#i should sleep now GOODNIIIIGHT

[robotsafari]

catastrophic neurodivergent levels in the lightrunner

[justicerikai]

Charisma House - Superhuman Sharehouse Story “Charisma” - #37 Ohse’s move

Please read alongside listening to the drama track on Youtube.

Iori: Terra-san? I’m coming in.

Terra: Uuuhm. Uuhhm.

Fumiya: Everything looking okay?

Iori: No, he’s still bedridden

Amahiko: What in the world has happened again

Iori: I have no idea

Fumiya: How was it for you, Rikai? Since you experienced it before

Rikai: I can’t recall any details, and before I knew it I was in bed

Rikai: I had this sensation as if all the energy had been drained out of my body

Iori, Amahiko, Fumiya: Huuuuh-

Rikai: There was not an ounce of strength left in my body

Iori, Amahiko, Fumiya: I see-

Rikai: Either way his body needs to rest. The most important thing is to let him sleep peacefully.

Fumiya: Got it. Let’s leave then

Iori: Terra-san, goodnight.

Rikai, Amahiko, Fumiya: Goodniiiight

Terra: Gonna love uhhhm… Wanna love uuhmm…

(Ohse roaming around at night)

Sarukawa: Aaah, so sleepy

Ohse: (Eh… W-why…?)

Ohse: (No one should be coming here at this hour.)

Ohse: (This is bad. It’s just the two of us. What do I do.)

Ohse: (I’ll run back to my room immediately.)

Ohse: (No, it could be rude to just bail on him and go back.)

Ohse: (I might make him think I ran away because I didn’t like that it was just us.)

Ohse: (But it has to be hell to share the same time and space with such a worthless human being. I need to disappear quickly.)

Ohse: (W-what do I do?)

Ohse: (Run? Stay? I’ll go back- No, I’ll stay. Go back- No, stay.)

Ohse: (I should show how I’m staying but I’m also determined to go back to my room. In other words, what I have to do is pinpoint that subtle middleground of staying and leaving.)

Ohse: (What am I actually talking about? I have no idea.)

Ohse: (The best thing would be to go back quietly if I could. But how many seconds is it to stay naturally?)

Ohse: (5 seconds? 10 seconds? Meanwhile, thinking about it uses up way too much time. I need to also take that into consideration.)

Ohse: (My idiotic brain can’t keep up with this.)

Ohse: (And are you even equipped with a sense for what’s natural to begin with, Minato Ohse.)

Ohse: (You don’t get it, do you.)

Ohse: (It’s because you can’t tell what’s normal or natural that you haven’t been able to properly communicate with people in the slightest until now, no?)

Ohse: (Don’t trust yourself. Distrust yourself.)

Ohse: (Minato Ohse, you are your own enemy.)

Sarukawa: Aaah. ‘m hungry

Ohse: (Eeeeeeeeeeh.)

Ohse: (Did he just talk to himself now?)

Ohse: (Or was he trying to talk to me? Which is it?)

Ohse: (In the case he was talking to himself then I don’t have to answer. But in the case he was talking to me then I’m obligated to respond.)

Ohse: (Which is it? Talking alone? Talking to me? I’d like for this whole tricky, “which way could it go” thing to stop!)

Ohse: (Someone please tell me the right thing to do!)

Sarukawa: Oi, what’cha doin’ over there

Ohse: (He talked to me! Eh you’re kidding me right!? Is that alright with such a shitty being as me!? Just how much of a tolerant person is he. Or rather, everyone living in this house is truly kind. Why are they going out of their way to accompany such a piece of shit. Were they all Buddha in a previous life? Is this Buddha’s house? I’m thankful beyond words. But I’m way too grateful and there’s not a single chance I can return any of this I’ll have to die immediately! )

Sarukawa: Oi, you deaf or somethin’

Ohse: (This is bad. I need to reply immediately. Why did he hear me. He wants to know what I was doing right now. I wasn’t doing anything. No, I don’t think I can answer with that.)

Ohse: (Isn’t that boring? After all, he went out of his way to talk to me. I should lead this conversation in a fun direction.)

Ohse: (Everyone’s always treating me well. I’ll have to entertain them once in a while. The other day I was such a terrible inconvenience to Rikai-san and Fumiya-san too.)

