#i got my parents to buy it for me and then my sister became obsessed

[theyhavetakenovermylife]

What are your favorite things about the turtles that you like about them individually starting with Leonardo and then Donatello and then Michelangelo and then Raphael

My favorite things about the individual turtles (or things I associate with them)

Warnings: Somewhat emotional, talks of bullying by adults.

All Turtles:

I feel like this is very important to mention first, as it speaks a lot about my love for the turtles in general. All of these reasons are very much personal, and have very little to do with the turtles personalities, and more memories I have with them and other people in my life.

I have been a TMNT fan ever since kindergarten. I was 2 years old when 2003 turtles first came on television, so when I started in kindergarten at 3, they were already pretty established not just for me, but all of the other kids in kindergarten, especially the boys. And that leads us to another important point - I was a tomboy when I was young, and to a certain degree I still am to this day. I hated pink, and would scream and yell if I was put into a dress. But I did enjoy “boy clothes”, and I did ask my mom to only buy me “boy clothes”, so she did. I also played with action figures or played “rough” with the Barbie dolls, and my closest friends were all boys, or girls that somewhat understood my way of playing.

Now, being a tomboy is nowhere special or anything abnormal, but in the kindergarten I was in, the adults not only saw it as abnormal and concerning. I was never bullied by the kids in my kindergarten, but I was by the adults. They sang songs that made me cry, and they tried to force me to play with toys a certain way. At times I even tried to run away from my kindergarten, going so far as to jump the fence and run home. It got so bad that my dad, who at the time worked at the city council, had to step in and threaten them with legal action, just to make them stop singing the song that continuously made me cry.

But throughout all of this, every high and low in kindergarten, I clung onto TMNT. It was how I could play with both boys and girls, and became my first hyper fication. It even led to a description of me that the other kids would use when describing me to the new kinds; “This is (...). She wears boy clothes, hates Barbie dolls and loves Ninja Turtles”.

TL;DR, TMNT became my comfort obsession during bullying from adults in kindergarten, and it has stuck ever since, coming back during my depressive episode in 2023.

Leonardo:

Leo has always been my favorite ninja turtle. My favorite color was and is still blue, and I like to think he had something to do with it. He was the turtle I would dress up as at Fastelavn, and I really looked up to his views on honor and responsibilities. Back then I was the oldest child in the family, and I took my role as big sister very seriously, often seeking to protect my little brother.

I will even go so far as to say that Leonardo was my first fictional crush. I still remember watching 2003 in the living room, and getting somewhat irritated that he wasn’t real. Even more irritated when people had to bring up that none of the turtles were real. Way to kill the vibe for a 3 - 5 year old, lol.

In kindergarten, I would hide the Leonardo figure, or just walk around with it in my pocket. I clung to it, and got really sad when someone wanted to take it, since they were playing with the other turtles. Not long ago my brother dug through our old toys, and found the Leo figure my parents got me when I was young. It is now sitting in a bowl next to a Barbie doll I won at drag bingo, lol.

To this day Leo is still my favorite. I resonate with him and his struggles quite a lot. Each version of him always struck something with me, providing me with some sense of comfort. Maybe it is because he wants to protect, and that made me feel protected? Or he seems very driven by rules and morality, in a way that I do too. If I don’t, I get really anxious, so it’s nice to see someone else do it.

Donatello:

My love for Donatello is relatively new. I’ve always loved him, but for the little version of me, he was often forgotten. He was the last figure I would react for, and was the last turtle who’s name I remembered, often referred to as “the purple one”. Generally, in the kindergarten I went to, it was the fewest who showed interest in Donatello, always fighting over the other turtles.

However, as an adult, I’ve come to admire Donatello much more. It took quite some time before I came to realize the importance of him, and I would like to say that Rise played a big part of that. Up until then, I remembered Donnie as being shown as the “least coolest” (which I know now is very much not true”.

With Rise Donnie being coded with autism, my brother suddenly had a turtle to mirror with. While I had Leonardo in my childhood, my brother now had Donatello in his teenage years, and to be honest, that means a lot to me. To me, Donnie has now become a character that symbolizes late but powerful blooming. My brother is first now finding himself, and he turned 20 a month ago, so when he tells me that Rise Donnie makes him feel represented, and showed him that someone like him could be loved, it really touched me.

MM Donnie is currently the turtle in the keychain I’ve attached to my backpack, and is the turtle that has made my brother interested in TMNT. I sat with my almost 2 year old niece, and she noticed the Donnie on my backpack. She started to play with it, and it very quickly became a great bonding experience. So to me, Donnie is closely tied with personal growth and bonding.

Michelangelo:

I’ve come to realize that I have much more in common with Michelangelo than I first thought I had. First of all, he is the orange turtle, and I’m a natural redhead, so we match. Second of all is ADHD. It wasn’t until I was 21 that I learned I have ADHD, and just before I learned how to tackle it, I was hit with the death of my grandma, and had to quit work due to stress which turned into a pretty bad depression.

Those that have read my Bayverse Children Series, know that I’ve called Mikey’s daughter Sunny and his son Luis, both names that I connect with ideas of the sun. Sunny because it sounds like the sun, and Luis because it makes me think of king Louis the XIV, aka, the sun king. That is because I see Mikey as a very happy guy. Obviously, he is not happy all the time, and when we do experience him being sad or mad, we know that something is very wrong. But he generally has a very upbeat personality that reminds me of the sun, or maybe even just sunlight.

If Leo is the comfort and a personality I can see myself in, and Donnie is personal growth and bonding, then I see Mikey as the light at the end of the tunnel. An friendly and sympathetic person that wants the best for you, and will help you on the road to recovery. That’s at least how I see him and his brothers, as imaginary friends that have wished me the best.

Doesn’t hurt that he is a cat person. Every moment or scene with Mikey talking to or helping a cat, very much reminded me of me and my own cat. Me and my cat was just as close as Mikey and all of his cats are. RIP Mini💔

Raphael:

Leo is my comfort and the turtle I mirror in, Donnie is growth and bonding, Mikey is a helping hand through the darkness, then Raph is personal drive and passion.

In kindergarten, Raphael was my second favorite turtle, but I do remember that he was many of my friends' favorit. During my internship at a different kindergarten, I learned that he was all of the kids' favorit. And honestly, I see why. To me, he is the stereotypical young kid that doesn’t know how to express his emotions in a healthy way, leaving them with a lot of strong emotions that only keeps building and building, until it reaches a boiling point. And I’m pretty sure that a lot of people can see themselves in that.

Like many people we meet in our life, Raph has a really hard exterior, but is truly a really emotional guy on the inside. I think many kids see themselves in his emotional outbursts, and understand the frustration and build up he can feel. But that doesn’t make him less of a good person.

At my internship, I learned that one of the kids from last year that is now in school (I never met him), was actually named Raphael. I’ve told this before, but he was a big TMNT fan and would carry plastic sais to kindergarten. I later learned from the adult working there, that he also had the personality of Raphael, and was in some ways just as “hot tempered”. He had a hard time communicating with the other kids, as his emotions would often get in the way, causing him to lash out due to his frustration. And yup, he did throw one of his fake sais ast one of the kids once. But like the turtle, it didn’t make him any less good. From what I’ve been told, he was very passionate about whatever he did, and was very good at involving other kids in whatever he was playing or doing. He has obviously had a big impact on said kindergarten, as even a year after he left, they are still talking about him. And honestly, I get it. If his anything like the turtle Raphael, he is obviously lovable, even if he could be a bit of a hard nail sometimes.

[lemonisntreal]

IT'S THE BOYYYY, MY [deceased ;-;] BOY-

My heart hurts whenever I write about him I'm gonna cry but he's so perfect to me you have no idea

Ok, so, I have written so much on this man because of how overly complicated I made Buster's entire family situation. But I can't. Share. A single. Crumb. Of. It. And it's killing me. Guys, I'm dying. I'm simply gonna perish if I don't write about him. So. I'm gonna headcanon dump, heehee :> [gonna do this with a bunch of other characters once I get art for them going ~_~] [I look at my drafts and weep-]

TD!Charley:

Age: 47 [deceased] Height: 3' 02" [96cm] Male - He/Him Sexuality: Aroace Build: H A T

The name is a headcanon in itself. Charley. He was never given a real canon name for whatever reason.

It just felt like it fit

Oh boy,

Ok, heavy lore time-

TW: Mentions of religious trauma and [briefly] kidnapping

[there's a fluff tab if you're wanting to skip all that]

So for a quick lore-dump, there was a HUGE war between the different animals [mammals, reptiles, and birds being the most prominent groups] that lasted from 1903-1955, before finally cutting off because a bunch of animals had practically gone extinct

Koalas being one of them

And Charley was born in late 1956, right after the war had ended, so yeah. Generational trauma's real rough-

Plus his hometown [all Koalas btw] was extremely religious and controlling over him, and he wasn't even allowed to buy his own clothes until he started to carve out his own life in Calatonia

The only thing they let him do was play music, usually with the idea that he'd be playing for the church band

[which he never did]

He was set up on arranged dates, made to feel like he was wrong for not wanting a relationship, and ridiculed for his desire to have a different life in the city- along with a lot of other things I probably couldn't fit into this post

He has a sister, Holly Moon, who is 4 years younger than him, who was seen as a golden child because she always listened and did everything their parents asked

[Parents being Darrick and Kara, for more TD lore]

He had a horrible family life before sprinting away at age 18 to Calatonia to hopefully make it big

This is where he met animals who weren't Koalas for the first time

Let me reiterate that- first time

[he'd read about other animals and seen what a few of them looked like in pictures, but never the real thing]

He learned the true meaning behind the words his family always spoke

"Make a family, there aren't many of us left"

Yeah, he was the only Koala in Calatonia for a good minute

Which kinda sent him spiraling-

Imaging you growing up in a small gated community, where you're a human around other humans, and then you leave and find out that there aren't any humans left and the rest of the world has been populated by aliens or something

He was very curious at first, which got him into some trouble

He met Harry after almost getting poached/getting ganged up on and almost kidnapped. Harry saved him, took him to calm down at his restaurant for the night, and the two quickly became friends

Ok, fluff time

Meeting Harry for the first time, the thing he offered Charley was a sandwich, which would start Charley's "give sandwich = I care about you" thing

Like his go-to way of making friends after this encounter would be to meet somewhere for sandwiches

It became a comfort food, and an introduction into other flavors besides the basic food groups + eucalyptus

This little quirk got passed down to Buster

Amazing cook

Like, he invented a couple of the recipes on the menu at Harry's Bar [despite having a diet of mostly eucalyptus, which is poisonous]

Even back in his hometown with his limited ingredients, he was fantastic, but after learning that there were other foods, he got a little obsessed

He has a cookbook he put together [which got passed down to Buster, who cannot cook for the life of him lmao]

Harry tried to get him to go to culinary school or something, but Charley always insisted on loving his little bundle of odd jobs in Calatonia [including the carwash, which was his baby]

After coming to Calatonia, making his home in a shady little apartment complex [which he ABSOLUTELY ADORED], getting a job, and finally getting his first-ever paycheck, he immediately went thrifting

Which is where he got his raggedy hat and patchy coat

And learned what a turtleneck was

He taught Buster the art of thrifting too :D

He dresses like he's homeless by choice [mostly]

[money's always tight]

Back to the odd jobs that he got instead of getting a real job- Charley always hated "luxurious" things if that makes sense. Not only did it remind him of home, but he's just a minimalist in general

If he doesn't need it, he won't take it

Modest guy [opposite to his entire family ~_~]

The hat is kinda a symbol of his independence and freedom in a way, so that's a little sweet

He never takes his hat or coat off really, even in the hot summer days in Calatonia

Harry always has to remind him to drink water [woah, Koala moment]

Oh yeah, Koala stuff-

Harry ends up helping out Charley with the complete lack of Eucalyptus products in Calatonia by ordering it in with his usual imported restaurant food, and then just giving it to him

Harry insists on paying for it all, despite Charley's objections

Charley always gives monstrous tips when eating at Harry's to balance things out

He's actually pretty tall for a Koala

He made good friends with all of the waiters and staff and musicians at Harry's, and was always there for the music nights where Harry'd get someone to play atmospheric stuff on stage

You see this in the first movie

Charley's actually really great on the guitar, and has a very nice voice [I don't have a voice claim yet ;-;;;;;] so he was eventually given the offer to try playing in front of a crowd at Harry's. Which he took

[And Harry made him take money for it, of course]

Had no intention to have kids, but ended up taking in Buster due to family drama and strange circumstances [later explained in Tone Deaf] [also why they have different funky patterns btw! :DDD]

Please, it's so complicated-

He quickly fell in love with the idea of show business after seeing some street performers, and eventually got over his discomfort with doing illegal things [the idea of it being a sin really had him in a chokehold for a while-] and grew into his true personality of "very chill and very shady charlatan" after a few years away from his hometown

Actually, it was his urge to steal a ticket to see a show at the theater that drove him to get over it all

Learned how to pick locks and pockets to scrounge around enough money to get by

Charley and Harry were best friends. Practically brothers

To the point of Harry being called "uncle Harry" by young Buster

Charley was the best man at Harry's wedding to his Panda wife, Claire. Buster was given the honor of being both the flower boy and ring bearer lmao [he pulled it off]

