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1 year since i got scammed by nintedno leaving me forever yearning for a game we will never get and an extreme worry for the future
#ganondoodles talks#zelda#dont think they will learn anything#i know its pessimistic but like#as if the critics were in any way as loud or popular as those worshipping it#i feel so bad for having contributed twice to its sales and earnings#i bought it normally (later sold that to a coworker) and the collectors#which i sold but i only got back the money a normal new one would have cost#and it was also only bc i was buying sth else and it was literally in prime condition#like he said it wouldnt matter bc he cant give me more but then even he said holy shit thats literlly like unopened lol#i mean ... most of it was never opnened xD just took the game out once and put it back once thats it#i feel extra scammed bc it was the first and only collectors edition i ever owned#and i dont think i will ever buy one again#and might regret that#i still wish i had known how much i liked botw to get its special one ... but i didnt have the money back then either way#but id rather miss out on that than spend so much money on sth i will forever regret having spend money on#and i worry for the future bc the “story is the least important part” guy and “lol you can only like the old games bc nostalgia” guy-#-being in charge of the franchise arent giving me much hope for anything better#especially after totks success
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i haint watched the dang chibisode and idk if ill actually watch it with sound on sdfjk but i have a hurt feeling about them casually imbuing perry with speech for a one off gag because the idea that he needs to talk to communicate is fake. we had 4 seasons of wacky magic hijinks cartoon where perry never needed verbal speech to communicate. they couldve done this gag at any point in the show but they didn't, and the fact that they didn't felt significant. perry's muteness is such a core part of his character, to me, to the way i conceive of him/write him. i don't wanna overreact to a goofy little side cartoon (even tho i'm doing it anyway) but it's still the characters, and it still upsets me! ok that's it i've said my piece
#ill watch it at some point but despite my silence i have been like obsessively anxious about this cartoon#and pestered my friend to watch it for me sDFJKL#in a month this will have either ruined pnf for me forever or i'll have changed my mind and i like it actually its fine#for now anyway i have tons of comic sketches about perry's muteness that i no longer wanna finish and share...maybe someday but not now#i had a rly great day actually but now im falling asleep in bed tipsy and a little teary over this. cuz i love perry a lot he's#really special to me. i also got that star wars perry shirt in the mail today btw. and. it's such a good pj shirt#but back on topic#it sucks when an aspect of a character that is CORE to your appreciation of them becomes casually disregarded by the writers at some point#like im certainly not ever accepting an interpretation of perry like 'secretly hed really like to be able to talk' because its#never ever been communicated. like the idea that heinz wd prefer if perry was human. its just not in the show. the opposite is true in fact#so im left feeling stupid for caring about something that some writers(inc. dan) felt was unimportant. makes me not wanna continue my art#which sux cuz i like my comic ideas! id love to finish them. i hope i get over this.#i overreact to live-updating media when im fixated on it wh is why i prefer getting into dead fandoms haha#but they keep on bringing them back to life dont they...im never safe#it was funny me trying to explain to my friend why i efel so strongly about this meanwhile hes tried to explain why he feels so strongly ab#ut AYA and my stance on that episode has always just been “cute! its fine” lmao#@ dwampy you guys made the show that follows a specific rhythm and set of rules designed to appeal to obsessive autistic brained people ok#you invited my overreaction. unsheathes katana etc#ok im goint to sleep#meta
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Isat siffrin and loop short animatic thing for my au~
Spoilers for the secret ending!
