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#i know that aki would feel like a safe space
mrsackermannx · 1 year
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tw: sensory overload, neurodivergent coded reader.
thinking about coming home to your apartment with aki overstimulated and a little irritable to have him work it all away in seconds? the sound of his breathing is the only sound that doesn’t make you want to break out of your skin, he pulls you close, and wordless at the doorway, peeling away your coat. peeling away the outside world. he doesn’t say anything, not yet. instead he waits until you’re out of your coat and shoes, and he pulls you toward the bathroom. tea lights dotted all over, rose petals leading a trail to the door, chocolate covered fruit on a tray beside the tub.
your brows knit, and you rejoice in the sensation. they’re no longer furrowed, not when you’re looking at him. you pull on his tie, grinning at him, “hello,” you whisper, shifting the hair from his eyes. “how rude of me not to have said hello to you yet…” he smirks, shaking his head he tilts your chin and presses his mouth on yours. “not at all,” he tells you, voice soft, “i know this week’s been a lot, i feel it,” the measured, squeezes of his fingers around your hips make your breathing grow ragged and uneven. “you need to relax, with me.”
your heart throbs. you throw your arms around his neck, “aki, i wanted to see you all day,” he gasps at your earnest words, pressing you against the tile wall as he rips at your pantyhose, his lips all over your jaw. “don’t tell me that, because tonight we’re taking it slow—right?“ You moan as he works your panties aside anyway, even more so when he swipes your arousal from side to side. “i don’t wanna think, about anything. just you, aki, just you. can you do that?”
“id do anything for you.” he locks your wrists together and pins them above you, keeping them clasped together with one hand. “and now ive got you all to myself for the weekend…you’re all mine and only mine, for now. you don’t need to think about a thing.” his other hand toys with your slick, teasing you until he works his fingers in ways that have you panting and cursing into the steam of the bathroom. “ill make you feel better…so much better.” he groans, feeling the way you clench on his cock, his hands locked with yours. “that’s it, lose yourself. ‘till you’re too full to think of anything else.”
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fischltao · 2 years
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BF TSUKKI<3
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plot: random bf tsukki headcanons. reader insert.
a/n: your honor i love him. also i wrote this on a whim while listening to body paint by arctic monkeys
proofread?did i proofread this??idk :D
"and if you're thinking of me, then i'm probably thinking of you"
tsukishima wakes up super early to have enough time to be a hater
he really doesn't, he probably sleeps super late, spending the time on his phone and wakes up moderately early, like 10-11 AM
doesn't want akiteru to find out about him being in a relationship, he'll probably annoy him the fuck out and make him uncomfortable
so you don't really hang out at his house and the one time akiteru saw the pair of you walking down the street, he jumped in to ask you if you were his s/o and you kinda lagged out, not really knowing what to answer since you knew kei didn't want him to know for the time being but also feeling guilty for lying
kei saved it though
lmao no he didn't, akiteru was sure that you were his partner after that encounter
you, kei and tadashi are such a power trio,its kinda like those shonen trios (nobara/megumi/yuuji, aki/power/denji)
ukai teases you a lot as his assistant and eventually takeda sensei starts doing so too in his own ways
but whenever hinata or kageyama do so, tsuki goes well, tsuki mode
tanaka and nishinoya probs ogle after you but when guys from other teams do so they protect you out of respect for you and their teammate's honor
tsukishima often sends you songs that remind him of you, he never outright tells you so but you figure it out after the first few times he sends them to you.
looks over at you after scoring a point or doing a great block to see your reaction, his chest swells with pride
dumbass (affectionate)
tries to annoy you a lot but you know it's out of love
you're kind of like the default settings for him. sad? go to y/n. happy? y/n. wants to go out? y/n. is hungry? y/n might be hungry too so he's gonna pick up something extra for you too.
would die if he made you feel uncomfortable, like you don't understand how sick with himself he would feel if he ever made you feel like that.
super proud of you when you say something he would to the team. everyone's like "YOU CORRUPTED THEM >:(" and he's in the back smiling smugly and patting your head.
cuddly when sleepy. my brother in christ will on god lay on top of you, literally almost crush u, push his face in your neck and whine but as soon as you coo at him and say something along the lines of "aw is my baby sleepy?" he'll DENY e v e r y t h i n g. he's worse than youtubers getting caught red handed committing a crime. like tf you mean, there's literally evidence📸
he thinks about you so much throughout the day, you're his safe space <//3
he is kind of insecure though. when he notices other teams approaching you, it's then that others' comments about him begin to soak in.
of course he wouldnt admit it but you can see it in the way his face falls
tell him you love him and wont leave him 🔪
sometimes cries about this at night
he knows other people could be more open about their feelings to you and you deserved to be told how perfect you are as much possible
but he tries so much :(
he never saw it as "just a relationship" what you have is one of the few things he actually takes seriously
tsukishima is great bf and i said what i said
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mncxbe · 19 days
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omg!! LOVE THE NEW BLOG THEMEEEE💗💗 OH AND HEHEHE BACK WITH ANOTHER REQUEST FOR AKI.. since you made a new one!!!! prompt nsfw 4. one bed trope. aki. (I'm imagining that aki and Himeno scene lmwo) ilysm and all your writings hehshshudhu (That last aki fic was so beautifulpls) 😁😁🐑🐑💥
sheep my beloved hii♡ first off tysm i'm so happy you like the theme and the aki fic. and i'm very much hearing you out on this one👀
4– one bed trope
ღೀ๋࣭ ⭑𝒄𝒘: semi public, i got a bit silly at the end, slight degrading// it's implied that reader and aki had sex before
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"What's wrong Hayakawa? Can't sleep?"
The way the syllables of his name rolled oh so sweetly off the tip of your tongue made his skin crawl.
"I'm quite alright, thank you for asking, Y/N. Now go sleep" he said curtly in a hushed voice, trying not to wake up Power and Denji, who were sleeping in a bed on the other side of the room.
Aki took you, his newest patrol partner, and his roommates on his yearly trip to Hokkaido and rented a room at a cheap hotel. He'd hoped that Power would be willing to share a bed with you at least for a night, but she insisted on sleeping next to Denji, so he got stuck with you.
The situation was less than ideal– he could feel your ass pressing up against his pelvis as he spooned you. It also didn't help that you were wearing a tiny little top that barely covered your chest and some skimpy pajama shorts.
"Why are you so tense, Aki? Are you cold?" you asked sweetly, shuffling closer to him and fuck he swore you were doing this on purpose. His hard-on was pressed right against your ass.
His deft hand came to rest on the juncture between your hips and legs, preventing you from squirming any further. "Don't play dumb, I know what you're doing and I suggest you calm down before they wake up"
"But 'm not doing anything" you cooed, glancing at him over your shoulder and even in the dim lights of the room Aki could make out your mocking smile.
You really had the nerve to make fun of him after teasing him all damn night? Aki felt his frustration growing with each passing minute. Fine, if you wanted things to be that way, so be it.
