#i love the idea of all of my f/os knowing about each other. and they're cool with it. and they're constantly throwing me

[mrs-bluemarine]

"I thought to drop in here, I've been busy with that bilbo and his whole burger buisness. Finally got his ass, ANYWAYS. Hope you enjoy your valentine's day because it's coming to a close and maybe ill get you some gifts, some chocolates, anything, aslong it aint expensive! I aint your sugar daddy, you got your other guys for that. ALRIGHT I got work from upper management, I gotta bounce, I'll see you around. And I love you, mwah."

- C

TELL UPPER MANAGEMENT YOU'VE GOT MORE IMPORTANT THINGS TO DO. COME OVER HERE AND LET ME KISS YOUR COLD DEAD FACE

[toaster-selfships]

Hihi. Feel like talkin and it's my blog so I'm gonna do what blogs are for and, well, blog!

Blah blah yip yap put this under a read more cause I type a lot.

Anyways, a while ago I saw a post and I can't entirely remember what it was about, but it talked about writing out why you put what songs in your F/Os playlists, and I thought that was a lovely idea. I was a little weary at first cause, well, my playlists for them are very long, not to mention the complex stories I have behind a lot songs, but it was a lovely thing, plus kept me distracted and gave me a place to gush. Plus bonus!! I can make little updates and stuff for when I add new songs and highlight the different numbers and. ANYWAYS.

I wanted to share a particular excerpt and a song! It's one of the ones where I wrote a tonnn about, filled the front and back of a page plus a little extra(it's a small notebook, about the size of my outstretched palm, so take that as you will). Maybe I'll post about the other songs as well :)

Going to copy word for word what I wrote in the journal about the song! The song is B.ody P.aint by A.rctic Monkeys. (Not an inappropriate song or title, I swear. I'm notorious for misunderstanding songs meanings but. Theyreartandartisupforinterpretationwhichcanbedonewhilestillrespectingthewritersintentionsofwritingthesong.) And this is from the Playlist I made about A.xlerod :3

I also talk about myself in the third person. Some stuff here is related to plot/backstory between me and A.xlerod so if it doesn't make sense that may be why😅(highly encourage asking questions if yall are curious. Or about any F/O stuff or backstory)

Also, his full name is Sir Miles A.xlerod, I refer to him by his first and last name interchangeably(I'm not sure why or how I started doing this).

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B.ody P.aint by A.rctic M.onkeys

-"so you don't let the sun catch you crying" is just a really good line for either of them(referring to A.xlerod or Kane). But more and most importantly, "And if you're thinking of me, I'm probably thinking of you" cause that is just one of the most important lines to me ever, cause I truly believe in it. But how they just think of each other so often that they're probably always thinking of each other. Also "so predictable, I know what you're thinking" is a really nice line, I think. They are just around each other so much they just know each other that well. The longer I listen to this song, the more lyrics I keep finding that fit really well, but they keep fitting SO well I wanna write them all down! The opener of "for a master of deception and subterfuge, you've made yourself quite the bed to lie in" is a really great A.xlerod towards Kane line, cause Kane is a spy and needs to be good at that sort of stuff(I googled the word subterfuge and it makes this one billion times more fitting)((I wrote that in the journal)), and Kane has kinda made himself this bed to lie in by opening up to Miles and sparing him and being all honest and vulnerable. Also Also, "I'm watching your every move, I feel the tears coming on, it won't be long" as a Miles towards Kane line cause Miles seeing how Kane is and just kinda watching him slowly become more and more open and letting his walls down. ALSO also also "I'm keeping on my costume, callin it a writing tool" for Kane towards Miles, cause of how Kane kept on his spy suit for so long like a costume, and basically using it as a tool for when he quits being a spy and does the whole lemon thing, it was a big way of him letting Miles know how serious he was about all of this, and how the last thing he would wanna do is hurt him.

[rosesloveletters]

Hey, Rose. Some questions for the self shipping game with you and Willy Wonka☺️ Skittles, Ring Pop, and Airhead. I hope you have a great day 😊💜

Hi there!👋🏻❤️ Thank you so much for asking and I hope you have a lovely day as well 😊

Ring Pop: Are you and your f/o married? If not, are there any plans to be?

We are not married! I doubt we ever will marry (I developed an aversion to marrying F/Os) but I might indulge my imagination at some point and come up with a few ideas for a wedding, just for a bit of fun.

Skittles: Do you have any headcannons for your f/o?

I don't have too many yet, but here are a couple:

Wonka is a very good judge of character. He only has to interact with a person once to know whether they're of good character or not. If he has a bad gut feeling about a person or a situation, he is normally always right.

He does not like questions or being questioned. If you ask him something, especially about his work, there's a good chance he will deflect or just straight-up ignore you.

Wonka doesn't have much of a set-schedule for anything. It doesn't help that there are hardly any windows in the factory either, so unless you're able to look at a clock, (and not one that he's cut in half) there is no way to tell if it's night or day. Sometimes he'll be working at 2-3am and think nothing of it.

Airheads: What was your first interaction with your f/o like? Did you always like each other?

I met Wonka for the first time ten years ago when I was fourteen. He was very kind and gentle, but eccentric as always.

We first met before he closed his factory due to theft and fired all of his employees.

My father worked for Wonka and brought me to work with him sometimes. This was when Wonka was just beginning to put together his Chocolate Room the way we see it in the 1971 film. He was using it as an inspiration room and was creating whatever came to his mind, even in dreams. I was intrigued by this room and would often try to take a peek at it when my dad brought me along for the day.

The first time I entered the Chocolate Room without permission, Wonka caught me. He was kind, even though I had no business wandering around a large factory all by myself and trespassing where I didn't belong. He knew who I was and that I wasn't there to harm or disturb anything or anyone, so he showed me around a bit and told me about some of his plans and ideas which he seemed quite excited about.

He did personally escort me back to my father though. He did not want me walking around unaccompanied for liability's sake.