So much i wanna talk about with these two~
But alas, I'll keep it to myself for now,
#hehe#say hi to my human loop design lol#sorry guys but the cat ears are cannon to me </3#also.#dont pay attention to sifs hand that one time#i struggled on that for 40 minutes#this is not a ship thing btw</3#if. it wasnt obvious from the “siblings” part#i feel like i wanna explain this a bit#after act 6 they get separated cuz loop died but also kind of didnt?#so when they reunite loop feels a lot of guilt and “anger”#theyre not really mad but they want sif to fuck off#sif will not be doing that#and thru most of this its supposed to be loop trying to be angry and push them away while sif is being very.#self depricating and basically. begging them to stay? or. i guess wrong word.#hes very adamant that if theyre going to fall theyll do it together#but they kinda feel bad about it?#idk#“hand (loop) in unlovable hand (sif)”#isat#isat siffrin#isat loop#isat spoilers#isat act 6 spoilers#in stars and time#my art#isat creature au#i wish i made loop look more angry during the “and i hope you die”#but either way im so proud of this#i use to suck at drawing humans
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hey guys. remy design
#remy the farmer#dol#my art#sorry it took so long for me to make this#im watching live shows for one of my favorite music projects in the corner and i have to pause drawing to scream every 5 seconds#if i were in that crowd id be yelling. id faint. only but a dream to attend one of these#to the people that sent me another personality swap request also. i promise im not ignoring you but the one that said#''avery and eden swap would be a nightmare''#youre completely right. it is a nightmare. i cant think of anything#so if either of you have any more ideas or anyone else does then PLEASE help me im begging you all i can think of is ??? i dont know#i hope you guys like this remy though#i was worried about if it was good enough but special thanks to the people on my side account that told me it was fine#i posted fem remy there too if you want to see it#i think when i do fem vers of them all ill group them up because itll take me less time to make it since ill already have the design basis#and also i feel bad for spamming you guys#actually would you prefer i keep posting them one by one or should i post them all at once? for these designs#i feel bad posting separately because that means the people who rb my posts reblog like 10 separate design posts in a row :(#and i dont want them to spam their blogs because of me#but i do really really appreciate it when i see someone do that in my notifs :) so thank you a lot if you do#and also thank you to everyone who leaves tags i read each and every one of them obsessively like a freak#this is getting too long im going to hit the tag limit at this rate#ill try to work on the avery eden thing again#see you all later :)
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@nyaskitten tumblr ate your fucking ask uhh ignore how this is months later BUT i finally watched dr s2 AND
I GET IT NOW. I UNDERSTAND.
#i was asking for art recs and you said cinder back in like. december. if you dont remember#v messy please give me a clear ref without the fur thing and with the shoulder pads please please#google refs are 5 by 5 pixels and either youtube thumbnails or minifigs#what’s going on with his design by the way. why does he have blades strapped to him#pretend his hair is smokey okay idk how to draw smoke#when i saw his design before s2 came out i clocked him as a cold tundra ish terrain design cause of the fur and the wolves#so i gave him like winter gloves even tho that’s unpractical for him but whatever#something about his hair being smokey the way your breath fogs in the cold you understand#the crosses and lines on his armor idk i searched up samurai armor cause i have no idea what they’re supposed to be#he’s a middle aged man to me so it’s kinda funny he’s beefing with a teenager (jordana)#i wanted to see a grudging solidarity under the cat guys rule sort of relationship but no the girls are fighting i guess#what happened with the old guy by the way how does that timeline work#cinder would have to be born after s4 and there’s NO CHANCE this guy is younger than kai#did the pacing of this season feel weird to anyone else or have i just not watched ninjago for too long#anyways#ninjago#lego ninjago#dragons rising#ninjago dr s2#ninjago cinder#cinder ninjago#i hope thats his name i dont rember#ninjago dr spoilers#sort of#jellos scribbles
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my sweet little baby man is no longer with us
#he had his bloodwork done yesterday and the vet said it was fine but he doesnt have much time left#and my bestie is a vet tech who wanted to see the lab results bc she always does and she looked at them#and asked me if she can shiw them to her boss today and i was like sure and immediately knew something was up#today keekki was being himself#then i went to run some errands and when i came back he was laying in front of the front door with his tiny baby head against it#and i was like ''oh ok one of his seizures?''#and theyre like. keekki will drool and not move and they usually last for like 20 minutes (several vets have no idea whats up with those#but it was probably either a kidney or a blood pressure thing)#anyways. it did not pass in 20 minutes so i Knew#i laid on the floor next to him#then my bff sent me a message asking me if i have the time to talk about keekki and its not good news#at this point i was about to call the vet anyways#and she was like ''ok i showed these to my boss (a vet) and she got super angry that ur vet even let you leave the clinic''#bc apparently keekkis bloodwork was so bad he should have been put down then and there but my vet was like a fresh half graduate#so i dont hold it against her. anyways i got an euthanasia appointment for this evening and spent the time before it laying on the couch#crying with keekki in my arms#i had to carry him bc he couldnt really walk without stumbling and falling down#when i had to get up to get his carrier and stuff ready he was taking a nap on the couch where i left him and i took this pic#anyways worst vet visit of my life i could hardly even do anything but nod half the time bc speaking results in me sobbing#anyways. this fucking sucks#i dont know how ill be able to sleep tonight#its been years since i last slept at home without having a little guy plop into my arms#i spent a long time with him in the vet room when he was gone#it feels surreal ive given him his last ever forehead kisses#as i left the room i told him bye the exact same way ive been saying bye to him for the last very many years ive had him#its always moikka keekki before i go to work or the store or literally anything#and that was my last moikka keekki#i hope he felt how loved he was#my dad is sending me older pics of me and keekki and he looks so happy in them. hes always right next to me#idk man im going to stop rambling now
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Literally no other way I could describe it right now.
