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#i hate uni already
jorrated · 5 months
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thinking about how this is my last year of uni
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handweavers · 2 months
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had to get a new warping board for my loom bc mine broke several months ago and i haven't had the energy or will to fix it (it's a handmade wooden one my late stepdad made for me, so i WILL fix it i have to fix it for sentimental reasons but i just can't right now) so after putting it off for ages i finally bit the bullet and ordered a new one. i hate how expensive this equipment is it's literally just 4 pieces of wood with dowels wym it's $160 kms. whatever i can finally weave again
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non-un-topo · 2 years
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I love you wired headphones I love you non-touch screens I love you thick laptops I love you devices with buttons I love you phones with non-glass edges I love you usb ports I love you dvd and blu-ray players I love you discs I love you cars that don’t have screens I love you menus you don’t need wifi to read I love you mp3 files
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lyxchen · 6 months
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Tired? Overstimulated? Or just dead inside?
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arinishi · 1 year
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I said this in the comments of the new TGS page already but I’m gonna put it on here too 👀
I think there’s an important difference in how Jekyll treats Lanyon after their night together.
All the other boys that Lanyon was with were immediately flustered by Lanyon’s flirting and allowed him to have more power in their relationship; they ended up putting Lanyon on a pedestal of sorts. With that power that Lanyon is given by the other boys, he feels as though leaving them is easier, almost punishing them for their vulnerability.
But with Henry, I’m expecting that he doesn’t respond to Lanyon in the same way as everyone else did. He knows what will happen if he shows signs of attachment, so he acts just as casually as Lanyon does. He treats him like an equal in their relationship, as though their feelings and wants are the same. This “lack of attachment” ends up meaning that their relationship lasts eight months and Lanyon is devastated to end it, so I wonder what the progression of feelings was like over that time for both Jekyll and Lanyon 👀✨
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mothlau · 11 months
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dorlene au where they're both professors (thinking linguistics for dorcas and maybe something in stem for marls) and they're rivals!!!!! dorcas makes her yearly presentation on descartes at the beginning of term? the stem kids are all talking about it because professor mckinnon keeps shitting on it in class instead of actually teaching. marlene has a big science thingy experiment she's trying to convince investors to fund? oh you bet your ass dorcas is presenting why the experiment will fail and pulling out articles from the depths of jstor when they're meant to be presenting coserius theories (oh, marlene has so many opinions on coseriu even though she doesn't even speak any romance languages).
everyone is just waiting for them to fuck it out of their systems so that kids can actually learn shit and not just evil plots to bring the other down. the faculties have bets going on for how long the whole circus will run (so far remus is in the lead with his winnings).
now there are some who believe that oh they're married, this is their weird form of foreplay, but nope. they're not married. they're divorced (something something they got married too young and were both bad at communication) and they're still very much in love with one another :)
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ducktollers · 2 months
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got a sortof interview for a research assistant job tomorrow and sooooooooo scareds :D
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#delete later#sortof bc its basically already mine since my mom works there and said the current assistant sucks so bad theyll take Anyone with a degree#and theyre desperate#and its super casual and low intensity but still stressed tf out#bc i havent done anything non routine since december and my anxiety has gotten soooo bad and im soooo bad at talking to people#and ik the antidote is doing things again which is why am i doing this but. scary#and time is moving too fast and im so lost and i hate my stupid fuckass grocery store job and idk what to dew w my life rn#cannot stop reminiscing abt the life unlived and the time lost and while i do that i am not living anf losing time#😃😃😃😃😃😃#cannot stop thinking abt how my school life is simply over and i missed it i wasted it its Over 😀 no more chances#didnt make ONE friend in 5 years of university didnt join anything didnt do anything except mentally deteriorate#uni is supposed to be the source of so much life and experience. and yooo i missed it 😂yooooo omg its too late for me 😂😂😂#i rememebr before crossing the stage at high school graduation i was like. rn im in the part of my life before graduation#and in a minute suddenly im gonna be in the after#and then i realized recently. im in The After of university. the moment passed and i missed it#there is no more chances theres no more ‘next semester ill make friends’ theres no more Anything it is Over#time keeps going so fast and yallll i cant go back lol 😂😂😂 brooo wtf nobody told me u can never go back 😂#dawg i havent felt alive even once since leaving high school 😂 yo i peaked at age 17 😂 yo jm about to turn 23 and my last memory is being 19#yooooo whered the time go 😂😂😂😂 brooo where does it keep going lol come back wait up im runnin out of time 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂#x
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mayathescientist · 4 months
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I don't trust people who are obsessed with cleanliness and personal hygiene and rely on their feelings of disgust to make a moral judgement or form an opinion about a person.