Ohse: (Yes, this might be my chance instead. Against this disadvantage where I was asked what I was doing, I’ll gather the courage to stand as the funny man. Full of gratitude I have for everyone, as a form of repayment.)

Sarukawa: Oi, I’m askin’ ya what you’re doing

Ohse: (Crap. There’s no time. Hmm- I have to say something funny…something funny…)

Ohse: (Uuuum—)

Sarukawa: You hearin’ me goddamnit! What are you doin’!

Ohse: …..

Ohse: Pooping.

Sarukawa: Aaahn?

Sarukawa: What the hell

Sarukawa: Oi you makin’ fun of me now

Ohse: Ah…ah…ah….

Sarukawa: You’re fuckin’ around aren’tcha!

Sarukawa: Who do you think I am, get your ass here!

Ohse: Uhh….uhh….WAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

Ohse: OI DON’T RUN AWAY! WAIT!

Sarukawa: The hell you suddenly going on ‘bout pooping for! You ARE makin’ fun of me aren’tcha!

Ohse: I’m not making fun of you! It’s a poop to return a favour!

Sarukawa: HAAAH!?

Ohse: I was appreciation pooping!

Sarukawa: The hell’s that!

Ohse: I thought it would make you happy if it was poop!

Sarukawa: Why the fuck would I be happy with poop! You sayin’ I’m a fuckin’ idiot now or what!

Ohse: No it’s not poop but more like-

Sarukawa: You just said poop didn’tcha!

Ohse: I did say poop but it’s not poop like that

Sarukawa: Then what kind of poop!

Ohse: Just forget the poop part for once!

Sarukawa: But we ARE talking about poop right now!

(Terra opens the door)

Sarukawa & Ohse: !!!

Terra: Poop this, poop that!

Terra: SHUUUUUUUUUUT UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUP!!!

Ohse: I’m sorry I’ll go kill myself.

[onestolendare]

Here goes an over analysis of “Once Upon A Time”, I will heavily discuss the topics of suicide and suicidal thoughts in this analysis and I’m putting a huge Trigger warning and content warning for those on this post!! Please be sure to be in the right headspace before reading!

@bluejaye91 asked me to do some more songs and they motivated me to actually do another episode of this!!

It had been a hot minute since I listened to the demo tracks of bare and let me tell I was shook when I gave Stupid Second Thoughts a listen.

There is one CORE difference in the demo that is not in the final version. It is made so clear in stupid second thoughts that Jason is already planning to kill himself before he even goes to see the Priest!

Listen to these chilling lyrics:

“Heart beat, pumping blood and racing in it’s final hours” (00:00 -00:09)

“I don’t need to search anymore, No other arms could hold the peace of yours To stay with you I wish I could” (00:09-00:27)

“But I’ll have to let the worlds fall on your sleeping years So I don’t see you honest tears” (00:27-00:42)

“It’s so hard….” (00:42- 00:49)

Like wow, are you already crying? Yeah me too and this is only the start! We follow with heavy recall to the song Ever After

“I know I should be the hero that fulfills you dreams

But some Ever After’s just can’t be” (00:49-01:03)

This lyric was cut after the 2000 Los Angeles run, and gotta admit I kinda miss it!

The demo version also contains the confession that Jason was indeed very much in love with Peter!

“So goodnight my love yes you heard it righ you were my love” (01:03-01:15)

This line heavily reminds me of this lyric from “Bare”:

“Please know I loved you from the start” (01:15-01:30) Which is a line Jason says after he has decided to kill himself.

There is one last imagery I in the demo version that I find interesting to share.

“Nothing left to say Trapped alone here with my best plans laid astray Standing scared outside a locked church, soul search Seeking some last answer from some higher power” (01:30- 01:53)

A locked church as opposed to a cold church. In this version Jason feels even more hostile towards his religion. Also note that “higher power” was replaced with “a god who loves me” so in the demo Jason truly doesn’t think that his god could accept him the way he is. And in this paragraph we have again indication that Jason has already made up his mind “nothing left to say” and “some last answer” namely.

I think it’s safe to say that in this version the talk with the priest has much less impact on Jason which is probably why these lyrics were all cut and altered at some point!

