#i feel so not valid talking abiut this like

[pyxielated]

nobody reads this part a billion so ill just scream some more abt my struggles with gender identity bc i saw this tiktok and it perfectly described how ive been feeling

[loopholes-and-wishes]

guhhhhhhh whatever. apparently im just commited to humiliating myself now........ i i i like the the forced kindness thing i i i think somethinglike that would honestly be good for me.... im bad with... touch.... and... accepting that people care.... atm (as in right at this moment) i feel like a big stupid almost grown cat that needs to just be grabbed and held everyday so that it can be okay with touch....... just.... talk things through beforehand and then just.... acceptingneverythingthat comes with beingthere..... getting too tense and having gentle traces along my spine to getme just worked up enough to get my discomfort out of the way..... relling them i want to pull away and get pulled back in for the nextwhile..... fighting back and forth over me being there trying to get away and being held in place so i cangetitthrough to myself that noteveryone is goingtoleave and thatthereare people willing tostay with me where i am..... beingable tojust... express what imused to from people.. everyone leaving.... idk.... itslike a lot of stuff i enjoy also does seem kind of sexual from outside id say.... like... ... the... tracinga fingerup or down thespine.... like its not inherently that... ijustwanna be close and not allowed to go and be allowed to enjoy everything without having to worry about trying to seem like i enjoy everything in the normal way its not my fault my reactions to some stuff "seem sexual" or whatever... when its not.... blehhhhhhhhhhhhhh sorry abiut.... whatvee.... just idkm...... we both blow up now okay? :) ummm idk... sorry? about all this.... can nevertell what is and isnt acceptable..... i try....

Well Sweetheart, I’m happy you like the forced kindness approach. It’s personally my favourite way to interact with people in a BDSM setting, platonically or sexually. So I get what you mean. The main reason is that a lot of people say they want people to hurt them but they actually only do so because it's something they’re used to and they want something they know rather than something they don't. It’s almost even more hurtful to be kind than it is to be mean to these individuals because, as you said, it's kind of like a stray cat flinching from contact even though it doesn't hurt. 

So I don’t find it strange that you want it or that you want to be touched in a non sexual way. Being touched on your back and going back and forth like that, and reacting in a way that people would attribute to a sexual response, well that's on them if they think it's weird. It’s normal to react when you're not used to it, and it's perfectly valid to do so in any way you do. Personally, I always want to hold people as close as possible and never let go which includes me pressing the front of my body down in a way that makes people think I'm trying to be, uh, “sexy” as it were, so I understand where you're coming from in the discomfort of people making assumptions about your reaction to things. 

Also, I'm perfectly comfortable answering whatever. I have very specific things I’m not comfortable with and if someone tries to initiate something like that I'm okay with telling them no (I hate the idea of kissing someone on the mouth, bleh >~<), so dw about it too hard. I’m just worried about my responses because I think I can take it too far sometimes so I keep a close eye on how everyone reacts to things before I respond, it’s one of the reasons I was okay with going as hard as I did with Loopy because I know what she likes. I just have to be careful when I add in some new things sometimes, yaknow? (One of the issues of being completely online through blogs is that it’s hard to set boundaries for the people asking rather than the one who runs the blog, which is a bit hard when the one running the blog is the one domming ;;;;)

[stewyhosseini-bf]

its so fucking crazy that logan literally died 3 days ago, like they're being insane all three of them but then i remember their dad DIED 3 days ago and its like riiiiiiiiight they shouldnt be in public or working yet bc they heard their dad DIE three days ago

like people talking abiut handling their father's death and it sounds like it should be happening but its like ITS BEEN 3 DAYS they should still be acting crazy but they're trying to run a company instead bc capitalism waits for no one like...i would be going crazy too

yeah it's pretty easy to forget it's literally only been DAYS, because of how the show airs obviously, but yeah. and tbh I think this is also what some of the ppl arguing that the show/ the characters feel off maybe are forgetting about a bit. they're all not operating at normal levels.. they're going to be more unhinged / more open / more vulnerable / more reckless a few days after something like this happened, out of a need for safety (tom) or comfort (shiv) or security and a feeling of power (roman) or some sort of validation (ken), etc...

