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moeblob · 4 months

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I'm on an OC kick and also super indecisive so I spun a wheel (thank you for choosing for me, RNG).

Ricardo is a body guard and is bffs with Marlo. Ricardo's current job is watching after a celebrity's daughter who the public doesn't know even exists. She's just a teenage girl vibing with her mom and getting texts and calls from her dad (who loves her a whole lot and keeps her out of the spotlight very purposefully) and has this bodyguard and his weird friend. Marlo is just vibing with his best friend.

(Also Marlo would absolutely laugh if he heard Ricardo say "someone called me eye candy and it wasn't you and now I think you should call me that")

#my characters #i have an ask in my inbox that has me obsessively thinking about drawing fanart #but i just dont have the energy for what i want to draw for it #its been a rough day guys im dying (allergies and lacking sleep)#(why are allergies so bad today i ask after shoving my face into a cat while knowing im allergic to cats)#there are some prices i will always suffer and pay in life and the cat allergy is one of them you cant keep me away from a cat #im shoving my face in their fur and you CANT STOP ME FROM IT and also they kept bothering me #anyway i got to bed at like 6am after a lot of zoomies and restless legs and then #woke up with both cats in the guest bed with me and man i will not know peace for a few days #worth it tho bc i love them and i will take suffering if it means cattention #i dont really have much to say about the ocs tbh theyre just buddies being guys and then theres a teenage girl sometimes #and people suspect ricardo is her dad and she cant really say no my dads (celebrity) since thats the entire point of rico #so she makes sure its not troublesome for him to have people assume things like that and hes just #idc im in love with my best friend and hes not giving me any kids so not like anyone will start drama if im not with your mom #but he is also ! friends with the celebrity and his wife so he does just go on Family Outings with the wife and daughter #and sometimes marlo because the wife knows of him and invites him sometimes but she treats #rico and marlo like sons instead which is a bit weird to the daughter but she likes her weird fake brothers slash dad and question mark #marlo dyes his hair pink if that matters and has been doing so for a v long time

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greasydumbfuck · 2 months

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thinking about frank and sex (in a sad way)

#marvel #frank castle #the punisher #not as in about sex with him but like how hes portrayed in relation to it in the comics if that makes sense #hes just always so deeply uninterested not just in the women but the act itself too like #so many times hes like. not pressured thats the wrong word but like i can think of at least two times i saw #where the women just kinda. walk themselves into his bed. and hes like 'eh idk about this' but then just kinda does it anyway #like i imagine the writers intended for this to be like a cool guy thing yk like ah he gets so much action and he DOESNT CARE cuz hes COOL #but ME personally i cant help but read it like. god idk i dont want to say him letting himself get used and using them in turn #theres this expression 'going through the motions' that kind of feels right here but idk how to explain it #hes just so weird about it. every time. in my mind i cant imagine him ever really wanting it very much #like maybe to feel good sometimes but its never. idk am i making sense am i just saying shit #is he gay asexual missing his dead wife or just so so fucking traumatized and dead on the inside that his body is just an object now #so many fun ways to interpret this #<guy who is not having fun interpreting this #wish i could just project my thoughts into your heads so youd see exactly what i mean cuz i dont feel im verbalizing this well enough #god take a shot every time i say 'like' or 'just'. youll be off your face from this post only #i may be making shit up tbh idk the thought struck me out of nowhere while i was looking at the ceiling

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b4kuch1n · 1 year

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fuck it sk8 sketches from da sketchbook. get sk8ed idiot

#sk8 the infinity #kyan reki #hasegawa langa #renga #sure whatever. tagging ship is probably easier than explaining what the fucks up with these two in my head #hi. I watched sk8 with my friend cosme a while ago. I actually dont care about the allegations that much I just got #blasted with teenage years flashback. and now I need reki to have everything on earth and be well #these have been around for like a week lol Ive just been debating posting them to tumblr. bc like. Im not finishing these lol #hesitant to call sk8 ''therapeutic'' but boy oh boy. does it make me confront some stuff. yes a sport anime leave me alone!!!#its just. I think I was this way about raz too actually. listen I have History with Stuff. I'm allowed ok? I'm totally allowed #u can See it in some of these doodles actually. this fuckign anime got me so unwell #hey. if ur a fellow adhd potentials-havers out there. ur a real one. thanks for still hangin out doin what u love/ur best #if u were an 'if u wanna do art u have to be excellent and high-art at it otherwise it means nothing' kid. I am holding ur hand #I'll be normal now I prommy (lying)#well. what I'll be doing now is taking a nap. maybe. gods my schedule backslid like four hours again #eh whatever. I go to bed anyway. got my portion of the day done and tomorrow I go buy new knife #hope someone come give me a new table top and lower the whole thing a bit soon. so I can stop sitting like Im in a shopping cart #have a good night lads. have fun. its imperative