Claire definitely mothered both Charley and Buster quite a bit

Back to Charley living in the apartment complex, he made good friends with an old Lizard who lived next door-

Yeah, Miss Crawley [Irene Crawley]

After Harry realized that Buster was an absolute demon child, Charley tried asking her to babysit instead

She must've had the magic touch or something, because he was perfectly behaved with her

Harry was speechless

Buster was absolutely a problem child, and Charley would frequently get calls from school about him [especially in elementary]

[half of the trouble he got into was due to bullies, but this ain't about him 🤭]

Charley taught Buster how to commit crime, and play guitar

And when he got older, the two would duet together at Harry's

[I'm crying it's so sweet]

Crawley would always bring homemade candies around to give to Buster when she came over to visit with Charley, specifically Turkish Delight

She eventually taught him [with lots of hand-holding] how to make the candy himself. If left alone, he'd just set things on fire and eat the chocolate chips plain though :D

She lost her lover in the war, and even before that, struggled with infertility problems [they were different species- working with the idea of a Gila Monster] so she never had any of the children she had wanted before the war basically ruined her life

She adored that child and never accepted pay

[she was paid by the government anyway since she was a war vet]

All of the money that Charley would slip into her pocket, she'd either secretly give right back, or spend it all on Buster

She was like a mother to him

Still is

She offered to help with the theater after Charley realized that the place didn't just come with staff

Charley and Buster's bond was basically unbreakable

Charley would always stand up to the school system whenever they treated Buster unjustly

[Trust me, there was a lot of prejudice against Koalas and other endangered species, no matter how small or harmless they seemed. People fear what they don't know, and to say Koalas are an oddity would be an understatement-]

[Like even irl, they're Marsupials, sure- but they're so different that they've been given a classification all to themselves called Phascolarctidae. They're so alone in the animal kingdom, it's not even funny. Their closest "relative" is the Wombat, and even then barely]

[Give me another animal that's even remotely similar to Koalas appearance-wise. Their facial structure, the double-thumbs, massive ears, the fact that they can only eat one thing, and it's poisonous [catch me writing Buster poisoning someone with eucalyptus >:D]- yeah, they're super interesting to work with. And of course, I give them hardships for it ~_~]

[Everyone that saw Buster and Charley just immediately knew they were endangered just because of how alien they looked]

["freaks"]

[They just rolled with it]

[Well, Buster was always bothered by it, but Charley was always there to tell him that it should be something to be proud of. Didn't always work all the way]

[I'll talk about Buster later, don't you worry]

[Ok enough with the gushing about Koala facts in brackets-]

Buster would also stand up for Charley during family gatherings [which they eventually just stopped going to entirely] because Charley would just freeze up and not say anything whenever people started fighting with him

✨trauma✨

The two protected each other is my point pretty much

Ok, for a rough timeline:

[1903 - 1955] - Great War [1956] - Charley was born [1960] - Holly was born [1974] - Charley ran away to Calatonia [1980] - Buster was born [1988] - Charley took Buster in [1990] - Harry meets Claire [1994] - Harry and Claire get married [1997] - Theater was sold to Charley and quickly opened [2003] - Charley is killed

It's fucking tragic how he dies

Like, him and Buster were literally in the middle of planning the show when Buster got the call

Late too

He couldn't get to the landline at first because he was busy with set design, and actually saw it a LOT later, which- yeah. Cue horrific amounts of stress as he bikes as fast as he can to the ER

"Where's dad!??" he's in the hospital bucko

Why must I kill all the characters I love-

Charley'd just gone out to get some supplies from like, home depot or something, and then yeah. Dead

Buster could never finish the show, so it sits collecting dust in the attic now

Grief made him unable to write much, which is how he eventually went into debt too

The whole thing with them is absolutely tragic, oh boy-

Can't wait to draw the funeral scene

Ok, so I keep forgetting what's been posted and what's still a draft, so sorry if something just- absolutely jumps out of nowhere here. I think I've mentioned the war before? And Poachers- I hope I at least mentioned Poachers-

Well, if you didn't know before, you do now ''':D

Thanks for reading

[cirilla-fiona-riannon]

Kicho's Main Story Chapter 6 Part 2

These translations are not intended as a replacement for the game. Please support cybird by buying their stories. JP SPOILERS under the cut. I didn't proofread this, so Expect mistakes.

TW! This chapter contains and mentions suicide.

Kicho: "I never existed originally. I was a different person."

Mai: "You never existed?"

I remembered the one thing that bothered me when Sasuke told me all this.

(If there's a historical distortion involved, the change must be happening in a way that he's not aware of.)

(But how?)

Mai: "Um, do you know Nohime? She's the daughter of Dosan Saito."

Kicho: "Of course, I know her. She's my twin sister."

Mai: "She's your sister?"

(Sasuke drew that conclusion because, in History, Nohime doesn't have a twin brother.)

(How did it get so complicated?)

Kicho: "You're probably thinking this isn't the history you know."

Mai: "Yeah. I’m not really familiar with history, so I only heard about it from a friend."

Kicho: "Then you and your friend are not wrong. It's all intentional."

Kicho: "We were born as twins, and then we were made as one."

Kicho: "As ridiculous as it sounds, twins are considered an abomination."

Kicho: "Just having more than one child at once is enough for them to be treated as monsters."

(Monsters?)

------------Flashback------------

Old woman: “It's because of them that this village got attacked. Twins bring nothing but bad luck.”

Old woman: “That’s right. It’s disgusting to see them come out of their mother’s belly all at once.”

Old woman: “How can a beast in human form be normal? I won’t be surprised if someday the village disappears because of them.”

---------Flashback Ends---------

Mai: “Come to think of it, there was someone in the village who said something like that.”

(I wonder how he felt when he heard those words.)

Kicho: “That’s right. Also, it was rare to have a male-female twin.”

Kicho: “What do you think people will do when an abhorrent entity comes out in an even more unacceptable form?”

Kicho: “The answer to that question was the one you saw in that village, too.”

Mai: “I see.”

I nodded and clutched my trembling fingertips as his calm, indifferent tone crushed my heart.

Kicho: “That’s why I lived as that woman. Kicho was also me, and Kicho was also her.”

Kicho: “I was almost killed a few times, so I hid my existence, and it eventually became the truth.”

Mai: “But that doesn’t mean you should be treated like you never existed.”

Kicho: “I don’t want to get killed over some stupid rumor, so I’m grateful my parents made that decision.”

Kicho: “Even though I lived in a small room and had almost no freedom, I didn’t want to lose my life.”

Mai: “Oh no.”

(The facts were different but similar.)

(He was there, but he couldn’t be himself. Yet despite that, he wanted to live.)

I felt like I touched the root of his obsession with life and, at the same time, felt a great deal of emotion at the absurdity surrounding him.

Mai: “That’s just awful.”

I clenched my hand so tightly it hurt.

Kicho: “Why are you so angry?”

Mai: “I’m angry because there’s nothing I can do about your past.”

(This is frustrating.)

Kicho: “No.”

Kicho: “That’s enough, Mai.”

Mai: “............”

He softened his voice for a moment and patted my hand.

Kicho: “The story is not yet over.”

Kicho: “Even though I remained hidden, I eventually had the opportunity to get out.”

Mai: “How? Did the judgmental people leave the castle?”

Kicho: “No, everything remained the same. And even if they disappear, there will always be people who hate us.”

Kicho: “The one who disappeared was my sister.”

Mai: “What?”

Kicho: “My sister went to marry a man, but he died in a battle. Eventually, she followed him and killed herself.”

(His sister took her own life.)

Mai: “Were they that close that she chose to die?”

Kicho: “They certainly had feelings for each other, but who knows?”

Kicho: “They say dead men can’t talk. We can speculate, but only they know the truth.”

Mai: “You’re right.”

Kicho: “But if her motivation was love, then she was a moron.”

He furrowed his eyebrows and smiled wryly as he said this, a hint of sadness in his voice.

Kicho: “Anyway, we lived as the same person, but of course, we couldn’t be.”

Kicho: “I wanted to live, no matter the circumstances.”

Kicho: “From the moment I was born, my life belonged to me. No one else has the right to do anything with it.”

Mai: “True. Even sadness and pain can only be felt by you.”

(You should be able to decide how you want to live and what you want to do.)

(Because at the end of the day, all the responsibility falls on you.)

Mai: “But if she’s dead, why are you still a woman in history?”

Kicho: “Because my father covered up that fact. Even after her death, I was still that woman.”

Kicho: “They pretended that my existence, the time I spent as a substitute, and the death of Nohime had never happened.”

Kicho: “I think it was at that time that the marriage proposal of Nohime was brought up for the sake of peace.”

Mai: “Marriage!?”

Kicho: “Yeah, you know Nobunaga Oda?”

Kicho: “No matter how little you know about history, you probably heard that man’s name at least once.”

Mai: “Yes. Of course, I know him.”

(I can’t say I’ve met him, though.)

Kicho: “The marriage was with Nobunaga, even though Nohime was already gone.”

Kicho: "My father told him what happened, so he took me as a hostage at Azuchi Castle instead."

Kicho: "That man allowed me to act as his vassal and called me Kicho."

(Nobunaga did?)

(Yeah, that's very like him.)

Kicho: "In a Japan that is bound by old values and in constant strife, that man had a whole new way of thinking."

Mai: "Unification, right?"

Kicho: "Yeah, the first day we met face to face, we talked."

Kicho: "He said that his goal is not to dominate Japan but to make Japan a country that can compete with foreign countries."

His eyes shifted from me and turned toward the window, the color of the sunset reflecting in his eyes.

Kicho: "I agreed with his vision, even though we had different goals in mind."

Kicho: "If we can accomplish this, there will come a time when lives won't be so easily thrown away or taken."

Mai: "Kicho."

Kicho: "............"

Kicho: "I wanted to end the turbulent world when I saw the future of Japan."

He paused, and a moment of silence fell between us.

(When I first told him I came from the future, he said that Japan was a hellish world and that continuing the turbulent world was the only way to save everyone.)

He used to want to end the war for the sake of life.

Now he wished for the continuation of the war for the sake of life.

Not only by betraying Lord Nobunaga and the Oda army, but even by his own beliefs in the past.

(Why did he become like this?)

The haze in my heart became words of its own and slipped out of my lips.

Mai: “I want to know more about you.”

Kicho: “Me?”

Mai: “I want to know what you saw and felt because I realized I don’t know anything about you.”

Kicho: “You’re right.”

Kicho: “Besides, it was me who started talking about all this.”

He pulled a small notebook out of his pocket and handed it to me.

Mai: “This is...”

Kicho: “My diary. I wrote down what I saw and heard when I stayed in the future.”

Mai: “Okay. Then, I’ll borrow it.”

(So he’s gonna leave it up to me to decide what to do with it.)

With my fingertips trembling faintly, I opened the page to see an entry in flowing handwriting.

【After the brief, violent thunderstorm passed, I found myself in a strange place.】

Kicho: “Where am I?”

Kicho: “That storm earlier was weird. I thought I was on my way to Honnoji.”

Kicho: “What’s this stone monument?”

Kicho: “Honnoji ruins? Does that mean the temple is gone?”

【I was still in Japan. However, for unknown reasons, the scenery was completely different.】

【A strangely dressed passerby told me that Honnoji was still around, so I decided to head there.】

【On my way there, I felt out of place as I noticed that everyone was dressed strangely.】

【Eventually, I met someone unfamiliar who claimed to be the priest of Honnoji.】

Kicho: “You’re the priest of this temple, right?”

Priest: “Yes. So, what can I do for you?”

Kicho: “I’m here to visit the resident priest. Do you know the man mentioned in this letter?”

Priest: “This man? Are you joking right now?”

Priest: “I know this person for sure, but it has been hundreds of years since he was alive.”

Priest: “Your clothes, and this letter一are you filming a period drama or something?”

Kicho: “.............”

【I find it hard to believe, but apparently, I ended up at a different time.】

【I pretended to have lost my memory and asked him to allow me to stay at the temple as a monk in training.】

【As I spent my days searching for a way to return home, I began to understand this era.】

Girl: “I really want that for my birthday! All the kids in my class have it!”

Father: “Yeah, I know. Then let’s all go shopping together next holiday.”

Girl: “Okay. That’s a promise!”

Kicho: “.............”

【A world without war is truly a peaceful one.】

【Despite the many sacrifices, those peaceful days were certainly meaningful.】

【The countless lives that were lost in the fires of war will surely be rewarded.】

(Kicho...)

As I followed the words, my heart was filled with emotions.

(I'm sure these words are exactly as they were then.)

(What he's looking at is the peaceful country I also know.)

Feeling somewhat nostalgic, I turned the pages again.

I found that he had learned many things and gotten used to living in that world, but一

(Huh?)

(What the? I think the texts on this page are a little shaky.)

【It was the end of summer according to the calendar, but on that hot day, the priest suddenly asked me to visit a house.】

Kicho: "No one's home. I know it's urgent, but I guess I should've made an appointment."

Kicho: "I have no choice but to go back. Hm?"

