take JK too cos dude can do anything, cant he?! Bless him.

But thats beside the point. What I think is happening here is, Jimin finally took a stand. He made up his mind and he is not getting pushed around anymore. Because this Jimin hasn't showed up in a while now. Now he seems quite defiant most times if you've been paying attention to him, so rebellious, so sure of himself. Good for him. Spending time to himself has done him some good. It's given him room to reflect and sort out his priorities.

He loves his work, his band and he loves JK and it's hard when all of those start rubbing against eachother. But Fuck professionalism. He is in love with JK and that is professionalism too. Add loving JK till the end of time to his profession bishes!! :p

Sorry. I got carried away.

But seriously, he seems like his old self but it's also a new self because he hasn't been that self for a hot minute. This is JK's sweat tastes like holy water Jimin. This is I promised Jk I will go to the moon with him Jimin, this is I wanna go on a trip alone with JK Jimin- but badder. If you are a hardcore JM stand like I am you'd understand what I'm talking about.

HE IS BACK BABY! Our daddy is back!

The point of this post is to say, I believe JM finally figured out what he wants. So now hopefully the up and down should die down because quite frankly it's hard to keep up with those two I swear! We need a smooth sail Jikook. Make it happen!

I love it. I love where this is going and I can't wait to see more of their interactions so cheers to Jikookers and congratulations to Jimin for putting his shit together. We wanted rain. We about to be hit with a tsunami of Jikook moments.

Stay blessed. Stay beautiful. Jikook forever.

Signed,

Goldy

[barnesandrogersfanfics]

Unexpected Arrival -4

Pairing: Eventual Bucky x Reader, Possible Steve x Reader

Summary: As if working with the Avengers wasn’t exciting enough…. an unexpected visitor is about to change your life forever.

A/N: This part kinda took a little angsty turn! After the next chapter, there may be a little time jump.... i havent decided yet. Thank you to everyone who is reading/sharing, it means alot!

I was cleared by Bruce, as long as i promised to take it easy for a couple of days! Bucky walked with me back to the residential floor, Evie safely tucked into his right arm as i leant on his left for a bit of support.

"Hey Buck, lets just stop in the common room for a bit. I need to eat and not be stuck in a bed for a while"

"You sure? Bruce said to rest...."

"I'll be resting just fine on the sofa, while you make me a sandwich"

"Okay, deal" he chuckled shaking his head as we walked into the common room. I walked over to the sofa and gently lowered myself down, Bucky standing close by waiting for me to get comfortable.

"I'm not sure how much rest you'll get when the team realise you and Evie are in here" he said leaning forward to place Evie in my arms once he saw i was settled "what do you want on your sandwich doll?"

"I really dont mind, id eat anything im that hungry" i scoffed as i snuggled into the sofa with Evie laying on my chest.

"Well i'll be damned!!" Came the booming voice of Sam Wilson.

"Shhhhh she's sleeping bird brain!" Bucky snapped as he playfully shoved Sams shoulder.

"Sorry! I didnt know!" He mumbled as he walked over and sat across from me "i heard what happened but i thought they were all just messing with me!!"

"Nope its true, surprise huh?"

"Id say!! She's beautiful Y/N" Sam flashed a huge grin as he looked down at Evie.

"Thank you Sam" i smiled proudly and looked over to see Bucky keeping a close eye on us while he made my sandwich.

"What are you? The baby bodyguard?" Sam laughed teasing Bucky, Sam had obviously noticed that Bucky was keeping a close eye on us.

"Try the baby daddy!" Bucky replied with a dead straight face and murder in his eyes.

"What??!!" Sam practically squealed at Bucky's reply.

"Oh my god Buck.... did you really just say that?" I laughed at him, his eyes met mine and his facade broke as he burst out laughing "im sorry! I heard Tony say it yesterday" Bucky shrugged as he walked over with the plate holding my sandwich.

"Please don't ever say that again"

"Wait.... are you serious? Or are you fucking with me?? i honestly cant tell!"

Sam said shaking his head and looking super confused.

"Language! Don't swear around my daughter!" Bucky slapped Sam on the back of the head as he passed.