I saw him fleetingly here and there, but when other candy makers began sending in spies to steal his secret recipes, Wonka had no choice but to close the factory and fire all of his employees. After that, I never saw Wonka again until ten years later.

Questions sourced from: Candy Themed Self-Shipping Asks

[jennajaeger]

My general feelings on my F/Os' canon love interests and how I picture my dynamic with each of them:

Prince Eric (The Little Mermaid):

Eric is MY GUY. BESTIE. HIMBO EXTRAORDINAIRE. We high five each other as we pass each other in the hallway because we both have the best wife in the world. Literally the epitome of this meme:

Me: "The stars are so beautiful tonight."

Eric: "You know who else is beautiful?"

Both of us in unison: *sighing dreamily* "Ariel~"

Keyleth (Critical Role: The Legend of Vox Machina):

So admittedly I have not finished the series yet but as far as I can tell, Vax and Keyleth have a very "right person, wrong time" type of relationship? Like, I get it, they're always gonna love each other, they're just never going to be in a place where they can BE together? And I mean......that works for me :P I feel marginally bad about stealing her man because she's so sweet and deserves a break, precious bean, but if it works it works <3

Meryl Stryfe & Milly Thompson (Trigun Stampede):

I felt so bad the moment I started watching the show because I was like "oh god another female character I'm gonna have to throw under the bus in the name of self shipping" but honestly so far in the 23 version I read their dynamic as platonic?? And just in general, I love her <3 She's a tough little cookie; and I haven't properly met Milly yet but I just know I'm gonna love her :P girl frankly you deserve to have Nick maybe you'll mellow him out a little good heavens XD

Helen Wick (John Wick franchise):

I will always have a moment to pay homage to our lord and savior Helen Wick who died to give us the best action franchise of the modern age, girl you were a real one and rest easy knowing I am going to RIDE THE TRAUMA OUT OF YOUR HUSBAND

Tess Marshall (Barbarian):

SHE DESERVES S O MUCH BETTER OH MY GOD I mean they both do, they're stuck in this terrible movie :P In a better world I would love to be friends with Tess, and act as Keith's filter because good lord boy you're cute but you're dumb as fuck sometimes XD Also if I ever see Keith's ex-gf I'm throwing hands

Alt Cunningham & Rogue (Cyberpunk 2077):

god I'm glad these two are Johnny's exes XD I'm sure I would have liked Alt a lot more had I known her when she was, y'know, alive, but as a......tech ghost or whatever, she's not a lot of fun :P As for Rogue, she's a bitch, I KNOW she's a bitch, and I respect her for it. She DID stab Johnny in the back though and I'm not about to let her forget it.

Alys Rivers & Helaena Targaryen (House of the Dragon):

I haven't properly met Alys yet but I'm looking forward to it, I feel like I'm gonna like her :P And Helaena is A SWEETHEART, an absolute darling, I would love to sit with her and have tea while she does her embroidery and listen to her talk about anything that comes into her pretty little head because THE GODS KNOW SOMEONE HAS TO. I will also be her "dump your shitty husband" friend so fast XD Like, LOOK AT AEMOND. LOOK AT HIM. HE'S RIGHT THERE GIRL I WILL SHARE.

Anyone Dream has ever been romantically involved with and yes I'm including Hob Gadling (The Sandman):

I have nothing but love and respect for Dream's past partners (Calliope babe I'd die for you) and I just love the idea that we have like, dinner together and they all just spill the tea about the shit Dream got up to in past decades :P

Vision (Marvel Cinematic Universe):

I have no problems with Viz, he was a good man. Wanda really could have done BETTER in my opinion, but y'know, she could have done a lot worse too, so :P And thanks to Viz we have the boys, Billy and Tommy <3

Martin Blackwood (The Magnus Archives):

I don't hate Martin. He's a sweetheart. But I need him to not even BREATHE in Jon's direction, because that is MY MAN. Nothing personal :P

Mikasa Akerman (Attack On Titan):

I will meet that bitch in the FUCKING PIT IT IS ON S I G H T LEAVE HIM ALONE!!!!!!!!

[profictiontheatre]

also 1, 3, 33, and 32 for the selfship asks for Norman? ^-^

omg thank you so much for the asks aldfjskjdfjskdf ;-; I've been looking for an excuse to gush about my bois lately

And I've never answered things about Norman yet so this should be interesting~

How well does your F/O know you? How well do you feel you know them?

This one's interesting because I haven't actually developed my Psycho s/i a ton buuuut I do have a rough outline of his Lore™️

Basically, his name is Jude, he's kinda like a really flamboyant Beatles reject (appearance wise) who stays at the Bates Motel one night and ends up trying to seduce Norman (he has a death wish, I guess)

This is what I've got so far, it aint much but it's honest work akfdjgskjfd

ANYWAY,,, all that's to say-- as of where the story is right now, they don't know each other super well buut Jude will very quickly find out Norman's much more than meets the eye hehe

3. Have you influenced each other’s hobbies/interests? Do you feel you’ve “rubbed off” on each other’s personalities?

I feel like Norman would def learn a lot more about birds from me. He loves stuffing things but claims to not know much about birds and they're one of my biggest special interests :3

Personality wise, I don't think he'd influence me very much but I'd like to think I could help him be more himself and stand up to his intrusive thoughts ;-; I know I jokingly say "i could fix him" but really. I do want to make him happier by maybe giving him more self confidence and assurance :3

32. What is your F/O’s sexuality?

Personally, though it's tempting to say Norman's gay I think that it's fairly obvious he was legitimately attracted to Marion (or at least he believed he was, given what happens). So i'd say I personally think he's bi! Tho a really funny idea I've come up with for how Jude survives trying to seduce Norman is that since Norman never really considered that he could have a boyfriend, it allowed Jude to get much further with him than Marion ever could because his "mother" never saw Jude as much of a threat (until it was too late of course)

33. Does your F/O fit your usual “type”, or did your attraction to them come out of no where?

No he does not at ALL My brand is bubbly sunshine bois and/or himbos. Overall wholesomeness. Did NOT expect to fall for a slasher in a million years aksjfksjfkd

But i can't say it's shocking bc I already loved Anthony Perkins as Cornelius Hackl (another one of my f/os and actually my namesake) so I did go into Psycho expecting to be like "damn he's hot" but I really didn't expect the feels

Thanks so much for sending these, this was really fun!!!!!!!! :D

[hyperionshipping]

f/o question in my head: how would these f/os take a bath with you? (Bubbles, bath bombs, is it silly or are they being romantic etc) forrrrrr Hodgins, Sweets, Grog, Jack, Crowley AND Lucifer

Buckle in folks! Long answer!!