【As I took a step, I heard something creaking.】

【For some strange reason, I got curious and went straight through the gate.】

Kicho: "Is it coming from here?"

【The sound was coming from inside a shed behind the house. And as I reached out and opened the door一】

Mai: "-----!"

With a rustling sound, I dropped the notebook.

Kicho: "Mai."

Mai: "S-Sorry. But, um..."

Unable to move, Kicho picked up the notebook for me.

He then looked down at the open page and slowly looked at me.

Kicho: "This part, huh?"

Mai: "Is it true what it says there?"

Kicho: "Of course. I only wrote what I saw."

Mai: "I see."

The rest of the text just said there was a boy, but even without the details, I knew what state he was in.

Mai: “Did he take his own life?”

Kicho: “Yes. I was the first one to find him and heard a lot of stories.”

Kicho: “Apparently, the boy stayed home because he was struggling to make some friends at his school.”

Kicho: “They told me that taking one’s life and disregarding the value of their life is common in that world.”

Mai: “Kicho...”

Kicho: “Back here, everyone wants to live, but some starve, and some die in war.”

Kicho: “However, in that world, even the children easily gave up their lives.”

Mai: "............."

Kicho: "I get that every person has their own emotional pains, and those are things we cannot escape, no matter how hard we try."

Kicho: “Still, there shouldn’t be a world in which people take life as an escape from death.”

His voice painfully trembled, as if he was being strangled by the intense resentment and deep sadness in his voice.

Kicho: “My goal of a peaceful world was wrong.”

Kicho: “If people are not tormented by war, they will forget the value of life.”

Kicho: “It’s only in this turbulent world that we can properly fulfill the meaning of life.”

Mai: “That’s not...”

I was about to say something, but I shut my mouth.

(No. It's no use.)

For me, I thought it was this turbulent world that had made life seem insignificant.

However, I can no longer say that for sure.

I found myself struggling and searching for the value of my existence because I took life for granted.

We’ve lived in different worlds with different values.

(I can’t just deny what he felt firsthand.)

He was denied of his existence and scorned by those around him from the time he was born.

Nevertheless, he lived to face his suffering and even tried to protect his life long into the future.

(But in his eyes, future Japan was a world where life was disregarded.)

Mai: “Oh...”

All the mismatched images got connected, and the blurry picture disappeared as I finally realized what the last piece of the puzzle was.

(He’s not talking about values or anything like that.)

(This guy had no other choice.)

After being hurt in the past and the future, there was only one option left.

(To continue the turbulent world.)

He may be wise enough to realize that he's taking a precious life to protect the value of life, but he can no longer escape the contradiction.

No one can stop him anymore.

(I'm sure...)

Mai: "It must be very painful."

Kicho: "Mai."

He glanced up at me as he said this.

His expression looked like a Noh mask, but looking at him more closely, it was different.

His eyes were dark and shadowy, like those of a noble beast, deeply wounded in the heart.

(I want to tell him something, but I feel like anything I say will be wrong.)

(I'm being very speculative right now.)

My lips open, close, and open again.

Then, I finally broke the silence.

Mai: "Please don't decide for everyone to live like that."

Mai: "Including you."

Kicho: ".............."

Kicho: "Myself?"

(I hope my words reached this guy who valued life more than anything else but had to choose to take it away.)

I felt like crying as I sincerely wish him peace, not as a spy, not as a maid, but as me.

(I didn't realize it myself at all.)

(When did my feelings grow this much?)

As I gulped down the feelings that should never be put into words, I felt a burning heat in my throat and chest.

Letter

(Continued from Kicho's journal)

The sound was coming from inside a shed behind the house. As I reached out and opened the door, I found a young boy.

x month x day.

One week has passed since the incident with the boy.

Yesterday, I was asked in detail about the circumstances of what I had witnessed, and on my way home, I heard a startling revelation.

I won't write it down here. Whatever happens, I will never forget it.

I guess I was summoned to this period to correct my own path, full of mistakes.

Those who have been given life should live, no matter what. They should wish to live, and they should struggle.

I need to return to Japan, where the fires of war are still burning.

Previous╏Kicho's POV╏Next

[alyszaen]

your moots as skz members!

This was so difficult Istg but so FUN!!! I quoted a few people, so if you want me to remove the quotes please let me know!!! I made sure it's nothing personal you told me and only shows off your vibe. Thank you for the game, anon!!

Chan - @j-0ne25 - my parent LISTEN. Tan is a Stayblr NATIVE. When we first became moots I got so excited, because "omg a stayblr giant is my MOOT now". Tan isn't a moot I have chatted with all that much, but the few times we have I got clear chris vibes. They clearly care a ton for other people, trying to help when they can. She has a lot of experience in writing and it shows. All in all it's just Leader vibes. I would gladly follow you through the world!

Lino - @yrhome - my bestie Okay I know this is a surprise. And from the way she texts, you would not think that elle is lino. One day we were talking about haunting people as ghosts (i don't even remember how that started) and elle did not HESITATE to say this: "I'LL HAUNT HYUNJIN FIRST JUST BECAUSE THAT MF WOULD GET SCARED SO EASY" Do you need any more proof????? This bitch is lino. Aint no way ANY other member would say this. Like leave poor hyunne alone mans is AFRAID for his life. I just know if elle realistically were to ever have hyunjin visit her, she would buy an airfryer just to scare him. She is a fucking menace.

Changbin - @strayingawayy - my husband Welcome to the SHO SHO SHO. Lol I'm so funny fr fr Nah but sho is so changbin coded. Like out of all the members, changbin is the most likely to be married to multiple people (felix and hyunjin). And sho, han and I are married. Sho is my husband. My wife. My bestie waifu bro. (lets be honest han would hate us). Nah but the messages scream changbin, as does changbin himself. If sho and I were in a room together we would be L O U D LOUD. If changbin was there, too, it would be over. Chan would hate us. He really would. IDK how else to explain it other than loud. And I don't mean vocally. I mean that too, probs. But just the vibe.

Hyunjin - @boydepartment - my sister Jay is 100% Hyunjin. She not only has his energy level, but also his drama. If Hyunne and JJ ever met, I fear for the world (and whoever is in the same room when they do) because they would probably just spill coffee everywhere. Hyunjin would GAG at what she does with her frozen fruits, but he'd then try it in silence the next day - realizing it's lowkey intelligent. But it's not only the drama, but the sensitivity. My sister is someone who can read the room well, and even if she doesn't particularly like someone, she still shows empathy for them. Also ARTISTS! Jinnie would be OBSESSED with Jays artstyle, honestly.

Han - @stealanity - my me I hope you feel honored that you get MY han spot smh Jokes aside. Matty is so Han. Like okay, I don't even know how to explain it, so I'll just show you guys some quotes. "AJFISJEJE IM SORRY" "YES DONT WORRY i screamed a lot" "HEY OMG???" Like look at these. These are so real. Like same honestly. Actually the more I re-read our dms I'm convinced that Han would be afraid of us lowkey LMAOOOOOO Nah but seriously. Matty can be just as energetic as han. Screaming at me in caps, getting just as excited about things. But she has a way of turning it "professh"? fast. Without matty i wouldn't have gone to music bank. Like ????? I owe her my life basically???

Felix - @gimmeurtmi - my sunshine The second I found out she were a spidey stan, the excitement she showed was IMMENSE. I could feel it through the screen! she is such a lovely person. Lilly is incredibly kind. Whenever we text I feel so warm and comfortable. I just KNOW she has a sunshine smile like felix does. All I want from Lilly is a hug. Like gimme. I know it would be the best of all hugs. Lilly knows the memes. Lilly makes the memes. Lilly would totally have recorded that tiktok. You know the one. The one where felix put his whole felussy into it. Like I know she would have recorded it. She probably would have held the camera for felix. I just see it.

Seungmin - @lino-jagiyaa - my comfort Rin may not believe this themselves, but she has a calmness that I haven't seen anywhere. When we first messaged she matched the vibe immediately, without it feeling forced. They were understanding, relatable but still real and themselves. The way she messages is truly gen-z, but not too much? It's like the way we all know that Seungmin knows how to use his phone like a pro, but he will act all adult about it, like he just LEARNED it and didn't have it all his life. Like bro. But anyways. If Seungmin and Rin were to sit in a room together, it would be the most polite room ever. There would be a couple of conversations, but then both would ask someone else a question and just listen to them, content.

Jeongin - @bbyquokka - my discord emote supplier Okay I know this one is unexpected. Nemu is very internet. Like the way she texts shouts "hey ive known this all my life". Now I know this could go for most of the members, BUT the vibe I get is incredibly innie. She is sweet, kind, calm, but I know she gets excited about things that she cares about. Also her emote game is almost as good as mine so I fear for my status as discord emote queen.

[these-detestable-hands]

Worst impulsive decision I've ever made was to buy 1 volume of a manga 2 years ago. There's a town an hour from our house that has a comic book store, so my parents sometimes brought my sister and I there as a treat. Usually we'd just get comic books but this time, we decided to get manga instead. I got the first volume of two different mangas, 'the girl from the other side' (completely alright, good, normal decision) and 'the alchemist who survived and now dreams of a quiet city life' (bad, horrible decision). Mouthful, isn't it? The premise is that there was a horrible stampede of monsters that leveled a city. The main character, Mariella, happened to be collecting plants outside the city wall when it happened and rather than dying, she fell down a magic well and survived. I think that's what happened. Anyway, when she wakes up 100 years later, the city is completely different. She decides to make the best of her situation and set up a new potion shop, since she used to be an apprentice to a potionseller before the city was leveled. Perfectly good and normal premise, right? On that, you and I agree. Unfortunately, I have gathered that this thing was a light novel, then became a manga?? And it's super obscure, so it's extremely difficult to find info for. When we went to the manga store in fall of 2021, they had the first six volumes of it but my stupid ass only got one and the store hasn't had more volumes since. Older brother also wanted to buy me some volumes for Christmas and got 1 and 2 because he didn't know I had the first one. He said it was a nightmare to buy, he had to get them individually because it's just super obscure and he kept getting confused with the light novel?? Cherry ontop is that after reading the first volume, I became deeply obsessed with these two characters, Sieg and Malroux, and I can't just look up fanart without getting spoilers. Absolutely nightmarish manga to enjoy.

[fantastickkay]

Album Review of the Week: Saturday Morning Cartoons (1995) ☆☆☆☆☆

The first CD I can remember being present in our house was 1995's Saturday Morning Cartoons. I was always so fascinated, and a little scared, by the artwork. The booklet is so detailed as well, showing all of the bands involved. I do wonder how my parents decided to buy this for their 3 and 1 year old children! The cover is already quite interesting and the list of bands isn't quite for that demographic. Regardless, I am happy they did buy it as it has been a staple in my collection for over 25 years. During the past few years, I've had to re-purchase so many CDs that I used to have because they became garage sale casualties over the years but not this one! I have kept an iron grip on this disc.

What makes this album so great is the classic cartoons songs from shows that date back to the 60s get a modern twist from the current music trends. I don't delve too much into alternative 90s in general, but this album seems like a great snapshot into a moment in time through the lens of children's television which makes it more accessible to a larger audience - namely my parents and their very young children!

All of these songs have reached legendary status in my memory by now. Opening with Liz Phair & Material Issue, we have The Tra La La Song (One Banana, Two Banana). This song is very fun, energetic and the lyrics go so quickly that Liz Phair actually has to enunciate! This makes her much more enjoyable to listen to in my opinion. I love her voice, but her vocal style can get grating for me.

Go Speed Racer Go by Sponge is a little flat compared to other offerings present, but I do appreciate the husky vocals and it has a great rock feel in general and of course it is just a fun classic song.

Sugar Sugar by Mary Lou Lord & Semisonic brings a new attitude to the classic song. While maintaining its bubblegum pop skeleton, there is still the grinding guitar in the back while the vocal is softer than the original creating a fun, new dynamic.

I'm sure the reason this CD got purchased was this next track - due to my sister's incessant obsession with the show at this time! Scooby-Doo by Matthew Sweet stays true to the original, just adding some mid-90s guitar into the mix as well as a solo.

Juliana Hatfield and Tanya Donelly present a version of Josie & the Pussycats which again seems to stay pretty true to the original, even including an organ/synthesizer(?) solo which was very common in the 60s and 70s. Even so, it is quite enjoyable to listen to!

The Bugaloos by Collective Soul preserves the 70s sound as well with some classic alt 90s vocal styling.

I'm not too familiar with the original theme song but, Underdog by the Butthole Surfers is a fun rock-driven track! This one seems to bridge the gap really well between the classic and modern twist.

Gigantor by Helmet is one of the classic tracks that I remember very well. Again, I'm not familiar with the original, but I do love this version! The rhythm guitar is completely insane, the tempo on everything is really fast and engaging.

Probably the most famous band featured, Ramones, do a version of Spider Man. This one always confused me since Ramones were big in the 70s so I thought this may be an old one they snuck in there but no! It is indeed recorded new for this disc. They lend their iconic vocals and driving guitar riffs making this a very enjoyable cover!

Jonny Quest / Stop That Pigeon by Reverend Horton Heat was one of our favorites growing up. The intro is long, but the chaos that ensues is worth the wait! It is basically spoken word and chanting silliness to be sure to stop the pigeon!

