#i think its a new fixation 😔

[heartskinparlor]

guys im so sorry im bout to make so much twilight stuff 😭😭😭 /lh

[mecachrome]

omg k i just saw ur top 3 landoscar moments post from october 2023... any changes/updates since then? new moments made it onto the list? or if not... favorite moment of 2024 so far? (i just like hearing (reading?) ur thoughts it's like reading an intellectual (but still sappy in my fave way) bedtime story 🥰)

hklsdfhlsfhd naurrr... this is so embarrassing why am i still deeply landoscarpilled 6 months later 😔

but honestly i have been thinking about this and the sheer volume of crasyinsane material and lore we've accrued since last year because now i'm like how would you even begin constructing a top 3....... the possibilities are endless!!!

in terms of pre-october content that i might have missed before, i'd say most of this ask still holds (lando's biggest fan dot mp4 will NEVER lose its insanity to me. quintessential landoscar meta as far as i'm concerned) but now i also desperately need 2 shout out portrait painting challenge...... when it came out i was of course susceptible to the "you look beautiful" bantz though mostly just wrote it off as shipbait and since then i've looked back on this video multiple times and been like ?! why was oscar's deference to lando so insane actually.... i've alr mentioned this b4 but 1) oscar taking lando's intro in stride and immediately responding i am ready lando norris 2) oscar playfully acquiescing and letting lando use purple after he'd already chosen it 3) >like 5 seconds later. "you like purple don't you?" "uhhhh... i can do now" (who says that.) 4) another stunning display of lando Nooticing and fixating on oscar's hair swoop and last but not least 5) the way oscar FOLDS OVER and giggles helplessly when lando tells him i've just done you all pink ??? like. OKAY. cheers

looking @ recent content..... personally i find 814 so fascinating because while there are many Discrete Moments i can point out that make my brain explode i also feel like to some degree the reason we (? or maybe just me. again i apologize for the nonsensical drivel i create) love to make parallel gifsets of them is because they have such an understated dynamic built off many minute unspoken habits and wordless exchanges and essentially Patterns so there is less of like... a need for spontaneous intimacy.... if that makes sense. it's about the consistency of reciprocal comfort... iterations..... palisades palisades......... ok this is totally not related to the ask i've just been rotating it in my mind

anyway 10 personable favs !!! arranged chronologically

finish the lyrics (oct 2023): a deeply obvious one but you can't Not include it 😩 i can't believe this came out a week after i answered that because seriously what da hell. @ OSCAR PIASTRI WHAT IS WRONG WITH YEWWWWWWWW. there are sooooo many things i could mention here that i feel have already been exhaustively expounded, the most obvious of course being the classic ojp Heart Eyes moment(s) (Many such cases......but also specifically the love story one) (like i'd argue silverstone was mostly responsible for getting 814 off the ground BUT this video was when their dynamic became the most "mainstream" and accessible to fandom as a whole... the amount of non-f1 fans i saw qrting reups of that clip!!!!) anyway but then you also get 👉 whatever the inside joke they have about old town road is. oscar saying "i reckon you'd be unreal in a karaoke bar in japan" which i still think is such a Line... just me ??? the way he verryryryyyy softly sings "yes" with lando at the end of their love story karaoke and the insane camera angle of him just out of focus. like. really in general there is just such a soft and lighthearted and Fun air to their dynamic in this video that makes me ;__; AND this is another prime moment of lando narrating oscar's firsts for him (singing on camera at mcl!!!) . ALSAURR lando tapping oscar on the bicep while sarcastically complimenting him. once again for two guys who never touch it compels me... actually i could go on about this video tbh like how oscar nearly falls off the couch giggling at lando playing the songs together and then it cuts to the next one and he's suddenly all flushed and his bangs have gotten all fucked up. he's so... they're so... let's move on.

splunk sim city challenge (nov 2023): many classic lines such as "i haven't even distracted you yet!" + oscar knowing his podium year and lando saying "you're a nerd!" + lando going ":) :o are you okay?" and so on... general setup of this challenge was crasy tbh. how it revolves around disrupting the other person's focus and the visual asymmetry of one being sat higher and having to lean over to distract them and how oscar just giggles goodnaturedly when lando sticks his cue cards in front of his face instead of getting annoyed and—SO ON. also forever obsessed with how oscar wordlessly lifts his eyebrows at lando at the end lol

that one sticker video (nov 2023): this video is insaaAAANEEEE to me. ANYONE ELSE??? first of all oscar and lando gingerly standing across each other on either side of the flower bed (while zak brown assumes a power stance directly on it lmfao) is already so visually overwhelming but then the way oscar glances up as he's removing the sticker from the cap, how you can seeeeee him calculating the move the entire time and being adorably pleased about it, @__@ the way lando grins at him afterward... (also crying at zb glancing at them and being equally charmed by their antics) wahhh TT__TT the vibes of this clip... immaculate

oscar thanking lando in their final post-race message (nov 2023): honestly the entire message in general but :__) one of my fav 814 moments OAT is oscar including lando in his thank you speech and lando not really expecting it and being genuinely touched by the gesture. lando is so endearingly fidgety the entire time honestly and the way he perks up a bit and wrings his hands together and playfully smiles at oscar when he mentions him... okayyy. anyway 2 me it's reminiscent of yes/no challenge "am i the funniest teammate you've ever had?" "(shyly) yeahhh... you're up there" (said in the same baby-ish voice as "so... lando?" UGH. UGHHHH) and how lando genuinely gets a bit awkwardly flustered by it like!!! god. wait ALSO i don't have the space for this so i'm throwing in end of season awards MMMM debatable + how gleefully lando threw oscar under the bus and in general just the incredible expression work going on for both of them during this exchange. God [2]

si rapid fire questions (dec 2023): this video was crucial in determining that oscar... well. is obsessed with accommodating and mirroring lando. many things we already knew (aka listening to whatever music lando listens to; insert prema lap "maybe i should move to an english team because the music's better" moment here) but equally important is oscar "stealing" lando's dinner, how lando presses him on the back to the future question until oscar just changes his answer to his, and of course as you know per my blog title NO I'M GOING TO KEEP YOU HAPPY is in my eyes top 5 most insane things oscar piastri has ever said. likeee... lando showing a bit of jokey remorse over enforcing his rules (don't even get me started about lando and game/challenge rules...) but oscar being sooo determined 2 honor his teasing 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 :melting_face: x100!!!