"Switch please" i smiled up at Bucky before taking the plate, once his hands were free he carefully picked up Evie and had her held against his chest in no time.

"Wow..... you’re like... good at the dad thing Buck" Sam said sounding surprised.

"I had younger sisters growing up, it was a long time ago but I'm pretty sure its still the same" he chuckled.

"Wait, how long have you two...."

"You can take this one Buck I'm eating" i said with a shit eating grin.

"Thanks Y/N" he rolled his eyes, looked at Sam and shrugged "it was one time, we're not together.... but we're in this together. Right doll?" He looked at me and smiled.

"Yep, what he said" i replied trying to keep my tone steady, it hurt a little hearing how casual he made it sound. It took me back to when he had acted like nothing had happened between us  after we finally slept together all those months ago.

"I cant believe y'all have a baby!"

"Neither can we!" I said around a mouthful of my sandwich "imagine my surprise when Bruce told me i didn't have stomach flu and that i was in fact in labour!"

"Thats crazy sweetheart"

"Sure was, scariest thing I've ever been through Sammy....And the pain.... nothing compares to that!"

"But it was worth it, look what you got out of it" Sam was hovering around Evie clearly wanting to hold her but Bucky wasn't parting with her just yet.

"She was worth every bit of the pain".

Later that afternoon I was walking back to the common room after taking a shower and getting into clean clothes, i stopped by the door when i heard Sam and Bucky talking in hushed voices.

"Oh come on man! These girls are hot! You cant pass that up!" Sam was saying to Bucky.

"I don't know Sam, i don't really think me going out on a date is a good idea right now"

"Why the hell not?? Just because you got a kid now? Im sure Evie wont mind"

"Y/N's been through a lot man, i just feel like i need to be here for her and Evie"

"Buck come onnnn! they will both probably be asleep by 7pm! the date is at 8, you dont need to stay that long..."

I couldn't believe what i was hearing! I pushed the door open making sure it was loud enough that they heard me. Both men turned to face me, Sam with a huge fake smile and Bucky just looked plain guilty.

"Sorry did i interrupt something?" I asked casually as i flipped on the kettle to make some tea.

"No doll of course not"

"I was just telling Bucky about a date i arranged for him.... a double date actually. I needed a wingman"

"Oh...."

"And I was just telling Sam that i didn't think it was a good idea. I thought it'd be best if i stayed here incase you and Evie needed me"

"If you wanna go Buck don't let us stop you" i snapped turning to face them "i'll be fine with Evie on my own"

"See! I told you she'd be cool!"

I was suddenly feeling so angry and on the verge of tears all at once! I just needed to get away from them, I walked over to Bucky and reached down taking Evie.

"She needs feeding" i said simply "go on your date Bucky" i mumbled as i turned around and headed for my room.

I was sat on my bed nursing Evie with tears running down my face when i heard the knock on my door. I chose to ignore it hoping that whoever it was would take the hint and leave me alone.

"Y/N.... doll i know you’re in there i can hear you" Steve called from outside making me sigh and wipe my tears away.

"Im just feeding Evie, i'll be out in a minute"

"Can i come in?.... i can tell you’re upset sweetheart"

"Im fine Steve..." i called back but burst into tears again. The next thing i know the door clicked open and Steve came in, he pushed the door closed behind him and locked it before rushing to my side. He sat next to me on my bed pulling me into him carefully while trying not to disrupt Evie's feeding.

"You wanna tell me whats wrong?" He asked quietly as he stroked my arm trying to calm me down.

"Im just a huge hormonal mess right now Steve" i mumbled not wanting to admit what had set me off "its been a lot to adjust to i guess and i think its all just catching up to me"

"You sure thats all? You know you can talk to me Y/N.... about anything"

"I know" i nodded "I'm not even sure why i got so upset.... not really"

"So something did upset you"

"It was stupid..... don't worry about it" i told him as i sat up seeing that Evie was done feeding, i held her blanket over my chest so i didn't expose myself to Steve.

"Could you take her for a second while i sort this out?"

"Sure" he nodded happily taking Evie.