I don't trust people who make conclusions about people very easily and like to claim people with one or two words they use to define this person's place in their eyes.
I don't trust people who are popular, sociable and talk about others a lot. I don't trust people who measure everyone by how that person compares to them.
for no particular reason at all :)
#maya posts#talking to mia#vent post#Almost#I hate my roommates and the way they talk about other people behind their backs and how they treat me with discreet contempt when I'm here#and how they no doubt already talked so much shit about me when I wasn't there considering discussing other people is this favorite pastime#they're also friends with our class leader which no doubt shaped her opinion about me loooool#can't wait to turn into an exile in my uni class too hell yeah#they know nothing about my personality my interests etc and frankly they don't fucking care#as long as they see that I'm fat obviously neurodivergent in my patterns of communication and have poor hygiene and have to build self care#habits from the ground up after years of untreated mental health issues#as long as they see I don't go out as much as them don't have many friends or a boyfriend and don't rly have what's considered achievements#their judgement on me is sealed#and it would be fine if they just thought i was a loser because well socially I am and they think so too#they literally pretend I don't exist. like it's just the two of them living in the room.#all of the decisions are made without me. they cook for themselves I cook for myself. my attempts to even ask if I can move something while#cleaning are IGNORED.#all of my attempts to mend our relationship by giving them awkward gifts or clean the room every other day since I know how obsessed with#cleanliness they are#all of my attempts to make peace were IGNORED.#whenever someone knocks on our door it's always one of their friends looking for them#I'm a nobody#absolutely a nobody#I literally just don't exist.#also these girls are extremely lesbophobic and just bigoted in general I don't think they know anything about my queerness but they might be#just kinda able to tell#I literally wear boxers and flannel shirts and I own a shirt with a male cut and I have extremely short hair and wear exclusively trousers#I don't think they haven't noticed#considering the fact they cared enough to notice how often I was my hands
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rockieriel · 1 year
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gonna make a masterlist of hilson lyrics from fall out boy’s discography, stay tuned cause it’s gonna take a while
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creatureesque · 7 months
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The main reason i dont like uni is going to class and seeing everybody hang out together and or talk and ect ect Whenether someone comes in they almost always already have somebody waiting for them. Its only been a few months how did they all become friends already
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cantsaythetword · 6 months
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I think I've just accepted 2024 is gonna be kinda shit lmao
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there’s being a teenage girl in your 20s then there’s whatever the fuck the babyface by sorry mom experience is
#i absolutely hate the phrase ‘teenage girl in your 20s’ idea it’s infantilising and will only stunt yr mental + emotional development#because if you keep doing that you’ll be 30 something saying shit like ‘i’m a 21 year old in my 30s’ which just sounds worse lol#and so on#and it’s not exactly a new phenomenon either bc women (mainly) will say they’re 21 with x amount of years extra experience#it’s just. idk. the obsession with perpetual yourh looks worse on people who are already young i guess#anyway back to babyface sorry mom. the album of all time; resonates with the ‘teenage girl in your 20s’ idea#(which for me has always been about being directionless and lost in life and feeling younger because you can see all your other 20-something#friends grow up and get jobs and finish their degrees n shit. and that makes you feel younger; almost teenager like)#(whereas i see a lot of people saying ‘teenage girl in my 20s’ as a way of almost bragging about being immature??#like not knowing how to do things or speak on certain subjects#stuff like ‘when he talks to me about the economy but i’m#literally a teenage girl in my 20s’ LIKE DO YOU NOT HEAR YOURSELF??#and of course i’m not shaming people for not knowing shit i mean look at me. i can’t drive i have no job and i dropped out of uni#but the REFUSAL to learn is astounding. like people think they can get away with being deliberately oblivious because they have#the self-proclaimed mentality of a teenage girl. and how do you think Actual Teenage Girls feel about people assigning their demographic as#being oblivious and vapid and lacking awareness#you know. traits that have historically been assigned to teenage girls that I Can Actively Remember trying to not associate with.#and my female peers were also arguing against as teenagers.#i dunno. in the words of tame impala it feels like we only go backwards)#long tags#kaycore#(fuck it. putting this in the sorry mom tag)#sorry mom band#babyface sorry mom
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cleargreyskies · 3 months
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Despairing a little about the state of my master's thesis. It could have been so good if I hadn't stopped caring. I keep losing interest when it is one of my favourite topics and one I chose a year in advance. More guidance would have helped me a lot. Someone who showed they cared and would have made me work on it, too. (I am so bad at doing things if there is no extrinsic motivation. Sometimes I feel lost like a dog that needs a task and attention.) And a better work ethic. A better research question. The thesis feels so random, and I am not qualified for the discussion. Two weeks left, the most important intellectual part still missing. I hate this. One paper in your time studying has to be your worst, but why does it have to be the final one?
