#i just wanna hang out with my bf mostly

[grimmthorne]

get in the clown car since you wanna make a fool of yourself ig, i just dont care at this point

[gonzogender]

Losing my Fucking mind cause I’m finally starting college again and so excited but also I haven’t had a day off in 2 weeks now and it’s gonna get worse when the snowbirds hit if they don’t hire somebody but I can’t change jobs And start school thats too many changes hehehohoho

[no-one-hears-me]

why isn't anybody talking to me today

[toxicanonymity]

I’d sacrifice my firstborn for another Raider!Joel fic….

Failed rescue

1.9k, raider!Joel x f!Reader | raider master

mood board by @milla-frenchy

A/N: Picks up after the first Raider but can be read alone. Next: Raider: Stash house

WARNINGS: 18+ very dubious consent unsafe P in V, victim guilt, dark!Joel, gun violence (against your bf), forced gun play, forced cuckolding, forced masturbation (bf), Joel can lift reader.

After Joel has his way with you, you’re locked in a room for hours while the raiders continue their pillaging.  Joel gets called outside, and the same rookies that captured you have a man on his knees. It's your boyfriend, Jack.  He's begging to go into the house.  This is unusual, and Joel wants to hear him out, telling the rookies to hold their fire.  One of them explains, “He says his girlfriend’s in there.  He just wants to make sure she’s safe.”  The other men laugh.  

“Is he armed?” Joel asks.  

“Not anymore,” one of them says, holding up a Glock.  

Joel reaches out for it. "I'll hang onto this."  Then he turns his attention to Jack.  “What’s she look like?”

He describes you. Joel’s jaw clenches and his eyes darken.  He waits a beat before answering.  

“Oh, she’s fine . . .” Joel says.  

"Let her go," Jack pleads. 

"Let her go. . ."" Joel repeats, and nods slowly like he's thinking.  "C'mon, I'll take ya to her." The rookies look at each other hesitantly, then push Jack toward Joel.  On the walk to the house, he thanks Joel over and over for having mercy on you.

-

You hear Jack’s voice approaching the door with Joel.  Jack is thanking Joel, and you’re mostly relieved.  Joel lets him in the room then stands imposingly in the door with his gun.   Jack goes over to you on the mattress, looking you over, seeing if you’re okay.  You throw your arms around him and he says, “Come on honey, let's get out of here.”

Joel says, “Who said anything ‘bout leavin’?” and uses his boot to slam the door behind him without taking his eyes off the two of you. 

Jack’s face drains to white and you start to cry.  Jack doesn’t even know about what Joel did to you.  You feel a wave of guilt for the orgasm you had.  

Joel trains his gun on Jack and says in a low, firm voice, “In the corner.  Now.  And take off your clothes”

Jack hesitates, but when Joel points the gun at you instead, he complies.  He cowers in the corner naked while you sit crumpled up on the mattress.

“On your knees,” Joel tells you gently.  He palms himself and starts unbuckling his belt, and an unwanted arousal stirs between your legs.  

Jack begs “Please, no, no.”

“You’re gonna keep your mouth shut, understand?” Joel warns him, then looks at you and licks his lips. 

“Please,” Jack whispers.   

“What’samatter, don’t wanna see another cock in her mouth?,” Joel asks. "Fine." Joel points his rifle in your face.  He nudges your chin with the cold metal of the long barrel and makes you look up at him. 

“Open wide." 

You whimper and hesitate.  

"Sorry sweet pea, lover boy prefers it." 

Jack begs Joel to put down the gun.  

"I reckon you don't want another man's gun in her mouth either?"  Joel takes off his rifle and puts it out of reach. He pulls Jack's Glock out of the back of his pants.  

Joel nudges your lips with the muzzle. It's at least a little warmer from being in Joel's pants. Both you and Jack stop protesting.  

You take deep breaths trying to stop crying, then carefully wrap your lips around the barrel. 

"Now suck."

You're shaking like a leaf, your teeth chattering against the barrel, but you steel yourself and suck slowly.  It's terrifying having a gun in your mouth, but there's also a nagging voice at the back of your mind saying Joel would never physically hurt you and this display of dominance is all for Jack's benefit.  You wish Jack had stayed away once he saw the raiders. 

"This better, Romeo?"  Joel says, holding the gun in your mouth. 

"No, no," Jack says. 

You make eye contact with Joel, hoping it'll earn you some goodwill.  You remember he told you to look at him with his cock in your mouth. 

Joel looks at you hungrily and wets his lips. It sends a wave of arousal through you. He slides the gun out of your mouth. 

"Doin' great, sweet pea. Pants off, now. Just like before."  He looks at Jack.  

Joel palms his hard cock over his pants, still holding the gun in his other hand while you take your pants off and avoid looking anywhere near Jack.  

-

You don't realize how wet you are until the cool air hits your exposed pussy.  

"Same way as before?" Joel asks. Jack whimpers and you don't want to face him. 

"No," you say and turn around facing Joel. 

"Alright then," Joel nods in approval. "Let's see those titties."

Joel gets down on his knees on the mattress with you.  You sit up on your knees and he lifts your shirt and bra up with his free hand.  The way he looks at your body makes you hot. You help him take your clothes off entirely and you're sitting on your knees. He nudges your knees open to make room for his hand. 

"Good girl," he says. He gropes a breast while he rubs the barrel of the gun against your wet seam, sending a shiver through you.  Your nipple hardens against his palm.  "Mmmm," he says.  He twists his wrist to put the gun muzzle-up and notch it at your entrance. He rubs himself as he begins to push the gun into you. Your heart races. If he even flinches, you could be blown to bits.

"Wait," you say.  You reach for the bulge in his unbuttoned pants. His eyes widen. A smirk spreads across his face as he unzips himself.

"What, you want this?" He takes his big, hard cock in his hand, stroking it slowly. 

"Yes." There's no hesitancy in your response. You're telling yourself it's better than the gun, and it's best to get it over with. But at the same time, you're yearning to be filled by him.

"Well damn," Joel chuckles proudly. "Hear that? She wants the D," he says to Jack, then softens his voice to address you again.  "Any time, baby. All ya have to do is ask." 

You nod, “Please.”   You keep telling yourself it's just better than a gun, but the throbbing between your legs tells a different story.

"Attagirl, c'mere baby."

You're curious what Jack is doing in total silence, and you glance back at him one last time before you get on your back and spread your legs. Bad idea. The wet, sticky barrel of the gun presses onto your cheek and turns your head back toward Joel. His eyes darken.  “You look at me and only me, understand?" Joel says firmly. "Let me worry ‘bout him.”  You nod. His jaw clenches.

-

Joel looks Jack up and down and smiles, bemused.  "Turn you on? . . . Get to it, then."  You wonder if Jack was aroused.

Jack whimpers.  

"Go on. It's there, might as well jack it." You don't know what to think about Jack being aroused. "Hell, finish before me and I might let you live."

A pit forms in your stomach. You don't want Jack dead. 

Jack sobs and you begin to hear his hesitant strokes. 

-

Joel walks forward on his knees to get all the way between your legs, hand wrapped around his stiff length. His cock is so nice, you can't help but admire it. You feel sorry for Jack having to see such superior equipment. 

Joel leans over you, gun still in his hand, and rests the heel of his palm by your shoulder on the mattress.  He aligns himself between your legs, and you throb in anticipation.  He thumbs your clit. 

“Doin’ great, baby.  Now let’s show’m how good you take a real cock.”  He wets his lips. 

Joel closes his eyes and pushes his swollen tip inside with a grunt. You suppress a moan at the stretch of his girth.  Then, he slams his length as far into you as he can.  "C'mon baby, you can do it." His mouth hangs open as he backs up, then plunges into you more forcefully.  You gasp as your insides part, and Joel sighs loudly as he bottoms out. Joel hovers over you, completely inside you, and looks from your eyes to your mouth. 

"Good girl, just like that."

He slowly recedes then forcefully fills you up again, grunting "Mm." His girth is almost too much to handle.  Your inner thighs stretch with his torso heavy between them.  His pants rub against your skin.  You can't help but wonder what he looks like completely naked.  It's a shameful thought with a gun so close to your head. He begins to pound you at a regular rhythm.  His eyes briefly look past you to the corner, and you wish he wouldn't remind you. You can hear Jack breathing heavily as he jerks off for his life. 

Joel's voice is soft and low.  "You're doing so good, sweet pea."  He pounds your g-spot and you dread your orgasm. You try to resist it.

-

A guy outside the door says they're loaded up and ready to go.  Joel tells him one truck will have to wait.  

"Takin' you with me," Joel pants as he fucks you. Then he thrusts deep inside you and stays there.  "I'll take care of ya. Won't let anyone touch ya" He rolls his hips into you masterfully, staying mostly inside you, not letting up on that special spot, and you can't hold off any longer. You wince and clench around his cock.  You try not to moan as you ride your waves, but your back arches and the pressure builds in your face from holding your breath. 

"Let it out, baby," Joel says, and you release your moan.  He keeps thrusting into you slowly. As your climax wanes, you think about how Jack barely ever made you come. Not during sex. Not like this. It's terrible of you to think about, but even worse that you're thinking about Jack in past tense. 

Joel's brow furrows.  He breathes heavily.  He pulls out and groans as he comes all over you in a broken trail from your cleavage to your groin. He catches his breath for a moment, then he looks at Jack regretfully.

Jack pleads, "no," and keeps stroking himself. "I'm almost finished," he says. 

Joel closes his pants and holsters Jack's gun in the back of his waistband again. Then Joel puts his own rifle back on. 

"Sorry, buddy. Time's up," Joel tells Jack, then turns to you. "Cover your ears, baby." 

Joel calmly aims the gun at Jack and pulls the trigger without so much as blinking.  You jump and your ears ring.  You're in shock.  You don't look back at Jack's body. 

Joel swings his gun out of the way behind him, squats down, and takes you in his arms.  "It's ok, sweet pea." You collapse into him, sobbing.  "I know, baby, it's okay." He rubs your back. "I got you, baby."  How does any part of you feel safe in these arms after everything he's done? It doesn't make any sense at all.

Joel tells you, "There's some real bad guys out there, sweet pea.  My guys ain't the worst of 'em." You believe him. 

"C'mon, let's get dressed," Joel tells you and starts to help you put your clothes on.  "You want a ride again, or you gonna walk?"

