2019 Movie Odyssey
Welcome to the new decade, to the new year 2020.
This is usually posted on New Year’s Eve, but I was watching the final movie of the 2019 Movie Odyssey last night. For those of you who do not know, the “Movie Odyssey” refers to all films that I have seen for the first time in their entirety - no rewatches. We’re going to go in a different order this week, so some for-fun awards will be posted later this week and the 2019 Movie Odyssey Awards will be on Sunday, January 5. As I go through things like The Irishman, Little Women, 1917, and Parasite, I will be posting some very tardy “Best of 2010s”-related posts. Hey, I may be from the Greater Los Angeles Area, but those Hollywood theaters that show all those prestige movies are far from where I live. I don’t always get to see those movies in a timely fashion. I digress...
The number of short films I saw this year increased dramatically (from 2018′s number of 107 to 2019′s 166) because I was on the 2019 Viet Film Fest’s curatorial committee, in addition to the fact that Turner Classic Movies (TCM) is continuing to show a Metro-Goldwyn-Mayer (MGM) short and a Popeye short every Saturday morning except in Februaries, Augusts, and select holiday weekends. Developments in my professional life - and probably exacerbated by the fact I was on the Viet Film Fest’s curatorial committee and had to see many shorts and the presence of vacation and the 2019 FIFA Women’s World Cup - saw a nosedive in the number of feature-length films and serials watched (108 feature-length films and serials this year compared to 156 last year). The total number of films actually increased, probably because of that uptick in shorts.
In addition to having the privilege of having seen many films made by and/or starring Vietnamese and Vietnamese from around the world and learning more about my heritage, I saw many more documentaries - in short and feature-length form - this year compared to others. But yet again this year (and we’re going to chalk this up to the clashes of professional developments at Viet Film Fest), there is a distinct lack of African and Latin American films for the 2019 Movie Odyssey. Knowing a handful of titles I have in the DVR, the former should be represented this year, but I have to make a better effort on searching for and finding films from Latin America.
Like every year, I thank all of you for being supporters of myself and for this old blog. I didn’t write too many Movie Odyssey reviews last year; if ever a Movie Odyssey review engages one person, that is a wonderful thing. So whether you have read, liked, reblogged, commented on, or shared a review, my thanks. And for those who have talked to me about movies we have both seen, are anticipating, or asking questions about something that appears on this blog, my thanks to you too. This blog, slower though it may be these days, would not be possible without you.
The 2019 Movie Odyssey has closed. With that, the 2020 Movie Odyssey has begun. The movies that comprised 2019′s are listed below. We began with an iconic American gangster film and ended with something different from the Czechoslovak New Wave.
As many of you know, all ratings are based on my imdb rating and half-points are always rounded down. My interpretation of that ratings system can be found here. A 6/10 is considered the borderline between “passing” and “failing”. Feature-length narrative films, serials, documentaries, and short films are rated within their respective spectrums. Without further ado:
JANUARY
Little Caesar (1931) – 9/10
Ventriloquist Cat (1950 short) – 6/10
Let’s Get Movin’ (1936 short) – 6/10
Mary Poppins Returns (2018) – 7/10
Modest Heroes (2018, Japan) – 6.5/10
Tit for Tat (1935 short) – 8/10
The Ascent (1977, Soviet Union) – 10/10
The Lost Chick (1935 short) – 7/10
Little Swee’pea (1936 short) – 6/10
Smokey and the Bandit (1977) – 7.5/10
Spider-Man: Homecoming (2017) – 6/10