I straightened out my shirt and settled back against the bed watching Steve burp Evie. His huge hand was rested against her chest supporting her chin and jaw, his free hand gently rubbing her back.

"How do you even know how to wind a baby Steve?" I asked curiously, he looked like a pro!

"I may have done some research" he blushed a little "i wanted to know what kinda stuff needed to be done so i could help out if you needed me to"

I was suddenly crying again!!

"Oh god.... what?? Why are you crying?"

He asked starting to panic.

"That was really thoughtful of you Steve!  I cant believe you went to that effort for us... for Evie"

"Of course i did, gotta be there for my favourite girls" he said smiling just as Evie let out a little burp making us both laugh, it was the cutest little sound!

"So why are you in here crying? Talk to me" Steve said a few minutes later.

"Steve...."

"Wouldn't have anything to do with whatever the hell Sam and Bucky were bickering over would it?"

"Probably" I nodded as i picked at a thread on the blanket avoiding looking at Steve "Sam arranged a date for Bucky. I heard them talking.... Bucky said he didn't think he should go considering I've just given birth to his daughter. He feels like he needs to be here incase we need him" i shrugged "i want him to want to be here for her, i don't want him to feel like he has to.... like she's a burden to his dating life" i admitted to Steve then started to laugh at how stupid i sounded "i sound fucking crazy i know!"

"No you don't"

"I told him to go, told him that he should go on his date.... not to let us stop him, that i would be fine on my own"

"But you don't want him to go on that date do you" It wasn't a question, it was Steve stating a fact.

"No..."

"Y/N, why don't you just tell him that?"

"Because i'll sound like a crazy woman!! he doesn't owe me anything Steve, he’s not my boyfriend.... we didn't plan this" i rambled on not even sure if i was making any sense at all "yes, we have a daughter together now but that doesn't mean he has to put his life on hold. If he wants to date who am i to stop him?"

"And what about your feelings for Bucky?"

"W..what?" I asked wide eyed, caught off guard by Steve's comment.

"Im not blind doll, i see the way you are with him... the way you look at him. You love him" Steve stated smiling "and that was before you had Evie!"

"I.... i dont... shit. So what if i do huh?? Steve, it doesnt change the fact that he doesnt feel the same way!"

"How do you know that? Have you asked him??"

"Of course i haven't asked him!! But he made it clear enough back in Alaska" i shrugged.

"What do you mean?"

"if you had finally slept with the woman you loved.... would you act like nothing happened the next day?? Act like everything was normal, ignore her even. Go on dates with other women...."

"I wouldn't no"

"Exactly! There's no point in me telling Bucky how i feel because i know he will never feel the same".

"Y/N...."

"Its fine, honestly. I'll be okay, its just the hormones.... I'm over reacting" i shrugged "please don't say anything to him Steve.... i know he’s your best friend but this stays between us".

"I wont, i promise" he smiled sadly as he held my hand bringing it up to place a kiss on the back of it.

"Thank you Steve".

[pyrochickenpollo]

Alright so y'all know how I posted something about my dad leaving us again?

WELL GUESS WHO JUST FORGOT EVERYTHING AND IS EXPECTING ME TO DO THE SAME??!!

he fucked another women, has a fucking baby, left us to fend for ourselfs and suffer for 3 months with no where to live but our shitty grandparents home (I really thanked them so hard for letting us stay there when we got kicked out, but it was really really small for all 7 of us) and then comes up to our mother and says "you can move into my house" and expects us to fucking crawl into his arms again like he never fucking hurt us?

Fuck that

Fuck that so hard, he can stick it up his ass

I had to help my sisters feed 4 kids by ourselves because my mother and father were getting higher and more drunk then the night before and not only that when we asked for food or something it was always never knowing if they'd even come back

They both scared our little baby minds to think all of this and then THEY WANNA FUCKING GET BACK IN THE SAME DAMN HOUSE THAT WE LEFT BECAUSE OF THE SCARS IT GAVE US TO "help get the family back together" FUXK THAT

HE LEFT AND WERE BROKEN, HE LITERALLY HAS ANOTHER KID AND MY MOTHER STILL HAS A BOYFRIEND, HOW THE FUCK ARE WE SUPOSSED TO JUST FORGIVE HIM IN THE 6 MONTHS HE FUCKED US OVER??