Hodgins:

So, it depends. Back at his old place, he had a BIG tub with jets and everything. It could easily fit two people.

He has ALL the bath stuff. Bathbombs, bath salts, bubbles, anything else you could want. He only takes 'em once in a while.

If I asked him to take a bath with me? He'd go all out. Nice smelling bathbomb, bubbles, some salts, even candles!

He even holds his tongue when I want the water hotter than he's used too. He wraps his arms around me and holds me to his chest.

Sweets:

Oh you know he secretly enjoys bubble baths still. But, I think baths sometimes agrivate his scars. So it depends if he'll take one.

Sweets hasn't totally fit in a tub since he was little.

If I asked, he'd totally join me, even if he was a little blushy over it. I don't think he's had a lover who wanted to share the tub with him. And, really, it's a very vulnerable time for him.

Both of us could be the one in front. Depends on the night.

Grog:

OH MY GOD!!!!!!! YAY. OKAY I CAN TALK ABOUT HALFORC IDEAS.

Fern grew up with his family who was group of orcs that travelled around. They were ALL about hygiene and cleanliness.

They especially raised Fern to take much care of his hair. Much like dwarves, hair played a very important role in the culture of orcs!

So, Fern grew up taking communal baths. Helping the orclings clean up, to washing the elders of the group which was seen as a high honor helping the oldest.

When he starts to travel with Vox Machina, he's unused to bathhouses. He doesn't feel out of place-- he is quite use to communal baths, but they're just different enough.

Now, Grog isn't dirty but he's a big ol' half giant whose clan kicked him out. He's used to being dirty.

When Fern first offers to help clean him? Grog is a little dumbfounded. When Fern gets flustered and says nevermind, Grog tells him No! He would like that. He just never had anyone help him.

It's rare the two would get to "properly" bathe together, but they've absolutely cleaned up together.

Grog is the first to help clean Fern's hair. In his group, only close family members or lovers would ever clean each others hair. As said before, an orc's hair is a sense of their pride, and, it's something very vulnerable to trust another to not ruin their hair.

Grog was always worried whenever Fern let him touch his hair. But Fern would always, always say he trusted Grog.

Jack:

Jack would want you to believe he doesn't use bubbles in his bath but he does. Add on candles, bathbombs, salts, candles, anything else that screams "at-home spa day" and you have Jack's personal bath days.

With me there, it's mostly the same. Expect Jacks always touchy. If I want a relaxing bath I have to tell him or else... well... we get distracted.

Jack likes expensive smelling bathbombs. And ones that leave his skin smooth. He's less picky about the bubbles and salts he uses.

Crowley:

Crowley is renting out a heartshaped tub for us, light pink water with bubbles and salts that smell sweet. He sets it up as something romantic.

Just the two of us, low lights, flickering candles, perhaps even petals in the tub, water that is *just* the right temperature, and afterwards, despite never getting out? He has warm, fresh towels everytime.

He's not against a bath that leads to sex, but he truly loves indulging in just sitting with me in the warm water, holding me to his chest and letting his problems melt away. Even if it's just for a couple hours.

Lucifer:

Lucifer would indulge me on baths. His tub is large enough to comfortably fit us both. He draws the bath for me.

He gets bathbombs with roses in it, bubbles, salts that relax, candles, music playing softly.

Baths with him can, and often DO lead to sex. But that's only because I want him so damn bad. He's totally fine with relaxing in the bath, but I always seem to want something else when we take baths together.

Lucifer would like "fresh" smelling bathbombs. He'll use two in the baths he makes. Or, like, flowery scents! He loves a nice lavender scented thing for the relaxation it brings!

[hollow-prey]

So I keep going through bouts of feeling disconnected from my f/os for seemingly no reason, which really really sucks because it's left me feeling stumped for ideas and kind of numb? for lack of a better word regarding my f/os. In an attempt to remedy this, I'm trying to brainstorm some ways to help me reconnect with my self ships outside of the usual "make playlists/moodboards/crafts/etc." (which are all excellent ideas btw; I'm quite partial to making playlists myself! It's just that in my specific instance, I feel I need something More Powerful):

revisit the source material/any scenes, episodes, videos, chapters etc. involving my f/os. Revisit my favorite moments and remember why I fell in love with them. Always a solid option.

additional option, revisit the source material and liveblog my thoughts and emotions while watching or playing. For video games, I could do like what I did with Jak 1 and 2 and detail my experience with each mission/notable segment in the game and my thoughts on the section as a whole

craft The Lore for my self ships. This can involve creating the backstories for each iteration of my s/i as it pertains to each ship, coming up with backstories for my f/os who don't have one/that we don't know much about, filling in the blanks with details that solely benefit my self ships and the overall indulgence factor, figuring out how they met and why they fell for each other, and any fun extra details that exist just because I want them to/I think they're neat

additionally, rewriting canon to better fit my tastes, detailing all the things I would change or eliminate completely from each of my f/os' sources.

trying to see myself through the eyes of my f/os. Puzzle out what they love about me and why they fell for me.

find prompts and challenges and write quick self ship pieces with them. I think part of my problem is writer's block/stagnation and being understimulated, so some fun writing exercises would probably do me some good

do the self ship powerpoint meme that's been making the rounds lately

find dumb silly old memes that make me chuckle and apply them to my self ships. make posts like "my f/os as troubled birds" or something similar.

