#i forgot stress makes aj a little stupid

[bixels]

Your April-Jacqueline is the best example of a female himbo I've ever seen

(And no I do not mean bimbo because they are different and men can be bimbos too)

Thanks.

[tiny-tigers]

Here is my **Little** journey story about last week ♡

Mostly for @khazadkeit / @saintsnlancs / @lxndonorris who are always interested (thank you guys)

4:45 wake up call , running so late wasting precious time in the shower because make up went all flaky for no reasons, not being able to eat pancakes you bought yourself for proper start of the day. Ending in the dark on the street on your knees trying to find room for more items on your suitcase about to explode while trying to catch a train in 5 minutes. Being too early at Eurostar gate regretting bitterly your pancakes because the proper food you will have all day long will be one biscuit and 2 iced coffee on the go that your mom litteraly throwed at you through the door but you will know later about that.

As Murphy's law was at work the alarm rang when you had to pass the gates, you entered the Eurostar seeing it was already 16 min late and afraid about your connection when a rude french man just throwed slurs at u because u couldn't find your seat in few seconds. #Mate I speak your language so it is twice as rude since you felt it was ok to insult people because they couldn't understand you. Finally sitting on a square with a lovely family but Hugo the child they have is not really going to let u sleep by the sound of his crying. 16 min later they announce the Rotterdam train didn't arrived on time and that we will have to wait for the others passengers... 30min more.... 1h.... 1h30.... your connection was non refundable ticket from trainline and you actually can't replace your ticket with something that isn't a visa- debit card so u couldn't even just change tickets you also need physically the card to sort out your tickets at the machine. Finally arriving at London rushing into the rain to buy new tickets but card is refused 2 times, don't have enough cash money to pay so from 50 if u could have changed them to trainline to 60 in the station... Here we go paying full price for other tickets... 80 pounds with paypal extra charges even or it isn't fun.

Manchester train is also delayed but you meet a brighton girl at the end of the journey who is also reaching for her friends in Manchester that she doesn't know well so you keep faith but you have still not eaten or drink and you feel extremely weak and nauseous - stressed + not even at the good place ...

Yes because you still have to sort it all with the metro all by yourself because your sweet @ledemidouverture was stuck on bus... obviously buying a ticket but impossible for u to find the good platform right away so u think u need a new ticket but happens they are same tickets and you just have bought twice a ticket bye bye 6 pounds 💸

Finally the alright part become and as much as shitty you feel finally finding your way and being with Nat ease your mind. Quick chat with your friend and complimenting cashier on her make up to hopefully make her day a bit better than mine then buying the most expensive coke of the world. Finding @thechaoticrugbyfangirl who had lost her car in carpark - Finally having a banana for first meal of the day. Along the way to that ground who stinks as a festival toilet and who is geolocalised in the middle of nowheretobefoundland -Youhou- you realised you will see $hit without your glasses you thought you had in your pocket but forgot in the car and the pain is increasing drastically in your feet in High heels (yes. A stupid idea I reckon. But I wanted to look Perfect perfect purrfect).

Made it to the ground , found good standings but people at AJ bell were just the absolute pricks I have ever seen and I said it out loud. The audacity to just sit on pitch like it is no big deal or just blocking all the view of people by standing in alley reserved for security or just casually walking by like it is a park and just annoying everyone on the stands when you know the price of a rugby ticket...

Match wise well sorry guys I had made an early first half pact with Nat that I would have JvP if Sale would win the match. It happened. My team was having the worst match ever since last sale match or some bristol defeats. Personally I had a really good time tho. 80 mins of JvP at 2 positions / having Nat phone zoom to follow match has theatre googles very focus on... *match* actions... Great time with my besties more than anything lot of giggles and cuddles. Almost killed 2 people with my scarf... ( Jack included )

More importantly tho I have a little match review , we attempted a lot of good actions we did a lot of basics errors like passes (which shouldn't kept happening at our level) making it impossible to materialize the team efforts but never the players were surrounding to desperation, you can see how freddie burns even injured tried his best to cover the area aggravating his injury for sure. You also couldn't saw all the struggles they had to rearrange the backline and switch positions with all the missing-replaced-injured players.

Harry potter desperate for balls could have done so good, we saw some attempts at the end with Jack who was extremely good with high balls he catched them all. Jack was of course very upset about that ball who just bounced off and on him and led to a try and some mistakes but he was the only one cheering everyone on pitch. It wasn't showed but Jack also hurted himself in the baubles so bad the med was on pitch while he was kneeling and he grabbed himself for several minutes before being able to return position checking heavily if the all package was safe. (First scared for him I was soon not feeling anymore the cold weather from Aj Bell when he pulled his short.) We actually spotted ourselves on the replay of the match and you can see me giggling talking to Nat about that action. Time code 54:44'

Dan kelly has been very exceptional. They were better that is all , sale also highly benefits from George Ford as the puppet master. Jack was so sad at the end Freddie went to hug him and then he received a lot of hugs from sale players at the end Including Raffi Quirke.