I don't understand why my mom can't open her fucking eyes and see he's going to hurt us again and even harder then before? I know the whole second chance thing but I can't give him one because I already past five to him.

...I don't wanna go through this again and right now my kid and 3 of my siblings and us 3 older girls ate living off Raman noodles because they're out there living there lives together like the 'lovebirds' they are

I shouldn't be mad though right?? Because there my parents and they know what's best right?? I should be happy that their getting back together right??

Am I happy?

Am I supposed to happy??

What if I'm not happy? I can't tell her because she won't listen to us anymore

Maybe I should just keep my mouth shut like I've been doing and writing it here because it helps...

Although that's not good either because then its just stuck in my mind and keeps me up at night

But I guess I'm just to scared to yelp at her and say what I feel like my sister.

So I'm stuck

I'm stuck with being here. On tumblr.

Maybe its like my drug, I mean it makes me happy when I get on and it helps me forget some thing from the real world.

And it helps just a bit, but I don't know what to do

I can't laugh, cant smile, I get in troblue for looking wrong or looking scary.

I get beat up by people because of my face

And yet I say I don't care..but really I'm so in pain

That I can't step on the floor without slipping and losing mg breath

I can't take really warm showers because it hurts my skin and I start burning really hard

I can't sit and have a conversation with someone without looking into space or laughing uncontrollably

I'm broken and I can't be fixed

I don't want someone to hold me or a partner by my side because I feel like I'll put the responsibility of throwing a kid on them

I want my old life back

I want my family back

I want to smile and laugh right again

I want me back

And I don't know how to do it

I don't know if I can survive this long like this

There are voice in my head telling me 'why are you still here?, what's wrong? Say something dumbass!' And I just want them to shut up

But there the only ones I've got right now...

Even my kid doesn't want me around her because I'm not the same

I don't know what to do

And I don't know where to go

Maybe I'll cone back on a little normal later

But I just want to say

I'm sorry for causing you guys trouble

Or if I'm ruining your day

I just want all of you guys to know that if your falling

Get your ass back up and fight

I promise it'll be hard but trust me if your try in the beginning you'll make it

I'm trying

But I don't know how many shots I can take to the leg before I fall forever

But i ll keep trying because I have someone on the line with me

And I'm not letting them go down the same fucked up road as well

[punkscowardschampions]

