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fullstcp · 4 months

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'Good Riddance' by Gracie Abrams Sentence Starters

BEST

"I was bored out my mind."

"When I could come to life, I didn't."

"You're the worst of my crimes."

"I never was the best to you."

"It was my little strange addiction."

"I destroyed every silver lining you had in your head."

"We were too different, you were so sensitive."

I KNOW IT WON'T WORK

"I left you here."

"What if I won't?"

"How am I supposed to put that gently?"

"What if I'm not worth the time and breath I know you're saving?"

"Part of me wants to walk away 'til you really listen."

"I hate to look at your face and know that we're feeling different."

"Why won't you try moving on for once?"

"I know we cut all ties, but you're never really leaving."

"I'm thinking everything you wish I wasn't."

"You're better off, I'm being honest."

"Won't you stop holding out for me when I don't want it?"

FULL MACHINE

"I'm a rollercoaster."

"You're a dead-end street."

"But won't you stay for a while?"

"I wish that you'd never leave."

"I almost lost it."

"I'm codependent but trying hard not to be."

"I'm better when you're next to me."

"I'm a shameless caller."

"You can lie to me."

"But do you think we could talk?"

"I'm a forest fire."

"I had a life here before you."

"It's just that I'll always choose you."

WHERE DO WE GO NOW?

"A lot of that felt wrong."

"Like I miss you."

"But when I kissed you back, I lied."

"You don't know how hard I tried."

"Where do we go now?"

"You look hopeful."

"Can't you tell our light burned out?"

"Got a lot to cry about."

"There's nothing left here."

"All our best years are behind."

"What a brutal way to die."

"But you choose it every time."

"We could meet down the line."

"I can't promise you'll like it."

"I know I changed overnight."

"I'm half of myself here without you."

"You're the best in my life and I lost you."

"Guess the space was the thing that I needed."

I SHOULD HATE YOU

"I wasted my breath when I tried to console you, didn't I?"

"We didn't happen the way we were supposed to."

"I know that I should hate you."

"You're not even here, but you're doing my head in."

"All I ever think about is where the hell you even are."

"I swear to God I'd kill you if I loved you less hard."

WILL YOU CRY?

"Will you cry if I let go?"

"How'd we get stuck?"

"Now, I'm what you're bored of."

"Would it not kill you to say goodbye?"

"It's kinda funny when it goes from all to nothing."

"You have to laugh before you start to cry."

AMELIE

"I met a girl/boy once. She/he kinda ripped me open."

"She/he doesn't even know it."

"She/he doesn't know my name."

"Where did you go?"

"Why'd it feel louder when it all went unspoken?"

"All I can do is hope that this will go away."

"But she/he doesn't know that I'd let her/him ruin all my days."

DIFFICULT

"It's no one's fault."

"I really think sometimes there's something that I'm missing."

"I should probably go back home."

"I guess I'm just difficult."

"I meant to tell you."

"Was it something that I said that colored you blue?"

"I've been drinking."

"I thought eventually, my ranting her would fix it."

THIS IS WHAT THE DRUGS ARE FOR

"This is what the drugs are for."

"Hopefully, the high works to change my mind."

"I haven't seen you in a lifetime."

"What am I supposed to do when you used to be my lifeline?"

"I've counted all the days since you walked away."

"I've gotten used to sleeping here without you."

"All I ever do is think about you."

"I'm still waiting by the phone."

FAULT LINE

"When I'm down, I fall right back to you."

"You could go and I bet I'd recover overnight."

"You feel lightyears away."

"If I met you today, I would run to the arms of another."

THE BLUE

"I hope we've got a lot in common."

"What are you doing to me now?"

"You came out of the blue like that."

"I never could've seen you coming."

"I think you're everything I've wanted."

"You make me really nervous."

"I've never felt this close to someone."

"What if you're my weakness?"

RIGHT NOW

"It's the best and a curse."

"Think I'm more alive somehow."

"I feel like myself right now."

"What if this is it for now?"

BLOCK ME OUT

"I'll say whatever you want, but I've become such a liar."

"I used to follow my gut."

"I should be happier now, so why do I feel this quiet?"

"Now I only let me down."

"I've been thinking way too loud."

"I wish that I could block me out."

"I think I'm burning alive, but nobody sees the fire."

"Don't know how they see me now."

"I feel ten feet off the ground."

I'm getting tired of feeling delicate."

Every voice in my head is trying its best to haunt me."

UNSTEADY

"People freak me out."

"It's so hard when it feels like my fault."

"Someone pull me out right now."

"The girl/guy in the mirror's a stranger."

405

"I drove a hundred miles an hour to forget you."

"If I were to go tonight, I think I would regret you."

"You took the half of me that I needed."

"How'd you walk away so easy?"

"It's almost like you like to let me down."

"I hate the fact that I miss you around."

"Please, you won't even look at me."

"It's getting embarrassing."

"You forgot me overnight."

"You didn't even try to hide it."

"You've consumed, like all my nights."

"Now I know it's unrequited."

TWO PEOPLE

"Why does it feel like you don't even know me?"

"How are you looking at me like a stranger?"

"I loved you so hard for a time."

"We'll die anyway."

"Don't think we're above, might happen to us."

"You know everything that could kill me."

"Why am I clawing to you to survive?"

"Don't know what to say, two people can change."

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biolizardboils · 1 month

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Sorry to do this so suddenly, but I'm putting all my blogs on hold until further notice. I might log in to like or private-reblog some posts for reference, but that'll be it.

The short reason is that I wanna work on myself. Mostly personally, but with a side of visual art skills.

The long version is under the cut. Content Warnings: current geopolitical events, mental health.

So I'm writing this part for two reasons: so I can send it to friends and others when they ask what I'm doing; and to remind myself why I'm doing it, in case I'm compelled to come back too early. This is gonna be a ramble; I'm writing this after midnight, cus I'll forget or lose the nerve in the morning.

You likely already know what this is about from the emoji tag. You'll also notice that I won't mention any proper names in this post. That's one of the issues I'm stepping away to work on.

I've been quiet about it ever since it started, for a few reasons. Unfamiliarity with the history behind it, fear of spreading misinfo or propaganda, doomscrolling tendencies. For months, I've done the daily click and left it at that.

(Speaking of, last month I found out that the site doesn't track cookies or whatever its called? TL;DR: you can click as many times as devices you have. That's 3 for me.)

But anyway, this week it stopped feeling like enough. From this post's date and what I usually post about, you can probably guess what broke the camel's back.

And... I feel guilty that this is what broke it. And I feel guilty that I feel guilty. It's not my struggle; I'm a bystander. But I chose to be, and I can't tell how much of it was for my own mental health, and how much was denial, selfishness, misplaced optimism.

I want to believe people aren't so cartoonishly cruel. I want to believe people do their research before acting on or speaking about these things. I want to believe people can treat these things with the delicate nuance they deserve. I want to believe that one side destroying innocents on the other is inexcusable, no matter the historical context, and that the rest of the world's powers will act to stop it.

I'm scared of how much I still want to believe it, despite reality. I'm scared of how long it took me to feel the appropriate horror. I've had intrusive thoughts and pits in my stomach all week, and it's compounded by the guilt that I'm only having them now.

I still want to believe some things were misguided, or made before the situation, or will be fixed later. And I can't tell anymore what's a coping mechanism, and what's just a selfish hope that it'll all be fine.

So... I'm gonna get better coping mechanisms.

I'm looking for therapists. Not just for this, but some other things that happened to stack up this week. It doesn't take much to throw off my daily functioning, and I've been holding off addressing that. Again, it's horrible that it took something like this to make me realize that.

To fill up the spare time, I'm gonna put more work into my art skills. I can finally afford better tools, so it's time I practice more professional techniques.

So, yeah. I'm leaving because I feel I can't address things like an adult, and I hope to learn how before I come back.

Thanks for reading, and goodbye for now.

#me talking #pinned #vent #long #bad feels #🍉

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razor-tits · 5 months

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A very long and over due life update.

So, to start this off I guess I need to back up. Let's start in October. It feels like yesterday but also a lifetime ago. Things were...ok I'd say. Boring, routine, the only shake up was my hormones ran out and my job was changing our insurance, so I had to cancel my follow up appointment for bloodwork and a refill. But then I got some bad news from my parents.

My dad had a heart attack and was in the hospital. He was ok, but he needed surgery. First they thought just a stent, but then decided he needed a triple bypass. I have a pretty good relationship with my parents, but we're kind of distant. I live a few hours away and only see them around the holidays but we talk on the phone weekly. My dad can lean a little on the conservative side but both of them are the absolute salt of the earth. They're done so much to help me and I felt powerless to be able to help. I couldn't leave work and felt like there was nothing I could do.

The next couple weeks were rough, my dad was staying in the hospital, my mom was going back and forth staying with him and taking care of my grandma, who is in her late 80's and has a litany of health issues. On a Friday I finally managed to make the drive home and spend the weekend there. Seeing my dad laid up in a hospital gown tied to machines is something i'll never forget. He could get up and move and acted like he was ok. But he's one of those guys you meet and you think he's invincible. The kind of guy that put a new roof on our house with a broken finger and can't turn away a stray animal at the door. Some family members I hadn't seen in a long time came and went over the weekend. Thoughts of our own mortality set in and I realize this could be the last time I see any of them.

I've lost people before. Some of them suddenly and unexpectedly. Others who's death was almost a sigh of relief after fighting for so long. I never got to say goodbye when my friend died and I hope he knows how much he meant to me. I don't want to feel that again, ever.

The day of surgery came. He was in the OR for 3 hours but it felt like an eternity and a second at the same time. A few hours after that my mom and I were able to see him. He was extubated already, which was a good sign. But he was on heavy medication, incoherent, coming in and out of sleep. But he knew I was there and that's all that mattered.

I had to leave and make my way back to my parents to get my dog, and then make the 2 hour drive back to Ohio and go back to work in the morning. At this point I knew my dad would be ok, he just had to get through recovery. But now thoughts of my own health were worrying me. I'm not in the best shape, I don't exercise or work out. I've already had surgery to fix stomach problems. Everyone on my dad's side has heart problems, and everyone on my mom's side has cancer and diabetes. There's not much I do to prevent any of that. I'm in my 30's and I feel it, maybe more than I should.

Over the next couple months my mental health continues to fall. I had a birthday and spent it sick, as I always seem to do. It's always a rough time of year for me. Seasonal depression kicks in, I get older, and another year passes. My dog, my best friend, the reason I kept myself alive, is getting old. I see it more and more every day and it breaks my heart.

The holidays came and went. I saw my grandma for the first time in a few years. Always wondering if it will be the last. Despite that, this year I never felt less in the holiday spirit. I used to love this time of year, now I desperately try to enjoy it, but part of me just wants it to be over. The best part seems to be a few days off work.

At this point it should be noted I have not restarted hormones. My identity has always been more in flux than i've let on, and maybe that needs to be it's own post, but I don't know if I want to start again or not. I don't know what I want, I don't know what my goals are. I don't know who i am. Beyond basic hygiene, I really don't even feel like taking care of myself most days. I pretty much always feel melancholic. I'm not angry, I don't get excited, I don't have much joy. My sex drive is non existent and I have no desire to do...well, anything.

New year's comes and I honestly couldn't care. It feels like another day. My gf and I go out and have an Ok time. I'm just so tired all the time it's hard for me to go out and enjoy myself like I used to.

And then, a couple days ago my landlord calls. We have to move out. Not sure when, but probably soon. I'm heartbroken and panicking over it. We absolutely love our house. We've only been here about a year and a half but it's been wonderful. It has plenty of room, privacy, it's quiet. We can leave our doors unlocked and packages aren't stolen off our porch. We're allowed both of our dogs and all 3 of our cats with no issues. We've invested so much time and money here. My gf is close with the owners and their children, who were the previous tenants. We even thought about trying to buy this house off of them when their other kid moves out of the downstairs apartment. And it's affordable. Anything else like what we have now will cost double and we can't afford that.

Our last apartment was tiny, cramped, dark and ran by an awful property investment company. And now we have to deal with that again. If we can even find a place where we can take 5 animals. We can hide 2 of the cats, but not all of them. We're in no position to buy nor do we have the time to go through the process. My gf said we may have to find 2 different apartments and live separately for a while. Just the thought of that brings me to tears. I can't live without her, I can't live without our pets. We're a family. I don't know what to do.

Since I got the phone call I've done nothing but panic, contact rental agencies and weigh my options. None of them are good. Best case scenario is we move in a smaller, worse place, paying more rent.

Nothing is going right for me. I know this isn't insurmountable and nothing that people haven't gone through before. But...god damn I need a break and I can't get one.

#i just needed to vent #dont reblog

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astrronomemes · 10 months

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SUM 41: UNDERCLASS HERO STARTERS (PART II)

a collection of lyrics from Sum 41's Underclass Hero album.

"Where did I go wrong?"

"I've been to hell and back again."

"Why can't I just sleep?"

"It's a free-for-all kill-them-all. Every last one of them."

"I need help to stop me from myself."

"You don't need to pray for me."

"I'm not the one to blame."

"I can't wait to see you going down in flames."

"I'll make everything all right."

"I'd fix all that I've done if I could start again."

"I know that I can't take back all of the mistakes, but I will try."