It was very cool to see them trying to have a plan and having those pep talk and everyone trying to find a leader or a voice. They did listened to Jack at one point but it was too late and they had so many opposite orders between him and Ben you could see DK losing his true north. They really are such a good team to support tho you can see how they care and were involved, everyone taking the blame. I don't know I just wanted to bubble wrap and burrito wrap all my team in a giant cuddle.

After the game we went towards the changing rooms and saw a glimpse of George Ford. A lot of players were still for a long time inside the hospitality part of the building. We waited in the cold weather coat open for bet and repeating first sentence I would say on loop. I could see nothing but was waiting in so much anticipation. No wonders there is a way obviously in dutch to translate that feeling : Voorpret literally means, ‘pre-fun’ but means more than just the anticipation of something fun, it’s enjoying the anticipation. It’s voorpret! Very appropriate for a van Poortvliet. I tried to recreate the equation and differente images that come to my mind each time I met him but the reality it is that is very unique to me and Will look weird for you if I talk about yellow mattress foam - sun to your skin- crayola pastel - marzipan... But yeah here you have what my brain projects.

At one point he just appeared behind DK and my friends where tapping on my shoulders : "Jack jack is there behind DK , go go .."

To say that it's hard to land is an understatement, I have to start writing quickly for fear of forgetting the smallest crumb of happiness. (I started to write that part on friday and I repeat myself a lot sorrrreeey it was 3 am)

He looked a bit down exiting the building and was executing his selfie/signature duties in a robotic motion. When he saw me it shifted I swear to you it is not my imagination we are 3 to make a testimony. His expression changed drastically in a real happy face. Confirming he recognized me. I couldn't heard from where I was what he said but it was a mix of "you there and oh no you didn't !"

He was genuinely surprised to see me and totally remembered me so as I said he went from duty selfies to my gift bag and you could tell the difference I must proudly admit , he was so happy he straight on hugged me and we went together for an embrace (cheek kiss from me because why not be cheeky eh ) and for once we had a proper conversation it was magical.

I said to him giftbag was poor compensation for the game and wished him happy new year he said the same and thank you.

I was lost for words my mind went blank I could just try to keep him with me as long as I could it was the only feeling that was transitioning in me. He had those glittery wild open eyes on me expecting what I wanted from him. He was looking absolutely radiant as the moon sun and stars. I completely lost it because I started in all shyness and embarassement to play with my hair it shows on some pictures.

I had never seen him that beautiful I have to admit he is always a 10 but there is was more than 11/10 I could just drink his beauty and never been thirsty. When you have an eye for aestheticism as I do ( I have seen more museums that I could count because of my profession) and that you only live for the aesthetic of life oh wow he was framed on my personal mental museum for sure as a masterpiece. I have seen some beauties in my life but not as him. You will think I am all exageration and good for you but I am not. His hair in disarray framing his face with a little strand of hair just sweeping his forehead , poets have wrote anthologies for less than that. Anyways I am being carried in the vision...

Be my guest :

The only thougts that could escape the fences of my mouth where when I asked him randomly if he liked any sort of chocolates I always bring in to him because otherwise I would look a bit stupid bringing him something he doesn't like. So he said he had to think over it while being all curious about what was in the bag saying he will have to try those ones to choose.

He said he really fancied some of the previous one so I got all very surprised and asked him if he did read the previous cards inside of bags then, he said yes I do and looked a bit offended I thought he didn't being a bit like they are mine no ? *nervous breakdown* a bit of a pause he was busy and shouldn't have stopped (He only went to 3 people and it was crowded more than in Leicester also James whitcombe was waiting for him)

but yet he continued, initiated the conversation this time looked really like he didn't wanted to leave me on edge without a kind word and so he asked me about my christmas I couldn't say anything than good when I should have said so many things and asked so many questions I still have for him but no I just said " and yours ? In Norfolk I bet.." and he was like yeah yeah smiling so he had to go I asked for last hug kiss kiss the cheek and omg let me tell you he is the most perfect precious human on earth I am not exagerating. He cares deeply and I will never cease to be a fan of his as a person and a player. My brain damn it I registered so much the slight neck rotation I did to not kiss his neck. I almost killed him with my scarf twice.

When he asked me about my christmas he looked me so intensively in the eyes I could see glittering lights in his pupils. LET ME TELL YOU he is 10000000000× more handsome in real life and up close and his voice his way deeper and hide a bit more of shyness.

After shower he had his long haircut for once in disarray and wow my heart would have cast a spell if it could but it is actually him who just added glitter inside of it.

Would never recommend high heels to the ground but I can't complain I ended in the crook of his neck for second hug and really englufied myself in before just pivoting a bit just to put little departure kissy cheek around ear area. Was so close I could scent his smell and the heat of his skin ♡ He smells Very Nice by the way.

I ended up walking on sunshine or clouds I don't know for sure but I had no more pain and I could walk a thousand miles I even took the shortcut climbed that muddy slope in heels nothing was impossible anymore and that day money time I have lost was worth it because at the end of the day everything was perfect perfect Puuurfect. It is the most beautiful thing on earth to be noticed by your hero having all disapearing around you just for the glimpse of a moment it is just the 2 of you , all around all is blurry and the world slow down.