need to split this into two lists because apparently there's a div character limit 😔 continuing on

hilton spa ad (feb 2024): of course this pained me because of This Moment (specifically lando bringing his hand back down when oscar tried to lift it from beneath him 😮‍💨) but that is neither here nor there. obsessed with the salmon at the engineering table anecdote because the most logical explanation for oscar Not doing that anymore is because lando didn't like it... or he just eats different things now but we already know that he's adopted lando's preferred meal b4 so that's equally a lot 2 digest !!! also >the callback to their one million LOOK AT YOU/HIM moments >how they touch shoulders exactly Once when they sit down and then never again despite lando continuously leaning into oscar's space to get to the button... eugh. also just top tier oscar faces + hair 🥰

opening title behind the scenes (mar 2024): thinking about all the hilarious gifsets of this moment that i ate up deliciously 🧡🧡🧡 this was such a significant reminder of how 814 have just gotten like, exceedingly comfortable around each other & have learned 2 communicate via the most inscrutable expressions and noises and gestures that somehow suit Them perfectly x__x although i doubt they will ever really become ~effusive~ with each it's frankly even more devastating that they both help each other care less about maintaining appearances / how they often get so sucked into their interactions (see next bullet point) that everything else kind of just fades away in that instant.... all right ⚠️⚠️⚠️ maybe that's a bit of a stretch but we can pretend for the rpf lens!!! see also my tag spiel in this beautiful tuva gifset.

photo day antics (mar 2024): do you ever just...... what went on in bahrain. honestly. more from this weekend in a second but this video plus the accompanying photo encapsulate their dynamic so perfectly it makes me scream... how 814 are not only so annoyingly focused on each other all the time but also stand SOOO UNNECESSARILY CLOSE while every other teammate pairing is spaced out normally. yuki and checo glancing at them alksfdhdf 😭 truly so ridiculous that the poor photo person tried to get lando's attention and they pretended to comply for two seconds before oscar was lifting his foot to show lando his boot again. also why did it take oscar a million years to step away from lando and put a more appropriate amount of space between them...?! and even then it was barely that much........... (10 paragraphs of speaking later) I prefer really not to speak.

accidental waist grab (mar 2024): this gave me psychic damage so bad i should be lobotomized. we've already spoken about this perhaps erm excessively but why did lando feel the need to stand JUST as close to him if not closer after they broke apart. there was truly no need...... honestly the way this ship will have us looking up driver cams and staring at esteban ocon's ass as he gets out his car just for a single glimpse of their parc fermé dynamic.

bahrain post-race interview antics (mar 2024): You already knowwwww. the sky sports "he follows me everywhere" moment is equally important but the f1tv interview giving us horrifically natural banter (juxtaposing this with their previous interview moments...), lando's dumb faux australian accent and oscar playing along as always, and most of all them HIJACKING THE INTERVIEW & commiserating on camera together ❓❗️ lichrally the grid photo all over again. often when i have emotions over an 814 moment i worry that i sound overly He_Only_Got_Two_Eyes.jpeg but truly sometimes two people are just objectively insane. plus land of piastri/lando piastri.....

also runner up is the f1tv interview with lawrence aka lando's cooing noise @ oscar discussing lily (anyone else frame by frame color pick oscar's face to see how badly he flushed... no? just me?) + the beautiful self-aware surfacing of the CONTRACTUAL OBLIGATIONS of their relationship...... !!! love when 2 guys expose and confirm their own sincerity in trying to verbally resist it. hem

is this anything. sorry eve LKSFDHLDHSF thank u for the ask & pls lmk what ur fav moments are too 🧡

[dettiqueen]

Mikey rant ( tw opinions abt mikey that some ppl may not agree with 😔)

so. something i never say bc i dont rlly know how to say it is, Michelangelo has never been my favorite turtle. in fact usually he is my least favorite, and idk why. ive found him annoying sometimes but other times im like “nah hes just a lil silly guy” but tbh that was mostly for 2012 and 2003. and i know it sucks bc hes a lot of people favorite, and yeah i totally get that! hes fun and lovable but hes just never been for me.

but when i saw Rise that changed, his character was no longer just “haha wacky party dude” and now it showed who he was as a youngest brother, which imo is exactly what he needed. the writers did an AMAZING Job at giving all the characters so much dimension that even one of the characters who i had previously only known as the comic relief now had an entire personality that still felt like it could be mikey and not OOC.

Then MM came out, and i was ready for it to go back to the old Michelangelo tropes, but i was so pleasantly surprised by MM mikey. i actually REALLY liked him in this movie and i was super happy abt that. So i LOVED those two mikeys. Now TOTTMNT came out and im watching it, i cant get over how much i love this Mikey and how different he is. (yes ik its the same mikey im js using the different terms to be accurate) He isnt just dumbed down to the random goofy brother who lets anything fly, he gets kinda mad at some parts which sounds like a weird thing to point out, but its not something i see often with the older mikeys ( i mean they usually get mad at raph but at other ppl its kinda different )

i rly like this version of him and idk to place it as my fav or second fav (to rise ofc)  i feel like it would be unfair to call him “The Best Mikey” Considering how new he is compared to the others, but i would be lying if i said he wasnt already so much better than some of the others (personality-wise i mean. and i do not hate any of the Michelangelos and i wanna make that clear.) Also im pretty sure TottmnT mikey is second youngest? and im pretty sure thats new, its cool though it suits him and i think maybe him not being the youngest had smth to do with this character change? idk js a theory… a game-im just playing. I could talk abt this a lot and i might do if again later. Ty for listening and i would love to hear your thoughts like, did anyone else feel a bit annoyed by the way the older mikeys were portrayed?? i lowk liked ‘07 mikey even tho he was there for like 5 seconds💀 but lll have to rewatch it again to compare. Hyper-fixation is absolutely insane . 