-

All Joel: @ethanhoewke @silkiers @eiviea. @evyiione

(A/N): if you like the forced-j/o-to-save-your-life thing, i originally did it in michael makes them watch which has a different set-up and the stranger lives, but at what cost? btw michael is just a buff man in a mask - I never describe his real face/head or made him talk, so in that way he's kind of a blank slate to HC how you want. and slasher smut rarely has detailed warnings so generally assume the worst.

[firewhiskykiss]

detailed fluffy/smutty headcannons! falling in love with harry james potter <3

no one requested this but i did a draco one n thats been quite popular so heres one for the angel himself. idk why these are so long though, help. i get carried away. anyways, i love boyfriend harry. harry james potter is just boyfriend. hes so soft n lovely, he was BORN to be a loving boyfriend. <3

WARNING! SEXUAL CONTENT. SMUT. 18+

• harry asks you out on the bridge in 5th year, after walking with you hand-in-hand. he confesses that he’s liked you for a long time, and gets all shy about it.

• he’s a bit of a blusher! (he’s so cute…)

• he feels like you’re one of the only people who understand him, it’s made him warm to you even more.

• it’s snowing and you tell him your hands are cold so he takes them, cups them in his and blows on them to try and warm them up.

• harry’s the sort of bf to share his scarf with you when it’s cold.

• although you two mostly hang out in the gryffindor common room.

• your first kiss is infront of the fireplace, he doesn’t reach to touch your face because he’s so awkward and shy, instead he’s holding your hands in his lap as he leans in.

• until he gets comfortable with you, he’s a bit of a stiff kisser (LMFAO)

• but after the first three days of being together, practice makes perfect because he can’t keep his hands off of you.

• he’s just a horny teenage boy, really.

• harry loooves kissing you. making out especially. he’s also a sucker for soft kisses - all over your cheeks AND your nose AND your fingertips.

• one night in the common room, things get a bit heated and he starts backing you into the wall. you’re both panting and kissing madly, but! then ron walks down and stares at you both, in shock. it ruins the mood, which pisses harry off because he was feeling so confident! ( awh bub:( )

• before bed the next night, harry starts asking ron for advice because he wants to impress you and doesnt want you to think he’s inexperienced.

• btw, if you cant tell already, he’s still a huge virgin.

• a few weeks have gone by now and you’ve been dating eachother happily. harry treats you like a princess.

• you really, truly are his princess.

• he knows you’re his girlfriend but it still surprises him sometimes. he’s constantly in awe of you. he worships you (in his head, he’s a bit too awkward to verbalise all those thoughts).

• harry’s cupping your cheek softly by the fire again, like your first kiss, only this time you’re both sharing open-mouthed kisses.

• ron told him to gradually get more…touchy…when kissing you, so he recalls rons advice and grabs one of your breasts with his free hand. you’ve never done it before, but you let slip a small moan in his mouth and suddenly harry’s heart is in his throat. racing.

• harry’s feeling confident again so he takes advantage of it, you’re pulling eachothers clothes off desperately.

• harry’s pale skin blushes so much when he sees you topless for the first time. he gets so hard seeing your tits.

• harry is SUCH a giver. he lives to please you. he realised this as soon as you started moaning against his mouth. he would give anything to hear those sounds!

• keen to make you moan again, he gets down on his knees and parts your legs, placing wet, open-mouth kisses over your pussy. his mouth feels so hot down there. and despite being a virgin, harry’s got an odd, natural talent for licking your pussy.

• he’s big on praise. he’s so verbal in the bedroom compared to outside.

• he tells you to play with his hair whilst he eats your pussy, he likes the feeling of it. his hair is so soft too, so you love it.

• “yeah, that’s my baby”, “your pussy tastes so good for me”, “i wanna fill you up right now”.

• overall, your first time with harry isn’t rough, infact he barely manages to last. they’re rugged (but soft and slow) thrusts. he fucks you gently and finishes inside you, in missionary.

• he’s a big cuddler. always is a big cuddler but even more so after swapping v-cards with you. he leads you by the hand to his dorm, and lets you sit with your back to his chest in-between his legs.

• ron doesn’t even question it, he just warns you both dangerously that if you start fucking again you are to take it OUT of the dorm.

• sleepovers become a frequent thing because harry struggles sleeping alone, due to his nightmares. you’re always there to change his sweaty pyjamas or rub his back until he falls asleep again.

• when he’s feeling sentimental and can’t sleep, he talks to you about his parents, and all the things he wishes he could say to them. he sits with you on the window ledge late at night, spilling his thoughts and watching the moon.

• he talks to you the most. out of everyone.

• he enjoys walks around the grounds with you, or sometimes he lets you join him under his invisibility cloak and you both explore the restricted areas of the school together, laughing like children.

• he’s mischievous with you, really mischievous.

• you think harry’s actually really funny. in a sweet, endearing way, not because he means to be. you’re always laughing around eachother, hitting eachothers arms as an expression of amusement. (SO CUTE!!!)

• you sit with him, ron and the other gryffindor boys in their dorm, tearing through chocolate frogs and beartie-botts beans late one night. you and harry have the time of your lives, enjoying eachothers company and stealing kisses when the others aren’t looking. you like harry’s friends, infact they’re your friends too.

• you live in his lap when you’re hanging out in his dorm.

• he’s inadvertently VERY possessive, he’s always touching you somehow to assert this. usually you’re in his lap so its fine, but even then, he holds you in place by your hips. you feel him give you a squeeze whenever dean stares at you for too long.

• harry’s skin smells of the forest, something deep and masculine. you love how he smells. you’re always tucking your face into his neck when you cuddle.

• harry isn’t one for grand gestures despite having alot of money. so when he first tells you he loves you, its simple and sweet:

• you’re on one of your usual walks, along the grounds, and he stops behind you, draping his arms over your shoulders, and whispers warmly onto the shell of your ear,

• “i love you.”

• then he turns you around to face him, handing you a small photo of the both of you, one he’d had framed as a token of his affection.

• in the photo you sway and dance with harry, and smile down at one of the happiest moments of your life preserved in the frame.

• “i love you too, harry.”

[dizzyjelly]

Better Than Him(18+)

Word count: 3.3k

Summary: Your boyfriend Derek says something offensive about your bsf Abby, you get into a fight with him then Abby comforts you. Then she spends the night and you wake up after a spicy dream and you two get up to some fun.

Cw: rude bf, fighting, cheating, smut, thigh riding, pussy eating, slight overstimulation

It was a relaxing afternoon in your dorm as usual. You'd just been sat on your loveseat, your bestfriend Abby next to you. The both of you had been sitting in a comfortable silence for a while, when your phone buzzed. Abby glanced over for a second, trying to see who it'd been. But it wad out of her view. She wasn't too worried though. You rolled your eyes with a light scoff.

"It's Derek, asking me to come over." You told her.

"Just tell him you're busy." She shrugged, continuing to scroll through tiktok on her phone.

"Yeah, yeah, already on it." You responded.

Derek: Come over? I'm bored lol

You: Sorry, can't! Abbys hanging at my place rn

Derek: fr? Wtf

You: Wdym?

Derek: nothing. I just don't like her is all.

You: wth. Why.

You shifted uncomfortably in your seat, your brows furrowing mostly with confusion and a bit of frustration. Sure, Derek never loved Abby, but he hadn't ever expressed negative feelings towards her before. Abby took notice to your change in demeanor, but decided not to say anything. Not yet at least.

It bothered you, what he'd said. Because she was your best friend after all. You guys had known each other since middle school, and he know how inexplicably close you were.

"Derek's being weird." You announced with a sigh as he typed.

"How?" Abby asked, setting her phone down as she leaned against the back of the couch and looked over at you.

"He said he didn't like you." You explained and looked back at her.

Immediately Abby felt confused, and a little annoyed. Because what the hell? She wasn't worried you'd choose him over her one bit, but it definitely bothered her hearing this. She tried to conceal the evident change in her mood, but you noticed anyways.

"Oh." Was all she said.

"I don't know what his fucking problem is." You responded, the frustration very evident in your voice.

Abby chewed at her thumbnail quietly as you were busy reading his response.

Derek: I mean she's honestly kind of a bitch and she's clearly obsessed with u lol. Idek why you're friends with her tbh.

You: you're kidding right? That is so fucking rude she's literally been my best friend for years how could u even say that?

You: I don't even wanna talk to you. Don't text me for a while.

Derek: what? Babe ur being dramatic, I'm just telling the truth.

And with that you silenced notifications from him and closed your messaging app. A bitter scoff fell from your lips as you shut your phone off and practically threw it into your lap. Abbys brows raised at this, intrigued at what he said to get you so upset.

"What? What did he say?" She asked, leaning closer to you.

"Nothing, don't worry about it. He's being an idiot. Let's just talk about anything else, please." You rolled your eyes, not even wanting to think about him.

Abby respected your wishes of course, instead talking about one of her class assignments. She ranted about how difficult it would be, and asked if you'd help her with it. You said yes of course. Then once she was bored of that she suggested watching a movie. You agreed and soon the two of you were under the covers in your bed, backs against the headboard.

You set your laptop up on your legs, giving each of you a nice and comfortable view. Abby would only ever suggest horror so you just let her pick the movie without sny protest. She settled on a movie called Lights Out. As per usual, you found yourself resting you head on her shoulder as you wrapped your hands around her forearm.

You always seeked comfort during scary movies, and she had no problem providing you with that. With every jumpscare you'd yelp and turn so your face was pressed against Abbys shoulder. She'd chuckled lightly at your scaredy-cat demeanor, which she'd tease you relentlessly for later. The movie was nearly over when somebody knocked at your door, you thought maybe it was your floor supervisor doing a check-in.

"Babe? Come on, please let me in." Then you heard his voice.

You let out an angry huff, pausing the movie and looking over at Abby. She crossed her arms as she sat uncomfortably, watching as you got uo reluctantly to answer the door.

"What? I said I didn't wanna talk to you." Your tone was harsh as you answered the door.

"I know I just-" he stopped when he caught a glimpse of Abby, in your bed, "she's still here? And why is she in your bed? What the fuck!" He exclaimed.

"Oh my God. We were watching a movie! Now what do you even want?" You asked, already beyond annoyed.

"Well, I just came to try and reason with you." He answered.

"Ok and how are you gonna do that? What you said way completely insulting, I'm not gonna hear you out on this." You chuckled bitterly, turning around and walking into your room more.

Unfortunately he'd followed you in, Abby had moved to the edge of your bed now. She was nervous, never having seen the two of you fight before. She'd only heard of arguments from you, never actually witnessed it firsthand.