[imagine-your-love-story]

I had one and only f/o for few years now but recently there is an issue. Not with the f/o themselves, I can't imagine parting yet. Especially visually they're perfect fit to my tastes so anytime I try to pick a new f/o I end up unimpressed and I keep having 1 xD There wes no new official content in few years tho, I don't like fandom interpretation and myself... well, I'm unimaginative and naturally apathetic. I don't enjoy the process of writing or drawing and anyway I have little ideas in the first place. Imagines are often too broad to apply or about the typical cutesy couple things like hugs and all which I do like but that's basically all I was thinking about. It's kinda boring now ehhh. I don't even gush to my friend anymore and our whole inside-joke was that she's a #1 fan for my ship :/ Besides like I mentioned I'm already apathetic as a person. I see mutuals getting new f/os constantly and being so excited and gushy and you know I am happy for them but also envious they have so much energy and ideas. Idk how they even get emotionally invested in so many chara's; I watch show after show and I don't even think about those characters after that. My f/o was the only miraculous exception.... now I feel kinda hollow tho

Oh, dear anon, I'm so sorry you're feeling that way.

It's easy to get a certain perspective of what's going on in other people's shipping on your dashboard. But that's just what people are talking about. And the more someone talks, the more it seems like, "hey, there's all this happening, why can't I be like that?"

But you don't see what people don't say. Maybe someone feels the same way as you but they're not talking about it.

Or if they do, it gets lost in all the gushy posts.

Whether you're imaginative and motivated to create content or not, you can still enjoy your f/o. IRL, I can write and draw, but I've never drawn a picture of me and my f/o and I don't really write anymore.

Creating fandom-related content takes a certain type of energy and it's okay if you don't have that.

I also think that love in general is not something that's bubbling and bursting at the seems all the time.

Sometimes, it's you and your f/o just hanging out, co-existing in the same space.

Sometimes, it's you and your f/o taking some time apart so you can rediscover each other again.

As you mentioned, this character still resonates with you. You're still stuck on them and you still want them.

The hollow feeling is coming from the comparison of you and your relationship against that of other people.

It's okay if you don't have a dozen f/os at the same time. One has clearly already made a very prominent impact on you and that's more than enough! :)

It's nice to see that other mutuals have a bunch of new f/os and they're excited and gushing, etc. But that's their ship(s). Not yours. And that's okay.

Your selfshipping needs, wants, and habits may shift and morph based on your energy, enthusiasm, etc. It's okay to not be gushing and excited for new f/os around every corner. You have your f/o already! :)

[ajaxdishsoap]

HII NIKO <3 I hope u dont mind the bomb im gonna drop on u (/lh + hj)

Ares, Hermes, Euterpe for Nayuta aaand Hera and Thalia for your polycule w/ Reiji + Ranmaru !

ehehehehehe /pos this is gonna be so much fun

nayuta

ares: are you ever protective of your f/o? are they ever protective of you? YES 100% I AM VERY PROTECTIVE OF HIM (ash can confirm i'm super protective of everyone i care about) i would throw hands for nayu in a heartbeat, though mostly my protectiveness takes the form of reminding him to take breaks and stopping him from over-working himself he's not quite as protective of me because he knows i can handle myself really well, but oh boy if i'm in a situation he knows is triggering for me (around certain people mostly) he Can and Will defend me when i can't defend myself

hermes: was it love at first sight? slow burn with lots of pining? how fast did your relationship progress? slow burn with lots of pining AKSHDKSJDHF mostly oblivious pining, we're both terrible with emotions so literally everyone around us noticed before we did, and the relationship progressed really slowly because we both tend to be closed off for a while until someone earns our trust

euterpe: what song(s) suit your ship best? any particular lyrics that fit well? the main two songs that always come to mind are without me by gyroaxia and love like you from steven universe "without you, without you, i am nothing. just letting you know that you are not alone" is an especially fitting line from without me, and "if i could begin to be half of what you think of me i could do about anything, i could even learn how to love like you" is a really fitting one from love like you

whispers in the dark (reiji and ranmaru)

hera: how did you first start your romantic relationship with your f/o(s)? how did the way you feel about each other evolve to get to that point? surprise surprise (/s) i haven't actually thought much about this for any of my f/os. i just kinda vibe thinking they're pretty and then at some point go "fuck yeah that's my partner- wait What." KSJDHFKSJDHF- i don't really have a good answer for ya bestie sorry</3

thalia: discuss any fluff ideas you have for your ship. what kind of affectionate or sweet scenarios do you like best for this ship? OKAY SO we're all musicians so one of my favourite scenarios is late night jam sessions when they're both home from work, reiji coming up with fun vocal melodies while ran-ran and i play our respective instruments and sometimes throw in a harmony here and there, it's so soft and i love thinking about it another one i like to think about is cooking together, three people in a kitchen can get a bit annoying but it's really fun to cook dinner together and swap around who gets what job every night

send me a mythology ask!

[toaster-selfships]

hihi its me, the anon from ur other blog (yknow, the selfship questions one) and i'd like to kmow bout ur f/os,(u can gush nd stuff, idk)

and also, i'm curious as to how they look like cuz you said that theyre humanised! :>

Eeeekk!!! Screams!!! I love sharing how they look so this is...very good question for me. This is a bit of a...long list so I'm putting it under the cut, though I'm going to try and not type more than like three sentences or less for each of them so it's mostly just gonna be pictures. But I'm just showin my humanized ideas for how my primary F/Os look, but I do have humanized headcannons for...I kid you not everyone in the franchise.

!!!Not all the art here is mine!!! For the art that is not mine I will be writing their respective credentials and what social media platform it was originally posted on. I tried to stick to using my art as much as I could but I don't have a lot of digital drawings of them, nonetheless ones I'm ready to reveal to the world haha(though some I'll gladly share)

Some of them, to try and keep this to my main F/Os that I've been exploding over lately and to try and keep this from getting lengthy, I intentionally left out, ex. M.ater, L.eland, R.od, S.trip, C.hick, the- the rest of my F/O list, you get the point!😅

I also used this as an opportunity to mention what I headcannon their heights to be >:)

If anyone would like a version of just the images and without the descriptions 100% let me know, won't be a bother one bit!!!