Frente! offers a Flinstones track, Open Up and Let the Sun Shine In. This is probably the most children's-music sounding song and was another favorite of ours growing up. It is bright, shiny and encouraging! The vocals are soft and soprano, making it quite attractive to young ears.

Eep Opp Ork Ah-Ah (Means I Love You) by Violent Femmes and from the Jetsons is definitely the topmost favorite track! Repetitive, silly words that increase in tempo until it reaches the most unhinged levels - what more can a kid want! It also features some really nice guitar moments that make the whole thing worth listening to.

Fat Albert Theme by Dig definitely showcases the alt 90s of it all! Funky, fuzzy guitars and a really cool beat and rhythm guitar make this a very fun track.

I'm Popeye the Sailor Man by face to face is another good one that feels more 90s than 70s. It's also quite similar to the last track, same kind of guitar situation.

Our patience must have run out for this 19-track CD by now because the rest are much less familiar to me as an adult!

Out of these, Hong Kong Phooey and Happy, Happy, Joy, Joy stick out the most and standout tracks!

[jinniebit]

Well professional dancer or not, i hope you can keep enjoying dancing for a long time!! ^^ and yeah i believe that can be a very stressful job haha

Okay i will let you know how the movie goes, i literally have no expectations for it lmao, i seriously dont remember anything about the first movie.

Im such a multi mess i even forgot to mention that verivery, a.c.e and onf are also my ults? 😭😭 THIS is exactly how i keep up with my groups, sometimes i even forget they exist💀 i got really into xdinary heroes' music recently, so i might look into getting into them in the near future🤕 also forgetting onf is especially funny since after skz they are my 2nd group for most albums owned dhdkssj. Do you own any albums? And if so, what's your favorite part of buying/collecting them?

OH MANN top 3?😭 i would say right now it's verivery, kingdom and cravity, but honestly my top 3 always rotates based on who is having a comeback at the time haha. (also woodz and alexa💍🧎🏻‍♀️ the soloists of my bi heart). I think i've been into kpop for at least 8 years at this point?🤔 kinda crazy, kinda sounds like i need help djdsksk, at this point 85% of my music library is only kpop. what about you, how long have you been into kpop? - 🎄 santa anon

yeah I hope for that too! next year I’m planning on taking more dance classes too so lets see how that goes ^^

I heard that they are doing 15min breaks in some places since the movie its 3h long haha good luck!

I have 3 albuns Teen Age (svt), Oddinary and Maxident (skz) and I also have Svt’s Diamond’s Edge dvd! I’ll probably get more albums in the future but idk yet… I like collecting them but where I live they are usually really expensive… if money wasn’t a problem I would probably have many many more hahaha when I started to get into kpop it was 100% my parents money and they wouldn’t spend with that jdhsh but now I like to treat myself from time to time ^^

I started to get into kpop in 2015?2016? I don’t remember exactly but its been a long time kdhsnd it’s not just a phase mom… its not just a phase kshdmshd I was watching a video of people reacting to kpop because my sister showed to me and Dope by Bts was one of the videos and I really liked the song so I added to my playlist.. but never searched abt kpop again.. until one day when my best friend at the time was listening to Exo and she showed me since I told her I knew what kpop were and then I got obsessed… Exo has became my obsession until later in 2016 when I discovered Seventeen and became a carat ult for the past 5/6 years and now I’m here being a stay ult hahahaha

[blessthisfood]

Pasta Pasta Pasta

For four consecutive years on someone's birthday, I had dinner at Scalini’s Italian Restaurant. One of my friends discovered that the individual celebrating their birth got to eat for free. When you work two jobs to obtain a livable wage, free is one of your favorite words.  So, in May, June, August, October, November and December, I had a nice Italian dinner. It was only free for me in December, but we all pitched in to pay the collective bill.

If asked, I would say Italian is one of my favorite food genres. The sauces and the various types of pasta, you can make a large meal that lasts for a week or months if frozen. But I do not have any childhood memories of Italian in my home. What I thought was spaghetti in my younger years, is quite different dish than what I came to love later in life.

My mother was a single parent for about seven years and in that time, I never questioned our spaghetti dinner. There was no garlic bread, no salad, no parmesan cheese or cracked black pepper. Our dinners consisted of ground beef, green peppers and Chef Boyardee canned spaghetti. As an adult, canned pasta of any sort will render a gag and an upturned nose. But as a child it was the most flavorful and nourishing dinners that I can recall. So, when I finally encountered “real spaghetti” my life changed, and Italian food became one of my favorites.

I did not go lightly into my Italian obsession, I made sure I tried all the pastas with all the sauces. From Angel Hair to Ziti, Arrabiata to Vodka Sauce, I dove in headfirst when it came to Italian food.  I developed a love for everything tomato sauce and basil. Fresh mozzarella became my go to snack. The garlic and butter combination crept its way into all my cooking. I started buying prosciutto, sopressata and capicola from the deli counter. Tony Soprano might have pushed me over the edge also. Now all my go to meals just happen to derive from something Italian.

Some days I think about making a pot of my Mom’s spaghetti for shits and giggles. I think the nostalgia of that time with my mom and sister makes me want to taste it once more. But no one, not even small children really enjoy Chef Boyardee. Those commercials lied, that stuff tastes dreadful. I will stick to making large pans of Baked Ziti and Spinach Lasagna for my friends.

[nonokoko13]

Child!reader being adopted by spy x family characters Pt. 2

As I said in the previous part, these adoption headcanons are really specific, including your hypothetical pronouns and name; these two are extra so you can imagine yourself with your name and desired gender. You can ask for less specific headcanons if you want too. Part 1 here

Enjoy!

Sylvia Sherwood

How you met

She carries the responsibility of WISE, she needs to be committed to it. More than ever now that the peace was threatened every day by those who wanted war to arise again

She missed her family, but she overcame it. Just like the HQ she had to be impenetrable

At least, that's what she thought

Because right in front of her there was the question which answers she wanted to hear. A kid.

It would be normal to see one if she wasn't at the HQ

It didn't help no one knew there was a kid there until you spoke up

The camera system didn't record you and there wasn't any entrance to the agency that had been forced. You weren't any employee's kid either

After scolding them and order to search your parents she met you again

"Hello little one. May I ask you how did you get in here?"

You smiled, seeming to have been waiting her to ask

"Because I like to play and explore! And I'm really good at hide and seek"

Sylvia raised an eyebrow. No matter how well someone was good at hiding there was no way you could break into the HQ; it sounded surrealistic

"But how did you find this place?"

"Because it was easy to find"

"Don't you think you could end bad breaking into unknown places?"

"If I don't know what isthis place how I'd know that?"

Fair enough

That conversation wasn't going anywhere, yet she was angrier with the security staff than you. You didn't look worried though

You gave her an idea

"Do you want to play with me?"

Both entered in the nearest police station, she talked with the officers before telling you to count until 1000 while she was going to hide. You started the count facing a wall

She felt bad, but there were some traffickers she had to catch before they made the exchange

She was following their car; everything fine until she believed to see a small hand greeting her from the car's trunk

She returned to the police station to find out that moments later of her departure you disappeared without anyone realizing. She went to the point where the delivery would be made

Outside the abandoned warehouse there was no signal that you were there until she saw you getting out from under the car on the other side

Something caused a shooting that would make the police come and caught her at any moment. The bands kept shooting at each other while you were behind a transport container

"What were you thinking?! I told you to stay with the police!"

"I'm sorry, I counted until I know, then I saw you following the car, so I followed too. But before they caught me I hid in there...I'm sorry..." You pulled out a walkie-talkie

"I got two from the police station. I left one in there so the others thought the guys of that car were betraying them, it should have worked to scape with no bad guys seeing us"

She was impressed. However, there was no time to ask where you learn that from

Analyzing the situation the principal scape was blocked, fortunately they hadn't noticed you yet so–

You pulled her shirt, pointing somewhere else

"Let's get out"

General headcanons

Sylvia was still surprised that your plan of exiting through a rear window she hadn't seen and walk away without hurry could work

She stopped walking to watch you smash the walkie-talkie and take out some matches to burn it

"Now they can't find footprints!"

The police may not get answers about it but she had many questions for you

She lied to you about the HQ, after the shooting her lie was on the floor. Thenceforth Sylvia's not able to tell if you were playing along and keeping her secret or you have no idea what's all about

You thought her name was Handler. When you knew she was called Sylvia Sherwood you pointed your hoody logo and say "S of Super, you're superman–Superwoman!"

That's how she begun to be mistaken with an endearing mother and her son. She was superwoman and you "kid", because you said that's how you were called, along with child, shrimp, demon...

"That's unacceptable". She handed you lists of names to choose, unfortunately no one convinced you

It wasn't until you two went to a jewelry store that you found the name

The casual way you break in HQ when you want still frustrates her, how do you do it?? You don't see big deal though

Fullmetal lady didn't remember how tough was motherhood

Anyone would freak out if they found out about spies. Yet there you are, admiring flying guys in underpants

Sylvia asked you about your family, but you always tell the same: you lived with dad until he left you with a woman that he said was your mom

The Handler found out your father is a repeat offender, currently on a maximum security prison in another country. Both him and the woman without offspring legally

"Please, don't tell me one of his criminal records is jailbreaking"

The informant doubted "Actually, that's the main one"

"..."

The Forgers

Scenario where it's up to both of them to adopt you. To keep Loid's mental sanity safe it will be independent of the timeline where Yor has a kid on her own, feel free to imagine both kids being Anya's siblings at the same time. You can ask me to include that idea if I write more about this

How you met

As I said before Twilight wouldn't adopt anyone due his job, only one kid for Operation Strix and that was Anya. For now Yor didn't want more kids, she loves Anya and that's enough for them

Not for Anya. She wanted a little sibling

All started talking with Becky when Damian mentioned his brother. Back at home she brought the topic and neither Pa or Ma were giving her an answer of where babies come from

That's when she begun to feel like being a sister. Any plan helped her to convince her parents though

Anya remembered something Mr Henderson told them. "If you want something, take it into your own hands"

And she took it too seriously

Next day Anya and Bond disappeared, she was in the dogs park with Yor

While Mrs Forger panicked Anya had returned to the place she met Twilight

As the time passed the Forgers worried more. When they found Anya and Bond at their building's door they felt relieved

Your presence didn't make things better

They asked Anya where she had been and where did you come from. She said she adopted you

Of course Anya wasn't going to say she broke into an orphanage and took you

Loid's scolding made you cry

"Anya, we aren't adopting–"

"If she's not my sister I won't go to school ever again!!"

"Just for a trial period" that's what Loid hoped

General headcanons

Loid thought babies were easy because it's unnecessary (more impossible) communication with a living being that can't talk; after all babies only have basic needs. He was wrong

It would be easier if you could talk. Why are you crying? You have eaten! Are you sad? Cold? You dislike him?

Yor is not better either. Because her parents died when Yuri was a kid Yor didn't have experience with changing diapers, or anything related with babies

She was more scared than Loid to the point she didn't want to hold you. She broke Yuri's ribs with a hug when he was a toddler, what if she kills you with few contact?

In less than 24 hours you already had a crib and all kinds of things a baby would need. However, having three bedrooms and parents sleeping in separate rooms meant all your things ended in Anya's room

You cried at night until they discovered you calmed down when Anya let you a plushie to hug

She can't wait for the day pa and ma share bed to take back her bedroom

The second night Anya had an idea

Ma is scared of being your mom, solution? Leave you in her bed while Yor is asleep imagining that would work

Thanks God Yor doesn't move much when sleeping. On the other hand Yor is a light sleeper due not being used to sleep with someone so she woke up minutes later

She almost jump out of the bed, realizing that would make you cry made her contain. You groaned, did she wake you up? Yor wasn't sure of holding you, instead she laid down again and approached you to her chest

Seeing you so peaceful by her side melted her, thinking about it you looked a bit like her and Loid.. She blushed at the embarrassing thought

Bold of them to not imagine that's why Anya chose you

In the morning Loid discovered what happened and had a little words with Anya during breakfast before she went to school

Yor went to work and he decided to take a day off from his work to spend the morning with you. The Handler said the first days you should see them to recognize faces

Walks with Bond, buying toys, trying to teach you sign language...Normal stuff

Loid is glad you don't do anything but sleep and eat, except your obsession with munching. When you first kissed Yor he found it normal until you munched her cheek and now you do that to everyone; probably you're teething

Yor found it really cute, but you shouldn't go kissing and chewing cheeks. Anya thinks is funny just don't try to chew her hair again please

Another problem came with names. Loid was going through a list of 850 names in alphabetical order, meanings included; Yor didn't take it to the extreme

"Hum, what about Rose? I think it's a cute name, I mean it's both decision and I'm not good with names Loid–"

Welcome to the family Rose

A spy, an assassin, a telepath and... Well, a baby. Seems like a good mix

Yor Briar

As we know Twilight only would adopt for Operation Strix's sake. Yor became mother by marrying Loid, but what if she had already a kid before being Mrs Forger?