"You little slut..." he mumbled under his breath and you could hear him fumble with his slacks. Hooking your leg over his hip to give him space, you pulled your panties to the side. "Sorry, Aki, ya know I can't help it with you... ngh–"
"I know, dumbass" he said affectionately, covering your mouth with his hand "But I don't wanna hear a peep from you, got it? Keep quiet"
You gave him a small nod, an unspoken promise, but the moment he alligned himself to your entrance and pushed his hips forward you moaned into his hand. Aki traced sloppy kisses up the nape of your neck, his lips hovering above the shell of your ear "Loosen up baby, you're too damn tight."
It didn't take long for you to get used to his length and Aki started slowly rocking his hips against yours, whispering hushed praises."There you go, this 's what you wanted baby? Good girl..." The mattress creaked lightly and you prayed that Denji's light snoring would cover the sound.
Unbeknownst to you, a mortified Power was listening. She'd woken up a while ago to go to the toilet but well... she couldn't exactly do that now. Or during the next hour. It's safe to say that from day on, she agreed to share a bed with you whenever you went on a trip.
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meownotgood · 6 months
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MY APARTMENT APPLICATION GOT FUCKING ACCEPTED IM MOVING OUTTA MY ABSUIVE HOUSEHOLD AND BUILDING THE AKI SHRINE IN JANUARY WOOOOOO
I just imagine aki throughout the years always being a safe space and then the second you'd graduate he would start looking at apartments to get you out of the situation. then you both finally find the right place, sign it and once you both get accepted aki just picks you up and swings you around all happy and won't stop hugging you. like he'd be all "you made it!! :'D" and probably cry happily at some point in such pure relief that after so many years of dealing with your parents shit and struggling so much mentally that you're finally free and it's all been worth it. and then moving out with aki? looking at furniture with aki? painting with aki? god he can get on one knee while covered in paint at this rate and whip out a ring pop and I'd say yes.
OH MY GOD THAT'S SO AMAZING DUDE I'M SO FUCKING HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!!!! 💞💞💞💞 I'm so proud that's such a big achievement, I hope you are proud of yourself too <3 <3 <3
gossshhhhhh yes moving out with aki is everything, it makes me so soft... aki is your sense of comfort and you know he cares about you so much, when you tell him how you're feeling he'd almost immediately bring up the idea of moving in together. you can stay with him whenever you'd like, as long as it's comfortable for you. he'd never allow you to be alone and he always wants you to know you're safe with him... he'll make sure of that...
and then when you get your apartment together... having your own spaces but a shared space that reflects the two of you, there's just something so tender about it... when you come home and you see all the different decorations in your living room, yours and aki's shoes next to each other at the entrance, and aki in the kitchen making dinner for you and him, in that moment you truly feel at home.
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diaryofellen · 1 year
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thank you for voting, everyone!! well done for campaigning for your characters and getting them through round one. some characters put up very tough fights, and others.....maybe weren't as evenly matched as they maybe could have been, haha.
before the main brackets continue, heres an extra chance to get two of the eliminated characters back in the running! yeah, two! ..but it might be a little confusing, so bear with me!
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there will be larger polls for the loser rounds. the characters from the left who have been eliminated; Rachel Gardner, Niko, Goldia, and Aki Narukami. the characters from the right who have been eliminated; Russell Seager, Sunny, Noel Cerquetti, and Aya Drevis.
these characters will be put into two 4-option polls. one for the left side, one for the right side. for now, i'm just using the left side as an example.
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this is the chance to get one of these characters back in the game if you think they didn't get justice! for the first part of the revival polls, simply vote who you want to see get a second chance, and the one with the most votes can be revived. but there's a catch. whoever is brought back will be replacing one of the characters who already survived, from their respective side.
focusing on the left side, lets say aki is gets the most votes for the character who will be given another chance...then, the next poll is to decide which of the survivors from the left side will get eliminated for her sake.
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one of the characters who survived the first round will have to be eliminated to make space for the revived character! in this poll, it will clearly state that the person who gets the most votes here will be eliminated. so unlike the other polls, you'll want to avoid voting for the characters you want to win! i understand thats maybe a bit confusing - but if a poll doesnt have that added statement, its safe to assume that all other polls are just for voting the character you want to succeed. just make sure to read carefully during the revival round! vote for characters you actively dislike, ones you like the least out of the options, ones youve never heard of….just dont vote for the character youre rooting for when it says "you are voting for a character to be eliminated" .and dont get mad at me if you click wrong, im trying to make it as clear as i can.....
if claire elford got voted the most in this example, then aki and claire would simply swap places - claire would get eliminated, and aki would be back in the brackets up against madotsuki in the next main round. of course, im just using aki and claire as...... examples.
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(...it is just an example.)
...yes, this is a slightly annoyingly confusing way to do this. i know. i really want to avoid having a three-way vote in the final round, so if we're going to bring back some of the eliminated characters, they'll have to swap places with one of the survivors. ˢᵒ ʷʰᶦˡᵉ ᶦ ᵍᵉᵗ ᶦᵗˢ ᶦʳʳᶦᵗᵃᵗᶦⁿᵍ, ᵖˡᵉᵃˢᵉ ᵇᵉ ⁿᶦᶜᵉ….ᶦ ᵈᶦᵈ ᵗʳʸ ᵗᵒ ᵐᵃᵏᵉ ᶦᵗ ˢᶦᵐᵖˡᵉ….
if you're still a little confused, you're free to ignore the replacement/revival round! ill tag it all posts associated with it as #revival round . if this is a bizzare and annoying way to set up a losers round, then feel free to blacklist that tag.
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nanamimizz · 2 years
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tags: 18+ minors dni,smoking (both reader and aki), talk of death, gn reader, insinuation of sex, first kiss, let know if i missed anything
synopsis: aki is so sweet, you just had to have a taste.
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It’s quiet, as he liked but it’s unfamiliar. Ever since the making of his ragtag team Aki’s living space has grown used to loudness, a habit none of his team could curb - except for you. Then again you are an exception in most cases of his life. You don’t like regular milk and prefer soy milk, he makes an exception to go from his rigid grocery list to buy the soy milk you like. You love all things sweet; jellys, suckers, hard candies, Aki keeps different flavored bubblegum for you in his back pocket. He can deny it all he wants but the fact remains that he has a soft spot for you.
He even shares his cigarettes with you.
The quiet of the room is broken and you paddle in from the living room to the balcony where he sits, taking in the cool air and watching what little are out pass by. It’s been hot so you’re wearing clothes that reveal more than he’s used to, more than he can handle at this point in your relationship. Dating is…unfamiliar to him. He knows what love is, what it looks like - the dates, flowers and chocolates but the life you two have; it’s danger and cruelty doesn’t let such things happen. You don’t seem to mind, he notes.
You like it when he makes changes to the grocery list, when he folds your laundry and when he does the dishes. You treat acts like they are flowers and chocolates and dates at high class restaurants. You look happy, he hopes he makes you happy. You’re wearing short shorts, the kind that rises and sits at the curving plush of your ass and he tries to not look when you bend to take things out from the grocery bangs. He feels you come behind him in the chair he sits in and wraps your arm around his shoulders. The sleeve of your shirt is a spandex material, you hate short sleeve shorts with passion so you always wear something like this.