Ali & Carly

Ali: Heyo boo Ali: thanks for Rocky wrangling with me today, you're now also his fave so, add that to your tally Carly: its k i had fun Carly: hes a cutie & cool kid Ali: me too Ali: yeah, he's alright, but cocky enough so I ain't telling him Ali: dunno where he gets that from 😏 Carly: ha Carly: yea idk Carly: no clue Ali: i'm sorry Ro was being off btw, I'm working out why but trust it wasn't you, babe Ali: been neglecting her lately, everyone wants a piece of me Ali: hard life Carly: idc its me too Carly: nobody wants a piece but you Ali: I just told you that ain't true, and Rocky is ruthless, he called one of my customers a 'big bum witch' the other day Ali: no tip for me, thanks dickhead Ali: but I want all of you regardless Ali: willing to throw hands Carly: aw Carly: this town is full of big bum witches tho Carly: my ma back for one Carly: but are you willing to use those hands for good too or Ali: awks if that was your Ma, like hey gurl, I think you rock it Ali: your daughter ain't bad either Ali: you know it, IOU 'cos we couldn't make like we were in the backrow of the cinema Carly: unless she been lying about where she at i think youve avoided meeting the in laws again Carly: k cuz you kno i need to collect soon Carly: bored Carly: just back and zoned out so fast Ali: ain't even got exciting stories from their galavanting? fucking rude Ali: at least when we go AWOL we also go wild Ali: make things happen, lads Carly: my ma's good for nothing but hairspray and peroxide Carly: only use if i get beat up again Carly: my da's good for cash tho if you wanna get wild w me Ali: or you wanna single white female me Ali: which would be a disappointing outcome to say the least Ali: can't tonight babe, I've gotta have some sister time Ali: go hard for both of us Carly: k Carly: try not to miss me bad when shes talking about me Ali: oh babe, she will not, and if she does I'll set her straight Ali: gonna let the world know you're my 😇 Carly: whatever her issue shes gotta air it and youre her sister so you gotta hear it Carly: idc shes not gonna hurt me w it Carly: and setting peeps straight is the opposite of how you do, babe Ali: true Ali: idk what issue she could have though, you're a literal ray of sunshine Ali: true again 😏 Ali: ugh, imma miss you Ali: maybe i can sneak out when she's gone to bed, the 'rents too Carly: i miss you now Carly: cant hear my parents say shit Carly: i just wanna talk to you Carly: dont tell me maybe & keep me waiting tho Ali: i will Ali: promise Carly: i dont wanna make trouble for you Carly: w anyone Carly: you can stay w her if you need to stay Ali: You won't Ali: I can do both Ali: be back before first light Ali: even if I'll miss watching the sun rise on your face 😔 Ali: we've got the night, baby Carly: but you kno if ive got you for the whole night youre gonna fall asleep Carly: thats what im good at Carly: feel free to tell your sister thats why you like me ha Carly: fun & tiring its magic Ali: hmm, we'll see who wears who out first, babe Ali: and if I am that husband, then you'll just have to wake me up with morning sex like the good little wifey you are 😘😂 Carly: always bringing that confidence i like it Carly: k but if my parents wake up too you can explain its a duty thing yea i had to like Ali: i like you Ali: for so many reasons and imma show you all of 'em tonight Ali: fuck that Ali: stay out with me, its warm enough Ali: i'll trace all the constellations out with my tongue so you won't ever forget Ali: educational Carly: my ma is asking me what im blushing about Carly: i told her what you said but she's not a believer Carly: support my education bitch Carly: ha Ali: i mean, i'd offer to let her see the benefits for herself but Ali: not gonna win me any brownie points 'cos she won't take me up on it Carly: she dont kno what she's missing but i do Carly: wish you were here Ali: me too Ali: start the party without me babe, i don't mind Carly: too late if you do Carly: gotta get through this reunion some way Ali: they aren't making you watch a slideshow, are they? Ali: fate worse than death Ali: Maybe you could go to Ronan's? Lmao, he's been up in my pussy way too much since he found out about us...didn't think we were THAT loud but ok boy Carly: yea Carly: might do cuz same Carly: but what if i miss you he can really make a night of it when he wants Ali: Nah, I won't let you face that disappointment, babe Ali: my spidey senses will tingle like not on my watch, fuckboy Carly: aw Carly: you gonna come get me? Carly: thats no way to get him out your pussy babe fyi Ali: yeah Ali: I know but I like the idea of showing you off as mine Ali: but no sharing, he only gets to watch and be mad he fucked it up Carly: i like it too Carly: youre hot when youre oneupping fuckboys Carly: i thought i knew how to do it best but k youre flipping the script Ali: as long as i'm besting them i'm doing my job right Ali: gotta keep you on-board Carly: speak of the devil Carly: how he know i was alone & horny Carly: my parents have only gone to the shops its uncanny Ali: know your neighbours but bit stalkerish, pal Ali: i'll text him to fuck off, freak him out Ali: how does she know, ha, two can play this game fucko and I'm more committed Carly: ha Carly: you gotta Carly: hes smoking im gonna bum one see what line he tries to lay on before the text sends Ali: On it Ali: gotta let him know there's a queue to court the princess now and he's at the back, soz Carly: he likes hitting it from the back he wont be put off Carly: im gonna show him some of the hot pics i took of you tho Ali: when is he ever tbf? 🐶👅💦 Carly: true Carly: that fucking cute tho aren't i Ali: you know it babe Carly: hes talking to my da now Carly: kill me Ali: how fucking dare he Ali: knowing he has the upper hand with the man bants Ali: i know how to change a tire too! love me! Carly: if my ma invites him in for tea im out of here Carly: she will think hes hot under the collar for her & bitch thats my groundwork Ali: Run baby run Ali: what kinda moron is he tho Ali: coulda had a private show if you just waited, now its all saturday night telly and flat lager Carly: you kno i have nowhere to go if you dont want me babe Carly: facts Carly: he likes me now he cant have me what a fucking Carly: like i wouldve fucked you but im not getting w you Ali: i do, is this full sos crisis mode though? 