"Come on, you have to admit there was some truth to what I said!" He yelled, having closed your door behind him.

"There's really not though! Not in my eyes at least, don't you have anything else to say?" You asked, clearly expecting an apology.

"Like what? If you're looking for a sorry I'm not giving you one." He spoke as if it was the most obvious thing in the world.

He stood his ground, crossing his arms as he was frozen in place. You sighed, bringing a hand to your face, resting it over your eyes. Abby stood now, coming to your side. Derek scoffed at this.

"Hey, it's fine." She whispered in your ear, a hand on your shoulder to comfort you.

"No it's not. I just want him out." You whispered back as you turned to face her, biting your lip nervously.

"Then just kick him out." She shrugged.

Your turned back around to face Derek, crossing your own arms as you stepped closer to him. He smiled at you smugly, clearly expecting something very different than what you were about to say.

"You need to leave. Get out, now." Your voice was stern.

"What? You're not serious." He shook his head in disbelief.

"Yeah, I am. Just get the fuck out. I don't want you here!" You shouted at him now, throwing your arms into the air frustratedly.

"Whatever man." He rolled his eyes, exiting and slamming the door shut behind him.

A deep sigh fell from your lips as you felt exhausted and drained. You sat on your loveseat once again, your head falling into your hands as tears welled in your eyes. It wasn't really the fact you argued with him, you just felt overwhelmed. Which was the worst for you.

Abby frowned as you started to cry, sitting close next to you as she brought an arm around your shoulders. You leaned into her almost immediately, wrapping your arms around her and she did the same. She rubbed at your back soothingly as you cried into her chest.

"Hey, it's gonna be fine ok? I'm here." She spoke softly, and you just nodded.

Eventually you calmed down, and of course because Abby helped you. She'd offer to stay the night, which you enthusiastically agreed to. You'd give her a t-shirt to borrow, and she'd just leave her basketball shorts from the day on. Then you got yourself changed, comfortable in just panties and an oversized t-shirt that was just long enough to reach past your ass.

You let her get into bed first, shutting off the light then laughing as you practically fell on top of her when you got into bed. She laughed too, feeling her cheeks burn red hot at the feeling of your body against hers in such an intimate way. Her hands found their easy to rest on the small of your back, your own resting on her shoulders.

She thanked the lord you'd shut off the light because otherwise she's sure you'd see how hard she was blushing. Or how she bit her lip so damn hard it nearly bled. After a moment, you rolled over and face the wall.

"Go to bed you goof." You whispered out, pulling your blanket to your chin.

"Good night." Was Abbys response as she lied down, facing you.

"Night." You responded, closing your eyes.

You'd fall asleep in no time, meanwhile Abby was having trouble. She just stared at your back, the way your hair fell on your shoulders. It was hard to not let her mind wander to not so clean places. Not like she's never thought about you in that way before, but this time felt different.

You two had cuddled before sure, but something about earlier felt so much more tense. The way you didn't say anything, just lied there. Then she thought about Derek. She knew you guys had sex before, but just the though of it disgusted her.

Realistically, Abby knew she could give you so much better. But she wasn't even sure if you liked girls. And if you did, why would you like her? You were just best friends after all, and making things romantic could just ruin everything. She was willing her mind to shut off now, tossing and turning uncomfortably. Then she heard you gasp awake.

"Y/n? You ok?" She asked, turning to face you once again.

"Yeah, yeah. Just had a nightmare is all." You answered, breathing a bit heavily as you turned to face her.

"Aw, sorry." She brought a hand to rest on your shoulder.

"Thanks." You brought your hand to your shoulder as well, resting it atop hers.

"Do you wanna talk about it or anything?" She asked.

"No, no. Actually would you- could you just hold me?" You asked, your voice shaking the slightest with nerves.

"Yeah, of course." Abby answered, which had a sigh of relief falling past your lips.

She pulled you into her side, and you wasted no time in wrapping your arms around her as you buried your face into her. And then, you hiked your leg up over her own. Abby swore she might stop breathing as she could feel the material of your panties against her bare leg. It was like something out of a wet dream.

She wrapped her arms around you as her mind went wild. It took all her willpower not to ask to fuck you right then and there, but she managed. The both of you fell asleep within the next hour.

Usually when you'd cuddle with Abby, you'd sleep throughout the night. But tonight was different. You woke up at nearly two in the morning, trying to catch your breath and wondering why you felt so weird. Then you realized, you had a sex dream... about Abby! What the hell!

This was new and very surprising. You wouldn't expect that in a million years. Well, maybe that's a stretch, but still. It was hard not to notice how wet you were, surely a spot had formed on your panties by now. You let out a low whine as you nuzzle your face into Abbys neck, your lips pressed against the side of it.

"Abbyyy. Abby wake up." You whined, shaking her lightly by holding onto her shoulder.

You waited as she finally stirred awake, groaning as her hand rested on your back. She closed her eyes as she talked to you.

"What?" She asked, tired.

"Abby don't go back to sleep. I- I need you." You stuttered as you spoke, feeling embarrassed.

"Huh? What do you mean?" Her eyes were definitely open now.

"Like- I need you." You let out a small whimper.

Abby soon got your message loud and clear as you started to kiss along her neck, leaving one hickey for good measure. Her breath hitched as you continued, kissing along her jaw ten making your way to her pulse point. A low moan came from her as you began to lightly suck and nip at it.

"Y/n, I don't know if this is a good id-" You put a hand over her mouth as you began to straddle her, your hair falling so it tickled the sides of her face.

"Come on Abby. Let's just help each other out. It can be a one time thing if you want." You whispered in a sultry voice.

"Fuck, ok." She did not want it to be a one time thing, but she'd be damned if she didn't let this happen right now.

Abby brought her hands to your waist, and you leaned forward to connect your lips to her own. She let her hands roam your body as you deepened the kiss, moaning into her mouth when she slipped her tongue into yours. The way she swirled it around your own drove you crazy, it felt like you were seeing stars.

You let out a sigh as you sat up, throwing your head back with pleasure as Abby squeezed your plump ass. She then moved her hands to your thighs, moving them so that you only straddle her left thigh. You bit down at your bottom lip, a smile on your face as you stabilized yourself by putting your hands on her chest.

Ever so slowly, Abby began to grind your hips. It put a delicious pressure to your clit, even through your panties. It didn't take you long yo remove them though, your bare cunt now gliding beautifully against her upper thigh. She'd flex it every so often, causing you to moan even louder than you already were. Abby smiled, letting out a small groan at the feeling of your slick gathering on her thigh.

"Fuckkk Abby~ you dont even know h-how long I've wanted th-this." You stuttered on your words as her hand remained on your hips, continuing to help you as you grinded against her.

"Tell me about it." She chuckled, admiring you as your eyes squeezed shut and your mouth hung open.

You brought your hands to Abbys shoulders now, your vocabulary consisting only of abbys name and a few curses. Given you weren't really talking much, mostly moaning pathetically as you felt yourself getting closer and closer to your release. A few more minutes passed and you knew if Abby kept going you'd cum.

"I'm gonna-" You moaned loudly, cutting yourself off, "gonna cum." You whined, gasping lightly.

"It's alright baby, go ahead. Come on, cum for me." She helped you continue as your hips stuttered.

And when you finally came, it was like you'd gone to heaven and back. You'd never felt this euphoric with anyone before. Abby smiled at you as you came down from your high, a small laugh falling past your lips.

You let out a quiet whine as you let your head fall to rest on her shoulder, her arms wrapped around you as you stayed sat in place. Abby rubbed her hands up and down your back, placing kisses along your cheek and down to the side of your neck.

"We done or did you wanna keep going?" She whispered.

"I definitely don't wanna stop." You whispered back, pulling your head up to kiss her on the lips.

Then you began to kiss her jaw, and down her neck. You went all along her collarbones, your hands running up and down her sides. You gazed up at her with a smile, brining your hands to the hem of her shirt and waiting for the ok. She nodded and lifted her arms, you pulled her shirt off and tossed it somewhere on the floor.

You brought your hands immediately to her tits, squeezing them gently then rolling her hard nippled between your fingers as you kissed down between them. You couldn’t help but laugh as you got her tummy and blew a raspberry on it. She laughed too.

"Wh- did you just blow a fuckin' raspberry down there?" She asked as she propped her elbows up on either side of herself.

"Maybe..." You answered shyly, chuckling.

"Just be quiet and let me do this." You spoke with some authority now.

"Yes ma'am.." She answered, closing her eyes as her head fell to rest on your pillows.

You'd kissed all the way down to the waistband of her shorts, looking up once again and waiting until she nodded before pulling both them and her panties off in one swift motion. Abby let out a deep moan as you licked a slow stripe up through her folds, collecting the majority of her slick onto the tip of your tongue. You groaned at the delightful taste of her.

Her moans grew louder as you wrapped your lips around her clit, sucking harshly before drawing figure 8's on it with the tip of your tongue. Then you shifted so you could bring a hand up, easily sliding in your middle and ring finger into her aching hole. Her breath stuttered as you curled your fingers, perfectly hitting her g-spot while continuing your assault on her clit.

Abbys hands gripped the sheets so hard her knuckles turned white, and she felt that familiar pressure building in her stomach. Unable to control herself, she jerked her hips forward and grinded onto your face. You let out a small moan, the vibration sending an entire new wave of pleasure to the blonde girl.

Her thighs closed instinctively as she reached her high, and you let them. Her chest rose and fell at a fast pace as she moaned and gasped through her blinding orgasm.

"Oh- God. I fucking love you Y/n." She moaned and your heart skipped a beat.

You didnt stop even after she came, until she used a hand to push you away, the overstimulation becoming too much to handle. You listened, pulling back with a sigh.

"Mm, fuck. Get up here and kiss me." Abby spoke breathlessly.

You listened immediately, crawling over top of her as you caged her between your arms. Your hands placed on the sheet as you leaned forward and sloppily kissed Abby. She whined at the taste of herself on your tongue, brining her hands to the back of your neck and tangling them in your hair. Once you pulled away your used the back of your hand to wipe her juices from your chin.

"Abby... I love you too." You spoke as you rested your forehead against hers.

She laughed, her hands now coming to hold your face lovingly. Her laughter was infectious as ever, causing small giggles to fall past your lips as well. You continued to giggle as she kissed each of your cheeks, the tip of your nose, your forehead, and then finally your lips.