"I won't break your heart. I won't bring you down."

"I can hardly breathe at all."

"There isn't a god that can save us all."

"Just look up to the stars, and believe who you are."

"We always knew that it would come to this."

"Matters of the heart are hard to address."

"Who am I supposed to be?"

"I just don't know who I'm supposed to be."

"All I am is me."

"You should thank your lucky stars, and count your fading scars."

"No one said you had to live a lie."

"Guess that means this is goodbye."

"They're preaching something they don't understand."

"You're not a savior, or a saint."

"You don't stand a chance."

"Why do you believe it will always be okay?"

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and-claudias-world · 1 year

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His Heir pt. 29 (Darth Maul x pregnant! reader)

A/N: No, I did not mistakenly post this on my side blog. If you have not heard my main blog is currently shadowbanned. IDK when it'll get fixed but I have sent in a support form and have even tweeted to support and have yet to hear anything about it. So for now until it's fixed I'll post here and reblog to my main blog.

Warnings: Angst, dialogue-heavy... italics are flashback

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Wordcount: 3360 (I went a little overboard)

This morning I found myself standing in the meeting room going over the plan for my short trip to Mandalore. It felt more like a battle meeting than just a trip debrief. Maul was obviously worried about me, but it felt like he was going a bit overboard.

“And I want check-ins every 3 hours.” He declared.

I shook my head, “Three?”

“Yes. I need to ensure both of you are okay.” He said.

“With all due respect, that’s overkill. I can’t do every three hours. Do you really want me to wake up every three hours? I barely get enough sleep as it is.” I said.

Maul sighed, “Fine, every 6 hours, is that okay?”

I knew he wasn’t thrilled that I just snapped at him in front of the guards. He was in no way mad or upset with me, just not thrilled about what I did. So I made him a counteroffer.

“Every six hours, and as needed.”

I knew that suggestion gave him peace of mind by the way his shoulders relaxed.

“That’s everything. The ship should be ready. Guards, you are all dismissed. Lady Yn and I will meet you there momentarily.” Maul said.

I watched as they all filed out before Maul was stepping over to me. He held his hand out to me, offering to help me up. I took it but didn’t let it go once I was standing. Instead, I gave it a hard squeeze in comfort.

“We’ll be okay, Maul.” I said, bringing my other hand to rest on my stomach.

“I know, I know… I’m just worried is all. A lot could go wrong.” He admitted.

“But it won’t. Everything will be okay. 20 hours in hyperspeed, a maximum of 12 on Mandalore, and another 20 hours back. I would say you won’t even miss me, but that would be a lie, wouldn’t it?” I asked, my voice holding a slightly playful tone as I teased him.

“Missing you is a severe understatement.” He admitted, bringing his free hand up to cup my cheek.

I turned my head to press a kiss to his palm before turning back to him and leaning into his hand a bit more.

“We need to get going, the sooner I leave, the sooner I can be back.” I sighed, dreading the inevitable.

I had been able to keep my emotions at bay for the whole morning, but I could feel them bubbling up now. I took a deep breath to keep back the tears I could feel pricking up behind my eyes.

“It’ll be okay,” Maul said, I guess it was now his turn to comfort me, “I’ll always just be a com away. It doesn’t matter what time it is, or what I’m doing, I will always answer.”

I nodded and wiped the few tears that had slipped out.

“Let’s get going.” He offered me his arm.

“Shouldn’t we do our goodbyes here? If we’re too affectionate out there it may stir up a rumor.” I said.

“I don’t care what they think or say. Besides, there have been rumors about the nature of our relationship before, have there not?” Maul asked.

“I mean, yeah there have been. But that was before we…” I trailed off since I still didn’t know what to label us as.

He nodded, “If you would prefer to do it here, we can…”

“I don’t mind either way. If you’re okay with doing it out there, I am too.” I said and he nodded, offering me his arm once again.

I took it this time and tucked myself as close to him as I could, savoring these moments. Though it would only be a few days I was going to miss him. I had spent so much time with him since moving in, that the idea of not seeing him for more than a few hours was just strange.

He led us through the halls of the compound and to the hangar. When we entered I saw the guards getting into the ranks as droids and mechanics finished preparing the ship to leave. It was only now that I looked at the ship they were working on that I realized they weren’t preparing mine, they were getting Maul’s personal ship ready. He must have sensed my confusion because he leaned over to speak to me.

“I had them prepare mine instead. It has more safety features than yours does.” He explained.

I nodded, “Good idea.”

We walked over to the ship where one of the lead mechanics met us.

“Lord Maul, your ship is ready for departure.”

Maul gave the woman a nod as I spoke up, “Thank you, Tika.”

She gave me a small smile before walking off. Maul gave the signal to the head guard to begin loading up. As they walked passed us, I turned to face Maul and immediately my lower lip began to tremble slightly.

“Just a few days.” He reminded me gently.

I took a deep breath and nodded, “I know there are a lot of people still here but can I have one last hug?” I whispered.

He gave me a small smile, “Of course.”

His arms came around to hold me around the shoulders while mine went around his waist. I buried my face into his neck, taking in his scent one last time. I so badly wanted to be able to pull away and give him one last kiss, but I knew I couldn’t not with this many people watching. So instead, I opted to press a quick kiss to the junction where his neck met his shoulders. To my surprise, he also pressed a kiss to the side of my head. I pulled away reluctantly.

“I don’t care how late it is when you return, I’ll be waiting here for both of you.” He said as his hand found its way to my stomach, he was still wearing the faintest of smiles.

I nodded and took a deep breath, “I should go, they’re waiting on me.”

He gave a small nod.

It felt like time slowed as I stepped away from him and towards the ship’s ramp.

The ship was homey but still felt so cold. I decided to just go to the main sleeping quarters for a bit while we took off and got going. When I got there I couldn’t help but smile. Sitting on the dresser was a basket with at least ten portion bread packets in it and a note written on flimsiplast. The note read:

I wouldn’t want our son to go without his favorite snack. -Maul

The note made my chest swell with love. It was such a small gesture but it was the sweetest thing to me. After washing my face from the tears, I snagged one of the portions and went ahead and made it up. By the time I walked out of the sleeping quarters, we were already in hyperspace. I made my way up to the front of the ship to have a seat with the pilots for a bit.

The next 19 hours were fairly uneventful. And soon we were on the approach to the Surface of Mandalore. I was back up in the cockpit of the ship awaiting the guards on the surface to give us clearance. We were granted permission to land. I left the ship with a total of eight guards with me.

Glancing around, it felt weird to be back here after all this time. The palace was practically gone, only certain parts were still standing.

“This shouldn’t take long.” I said to the guards.

“Right this way.” Our escort said.

“I wasn’t aware that we would have an escort today.” I said.

“Well, the route to the library is littered with debris. I’m here to ensure your safety.” She said.

I shrugged it off, not thinking too much about it. We followed her until we were at the doors to the library.

“Here you go!” The escort said cheerfully.

“Thank you. You all wait here.” I said, but I was stopped by the leading guard.

“Lady Yn, perhaps we should go in and scout the area before you enter.” He suggested.

“I can assure you all, it’s secure. The only people that have ever stepped foot in the ruins of the palace are the patrol guards.”

“I think I’ll be okay.” I said before going in.

It was eerily quiet in there. Even more so than it was when I used to visit here before meeting Maul.

I knew where the book should be but I wanted to take my time looking around for a moment. My heart stopped when I rounded the corner and saw someone squatted down looking at the lowest row of books on the shelf. It only took a second for me to recognize the figure.

“How the hell did you get in here?” I asked causing her to jump and pull her blaster out.

“Damn it, Yn. I could’ve shot you.” She said, putting the weapon away.

“Oh, don’t act like you wouldn’t enjoy that, even just the slightest bit. Now tell me what you’re doing here before I call the guards.”

She sighed, “I’m here for the family book.”

“You don’t have to rights to that. Only the Mandalore does. And that’s me.”

She scoffed.

“Excuse you. Show some respect.”

“Really? You cannot be serious, Yn. The is nothing to rule over. The Mandalorian people have been scattered across the galaxy-”

“Only those who chose not to accept the traditions of Mandlore are scattered, the rest followed Maul and me to Dathomir. Just because they are not here or under Death Watch’s rule does not mean a thing. They have upheld the traditions of Mandalore, whoever wields the Darksaber is the ruler of the Mandalorian people, right now that is me.”

“I could challenge you for it. Right here, right now.” She said.

“You wouldn’t though.” I challenged.

“Oh really?”

“Really, or you would have already done it. You know that challenging me would mean killing me, and you don’t have it in you to do it… besides even if you did, it wouldn’t be you would fight.”

“Yes, it would have that’s the rule.”

I shook my head, “In the event that the Mandalore is with child and is challenged, they may choose someone to fight for them. Traditionally it’s the father of the child that fights. So you would be fighting Maul. You’ve seen him fight before, he doesn’t play fair. You would lose.”

She stayed silent, knowing I was right.

“Why are you here? What happened to me being too far gone, as you put it?” I asked.

“Someone told me you’d be here, I snuck in during the shift change of the guards… I just needed to see you, talk to you one last time…”

“I have nothing to say to you. Especially not after you insulted me, my baby, and their father all in one go.”

“I know…” She looked down and if my guard wasn’t so far up I might have believed her shamefulness, “I am sorry, not for insulting Maul. My opinion of him will never change. But I should not have insulted you or your child… I just want to know what happened. We were so close as children what happened to that?”

“Do you want the truth?” I could feel tears stinging my eyes as memories flooded my brain.

“Yes.”

“My happiest memories from childhood, since before Maul came into my life were when I just wasn’t around you. I don’t know how else to say it but being away from you I felt way happier than I did when I was with you. When we were little, I only ever wanted your approval..” I began.

When I was brought into Sundari Palace, I remember meeting my new siblings. Satine was dressed in what I could only assume was her finest gown while it was clear Bo Katan had just come from some sort of training as she wore trousers and a fitted shirt. I decided at that moment I wanted to be just like Bo Katan.

Once I was older and was learning what was expected of me, I knew being like her was out of the question, but that didn’t stop me from trying. She had caught me many times trying to sneak into the training grounds and would reprimand me every time effectively getting me in trouble with her parents.

Looking back, I’m not sure she even realized what she was doing but it doesn’t erase how it made me feel. She would constantly put me down saying that I was never going to be like her. I remember even asking her once to show me her blaster and she laughed. From that moment on I knew I had to shower her I was strong enough to be like her.

As we got older, after her parents passed, I broke out of my shell a little more in an attempt to prove myself to her. It was never enough. Nothing was ever good enough for her.

After years of failing to prove myself to her. I gave up and decided it was time to make my own path. Shortly after that is when Maul showed up. He saved me.

“Yn, that’s hardly fair, we were kids!”

“No! How dare you say that it’s not fair? You ruined my childhood. I never got the praise you and Satine got. I didn’t get the chance to choose what I wanted to do, I tried to and you put me down every single time. So don’t say it’s not fair, sure maybe you weren’t aware because we were kids. But do not stand there and tell me I don’t have the right to feel this way. Because I do. I wasn’t the one talking shit about my sisters every chance that I got.”

“I didn’t-”

“Bullshit!” I cut her off, “If it wasn’t about Satine being a pacifist, it was about me and how I was obsessed with you and how I sucked at everything I tried to do. I was only obsessed because I wanted to be you… I thought you were the fucking coolest. You were badass. I only sucked at everything because you refused to help me no matter how much I asked. I was alone. Then when Maul showed up and I tried confiding in you that he had faith in me to do something with my life you freaked out… you pushed me away even further. I guess you didn’t realize that pushing me away from you was pushing me further into the arms of the one you hated the most… So yeah, excuse me for not wanting anything to do with you anymore…” Tears were streaming down my face by the time I finished.

“Yn, I never knew…”

“How could you? You never really paid me any attention unless it was to put me down.”

There was a beat of silence before I spoke up again, “I need to find that book and get out of here. I suggest you get out of here too before I alert the guards of an intruder…”

“You can take my page out of it.”

“Why would I do that?” I asked, it was a stupid question that I knew she was just using to manipulate me into feeling bad. It wouldn’t work though.

“I mean you clearly hate me, why keep a reminder of me and all the mean things I did to you?” She snapped.

“Because it’s still history. I can’t erase it just because I don’t like it. And just so you know, I won’t talk shit about to anyone. Not even to my son, I wish I could tell him about how wonderful his aunt was, but I won’t lie to him either. I refuse to stoop as low as you did, I’ll tell him we just didn’t get along, it will be up to him if he ever wants to know you. Also, I will be making sure that Korkie’s page is updated with his mother and father actually listed.”

“Do you want Maul to hunt him down?”

“He won’t. His issue was with Kenobi. The Jedi are gone, he is satisfied with that.”

Our heads both turned as the sound of the heavy double doors being opened echoed off the walls.

“That’s probably my guards coming to find me.” That was all I said, but it was enough for her to get the hint to get out of here.

“Goodbye, sister.”

I scoffed and shook my head, “I am not you sister, I never was.”

She said nothing as she turned away and put on her helmet and ran off in the other direction.

“Lady Yn?”

“Over here!” I called out to them.

“Lady Yn, are you alright?” One of them asked when they finally found me and could see the tear stains on my cheeks.