Inspired by this post of @say-seira

How you met

Long ago before Twilight adopted the identity of Loid Forger, the Briars moved to a flat in Berlint

While the eldest sibling had recently become an adult Yuri was only a kid, Yor decided to move to the city so he had nearer his school. It was possible due her proper salary as Thorn Princess

This change would make her job easier too. She had a new client which death could pay Yuri's entrance to a good university

There was a politician who negotiated with terrorists, helping them to get into Ostania and providing them with weapons in exchange to gain good propaganda abroad and getting rid of competition

Knowing this was enough to make Yor's blood boil. He deserved to die, she was sure of it

Struggling with the security around him, Yor finally killed the target without leaving trace

The only inconvenience was a bad injury made by a bullet that she received. After removing the bullet the wound got worse

She went to the hospital to avoid an infection. In the waiting room she met a kind lady, Yor swore that she had seen her before

The woman was scared, but Yor reassured her she will wait her

While Yor was attended the girl was taken to another room. As she promised, Yor waited in the hall after her wound was treated; with a buttoned medical gown on because she didn't want to attract more attention due the bandaged wound in sight

Time passed and many people enter and exit from the room, but she didn't. A nurse carrying something mistook her for one of the staff and scolded her for standing there

"Here, take the baby to the nursery"

"Me? But— wait! What about the woman? Is she okay?"

From afar she heard the answer, but before Yor could explain the error the woman had left. She was shocked, how? She seemed fine

Against her will the dark-haired looked at the lump she was holding: rosy cheeks babbling in dreams, you were in peace

Her shock grew when she saw you shared the username that the man she killed had. That's why the woman was familiar: she was the politician's daughter

Yor searched someone who hand the baby when she recognized the doctor that guided the woman to the room, he was talking with a masked nurse

The fact they went to a private place and maintained their voices low made her suspect

"Did you take care of the mother?" the nurse asked

"Yes, they got ahead of us with her father but I think they will pay us anyway. When they found it was a medical negligence we'll be far from here"

Yor understood they were assassins as well, probably paid by a rival. Luckily they hadn't seen her yet

"Heh, do you they will pay more if we got rid of the baby?"

Yor left the hospital with you, unsure of what to do. Did you have more relatives? The widowed politician didn't have more kids, and your mother came alone. What if they wanted to kill the rest of the family?

A small hand grabbed hers, and every fear disappeared. Looking at each other, she knew you were safer with her. Perhaps it was only guilt or sympathy, but she would try

General headcanons

The moment Yuri saw Yor holding you was in disbelief. Yor said she found you in the streets and he believed it

At first he tried to convince her sister to leave you in a orphanage but once scolding was enough to cease

Still disliking you for the first months. It took some time until he saw you like one of his family

Yuri helped, although they had a rough time because you refused to eat Yor's purees. Your endurance might grew up to make you the only person who can eat her food without bleeding but it doesn't mean you like its flavor

She viewed you as a sibling until you were two, being called mom made Yor too happy to correct you. Yuri was just Yuri, you never feel like using formalities with him or addressing "Uncle" everytime you talked

Yor decided to let your belongings, it was better that way. When you were older, and only if you wanted, she would tell you the truth

She's bad with names, Rose was the only name she could think of but you're a boy. Yor's parents loved that Yuri and her had matching names, therefore you would be the sweet addition to it

The only name I could think of is Yuu because it's gender neutral and means "you" sorry

During the first year of your life she didn't try to hide the blood of her clothes from you. Yuri never suspected either and you wouldn't remember it when you grow up

Your lack of childhood amnesia was something she didn't have in count. Not that she knows you know anyway

Yor has been training you since you were able to walk, if she wasn't there when you needed at least you would be ready to defend yourself. Proud to say you're her strong boy

That said, if the assassins that tried to killed you found were you lived it's something you ignore. Being the protective mother Yor is they could be dead by now

Six years later, it was still Yor and you against the world, with Yuri being the only paternal figure you had. Before one day she met a man and everything changed

She said he will help her by accompanying her to a party so Yuri stopped worrying about her. She said it would be one night, and the next morning you woke up with Yor waiting to talk with you

In part she accepted because of you; you passed the Eden exam before knowing you needed a dad for it. That requisite seemed stupid for you, as you reassured her you could go to any other school; now you would be accepted into the best school!

You agreed and started packing. What else you could do? The decision was made before you were asked anyway, and you didn't want to argue with your mom because she was doing it for your future too

Of course it affected you. No matter how nice they were it was a huge change; in one day you had to move to a new place which didn't feel like home and live with strangers who you'll have to share mom with isn't easy

Anya was nervous too, but for different reasons. She was so excited to meet her soon-to-be sibling! For her, who was an orphan last week, having a pa, a ma and a friend to play with was great

Her expectations went down when she read your mind. You didn't think bad of them, but excited wasn't the word to describe your emotional state either

Loid may not be good at understanding children, but it was clear for him you wasn't comfortable. For him would be weirder if you didn't seem affected at all

On the contrary, Yor seemed cool with all of this to you. Even without any idea of how to be a wife or mother for Anya she enjoyed her time as Forger, which confused you a bit

Yor is happier, not only because she didn't have to worry about the SSS or Yuri anymore. They make her happier, it's just matter of time she could fall for Loid and have a baby that was her own, real kid

Being sure Yor loves you and your new family want you to feel welcomed doesn't make disappear the feelings you carry with. Still, if mom is happy you prefer to keep it to yourself and try to maker her smile too

If it wasn't because Yuri hates the idea of her sister hiding her marriage for a year and sympathized your situation he would have laughed at the irony when you told him during your uncle-nephew walk the next day of his meeting with "Loiloi"

He doesn't know they got married before you attended school so he assumed you had been holding it for a long time. He passed his fingers through your hair

"I understand it's difficult, but I'll be for you whenever you need me"

+ Honorable mention to compensate you for the mild ansgt without warning

Daybreak

We don't know much about him but I included this dork for fun

Thinking about "Daybreak" and "parenthood" makes anyone's mind stopped working

Mainly because it's difficult to say which one would be the child

Not "How you met headcanons" because he wouldn't be able to adopt to begin with

From what we saw in chapter 27 he seems to live alone, depending on his amazing spy career to afford pork steak for dinner. So he must not live too good given that after his first mission he was fired

If he had a child, it would be likely because of a previous relationship he had and didn't end well

He didn't adopt you. You're his biological kid, the only not adopted of this gang

Sorry we can't choose our family good luck ig

Not necessarily ended bad, even remaining as friends, your mother took a different path and is happily married with another man

If she knew he wanted to be a spy either thought "it's a joke" or *sigh*

She was who brought money in the relationship, now you live with her and your step-dad but at the beginning you didn't want to

Daybreak talked with you and promised you could visit each other and even live with him when he could afford it

They don't get it

Who would take care of him? The idea of living on his own was frightening to you

Imagine being father and is your kid who worries about whether pops know how to pay taxes without mom

You took after him in terms of appearance. Any signal of intelligence was from your mother

Average smart but surely smarter than him

Probably he thanked God that you were a boy. He will love whatever you are but he was relieved of saving himself of buying female products when you were on that time of the month and guide you through puberty

As much as he says to be a charming man he's not good with women either so

Your name is Sunny. Guess who chose it

Probably you see him more on weekends than during the week

Until you showed him Spy Wars he didn't have no idea that existed such good series

Of course not cooler than the legend he is but Daybreak jokes about how reading that and seeing your cool pops in action would make you half as good spy as he is someday

Quite sad is that your common sense along with the things you see on TV are enough to be better spy material

You try to watch it with him to see if he learns something

Unsure of what you'll be in the future but in the mean time you had fun watching cartoons and liking kids stuff like dinosaurs and skateboard

Current status: Busy with your first year at school and getting him out of trouble

[daverygalskisbff]

could we get some allura & lance friendship prompts? i LOVED your other ones btw 💖💖💖💖

HI I'm sorry this took forever I have honestly no idea why bc I adore these two and I ADORE this prompt so my brain should not have shut down the way it did. anywayz to make up for the wait i tried to make this a bit longer than my usual posts :) I hope you like it!

(also, as usual, everything here I came up with myself, and if there's any similarity to someone elses post I apologise and promise it wasn't intentional)

now without further ado,

Lance and Allura!

similar to lance and pidge, the two are decidedly Not close in the beginning 

i had an entire thing about how i imagine they became friends at first written out, but it was a tad too long and i didn't want to clog up the post with too much exposition. so instead, let's just skip forward and get into their dynamic after they become buddies :) (however, if anyone wants to see the backstory I would not be opposed) 

although he no longer has a crush on her, lance makes it a point to hype her up as much as he possibly can 

at first allura was confused, because she thought it was him trying to flirt with her still, but once she understood what was going on she was more than willing to join in 

lance when allura completely destroys the training droid: WOWZA ladies and gentlemen of the jury may I present to you the icon the legend the moment herself her royal highness princess allura of altea!!!!! if you thought that was impressive just WAIT till she gets warmed up because this is just the beginning!!! she can even do it in heels- 

shiro: lance, please focus, this is really important that we- 

allura: no no, shiro, please. let him finish. 

they both show their friendship in slightly different ways. lance's way is that he is physically incapable of not humouring the princess

allura when lance shows her his cartwheel: incredible!!!!!!! i have never been more impressed in my life!!! do you think you could do it in heels?? 

lance: uhhh. y'know princess I'm really loving the faith, but- 

allura: :)? 

lance:.... what if you don't have my size? 

lance fractured his ankle. allura has yet to stop apologising. 

allura's way is definitely safer, but it's also a lot more... cluttered. to say the least.

allura, returning from a recon mission with a tiny bag filled with what looks like tiny, glittery dinosaur figurines made of glass: lance! look at what i bought for you! 

lance, taking one look at the contents of the bag: wow, 'lurra, this is… so nice of you

allura: lance, are you. are you crying? 

lance (definitely crying): what? NO! of course not!! I'm just. allergic, to. uh. oxygen. 

allura: what. 

allura never had any siblings back on altea, but she always wanted them

this, paired with how much lance misses his own family, means that the two of them kind of gravitate towards each other in terms of siblinghood. 

as a child allura would imagine what it would be like to have siblings, but especially a twin. she would fall asleep to dreams of secret handshakes, finishing each other's sentences, and swapping places to trick people

she doesn't realise the brother she has found in lance until a long time after they've become close (how would she recognise a dynamic she has never been privy to?) 

this realisation happens on just a random day in the castleship lounge. she is talking to hunk, when suddenly lance, who she didn't even realise was listening to their conversation, butts in and finishes her sentence. 

she's annoyed at being interrupted at first, but then what happened sinks in, and suddenly she's fighting off tears. lance doesn't know why she's crying, but he hugs her anyway. 

the two of them match accessories a lot 

with allura's love of pretty things (and the abundance of stuff in her closet) paired with lance's natural dramatics, nobody else on the team is entirely sure of whether this is intentional or not. 

it started off as intentional. it is now second nature. 

one decision, however, was completely planned and thought out for exactly twenty minutes, and then deeply regretted by both parties for the next 48 hours

allura pierced lance's ears 

now before you get judgemental, you try making a smart decision at two am space-time while very giddy and slightly buzzing on some weird old alien candy that not even your resident alien is sure the ingredients of. then talk to me. 

pidge: okay so you're gonna need a needle, ice, and… yeah I'm pretty sure that's it 

lance: don't we need a potato too

pidge: … why the fuck would you need a potato 

lance: I dunno!!! my sister pierced her friend's ears one time and she mentioned a potato!!! I'm just trying to make sure everything goes well, pidge! 

allura: I love these earth customs you two are showing me!! when I got my ears pierced it was done with some kind of laser, but your way sounds much more fun :). 

allura: also, what is a "potato" and where can we find one? 

it goes about as well as you would expect 

the excited buzz on lance lasts about three ticks into the process, and then the screaming starts

pidge (the genius who came up with the idea) gives him some altean taffy to chew on to stop him from making too much noise, and allura, the angel, is babbling right along with him 

allura, with tears in her eyes: how was I supposed to know it was going to hurt mine didn't hurt well it was 10,000 years ago and I was very young altean children don't have very strong pain receptors you know, maybe that's why my parents had it done at that age, or maybe your people are just completely barbaric, who thought this would be a good idea?? pidge why did you suggest this poor lonce is in tears lonce I'm so sorry but if it's any consolation at all at least now your ears won't be nearly as hideous as before and you can borrow as many of my earrings as you want except for the sparkly green ones that dangle those are my favourite well they're actually my second favourite I'm wearing my favourite - you can't borrow those either, by the way, but you can have any of the others I promise 

lance, also crying and still chewing the altean taffy: hhb, llura yub domf hoff do bologuys, ss long'ss yub sanstsd thu niddle frst 

allura (who did not remember to sanitize the needle), now crying freely: I don't understand what you're saying 

(pidge records the entire thing)

the next day lance wakes up with ears that are very sore and slightly green, and allura faints

they spend the entire morning avoiding shiro in case they get in trouble and trying to figure out how to get the healing pods to work

lance: what do you mean you don't know allura you literally lived in one of these 

allura: I was asleep the whole time!!! don't put this on me!! 

lance: don't put- you are the one that pierced my ears, allura, of course it's on you!