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For L.ightning I imagine something like this:

By @/Laoian on Twitter. Except I picture him to have his hair closer to a shoulder-blade sort of length and him not quite as fit.

I'd imagine him around 5'6-5'7

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For F.ranceso(forgive me for the full-body one looking a little more messy/wonky, it's a lot older than the other one and is.. im quite nit picky about that drawing but its what I got. The other drawing is leaning towards a doodle/being really simplistic and quick) basically this:

Ignore the color picks and whatnot, that was before I was smart enough to put those on a seperate layer JDNSJSJSJS

I'd say he's like 6'ft.

I had also posted a drawing of F.rancesco quite recently as well, I just didn't put it here cause he's got his helmet on and it's a close-up shot so you can't really see how he looks too well(it's one of my proudest drawings though!)

Also, this and this

please. PLEASE I cannot stress this enough this is just. THATS HIM!!

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I'm pre-appologizing(/half joking) for not having any normal drawings of F.inn, I don't know how all my digital drawings(that are colored) of him ended up being incredibly self-indulgent, I didn't even realize I did that till now! So I'm just doing this one for now(though I recently posted the art of me and him snuggling a bit ago on my blog. I'm quite stinkin proud of that one too!! One of my proudest, i think)

F.inn :)

He's like 5'4, same height as me(Except I'm a liar and I'm really like 5'3 and a little bit).

I'm not good at drawing Grey in hair quite yet but. That. He's got salt and pepper hair(or whatverr you want to call it) except it's the Grey mixed in with. Whatever blue-ish haircolor that is that he's already got JSBDJAJDR.

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A.xlerod!!!

I actually don't have a lot of colored drawings of him, which surprised me a bit, but I do have a tonnn of doodles of him aufbsifnskffj

He has a big overcoat and stuff :) and his button up shirt thingy is supposed to have a plaid-like pattern but I have no clue how to draw plaid quite yet 😅

He's basically the same height as me though! His facial hair is just kinda whispy fuzz, if that makes any sense. Kind of like a kiwi.

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G.rem and A.cer together! Cause they're inseparable JFNDJSN

I adorrreeeEE this drawing of G.rem and A.cer, I take very much pride in this drawing I love sticking it in people's faces. G.rem on the left and A.cer on the right.

G.rem is like 5'6 and A.cer is 5'1.

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Annndd J.ackson!!

By Jeno0305 on Twitter (I don't know what the writing says in the first image. I'm assuming the drawing of the person he's with in the first image is the artists version of G.ale, his driver/hauler)

I headcannon him to be 6'ft and pale as hell cause he just sits in his room all day and plays videogames(which is also canonical)

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Anndddd that's all!! I'm trying not to hyper apologize for the length😅 when I spill the beans everything in the can comes out!! But really thank you for the ask, really was tons of fun to answer :) I appreciate it! Felt good to get to ramble and babble a bit!

If anyone somehow read through all of this then I'm sending you a life time supply of your favorite food

[fictionallyinparadise]

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#though i did consider a self ship with elementary's sherlock and watson that would be them dating me and not each other

My Top Posts in 2021

#5

List of characters I'm considering for romantic f/os 👉👈

-Luke Skywalker, Star Wars

-Armitage Hux, Star Wars

-Rey Skywalker, Star Wars

-Jonathan Sims and Martin Blackwood, The Magnus Archives

-The Butler from Clue, Idr his name

-Zelda and Link, specifically from Hyrule Warriors

-Din Djarin, The Mandolorian

Pwhdjsifi yeah 👉👈 I'll update the pinned post if any of these crushes become official f/os! If any new crushes emerge I'll reblog this post.

5 notes • Posted 2021-05-06 19:04:17 GMT

#4

Ahhh I wanna ramble about Skully,,,but Idk how to start,,,help,,,

5 notes • Posted 2021-05-09 03:49:03 GMT

#3

*shakes can* 🔧? please sir 🥧?? *rattle rattle* any 🕊? please *shake shake*

*starts dumping ideas everywhere*

Okay okay head FULL

-Cas teaching Honora some basic fighting things and Dean watching all proud because that's his girl learning how to fight off either icky strange dudes or monsters!!! That's his girl!!!

-Honora being able to drive at age 13 because of course and Dean absolutely screaming in celebration. Cas is the Adult Supervision™ in the car and he just. Confused joy. And Honora absolutely losing it once she gets out of the car like she fuckin sprints to Dean and gets twirl hugged and is all like "DAD I DROVE I DROVE!!! DAD!!!! DIDJA SEE ME PARK!!!!!"

-Cas not knowing what the hell to do for Christmas so he just clears out a candy isle. As you do when you have a teenage daughter that you didn't expect. And Honora just. "I love the gift Pops but also like I will get sugar high so you might wanna hide some of it!". And Dean's losing it in the background. (He got her a keychain with a copy of the Impala's key on it,,,)

-Dean going to Sam in fucking tears like "SHE CALLED ME DAD AND IT WASN'T IN A JOKING WAY" and Sam just. Doesn't know what the fuck to do either.

-All of Dean's funky lil car rules Honora knows by heart. And also fights for shotgun. It's absolutely chaotic.

-This one is angsty but Dean not knowing how to parent™ so he just. "Alright what's the opposite of what Dad would do in this situation". 99% of the time it works so I mean™.

-Dean's music taste rubbing off on Honora!!! Her researching and watching all the old-ish things so she can get references and also make them as well!!! Her aggressively air guitaring in the car and Dean drumming on the steering wheel and Sam about to barrel roll out!!!!

-Uh oh another angsty one but Dean like. Will take any chance he can to tell her that he's proud of her. Like it could be from her doing research or she could pour a bowl of cereal and he'd say it.

-Not a headcanon this is Honora facts but she would beat the shit out of J*hn Winchester and she barely knows shit about him.