"I'm gonna go get a washcloth, mkay?" You told her, already standing to make your way tonthe bathroom.

You came back to find Abby pulling her shirt back on. She smiled at you as you walked over to her, wiping both her thigh and between her legs. Then you cleaned yourself before tossing the washcloth into your hamper then putting a new pair of panties on. Abby put her own back on, letting her shorts stay on the floor.

Abby ran her hands through her hair, waiting for you to join her back into bed. She layed on her side and held her arms out for you. You wasted no time in curling up against her, wrapping your arms around her and nuzzling your face into her neck. Abby held you and rubbed your back until you both fell asleep again.

[crushedsweets]

ANSWERING ASKS PT 4?

ok this is like 30+ asks LOL its mostly stuff about me/my art with a little crp sprinkled in im sorry... ill make a post thats actually answering the crp asks with real answers that arent "ILL DO IT EVENTUALLY I SWEAR" lololol

YOURE BOTH SO SWEET i havent been this passionate about smth in so long so hopefully im here for a while... thank u guys for indulging me. it makes me happy to post LOL

with love pls dont call me that buuuut. ninakate. ticciwork. ninatoby. ticcijack. ninajack. notice how its all in the same group...

hiii i dont plan to anytime soon! IF I WERE TO, cody and rouge are probably 'next in line' to being put in my AU, but i have no plans to actually commit to that

omg ok its funny cuz rn i HAVE ONE but its just me in it cuz im too lazy to organize all the bots and verification and whatnot. im also nervous about making a server cuz of some online occurrences that happened after u sent this HAHA so i'm kinda putting it off... but i reblogged tombs server and im sometimes active in there if u wanna join that one!

ffrhrughagahhhh

no ur right theyre such a power couple. i know we joke about toby being useless bf and clocky being badass gf but they're both really cool together.

I FORGOT I MADE THE TWILIGHT COMMENT LMFAAAOOOOOO I NEED i need. i need toby to find a random twilight shirt at a thrift and snag it for kate.

ME TOOOO its so delightful. i have so much fun playing with them like barbies.. making them kiss n whatever. LMFAOOOO so silly but yk

JEFF STANS ARE SO FUNNYYYYYYYYY i like you guys. laughing jack stans scare me but thats cuz that damn clown scares me... nothing that yall have done. youre just braver than me. LOL

i will not do this...

no literally its really bad. i hold horrible grudges BAHAHA but im working on it. im getting over my purple beef

omg. i listened to it and that was really cool. i like that thank u sm for sharing

IDK WHAT POST UR REFERING TO BUT YOURE RIGHT. LMAOOOOO

IM SORRYYYY im so sorry. i feel like this fandom is so small and most of the fans dont really ship in general so it suuuucks shipping here.. but i love them..

oh my god i need to i keep forgetting. the nina art i jus tposted of her holding th eknife was kinda.. kinda referencing her behaviors..

i do too!!! ive been neglecting them so bad im so sorry..

like the IEPFB tea party scene

I NEVER DID IT ANON IM SO SORRY IM GOING TO HELL

is this a song

i have not! i havent read alot of stories actually... i kinda like doing my own thing with them HAHA

omfg i had a clocknina drawing but i ended up privating but i think i should unprivate it...

ok actually im sorry i just am bad at requests omfg LMFAOO IM SORRY im so focused on nina ... forgive me...

THANK YOUUUU youre very sweet i appreciate you!!! <3

YEAH he's...one of the more tragic people. 100%. all loss

WHAT IS LIUJONJACK LOL WHOS JON??? ALSO LIUOTPS IS FUNNY

wdym ? !

LMFAOOOOO HEY ITS NOT A BAD COMBO THERES NOTHING WRONG WITH BEING A NINAKATE SHIPPER........

THANK YOU CUPCAKE i really like nina.. or my version i gues si dunno.. i like everyone else's nina too. i like this nina we got going on together

ok i keep grouping these together but also making them seperate im so bad at organizing these asks but HAHA I LOVE THEM TOO i swear ill try to get some ticciwork stuff out soon!!! my spring semester is almost over so hopefullyyy..

this is how you know i suck ass cuz this was christmas time and im replying NOW. im so sorry. i initially planned to draw them hanging around a tree but i didnt get around to it then got embarassed and never replied.... but i agree it would have been cute. ha di notfailed. LOL

[strawberrykake]

Sunkissed

requested. beach dates! descriptions of hot haikyuu men's beach bodies be aware, bring some ice to cool down probably lol. Daichi and reader enjoy bbq (sorry, anti-meat eaters). Oikawa wears his alien goggles.

[ reader x ] : oikawa. kuroo. akaashi. daichi

✺ oikawa

beach dates are always fun w/ this man <33

your excited bf wakes up early in the morning to prepare

brings all the things you need including his alien-shaped goggles

a great excuse to admire his abs under the golden sun

lots of swimming and hanging out in the cool water <3

“Like what you see, gorgeous?” he says with a smirk when you’re admiring his toned chest. His eyes are also scan over you, admiring his lover.

Then, you notice the dorky alien goggles around his neck and the image tickles you.

“Uh huh,” you say, chuckling. “Those goggles really add to your charm.”

“Heh, you think so?” He playfully splashes a bit of water toward you when your approaching the ocean waves. You’re hopping straight into the water as he drags you in.

Oikawa doesn’t forget his waterproof camera and takes a lot of photos of you (mostly candid) which he will delightfully keep in his wallet or phone lockscreen.

“Wanna race?” he offers just to show off his amazing swimming skills. Even if he won the race, you couldn’t be mad bc of how hot it was seeing the speed of his strokes. You swore he could’ve been a mermaid in his past life

“Haha! I winnn!” he declares, throwing his fist in the air after reaching the goal-point. It was hilarious to see his alien goggles still tightly worn around his eyes.

You roll your eyes before your boyfriend grabs your waist from under the water, making you shriek and pulls you closer, eyes begging for something. "Do I get a prize?" he snickers. He doesn't have to ask twice.

You grab the sides of his head, startling the man, before smashing your lips against his. Oikawa pulls away, surprised, before tugging his alien goggles down and bringing you in a deeper kiss. He didn't care about moving his wet, messy bangs out of the way but neither did you as your legs wrap around his waist beneath the ocean surface.

✺ kuroo

asks you to 'do his sunscreen for him' even though he knows he's well capable of doing it himself

jus loves feeling your hands on his skin and the way you squeeze his shoulders as a way of telling him you're done

'thank you' kisses for doing it

rubbing shapes on his skin as he lays on his stomach, suntanning

building small sand castles

chasing each other on the sand !!

You may have "accidentally" poked one of his 'sand towers', making it crumble more than you intended.

Kuroo's eyes flash towards you and it feels like that moment when a cat gives you its 'attack eyes'.

You scatter backwards and he gets up, raking a hand over his hair.

"You're so gonna pay for that." Kuroo's voice darkens and you squeal, watching him kick his heel against the sand, ready to pounce. Now, you're chasing each other on the sand. He finally catches you, arms lifting you up and walking towards the shoreline. Without warning, he dives into the water.

"Tetsu!!' you yelp, feeling the cold liquid stun your sunkissed skin. He turns around with a grin on his lips. Not another word leaves your mouth as you fall back and stare at his wet hair, water trickling down his heaving chest. Of course, it boosts his ego when you're caught ogling him.

"Eyes up here, angel." He chuckles as your face turns red from embarrassment. Once again, Kuroo dives underwater, swimming towards you. He resurfaces with his face inches away from yours. His once spiky hair is now flattened from being dipped in water.

“Haha, babe, your hair—.” You laugh but it soon cuts off with Kuroo’s lips on yours. The kiss breaks off earlier than intended as he tries to catch his breath.

“Hm,” he chuckles breathlessly. “Stop talking about my hair and kiss me. Don’t forget, baby, you still owe me.”

✺ akaashi

always comforting + takes care of you well

kissing the back of your neck while applying sunscreen has become a habit

surprising you with nice refreshing ice cream that he bought from the vendor across the street

lying on your back against his chest while he's reading a magazine

one of his hands is placed over your heart, feeling the soft beats

he guessed that you probably fell asleep on him as he starts to hear you snooze

“Sweetheart,” your boyfriend whispers gently, but you continue to sleep.

Meanwhile, the blazing sun scatters over the pearly sands. It's a good thing Akaashi remembered to bring your beach umbrella to provide some shade as you lay on a large, soft towel. However, the shadow had moved above your face. Akaashi notices and places a hand over your face to block the sun from your eyes.

"Keiji," you murmur your boyfriend's name. He hums a response, grabbing your hand and placing his lips on the back of it.

"Wanna swim?" you suggest, voice laced with sleep.

He chuckles, moving straying hairs away from your face. “You wanna go for a swim?” You nod.

Akaashi shifts his shades over his bangs. "Okay, let's go." He takes a sip of his cold soda before standing up. “Come here, love.” Arms circle around your waist and you naturally cling onto him. He knew you were still feeling a bit tired from the small nap, although, you also wanted to take the opportunity to dip yourself into the cool sea before the sun goes down.

“Too cold?” he asks when he feels you slightly shiver from contact with the water. You were still in his arms, leaning your head against his neck.

“Nope S’alright,” you say, softly. Eventually, the coldness becomes comforting and it was all too comfortable because soon enough, your eyes start to droop once again, being swayed between waves while your lover holds you close, humming.

Akaashi seems to notice. “Sleepyhead,” he teases, placing a peck on your forehead.

“I’m not sleeping,” you murmur before dropping under the water to freshen yourself. He laughs, tilting his head back. The colden liquid definitely revitalized your senses as you felt the playful urge to splash water to your boyfriend.

“Huh, so you wanna play?” he starts with a warning tone which makes you giggle. “You started this.” You begin swimming away as he chases after you in the ocean. He definitely could out-swim you but decides to move at a slower pace, giving you some time before he has his arms around you again.

✺ daichi

you’re the cheesy couple wearing matching bathing suits

would bring an entire cooler filled with ice and drinks

plus a small grill to cook some meat while you go for a dip in the ocean

you’d look over to admire the view: dark sunglasses on, thongs between his fingers as he flips the meat, toned chest glowing from the lotion he applied earlier

he’s smiling when your eyes meet

“Sure you don’t wanna swim, babe?” you ask, unraveling the towel from your hips. A faint blush appears on his cheeks as you do so. It’s a good thing his frames were too dark to notice where his eyes were, he thought. Your legs were now exposed, the warm sun tickling your skin, itching to dip itself into the cool ocean.