“Why aren’t you asleep?” He asks and he feels you hum near his ear. Your cheek presses into his hair that flows down to his neck, free from his hair tie. Twirling one of his locks around your finger you respond,
“I can’t sleep when you aren’t with me. I don’t feel safe enough.” He hums back and ignores the twitch of his lip in amusement. Kitten-like and sweet it’s no wonder he loves you so. Reaching back, he takes your hand in his and squeezes it.
“I’m here, sorry I stink of cigarettes.” He apologizes as he rubs his thumb over the knuckle of your hand. Aki hears you laugh and you press a kiss to his ear - he ignores how it makes him turn pink. Your hand comes into his vision and he lets his jaw relax for you to take it. Going from behind him you situate yourself at his side, half sitting on the armrest of his chair and taking a drag of his cigarette before letting the smoke release. This career isn’t lucrative, you’ll die young anyways killed by a vice would be better than the fate of dying at the hands of a devil.
“There now we both stink of cigarettes.” You say with a smile that’s less empty when you give it to him. You keep the cigarette and take another drag. He reaches to take it back and you huff softly, taking it out of his reach.
“What, you want another indirect kiss?” You tease and he shakes his head. He leans further into your space - he takes in the knee socks and the fullness of your thighs but stays stead and takes back the smoking white stick you keep from him. He takes a drag then moves to it with his left hand, further from you.
“No, I don’t want you smoking.” You shake your head and smile at his comment - he’s said such things every time but you see how his hand laxes to pass you his cigarette. Little pleasures for little lives.
“You always say that but you still give it to me.” Aki sighs and his arm goes from being next to you to around your waist. He leans in, places his head onto your shoulder and snuffs the cigarette on the dish next to him. You smell of his detergent and your shared room.
“And you always make a comment on indirect kisses, if you just want a kiss just ask for one instead of mooching off my cigarettes.” He feels you stiffen and he smiles at the embarrassed look on your face he knows is there. His arm wrapped around you, leads to his hand that rests at your hips, slips up, his palm at your stomach.
You squirm and he can feel you try to get up but he keeps you there - you often forget how strong Aki is given how gentle he is with you. So he keeps there, in the night air, with the scent of cigarettes and laundry detergent, hand pressing into the warmth of your skin.
“You want a kiss? Is that it?” He asks you and your shoulders tense before you nod, face warm not from the heat but from the feeling blooming in your chest. You hear his laugh, it’s soft and kind, it makes you want to hide from him because this isn’t what you’re used to.
“C’mere, face me.” He says and it’s the usual Aki talks, calm and reserved so you listen, turning and descending to his space. You catch the blue of his eyes and you want to squirm with how he looks at you, affection unrestrained and unrestricted. He brings you in close, his other hand bringing your face closer to his. He kisses you, just letting his lips brush against yours and you hate how you whine the softest bit.
Aki pulls away and your face feels hot, he smiles.
“Do you want another?”
You nod, so desperate you forget your embarrassment. Something twinkle in his clear eyes and you shudder at what you’ve awakened. He leans back in the chair, you follow, going from the armrest to infront of him and he sighs at the sight. You’re pretty everyday, but desperation makes you lovelier.
“Ask, and I’ll give it to you.”
You end up asking all night, and for more, good thing Aki makes exceptions for you.
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gojou-violin · 1 year
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ok. this is dark... like... really dark. never written anything like this before. so, uh. warning. but i had a thought for a csm/aki fanfic.... but i'm too lazy to write another book, so. the thought just gets yoinked onto here <3
| tw: suicide, csm manga spoilers, character(s) death(s), trying for kids cuz aki's desperate. please, please, please. heed this warning. i've never written anything like it before and i actually am starting to feel bad about posting it... please read with caution.
| a/n: i finished writing this just now. it's not as bad as i thought it was going to be-- i kind of chickened out of making it as bad as it was in my head...... but please still be careful reading if you're triggered by suicide or s/h in any way.
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this day was kind of inevitable.
aki told you from the get-go when you started flirting with him and he caught on to what you wanted, that his time was limited. the deals he'd made with demons were adding up. according to his own calculations, he had a little over six years to live. to you, though, that didn't matter, because you'd known him for a while through the police department you were both friends with, and you always found him interesting and thought that he was kind, so why not try to cultivate something between the two of you.
to you, any time with aki was worth it.
when you started dating, he told you that his time left was five years. whatever. that was a long time. it was enough to know him, to fall in love, to cherish him, and to feel important to him. five years was a long time. you'd make it count.
by the time your one year anniversary came about, he only had three years left. that was okay. it was still a lot of time... it just meant that you had to do everything a bit... faster... none of it changed how you felt about him, though-- you loved him. you told him as much on that day while he was sobbing, apologizing for trapping you in his life, making you suffer beside a dying man.
aki never cried in front of you after that.
not even when he told you that he only had two years left. not even when he panicked about his dwindling days left with you and decided to drag you down to the courthouse to get married on a whim. not even when he told you that night that he was dreading his death because it meant you would have to live the rest of your life without him. and not even when he told you the next morning that you'd have to move on after he'd inevitably die. he insisted that you could mourn for a day or two, but after that, you had to find someone else, you had to live your life to the fullest because that was a gift he never had.
poor aki was so upset when makima forced him to house denji and power-- because no one knew that you were living with him already, that you were married, and that he was trying every day before work and every night after dinner to get you pregnant. your home was his safe space. being with you was the only time he felt somewhat sane. but makima had trampled that peace by sending a fiend and a possessed human to live with you, ruining any "alone time" you and aki could possibly have.
eventually, though, denji and power left to go live elsewhere, and you and aki were back to it. he seemed a bit more desperate now. you could tell that there'd been some kind of change in him over the past few weeks; but you tried not to mention it because you were worried that it would only upset him more. so you just tried to be there for him. did he want breakfast? no. did he want snacks for the drive to work? no. did he want his favorite meal for dinner? no. did he want to fuck you-- yes. it was frustrating that he had closed himself off to you, but how could you complain when you only had two years left with him and needed to make every second count? it wasn't worth sulking or being angry.
you couldn't recall the last time someone physically knocked on your door. solicitors never dropped by, aki didn't tell anyone besides power and denji where you lived, and you didn't tell any of your friends that you moved in with him... so who could have possibly been at the door?
this day was kind of inevitable.
"i'm sorry..." denji couldn't bear to even look you in the eyes as he dropped the wedding ring in your hand. "if you, uh.. if you ever... need anything... just, uh... lemme know..."
you only got a quick glimpse of makima waiting at the car with a slight grin after denji left your door, his head hanging low like a sad puppy, his steps weak and dragging under him like he barely had any will to live left in him. how makima could be smiling at a time like this... you weren't sure...
when you closed the door, you put the ring down on the table, letting it rest next to the negative pregnancy test that you'd taken minutes prior. it was pretty much the same thing every week. aki would fuck you, you'd take a test, you'd both pray it would come back positive, you'd be disappointed, and then you'd just have to try again. when you heard the knock at the door, part of you was expecting it to be aki who somehow got locked out, and you were ready to show him the test before crying in his arms... but you never expected in a million years that it would have been denji, delivering the worst news imagineable.
two years. what happened to that? where had all the time you and aki had left gone to? what happened at work for his time to dwindle so quickly? was that why he was so upset? did he know that he was going to die sooner yet he refused to tell you? why wouldn't he tell you something like that?
was it because he knew what you were thinking about?
did he know how much you were going to hurt without him?
did he realize that you loved him so much that you couldn't bear to live without him?
you had decided a while ago that if your two years approached its end and you weren't pregnant or had a family by then, that you'd join aki. it was easier that way. he made you promise after you got married that you'd move on once he'd die, but you knew, and you were sure that he knew it, too, that it was impossible to love anyone else after him. aki was the only one.
the ring and the test sat on the table as the chair clattered after being kicked to the side.