[sayyestomi]

brokeback mountain ending rewrite.

hello writeblr and people broken-hearted by this movie years later. i took it upon myself to rewrite the ending because i am sick of the kill your gays trope. (the fic on ao3 and the fic itself are below)

the ride from ennis’ house back to alma’s house was quiet minus the occasional small talk. alma jr. fiddled with her fingers, lost in thought. he could tell since she was a spitting image of him in terms of personality. it was a surprise since he wasn’t really around between work and his fishing trips. but the two hung out the most when he was home. alma jr. kinda liked the divorce. it meant she got to spend more time with her favorite parent. she stayed in thought for a little while longer before speaking up.

“hey dad, can i stay with you? it’s been stressful at home with mom and the new baby. been getting stricter with me and jenny too.” she murmured, still fidgeting with her fingers.

ennis sat there and thought for a moment. a small smile started to tug at the corner of his lips but immediately tried to shove it down.

“i’ll have to make a few phone calls but get your stuff packed when you get in the house. i’ll call when everything’s ready.”

“promise?”

“promise. run along kid.”

alma jr. got out of the car and got inside the house. ennis made sure she got inside safely before driving off to his house. on the way home he thought about having alma jr. around all the time again. he was gonna try and make sure to be around a lot more this time. the one thing that would be keeping them apart would be work this time.

once he got home he immediately picked up the phone and called jack. he patiently waited for him to answer the phone, lighting a cigarette in the process. he was hoping it was actually jack and not his wife.

“twist residence, jack speakin’.”

“jackie it’s me, ennis. it’s important.”

“ennis! is everything alright? are you alright?”

“yeah everything’s fine, i’m alright. it’s just, aj said she wants to come live with me. remembered you sayin’ something about gettin’ a place together so i figured i’d take that up now.”

“there’s one i’ve been eyein’ near brokeback mountain. should fit all four of us if the kids share a room.”

“how much?”

“don’t you worry your pretty little head.” jack chuckled, twirling the phone cord as he leaned against the kitchen wall.

“fine fine.” ennis was smiling, and big. jack could hear it through the phone.

“i’ll talk to my boy about it if you’ll talk to aj about it.”

“i promised i’d call her when i finish making arrangements.”

“go do that then. i’ll talk to ya tonight or tomorrow. love you.”

“yeah yeah i will. love you too jackass.” ennis laughed.

“i’ll kick your ass for that one when we see each other.”

“you won’t do shit to me. anyway i gotta call my girl before my head gets ripped off.” ennis hung up and called alma’s house. he was hoping one of his daughters answered. he wouldn’t be able to tolerate his ex wife or her stupid ass husband. unfortunately, alma answered. he could hear the chaos in the background. he was trying to listen for aj in the back, just in case he needed to go get her now.”

“van buren residence this is alma speaking.”

“can you put alma jr. on the phone?”

“ennis? what could you possibly want with her? she just got home.”

“forgot to tell her something.”

“well whatever you say to her you can say to me.”

“will you just put her on the goddamn phone and don't be so damn invasive.”

alma sighed and put the phone on her chest before calling alma jr. to the kitchen. she came running from her room and shooed her mother away, eagerly grabbing the phone.

“so? are you gonna be able to do it?”

“yeah. you’ll have to stay here for a day or two because my friend and his boy are gonna come live with us too. you can take my room and i’ll take the couch for the time being.”

“that works. i just really need to get out of here.”

“your stuff all ready?”

“uh huh. how are you gonna come back here without mom knowing?”

“just say you’re gonna be out for the night, wait outside on the porch, then i’ll come get you.”

“but she’s gonna flip when i’m not gonna be home tomorrow.”

“she’ll be alright. she’s probably bracing for you to get out any day now since you are the oldest.”

“yeah but this is out of the blue and without her knowing.”

“once she notices you’re gone she’ll call me and i’ll tell her everything.”

“are you sure?”

“yes i’m sure. pack a small bag for the next day or two so you don’t have to unpack everything.”

“already on it.”

“that’s my girl. you eaten yet?”

“is it okay if i lie so we can go out for dinner?”

“sure kiddo.”

“then no, i haven’t eaten.”

“get your stuff together then. i’ll be there soon. love you kid.”

“love you too dad.” aj hung up and went back in her room to get her stuff together,

ennis was glad he didn’t start relaxing quite yet. he threw his jacket and boots on, grabbed his keys and went out to his truck. that truck was his pride and joy besides aj and jack. he hopped in and drove over to alma’s house. he got there and motioned for her to hop in. she did so and threw her stuff in the backseat.

“any restaurant in particular you want to go to?”

“nope.” aj shook her head.

ennis just drove to denny’s because it was cheap and hell, he’d never been disappointed by it before. he parked and both of them got out. ennis got a coffee because that is all he drinks when he can. aj doesn’t think she’s seen him drink anything else besides beer. she got a hot chocolate to mimic her dad since she wasn’t a coffee drinker at all. everything was going smoothly. they talked a lot more than the small talk in the car. aj actually vented about what was going on at home in great detail. ennis was starting to get angry but he kept his cool. he only hoped jenny could get out of there soon.

at some point ennis heard a familiar voice but he shook it off and thought his mind was messing with him again whenever he missed jack too much. to his surprise, it actually was jack. he didn’t know how he got there so quick but he wasn’t questioning it. he just stayed quiet as he listened to aj ramble about stuff that was going on in school now. she stopped rambling about her home life because she didn’t wanna make things worse with her parents than they already were.

jack knew ennis was there. he saw his truck in the parking lot. hell, the only reason he even brought bobby was the fact that he’d run into ennis on purpose. he waited for him to come over and talk but he kinda got the hint that he was doing the same thing. he excused himself from the table and stood behind ennis. he hushed aj before putting his hands over his eyes.