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natjennie · 6 months

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anyone else out here a middle child saddled with eldest daughter responsibilities?

#a bumper sticker that says 'middle-child neglect and eldest-child duties'#i want to believe it started when my older sister moved out but. lets be real. it's always been me.#i am genuinely acting care-giver to my chronically ill younger sister while my dad watches basketball on the couch #and my mom doesnt get out of bed.#like. my mom is pretty sick too and works all day and does most of the housekeeping too #so i dont blame her at all.#i mean i guess my dad works all day but. for real king you can't get up off the couch to support your daughter crying and heaving #no that falls to me. yeah yeah I'll get her a drink and make sure she takes her meds.#what's that? yeah I'll rub her back and run a cloth under the sink and bring her something to eat too.#oh? yes fine I wont take a gummy so i wont sleep because she's in a flare up and needs them more than me #to be clear!! I'm not blaming her either like clearly she feels like shit and she feels guilty all the time #i just. some amount of help from anyone else. or at least maybe. idk A DAY I can rest when i feel like shit #but oh- no- she's coughing up bile again. yep I'll come bring a bucket.

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napping-sapphic · 1 year

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hmmm but that moment when you’re lonely when you suddenly remember there’s hundreds of other lonely people in this world and suddenly it feels just a little easier to breathe

#when you sit alone in your room thinking about everyone else sitting alone in their rooms #when you know inherently that they’re out there getting through their lives just the same as you #when you’re lying on your bed and realize someone out there is lying the exact same way as you thinking the same thoughts #idk im feeling a way rn #because im so lonely but so so NOT at the same time #because i have a whole world around me #lying in bed thinking the same thoughts i had at 13 and the world has changed so MUCH and it’s only going to change more #and it’s going to be so BAD and so GOOD and so TERRIFYING and so EXCITING #ughhhhh ignore me this doesn’t make sense or it does i dont know #you’re all out there so so many of you #and how can i be lonely when i know at least one of you will read this and intimately know what it means #im going crazy #someone needs to take my phone away when i wake up from naps so i can’t make these posts anymore #which - by the way - the nap slapped #and the pondering of the world just so happens to also slap #apparently

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bunnihearted · 2 months

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🌙☁️🌌

#evenings and nights are always the worst for me #when i feel this lonely.... :(((#when you're alone the nights are the worst bc #u dont have anyone at all really.. and it gets so obvious at night #just .. the loneliness gets intensified #and i can compare bc #there was a period of time where i talked to someone everyday #and i looked forward to the nights and their messages and comforing goodnight messages #and so i know firsthand what big of a difference that makes #for years and years i've had these bad loneliness feelings tho.. so it's not smth new #but it gets harder and harder to deal with them. esp as the world outside is getting colder and crueler #and people only get more and more mean #plus when i do have smth wonderful that made me warm and happy and comforted that i dont have anymore #and can compare and know what im missing #it does get harder :c #i try to watch videos and think of other things but oh god this loneliness hurts so damn much i crumble underneath the weight of it #maybe life will get better dealing with it all if i have a stable income and an apartment with my pets #and go to work all day and come home too tired to feel lonely... idk?#im so scared i'll never find someone that i can be together with. bc i think im the kind of person who needs that #but im also so different and difficult and idk how and if it'll happen....#and how do i live with these heavy painful feelings of extreme loneliness ? idk :c #i try mindfulness too. and listening to music. and reading. and cuddling my pets #but im just a human. i want someone i love to hold me and fall asleep with them close to me.#i wanna lie in bed and talk to them abt anything bc between us it is a judgement free zone #despite what ppl say i am not weak for needing and wanting that. and being incredibly alone without it.#it's what i need and want but idk if i ever will and the thought of being stuck with this heavy loneliness all my life makes me wanna die #ok. peace out 😑✌️

