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no-one-hears-me · 8 months

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I don't understand how people get excited to start college

#even as a freshman I didn't wanna go #i knew it was gonna be rough #and I enjoyed hs ngl. I just knew college was gonna be bad #and it was! hate that place #it literally ruined my personality and I actually am upset about that #I used to be soooo funny and cool. but being absolutely exhausted and miserable constantly drained the life outta me #then I also got very deep into ed behavior which also drains all the energy and personality away #it's weird to talk about ed things bc like. I think of that as a relapse but I never recovered #I have had this for years now and have never stopped. it's still very present #it just doesn't consume me as much at certain times ig. so when it becomes a very big focus I think of it as a relapse #when in reality. my behavior hasnt really changed. I just spend way more time thinking about things #honestly my current situation is worse than it was before. now I'm running more than before while eating less most days #I'm gonna be honest. idk how my body does this #the amount of energy I expend vs the amount I consume. very disproportionate #I also have been sleeping less recently and I normally don't sleep much sooooo that's not great #where is my energy and ability to function coming from? I don't have much to burn up realistically #ALSO idk what I did but I've started feeling genuine hunger for the first time in years #usually what I consider hunger is actually just some sort of sickness/weakness/nausea and pain that lets me know to eat #but a few days ago I actually got hungry. which I did not enjoy but it went away after a little while #idk why that happened #Sera

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front-facing-pokemon · 1 month

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#oooohhh hell this generation is gonna be reeeeaaally rough on me. the textures on these models are Completely different from the 3ds #versions. and i do not!!! know how to do it!!!!#grookey #ANYWAY. welcome to generation eight!!! this generation will always hold a special place in my heart because it's the one that #reintroduced me to pokémon as a whole #i've talked about this multiple times in small references in the tags so i'm sure you all already know this but #when i was younger‚ i had a Passing interest in pokémon. didn't really need to play every new game or know every pokémon #but when i turned 18‚ on the SAME day pokémon sword & shield released‚ i ended up getting it for my birthday #mostly because my parents hadn't figured out what to get me for my birthday and heard that the new pokémon game came out the same day #which‚ now that i look it up‚ apparently it actually came out 5 days before my birthday. and i was just Told it came out that day #who knew. anyway‚ i got swsh for my 18th birthday. and i played the shit out of it. hyperfixation material #and that's what got me back into pokémon Properly. back into it as an Autism Special Interest type beat #and now it's stuck with me ever since. so swsh is probably always gonna be one of my favorite games in the series‚ and gen 8 one of #my favorite generations just because of what it means to me personally #gen 8 was also the last pmd game we ever got so .

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theelast-straw · 4 months

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pathetic little meow meow CANCELLED I'm putting Way into a corner until he learns how to behave what the fUCK

#i knew today's episode was gonna be a rough watch #but jesus fucking christ i did not think they'd actually go there #pit babe #pit babe the series #straw watches things

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simptasia · 4 months

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my mum died last night

#i was with her. i spoke comforting words to her as her breathing slowed #she didn't suffer - she wasn't in any pain. she heard me and became slower and slower then i... saw her die #i never predicted i'd be there at the moment of death #it was her time. her body had been slowly shutting down the last three days and she'd been officially dying for 5 months #she was so strong. she was hanging on for me. needing to know i'd be able to survive with her gone #once it was clear that things were gonna be fine (besides the emotional toll) she started to truly let go #i've been with her whenever i could be the last three days. and night nurses watched her as i slept #last nights nurse woke me to be with her in her final moments #besides hearing me talk the last few days - i was also running star trek for her to listen to #she couldn't communicate or move but we all knew she was aware of things around her #i gave her words of reassurance and comfort and the last words she heard me say were ''i love you''#and three days ago before she lost the ability to speak the last words she managed were ''i love you''#so things went as well as they could be considering the situation #she died a little over 12 hours ago. it was 7 hours before they could take the body away. that was. haunting #it's been a rough day. worst day of my life. but mum is at peace now. and i have a lot of kind people to support me #everything will be okay eventually and i have my whole life ahead of me and mum wants that life to be good #so i musn't give up. now matter how depressed i feel

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amee-racle-ofmyown · 2 months

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back on my bullshit (brainrotting way too hard a normal amount over Heist)

#I knew it was only a matter of time haha #these were very rough warm up doodles #I drew a lot more after these but didn't want to post yet bc of the strike #it was just to get back into it #also was sick :( still sick but less #anyway I'm gonna spam a few posts now #and maybe I'll go back to posting daily #but maybe I'll just put a lot in one post instead?#my art #ahwm #heist!mark #heist mark #a heist with markiplier #markiplier egos #markiplier cu #mark iplier #always forget that tag

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frostedpuffs · 3 months

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rough draft's done!!!