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dark-elf-writes · 11 months
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Im imagining that right after that beautiful scene took place, they all end up in a puppy pile on Aki and Kakashi’s living room floor. Just piled on top of each other in a mess of flowing silks, strong limbs, and hair.
Maybe they allow themselves to completely relax for the first time in years, with each other’s scents in the air and chakra wrapped around them like a blanket.
Oh 100%.
The three of them find a premium stretch of carpet, sun warm and soft from years of them all fighting over this one space, and fall in a tangle of limbs and silks and hair u til they didn’t know where one of them ended and the other two began.
Naruto finds his head pillowed on Sakura’s stomach and Sasuke sprawled over his legs with Aki laughing with Anko and Orochimaru in the kitchen and Kakashi nearby pretending to read while his eyes scanned the three of them on the floor, and finally after two and a half years feels like he can breathe again. At long last he is home. He is safe. If he looked out the open window he would see the familiar red lanterns of the district waving gently in the breeze.
He releases the last of the tension he didn’t know he was holding, one hand tangling in Sasuke’s long hair even as he turned his face into Sakura’s stomach as he lets out a shaky and too wet laugh.
After all this time of being so busy, of going from one mission to the next, of the training, of never stopping moving, it finally hit him how much he had missed this. Missed them.
His family.
“I love you guys,” He laughs through the tears, muffled by Sakura’s stomach.
Her nails, kept short and neat for the hospital, scratch at his scalp and Sasuke cups the delicate bone of his ankle, the closest thing he could grab.
“We love you too,” Sakura says with a sniffle.
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ghost-party · 1 year
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Ready for another? 🤗 Click below to unwrap today’s gift!
Want a sneak peek? After witnessing a violent confrontation between two rival crime syndicates, you’re placed under the protection of a stoic, handsome bodyguard.
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Warnings: references to violence, panic attacks, therapy, swearing
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Your bodyguard is making pancakes this morning.
Yesterday was vegetable omelets. And the day before was a traditional Japanese breakfast with rice and miso soup.
Aki’s wearing a red apron over a soft long-sleeved shirt, his hair pulled back. Your gaze lingers there, remembering the few times you’ve seen it loose, falling just shy of touching his shoulders.
It’s one of the small, unavoidable intimacies that come with living together, even if it’s only temporary.
If someone had told you six months ago that you would have the misfortune of being in the wrong place at the wrong time, witnessing a shootout between two rival crime syndicates, you wouldn’t have believed it.
But here you are, living in a safe house until the trial begins and you’re able to testify. Until then, your life is at risk. And even after a verdict is reached, you’re not sure what your options will be.
It’s something you’ve tried not to think about.
“You okay?”
You look up to find Aki placing a stack of pancakes in front of you, along with a cup of coffee. His brow is faintly creased with worry.
“Yeah, I’m good.” You muster a small smile and pick up your fork. “You’re always spoiling me with breakfast.”
He doesn’t seem convinced but allows you to redirect the conversation. “I’m just glad I could change your awful habits.”
Through a mouthful of fluffy pancake, you protest, “Toaster waffles are not awful.”
He sits down opposite you and replies flatly, “Yes, they are. And so is skipping breakfast entirely.”
“Says the man who starts every morning with a cigarette.”
His mouth quirks up at that, and from his silence, you know you’ve won.
When this is all over, you’ll miss these little back-and-forths, teasing him, delighting in his dry responses. You’ll miss a lot, actually.
He cleans when he’s frustrated or stressed, and you’ve come to like the way he folds the towels. He always smells faintly of smoke, but also a light cologne. You peeked at it in your shared bathroom — bergamot and cedar.
He’s often straightforward to the point of bluntness. But he never dismisses your feelings. When you had panic attacks in the weeks after you were placed in protective custody, he was a steady, reassuring presence.
As neat and tidy as he is, he leaves books all over the house. You sometimes hear him humming to himself in the bath. One night, when you couldn’t sleep, he stayed up with you and watched bad late-night TV until you both dozed off on the couch around three in the morning.
It’s not often that you leave the house, but when you do, he keeps you close. And that closeness has bled into your time spent at home, your respective amounts of personal space seeming to grow smaller.
While cooking dinner together, he’ll place a steadying hand on your hip while he reaches for something in the cabinet above you. As he stirs the pot, you stand on your tiptoes and rest your chin on his shoulder, silently asking for a taste.
And he rarely smiles, but you’ve memorized each and every time you’ve managed to coax one to the surface. You think about them far too often.
You think about him far too often.
“I heard from Himeno earlier, before you woke up.”
Aki pushes his plate aside, despite the fact that he didn’t finish his pancakes. You would needle him about it if it weren’t for the strange, unreadable look on his face.
“Looks like there won’t be any need for a trial. The defendants have chosen to accept plea bargains.”
You lower your fork, trying to process what he’s saying. “They… What?”
He sits back in his chair and crosses his arms. “More than likely, they’re getting a reduced sentence in exchange for sharing information on both syndicates.”
“So… I don’t need to testify.”
“No. The prosecutor would still like something on record, so we’ll handle that this week. But…” He mouth presses into a thin line before he quietly says, “We’re done here.”
Something unpleasant coils in the pit of your stomach, and your instinctive response is a resounding no, we’re not, we can’t be.
“Things can’t just go back to normal, though,” you finally say. Having lost your appetite, you push your own plate away.
“That’s true,” Aki admits. “Your safety could still be compromised. Witness protection might —”
You abruptly stand, bracing your hands on the table. You’re trying to keep your breathing slow and steady, wracking your brain for the techniques you’ve learned in your virtual therapy sessions.
But your voice still shakes when you tell him, “I don’t want that.”
If the price is safety is a new identity and the complete abandonment of your old life… you’re not sure it’s worth it.
Aki’s expression softens as he walks around the table, placing his hands on your shoulders. “I’m sorry. I know this is hard.”
You know you shouldn’t say it. That despite the semblance of closeness between you, this is still a job for Aki. You’re his responsibility, nothing more than that.
But the words come spilling out all the same. “I don’t want to leave you,” you whisper.
Aki goes very still, his lips parting as he stares at you. Neither of you moves, or even seems to breathe, for several long moments — until he sighs.
“Fuck.”
Your eyes widen. You’ve never heard Aki swear.
His fingers tighten on your shoulders, tugging at the fabric of your t-shirt. “You think I want you to leave?”
“I… I don’t know… I’m just a job, right?”