-Honora rambling about some "useless" info she found while looking for the needed research on a hunt. Cas just sitting there absolutely happy and overjoyed to hear about it. Dean vibing in the background with a proud little grin. Sam joining the conversation late but absolutely thriving. Bobby also being in the background pretending that he isn't listening but he IS and he is trying so hard not to smile.

-Honora laying on the couch and tossing a ball up in the air then suddenly sitting up, sprinting to Sam, and asking "dO MY DADS KNOW THEY'RE GAY" and Sam nearly screams.

Bonus pride month thought bc I can:

-Its Dean's first pride and Honora goes all out like she gets a shitton of bisexual shit for him and herself, she gets some Gender™ things for her, Cas, and Sam, she goes absolutely crazy and everything is fine and good and happy 🥺

7 notes • Posted 2021-06-05 18:11:35 GMT

#2

Welcome to paradise!!

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Enjoy your stay in my little Eden <33!

16 notes • Posted 2021-04-15 22:41:32 GMT

#1

I should get around to posting the PicCrsws of my s/is that I've made,,,

25 notes • Posted 2021-05-11 03:09:18 GMT

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[hollow-prey]

Concert headcanons with my f/os!

inspired by my own experience this week, here's some cute indulgent ideas on how Cyr and her boys would fare at a concert:

Grimm- this could go a few different ways depending on the AU: if he's human, I think he'd be all for it (as long as Cyr's with him). If he's still a Hollow, it would take a lot of chill/recovery time in the human world, and quite a bit of coaxing from Cyr to get him to agree to go to a place that will potentially mess with his instincts, i.e. a place that's going to be very loud and packed with people (though of course, she would never force him to do anything if he really didn't want to go). It would definitely be Cyr who broaches the idea and suggests going to a concert together. They hold hands a lot when they get there, which Grimm pretends to be annoyed about but is actually very, very glad that Cyr insisted on taking his hand because this way he can both ensure that Cyr stays close so he doesn't lose her in the crowd (and so he can protect her) and also feel comforted and grounded knowing that she's right there with him. He still doesn't really "get" human music and so doesn't really have an opinion on if he likes or dislikes the band, but he doesn't seem to mind it and sways in time with Cyr, occasionally copying some of her and the audience's movements and gestures during the show. Afterwards, as they're leaving, Cyr shyly surprises Grimm with a tour t-shirt that she got at the same time she was getting her own. He's still a little wary about receiving gifts and is unsure how to respond, but he accepts it and later wears it when they go to bed that night. He may or may not also cuddle with it after Cyr eventually steals it and wears it herself because it smells like her

Errol- he would be the one to surprise Cyr with tickets after she mentions wanting to go, especially if it's a band she really wants to see. At the show, Errol tries to be chill and just hang out and vibe (at a damn rock concert, where the whole point is to get a little crazy) and Cyr is the one who finally gets him to relax and let loose and have fun during the concert. If the venue is standing general admission, they get there early and stake out a good spot close to the stage behind the first clusters of people. Errol gently shifts Cyr around during the concert to ensure that she always has a good view of the stage and that the taller people in front of them aren't completely blocking her view. This may include letting her stand on his boots at times to give her a little extra boost. They buy each other tour shirts and Cyr immediately puts hers on before the show while Errol holds his draped over his shoulder. On the way home Errol gives Cyr his shirt to hold onto while he drives. She falls asleep snuggling it because the shirt is now officially a reminder of a great time and a fantastic experience that she got to share with someone she loves, and every time she wears her shirt or Errol wears his, she'll be reminded of that, and the thought is very comforting to her.

Razer- Cyr doesn't have to worry about anyone getting too close or messing with her, because Razer gives off such an intimidating, menacing aura while being completely calm and composed the entire time. I for one would love to picture Razer ditching his usual jacket and gloves and going for a more sharp-dressed goth approach just for the show, because I know he could pull it off and look infuriatingly good doing it. Even if it's something super simple like slim black jeans, a fitted black long-sleeve, and combat boots, I Know this man would look so good in just a basic ensemble like that. Probably somehow manages to pull a few strings and score something cool for Cyr, like getting her copy of her favorite album signed, or somehow arranging a chance encounter by "accidentally" walking into a restricted area and they "just so happen" to run into someone from the band. Any time Cyr thinks they'll get caught, Razer takes her arm and they disappear into the shadows like smoke and reappear just as quickly. How did he arrange all this? And how did neither of them get in trouble? Well, he can't go around sharing his secrets now, can he?

Phoenix- I can easily see this going the route of both of them suggesting the concert at the same time (i.e. "I was thinking, would you want to go to see [band] in concert?" "dude shut up I was literally about to ask you the same thing"). In the days leading up to the show and on their way to the venue, the two of them end up getting hyped off of each other's excitement to the point that they're both amped by the time they get there, and Cyr is alternating between giddy laughs, trembling a little from adrenaline, and clinging to Phoenix excitedly like "we're actually here!! we're gonna see them!!" They have such a good time during the show, vibing and enjoying the pounding of the music in their chests and through their bones, grinning and nudging each other excitedly when certain songs come up, stealing kisses between the occasional song breaks, cheering so loud that their voices will almost certainly be hoarse the next day. There isn't a single moment during the concert that they don't enjoy. At some point Phoenix probably gets dragged into the mosh pit by accident from standing too close, and because he was holding onto Cyr to make sure she always had a good view and they didn't get separated, she accidentally gets dragged in as well. Neither has been in a mosh pit before and neither of them know what the rules are so they try and act casual and follow everyone else's lead. They eventually break free and come out jostled, exhilarated, and a little bruised, but in good shape.