“guess who?” he chuckled

“mm, i dunno, who could it possibly be?”

“just take a guess.”

“hmmm, is it my landlord trying to get more money out of me?”

jack caved and moved his hands, sitting next to him. “it’s me!” he giggled, taking ennis’ hat off and ruffling his hair.

“jack twist! how in the hell did you get here so fast?”

“a magician never reveals his secrets. and you must be aj. you’ve gotten so big since i’ve last seen you! i’m your dad’s fishing buddy.”

“yeah i know, you’re the infamous jack twist he talks about whenever we’re at home. it’s nice to finally see you in person.” she giggled

“you talk about me ennis?”

“just with aj. she understands. bring your boy over here so we can all have dinner together.”

“that doesn’t sound like a bad idea. we could catch up and then bobby and aj could get to know each other before the move tomorrow.”

jack brought bobby over and surprisingly him and aj hit it off immediately. ennis and jack were relieved because both of them wanted this for so long and now it was finally happening. the dads caught up with each other even though it was only a few weeks since they last saw each other. things started to look up for everyone. jack and ennis could finally be together without their wives, or now, ex wives. aj could get away from the chaos of her mom’s family, and bobby could focus on himself instead of being pressured to be like his dad.

//

the house was absolutely gorgeous. it was near the city but also close enough to the countryside so ennis and jack could work and get away on the weekends. aj and bobby could go to school and spend their weekends in the city with the mall. both of them had the possibility of getting a job but ennis and jack weren’t going to pressure them since they didn’t want their kids overworking themselves like they were. the house was a worn down blue but it worked, it had steps that both jack and ennis had to get used to due to the height difference. they didn’t mind the minor imperfections because just them being together was already perfect.

the moving process wasn’t that bad between jack, bobby, and ennis’ trucks. the bitch of the move was the actual unpacking process. there were days where everybody just thought about tossing the boxes and just buying new stuff. the ideas were immediately put down considering they didn’t have the money to do that now. over a couple of weeks the boxes were unpacked.

surprisingly dinner was being made at home a lot. they did go out to dinner on the weekends when ennis and jack weren’t out spending the night on brokeback mountain. ennis was surprised jack could cook more than just what he could find on the mountains. usually when he heard from him he’d just gotten back from work in the mountains or something to do with his ex wife’s family. he didn’t complain though because it was absolutely delicious.

everyone’s favorite dinner night was when bobby cooked. nobody knew where he learned it since he was a pretty quiet kid, but damn could he cook. he spent his days after school in bookstores looking at cookbooks and picking out the recipes he knew he had the ingredients for at home. he usually had store duty unless he had an important project to do or he was sick. both of them were rare occasions.

both kids enjoyed school. full time school was a new experience for both of them. they were getting adjusted and made friends. jack was proud of bobby since he didn’t seem like the type to make friends. aj made a lot of friends but she only kept a few of them close. she was mostly the writer type but she also did some drawing and fashion design. ennis thought she could go far if she’d just submit her works to those fancy fashion magazines.

neither of the kids were ones to join the school clubs. bobby was one for fishing with his friend, dylan he’d met at school. ennis and jack knew what was going on between the two but neither of them said a word. they wanted them to figure that out for themselves.

as for jack and ennis they were finally content. no more postcards or waiting for months to see each other. it was nice to see each other every day without having to worry about wives or anyone that would be out to sabotage their relationship. both of them cut down on drinking immensely. they spent their nights in the small kitchen dancing and being close to each other. they shared small kisses and held each other close, just embracing now and hoping they’d never be away from each other again.

//

ennis and jack got married on brokeback mountain in the summer of ‘85. the wedding consisted of jack’s mom walking him down the aisle, aj the flower girl, bobby the ring bearer, and billie, aj’s girlfriend as the priest. it was a beautiful small ceremony. aj had her boombox so her dads could have their first dance on brokeback mountain. the del-mar/twist family lived happily between their house and brokeback mountain. aj and bobby were eventually married off to their respected partners. as for ennis and jack, they grew old together. just as they intended.