[imnameim]

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[yardsard666]

Feeling emotions this morning huh

[omegawolverine]

Not the anon you just got, (note i didnt fully read ur post cause a the trigger warnings but i skimmed it a bit and i jsut)(also warning: talk abiut endeavor and vaguely what he did) there are people. Who compare. The abused kid to endeavor. They compare bakugou to endeavor. Liek, i personally dont like bakugou, hes just not my cup of tea, but hes not at fucking ALL like endeavor. Hes a kid whos been abused and is being abused and is hurt and is reacting in the onyl way he knows how and oeople take that and go "ah yes just like the man who willingly decide to horribly traumatize all of his kids through either physical abuse or neglect and refuses to grasp exactly why that was wrong and not okay" ????? Im skrry but WHAT THE FUCK???? Im just. Im appalled. (Also idk if u mentioned it in ur post but the amount of people who praise bakugous mother and claim shes great is fucking bone-chilling and honestly makes me feel sick sometimes)

tws: abuse, detailed (ish?) mentions of endeavors abuse

LITERALLY like bakugou and endeavor are not comparable at fucking all because bakugou is a 16 year old boy who has been repeatedly traumatized and copies his mother's terrible actions because that is something abused children do, whereas endeavor is a grown ass man who married a women for her quirk, abused her to the point where she couldnt even look at her own child without feeling fear because he looked like his father and then she was admitted to a hospital for breaking down due to his abuse, who nearly murdered one of his fucking children and drove him to being a villain, who overworked his child to the point of vomiting and barely being able to stand when he was like 5 fucking years old, who ignored his two other children because they didnt have "useful" quirks and so much fucking more.

endeavors whole "redemption" arc is bullshit too because he just suddenly decided he wanted to do better and people are fucking accepting it...? but then they wont accept the fact that bakugou is having more gradual progression and though he's working on himself, he still has his set backs because this is a life full of shit he's trying to fix and come to terms with.

like. bakugou was a fucking shitbag and he still is from time to time and its so valid for people to not fucking like him for that, but he's also a fucking teenager mimicking the actions of their abuser. comparing a trauma victim having trauma responses and acting like the person who has traumatized them (and in bakugous case, probably still is from time to time) to a whole ass like 40+ year old man who abused his entire family for power and so he could be better than a man who didnt even give a fuck about rankings, rather than actually care about the people who he is supposed to be saving as a fucking hero is disgusting, genuinely. on top of that, bakugou actually gives a fuck about being a hero, arguably more than anyone else in this series with the exception of like fucking deku and this fact is reinforced constantly.

bakugou and endeavor are meant to parallel each other but they are entirely different stories because of their background, why they did what they did and what they are doing to fix that. endeavor is supposed to be what bakugou could be if he doesnt become better, but that doesnt change the fact that endeavor is a far worse than bakugou because what he did was born from pure selfishness whereas bakugous actions were to fucking cope and deal with things the literal only way he knew how to.

anyways this is an endeavor hate account first and a bakugou kinnie account second :) /hj

(also yeah mitsuki enjoyers genuinely make me so uncomfortable and i avoid them as much as possible. i have enough people invalidating my abuse irl, i dont need to see people do it to one of my favorite characters who's mother acts exactly like fucking mine)

[healthyamountofcrazy]

Actually I teared up a little bit when I found out that Jongdae did a solo vlive live today. We all know that he doesn't feel like creating a social media accounts (and that's valid, people should stop asking him abiut that) and the fact that he still somehow found a way to connect with exo-ls by his own is just... It makes me really emotional, you know?

He loves his fans so much that despite the fact that no other member really uses vlive anymore, he still choose to made a live because he simply wanted to talk to his fans. And he looked so happy and comfortable?

Truly, Jongdae is an angel on earth with heart so big that it makes my own heart swell;;

[teddy-feathers]

look my problem with the au megamind where Roxanne is the alien and megamind is the reporter is i cant stop thinking about what i want out of that and how its probably not what other people want out of that which should mean 'oh shit i gotta write it' but really means 'in the next couple of months im going to rewatch megamind and be extremely frustrated because idk how to write these people as is let alone in an au'

but here are some thoughts

Itd have to take place on megaminds home world so like. have to develop that culture and frame it as the usual and other things as oddities

metroman still shows up at the same time the baby human does

roxan richie and metromans rivalry is less of a game and more of a metroman one up'd her ome to many times so now shes gotta take him out

its fine not because shes incompetent- in fact her death rays and pointy sticks are ingenious and have 0% public property or civilian causalities - but because metroman is not only impossible to kill, he adapts to anything that gets close (anything that doesnt kill him makes him stronger literally)

i guess this means theres a good chunk of the story that is centered around human adaptability vs perfect hero dudes adaptability

