He's literally the cutest ever and I want to hug him and kiss him and cuddle with him and kiss him some more and make him laugh and make him smile.... My literal sunshine. ๐งก๐๐งก๐
Your smile is so contagious that I smile too, it's hard to be sad when I have someone like you~ ah, I love you so much my heart can't stand it~ you make my heart flutter and skip a beat. You make my cheeks flush and butterflies fly around in my stomach, I feel like I'm on a roller coaster descending from its incline~ I feel a thrill and I feel unconditionally happy~
You were suppose to be a one time thing but you became so much more and I can't ever even dare of letting you go. You mean so much to me now and I'm more than happy to have you stay with me. For as long as you'll have me ๐๐งก๐๐งก
Could've hit you with a candlestick
But I want you in my life forever and more
Should've crushed your cheek bone and your nose
But I kind of like your face
And I like it like it is
I like it like it is forever and more
It's been a crazy summer
It's been alright
I wanted to hit you back then
But I really had to sleep
I had to take him out
I had to take him out forever and more
Was a pretty heavy candlestick
But my eyelids were the heaviest of all
Tried my best to do my monologue
But I messed up all my lines
I messed up all my words
I lost all sense of feeling in my tongue
authors note: i promise i haven't forgotten about percy jackson and im worning on a request right now for luke x grumpy!apollo!reader but i'm really on a f1 kick rn. if you want smth specific you can request and don't forget to check out my masterlist. xoxo, liz
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Pile 1 ๐น
โThe heart is an arrowโ โ Inej Ghafa. 6 of Crows
I see that if have been held back from a certain endeavour, the Universe is now aligning everything for you to move forward. If you have been done wrong in the past, I see you rising above that and receiving justice.
For most of you I see that you will be able to nurture your project/endeavour and finally start working on it. Your enemies will be dealt with. Prepare to defend and STAND for what is yours. No matter how many people tell you your ideas are stupid, or they try to cut you down or donโt believe in you. You believe in you. The Universe believes in you and does everything for you to move forward. Nobody will be able to hold you back. Your ideas are devine, fiercely believe in what is yours and protect it with the might of your spirit.
I just feel the need to tell you that I love you and you got this, honey!โค๏ธ๐
Please put in an ask in my box and tell me what it is youโre going through lately or what youโre planning, if you want)
Bye <3
PILE 2๐งจ
โI say whatever I want, I do whatever I wantโ - IDGAF by Drake & Yeat๐ถ
Honey, you are about to be so BLESSED. Youโve got an opportunity to shine here, my love. Itโs so funny to me how your channel picture is a match and literally every single card that came out for you is on FIRE. Like, brrr. The Universe plans for you to rise in confidence. You are about to have a very joyful, prideful and inspired period of your life. Literally feels like youโre on fire. Your come in yourself is about to rise, you will be enjoying life more.
I asked the Universe WHY this is the case, and She says you have been in a resting period and have been completing a stressful cycle of your life. You donโt deserve all that stress, honey, gotta enjoy, โcause lifeโs too short for ANY bullshit that you donโt enjoy. So I suggest you go all OUT. Fuck them people who are thinking they have a say in YOUR LIFE. You do you, boo. For some reason I have a need to talk to you extra like that, but itโs the energyyy, okay. Go shopping, go play outside, do whatever it is that makes feel good. You deserve and youโre a Queen bitch!!โค๏ธโ๐ฅ Donโt forget that.
That is the plan for you, dear pile 2 people.
What have you been doing prior that got you to exhaust you joy meters and resources like that? I would love to know. Come tell me.
Love ya, byeee~
PILE 3 ๐ช
โOh, she doesnโt see, the light thatโs shining. Deeper than the eyes can find.โ โ Scars to your beautiful by Allesia Cara
I see you breaking the chains others have put on you. You are going against what youโre told and youโre finding your true voice. It seems to me that you are indulging to much in the thing that donโt actually matter to avoid the bigger issues. You feel like you are being held back from your desires and the world is so close yet so far out of reach. Itโs being unfair to you. You blame your problems on the world, but ask yourself, what exactly have you been hiding from yourself and why do you feel so comfortable shifting responsibility for your fortunes and misfortunes on a higher power. Isnโt it so convenient that itโs out of reach?
