#i dont even think they're friends LOL

[kanasn0w]

MARRIAGE..........

[lunarharp]

Very important conferences.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Fellow Psych enjoyer!! Im watchin psych at this very moment lol, i know its a tough question bc i dont even have a definitive answer but like, what's your favorite episode?

hmmm well i did very much enjoy the episode where Lassiter & Henry bond over fishing... i also like the episode where Shawn gets kidnapped & ends up on top of a moving car <3

[icewindandboringhorror]

I have found a beautiful perfect humble rock specimen that is light yellow with a weird dark yellowy brown lining, somewhat resembling a chunk of smoked gouda cheese... effervescent

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[bunnihearted]

📓🕯️🐇🖤pt.2

[ichigosoju]

💭💗

[soo-won]

hey lumen! hope you're doing well, love your AnY posts sm! i don't know if you ever said this, but do you ship hak and yona? i think you have said it before but I'm not sure 😅

Hi! Thank you, I'm glad your like my posts :) And yes I'm doing well, I hope you do too!

I don't think I've ever mentioned it directly. Is "No. and yes" an acceptable answer ahah?

The thing is at this point of the story and where the canon relationship between Hak and Yona is at, it's impossible to deny they're a thing and that they love each other romantically, I'd be in denial saying they don't, but I just don't care I guess? I don't really ship them in the sense of I'm not interested in engaging in thinking, talking, creating etc around their romantic relationship. I know it's here, but I just nod and move on. That being said I enjoy their general relationship. Like, I think what is good with them is that the romance is build on a solid foundation of trust, support, and love that is not just romantic. Like they're in love sure but before that they are great friends. I love them when they're funny and cute together, when they want to reach and support each other and their individual character arc can be partly seen through the development of their relationship, they're definitely a pair that I can't imagine separated, but I just don't vibe with the romance on top of all that if that makes sense? I enjoy them the most as besties ahah. I don't imagine them not ending up together at the end either, I wish it for them because I can tell that's what would make them happy in the canon, but I feel pretty distant about it and if that was just me I would break them off for my personal fantasies <3

So tdlr: not reallyngjbjhbj but it's hard to say a hard "no" in the context of akatsuki no yona actually has a well developed romance that is very much canon. Like I'm not stupid I swear.

[redbean-nom]

the fox-and-ponds-adoption slice of the soft wars family not-tree

(it expands approximately outwards, because clone generations make for an absurdly wide tree if you map it normally. blue names are are soft wars eu, red hearts are canon relationships, and purple hearts are eu relationships. circles are squads and grey lines are adoptions.)

[hella1975]

the harsher parts of mental illness are always treated so so badly in media and it's genuinely very special to see someone handling them gently - especially because you've said it's very personal for you and that makes it so much easier to like? live in i suppose? because like you said the guilt can be overwhelming and the crushing weight of knowing KNOWING that you're one bad day away from wrecking an important relationship just out of pure FEAR can be so debilitating to live with especially bc people do fundamentally view that as just. a bitch response. knee jerk malice. but it's not half the time it's sheer fear (which doesn't excuse it but it does explain more) so it's nice to see that being treated like the actual complex response it is <3

yes omfg i need to stop getting surprised when taob winds up being incredibly cathartic for me bc i put a bit of myself in it and (shocker!) there are people like that who actually get it. like there are multiple people that to this day ACTIVELY dislike me because i not only said something bad to them but because i ON PURPOSE took the thing i knew would hurt them most and said it in the harshest way i possibly could. like that was a conscious effort on my part i went out of my way to think about what would hurt them and i just went for their jugular. but i wasn't doing it for the sake of meanness any more than i was doing it because they deserved it. like i said before there are two instances when i do this and that's as a defence mechanism or to self-destruct. i dont really do the former anymore - and that took YEARS to grow out of bc that was my Main Response to literally ANY conversation i didnt want to have. people are significantly less likely to ask you personal questions if you immediately try and make them cry when they do lol. this is where 90% of my 'i was a bitch in secondary school' posting comes from - but ironically the less i gave into the former the more it translated into the latter, so i lost either way and so did the people around me. i really dont think im that bad anymore bc i found ways around it and now i cant think off the top of my head anything even CLOSE to what i used to do that's happened recently, but i have YEARS OLD guilt from long dead friendships that i will - and deserve to - live with forever bc regardless of the reasoning behind it i still said terrible things. and like. it never gets talked about bc from an outside pov im very obviously being a complete cunt and who would want to sympathise with that