[smallhiro-one]

I’m not dead yet!! boo ya

GUYS ITS BEEN FOREVER IM SORRY BUT I DID WARN YOU JM ON HAITUS😔😔

I just felt I needed to post something since it’s been a long time but it took longer than expected because I’ve been really busy and also I don’t know about time management😋😋

ANYWAYS again apologies for everything. I’ll probably go back to not posting anything for a while, not even doodles like I said☹️ I just need more time for myself (hint: fixated on new game) (also I lost my main acc so that thing is a ghost town till I get it back or never idk)

anyways was thinking of changing header of my blog to this but I’m holding that off for now

[youremyheaven]

I'm currently in my Venus md and although it is supposed to be a good dasha, it's been kicking my ass since the beginning 😭 Ketu dasha was a strange experience, a lot of turmoil in friendships (and BRUTAL breakups) but mentally I felt kind of stable like almost stoic. But girl Venus dasha is something else, idk what's going on in the stars but it's like the guardian angel had enough and decided to troll 💀 I have Venus in taurus krittika (praying for a sun/venus man 🙌) conjuct Rahu and aspected by Mars, what do you think about this ? Do you know how to balance Venus influence ?

Btw I love your posts 💜 your insights are so interesting and unique! Can't wait for you to expand more on spirituality 💫

2022 was a Venus year and it was easily my most unhinged, chaotic and delulu year lmao,,, i was def experiencing all the typical Venusian themes of love, indulgence, feeling gorg, but also feeling sad, excluded, unable to connect to others etc,, it was very imbalanced and out of proportion. i attracted a lot of attention but that included a lot of negative attention as well

i think your experiences reflect your placements. you must have a good Ketu placement if you felt stoic during it omg😩

i think the Venus conjunct Rahu is what is causing the imbalance. Rahu blows things out of proportion and exaggerates the effects of Venus,,, on top of it all, its also aspecting Mars?? 😩girl which house is your Venus?? Mars has a tendency to be destructive 😬so the overblown Rahuvian Venus keeps running into accidents 😔

the thing that has helped me a lot is decentering my fixation with Venusian things (beauty, love, relationships etc) and channelling it thru other more "stable" venues like making art, writing, finding new hobbies. the more you feed Venus, the more it grows. im not saying you should starve Venus but you need to cut its air supply a little bit, if you catch my drift. i lose myself in relationships very easily and im VERY aware of that, so detaching from it to consciously focus on myself helps me "balance" my Venusian influence, its also easyyy to hyperfixate over beauty, romance etc and honestly i find it very freeing to not look in the mirror picking myself apart and tbh i feel like ive become prettier since 🤪 they key is to distance yourself from Venusian indulgence and focus instead on Venusian creativity. you can appreciate beauty through music, film, art etc instead of making it a self centered activity (i dont even know if these are things u struggle with bc of your Venus dasha but im just sayin')

affirmations have helped me a lot and doing spiritual tingzzz and dabbling in glamour magic and witchcraft has helped me feel beautiful from within. feed your spirituality and watch your peace and vibrancy grow. i started praying to my ishta devata during my Venus year as well <333

tysm<333 id love to post more about spirituality tbh,, lmk if there's anything specific youd like for me to talk about

[genesiswrld]

hello, i hope you've been well! the weather is getting pleasantly warm, so i hope you have blooming trees somewhere to admire. though it's the case with many characters in fiction, i've been thinking abut the intersection between nihilism and naivety within children who grew up too fast and knew too much. this ask would become too long if i got too deep into kung lao and liu kang on this subject, so i'll just give another music recommendation! qin hao and wang shengdi's cover of the folk song 小白船 was done for a cdrama that served as a commentary about children and how they become jaded by the world around them due to the actions of adults in their lives both towards them and in general. 小白船 is a folk song, but the cover speaks of boarding the little white boat at the end of a troublesome period. within the context of its source show, it's about a boy having to move on with life after extremely traumatic events where adults failed him at every turn, but i think that "就随它 - 反正也没有彼岸 - 可到达" which translates to "just follow it (the waves)/there is no shore to reach anyways" stands out a lot to me in terms of thinking about liu kang. in so many words, it's just that liu kang has lost the world he belonged to, so now he doesn't have a true landing point even if he now has a world that belongs to him... i've got a lot more, but i don't want this ask to become lightyears long! i hope you have a nice spring and allergies don't get you too bad! -🎐

The weather is... warm when it wants to be where I live lol. it's been so bipolar lately, yesterday it was like 30 degrees and today it's almost 60. I should hope it straightens out because I love spring but lol idk. The trees haven't started blooming yet except those stinky smelling ones with the white flowers or whatever the hell they are (I hate them cuz they smell disgusting😭).

I love your song recomendations, it's always good to me to find new music to fixate on and have it remind me of a character, thank you for the recomendations.

My poor baby has been through so much. LET HIM BE HAPPY NRS!!!!😔💔

lol, don't worry about it becoming too long, and I hope you have a nice spring as well🥰. I have been sneezing a lot lately, hopefully it doesn't get worse.

[radiovisual]

are you going to come back?

((I keep telling myself im going to, but im not sure. Im especially unhappy with how this blog was written and how it looks at the moment, bc theres a lot of things id Want to change before getting back into rp here, but I have no energy or motivation to do so 😔 my art block from last year is Still ongoing, im still deeply fixated on other fandoms, and VERY recently I had an epiphany of some kind and haven't been able to stop paying attention to the news, bc anxieties about what's happening in Gaza/the West Bank, Sudan, and Chile, and not to mention this next American presidential election, have me reassessing my priorities in life, ykwim?))

((Im still around technically, i wont be deleting this blog or anything, im just in kind of a tough spot, mentally+emotionally+physically, and that makes it hard to get reinvested in something like this.))