He clears his throat, making it more obvious that he was being enchanted by you. “I-it’s okay, love. I’ll join you after.” He resumes flipping the meat before opening a container from your picnic basket.

“Alright, suit yourself,” you giggle before jogging into the ocean. Daichi’s eyes return to you, taking in the scene before him, your curves, your sunkissed skin, the way your hair ruffles in the wind. Then, he’s chuckling to himself as he pops a grape into his mouth.

You’re having a nice time basking in the sun while your body simultaneously swishes around the water. From time to time, you’d look over to watch your lover on the grill, sometimes catching his eyes on you. Daichi would send a wave or lift his brows, a curve shown on his lips. Even from a distance, you could see his toned arms bulge with each movement of muscle.

At some point, he signals, letting you know the bbq is done. The aroma of bbq mixed with burnt charcoal fills the air as you approach back to the shady area where Daichi sits.

“I’m all wet,” you warn Daichi when he pulls your body down to his. In his hand was a pair of chopsticks holding a piece of meat between them. A hand cups under it as he gestures you to try his concoction.

“S’okay. Try this, baby.” His arms raise from both of your sides as you sit against his chest. Daichi didn’t mind that his chest and his trunks are dripping from your soaked form. He was going to swim, too, anyway.

You part your lips and take the piece of meat between your teeth. It was still quite warm. The nice crunchy texture and flavors on your tongue cause a happy noise to escape from your throat. “Mm! That’s really good, honey.” His chest fills with pride, watching you. Just seeing you this happy makes him giddy.

“Thanks—Mm!” You take one piece and turn slightly backwards to feed him while he spoke. His eyes seem to light up from the taste. “Wow, you’re right.” You spend the next moments together enjoying lunch on the beach, enjoying the scenery.

Daichi didn’t mind that his chest and his trunks are now dripping from your soaked form. He was going to swim, too, anyway.

[xxxg0ryygurlll13xxx]

love sharing my business online like im texting my friends lol

my bf is in a band and im seeing him play friday nite and maybe hanging out w him after and idk what to wear??? its cold but i kinda wanna wear this thick long skirt i have or is that too formal??? mostly the decision i cant make is do i do full on trad goth or just like eyes cause idk its only gonna be a couple hours of vibing to music??? idk yet also i cant be the only person who gets hella stressed when i dont have an outfit planned for something? like i need to preplan the fit before i go anywhere. anyways do i go full trad goth or nah? and do i wear a long skirt or jeans??

[lavendercrumbleshake]

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[flutteringfable]

new vs old kento design

if i can dig up the original drawing of this guy i’ll rb this with it, but i’m too eepy to go digging through old sketchbooks, so you get a couple-of-months-old heroforge version of him to compare to the new design 😭 his original design was pretty boring, tbh.

i used to just draw him in a white hoodie and jeans and that was it. idk what the deal was, he had no defining features unless he was using his quirk and had his ears and tails showing jcjskdnfjsnd. also not a huge fan of the old hair, when drawn in my style it’s really similar to kiyoshi’s and also it was kinda lame of me to not try anything new for the style (it really shows in the og drawing, you’ll get to see it once i find it lmao).

but anyway, blurb time!!! i think kento has the most interesting story out of all my bnha ocs, and i’m glad i get to fix it up a little and give him a slightly better life and just a better written backstory in general ^^

kento was originally quirkless; he gained his quirk after he was lured into a facility that was testing quirks and how they affect humans, and was given the quirk artificially. he was neglected and used only for testing his limits for almost a year.

his quirk is VERRRY unstable at first. he doesn’t get much actual training with it until he’s brought to UA, so whenever he transforms it hurts him a lot, and his emotions heavily affect his quirk.

he’s rescued by a group of pro heroes when the league breaks in to steal subjects to use as nomus. the police help find his mother again, and he gets to return home.

for weeks, kento thinks about the lab and the people still trapped there. he wants to help them, he doesn’t want anyone else to go through what he did. he’s never considered being a hero, but the thought of being able to help people still stuck in the experiments makes the career incredibly appealing. he takes another couple of months or so to study up and ease his mind before he talks to his mom about it.

of course, she’s skeptical. it’s understandable; kento had disappeared for so long, and she didn’t want to lose him again. but kento explains his motivations, and they eventually come to an agreement. the UA entrance exam is coming up, and kento needs to practice using his quirk so he has some chance of passing the practical portion (now that i’m writing this, this part is really similar to izuku’s story ncjskfjksf)

i kinda wanna skip to stuff abt him and his bfs, so i’m gonna keep this short. obvs he just barely makes it in, and ends up in class 1-A.

aside from izuku, kirishima is one of the first friends he makes. they like to talk about training together, and later on in the year, they train together in their free time. kento usually brings snacks to share afterwards, and it isn’t long before kiri’s moms and kento’s mom are well acquainted from them constantly visiting each other for training and just to hang out.

kento and bakugou’s start, however, is pretty rocky, mostly because of bakugou’s attitude during the first semester. the only reason they hang out at first is because of kirishima. as time goes on, however, they slowly realize they have a lot in common, and come to an understanding. the thing that really brings them close, however, is bakugou’s headphones breaking. kento offers to share, and baku reluctantly agrees, and realizes he and kento have pretty similar music taste! obvs he’s not gonna soften up massively about this, but he finds that he likes kento a lot more than he initially thought.

for a year, all three of them are basically attached at the hip. one is barely ever seen without the others, and they spend a lot of time outside of class together.

kirishima confesses first, during the training camp arc after they rescue bakugou. kento managed to slip through the portal and follow the league while staying invisible with his quirk, so both he and bakugou disappeared for quite some time. kiri was so worried about losing them again, he confessed as soon as they were all safe. cue kento’s and bakugou’s, followed by a group hug and a few awkward but earnest first kisses.

nowadays, they’re closer than ever, and have gotten in trouble a lot more often for falling asleep in each other’s dorms (and occasionally the common room) after long study sessions.

[toad-bread]

↳ *Jake* ༉‧₊˚✧

Paring: Jake x F!Reader

Wc: 5828

Scenario: You decided to go to a party with your bf, Jake. However, you weren’t fond with parties and it has only gone downhill when Jake isn’t beside you.

Note: this is months ago..its old. Short!

Swishing your cup with the content liquids inside of it made you want to puke. You and Jake- mostly Jake got invited to parties. Of course he got invited to many parties you could think of. He is basically a walking socialite, always meeting new people and having fun. On the other hand, for you? No, you can’t. No matter how hard you try, anxiety spikes up in you and it all becomes a hot mess. It really wasn’t Jake’s fault when you keep on refusing to go with him to random parties. 

Although these days you wanted to go to a party with him because you felt that you weren’t being a great partner so you decided to go to one of the biggest parties he ever went to this year. Plus, you couldn’t put your mind to regret saying yes when Jake’s face burst with happiness and excitement plastered on his face when you finally agreed to come with him. But you were dead wrong, you should have stayed home where your comfort place is, instead the moment you stepped in the house, Jake got pulled in with swarms of dancing people. Baffled from his sudden disappearance, you tried calling him on your device but to no avail he didn’t answer. Cursing under your breath you found your way to the kitchen to get water. Sighing to the increase of your anxiety, you sat down on a chair and that’s how you ended up alone, feeling sick from the humanity and music blasting through the house makes you wanna rip your ears off. You clearly were one that doesn’t wanna be here with the exaggerating faces you make when people glance at you a bit longer. 

Having enough of waiting you decided to look for him again and texting him rapidly telling him where he is.

“Hey, Y/n! Never knew you were one to come to parties.” Looking up from your phone, you were faced with one of your classmates. He was your classmate in one of your classes last year and you both were on good terms but he wasn’t the best person. “Oh.” You replied. That’s it? You were kinda disappointed since it wasn’t your boyfriend but you were glad that you knew someone. “I don’t go to parties. I just came here with my boyfriend.” He looked around and back at you before smiling. “Well, I don’t see your so-called boyfriend.” Right. You didn’t tell him about your boyfriend at all. This was his first time hearing about it. “Ha, ha, so funny. But seriously I’m just waiting for him….somewhere.” You mumbled out the last part. He sat down next to you and swung his arm around your shoulder. 

“Say, we can hang out for a bit while waiting for him, if he even comes back.” He laughed. “You aren't one to take me seriously don’t you?” You grumble while looking back at your phone to wait for Jake to respond. He stopped laughing and squinted at your phone. “He seems like a jerk. Hang out with me. I can do much better.” He dragged out the word ‘much’ while staring at your phone and back to you. Feeling uncomfortable you shrugged his arm off your shoulder. “No thanks. I’m perfectly fine.” You sneered at him. He raised his hands up while smirking at you. “Geez, you can’t have any fun. No wonder your boyfriend left you, probably finding someone else.” That made you queasy. Did Jake not want to be with you? Is he falling out of love with you? He is probably meeting someone else right now, right?

 Snapping out of your thoughts you raised up from your seat and glared at him. “I hope I don’t meet you again. If I meet you again I will not hesitate to tell you about the things you did last year. Don’t you agree?” He scoffed at you and stood up and walked towards you. “You better not, and you will not tell anybody. What you saw wasn’t supposed to be for you to see.” He started backing you up to a wall and pinned you. “Now, how about you follow me and-” “Get off her right now!” You knew that voice. Whipping your head towards the voice, you mentally soften at Jake coming towards you. Your classmate quickly let go of you and ran away from you both. “Get over here-” Jake was about to run after him before you stopped him by tugging his arm. “Jake, it’s okay. I’m fine, look.” You whispered to him. Jake cursed himself for letting the best of him leave you alone for so long. Jake checked you to see anything was wrong with you before hugging you in a bone crushing hug.

 “Thank goodness you're okay. I thought I lost you. I’m sorry, I’m so sorry. I tried getting a hold on you the moment I got pulled by my friends but I couldn’t contact you because the wifi sucks over here. So I went outside to answer you but you weren’t answering me so I also tried calling you but you didn’t pick up. I was scared that you got hurt and you were going to be before I found you! I won’t ever leave you-” Cupping Jake’s face you started calming him down. Slowly but surely he started getting his breath back to normal and stared at your face, smiling softly back at him. “Honey, It’s okay. As long as you're here I’ll be fine.” Jake smiled at you and pecked your lips before bumping his forehead against yours. 