The World’s Greatest Athlete (1973) – 4/10
The Last Flight of Noah’s Ark (1980) – 4/10
Barney Bear’s ‘Polar Pest’ (1944 short) – 5.5/10
Hold the Wire (1936 short) – 7/10
Green Book (2018) – 6/10
Hell to Eternity (1960) – 6/10
The Curse of Quon Gwon: When the Far East Mingles with the West (1916 short) – scored withheld; film is partially lost
How to Play Football (1944 short) – 7/10
Gus (1976) – 4/10
BlacKkKlansman (2018) – 9/10
The Great McGinty (1940) – 8/10
FEBRUARY (2019’s 31 Days of Oscar)
Vice (2018) – 3/10
The Informer (1935) – 9.5/10
O Brother, Where Art Thou? (2000) – 7.5/10
Late Afternoon (2017 short) – 8/10
Animal Behaviour (2018 short) – 7/10
Weekends (2017 short) – 8.5/10
One Small Step (2018 short) – 7.5/10
Wishing Box (2017 short) – 6/10
Tweet Tweet (2018 short, Russia) – 6/10
Lost & Found (2018 short) – 7/10
Street Angel (1928) – 7.5/10
Thousands Cheer (1943) – 6/10
Fantastic Voyage (1966) – 6/10
Hale County This Morning, This Evening (2018) – 8/10
Madre (2017 short, Spain) – 7.5/10
Fauve (2018 short, Canada) – 7/10
Marguerite (2017 short, Canada) – 8.5/10
Detainment (2018 short) – 5/10
Skin (2018 short) – 7/10
Henry V (1944) – 8.5/10
Minding the Gap (2018) – 8/10
Black Sheep (2018 short) – 7/10
End Game (2018 short) – 7.5/10
A Night at the Garden (2018 short) – 7/10
Lifeboat (2018 short) – 7/10
Period. End of Sentence. (2018 short) – 8/10
MARCH
What Price Hollywood? (1932) – 7/10
Anastasia (1956) – 7.5/10 (31 Days of Oscar ends)
King of Jazz (1930) – 7/10
How to Train Your Dragon: The Hidden World (2019) – 7.5/10
Captain Marvel (2019) – 6/10
The Chinese Nightingale (1935 short) – 6/10
The Spinach Roadster (1936 short) – 6.5/10
Ginger and Fred (1986, Italy) – 6/10
Wee Willie Wildcat (1953 short) – 6/10
I’m in the Army Now (1936 short) – 5/10
Officer Pooch (1941 short) – 6/10
The Paneless Window Washer (1937 short) – 7/10
Us (2019) – 8.5/10
APRIL
Rock-a-Bye Bear (1952 short) – 8.5/10
Organ Grinder’s Swing (1937 short) – 7/10
The Great White Hope (1970) – 6/10
The African Lion (1955) – 8/10
Yellowstone Cubs (1963) – 7/10
Shazam! (2019) – 7/10
The Flying Bear (1941 short) – 6/10
My Artistical Temperature (1937 short) – 7/10
Ocean’s Eight (2018) – 7/10
The Hick Chick (1946 short) – 6/10
Hospitaliky (1937 short) – 8/10
One Foot in Heaven (1941) – 8/10
MAY
Sons of the Desert (1933) – 10/10
Lonesome Lenny (1946 short) – 7.5/10
The Twisker Pitcher (1937 short) – 7/10
The Country Cousin (1936 short) – 7/10
Barnyard Babies (1935 short) – 6/10
Morning, Noon and Night Club (1937 short) – 6/10
Avengers: Endgame (2019) – 7/10
The Calico Dragon (1935 short) – 7.5/10
Lost and Foundry (1937 short) – 7/10
Detective Pikachu (2019) – 6/10
The Wild Country (1970) – 6/10
I Never Changes My Altitude (1937 short) – 7/10
Murder, She Said (1961) – 7.5/10
Farewell to Dream (1956, Japan) – 7/10
The Human Comedy (1943) – 7/10
A Better Life (2011) – 8/10
Booksmart (2019) – 7.5/10
The Goose Goes South (1941 short) – 6.5/10
I Likes Babies and Infinks (1937 short) – 6/10
The Hound and the Rabbit (1937 short) – 6/10
The Football Toucher Downer (1937 short) – 7/10
Godzilla: King of the Monsters (2019) – 6/10
JUNE
A Rainy Day with the Bear Family (1940 short) – 6/10
Protek the Weakerist (1937 short) – 7/10
Rocketman (2019) – 7/10
The Rookie Bear (1941 short) – 6/10
Fowl Play (1937 short) – 6/10
Let’s Celebrake (1938 short) – 7/10
Hoài (Ongoing, Memory) (2018 short) – 7.5/10*
Pelvicachromis (2018 short, Germany) – 6.5/10*
Screen Time (2019 short) – 5/10*
The Bridge Between Vietnam Traditional Music and the World (2018 short, Vietnam) – 6/10*
Journey of Wanderers (2019 short, Vietnam) – 7/10*
Toy Story 4 (2019) – 8/10
The Homeless Flea (1940 short) – 6/10
Learn Polikeness (1938 short) – 6/10
Abandoned Ones (2017, United Kingdom) – 8/10*
Jasmine Lane (2019 short, France) – 7/10*
Cosmic Beauty (2019 short) – experimental film; score withheld*