“No.” He looks almost offended by your question, his lips twisting into a frown. “Maybe you were, but… you haven’t been for a while now. Not for me.”
You wonder if he can feel your body grow warmer as he continues, his voice low and fervent, “It’s inappropriate. I’ve never allowed this to happen, getting so close to a protectee.”
Keeping quiet, you give him the space he needs to work through his thoughts. “You’re different,” he finally says, almost helplessly, like he can’t explain it in any other way.
“And the idea of losing you…” A flash of pain flickers across his normally stoic expression. “I can’t…”
You’ve wanted to touch him for weeks, maybe even months, in a way that isn’t tapping his shoulder to let him know you’re there, or playfully nudging his arm after making a joke.
Reaching up, you press your palm to his cheek, and he leans into your touch. This time when he sighs, it’s a small, shuddering thing, and you smile, your thumb rubbing back and forth across his skin.
“Then don’t. Maybe we’re done here —” You glance around at the safe house before looking back at him. Not for the first time, you realize his eyes remind you of the ocean. “— but we’re not done.”
Aki gazes at you for a long moment before slowly turning his head and pressing a kiss against your hand, then another on the inside of your wrist as he reaches up to grasp it.
“I’ll keep you safe,” he murmurs, lips brushing against your skin. “I promise.”
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whats-k-popping · 9 months
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what is something you would say to someone who wants to give up? not writing. but give up in general.
I would say that there are people who care about them, even if it might not feel like it. I would remind them that they have touched someone's life in an unforgettable way, even if they don't know it. I would tell them that even if things seem impossible, there's always a light at the end of the tunnel. That life is a precious experience filled with highs and lows, and the best way to experience the highs is to push through the lows.
And, if this person is coming to me, I would open myself up to being a support, a friend, and a pillar. Whatever they're going through, they won't have to go through it alone.
I see you. If we've interacted, I remember you. And I value your existence and your efforts. I want only the best for you. While your experiences are your own, we are all humans sharing the same space. And no human is less than another.
To this anon, or to anyone who may need someone to talk to, I will always listen. This is always a judgment free, safe space.
The world is a beautiful place with you in it. So hold out to find the beauty in tomorrow.
❤️ Aki
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misasimagines · 2 years
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you’re the new roommate at the hayakawa residence
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included characters: Aki, Denji, and Power! rating: sfw, no romance warnings: none, gn reader
You have to move in with Aki, Denji, and Power for some time. How does everyone feel about this?
Aki:
He’s so tired, he doesn’t have room to put you! He already has to buy like 4 times the amount of food a normal family of three needs for Denji ALONE, and now he has another mouth to feed?
He’s grumpy about it. He has no choice but to put you up on the couch and warn you about potentially being sat on in the morning when Power needs the couch to watch whatever she wants on tv (this definitely will happen)
He assumes that this means he’s going to have even more messes to pick up, more noises to try to sleep through, and more arguments to poorly mediate-
and then you pick up after yourself and wash the dishes and he’s like..... is this person a saint?? Am I dreaming? And you get along with Denji and Power and you offer to help cook and he’s like wow, this is my favorite roommate, do you want Denji and Power’s room? They can sleep on the balcony from now on.
You are definitely his favorite. He doesn’t say this out loud though, because if he did, Power and Denji would lose it and there would be mutiny on your hands. But you know it because he saves the best parts of dinner for you or he brings you home takeout from your favorite place, claiming that Power’s favorite place was closed/out of the way/burned down/etc.
He’s grateful when you deal with Denji and Power’s energy when he’s just too tired to do much more than lean over the counter and glare at them.
You guys have plenty of time to chat and commiserate over whatever is bothering you while cleaning, grocery shopping, sitting in the hallway and waiting for maintenance to come fix the overflowing sink- He ends up getting more attached than he’d like to admit.
When you eventually leave to your own place, he’s sorry to see you go and manages to tell you that you can come back whenever you want, but he says this out of earshot of the menaces lest he suffer their relentless teasing.
Invite him over for a break every once in a while, you don’t even know how much he needs it.
Denji:
he’s not so sure about another person living with them, does this mean he has to give up his room? Power already took over the majority of the space, he doesn’t want to have to share more. And he doesn’t want to have to change the way he does things to make room for you, and he is Not going to be listening to another authority figure so you better not tell him what to do!
But you end up being nice and funny! And you take his side sometimes when he and Power are arguing. You talk Aki out of punishing them by refusing to buy the name brand soda that’s more expensive but they SWEAR they taste a difference and the store version isn’t as good. That secures you a place of respect in Denji’s brain.
When Aki is scolding him for something,  Denji hides behind you. He just sneaks behind you and make faces at Aki because he knows that he’s safe as long as you’re his human shield. Aki hates this so you might end up the center piece of them both circling around you, Aki trying to maul Denji for putting a hole through the tv, Denji trying to avoid being mauled.
You also end up helping Power out at times which means he doesn’t have to! Even if all you do is convince her to take her muddy shoes off before she tracks them around the house and probably jumps up onto Denji’s bed, that’s a weight off his shoulders and he’s thankful for it.
If you play video games with him or watch movies/shows with him, he’s happy to let you stay. Better if you beat him at video games, he’s impressed and now has a goal to get better until he can beat you!
When you eventually have to go he doesn’t want to be all lame and sad about it, but you catch him sniffling a little. Give the boy a hug and promise to visit, or even tell him he’s welcome to visit you whenever he wants! He will take you up on this offer, probably within the first week of you being gone, and he will eat through any snacks you might have...
You end up with partial custody of Denji.
Power:
She doesn’t like it! She doesn’t want another human moving in to HER house (yes, her house, she’s on the deed, she owns it, no Aki is not renting, she owns the entire building. Impressive, right?)
She doesn’t like that you get the attention for being New, so she will just start lying and be like what? They’ve been here for months, I just moved in. Pay attention to me, I’m new and I don’t know the rules so I can put my feet up on the coffee table right?
She might even just pretend you don’t exist sometimes because she’s frustrated. All you have to do to get on her good side is bring her some treats, go along with one or two of her flights of fancy, and/or agree that Meowy is the best cat and obviously loves her way more than it loves Denji. Now she’s like, this is the better human in the house, you two should start being more like them.
She will start putting vegetables from her meals on your plate when you eat together. Sometimes she’s sneaky, sometimes she just catapults them across the table to you. It’s very important that you pretend you don’t notice she’s doing it and instead act pleasantly surprised that you now have twice the amount of veggies than you did before. She finds this hilarious and proof of her deception skills.
And yes, she does end up launching herself onto the couch where you’re sleeping and waking you up by giving you new bruises and knocking the air out of your lungs. Good morning! She didn’t know you were sleeping there, really, she had no way of knowing. Now stop groaning, she has a show to watch. You like this one too, right? It’s your favorite show, right?
Also, yeah, she might end up falling asleep on the couch you sleep on so you either have to share with her or sleep on the floor or pray Denji or Aki are willing to share their bed with you that night. She wants you to stay with her, but she won’t say it, she’ll just be huffy about it in the morning if you went elsewhere.