“Hormones.” I quickly lied, “I guess being back here has caused me to have some unpredictable emotions.”

She nodded understandably.

“Any luck on the book?”

“Not yet, but I think I know where it might be.” And with that, I began to walk off to find it.

It didn’t take long for me to find it. Once I had it, I was happy to be heading back to the ship. Once we had taken off and were in hyperspace again I called Maul.

“I was starting to get worried.” Maul teased once he answered.

“I’m sorry.” I mumbled.

“What’s wrong, my love?”

“Nothing, just a long day.” I tried to lie.

He saw right through it and his face was showing his concern, “No something is troubling you. Did something happen on Mandalore? Are you and the baby alright? I can arrange to meet the ship if I need to.”

I shook my head, “No I’m alright. We both are… physically. But someone was there… Bo Katan. She snuck in under the radar.”

I could tell Maul was angry the moment I said that.

“She didn’t try to hurt us… But I finally told her everything. About why I left and why I refused to ever speak with her despite her attempts. I told her how she made me feel growing up. She didn’t take it very well… I haven’t considered her my sister for a long time, but I guess finally getting all of that off my chest and knowing that it was my last time probably ever seeing her just hit me harder than I was expecting. He probably wasn’t making it any easier either with all the hormones and everything…”

Maul was quiet as he listened intently.

“Maul, if I hated her so much, why does it hurt so much still?” I asked.

“I don’t know, darling. Emotions are something that oftentimes elude me. I only wish I was there with you to help you through them.”

“I wish you were here too…” I whispered.

I could tell by the look on his face that he was thinking.

“Give me one moment, my love.” He said before turning away from the hologram. He grabbed his com and spoke into it, “Qi’ra clear my schedule for the rest of the day. I have more pressing matters to attend to.” He said.

“I may not be there physically but I do not plan on hanging up until you’ve landed back in the hangar.”

I smiled at that. If I couldn’t have him here physically for comfort, this was the next best thing. We stayed on the call for the whole rest of the trip. I ended up falling asleep even but when I woke up he was still there. Only now he was in the kitchen, making himself breakfast wearing only a pair of sweatpants low on his waist.

“Staring is rude, my love.”

“Can’t help it.” I mumbled.

He smiled hearing my sleepy voice, “Only about 4 more hours.”

“Still too long… You’re still going to meet us in the hangar?”

“Of course, dear. I promised you, did I not?”

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groupalpha · 5 months

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(More of comic under cut)

RSbSS: Fine.

RSbSS: Prism what do you want?

EPS: I need to talk to you about the recent events.

RSbSS: Well guess what. I don't want to hear about it.

EPS: Ruby this is serious.

RSbSS: Okay? And? I've heard everything everyone has to say about it. Your words are guaranteed to be no different.

...

. . .

EPS: sigh

EPS: ... Ruby I'm trying to protect you. But I couldn't lift the punishment this time.

RSbSS: I know. They're probably super mad like usual. I'll get through it.

EPS: Ruby this is serious! I can't keep protecting you after all your violent outbursts. You crossed over a line this time, and there's only so much influence I have over Ethos and Plutus.

RSbSS: Big deal... it's fine.

...

EPS: They wanted to shut you down.

RSbSS: Wait what? But they... I'd...

EPS: I tried to convince them not to. But that doesn't change the fact that you killed of of them. You've crossed a line of no return, and you've lost the respect of everyone. I can't fix this, and you know that I can't as well.

I know that sometimes it might seem hard, but you can't just go around killing everyone that says something you don't like. You can't just do that to them, as it still hurts. Even though they will come back, it's still a very cruel thing to do.

RSbSS: You're right. I'm... I'm sorry.

EPS: ... You shouldn't apologize to me.

...

EPS: I don't know what or when their punishment will be, so I can't even let you know.

...

RSbSS: I was mad because they were talking about shutting Endless Beyond down. I don't want them to.

...

Do you think they would? I don't want anything to happen to her.

EPS: No, I don't think so. I have spoken to Nova before, and she seems more concerned about the stars. I don't think she would shut down Endless Beyond.

RSbSS: ... Voids... I really need to control myself more.

I... I don't think they'd accept my apology...

EPS: I... I'm sure you could-

EPS: Ah... voids... Ruby I... I'm so sorry.

RSbSS: Ah... I'm still... alive?

RSbSS: I mean... that's good but... something feels wrong...

Why can I not...

RSbSS: My arms! Wait... what did they do?!

RSbSS: My arms are gone! My...

...

RSbSS: a message?

LS,TBS: "Ruby Skies by Sapphire Shores, if you happen to read this message, this will be the last message you receive from me. At this point, I have decided to cross myself out, so sending a message to me would result in vain.

After what has happened between us, I, and many of the citizens of Plutus have decided to shut you off temporarily. We've decided to do this as to gain access to your puppet to remove your puppets arms. You have proven from history that you are not suitable enough to have them, but also that they are a distraction to you.

The last thing to note, is that my title will be handed off to a new ancient to fulfill the role of Prime Administrator. Their name is Twenty Amber Beads, Two Strings.

I hope that you may find a solution to our great problem.

Goodbye Ruby Skies by Sapphire Shores."

RSbSS: ... I've really screwed this all up.

part 2/2

#rain world #rain world oc #rain world askblog #rw oc #rain world iterator #rain world iterator oc #rw iterator oc #rw iterator #iterator oc #iterator #ruby skies by sapphire shores #extracted prism sunsets #ga lore #ga comic

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teamrocketmemes · 1 year

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NOCTURNAL lyric starters

lyrics chosen from Mothica’s 2022 album "Nocturnal" & adjusted into sentence starters for RP / Prompt purposes. Feel free to customize / change pronouns, phrasing, & etc as needed!

"Daylight's not for me, that's why I'm nocturnal." "Hate when the morning comes, it's light that I'm running from." "Can't fly too close to the sun, that's why I'm nocturnal." "I pretend that I'm alright 'til the lights go out." "I wish I could care less but I just care too much." "My fears don't behave logically." "I'm scared of heights, strangers at night, and socially I'm terrified." "I'm just sensitive, a vulnerable bitch." "Deadly but delicate, I'm just sensitive." "Would you read the story if the ending isn't tragic?" "Pick me apart so you can see which of the parts to keep and to leave, so I look just how you think I should be." "If I fall, will it make a sound if nobody's around?" "It's important to let go of muscle tension while keeping a simultaneous tight grip on your unresolved anger issues." "I'm a masochist, I get my fix from feeling nothing." "I won't be a casualty, a product of my agony." "They say one is too many when enough is enough." "You can be the dagger that I put in my own back." "I'm the queen of self-sabotage." "I'm the blade you've been counting on, but you don't wanna cut it off." "If you're water and I'm fire, why's the flame keep getting higher?" "Gonna make you love me, it'll be the death of us, so what?" "Make tonight the night we both regret." "Every time you leave you leave with a piece of me." "I'm scared that all this will end 'cause I'm too in my head." "Now I'm in the front seat, you're still in the back of my mind" "I can't say goodbye when you're sitting in the back of my mind." "With thousands of unrealistic portrayals of love to choose from, it's easy to get your hopes up." "But don't fall in love before you have the chance to fall in love with yourself." "I know I shouldn't fall back into old patterns and compare myself to every girl you've ever met." "I can't blame you for someone else's mistakes, and I don't want to push you away." "I still got some scars from the last time." "I let you in, goddamn, it's fucking scary." "You let your guard down like it's nothing, I'm used to dysfunction." "I didn't think love could exist if they don't die in the end." "I still sleep with all the lights on, wait until it goes wrong." "Never thought I'd write another love song." "Monsters are creeping into my head, say I don't deserve this." "Forever wasn't for me until I met you." "Wasn't looking to be saved, but damn I'm in love with your face." "Guess I'm afraid of falling right out- way up here, it's a long way down." "I don't wanna let you down." "I'm here awake again like sleep's the enemy." "When I close my eyes, I lose my mind in some twisted fantasy." "I'm no coward, I don't run from smoke and mirrors." "Sometimes, all you need is a little lullaby, to lull you into a deep slumber when you have trouble sleeping." "Given enough time, the moonlight will feel just like the warm rays of the sun." "I'm drinking poison and expecting you to die." "I'm holding onto anger with a clenched fist." "You're my absinthe, you're twisted like dark magic." "It's no mystery, you're bad for my health" "I only hate you 'cause I'm hating myself." "What would happen if I trusted myself?" "I used to be afraid, but I got stories to tell." "A stranger's a villain you haven't run away from yet." "You made your bed, now lie in it." "Used to be an optimist, now she's a loaded gun." "I hate this version of myself." "I became what they did to me." "What are you running from?" "Just stay awake with me all night." "Shouldn't have let me in, you've just made a grave mistake." "I guess they made me a monster too." "Someday I'll be looking down from a big stage." "Forget all about the heartbreak." "Look what I've made with my tears." "When they see how far I've come, I'll sit back and laugh at all the things they said." "Someday you'll see my name up in lights."

#ask meme #sentence starters #lyric memes #musical memes #mothica memes #rp meme #★ our memes.#★ mod jessie.

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beryligator · 2 years

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Script too. Only for Monty's story.

Page 1

Scene is in Gator Golf.

Roxy is sitting on the floor fairly relaxed

Monty is golfing, he’s calm, focused.

Roxy: “That was a great show, we got that crowd hyped until the end”

Monty: *soft laugh* “I can’t blame our fans for loving that performance”

Roxy “Speaking of fans”

Bonnie walks into gator golf, he’s next to someone shorter than him.

Monty “Bonnie!” *Tail wags*

Page 2

Bonnie: “Oi man, I want to introduce ya to the new worker ”

Cassidy: “Oh wow! you must be Monty and Roxy”

Cassidy: “Bonnie’s told me so much about you. I mean I’ve read the files the company provides. Security details, merchandise,all that boring stuff. But to think you all actually have ‘lives’.”

Bonnie: “I heard a customer ask about that one time, apparently it’s so the ‘illusion’ doesn’t break”

Cassidy: “Really? That’s actually kinda neat…………Oh! sorry, I almost forgot to introduce myself! My name is Casandra, but you can just call me Cassidy”

Monty: He bends down “It’ nice to meet ya”

Page 3

Show indication they were talking for a bit

Cassidy: “ I’ve been such a big fan of you guys the moment this place opened. I even bought the annual pass”

Monty thinks to himself how much of a rip off that pass actually is.

Monty: “huh..oh, I hope you enjoy working here……Casa…Cassidy?”

Roxy: “Well you should probably start heading home, the entrance will be locking down soon, and I really hate having Security bug me about not making sure everyone gets out on time”

Monty: “They really need to make it harder for kids to hide on that racetrack”

Bonnie: “ Guys, she doesn’t need to leave now. She’s part of the night crew. Her shift just started a bit early today”

Cassidy: “I was told Security would open the door early for me, but I should go back and make sure they don’t forget”

She leaves saying her goodbyes.

Bonnie “Your tail wagging was cute. ”

Monty: “....yeah Roxy, it really makes you look cute”

Roxy: “your not slick”

Page 4:

Some time has passed and now it’s just Bonnie and Monty. Bonnie is golfing while Monty is picking up stray golf balls. He sucks at it

Bonnie: “I guess I should consider myself lucky bowling balls can’t roll into bushes”

Monty: “You could help”

Bonnie: “Sure, just right after I make this hole”

Monty: “So…..Never?”

Bonnie rolls his eyes

Bonnie: “How are you liking the new girl?”

Monty: “Cassidy? She's alright I guess. I doubt I'll see her much.”

Bonnie: “She’s been assigned to that ice cream server bot. I can ask her to visit the next time I see her”

Monty: That’s kind, but I wouldn’t want her getting in trouble”

Bonnie: “I don’t think she’ll get in trouble for saying hi to my favorite reptile”

Monty: “Speaking of favorite reptile” Monty drops too buckets into Bonnie's hands, the sudden weight lurches him forward

Bonnie “Wha?!-”

Monty: “He hasn’t forgotten you were slacking.” He puts a hand out preventing Bonnie from falling “Wait…..favorite?” *blush*

Page 5

The scene starts in one of the rooms in the Daycare. It’s surrounded by do not enter under construction signs. Everything appears fine, but one thing.

Foxy “HELP!….HELP!……GET THEM AWAY FROM ME!” the staff is doing there best to calm him

Another one is paying a family money for the trouble

The scene switches to gator golf. Bonnie and Monty are on the stage. The mall was closed early because of what happened.

Bonnie: “-that’s what happened. One moment he’s playing with the kids, even getting the teens and adults to join in” “the next thing. He’s screaming. Slashing at everyone”

Monty: “Do you think he’ll be fixed by tomorrow?”

Bonnie: “The IT department tried to fix him, they even used an emergency back up they had around. No matter what happened.He would just panic and start screaming”

Monty: “How do you know all of this?”

Bonnie: “Chica told me, you’d be surprised how loud workers can get in that kitchen ”

Monty: “What do you think’s gonna happen to him?”