With that let’s move on the soundboard audio of the 2000 Los Angeles run, the song is now officially called “Once Upon A Time” and much closer to the final version

“I don’t need to search anymore No other arms could hold the peace of yours To stay with you I wish I could I know I should be a hero who fulfills your dreams But some ever after’s just can’t be” (01:53-02:31)

This is a slightly altered version of what was in the Demo. But to quote one the dear people in the bare discord it’s also THE line we were robbed of!! Jason McConell stop making us cry challenge!!

“Once upon a time When all was good and right I held your hand in mine” (02:31 – 02:54)

What this paragraph is telling me is that Jason didn’t feel wrong or dirty when he was with Peter, and by John Griffin’s delivery you can tell the despair inside of Jason, he knows that the church and his family can’t accept him, and once upon a time clearly signals that the time when all was good and right is over and will never be again.

“And we knew it all Did you know my love for you The only truth I ever knew” (02:54 – 03:12)

Also “The only truth I ever knew”! We know that Jason has a lot of internalized homophobia and this lines invokes just that to me. He thinks that being with is wrong, it’s not what God or his family wants from him but when he is with Peter it all clicks together. Being with him is Jason’s only truth, the only time we can allow his real feelings.

I also want to put this paragraph into contrast with the final version:

“Once upon a time All I needed was his hand in mine And we knew it all but Now I know not what I do I bow my head and turn to You” (03:12-03:29)

I feel like the early version of the song is much more about Jason and his relationship with Peter than Jason and his relationship to the catholic church.

So let’s end this post with the only two differences between the 2004 and the 2007 version:

The so hard ending was actually still in the show during the Off-Broadway Previews

“It’s so hard” (03:29-03:43)

During the official 2004 NYC run the ending of the song was like this:

“All I needed was your hand in mine, Then I lost my way And now I know not what I’d do I bow my head and turn to you” (03:43 -04:08)

In the album Jason says “his hand” whereas here Jason says “your hand” so he is actually talking to Peter, and that prolly has a reason but it’s 1 am and my brain is dead

One last quick note: I do these lyrics by ear so they may not be 100% accurate since English isn’t my first language! 

And that’s all we had for you today kids! Hit like and reblog if you enjoyed, drop a comment for a suggestion of what the next song should be and goodniiiight (yes I read that in my head the voice of a youtuber adfdfd)

[ask-beacons-finest]

I'm surprised Weiss hadn't tried to used on charms on Blake to change her mind on the no coffee rule. Though considering how bad Weiss is at flirting.... (sent by anon)

Grimmfuture!Weiss, sitting up in her bed reading, offended: I am not a bad flirt! Tell them Blake!

Grimmfuture!Blake, sitting up besides Weiss, also reading: ...

Grimmfuture!Blake, closing her book and placing it on her bedside table, turning to Weiss to kiss her cheek before laying down and wrapping herself under the covers, reaching over and turns off her bedside lamp: Goodnight Weiss, I love you.

Grimmfuture!Weiss, staring at Blake, flustered: ...EXCUSE ME BLAKE BELLADONNA????

Grimmfuture!Blake, trying not to laugh as Weiss clambers atop her, keeping her eyes shut: Goodniiiight my love.

Grimmfuture!Weiss, straddling Blake, her arms on her hips as she leans down to be face to face with Blake a smile on her face: You wake back up this instant.

Grimmfuture!Blake, a single amber eye opening up, an amused smile on her face, quickly stealing a kiss from the headmistress: Weiss, you're a terrible flirt. Now really, we should get some sleep.

Grimmfuture!Weiss, gently placing her hands on Blake's cheeks, looking at her with a loving warmth in her eyes before bending down again and planting a passionate kiss on her lips, pulls away after a moment: I love you.

Grimmfuture!Blake, reaching up to brush a strand of white hair from Weiss's face, softly stroking her cheek, her voice quiet: And I love you too. So, so much.

[menaceminyard]

Hi again.. (this is the same anon as a while ago) Sorry to bother you again but I just finished The Raven Cycle.. and uhh,,, a lot has gone wrong. I feel like the ending destroyed me, I did not see that coming.. Still, it was a rEally good book and imma read the final one now even though it’s almost midnight so goodniiiight/have a nice daaaayyy

i have a feeling that this was intended for someone that is not me bc i for sure have not read the raven cycle but like idk man maybe u should go to sleep??? pls sleep soon ok i hope u have a nice day luv u

[reddaui]

I should force myself to sleep now so goodniiiight