Ponder on this, please. Your picture is perfect for you, because thatโs exactly how you feel. Like something or someone is holding you back from your freedom. But the truth is, the only one who can hold you back is you.
The plan is for you to realise this and close out this cycle. Find personal freedom.
Guys, this is my pile as well. Come talk to me however you want.
Letโs treat today as a happy day! No tears! They got to tell the full story! Three seasons! And Iโm sure they will be friends best forever, thereโs no way they can just forget about each other after such a beautiful experience. ๐๐
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Hello iโm Onyx, a transmasc dom with a severe love for sweet little angels who were made to be broken and anything gothic. I started this blog finally just to post what I think on the daily.
Iโm 23, single, been on T for 2 years and counting with top surgery in the works. Iโm mixed, 5โ10, and my pronouns are he/him nothing else.
iโm pansexual and open to poly but mostly monogamous.
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๐ชต [WOOD] โ adventurous
๐ [GRINNING FACE WITH SMILING EYES] โ agreeable
Warnings: cheating/toxic relationships, gaslighting kinda?, suggestive content, cursing, substance use (alcohol and marijuana) [if I missed any please lmk]
[[AN: hello dear readers! This is going to be my first attempt at doing a multi-part series. Feedback is so very appreciated!! I would love to hear what people think! ๐]]
ย ๐ถ Once the flight had flown
ย With the wilt of the rose ๐ถ
ย ย ย ย ย ย Your head pounded. From the alcohol or the loud music, you weren't sure, but it felt as if both were coursing in your veins. House parties were, like every other event at the school, viewed as a competition. Each weekend, one house tried to outdo the previous. For most students, it was less about the competition, but more an excuse to get wasted with your friends. Which is how you found yourself in the Gryffindor club house that night: drunk, sweaty, and packed claustrophobically close with other bodies on a makeshift dancing floor.
ย ย ย ย ย ย Social inhibitions long gone, you stood in a circle with several of your female friends, seductively moving your body to the beat of the music. You playfully wrapped your arm around your best friend Pansy as the two of you shouted the lyrics to the song booming through the speakers. You go to take another sip from your plastic cup, only to find it empty. So you detach yourself from the group, pushing through moving bodies in search of more.ย
ย ย ย ย ย ย Finding a table littered with half-empty liquor bottles, you pour yourself a drink. Taking a sip, a thought enters your head: 'Where's Mattheo?' You had last seen your boyfriend before Pansy had dragged you to dance, but you had no idea how long ago that had been. Instead of returning to the dancefloor, you set off to look for him, weaving through crowds of drunk bodies as you went.
ย ย ย ย ย ย You spotted Theodore and Lorenzo and were easily distracted from your original mission. Lorenzo waved you over to the folding table where cups were arranged in a game of beer pong. "Come play with us [Y/N]!" He grins at you.ย
ย ย ย ย ย ย You size up your competition. From the obnoxious red and yellow colored varsity jacket one wore, you made the astute observation that the other boys were Gryffindors. Theo pressed the ping pong ball into your hand. "C'mon [Y/L/N], show us what you got."ย
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย You focused on the red plastic cups in front of you, trying to make your vision stop spinning. You aim, releasing the ball from your grip. It bounces against the rim of a cup and off the table. You burst into a fit of giggles. Theo's hand claps your shoulder. "Nice try." He says with a small snort.ย
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย The memory of your original task floated back into your hazy consciousness. "Have you guys seen Matt?"ย
ย ย ย ย ย ย Theodore shrugs in response, and Lorenzo shakes his head.
ย ย ย ย ย ย "See you guys later."