Bonnie:” Apparently he’s going to be sent back to the manufacturer. See if they can fix him, but after that. I was told he would be put into storage. Just until they can be certain he’s safe to bring out again”

Monty: “I’m surprised no one got hurt. That claw could've done some damage if it made contact with anyone”

Bonnie: “I couldn’t even imagine the PR disaster that would cause”

Monty: “I’m gonna miss him, but at least he won’t be gone forever”

Bonnie: “Until he’s back a lot of things are changing, Roxy will be replacing him in the main band. ”

Monty: “The battle of the band performances is going to be strane with just me against you all, but. I’m sure you all needed the handicap”

Bonnie: “Despite you never winning” he smiles

Monty: *dirty look*

Bonnie: “C'mon man don’t be so dramatic”

Mony: “I’m just playing man.”

Page 6

The scene is in the Atrium.. The main 4 are performing on stage. The crowd is massive.

The spotlight shines up onto the second floor balcony:

Monty: “Hey Fazbear! How bout these folks hear someone who can actually sing”

Chica: “oh no! Everyone, it's Monty!”

Bonnie: “Everyone knows Freddy is the better singer Monty.”

Monty: “Then prove it!” he suddenly leaps onto the security box “You and me Fazbear!”

Freddy: “Monty I know we can be friends, I don’t want to-”

Roxy: “Bring it on!”

Freddy: “Roxy, I was trying to save him from the embarrassment of losing”

The scene is in the atrium, it’s after close and no one is around.

It’s just Monty and Chica. They’re both talking

Chica: “Monty, about that performance”

Monty: “?

Chica: “You went off script. Please don’t do that again.”'

Monty: “It was Roxy’s first show. I just wanted to-”

Chica: “What? Be replaced like Foxy?!”

There’s a pause

Monty: “...Chica are you doing okay?”

Chica: “Sorry, I’m just…I’m still..sigh”

Page 7

Moments later

Chica and Monty are sitting, hints that the conversation has been going for a few moments

Chica: “..... he was always scheduled to be replaced by her”

Monty: “Foxy?”

Chica: “His popularity was depleting. You just never noticed because you don’t get to leave your attraction often.”

Monty: “He was only ‘temporarily’ replaced because of a glitch. I doubt people liking him had anything to do with that”

Chica: “People liking him is why he stayed so long despite past aggressions”

Monty: “Past aggressions?”

Chica: “I’m not sure how true it is, but I’ve heard rumors that he almost bit a kid's head.Apparently he was immediately taken away, but a week later he was back. ”

Monty: “The fans loved him that much?”

Chica: “They did, but rumors of that incident spread and it became harder for him to get new fans. Pirate Cove was never the most popular place for people to hang out. Parents didn't trust him, and would rather have the daycare attendant watch their kids while they shop”

Monty: “Alright so I made a mistake, big deal. I’m a popular animatronic, I even got a whole attraction based around me. If anything happens they’ll have my back like they'll have with Foxy”

Chica: “You can pretend not to notice, but I’ve seen the crowds disperse after every show. Ever since Roxy left no one goes to gator golf anymore”

Monty: “If you're insinuating I’m in trouble. I think you're mistaken. Roxy may have her fans, but I heard my name being chanted too. I promise I’m not going anywhere”

Chica: ”I’m holding you up to that promise.”

Page 9

The scene is in Monty’s golf. Monty is playing golf while Bonnie is waiting for his turn.

Monty: “Off topic, but.......when is Foxy coming back? ”

Bonnie: “......Monty…..did….no one tell you?”

Monty: “Well of course, he’s just in storage, but they plan on bringing him back soon right?”

Bonnie: “I’m guessing she didn’t outright tell you what she heard?”

Monty: “hmm?” He struggles to aim He clenches the handle tightly

Bonnie: “Foxy was decommissioned” Monty breaks the golf club

Bonnie: “Monty! Are you okay?!”

Monty: “......”

Bonnie: He puts a hand on his shoulder “Hey man are you doing good?”

Monty: “...…”

Bonnie: “Monty?”

Monty: “WhaA oh, it’s nothing I was just shocked that’s all. A big bombshell you just dropped yaknow”

Bonnie: “Yeah, my bad I should’ve have been so blunt about it”

Monty: …..uhm Bonnie….am I….worth keeping”

Bonnie: “Why do you say that?”

Monty: “.....it’s nothing. Can you help me set up for tomorrow?”

Page 11

The scene is in front of Monty golf, Monty is near the entrance.

Monty: “Come on into the home of the hurricane hole in one! I promise you’ll have the best birthday here!”

Montage of people dismissing him

Kid: “Mommy already payed for me to see fweddy

Guy: “Yeah, not into….the hick stuff”

Monty: “it’s rural swamp living”

Guy: “not into that either”

Older woman: “Oh dear I’m sorry but I’m afraid you’d scare my grandchildren”

Monty: “Nonsense kids love me! Watch” he kneels and smiles at the small child near the woman

The kid starts crying

The woman gives him a dirty look while Monty looks away sheepishly

Monty: “sorry….”

Bonnie comes over

Monty: “ Are you having trouble getting customers too?”

Bonnie: “Nah, I just got back from a mad rush.”

Monty: “oh”

Pag 12

Bonnie: “I’m guessing it’s not going good here

They both look towards fazer blast. A long line has formed

Monty: “How does Freddy do it? Why does everyone love him….what am I doing wrong?”

Bonnie: “Monty, you're not doing anything wrong. Really it’s just a bad day, that’s all”

Monty: “It’s not a bad day for Freddy, it’s never a bad day for him”

Monty: “Look at that line. He doesn’t have to worry about being scrapped. ABout Being forgotten.” you can tell he’s getting upset

Bonnie: “Don’t let it get to you man, his face is plastered everywhere. Of course people are gonna wanna meet him”

Monty: “ Do you think Freddy would act differently if he knew what it was like? Never having to worry about being replaced?.”

Bonnie gives him a worried look

Page 13

The scene is at Monty’s Golf, it’s nighttime now

The elevator opens to Bonnie with his bass guitar

Monty: “Why’d you bring that thing over?”

Bonnie: “I could tell that your worried about being decommissioned like Foxy was, so I thought maybe I could help you”

Monty: “you gonna serenade me?”

Bonnie: laughs “I’m gonna teach you how to play this thing”

Monty: “bu-”

Bonnie: “I know you don’t have the proper chip, but I’m just gonna teach you some basic chords. I’m sure you’ll get in no time”

Show a time skip

Monty: “My fingers are doing things I don’t think they were designed to do.”

Crack

Monty: “oh-well I got it now”

Bonnie: “It took 4 hours, At least we got a C chord out of you…..man I guess you really need the proper mechanisms to play the instruments”

Page 14

Show them playing a bit

Monty: “Do you sometimes wish he would be gone?”

Bonnie: “Freddy?”

Monty: “I was thinking, the only way I could be certain I would never be replaced is if I was the main star of this whole place”

Bonnie: “And where would Freddy go?”

Monty: “and…..well while I think he deserves to be trashed, just to see what it’s like.”

Bonnie: “You’d want to trash Freddy? That’s a bit concerning”

Monty: “Oh please ever since we heard about what really happened to Foxy everyone has been acting differently, but Freddy. He just acts the same. It’s like the news didn’t even phase him.”

He’s struggling with the guitar

Monty: “Here we all are with this bombshell that our lives are just fickle things that can be taken away because we're not popular enough to be loved. To be considered worth anything. That bear just shrugs it off!

He’s getting more upset,

Monty: “Dammit! Why can’t I get this stupid chord?!”

Bonnie: “Dude…I”

Monty: “Look at me! I’m learning this dumb intrument just cause I need to jump hoops just in hopes I stay relevant, but him. He just exists! That’s all he has to do!”

Bonnie snatches the bass from him

Bonnie: “I get it! You're upset, you're afraid of being destroyed. You don’t think he has his own problems too? You don’t know him like I do! He’s the one that recommended I teach you this ‘dumb’ instrument by the way”

Monty: “.....”

Bonnie: “You really said he deserves to be trashed.”

Monty: “of course you wouldn’t get it.”

Bonnie: “what do you mean?”

Monty breaks stuff:: “You're his favorite! That’s what it is! You never have to worry about being scrapped cause your precious Freddy will just bail you out!”

Monty: “you both just get to relax while the rest of us survive!”

Bonnie: “I can see why no one likes you anymore”

Monty: “......”

Bonnie: “.......I…..Monty….”

Monty: “Just leave”

Page 15

Show a new day in gator golf

Monty: “What am I doing wrong! It’s almost closing time and not one person is here”

Kid: “mom! I wanna play there!”

Mother: “No Daniel, I can’t afford it”

Monty: “Don’t worry about the price! I can give the kid and you a free ticket. On the house. Just tell em it’s his birthday”

Mother: “I didn’t teach my son to lie, and I planned on taking him to Mazercise before it closed”

Monty: “ Ya didn’t hear the kid! It’s obvious he wants to be here!”

Mother: “No he wanted to play Mazercise!! Don’t tell me what my son wants”

Monty: “Hey lady I’m not the one ignoring their child”

Mother: “That’s it I’m finding managment”

Monty: “Wait wait please! I’m sorry I’ll give you free tickets to that stupid Mazercise just please!!”

Mother: “Daniel c'mon I’m sorry you're not going to play any games before we leave. You can blame this incompentent robot for that. I’m gonna make sure you don’t last long here. Teaching kids to lie, and back talking to customers.”

Monty: “You can’t!” He accidentally breaks something

Monty: “No-o..I…It was an accident.”

The mother runs off with her child

Monty: “No….no…

Monty: ”.AAAAAAAAAAAAAGHAHAHHHAAHHAHA”

Cut to Monty’s Golf in shambles, destroyed staff bots are around him

Monty is destroying everything

Page 16

Chica walks in

Monty was in the middle of a tantrum and in a bit of embarrassment jumps into the ballpit to hide

Chica: “I can still see you”

Monty: “moan”

Chica: “I heard what happened”

Chica: “The kid told me”

Monty: “So you know I’m good as dead”

Chica: “Monty….I…mean….not necessarily”

Monty gives her a look

Chica: “The kid was with their parent during the whole exchange about you, they talked about this place’s history with ‘troublesome’ rumors”

Monty: “They….did?”

Chica: “It sounds like they just think the mother was trying to scam this place by making reference to those ghost stories.”

Monty: “But what about the cameras? And I destroyed property wouldn’t they?”

Chica: “I had Roxy help me fix that railing, and as for here you can help me clean this mess too. Were doing everything we can to make that woman's claim look like a lie for you”

Monty: “The camera?”

Chica: “I think you should be considered lucky that you just happened to be in a blindspot”

Page 17

Cut to them cleaning the golf area

Monty: “What are these rumors anyways?

Chica: “You…really don’t know?”

Monty: “not a clue”

Chica: “Rumor has it that the animatronics at the old facilities were created to kidnap and murder children. That the bodies of the victims were hidden in the casings”

Monty: “I….wow, well obviously it’s just a campfire story for the teens to tell”

Chica: “Why do you think that?”

Monty: “I…uh….I’d rather believe it not to be true than to think someone could hide a body in me”

Chica: “...it is a fun campfire story. I’ll give it that”

Monty: “Do you think that’s why people don’t come down here? They worried there might be a body in that ball pit or something?”

Chica: laughs “Don’t be so morbid”

Monty: laughs “Hey thanks for saving my skin, I owe you one”

Chica: “I’d thank Roxy, she’s the one that convinced me to trust you. She really cares about you”

Page 18

Monty: “Sorry I put you through all this trouble”

Chica: “It’s fine,I’m enjoying our chat, and I actually planned on coming here anyways. I should've visited you more before.”

Monty: “Thanks kindly. what did you plan on talking about before the whole….fiasco?”

Chica: “I need your help with something”

Monty: “I’ll bite, what is it?”

Chica: “I want you to help me break Freddy”

Monty: “Wha-WHAT?!!”

Page 19:

Monty: “I get he can be a bit of an egomaniac, but cmon Chica isn’t that taking it a bit far?”

Chica: “It wouldn’t be permanent, and the damage would be minor. It’s just enough to have him in maintenance for just a couple of days. They would need a quick fix in the meantime, and I spy a certain gator who’s already equipped to sing”

Monty: “I get why you asked me now, but why are we damaging Freddy? Did he get on your bad side?”

Chica: “I can’t tell you why, just trust me when I say I wish I could tell you.”

Monty: “Chica this is all, um. …….Wouldn’t they immediately scrap me if I just went and attacked the guy?”

Chica: “Not unless we make it look like an accident”

There’s a pause

Monty: “I’m not sure about this, you won’t even tell me why. I’m not sure if I can trust you”

Chica: “I trusted you, I even saved you from possibly being decommissioned. I would never put my friends in real danger. You know Freddy and I are really close. This is to help him”

Monty: “This is just to help the bear?”

Chica: “It’s all to save him, and give you the spotlight you deserve. You're both my close friends. Honestly, everyone here is. Can you trust me when I say I care about all of you? That I wouldn’t do anything to let someone be hurt? Unless it was absolutely necessary. ”

Monty “..If this all works out...I would be loved again? And if it doesn’t then the worst that happens is Freddy is in maintenance for a couple of days?”

Chica: “No one will get hurt, I promise. The worst that’s going to happen to Freddy is his shell cracking, that’s all. Nothing to his endoskeleton.”

Monty: “What do I have to do?”