coran, who has been watching this entire interaction in silence: oh, I thought i noticed something different about you, number three! 

lance and allura: [screaming] 

coran helps them set up the healing pod 

unfortunately lance has to take the earrings out, so the holes close back up, but fortunately coran just so happens to know how to pierce ears the correct way that they did on altea 

lance, after half a day in the healing pod, watching coran advance upon him with a literal handheld flamethrower that shoots lasers: is it too late to go back to the ear infection 

coran is surprisingly very adept at the skill of altean beautification (an activity that has a surprisingly long and rich backstory, which lance and allura get an in-depth lesson on for the hour that it takes to do lance's ears properly) 

they're exhausted afterwards, but lance looks great, so they're in good moods regardless 

they like to teach each other about things from their respective planets - both for fun, and because it helps them feel less homesick 

whenever allura is particularly down about the loss of altea, lance will visit her in her room, and the two of them will just lie together on her bed. 

they don't say much, most of the time, just link their pinkies together and stare at the ceiling 

when they do talk, it's quiet, and always allura who starts it - she might share something she remembers about altea, and lance listens quietly and then responds with something he misses about cuba 

it isn't always sad tho - sometimes they just talk about things they remember that pop into their heads, or explain things to each other that they wouldn't otherwise know 

at the space mall, they make a game out of pointing things out to each other and trying to guess what it is (allura can only guess when they're in the earth shop, but it's okay because she more than makes up for it in enthusiasm) 

lance, holding a my little pony collectible: okay princess. what is this.

allura, completely serious: a weapon

lance: ... close

allura, holding up a set of magnetic heart necklaces to the light: what does… "biffs" mean? 

lance: it's "bffs," princess, it means "best friends forever" 

allura: oh! you mean like me and you? 

lance: 

lance: 'lurra what did we say about making me cry in public, we've talked about this- 

(they buy the necklaces. obviously.)

they mess with each other's hair a lot

once allura learns that lance's hair is naturally curly, and that he just straightens it all of the time, she makes it her god-given mission to convince him to wear it naturally more often

this mission includes plans such as stealing his hair straightener, "donating" a bunch of curly hair products to him because she "doesn't have the space", and getting keith to say he thinks curly hair is cool one day in the rec room

she still thinks it's the funniest thing ever that that actually worked

other than week-long sabotage plots, they both think it's fun to have lance braid allura's hair

he used to braid his sister's and niece's hairs all of the time, so he has a knack for it that allura did not expect at all but is obsessed with anyway

allura, coming to lance's room a few hours before another diplomatic party: hey..... how yall doin.....

lance, already prepared with a million different brushes and bands: oh my god just get in already

lance and allura have a lot in common 

one of these things, they learn very early into their relationship, is that they are both disasters when it comes to pretty girls (and boys, but that's a lance-exclusive situation)

so they become each other's wingmen

they both tend to get… a little too into it 

the team: [at a diplomatic ball]

lance, seeing a pretty alien girl looking allura's way and "politely" speedwalking over to her: alluralluraalluraalluraalluralluraalluraalluraalluralluraalluraallura pretty girl look over there eleven o'clock LOOK she's gonna walk away looklooklook

allura: lance darling thank you so much for your help but I am in the middle of talking to the president 

and alternatively: 

allura tries to set lance and keith up all the time. at first she was worried she would be overstepping boundaries, but after one particular sleepover where lance spent an entire hour lamenting his "bad luck" she decided to take things into her own hands 

this includes, but is not limited to; sending them on supply missions alone together (often), mentioning particular things lance has done to his appearance to keith every time she can, and talking about specific paladin bonds more than she maybe should 

lance hates it

keith, walking into the lounge: h-

allura, immediately: hello keith!! help settle an argument, will you :)? 

keith: um… okay 

allura: lovely! now, tell me, do you think lance looks cuter today than he did yesterday? we can't seem to agree on whether or by he's stunning or simply handsome. what do you think? 

keith: uh-

allura: oh, and while I have you, have you noticed that his ears are pierced? 

lance, beet red: allu-

allura: what :(?? can't i be proud of my handiwork?? 

lance, to keith: I am not associated with her

after a week of this keith literally sets up a system where if allura is in a room he walks into he just does a complete 180 and walks back out

one time, at a diplomatic meeting, an alien politician mistook them for a couple and they both choked on their drinks at the same time, and then got offended that the other one agreed that the concept was insane 

allura: what happened to being the princess of your dreams, lance?? I thought I MEANT something to you. obviously! i was wrong! 

lance: oh yeah?? then why did you GIGGLE, allura. what's so funny, huh?? my good looks??? my charming charisma?? how far out of your league I am??? 

allura: 

lance: okay maybe that last one was a bit of a stretch 

another thing lance and allura do is pronounce each other's names wrong

they call each other lonce and allora 

it started as lance kind of making fun of allura's accent, but turned into just one of their Things 

allura honestly didn't know it was a bit until the habit had been long constructed

[sims-through-the-decades]

Reminiscing about The Sims

😁share how you discovered the sims franchise & the very first sims game you played (e.g. ts2)

Thank you @mostardentlyinllamaswithyou for tagging me!

(Oh wow... where do I even start with this?)

My first experience with the Sims franchise was in (I think) 2007/2008. I was at my friend’s house, and I ended up watching her older sister playing TS2 on her old computer. I couldn’t remember what it was called at the time, but I remembered that the game was all about making these funny-looking little people and building houses for them, and I thought it was really cool.

Fast-forward to about 2015, and I got TS3 for my 13th birthday - and of course, I was obsessed! I rushed home from school every day just so I could play my favourite saves, and I would spend hours making new Sims and trying (and failing) to build.

Then I started watching TS4 LPs on YouTube, and at the time I thought they were the coolest thing ever, so I asked my parents to buy me TS4 for Christmas... and they did! And of course, I only became more obsessed with the Sims (and I still am today!)

Tagging anyone who would like to do this!

[kats-baku1999]

Little Lies

Part One

Part Two

Part Three

Part four

So much angsty shit in this part. Wow. Sorry.

please be cautious there is some VERY SLIGHT mentions of homophobia in this post, if this could be triggering to you in anyway, do not read this okay? take care of yourself <3

(Y/N) and Todoroki agreed they would get pictures at his house before meeting up with their friends. Both sides were nervous, because both sides knew that meant having to meet his family.

Todoroki was not as worried about his brother and sister, or even his brother’s girlfriend. What he was mostly worried about was his father. Things were better between the two of them, but still not perfect. He was still trying to forgive him for things they haven’t spoken about. Like the incident with his mother, or even his estranged older brother.

“Todoroki, you almost look nervous for your girlfriend to show up?” Natsuo smirked at his younger brother, who was currently letting Fuyumi fuss over his tie.

“She isn’t my girlfriend,” Todoroki sighed, rolling his eyes at his brother. After tonight there would be no chance of it ever happening either. Todoroki had tried so hard to stay positive, over trying to convince himself that she would hear him out and forgive him. He didn’t deserve her forgiveness, not in the slightest. 

When there was a knock on the door, both of his older siblings became overly excited. Meanwhile Todoroki did his best to force a smile, trying to remain calm over the idea that this was it. The girl that used to bother him, and annoy him for no reason, was now the girl he was worried about losing. A few short weeks together, and he couldn’t help but admit that she was his peace. Everything that happened in his life, she was the one who made him smile for that. 

That smile faded though when he heard two voices on the other side of the door. He opened it to see his oldest brother, leaning up against the side of the house, smiling at Shoto’s date. They were laughing together. Todoroki’s eyes stayed focused on his date for a second, taking in how absolutely gorgeous she was. He knew he would have to tell her that five hundred times, but right now he couldn’t figure out why Touya was standing on his front porch. 

“Ah baby Shoto!” Touya grinned at his little brother, ruffling his hair. Shoto smacked his hand away, glaring at him.

“You decided to dye your hair back to white I see?” Todoroki glared at him, sending a small smile towards a confused looking (Y/N). 

“Don’t be rude Shoto, let’s get your pretty little girlfriend inside,” Touya pushed back his little brother, heading towards the dining room. (Y/n) stepped inside the front room, staring up at her date. 

“Todoroki, is everything okay?” She smiled, and he felt himself ease up at the sight. He didn’t want to try explaining what was happening. Why this wasn’t just some endearing drop in from an older sibling. How could he tell her all of this now? She was going to hate him by the end of the night.

“Yeah, of course, did your mom not want to come in?” Shoto smiled down at her, gently kissing the top of her head. A blush dusted her cheeks, and she shook her head.

“She had to rush off to work, Touya promised to get pictures of us for her,” She smiled up at him, and caught onto how he instantly tensed back up.

“Yeah, hey Fuyumi set up this whole thing to take pictures in front of, so I am sorry if it is all a little over the top,” Shoto sighed, laughing slightly. His sister insisted that they don’t just take pictures in front of the wall. After all this was the first time she had seen her little brother seem genuinely excited to be with somebody. 

“That is the sweetest thing, at least we will have some nice pictures, Bakugo’s cranky ass will probably ruin the group ones,” (Y/N) laughed, linking her arm with Shoto’s arm. They walked towards the dining room, where everyone was waiting. Except for Shoto’s parents, which (Y/N) quickly became curious about. Touya was leaned back in a chair, his legs propped up against the table, still just smirking at his little brother. His other siblings seemed tense now too, looking at one another. Natsuo smiled at (y/n) brightly, and walked over with Fuyumi to shake her hand.

“We are so excited to meet you!” Fuyumi grinned, shaking the girls hand a little too excitedly, “Shoto has done nothing but talk about you since you two started studying together,”

“Wow, she is a lot prettier than the last one too,” Natsuo smiled at his little brother, who shot him another eye roll, smirking slightly.. The smirk soon turned into a full on grin once he saw the triumphant smile that was on her face thanks to the comment. 

“Where are your parents?” (Y/n) looked over at Shoto, who went stiff for the fifteenth time since he opened the front door. Fuyumi let out an awkward cough, and a nervous laugh.

“Dad got caught up at work, he says to be a perfect gentleman, and I am supposed to send him pictures,” Fuyumi smiled happily, but it quickly turned into a frown once there was hysterical laughter coming from behind her. Touya had his head leaned back, chuckling loudly.

“Oh that’s the act he is following now right?” Touya’s comment made all of the Todoroki siblings tense up this time. Natsuo shot his older brother a dirty look, and shook his head slowly. Touya held up his hands in defense, before making a motion like he was zipping his lips. 

“Well, let’s take some pictures so you two aren’t late to meet your friends!” Fuyumi changed the topic, or at least tried her best to. Touya then stood up from his seat, walking over to Todoroki and (Y/N), smiling at the pair. 

“Why don’t you let your big brother hop in one picture?” Touya smirked, going to stand in front of the back drop that Fuyumi had created. Shoto led (Y/N) over, and made sure to put himself in between the two of them, “Maybe we can print it off to send it to Mom in your next letter Shoto, or are the doctors letting her have a phone now?”

Shoto quickly shot his brother a dirty look. Just as Fuyumi clicked to take the picture, (Y/N) looked over at the pair. She felt a little guilty, she hadn’t known Todoroki’s mother was sick, if she was with doctors?

“Your mom is sick?” (Y/N) frowned, and earned a panicked look from her date. Touya leaned over, shaking his head. His grip was tight around his little brother’s shoulder.

“No, she is probably quite well, but dear old Dad got her locked up after she burned his favorite child’s face,” Touya said it so calmly, but the energy in the room quickly shifted. Even Natsuo’s girlfriend seemed a little shocked, looking over at her boyfriend. (Y/N) looked up at Shoto, staring at his scar. His mom did that to him? The one time they had had a discussion about it, he said that it was an accident.

“Touya,” Fuyumi hissed, looking between her older and younger brother. She was expecting some kind of fight to break out, just like the last time the oldest Todoroki son had come. Shoto smacked his brother’s hand off his shoulder, before grabbing (Y/n)’s hand. She gave a small wave to his siblings, as she was dragged out of the room, and then out of the house. 

Todoroki walked her over to his car, opening the door for her. Of course Touya had to show up just to ruin this. He knew that as soon as Fuyumi had put some status up, with a picture of him getting ready, that the oldest sibling would do everything he could to ruin it. There was always some kind of tension between the pair of them, even before Shoto could understand why. After all Endeavor had practically pitted them against each other, without even intending too. Shoto had tried reaching out to his older brother, but Touya wanted nothing to do with him. Then after Endeavor and Touya’s falling out, there was no hope. 

The car ride was eerily silent, even with the music playing through the speakers. Shoto was gripping the steering wheel, tapping his fingers impatiently at a red light. He was hoping with everything in him that she wouldn’t ask questions, but it was (Y/N) and she worried about people. She was constantly fussing over everybody, like the days Kirishima’s hair has gotten too long and his roots are coming through. She knows he doesn’t want his natural hair to show through, she is quickly asking when they need to go to the store to buy his hair dye. She also has the tendency to ask her friends if they had eaten that day, especially when Bakugo and Midoriya are talking about some stupid lifting competition they want to have with one another. Shoto knew she had no intentions of just leaving this alone, and he was right.