'cos i need to be good for a lil while longer yet Ali: such a typical bloke move that Ali: bet he ain't the only boy in ur inbox, not a pun Ali: 'cos he ain't in mine like 🙄 Carly: its k your sister needs you Carly: i can keep walking Carly: loads of other lads on site as well as in my inbox Carly: & they arent trying to say hi to me before we get down to it nevermind my parents Ali: 😾 Carly: why so sad blue eyed boo Ali: i don't like how lads treat you Ali: i'm not jealous, like swear to god, even though i obviously want you all to myself, i get it Ali: but i'm not about how shit they are to you, even if you don't care, they should care to be decent humans Carly: thats not lads its everyone Carly: youre the only one treating me different Carly: they dont know how else to be Carly: made my bed babe Ali: nah Ali: you don't deserve half the shit you get, that's bullshit Ali: and even the rest, people just don't wanna try to understand or be good, heaven forfend they inconvineince themselves for one second, like Carly: if im a slag im a slag i dont get to put conditions on it Carly: if it was a film maybe Carly: but theres no romance coming my way from theres and i dont want it Ali: why can't you just be you? someone who likes fucking, among other things Ali: not romance just like...not being a cunt Ali: idk Ali: pisses me off Carly: cuz you don't run the world even tho you strut it like you do and i love it Ali: not yet, babe Ali: one day, and you can be my right hand woman Carly: yea? Carly: take me w you & ill take you to all your fave places k Ali: k Ali: we'll be fun forever, I promise you Carly: gotta be Ali: you know i like you even when you ain't tho Ali: don't tell Carly: who would i Carly: ronans got enough for his wank bank & nobody else is chatting to me rn Ali: exactly, ruins the illusion and fantasy when they realise i care about you Ali: so unsexy of me Carly: youre sexy to me Carly: idc what they think Ali: good Ali: me either Carly: i like you too you kno Ali: yeah Ali: i had my suspicions Carly: i dont have any subtlety sorry about it Ali: Don't be Ali: I love it Ali: not enough people say what they mean or want, ever Carly: waste Carly: k i wasnt shouting how bad i wanted to kiss you before i did but not cuz i was bothered about me Ali: agreed Ali: sometimes you can't know you want something until you've got it Ali: i get it Carly: you get me Carly: its weird Ali: 🔮 Carly: ha Carly: k what am i thinking now Ali: wouldn't be proper to say Ali: tut tut bad girl Ali: like how you think though Carly: fuck Carly: youre good Ali: 🤷 don't mean to brag but remember that phrase you'll be screaming it later Ali: such a Ronan line, I can't 😂 Carly: but true Carly: not like when he says it Ali: 😍 Carly: what you doing w your sister Carly: gotta live through that cuz bored Ali: Fixing my weave Ali: getting into a white girl dread territory over here Ali: then gonna do some 🔮 forreal Ali: get ready for me to be even more of a know it all baby Carly: cute Carly: tell me my future i got some shit from another neighbor & im waiting for it to kick Carly: hows it gonna treat me Carly: needing a good trip Ali: we'll see who gets the answer first Ali: you got anything for me? Carly: yea Carly: they mystery but i kno you arent scared Carly: & you got me doing a test run rn lying on here on the grass Ali: 🌌 be there before it fades away my space explorer Carly: if you find me at a bad end prob dont take it Ali: is one of the lads trip sitting you Carly: so he reckons but hes drinking so theres no trust Carly: & he gave me it Carly: his game could be me lights out idk Ali: keep texting me, okay babe? Ali: if shit gets too real, tell me and I'll come early Ali: my sis is cool now, she gets what we're doing, she was just confused Carly: aw Carly: youre sweet Carly: you told her you like me Ali: 'course I did Ali: I ain't ashamed Ali: I'm proud Carly: youre gonna make me cry Ali: You're special, Carly Ali: You're gonna see Carly: I just wanna see you tho Ali: Me too Ali: I'm gonna make her some chamomile tea and then I'm coming, yeah? Carly: but thats not fair to her Carly: she's not gonna be a fan of me Ali: I've promised her more time tomorrow Ali: You need me rn Carly: but what if i want you to stay Carly: what are we gonna do then Ali: i'll stay until you're ready for me to go Carly: you mean that? Ali: yes Ali: promise, imma take care of you Carly: but theres nothing in it for you Carly: youve already got me you dont have to Ali: i wanna keep you Ali: and not just selfishly Ali: you gotta stick around, you're too cool to go anywhere, okay Carly: k Carly: im here & if you wanna be im not stopping you Ali: good Ali: i wanna be wherever you are Carly: i kept you pills back the lads didnt want me to but idc about them & you can follow me in now Ali: fuck them Ali: just me and you Carly: yea Carly: ill look after you too Ali: 😇 Ali: i know, i trust you Carly: idk if you should Carly: but i like it Ali: willing to take my chances Ali: you're worth it Carly: thats you Ali: i'm so glad i met you Carly: me too Carly: not that i met me thats weird Carly: you know what i mean Ali: i got you Ali: not high yet 😉 Carly: id seen you around before you guardian angel'd me that night Carly: thats weird too Carly: that i didnt see you how i do now Ali: it is Ali: you were always cute but Ali: idk, i can't claim to have seen this in my crystal ball Carly: thats cuz i wasnt cute i was a state Carly: & youd have more likely seen me sucking ronans dick Carly: look away babe you dont need to have that image in your mind Ali: don't need him reckoning he plays part in any of my fantasies, nah Ali: you can't not be cute, no matter how you try, soz babe Carly: you can't not be so sweet to me can you Ali: dunno Ali: not tried Carly: idk what id do if you did Carly: i got used to it Ali: got no plans to stop Ali: unless you ask me to, like Carly: thats not gonna be what i ask you to do Carly: trust me Ali: you can tell me all about it Ali: 5 minutes, tops Carly: okay