“Let’s go home yeah? This party sucks.” Laughing at his statement, you nodded with him. “I’m sorry, I must have ruined your time here.” Jake shook his head and held your hands. “No, I ruined your time here. I should have been more careful. Next time I’ll try my hardest to keep you safe. I don’t want to cause a bad memory because of me.” You rolled your eyes playfully and swung your hands with his. “Jake, stop blaming yourself. This wasn’t your fault.” “Okay, okay, I’ll stop.” You giggled at him. Jake stared at your presence in awe. Moments later you tugged his arm while tilting your head. “Can we go home now?” You questioned. Jake blinked his eyes. “Yes! I- I mean sure!” “Were you distracted by my looks?” “Yes, a beautiful angel I must say.” Jake winked at you while you both walked out of the house, holding hands and love on both of your guys' faces.

[hoshi-y]

How Tsukasa became the Reader's bf please?

A Night To Remember

genre : Fluff

characters : Yugi Tsukasa

TW : None

A/N : HELLO I'm not gonna include Tsukasa's murderous, chaotic, and very loud nature in general, So that way some people wont think that Tsukasa just forced you into the relationship no, we need soft Tsu too 😞

I also name some of my one shots my song titles/chorus 😍

I HOPE YOU ENJOY 💗

New banners people 😱

I was scared that you wouldn't love me back..

Tsukasa was known for his outgoing and very cheerful nature

He wasn't too loud nor too rough on people

Its just, him

He didn't notice you at first cause of how extroverted he is

always having conversations with people left and right

And not to mention he was quite popular

both twins were popular, his older brother was known to be the captain of the soccer team

and he was the captain of the volleyball team

and not just that, he has alot of girls lining up for him

"Yugi-san my best friend said she likes you!!" A group of girls shouted from across the cafeteria as their friend shrunk in her seat

"Oooooo Tsukasa another girl likes you~~~" Fuji coed hold his hands together while making kssing noises

"Can't believe you get more than Amane—" Amane smacked Yamabuki with an empty plastic bottle with an irk on his forehead

"Be quiet."

He didn't mind it

but it did bother him

just cause he has a very outgoing nature doesn't mean he can't like to be alone

he can't get any peace and quiet for once without people popping up out of nowhere and starting a conversation with him

He tries his best to find areas where not alot of people like going in to

And he thought of the library

he walked in, checked in from the front and tried to avoid any group of people possible

But the only available seat was where you were seating

but you had headphones on signaling that you didn't wanna talk to anyone

Even with headphones on, you heard a chair squeak beside you making you look up from your laptop to see a boy with choppy black hair and amber eyes

he froze and suddenly let go of the seat "Oh, sorry I'll go find somewhere else—"

"Ah no, it's alrigth" You point at the seat he took out and went about your business not minding his or whatever he was doing

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"So.. like.. what's your name?" You looked to your side and saw he scooted closer, man he also looked really eager to talk to you

you were never really good with conversations but, you're gonna pray to every god out there that it won't end with an akward silence or this faithful day will you haunt you forever

"uh.. my name is [L/N] [F/N].. whats yours?" This guy infront of you looked a bit shocked, maybe you said something wrong?

"You... don't know who I am?" He pointed at himself making you tilt your head in confusion "No.. I don't know who you are.. I'm sorry if I don't"

"D-DON'T BE" He quickly covered his mouth as few 'shh' and 'be quiet' were heard throughout the library "Sorry, It's just I've been around alot of people already and you.. are kind of the first person to not know who I am.."

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"Is that a bad thing?.." He shook his head excitedly as he extended his hand out to you, you looked at his hand and back at him

"My name is Yugi Tsukasa, I hope we can be friends"

a little backstory on how we met Yugi Tsukasa

after that day, he stuck to you like glue

usually you'd hang out by yourself cause you don't like being in crowds of people

but surprise surprise the once quiet and joyful time being by yourself at lunch

turned into you sitting in a big round table with loads of people

"Guys this is [L/N] [F/N], I met them at the library!!" Tsukasa introduced you to his friends while you gave a small wave

"What were you doing in the library Tsukasa-kun?" a girl with silver to teal hair asked

"Don't ask—"

You were scared that some group of girls will come beat you up cause you were hanging out with one of the prince of the school

anyone and I mean ANYONE would die to be in your position

you mostly didn't utter a word and kept to yourself until you finished your lunch

"Awww [L/N] You're gonna leave already? Stay a little loonggeerrr..." Tsukasa held onto your uniform making this sad puppy eyes at you... well you had to secretly admit he looked kinda cute..

You sighed and sat back down and Tsukasa immediately jumoed back to his cheerful nature, you honestly didn't know why he liked having you around so much

Your once quiet and calm schedule turned into alot of hangouts with him and his friends

mostly him

but you did enjoy them, you didn't have alot of friends back then and you were very thankful he came into your life

and he was also very thankful you came into his

Days turned into weeks and into months

you two went from being strangers to glued-together best friends is that even a thing?

You two were NEVER apart not even once

He loved how much you warmed up to him

those akward single conversations turned into long ones

all that hardwork of him nagging you to talk finally paid off

and he gets to see that beautiful smiling face of yours..

Tsukasa shook his head with a slight blush on his face

'Why am I thinking of [F/N]..'

He got up from his bed and went to the bathroom splashing water on his burning face, He looked at himself on the mirror while his hands gripped onto the sink

His heart was beating fast, he was giving out cold sweat, and not to mention his burning face

this kind of behavior of his started 3 weeks ago when you and him decided to hang out at the cinema and went out for a night walk around the park close to your house

the way your laugh sounds so sweet, your cute smile that he'd give his best jokes just to see it, your beautiful [E/C] eyes that he wants to get lost in, not to mention he wants to hug you so tight that he.. wait a minute.. don't tell me—

"I'm falling for [F/N].." Tsukasa muttered, he slowly walked back to his room, closed the door and laid back down

His heart wont stop beating so fast, he clenched onto his shirt and tried to think of something else

but whenever he tries

his daydreaming always leads him to you

it was monday finally

and Tsukasa was excited that ever making his brother wear sunglasses in the morning because of how bright he is

"geez.. whats gotten you so happy at 5 in the morning.." Amane yawned as he grabbed himself a cup of coffee half awake

Tsukasa didn't walk to school woth his brother

he sped walk to school

it's not like him to be this so excited to go to class

but you made him the reason to always want to wake up happy in the morning

Tsukasa walked into the campus and saw you from afar changing your outdoor shoes, he walked faster and slid beside you to change his shoes too

"Oh, goodmorning Tsu, you look really happy—" That nickname you gave him has him going CRAZY, but he kept it cool and just smiled "Mmmm I don't know!" He changed his shoes and waited for you

"geez how did you change your shoes so quickly—"

He has been acting strange around you the past week

Was he planning ong pranking you?

nah the last time he did that you scarred him for life

But this weird behavior of his was bothering you

and you wanted to ask him about it

But you didn't wanna overstep any boundaries so you waited until the perfect time

You and Tsukasa waited and anticipated for this day to come

It was finally the Tanabata festival, and they made it even better this year than last year

You decided to go their in costume wearing your Kimono/Hakama, fixed your hair, and went off to meet up with Tsukasa at your usual meeting place

Tsukasa was as excited as you were and wore a Hakama, He was sitting down on one of the benches looking at messages on his phone waiting for you

"Tsu! sorry if I took too long it was so hard trying to walk faster with these slippers.." He looked up from his phone upon hearing your voice and almost dropped his phone

You were drop dead GORGEOUS.

Making his heart beat faster than a horse

"So, do I look alright? this is my first time wearing a Kimono/Hakama" You straightened any wrinkles while you waited for Tsukasa's reply

But you were met with silence

"Tsukasa?" He snapped back to reality and had a slight blush on his face, but he was thankful it was kinda dark you wouldn't see his blushing face

"Yeah I'm fine! Let's go I heard the line-up for the Tanuki Stalls are getting long" He held your hand and you two ran

Your heart was beating fast because of running

But his were beating fast because of your intertwined hands.

When you two got there there were alot of people already, and it was just 7pm

I guess they stuck around in the afternoon to get a headstart

You started shaking Tsukasa's arm and pointed to the Tanuki stall

"TSU TSU THE TANUKI STALL DOESN'T HAVE ANY LINES"

Tsukasa finished his in a flash and even offered to do yours

he just wanted more to do lol

You were so focused, you had both your hands on the tanuki scraping the outlines with a serious face

Tsukasa found it cute and secretly took photos of you

"I can hear your camera shuttle Tsukasa turn that off.." You caught him off guard whichhe didn't panick and gave you a closed eye smile

"I'm taking selfies dearest~"

"LIAR, ypur phone has one of those cameras that come up when you take a selfie!"

You two did another run around the festival

trying out games

Tsukasa won you ALOT of prizes by the way

You tried to win him something but you failed miserably

But he said it was alright, he said he wanted to try out something else and he'll win something for him

After all that running around trying out different stall games and collecting tags, you two were really hungry and decided to eat before heading to the bamboo trees to hang your tags and to watch the fireworks

Fireworks scare you a bit cause it was so loud, but you enjoyed in nonetheless

I mean if you did Tsukasa is wide open for business you know what im saying aha

okay I'll stop...

You and Tsukasa finished your food and threw away the boxes in a nearby trash bin

While you were finishing your orange juice, Tsulasa tapped your shoulder and showed you the tags they collected with a big smile

"We collected all of them [F/N]! I really wish my wish could come true" He gave ypu your tags as the two of you start heading towards the bamboo trees to write and hang your tags

they say that when you collect all 10 tags and hang your wish on the bamboo tree, the gods will read it and make it come true.

You two wrote your wishes on a nearby table and once finished you two hung it together

"What did you wish for Tsu" You tried peeking at his tags but he blocked your curious eyes "You can't look or else it won't come true!" He said still blocking the tag from your vision

you sighed maybe your curiosity will come in someday if his wish DID come true "Alright fine, anyways the fireworks are about to start, let's go find a place where it isn't too crowded they always step on my foot.." He nodded enthusiastically, when he went ahead first you turned around and looked at his tagged hung on a bamboo branch

You really did wanna look at what he wished for but you swallowed your curiosity and jogged to catch up with Tsukasa

Tsukasa found a really nice area on a small hill with not to many people around, He brought out a blanket from his bag and set it down patting the empty soace beside him, you sat down and made yourself comfortable and eyed the many people trying to find a place

"They look like ants from here" You said watching everyone trying to find a place to settle before the fireworks come out, Tsukasa chuckled at you "Don't you hate ants [F/N]?" You nodded

"Hey Tsukasa, I have a question.. and I've been curious about it for awhile now" He stopped eating his chocolate bar and gave his full attention to you "What is it?"