Page 19

(Show the message 4am bonnie is last scene, etc for these)

(Bonnie is scene exiting his room)

Monty is waiting on the scaffolding , he’s by the button Gregory would press

Monty: “If I did everything right, the moment Freddy steps there. The whole platform will collapse.”

Monty: “What’s taking him”

He hears clattering

Monty: “Bonnie?....”

Bonnie: “I’m here, just please don’t hurt him” he’s walking towards where the spot is

Monty: “Bonnie?....wait NO, Stop.”

Bonnie: “Monty! What did you do with Freddy?”

Monty: “I’ll explain it all later, but please just shut up and leave!”

Bonnie:”What?! Listen man I’m not sure what beef you have-what the-” the creak get’s louder

The scaffolding begins to give, Monty runs from his position and tries to grab Bonnie as he falls. He grabs his arm but the sudden force rips his own off. He loses balance and falls too.

Shows the hurricane bucket and a broken screw

Monty: “Bonnie!, Bonnie!” he’s looking around frantically, his body is badly damaged but still functioning

Bonnie is on the floor, he has a broken leg and is barely on

Bonnie: “....bzztssg”

Monty: “This wasn’t supposed to happen.” he punches a wall

The bucket creeks (Vanny story will show she pushed it)

Bonnie: “bbzztt ”

Monty: “I can’t…..not l ” he’s panicking

Monty picks up a rod that fell

Monty: “I can’t let you tell anyone”

He smashes it down

Page 20

He missed hitting Bonnie

Monty: “Why am doing this….your my friend. You did everything you could to help me”

Bonnie: “....”

Monty throws the pipe.

Monty: “and I was ready to bash your face in”

He covers his face and starts ‘crying’ screaming

Monty: “I’ll get maintenance and tell them what happened.”

Monty turns around just to see the Hurricane bucket fall onto Bonnie obliterating him.

Monty is horrified.

Cassidy walks in

Cassidy: “Oh my what a mess you’ve made”

Page 21

Monty: “Cassidy!? It was all an accident, just help me get this thing off”

Cassidy: “Really? An accident. Is that what we call this?”

She shows her phone screen showing Monty breaking the scaffolding parts.

Cassidy: “I wonder what would happen if were to ‘accidently’ show this to everyone”

Cassidy: “How you ‘accidently’ smashed poor Bonnie to little pieces.”

Monty: “.....please….I didn’t mean…”

Cassidy: “Don’t worry, Bonnie just had to learn a lesson on why we listen”

She grabs him

Cassidy: “but I’m sure you’ll do much better as my accomplice”

Page 22

Monty Narration: “I used to enjoy the spotlight”

Monty Narration: “Maybe it’s to punish me”

Monty Narration: “but I still see him”

Monty Narration: “I can never apologize enough”

Show Monty mortified as he just sees an audience of Shadow Bonnie’s

A looming figure is over him

Cut to him on the catwalks of Monty Golf

He’s staring down at where Bonnie was destroyed

He starts playing his bass

“I don’t deserve that light”

End

Bonus Page

Therapist: “Why am I not getting any service?”

Therapist: “oh! Monty! You scared me. Could you call security and have them open the door for me?”

Therapist: “Monty?”

Monty: “Why couldn’t you have let it go?”

we don't see what happened.

Monty drapes the body over himself and walks down towards Roxy’s Raceway

He looks mortified

Bonus 2

Set right after he’s shattered by Gregory

A system boot up appears

“Booting up: 98, 99, 100

Boot up complete”

FPS

Monty wakes up to find his body destroyed, he can’t see out his left eye. He looks at his arms and they are a mess.

Monty: “No….no…nonononononono”

He’s holding his head

Monty: “My…b-ody”

Monty: “Everything….I’ve done…..to survive”

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vex-cti · 1 year

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I lost my best friend in 2019, and I haven't been the same since. The reason it happened was all my own fault, I had become psychologically abusive and manipulative, it hit a point she had enough. It was necessary, I had to stop. For the first time in, maybe, my entire life, had I felt I had fallen so low I needed to reconsider who I was and what the fuck was I doing and why.

Turned out I had huge ego problems and temperament issues that I never knew how to handle and that was the main source. I tried apologizing to my friend, and for a while, she accepted it, and I was determined to change for the better and not fall into my previous pitfalls.

But perhaps I didn't deserve that second chance: she decided that no, the damage was already done, things just couldn't go back. It was time to end things for good.

You can't repair a broken glass.

A couple of years later I found out she had written about me: apparently she wiped out any positive memory she had and just wished me the worse.

Again, I cannot blame her.

I've struggled with friendships and relationships since: I had a different friend who also decided she had enough, after one of my outbursts of anger. I was not given another chance this time... to be fair, she was extremely dismissive of others' emotions, never even gave me a chance to talk things out. I was really trying this time, but I let the emotions carry me again.

So any time I make new relationships I'm always trying to restrain a lot, emotionally, maybe that's for good, but also makes me feel somewhat detached.

Or maybe I've matured, I don't know, it's been long since I've had an outburst or hurt someone, I guess that's good.

But part of me always fears losing someone again, and that if I let my emotions show themselves too much it will only ruin things. Even if they're not the negative, harmful kind.

I sometimes still see myself as the monster that hurt his own friend out of jealousy when she did not deserve at all on top of all of the shit she had to deal with.

I remember it began with a sense of protection, which became possesiveness... what a fool I was.

I've talked to a friend about it and she says the only way for me to move on is to stop shitting myself and forgive.

I don't know if I can forgive it, but I think it's been long enough to just not let go of it.

It's hard to let go of something you're guilty of and the consequence is permanent, it feels undeserved. But I have no other choice if I truly wish to be someone better.

She may wish me hell: but I don't.

I may not see you ever again, and that's for good, I know you don't want to.

I just want you to be happy, wherever you go, whenever you end up in. Find whatever fulls you and enjoy your life as you really deserved. I'm sorry I was not the friend you needed, I am really sorry for all the pain I caused, and I am aware apologies cannot mend that.

I'll never stop working on becoming someone better, I'll never forget the things I did and I'll never pretend I was innocent. I will carry that weight with me. I don't need to see you again. I do cherish our good memories together, and I hope you continue to make good memories with whoever you cross paths with on your life. I don't care if you wish me hell. I will never want that for you.

Four years already, feels like yesterday when I felt the stab. The realization of what I had done, the desperate attempt at fixing things, the anxiety, the crying.. and yet I know I've grown since then and I got a lot more to grow too.

It won't be the last time I remember this, hell I know this to be true. But if this is the last time I write about it directly, maybe it's appropiate to say: Goodbye.

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motownfiction · 1 year

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first of may series, directors cut!!

omg thank you

i wouldn't say this is my favorite series? i think my favorite series is actually love will keep us together, the one about the senior retreat, because it gives us pairings we don't usually see but really need to: lucy and sam, will and sadie, daniel and steph. but you didn't ask about love will keep us together so i'll keep that short, lol.

but the rest of this response is going to be unnaturally long. so i guess i better cut it so people don't hate me, haha.

actually, idk if you remember this, but you helped me come up with the idea for first of may. i had just finished goodbye, yellow brick road and didn't know where to go next, and you were like, "what about a series that follows all the different characters on the same day in different years?" i wanted it to take place in september, but i couldn't find a song i liked with the title of a september date. calling it "the twenty-first night of september" would have been wordy and cliché. besides, that's not actually the title, and i am militant that series titles need to be song titles, specifically. it's a whole thing. either way, it was a great idea, so you know i ran with it.

the song "first of may" is a bee gees song i'd actually never heard before i started looking into songs with dates for titles. this was the only one that i could stand that would have maybe played on the radio during the range i wanted to set the series (1981-1987). it was a modest hit for the bee gees and a pretty enough song. i'm somewhat attached to it now. it's actually on an album called odessa, which of course makes me think of you, lmao.

i guess i can break this down by each character's section!

will: i knew i had to begin with either lucy or will, and i had to end with either lucy or will. they are the two leads of this universe, each other's beginning and end, and it couldn't go any other way. i chose to start with will because that was somewhat more unexpected, and i'm interested in older versions of lucy (because younger versions of lucy run the risk of being really embarrassing and cringe). this is the section i dislike the most. i don't think i dislike it altogether, but it's one that i'd go back and fix if i had the time and energy, which i do not. but like, what did i really expect? it was the first one in this now-monstrously long series. what i like best about it is just how sweet will is, even at this very young age of fourteen. he sacrifices his own coolness, which he desperately wants, to be with his friends, to make them happy, to protect them. when he puts the crown on the statue of mary during the may crowning mass after lucy falls down, he's not doing that to get in good with lucy, his crush since first grade. he's doing that because lucy is also his friend, and he wants to pick her up when she doesn't know if she can go on. he got into this situation by trying to impress her (writing a good enough essay to get chosen as one of the six may crowners; a real thing at my middle school in the 00s), but he'll get out of it by being her friend -- by being there for her when it counts. he's not even thinking romantically in those moments. what i dislike about the series is that it feels too focused on will's relationships with other people (mainly lucy, but also the other boys and his family). on the one hand, that's kind of who will is. he's the guy who looks after others and cares deeply about what they think; how they perceive him. on the other hand, it's really nice to hear from will when everyone else is gone. hopefully, that's what we'll get from the feel like a number series, if i ever have the peace and downtime to get back to it.

daniel: despite only being the second section in the series, daniel's section is actually the one i like the most. he's the character i initially felt the most distant from, but after writing this little part about him, i feel closer to him than ever. i never doubt myself when i write for daniel anymore. i think this series is a big part of why. this is the origin of daniel deluca, the casanova of st. catherine's, and it's not what most people probably expect. it's awkward and strange. one night, daniel felt ready; by the next morning, he feels just like a kid again. he's floating between the child and adult binary, and i think the vignettes in his section showcase that pretty effectively. he doesn't want to play star wars with will and sam, but he doesn't want to leave them behind, either. they all go to the mall, a place they never go, because daniel thinks that's what a guy who has sex is supposed to do on saturdays ... but he doesn't want to be there. and in the end, he doesn't get the girl. he's not allowed to be a stud for more than one night (at least, he thinks). daniel is actually the closest i have to cinderella in this universe, despite sadie's clear affection for her (lmao). i really don't know what else i have to say about this section other than it just feels right. i love the dialogue in it, i love how tense daniel is, and i love that he's the one who experiences this tension. you expect it to be sam (not will, never will, cool as he wishes he was), but instead, it's daniel. just looking for somebody to love. and in the end, he does find somebody to love. his last two vignettes are with sadie and his mother, respectively. sadie represents the love and romance to come in future years, and his mother represents the unconditional, familial love that daniel often forgets he has. when you end on that note, all is not lost, even if it feels that way.

steph: i actually like this section a lot, too. writing daniel and steph's parts in the middle, one right after the other, was also not a coincidence. i want to showcase their connection, both physical and metaphorical. i wanted to demonstrate how much they have in common and how so much of their respective adolescences are about chasing the same things, the same affection. steph is a little different than daniel, since she's only with him and sam, but they're both still looking for that same thing: a love that will last, however it looks, whoever it's from. this section gave me a lot of confidence in steph's voice, which i think i had before. it's just that now i have it better. steph is, as you and a few others know, a composite of some older characters. this is the series that allowed her to transcend all of them. it is not a coincidence that steph's section walks us through her developing feelings for daniel, despite being in a long-term teenage relationship with sam. steph is (almost) sixteen, and she's changing. she does not like things to stay the same, except for sam. he's something she can depend on. so when she finds herself interested in daniel, she's freaked out. that one hint of stability is just gone, or at least, it has the potential to go away. but is she really interested in daniel because of who he is? yes, in part. the thing about daniel is that he's a lot like steph, and when she develops feelings for him, it's largely because she's developing self-awareness. she's developing a need to talk to someone who can more easily relate to her. sam, lovely as he is, does not know what steph is going through. he's never been abandoned by a parent (at least, not in the same way, as we'll talk about sam and maggie very soon). daniel understands all of that. but because steph is (almost) sixteen, she conflates her interest in daniel's life with romantic interest in him. it's not that her feelings are illegitimate! it's just not all there is, which takes steph a very long time to discover. it's also not a coincidence that the section ends with her talking to her own single mother, susie. it just further establishes the important similarities between daniel and steph, which we need if they're just a few weeks away from embarking on their own affair. it's good.