((There's also the factor of... feeling rather restricted in this community. It's not any particular person or group of ppls fault, people are entitled to feel however they want around fictional subjects and themes, but i know that the types of things that i like to write and rp are dark and mature, and this fandom [despite the Nature of the show itself and the topics it covers] tends to attract a lot of very aggressive, very judgemental people -- as im sure youre all aware 😂 i found some friends here, but even still, a lot of the time i know i Can't get into the kind of stuff i ACTUALLY want to write, because most of the ppl in this community would [at least, way back when,] assume that That kind of writing means I'm a bad, dangerous person who wants to engage with those themes in real life 🙃. Which isn't to say anyone is Wrong for avoiding me if darker themes trigger them, by all means PLEASE block me for your sanity if thats what you have to do!! but when most all of those Exact Themes are LITERALLY, graphically present in the show, now, it's like. Idk man whats going on! Why are you here! if sexually abusive relationships bother these fans so much, then Why are they in THIS fandom of all places instead of somewhere tangibly Safer for their sanity, yk???))

(( i don't know. Maybe im just a brat, but ive always felt a little put out by the Hazbin community online. Its extremely self policing and isolating trying to find people i can feel comfortable talk to about my ideas, so ive kind of... given up and moved on, found a nice group of Freaks to be perverted about the Avatar sequel instead lmao))

((So... idk. I guess we'll see. But im very sorry it may have been wishful thinking when i said id come back. I really, truly meant it at the time -- things just changed 💔, both in me And in the community. And maybe theyll change again, idk!but i Do know there's people in this overarching Hazbin Tumblr RP community who don't like me very much (which is Okay), and I don't want to force myself to walk on eggshells anymore -- so I'm won't💪😎))

((I adored my time here while i was active, whuch it why i wont delete it -- i go back to re read threads all the time! -- but unless there's a group of sexual weirdos developing that i could fall in with AND I can find a way to balance this with the rest of my life, im still gonna be on this indefinite hiatus 💀👍 sorry))

((Btw -- Palestinians are in desperate need of e-SIMs to keep in touch with their loved ones and to organize humanitarian aid within the Gaza strip itself -- if any of you have a few spare dollars, please consider getting involved. I know the news is very quiet rn, especially if you're in America like me, but let me make this very clear; We are. kind of sort of Already IN World War Three. Russia and China and the global south are finally starting to hold the west accountable and the west is failing a shitting its pants about it Spectacularly. The world order is literally shifting. There's not one, but SEVERAL major international conflicts brewing right now, as America is sliding into fascism at break neck speed bc Genocide Joe is finally realizing he's probably not going to get re-elected [on account of all the genocide] on TOP of finally seeing the tangible effects of climate change. South America and Australia are on FIRE. Like NEVER before.))

((Never Again is Now. We could be going over the temperature "tipping point" of the planet BY 2030. now is NOT the time to be wallowing in escapism, no matter how much we desperately need/want it. If there is EVER a time to get involved with the real world and to take a step back from the internet and high stress fandom bullshit, it is NOW. No matter what Side of these issues you stand on, EVERYONE needs to be voting, everyone needs to be paying attention.))

(( if you can't afford esims [no shame, i often can't either, money is tight everywhere], then at the very least get This website open in your tabs. It generates revenue with free Daily clicks, the proceeds of which are all sent to UN organizations -- particularly UNRWA, which is VITAL to maintain not only getting aid INTO Gaza, but also retaining Palestinians legal right to return to their land -- without UNRWA, Isreal can begin to LEGALLY, haphazardly "deport" Palestinians, which would take YEARS to reverse through future court proceedings. Do your part, it only takes a few seconds a day 💪🌱))

((Alright, thats all! Sorry if you wanted a short sweet answer, but ive actually been ruminating on all of this, so thank you for this ask, for giving me a chance to talk about it all. Im happy to see this community thriving in the wake of Season 1, even if im not joining in myself -- you all keep up the great work, and keep having fun with it ❤ let it empower you to explore the value of Charlie's message and think of ways to impliment it in your daily life And on the world at large‼))

[oksullen]

I SAW U ON MY NOTIFS OMG ITS BEEN SO LONG HOW ARE YOU??

I don’t know why I just saw this omg!! I’ve been good :) I’ve been working a lot and busy with classes and just everything else life has to offer 😂

Willow is almost 2 years old now!! and she’s gotten so big and she’s been much more well behaved too!!

I’ve been on and off Tumblr and usually just go on to read some stuff on my favorite fandoms which surprisingly there isn’t a lot of the things im looking for!! I’ve really taking a liking to My Hero Academia but specifically 3 characters- Best Jeanist, Edgeshot, and Stain which there is like NO new content on them!! I haven’t finished the anime yet since im more of a manga reader than an anime watcher 😔

but more on Best Jeanist- I have become addicted to his character 😭 I’ve rebranded some of my usernames to him and I have a collection of merchandise of him on my shelf!! It started as a joke but it’s not a joke anymore!! same with Stain and Edgeshot, but most of my money has gone to Best Jeanist. I’m so sad there’s not much content on him, I say I’ll just write my own but that isn’t true- LOL but that’s ok, I can just use my free time to think of silly little scenarios of him in my head!!

Here’s a picture of my current anime collection, it’s slightly outdated but you get the idea:

Not pictured is a couple One Piece things since I’ve really started to like One Piece again and a couple plushies including a plushie of Shinsuke Kita from Haikyuu because he will always be my favorite (and Tsukishima too!! remember when my user was kaleshima!!)

I’ve always been taking a liking to making an OC and just my oc overall!! She’s mainly a MHA oc with a freaky blood/guts/gore manipulation power (it’s kind dark but I think it’s cool) and omg she’s taken up so much of my time and brain space, I feel like I’ve done more in depth creation of her than of myself 😂 I’ve also been buying a lot of art commissions of her!! I’ll attach a few images below, but I like talking about her so much that if I end up coming back here I might do some writing for her since I’d love someone or some place to talk about her :) all credits to the locket artists, I don’t think any of them have Tumblr though-: (the first image is her with Best Jeanist and the last is her with Stain!!)