“Are you going to explain any of that to me, or do I need to take a few guesses?” (Y/N) whispered gently, Todoroki could only reply by letting out a small sigh. He pulled into a parking lot of some convenience store. They still had an hour before they had to meet up with the others. 

“Neither of my parents are bad people,” Todoroki whispered looking over at the girl, his voice a little shaken, “My father has made some questionable mistakes, and was negligent towards my mother and my siblings, he was obsessed with becoming the best in his profession,”

“In return, my mother had some issues she had to work through, and she had reached her breaking point, I had caught her in the middle of a breakdown, and she ended up pouring hot water on my face,” Todoroki sighed, reaching up to touch his scar, “I told you once that it was an accident, and it was, but my father still had her admitted to the hospital,”

“She is still there?” (Y/n) questioned, and Todoroki nodded sadly.

“She doesn’t believe that she is ready to leave yet, and still has plenty of healing to do,” Todoroki tried his best to force a smile, “My old man is trying his best too, we have all been talking about possibly doing group sessions together soon, to discuss everything that happened,”

“Shoto, I am so sorry,” (Y/n) frowned, reaching her hand over to grab his shaking ones, “What is the issue with your oldest brother then?”

“What isn’t an issue with him?” Todoroki smiled slightly at her use of his first name, “He was my dad’s pride and joy before I came along, and then for some reason my father fixated on me, and began ignoring him along with my other siblings, it caused some big rift between us all,”

“Then Touya turned nineteen, started dating some guy, and sadly my father was still an absolute asshole at the time, he flipped out on Touya for potentially ruining the family image, and called him some pretty terrible names,” (Y/N)’s jaw fell a little bit, no wonder he seemed so mad. Still though, the way he took it out on Shoto..

“He targets me because he isn’t man enough to target Dad head on yet,” He answered her unasked question, and she just nodded sadly. Trying her best to not look at him with pity, she knew that wasn’t what he wanted right now.

“Thank you for trusting me enough to explain this all to me,” She smiled at him, kissing the back of his hand. He looked her face over a few times, feeling his heart twist up at the fact that she was so sincere. That she cared so much. The one time he tried talking to Momo about this, she completely blew him off about it. Shoto grabbed the sides of her face, pulling her into a kiss. Usually he would do something cheeky, and try and take it to the other level.. This time though, he was soft, gentle, and nothing but passion resonated throughout the kiss. 

His way of telling her thank you for listening to him. 

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“You damn slowpokes you were supposed to be here twenty minutes ago!” Bakugo was standing outside of Kirishima’s yelling at the pair of them as they walked up.. The kiss had inevitably turned into the pair of them making out in the front seat of his car. Todoroki had to force himself to stop though, because he knew where she was trying to take it judging by the fact she had tried climbing on him.. He hated that he had to stop it. 

“We got caught up, stop yelling,” Todoroki smiled at Bakugo as they stepped onto Kirishima’s front porch. Bakugo pointed a finger at a bit of lipstick that Todoroki had forgotten to wipe off his neck.

“Nasty,” He smirked, earning a middle finger from his friend. (Y/N) just laughed, before reaching forward to pull down the collar of his shirt, revealing a few hickey’s along his collarbone.

“So that’s why you call Kirishima Sharky?” (Y/N) smirked, and Bakugo smacked her hand away. His cheeks turning bright red, it was his turn to flip them off. He sulked back inside, yelling to everybody that they had finally arrived. 

Kirishima walked over happily, hugging his best friend, and shaking Todoroki’s hand. Ochaco let out an excited squeal and ran over to the pair, hugging her friends. The only person who seemed off was Midoriya, who would barely look at his two best friends. He was gentle when hugging (Y/N), shooting Todoroki a knowing look. Todoroki frowned, nodding his head. Trying to let his friend know that he knew what he needed to do. The rest of the time they were taking pictures felt forced, and everyone could feel the obvious tension between the “Three Musketeers”. 

When they finally arrived at the dance, it only took a few songs before (Y/n) had Todoroki dancing. He hated it a little bit, but he enjoyed watching her smile.

 Finally a slow song came on, and he couldn’t help but grin. It was a little embarrassing to admit, but he had been waiting to sway with her to some slow song. He wasn’t even sure what the song was, he just pulled his date in by her hips. Smiling brightly when her face instantly began to blush, but she was quick to connect her hands on the back of his neck. Her eyes darted around the room, embarrassed to make eye contact. Todoroki didn’t like that, so he placed his forehead against hers, gaining her full attention. When he pulled back a little bit he took in the entire moment, watching how her (y/e/c) eyes scanned his entire face. 

“I am happy I agreed to tutor you,” (Y/n) whispered quietly, and the taller boy nodded his head slowly.

“I am happy I asked you to tutor me,” He whispered back, leaning down to kiss her gently. (Y/n) grabbed a few pieces of his hair at the bottom of his neck, pulling herself more into him. Todoroki broke away a little too soon for her liking, once again telling himself he had to stop before it went too far.

“I want to do this, you know that right?” She smirked up at him, and he just nodded his head. The song ended, and he needed to get away from this situation. The guilt began to fill his entire body.

“I am going to grab some punch, I will be right back okay?” Todoroki quickly walked away, towards the refreshment table. Kirishima was watching the pair of them, and kissed Bakugo’s cheek before going to dance with his best friend. 

Todoroki watched Kirishima dramatically swing her arms around as they bounced to the song blaring through the speakers. Then everything began to move in slow motion. Kaminari had walked up the pair of them, smiling at them both. Then he began talking, and the two of them stopped smiling. He continued talking and Kirishima shot a look Todoroki's direction and then towards his boyfriend. (Y/n)’s entire body seemed to go ridgid, and she slowly turned to look at Todoroki. He dropped his cup when they made eye contact, her eyes beginning to fill with tears. 

Kirishima dragged her away from the crowds of people. Bakugo looked towards Todoroki and they followed after the pair of them. Ochaco and Midoriya had been watching the entire scene, and they followed close behind. Todoroki was practically running through the halls, and found Kirishima and (Y/N) in the parking lot. Kirishima was helping her into his car. When he saw the group walking towards him he quickly walked up to Todoroki, and shoved him back.

“You piece of shit,” Kirishima screamed, and (Y/n) climbed out of the passenger seat of the car and walked up to the scene. Bakugo put his hand on his boyfriend’s chest, trying to stop him from going after Todoroki again.

“E, please don’t do this,” Kirishima smacked Bakugo’s hand off of him.

“You had something to do with this too!” Kirishima shouted, getting in Bakugo’s face, “Do you want to explain this fucking bet you had with him about MY friend?!” 

Bakugo looked terrified. Usually he wouldn’t let anybody talk to him in that way, but he couldn’t even process what was happening. Kirishima had never yelled at him before. 

“Kirishima can we please just go,” (Y/n) finally spoke up, her voice shaking. Todoroki looked back towards her, his heart breaking at the look on her face.

“(Y/N) please, just let me explain,” Todoroki pleaded, stepping forward. She looked back towards him, and shook her head.

“I don’t want to hear about your bet,” She whispered, her voice cracking completely, “You are exactly who I thought you were,”

“No, look listen, when Bakugo and I made that bet I never expected that you would actually be this way, I saw you as some annoying girl who hated me,” Todoroki was frantic trying to explain himself, “Now you’re somebody I can trust, somebody I want around, please I wouldn’t have told you the things I did on the way here if that weren’t the honest truth,”

“You are a liar!” She shouted, tears finally falling down her face. Midoriya rushed over to her, pulling her into a hug. Ochaco was confused by the entire scene, going to the other side of her boyfriend. Kirishima and Bakugo were staring at one another, Bakugo’s mouth cracking open slightly to begin speaking.

“Save it, you knew how much she meant to me, you knew who she was and you still let your best pal use her as some kind of game,” Kirishima growled, “I am done, with both of you.”

(Y/N) looked at Todoroki, tears still streaming down her face. Todoroki couldn’t do anything but stare back at her. Trying to find any of the words to say. (Y/n) shook her head slowly, and turned around to walk to the car. All he wanted to do was scream for her, yell anything to get her to stop. There was nothing he could say though, he had hurt her. This was the outcome he had deserved, and he should have seen it coming.

 After all, he was his father’s child.

[darkwood-sleddog]

Your dogs are beautiful, and I love them! Out of curiosity, what first got you interested in mushing? Did you get your dogs with the intention of training them for mushing, or did you get into it after you already had one or more of them?

I’ve been interested in mushing since I was in first grade, we did an Iditarod unit in my school where we tracked the racers and at the end of the unit a sled dog team visited the school and I became obsessed.

Later when I was in fourth grade I got the flu real bad and couldn’t go see a local sled dog race with my family, it was SUPER disappointing.

In sixth grade I had a birthday where we visited a local wolf dog rescue and I forced my friends to watch all the balto movies. All three of them. Around this time my little sister and I had a couple pavement accidents hitching our golden retriever up to razer scooters and trying to mush that way.

One year dating anniversary with now husband while in college. He takes me dryland dog sledding at a local kennel. He now realizes this as the....”moment our life was set in motion to be what it is now...nuts.” the obsession started to come back. Obsessively looked at sled dog rescues from junior through senior year.

Graduated college, but lived with my future mother in law and her pets. Still wishfully looking at sled dog rescues and working siberian breeders. Was in an out of jobs for a few years. Wish I had the notion to handle at a local kennel at this time, but I was really intent on using my art degree lmao.

In 2016 we bought my husband’s childhood home so I officially started looking at breeders again. Met one of my husband’s old family friends, lifelong malamute people. Met their dogs. Obsessed with this dog, can’t stop thinking about this dog. I had never considered malamutes before but the temperament really stuck with me. Messaged show malamute breeders, radio silence. Perusing youtube I find videos of malamutes doing EXACTLY what I want to do with my dog (sledding and dryland mushing), they’re two hours from my house, the breeder does extensive health testing and titling and checks all my boxes. They message me back! Would be happy to have me come take a kennel tour. Take kennel tour & meet  ~working bred~ Alaskan Malamutes. They’re incredible, put a downpayment on a puppy.  House sat the neighbor’s malamute & samoyed friend for two weeks. Dogs destroyed yard and a couch pillow and I loved every second of it. 

2017 Sigurd & Zombie were born (Zombie was not mine at first). We get Sigurd at eight weeks and we adore him. Husband is a born again dog person. I start laying the groundwork for pull sports with Sigurd from an early age. My obsession comes back FULL FORCE. For my birthday that year my parents buy me a dog sled. 

2018, want a Second Dog. Put downpayment on puppy with breeder. Zombie becomes available to us at that time because her temperament was not what our breeder was looking for with her program (she was a keeper puppy originally). Breeder sends photos, husband falls head over heels. I like the idea of two adult dogs. We bring Zombie home at a little over 1 year of age. Life is grand. We start mushing for real that year and do a couple short runs in the 2018-2019 season.

2019-2020, we went HAM this year. Mushing every weekend. Got husband a fat bike so we could go longer distances. Started scootering the dogs during dryland season. We’re really falling in love with the sport. We still have puppy fever. Put down payment on puppy everything is good. A little while after breeder offers us Slash, one of her keeper puppies from her 2019 litter, because he is cryptorchid (undescended testicle) and can’t be used in the breeding program. He is much higher drive than Sigurd & Zombie and his mother and grandfather are her respective lead dogs. I have an internal crisis because it wasn’t what I planned but I love the idea of him. I cut my bangs for the first time since I was like 6. We end up getting Slash. Aquire Dryland Rig, 3 dog set up, and navigate having a pack vs being a two dog household. The rest is history.

[ranger-rai]

Why’d you become a ranger?

Hmm. Well I guess for the same reason that anyone does anything they are passionate about.

Just like every kid, I wanted to be the best pokemon trainer, and before I was old enough to become a trainer, we had a little demonstration by a lokemon ranger at our local Pokémon center.

I thought it was cool but I still wanted to be a trainer.

I was pretty set before my journey, I was saving all of my money to buy pokeballs, and equipment, and was planning out my whole Sinnoh Journey.

I was still having a hard time deciding my partner, but I was leaning for Chimchar because everyone was telling me it was the strongest and that the rest weren't worth it.

I really thought I was going to be the best with that attitude.

However, a week before my journey, we had some problems.

My parents were running a small business at the time and things were really tight. They were working a lot and they were exhausted.

My older sister was off at school at the time, and my dad had gotten sick, so my mom would have been running the place by herself.

Well I couldn't just leave them, so I decided to push back my journey for a bit to help my parents.

That week turned into months and months into years.

I was in my late teens before I knew it.

I had some friends who went off to become trainers and they were coming back from places like Hoenn and Unova, whole I was stuck at home still.

Well one day a pokemon ranger came bursting into our shop, he seemed kind of panicked and was asking if we sold rope or had any type of netting.

We had some spare rope that we gave him and he bolted towards the forest.

I got curious and followed him and I completely forgot that I was holding some fruits that I was supposed to be stocking on the shelves.

I followed the ranger into the forest and saw that he was trying to deal with an angry Garchomp.

Him and two other rangers were trying to tie it up to restrain it.

It was so crazy, but it didn't want to go down.

I was hiding near some bushes and watching when I felt something nibbling at my leg.

It was a pair of Gible!