Anti- undoubtedly runs straight into the mosh pit the first chance he gets, or is the one who starts it. Cyr watches from the side, over the heads of several other people, and waits to see him break off and return to her, but between one second and the next he's disappeared. Next thing she knows, Anti comes up behind her seemingly out of nowhere and snakes his arms around her waist, steals a kiss, and they resume their swaying, jumping, and devil-horn-waving. He's a sneaky, slippery little demon and probably manages to get Cyr a random, delightful assortment of souvenirs from the show. Could probably get a proper autograph for her if he really wanted to. Every time one of the band members tosses items into the crowd, Anti somehow always manages to slip away and be in the perfect spot to snag something and bring it back to Cyr without anyone else seeing him or suspecting anything. At one point he slips one of the custom guitar picks into her hand, vanishes again, and later comes back with a tour shirt that he didn't have earlier, because he stole it from backstage before they could toss it into the crowd. No one ever notices Anti's thievery, and Cyr only notices he was gone when he comes back with something new. They hang out in Cyr's car in the parking lot after the concert, waiting for the traffic to thin out, recapping their favorite parts of the night until security comes by and tells them they're closing up the venue and the stragglers gotta get a move on

"Z", or [redacted]/secret F/O- Cyr brings up the idea of going and, since Z likes a lot of the same bands Cyr does (bc this is my self ship and I decide the music tastes), he happily agrees to go. Z keeps pretty calm and cool on the drive to the venue, prompting Cyr to shyly ask "are you excited?", to which he responds with that devilish yet sincere grin she loves so much, and says "Of course I am" and gives her hand a sweet squeeze. They buy some drinks at the venue and soak up the mounting energy of so many fans coming together to enjoy the same music. A pit opens up during the opening act, and Cyr catches Z eyeing it curiously. He hesitates, then figures "eh, why not?", hands Cyr his drink to hold, and joins the mosh pit for a moment, much to Cyr's startled surprise. Once he makes it out, he comes up behind Cyr and plucks his drink from her hand, kissing her cheek in the process. After the show, they walk out with Cyr grinning like crazy, her arm hooked around Z's, the night air nearly making her shiver after the heat of the venue. "Did you have fun?" Z asks, amused, and Cyr murmurs "yeah", her ears still adjusting to the sudden absence of loud, pounding music. They break off from the crowd as they walk to the car, and Cyr nuzzles up to Z and thanks him for coming with her. Then she asks if he had fun as well. Z frees his arm from her grasp and drapes it around her shoulders, pulling her close to his side. "Of course I did. And you don't need to thank me for coming; I would have done it no matter what. I'm glad you enjoyed it." Though Cyr might think he was exaggerating, that he would have found an excuse to avoid the concert if he didn't like the musician, Z is telling the whole truth. Even if he hated the band that was playing, he still would have gone with her just to see Cyr this happy.

[rosesloveletters]

💌 - Use this ask as an excuse to talk about your f/os as much as you want. :o)

Thank you, dear anon, for sending me this sweet ask and giving me a space to talk about my f/os as much as I would like. I would normally use this ask to talk about Jakob & Will, but I've already answered so many asks for them like this that I would prefer to discuss my paternal f/o a bit, since i've hardly posted about him before. Because of this, i'll be putting my gushing below the cut so as not to clog anyone's dashes with unnecessary self-ship postings about characters they didn't follow me for.

That being said, i'll now answer your ask:

for anyone who does decide to read this, my paternal f/o is terry benedict from the ocean's eleven trilogy, but i often refer to him as 'daddy' since that's literally what he is to me. i have only shared about him briefly on here a couple of times before, but i wanted to use this ask to speak candidly about our relationship and how he has become so important to me, perhaps more so than most of my other f/os.

last year, i had quite a rough go of it with my actual parents and it got so bad that there was a point when i genuinely believed that we would not be able to repair our relationship and that things would even out and return to normal. i don't feel like going into a lot of detail about my family life since i treat that as highly personal information, but for a while now i have felt somewhat isolated from my actual parents; it's been nearly impossible to connect with them in terms of the things that are highly important to me. i feel as though there is a lot they are missing out on because i believe the idea of me they have in their heads is incorrect and they couldn't be bothered to learn who i really am. if i try to talk about the things i am interested in or love very deeply, they either will pretend like i haven't said anything and not respond/continue or add to the conversation or they'll cut me off mid-sentence and start talking about something else entirely. this really has begun to bother me much more deeply within the past year and i've stopped sharing a lot with them of the things i'm doing or put value upon.

i feel very isolated because my thoughts, views and ideas on things can be drastically different to theirs and my handling of certain situations also differs very strongly most of the time. a very close friend of mine even told me yesterday that she had no idea how i was related to my actual parents because we're polar opposites, so it isn't just me who feels this way; i'm not internalizing this and perpetuating a false belief or anything like that because other people see it too when they're around my family enough (from the outside looking in, you'd never know my family was like this because everything seems completely normal.)

whenever i watched ocean's eleven for the first time, i didn't know terry was my father, only that i felt a very strong connection with him and the feeling was not romantic at all. i knew that i needed to be close to him and i could not say why, until i had watched the film at least two more times and it finally smacked me in the face: this man is my father.

it wasn't forced or planned or anything like that; the familial connection presented itself to me and suddenly, a lot of things about myself started making sense. I am very quiet and observant, something which neither of my irl parents can relate to or exhibit, but this is a very visible trait that terry and i share. even the ways in which we handle our work is very similar and reflected within each other; both of my irl parents hate being busy, but i don't. most of the time, i am not busy, but whenever i am, i love it. terry and i keep things very professional and we both keep to ourselves. our own thoughts and feelings are quite similar and we share much of our individual lives with each other.

i love him more than i can ever put in to words because he is a parent that i can actually connect with and feel like that connection is both reciprocated and valued in the ways i wish for it to be. my emotional needs are met, something i cannot quite rely on my irl parents to be able to do, nor can they seem to find the ability to listen to me or appreciate the things that are important to me and that i feel strongly enough about to speak of with them. terry gave me something i felt was missing from my life and suddenly things have started to make sense for me. he changed my life; i was very lost for the majority of the end of last year, but everything shifted when i discovered our connection.