Blue Noise (2018 short) – experimental film; score withheld*
The Undeniable Force of Khó Khăn (2018 short) – experimental film; score withheld*
Push (2018 short) – 7/10*
Sorge 87 (2017 short, Germany) – experimental film; score withheld*
Embarko (2019 short) – 5/10*
Tiger Child (2019 short) – 5.5/10*
The Wedding Dress (Áo Dài) (2019 short) – 5/10*
Thanksgiving (2018 short) – 7.5/10*
Little Father (Petit Père) (2017 short, France) – 6/10*
While I Breathe, I Hope (2018) – 7/10*
The House Builder-Upper (1938 short) – 7/10
Edge of Tomorrow (2014) – 7.5/10
Creed II (2018) – 7/10
JULY
The Garden of Mr. Vong (2017 short, Germany) – 7.5/10*
Made in Vietnam (2017) – 7/10*
The Mechanical Butcher (1895 short, France) – 6/10
Lively Pillow Fight by Children (1898 short, France) – 7/10
Win My Baby Back (2019, Vietnam) – 5/10*
In Full Bloom (2019 short) – experimental film; score withheld*
Flagged (2017 short) – 6.5/10*
An American Family (2018 short) – 6/10*
Two Paper Nightingales (2019 short) – 6/10*
The Kite Under the Rain (2018 short, Thailand) – 6/10*
Table Stakes (2019 short) – 6/10*
Alexa and May (2018 short) – experimental film; score withheld*
Tôi là thằng khốn (Miserasshole) (2018 short, Vietnam) – 4/10*
Influencer (2018 short) – 5/10*
Pure, Like Flower (2019 short) – 2/10*
Searching for the None (2018 short) – 7/10*
Hiệu (2018 short) – 8/10*
The Man with the Wooden Face (2017 short, Vietnam) – 4/10*
Finding the Virgo (2018) – 6.5/10*
Thạch Thảo (2018, Vietnam) – 6/10*
Tundra (2018 short, Canada) – 7/10*
The Colors You Can’t See (2019 short) – 6/10*
Touching the Moon: The Ngo Thanh Van Story (2019 short, Vietnam) – 5/10*
Cold Fish (Cá Đông) (2018 short, Vietnam)* - experimental film; score withheld
Gold (2018 short) – 5.5/10*
The Immortal (2018, Vietnam) – 6/10*
Le Van Khoa: A Lifetime of Arts (2018) – 6/10*
No More Than This (2019 short) – experimental film; score withheld*
Little Sunny (2018 short, Vietnam) – 7/10*
Song Lang (2018, Vietnam) – 8/10*
Roommate (2018 short, Vietnam) – experimental film; score withheld*
The Bloody Hand (Bàn Tay Máu) (2019) – 6/10*
Ephemeral (2018 short) – experimental film; score withheld*
New Year’s Dream (2019, Vietnam) – 5/10*
Sister 13 (2019, Vietnam) – 6/10*
The Moment (2018 short) – 5/10*
Ramadan (2018 short) – 7/10*
American Girl (2018 short) – 5/10*
Red Thread (2019 short, Canada) – 6/10*
Like an Old House (2017, Vietnam) – 6.5/10*
If Beale Street Could Talk (2018) – 8/10
Walk Run Cha-Cha (2019 short) – 8/10*
Picking Things Up (Nối Lại Tình Xưa) (2019 short, Canada) – 6/10*
Seadrift (2019) – 7/10*
Big Chief Ugh-Amugh-Ugh (1938 short) – 4/10
I Yam Love Sick (1938 short) – 6/10
It’s Always There (2019 short, Vietnam) – 7/10*
Scandal Sheet (1952) – 7/10
Poultry Pirates (1938 short) – 5/10
Plumbing Is a ‘Pipe’ (1938 short) – 6/10
Tom Turkey and His Harmonica Humdingers (1940 short) – 6/10
The Jeep (1938 short) – 8/10
AUGUST
Pavarotti (2019) – 7/10
Overlord (1975) – 8/10
The Perils of Pauline (1947) – 6/10
The Moon-Spinners (1964) – 7/10
Dr. Mabuse the Gambler (1922, Germany) – 7.5/10
The Littlest Horse Thieves (1976) – 7/10
Once Upon a Time in Hollywood (2019) – 8/10
Design for Living (1933) – 7/10
Barnali (1963, India) – 7.5/10
The Whales of August (1987) – 7.5/10
SEPTEMBER
The Farewell (2018) – 8.5/10
Fun and Fancy Free (1947) – 5/10
Donald’s Tire Trouble (1943 short) – 7/10
The Uninvited Pest (1943 short) – 6/10
Bulldozing the Bull (1938 short) – 6/10
The Love Bug (1968) – 6/10
The Old Pioneer (1934 short) – 5/10
Mutiny Ain’t Nice (1938 short) – 7/10
La Pointe Courte (1955, France) – 7.5/10
The Happiest Millionaire (1967) – 6/10
The Art of Skiing (1941 short) – 7/10
Ad Astra (2019) – 8.5/10
Goonland (1938 short) – 8/10
The Peanut Butter Falcon (2019) – 6/10
Toyland Broadcast (1934 short) – 5/10
A Date to Skate (1938 short) – 7/10
OCTOBER
Joker (2019) – 8/10
Two Little Pups (1936 short) – 7/10
Cops Is Always Right (1938 short) – 7/10