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triglycercule · 24 days

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i want to headcanon the mtt having absolutely terrible hygiene and struggling to keep themselves clean (this MAY... just QUITE POSSIBLY.... only in the SLIGHTEST bit be projection) but i think it would be too gross and man EVEN I dont wanna think about that

also killer canonically smells good and i actually really LIKE that idea so oh shit there goes that idea out the window. horror and dust youre my only hope please let me make you smell bad for reasons you won't understand

#also i dont think i. just got a sense of dejavu wtf. anyways #i dont think im THAT bad at maintaining my hygiene..... like i dont bed rot for months which isn't good by any means #but if i havent reached that point of bad hygieneness then i dont think i should be talking about this topic #sure i may uhhh may struggle to brush my teeth and shower multiple times a week but like. ngl it's not that bad #i am NORMAL okay THIS IS NORMAL. people struggle with this stuff all the time everyday i dont need to be making a whole post on this topic #i wish that the capital i in this app looked different. because when i wanna emphasize I it just looks normal #i type like how i speak has it not become glaringly obvious yet. so it boggles and bothers me when i cant emphasize i like i can irl #the laundry piles in dusts room are probably unfathomably tall he just throws it all into one corner (HES JUST LIKE ME FR!!! I DO TJIS!!!!!)#all the water in horrortale has turned toxic and polluted and bad so horror's only option is to not shower or shower in dirty water #he chooses the former because what if that water has monster dust sprinkled in it. his paranoia wont let him shower in dust infused water #TRIGLYCERCULE GET YOUR FUCKING LIFE TOGETHER INSTEAD OF THINKING AND PROJECTING ONTO FICTIONAL CHARACTERS. SCHOOL STARTS IN 3 DAYS.#I KNOW I KNOW IM SORRY.... IM SORRY OKAY I KNOW!!! I KNOW THIS IS BAD!!! I WILL TRY!!!!!!#anyways back to projecting. do you think dust has sheets on his little matress bed #because the sheets will enevitably get dusty and then he's gonna have to lay on the dust of those he killed and thats a bad thought #sheets can fix the problem temporarily because he can just change them out and wash them #but also.... changing sheet hard.... take long time..... dust just want sleep.... rot away..... so no sheet on matress??? idk #dust might be able to make fun of horror and killer for having food issues but #killer gets to make fun of dust and horror for having hygiene issues #he's had his lows but he's never gotten THAT low 🤣🤣🤣🫵🫵🫵 LOSERS!!!!!#what does horror get to make fun of them for??? idk murder #killer might be able to keep himself clean but he cannot keep anything else around him clean with thet goddamn eye goop so HAH take that #me on my way to overshare with strangers on the internet. this isnt that bad compared to other stuff ive seen online actually #triglycercule can you just shut the fuck up and get back to posting about the mtt nobody CARES #alright..... limps away like a kicked and beated puppy...... like killer after getting abused by nightmare for the 56th time..........#advanced humor only utmv fans will get it #tricule rant #i said i wasnt gonna make the post but i did infact make the post. just in tags #me when i LIE #just offically reached 50 drafts where my medal. i should clear them out? alright shoot that guy

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hairydykecunt · 2 months

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i have this weird thing where i want ppl to be really nice to me and pet me and etc but like, i know that’s not possible, at least for me, cause no ones ever gonna see me as a cat. i’m just some guy asking for attention, not this cat you spotted and wanna call over, i am just never gonna feel as innocent as i want to. it hurts so fucking bad

#kitty talks #on the come down of the shrooms and felt a lot today and im thinking a lot and i’m just like haha idk i rlly wish inwas a cat #i wish i could never feel a thing ever. i want thr bliss cats have. i want ro be loved. i wanna be cute. i jusy wanna be small #ive been edging breaking down for so long but it really does suck i really jusy wanna be hugged but i dont wanna be Hugged i wanna be hugged #and i wanr ro cuddle but not like that. i want to be a cat that crawls into bed with someone warm bc i like their heat. i uusy #i dont know i feel so fucking weird rn and it’s mostly bc im like fuck dude is this jusy how ill be forever like am i seriously not gonna +#get over this. am i just gonna live my life begging to be loved like something im not?#am i even acearo? like i am but do i really know what i mean by when i say i dont Like that stuff?#like am i just not interested bc i know it’ll never be possible to truly Be Like That with no worry?#idont know im jusy really sad and im cold and i wish someone was kissing me right now and i wish i was being squeezed #and i am also so tired of dressing up just to feel uglier but i love dressing up and make up too much to Not do it #idk. basically. i wish i was a cat and i wish i didn’t frel ugly all the time