When you eventually have to leave, she’s upset. She tries to convince you that you have to live with them. She might even threaten to hold Denji hostage until you come back. You just have to promise to visit often, and that you have to leave because how else are you going to get gifts to bring back for her?
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Meet The Author ; JJ
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Name’s JJ.
My pronouns are He/Him.
18.
My humor is sarcasm/irony.
I don’t personally post much, just trying to build my writing reputation for now. But, maybe I will get out of my shell at some point.
Interests : Writing, Drawing, Painting, Tattooing, Guitar, Reading, and Skating every once in a while. Holy fuck, that’s a lot of ing’s.
Fandoms I’ll be writing about : Jujutsu Kaisen, Creepypasta, Chainsaw Man, South Park, Homestuck, and whatever else that I forgot to mention. Quite a bit.
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| Requests Rules.. |
Currently as of now, I’m not accepting many requests because I’m so busy with my own ideas for my page. So, I’m sorry if I can’t or don’t get to your ideas.
But, I will look at asks through the Tumblr ‘Ask’ option so please go ahead and go for that. I’ll be happy to see some of your suggestions.
I will write things such as SFW and NSFW headcanons, stories, and scenarios on characters with a reader or another character that I feel I can execute correctly.
If you are looking to request, please see below to what I’m willing to do and not do.
✑ The characters I’m open to writing are : Gojo Satoru, Toji Fushiguro, Megumi Fushiguro, Yuuji Itadori, Nobara Kugisaki, Yuuta Okkotsu, Choso, Sukuna, Denji, Power, Aki Hayakawa, Makima, Kobeni Higashiyama, Hirofumi Yoshida, Tobias Rogers (Ticci Toby), Jackson Nyras (Eyeless Jack), Jane Arkansaw (Jane The Killer), Timothy Wright (Masky), Brian Thomas (Hoodie), Stan Marsh (Toolshed), Kyle Broflovski (Human Kite), Kenny McCormick (Mysterion), Craig Tucker (Super Craig), Tweek Tweak (Wonder Tweak), Dave Strider, Rose Lalonde, John Egbert, Jade Harley, Jake English, Dirk Strider, Roxy Lalonde, every troll. (please don’t make me list them all..)
✑ I WILL NOT write anything that has to do with : pedophilia, vore, feet, characters that I have a personal dislike to, and any fetishes I deem uncomfortable or unsuitable.
✑ I am okay with doing : BDSM, non-con, and certain violent topics that include knives, murder, and other extreme narratives. This applies to most of the serial killers and is completely fictional. Please don’t cry to me about doing this. Some people cope with these sorts of kinks and it’s NOT to imply that they truly want something like this to happen. People just like crazy fantasies sometimes and that is OKAY.
✑ I apologize if I don’t get to your requests fast enough. Writing takes days to perfect. I’ve tried to rush it plenty of times, it will still be a long wait. Please be patient and know that I have a life outside of this hobby. Thank you for reading!
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I don’t tolerate or condone anybody who is homophobic, transphobic, racist, or sexist. You are not welcome here and I would suggest to leave. This is a safe space and I welcome everyone. You are accepted.
Everyone that I write about is aged up and at the age of eighteen or up. I specify this every time and I’ll continue to do so. There will be nobody underage that I will write about and anyone that wants to do so needs to get the fuck out. Other than that, that’s my introduction to my page and I’ll continue to update this when I make a master list and others. Now that you understand my work and all of that is out of the way, go on and read your asses off.
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soccerpunching · 8 months
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(if you haven't already answered this before:) how did you get into Ina11 and made you make this blog for it?
I dont think I've answered this before either (correct me if im wrong though). This goes under the cut like all of my long answers to personal asks...
For some context (this is relevant to my relationship with anime and fandom), I used to be nonverbal for the good 11-12-ish years of my life until I was traumatized out of it so now I'm semiverbal ((with like auditory hallucination, anxiety (general and social), depression, ptsd, etc)). I won't tell anything regarding this experience.
It's not really uncommon for Filipinos my age and older to be into anime because this is everything that the afternoon and morning television have for you. You would know naruto, goku, luffy, etc against your will and I was not immune to that. During that time also cable was really common (and was not paid per fucking channel, that started a few years later though) so I used to watch a lot of anime in Hero TV, Animax Ph, Cartoon Network PH, etc i dont remember the others.
I found inazuma eleven and other anime on one of them and got into it immediately (also because of my trauma) but because some personal things have to happen, I started watching all the anime I got into that time on illegal sites instead.
I was not an internet person and i cant get into chats because of the experience I've mentioned above so even though i like anime and have been reading every fanfiction about my fav shows that time and were even writing some of my own (mostly fairy tail and dbz but all are now deleted or orphaned), I never tried to get into any fandom (I am aware of how fandoms are because i had a personal twitter that i only use for rts that time but i never engaged because they were big fandoms who have... issues)... this was all until the pandemic happened.
After the pandemic, it was like people can understand my experiences suddenly and it made me feel like there are safe spaces now for me to be in so somewhere in 2021 I created a fandom tumblr and twitter account at the same time. Tumblr was overwhelming for me initially so I stayed in twitter (this is during my Encanto phase so my twitter has a small following even right now from that small fandom)... it was a so and so experience but it is my first so it was made better because of that small welcoming fandom...
A bit after that, I got into the naruto and dragon ball fandom which was a big mistake because it made me picked up some toxic feelings and even behaviour that I do not want. I tried learning tumblr more and decided that I'll stay here at the moment. I realized that the dragon ball fandom here actually have nicer people and are more mature and critical while being respectful of others so I enjoyed my tumblr stay!! I made a lot of dragon ball posts that gave me great tumblr mutuals that I still talk to to this day even after my dragon ball brainrot is gone.
Before 2022 ended, I needed a break because of some personal matters. I got into inazuma eleven again during this time after rewatching galaxy (i wanted to be inspired by their alien character designs but it had a different effect). It sparked my love for the series and made me reopen some old concepts and fanfic ideas I had for it before (this includes the vent fic I mentioned once where Kidou was evil, Endou was dead, Gouenji was a pediatrician, and Aki was the leader of a rebellion against kageyama's reign with Fudou by her side). And then, I started writing new ones nonstop for about 4 months (80k words for two different fanfic series btw that are both unfinished).
I started following some inazuma eleven blogs in May this year until I feel like I needed to make posts myself at about the start of June. The fandom had the encanto vibe to me with a cross to how old fandoms feel so it was really nice to be here!! And the rest is history ig?? hehe
Sorry for the really long answer and thanks for the ask!
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kousagi7hikari · 3 years
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Name: Akuma
Species: Demon
Do they exist in a story?
Not really. I put him in a bunch of different stories, but they’re more like AUs than anything else. He exists in my own head, mostly.
What inspired them?
A while back, I made a bunch of characters that were “What if Danny Phantom was a different creature of myth?” And then they just grew their own personalities
How did you name them?
I had an issue of Shounen Jump that had the first chapter of D Grey Man in it. It had monsters named Akuma, which I learned meant “Demon.” So, there you go. Let’s keep in mind I was in middle school when I made him, so I wasn’t aware of how “moon moon”-ish it would be, but it’s been over a decade, I can’t change it now!