Growing Home (2019 short) – student film; score withheld*
Come Again (2019 short) – student film; score withheld*
Hard (2019 short) – student film; score withheld*
Love Your People (Thường dân) (2019 short) – student film; score withheld*
Returning (2019 short) – student film; score withheld*
The Tree Surgeon (1944 short) – 6/10
Customers Wanted (1939 short) – 6/10
House of Usher (1960) – 7.5/10
The Wayward Pups (1937 short) – 6/10
Leave Well Enough (1939 short) – 6/10
Horror Hotel (1960) – 7/10
The School for Postmen (1947 short) – 7/10
The Hockey Champ (1939 short) – 7/10
Kuroneko (1968) – 8.5/10
The Pups’ Picnic (1936 short) – 6/10
Wotta Nitemare (1939 short) – 7/10
The War of the Worlds (1953) – 8/10
NOVEMBER
Ghidorah, the Three-Headed Monster (1964, Japan) – 6.5/10
Woodstock (1970) – 10/10
Happy-Go-Nutty (1944 short) – 7/10
Ghosks Is the Bunk (1939 short) – 7/10
Victor/Victoria (1982) – 9/10
Pain & Glory (2019, Spain) – 7.5/10
Honeyland (1935 short) – 6/10
Hello How Am I (1939 short) – 7/10
The Lighthouse (2019) – 8/10
Jour de Fête (1949, France) – 7.5/10
Ford v Ferrari (2019) – 8/10
Jitterbug Follies (1939 short) – 6/10
It’s the Natural Thing to Do (1939 short) – 7/10
Frozen II (2019) – 6/10
Little Cheeser (1936 short) – 6/10
Never Sock a Baby (1939 short) – 6.5/10
A Beautiful Day in the Neighborhood (2019) – 8/10
The Red Badge of Courage (1951) – 7.5/10
The Westerner (1940) – 8.5/10
Sitting Pretty (1948) – 7/10
DECEMBER
An Autumn Afternoon (1962, Japan) – 9/10
Little Buck Cheeser (1937 short) – 6/10
Shakespearian Spinach (1940 short) – 6/10
Bobby Bumps and His Pointer Pup (1916 short) – 7.5/10
Bobby Bumps’ Fly Swatter (1916 short) – 6/10
Bobby Bumps Gets a Substitute (1916 short) – 5/10
Bobby Bumps Helps a Book Agent (1916 short) – 5.5/10
Bobby Bumps Adopts a Turtle (1917 short) – 6/10
Bobby Bumps at Fido’s Birthday Party (1917 short) – 6/10
Bobby Bumps Starts for School (1917 short) – 7/10
Bobby Bumps, Chef (1917 short) – 7/10
Bobby Bumps. Surf Rider (1917 short) – 6.5/10
Bobby Bumps at the Dentist (1918 short) – 6.5/10
Bobby Bumps Caught in the Jamb (1918 short) – 6/10
Bobby Bumps’ Last Smoke (1919 short) – 8/10
Bobby Bumps in Hunting and Fishing (1921 short) – 5/10
Bobby Bumps in Their Master’s Voice (1921 short) – 7.5/10
Mama’s New Hat (1939 short) – 7.5/10
Females Is Fickle (1940 short) – 5/10
Knives Out (2019) – 8/10
Niagara (1953) – 7/10
Pitfall (1962, Japan) – 7.5/10
The Screwy Truant (1945 short) – 7/10
Stealin’ Ain’t Honest (1940 short) – 6/10
Star Wars: The Rise of Skywalker (2019) – 5/10
The Holly and the Ivy (1952) – 8/10
The Racket (1928) – 7/10
Knute Rockne, All American (1940) – 7/10
Jewel Robbery (1932) – 7.5/10
The Vikings (1958) – 6/10
Something Different (1962, Czechoslovakia) – 7.5/10
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WHO WANTS TO ANALYZE CRAZY DREAMS?!!
Aight bros this dream I had last night was INSANE basically because it made a lot of sense in a lot of different weird ways and I personally love hearing people’s dreams and helping interpret them SO I hope all FOURTEEN of you maybe-real-people will consider sharing YOUR dreams with me via asks/messages/comments/whatever (if you want other people to weigh in then go for it in the comments otherwise I don’t mind if it’s just one-on-one I really just want to discuss dreams). To get the ball rolling I’ll describe my dream and my analysis of it (But feel free to just skip reading that part and go straight to yours if you want! I’m half typing this out just to keep a record for myself)
SO my dreams lately have involved being lost, usually in cities, where I’m vaguely aware of where I should be and am trying to find my way toward that. AND lately my dreams have distinct beginnings and ends and relative themes throughout, which is not how they used to be. I’m going to break this one down into separate numbered sections to kind of establish the timeline and to highlight the key parts.