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mommalosthermind · 4 months

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—come up with nifty scene that will go well with in-progress fic

—write scene

—that does not at all go well with current fic

—that is the premise for a whole-ass other fic

—stare into space

—open new file

—repeat forever

#goddamn it i actually spent a day (mostly) tidying up those files #(and by mostly i mean there’s a monster file that has too many half written ideas i dont even know how to untangle fuck meeee)#me post file clean up: aw lookit all my organized bunnies #also me: kicks that one file under the bed #also also me: opens five more new docs #at what point does this stop counting as a hobby and become A Problem #lmfao #common refrain when someone makes a comment about my obsessions: man i would make such a good drug addict but words are more fun #and also free

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cerealmonster15 · 3 months

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i dont think i ever felt more annoyed at commercials than when those mean girls walmart ads were playing a few months ago or whenever that was

#i think it's mostly bc i thought mean girls was like. an okay movie. a fine movie? i think i liked it #but like. i saw it once. i have no nostalgia for it bc i saw it way later/not when it originally came out #and god the way people are so into it. i mean that is great like i dont wanna be a hater for people enjoying things #but me personally. i do not understand why it's a cult classic or whatever klsjfkdlsfj i hear people quote it all the time and im like. 🧍#so having those quotes i already dont care about re contextualized to try to sell me walmart. god. the worst experience jkfsdjfklJFDKLSJF #tbh maybe it woudlve been worse if i liked the movie but i saw comments saying those commercials were funny so WHATEVER #i feel like it's also the same w/like. vocaloid kfsjdflksjgh like i dont dislike it!! i enjoy some songs #but i never had a vocaloid phase when i was younger. i feel so very neutral about miku #ppl on the internet feel so strongly positive and again thats great and i objectively get it #ive been shown vocaloid songs and some are really catchy #but it is one of those instances where im like man. a level of hype i dont fully understand LOL #miku vocaloid stuff is at least endearing tho. i get.... tired... w/mean girls quotes......... ksljfsljfl #It's Always The Same Ones and i just dont think theyre very funny FKJLDSJFDKLSJF maybe i am a hater damn #jk i do think i liked the movie? god i dont remember i watched it like. i dont even know when. college at the earliest i think #but whatever thats just a case of people having different interests just cuz i didnt care about a thing doesnt man its bad other ppl like i #also tho i think bc the mean girls overquoted bits remind me of like. rae dunn ceramics LOL jkfskfjsekht #or like idk live laugh love stuff. yknow like. dont talk to me until ive had my coffee has same energy as on wednesdays we wear pink. to me #it's facebook wine mom humor.... bc it is people roughly my age that were/are really into it and they are now mom age i guess lwpfhewhfp #god i need to go to bed im tired and it's making me a cranky complainer about stuff that doesnt matter!!!!#went 2 my dash in a dif tab and immediately saw a miku post is she gonna get me for not having strong feelings about her #im sorry miku i just . i dont get it JKFLJDSKLFJKSLD #ur music is fun i just dont proportionately understand. i feel like im missing context w/this one girl maybe thats my bad idk #or maybe it's just i found u too late idk. i will jam to the bops tho #that endless/everlasting/whatever nights thing w/like the 4 alt storyline songs is soooo fun i love those #dont ask me the names of the ppl in them tho i dont fuckin know besides like. 3 of them. one is miku LOL #and those yellow twin kids. len and ren. or rin? len and rin? i dont remember and i dont care enough to look it up sorry small children #theres that blue haired guy that was in the one prsk route i played but i forgot his name again #i dont know if hes in those songs i was talkin about tho i only remember what he looks like in his youthful wonderland alt loll #i talk in the tags bc i get scared it feels safe in my burrow here underground #also im calling mean girls mid and saying i dont have miku hype so i feel like that does warrant going into hiding

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genreawareness · 8 months

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my roommate’s in the bathroom so i cant brush my teeth and go to bed. time to soapbox on tumblr. very very curious what it would take to make living in a suburb emotionally sustainable for me because the genuine comedic overwhelming joy at coming home is actually crazy.