#there are some serious feelings attached to all thats happening#im saddened. im mad. at the end of the day this is how i cope so im sorry if you dont feel like humor is your way out#im disappointed and digusted#personally#neil gaiman#is innocent until proven guilty and my heart goes out to the victims of this whole situation.#i know. i KNOW the right is gonna make it about trans rights and the left is gonna make this about zionism and how these results are#unsurprising due to him being 'either' of these (which im not going into)#because its NOT about those. its the disgusting behaviors he did w those women. consent or not he actively sought out rlly young women.#i hold out a tiny bit of hope but if all things go to shit I dont rlly have anything to fall back on in terms of fandom.#good omens got me through shit. it got me through hell and some my worst times ever.#ive made irreplaceable IRL friends#idk#just some feelings im putting out here. im still gonna 100% support all GO creators (unless they outright excuse NG's actions esp when hes#not yet proven innocent)#but yeah#i havent spoken about this in my other accs and I think this is the only coherent thought I can manage from all of that.#again. really upset. but we got this. were all in this together yk? theres no one side or another to SA but to support the victims.#thats all im rlly gonna say. just remember that Im sending uou guys lots of love. lets get through this <3#[EDIT: I MEANT TO SAY NEIL IS GUILTY UNTIL PROVEN INNOCENT FOR ME !!!!]
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Eee! Took the plunge and bought Fields of Mistria despite it being in Early Access. It's suuuuper fun and cute! Created Momina [yes despite my plan to make Hayato and romance Reina lmao] so I'm trying to decide who to pair her with 🤔
Considering: Eiland, March, Ryis, Celine, Adeline! OMG AND BALOR TBH!!!
I DID CONSIDER VALEN BECAUSE IT SEEMS YOU CAN ROMANCE HER?? LMAOOOO Momina x doc romance let's go.
But yeah, I'll def play this a lot bc I'd love to see how each romance would play out!!
Definitely recommending it so far...!
#nimo's sheeko sheeko time#admittedly I'm not going for Reina bc I feel like her and Momina look too alike 😭#imagining they get told they look like sisters now uwu#hope I can get them to bond!!!#also so happy about the pronouns and also that you can romance either despite gender!!#AND THE DIVERSITY#STARDEW CAN SUCK IT#also the art is just soooo nice and nostalgic#top contenders: maybe Ryis bc I was like 'omg Black Love!!!' but Balor's bday being like 3 days after Momina's is also cute#ARUGH WHY CANT WE JUST BE POLY#except the sibs its fair I cant romance both didkke#Also I love how there is fantasy interwoven!!!#please let me use magic 🥺#pssst if you guys have Steam lets be friends but also I dont mind sharing my library djdkd#GONNA TRY AND GET JOJO TO PLAY TBH
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hi everyone I miss you 🥺
#work has been so fucking overwhelming lately :((( had to report this Incident to HR now im waiting for them to talk to me#and im thinking something more serious might happen to the guy i made the report about cause he has other complaints#that are all quite serious#and i keep feeling really guilty cause i think it might lead to him getting fired but also#bro said multiple slurs AT WORK and then defended why he should be allowed to say them and he 'does it all the time' outside of work#so yeah fuck you dude. hope you get fucking fired.#i just hate that i had to be the one to say something cause now im like well. hes gonna know it was me. cause it happened twice#and the first time i was the only other person in the room other than his gf and obviously she doesnt care so she wouldnt say shit#and he has way more friends there than me so if he DOES get fired i have a feeling theyd all find out#which almost made me not say anything cause i really fucking like my job and i dont want it to become a hostile environment#but like ? bro defended himself for like 15 whole minutes about how much he doesnt give a fuck#so guess what dude ! i dont give a fuck either !#im hoping next week this gets resolved and i can be less stressed and come on here a bit more i miss looking at Images :(((#been missing all my friends' gifs and edits !!!! need to be more chronically online !!!! STAT !#i will catch up on my tag soon i prommy <33333333333#j.txt
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okay i feel like im going insane and making a red string board in my head but I've watched that Ichiban and Kiryu conversation way too many times and i swear Kiryu has to be lying to seem cool or the "proposal" he's talking about isn't a standard proposal. a man with nothing to hide wouldn't have his face shift from being this smug
to being this caught off guard when he's asked to give details
that's not the look of a man who's been asked to reveal something personal that might be emberassing or uncomfortable, that's the face of a man who got caught in a lie and doesn't know how to follow up.
i know Kiryu is pulling a story out of his ass to hold up a manly persona. he's looking around trying to come up with something believable because he didn't think through his gut reaction of "I need to seem cool in front of this younger guy who (maybe) looks up to me". man's looking around the skyline as if his childhood idea of a tough, macho yakuza is gonna float down and give him a story to tell.