Any big changes between first making them and now?
Akuma’s mostly gone through some personality changes. Before, He was very much a crappy teen, and now he’s an adult who is full of softly boiling rage. So, he handles his anger better. He also grew out of his “middle school” phase.
What’s the best thing about them?
He’s been with me so long and he just keeps growing. Also, he’s surprisingly loyal, for a demon
What’s the worst thing about them?
STILL VERY ANGRY. But at least he can better manage and direct his anger.
I feel the need to say that he’s not angry all the time. He just partakes in Wrath a lot
What part of yourself is in them?
Again with the anger. It’s mostly my righteous fury and indignation at how unfair some things are. I can use Akuma to blow off some steam and imagine certain situations in a safe space.
Do they have any hobbies?
He plays the violin! Something that grew from me listening to “The Devil went Down to Georgia”
What’s their backstory?
Not a whole big backstory, but, when he was younger, Akuma tried to take over the world. This went about as well as you would think. Half of his powers were sealed away because his brother made a plea bargain with the divinity who were in charge. He recently got them unsealed which allowed him to learn more spells and abilities and also grow up. He looks back on his attempted takeover the way we look back at our middle school phases.
Do they have any friends?
He’s friends with another OC of mine, Victor! Victor plays piano, so they sometimes perform duets together. He also has an unnamed demon friend he meets back in Hell sometimes at a bar for a drink just to chat. Obviously, not very developed.
Significant Other? Crush?
He’s got a boyfriend~ First serious one. An owl/winter forest spirit named Suluk. He belongs to my bestie!
What kind of powers do they have, if any?
Akuma can manipulate shadows and create fire, but it’s blue and purple cos AESTHETIC. He can also summon his violin and do magic with it. He can also cast some spells (whatever I want for my daydream scenario)
Any family?
Akuma has one brother, an angel named Sora. They’re twins. If you wanna know how that works, you’ll have to wait for Sora’s entry!
What foods do they like?
Akuma doesn’t need to eat human food. He mostly eats souls. However, he’s been known to dip into a steak once in a while, occasionally something decadent if he’s infiltrating a fancy party for one reason or another. His sin is not gluttony
Do they engage in combat? What do they use to fight?
Yup! He uses a combination of fire magic, music magic (energy with his violin) and either a scythe or a pitchfork. Sometimes he uses two of each, depending on how he feels.
Do they speak other languages?
He can speak whatever language he needs, but his mother tongue is a sort of Celestial language called Devine
Do they have a Nick-name or an alias?
Aki for short. When he disguises himself in a feminine form, he goes by the name Autumn. If he’s in disguise in his usual form, he goes by Adam Davidson. His full name is Akuma J. Devine. Much like Crowley in Good Omens, it’s just a J.
How do they get around?
Flight. Teleportation for long distances or to go back to Hell.
Can they cook?
Absolutely not. Does not have the patience for it
Who is someone from their past?
I think Akuma kept to himself a lot when he was younger, only sticking with his brother, so there weren’t a lot of folks in his past. He’s made more friends recently though.
Art by myself at @fangirltothefullest
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meownotgood · 1 year
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hey, could you maybe write a little something about aki comforting you during a panic attack and calming you down?🥺
aki knows the warning signs — he can tell when your anxiety is starting to overwhelm you, and as soon as he notices, he's quick to take action.
he drops whatever he's doing to rush over to your side, to hold your hands and help you stay calm in any way he can. he guides you over to somewhere quiet, somewhere where you feel more comfortable. he knows how you're feeling, and he'll hold you close and tightly if you wish him too, or he'll simply keep one hand in yours, giving you however much space you need while still making you feel safe with his presence.
he keeps his voice low and quiet, smooth and as steady as possible: "it's okay, everything will be okay. breathe slowly, alright? try to breathe with me. in, and then hold it... and then out. that's it, there you go."
"nothing bad is going to happen to you, I promise. I'm right here, I'm not going anywhere. hey, let's talk about something else for a bit. do you remember how I told you I was going to make dinner for you later tonight? what would you like to eat? hm, you really liked udon the last time I made it for you, right? I could make that again. or how about this, if you could have me make anything you wanted, what would you want me to make?"
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daisyachain · 3 years
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hi!! i've been reading through your ao no flag liveblogs lately and they're really interesting! i enjoy seeing someone so passionate about this manga and it makes me want to reread it .... i'm really interested in hearing what you have to say about masumi's ending though!! part of me thinks it makes sense but i'm mostly conflicted on it and would love to see it from your perspective ^^
haha well thank you! ah yes, the arc that created as much controversy as you can get in an active readership of like 10 people...
Blue Flag is an imperfect story, but it also gets a lot of flack for things that a) didn't...actually...happen, b) didn't happen in the way people think they did.
Part 1: Is it actually straightwashing?
The most common criticism I see of Masumi's ending is that she was written as a lesbian character and straightwashed at the end. Marrying off a female character as a way to 'fix' her issues is a common and harmful trope, and saying that lesbian women just need to get a man is a widespread homophobic trope and talking point. So, it's not a good look. To have a character angst over interest in a woman and end up happily married to a guy reads like a '50s pulp novel that just uses f/f attraction for marketing.
But, if the intention of the ending was to show that Masumi should give up on women and force herself to date men, then it doesn't. Mitsuyuki's description of her is 'look at my bisexual wife who has dated both women and men and could also have married a woman', which is an odd choice if the intention was straightwashing. It feels more like a clumsy way to make sure that, in a series full of ambiguity, there could be no argument that Masumi was queer. That isn't to say that cisstraight people don't view bisexuality as less/better than/straighter than her being lesbian and that making a previously gay character bisexual isn't still straightwashing (increasing the appearance of straightness).
Part 2: Was it actually a retcon?
So: Masumi's ending reaffirms that she's a WLW. One question is, was she always meant to be bisexual, or was she originally written as lesbian?
Blue Flag doesn't have a lot of straight (no pun intended) answers. Taichi never expresses any explicit attraction to guys, but there is enough subtext to suggest he's attracted to Touma well before the finale. Futaba believes she is attracted to Touma at first and is shown to be attracted to him using the visual shorthand of manga (blushing, etc.), but she later says that it was just misinterpreted admiration. Mami doesn't want to date Touma or any man, but she implies that she is attracted to Touma when she says around him she was 'glad to be a woman.' Within the main romance, Futaba says that it was specifically because Taichi was a friend to her that she grew to like-like him. The lines between friendship and romance are blurred in Blue Flag, and sometimes romance can only grow out of friendship.
Masumi has a tense conversation with Taichi in the first half after she breaks up with her boyfriend that most people (me included) read as her saying that she tried guys and she just isn't and can't be attracted to them. However, it's Blue Flag, so the conversation is unfocused and doesn't paint a complete picture.
"Even if I get a boyfriend, I can never make it work"/"I don't know why [I don't like him anymore]" seem to imply that Masumi realized that she was feeling compulsory heterosexuality and that she will never like men. "[I don't know] why he like someone like me"/"You can be friends with potential sexual partners? With both guys and girls?"/"I just wanted to hear how you men feel about [a girl liking other girls]" seem to imply that Masumi is bisexual and is afraid to date because someone might find out. Maybe she's written as questioning--she knows she likes Futaba, but she's feeling out other possibilities. It's Blue Flag, so it's unclear.