#from the desk #literally have been jumping around happystimming like its THAT insane out here #however.#get out of the bathroom pleaseeeee i dont want to be eepy tomorrow. okay? im trying to be good and go to bed on time!!#ANYWAY.#i think like. hm. okay. in a hypothetical future where i am married with kids WOULD that be enough to make suburbia survivable?#does it work fine if i just have a car and a license and can get to people easily?#i am never ever ever going to be capable of living in my hometown its too spread out #hm. i dont know.#i think the concept of a community space is apparently genuinely really critical for me #is what i love about living in this specific apartment that its kind of the community space?#i mean certainly yes but could i go without it. what WILL i do with my one wild and precious life #im sure i could? it’s difficult to say any of this for sure bc its almost 1 (LEAVE. PLEASE.) and im just saying shit but man #craaaaazy how much better i feel #not the community space the living in it.#i still feel like zooming around but also im tiiiired i wanna go to beeeeed

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lilgynt · 7 months

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birthdays haven’t been too bad the last few years but with picking my dad up from rehab last year i’ve been getting antsy about it again and my work is gonna leave balloons and a note on my desk and i do work that day and i thought i had the saving grace of my brother doing a thing with me the DAY after but due to work things were now doin it on the day and it’s just looming closer and closer 😰

#personal #you have like 5 bad birthdays in a row and suddenly have an actual fear of ur bday #again it didn’t happen for a few years so i was fine but dad thing now is scared again 🙄#anyway i would have said no to the work thing but i wanted to be normal and encourage good will between my coworkers #i mean on my 45 day review perfect notes but my supervisor had to specify leadership when talking about communication bc i DONT be #talking to my coworkers #which totally fine doesn’t effect my work at all but.#idk i didn’t want to be like no when i already don’t talk to people #but did start a convo today!!!#i’m not bad at talking with people or even strangers i’m not even super shy i’m just bad at being a person #anyway so said yes even tho it does make me antsy thinking about #and i hate working on my birthday bc it feels like.#any event on my bday freaks me out or at least used to and does again #like ideal birthday stay home in bed and survive just don’t want to encourage chance or take any risks #i just want to stay still until it’s over and everyone’s okay #but now i’m working and people are gonna say happy birthday and there will be balloons and a note #and my brothers taking me out which yay love him love solo time gonna ask for sushi #but i’m also scared like what if something happens to him?#but it’s silly to live in fear and he’s only here for like a day #and even if my dad came home i also got my first birthday surprise with my friends lying #and saying they needed art supplies and gave me a cake and hannibal stuff and it was so sweet i cried :)))

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cfrog · 1 year

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My favorite part of writing is doing whatever the hell i want, then turning around and english class analysis-ing myself. Yeah Moe's character is an exploration of the horrors of growing up, particularly as a trans person. The transformation of Moe's body into something completely unknown with incomprehensible rules is a metaphor for puberty and also being neurodivergent. I definitely didnt just go "wouldnt it be fucked up if a kid was a cartoon" this was soooo on purpose

#just watched that queer body horror video essay. Ha Ha I Do That #i make a guy. i give em a problem. i What Does It Mean myself. i give em more problems with that in mind. profit.#my oc talk #ive only very recently started refering to leddlabs as a 'horror' story. because i dont think its very scary in any way.#but it sure does have a lot of body horror and violence and psychological stress and the format kinda draws from Saw #but to me thats just guys being dudes. just dudes doin puzzles. you know how it is with puzzles.#*walks out of a room covered in blood* just finished a jigsaw puzzle :3 #ok im rambling i go to bed now #plus have you seen ledd??? he goes :). that is spookys house of jumpscare horror at best.#lab moe

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violentdevotion · 2 years

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I had multiple dreams last night.

I had a bf </3

someone in my family got bit by a zombie </3

some guy made me explain narrative structure to him </3