sam: everyone's favorite character (except mine, gotta be loyal to dr. callaghan) has entered the chat. i don't say which university sam is touring here, but if anybody knows a thing or two about the university system in the state of ohio, they can absolutely tell. it's a school i know very well, and if sam weren't so stubborn about college, i think he'd fit in and really like it there (though sam is smart enough to go to at least a baby ivy, like tufts or wesleyan). regardless, i knew this section had to focus primarily on the relationship between sam and maggie. it's one i talk about a lot, but i don't think i ever really did an extensive look into it until this series. and i love it. i love how messy their relationship is. one thing i want to show (like, continue to show) is that maggie really does love sam. she wants to be a good mother to him. but he reminds her so much of herself, which means she's always afraid he's going to get his heart broken; that he's not going to live up to his full potential, like she didn't. what maggie doesn't realize is that sam's full potential is whatever makes him the happiest, and his happiness doesn't really look much like hers (though i'm not sure that's entirely authentic to who sam is -- i think he does want to lead an unconventional life, but i think he also would have been happy if that unconventionality included a partner and/or some children). this section really gave me a chance to explore sam's inner thoughts as opposed to his outer quips. i know people flock to sam for the latter (and he is so good at quipping), but he's got some very deep feelings, very deep fears, very sincere insights and confusions. i love the moment when sam realizes that college isn't like high school ... when he's in professor del vecchio's office and notices she has these really cool posters and books with fascinating titles. he's heard rumors that college is actually interesting before, but here it is -- the proof, right in front of him. if he wasn't so stubborn, so unwilling to prove his mother right, so willing to hold onto a point just to prove he was right all along, i think he would have applied to school there, gotten in, and gone. i think he would have liked it, and i think he knows it, too. but sam is always going to follow his gut. and his gut is an obstinate one. i love his conversation at the end with sadie where they talk about how different they are. that's something i want to do even more work with in the future. and like the other vignettes, i'm really glad this one ends on sam's conversation with his mother. they need to look each other in the eye more often and try to understand where the other is coming from -- try to understand that neither has bad intentions, even if they come with unseemly results.

charlie: i don't love or hate this section. it's probably the one i feel the most neutral about, which makes sense, as i'm pretty (objectively) neutral about charlie as a character. and as you can imagine, writing charlie is a really big challenge, especially at this very young age of fifteen. i have to work hard to lay the foundation for the sleazeball to come, but i also have to show the reader that charlie can be a good person when he wants to be; that there's always going to be a good person underneath all that selfish insecurity. he needs to be complex, and i think this section gets the job done OK. it's the birth of sam's promise that he'll always drive charlie wherever he needs to go, which is something i would not have ever thought of before i wrote this series. but i love that i did. i love the fender bender that foreshadows the christmas night accident in 2002 -- how everything's fine in 1985 and how that doesn't mean everything will be fine forever. that's another trick i wouldn't have thought to pull until i wrote this series, so thank you for that! i love that the small nature of the accident here gives charlie a false sense of security ... like as long as he's not the one behind the wheel, they'll always be fine. i love how you can tell that charlie thinks about this moment all the time after sam's death; how it retroactively makes the future work make more sense. and i love how focused it is on his siblings! that's another thing that makes the future work make more sense in hindsight. you feel charlie's betrayal and bad decisions more poignantly when you see actual examples of him being friends with sadie and sam; of him being friends with their friends, particularly daniel. i want to write more about the good times with charlie so that we feel that even more, but this was a good start.

sadie: this is probably the section i had the hardest time coming up with ideas for. in part, that's because i came upon it when the fall semester was really starting to ramp up (and as you might remember, that was one of the weirdest semesters of my entire professional academic career); in another part, it's because the problem i have with sadie is the same problem i have with will. they are lovely, but the thing about them is that their lives are about other people. they serve others, while most of the characters in this grouping put their own emotions first. so putting sadie in a situation where she had to think for herself was like my only option here. sadie has put others first for so long that she doesn't trust her own instincts anymore. she doubts what she's good at; doubts what she enjoys. in this section, i tried to spend a lot of time with her inner monologue as it pertains to her. i've obviously written a lot of sadie's inner monologue, but it's usually reactionary. how is sadie thinking about solving everyone else's problems? how is sadie reacting to and absorbing everyone else's shit? in this section, she doesn't really do that at all, which might be a first for her character. i don't think she's a bad character for being so focused on others, either! i think it's what sets her apart from the others; what gives her an original contribution in the cast. but i do think this section is a welcome departure from what we usually get from her, which is nice. i like that daniel encourages her to feel for herself. that's one of the reasons i think they make such a good pairing. daniel is very acquainted with his own feelings, private as they may be; sadie's feelings are always based on someone else's. they balance each other out, and i love that about them. i love that even on an average day, that's what they're able to do for each other. but i especially love that this vignette ends with a conversation between sadie and sam, one that mirrors the conversation they have at the end of sam's section. they're not that normal as siblings because they are twins, but they are very good at being twins/friends. they need each other. for as different as they are, they still echo each other. and there's nobody better to talk to about a college major than sadie's genius brother who hates formal education. he doesn't know her better than he knows himself, nor she him. they are twins, and they are themselves and each other, even when they don't realize it. sadie can think for herself when sam is around because he's the only external version of herself that exists. and i love that here.

lucy: i think i like this section? i wrote most it in kind of a hurry. i had the day to myself, completely and entirely, and i was still on winter break, so there wasn't much else for me to focus on. this is the section that made me realize how often i portray lucy in an unflattering, very critical light. i know why i do it. i'm afraid of being too generous with her, and i worry that being generous to her at all is just narcissistic. so i end up with this strange imbalance of everyone else being charming through their mistakes and then lucy, who is just an egomaniacal disaster. and she is really bad here! she steamrolls her toddler's birthday party because she's upset about a 93 on a paper! unfortunately, it's pretty realistic. i once sobbed over an A minus in fifth-grade english, and it ruined my whole night. that said, i do like how immature lucy is here. because she's still only twenty! she's only twenty, and she's getting more and more scared that she won't be able to achieve her dreams and goals ... more and more scared that her previous decisions have rendered that hoped-for future hopeless. i like that even though she's a married mother of the most beautiful girl in the world, we get to see lucy be kind of a kid in this section. we get to hear her parents both criticize her and build her up, like good parents often do. lucy usually works double overtime to be responsible, to hold everything in, but here, she doesn't hold back. she lets go in a way she hasn't been able to for a long time. it's a mistake, but it's a mistake she had to make. and i love the vignette that's not part of this series (technically) where she apologizes for being rude to mariam. lucy can be a really good friend when she's not comparing herself to everyone she knows. this section shows how her worst qualities give way to some of her best ones, too.

#asks #motown meta #pelopides #thank you!

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blglmgk01 · 1 year

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Revenge Note

Robin x black reader x Rok Lee

After 30 minutes or so, we arrived at my destination. It was an apartment building, looking like a convenience store was across the street from it. Glancing at the cab fair, I gave him my credit card, seeing as I didn't have any cash on me at the moment. The man in the passenger seat got out to get my luggage while I stayed seated inside the car and waited for my credit card back.

Once I got my card back, I stepped out of the vehicle, saying goodbye to the driver as I grabbed my backpack. I closed the door and took my luggage from the other man, thanking him while I bowed my head. I took my phone out and went to my notes, checking to make sure this is the correct address before walking towards the front gate. Inputting the code, 060301, the door clicked open and I walked inside.

Going towards the elevator since I had my luggage, I pushed the level four button with my knuckle. As the doors started to close, someone stuck their hand in the doorway, catching the doors before they closed.

A very handsome guy walked in, with a grey hoodie and earphones around his neck. He walked into the elevator yet halted once he really looked at me.

I nodded at him with a blank face, nodding towards the doors.

He seemed to realize what I meant as he stood on the other side of the elevator. I didn't take it to heart, considering I'm black and face a lot of stigma, I guess I'll just have to get used to it.

"What floor?" I asked him. He looked surprised that I spoke to him, probably assuming that I didn't speak Korean.

"Same floor." He said.

I nodded and with that, the doors closed on a silent elevator.

When we arrived at the fourth floor, I grabbed my suitcase and walked to apartment 402, which seemed right next door to his.

He seemed to notice about the same time that I did. I looked over at him and nodded my head once again before unlocking my door and walking in. Immediately, I was greeted with a fully furnished apartment, complete with a television. I took my shoes off before dragging my suitcase into a room which looks like it has all of my belongings here seeing as I shipped everything I was willing to keep before arriving here. Yet, they were still in their boxes, only having my name and apartment number on the front.

Sighing, I decided to get unpacking, dreading the fact that I would have school tomorrow.

After I finished unpacking and made sure that I had my uniform out, along with my bike by the front door, seeing as it was holed up in my room during my move. I didn't want to take the bus, in fear that I would be ridiculed and stared at. I'd rather bike to school or where-ever I have to go.

Glancing at my alarm clock, I realized it was two in the morning when I finally finished. I decided to take a quick shower, before dressing in an oversized shirt with some shorts, tying my hair in a bun and falling asleep.

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My alarm woke me up at 6 am. I pushed the snooze button before getting up and immediately going to the bathroom to take a hot shower.

After my shower, I dressed in my uniform shirt before trying to pull the skirt up. It seemed like it wouldn't fit before I realized the zipper wasn't all the way down. I muttered to myself before unzipping it all the way and pulling the skirt up. As I zipped it up, the skirt became somewhat tighter and a little higher on my butt so I put on a pair of black shorts. Grabbing my black high knee socks, I put them on and pulled them up as far as they'd go, which was a little over my knees. Going to the bathroom to finish getting ready, I didn't have time for much, choosing to do my edges and to brush and fill in my eyebrows then putting my jewelry in. I made sure I wore small earrings only, a couple of really small hoops on my cartilage. I fixed the tie on my shirt, making it hang loosely and unbuttoned the top button on my uniform shirt.

Putting a side part in my locs and putting them into a low ponytail, some of my hair jewelry dangled as I adjusted it. I grabbed my necklace my sister gave me, one with an alien charm on it and another charm with a circular shape with her name imprinted in it. I smiled, satisfied with my appearance.

Grabbing my cropped black jean jacket and my Nike book bag, I took my bike by the handles before leaving my apartment, making sure that I had my phone, earphones and portable charger in my bag. I stepped into the hallway before my door, slipping my slippers off and putting on my red checkered vans.

Once again taking the elevator, I was met with the cool morning air of outside, spotting a couple of people roaming about. Going to the convenience store I spotted yesterday, I noticed it was open.

Walking in, I quickly spotted the water and grabbed three bottles then a pack of gummies, a banana and some mint gum. Before you ask, yes I did brush my teeth this morning.

Paying for my items quickly, the older gentleman behind the desk was very surprised to see me, much less in a school uniform.

"Oh! My daughter goes to that school." He said with a smile. I slightly smiled back before nodding my head.

"Well I hope to meet her." I said back. His eyes widened slightly before he smiled brightly.

"Maybe you will! Her name is Oh Ji Na. Have a good day!" He waved at me as I walked out of the store.

I waved back with a slight smile before dropping it. I put my left airpod in my ear before clicking shuffle on my playlist. Make It Right by BTS started playing, bringing another smile to my face. I put everything in my backpack, checking my apple watch and noticed it was nearing 8:00, school started at 8:30.

I picked my bike up, and got on, making sure my skirt wouldn't flare up before I started pedaling, immediately making my way to my new school.

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Arriving there quite quickly, I got looks from students. Either due to the fact that I was black, or because I was a girl riding a bike to school in a skirt with no problem.

Getting to the bike rack, I made sure to put a lock on the wheel and the pole, making sure no one could steal it.

I decided to ignore everyone's stares, looking for a teacher to direct me towards the main office. I spotted a teacher who seemed young and very pretty. She had on a pinkish top with a pencil skirt and round glasses with her brown hair in a low ponytail. I paused my music on my wrist watch before tapping her on the shoulder to get her attention.

She turned around with a smile. Once she saw me, her eyes widened and she adapted a look of shock.

"Oh! Are you a foreign exchange student? Cobb Sienna?"

I nodded slightly, before bowing to her.

"Okay! Follow me, we have to meet with the head teacher." She turned on her heel and walked in one direction. I followed her, removing my air pod and putting it back into its case.

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"Oh! Cobb Sienna! You're here!" A man with a red sleeve greeted me with a loud voice and a smile. I smiled slightly before bowing.

"Good morning Head Teacher."

He smiled a bit more before giving me a look once he noticed my piercings.

"It's your first day, so I'm going to assume you didn't know about our uniform code. What about your piercings?"

I faltered slightly. "Do I really have to take them out?" I whined lowly, giving the teacher a sad look.

He looked at me again. "Aish! That is a lot of earrings." He clapped his hands. "How about we ignore them for now? But try to take them out tonight please, at least some of them."

He started giving me information about my schedule and classes. It was then that I noticed two boys walking up to us. One of them was the guy from the elevator. I nodded at him and he looked surprised before nodding back. The guy next to him hit him with his elbow.

"And before you go, if anyone gives you trouble, don't be afraid to speak up about it."

I nodded. I will.

I followed Ms. Maeng out of the office and took her classroom. The other two guys and another teacher falling behind.

I saw two doors and one was labeled class one and class two. I was in class one. So was the guy from the elevator.

Ms. Maeng got the class to settle down before announcing that they had two new students. She called for us and the guy gestured that I walk in first.

I rolled my eyes with a smile as I walked in. Immediately, I was met with gasp as I stood next to Ms. Maeng and the guy next to me.

"Who is that?"

"He looks kind of tough."

"He's so handsome."

"He looks cold."

"A foreigner?"

"She's so pretty!"

"Look at her skin! It's so clear and pretty!"

"Omo! She has a tattoo!"

"She has more than one!"

Ms. Maeng cleared her throat before looking towards me. "Can you introduce yourselves?"

I nodded before taking a breath."My name is Cobb Sienna. I am 17 years old and I like music and sports." I smiled at the class, my dimple appearing in my left cheek. "Please take care of me." I bowed before looking at Ms. Maeng.

She nodded with a wink before gesturing to the other guy.

"I'm Seo Ro Bin." Was all he said.

There was a pause before talking erupted again.