I also have gotten into JJK but im still new to it, only watching the first couple episodes and reading the leaks 😭 which is a GREAT way to start omg

Also, don’t you love it when old hyper fixations come back??!??! yeah, that’s me right now with Mortal Kombat!! I’ve been a fan for almost 10 years now and the new game is so good!! and the characters omg… they made them so good 😍 thankfully Tumblr has a lot on them!!

but other than some things coming and going there hasn’t been a lot of new stuff in my life but compared to last year my mood and health has been so much better which is a win in my eyes, plus im starting to like a new guy which is good because I got my heart absolutely shattered little over a year ago and I swear I thought I was never going to recover, but recovery is possible and I give myself a lot of credit for the things I’ve done despite life seemingly staying the same.

I hope to move out of my parents house soon and continue my education further and my social life and all that but ik that won’t happen until a few years which seems like forever but seeing how 2023 has gone by so fast, I have a feeling it’s going to come quicker than it seems

I always say I want to come back to writing on this app and honestly I am in need of a new hobby because yeah listening to music is great but it doesn’t get you far!! which by the way, also a hyper fixation, bands and music and all that- I am really big into Nirvana right now and plan on dressing up as the lead singer Kurt Cobain for Halloween- which is funny I am dressing up because for the first time I have no plans for Halloween!! I’ll probably just bake some goodies and watch scary movies. How is Halloween celebrated where you are, if at all? American culture is so funny- and it’s funny because America doesn’t have much culture, it’s just one big melting pot which makes it unique

Speaking of music, my favorite artists are probably Nirvana (which is a band) and so is Radiohead, Weezer, The Smiths, Ghost, and Korn (which are rock/metal bands, I really recommend them if you’re into that!!) but I also really like Melanie Martinez, Lana Del Rey, Mitski, Alex G, and a couple other solo artists (fun fact, I went to many concerts over the summer including Melanie and Weezer- they were so good!!) what kind of music do you listen to? any you recommend?!

Half way typing this too, I thought of the idea of coming back to Tumblr to write not just drabbles on my current hyper fixations but maybe some life advice and psychology stuff, I have a way with words and advice and all that even though I am considered “to young to know all this” but I see it as both good and bad having an old soul at a young age- and not to say I am a little child either, but I haven’t even been on this earth for 20 years yet, soon enough though

That all being said, I feel like a huge chapter of my life is coming to a wrap up soon and I am excited to start the new one!! I’ve been on this app forever even though I technically shouldn’t have had Tumblr as a pre-teen but hey, we all start somewhere!!

How have you been? Anything new and exciting? Or maybe something you’ve learned? I’ve been trying to learn new hobbies and I’ve started to really dig into what I want to do as a career since I have to really decided soon (I am doing community college right now which is a free 2-3 year schooling opportunity to earn credits before you go off and study a minor or major- not sure if you have that where you live and if you do it’s still probably different)

Anyways I want to study business and business management since I have taken a liking to running/leading an organization/group and coming up with marketing ideas for various groups I spend my time in- including theatre!! I have a local theatre group I work in backstage and I am the stage manager this year which is great since I want to going into management

It’s “late” where I am- actually it’s just 9:30 but I go to bed early especially when I have things to do the next day 😔 I’ll probably just use the excuse I am tired to run to Starbucks and spend my money like I always do. I really have become addicted to Starbucks and it’s only going to worsen as “Capitalism Christmas” comes next

Holidays are so silly to me too, I don’t really enjoy them because they’ve always seemed to cheesy and not like they “advertise” but I hope to make the best of it this year, even if it just ends up being me working that day and then coming home to my dog. What Holidays do you enjoy? Any certain traditions or events you’re looking forward to?

I’ve written down most of my thoughts and this has been the most I’ve written in ages!! Maybe I should answer more asks from now on to get myself into the writing kick!! 😂

I hope you’ve been well and I hope we can talk more soon!! I totally just remembered we have each other on discord too!! I changed my user to @bestkaleist (Best Jeanist reference) so if you’re confused as to who that is, it’s me!!

wishing you all the well!! 🥬

[sunkingwrites]

i’m giving you kisses rn, your posts are making me m e l t

also! I learned how to make sour candy rolls (officially named rainbow rolls, totally not stolen, by the cat) and i think i made mine too sour- wayyy too sour for me— but i feel like i’m just overreacting to the taste? i dont eat much sour sour candy so maybe that’s why, BUT ITS LIKE MY NEW FIXATION AND IM TRYNA LEARN HOW TO MAKE MORE CANDIES AAAA ;v;

bleh but but, running around in the cafe has gotten to me so I’m dead, on the floor, on the brink of sleep 😔 YOU SHOULD SLEEP AS WELL- well, at leaaaast don’t sleep too late, AND i’m like a very comfy teddy bear so uhhh cuddles?? the sugar is wearing off i’m just hHOJjIjJuhijashItwkjekjks

bleh xP

Olliiieee!!! I'm about to get cuddled in for sleeeppp- comeon comeon- jump in- we'll have a cuddle puddle <333

Also fjjsjfjne I'm just reblogging my little fascinations- if that's what's making you melt, then imagine what will happen when I'm able to post your moot board <33333

JDJSJXJSNJFJSJJD CANDY- YOURE LEARNING HOW TO MAKE CANDY??? JDHJXJXHBD

I am suuucchhh an eager and willing taste tester btw uh yeahyeahyeHyeah- I'm bringing you over to Canada rn rn so I can try your cannddyy

AND ITS SOUR CANNDDYYY??? JDJSJJDJAGXIBSJXJSNKSJAJDKJQNXKCNND SOUR candy my looovvveee <3333

Let's go to sleep together, my little love, and we can both dream about candy! ☆

[meatball-soup]

//personal rant!!! 👍okok ty

man i have been feeling absolutely terrible lately i guess its(tm) back and i just feel nothing lol

no appetite no drive for anything not even to consume medias or entertainments?? and i have lost whatever fixations i have in the past.. i still love them but they make me feel nothing at the moment and it feels empty and horrible :/ cant even cook properly too!! its one thing i do to make something to comfort myself and for some reason its all awful now idk whats wrong lol im feeling sad abt it aha

long story short im currently taking a break from spending time with my family for a while bcos of reasons and im hoping i can get my brain to work like they used to??? bcos these past months feels as if i died and all these time im stuck in the purgatory lolol

currently im just diving head first to consuming new medias and interests thats giving me any spark of serotonin or dopamine to feel somthing hahah 💀 idk it doesnt rly hit the spot and i keep feeling uneasy?(?) thats not the word but i cant think what it is? but it helps keeping my mind occupied to a degree so!!! 😔?? man im feeling 20 diffrent emotions and none at the same time its wild lol

anyways!!! have a good day mwah

[teafiend]

Enjoying the last legs of “Our Blossoming Youth”.