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We have been up for 2 days. I accepted years ago that this has to be part of my life. He's a package deal. But I am so tired. I do it with him. Idk y. I don't enjoy it most times. But I'm also afraid and to sleep while he's up. I learned not to the hard way.... A part of me wants my life back. My before life. But I know it will be the fight of my life. And I'm not ready. I sometimes tell myself that this was God's plan. I believe that each of us have at least one person that they are mentally to impact in some way and set in motion a positive path. Or bring a lost soul to God. God made me strong and brought me this man. He had to put me thru it to equip me to be wha this man needs. Maybe I'm the only one capable of sticking this journey out with him and bringing him out other side with me. That's why my addiction is so odd. My husband gets locked up from time to time, and when he's gone, I don't do any dope, I smoke my weed. But with the dope, he does my shots, from start to finish. He twirls the bowl. I don't want to know how. I tried once, he got arrested at the end of an 8 month horrendous, traumatizing bender. Suddenly my person is gone and I've been up for weeks. I tried to do it myself. I had the audacity to tell him about it at visitation, because he has always hated doing my shots. He feels enough guilt over where my life is and where it was. He's scared that bnb if I die, he will go to prison. So I always take sure my prints are on it too. He's not ready to even see that he needs to change. I can see that it weighs on him sometimes. And he will want to do better. But then he has no way to stop the guilt, the pain, self hatred. The high and associated relief are his constant and a very erratic life. I'm aware of all this and more. I'm aware I could be completely wrong and he really is just a piece of shit junkiethat destroy a family by joining it. I can't even fault him for that. My kids adored him. And he them. He had a family finally. He was know where near ready to be a step dad. But he gave it an honest try. Then again maybe I just rrwa lly ne ed there to be a greater purpose beh9nd all this, losing my babies, my self respect, my family. Everything.