Part 1: I was in an empty mall; mostly empty, with the stores all dark, but not closed. Think small town, mid-day, but technically open so one or two stores are still available for shopping. I was just sort of wandering through with no real goal, like a lazy tourist, and I knew I was in my local Big City.
Usually I go to this Big City and sort of do a lazy tourist thing a lot when I’m getting ready to attend a con, which I am currently irl preparing for, so it made sense to me that I was in the area wandering around.
Part 2: I saw a theatre attached to the mall, where there was basically just a big entrance that opens up and there it is - but it was a stage theatre, not a movie theater. I could see the stage and all the seating just past the ticket counter. Next thing I know, I see several drag queens in powdered wigs and costumes filing out of a nearby door, which I guessed led to a green room. At the end of the line was a close friend of mine, the only anatomical female of the group, dressed as Marie Antoinette, and she was surprised to see me and invited me to come watch the show (which, of course, I eagerly agreed to).
First of all, she would SO take that role and she would SO be part of a drag show if the opportunity presented itself, so all that made lots of sense to me. I also adore this friend, and don’t hear from her much, so I’ll take every opportunity to be around her if invited. The problem is this doesn’t happen often, and I get stuck feeling like me reaching out to hang out with her will come off as needy, but also that maybe she would prefer I reach out more and is disappointed that I haven’t. Also, I think the last time we hung out for real was the time I’d elected to let her know about a year-long unrequited crush I’d had on her, so in the interest of never making her feel awkward again, I feel like I can never be the one to initiate a hangout, even though we’d had an open conversation that went very well considering the circumstances. Oh - at this point I was also aware that I didn’t have my hair styled, makeup on, or an especially good outfit - I looked frumpy, which I felt she noticed. (She’s gorgeous, not in a fake way, legitimately she always looks great but she also does fucking bomb makeup whereas I feel like I’ve never fully learned it/understood it.)
Part 3: At the drag show, I realize it’s a dress rehearsal. No biggie. I head to the bathroom, where a lot of the queens are now actually getting ready, some in the bathroom and some out in the hall. I’m nonbinary, but I only recently learned what that even is and started embracing it; in the moment, I can’t decide if I should go into the female bathroom or the male bathroom. I really don’t want to be in their way while they’re getting ready and though my instinct is to go into the bathroom opposite my assigned sex in an act to embrace my newer self, I immediately think of how non-nonbinary (not-androgynous) I look, and shamefully head into my assigned sex’s bathroom.
This is no mystery, I still constantly feel like even a group for ‘people who don’t fit into the other groups’ is still too exclusive for me to fit into it; Like I’m posing, and I should just be quiet and stick to my assigned sex, and nonbinary isn’t what I am because I’m not nonbinary enough?? It’s hard to explain but I feel like you get it even if I can’t put it into words well. I felt like an asshole trying to go into the opposite sex’s bathroom, but I felt like a coward ducking my head and going into ‘my’ bathroom.
Part 4: In the bathroom, it didn’t matter what I’d chosen because the drag queens were getting ready in both (which I should have seen coming?) While in there I was of course half afraid I’d be seen through various gaps in the walls and did notice someone getting high out of a CVS bag in a stall.
This is basic bathroom-related anxiety I face in dreams a lot, although the drug thing is new and I think related to how often junkies are getting high on the steps literally outside my front door every night when I’m trying to go to bed. In the moment I felt like I should let someone know but I didn’t because I’m not street smart and somehow that implies that street smart people don’t need me getting into their business?? Idk
Part 5: I found a former theatre club classmate to sit with to watch the rehearsal. I don’t remember the show at all but I remember that I was supposedly there for the whole thing and didn’t get to see or talk to my friend at all, so I ended up wandering out without saying goodbye.
Typical again - At social events with this friend, I feel like the norm has been that I don’t actually get to spend much time with her and that it’s not really noticed if I leave
Part 6: My cat was with me?? My cat, an FIV positive soft boi who I love with everything in me, was for some reason with me on this trip and I’ve just realized I’ve lost him in this mall. He doesn’t wear a collar and is easily spooked. Somehow I see him in an open area and swoop him up into my arms and tight against my chest; now I just have to not let him wrestle free while I find my way back to the car.
Again SO normal, but in a new, FUN terrible way! Combining my fear of losing my sick cat outside and not being able to find my car in a big city during an important situation. Both are repeat anxiety nightmares, but I’ve never had it structured like this before.
Part 7: I don’t remember where the car is or how far; I only have a vague idea; I also know there’s no way when I get there I’ll be able to open the door without losing him but right now I’m just focused on finding the car. Suddenly there’s a few people here and there in the mall and I’m really worried that someone will approach me to touch my cat or to offer help and only end up spooking him. A kid walks up to me and he has a gameboy open in his hands; I know he just wants to touch my cat but I explain I need to get him to my car and he offers to help, which mostly is just him following me while half-playing his pokemon game and half looking at my cat.