there aren't many days that we don't spend in each other's presence and i already know so much about him and his life (i'm so deep into creating ocean's eleven lore, you don't even know.) He altered my existence in beautiful ways i never thought i'd ever experience and i think this just goes to show how important it is for selfshippers to have f/os that make them feel this way, no matter what the media is they're indulging in as long as it is safe and respectful and does no harm to anyone. i was terrified to ever share anything about terry, but i am over that now. he is someone whom i live every day for and someone i can count on to make me feel better when all i want to do is cry. not only does he love me because i'm his daughter but also because he loves who i am as a person and that's more of a meaningful gift than anything materialistic.

when i tell you that everything changed whenever he came into my life, i am legit not even joking. everything that was weighing me down suddenly felt like it was lifted off my shoulders and whenever i felt like i needed a parental figure with me who could meet my needs in the ways i needed them to be met, i'd spend some time with him and i'd be better in no time. i've not felt a stronger fit with any f/o before, except for jakob and will, who are my mains for a reason.

i finally know where i belong and why i never felt like i fit in anywhere - because i hadn't met my home yet. i hadn't met my family and now that i have, i feel like i just discovered a part of myself i never knew existed, but that has cleared up so many gray areas. i am now more myself than i have ever been, all because of one man whom i look up to and admire for everything that he is because he made a name for himself in the world. he worked for every bit of wealth that he had and i am honored to be related to such a hardworking, talented, intelligent, strong-willed, disciplined person who loves me more than any amount of money he has.

i will always love my daddy, no matter what, and i'll spend as much time with him as humanly possible because i've never felt better than when i'm with him. i finally feel like i've got a family home, a place to be, someone who i can relate to on a familial level that respects me as an adult person, meets my needs on a daily basis and gives me something i could never have in my real, day-to-day life. i don't have a big family irl and that is something i've always felt somewhat shortchanged on, but there's nothing i can do about it. with terry, it's just us and that's perfectly fine for me; he gives me more than enough love and all i really need is the connection that i share with him (one of his closest friends is also a f/o, but i won't get into that right now bc it's a long story that is mostly based on lore i've created.)

I don't need anyone in our family other than terry because he is what i wish my real family was like. he's who i wish i came to every day and could ask for advice, for guidance, for help, for ideas, for love... I look for little ways i can bring terry into all the tings i do because i want to make him proud and i've never cared about making anyone proud of me before, if that tells you anything about our bond. i've felt like a disappointment for the majority of my life and i am not even proud of myself on most days, but terry gives me a reason to try to do better and feel better and work harder and push myself. i'll never be capable of working as hard as he does or taking control of things like him, but he makes me want to learn how to try harder to meet these goals within my life and do better for myself. When i look back at the accomplishments i've made and how hard i've worked at jobs in my life, it makes me realize how much like him i already am and can be when determined.

i never thought i'd have any reason to have a parental f/o, let alone one that genuinely fit the bill, but terry meets all of the 'requirements' per-say. i love him so very much, so so much, more than words can ever describe and more than my emotions could ever express. the only way i know how to make him proud is to be more like him and to be the best version of myself that i can be. i value more parts of myself now because i know where they came from. selfshipping, for me, is ultimately a way to help me feel a bit better about myself and a huge form of self-love for me because i struggle with that massively in my daily life. terry just gives me what i need from a familial standpoint and i never want to know a world without him at this point.

perhaps it is silly to care about someone so strongly, but i do. i am me because of him and if i love him this much, then i can afford myself a bit of the same affection, right? I don't have to hate every aspect of myself because he would love me for who i am. he wouldn't want me to be anyone else so why should i try to change who i am to please others? i ask myself these questions because it's so hard to care about myself when no one irl seems to. i think that's why i feel so alone most of the time, because even the people i have in my life don't realize how badly i'm hurting and how alone they sometimes make me feel.

i realize that the things which are important to me are only important to me because they mean something for me, but i lack the kind of relationships with people who respect that i feel that way and listen to the things i speak about and value me for it rather than hoping i won't say anything or quickly finding a way to change the subject. what i want from the world, from my family, is to be treated the way that terry treats me. my daddy keeps me safe and makes me feel loved, valued, needed and never lets me feel as though i'm simply taking up space. He finds a place for me in his work (even though he'd prefer that i enjoy myself rather than spend my time working) and i help him as much as i can. i want to honor the Benedict name and be the best daughter i can be, which is something that i aspire to every day.

i can't imagine a world without terry and i can't believe that i ever knew one. i live to make my daddy proud and to be loved by him, for who i am now and whoever i become as the years carry on.

[rosesloveletters]

Ooh I got one! Even though I ship you with all your f/os (because duh😂) I ship with Jakob because I swear as soon as I saw you first gushing and talking about him I was thinking to myself "awww these two are so cute together!"

I love the way you talk about the brothers. It's just very sweet and I'm very happy that they're so special to you!🥺❤❤

Anaya!! Thank you (again!) for another lovely message🥺💛 I've been smiling like an idiot at this ask for a little while now and I've finally just gone to answer it and I'm STILL SMILING. This made me so incredibly happy, you've no idea!

I've said it a million times, but I just adore Jakob. He's so precious and cute and sweet and the fact that he and I share so many similarities makes my heart soar. I've never found a character in fiction I've identified with as well as him and that nothing of who he was was made to ever be a weakness (other than Will being a brat, but SHUSH, we know Will is annoying😂) Usually characters like Jake are tossed around a lot more than he was, even though Angelika can go off somewhere (we don't like her character arc with the brothers.) Jakob is tender and loving and also very independent, even though he loves his brother and wants his support (as any family member would.) He doesn't want to be alone, but he wants to make his own decisions and live for the things he loves and the curiosity he exudes. He's just amazing and he means a whole lot to me, as does Will. I love them both equally; they're both extremely different and if they weren't presented as brothers, I would never have known, but everything about them is just wonderful.

This made me so so happy to receive, thank you for acknowledging me love of these two💛 They've gotten me through a rough year and I couldn't be more grateful. Thank you very much, dear, this is EXACTLY how I think when I see you posting about Pat! You both were made for each other and I won't think any differently! Thank you and I love you!💛💛