Roxanne Ritchie is actually a noted scientist or something at the local research facility - i figure blue people planet is really advanced and everyones at least a little technosmart but while it doesnt come as easily or naturally to Roxanne her way of thinking is really unique n shiz and shes an asset to every team....

but if you see her in a mask with some project from the lab macguivered into a gun trying to kill metroman well, no ones getting hurt and humans need hobbies and everyone respects the mask desptie the fact shes the ONLY human on the planet so its not like its hard to figure out who she is

she does spend a lot of nights having to rebuild projects and apologizing and such but basically everyone plays the plausible deniability card and asks her questions abiut what went wrong and okay so the masked menace failed after you let them steal our project but lets pretend for a moment the goal was to fix crops how would you say this did? and grumply shed revamp the guns weird side effect into an alien pollinating crop duster or whatever

got carried away when REALLY all I WANTED to say was

Whille Roxanne Ritchie is adaptable ingenuity and gets away at the last minute NOT because no ones trying to catch her but shes just that CLEVER and thinks ahead and shiz....

Megamind is the guy trying to interview her in the middle of a fight like he thinks he's cute - i mean he is but shes chasing after metroman and skids to a stop because this jerk stepped in for a comment. or shes lining up the perfect shot but theres a close up of megaminds reporter bag in the way

the thing is that maybe... blue people arent violent. a natural disaster hit recently and theyre coming back from it and if the two adopted alien kids want to play extreme tag well no ones getting hurt and Roxanne Ritchie will grow out of her competitiveness no doubt caused by just how superior EVERYONE on the planet is by finding her own niche and metroman will grow up and stop bating her because maybe he IS still better than everyone else and thats met with "oh very nice we're proud" but it doesnt really validate him or make him feel special because its just treated as a special thing he can do by everyong but Roxanne Ritchie and once he's found something that makes him feel good regardless of the attention or lack of it he'll stop playing too

but megamind? megamind has an imagination that loves drama and blowing things out of proportion and thats part of why his reports are so popular? like yeah everyones treating this super hero showdown with indulgence but megamind is good at framing theatrics so that this news story is actually a compelling narrative? and also everyone can see the tension is going to have one of these three "kids" confessing live someday

and maybe he gets carried away. one of those 'aw well next time you could do x or y' or has some technological creation that accidentally actually makes Metroman flinch during an interview

and Roxanne Ritchie starts paying attentionto him for the first time.

and minion warns him but he doesnt listen. minion is lower class and is afraid of being replaced like a pet like some people do but Roxanne Ritchie Ritchie doesnt have a minion and even if she did theyre Best Friends not like those other blue people minion uperclass people.

and he carelessly says something unforgivable and Roxanne Richie uses his ideas and actually succeeds in killing metroman

so she goes to prison - a place they had to build just for her because this hasnt happened since stars knows when

and somebody else is doing the camera because minion left just is gone and megamind looks defeated but testifies against her and is quiet and subdued and stpps being a reporter for a bit

and.... idk. i feel like we'll have to resolve the whole class system so minon goes underground and finds other minons who are unhappy with the way of things and if theyre ALREADY rebuilding society after that huge natural disaster that DIDNT blow up their planet thanks TO a minion well ehy cant they fix this too?

so theres a rebellion going on and theyve got a secret weapon to make blue people listen and idk but i feel like it's Metroman

and... how do stories like this go ive forgotten

minion wouldnt tell megamind or he would

metroman would break Roxanne Ritchie out of prison during the first riot of the minion revolt?

they talk and compare why they hated eachother and slowly work together and are actually a great team?

and then they need a reporter to make themselves heard as something other than minions going crazy

and so of course they go to megamind for help getting the story out

something something megamind is minions sidekick for this adventure

"Roxanne Ritchie was raised by the planet and turned against it and instigated civil unrest and killed a person who was also the good child etc etc instead of just growing up to face your problems"

"actually im alive and i finally found my place? helping out the real heros?"