The boy is the same age/slightly younger than my youngest brother and looks exactly like him and acts exactly like him, he just isn’t him somehow - and he’s legitimately sort-of-trying-to-help in his own kid way. I appreciate the moral support. But I’m confused what this represents in my dream?? Me and my youngest bro used to be very close, but I was a little distant with him after I moved out and lately now that he’s in high school I feel like he doesn’t want my attention as much as he used to and also doesn’t want to spend time together.
Part 8: At one point I’m squeezing my cat so tight to my chest he’s gone limp and isn’t breathing - but I loosen up and check and he’s fine after just a second, although he’s irritated and a little squirmy. Somehow this boy with us has now gotten me to finding my car at the top of an open parking garage and I haven’t dropped the cat the whole way. I open the door and start putting my stuff on the seat (I had a purse this whole time). In the front seat, there’s actually already a cat. My cat?? I say out loud, ‘oh, I didn’t actually bring him in - there’s an unopened one right here!’. Because the cat in the car, my cat, has a San Pelligrino soda foil cap on its head. Also, I realize I dropped my cat - you know, the one I’d carried back? But no, there he is, and I pick him up and put him in the back seat. He’s also my cat. And somehow I’m still more worried about his well-being, even though supposedly, the cat in the front seat with the foil hat is mine.
The squeezing thing is a memory of the other night irl when I realized my cat was so deep asleep he felt like he’d stopped breathing and when I moved him to wake him he was completely limp and still; he’s fine now and was confused and irate at me for waking him before. But the two cats thing was throwing me off really hard; All I knew was that a family friend literally just put down her cat yesterday and that I’d seen pictures of her baby girl, and this girl cat looked exactly like my boy cat and was roughly the same age and had an illness. But I was certain that both of these dream cats were my boy, although weirdly I was more loyal to the one I’d been carrying.
My husband actually helped me figure out this crazy shit in a way that blew my mind (because foil hat was reaaally confusing me.) He asked what I usually do with San Pelligrino sodas, and got me to admit that usually, I don’t finish them. (I don’t always finish most drinks actually.) But it really sucks when I leave a San Pelli unfinished, because they’re expensive and they’re one of my favorites, so wasting it is a bigger deal than wasting other drinks, and I feel regretful because I didn’t get to appreciate them all the way to their end and guilty because I didn’t do all that I could to make sure they weren’t wasted. He said the cat in the front seat is a healthy cat - an ‘unopened’ one that I haven’t put in danger and that doesn’t have any predetermined threats to its well-being because it’s ‘new’. I wish desperately that I didn’t have to be constantly afraid of losing my FIV boy to an illness, but at the same time I would never want to replace him with a healthy cat even if they were exactly the same - his weakness has made me not only glad I have him in my own care, where I know I’d give anything in my power to keep him healthy and happy - it’s made me and my husband open to the idea of seeking out needy pets in the future that might not otherwise have chances with families. (We also know that we have to be ready for the worst; if a vet tells us our boy isn’t going to be happy or isn’t going to feel healthy, we need to be ready to let go and voluntarily put him down when his quality of life diminishes.) Basically, having the opportunity of the healthy-safe-front-seat-fresh-cat didn’t make me forget or discard the one I’d carried back with me, and I think that’s my brain reaffirming I don’t regret my boi and will protect him with everything I have until I literally can’t anymore.
That was the end of my dream - putting the rescued cat in the back seat safely while acknowledging the other cat. And I woke up with my cat snuggling me, of course. I’ve had a lot of these weirdly detailed dreams lately and I love writing them out. Watchyal got? Anyone??