[narryffdreaming]

one of the things i struggle the most when it comes to my brain is the fact that im too logical for certain things and therefore i can't engage with the things most people around me seem to care about.

for instance, if i don't like an artist, i don't consume that artist. i don't care about that artist. i don't worry, nor think about that artist — unless, for some reason, they cross paths with something i care about. that's my "logical" reaction. so whilst people around me engage and have fun "hating" on someone, i genuinely (GENUINELY) don't understand the fun in that or why someone would waste so much time over something they don't care about (?). which is why im always bored reading things online and don't really interact that much with (basically) anything.

same goes for gossiping. if i don't know the people my friends are talking about, or if im not somehow affected by whatever happened, or if none of my friends are somehow affected by it, i genuinely couldn't care less about whatever or whoever. because, again, my "logical" reaction is "why will i bother with something i don't care about?". so whilst my friends have long conversations about what happened to x and y, and whilst everyone in town knows everyone and everything, im always the person who doesn't know who X is and doesn't have an opinion about whatever happened to them bc... who cares? yknow? idk them, so idk. i don't care. whatever.

and in the end, it's just like that for everything. people will complain at work about things that i'll find a logical explanation for, and so i don't feel like complaining about it at all. or i'll see something on tv and roll my eyes bc i already know someone wrote that in a very specific way and chose that exact sad song just to make people emotional, and won't be able to emotionally involve myself with whatever im watching. and etc etc etc.

then of course, that doesn't mean im not empathetic or i don't care about anything... i just simply have a different pov over things. and maybe i'll care about that conversation everyone's having, but my approach to it will be different.

and trust me, this awareness of being too "logical" instead of "emotional" doesn't mean i think im better. tbh, it's one of the things i wish i could change bc it socially sets me off a lot of times. bc either a) people think im boring for not engaging with conversations or b) i engage with conversations and end up too exhausted for pretending to be something/someone im not. so i can never win.

anyway i personally don't like the word neurodivergent but in the end, no matter how we call it, the point is that it blows my mind how much these disorders can set us apart from most people simply because we can't understand/internalize/react to things the same way. idk it's been a long day im tired my brain is tired. idk if it makes sense haha. anyway. anywayyyyyyy.

[francy-sketches]

just randomly remebered a book series i read as a kid ok no actually i just read books 3 4 and 5 for some reason and there's like 6 but I was really into it for a while. anyway it was one of those geronimo stilton books but the stupid rat was not in them idk why they had his name on the cover they were actually kind of gruesome from what i remember. ngl they went hard they had cool little sketches in them too and there was this blue dragon with half a tail i loved him sm i was so upset when i couldnt find fanart bc nobody knew this book u.u I'm like 99% sure it was never translated so its just an italian thing but. any of my fellow italian girlies remember this. was I the only one to ever read it

[sesamenom]

trying to figure out Lomion's relationships for the reverse gondolin au - so far I have Rog as his mentor instead of Eol and Celegorm as his "uncle". he's not particularly close with Idril, but Turgon helps him with the politics/statecraft stuff. anyways I can't figure out a marriage candidate for him for heir-identification purposes so

[technovillain]

love coach oleander like this guy has never heard of germany

[lwieserce]

i need more friends who are rude cunts about the same things i am so they could bring out my dormant agression

[icewindandboringhorror]

everyday I miss miitomo .. aaa