"i mean i did try to kill him, but he forgave me and we're kinda working together because planet of moms and dads that raised us? yall actually are the ones who need to grow up and let go of the traditions that dont serve etc etc"

and megamind does a huge public apology to minion

and... uhhhhhhhhh fuck i really dont know how these storyies go

the blue people start making amends

metroman basically becomes a social worker for minion childern because finding their original families is a bit hard and most of these kids are just going to end up being raised by super dad but at least the rebellion minion families are actually geting to be their own family units and in a couple gens thatll be normal

Roxanne Ritchie goes back to being the token human in the lab and hangs up her super suit and is generally dissatisfied with this

until one night a hero breaks into her apartment to make her answer for her crimes and so for a legit hot second theyre fighting and megamind says something and Roxanne apologizes and then fighting stops being an argument and goes into banter flirting

the worss "where theres evil good will rise up to fight it" peob comes up a lot in this fic in different iterations

anyways megamind isnjust basically like hey wanna do this like. for the rest of our lives dramatic battle showdowns like its entertainment but like no theyre doing this for real?

the answer is hell yeah

and its a polyship and sometimes Roxanne is helping with the kids and then Megamind bursts in to "save" the family from her evil clutches and 90% of the time everything is improve

megamind kidnaps Roxanne to make metromind save her and a good half of the conversation is that hes an idiot for coming shes tried to kill him three times this week and hes bitching because do you know how hard it is to find a sitter for 30 odd minion kids this short notice and they better make it up to him

Roxanne is not superdad but the 30 odd minion kids adore when she comes over because they mob the villain so hard until finally mega comes to save her because hes actually very good with the kids

of course this poly ship isnt complete without minion and at some point minion and mega realize theyve actually been married for years and Roxanne and metro tease them shamelessly for it

minion and his race need a real name obviously

when Roxanne was a... graduate her senior project theses thingy was essentially "im going to go back to planet earth itll be great ive figured out were im from and how to go there in a reasonable amout of time" and everyone had to sit her down and explain that unlike metroman they knew where she was from the planet was just destroyed.

they never figured out where metroman was from because his direction sharply changed to follow baby Roxannes course and mirrored her coding despite very obviously how he had originated from elsewhere

this is important because his race is basically coming to conquer the blue people planet soon - the group finds out - and will download all the survival upgrades metroman has gotten to become unkillable and then just come down to the surface and be unstoppable taking the place over and whiping out the planet like theyve done many many times

a good chunk of the time trying to figure out how to stop them when this planet is REALLY against murder war and violence for good reason and even if they WOULD do that its impossible over looks some alone time that leads to megamind and metroman figuring out how to like kill him so when the bad guys show up theyll go "whelp better not fuck with them" and leave but between roxanne and minion they manage to not only stabilize metroman (Roxanne blood transfusions maybe???) but they manage to scare the aliens so bad they tuck tail and leave speading rumors that these are the scariest mfs in space (go minion)

metroman never lets Roxanne live down saving his life

eventually space humans show up to check the place out

megamind loves everything human despite most of the planet thinking theyre primitive and showing it

roxanne is reluctant to meet them at first but then really relates to them?

for a good long while it REALLY seems like megamind and Roxanne are just going to go on space adventures with the humans leaving metroman and minion - who really doesnt like them and also they kinda rub him the wrong way because he's non bipedal and they kinda make fun of him in a 'we totally dont mean anything by it lighten up' sort of way.

they don't go of course but they may have stolen a lot of atar charts n shit and who hasnt wanted to take a road trip through space with 30 odd childern who will need names and personalities and may be chopped down to a slightly more reasonable number by this point?

metroman loves space karaoke and his natural abilites mean he learns languages fast but no he still cant carry a tune

megamind and Roxanne still duke it out on various alien cityscapes

minion usually breaks them out of jail if theyre not to be let out the next day because nothing was actually damaged that didnt belong to them.

one memorable occasion it was metoman in a fight with megamind and they wont say what its about but both look very put out and minion looks smug

it doesn't matter in the end because Roxanne teams up with the childern to propose to them first

apparantly i had a lot more ideas about this then i meant to? i mean its not well thoughout out and despite the drama a good half the fic is just going to be cute relationship building stuff between the four of them

[princessshelly]

I miss you (I loved this, so I thought I’d share it)

“Hey, I know we haven’t seen each other, or even talked to each other in a while. But, I want you to know that I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately. And I want you to know that I miss you. Not regret what happened or I wanna see you again. Just that I miss you.