#and oh god is it ROUGH.#bitch needs some serious editing #text post #ppu #i knew 37 was gonna be long from the getgo

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bumblingbabooshka · 11 months

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Icheb, Naomi, Miral and T'Meni

#st voyager #st voyager art #I redesigned Icheb to make him more alien-y....butterfly inspo v_v I hate butterflies they freak me out #Icheb #Naomi Wildman #T'Meni #Miral Torres #Miral Pairs #I personally don't think Miral or Icheb become Starfleet #or I think it'd be neat but Icheb DID make it into the academy but he had a rough time and once he learned they didn't accept Seven he quit #So now he works in a general lab and can focus exclusively on astrophysics while also being a consultant about borg tech #Miral seems like she'd have a complicated relationship with Starfleet what with her parents' history #& T'Meni has no dog in this fight she's gonna marry a spa owner and be a spa heiress her life's breezy v_v #Naomi seems like she'd do well in Starfleet and like she'd have a more complicated relationship with Earth...Earth took her from #the only family she ever knew and also made them all miserable - fuck Earth all my homies hate Earth #Naomi is exceedingly calm and clear headed during emergencies and I think younger ensigns would quickly rely on her...weird big sister type #friends with borg...won't shut up about how good something called 'leola root stew' is...keeps joking about how she died once #Icheb and Naomi Wildman - wildest birth mythos ever. Kids who should be dead but aren't.#Miral & T'Meni frenemies....only two kids at the family function type of tenuous friendship #bea art tag #Icheb's eye isn't a trait inherent to his species

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kastillia · 2 months

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#neal pennywort #god eater #god eater 3 #ge3 #that's my guy!#this one's a little rough around the edges but honestly so is neal #the chrysanthemum family continues to mean everything to me #he's leaning on something - you see that line under his arm? that's the something. trust #i have such a soft spot for the tragic ones but you already knew that #AGE armlets are so hard to draw i gotta practice more...#i also wanna attempt drawing some aragami at some point but...well we'll see #this + the next few prompts are gonna be selfish but those are the letters' faults #my art

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wispscribbles · 6 months

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Just want to say your art does things to my cold heart. Please know how happy it makes me to see it on my feed or phone, no matter how many times I see the same picture.

♥️

Aw thank you sm <333 I’m happy I can contribute something to a fandom that’s so incredibly talented

#ask #dovabunny #ppl taking the time to send an ask just to be nice to me is consistently wild to me #you guys are awesome #I rly thought that getting into cod was gonna be rough #all I knew beforehand was misogynistic dudebros #so I was like ‘uuhhhh here are the military men if they held hands’ and I fully expected to be hatecrimed lmao #but apart from like… 2-3? comments on tiktok #I’ve only been met with kindness and fellow nerding out #it makes me so happy #I would’ve been obsessed with ghoap either way but probably more quietly if things had gone how I originally expected

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thieves-never-say-die · 3 months

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Finished White Collar season one

And that's one hell of a cliffhanger

#I'd seen general spoilers so I mostly knew what was gonna happen with the plane #but like. yikes man.#that's rough #I'd feel bad for Neal but I'm also mostly certain Kate isn't dead #(and I never liked her much. she's not written super well or made at all interesting beyond Neal's crush)#forgot how much season cliffhangers annoy me #leverage got me into that mindset lol #of always ending a season in a good way bc you never know if a show will be canaceled #but I know I've got 5 more seasons baybee #also WOW Neal not saying goodbye to Peter bc he could change his mind #fucking gets me dude #white collar #m speaks

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jaguarys · 4 months

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My particularly painful little pet hc is that they didn't know Razzia was Korbo when he first joined them. He certainly didn't go into it planning to lie to them, and technically he didn't, but a lie of omission is still a lie. And by the time he realized it was too late to tell them, it was way too late.

Of course, eventually they worked it out, but it was a long path to trust and forgiveness, and Danaël was by far the last to it.

#i'm working this into my razzia fic!#i think danaël knew the most about korbo because of the faucons d'argent (though by the time he was on the front lines razzia had left)#but danaël probably lost a lot of fellow soldiers to him! so that's gonna be a rough path to moving forward #i also think shimy and gryf would be the first to connect with razzia. they were the furthest from the ramifications of his actions #which of course doesn't mean at all that they're ignoring it. it just means they have more emotional space to look at him and realize he's #trying his best to make up for things #type: headcanon #fandom: les légendaires #les légendaires #les legendaires #razzia les légendaires #danaël les légendaires

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rottengurlz · 5 months

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I was complaining about possibly having to get a new job because I wasn’t getting any hours but I’m back to working 7 days straight this week