[makeusfreefromthisfandom]

just sending some appreciation and good vibes to my people for the new year <3

kisses from me bc you all hold a very special place in my heart 💝

Also veryyy long post ahead I’m sorry I had to include everyone Aakklaksks 😭😭

@ominous-meme 🖤 sabah! You were my very first mutual on here I hope you know that! I can’t even begin on how excited I got when I found out you were a fellow desi girl and I will always appreciate you being there and advising me! <3 I love our street racing au! talks ! I’m glad I have someone to share ideas with <33

@weebsausage 🖤 dude omg!!! 😭😭😭 pls I literally forgot how we became moots I’m so sorry I have a tiny brain 😪 but I think we literally just messaged each other and started talking about free! ANYWAYS TYSM FOR PUTTING ME ON HXH I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU FOR THAT WTF ITS LIKE MY FAV ANIME EVER I HAVE BECOME HXH TRASH AJSJSJBS ❤️❤️ but other than that thank you for being a really great friend to me and I hope this year is nothing but good things for you <33

@dokifluffs 🖤 you were also one of my first moots on here! I honestly could not believe when you followed me back bc ur like my biggest inspo! 😭 you’re so precious omg I always look forward talking to you and get excited when I see a notif from you still! I hope the new year treats you well and brings good things in your life! Lots of love from me bae 🥰❤️

@syrenblubs 🖤 ah my most relatable person LOL. Omg syren ur my little bestie on here and I’m so glad we’re mutuals! I love our natsuya talks and OML THE C****** RAID! ALSJJSJSJSJJS AND DESI PARENTS AKSJJSNS. Just thank you for always interacting with me even tho I SUCK at responding 😭❤️❤️❤️ ilyyysmmmmmm

@linak 🖤 baby omg where do I even begin. Back when I had literally no one to talk to on here, you would be the one NEVER failing to send me a gm/gn message! You always bring a stupid smile to my face 😭 I’m so freaking glad that we are friends I literally cannot put into words!! Ty for always listening to me and letting me open up to you ❤️ love you always.

@croctears 🖤 vixxx ahhh!!! I’m so glad we became mutuals on this shitty app! You’re one of the highlights of my day and I love talking to you sm 😫 especially if it’s about Sou 😏😏 keep being amazing bae! Kisses mwuah mwuah 😽😽

@xakusa 🖤 Marty bby! 🥰 literally the only person I’m going to share my man natsu with 🙄 our conversations are always so RANDOM and out of nowhereeeee lollll but we also just go along with it and I love that! You are an angel and this year better be giving you what you deserve! Lots of love from my end 😽😽😽 kissies from me and natsuya <3

@cafelixie 🖤 I will keep saying this and I will never stop. YOU!!! ARE!!! THE!!! ACTUAL!!! DEFINITION!!! OF!!! PRECIOUS!!!! Need I say more? You’ve made my day countless times and I always look forward to seeing you in my messages/inbox!! Baby I freaking love you I really don’t know what else to say 😭❤️

@skippyskeppy 🖤 I will never forget the first time we interacted my Kisumi enthusiast 😙🤝 I love it sm whenever I see you pop into my inbox with a random hc about semi semi or Kisumi, Albert now too! You are an amazing person. A really amazing person. I hope you know that ❤️

@keeijiakaashi 🖤 I remember seeing your little comments under my posts before we became moots and OMGGGG YOU ARE SO CUTE AISJJSJSJS ALSO RIN ENTHUSIAST??? YES PLEASE!!! Tysm for always interacting with me and making yourself known as the ultimate sweetest person on my blog! Ilyyyyy ❤️❤️❤️

@animatedarchives 🖤 we have your fellow love of the kirishimas to thank for us becoming moots! You’re so cute soph omg 😫 I love how we literally have brainrots of the same characters LIKE MR GOJO LEECH SATORU!!! GET OUT OF MY HEAD OR PAY RENT!!! Ahh you’re irreplaceable soph! Never fail to make me smile like an idiot <33

@natsuya-enthusiast 🖤 how did we not become moots sooner wtf??? Do yk how alone I felt when I had no one to discuss my obsession of natsu with when I first made this blog 😪 AND THEN I REALIZED U WERE ONE OF MY FIRST FOLLOWERS???? ANYWAYS U ARE THE BIG SIS I NEVER HAD ALWAYS PULLING THROUGH W THAT LIFE ADVICE BAHAHAHA ilysm gaby wtf 😭😡😡😡❤️❤️❤️

@moonlitspring 🖤 do you even realize how happy I got when I realized there was another ACTIVE free! blog 😡😡 ajsjjsjs you are such an amazing writer and PERSON sky!!! You’ve been nothing but the sweetest and I hope we get to interact more this year and share our love of free! together <3

@ayumiko 🖤 laís you are such an angel! I absolutely adore both you and your edits/gifs smmm 🥰 you are so kind and I hope 2021 is also <333

@dalggina 🖤 omg??? YGO bae??? 😤😤 I thought literally everyone had forgotten ab it LOL THEN YOU CAME ALONG ❤️❤️ I’m really glad we interacted precious person! And I hope that you have a great year! ALSO YOU BETTER NOT STRESS YOURSELF OUT TOO MUCH FROM WORK OR IM MANIFESTING MR ATEM TO COME GET YOU 😡

@stormikujo 🖤 omg bby! We haven’t talked in awhile! I hope you are doing well! ❤️❤️❤️ ahhh I’m glad I got you into free otherwise we wouldn’t even have interacted 😫 I love talking to you stormi!! And I hope this year brings great things fro you! Lots of love ❤️❤️❤️

