#i should go drink a monster

[yesitsmewhataboutit]

So it’s 4am and it’s gotten to the point I’m like do I try to sleep or do I just drug myself and make myself gts but if I drug myself I might not wake up when my alarm goes off and I ain’t tryna hear it from the peanut gallery (my mother)

[malewifesband]

kabru would like cheap erotica novels. he'd like to pretend (to himself at least) that its about his psych hobby since there's a lot you can glean about a cultural zeitgeist and of course what kind of things people are finding sexy lately from the porn being made and getting popular, and im sure talking in excited whispers with older women about the bodice rippers they like is a plus, but ultimately i think he'd just genuinely find them hot. hes absolutely the type to do erotic roleplays and get way too in-character

[xochimillilili]

Actually soo so evil and cruel of the universe to not let me be a vampire, I just get sooo worked up thinking of how pretty my little pup would look under me, all marked up in bites and bruises and stray trails of blood all leading to me. Barely able to control myself over the smell of their blood and the sight of how into it they are. Seeing their eyes and head get all fuzzy would just about push me to the edge, make me mount them and push myself in with my cock in their needy cunt and my teeth in the side of their neck

Come on sweetheart, let me taste you, let me get all those thoughts out your head, let me fuck and bite you dumb~ Don't you like the ache and the sting of my love bites? Don't you like the taste and the sight of your blood connecting our little kisses~?

Finish up by pumping them full of my cum as a treat for them. Tell them how good of little breeding pup and tasty treat they are, as I lick and lap at their tits and holes, biting their thighs, just hearing them whine and squirm as they see me between their legs with their blood on my face. Digging my nails into their hips and getting on top again when they wiggle their hips, wag their tail and whimper for more like a good pet does~

[manglam-marfach]

dyke!Chilaios has me understanding breeding kink all of a sudden

[snaileer]

As a very dedicated energy drinker (addicted to caffeine) who also enjoys the grunge vibes of monster energy(purely because those ragged little lines match my life) and Bang, Red Bull, etc, can I just say

F those stupid fricking aesthetic looking energy drink cans that are becoming the style now.

Celsius I was fine with.

The hundred others that followed with like fruity designs and matte finish cans… 🤢

You should not be able to drink your tasty little 200mg while matching it to your ‘I have my life together’ fit.

You don’t, and I should be able to recognize the hot mess in a can from at least a distance of 10ft. Vision blurred from sleep deprivation or not.

[subsequentibis]

oh i wanted longlegs to be so much weirder than it was. it needed like three more script revisions and some deeper interrogation of the genre it sprang from, and someone to gently take the sound designer's hand on the volume dial and turn it down juuuuust a bit. i need the actual movie to be what scares me, not someone dropping a hammer on the piano to tell me i ought to be scared.

[syunkiss]

I might probably start smoking or drinking sooner or later. Or maybe both

[coconut-window]

i am worryingly tired given my sleep schedule and activity level the past few days

[phantom-of-the-keurig]

His side profile is like george lucas tho

Oh that’s not George Lucas, that’s me squinting at the lecture slides with the darkest under eye circles known to man, running on six total hours of sleep collectively since Friday, an empty stomach, and the most concentrated darkest urine you’ve ever seen because I haven’t had a sip of water since 2014

[feral-coffee]

I never expected to see anything like this. I'm fairly used to being the ... token, I suppose, or at least I was when I still had community to interact with.

Everyone else into flogging was just whack whack whack, hard, hard, hard, until the sub had enough*. I had my own technique, I kept people guessing as the Dom and as the sub, I learned to accept that not everyone does it like me and sometimes it's the Dom that ends up ending the session because they imagine I couldn't possibly want to take it that far and what could it mean I though something was lacking.

I haven't even finished the video yet and it's like hearing my own thoughts in another person's voice. And yes, mix it up, go hard to the point of crossing over into blood play if that's wanted, go soft and gentle, go moderate and let the sub wonder if it's a prelude to hard or soft. Go hard to bring sensitivity up, soft to work with that sensitivity and turn it into a very intense and loving caress, go moderate to keep the feelings maintained so the hard and soft remain balanced, tolerable, enjoyable. Read your sub, give them what they desire while subverting their own expectations by making the next time the whip comes in contact with them a surprise.

Keep it safe, of course, keep it consensual, of course, but don't let it become dominated by rules intended to keep it uniform and boring. Keep it new, take it to new levels and find new ways to transcend the everyday drudgery of life.

These people would get me.

Seriously, if you understand and work with the emotions of the whole session and say fuck the aesthetics of it, any audience you have, as well as partners will absolutely adore the part of the overall aesthetic they'd been missing before. It goes from basic and cold and formulaic, to real, heartfelt, and deep, and to me, that's everything.

*Not shaming the community - some do like that. I was just different. We were all different in our own ways.

[andromedaexists]

Life Update

Hey y'all, I just wanted to make a post letting you know what's going on.

After talking to Xochi (bless her soul) we came to the realization that I am in a state of burnout. I have been struggling to even exist as of late, it's part of the reason I have been posting a lot but not really about writing.

In light of this, I just wanted to let y'all know that I will be taking a break from writing.

I am saying this knowing that I will not be able to stop myself from at least trying to write, but it is not going to be my priority for a little bit. I'll still be around talking about god knows what about classics stuff and translations, but yeah

i might also just disappear for a bit, so if you're wondering where I am just know that i will be back once i can convince my brain that i exist again

[nano-augmentation-spo]

24/03/2023

(totally not doing this in a journal format no wayyyy)

i've been doing pretty good today in terms of not binging whenever i think i'm hungry

it's just after 4pm and i've only eaten 343cals.

that works out perfectly bc tonight i have a performance where they'll be providing food, so i can be a little lenient about how much i eat.

tbh i'm probably going to the mall, so i'll be walking around for a good bit and i should be able to burn some cals that way.

[orcelito]

ykno my default when google docs gives me grammar suggestions is “fuck off, this isnt meant to be perfectly grammatically correct anyways”

but sometimes i click on it, fully intending to ignore it, but then i see its suggestion for me and im just like. “...ok ykno what, that does seem like a good idea actually”

[nightmare8-420]

”ive had shit whiskey better than this” -J 2024, talking about melon flavored ramune.

[technicolorbirds]

Me, redoing my Tim Drake is a dragon fic instead of the all the late course work: I'm gonna give that motherfucker a sick ass skateboard and make him so sad

[flawney]

Really be confusing the retail types when I have short hair, but otherwise REALLY FEMININE FEATURES.

They see the hair, say "Sir," do a double take, fall over themselves to appologize, saying "MA'AM" in the most awkward, cringing, preparing for a full customer meltdown voice—only to do the

face when I shrug and say that Sir is fine and I don't really care that much.