Ms. Maeng banged on the table before looking at RoBin. "Is that all you have to say? You can tell us a bit more about yourself."

RoBin shook his head. "I don't have anything else to say. "

Ms. Maeng nodded with a laugh. "You must be a man of few words Ro Bin. There are two empty chairs in the back, go have a seat."

The class started talking again, I just ignored it. I took the seat in between RoBin and another girl, who looked like a tomboy. As I sat down, she looked over at me. I raised an eyebrow at her before winking and facing the front. She blushed slightly before looking forward.

"Let's have a good day today!" Ms. Maeng said before she left the classroom.

"Yes ma'am!"

I put my air pod back into my ear, choosing to lay my head down. I closed my eyes before I was met with a tap on my shoulder. I huffed a breath before lifting my head up. I was met with about three boys surrounding my desk.

"Sienna, right?" One asked.

I paused my music on my apple watch before looking at him. "Yeah."

"You speak Korean very well!"

"You're so pretty!"

I shrugged my shoulders. "I guess."

"Where are you from?"

"I was born in Trinidad, but grew up in America." I answered.

"Where in America?" This big guy asked me.

"Um, I don't know how to say this is Korean. Um, Maryland?" I answered unsure.

"Maryland?"

"It's close to the nation's capital, D.C." I explained.

A chorus of understandings sounded about.

"Is that your real hair?"

I nodded. "Yep." I thought about it. "Which reminds me." I muttered before taking my hair out of it's ponytail. My locs fell all the way to my butt, being very curly because I had just taken them out of a hairstyle on the plane ride over. I heard a bunch of sounds of awe from people in the classroom as I adjusted my hair. I was only messing with it because I had a sudden headache.

"We have gym next. Do you have the uniform for class?" I heard someone ask Ro-Bin.

At that I snapped my head over. "We have gym class?"

The big guy looked surprised before he nodded. I groaned before stomping my feet on the ground slightly.

"I don't have clothes appropriate for gym class!" I huffed and pouted, crossing my arms.

"Omo! She looks so cute pouting!"