I can't even think of who he could be referring to unless he's exaggerating his relationship with Yumi or Kaoru? or if it has something to do with the woman he's protecting in Gaiden but I wouldn't think so since that's just a side story. of course it's not impossible that he could have tried to have a relationship during one of the gaps in time between games (à la Majima having an ex-wife between games), but that would be a really cheap way to write themselves out of Kiryu being generally uninterested in women. in conclusion?
#personally i hope it either flashes back to something he said as a kid or that this is a big fake out/ out of context scene#where he immediately quotes something he said to someone in the clan instead#yes i want him to quote something he's said to Majima but I'll settle for literally any other guy in the clan#he's getting phased out of 'main character' status for Ichiban and the new gang anyways right?#what better time than this to confirm that our beloved Kiryu isn't straight?#wishful thinking i know I KNOWWW i just really dont want them to slap another woman that we 1. dont know or#2. never got to see the relationship develop with#set Kiryu free please rgg studios. i see the posts yall make on Valentine's day and boyfriend day it would be hilarious to drop it in here#yeah i did obsess over this video for my entire work shift And What Of It. i feel like a youtube detective analysing his body language#and my conclusion came out to this: he's very autistic and is trying to stick to the image Ichiban must have of him ->#but in doing so backed himself into a corner and is panicking. thank you for ur time im going insane <3#bulletin board#kiryu kazuma#yakuza 8#like a dragon 8
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I hate this. I don't want a romantic relationship or situationship or anything like that- I just want a friend I can platonically flirt with (and be flirted with) in a way that seems romantic but isn't. Give me the comfort of recognizing that I'm not ostracized and can have people interested in me just like most of my other friends without the pressure of having to reciprocate anything.
Call me a pretty boy, tell me you love me, make some flirty comment and tease me when I get embarrassed by it, hold me, hold me
#I think I'm asking for a qpr#ive got so much internalized guilt for wanting anything other than a stereotypical average relationship though#having and identity crisis#you mean well (you know who you are) but it just makes me feel guilty#i dont wanna go back to my old name and pronouns#“tomboy” doesnt fucking fit me#maybe im not a guy either i dont ficking know but being called a guy makes me so goddamn happy#i dont wanna say this tl you directly bc I'm shit with boundaries and assume the worst so i feel like youll judge me#but god#you've helped me more than anyone and maybe youre right abkut this too#but maybe id rather suffer with a “double life” than give up this part of me that makes me so damn happy#i CRIED when you called me my birth name. it physically disgusted and hurt me to hear that from you directed at me.#i know that wasnt the intent#but thats how it felt for me#im really hoping you find this (the tags not the post itself) bc i know damn well i wont voice this aloud to you#text me about it on discord instead lf here if you do though okay? i dont check my messages on here
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Ya know what inktober or cringetober, what have you, I'll be drawing all these Isaac au shitpost nonsense baby. I FEEL ALIVE. WITNESS MY CRINGE OR LOOK AWAY IN DISGUST. IM LIVING! WRAAGGHHH
#i have not been able to draw this much in years dude#i went thru a whole sketchbook in just two weeks its freaking epic#my brain juices my hand juices theyre coming to life#too bad my fmla will end in november. god i wish i was paid to draw nonsense like this#and trust me you do not need to know or play isaac to know what the heck is going on#im the master of not knowing whats going on and the master of catfishing. i dont know anything and you shouldnt either#its all about wink wink nudge nudge but i take full creative liberties. im taking the reins and going into maximum overdrive#and i hope my new followers enjoy what im spitting. please take a gander at the other things i draw because i have bursts of hyperfixations#i just want to be free to draw what i want ya know. i always feel held back because it doesnt go toward with improvement or making money#but i really think i am improving right now by drawing all this stuff my brain is spitting. my hand tryna keep up with my thought patterns#its nice. and my hand isnt cramping. why? cause i keep taking breaks. me taking breaks yet still drawing this much#youll know you improve if can get thoughts and sketches down fast and comprehensible when you go to clean it up#im rambling but i jsut want you to know that i am happy. even if no one really pays attention to what ive beeb doing. be it this or my ocs#im having fun. genuine fun. i am so tired so goodnight. i lov e you guys