They were pretty small, so they must have been born pretty recently.

They were clearly hungry as they were trying to get the fruit I had in hand.

I started feeding them but they started letting out little cries for their mom.

The Garchomp heard them and turned her attention to me.

She broke free and started charging at me!

I dont know why I reacted the way I did, but I scooped up the two babies and started running.

It was dumb, but I was scared!

I was basically stealing two babies from one of the most aggressive dragon types known!

At some point, I managed to get into an open field and I just set the babies down and left them the fruit.

I kept running after that, heading straight back to my parents store, I didn't notice that the Garchomp stopped chasing me once I put the babies down.

My heart was racing the whole day, but It wasn't until the end of the day that the rangers contacted us.

I was in alot of trouble, I left the store, I took stock and I antagonize a large dragon type.

But the rangers also thanked me because apparently they didn't realize that the Garchomp had recently had babies and why it had become so aggressive.

Rather than trying to move her, they just ended up putting signs around the area and monitored it until she moved.

Nobody ended up getting hurt because of it.

I became so obsessed with being a ranger, that I decided to join the next year.

My parents were able to hire some of my cousins to help with the shop while I went to the Fiore region to train, so I wasn't too far away.

My training there really had me look back on how I viewed pokemon when I was a kid, so I was glad that I got to do something that would allow me to help and really see the value of all Pokémon!

Sorry this was so long!

[mrsluthordanvers]

This may seem like a really random question but has writing and reading femslash helped you come into your sexual and/or gender identities? I've been in the Supergirl fandom and other primarily f/f fandoms for quite some time and this is something that I've been wondering about recently.

Yes!!

This got really long, and really rambly, and probably tells more about my experience with fandom then you needed to know to answer this question. But here it is lol

I grew up in a relatively conservative and catholic family with limited access to media both bc of this and bc my family was low income. I remember as a little kid we only had a couple channels and when we did get cable when I was older, my parents would stop pay for it during summer months because they wanted us to go outside.

The only gay media I remember ever seeing growing up in my parents house was Imagine Me & You. I caught it once on TV and I have vivid memories of realizing what I was watching and sitting on the edge of the couch paranoid that my parents would come downstairs and catch me watching it. I remember setting up the remote so that when I hit the quick back button it would take me back to some cartoon channel. And glee. Which I was surprisingly actually allowed to watch. I was always waiting for it to get turned off but it never was.

Both my parents were very big on encouraging reading. When we asked for books, it was almost the only time I don’t remember being told no. I remember I spent tons of time in libraries as a kid and it was one of the only places I was allowed to go after school by myself when I was in junior high. And I loved to write, my mom was always asking her to tell me stories and I was always writing in journals.

Basically what I’m saying is that I really did Not have exposure to the gay community. And looking back it seems really natural that I started reading and writing femslash.

It took me a long time to get into though, and to seek out. Instead I was sneaking Nora Roberts books out of the library at grade 7 because they had sex in them. Sex, I thought, that was safe/healthy/whatever because these were the books my sister was reading. Plus my mom said they were too mature for me, and what’s a better motivator then being told no. I didn’t find famslash until very late into high school bc it never even occur to me that I could be reading cheesy romances that were f/f instead.

My first experience actually reading femslash was Rizzles fics on ff.net. I honestly have no idea how I found it bc at the time I couldn’t have told you what fandom was, or that tumblr existed. The only thing I remember knowing about fanfic was that if you said you read fanfic people assumed you were reading about weird sex about characters and would laugh at you. Honestly I might have only found fanfics bc glee was really big at the same time and I was probably hearing people talk about ships and fanfic even if I don’t remember it now. Either way I found it lol. And I read A Lot of rizzoli and isles fics.

And it helped. Towards the end of high school was when it really started to dawn on me that I might like girls and I didn’t have words for it, I didn’t know there was a community, and there certainly wasn’t people I was willing to ask.

Reading femslash was like opening a door. Suddenly I was being introduced to the same kind of cheesy romance writing I was already reading. I was being introduced to the idea of two women going on dates. Having healthy relationships. Having unhealthy relationships. Soft sex. Rough sex. Falling in love. Getting married. Having kids. And it really started to solidify that I liked women.

Up until that point the idea of being gay scared the fuck out of me bc what I knew was so limited, to me being gay = being alone. It meant I wasn’t allowed to have any of those things and I really resisted that.

Reading femslash was a big part of changing that perspective. It made me comfortable enough to tell a girl at 19 I had a crush on her. It helped me feel like it was okay to tell people I wasn’t straight when I went to university. It prompted me to search out more gay media when I went to university. I started to watch glee again. I watched DEBS, and Imagine Me and You, and Saving Face, and Gray Matters, and Bloomington, and Kissing Jessica Stein, and Loving Annabelle. Basically I went through the LGBT section of Netflix in a year. 

A friend introduced me to tumblr and told me there was a big gay community. I followed some cool people and aesthetic blogs but honestly I still wasn’t quite finding it.

Then I watched The 100 while it was in season 2 in my last year of university. Completely unaware of Clarke and Lexa. I became obsessed lol. They kissed on screen and it was like a switch went off. I don’t know why it was that show instead of anything else I had been watching that spurred me on. But it did. I started looking up accounts on tumblr and following people and reading so so so much fanfic. I had started to find that vast community on tumblr my friend mentioned and started sending people asks and saw people actually answering asks, and posting their art and their writing. It encouraged me to try writing again, and ask a couple people if they would read stuff I posted.

And then supergirl came out and I was soooo excited for it that I started to try mimicking accounts I saw in the clexa fandom. I figured out how to make gifsets, and I liveblogged, and my friend told me to make a side fandom blog or she’d unfollow me lmao. Which I also didn’t know people did. I started this blog just before season 2 happened and it made for the perfect storm. I already had a small following, I was making content (even if it wasn’t great), and Lena got introduced. And suddenly I REALLY discovered how vast the gay community is bc it was suddenly knocking at my door. It was also a big BIG learning curve.

I was reading people’s fanfics and looking at their fanart. I was seeing depictions of different sexualities. And how two characters can be interpreted in such vastly different ways. I was being shown perspectives I hadn’t seen before, some that made me stop and go. Oh. It helped me identify my first label, and then also taught me labels can change, and mine did. I wasn’t just reading fics about two women in a relationship, I was opening fics and seeing me. I saw a piece of fanart of Butch Kara and thought, she looks like me. And then I started to see people writing about butch Kara and commenting about butch Kara and it wasn’t just, she looks like me. It became she looks like me, and that is desirable. And that gave me confidence. I stopped shaving, my wardrobe has started to change, I started buying things I wanted to wear not that I thought I should wear. I learned I wanted people to see me and think I was handsome or attractive before they thought I pretty or cute lol

Writing femslash has a different kind of self reflection. I like to think I have started to notice when I project things on to characters, and think about why those things are important to me. Or why I get defensive over certain headcanons. All things that have made me step back and look at my own sexuality and gender identity. Which honestly I’m still figuring out and is still changing, but I’ve learned that’s okay too (fanfic has also normalized that for me lol)

Art is meant to make you feel things, think about things. I don’t think fanfic or fanart is any different. Sometimes it is just meant to make you feel you horny and sometimes it makes you reflect on whether or not you might be butch. Personally I think it’s very cool that it’s so powerful

[wastelandcth]

the hood family expands

summary: the story(ies) of how dovey and calum became parents and their life turned into lovely chaos. inspired by all the conversations my anon and i have on the daily about baby hood who now has a name! this is part one which goes into charlie’s story! i’m currently working on part two which is for his sister!

author’s notes: hello! this is a long time in the making. thank you so much for all your patience with everything being put on hold due to my life being chaotic. i appreciate all the nice words you’ve all sent me in the past couple weeks. i love you all!

warnings: pregnancy is scary to me. calum hood loves being a dad and will not hesitate to cry. 

masterlist || next part 

Charlie Theo Hood

When Calum held his son for the first time, he felt like everything in his life suddenly made sense. He felt like every bad day he'd ever had and every struggle he ever dealt with was worth something. As he looked into his newborn son's eyes, he felt like nothing else mattered, that his little family was worth everything he'd been through. He'd watched his wife grow their child for nine months, dealing with the hormones and crazy food cravings because she was growing his kid inside of her. She was experiencing changes that Calum could never even comprehend and the least Calum could do was buy her some bread and cheese at three in the morning. 

When she'd told Calum she was pregnant, all Calum could do was cry and hold her close. He'd never expected to be a father but the second he was on the way to being one, he couldn't wait for the nine months to be over. He spent the next eight months making sure he read up on everything he could about childbirth in order to be prepared for when his wife went into labor. He'd wake up whenever you had random cravings and drive to the nearest 24-hour store which he's sure the cashier knew his name by how many times he'd show up to buy bread, cheese, even ice cream and donuts at one point. 

She’d been pranking him the past week, telling him that she thought her contractions had started and even going a far as dropping a cup of water on the floor to get a reaction out of Calum. They’d both laughed it off and she’d simply ruffle his hair when Calum pouted and told her that it wasn’t good for his blood pressure to prank him like this. He'd been in a meeting the day that she had gone into labor, thinking he still had a few weeks left before he'd begin to panic about labor, she’d texted him that her water had broken and she was pretty sure baby Hood was on their way into the world. Before Calum could even think of a straight answer, he was up and racing out of the meeting room, Ashton right behind him as he apologized to their label executives. Calum's hand kept running through his hair as he looked out the window of his passenger seat, Ashton had taken the keys from him and they were speeding down the highway to make it back home. 

After what seemed like a whirlwind of panic and Calum trying his best not to panic over the fact that he was going to become a father in the next couple hours. All he remembered was getting out of the car while Ashton called the other guys who'd stayed behind to finish the meeting and updating them with whatever Calum had told him before he had rushed inside of his house to find his wife. 

Before Calum knew it, he was in the backseat of his car with his wife next to him trying to breathe through her contractions, and in the blink of his eyes, they were checked into the hospital. The constant heartbeat ringing out through the hospital room reminded Calum that his firstborn would be in his arms in a matter of hours, he'd been sorting through the hospital bag that his wife had somehow managed to pack in the midst of her water breaking induced panic. He wasn't sure why she had decided to pack three different Youngblood CD's but he wasn't going to question her while her body literally prepared itself to push a whole human being out of her body. 

Labor and delivery was something Calum found both extremely graphic and extremely out of this world. He held his wife's hand the entire time, never complaining when she squeezed his hand so tight that he thought he might lose it. After three and a half hours of intense contractions and his hand almost being ripped out of his body, Calum heard the cries of his newborn son entering the world. He stood shocked as he watched the doctor's and nurses rush around the room and taking vitals, it felt like his life was on pause as he laid his eyes on his son. 

Charlie Theo Hood was perfect, he was warm and cuddly and the first time Calum held him he was obsessed. Watching Dovey hold their son and whisper quietly as the tiny human he'd created drifted off to sleep made Calum feel complete, made him feel like he had finally found his place in life. As he held them both close on that uncomfortable hospital bed, Calum knew that he was going to do anything he could to make his son's life amazing. 

The first week at home with Charlie was filled with tears from both Calum and Charlie, a lot of lullaby singing, and of course, no sleeping. But before Calum knew it, his little boy was crawling after Duke and babbling on about his day. He loved being a father, he loved holding Charlie close while he worked on music, love telling his little boy all about his days whenever he was away. But when Charlie said his first word, Calum felt the air rush out of him as he held the sleepy toddler, the small toddler muttering over and over as he pointed to Duke. 

If there was one thing Charlie loved more than his parents who seemed to always be recording him and the weird shenanigans they all got up to, it was turtles. Dovey and Calum had no real idea how his obsession of turtles came to be but the small collection of turtle toys and turtle themed clothes that had gathered in his room was something to marvel at. Calum had been more than happy to supply his kid’s addiction and would often come back home with small turtles that reminded him of his baby boy. Whenever Calum was away on tour, he’d search out any turtles that he could find and slip them into his suitcase, something that Charlie loved about his dad coming home and showering him with stuffed turtles. 

Calum loved watching Charlie and Dovey together. Whenever his wife and his child were both lying on the couch together, singing along to whatever video that Charlie had insisted on watching. Even when they went out for lunch and Charlie wanted nothing more than to sit on Dovey’s lap, trying to read the menu with her and help her pick out what sounded like the yummiest dish there. Everyday, Calum was amazed by how great of a mother Dovey was, she always seemed to know exactly what Charlie needed and when he needed it. She could tell when it was his naptime or when his whines meant he just wanted to be held a little tighter. Calum was in awe of her and the way that she loved their son.

It wasn’t until Charlie was three and Calum had left for his first tour that was longer than a month that Charlie’s attachment to Calum grew tighter. He’d spend all day watching old videos of when Calum and Dovey travelled the world together or watching videos of Calum playing on stage with his band that Charlie seemed to love so much. Calum knew that touring this time around would be hard, knew that leaving his little family for three months would mean he’d miss out on many first with Charlie, but it was worth it in order to provide him with the best life possible. But three months was too long and when Calum had called Dovey late one night with information on the next show and the promise that her and their son would be there to dance the night away, he finally slept with the warmth in his heart that hadn’t been there in weeks.