I love the cast/performances, but can’t help that niggling itch at the back of my mind which kept trying to put Jung Eun Chae and Kim Jae Uck in the respective lead roles, which is just beyond ridiculous 🫣🫠

I keep wondering how JEC will look in men’s Hanbok; KJU will be in an upcoming sageuk, so there will be visuals for him from that, I expect. Undoubtedly, he will look stunning in one, so that is an easier one to picture.

(Though am much less interested in him 😔 *sigh* as mostly fixated on the few characters he performed than him as a celebrity/actor per se)

Mostly, am more interested in how JEC will look cross-dressed because I think she will be stunningly gorgeous in them, and will certainly prefer her with that visuals/aesthetics over her in normal women Hanbok. Just too bad I will never know unless some sort of miracle in casting or photography occurs ✨🤞🏽

After Jung Eun Chae’s new dramas (for August), a rewatch of “The Guest” might be in order, especially since its 6th anniversary is just around the corner 🥰☺️ (while I wait for “Jeong Nyeon” which is scheduled to air in October).

[night-faye]

Wukong has ZERO CHILL he is going to roast Macky into melting all that ice on him 😂 but ow, bud 😭 yes, we do indeed wonder if Wukong is throwing shade back. Could Macky have said something about Wukong screwing back to the Monk? You might be wondering "anon why are you so fixated on lines repeating" it's what they DO. Some are narrative parallels, some are Season 4 that makes you go "oh so this is why you said all that earlier that pretty much didn't show up in S3" it was coming :)

"I couldn't care less about what the LBD wants." Ugh, my guy. You know it's pointless trying to tell people that, but thanks. I will chew on every one of those lines. Also. BRO WHERE IS YOUR CHILL. Sorry I know you're a frozen salmon right now, but "the Samadhi Fire is my last hope" also Macky: *LITERALLY BREAKS THE RINGS* sir. SIR. my brother in mammal, you are quite sincerely on a ticking timer before the ice consumes you back into the grave. WHAT were you thinking??? I don't think he's thinking at all. that noggin of his is too shaken up and he's swapping plans on the fly as soon as he hears the rings are with MK. my guy, they were going to do the ritual later anyway, or well, they already started, but were you allergic to waiting to ask politely for someone to use the fire on you? eh tbf, it was better they didn't rip the fire out of Mei to put into Wukong so. can't say it's THAT bad he forced them to finish it without Wukong.

Very optimistic take on Wukong's expressions there! Could be, but he doesn't inspire much hope in that lol. I think it was him feeling guilt about keeping secrets and leaving MK back in S2. And maybe some secret ShadowPeach past that *gets dragged off stage* *claws back onto stage* Ep 10!! Parallels my beloved, *reaches out for you* Him AND Mei I- *screams over the ocean flooding on me* SPECIAL. You will know the scene when you hear it. and see it.

"Don't get in my way, kid. I don't have time for you. I'm just here for the Samadhi fire, then, I'm done with you all." 😔😔😔 it's ok, let him think the fandom even cares about the fact he seriously wants nothing to do with this or interact with the Gang on purpose ever again and has decided hunting down MK is not as fun as it was in the first two seasons. Speaking of, he technically did neither as they came to his play and he was looking at the sky in his intro, as if waiting for Wukong to show up before MK popped up instead. he was even backing up to leave.

actually new thing because our friend Macaroni really isn't right in the head. he was in a mech and all trying to take the rings? when he just destroyed the fakes thinking they were real? and would've what, left it at that until that light shone from the altar? we know he doesn't want to bring em to LBD, unless if that was a moment of weakness/confession because of Wukong, and decided "ok maybe she's my last chance if I give them to her" because HE sure can't use them alone if he removes them from the altar. so WHAT CHANGED to make him force them to finish the ritual? unless if it was another test for MK and he was not impressed with the power. "So THIS was the Monkey King's great plan?" It wasn't actually, but how curious that you think so. "How do you still not see that he has no idea what he's doing." some villains drop false statements to complain about society that the hero denies bc they were biased extremists all along. other villains drop truths based in backstory that gets confirmed by Wukong and everybody else there, including the story and it's not meant to be bashing, but rather a character trait and flaw that also has a reason and its okay, it will get better. I'm 0.0 like that meme of slow head turn wide eyes at Macky's final emotional break. he's FULLY lost it here, amazing. this is the most vicious he's ever been oof. gotta also love his shadow shark moves and YES you caught that stressed twitch in his eyebrows!! he's walking pretty slow and heavy, bc of the weight of everything with battling emotions and decisions or bc of the weight of the ice? 🤔

It is so late at night I have no thoughts to articulate, so take this

Thought I will say this bit: I took it as he knew they were fake?

Like, the way he splays them open, stares at them, and then goes "Hm" as he narrows his eyes. and then when Wukong starts talking he glances back at him and raises an eyebrow, almost like "I know him too well, and he seems way too confident for these to be the real rings"

And then of course Wukong digs in the LBD dagger, which gets Mackaroni angry, so him breaking the rings wasn't so much meant To Break The Rings, but more. They were what were in his hands when Wukong started mocking him about LBD, so he broke them to take out his frustration. both at Wukong and at the entire shit situation he's in

and then Ne'zha going "they were fake?" and wukong owning up to it is just icing on the confirmation cake at that point

[minheeskitten]

i'm replying late to everything but:

what's that program you're using now? i've been sticking to docs for years because i like being able to switch between devices, but if you've got something revolutionary i want to hear it 😯

what does hand necklace mean, if it's hyeop i'm probably down for anything even if i don't know what it is 😔 but i also just started thinking about hyeop with an oral fixation and i might just die 🫠💕

Oh dw ab late replies! Ive been mostly rambling to myself and anyone who wants to read haha.