Part 3: How does it work with Masumi's arc?
Diving further into Masumi's story, she acts as a foil to Touma (and Futaba, see later). Touma feels free to show his affection for Taichi as a friend as well as a love interest and almost confesses to him of his own free will, well before he's forced to. Touma tells her that he intends to try and set Taichi up with Futaba (because they would be good for each other), and also that he intends to pursue Taichi in some way. He tells her he's "not like [her]."
For Masumi's part, she tells Touma that she wants to express more affection for Futaba--not necessarily in a romantic way, just to participate more fully in that relationship--but she's afraid to, she doesn't feel confident enough to try, and that she's "the worst" because of it. We see this theme repeated, that Masumi is pessimistic, is afraid to trust people and hates herself for being afraid. Her conversations with Aki and Mami explore this; Aki tells her that it's not bad to be insecure or unready and that it's fine to keep a secret/stay closeted until she's ready, Mami tells her that she does have people she can trust, who care about her and who will do their best to understand her and help out. Why am I typing all this out? Because Masumi is a bitter, insecure wlw and that is an Established Trope, but her twist on it is that her negativity or bitterness isn't over her attraction to women/to Futaba or even over the reaction she might get from others (as Touma's is), it's over her own insecurity. Like Futaba, she's hesitant to act on her feelings, and like Futaba, she gets frustrated and hates herself for her own inaction.
All that is to say--Masumi is never shown to have a problem with her attraction to women. Her angst isn't gayngst, she's not ashamed of her feelings for Futaba bur rather her inability to express them. Her problems are with social attitudes and more with her own personal feelings--she and Touma face similar problems, but Touma is simply aware of the consequences (being roughed up and ostracised by a certain group of people) while Masumi feels a more generalized and ambiguous fear.
If Masumi were shown to have mixed feelings about her queerness/were shown to be in denial/were shown to be trying to move on from Futaba, then her ending would read more as straightwashing. As it is, there's nothing in her character and arc to say that she'd ever want to erase that part of herself or get rid of it, rather, she wishes she could embrace it but she just doesn't feel confident in doing it. Her ending shows her as an openly bisexual woman who is out to her friends and husband at the very least, which is a completion of her arc in the manga (of learning to trust other people and express her feelings honestly).
Part 4: What context clues does the rest of the series give us?
This is branching off a little from the strict text of Parts 1-3. As I've said, as we know, Blue Flag is 50% subtext and interpretation. Characters speak, but they don't say what they mean, characters think, but they're not always honest with themselves or in tune with reality. Mami is an ominous and antagonistic figure in the first half, but then it just turns out that Taichi was jumping to conclusions. Taichi is the main character and narrator, but we get radio silence from him for like 7 chapters after the climax. Taichi is bisexual, but the reader has to guess that from the way the art style shifts between PoVs, the similar panelling between Futaba and Touma's confessions, the things he does and does not think about Touma and how he feels about them. It's safe to say that there is room for speculation.
First, there is no explicit evidence that Taichi could be bisexual before ch 54. It's easy to tell that he is, but again, there's nothing specific. Some people reading Blue Flag have said that him marrying Touma was out of character, unforeshadowed, bizarre, inexplicable, etc. because their experienced is coloured by their own heterosexuality. Masumi is shown to have dated a guy and in saying she didn't like him "anymore," implied that she did like him. Her conflicted feelings over her bf could well have been foreshadowing her liking men as well, and my reading that as comphet could have just been my own experience colouring the text. Who knows! Taichi's bisexuality was intentional from the start but could be read as a last-minute twist, so why not Masumi's?
Second, Mitsuyuki is Futaba 2.0. Same colouring, same personality. This could feel like a way of saying "Masumi just needs to like guys instead," but to me it reads deeper with some of the trans subtext around Futaba. One of my issues with Blue Flag is that it doesn't go further into Futaba's admiration/envy for masculinity and her uncomfortable relationship with femininity. As a cis woman who wants to be buff and mildly masculine, I can understand why she's a cis girl throughout and I don't necessarily think that she was supposed to be a trans guy. However, her relationship with masculinity draws a parallel to Mitsuyuki. Reading Mitsuyuki as a cis man, he is the combination of Futaba's personality and looks with her 'ideal form.' So, Masumi marrying Mitsuyuki can read as Masumi marring Ascended FutabaTM.
Third, Futaba having a faceless prop husband is interesting in the context of Mitsuyuki getting a name and personality. Mitsuyuki = Futaba and Mr. Kuze is a blank space, so the reader is prompted to reduce the scenario and slot Masumi into that blank space. Given Masumi and Touma's history as foils, I'm inclined to think that Mitsuyuki exists to show the road not taken. Back at the fireworks, Touma tells Masumi that he hasn't given up on Taichi, and Masumi says she doesn't intend to pursue Futaba even though the pining is making her miserable. Given that Futaba reacts a lot better to the idea of Masumi liking her than Taichi reacts to the idea of Touma liking him, given that we see Masumi has successfully wooed male!Futaba, I think that Masumi's ending shows that she could have ended up with Futaba if she chose to pursue her. She didn't and she still got a happy ending where she is confident in her sexuality and unafraid to trust, but she could have also had a happy ending where she married Futaba. Mitsuyuki is a man because desire-for-masculinity is a key aspect of Futaba's character, and Mitsuyuki is a named character with a personality because KAITO wanted the reader to know that Masumi could have ended up with Futaba (as Touma ended up with Taichi).
Fourth, KAITO's notes on volume give us a few hints. He comments that there was remarkably little interference with his story and that he was able to tell it as he wanted, and that the ending was meant to be a "question" to the reader. The way I see it, Masumi's ending wasn't meant to say "maybe you'll be fixed if you get a man" but rather was meant to complement Taichi's ending and say "things happen in ways you might not expect, but that doesn't mean they're bad."
Fifth, Touma/Taichi ending up together shows us that the series is willing and able to show queerness as a good thing and a happy ending, so it's unlikely that Masumi was meant to come off as "actually she just needed a man" and more as "life can be unpredictable but you can always find happiness"
Summary
It's unclear whether Masumi was written as a bisexual woman or a lesbian woman or a questioning wlw
I personally read her as a lesbian and I wish that part of her character had gotten more exploration
Masumi's ending wraps up her arc (struggling to trust other people with her feelings in general and her queerness in particular) in a satisfying and logical way
Masumi being bisexual does not in any way negate or lessen her identity and experienes as a wlw, bisexual people still face external and internalized homophobia and all the associated issues
Masumi's bisexuality may well have been foreshadowed, but the execution makes it easier to read her as a lesbian, which makes her ending seem like a homophobic cop-out in the style of the Hays Code
Masumi's ending doesn't straightwash her and goes to unusual lengths to affirm her attraction to women
Masumi's ending seems to be written to contrast Touma's ending, showing that getting or not getting the love interest depends entirely on whether you choose to pursue them
It's unlikely that authorial intent was to straightwash Masumi
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