"Why did you want me to become your friend? I mean, you're the most popular guy at school, anyone would die to be in my position right now.." Were your curious or just insecure that he can talk casually to people and not you?

"Well.. being popular can be tiring too, always having people by your side left and right, I cant get a break. I never wanted to be popular to begin with, its just ever since I joined the volleyball team and became the captain that's where it all started, alot of them wanted to be my friend but I didn't know if they REALLY wanted to be my friend or just use me for popularity.. " He hugged his knees close to his chest as he rested his chin ontop of knees looking at the sky

"You.. were the very person I met that felt kind of weirded out instead of getting this overly excited face when you saw me sit down at your table, I was also really relieved that you didn't care who I was nor didn't care for my status.. and that's where I knew you wouldn't stab me in the back like anyone else"

He really trusted you, he really did, He told you all his secrets from minor to major to dark cause he knew you wouldn't tell anyone else, He told you about his problems and helped him get over it instead of having dry responses that can't help him recover

Not only that, He entrusted you with his heart and you've taken care of it for all the time he has been with you

and he thinks it finally time, to have this conversation with you

"Tsu look they're putting the timer for the fireworks!" You pointed at one of those big stadium jumbotron with a countdown for 2 minutes

Tsukasa didn't have much time but, these things are slow countdowns right? He has to do it.

"Hey um, [F/N] I have to tell you.. something" For the first time in his life, he has never felt this nervous at all, he was always so confident of things but this? it just went down to negative one

You turn to him with an excited look on your face waiting for the count down "Sure what is it?" He gulped, It's like everything became hot all of a sudden

'You can do this'

Tsukasa can't trust his own mind at the moment when it said 'he can do it'

like what if he messes it up?

"Tsu?" You furrowed your eyesbrows, he was shaking and this is the first time you've seen him this nervous looking "Tsu.. don't force what your gonna tell me.. I can wait you know"

"N-no I want to tell you this now I'm fine" The first time he stuttered

You held his hand reassuring him that you can wait, But this action you just did just made his heart beat 10x faster

He inhaled and exhaled and gave you a more serious look

"[F/N], These past few months with you has been absolutely incredible a-and.." There he goes again, stuttering, His heart was beating faster than ever he might even have a heart attack

He heard you giggle as you held his hands close "You were gonna tell me you like me huh?" He blushed furiously and nodded shyly "how did you find out.."

"Well captain obvious, actions speak louder than words you know, and you have been acting awfully weird these past few weeks.. so I put two and two together.. and led me here.."

He was scared.. Like really scared, it was okay to him that you reject him and go on about your life but what if you reject him AND end your friendship with him cause you thought it was weird?

"The annual fireworks will start in 10 seconds!!" They announced, the crowd went wild and started counting down

10

"If you're thinking that I'll reject you Tsu.. I wont cause.. I also have feelings for you.. And I was as scared as you thinking that you might reject me" You looked at him almost tearing up

"But I guess I was wrong.."

9

Tsukasa pulled you a little closer and held your face in his hands "who won't fall for you?.. You're very cute and your humor..god it makes me crack a smile everyday, not to mention you're so smart and talented in every way.."

Your heart skipped a beat when he inched a biy more closer

8

"There was never a day.. that I wouldn't stop thinking about you, [F/N].. You never failed to make my heart race, your smile, your laugh.. Everything about you.." He held your hands tenderly

"I love you everything about you.."

7

You were tearing up already, no one has ever shown you this much affection to you in a long time, cause ever since you were betrayed in middle school, you never ever tried making friends again

But everything changed when you met him that faithful day

6

Tsukasa gently wiped your tears away "I am very greatful that you came into my life, its like you have permanently changed it.."

"I'm thankful you came into my life aswell Tsu.." You let out a giggle as he placed his forehead on yours

5

Tsukasa chuckled, hearing you laugh because of him made him so happy "Well then, can I court you [F/N]? I know you aren't ready for a relationship—"

4

"Who said I wasn't?.. I'm ready Tsu.." Tsukasa was about to explode, he was so happy right now, words can't really describe on how happy he is

"So.. [F/N], Will you.. be my Girlfriend/Boyfriend?" Your held back tears finally came gushing out, you nodded your head yes over and over again

3

Tsukasa and you stood up with the most biggest smiles on your faces, he held ypu on your waist and lifted you high in the air twirling you around

You giggled as he set you down, he hugged you so tight "I'm so happy.. that you're finally mine.."

2

You wrapped your arms around his neck as he held onto your waist, He glanced down to ypur lips and you already know what he was craving for

"You can go ahead Tsu, What kind of S/O would I be if I didn't let my boyfriend kiss me?" He inched in closer and closer, while you closed your eyes he chuckled "Cute.." He mumbled and sealed the gap between the two of you

1

As soon as your lips crashed into each other, the fireworks shot up in the air as people around cheered at the fireworks, all of them were having the time of their lives

But You and Tsukasa? well, you two had a romantic kiss, under the lights of the fireworks, If a photographer were to shot this beautiful moment you two wouldn't mind

This day was truly a night to remember forever, who knew a simple hangout to the festival would pull both your feelings out for each other

GRRR THE CONFESSION SUCKS I NEED REFERENCE FOR FIREWORK CONFESSIONS

Fun fact : The day I got this request, I was supposed to post it the same day BUT I forgot I suck at making confessions, So I would take some parts oit, replace something, squeeze another sentence here, It's been a week now oml 😞

[feline-evil]

Its da freaking new year baby

I mean it turned new year like 13 hours and thirty minutes ago for me i was just busy and didn't post here at the time. Anyways.

2023 has been A Lot for me! On one hand my wrist issues finally fully caught up to me and it's one of the first years i've not been able to draw as much during which has been. Very hard. It's been a year of health issues and my body kinda failing me in a lotta regards so it's not been great on that front. But it's also the first year i got to meet my boyfriend in person, twice!!! And realise how much more beautiful and kind and loving life can be, and how much i wanna survive onwards and upwards and do wicked gay shit with that man in future years, it's the year that being so loved has given me the courage to make BIG FUCKING RISKS and plan for BIG FUCKING CHALLENGES in upcoming years, and thats awesome. I couldn't be the man i have been this year without him, i really couldn't. I'm so grateful to finally have a partner and friends and love and gentleness, it is something that was so sorely missing in my life and it is something that's keeping me going even in the darker months.

It's also the year i took risks in other stuff too, which i never could've done without my bf's support, and now i've been able to work on so many things for The Hotel Podcast and thats fucking AWESOME?? I GET TO MAKE STUFF FOR THE SHOW I LOVE?? I did the artbook and we got to do the second calendar which ruuuuled, i made a postcard, i've done some other stuff ;), i made a 3d background and learnt some video editing for it; i've accomplished so much even against my body and wrist failing and i feel so so proud of that, and no matter how things go i wanna keep trying to do more. I feel like i'm finally showing what i can do. I hope people can see how much effort and will goes into what i do, i hope it pays off and that you enjoy it!

I wish i could say i left this year on a high note due to all that good that's happened to me and i mostly am absolutely. But in all honesty i also went to sleep last night filled with a palpable dread, this past week i realised someone close to me has, without getting into it to a degree i'm not willing to share online, gone down a pipeline to become a person i'm not comfortable with while i've been busy elsewhere. I went to bed knowing that either 2024 would have to be a year of potentially risky confrontation, of running, or of begrudgingly resigning myself to making sure i isolate anyone i care about away from. This. So thats a shadow hanging over me at the moment, and is one that has soured my week a little. I don't know what 2024 holds in regards to sorting this, it's a little scary.

I am going to be 27 this year, in February! And as i get closer and closer to thirty i realise that (while time isn't running out for me, for any of us) i really would like to move on into thriving rather than just surviving the years, and that part of that thriving needs to be transitioning and becoming independent from my parents. Of course the former is complicated due to the fact i am not able to be out to everyone in my life and even just starting the path to transitioning would out me and potentially destroy a part of my life that has been there for 26 years. There's also of course the fact i live in the uk and transitioning here is going to be a ten year waiting list if i'm even lucky and they deem me trans enough to transition l o l. So as you can imagine, thats complex and hard to figure out! On one hand i should start the process asap BECAUSE its such a long process here, but on the other hand i don't know how to handle my own safety and comfort in regards to being out to those i currently am not, and i'm not sure how my mental (and honestly physical) health would handle the fallout. The latter is complicated of course due to being broke, uneducated, physically and mentally unwell and a myriad of other factors; we don't live in a world where you can afford a home or to feed yourself anymore! So! Yknow!! Unlikely i'll be moving out anytime soon!

What i am doing at least is trying to thrive where i can, like dandelions growing in cracks the pavement may be unyielding to me at this moment but i can find the soft dirt inbetween; transitioning and independence may not be possible right now but i can continue to do my work and try to succeed there, i can make my room better for me (which i have done with finally getting a new bed after the one i had since i was a child grew no good), i can spend more time doing what i love out the house (visiting places, seeing my boyfriend, ect ect), and i can take what i can when i can. Maybe i'll try to learn to drive this year! I'm not sure i trust myself on the roads, but maybe i can learn to. And all of this is progress towards those final goals, even if i can't so much as step on the first rungs of the ladder towards them yet. I also take solace in knowing that for every dark cloud over me that makes my life feel so uncertain and hard to make it through there is incredible sunshine too; that even if the year is hard and cruel as they so often are i will still be loved i will still have friends and i will still get to smile. And that even if i can't accomplish big goals, a lot of small goals accomplished over many many bad years will build up, and one day i'll be free. And that's something.

My first hope for 2024 is THAT MY HEALTH GIVES ME A BREAK, NO MORE HEALTH SCARES PLEASE, and that perhaps i'll be able to even get some answer's and help for my physical health. My second is that my courage pays off and i succeed at flying alone for the first time to the states to be with my love! My third is that the year is kinder, and that i can make more art, maybe even regain some of the independence i had when my wrist was ok enough to let me do art as a job. My fourth is that i laugh a lot, and smile and have joyous moments with loved ones and indulge in what i love with unabashed and unashamed joy! And my fifth is that i get to do good for others, because even if i can't get out, even if i have to survive instead of thrive a little longer, i can at least try and help when i can.