The new program im using is Notion! Eve recommended it to me and as you can tell i really like it! Its really easy n simple. Though i have yet to see how well it holds up against my writing sessions! Most of those i type like 1k words or more.

Its super easy to organize! Literally ive been exploring it by using it to organize my stan list information and relevant information about groups i stan. I love it. Its simple n clean and yes you can check word counts! But its hidden away which i think nicely makes it so im not constantly concerned ab word counts!

This is all my genuine thoughts ab this! I love that it has an app to sync to your phone too! I have genuinely never seen a writing/productivity program this fucking good. It beats docs for sure bcs now instead of struggling to find my wips on a single oage or multiple documents.

They're all embedded in the same page. Bcs sub pages! Which makes it convenient to find them and edit them!

It even handled the copy-paste session really well! And it does amazing at the type of data entry i like to do for my stan list as well!

It has a lovely dark theme which really helps, since bright lights sometimes give me migraines. If you want to try notion out, the free plan is what ive been working with and really there's only a few features paywalled. And they're non-essential for writers! Genuinely i love it so far.

I suggest you check it out for yourself! It is a lovely tool. I haven't used the AI that's built in but thats because i write everything myself :)

Oh my i rambled ab that haha! I get passionate about organization and productivity tools :)

Now: you wanna know what a hand necklace is? With that sort of rhing i tend to mean neck grabs/choking (safely!).

Basically he just holding your neck. His hand becomes a necklace!

Oral fixation hyeop hmm? He does seem the type to want to have his mouth on something all the time. Whether that be nipples, fingers, any skin he can get his mouth on. Maybe even some lower parts. Idk which reader type you prefer but. Imo he'd not care either way :)

Though, any skin latched onto does mean hickies, so . Proceed with caution if you're going somewhere important.

But, if you let him he may just stay between legs and just constantly use his mouth on you :)

Constantly. Maybe says 'but this helps me relax :('

So of course im gonna say yes to oral fixation hyeop. Hes cute

[sk3tch404]

(Is that a new pfp I see 👀👀 looks nice 👌)

On the topic of Creepypastas, I'm still astonished that they never gave me nightmares. Which is funny, because I used to have like, an average amount of nightmares per sleep, but during my Creepypasta Phase and also after it, I never had nightmares anymore 🤔

Kind of at least, sometimes I had dreams that are very obviously in some sorta horror setting but I never felt scared, a bit unnerved at most, but I usually felt more curious and a bit cautious. Heck, sometimes I get attacked in my dreams but I actually manage to counter the Attacker and come out victorious (Rip to that one Jason Voorhees whom I K.O'd by bonking him with a metal bat, u tried 😔🙏) ngl, I think the possibility of having nightmares terrified me more than my actual "nightmares" ever did, as strange as that sounds O_O

I think the closest thing to a creepypasta nightmare I've got was that one dream I had about The Rake.

Okay so picture this, the setting and atmosphere of the Slender game, in that dream me and my friends went camping there for some reason and we decided to split ways so we can explore the forest (like true horror media protagonists 😔) and I found like, an abandoned silo that was low on the ground with a ladder. So I decided that I wanna see what's inside it and climbed into the silo.

It was empty, I noticed that my flashlight was pretty weak, but before I could do anything else I heard the screams of my friends in the distance, I turned around of course and lo and behold, The Rake was standing right behind me, to be precise, he was blocking the way between me and the silo exit. So I was kinda panicking about how I should proceed obviously, if I did nothing he would probably maul me, but if I tried exiting he would probably maul me too. So we were just having a stand-off there for what felt like an eternity, before The Rake decided to leave out of its on accord for some reason.

I waited for a while after it left and then hurried back to camp to assess the damage. After I found the corpse of one friend, I immediately decided to GTFO of there and ran blindly into the forest to find some way out.

In the midst of running a police officer actually found me and told me that I had to leave (no shit Sherlock) because he apparently found the corpse of my other friend. He ended up taking me to his police car so we could get out.

Except, that wasn't the end, before we could start the car, The Rake's hand broke through the car ceiling and tried dragging the police officer out of the car by his neck. I ended up just moving over to the drivers seat and frantically smashed my foot onto the gas pedal. The sudden acceleration caused the police officer to be dragged out of the car completely, but at that point I was solely focused on my own survival so I didn't give a shit. I finally escaped.

It suddenly cut to a newspaper report about the dead police officer and the ~mysterious forest creature~ that could've caused his death.

I woke up not exactly scared, but just mildly confused and concerned about wtf I just dreamt and why was that ending so jarring- (insert Man Door Hand Hook Car Door reference lmao)

Anyways, have you had similar experiences with creepypastas and your own dreams?

(Also did you ever get my ask with the link to the creepypasta AMVs that I used to watch? I fear it may have gotten yeeted into the abyss by tumblr)

-Ren'py anon

Nightmares per night? I didn't have many nightmares when I was younger, so I don't really have much background knowledge on em 😥

Maybe bc u were super fixated on it, it effected your dreams? Idk that's been happening to me lately.

In normal dreams you don't have a lot of control unless you realize you're dreaming? Personally I just start waking up when that happens (I WANNA STAY IN IT DAMMIT)

Any weird shit could happen and u could just be like, "Well goddamn, ain't that a shame. Anyway-"

That loss kf fear is definitely strange 😭 some dreams are way more lucid for me, sooooo

ALSO YOU FOUGHT JASON???!?!!? NONNY I'D BE SO SCARED. I'VE ENCOUNTERED RISOTTO FROM JJBA AND CHROLLO FROM HXH, AND MY HEART LITERALLY FELL TO MY ASS BOTH TIMES.

Don't make eye contact with Chrollo. Just don't.