@aj-writes-here 🖤 omg hey girl 😼😼 you’re definitely one of the coolest people I’ve talked to on here for sure! Hope you’ve been enjoying hq and free! Your welcome for putting you on that simp train 😼 anyways, ilysm aj!! I really wish the best for you this year! Stay amazing as you always are, ily!! ❤️❤️

@attackonfics 🖤 wtf 😭😭 I don’t deserve you???? You’ve been nothing but the sweetest to me and also responsible for my unhealthy obsession with mr 5’2 angry gremlin >:(( jkjk but seriously, ty for the food 😌. ANYWAYS QUEEN I HOPE YOUVE BEEN TAKING CARE OF YOURSELF AND TREATING YOURSELF AS!!! YOU!!! SHOULD!!! VIRTUAL HUGS 😽😽 💝

@browsing-my-favourite-fandoms 🖤 Shizen! You are too good for this world! 😭 you are such a genuine person, you deserve nothing but happiness ❤️ I really hope that this year does that for you. I’ll keep checking in from time to time! Ilysm! ❤️

@inum4ki 🖤 sera...please...just invest in a personal guide or smth. Asksksknsjs n e wayzzz seeing you in my inbox is always so much fun! Sousuke really deserves more love and you are bringing it to the table hun 😤😤 also you’re a fellow inumaki enthusiast too??? Yes please. You deserve all the happy things in 2021 <3

@sneezefiction 🖤 Gracie!! I love how easy it is to get along with you! You are truly one of the best people I’ve met on this app and I’ll forever be grateful for our friendship <3 you give off such great vibes all the time omg giving you a huge virtual hug and here’s to more interactions this year! 🥰😽😽😽

@velvetfireworks 🖤 bbyyy!! 🥰 everytime we interact even if it’s not a whole lot, you’re always the sweetest what 😭 I love you and you’re writing so much omggg you are so talented!! I get super excited when I see myself get tagged in one of your stuff 😆 I hope we get to interact more in the future! Have a great New Years ❤️❤️❤️

@a8mine 🖤 stop being so mean to me 😡😡 !!!!!! ig ily anyways tho 🙄 you’re energy is honestly unmatched (in a good way!!) and it’s rare to meet people like that! You’re so funny omg and your random hcs and cursed discourses always have me dying 😭😭 you’re so cool hanna ily 😪✌️ <333

@giorvanna 🖤 ahh rena! Your blog and edits are *chefs kiss* I love our random semi brainrot sessions 🥰🥰 I hope we interact more in the future but in the meantime I’m sending you good vibes and lots of virtual hugs bc you deserve them queen ❤️❤️❤️

@seijohlogy 🖤 hey hey jaestar 🤩🤩 you are such a cool person??? Omg I’m so glad that we’re friends and randomly invade each other’s inboxes 😆 you are so kind! This year better be kind to you too or else 😡😡 I hope that after Ms rona decides to move her ass over, you get to go to Disneyland and take!! Me!!! With!! You!! Love you jae bae ❤️❤️

@prettysetterbaby 🖤 hey sexc 🤩🤩 no idea why you followed me but glad you did bc you are such a sweet and chaotic person!! I loveeeeee <333 I hope we get to interact more bc you are just genuinely such a fun person to interact with! Ilyyy

@datecho 🖤 yet another just genuinely sweet person! The world doesn’t deserve you! You’re so fun to interact with and a hottie??? omg shoto and kags better get off their asses rn and come get you or I will 🤩🤩 ly bae! have a great New Years! ❤️❤️

@miyasangel 🖤 we haven’t interacted much yet but ahaha talking about suna and sending my fanart to you is sm fun! Did I tell you that I also have a wip of Atsumu as a street racer? 😏 have a great year Arden bae! Kisses 😽

@aikk00 🖤 hi hi! We don’t interact on a daily or anything but when we do, omg!!! You are the most easy person to get along with 😭 you have such a good heart along with the talent???omg??? You are UNMATCHED babe! I hope this year brings you many more opportunities! Stay amazing love ❤️ ily and your art very much ❤️ I’m also still very embarrassed from fucking up the credits from last time. I’m so sorry bae 😭❤️❤️

@kurooskult 🖤 ma’am you might as well be the definition of bad bitch 😪🤝 ok but besides that, interacting with you is sm fun??? Like we don’t even have to be moots on your blog to feel just as included and loved! You are such a queen for that! Here’s to more mila x kuroo content in 2021 and he better be doing special for you as he should !!