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#i had hoped this feeling would go away when i went to sleep yesterday#it didnt#i feel horrible#and pathetic#and unsignificant#i understand that you guys owe me nothing#the it is a privilege you even see and interact with my stuff at all#so i should be grateful#yet i cannot help but feel hurt#mostly because the lack of interest mirrors what my gender dysphoria and overall bad self image is telling me rn#my art doesnt matter#so i dont matter#my art is ugly and insignificant#because i am ugly and insignificant#nobody cares about me only what i can provide#and sometimes not even that#this weekend was my most productive in weeks#i actually felt motivated to create create create#but i guess i was too eager#because i feel drained#still i want to draw but i dont know if i feel like it is worth it#singing is prob no good either#i cannot give people a good time there either when my voice is failing me#so what good am i if i cant draw or cant sing#am i worth more than what i can give to people?#part of me says no#and that part is loud rn#what i can give is not good enough anymore#micahs thoughts
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damn even with all the ui changes lately i don't think i will leave the site (on my own will) but if i ever do or i get booted off the site or any other circumstance where i can't reach u guys i hope u know that i had a good time here and u guys were the highlight of it
#again this is not really happening. i like tumblr but yknow with things changing all the time#i also have a funny mental issue that makes me delete all my socials randomly its been getting better but who knows#i dont really have access to that information#i just want to put this out there as a precaution so that if anyone disappears either you me or if everyone is raptured or smth#that u guys were my friends#ok bye#ive been feeling really weird the past couple of days/weeks and i hope w/ this i can get myself to... stop feeling weird#milk (normal)#ah im turning off reblogs bc i don't want anyone to say anything abt thi#s#i dont want to talk abt it but i want it to be out there
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hi bros and bitches i have an announcement - i think i'm nonbinary
#okay so um its a long series of balloon pops and like i'm chatting with 3 friends rn to try and figure this shit out#but basically i realized that i feel left out from my girl classmates in like their identities and expressions and the pride they take#and especially in their emotional connection to girlhood/womanhood like that's a big fucking part to their identities#now here's the fucking thing: i just realized that i don't have an emotional connection to the concept of being a woman.#and in terms of emotional connection to gender identity - i don't think i have that#SO UM YEA WEW NEW LORE ON THIS TUMBLR ACCOUNT WOO I GET MORE QUEER BY THE FUCKING DAY#but um ayun i'm still figuring this shit out but um yea - i dont think i'm emotionally connected to being a woman.#that being said i dont think i'm trans either like i don't really want to transition if that makes sense?#i just like#i dont give a fuck#and i dont know if that is valid but i hope it does gjdjfjd like i'm still trying to figure this out#but um yea wooo#personal shit#(feel free to visit the ask box if you guys have like any words of wisdom or stories on this kasi like gjksds i have no fuckin clue)
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looking at some of these people online are making me think it should be legal and even encouraged for me to kill these people with hammers.
#i dont even know how to insult these people like at this point i just straight up think they dont deserve life LAWL#like. look in the comments on most instagram videos and tell me there is no such thing as a worthless human#someone has an exotic cat breed and in the video says that they would not recommend this cat breed to Anyone because#this cat is very high maintenance and constantly begs to be left outside and shows some clips on this guy walking the cat on a leash#in an obviously urban area and the comments are like 'i live on a farm and i always let my cats outside youre cruel for locking her up'#and this person is having to explain a trillion times that if they let her off leash outside that She Will Be Stolen.#justoh my god. did you not see where this guy lives ?? she will either get hit by a car drink antifreeze or get stolen. what even#and thats just a milder example of someone whos just kinda willfully ignorant and stupid. there is sososo much worse stuff#i cant even begin to explain just how much i want these people to get dropped in the middle of the pacific ocean and left to die#i just genuinely dont think there is hope for these people to be honest like. theres just no way to describe them other than stupid#but its worse than stupid its worse than willful ignorance it has to be at this point just some kind of purposeful pure malice#towards the concept of humanity . there is just no way to get that stupid and deeply genuinely maliciously ignorant on accident#i feel like there is just. genuine unintended ignorance and then theres just pure malice. honestly even if it isnt the effect is the same#i think they should get killed with hammers
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