ย ย ย ย ย ย Thoroughly searching the bottom floor of the house, you climb the stairs to the upper level. Maybe he had found some people to smoke with up there; you thought, away from the loud music and crowds. The upper floor looked very similar to the downstairs, except instead of loud music and dancing, these people lounged on couches. A layer of smoke hung in the air, making the room seem hazy. Your eyes scanned the room, searching for the familiar mop of dark brown curls.ย
ย ย ย ย ย ย It was the sight in front of you- not the amount of alcohol you had consumed- that made you sick to your stomach. Mattheo stood leaning over a girl you didn't recognize. He had one hand braced on the wall above her head, and the other rested on her exposed outer thigh. His lips were connected with hers.
ย ย ย ย ย You felt your blood boil as you stalked across the room. Placing your hand on his shoulder, you yanked him backward with all your strength, causing him to stumble. "What the fuck do you think you're doing?" You demand.ย
ย ย ย ย ย Mattheo eyes widen when they register you standing in front of him. "[Y/N]? Shit.." His eyes darted back and forth between you and the girl still standing against the wall. She crossed her arms, a look of confusion and annoyance apparent in her features.
ย ย ย ย ย You turn on her, eyes narrowing as you cross your own arms. "Get lost," you growl. She rolls her eyes at you but walks off, leaving you with Mattheo. Not caring that the two of you were not the only people in the room, you shouted at him. "What the fuck, Mattheo?"ย
ย ย ย ย ย Mattheo frowns, his eyebrows drawing together. "Baby, it's not what it looks like." He says.ย
ย ย ย ย ย "Oh, so you weren't just sucking face with some other girl?" Your fists clenched at your sides as you resisted the urge to punch him.ย
ย ย ย ย ย He reaches for you. "[Y/N] you're drunk." He says it simply as if that explained your anger. "Let me take you home, and we can talk about this tomorrow." He tries to grab your hand, but you yank it from his grasp.ย
ย ย ย ย ย "I'm not going anywhere with you asshole." You slur, turning on your feet to head towards the stairs.
ย ย ย ย ย "[Y/N] wait.." He follows after you.ย
ย ย ย ย You're down the stairs, pushing through bodies with Mattheo trailing behind you. Outside on the front porch of the house, the night air cools the angry fire that's heating you from the inside out.ย
ย ย ย ย ย Fingers enclose around your wrist, pulling you back. "I said wait [Y/N]." He pulls you towards him, until you're so closed that you have no choice but to look at him. His voice turns quickly from gruff to soothing. "This isn't what it looks like. Just please, let me explain."ย
ย ย ย ย ย You struggle in his grip, unable to break his hold in your current state. "Leave me alone, Matt. Let me go." You try to pry his fingers off of your wrist.ย
ย ย ย ย ย "Let her go, Matt." The voice comes from back towards the house, and you see Theo appear over Matt's shoulder. His hand claps Mattheo's shoulder, but it's harsher now than when he had done it to you earlier at the beer pong table.
ย ย ย ย ย ย "She's drunk. I need to take her home." Mattheo growls, throwing a look over his shoulder at Theo. Theo didn't flinch, digging his fingers into Matt's shoulder.
ย ย ย ย ย ย "Let go of her." Theo's demeanor was strangely calm, but the way he punctuated each word revealed how serious he was.ย
ย ย ย ย ย ย You vaguely registered Mattheo releasing your wrist from his grasp. You shoot Theo a look that you hope expresses gratitude before turning and stumbling down the steps of the house. The two boys watch from the porch as you walk off into the night. Mattheo shrugs off Theo's hand and pulls a cigarette from his pocket. Theo watches him with a steely glare as he lights it and brings it to his lips.ย
ย ย ย ย ย It only takes a few minutes for you to walk back to your dorm. You have no idea what time it was, but you knew it was late as you entered your room and collapsed onto your bed. Only then did your emotions seem to hit you like a ton of bricks, and tears started flowing down your cheeks. 'How dare he?' You thought bitterly. You rubbed your eye, trying to wipe away the tears but likely only succeeding in smudging your makeup. Your head felt heavy and pressed deeper into your pillow. You tried to take a deep breath, but Mattheo's smell surrounded you. It was woven into the fabric of your sheets from the nights he spent next to you. Usually, it was a comfort, but now it made bile rise in your throat. You felt small and alone as you curled into the covers, and your drunken haze lulled you to sleep.ย
๐ถย I slept all alone
ย You still wouldn't go ๐ถ
ย ย ย ย ย The sunlight streams through your window, signaling it was time to get up, but the raging headache you had desperately tried to coax you back to sleep. You blindly searched the nightstand for your phone. 3 Missed Calls from Mattheo, your screen read. You rolled your eyes and opened a text from Pansy:
ย ย ย ย ย ๐ฌ: 'Qhere did u gp?'