I can't hate him for being selfish and out for number one, it's all his life has really ever been. I can see what drives everything about h, I study him cause I have never met someone that level of addicted. I cant explain why his thought processes fascinate me, I have to study them til I understand them. Which is hard to do because it's so complex and I'm juggling moneyissues, homelessness, the hustle, him in general, and the dope. The more I learn him, the more pity I feel and I cant leave. I love him to a fault, but I am not ready to abandon him to his demons. He won't survive it with any sort of sanity. He would argue with me on that but it's the one thing I believe with no doubt, he does need me. I think he knows it deep down. He knows I'm 100% on his side. Even if he dont like how at times. He knows I'm real. Even if he tells u I'm not. It's like his pride and years of telling me in so inferior refuse to allow him to recognize anyachievements, no matter the size. I know this but I forget every time we fight, cause it's his defense mechanism with me, it's about the only thing that works. He will reach I to the depths of cruelty and verbally destroy me. He knows what hurts me too. He has left scars that will never go away. I will never forget his eyes and voices and the feeling of my own pain at things he has said. My first husband beat me, that's not how u hurt me. The act of being able to hurt me, that really hurts. My now husband has gotten physical a few times. I cant hate him for it long because I see how much he hates himself for it. But that pride tho, he wont apologize verbally, but he will show me best he can that he's sorry. He knows I deserve better. He went thru a phase where all the blame was put on me for not leaving when it first started, woth the dope and us losing the kids. I tell myself I pushed him too far. It's no excuse I know. But I know how much weighs on him daily, and when substances are u introduced, well I am the embodiment of a large portion of his pain and stress and guilt. I forgive him because I know he's not mentally able to deal with all that and day to day life without help. To stubborn to ever agree with me but I just k ow I'm right. Cant explain that but it's never led me wrong. I shoulder as much as he will let me. And getting high and drunk and my mouth can sometimes push him too far, exacerbates things.

I knew he was a 'recovering' addict when we met. But he only smoked weed when I met him. I thought all that was his past. I didn't mind weed. I didn't personally smoke when we met. I was a divorced mom to 3. We were all finally happy and stable after my horror of an ex-husband. Idk y I fell in love with this man. But I did. He was my first serious relationship in the 2 years since. I never even missed sex, I wasn't lonely. I didn't miss that kind of love until...I was reminded.

8 mos later, we have a place together with my kids. Then a neighbor moved and offered my husband dope. He hid it for a little bit. But I picked up on his different behaviors and made him tell me. Then I wanted to smoke some too. I'd heard of Meth. But I grew up very sheltered by a pill head. I didnt know that when this gorgeous man told me he used to be an addict that he meant thousands of dollars and many hears of hardcore IV drug use. Herion, bar salts. His drug of choice was simply, more. He named his addiction Maria. He needed that relief so badly that once he discovered its power to 'fix' things, he personified his addiction. Maria has been his stability. Shes lways there when everyone else let's him dow. I can understand the desire not to feel. So badly u wanna die. But I was raised different. U can be weak, but dont stay weak. .

But by the time I realized that he didn't recover from his addictions, he fled his former home state and had no access to those things here. He was big on the run big ti.e qhen we met. Hes a hardened city boy. I'm a small town countrygirl. He let me smoke with him. A week later, hes got a needle. I have never seen a pill snorted. I wanted him to let watch him and he did. Seeing the man I love so in thrall to drugs, it broke my heart for him. Women pray to God to see a man look at them with that look. His addiction borders worship. As I write this we are also high with a few friends, he just finished fixing his shot and has decided to ask them to film him. I cant keep going. Thats bothers.me and ill to tore up now to try to figure out my feelings. So I'll wrap this up. My emotions are going every where and I really hate him like this. I hope he watches his video and hates himself. I love him and wint leave him to feel all that guiltalone, that doesn't mean he doesn't deserve to feel most of it. God knows I feel my fair share. I promise myself one thing, I will not live like this forever. I'll keep looking for my way out. I'll keep praying for strength to leave. Or for God to open his eyes. I know better than to preach too much at him. He usually shuts down as soon. as he realizes what I'm saying. But I still try. He doesn't know it yet, cause he has never felt it before, but I love him enough for this. I will win this fight. Even if he hates.me in the end. (Forgove any typos, I'm intoxicated and when I get adamant about a topic, I type too fast)