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mossflower · 2 days
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who up ignoring the crazy visions of them in la
#chappell roan save me. save meeeeee#i fear i forgot just how badly i wanted to get out of this house a year ago!!#like it's nothing big. it's just ten million little things and i don't fucking fit here. i love it so much but i don't fit#arguably i don't fit at uni either but that's different. i don't fit at uni because i'm socially anxious. i'll fit eventually#not fitting at home feels pervasive and bone deep. but it's fine#alot of it's the lesbianism. at uni i'm just a fail lesbian and it's normal#at home i'm a semi closeted fail lesbian and every time that's Percieved i want to die#like people don't care in the ways that matter. i'm not about to be hatecrimed kicked out etc#but ten million little things!! all the time!! i'm going to scream!!#i shouldn't let it get to me i did this for like four years. this is four months and i've done one already#but fucking christ jesus fuck i hate this!! i have to drive forty minutes to see my friends!! no wonder i never developed social skills!!#i have to hide my phone screen with ninety percent of the stuff i watch bc i can't be arsed having the piss taken out of me!!#whenever someone comes into my room my laptop is on it's homescreen!!#i don't feel comfortable listening to a lot of music out loud because it's embarrassing!!#i'm so scared of being judged all the time and i lived like this since i was eleven really!!#i love my parents but sometimes they say stuff and it's like holy shit!! you kind of suck!! and you're still my friends!!#sorry. normal again. who up feeling the void where their soul should be amirite
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leaflessfae · 3 months
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The Harper worms are invading my brain and I have a fucking assignment due in a bit. I CANNOT WRITE FOR YOU NOW GO AWAY 🗣🗣🗣🗣
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hella1975 · 11 months
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tbf i really deserved to lose that poll im stupid af
#i need to come off the pill it’s not funny anymore 😂🙏🏼#like it was already hard getting myself motivated for a degree i hate and then there’s the adhd shit on top of that#which is literally the productivity killer but now the pill on top of all that has just taken any fear factor i might have had#like i don’t feel anything I’m not nervous there’s no concept of repurcussions in my mind#and it’s meant I’ve basically hardly fucking studied and it’s entirely my fault and im GOING to fail#like you cannot walk into a uni exam with the barebones knowledge i have and still pass you just can’t#like i spent all of yesterday trying to study and i didn’t get anything fucking done until 11pm#when I did like. a solid hour. that’s it#and it’s so frustrating bc it’s like well why didn’t you just study#and im like i CANT it’s like an actual physical block stopping me#and ik thats the adhd but I could handle it before I knew if I left it last minute the panic would set in and I’d be suddenly productive#but now? nothing#i just don’t feel anything ever and haven’t since literally march#and even that the only reason i remember it as march so vividly is bc i had a fucking depressive episode#physically the pill has done bits but it’s shredded the little mental stability i had and now we’re here and I’m failing my stupid degree#even now it’s like. why am I on tumblr. the exam is in 1.5 hours. i have so much to do bc i did nothing yesterday#and instead of me feeling panic or guilty or ANYTHING?#nothing. just absolutely nothing it’s like im not even here#hella goes to uni
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