ย ย ย ย ย ๐ฌ: 'Dud u leabe?'
ย ย ย ย ย ๐ฌ: 'Hwllo?'
ย ย ย ย ย ๐ฌ: 'R u ok?'
ย ย ย ย ย ๐ฌ: 'Theo said u ent hme. Wake mr ip 4 breskfasy.'
ย ย ย ย ย With an immense amount of effort, you dragged yourself out of bed and into the bathroom. The figure looking back at you from the mirror resembled a depressed raccoon. Make-up smeared around your eye and mascara running down your cheeks. You washed your face and brushed your teeth, trying to ignore the pit in your stomach about the night before. You knew you would have to confront Mattheo about it at some point. But right now, you just wanted to survive your wicked hangover.
ย ย ย ย ย When you open your door to head to Pansy's room, you almost trip over the sleeping figure lying in the hallway.ย
ย ย ย ย ย "Mattheo, what the fuck are you doing out here?" You ask incredulously. You placed your hands on your hips and stared down at him.
ย ย ย ย ย At the sound of your voice, Mattheo awoke with a start. "[Y/N]?" he mumbled, voice clouded by sleep and his own hangover.ย
ย ย ย ย ย "I'm not doing this right now." You grumbled, holding your hands in front of yourself defensively.
ย ย ย ย ย Reaching for your hand, Mattheo sat up. You jerked your arm away, crossing them over your chest. "Please, sweetheart, just.. just hear me out." He looked up at you with those brown eyes that made your stomach do backflips. You averted your gaze, knowing that looking into his eyes made you weak-- vulnerable-- to his every whim. "We were all drunk, okay? And she... she came out of nowhere and kissed me."ย
ย ย ย ย ย "That's not what it looked like from where I was standing." You furrowed your eyebrow, glaring at him. The memory of last night was fuzzy and muddled, but the picture of Mattheo kissing someone else was burned into your mind.
ย ย ย ย ย He got to his feet, trying to reach for you and take you in his arms. "You know I wouldn't do anything to hurt you baby." The way his eyes softened and the pleading tone of his voice made your heart ache and your knees feel weak. "You're the only girl for me."
ย ย ย ย ย And when Mattheo wrapped his arms around you, you thought that if he hadn't, you might have collapsed. He bent his head, using his finger to tilt your chin up towards him. His lips were only inches from your own. "It was a mistake," he whispered, "please forgive me." And with a passionate kiss, he sealed your forgiveness of him.ย
ย ย ย ย Mattheo pulled you flush against him. His hands trailed down your back, sending shivers down your spine as his mouth moves against yours. You gasp as he grips the back of your thighs, lifting you up. Your legs automatically wrap around his waist, and his tongue delves into your mouth. The anger that you felt in your gut morphed into hot, burning desire as he kissed you. He steps further into your dorm room. When his knees hit the edge of your bed, he drops you onto the mattress. Its just second before he's on you again, lips moving from yours across your jaw and down your throat.ย ย
ย ย ย ย ย ย His hands are all over your body, lighting your skin ablaze with their touch. The trail down your sides, coming to rest at your hips, where his fingers danced against the waistband of your pants. He was captivating, addictive, and now you were beneath him like a junkie searching for his next high. He sucks and bites at the sweet spot on your throat, causing you to let out a moan. His breath is hot against your skin as he whispers,
ย ย ย ย ย ย "Let me show you how much you mean to me."