It’s still the 31st here but THANK YOU ALL FOR MAKING MY COUPLE OF MONTHS ON HERE BEARABLE!!! This sounds like a goodbye post Oml-

I love you all very much. I suck at words, but I hope you know that. ❤️

[yessoupy]

okay here is my braindump of my election day experience as an election clerk.

this was my 3rd election to work. the other two i was the presiding judge. this meant that i hired my workers and was responsible for everything and the ultimate judge of the election law for that precinct...... lot of responsibility!!! hated it!!!! so stressful. so when i was hired on friday i asked the presiding judge (pj) if he’d worked an election before and he said he’d worked 6, and that his alternate judge was also experienced, and so i was like yessssssss i’m not even remotely in charge.

so i arrive at about 5:45am, call time at 6am, and just about everyone is already there and kind of...milling about. when the first student clerk arrived she started setting up the ePollbooks (which are a saving grace good GOD) and then the other one showed up and both had worked early voting so they knew what was going on.

anyway, we get going and it’s not an hour in before i’m realizing that the pj and aj are both .... not quite experts. and like ... i really do know more than they do. FUCK i think, grabbing the election manual off the pool table (we were in a tiny little community center) and flipping through to find the answer to the question.

as the day goes on, i get called in to handle ANYTHING that is not an ideal voter or one who just needs to fill out a statement of residency (SOR). curbside voter? skye! oh, the curbside voter requested a mail-in ballot but never got it or -- decides she never even requested it? skye, what do we do? (not only what do we do, but can you handle this difficult person? she’s angry. well no shit she’s angry you’re clueless!!!) an election clerk scanned herself in to vote and then forgot to scan the code into the judge’s booth controller (JBC) so she never got an access code to vote so now it says she voted but she didn’t? skye!! how do we fix this??? (..... “the training i attended on friday said there IS a way but the presiding judge would be trained on it.” and did the pj know what to do? nope. so my response was, “get on the phone on the judge’s hotline.”) more curbside, skye!!! oh wow this guy is wearing a MAGA hat, did no one else notice? (so i nudge my JBC partner to go ask him to take it off bc she’s a nurse and knows how to be firm etc). 

voters coming in not registered and having us go through the scanning and searching for them and they call me over to do my search magic when they can’t find them in the system and i say, “do you happen to remember when you registered to vote?” (because if it was awhile ago and they haven’t voted in a presidential election in awhile -- next questions -- they would have been on suspense for a 4-year period and then dropped off the rolls as inactive which is WHY YOU CHECK TO MAKE SURE YOU’RE STILL REGISTERED) and their answer is, “oh i haven’t registered to vote.” “well okay, i can issue you a provisional ballot but i’ll be honest with you, since you’re not registered to vote it will not be counted.”

the other one that was ‘fun’ (read: kind of heartbreaking) was not being able to find the voter in the ePollbook but calling the registrar and getting their certificate number and STILL note being able to find them and me telling the pj to call the registrar AGAIN and check the “valid as of” date and that call taking forever on hold so I take the pj’s personal cell phone and search the county registration system MYSELF to see that the voter’s registration is valid as of november 15. 

infuriating was being called over to see why the registration wasn’t in the system when the voter had their certificate in their hand and it said “valid as of november 5.” 

so anyway, like every election day i am reminded how stupid people can be (my first curbside blamed democrats for getting rid of straight ticket voting and ... it was definitely the republicans; a voter going through the whole ballot and being pissed off at the end when everything was listed as “not selected” because he hadn’t pressed enter after each selection so i showed him how to do it and he said, “i was doing that!” when he clearly wasn’t) and also how this completely decentralized way of running elections with human beings who are literally temp workers meeting each other for the first time on election day is the BEST security against fraud lmao. so fucking weird.

[letowritings]

The Fantasy

Chapter 12

Nothing delighted me more than to be able to roll over and wrap my arms around Jared. Waking up in his arms was definitely something that I wished to do more often, but we still haven’t discussed what we were yet. Shannon would be moving out soon, and even though I was thrilled he was leaving, I still caught myself thinking about him, which was utterly ridiculous. Still, with him gone, I was hoping that my relationship with Jared would grow stronger.

After rolling around between the sheets, enjoying some private time, free of ringing phones or prying eyes, it was time to get up. Jared leaned back against his pillow, quietly watching me get dressed. My mind kept replaying the events of the night before over and over, and I grinned when my eyes met his. “What?” I inquired with a yawn.

“Nothing.” He was unusually quiet this morning and I was beginning to wonder if maybe he was regretting last night. “Have breakfast with me.”

I smiled and was certain he’d recognize the warm glow of happiness on my face as I looked at him. “Uh, more like brunch. We slept late, remember?”

When I sat on the end of the bed to put my socks and shoes on, he leaned over, sliding his arm around my waist. Pulling me back, I slouched against his warm chest. “Okay then, brunch.” I felt his hot breath on my neck followed by the tender brushing of his perfect lips. “I’ve really missed this.”

“Me too.” He moved in for a kiss and I knew that if I didn’t get up right away, I’d just end up back between the sheets. “I’ll tell you what, you get dressed and I’ll go cook us something.”

I brewed some coffee to go with the french toast I made and nodded at Jared as he came in the kitchen. “Sorry I only have apple juice, if I’d have known you were coming by, I’d have picked up some tea and orange juice.”

“What do you have against apple juice?” He asked like I’d hurt his feelings or something.

I carried my coffee cup to the table and sat down. “Nothing, I just personally prefer orange juice in the morning.”

“It’s fine.” Glancing down at the breakfast I made us, he smiled big. “Goddamn, this looks great! Totally professional and shit. Where did you learn how to do this?” He picked up the fork and took a large bite.

I realized that in the ten years that had passed, Jared and I both changed, grew up a little. “Well, cold pizza in the morning is only good when you’re young. One day you wake up and find out that you’re old. It’s finally happened, I’ve turned into my mother. The thought of ice cold pizza is revolting.”