Happy 2024, my chest hurts, my joints ache, but i'm still kicking and i will continue on forever. Bastards aren't getting free of me yet, i'm persistent. I haven't even ridden every rollercoaster in the UK yet.

[wanderrlust0]

T-T

also my bf is being weird again….!!!! everyy time i hang out with snow (which has been a month or two apart) he gets weird with me again!!! he acts cold and short with me and its always like the next day. he swears im gonna cheat or not want him anymore, no matter how much i tell him that i wont and that i love him too much to think about wanting to leave him. like, i feel secure in our relationship and theres only a few things that could make me feel like its not. when he gets all anxious like this about us i feel like its bc he just doesnt feel fully secure with the relationship.. even tho weve been together for 4.5YeaRs. hes also had way more dreams than he should be having of me breaking up or leaving him. bc of his anxiety and fear of being cheated!!! like he gets upset bc they feel real in his dream and then he thinks what if its trueee. i feel like thats not fair to me in a way bc im not doing anything bad behind his back or seeking out someone else to make me happy. i also think maybe him feeling insecure with himself plays a factor into it. like maybe he feels like no one wants to stay with him or i dont love him anymore and he doesnt feel good about himself and then ends up suffering in his thoughts alone and becomes a hermit crab. i didnt mention anything to his mood yesterday bc i didnt wanna pester him with more to think about and i wont be able to see him in person for like a wk. i just wanted to seem fine..but maybe ill say something today. yesterday when i was contemplating on talking about it, i was going to be like howve you been, are you okay, do you still love me. mostly the do you still love me question bc seriously. so im also thinking that he saw snows bday post on ig since theyre not private and saw how they posted my card&drawing i did for them and ofc that made him feel a type of way. like, why is she making good art for someone else. i did it bc they didnt even want me to buy a gift for them or treat them or anything. they suggested to make something bc they like to display art in their room from other friends who have given them art. like the two people who i met the other day, they both create digital art of people. but thats why i made that drawing. aaand im planning on painting something for my other friend for her xmas gift. so i dont see giving my art as like a romantic gesture or anything, its just another way to give a personalized gift and it saves money lol. like, i just wanna shout “you have nothing to worry about!” i mean they were literally gushing to me about a guy they started seeing and they went on their first date yesterday and texted me about it and im just replying like im their hypewoman. i feel like this whole thing is making it feel like his worst nightmare and it shouldnt beeeee

edit: 12.14 / alright so i asked him “do you still love me?” and he says, “well yeah, nothing has happened yet to make me think otherwise” ………YET….. YET?!? like why are you beingggg like thiss to meee

[denimini]

Part 1)

You know initially i was quite okay with not getting much content from jkk cause i know they don't have to share with us all of the things they do together and all so i know it's normal but then after long time i was like nahhh this is not usual cause what do you mean the two members who were attached to the hips all these years are nowhere to be found together? Even the duos who did not seem to hangout together before were also getting spotted together so how come not Only jkk?

Many times jkkrs said that k-jkkrs don't share things with us this that whicj is okay but like for this long? Something wasn't adding up. Then i thought like forget about k-jkkrs is there no army who spotted them together? Cause if they did you know armys post it on twitter so i know no one was spotting them together because they were actually not hanging out together.

Another thing is they could be hanging out at eachothers' place but for how many times they were going to do that? Jm said during FACE's promotions that his fav vacation place is his sofa and he prefers staying at home. I'm not saying jkk Never hangout only them two but i knew for sure it was definitely very very less.

Then jungkook kept inviting jimin over his house in his lives and jm be like "I'll meet you after my/your promotion ends" but next you ask him if he met jk his answer would be "Not yet". So yeah the meetings were very very less compared to their previous yrs and other members too.

Thing with many jkkrs is that they simply don't wanna accept that things between jkk could change too Cause at the end they're humans.

About jk not mentioning jm in his first lives i actually don't mind it much cause jungkook actually never used to talk about any member at all. Mind you he only recently talked about jin like he never ever answered a single question about jin when he's in military. Even tho he later started mentioning jm he never mentioned jin once. I think he mentioned it way later like right before hobi joining MS.

Jungkook only used to talk about members while reading comments and when jm used to comment on his lives. He hardly ever used to mention any member without reading a comment. Jm used to comment on all of jm's live till FACE's promotions once the promotions stopped he for some time never commented on his live. Then later he again started.

It's a bits and pieces of behaviour like i wanna believe they weren't doing well together but then my mind is like "why would jm include jungkook on his album then?" Ngl jk's involvement in Letter i never understood cause he's there for only few seconds only doing some bg vocals for literally few seconds. Jimin is lead vocalist he's doing bg vocals for years he could have simply done it by himself. He even said he didn't want to have any collab cause it was the personal album so why is jungkook there in the first place? In a hidden track? Literally for no reason that's why i find that sus...

There was no business for jk to learn letter's guitar tune but he did learn it as his first guitar lesson. I'm very sure the person who played guitar in jm's letter is the same person who's jk's guitar teacher cause you simply won't get a tune even before the song release.

The first time jm commented on jk's live their convo was kind of formal i know jkk play like that alot but it didn't sit right with me cause he literally aksed how are you both doing (jm nd hobia cause hoba also commented). Then like take care. I know many will say he's just telling him to take care but nope when you're bf nd are in contact with each other all the time you won't say that. Also in that same live or it was diff i don't remember (it mostly has to be the same) taehyung commented and jungkook was like "what is he doing here?" And tae commented "you said you're going to sleep what are you doing live now" I felt like tae nd jk were more in contact with e/o than jm nd jk from their conversations.

To me at that time it definitely felt like they're keeping with e/o through those online comments. Like more than phones they talked to e/o over those comments lol.

Idk what to take of the initial jk lives cause jm used to comment on literally every jk live till his album was out once his promotions got over jm himself became inactive so did his comments on jk's lives.

Part 2)

Another thing I'll say as one anon said when he played vibe on his live it felt like he didn't want to so I'll say that if there's one thing i learned about jk over these few months is that he never does anything that he didn't want to so if he's doing something even if not 100% still somewhat part of him wanted to do it and hence he did it.

He started this watching memebrs song, content with jm only before that he didn't do it for anyone else. Even after jm's album release when yg released his album jungkook didn't even play a single song despite him going live during that time too. He literally used to play jimin's song which then released after yg's album but he still never Played yg's songs at that time. I thought he would atleast play people pt2 since iu is in there nd he loves her vocals but nope. He only played yg's song recently cause he thought he messed up at yg's concert and he kept saying sorry and feeling bad and in that he played yg's album (i think he got album that day).

When he watched vibe he knew jimin's Verse that means he's already heard it enough times to know the lyrics so idt he's got any problem with playing vibe live.

See even if he did it for us fans he still showed jm some online support that i won't deny. He kept with every content that was coming from jm.

He only watched suchwita because of jm nd that was his literally first episode of watching suchwita when the show was going on for long before that. The person he admired alot RM even for RM he didn't watch but did for jm. He was sleepy but he still kept watching it. He even told suga that he didn't watch all the episodes during his own ep when yg thought jk is a regular viewer, I'm sure he still hasn't watched all members' eps. The way after that jinhobi suchwita evryone wanted jk to react to that but he didn't.

There's another time armys aksed him to sing his song he literally made a face and said NO and immediately after that played jm's song. He knows each nd every jm song. Even tho he never acknowledged "with you" anywhere it's still was in his car playlist and he knows lyrics to that as well nd he was singing it while closing his yes sweet (this is from his vlog).

He himself played letter on his live after that army made song. You can simply see his reaction on his face while playing jimin's songs and other members' songs. The easy example i can give is in the same live he played letter he also played winter bear ig and you can see his reaction difference. watched "BTS teasing jimin" with us.

So from all that i can say is he does things the way he wants it and no one can talk over him.

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My answer:

"what do you mean the two members who were attached to the hips all these years are nowhere to be found together? Even the duos who did not seem to hangout together before were also getting spotted together so how come not Only jkk?" Exactly what made me suspicious of there being some sort of change and distance with Jikook.

"So yeah the meetings were very very less compared to their previous yrs and other members too." - That to me is a fact. No speculations there.

"Ngl jk's involvement in Letter i never understood cause he's there for only few seconds only doing some bg vocals for literally few seconds." - I think despite Jikook not meeting as much as before (when they used to be more than friends, maybe) , they never really fell apart. They remained fond of each other , just not as close so them working together doesn't faze me. Since Letter is fan song maybe Jimin wanted to include another member, because he knows the fans would love it. Plus him and JK have always sounded great together and their voices compliment each other perfectly, so there is that. Despite everything going on then, JK was still special to Jm I think, so maybe Jimin still felt gratitude and love for him, just like the lyrics in the song say.

"To me at that time it definitely felt like they're keeping with e/o through those online comments. Like more than phones they talked to e/o over those comments lol." - I agree. I think they didnt meet much and I believe the reason for it was Jimin's own unwillingness and maybe some residual awkwardness between them if there are alone. JK obviously missed Jm and wanted to meet up, but JM was hesitant. Perhaps he was very busy , but maybe there was more to it.

"jm used to comment on literally every jk live till his album was out once his promotions got over jm himself became inactive so did his comments on jk's lives." -Maybe he simply wasn't online much at that time.

"i learned about jk over these few months is that he never does anything that he didn't want to" - No doubt about that. Jungkook doesn't do things he doesn't want to do /in his own words/

"He kept with every content that was coming from jm."- That is true. And he didn't do this for any other member. Yeah, he was pretty busy later when Tae`s album dropped out , but as we said, when Jk really wants to do something, he will find a way. He clearly showed to us that Jimin is more special than the other members, and even Taekookers felt it and became mad. Or maybe he was actually trying to show to Jimin how special he was and we were never the target audience for these lives. In fact, so often it looked like he didn't even care about us during them lol. This whole thing reminded me of when he played "Lie" in his hotel room years ago in an effort to summon Jimin. Even now, that Jungkook is pretty busy, he still keeps up with what Jimin is doing and posting, evident by the fact that he saw very quickly Jimin dancing to "Face" , even though he doesn't even have an IG account (that we know of).

In conclusion, Jungkook is an assertive man. He does what he wants and doesn't like being told otherwise. There was a reason he paid so much attention to Jimin's release and continues to do it even now, amid his own promotions. Whatever happened between them in the early months of this year, Jimin remained special to him and Jungkook made sure we (and Jimin) don't forget it.