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P.s I hope this spaced out like I want it too because if not its going to be one hell of a read and I am sorry...2, Nicknames that didnt come from my actual name: Alma (because the woman in sister act who can’t hear 😂) er thers probably others I can’t think of right now…4, Longest my hair has ever been:Down to my butt. Never again.6,What is one (1) Item on bucket list: To meet all my long-distance frienfs in person8, Oldest pice of clothing I still wear:Umm I probably have socks from when I was a kid I still wear XD idk10, How grammatically correct are you when you text?:I typically text how I would actually talk out loud so not very…12, what foreign country would you like to visit and why? :Probably Ireland is first on my list because of how beautiful it is and how much of my family came from there 14, how old where you when you had your first kiss? 17 or 18 I think? I was a senior in highschool 16, have you ever hosted a wild party? Wild? No. 18, How many of your facebook friends to you actually hang out with?Like… 7 max not including family? 20, on a scale of 1-10 how much do you enjoy decorating for hollidays Uhh probably like an 8? I enjoy how they look but the effort of putting them up and taking them down I could do without lol 22, what is your go to starbucks drink?I have never had starbucks :/24, Dogs or Cats?Why choose?26, have you ever cooked a big family meal by yourself?Not really? I mean, If I make pasta it could feed a large family…. 28, Have you ever butt dialed anyone?Probably.30, How early do you start celebrating christmas?Right after thanks giving XD32, Are you fluent in more than one language? I wish I was tbh….maybe some day…34, Have you ever been on a successful diet?I feel like “successful” and “diet” arent words that can really be used together in a positive way.36, how good are you at communicating through facial expressions?Better than with words…38, Have you ever left a movie theater before the movie was over? Not that I can remember…40, Does your home have a fire place?We have a fernace and then a fake electric one in the living room42, If you could have one (1) super power what would it be and why?The power to manipulate probablility because you can have anything you want? Like whats the probably of me getting pizza tonight? Probablg like 40% but I could turn that 40% into 100% and definatly get pizza tonight.44, do you listen to religious music? Not typically, no.46, what is your ACT score?🙃48, On a scale of 1-10 how good of a driver would you consider yourself? Idk like a 5? I dont have my licents because im scared to drive but the times I did go out and drive I wasnt bad.50, How easily do you cry?VERY. You could look at me wrong and there will be tears. Or a puppy could do something cute and water works are on the way lol52, when you hang out with your closest friend what do you usually do? My closest friend is my partner so we’re usually cuddling or playing games or watching something on YouTube or Netflix54, Can you play any musical instraments? If so which ones?Yes! I can play the guitar, steel drums, and piano (albeit not well) , I can sing and honestly, would like to learn more instraments soon!56, What was the last CD you bought?Either X or ÷ by Ed Sheeran for my sister for christmas I think58, What day is your laundry day?Right now, Monday-Saturday, I dont typically have a specific day just as long as its not sunday, thats dads laundry day!60, How long have you known your best friend?4 or 5 years now?62, do you have any stickers on your laptop?Currently I don’t have my own laptop, but I use my moms and she has a message from my aunt tapped on it kind of like a sticker? It says “Teddy grams 3 points” from when they where doing weight watchers XD64, what is your favorite flavor ice cream?Mint chocolate chip!66, Star Treck or Star WarsI haven’t seen either tbh but I want to! 68, Have you ever acted in a play or musical?Yes! Anything goes, A mid-summer nights dream, 9 to 5, Mrs. McThing, and Tarzan! I still have A mid-summer nights dream on DVD lol I wish I could again…70, What is the shortest your hair has been?I think chin length? 72, Do you like to go fishing?My dad told me a horror story once about when he went fishing with his brother… I’ll spare you the details but I’m afraid to go…but I have before and I dont have the patients tbh I do love fish though!74, what was your favorite holoween costume and how old where you?I was the I think red M&M? Idk how old I was but probably between 4 and 876, How many pillows do you sleep with?Between 1 and 4. Depends if Im sharing.78, How many friends of the oposite gender do you have?I….Really dont know? I think half of them don’t even know their own gender tbh80, How long have you been at your current jobI currently dont have a job :/82, How flexible are you?Psyically not very, but im working on that!84, what is a phrase you say the most?“Why are you like this” is probably my favorite XD 86, Do you own any home made clothing?Some of my cosplays are home made, along with a prom dress! 88, Have you every given anyone CPR No, I know how to but I think in the situation I would panic and freeze and not even be able to…90, Discribe your sense of humor?Odd and all over the place. 92, What is your favorite cereal?Probably honey smacks! 