It’s so strange to think that someone I knew so well, is now a total stranger to me. That some days I go entire days without thinking about you. Most of the time I let myself forget because it’s easier. But then I find something, a photo, a gift, the stupid love letters we used to give each other, and the full weight of whats been lost crashes down on me. Part of me wants to see you again, to hold you again, to kiss you again. All of those feelings become empty thoughts.

When I look back now, remembering love isn’t always as it seems, it’s just so easy to forget. But this isn’t regret, we had our reasons for ending it and they were valid as ever. But back at the start we didn’t need any reasons to fall in love. We just did.

The reasons came out at the end and everything since then has been about reasons. And that’s good, it means that on day I’ll find someone I won’t have to say goodbye to. But apart of me just misses loving someone and having them love you back. That’s all. I guess what I’m saying is, I hope things are good with you. I hope everything is great. I hope that you found a love that's all the things ours couldn’t be.

Just a small part of me hopes you still remember what it was like before all the reasons and that you miss me too.”

[imaginetmnt]

hey!!! january anon here. that was amazing! thank you! and it's ok, you all have lives, i totally understand the breaks!! so, uh, another request (sorry to bug you!!) i was wondering how Case and the turts would act with a crush who has a big performace (in my case, a cheerleading competition, but you can totally keep it vague!!) coming up that they're really excited about (and kinda nervous) and the crush cant stop talking abiut it? thank you!!!!

you’re not buggin’ us at all, bb~gotta keep it vague for the other lovelies to relate to, hope you understand ahhone late request coming up! (so sorry btw ;

-Mod Yaka

Casey would seem to flip a switch all of a sudden. Super Supportive™ mode. Of course, he’d have to try to keep his usual “casual and cool” demeanor to not seem too overexcited or anything, but he is super excited for them. Him having hockey games in public, he would offer some tips about the publicity and how to keep cool under pressure. He’d listen intently to them talking about it and do his best to ease their nerves when they start to get nervous about the performance. He suggested that if they’d like him to, he could go to their performance so that they can see a friendly face in the audience and have someone to look at if they don’t know where to look or just don’t want to make eye contact with the rest of the audience. Anything to ease their nerves, he’d do it.

Leo and Donnie would get secondhand excitement because of how passionate they are about the performance. They’d offer tips like how to practice parts they might be having more trouble with, how to keep their attention where it needs to be, how to keep calm when under pressure or when something goes unplanned, etc. They’d smile a lot when they talked about the performance, and whenever they’d mention how nervous they were feeling, they would offer a pat on the shoulder or a side hug.

Raph would listen very intently, probably more so than the others. He would validate their feelings and would always find a way to soothe their nerves when they suddenly got anxious thinking about the performance. He’d sometimes chuckle whenever they started talking about the upcoming performance so much— it was pretty nice to see them being so passionate about something. He would give them encouragements like “I know you’ll knock ‘em dead” and would even offer to help them practice if they wanted his help. He lowkey stressed (‘highly recommending it’, not like ‘I’m stressing out’) them about practicing, saying that “practice makes perfect. I know, cliche, but it’s true.”

Mikey would be super supportive and excited right along with them! He’d listen to them and ask them what they’d be doing throughout the performance, wanting to envision it since he couldn’t be present. He’d get super smiley whenever they’d demonstrate something they’d be performing, and would bounce at the offer of helping them practice. Whenever they got nervous, he’d sit them down, look at them in the eye, and list off positive things about them with so much emotion in his voice. He really meant every thing he listed off. Much hugs, very hapy, wow.

[bimooncorehoe]

i got tea ☕️ 

alr so i have a crush on my best friend in the entire universe who as previously mentioned, keeps dropping hints that shes into me. however i also have a crush on this guy who i have just recently become really close with. this is where it gets interesting. 

so we met through my cousin, and we started talking through a groupchat. but shortly after that we started talking one on one more and becoming really close. he was dropping hinys that he likee me but i played bu,b until i got him to acrually say the words because im traumatized and i need validation. so when i finally did i told him i liked him back blah blah blah skip the cheesy parts. evntually he ls me he ALSO LIKES MY EXISH BEST FRIEND WHO IS REALLY FUCKING TOXIC??? i feel really weird about that... like i told him all about the shit that she put me through and he still likes her.. and apparently she likes him too? its not like we are dating and he was the ine hwo told me , so he was really open about it and im not mad i just feel really weird abiut it. people suck im gonna gi jump into a pothole. and btw if you heard his worda and how nice hw was youd like him too. unless you aint into guys then good riddance ig