"Well what clothes do you have?" The girl sitting next to me asked.

~~~~~ Fast forward to gym class

I stood in the gym with my short sleeved fitted black Nike athletic shirt and my black Nike spandex shorts along with my volleyball shoes. My hair was back in it's low ponytail and my piercings were still in my ear and nose.

"Line up two arm length's apart!"

"One, two, go!" The class said together.

"Let's stretch!"

"Woah! You have a really nice body!" A girl complimented me, staring at what I was wearing.

I smiled slightly. "Thank you."

"Ya! Why aren't you in uniform? Your clothes are very inappropriate!" The gym teacher scolded me.

I bowed. "I'm sorry. This is my first day and these were the only clothes I had since I have volleyball practice after school."

The gym teacher held a shocked face. "Why would you play volleyball in that?"

"Well, seeing as I have to move around a lot and jump very high, it makes no sense to wear such loose clothing, it slows me down. Also, my clothes shouldn't have an impact on my education because I'm a human being, not here for other people's pleasure. "

"Are you smart mouthing me?" The gym teacher took a step forward.

I smirked. "Ah, I forget." I bowed again. "I apologize Teacher. I see you are not used to people younger than you indulging in a conversation where I express my opinions. It seems you lack the intellect for such conversations. I'm so sorry."

He nodded with a smug look and stepped back. I smirked again, waiting for him to get it.

He looked like he was thinking about my words before he glared at me. "Hey! Who do you thi-" His words were cut short when his phone rang.

"Hello? Yes? Ah, I will be right there." He hung up the phone before looking towards the class president. "Hey! Class president! Have the guys play basketball and the girls play dodgeball. I'll be right back okay?"

The class separated, girls going to play dodgeball. I stayed where I was, choosing to ask the class president.

"Hey! Can I play basketball with you guys?" I asked sweetly.

"Yea right. What does a girl know about basketball?" The class president laughed while holding a ball.

I clapped my hands and held them out to him, gesturing for the ball. "Come on! Let me see."

He laughed again and bounced the ball. "You're a girl. Girls play dodgeball. So go over there."

I glared before walking forward and snatching the basketball out of his hands. Dribbling the ball, I stood straight and tossed it. It went inside the net.

I turned to face the class president. "All I wanted to do was shoot the ball. Now I know you're sexist." I rolled my eyes and walked to turn away from him. I heard boys snickering as I walked over to the girls.

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Quite some time passed as everyone was playing, except for Ro-Bin. He stayed on the sidelines for a while before a boy asked him if he wanted to play. I watched him play as often as I could without getting hit in the face with the dodgeball. He was very good.

"Let's change the rules." This girl said. "From now on, it's ground dodgeball."

"Ground dodgeball?" I asked.

"You know right? You won't be out from just getting hit. Here we go." She said before bouncing it towards the only girl still in her school uniform. She caught and bounced it back on the other side.

Another girl with a bun caught it and threw it straight at her. It hit her arm. This was going on for a while, the other side bouncing the ball and getting girls out. When the girl with the bun threw the ball at my teammates face, I stood in front of her, catching the ball with my right hand.

"Hey! What do you think you're doing?" A girl called out to me.

I cocked my head at her. "You seem like a brat." I said out loud. Cocking my arm back, I threw the ball at the girl with the bun. She yelped as it hit her shoulder. The ball rolled back over to my side. I bent over to pick it up. I looked from the ball to the girl, who was rubbing her shoulder.

I shrugged as I dropped the ball. I turned to the girl, sticking my hand out. "Sienna."

She took my hand hesitantly. "Oh Ji Na."

"Hmm? Ji Na? Your father told me that I would meet you here. "

"My dad?" She looked so confused and hesitant.

I hummed. "At the convenience store this morning."

"Oh." She muttered.

"Yah!" The girl from earlier shouted as she threw the ball straight at Ji Na. Making her fall to the ground.

"She feels no shame." One of the minions said.

"That's why she would even cheat on the test."

"Do it right. It's so boring because of you."

I rolled my eyes. "Ignore them." I said as I helped her up. "Some human beings aren't worth the effort."

The girl with the bun started bouncing the ball again, when the girl that sits next to me came by. She snatched the ball from her, bounced it and it hit Ji Na's arm.

"You're out." Was all she said before she walked away.

"Whose that?" I asked Ji Na, who was staring at the girl who walked away.

"Oh? Thats Ha Rok Hui. "

"Rok Hui." I muttered to myself as she walked away.

Suddenly, a ball was thrown at the bratty girl, hitting her head.

"Who did that?!" She shouted in anger.

Ro-bin raised his hand. "I'm sorry. The ball slipped out of my hand."

She suddenly turned cute. "You should have been more careful. "

Ro-bin stared at her then walked away.

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Gym class was over and everyone was in homeroom.

I sat in between Rok Hui and RoBin, choosing to discuss with the former, since RoBIn had his earphones in.

"Hey, Rok Hui." I called her name before turning to her.

She hummed before facing me.

I smiled. "That was cool what you did for Ji Na earlier."

She seemed taken aback. "Ah! That was nothing, I was just playing the game."

I winked at her again. "Your secrets are safe with me."

Ji Na returned to class and threw something away. As she looked closer, she noticed her gym uniform was in the trash. Sighing, she picked it up and sat it on her desk with a dejected look. I looked from her to the bratty girls who were snickering. Narrowing my eyes at them, I muttered a curse under my breath in English.

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Walking home after practice, I walked past a place that seemed like a club. I smelled hamburgers emitting from there and my stomach growled. I sighed to myself.

"Mine as well get dinner."

I walked up to the door and got stopped by a bouncer. He took one look at my volleyball uniform and my bag on my shoulder, then looked at my slightly frazzled appearance, sensing I was tired.

He nodded his head at me before stepping inside.

I nodded back before going in and immediately going to the bar counter. I knocked on the counter twice before calling for the servers attention. It was a guy in a black shirt with a silver chain, from what I could see from the waist up.

"Hello, I just want to order to go." I said.

"Sure." The guy said before turning around. Immediately, we both stopped.

"Ro Bin?"

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elias-the-corvid · 2 years

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I've been... really bored lately. But the kind of bored that makes me feel pain. The kind of bored that just makes me think "is this all there is to life?". I'm too aware of everything but I also know almost nothing, my days feel so fucking long they never end but I don't have even a tiny portion of it for myself. School is so easy and yet the anxiety never goes, I KNOW I probably won't fail, and even if I did, school isn't really important, but it's my whole world, I can't care for other things because I'm trapped between my house and my school. I hate how many people tell me to "give my all because life is hard", then see me feeling like shit and tell me "it's ok to fail and life also has good sides". No, it doesn't have good sides if everything good is tainted by the same people that tell me to enjoy it. Every happy moment I try to store safely, because I know it will end and I know it will hurt and that just makes it a sad memory.

Everything is too much and too little at the same time. I feel like shit and I feel like I shouldn't feel like shit because I'm having a great life, but that's negative self talking! I should stop and let myself fe my feelings! why has it been 2 years of feeling? 3 now? wow! I guess I should celebrate! so much therapy and for what? just to ~know~ what I'm feeling??? I already knew that, it's not going anywhere. WHY IS EVERYTHING SO COMPLICATED?

and yet things are simple. Wake up, eat, go to school, do my work and chat with friends. Go back home and sleep. Maybe, if it's a ✨fun day✨ I'll do something artistic. That's it. That's what life is. That's all there is to it because if I even tried to do something else I would drop dead from exhaustion. Because my body can barely hold me and it's my fault. Because I could be doing so much better and I'm not.

I'm ✨such a talented person✨ and ✨an honest and good student✨. I'm an artist and a pretty person (took a long time to believe that, but I do so now). I'm nice and always ready to lend a hand. I know what my boundaries are and make people respect them. I try to see the beauty in everything and I make every moment worthwhile. I take care of my friends and family because I know I could lose them any time, I make every goodbye the best I can, just in case it's the last memory I'll have of them. I'm a role model for some people. I know all of these things and yet I still feel horrible. I still feel like it's just not worth it, all the work I do.

I don't even know which of those things have been said to me and which I have thought myself. My brain isn't mine only, always sharing it with this annoying guy who won't stop talking and having opinions on what I think and choose to do. I don't even think he's real! and yet, he's been with me since I can remember. We've always fought but it's ok, when none of my friends will talk to me, he will. This is normal isn't it? no? then what the fuck is wrong with me?

I can't rely on anyone else because I accidentally surrounded myself with people who are either too mentally healthy to get what I'm saying or too mentally ill to say anything that isn't "heh, same" and I just need someone to tell me what to do, how to fix it.

What I'm about to say may be really fucked up but I just don't wanna go through all of this anymore. I don't feel like life is worth the hype, it's severely overrated. I've heard how people talk about their abusive partners and how they talk about life and it always sounded a bit too similar. "yeah, they hit me and make me feel guilty for everything, but sometimes they're nice! you just gotta wait a bit, be nice, and see the good parts! it's all worth it in the end." I don't want to "see the good in life" (I've tried that for so many years) I want it to actually FEEL good. I want to wake up and not think "I wish I hadn't woken up". I want to stop thinking what I'll write in my last letter and who I'd prefer found my body. I want to stop thinking how it would affect my family and friends.

I hate that if I found this in my notes 3 or 4 years ago I would not be surprised. Have I really not gotten better at all?

I just want to be fine.

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astroandstuff · 2 years

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✽ Placements as Avery Lynch Songs ✽

Hey there! I'm back with another placements as songs post! I love doing these and I love Avery lynch so I hope you enjoy this!

Earth Venuses: Wont Even Know it -

"And I still know what it felt like the first time you looked at me I remember the whole thing like what I was wearing Hoped you thought I looked pretty And I've been falling deeper in and you have no idea And I'm too scared of saying it 'cause I know That those feelings aren't there So I'm gonna keep on falling in And I'm gonna keep on hoping one day I'll get over it"

Cancer Dominance: I Put You First, And You Did Too (as written) -

"Acting like you love me just to leave me Nothing could prepare me for what I thought you'd never do But you know it made you look so crazy Saying that you wanted to protect me From all of the people that hurt me like you do Cause I put you first, and you did too And all of our fights about who loved who most, I won At least I'll sleep tonight knowing I never loved you wrong"

Leo Moon: All I Need (the distance song) -

"And I'm sick of kissing you in my head Oh baby, tell me, when can it be real instead? 'Cause I would do anything to be close to you again And it's hard being here half empty When somewhere different is my favorite part of me If I could just hold you for real That's the only thing I'll need"

Air Dominance: Holding My Own Hand -

"Guess you only want me when I'm there to fix you And the part that kills me is that I'd still love to But I just want to thank you for not being there for me And I think you should know just what your selfishness has taught me And even though it hurts like hell to feel alone again Because of you, I got a chance at holding my own hand"

Pisces Placements: Love Me Nicely -

"'Cause we both know you make me cry and it hurts you Then I'll stay and comfort you saying I'm fine And we both know I deserve better than all of this But I'll still be there to kiss every night And no it's not fair to me But I don't want anyone else 'Cause I know that you love me but could you love me nicely"

Capricorn Placements: I Lied -

"'Cause I don't usually get caught up in stupid love But here I am completely broken up over someone I said like seven times to your eyes, "I'll be fine" I know I said goodbye, but what if I lied? I don't wanna be without you, swear I tried to I told myself there's more than you But I'm so unconvincing Can't fake it for a second, I take it all back I want you more than I'd like to I tried, but I lied"

Gemini Moon: Out of Love With You -

"Something switched in me you know A change I never thought would come And I don't know what went wrong With me and you But I didn't mean to fall out of love with you No I didn't dream in a million years this is what I'd do"

Fire Dominance: Over It -

"Honestly I don't care really what you're doing You might need somebody to hold onto Thinking all of the songs I write are for you Truth is I don't know how you came up with this But I'm over it I think you hate it, that I'm not hating life without you And the things that I do for myself they were never about you "

Water Moons: To Love Someone Else -

"'You're perfectly good Probably better But please don't waste your pretty time on me 'Cause I could fall for you if I wanted to And I could get attached and love the hell out of you Yeah I could fall for you if I let myself But I don't think I'm ready to love someone else And I hate him for not letting me feel like I can finally breathe I hate it"

Taurus Venus: Not Ready Yet -

"Maybe I don't wanna forget, no And i've been real tired of pretending That there's someone better just waiting And I don't think i want that Yeah I don't think i'm ready yet And maybe I'll move on when I've felt it's long gone But I don't think we're there yet, no"

Sagittarius Placements: All I Wanna Know -

"I'm dying to ask you 'bout everything Even though knowing your answer might hurt me If what we had was real love And there's no denying it Then you knew when you ended us What we would be losing And I know it wasn't easy But all I wanna know is baby When was the moment you felt it When you knew you wouldn't regret it"

Libra Dominance: Sh*t People -

"I finally found it so exhausting it’s been so long That I’ve been who everybody takes it out on Yeah I’m stuck with some shit people in my life Don’t get me wrong good ones make it fine But it still gets hard sometimes And I always internalize And I hate that I’m never on my side I got these shit people in my mind And they never treat me right And I’m so tired of justifying"

Scorpio Venus: Round & Round -

"You're the prettiest mistake I'll ever let myself make Yeah you're the person I most hate but I can't let get away You take me Round & round & round And I don't think I wanna get down You take me Round & round Round & round But please don't let me down"

Saturn Dominant: The Closest to That -

"And all you do is love me I have no reason to worry But I'm convinced that someone's gonna want you And I'm scared that then she'll be the better other half of you Oh what if she's been the one for you And I'm just the closest to that That you have ever had"

- S 🤍

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rogue-durin-16 · 3 years

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AN UNUSUAL YEAR (Part IV/V)

Summary: After having little to no interest on girls for five years, Fred suddenly feels the need to nag the shit out of a certain witch, completely oblivious to the reason behind it.

Pairing: Fred Weasley x Slytherin!Reader

Genre: fluff (+ enemies to lovers)

Taglist:

An unusual year: @natural-hearts @manuosorioh @lumos-solemn @westyywifee @whiskeyn-rain @warlock--protection @gossip-girl-ecr @fandomscombine @birdy944 @28cnn

Permanent taglist: @elia-the-bibliophile @randomparanoid @karlthecat15722 @thebutchersdaughtersblog

Warnings: none

A/N: BOI IS THIS LOOONG. I knew this part would get a bit out of hand since I wanted to write all of this in the same chapter but still damn. Anyway, enjoy <3

Part I

Part II

Part III

Part V

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"You sure you don't wanna come to the ball?" I asked Mathilda, climbing down the dormitories' stairs.

"No, I'd rather stay..." Her mouth opened in agape when she saw me. "You look... Wow."

"Why, thank you." I replied, walking towards my best friend with a smile. "I'll probably be here before 10:00 pm." I assured her, squeezing her shoulders. "And we can gossip a bit."

"Already looking forward to it." Mathilda patted my hand with a chuckle. "Have fun, will you?"

I nodded and waved her goodbye before leaving the common room.

"Bloody hell, Y/l/n!" George, who as promised, had been waiting for me at the entrance of the dungeons, shamelessly though harmlessly, checked me out. "You clean up nice, huh?"

"Of course I do." I walked to meet him at his spot. "You don't look so bad yourself, Weasley." With his chin up and a proud smile, he offered me his arm, which I gladly took, and we headed off to the Great Hall.

A fairly big crowd had formed at the doors, mostly conformed by people who were waiting for their partner slash group, and some not-so-subtle gossips.

While I intended to go straight into the Hall, George tugged me away from the shortest path, claiming that he wanted to 'have an overall view'.

I reckoned he had something else in mind when we passed by Fred and Angelina, both immersed in their conversation until my friend caught a glimpse of us.

"Damn Y/n!" I held back George, who was playing dumb for some reason, and made my way to the couple. "You look SO good, doesn't she, Fred?" She nudged her partner, giving him a knowing grin.

"I guess you look nice." His nonchalant reply was accompanied with a shrug.

"She looks breathtaking, actually." George's correction left me staring at him speechless. "Just like Angelina."

Oh well. "Yeah" I agreed, clinging onto my partner's forearm, finally getting a vague idea of what was going on —not quite there yet, though. "Angelina, love, you look astonishing, right George?"

"Right." I could see my friend's cheeks reddening ever so slightly whilst making eye contact with George.

"Shall we go in?" I suggested, already heading to the gates.

FRED'S P.O.V

'Breathtaking' was the exact word I was thinking about when Angelina asked me about Y/n, and George knew it.

The girls probably didn't catch how my jaw dropped when I saw her, but my brother did.

He knew it.

"Go with her, yeah?" I requested to Angelina, gesturing at Y/n and at the Great Hall simultaneously. "George, can I have a word with you?"

He nodded and whispered "Go on, ladies." before walking to me. "What is it, Freddie?"

"What's your game?"

"I think I don't follow." The fact that he had the nerve to speak that blantant lie angered me more than I would ever admit.

"Why is she your date?"

"Why is she not your date?" He retorted, triggering a gasp from me, followed by a scoff. "You're not only completely oblivious, you're also a coward."

"Beg your pardon?" Was the only thing I could bring myself to say; I blamed the shock caused by my brother's nonsense.

"AND you stole my date." Oh, so this was about Angelina. "Now if you excuse me," he patted my back a couple times. "I'll go dance all night with MY absolutely breathtaking date."

"Have fun with Slytherin girl, Georgie." I replied, sprinting to reach him. "I'll go dance with our beautiful Angelina."

"Tosser." I could hear him say as I jogged into the Hall to reach the girls.

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READER'S P. O. V.

George probably wasn't the best dancer, but he clearly knew some moves, and made me want to stay on the dancefloor for a good couple of hours, having a great time.

That's one of the reasons why I decided to help him out.

"Oi!" He leaned on and I stood on my tiptoes, holding onto his forearms so I could speak directly into his ear. "Wanna dance with Angelina?"

"Maybe" He slightly pulled away and both our gazes spotted the girl, dancing madly with Fred. "Yeah! Yeah I do!" He shouted so I could hear him over the music, now that we were apart.

"Alright, come!" I tugged his hand and together we narrowed the already short distance between them and us.

The timing was perfect, almost as if it was meant to be like that; the moment we reached them a slow song started to play.

"Angelina, may I steal your date for a dance?" I requested, not waiting for Angelina's nod before letting go of George and tugging Fred's hand. "You can have mine." I spared my friend a teasing smile and a wink while I pulled her date away from George and her.

"Stealing me away, huh?" Once we were far enough, I spun around and held up one of his hands, his left one falling on my waist and my right one on his shoulder. "Eager to be near me again, Y/l/n?"

"So I'm not 'Slytherin girl' anymore?" I raised my eyebrows at him with a smirk on my face as we swayed.

"You heard that?" All from sudden he turned somehow self-conscious.

"This may come as a shock to you," I peeked over his shoulder to check on George and Angelina. "but you two are quite loud."

"I didn't mean it." His word had way more regret than necessary for something as stupid as what he was sort of apologizing for.

"I know." My eyes returned to his just in time for him to made me twirl and pulling me back to him, this time a bit closer than we were before. "Asking Angelina out was a shitty move." I pointed out.

"You won't believe me," he began, "But I completely forgot." I snorted. "I swear!" His eyes widened and both our mouths twisted into an amused smile. "She was near me when Ron asked me who I'd be taking, and I didn't think twice."

A soft, genuine laugh escaped my lips; one which made the boy in front of me smile.

"Is he pissed?"

"Earlier? Very. Now?" I gestured behind Fred, urging him to look at his twin brother, now kissing Angelina. "I don't think so, no."

This time it was his laugh that made a smile tug the corners of my mouth.

"You do look breathtaking." He spoke quietly, almost in a whisper. "Dunno why I didn't tell you earlier."

"Because you're a twit." He chuckled, shaking his head with his eyes fixed on our feet. "You look very handsome, though."

"I am very handsome." He corrected me, looking at me again, now with that damn smug face.

Out of every possible comeback, I chose the one that he expected the least. "Yes, you are." His cheeks turned mildly red and his grin fluttered; I counted it as a win.

"You're beautiful." He returned the compliment, after a moment of silence, to which I responded with a confident 'I know'. "So cocky."

"That makes the two of us." I pointed out.

Silence fell among us again. Comfortable silence, though, one that I could get used to.

Another twirl, another pull to stand even closer.

A small lean was enough for my head to rest against his chest. I blamed tiredness for the need to do that, but I didn't find anything to blame for the way his heart was pounding against his chest, nor for that strange feeling in my stomach.

As soon as he took a deep breath, we both eased into each other's arms, giving up the tension that our bodies had held.

We stayed like that for a while, until I looked around and realized most people had left, George and Angelina included; the dancefloor was now almost empty.

"I don't know what time is it," I spoke, letting my fingertips trace random patterns over his shoulder, dancing down to his chest.

"Me neither" he spoke, making me sway.

"I reckon this is the longest we've been together without jumping down each other's throats." I observed. "And it's probably the longest—"

My words died when, without any kind of warning, his lips landed on mines.

His right hand unconsciously gripped mine for an instant with such force, almost as if it was holding onto it for dear life.

Before I could even think about kissing him back, he retreated back to his previous position, offering me a smile I couldn't decipher accompanied by a wink that made him look relaxed an confident.

All façade, I thought to my self, as he said nothing —no teasing, no cracking jokes; he just kept slowdancing, his hands now more loose, seeming like he was prepared for me to run away; his gaze was also casted down and his cheeks flushing.

I would have teased him if it wasn't for the way I felt my own face burning.

I did let go of his hold, and he subtly stepped back, lowering his arms.

Just like me, he didn't have time to react when I pulled him down, cupping his cheeks for a proper kiss, which he returned instantly.

I felt both his hands on my hips as he leaned on, drawing me against him as close as he possibly could, while my hands left his cheeks to circle his neck.

All of a sudden I remembered that I needed to breath; I broke away, leading my hands to his shoulders, where I could feel how heavy his breathing was.

"What's just happened?" I mumbled, my eyes fluttering open to look into his.

"Dunno." He confessed. "Did you like it?"

"Very much." I replied instinctively, not bothering on thinking it through.

"Wicked." He muttered against my lips before going in for the third kiss, this one more heated.

With a hand on his chest i slightly pushed him away, scanning the place around us before asking, "Wanna go for a walk around the castle?"

"Please." His response was so immediate that we both had to chuckle at it.

"Wicked." I mocked, earning a playful push from him. I my fingers interlaced with his and I led the way.

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FRED'S P. O. V.

"Shhh!" I playfully shushed Y/n's giggles, loosely hugging her from behind with my lips pecking her shoulder as we went downstairs in the direction of her House. "You don't want us to get caught, do you?" I let go of her waist just when we found ourselves halfway through the corridor.

"Merlin's beard—" Y/n, who had turned to face me, widened her eyes at the sight of me under the dim lights of the dungeons. "You're a mess." She whispered between quiet laughs, raising her hands up to my face to try and remove some of the lipstick stains she had left all over me.

"Don't you dare laugh, woman." I feigned pain, only making her giggle more. "You made a mess out of me."

She held my chin and moved my face from side to side, checking if she had made it any better. "What am I supposed to do with your neck?" She huffed.

"Place a couple more kisses there?" I suggested with a smirk, fixing her hair as best as I could. "Or a bite, you choose."

"I'm serious." Her thumb gently rubbed the side of my neck, sending shivers down my spine.

"Let them there for people to see." I was joking. My tone was playful. I didn't really mean it.

It was just a joke, right?

Her hands slid down my chest before leaving my body. "I'd rather not to." She replied absent-minded, making me realize that maybe I wasn't joking; maybe I wanted people to see— to know.

She didn't, though.

"Hey, everything's alright?" She questioned, concern making its way to her face when her eyes found mines.

"Of course." I replied— no, I lied. I lied to her and to myself. "Just tired."

"No wonder why." She laughed at her own innuendo, but the only thing she got out of me was an unenthusiastic half smile. "I'm gonna head back now." She added, probably sensing something wasn't right. "Get some sleep."

"I'll go have a shower." I informed her, stepping back in the stairs' direction without breaking eye contact.

"See you in a couple of hours." She responded, mirroring my moves, but towards her common room.

I nodded briefly before heading up to my own House, craving a cold shower to shake her voice off my mind and detach her touch and kisses from my skin.

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