#i mentioend that he mentioned therapy on christmas and i got a broken door for it | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

lilgynt · 2 years

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you know what funny enough during all of the shit between the last few days my brother and i were doing our usual routine of awkwardly texting and then i noticed with his like letter saying how he loves and thanks me for dealing with this fucked situation he sent me like 50 bucks so i got my dad settled long enough for me to make a two bags of edibles deep call to him and we talked a lot

#personal #i called out the shit i thought i should #like we were both at negative times in our life #my negative didn’t break ur door 😐#and he was like fair that’s too my negative stuff negatively impacted your #ur life several ways #and we talked a bit through that and he was like you’ve been the emotional rock between us and always handled ur temper with more grace #and adding up all the hurts you gave me are nothing compared how good you’ve been to me/ in my life #and i emphasized that he’s been better to me/ my life than against it #also soemthing about him moving out causing this and i was like no a lot of these were issues when we were younger too #he also was like blame all my issues on mom and dad and i was like could have told you that in elementary #it wasn’t just bashing him but it felt good to call out those bits #and he even agreeed when i did!#he apologized and admitted i haven’t deserved any of this behavior #and he talked about his therapy and how he pretends to be me and his therapist him and it doesn’t feel good what he feels #he feels genuinely awful but understands if i can’t forgive him and go back or try to make soemthing new like what we had #and he misses just being able to talk to me And went over our bond through the years and emphasized how much he loves me #i mentioend that he mentioned therapy on christmas and i got a broken door for it #btw he didn’t apologize for the door bc he didn’t know about it when i revealed it i didnt describe the event to him and he couldn’t #pin point when it happened and was trying to see if he like. blacked it out. or something so that’s on me mostly #like 99% me 1% him for breaking it - my friends say he should have said sorry the second i told him regardless but meh #anyway he acknowledged that and acknowledged im gonna need to see it in action but he wants to work on being a better big brother to me #and he loves and misses me #it was nice actually it gave me a lot of what i needed i also offered to go to therapy with him so maybe on that but very nice and he’s #trying to help more with the dad situation- if nothing else is just acknowledging how fucked up this is i which is super needed

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