He cocked his head to the side and frowned. “I’m pretty confident that your mother doesn’t do the things I did to you last night.”

“You’ve got a point there.” We carried on playful, flirty conversation before he inevitably carried my suitcase down to my car and we parted ways. The ride to the airport wasn’t long, but I still hated to go. There was just no way that I was driving back to LA every night from Vegas. Jared promised to come have dinner with me one night, but frankly, I didn’t actually expect him to show up.

After a few days on the job in Vegas, I was starting to get homesick. It’s not like this was an unusual thing, my traveling for work, but I didn’t normally have someone to miss. AJ and I were semi serious, but I was obviously much more invested in the relationship than he was. It was me who was putting in all the effort, so I suppose that’s why going away never bothered me before. I was already falling hard for Jared.

I’d had a very stressful day and was trying to decide what I wanted to eat when Jared text me to let me know he was ten minutes away. Immediately, I responded with my hotel and room number.

The excitement raced through my body when I heard him knock. I could feel my heart starting to pound as I rushed to the door. With a stupid grin, I opened the door and practically leapt into his arms. “Oh my God, am I happy to see you.”

“Bet you thought I forgot.“ The roses almost fell to the ground as I locked my arms tightly around his neck.

“Not forgot… just thought that maybe you were too busy to actually make the trip.” Grinning from ear to ear, I stepped back to let him in. My fingers curled around the bouquet and I held them to my nose. “Thank you.” It touched me that every time I saw him, he was bearing a gift of some sort.

“I told you that I was going to come take you to dinner and even though I have been kind of busy lately, I took a break specifically to come see you.” He brushed the hair from my eyes and gave me a wink.

I leaned in, hugging him again. “That’s so sweet. AJ never did anything like that for me.”

“AJ’s a prick.”

Walking across the room, I stepped into my shoes. “God, I hope you’re hungry because I’m fucking starving! What do you feel like eating?”

With a hand in his pocket, he jiggled a set of keys in the other. “Not sure, but I’m starving too. We can go find something.” He opened the door and waited for me to walk out ahead of him before closing it behind us. Jared always looked laid back, but today it seemed as if he had been in a photo shoot earlier or something. He looked great and I loved this look so much.

I followed him out to the truck and climbed into the passenger seat. I buckled my seat belt and he slipped behind the wheel. We found a fantastic Italian restaurant and luckily they weren’t crowded at all. He requested a table all the way in the back and we had a nice quiet meal without interruption. Jared told me all about the projects that had him so busy lately and I told him about my client. He also told me that Shannon was almost ready to move back into his place. “He’ll be back in his house soon, so when you come back he’ll probably be moving his stuff. Our little threesome has come to an end.”

I smiled, thinking that I would be much more relaxed without Shannon around, peeking through open doors and making suggestive comments. He got me all flustered and nervous when he was around. Fuck, there I was thinking about him again. “You have me all to yourself right now, hint hint.” I nudged his leg playfully.


Raising one eyebrow, he grinned. “Yes, I do, and I plan to take advantage of that. Are you ready to get out of here?”

“Yes, sir.”

He held my hand all the way to the truck, but didn’t utter a single word. We drove back to my hotel in complete silence. I slid the key card and pushed the door open, and didn’t even make it to the chair to drop my purse before he pulled me backward and pushed me against the door. I focused my eyes on the bed. With a gentle finger, he reoriented my eyes with his, holding the intense gaze.

“You know how much it turns me on to hear you call me sir?”

His fast, bold action sparked memories of the other night, which had been so short lived. His thumb brushed over my bottom lip and across my jawline, very gently. The second my arms wrapped around his neck, his strong hands lifted my legs, causing them to wrap around his waist.

Backing away from the door, he walked us over to the bed. Without breaking the kiss, he lowered me down on the bed and hovered over my body, opening the buttons of my blouse. I closed my eyes as his fingers explored the curves of my body. They grazed over my belly to open the delicate material all the way. My excitement grew as he leaned down to caress my sensitive skin with his lips. I loved the way his touch was so gentle while making the demands he did. How the hell did he manage that?

Still hovering over my body, he took his shirt off and started on the rest of my clothing. I watched as he stood and kicked off his shoes before getting back on the bed, only this time, pulling me on top of him. Moving back against the pillow, he laid his head down. I pressed my nearly naked body to his. Leaning down, I struggled with this inner battle. Part of me wanted to let him take control, dominate me, but this other part wanted to do my own thing. The adventurous side of me won out and I dared whisper in his ear. “I want to taste you again.”

Breaking the silence, his phone rang loudly and I rolled my eyes in annoyance. He picked up the device and stared at the screen, just as I pulled his belt open and began to unbutton the harsh material of his pants. “This better be good, I’m a little busy right now.” I reached into the waistband of his underwear, retrieving what I couldn’t wait to get into my mouth. My tongue danced over the smooth, firm tip, proud of myself for proceeding while he took a call. I have no idea what came over me, but when I realized it was Shannon he was talking to, I made sure he struggled to maintain his composure, and sure enough, he rushed to end the call.