But you won SO AYYYYYYYY LET'S GO

And yeah same! The nightmares I've had scared me so bad that I fear that I MIGHT have them.

Have you ever seen some yakuza guy stab a dudes face with a white colored pencil over and over again? God I hope not 💀💀💀

NOT TO MENTION I HATE THE RAKE. IT'S SO UGLY AND CREEPY. IT AIN'T GOT NO CLASS 🙄🙄🙄

Gosh your dream should be a game itself. That camping intro and the, "Come on you guys! Lets be brave and rebellious by searching this big dark forest!"

The stand off with the Rake was scary enough, but the CAR DRAG OUT? AW HELLLLL NOOOO YOU HANDLED THAT WAY BETTER THAN I COULD

SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST I GUESS 😭

And can I just say I hate weak flashlights? LIKE WHAT HELL ARE YOU USEFUL FOR? NOTHING.

Ah yes, the newspaper ending. Are you dead or alive? I like em, and this dream of yours knows EXACTLY what it was doing.

Waking up from dreams is always confusing, but you always get to piece the story together through that confusion! It's like a cute little mini game after you've been subconsciously traumatized 😃

Man Door Hand Hook Car Door? Is that the one with the girlfriend in the car and the boyfriends blood dripping on the top of the car? Idk but it sounds spooky >:D

The only 'creepypasta dream' I've had is with Chucky (Yes the serial killer doll, that one) I was like 6, and my mom let him in after he knocked on our front door. He asked us if we wanted to play AND EVERYONE THOUGH IT WAS FUN??!!?!?

I was so terribly scared and cried when I woke up lmao

And yes I did get your ask! I'm just waiting to copy and paste the thing on a computer.

The only computer I use is my school computer and my mom is gonna bark at me for my missing schoolwork if it she catches me using it while school isn't in session 😃 BUT I PROMISE YOU I WILL LISTEN TO THAT DARN PLAYLIST WHEN ITS SAFE AND CLEAR

I also have writing burn out, so that's there too :/

Don't feel guilty for sending in asks though! I'm just glad you're still here to stick around Ren'py nonny :)

God I love talking about dreams because I've had a ton of 'interesting' ones. Especially my most recent one.

[squibbles-gubwee]

i made a mistake of fixating on your fanfic a little bit too much, so now you have to bear the burden of receiving fanart once in a while

sorry if i got something wrong on his costume, its just a quick sketch to get Izuku's costume out of my head,, bc im tired of thinking abt it 24/7 :)

This is delightful!! It looks so good, and I like the... The textures? if that makes sense? It looks like i could touch it and feel the waxiness from colour pencils and the cooler slight dampness from markers. I bet thats a weird compliment, but i do like it a lot! the colours are rich and Izuku's little tooth gap is such a cute detail. what you can see of his face is very pretty, i like what you did. tysm!

Sorry the next chapter's taking a bit of a long time. I broke my glasses, and while im gonna be getting my eyes checked and new pairs at the end of the month, its still a bit of a pain, and lacking glasses makes writing for too long give me a headache. 😔😰 Im still working on it, its just....so much more slow going. blegh.

[2offayyo-kzt]

Okay new Lazlo/Nandor theory. I think Laszlo is a hypersensitive person. He said it himself that it took centuries with Nadja to build up his trust in other people again due to his parental truama. Now I won't go into specifics but I'm familiar with how truama affects others [not like the dramatized abelist TV villain guy stereotype] People with PTSD are highly sensitive to emotional changes in others. Laszlo in episode 7 he tells Nandor he feels uncomfortable with the flowery emotions he gives or something like that. I'm paraphrasing. Point is, Nandor is emotionally unpredictable as of late and it could cause Laszlo discomfort. I theorize that he might have started to distance himself from Nandor for that reason. Also, to bring up Colin Robinson, Nandor disregarded his roommates grief when he believed Colin was faking his death again. Its understandable for Nandor to feel skeptic but it doesn't excuse how insensitive he was. Yes, Nandor does seem to show autistic traits, as someone on the spectrum I understand how it feels to be unable to read the room and come across as uncaring or insensitive. Still, Nandor should be accountable for how he spoke to his roommates. To get back on topic, because Nandor has become emotionally unpredictable, Lazlo will avoid him and latch onto more predictable people. People with PTSD actually can hyperfocus and fixate on things because its a safe media. They feel comfortable in songs, shows and situations that they know won't trigger them. I'm pointing this out because I believe Laszlo tends to latch onto people he knows are safe. He knows Nadja and she knows him, he knows she wouldn't do anything to trigger him and she usually understands her intentions and motivations. Sean and Colin are simple, uncomplicated men, generally speaking. The only crime Colin committed, Laszlo says, is that he's dull. He's a calm person he feels comfortable with. Sean is pretty easy going and makes Lazlo feel happy. Remember that Laszlo did not like Sean at first. Initially he felt upset being around Sean because there was alot or drama around his wife and was generally insecure. This made Laz uncomfortable. Fans note that Laszlo only began to show interest and affection towards Sean AFTER he makes amends with his wife and becomes more emotionally predictable.

Laszlo might be avoiding Nandor because he's unpredictable and wishes that wasn't the case because he misses simpler times when he didn't cause so much melodrama and stress. Nandor does not understand why Laszlo doesn't spend time with him anymore and can't understand Laszlo's feelings unless Laszlo tells him. Some more honesty and conversation would be great for them but Laszlo is sensitive and on emotional defense alot and both he Nandor are arrogant and stubborn. They need to swallow their pride and keep talking about it. Verbalize feelings is crucial to any type of relationship and if they can't learn to do this their relationship definitely won't improve.

Did I mention psychology is one of my special interest? 😅

I just woke up & this is the first thing I read

And you drop me a masterclass 🤩

Frankly your analysis is impressive, I never thought of them that way, especially Laszlo being hypersensitive it makes a lot of sense

I'm really happy to have you as a mutual because it makes me appreciate the show even more <3

It's true that in the first few seasons, Nandor seemed like a simpleton, and that the more time goes by, the more complicated he is to predict 😔

Wow I need more Laszlo/Nandor interactions asap