94, Have you ever had a TV show theme song stuck in your head?I get a few stuck in my head from time to time, like Steven Universe or Gravity Falls and stuff 96, Do you believe in life on other planets?Yeah…. I mean bacteria and stuff is tecnically life? But there’s gotta be something outside our solar system too…98, what is your biggest fear?Dying alone or being abandoned….100, are you still friends with anyone from highschool?Yes.102, How patient are you?With other people? Very. With myself? Not really. With waiting for something to happen? Not at all. 104, Do you eat meat? Yeah, im picky about it though…106, Have you ever bought anything from the flea market? I don’t think so?108, Have you ever gotten a song stuck in your head that you dont like?Unfortunatly.110, Have you ever warn glasses?Yes! I did when I was young, went a few years without needing them and now wear them again.112, Are your birth parents still together?Yes.114, what is your favorite type of cookie?Peanut butter blossoms. The peanut butter ones with the Hershey kiss in the middle 😍116, How often do you smile when getting your picture taken? I usually smile I think? If im taking selfies I sometimes do a pouty face but…?118, what is your oldest memory?I have a very distinct memory of sitting in my crib with my legs hanging out the side. I don’t know why I remember THAT but I do120, How often do you snort when you laugh?I dont know? Not too often… but if you get me really laughing I will and it makes me laugh more. Right now I’ve just been laughing and coughing so~122, What is your favorite Disney song? Probably “How far I’ll go” from moana? Or like anything from mulan XD124, What is your Mayers-Briggs personality type? INFP-T 126, one (1) thing yoy wish people would stop posting on social media: Pictures and shit of animal abuse. I get the posts like “hey this is a shit thing to do” but do we really need photos or videos of it?…. and when reported to facebook you’re told it “doesn’t violate community guidelines” like bull fucking shit it doesnt. 128, do you prefer Credit Cards or cash?Cash, its easier for me to keep track of, and money gives me anxiety. 130, What is your astrological sign?I fall on a cusp birthday so I am technically both a Scorpio and Sagitarius. 132, Do you have any hidden talents?I don’t even have any visable talents…134, What gives yoy motivstion to do well in life?I dont know but whatever it is isn’t working.136, on a scale od 1-10 how much are you like your father?Looks: like 3, personality: 8ish 138, A moment when you where pleasently suprised?Probably when Tom actually said yes to dating me after 3 days of waiting. At that point I gave up hope at the words “I’ll have to think about it” so when they said yes it was just~ 😶140, what type of shoes do you wear the most?My penguin sneakers! Or my boots… either one lol142, Favorite song to sing in the shower?I have a whole playlist of songs just to sing… and my top 5 from that in no particular order is 1. Red flavor by red velvet 2. Evil by shinee, 3. Good bye by Taemin, 4, cotton candy by astro and 5, Nightmare by shinee. They’re all kpop so its kinda hard 😂144, Have you ever lived on a farm? I mean where my house is used to be a farm? We have barns and stuff. We also grow some fruits and vegetables and at one point had ducks? but I wouldn’t really say I lived on a farm… 146, what tv show or movie do you quote or make referances to the most? Probably steven universe? Idk148, Have you ever gotten stiches?No, and I probably wouldn’t be able yo handle if if I had to. 150, What is your favorite youtube channel?As embarrassing as it is to say to you~ it probably will always be artfulImpersonator 😶😶😶 152, on a scale of 1-10 how well do you work with others?Im going to say 5 because it REALLY depends who im working with. 154, Apple or PC?….uh they both have good qualities, I guess it depends what Im using it for, but I guess PC for casual use156, Have you ever seen a broadway play or musical? I seen Newsies and almost fell asleep…. not because it was a bad show or anything but because it was a school trip and I was just exhausted. 158, Have you ever uttered a spoke hashtag? #yes. Usually as jokes but uhhh sometimes I get carried away. 160, What is the longest you went without sleep? Probably 24 hours? Maybe less? 162, Disney or Nickelodeon? As I kid I was a Disney kid, but Now probably Nick?164, On a scale from 1-10 how much are you like your mom?Looks: 8 personality: maybe a 6?166, Ear bud or Ear muff style headphones?Ear muff style! Ear buds hurt my ears :(168, any peircings besides earlobe? Nah,170, Showers or baths?I like them both. For actually cleaning showers but for relaxing baths. Something about the warm water :)172, do you prefer bottled or tap water?Depends where I am? At my house Tap but most places bottled.174, Do you have any guilty pleasures you’d be comfortable talking about?Guilty pleasures? Pleanty. Comfortable talking about on a public forum such as tumblr? Not really XD…. I mean I guess liking one direction still is a guilty pleasure? Or some of the anime’s I watch? I’ll mention those ones176, Ever had a new years kiss exactly at midnight? No…. I found im usually grumpy on new years? I wonder why? 🤔178, Have you ever gave money to a homeless person? I dont think so :( I dont usually have that much on me… 180, What is your least favorite food? Anything slimey. Im a very texture based eater… 182, Do you like wearing hats? When im not wearing cat ears, yes!184, SAT score?🙃🙃186, anyone in your family currently serve in your countries military? I think my cousin, Yeah?…or he wants to or something im not sure…188, what celebrity would you like to play you in a movie about your life? Can I just play myself? 190, Have you ever dyed your hair? Yes, and it needs to be dyed again! Idk what color I want to do next though :/192, whats the first site you visit after opining a web browser? Depends what I went in the computer for but I guess generally Tumblr or Facebook 194, where you involved in any academic clubs in school? Unfortunatly, no. 196, are you comfortable watching R rated movies? Yeah, im fine with them.... unless im with my parents 😨198, what's the first thing you do when you wake up? Check my phone.200, tell us something most people don't know about youThat I have a collection of stuffed giraffes in my closet from when I was a kid. I no longer collect them but alot of them are still sitting in a bag in my closet because I've grown attached...
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